"Ihavebelieveyoudid.IfsoI'llneverforgiveyou,fortheverysightofhimspoilseverything."
"Comenow,Coz,bereasonable.FromalltheindicationsIhaveseen,VanBergisthelastmantofollowyouhereoranywhereelse,eventhoughheknewofyourprospectivemovements.Heishere,asscoresofothersare,forhisownpleasure.Sofollowyourmothertoyourroom,smoothyourruffledplumageandcomedowntosupper."
EvenMissMayhew'segotismcouldfindnofaultwithsoreasonableanexplanation,andshewentpoutingupthestairwayinanythingbutacomplacentmood.
Stantonsteppedoutuponthepiazzatogreethisfriend,saying:
"Why,Van,itisanunexpectedpleasuretofindyouhere."
"Iwasequallyandquiteasagreeablysurprisedtoseeyoudrivetothedoor.IfyoucousinhadnotcomeImighthavehelpedyouexerciseyourbays.Iamdoingsomesketchinginthevicinity."
"Mycousinshallnotkeepyoufrommanyanidlehourbehindthebays——thatis,ifyouwillnotcarryyourantipathysofarastocutmeonaccountofmyrelationship."
"I'mnotconsciousofanyantipathyforMissMayhew,"repliedVanBerg,withaslightshrug.
"Oh,onlyindifference!Well,ifyouwillbothmaintainthatattitudetherewillbenotroubleaboutthebaysoranythingelse.
I'llsmokewithyouaftersupper."
"Sheevidentlyhasanantipathyforme,"musedVanBerg."Stanton,nodoubt,hastoldherofmyuncomplimentaryremarks,andpossiblyofthefactthatIdeclinedanintroduction.That'sawkward,forifIshouldnowasktobepresentedtoher,shewouldverynaturallydecline,andsowemightdriftintosomethingascloselyresemblingaquarrelasispossibleinthecaseoftwopeoplewhohaveneverspokentoeachother."
Heconcludedthatitwouldbebesttoleavetochancetheoccasionwhichshouldplacethemonspeakingterms,andtriedtopersuadehimselfthatherunpromisingattitudetowardshimwasnotwhollyunfavorabletohispurpose.Henevercouldhopetoaccomplishanythingwithoutatfirstpiquingherprideandwoundinghervanity.
Hisonlyfearwasthatthishadbeendonetooeffectually,andthatfromfirsttolastshewouldsimplydetesthim.
Inhispreoccupationheforgotthatthesupperhourwaspassing,butatlaststartedhastilyforhisroom.Asherapidlyturnedasharpcornerhenearlyranintotwoladieswhowerecomingfromanoppositedirection,andlookingupsawMrs.Mayhewandtheflushed,resentfulfaceofherdaughter.Inspiteofhimselfoureven-pulsedphilosopherflushedalso,butinstantlyremovinghishatheejaculated:
"Ibegyourpardon,"andpassedon.
AsIdajoinedhercousinatthesupper-tableshewhisperedexultantly:
"Hehasspokentome."
"Whohasspokentoyou?"
"Yourartist-bear."
"Howdidthathappen?"
"Well,henearlyranoverme——horridthing!Isupposethat'sanotherofhispeculiarways."
"Didheembraceyou?"
"Embraceme!Goodheavens,whatanescapeIhavehad!Sothistooischaracteristicofyourfriend?"
"Yousaidhewasabear.Ifso,heshouldhavegivenyouahugonthefirstopportunity."
"Hedidn'thaveanopportunity,andheneverwill."
"Poorfellow!ItwillmakehimsickifItellhimso.Well,sinceitisanothercaseofbeautyandthebeast,whatdidthebeastsay?"
"Hesaidthatitwasveryproperheshouldsaytomeafterallhishatefulness.Hesaid,'Ibegyourpardon.'"
"AndthenIsupposeyoukissedandmadeup."
"Hush,youhorridthing.InoticedhimnomorethanIwouldachairthatImighthavestumbledover."
"Thusdisplayingthatsweettraitofyours——Charity.ButIthoughtitwashethatstumbledoveryou?"
"Amusty,miserablepun!Itwashe,andI'mdelighteditsohappened,thatthefirsttimeheeverspoketomehehadtoaskmypardon."
"Well,well!I'mgladitsohappened,too,andthattheiceisbrokenbetweenyou,forVanBergisagoodfriendofmine,anditwouldbeconfoundedlydisagreeabletohaveyoutwoloweringateachotheracrossabloodychasmofdark,revengefulthoughts."
"Theiceisn'tbrokenatall.Hehasbeggedmypardonasheoughttodoahundredtimes;butIhaven'tgrantedit,andIneverwill.
What'smore,I'llneverspeaktohiminallmylife;never,never!"
"Swearitbythe'inconstantmoon'!"
"Hush,herehecomes.Ah,'peste!'histableisrightoppositeours."
"Whoisthattallandratherdistinguished-lookinggentlemanthatjustentered?"askedMrs.Mayhew,suddenlyemergingfromapre-occupationwithhersupperwhichagoodappetitehadinduced.
"HeISdistinguished,orwillbe.He'saparticularfriendofIda's,andisasrichasCroesus."
"Threeitemsinhisfavor,"saidMrs.Mayhewcomplacently;"butIdahassomanyfriends,orbeaux,rather,thatIcan'tkeeptrackofthem.Herfriendsspeedilybecomefurnace-likelovers,orelseescapefortheirlivesintothedimandremoteregionofmerebowingacquaintanceship.Ioncetriedtokeepalistofthevariousandvariegatedgentlemenwithredwhiskersandblackwhiskers,withwhiskerssandy,brown,andoccasionallyalmostwhite,butborrowingagoldenhuefromtheirpurses,thatappearedanddisappearedsorapidly,astoalmostmakemedizzy.IwasaboutasbewilderedasthepoorIndianwhosoughttotakethecensusofLondonbynotchingastickforeverypasser-byhemet.Andnowbeforewearethroughsupperonthefirsteveningofourarrival,anotherappears,whoisevidentlyaneligible'parti'andtwiceasgoodastheminxdeserves;butinafewdayshe,too,willvanishintothinair,andanotheranddifferentstyleofmanwilltakehisplace.Markmywords,Ida,youwillbethroughthewoodsbeforelong,andI
expectyouwilltakeupwiththecrookedestofcrookedsticksonthefartherside,"andthevolubleMrs.Mayhewresumedhersupperwithazestwhichthisdismalprospectdidnotbyanymeansimpair.
"IfIwereinsearchofacrabbed,crookedstick,Iwouldnothavetolookfartherthanyondertable,"saidtheyounglady,petulantly.
"Whatyousupposeaboutthatdabblerinpaintisaboutasfarfromthetruthasyoursketchofthosewhoaremyfriends.Thatmanneverwasmyfriend,andnevershallbe.Idon'twantyoutogetacquaintedwithhimorspeaktohim.Youmustnotintroducehimtome,forifyoudo,Ishallberudetohim."
"Hoity-toity!what'sthematter?"
"Idon'tlikehim.OnlyIkthinkshe'swonderful.Hehasprobablyblindedourcousintohisfaultsbypaintingaflatteringlikenessofthevainyouthhere."
"Butinsuggestinganotherportraitthatwasnotaltogetherpleasing,hesinnedbeyondhope,"whisperedStanton.
Idabitherlipandfrowned,recallingtheobnoxiousartist'sportraitofherselfasgigglingandflirtingthroughoneofBeethoven'ssymphonies;andshesaidspitefully:
"Hecanneverhopeforanythingfromme."
"Poor,hopelesswretch!"groanedStanton."Howcanhesiphisteayondersocomplacentlyobliviousofhisdoom?"
"Mother,I'minearnest,"resumedthedaughter."Ihavereasonsfordislikingthatman,andIdonotwishtheannoyanceofhisacquaintance."
"Well,well,"saidMrs.Mayhew;"aslongasthewindblowsfromthatcoolquarter,wecankeepcooltillitchanges.IfImistakenot,heisthesamegentlemanwhometusinthecorridor.I'msurehehasfinemanners."
"Ifitisfinemannersinamantonearlyrunovertwoladies,heisperfect.ButIamsickofhearingabouthim,andespeciallyofseeinghim.Iinsist,Ik,thatyouhaveourtablechangedtoyondercorner,andthenarrangeitsothatIcansitwithmybacktowardshim."
"IamyourCaliban,butwouldhint,myamiableCoz,thatyoushouldnotbiteoffyourownprettynoseinspite.Mustallyourkinjoininthisbitterfeud?MayInotsmokewithmyancientfamiliar?"
"Oh,beoff,andifyouandyourfrienddisappearlikeyourcigars,theworldwillsurvive."
"Ifearitisbecausemyfriendwillneverdissolveinsighsthatyouaresowillingheshouldendinsmoke."
HavingwingedthisParthianarrowoverhisshoulder,StantonstrolledoutonthepiazzawhitherVanBerghadprecededhim.
ChapterV.Spite.
MissMayhewapparentlyhadnotgivenasingleglancetotheartist,ashesatoppositetoherandbutalittleoutofearshot.Indeed,sowelldidshesimulateunconsciousnessofhispresence,thatwereifnotforanoccasionalglancefromMrs.Mayhewhemighthavethoughthimselfunnoticed;butsomethinginthatlady'smanner,ascaughtbyoccasionalglances,ledhimtosuspectthathewasthesubjectoftheirconversation.
ButIda'sindifferencewas,intruth,onlyseeming;foralthoughsheneverlookeddirectlyathim,shesubjectedhisimage,whichwasconstantlyflittingacrosstheretinaofhereye,totheclosestscrutiny,andnoactorexpressionofhisescapedher.Shewaspiquedbythefactthatheshowednodisturbedconsciousnessofherpresence,andthathisglancewasoccasionallyasfreeandnaturaltowardsherastowardsanyotherguestofthehouse.Hisbearingannoyedherexcessively,foritseemedaneasyandquietassertionofindifferenceandsuperiority——twomanifestationsthatweretoherasobjectionableasunusual.Neitherinlooksnormannerdidsheappearveryagreeableduringthebrieftimeshespentinthepublicparlors.Theguestsofthehouse,eventotheladieswhoforesawaneclipseoftheirowncharms,werecompelledtoadmitthatshewasverypretty;butitwasageneralremarkthatherfacedidnotmakeorleaveapleasantimpression.
VanBergsurmisedthatStanton'sdispositiontoteazeandbanterwouldleadhimtorepeatand,perhaps,distort,anythinghemightsayconcerningtheyounglady,sohemadenoreferencewhatevertotheMayhews,buttookpainstogivetheimpressionthathewasdeeplyinterestedinthescenery.
"Ishallprobablybeoffwithmysketch-bookbeforeyouareup,"hesaid;"forifIremembercorrectly,youareupwiththelarkonlywhenyouhavebeenupover-night."
"Youarethegreatersinnerofthetwo,"yawnedStanton;"forifI
occasionallykeepunseasonablehoursatnight,youdosohabituallyinthemorning.Eitheryouarenotasbrilliantasusualthisevening,orelsethecountryairmakesmedrowsy.Good-night.Wewilltakearideto-morrow,andyoucansketchfivemilesoffenceifyoufindthatyoucannotresistyourmaniaforwork."
PerhapsStantonHADfoundhisfriendslightlypreoccupied,for,inspiteoftheconstrainthehadputuponhimselftoappearasusual,thissecondandcloserviewofthefacewhichhadtakensostrongaholduponhisfancydidnotdissipatehisfirstimpressions.
Indeed,theyweredeepenedrather,forhesawagainandmoreclearlythesamemarvellouscapabilitiesinthefeatures,andalsotheirexasperatingfailuretomakeabeautifulface.
Hedreamedoverhisprojectsomelittletimeafterhisfriendhadretired,andtheconclusionofhisreverywas:
"Imustsoonmakesomeprogressinmyexperimentorelsedecamp,forthatgirl'scontradictoryfaceisaconstantincentivetoprofanity."
AfterseeingMrs.Mayhew,however,hefeltthatjusticerequiredhimtoadmitthatthedaughterwasanaturalandlogicalsequence;
andinthemotherhesawanelementmorehopelesslyinartisticanddishearteningthananythinginthegirlherself;forevenifthelattercouldbechanged,wouldnottheshadowofthestoutanddressymothereverfallathwartthepicture?
VanBergretiredwiththefeelingthathisprojectofilluminatingafacebyawakeningamindthat,asyet,hadslept,didnotpromiseverybrilliantly.
MissMayhewtriedtopersuadeherselfthatitwasareliefnottoseethecriticalartistatbreakfast,nortomeethimasshestrolledfromtheparlorstothepiazzaandthencetothecroquet-ground,whereshelistlesslydeclinedtotakepartinagame.
Therewas,intruth,greatneedthathermindshouldbeawakenedandherwholenatureradicallychanged,ifitwereapossiblething,——aneedshownbythefactthefairJunemorning,withitsfragranceandbeauty,couldnotlightupherfacewithitsownfreshnessandgladness.Thevariousnotesofthebirdswereonlysounds;thelandscape,seenforthefirsttime,waslikethemapofSwitzerland,that,inthedaysofhergeographylessons,gaveherasvividanideaofthecountryasadrysermondoesofheaven.
Althoughherearsandeyesweresopretty,shewas,inthedeepestandtruestsenseoftheword,deafandblind.Thelackofsomepettyandcongenialexcitementmadetimehangheavilyonherhandsandcloudedherfacewith'ennui.'"
Evenhercousinhadfailedher,forhewasdownatthestables,makingarrangementsforthecareofhisbaysandhiscarriage.Thusfromveryidlenessshefelltonursinghersmallspiteagainstthemanwhosevoicehadmadesuchharshdiscordwiththehoneyedchorusofflatterytowhichshewasaccustomed.Shewishedthathewouldappear,andthatinsomewayshemightshowhowlittleshecaredforhimorhisopinion;butashedidnot,sheatlastloungedtoherroomandsoughttokillafewhourswithanovel.
Herwoundedpride,however,inducedhertodressquiteelaboratelyfordinner;forshehadfaithinnobetterwayofassertingherpersonalitythanthataffordedbythetoilet.Shewouldteachhim,bytheadmirationsheexcitedinothers,howmistakenhehadbeeninhisestimate,andhervanitywhisperedthatevenhecouldnotlookuponherbeautyforanylengthoftimewithoutbeingwonbyitassomanyothershadbeen.
Thechangeofseatshavingbeeneffected,shescarcelythoughtitnecessarytoturnherbackuponhimwhilesittingatsuchadimdistance.Indeedshewasinclinedtoregretthechange,fornowhertoiletandlittleairs,whichsheimaginedtobesopretty,wouldbelostuponhim.
Itwouldseemthattheywere,forVanBergatehisdinnerasquietly,andchattedasunconcernedlytothoseabouthimasifshehadnoexistence.Neverhadamanignoredhersocompletelybefore,andshefeltthatshecouldneverforgivehim.
Aftertheeventofthedaywasover,andtheguestswerecirclingandeddyingthroughthehallsandparlorsandoutonthepiazza,IdastillhadtheannoyanceofobservingthatVanBergwasutterlyobliviousofherasfarasshecouldperceive.Hespokehereandtherewiththeeaseandfreedomofonefamiliarwithsociety,andshesawmoreeyesfollowinghistallformapprovinglythanwereturnedtowardsherself.Fewgentlemenremainedatthehouseduringtheweek,andMissMayhewwasnotafavoritewithherownsex.
Thosewhomostcloselyresembledherincharacterenviedratherthanadmiredher,andthosewhowerebetterendowedanddevelopedfoundfaultevenwithherbeautyfromamoralpointofview,asVanBerghadonartisticgrounds.Sheconsoledherself,however,withthethoughtthatitwasSaturday,andthattheeveningboatandtrainswouldbringanumberofgentlemen,amongwhomshetoldStanton,exultantly,thatshehad"somefriends"——mothsratherwhosewingswereindangerofbeingsinged.
Astheafternoonwasnotsultry,Stantonhadsaidtohisfriendthattheycouldenjoytheircigarsandarideatthesametime,andthathewoulddrivearoundforhiminafewminutes.Idaoverheardtheremark,and,quietlyslippingofftoherroom,returnedwithherhatandshawl.Ashercousinapproachedshehasteneddownthesteps,pastVanBerg,exclaiming:
"Oh,thankyou,Ik!Howgoodofyou!Iwasdyingforaride.
Don'ttroubleyourself.Icangetinwithoutaid,"andshespranglightlyintothebuggybeforehercousincouldutteraword.
Heturnedwithalookofcomicdismayanddeprecationtohisfriend,whostoodlaughingonthesteps.Ida,also,couldnotresistherinclinationtocatchaglimpseoftheartist'schagrinanddisappointment,butshewasprovokedbeyondmeasuretofindhimactingasifStantonwerethevictimratherthanhimself.Asthesweepoftheroadagainbroughttheminviewofthepiazza,thisimpressionwasconfirmedbyseeingVanBergstrollcarelesslyaway,complacentlypuffinghiscigarasifhehadalreadydismissedherfromhismind.
"Really,"grumbledStanton,"Ineverhadbeautyandhappinessthrustuponmesounexpectedlybefore."
"Verywellthen,"retortedIda;"stopyourhorsesandthrustmeoutintotheroad.I'drathergoback,evenifIhavetowalk."
"Oh,no!thereistobenogoingbackfortwohoursormore.I
oncecuredahorseofrunningawaybymakinghimrunlongafterhewantedtostop."
"Youseemtobelearningyourfriend'shatefulmanners."
"Iaskedyouthismorningifyouwouldtakeadrive,andyoudeclined."
"Ichangedmymind."
"Veryabruptly,indeed,itseemed.Sinceyoutooksomuchtoubletoannoymyfriend,it'sapityyoufailed."
"Idon'tbelieveIfailed.He'sprobablyascrossasyouareaboutit,onlyhecankeepittohimself."
"Dove-likecreatiah!thanks.WillyoupleasedrivewhileIlightacigar?"
"Idon'tlikeanyonetosmokeasnearmeasyouare."
"IfyourtheoryinregardtoVanBergiscorrect,noneofuswillenjoywhatwelikethisafternoon.OfcourseIneversmokewithoutalady'spermission,butunlessquietedbyacigar,Iamaveryrecklessdriver,"andheenforcedhiswordsbyasharpcrackofthewhip,whichsentthehorsesofflikethewind.
"Oh,stopthem;smoke;doanythinghatefulyouwish,soyoudon'tbreakmyneck.Iwillneverridewithyouagain,andIwishIhadnevercometothishorridplace;andifyoursneeringpainterdoesnotleavesoon,Iwill."
"I'mafraidVanwouldsurvive,andyouonlysufferfromyourspite.
Butcome,sinceyouhavesosweetlypermittedmetosmoke,I'llmakeyourpenanceaslightaspossible,andthenwewillconsidermattersevenbetweenus,"andawaytheybowledupbreezyhillsanddownintoshadyvalleys,Stantonstolidlysmoking,andIdanursingherpettywrath.Twoflittingghostshasteningtoescapefromthelightofday,couldnothaveseenless,orhavefeltlesssympathywiththewarmbeautifulscenesthroughwhichtheywerepassing.
Thereisnoinsulationsoperfectasthatofsmall,selfishnaturespreoccupiedwithapique.
When,lateintheafternoon,hercousin,withmockpoliteness,assistedhertoalightattheentranceofthehotel,Idawascompelledtofeelthatshehadindeedbeenthechiefvictimofherownspite.
but,withtheusuallogicofhumannature,sheneverthoughtofblamingherself,andherresentmentwaschieflydirectedagainstthemanwhoseeverywordandglance,althoughhewasbutastranger,hadseemedtopossessapowertoannoyandwoundfromthefirst.
Shefeltanalmostvenomousdesiretoretaliate;butheappearedinvulnerableinhisquietandeasysuperiority,whileshe,whoexpected,asamatterofcourse,thatallmasculinethoughtsshouldfollowheradmiringly,hadbeencompelledtoseethathiscriticaleyeshaddetectedthatinherwhichhadawakenedhiscontempt.
"I'llteachhimthisevening,whenmygentlemenfriendsarrive,howridiculousarehisairs,"shemuttered,asshewenttoherroomandsoughttoenhanceherbeautybyalltheartsofwhichshewasthemistress."I'llshowhimthatthereareplentywhocanseewhathecannot,orwillnot.Becauseheisanartist,heneednotthinkhecanfacemeoutoftheknowledgeofmybeauty,theexistenceofwhichIhavebeenassuredofbysomanyeyesandtongueseversinceIcanremember."
Whenshecamedowntoawaitthearrivalofthestagesandcarriages,shewasindeedradiantwithallthebeautyofwhichshewasthencapable.Herneckandshoulders,withtheirexquisitelinesandcurves,weremoresuggestivelyrevealedthanhiddenbyaslightdraperyofgauze-likeillusion,andherwhiteroundedarmswerebare.Shetrodwiththelightairygraceofyouth,andyetwiththeassuredmannerofonewhoislookingforwardtothefamiliarexperiencesofareigningbelle.
VanBerg,fromhisquietcornerofobservation,wascompelledtoadmitthat,seenatherpresentdistance,shealmostembodiedhisbestdreams,andmightdosowhollyweretherelessofthefashionableartofthehour,andmoreofnatureinherappearance.Butheknewwellthatifshecamenearer,andspokesoastorevealherself,thefataldefectinherbeautywouldbeasapparentasablacklinerunningathwartthesculpturedfaceofaGreekgoddess.Theonlyquestionwithhimwas,didtheominousdeformityliesonearthesurfacethatitcouldberefinedaway,orwasitingrainedintotheverymaterialofhernature,thusforminganessentialpartofherself?Hefearedthatthelattermightbetrue,orthattheremedywasfarbeyondhisskillorpower;buteveryglancehecaughtofthegirl,aswithhermothershepacedthefartherendofthepiazza,deepenedhisregret,asanartist,thatsomuchbeautyshouldbeindegradingbondagetoaseemingfool.
ChapterVI.RecklessWordsandDeeds.
Lightcarriagesnowbegantowheelrapidlyuptotheentrance,andwerefollowedsoonbythelumberingandheavily-ladenstages.
Joyousgreetingsandmerryreparteemadethescenepleasanttowitnessevenbyonewho,likeVanBerg,hadnopartinit.Stanton,whoatthismomentjoinedhim,drewhisspecialattentiontoathinandunder-sizedgentlemansomewhatpastmiddleage,whomountedthestepswithatreadthatwasasinelasticashisfacewasdevoidofanimation.
"ThereispoorUncleMayhew,"remarkedtheyoungmanindifferently.
"IsupposeImustgoandspeaktohim."
"Mr.Mayhew?"saidVanBerg,insomesurprise."Youhavenotspokenofhimbefore.Iwasnotawarethattherewasanysuchpersoninexistence."
"Youarenottoblameforthat,"repliedStantonwithashrug.