"Inthatcase,"saysI,"goonandconquer——settleitwithher——I
havenoobjection."Thepoorfellowwasverygrateful,andinshort,thereweleftthematter.He'llproposeto-morrow.'
ShesawnowtoherdismaywhatJamesBellstonhadreadasencouragement.'Hehasmistakenmealtogether,'shesaid.'Ihadnoideaofsuchathing.'
'What,youwon'thavehim?'
'Indeed,Icannot!'
'Chrissy,'saidMr.Everardwithemphasis,'there'sNOObodywhomI
shouldsolikeyoutomarryasthatyoungman.He'sathoroughlycleverfellow,andfairlywellprovidedfor.He'stravelledalloverthetemperatezone;buthesaysthatdirectlyhemarrieshe'sgoingtogiveupallthat,andbearegularstay-at-home.Youwouldbenowheresaferthaninhishands.'
'Itistrue,'sheanswered.'HeISahighlydesirablematch,andI
SHOULDbewellprovidedfor,andprobablyverysafeinhishands.'
'Thendon'tbeskittish,andstand-to.'
Shehadspokenfromherconscienceandunderstanding,andnottopleaseherfather.Asareflectingwomanshebelievedthatsuchamarriagewouldbeawiseone.IngreatthingsNicholaswasclosesttohernature;inlittlethingsBellstonseemedimmeasurablynearerthanNic;andlifewasmadeupoflittlethings.
AltogetherthefirmamentlookedblackforNicholasLong,notwithstandingherhalf-hour'sardourforhimwhenshesawhimdancingwiththedairyman'sdaughter.Mostgreatpassions,movements,andbeliefs——individualandnational——burstduringtheirdeclineintoatemporaryirradiation,whichrivalstheiroriginalsplendour;andthentheyspeedilybecomeextinct.Perhapsthedancehadgiventhelastflare-uptoChristine'slove.Itseemedtohaveimprovidentlyconsumedforitsimmediatepurposeallherardourforwards,sothatforthefuturetherewasnothingleftbutfrigidity.
Nicholashadcertainlybeenveryfoolishaboutthatlicence!
CHAPTERIV
Thislaxityofemotionaltonewasfurtherincreasedbyanincident,when,twodayslater,shekeptanappointmentwithNicholasintheSallows.TheSallowswasanextensionofshrubberiesandplantationsalongthebanksoftheFroom,accessiblefromthelawnofFroom-
EverardHouseonly,exceptbywadingthroughtheriveratthewaterfallorelsewhere.Nearthebrinkwasathicketofboxinwhichatrunklayprostrate;thishadbeenonceortwicetheirtrysting-
place,thoughitwasbynomeansasafeone;anditwashereshesatawaitinghimnow.
Thenoiseofthestreammuffledanysoundoffootsteps,anditwasbeforeshewasawareofhisapproachthatshelookedupandsawhimwadingacrossatthetopofthewaterfall.
NoontidelightsanddwarfedshadowsalwaysbanishedtheromanticaspectofherloveforNicholas.Moreover,somethingnewhadoccurredtodisturbher;andifevershehadregrettedgivingwaytoatendernessforhim——whichperhapsshehadnotdonewithanydistinctness——sheregretteditnow.Yetinthebottomoftheirheartsthosetwowereexcellentlypaired,theverytwinhalvesofaperfectwhole;andtheirlovewaspure.Butatthishoursurfacesshowedgarishly,andobscuredthedepths.Probablyherregretappearedinherface.
Hewalkeduptoherwithoutspeaking,thewaterrunningfromhisboots;and,takingoneofherhandsineachofhisown,lookednarrowlyintohereyes.
'Haveyouthoughtitover?'
'WHAT?'
'Whetherweshalltryagain;youremembersayingyouwouldatthedance?'
'Oh,Ihadforgottenthat!'
'Youaresorrywetriedatall!'hesaidaccusingly.
'Iamnotsosorryforthefactasfortherumours,'shesaid.
'Ah!rumours?'
'Theysaywearealreadymarried.'
'Who?'
'Icannottellexactly.Iheardsomewhisperingtothateffect.
Somebodyinthevillagetoldoneoftheservants,Ibelieve.Thismansaidthathewascrossingthechurchyardearlyonthatunfortunatefoggymorning,andheardvoicesinthechancel,andpeepedthroughthewindowaswellasthedimpaneswouldlethim;andtherehesawyouandmeandMr.Bealand,andsoon;butthinkinghissurmiseswouldbedangerousknowledge,hehastenedon.Andsothestorygotafloat.Thenyouraunt,too——'
'GoodLord!——whathasshedone?'
Thestorywas,toldher,andshesaidproudly,"Oyes,itistrueenough.Ihaveseenthelicence.Butitisnottobeknownyet."'
'Seenthelicence?Howthe——'
'Accidentally,Ibelieve,whenyourcoatwashangingsomewhere.'
Theinformation,coupledwiththeinfelicitousword'proudly,'causedNicholastoflushwithmortification.Heknewthatitwasinhisaunt'snaturetomakeabragofthatsort;butworsethanthebragwasthefactthatthiswasthefirstoccasiononwhichChristinehaddeignedtoshowherconsciousnessthatsuchamarriagewouldbeasourceofpridetohisrelatives——theonlytwohehadintheworld.
'Youaresorry,then,eventobethoughtmywife,muchlesstobeit.'Hedroppedherhand,whichfelllifelessly.
'Itisnotsorryexactly,dearNic.ButIfeeluncomfortableandvexed,thatafterscrewingupmycourage,myfidelity,tothepointofgoingtochurch,youshouldhavesomuddled——managedthematterthatithasendedinneitheronethingnortheother.HowcanImeetacquaintances,whenIdon'tknowwhattheyarethinkingofme?'
'Then,dearChristine,letusmendthemuddle.I'llgoawayforafewdaysandgetanotherlicence,andyoucancometome.'
Sheshrankfromthisperceptibly.'Icannotscrewmyselfuptoitasecondtime,'shesaid.'IamsureIcannot!Besides,IpromisedMr.Bealand.AndyethowcanIcontinuetoseeyouaftersucharumour?Weshallbewatchednow,forcertain.'
'Thendon'tseeme.'
'IfearImustnotforthepresent.Altogether——'
'What?'
'Iamverydepressed.'
TheseviewswerenotveryinspiritingtoNicholas,asheconstruedthem.Itmayindeedhavebeenpossiblethatheconstruedthemwrongly,andshouldhaveinsisteduponhermakingtherumourtrue.
Unfortunately,too,hehadcometoherinahurrythroughbramblesandbriars,waterandweed,andtheshaggywildnesswhichhungabouthisappearanceatthisfineandcorrecttimeofdaylentanimpracticabilitytothelookofhim.
'Youblameme——yourepentyourcourses——yourepentthatyouever,everownedanythingtome!'
'No,Nicholas,Idonotrepentthat,'shereturnedgently,thoughwithfirmness.'ButIthinkthatyououghtnottohavegotthatlicencewithoutaskingmefirst;andIalsothinkthatyououghttohaveknownhowitwouldbeifyoulivedonhereinyourpresentposition,andmadenoefforttobetterit.Icanbearwhatevercomes,forsocialruinisnotpersonalruinorevenpersonaldisgrace.Butasasensible,new-risenpoetsays,whomIhavebeenreadingthismorning:-
Theworldanditswayshaveacertainworth:
AndtopressapointwhiletheseopposeWeresimplepolicy.Betterwait.
Assoonasyouhadgotmypromise,Nic,youshouldhavegoneaway——
yes——andmadeaname,andcomebacktoclaimme.Thatwasmysillygirlishdreamaboutmyhero.'
'PerhapsIcandoasmuchyet!Andwouldyouhaveindeedlikedbettertoliveawayfrommeforfamilyreasons,thantorunariskinseeingmeforaffection'ssake?Owhatacoldheartithasgrown!
IfIhadbeenaprince,andyouadairymaid,I'dhavestoodbyyouinthefaceoftheworld!'
Sheshookherhead.'Ah——youdon'tknowwhatsocietyis——youdon'tknow.'
'Perhapsnot.Whowasthatstrangegentlemanofaboutseven-and-
twentyIsawatMr.Bellston'schristeningfeast?'
'Oh——thatwashisnephewJames.Nowheisamanwhohasseenanunusualextentoftheworldforhisage.Heisagreattraveller,youknow.'
'Indeed.'
'Infactanexplorer.Heisveryentertaining.'
'Nodoubt.'
Nicholasreceivednoshockofjealousyfromherannouncement.HeknewhersowellthathecouldseeshewasnotintheleastinlovewithBellston.ButheaskedifBellstonweregoingtocontinuehisexplorations.
'Notifhesettlesinlife.Otherwisehewill,Isuppose.'
'PerhapsIcouldbeagreatexplorer,too,ifItried.'
'Youcould,Iamsure.'
Theysatapart,andnottogether;eachlookingafaroffatvagueobjects,andnotineachother'seyes.Thusthesadautumnafternoonwaned,whilethewaterfallhissedsarcasticallyoftheinevitablenessoftheunpleasant.Verydifferentthisfromthetimewhentheyhadfirstmetthere.
Thenookwasmostpicturesque;butitlookedhorridlycommonandstupidnow.Theirsentimenthadsetacolourhardlylessvisiblethanamaterialoneonsurroundingobjects,assentimentmustwherelifeisbutthought.NicholaswasasdevotedasevertothefairChristine;butunhappilyhetoohadmoodsandhumours,andthedivisionbetweenthemwasnotclosed.
Shehadnosoonergotindoorsandsatdowntoherwork-tablethanherfatherenteredthedrawing-room.
Shehandedhimhisnewspaper;hetookitwithoutaword,wentandstoodonthehearthrug,andflungthepaperonthefloor.
'Christine,what'sthemeaningofthisterriblestory?Iwasjustonmywaytolookattheregister.'
Shelookedathimwithoutspeech.
'Youhavemarried——NicholasLong?'
'No,father.'
'No?CanyousaynointhefaceofsuchfactsasIhavebeenputinpossessionof?'
'Yes.'
'But——thenoteyouwrotetotherector——andthegoingtochurch?'
Shebrieflyexplainedthattheirattempthadfailed.
'Ah!Thenthisiswhatthatdancingmeant,wasit?By-,itmakesme.Howlonghasthisbeengoingon,mayIask?'
'Thiswhat?'
'What,indeed!Why,makinghimyourbeau.Nowlistentome.All'swellthatendswell;fromthisday,madam,thismoment,heistobenothingmoretoyou.Youarenottoseehim.Cuthimadriftinstantly!Ionlywishhisvolkwereonmyfarm——outtheyshouldgo,orIwouldknowthereasonwhy.However,youaretowritehimalettertothiseffectatonce.'
'HowcanIcuthimadrift?'
'Whynot?Youmust,mygoodmaid!'
'Well,thoughIhavenotactuallymarriedhim,Ihavesolemnlysworntobehiswifewhenhecomeshomefromabroadtoclaimme.Itwouldbegrossperjurynottofulfilmypromise.Besides,nowomancangotochurchwithamantodeliberatelysolemnizematrimony,andrefusehimafterwards,ifhedoesnothingwrongmeanwhile.'
TheutteredsoundofherstrongconvictionseemedtokindleinChristinealivelierperceptionofallitsbearingsthanshehadknownwhileithadlainunformulatedinhermind.Forwhenshehaddonespeakingshefelldownonherkneesbeforeherfather,coveredherface,andsaid,'Please,pleaseforgiveme,papa!HowcouldIdoitwithoutlettingyouknow!Idon'tknow,Idon'tknow!'
Whenshelookedupshefoundthat,intheturmoilofhismind,herfatherwasmovingabouttheroom.'Youarewithinanaceofruiningyourself,ruiningme,ruiningusall!'hesaid.'Youarenearlyasbadasyourbrother,begad!'
'PerhapsIam——yes——perhapsIam!'
'ThatIshouldfathersuchaharum-scarumbrood!'
'Itisverybad;butNicholas——'
'He'sascoundrel!'
'HeisNOTascoundrel!'criedshe,turningquickly.'He'sasgoodandworthyasyouorI,oranybodybearingourname,oranynoblemaninthekingdom,ifyoucometothat!Only——only'——shecouldnotcontinuetheargumentonthoselines.'Now,father,listen!'shesobbed;'ifyoutauntmeI'llgooffandjoinhimathisfarmthisveryday,andmarryhimto-morrow,that'swhatI'lldo!'
'Idon'ttaantye!'
'Iwishtoavoidunseemlinessasmuchasyou.'
Shewentaway.Whenshecamebackaquarterofanhourlater,thinkingtofindtheroomempty,hewasstandingthereasbefore,neverhavingapparentlymoved.Hismannerhadquitechanged.Heseemedtotakearesignedandentirelydifferentviewofcircumstances.
'Christine,here'saparagraphinthepaperhintingatasecretwedding,andI'mblazedifitdon'tpointtoyou.Well,sincethiswastohappen,I'llbearit,andnotcomplain.Allvolkhavecrosses,andthisisoneofmine.Now,thisiswhatI'vegottosay——
IfeelthatyoumustcarryoutthisattemptatmarryingNicholasLong.Faith,youmust!Therumourwillbecomeascandalifyoudon't——that'smyview.Ihavetriedtolookatthebrightestsideofthecase.NicholasLongisayoungmansuperiortomostofhisclass,andfairlypresentable.Andhe'snotpoor——atleasthisuncleisnot.Ibelievetheoldmuddlercouldbuymeupanyday.However,afarmer'swifeyoumustbe,asfarasIcansee.Asyou'vemadeyourbed,soyemustlie.Parentspropose,andungratefulchildrendispose.Youshallmarryhim,andimmediately.'
Christinehardlyknewwhattomakeofthis.'Heisquitewillingtowait,andsoamI.Wecanwaitfortwoorthreeyears,andthenhewillbeasworthyas——'
'Youmustmarryhim.Andthesoonerthebetter,if'tistobedoneatallAndyetIdidwishyoucouldhavebeenJimBellston'swife.Ididwishit!Butno.'
'I,too,wisheditanddostill,inonesense,'shereturnedgently.
Hismoderationhadwonheroutofherdefiantmood,andshewaswillingtoreasonwithhim.
'Youdo?'hesaidsurprised.
'IseethatinaworldlysensemyconductwithMr.Longmaybeconsideredamistake.'
'H'm——Iamgladtohearthat——aftermydeathyoumayseeitmoreclearlystill;andyouwon'thavelongtowait,tomyreckoning.'
Shefellintobitterrepentance,andkissedhiminheranguish.
'Don'tsaythat!'shecried.'Tellmewhattodo?'
'Ifyou'llleavemeforanhourortwoI'llthink.Drivetothemarketandback——thecarriageisatthedoor——andI'lltrytocollectmysenses.Dinnercanbeputbacktillyoureturn.'
Inafewminutesshewasdressed,andthecarriageboreherupthehillwhichdividedthevillageandmanorfromthemarket-town.
CHAPTERV
AquarterofanhourbroughtherintotheHighStreet,andforwantofamoreimportanterrandshecalledattheharness-maker'sforadog-collarthatsherequired.
Ithappenedtobemarket-day,andNicholas,havingpostponedtheengagementswhichcalledhimthithertokeeptheappointmentwithherintheSallows,rushedoffattheendoftheafternoontoattendtothemaswellashecould.Arrivingthusinagreathurryonaccountofthelatenessofthehour,hestillretainedthewild,amphibiousappearancewhichhadmarkedhimwhenhecameupfromthemeadowstoherside——anexceptionalconditionofthingswhichhadscarcelyeverbeforeoccurred.Whenshecrossedthepavementfromtheshopdoor,theshopmanbowingandescortinghertothecarriage,Nicholaschancedtobestandingattheroad-waggonoffice,talkingtothemasterofthewaggons.Therewereagoodmanypeopleabout,andthosenearpausedandlookedathertransit,inthefullstrokeofthelevelOctobersun,whichwentunderthebrimsoftheirhats,andpiercedthroughtheirbutton-holes.Fromthegroupsheheardmurmuredthewords:'Mrs.NicholasLong.'
Theunexpectedremark,notwithoutdistinctsatireinitstone,tookhersogreatlybysurprisethatshewasconfounded.Nicholaswasbythistimenearer,thoughcomingagainstthesunhehadnotyetperceivedher.Influencedbyherfather'slecture,shefeltangrywithhimforbeingthereandcausingthisawkwardness.Hernoticeofhimwasthereforeslight,superciliousperhaps,slurredover;andhervexationathispresenceshoweddistinctlyinherfaceasshesatdowninherseat.Insteadofcatchinghiswaitingeye,shepositivelyturnedherheadaway.
Amomentaftershewassorryshehadtreatedhimso;buthewasgone.
Reachinghomeshefoundonherdressing-tableanotefromherfather.
Thestatementwasbrief:
Ihaveconsideredandamofthesameopinion.Youmustmarryhim.
Hecanleavehomeatonceandtravelasproposed.Ihavewrittentohimtothiseffect.Idon'twantanyvictuals,sodon'twaitdinnerforme.
NicholaswasthewrongkindofmantobeblindtohisChristine'smortification,thoughhedidnotknowitsentirecause.Hehadlatelyforeseensomethingofthissortaspossible.
'Itservesmeright,'hethought,ashetrottedhomeward.'Itwasabsurd——wickedofmetoleadheronso.Thesacrificewouldhavebeentoogreat——toocruel!'Andyet,thoughhethustookherpart,heflushedwithindignationeverytimehesaidtohimself,'Sheisashamedofme!'
OntheridgewhichoverlookedFroom-Everardhemetaneighbourofhis——astock-dealer——inhisgig,andtheydrewreinandexchangedafewwords.Apartofthedealer'sconversationhadmuchmeaningforNicholas.
'I'vehadoccasiontocallonSquireEverard,'theformersaid;'buthecouldn'tseemeonaccountofbeingquiteknockedupatsomebadnewshehasheard.'
NicholasrodeonpastFroom-EverardtoElsenfordFarm,pondering.Hehadnewandstartlingmatterforthoughtassoonashegotthere.
TheSquire'snotehadarrived.Atfirsthecouldnotcredititsimport;thenhesawfurther,tookinthetoneoftheletter,sawthewriter'scontemptbehindthewords,andunderstoodthattheletterwaswrittenasbyamanhemmedintoacorner.Christinewasdefiantly——insultingly——hurledathishead.Hewasacceptedbecausehewassodespised.
Andyetwithwhatrespecthehadtreatedherandhers!Nowhewasremindedofwhatanagriculturalfriendhadsaidyearsago,seeingtheeyesofNicholasfixedonChristineasonanangelwhenshepassed:'Betteralittlefiretowarm'eethanagreatonetoburn'ee.Nogoodcancomeofthrowingyourheartthere.'Hewentintothemead,satdown,andaskedhimselffourquestions:
1.Howcouldshelivenearheracquaintanceashiswife,eveninhisabsence,withoutsufferingmartyrdomfromthestingsoftheircontempt?
2.WouldnotthisentailtotalestrangementbetweenChristineandherfamilyalso,andherownconsequentmisery?
3.Mustnotsuchisolationextinguishheraffectionforhim?
4.SupposingthatherfatherriggedthemoutascolonistsandsentthemofftoAmerica,wasnottheeffectofsuchexileupononeofhergentlenurturelikelytobeasthelast?
Inshort,whatevertheyshouldembarkintogetherwouldbecrueltytoher,andhisdeathwouldbearelief.Itwould,indeed,inoneaspectbearelieftohernow,ifsheweresoashamedofhimasshehadappearedtobethatday.Werehedead,thislittleepisodewithhimwouldfadeawaylikeadream.
Mr.Everardwasagood-heartedmanatbottom,buttotakehisenragedofferseriouslywasimpossible.Obviouslyitwashotlymadeinhisfirstbitternessatwhathehadheard.Theleastthingthathecoulddowouldbetogoawayandnevertroublehermore.Totravelandlearnandcomebackintwoyears,asmappedoutintheirfirstsanguinescheme,requiredastaunchheartonherside,ifthenecessaryexpenditureoftimeandmoneyweretobeafterwardsjustified;anditwerefollytocalculateonthatwhenhehadseento-daythatherheartwasfailingheralready.Totravelanddisappearandnotbeheardofformanyyearswouldbeafarmoreindependentstroke,anditwouldleaveherentirelyunfettered.
PerhapshemightrivalinthiskindtheaccomplishedMr.Bellston,ofwhosejourneyingshehadheardsomuch.
Hesatandsat,andthefogroseoutoftheriver,envelopinghimlikeafleece;firsthisfeetandknees,thenhisarmsandbody,andfinallysubmerginghishead.Whenhehadcometoadecisionhewentupagainintothehomestead.Hewouldbeindependent,ifhediedforit,andhewouldfreeChristine.Exilewastheonlycourse.Thefirststepwastoinformhisuncleofhisdetermination.
TwodayslaterNicholaswasonthesamespotinthemead,atalmostthesamehourofeve.Buttherewasnofognow;ablusterousautumnwindhadoustedthestill,goldendaysandmistynights;andhewasgoing,fullofpurpose,intheoppositedirection.WhenhehadlastenteredthemeadhewasaninhabitantoftheFroomvalley;inforty-
eighthourshehadseveredhimselffromthatspotascompletelyasifhehadneverbelongedtoit.AllthatappertainedtohimintheFroomvalleynowwascircumscribedbytheportmanteauinhishand.
Inmakinghispreparationsfordeparturehehadunconsciouslyheldafaint,foolishhopethatshewouldcommunicatewithhimandmakeuptheirestrangementinsomesoftwomanlyway.Butshehadgivennosignal,anditwastooevidenttohimthatherlatestmoodhadgrowntobeherfixedone,provinghowwellfoundedhadbeenhisimpulsetosetherfree.
HeenteredtheSallows,foundhiswayinthedarktothegarden-doorofthehouse,slippedunderitanotetotellherofhisdeparture,andexplainingitstruereasontobeaconsciousnessofhergrowingfeelingthathewasanencumbranceandahumiliation.Ofthedirectionofhisjourneyandofthedateofhisreturnhesaidnothing.
Hiscoursenowtookhimintothehighroad,whichhepursuedforsomemilesinanorth-easterlydirection,stillspinningthethreadofsadinferences,andaskinghimselfwhyheshouldeverreturn.AtdaybreakhestoodonthehillaboveShottsford-Forum,andawaitedacoachwhichpassedaboutthistimealongthathighwaytowardsMelchesterandLondon.
CHAPTERVI
Somefifteenyearsafterthedateoftheforegoingincidents,amanwhohaddweltinfarcountries,andviewedmanycities,arrivedatRoy-Town,aroadsidehamletontheoldwesternturnpikeroad,notfivemilesfromFroom-Everard,andputupattheBuck'sHead,anisolatedinnatthatspot.Hewasstillbarelyofmiddleage,butitcouldbeseenthatahazeofgreywassettlinguponthelocksofhishair,andthathisfacehadlostcolourandcurve,asifbyexposuretobleachingclimatesandstrangeatmospheres,orfromailmentsincidentalthereto.Heseemedtoobservelittlearoundhim,byreasonoftheintrusionofhismusingsuponthescene.IntruthNicholasLongwasjustnowthecreatureofoldhopesandfearsconsequentuponhisarrival——thismanwhooncehadnotcaredifhisnamewereblottedoutfromthatdistrict.Theeveninglightshowedwistfullineswhichhecouldnotsmoothawaybytheworldling'sglossofnonchalancethathehadlearnttoflingoverhisface.
TheBuck'sHeadwasasomewhatunusualplaceforamanofthissorttochooseasahouseofsojourninpreferencetosomeCasterbridgeinnfourmilesfurtheron.BeforehelefthomeithadbeenalivelyoldtavernatwhichHigh-flyers,andHeralds,andTally-hoeshadchangedhorsesontheirstagesupanddownthecountry;butnowthehousewasrathercavernousandchilly,thestable-roofswerehollow-
backed,thelandlordwasasthmatic,andthetrafficgone.
Hearrivedintheafternoon,andwhenhehadsentbacktheflyandwashavinganondescriptmeal,heputaquestiontothewaiting-maidwithamienofindifference.
'SquireEverard,ofFroom-EverardManor,hasbeendeadsomeyears,I
believe?'
Sherepliedintheaffirmative.
'Andareanyofthefamilylefttherestill?'
'Ono,blessyou,sir!Theysoldtheplaceyearsago——SquireEverard'ssondid——andwentaway.I'veneverheardwheretheywentto.Theycamequitetonothing.'
'Neverheardanythingoftheyounglady——theSquire'sdaughter?'
'No.Yousee'twasbeforeIcametotheseparts.'
Whenthewaitresslefttheroom,Nicholaspushedasidehisplateandgazedoutofthewindow.HewasnotgoingoverintotheFroomValleyaltogetheronChristine'saccount,butshehadgreatlyanimatedhismotiveincomingthatway.Anyhowhewouldpushontherenowthathewassonear,andnotaskquestionsherewherehewasliabletobewronglyinformed.Thefundamentalinquiryhehadnotventuredtomake——whetherChristinehadmarriedbeforethefamilywentaway.Hehadabstainedbecauseofanabsurddreadofextinguishinghopefulsurmise.ThattheEverardshadlefttheiroldhomewasbadenoughintelligenceforoneday.
Risingfromthetableheputonhishatandwentout,ascendingtowardstheuplandwhichdividedthisdistrictfromhisnativevale.
Thefirstfamiliarfeaturethatmethiseyewasalittlespotonthedistantsky——aclumpoftreesstandingonabarrowwhichsurmountedayetmoreremoteupland——apointwhere,inhischildhood,hehadbelievedpeoplecouldstandandseeAmerica.Hereachedthefurthervergeoftheplateauonwhichhehadentered.Ah,therewasthevalley——agreenish-greystretchofcolour——stilllookingplacidandserene,asthoughithadnotmuchmissedhim.IfChristinewasnolongerthere,whyshouldhepauseoveritthisevening?Hisuncleandauntweredead,andto-morrowwouldbesoonenoughtoinquireforremoterrelatives.Thus,disinclinedtogofurther,heturnedtoretracehiswaytotheinn.
Inthebackwardpathhenowperceivedthefigureofawoman,whohadbeenwalkingatadistancebehindhim;andasshedrewnearerhebegantobestartled.Surely,despitethevariationsintroducedintothatfigurebychangingyears,itsground-lineswerethoseofChristine?
NicholashadbeensentimentalenoughtowritetoChristineimmediatelyonlandingatSouthamptonadayortwobeforethis,addressinghisletterataventuretotheoldhouse,andmerelytellingherthatheplannedtoreachtheRoy-Towninnonthepresentafternoon.ThenewsofthescatteringoftheEverardshaddissipatedhishopeofhearingofher;buthereshewas.
Sotheymet——there,alone,ontheopendownbyapond,justasifthemeetinghadbeencarefullyarranged.
Shethrewupherveil.Shewasstillbeautiful,thoughtheyearshadtouchedher;alittlemorematronly——muchmorehomely.Orwasitonlythathewasmuchlesshomelynow——amanoftheworld——thesenseofhomelinessbeingrelative?Herfacehadgrowntobepre-eminentlyofthesortthatwouldbecalledinteresting.Herhabilimentswereofademureandsobercast,thoughshewasonewhohadusedtodresssoairilyandsogaily.Yearshadlaidonafewshadowstoointhis.
'Ireceivedyourletter,'shesaid,whenthemomentaryembarrassmentoftheirfirstapproachhadpassed.'AndIthoughtIwouldwalkacrossthehillsto-day,asitwasfine.Ihavejustcalledattheinn,andtheytoldmeyouwereout.Iwasnowonmywayhomeward.'
Hehardlylistenedtothis,thoughheintentlygazedather.
'Christine,'hesaid,'oneword.Areyoufree?'
'I——Iaminacertainsense,'shereplied,colouring.
Theannouncementhadamagicaleffect.Theinterveningtimebetweenpastandpresentclosedupforhim,andmovedbyanimpulsewhichhehadcombatedforfifteenyears,heseizedhertwohandsanddrewhertowardshim.
Shestartedback,andbecamealmostamereacquaintance.'Ihavetotellyou,'shegasped,'thatIhave——beenmarried.'
Nicholas'srose-coloureddreamwasimmediatelytoneddowntoagreyishtinge.
'Ididnotmarrytillmanyyearsafteryouhadleft,'shecontinuedinthehumbletonesofoneconfessingtoacrime.'OhNic,'shecriedreproachfully,'howcouldyoustayawaysolong?'
'Whomdidyoumarry?'
'Mr.Bellston.'
'I——oughttohaveexpectedit.'Hewasgoingtoadd,'Andishedead?'buthecheckedhimself.Herdressunmistakablysuggestedwidowhood;andshehadsaidshewasfree.
'Imustnowhastenhome,'saidshe.'Ifeltthat,consideringmyshortcomingsatourpartingsomanyyearsago,Iowedyoutheinitiativenow.'
'Thereissomeofyouroldgenerosityinthat.I'llwalkwithyou,ifImay.Whereareyouliving,Christine?'
'Inthesamehouse,butnotontheoldconditions.Ihavepartofitonlease;thefarmernowtenantingthepremisesfoundthewholemorethanhewanted,andtheownerallowedmetokeepwhatroomsIchose.
Iampoornow,youknow,Nicholas,andalmostfriendless.MybrothersoldtheFroom-Everardestatewhenitcametohim,andthepersonwhoboughtitturnedourhomeintoafarmhouse.Tillmyfather'sdeathmyhusbandandIlivedinthemanor-housewithhim,sothatIhaveneverlivedawayfromthespot.'
Shewaspoor.That,andthechangeofname,sufficientlyaccountedfortheinn-servant'signoranceofhercontinuedexistencewithinthewallsofheroldhome.
Itwasgrowingdusk,andhestillwalkedwithher.Awoman'sheadarosefromthedeclivitybeforethem,andasshedrewnearer,Christineaskedhimtogoback.
'Thisisthewifeofthefarmerwhosharesthehouse,'shesaid.
'SheisaccustomedtocomeoutandmeetmewheneverIwalkfarandambenighted.Iamobligedtowalkeverywherenow.'
Thefarmer'swife,seeingthatChristinewasnotalone,pausedinheradvance,andNicholassaid,'DearChristine,ifyouareobligedtodothesethings,Iamnot,andwhatwealthIcancommandyoumaycommandlikewise.Theysayrollingstonesgathernomoss;buttheygatherdrosssometimes.Iwasoneofthepioneerstothegold-fields,youknow,andmadeasufficientfortunethereformywants.Whatismore,Ikeptit.WhenIhaddonethisIwascominghome,buthearingofmyuncle'sdeathIchangedmyplan,travelled,speculated,andincreasedmyfortune.Now,beforewepart:yourememberyoustoodwithmeatthealtaronce,andthereforeIspeakwithlesspreparationthanIshouldotherwiseuse.BeforewepartthenIask,shallanotheragainintrudebetweenus?Orshallwecompletetheunionwebegan?'
Shetrembled——justasshehaddoneatthatveryminuteofstandingwithhiminthechurch,towhichhehadrecalledhermind.'Iwillnotenterintothatnow,dearNicholas,'shereplied.'Therewillbemoretotalkofandconsiderfirst——moretoexplain,whichitwouldhavespoiledthismeetingtohaveenteredintonow.'
'Yes,yes;but——'
'FurtherthanthebriefanswerIfirstgave,Nic,don'tpressmeto-
night.Istillhavetheoldaffectionforyou,orIshouldnothavesoughtyou.Letthatsufficeforthemoment.'
'Verywell,dearone.AndwhenshallIcalltoseeyou?'
'Iwillwriteandfixanhour.Iwilltellyoueverythingofmyhistorythen.'
Andthustheyparted,Nicholasfeelingthathehadnotcomeherefruitlessly.WhensheandhercompanionwereoutofsightheretracedhisstepstoRoy-Town,wherehemadehimselfascomfortableashecouldinthedesertedoldinnofhisboyhood'sdays.Hemissedhercompanionshipthiseveningmorethanhehaddoneatanytimeduringthewholefifteenyears;anditwasasthoughinsteadofseparationtherehadbeenconstantcommunionwithherthroughoutthatperiod.Thetonesofhervoicehadstirredhisheartinanookwhichhadlainstagnanteversincehelastheardthem.Theyrecalledthewomantowhomhehadonceliftedhiseyesastoagoddess.Herannouncementthatshehadbeenanother'scameasalittleshocktohim,andhedidnotnowlifthiseyestoherinpreciselythesamewayashehadliftedthematfirst.ButheforgaveherformarryingBellston;whatcouldheexpectafterfifteenyears?
HesleptatRoy-Townthatnight,andinthemorningtherewasashortnotefromher,repeatingmoreemphaticallyherstatementofthepreviousevening——thatshewishedtoinformhimclearlyofhercircumstances,andtocalmlyconsiderwithhimthepositioninwhichshewasplaced.WouldhecalluponheronSundayafternoon,whenshewassuretobealone?
'Nic,'shewroteon,'whatacosmopoliteyouare!Iexpectedtofindmyoldyeomanstill;butIwasquiteawedinthepresenceofsuchacitizenoftheworld.DidIseemrustyandunpractised?Ah——youseemedsooncetome!'
Tenderplayfulwords;theoldChristinewasinthem.ShesaidSundayafternoon,anditwasnowonlySaturdaymorning.Hewishedshehadsaidto-day;thatshortrevivalofherimagehadvitalizedtosuddenheatfeelingsthathadalmostbeenstilled.Whatevershemighthavetoexplainastoherposition——anditwasawkwardlynarrowed,nodoubt——hecouldnotgiveherup.MissEverardorMrs.Bellston,whatmatteredit?——shewasthesameChristine.
HedidnotgooutsidetheinnallSaturday.Hehadnowishtoseeordoanythingbuttoawaitthecominginterview.Sohesmoked,andreadthelocalnewspaperofthepreviousweek,andstowedhimselfinthechimney-corner.Intheeveninghefeltthathecouldremainindoorsnolonger,andthemoonbeingnearthefull,hestartedfromtheinnonfootinthesamedirectionasthatofyesterday,withtheviewofcontemplatingtheoldvillageanditsprecincts,andhoveringroundherhouseunderthecloakofnight.
Withastoutstickinhishandheclimbedoverthefivemilesofuplandinacomparativelyshortspaceoftime.Nicholashadseenmanystrangelandsandtroddenmanystrangewayssincehelastwalkedthatpath,butashetrudgedheseemedwonderfullylikehisoldself,andhadnottheslightestdifficultyinfindingtheway.Indescendingtothemeadsthestreamsperplexedhimalittle,someoftheoldfoot-bridgeshavingbeenremoved;butheultimatelygotacrossthelargerwater-courses,andpushedontothevillage,avoidingherresidenceforthemoment,lestsheshouldencounterhim,andthinkhehadnotrespectedthetimeofherappointment.
Hefoundhiswaytothechurchyard,andfirstascertainedwherelaythetworelationshehadleftaliveathisdeparture;thenheobservedthegravestonesofotherinhabitantswithwhomhehadbeenwellacquainted,tillbydegreesheseemedtobeinthesocietyofalltheelderFroom-Everardpopulation,ashehadknowntheplace.
Sidebysideastheyhadlivedinhisdayhereweretheynow.Theyhadmovedhouseinmass.
ButnotombofMr.Bellstonwasvisible,though,ashehadlivedatthemanor-house,itwouldhavebeennaturaltofindithere.IntruthNicholaswasmoreanxioustodiscoverthatthananything,beingcurioustoknowhowlonghehadbeendead.SeeingfromtheglimmerofalightinthechurchthatsomebodywastherecleaningforSundayheentered,andlookedrounduponthewallsaswellashecould.Buttherewasnomonumenttoherhusband,thoughonehadbeenerectedtotheSquire.
Nicholasaddressedtheyoungmanwhowassweeping.'Idon'tseeanymonumentortombtothelateMr.Bellston?'
'Ono,sir;youwon'tseethat,'saidtheyoungmandrily.
'Why,pray?'
'Becausehe'snotburiedhere.He'snotChristian-buriedanywhere,asfarasweknow.Inshort,perhapshe'snotburiedatall;andbetweenourselves,perhapshe'salive.'
Nicholassankaninchshorter.'Ah,'heanswered.
'Thenyoudon'tknowthepeculiarcircumstances,sir?'
'Iamastrangerhere——astolateyears.'
'Mr.Bellstonwasatraveller——anexplorer——itwashiscalling;youmayhaveheardhisnameassuch?'
'Iremember.'NicholasrecalledthefactthatthisverybentofMr.
Bellston'swastheincentivetohisownroaming.
'Well,whenhemarriedhecameandlivedherewithhiswifeandhiswife'sfather,andsaidhewouldtravelnomore.Butafteratimehegotwearyofbidingquiethere,andwearyofher——hewasnotagoodhusbandtotheyoungladybyanymeans——andhebetookhimselfagaintohisoldtrickofroving——withhermoney.Awayhewent,quiteoutoftherealmofhumanfoot,intothebowelsofAsia,andneverwasheardofmore.Hewasmurdered,itissaid,butnobodyknows;thoughasthatwasnineyearsagohe'sdeadenoughinprinciple,ifnotincorporation.Hiswidowlivesquitehumble,forbetweenherhusbandandherbrothershe'sleftinveryleanpasturage.'
NicholaswentbacktotheBuck'sHeadwithouthoveringroundherdwelling.Thisthenwastheexplanationwhichshehadwantedtomake.Notdead,butmissing.Howcouldhehaveexpectedthatthefirstfairpromiseofhappinessheldouttohimwouldremainuntarnished?Shehadsaidthatshewasfree;andlegallyshewasfree,nodoubt.Moreover,fromhertoneandmannerhefelthimselfjustifiedinconcludingthatshewouldbewillingtoruntheriskofaunionwithhim,intheimprobabilityofherhusband'sexistence.
Evenifthathusbandlived,hisreturnwasnotalikelyevent,tojudgefromhischaracter.Amanwhocouldspendhermoneyonhisownpersonaladventureswouldnotbeanxioustodisturbherpovertyaftersuchalapseoftime.
Well,theprospectwasnotsouncloudedasithadseemed.Butcouldhe,evennow,giveupChristine?
CHAPTERVII
Twomonthsmorebroughttheyearnearlytoaclose,andfoundNicholasLongtenantofaspacioushouseinthemarket-townnearesttoFroom-Everard.Amanofmeans,genialcharacter,andabachelor,hewasanobjectofgreatinteresttohisneighbours,andtohisneighbours'wivesanddaughters.Buthetooklittlenoteofthis,andhadmadeithisbusinesstogotwiceaweek,nomatterwhattheweather,tothenowfarmhouseatFroom-Everard,awingofwhichhadbeenretainedastherefugeofChristine.Healwayswalked,togivenotroubleinputtingupahorsetoahousekeeperwhosestaffwaslimited.
Thetwohadputtheirheadstogetheronthesituation,hadgonetoasolicitor,hadbalancedpossibilities,andhadresolvedtomaketheplungeofmatrimony.'Nothingventure,nothinghave,'Christinehadsaid,withsomeofheroldaudacity.
Withalmostgratuitoushonestytheyhadlettheirintentionsbewidelyknown.Christine,itistrue,hadrathershrunkfrompublicityatfirst;butNicholasarguedthattheirboldnessinthisrespectwouldhavegoodresults.Withhisfriendsheheldthattherewasnottheslightestprobabilityofherbeingotherthanawidow,andachallengetothemissingmannow,followedbynoresponse,wouldstultifyanyunpleasantremarkswhichmightbethrownatheraftertheirunion.TothisendaparagraphwasinsertedintheWessexpapers,announcingthattheirmarriagewasproposedtobecelebratedonsuchandsuchadayinDecember.
Hisperiodicwalksalongthesouthsideofthevalleytovisitherwereamongthehappiestexperiencesofhislife.Theyellowleavesfallingaroundhimintheforeground,thewell-wateredmeadsonthelefthand,andthewomanhelovedawaitinghimatthebackofthescene,promisedafutureofmuchserenity,asfarashumanjudgmentcouldforesee.Onarriving,hewouldsitwithherinthe'parlour'
ofthewingsheretained,hergeneralsitting-room,wheretheonlyrelicsofherearlysurroundingswereanoldclockfromtheotherendofthehouse,andherownpiano.Beforeitwasquitedarktheywouldstand,handinhand,lookingoutofthewindowacrosstheflatturftothedarkclumpoftreeswhichhidfurtherviewfromtheireyes.
'Doyouwishyouwerestillmistresshere,dear?'heoncesaid.
'Notatall,'saidshecheerfully.'Ihaveagoodenoughroom,andagoodenoughfire,andagoodenoughfriend.Besides,mylatterdaysasmistressofthehousewerenothappyones,andtheyspoilttheplaceforme.Itwasapunishmentformyfaithlessness.Nic,youdoforgiveme?Reallyyoudo?'
Thetwenty-thirdofDecember,theeveofthewedding-day,hadarrivedatlastinthetrainofsuchuneventfulonesasthese.Nicholashadarrangedtovisitherthatdayalittlelaterthanusual,andseethateverythingwasreadywithherforthemorrow'seventandherremovaltohishouse;forhehadbeguntolookafterherdomesticaffairs,andtolightenasmuchaspossiblethedutiesofherhousekeeping.
Hewastocometoanearlysupper,whichshehadarrangedtotaketheplaceofawedding-breakfastnextday——thelatternotbeingfeasibleinherpresentsituation.AnhourorsoafterdarkthewifeofthefarmerwholivedintheotherpartofthehouseenteredChristine'sparlourtolaythecloth.
'Whatwithgettingthehamskinned,andtheblack-puddingshottedup,'shesaid,'itwilltakemeallmytimebeforehe'shere,ifI
beginthisminute.'
'I'lllaythetablemyself,'saidChristine,jumpingup.'Doyouattendtothecooking.'
'Thankyou,ma'am.Andperhaps'tisnomatter,seeingthatitisthelastnightyou'llhavetodosuchwork.Iknewthissortoflifewouldn'tlastlongfor'ee,beingborntobetterthings.'
'Ithaslastedratherlong,Mrs.Wake.Andifhehadnotfoundmeoutitwouldhavelastedallmydays.'
'Buthedidfindyouout.'
'Hedid.AndI'lllaytheclothimmediately.'
Mrs.Wakewentbacktothekitchen,andChristinebegantobustleabout.ShegreatlyenjoyedpreparingthistableforNicholasandherselfwithherownhands.Shetookartisticpleasureinadjustingeacharticletoitsposition,asifhalfanincherrorwereapointofhighimportance.Finallysheplacedthetwocandleswheretheyweretostand,andsatdownbythefire.
Mrs.Wakere-enteredandregardedtheeffect.'Whynothaveanothercandleortwo,ma'am?'shesaid.''Twouldmakeitlivelier.Sayfour.'
'Verywell,'saidChristine,andfourcandleswerelighted.
'Really,'sheadded,surveyingthem,'Ihavebeennowsolongaccustomedtolittleeconomiesthattheylookquiteextravagant.'
'Ah,you'llsoonthinknothingoffortyinhisgrandnewhouse!
ShallIbringinsupperdirectlyhecomes,ma'am?'
'No,notforhalfanhour;and,Mrs.Wake,youandBetsyarebusyinthekitchen,Iknow;sowhenheknocksdon'tdisturbyourselves;I
canlethimin.'
Shewasagainleftalone,and,asitstillwantedsometimetoNicholas'sappointment,shestoodbythefire,lookingatherselfintheglassoverthemantel.Reflectivelyraisingalockofherhairjustabovehertemplesheuncoveredasmallscar.Thatscarhadahistory.Theterribletemperofherlatehusband——thosesuddenmoodsofirascibilitywhichhadmadeevenhisfriendlyexcitementslooklikeanger——hadoncecausedhimtosetthatmarkuponherwiththebezelofaringhewore.Hedeclaredthatthewholethingwasanaccident.Shewasawoman,andkeptherownopinion.
Christinethenturnedherbacktotheglassandscannedthetableandthecandles,shiningoneateachcornerliketypesofthefourEvangelists,andthoughttheylookedtooassuming——tooconfident.
Sheglancedupattheclock,whichstoodalsointhisroom,therenotbeingspaceenoughforitinthepassage.Itwasnearlyseven,andsheexpectedNicholasathalf-past.Shelikedthecompanyofthisvenerablearticleinherlonelylife:itstickingsandwhizzingswereasortofconversation.Itnowbegantostrikethehour.Attheendsomethinggratedslightly.Then,withoutanywarning,theclockslowlyinclinedforwardandfellatfulllengthuponthefloor.