Thezestforthiswasnowwell-nighover。Butonawakinginthemorningandlookingupthevalleytowardsthecastle,andatthedarkgreenheightoftheKonigsstuhlalongside,hefeltthattobecomevanquishedbyapassion,driventosuffer,fast,andprayinthedullpainsandvapoursofdespisedlove,wasacontingencynottobewelcomedtooreadily。Thereuponhesethimselftolearnthesadscienceofrenunciation,whicheverybodyhastolearninhisdegree——eitherrebellingthroughoutthelesson,or,likeSomerset,takingtoitkindlybyforceofjudgment。Amoreobstinatepupilmighthavealtogetherescapedthelessoninthepresentcasebydiscoveringitsillegality。
Resolvingtopersevereintheheretoforesatisfactorypathsofartwhilelifeandfacultieswereleft,thougheveryinstinctmustproclaimthattherewouldbenolongeranycollateralattractioninthatpursuit,hewentalongunderthetreesoftheAnlageandreachedthecastlevaults,inwhosecoolshadeshespenttheafternoon,workingouthisintentionswithfairresult。Whenhehadstrolledbacktohishotelintheeveningthetimewasapproachingforthetable-d'hote。Havingseatedhimselfratherearly,hespentthefewminutesofwaitinginlookingoverhispocket-book,andputtingafewfinishingtouchestotheafternoonperformancewhilsttheobjectswerefreshinhismemory。Thusoccupiedhewasbutdimlyconsciousofthecustomaryrustleofdressesandpullingupofchairsbythecrowdofotherdinersastheygatheredaroundhim。
Servingbegan,andheputawayhisbookandpreparedforthemeal。Hehadhardlydonethiswhenhebecameconsciousthatthepersononhislefthandwasnotthetypicalcosmopolitewithboundlesshotelknowledgeandirrelevantexperiencesthathewasaccustomedtofindnexthim,butafaceherecognizedasthatofayoungmanwhomhehadmetandtalkedtoatStancyCastlegarden-party,whosenamehehadnowforgotten。Thisyoungfellowwasconversingwithsomebodyonhislefthand——nootherpersonagethanPaulaherself。NexttoPaulahebeheldDeStancy,andDeStancy'ssisterbeyondhim。Itwasoneofthosegratuitousencounterswhichonlyhappentodiscardedloverswhohaveshowncommendablestoicismunderdisappointment,asifonpurposetoreopenandaggravatetheirwounds。
Itseemedasiftheinterveningtravellerhadmettheotherpartybyaccidentthereandthen。InaminuteheturnedandrecognizedSomerset,andbydegreestheyoungmen'scursoryremarkstoeachotherdevelopedintoaprettyregularconversation,interruptedonlywhenheturnedtospeaktoPaulaonhislefthand。
'Yourarchitecturaladvisertravelsinyourparty:howveryconvenient,'saidtheyoungtouristtoher。'Farpleasanterthanhavingamedicalattendantinone'strain!'
Somerset,whohadnodistractionsontheothersideofhim,couldheareverywordofthis。HeglancedatPaula。Shehadnotknownofhispresenceintheroomtillnow。Theireyesmetforasecond,andshebowedsedately。Somersetreturnedherbow,andhereyeswerequicklywithdrawnwithscarcelyvisibleconfusion。
'Mr。Somersetisnottravellingwithus,'shesaid。'Wehavemetbyaccident。Mr。Somersetcametomeonbusinessalittlewhileago。'
'Imustcongratulateyouonhavingputthecastleintogoodhands,'continuedtheenthusiasticyoungman。
'IbelieveMr。Somersetisquitecompetent,'saidPaulastiffly。
ToincludeSomersetintheconversationtheyoungmanturnedtohimandadded:'Youcarryonyourworkatthecastleconamore,nodoubt?'
'ThereisworkIshouldlikebetter,'saidSomerset。
'Indeed?'
Thefrigidityofhismannerseemedtosetherateasebydispersingallfearofascene;andalternatedialoguesofthissortwiththegentlemanintheirmidstweremoreorlesscontinuedbybothPaulaandSomersettilltheyrosefromtable。
Inthebustleofmovingoutthetwolatterforonemomentstoodsidebyside。
'MissPower,'saidSomerset,inalowvoicethatwasobscuredbytherustle,'youhavenothingmoretosaytome?'
'Ithinkthereisnothingmore?'saidPaula,liftinghereyeswithlongingreticence。
'ThenItakeleaveofyou;andtendermybestwishesthatyoumayhaveapleasanttimebeforeyou!……IsetoutforEnglandto-night。'
'Withaspecialphotographer,nodoubt?'
ItwasthefirsttimethatshehadaddressedSomersetwithameaningdistinctlybitter;andherremark,whichhadreferencetotheforgedphotograph,fellofcoursewithoutitsintendedeffect。
'No,MissPower,'saidSomersetgravely。'Butwithadeepersenseofwoman'sthoughtlesstriflingthantimewillevereradicate。'
'Isnotthatamistake?'sheaskedinavoicethatdistinctlytrembled。
'Amistake?How?'
'Imean,doyounotforgetmanythings?'throwingonhimatroubledglance。'Awomanmayfeelherselfjustifiedinherconduct,althoughitadmitsofnoexplanation。'
'Idon'tcontestthepointforamoment……Goodbye。'
'Good-bye。'
Theypartedamidthefloweringshrubsandcagedbirdsinthehall,andhesawhernomore。DeStancycameup,andspokeafewcommonplacewords,hissisterhavinggoneout,eitherwithoutperceivingSomerset,orwithintentiontoavoidhim。
Thatnight,ashehadsaid,hewasonhiswaytoEngland。
VII。
TheDeStancysandPowersremainedinHeidelbergforsomedays。AllremarkedthatafterSomerset'sdeparturePaulawasfrequentlyirritable,thoughatothertimesassereneasever。
Yetevenwheninablitheandsaucymoodtherewasatbottomatingeofmelancholy。Somethingdidnotlieeasyinherundemonstrativeheart,andallherfriendsexcusedtheinequalitiesofahumourwhosesource,thoughnotpositivelyknown,couldbefairlywellguessed。
DeStancyhadlongsincediscoveredthathischancelaychieflyinherrecentlyacquiredandfancifulpredilectiond'artisteforhoarymediaevalfamilieswithancestorsinalabasterandprimogenitiverenown。Seeingthishedweltonthosetopicswhichbroughtoutthataspectofhimselfmoreclearly,talkingfeudalismandchivalrywithazestthathehadneverhithertoshown。Yetitwasnotaltogetherfactitious。For,discoveringhowmuchthisquondamPuritanwasinterestedintheattributesoflong-chronicledhouses,areflectedinterestinhimselfaroseinhisownsoul,andhebegantowonderwhyhehadnotprizedthesethingsbefore。
Tillnowdisgustedbythefailureofhisfamilytoholditsownintheturmoilbetweenancientandmodern,hehadgrowntoundervalueitspastprestige;anditwaswithcorrectiveardourthatheadoptedwhileheministeredtoherviews。
HenceforwardthewooingofDeStancytooktheformofanintermittentaddress,theincidentsoftheirtravelfurnishingpegswhereontohanghissubject;sometimeshinderingit,butseldomfailingtoproduceinheragreatertoleranceofhispresence。HisnextopportunitywasthedayafterSomerset'sdeparturefromHeidelberg。TheystoodonthegreatterraceoftheSchloss-Garten,lookingacrosstheinterveningravinetothenorth-eastfrontofthecastlewhichrosebeforetheminallitscustomarywarmtintsandbatteredmagnificence。
'Thisisaspot,ifany,whichshouldbringmatterstoacrisisbetweenyouandme,'heassertedgood-humouredly。'Butyouhavebeensosilentto-daythatIlosethespirittotakeadvantageofmyprivilege。'
Sheinquiredwhatprivilegehespokeof,asifquiteanothersubjecthadbeeninhermindthanDeStancy。
'TheprivilegeofwinningyourheartifIcan,whichyougavemeatCarlsruhe。'
'O,'shesaid。'Well,I'vebeenthinkingofthat。ButIdonotfeelmyselfabsolutelyboundbythestatementImadeinthatroom;andIshallexpect,ifIwithdrawit,nottobecalledtoaccountbyyou。'
DeStancylookedratherblank。
'Ifyourecedefromyourpromiseyouwilldoubtlesshavegoodreason。ButImustsolemnlybegyou,afterraisingmyhopes,tokeepasnearasyoucantoyourword,soasnottothrowmeintoutterdespair。'
PauladroppedherglanceintotheThier-Gartenbelowthem,wheregaypromenaderswereclamberingupbetweenthebushesandflowers。Atlengthshesaid,withevidentembarrassment,butwithmuchdistinctness:'IdeservemuchmoreblameforwhatIhavedonethanyoucanexpresstome。Iwillconfesstoyouthewholetruth。AllthatItoldyouinthehotelatCarlsruhewassaidinamomentofpiqueatwhathadhappenedjustbeforeyoucamein。ItwassupposedIwasmuchinvolvedwithanotherman,andcircumstancesmadethesuppositionparticularlyobjectionable。ToescapeitIjumpedatthealternativeofyourself。'
'That'sbadforme!'hemurmured。
'IfafterthisavowalyoubindmetomywordsIshallsaynomore:Idonotwishtorecedefromthemwithoutyourfullpermission。'
'Whatacaprice!ButIreleaseyouunconditionally,'hesaid。
'AndIbegyourpardonifIseemedtoshowtoomuchassurance。
Pleaseputitdowntomygratifiedexcitement。Ientirelyacquiesceinyourwish。Iwillgoawaytowhateverplaceyouplease,andnotcomenearyoubutbyyourownpermission,andtillyouarequitesatisfiedthatmypresenceandwhatitmayleadtoisnotundesirable。Ientirelygivewaybeforeyou,andwillendeavourtomakemyfuturedevotedness,ifeverwemeetagain,anewgroundforexpectingyourfavour。'
Paulaseemedstruckbythegenerousandcheerfulfairnessofhisremarks,andsaidgently,'Perhapsyourdepartureisnotabsolutelynecessaryformyhappiness;andIdonotwishfromwhatyoucallcaprice——'
'Iretractthatword。'
'Well,whateveritis,Idon'twishyoutodoanythingwhichshouldcauseyourealpain,ortrouble,orhumiliation。'
'That'sverygoodofyou。'
'ButIreservetomyselftherighttoacceptorrefuseyouraddresses——justasifthoserashwordsofminehadneverbeenspoken。'
'ImustbearitallasbestIcan,Isuppose,'saidDeStancy,withmelancholyhumorousness。
'AndIshalltreatyouasyourbehaviourshallseemtodeserve,'shesaidplayfully。
'ThenImaystay?'
'Yes;Iamwillingtogiveyouthatpleasure,ifitisone,inreturnfortheattentionsyouhaveshown,andthetroubleyouhavetakentomakemyjourneypleasant。'
ShewalkedonanddiscoveredMrs。Goodmannear,andpresentlythewholepartymettogether。DeStancydidnotfindhimselfagainathersidetilllaterintheafternoon,whentheyhadlefttheimmediateprecinctsofthecastleanddecidedonadrivetotheKonigsstuhl。
Thecarriage,containingonlyMrs。Goodman,wasdrivenashortwayupthewindingincline,Paula,heruncle,andMissDeStancywalkingbehindundertheshadowofthetrees。ThenMrs。Goodmancalledtothemandaskedwhentheyweregoingtojoinher。
'Wearegoingtowalkup,'saidMr。Power。
Paulaseemedseizedwithaspiritofboisterousnessquiteunlikeherusualbehaviour。'Myauntmaydriveup,andyoumaywalkup;butIshallrunup,'shesaid。'See,here'saway。'Shetrippedtowardsapaththroughthebusheswhich,insteadofwindingliketheregulartrack,madestraightforthesummit。
Paulahadnottheremotestconceptionoftheactualdistancetothetop,imaginingittobebutacoupleofhundredyardsattheoutside,whereasitwasreallyneareramile,theascentbeinguniformlysteepalltheway。WhenheruncleandDeStancyhadseenhervanishtheystoodstill,theformerevidentlyreluctanttoforsaketheeasyascentforadifficultone,thoughhesaid,'Wecan'tlethergoalonethatway,I
suppose。'
'No,ofcoursenot,'saidDeStancy。
TheythenfollowedinthedirectiontakenbyPaula,Charlotteenteringthecarriage。WhenPowerandDeStancyhadascendedaboutfiftyyardstheformerlookedback,anddroppedofffromthepursuit,toreturntotheeasyroute,givinghiscompanionapartinghintconcerningPaula。WhereuponDeStancywentonalone。HesoonsawPaulaabovehiminthepath,whichascendedskywardstraightasJacob'sLadder,butwassooverhungbythebrushwoodastobequiteshutoutfromthesun。Whenhereachedhersideshewasmovingeasilyupward,apparentlyenjoyingtheseclusionwhichtheplaceafforded。
'Isnotmyunclewithyou?'shesaid,onturningandseeinghim。
'Hewentback,'saidDeStancy。
Sherepliedthatitwasofnoconsequence;thatsheshouldmeethimatthetop,shesupposed。
Paulalookedupamidthegreenlightwhichfilteredthroughtheleafageasfarashereyescouldstretch。Butthetopdidnotappear,andsheallowedDeStancytogetinfront。'Itdidnotseemsuchalongwayasthis,tolookat,'shepresentlysaid。
Heexplainedthatthetreeshaddeceivedherastotherealheight,byreasonofherseeingtheslopeforeshortenedwhenshelookedupfromthecastle。'Allowmetohelpyou,'headded。
'No,thankyou,'saidPaulalightly;'wemustbenearthetop。'
Theywentonagain;butnoKonigsstuhl。WhennextDeStancyturnedhefoundthatshewassittingdown;immediatelygoingbackheofferedhisarm。Shetookitinsilence,declaringthatitwasnowonderheruncledidnotcomethatwearisomeway,ifhehadeverbeentherebefore。
DeStancydidnotexplainthatMr。Powerhadsaidtohimatparting,'There'sachanceforyou,ifyouwantone,'butatoncewentonwiththesubjectbegunontheterrace。'Ifmybehaviourisgood,youwillreaffirmthestatementmadeatCarlsruhe?'
'Itisnotfairtobeginthatnow!'expostulatedPaula;'Icanonlythinkofgettingtothetop。'
Hercolourdeepeningbytheexertion,hesuggestedthatsheshouldsitdownagainononeofthemossybouldersbythewayside。Nothinglothshedid,DeStancystandingby,andwithhiscanescratchingthemossfromthestone。
'Thisisratherawkward,'saidPaula,inherusualcircumspectway。'Myrelativesandyoursisterwillbesuretosuspectmeofhavingarrangedthisscramblewithyou。'
'ButIknowbetter,'sighedDeStancy。'IwishtoHeavenyouhadarrangedit!'
Shewasnotatthetop,butshetookadvantageofthehalttoanswerhispreviousquestion。'TherearemanypointsonwhichImustbesatisfiedbeforeIcanreaffirmanything。Doyounotseethatyouaremistakeninclingingtothisidea?——thatyouarelayingupmortificationanddisappointmentforyourself?'
'Anegativereplyfromyouwouldbedisappointment,earlyorlate。'
'Andyoupreferhavingitlatetoacceptingitnow?IfIwereaman,Ishouldliketoabandonafalsescentassoonaspossible。'
'Isupposeallthathasbutonemeaning:thatIamtogo。'
'Ono,'shemagnanimouslyassuredhim,boundingupfromherseat;'Iadheretomystatementthatyoumaystay;thoughitistruesomethingmaypossiblyhappentomakemealtermymind。'
Heagainofferedhisarm,andfromsheernecessitysheleantuponitasbefore。
'Grantmebutamoment'spatience,'hebegan。
'CaptainDeStancy!Isthisfair?Iamphysicallyobligedtoholdyourarm,sothatIMUSTlistentowhatyousay!'
'No,itisnotfair;'ponmysoulitisnot!'saidDeStancy。
'Iwon'tsayanotherword。'
Hedidnot;andtheyclamberedonthroughtheboughs,nothingdisturbingthesolitudebuttherustleoftheirownfootstepsandthesingingofbirdsoverhead。Theyoccasionallygotapeepatthesky;andwheneveratwighungoutinapositiontostrikePaula'sfacethegallantcaptainbentitasidewithhisstick。Butshedidnotthankhim。Perhapshewasjustaswellsatisfiedasifshehaddoneso。
Paula,panting,brokethesilence:'Willyougoon,anddiscoverifthetopisnear?'
Hewenton。Thistimethetopwasnear。Whenhereturnedshewassittingwherehehadleftheramongtheleaves。'Itisquitenearnow,'hetoldhertenderly,andshetookhisarmagainwithoutaword。Soonthepathchangeditsnaturefromasteepandruggedwatercoursetoalevelgreenpromenade。
'Thankyou,CaptainDeStancy,'shesaid,lettinggohisarmasifrelieved。
Beforethemrosethetower,andatthebasetheybeheldtwooftheirfriends,Mr。Powerbeingseenabove,lookingovertheparapetthroughhisglass。
'Youwillgotothetopnow?'saidDeStancy。
'No,Itakenointerestinit。Myinteresthasturnedtofatigue。Ionlywanttogohome。'
Hetookherontowherethecarriagestoodatthefootofthetower,andleavingherwithhissisterascendedtheturrettothetop。Thelandscapehadquitechangedfromitsafternoonappearance,andhadbecomerathermarvellousthanbeautiful。
Theairwaschargedwithaluridexhalationthatblurredtheextensiveview。HecouldseethedistantRhineatitsjunctionwiththeNeckar,shininglikeathreadofbloodthroughthemistwhichwasgraduallywrappingupthedecliningsun。Thescenehadinitsomethingthatwasmorethanmelancholy,andnotmuchlessthantragic;butforDeStancysucheveningeffectspossessedlittlemeaning。Hewasengagedinanenterprisethattaxedallhisresources,andhadnosentimentstospareforair,earth,orskies。
'Remarkablescene,'saidPower,mildly,athiselbow。
'Yes;Idaresayitis,'saidDeStancy。'TimehasbeenwhenIshouldhaveheldforthuponsuchaprospect,andwonderedifitslividcoloursshadowedoutmyownlife,etcaetera,etcaetera。But,begad,Ihavealmostforgottenthere'ssuchathingasNature,andIcarefornothingbutacomfortablelife,andacertainwomanwhodoesnotcareforme!……Nowshallwegodown?'
VIII。
ItwasquitetruethatDeStancyatthepresentperiodofhisexistencewishedonlytoescapefromthehurly-burlyofactivelife,andtowintheaffectionofPaulaPower。Therewere,however,occasionswhenarecollectionofhisoldrenunciatoryvowswouldobtrudeitselfuponhim,andtingehispresentwithwaywardbitterness。SomuchwasthisthecasethatadayortwoaftertheyhadarrivedatMainzhecouldnotrefrainfrommakingremarksalmostprejudicialtohiscause,sayingtoher,'Iamunfortunateinmysituation。Thereare,unhappily,worldlyreasonswhyIshouldpretendtoloveyou,evenifIdonot:theyaresostrongthat,thoughreallylovingyou,perhapstheyenterintomythoughtsofyou。'
'Idon'twanttoknowwhatsuchreasonsare,'saidPaula,withpromptness,foritrequiredbutlittleastutenesstodiscoverthathealludedtothealienatedWessexhomeandestates。
'Youlacktone,'shegentlyadded:'that'swhythesituationofaffairsseemsdistastefultoyou。'
'Yes,IsupposeIamill。AndyetIamwellenough。'
TheseremarkspassedunderatreeinthepublicgardensduringanoddminuteofwaitingforCharlotteandMrs。Goodman;andhesaidnomoretoherinprivatethatday。Fewasherwordshadbeenhelikedthembetterthananyhehadlatelyreceived。
Theconversationwasnotresumedtilltheyweregliding'betweenthebanksthatbearthevine,'onboardoneoftheRhinesteamboats,which,likethehotelsinthisearlysummertime,werecomparativelyfreefromotherEnglishtravellers;
sothateverywherePaulaandherpartywerereceivedwithopenarmsandcheerfulcountenances,asamongthefirstswallowsoftheseason。
Thesaloonofthesteamboatwasquiteempty,thefewpassengersbeingoutside;andthispaucityofvoyagersaffordedDeStancyaroomyopportunity。
Paulasawhimapproachher,andthereappearinginhisfacesignsthathewouldbeginagainontheeternalsubject,sheseemedtobestruckwithasenseoftheludicrous。
DeStancyreddened。'Somethingseemstoamuseyou,'hesaid。
'Itisover,'shereplied,becomingserious。
'Wasitaboutme,andthisunhappyfeverinme?'
'IfIspeakthetruthImustsayitwas。'
'Youthought,"Here'sthatabsurdmanagain,goingtobeginhisdailysupplication。"'
'Not"absurd,"'shesaid,withemphasis;'becauseIdon'tthinkitisabsurd。'
ShecontinuedlookingthroughthewindowsattheLurleiHeightsunderwhichtheywerenowpassing,andheremainedwithhiseyesonher。
'MayIstayherewithyou?'hesaidatlast。'Ihavenothadawordwithyoualoneforfour-and-twentyhours。'
'Youmustbecheerful,then。'
'Youhavesaidsuchasthatbefore。Iwishyouwouldsay"loving"insteadof"cheerful。"'
'Yes,Iknow,Iknow,'sheresponded,withimpatientperplexity。'Butwhymustyouthinkofme——meonly?Istherenootherwomanintheworldwhohasthepowertomakeyouhappy?Iamsuretheremustbe。'
'Perhapsthereis;butIhaveneverseenher。'
'Thenlookforher;andbelievemewhenIsaythatyouwillcertainlyfindher。'
Heshookhishead。
'CaptainDeStancy,Ihavelongfeltforyou,'shecontinued,withafrankglanceintohisface。'Youhavedeprivedyourselftoolongofotherwomen'scompany。Whynotgoawayforalittletime?andwhenyouhavefoundsomebodyelselikelytomakeyouhappy,youcanmeetmeagain。Iwillseeyouatyourfather'shouse,andwewillenjoyallthepleasureofeasyfriendship。'
'Verycorrect;andverycold,Obestofwomen!'
'Youaretoofullofexclamationsandtransports,Ithink!'
Theystoodinsilence,Paulaapparentlymuchinterestedinthemanoeuvringofaraftwhichwaspassingby。'DearMissPower,'heresumed,'beforeIgoandjoinyouruncleabove,letmejustask,DoIstandanychanceatallyet?Isitpossibleyoucanneverbemorepliantthanyouhavebeen?'
'Youputmeoutofallpatience!'
'Butwhydidyouraisemyhopes?Youshouldatleastpitymeafterdoingthat。'
'Yes;it'sthatagain!IunfortunatelyraisedyourhopesbecauseIwasafool——wasnotmyselfthatmoment。Nowquestionmenomore。AsitisIthinkyoupresumetoomuchuponmybecomingyoursastheconsequenceofmyhavingdismissedanother。'
'Notonbecomingmine,butonlisteningtome。'
'YourargumentwouldbereasonableenoughhadIledyoutobelieveIwouldlistentoyou——andultimatelyacceptyou;butthatIhavenotdone。Iseenowthatawomanwhogivesamananansweroneshadelessperemptorythanaharshnegativemaybecarriedbeyondherintentions,andoutofherownpowerbeforesheknowsit。'
'Chidemeifyouwill;Idon'tcare!'
Shelookedsteadfastlyathimwithalittlemischiefinhereyes。'YouDOcare,'shesaid。
'Thenwhydon'tyoulistentome?Iwouldnotpersevereforamomentlongerifitwereagainstthewishesofyourfamily。
Yourunclesaysitwouldgivehimpleasuretoseeyouacceptme。'
'Doeshesaywhy?'sheaskedthoughtfully。
'Yes;hetakes,ofcourse,apracticalviewofthematter;hethinksitcommendsitselfsotoreasonandcommonsensethattheownerofStancyCastleshouldbecomeamemberoftheDeStancyfamily。'
'Yes,that'sthehorridplagueofit,'shesaid,withanonchalancewhichseemedtocontradictherwords。'Itissodreadfullyreasonablethatweshouldmarry。Iwishitwasn't!'
'Well,youareyoungerthanI,andperhapsthat'sanaturalwish。Buttomeitseemsafelicitouscombinationnotoftenmetwith。Iconfessthatyourinterestinourfamilybeforeyouknewmelentastabilitytomyhopesthatotherwisetheywouldnothavehad。'
'MyinterestintheDeStancyshasnotbeenapersonalinterestexceptinthecaseofyoursister,'shereturned。
'Ithasbeenanhistoricalinterestonly;andisnotatallincreasedbyyourexistence。'
'Andperhapsitisnotdiminished?'
'No,Iamnotawarethatitisdiminished,'shemurmured,assheobservedtheglidingshore。
'Well,youwillallowmetosaythis,sinceIsayitwithoutreferencetoyourpersonalityortomine——thatthePowerandDeStancyfamiliesarethecomplementstoeachother;andthat,abstractedly,theycallearnestlytooneanother:"Howneatandfitathingforustojoinhands!"'
Paula,whowasnotprudishwhenadirectappealwasmadetohercommonsense,answeredwithreadycandour:'Yes,fromthepointofviewofdomesticpolitics,thatundoubtedlyisthecase。ButIhopeIamnotsocalculatingastoriskhappinessinordertoroundoffasocialidea。'
'Ihopenot;orthatIameither。Stillthesocialideaexists,andmyincreasedyearsmakeitsexcellencemoreobvioustomethantoyou。'
Theiceoncebrokenonthisaspectofthequestion,thesubjectseemedfurthertoengrossher,andshespokeonasifdaringlyinclinedtoventurewhereshehadneveranticipatedgoing,derivingpleasurefromtheverystrangenessofhertemerity:'YoumeanthatinthefitnessofthingsIoughttobecomeaDeStancytostrengthenmysocialposition?'
'AndthatIoughttostrengthenminebyalliancewiththeheiressofanamesodeartoengineeringscienceasPower。'
'Well,wearetalkingwithunexpectedfrankness。'
'Butyouarenotseriouslydispleasedwithmeforsayingwhat,afterall,onecan'thelpfeelingandthinking?'
'No。Onlybesogoodastoleaveoffgoingfurtherforthepresent。Indeed,ofthetwo,Iwouldratherhavetheothersortofaddress。Imean,'shehastilyadded,'thatwhatyouurgeastheresultofarealaffection,howeverunsuitable,I
havesomeremotesatisfactioninlisteningto——nottheleastfromanyreciprocalloveonmyside,butfromawoman'sgratificationatbeingtheobjectofanybody'sdevotion;forthatfeelingtowardsherisalwaysregardedasameritinawoman'seye,andtakenasakindnessbyher,evenwhenitisattheexpenseofherconvenience。'
Shehadsaid,voluntarilyorinvoluntarily,betterthingsthanheexpected,andperhapstoomuchinherownopinion,forshehardlygavehimanopportunityofreplying。
TheypassedSt。GoarandBoppard,andwhensteeringroundthesharpbendoftheriverjustbeyondthelatterplaceDeStancymetheragain,exclaiming,'Youleftmeverysuddenly。'
'Youmustmakeallowances,please,'shesaid;'Ihavealwaysstoodinneedofthem。'
'Thenyoushallalwayshavethem。'
'Idon'tdoubtit,'shesaidquickly;butPaulawasnottobecaughtagain,andkeptclosetothesideofherauntwhiletheyglidedpastBraubackandOberlahnstein。ApproachingCoblenzherauntsaid,'Paula,letmesuggestthatyoubenotsomuchalonewithCaptainDeStancy。'
'Andwhy?'saidPaulaquietly。
'You'llhaveplentyofoffersifyouwantthem,withouttakingtrouble,'saidthedirectMrs。Goodman。'Yourexistenceishardlyknowntotheworldyet,andCaptainDeStancyistoonearmiddle-ageforagirllikeyou。'Pauladidnotreplytoeitheroftheseremarks,beingseeminglysointerestedinEhrenbreitstein'sheightsasnottohearthem。
IX。
ItwasmidnightatCoblenz,andthetravellershadretiredtorestintheirrespectiveapartments,overlookingtheriver。
Findingthattherewasamoonshining,Paulaleantoutofherwindow。ThetallrockofEhrenbreitsteinontheoppositeshorewasfloodedwithlight,andabelatedsteamerwasdrawinguptothelanding-stage,whereitpresentlydepositeditspassengers。
'Weshouldhavecomebythelastboat,soastohavebeentouchedintoromancebytheraysofthismoon,likethosehappypeople,'saidavoice。
Shelookedtowardsthespotwhencethevoiceproceeded,whichwasawindowquitenearathand。DeStancywassmokingoutsideit,andshebecameawarethatthewordswereaddressedtoher。
'Youleftmeveryabruptly,'hecontinued。
Paula'sinstinctofcautionimpelledhertospeak。
'Thewindowsareallopen,'shemurmured。'Pleasebecareful。'
'TherearenoEnglishinthishotelexceptourselves。Ithankyouforwhatyousaidto-day。'
'Pleasebecareful,'sherepeated。
'MydearMissP——'
'Don'tmentionnames,anddon'tcontinuethesubject!'
'Lifeanddeathperhapsdependuponmyrenewingitsoon!'
Sheshutthewindowdecisively,possiblywonderingifDeStancyhaddrunkaglassortwoofSteinbergmorethanwasgoodforhim,andsawnomoreofmoonlitEhrenbreitsteinthatnight,andheardnomoreofDeStancy。Butitwassometimebeforeheclosedhiswindow,andprevioustodoingsosawadarkformatanadjoiningoneontheotherside。
ItwasMr。Power,alsotakingtheair。'Well,whatluckto-
day?'saidPower。
'Adecidedadvance,'saidDeStancy。
Noneofthespeakersknewthatalittlepersonintheroomaboveheardallthisout-of-windowtalk。Charlotte,thoughnotlookingout,hadlefthercasementopen;andwhatreachedherearssetherwonderingastotheresult。
ItisnotnecessarytodetailinfullDeStancy'simperceptibleadvanceswithPauladuringthatnorthwardjourney——soslowlyperformedthatitseemedasifshemustperceivetherewasaspecialreasonfordelayingherreturntoEngland。AtCologneonedayheconvenientlyovertookherwhenshewasascendingthehotelstaircase。Seeinghim,shewenttothewindowoftheentresollanding,whichcommandedaviewoftheRhine,meaningthatheshouldpassbytohisroom。
'Ihavebeenveryuneasy,'beganthecaptain,drawinguptoherside;'andIamobligedtotroubleyousoonerthanImeanttodo。'
Paulaturnedhereyesuponhimwithsomecuriosityastowhatwascomingofthisrespectfuldemeanour。'Indeed!'shesaid,Hetheninformedherthathehadbeenoverhaulinghimselfsincetheylasttalked,andhadsomereasontoblamehimselfforbluntnessandgeneralwantofeuphemism;which,althoughhehadmeantnothingbyit,musthavebeenverydisagreeabletoher。Buthehadalwaysaimedatsincerity,particularlyashehadtodealwithaladywhodespisedhypocrisyandwasaboveflattery。However,hefearedhemighthavecarriedhisdisregardforconventionalitytoofar。Butfromthattimehewouldpromisethatsheshouldfindanalterationbywhichhehopedhemightreturnthefriendshipatleastofayoungladyhehonouredmorethananyotherintheworld。
Thisretrogrademovementwasevidentlyunexpectedbythehonouredyoungladyherself。Afterbeingsolongaccustomedtorebukehimforhispersistencetherewasnoveltyinfindinghimdotheworkforher。Theguessmightevenhavebeenhazardedthattherewasalsodisappointment。
StilllookingacrosstheriveratthebridgeofboatswhichstretchedtotheoppositesuburbofDeutz:'Youneednotblameyourself,'shesaid,withthemildestconceivablemanner,'Icanmakeallowances。AllIwishisthatyoushouldremainundernomisapprehension。'
'Icomprehend,'hesaidthoughtfully。'Butsince,byaperversefate,Ihavebeenthrownintoyourcompany,youcouldhardlyexpectmetofeelandactotherwise。'
'Perhapsnot。'
'SinceIhavesomuchreasontobedissatisfiedwithmyself,'
headded,'Icannotrefrainfromcriticizingelsewheretoaslightextent,andthinkingIhavetodowithanungenerousperson。'
'Whyungenerous?'
'Inthisway;thatsinceyoucannotloveme,youseenoreasonatallfortryingtodosointhefactthatIsodeeplyloveyou;henceIsaythatyouarerathertobedistinguishedbyyourwisdomthanbyyourhumanity。'
'Itcomestothis,thatifyourwordsareallseriouslymeantitismuchtoberegrettedweevermet,'shemurmured。'Nowwillyougoontowhereyouweregoing,andleavemehere?'
Withoutaremonstrancehewenton,sayingwithdejectedwhimsicalityashesmiledbackuponher,'Youshowawisdomwhichforsoyoungaladyisperfectlysurprising。'
ItwasresolvedtoprolongthejourneybyacircuitthroughHollandandBelgium;butnothingchangedintheattitudesofPaulaandCaptainDeStancytilloneafternoonduringtheirstayattheHague,whentheyhadgoneforadrivedowntoScheveningenbythelongstraightavenueofchestnutsandlimes,underwhoseboughstuftsofwildparsleywavedtheirflowers,exceptwherethebuitenplaatsenofretiredmerchantsblazedforthwithnewpaintofeveryhue。Onmountingthedunewhichkeptouttheseabehindthevillageabriskbreezegreetedtheirfaces,andafinesandblewupintotheireyes。
DeStancyscreenedPaulawithhisumbrellaastheystoodwiththeirbackstothewind,lookingdownontheredroofsofthevillagewithintheseawall,andpullingatthelonggrasswhichbysomemeansfoundnourishmentinthepowderysoilofthedune。
Whentheyhaddiscussedthescenehecontinued,'Italwaysseemstomethatthisplacereflectstheaveragemoodofhumanlife。Imean,ifwestrikethebalancebetweenourbestmoodsandourworstweshallfindouraverageconditiontostandataboutthesamepitchinemotionalcolourasthesesandydunesandthisgreyscenedoinlandscape。'
Paulacontendedthatheoughtnottomeasureeverybodybyhimself。
'Ihavenootherstandard,'saidDeStancy;'andifmyowniswrong,itisyouwhohavemadeitso。HaveyouthoughtanymoreofwhatIsaidatCologne?'
'Idon'tquiterememberwhatyoudidsayatCologne?'
'Mydearestlife!'Paula'seyesroundingsomewhat,hecorrectedtheexclamation。'MydearMissPower,Iwill,withoutreserve,tellittoyoualloveragain。'
'Prayspareyourselftheeffort,'shesaiddrily。'Whathasthatonefatalstepbetrayedmeinto!……DoyouseriouslymeantosaythatIamthecauseofyourlifebeingcolouredlikethissceneofgrassandsand?Ifso,Ihavecommittedaverygreatfault!'
'Itcanbenullifiedbyaword。'
'Suchaword!'
'Itisaveryshortone。'
'There'sastillshorteronemoretothepurpose。Frankly,I
believeyoususpectmetohavesomelatentandunownedinclinationforyou——thatyouthinkspeakingistheonlypointuponwhichIambackward……Therenow,itisraining;
whatshallwedo?Ithoughtthiswindmeantrain。'
'Do?Standonhere,aswearestandingnow。'
'Yoursisterandmyauntaregoneunderthewall。Ithinkwewillwalktowardsthem。'
'Youhadmademehope,'hecontinuedhisthoughtsapparentlyfarawayfromtherainandthewindandthepossibilityofshelter,'thatyoumightchangeyourmind,andgivetoyouroriginalpromisealiberalmeaninginrenewingit。InbriefI
meanthis,thatyouwouldallowittomergeintoanengagement。Don'tthinkitpresumptuous,'hewenton,asheheldtheumbrellaoverher;'IamsureanymanwouldspeakasIdo。Adistinctpermissiontobewithyouonprobation——thatwaswhatyougavemeatCarlsruhe:andflingingcasuistryononeside,whatdoesthatmean?'
'ThatIamartisticallyinterestedinyourfamilyhistory。'
Andshewentoutfromtheumbrellatotheshelterofthehotelwhereshefoundherauntandfriend。
DeStancycouldnotbutfeelthathispersistencehadmadesomeimpression。Itwashardlypossiblethatawomanofindependentnaturewouldhavetoleratedhisdanglingathersidesolong,ifhispresencewerewhollydistastefultoher。
ThateveningwhendrivingbacktotheHaguebyadeviousroutethroughthedenseavenuesoftheBoschheconversedwithheragain;alsothenextdaywhenstandingbytheVijverlookingattheswans;andineachcasesheseemedtohaveatleastgotoverherobjectiontobeingseentalkingtohim,apartfromtheremainderofthetravellingparty。
ScenesverysimilartothoseatScheveningenandontheRhinewereenactedatlaterstagesoftheirdesultoryjourney。Mr。
PowerhadproposedtocrossfromRotterdam;butastiffnorth-
westerlybreezeprevailingPaulaherselfbecamereluctanttohastenbacktoStancyCastle。TurningabruptlytheymadeforBrussels。
Itwashere,whilewalkinghomewardfromtheParkonemorning,thatheruncleforthefirsttimealludedtothesituationofaffairsbetweenherselfandheradmirer。ThecaptainhadgoneuptheRueRoyalewithhissisterandMrs。Goodman,eithertoshowthemthehouseinwhichtheballtookplaceontheeveofQuatreBrasorsomeothersiteofinterest,andthetwoPowerswerethuslefttothemselves。ToreachtheirhoteltheypassedintoalittlestreetslopingsteeplydownfromtheRueRoyaletothePlaceSte。Gudule,where,atthemomentofnearingthecathedral,aweddingpartyemergedfromtheporchandcrossedinfrontofuncleandniece。
'Ihope,'saidtheformer,inhispassionlessway,'weshallseeaperformanceofthissortbetweenyouandCaptainDeStancy,notsoverylongafterourreturntoEngland。'
'Why?'askedPaula,followingthebridewithhereyes。
'Itisdiplomatically,asImaysay,suchahighlycorrectthing——suchanexpedientthing——suchanobviousthingtoalleyes。'
'Notaltogethertomine,uncle,'shereturned。
''Twouldbeathousandpitiestoletslipsuchaneatofferofadjustingdifficultiesasaccidentmakesyouinthis。Youcouldmarrymoretin,that'strue;butyoudon'twantit,Paula。Youwantaname,andhistoricwhat-do-they-call-it。
Nowbycomingtotermswiththecaptainyou'llbeLadyDeStancyinafewyears:andatitlewhichisuselesstohim,andafortuneandcastlewhichareinsomedegreeuselesstoyou,willmakeasplendidwholeusefultoyouboth。'
'I'vethoughtitover——quite,'sheanswered。'AndIquiteseewhattheadvantagesare。ButhowifIdon'tcareoneatomforartisticcompletenessandasplendidwhole;anddocareverymuchtodowhatmyfancyinclinesmetodo?'
'ThenIshouldsaythat,takingacomprehensiveviewofhumannatureofallcolours,yourfancyisaboutthesilliestfancyexistingonthisearthlyball。'
Paulalaughedindifferently,andherunclefeltthat,persistentaswashisnature,hewasthewrongmantoinfluenceherbyargument。Paula'sblindnesstotheadvantagesofthematch,ifshewereblind,wasthatofawomanwhowouldn'tsee,andthebestargumentwassilence。
Thiswasinsomemeasureprovedthenextmorning。WhenPaulamadeherappearanceMrs。Goodmansaid,holdingupanenvelope:
'Here'saletterfromMr。Somerset。'
'Dearme,'saidsheblandly,thoughaquicklittleflushascendedhercheek。'Ihadnearlyforgottenhim!'
Theletteronbeingreadcontainedarequestasbriefasitwasunexpected。Havingpreparedallthedrawingsnecessaryfortherebuilding,Somersetbeggedleavetoresignthesuperintendenceoftheworkintootherhands。
'Hislettercapsyourremarksveryaptly,'saidMrs。Goodman,withsecrettriumph。'Youarenearlyforgettinghim,andheisquiteforgettingyou。'
'Yes,'saidPaula,affectingcarelessness。'Well,Imustgetsomebodyelse,Isuppose。'
X。
TheynextdeviatedtoAmiens,intendingtostaythereonlyonenight;buttheirschemeswerederangedbythesuddenillnessofCharlotte。Shehadbeenlookingunwellforafortnightpast,though,withherusualself-abnegation,shehadmadelightofherailment。Evennowshedeclaredshecouldgoon;
butthiswassaidover-night,andinthemorningitwasabundantlyevidentthattomoveherwashighlyunadvisable。
Stillshewasnotinseriousdanger,andhavingcalledinaphysician,whopronouncedrestindispensable,theypreparedtoremainintheoldPicardcapitaltwoorthreeadditionaldays。
Mr。PowerthoughthewouldtakeadvantageofthehalttorunuptoParis,leavingDeStancyinchargeoftheladies。
InmorewaysthanintheillnessofCharlottethisdaywastheharbingerofacrisis。
Itwasasummereveningwithoutacloud。Charlottehadfallenasleepinherbed,andPaula,whohadbeensittingbyher,lookedoutintothePlaceSt。Denis,whichthehotelcommanded。Thelawnofthesquarewasallablazewithredandyellowclumpsofflowers,theacaciatreeswerebrightlygreen,thesunwassoftandlow。TemptedbytheprospectPaulawentandputonherhat;andarousingheraunt,whowasnoddinginthenextroom,torequesthertokeepanearonCharlotte'sbedroom,PauladescendedintotheRuedeNoyonalone,andenteredthegreenenclosure。
Whileshewalkedround,twoorthreelittlechildreninchargeofanursetrundledalargevariegatedballalongthegrass,anditrolledtoPaula'sfeet。Shesmiledatthem,andendeavouredtoreturnitbyaslightkick。Theballroseintheair,andpassingoverthebackofaseatwhichstoodunderoneofthetrees,alightedinthelapofagentlemanhithertoscreenedbyitsboughs。ThebackandshouldersprovedtobethoseofDeStancy。Heturnedhishead,jumpedup,andwasathersideinaninstant,anettledflushhavingmeanwhilecrossedPaula'sface。
'IthoughtyouhadgonetotheHotoiePromenade,'shesaidhastily。'Iamgoingtothecathedral;'obviouslyutteredlestitshouldseemthatshehadseenhimfromthehotelwindows,andenteredthesquareforhiscompany。
'Ofcourse:thereisnothingelsetogotohere——evenforRoundheads。'
'IfyoumeanMEbythat,youareverymuchmistaken,'saidshetestily。
'TheRoundheadswereyourancestors,andtheyknockeddownmyancestors'castle,andbrokethestainedglassandstatuaryofthecathedral,'saidDeStancyslily;'andnowyougonotonlytoacathedral,buttoaserviceoftheunreformedChurchinit。'
'Inaforeigncountryitisdifferentfromhome,'saidPaulainextenuation;'andyouofallmenshouldnotreproachmefortergiversation——whenithasbeenbroughtaboutby——bymysympathieswith——'
'WiththetroublesoftheDeStancys。'
'Well,youknowwhatImean,'sheanswered,withconsiderableanxietynottobemisunderstood;'mylikingfortheoldcastle,andwhatitcontains,andwhatitsuggests。IdeclareIwillnotexplaintoyoufurther——whyshouldI?Iamnotanswerabletoyou!'
Paula'sshowofpetulancewasperhapsnotwhollybecauseshehadappearedtoseekhim,butalsofrombeingremindedbyhiscriticismthatMr。Woodwell'sprophecyonherweaklysuccumbingtosurroundingswasslowlyworkingoutitsfulfilment。
Shemovedforwardtowardsthegateatthefurtherendofthesquare,beyondwhichthecathedrallayataveryshortdistance。Pauladidnotturnherhead,andDeStancystrolledslowlyafterherdowntheRueduCollege。Thedayhappenedtobeoneofthechurchfestivals,andpeoplewereasecondtimeflockingintotheloftymonumentofCatholicismatitsmeridian。Paulavanishedintotheporchwiththerest;and,almostcatchingthewicketasitflewbackfromherhand,hetooenteredthehigh-shoulderededifice——anedificedoomedtolabourunderthemelancholymisfortuneofseemingonlyhalfasvastasitreallyis,andastrulyaswhimsicallydescribedbyHeineasamonumentbuiltwiththestrengthofTitans,anddecoratedwiththepatienceofdwarfs。
DeStancywalkedupthenave,soclosebesideherastotouchherdress;butshewouldnotrecognizehispresence;thedarknessthateveninghadthrownovertheinterior,whichwasscarcelybrokenbythefewcandlesdottedabout,beingasufficientexcuseifsherequiredone。
'MissPower,'DeStancysaidatlast,'Iamcomingtotheservicewithyou。'
Shereceivedtheintelligencewithoutsurprise,andheknewshehadbeenconsciousofhimalltheway。
Paulawentnofurtherthanthemiddleofthenave,wheretherewashardlyasoul,andtookachairbesideasolitaryrushlightwhichlookedamidthevaguegloomoftheinaccessiblearchitecturelikealighthouseatthefootoftallcliffs。