"Rends-toi,rends-toi!Yieldthee,Glacidas;yieldthee,forI
standinmuchsorrowforthysoul'ssake。”
Then,fallingonherknees,herfaceshiningtransfiguredinthatfiercelight,sheprayedhimthus-
"Ah!Glacidas,thoudidstcallmeribaulde,butIhavesorrowforthysoul。Ah!yieldthee,yieldtheetoransom";andthetearsrandownhercheeks,asifasaintwereprayingforasoulinperil。
NotonewordspokeGlasdale:heneithersawnorheard。Butthelevelledspearsathissideflewup,aflamecaughthiscrest,makingaplumeoffire,andwithacursehecasthisaxeamongthethrong,andthemanwhostoodinfrontofitgothisdeath。
Glasdaleturnedaboutashethrew;heleapedupontheburningdrawbridge,wherethelastofhismenwerehuddledinflight,andlo!beneathhisfeetitcrashed;downheplungedthroughsmokeandflame,andthestreambelowsurgedupasbridgeandflyingmenwentunderinoneruin。
TheMaidgaveacrythatrangabovetheroaroffireandwater。
"Saints!willnomansavehim?"sheshrieked,lookingallaroundheronthefacesoftheFrench。
Amadthoughtleapedupinmymind。
"Unharnessme!"Icried;andonewhostoodbymeundidtheclaspsofmylightjaseran。Isawaheadunhelmeted,Isawahandthatclutchedatafloatingbeam。IthoughtoftheMaid'sdesire,andoftheransomofsogreatasquireasGlasdale,andthenIthrewmyhandsuptodive,andleapedheadforemostintothewater。
DeepdownIplunged,andswamfarunderwater,toavoidastrokefromfloatingtimber,andthenIroseandglancedup-stream。Alltheairwasfiercelylitwiththeblazeoftheburningbarge;ahandandarmwouldrise,andfallereIcouldseizeit。Ahandwasthrownupbeforeme,theglintingfingersgrippingatemptyair。I
caughtthehand,swimmingstronglywiththecurrent,forsothemancouldnotclutchatme,andifadrowningmancanbeheldapart,itisnogreatskilltosavehim。InthisartIwasnotunlearned,andoncehadevensavedtwomenfromawreckedbarqueinthelongsurfofSt。AndrewsBay。Saveforablowfromsomegreatfloatingtimber,IdeemedthatIhadlittletofear;nay,nowIfeltsureoftheMaid'spraiseandofarichransom。
Ahornofbankwithalderbushesranoutintothestream,asmootheddyorbackwatercurlingwithin。Icaughtaboughofalder,and,thoughnighcarrieddownbythedrowningman'sweight,Ifoundbottom,yethardly,anddrewmymanwithintheback-water。Helaylikealog,hisfaceinthestream。Pushinghimbeforeme,I
roundedthehorn,and,withmuchado,draggedhimuptoaslopinggravellybeach,whereIgothisheadondryland,hislegsbeingstillinthewater。Iturnedhimoverandlookedeagerly。Lo!itwasnoGlasdale,butthedrownedfaceofBrotherThomas!
Thensomethingseemedtobreakinmybreast;bloodgushedfrommymouth,andIfellonthesandandgravel。FootstepsIheardofmenrunningtous。Iliftedmyhandfaintlyandwavedit,andthenI
feltahandonmyface。
CHAPTERXV——HOWNORMANLESLIEWASABSOLVEDBYBROTHERTHOMAS
CertainScotsthatfoundme,weakandbleeding,bytheriverside,weresentbytheMaid,inhopesthatIhadsavedGlasdale,whereasitwastheaccursedcordelierIhadwonfromthewater。WhattheydidwithhimIknewnotthen,butmetheylaidonalitter,andsoboremetoaboat,whereintheywereferryingourwoundedmenacrosstoOrleans。TheMaidherself,asshehadforetold,returnedbywayofthebridge,thatwasallbrightwithmovingtorches,asourgroaningcompanywererowedacrosstheblackwatertoaquay。
ThenceIwascarriedinalittertoourlodgings,andsogottobed,aphysiciandoingwhathemightforme。Anoisynightwepassed,forIverilybelievethatnomanslept,butall,afterserviceheldintheChurchofSt。Aignan,wentrevellinganddrinkingfromhousetohouse,andsingingthroughthestreets,asfolksavedfromutterdestruction。
Withdaybreakfellashortsilence;shortorlong,itseemedbrieftome,whowasnowasleepatlast,andIwasruefulenoughwhenasoundarousedme,andIfoundtheMaidherselfstandingbymybedside,withoneintheshadowbehindher。Thechamberwasalldarkling,litonlybyathreadoflightthatcamethroughtheclosedshuttersofwood,andfellonherpaleface。Shewascladinalightjaseranofmail,becauseofherwound,andwasplainlyeagertobegoneandaboutherbusiness,thatis,tomeettheEnglishinopenfield。
"Leslie,myfriend,"shesaid,inhersweetvoice,"thereweremanybravemeninthefightyesterday,but,inGod'sname,nonedidabraverdeedthanthou!Nay,speaknot,"shesaid,asIopenedmylipstothankher,"fortheleechthattendedtheelastnightforbidsit,onperilofthyverylife。SoIhavebroughttheehereasheetoffairpaper,andapenandhornofink,thatthou,beingaclerk,maystwritewhatthouhasttosay。Alas!suchconverseisnotforme,whoknownotAfromhisbrotherB。Butthesaintswhohelpedtheehaverewardedtheebeyondallexpectation。ThoudidstnotsavethatunhappyGlacidas,whomGodinHismercyforgive!butthouhasttakenagoodlierprize——thisholyman,thathadbeenprisonerinthehandsoftheEnglish。”
Hereshestoodalittleaside,andthethreadoflightshoneonthefellfaceofBrotherThomas,loweringbeneathhishood。
ThenIwouldhavespoken,leechornoleech,todenouncehim,fortheMaidhadnomemoryofhisface,andknewhimnotforthefalsefriartakenatSt。Loup。Butshelaidhermailedfingergentlyonmylips。
"Silence!Thouartmyman-at-armsandmustobeythycaptain。ThisworthyfriarhathbeenlongintheholycompanyoftheblessedColette,andhathpromisedtobringmeacquaintedwiththatdaughterofGod。Ay,andhehathgiventome,unworthyasIam,akerchiefwhichhastouchedherwonder-workinghands。AlmostIbelievethatitwillhealtheebymiracle,ifthesaintsarepleasedtograntit。”
Herewithshedrewakerchiefacrossmylips,andIbegan,beingmosteagertoinstructherinnocenceastothisaccursedman-
"Lady——"butalas!nomiraclewaswroughtforasinnerlikeme。
HowbeitIaminclinedtobelievethatthekerchiefwasnosaintlything,andhadnevercomenearthebodyoftheblessedColette,butratherwasagiftfromoneofthecordelier'slight-o'-loves。
AssuredlyitwasstainedredwithbloodfrommylungsereIcoulduttertwowords。
TheMaidstanchedtheblood,saying-
"DidInotbidtheetobesilent?Thesaintsforgivemylackoffaith,wherebythisblessedthinghasfailedtohealthee!AndnowImustbegone,tofacetheEnglishinthefield,iftheydaretomeetus,which,methinks,theywillnotdo,butratherwithdrawasspeedilyastheymay。SonowIleavetheewiththisholymantobethynurse-tender,andthoucanstwritetohimconcerningthyneeds,fordoubtlessheisaclerk。Farewell!"
Withthatshewasgone,andthiswasthelastIsawofherformanyaday。
NeverhaveIknownsuchahorroroffearasfellonmenow,helplessanddumb,asheepgivenovertotheslaughter,inthatdarkchamber,whichwaswondrouslown,{26}alonewithmydeadlyfoe。
Neverhadanymanmorecausefordread,forIwasweak,andtoresisthimwasdeath。Iwasspeechless,andcouldutternovoicethatthepeopleinthehousemighthear。Asformineenemy,hehadalwaysloathedandscornedme;hehadalongaccountofvengeancetosettlewithme;andif——whichwasnottobethoughtof——hewasmindedtospareonethathadsavedhislife,yet,forhisownsafety,hedarednot。HehadbeguiledtheMaidwithhisfalsetongue,andhisface,notseenbyherinthetakingofSt。Loup,sheknewnot。ButheknewthatIwoulddiscloseallthetruthsosoonastheMaidreturned,whereforehewasboundtodestroyme,whichhewouldassuredlydowitheverymockery,cruelty,andtortureofbodyandmind。Merelytothinkofhimwhenhewasabsentwaswonttomakemyfleshcreep,soentirelyevilbeyondthenatureofsinfulmankindwasthismonster,andsosetonworkingallkindsofmischiefwithgreediness。Whetherhehadsufferedsomegrievouswronginhisyouth,whichhespenthislifeinavengingonallfolk,orwhether,asIdeemlikely,hewastheactualemissaryofSatan,astheMaidwasofthesaints,Iknownot,and,asIlaythere,hadnowitslefttoconsiderofit。OnlyIknewthatnomoreunavailingvictimthanIwaseversoutterlyinthepowerofafoesodeadlyandterrible。
TheMaidhadgone,andallhopehadgonewithher。Foratimethatseemedunendingmineenemyneitherspokenormoved,standingstillinthechinkoflight,adevilwhereanangelhadbeen。
Therewassilence,andIheardtheMaid'sirontreadpassdownthecreakingwoodenstairs,andsoonIheardthesoundofsingingbirds,formywindowlookedoutonthegarden。
Thestepsceased,andthentherewasalowgratinglaughterinthedarkroom,asifthedevillaughed。
BrotherThomasmovedstealthilytothedoor,andthrustinthewoodenbolt。Thenhesathimheavilydownonmybed,andputhisfiend'sfaceclosetomine,hiseyesstabbingintomyeyes。ButI
bitmylip,andstaredrightbackintohisyellowwolf'seyes,thatshonelikeflamesofthepitwithevilandcruelthoughts。
SoIlay,withthatyellowlightonme;andstrengthcamestrangelytome,andIprayedthat,sincedieImust,Imightatleastgladdenhimwithnosignoffear。Whenhefoundthathecouldnotdauntonme,helaughedagain。
"OurchickofPitcullohaspickedupaspiritinthewars,"hesaid;
andturninghisbackonme,heleanedhisfaceonhishand,andsosatthinking。
ThebirdsofMaysanginthegarden;therewasafaintshiningofsilverandgreen,fromtheapple-boughsandbudswithout,inthelittlechamber;andthehoodedbackofthecordelierwasbeforemeonmybed,liketheshapeofDeathbesidetheSickMan,inapicture。NowIdidnotevenpray,Iwaited。
Doubtlessheknewthatnocruelthingwhichthedevilcoulddevisewasmorecruelthanthissuspense。
Thenheturnedaboutandfacedme,grinninglikeadog。
"Thesearegoodwords,"saidhe,"inthatfoolisholdbooktheyreadtothefaithfulinthechurches,'VengeanceisMine,saiththeLord。'Ay,itiseventoosweetamorselforuspoorChristianmen,suchasthelowlyBrotherThomasoftheOrderofSt。Francis。
Nevertheless,Iammindedtoputmyteethinit";andhebaredhisyellowdog'sfangsatme,smilinglikeahungryhound。"Mysickbrother,"hewenton,"bothasonethathassomescienceofleech-
craftandasthyghostlycounsellor,itismydutytowarntheethatthouartnowverynearthineend。Nay,letmefeelthypulse";andseizingmyleftwrist,hegraspeditlightlyinhisironfingers。
"Now,ereIadministertotheethydue,asaChristianman,letmehearthypartingconfession。But,alas!astheblessedMaidtootrulywarnedthee,thoumustnotopenthypoorlipsinspeech。
Thereisdeathinaword!Write,then,writethestoryofthysinfullife,thatImaygivetheeabsolution。”
Sosaying,heopenedtheshutter,andcarefullysetthepaperandinkhornbeforeme,puttingthepeninmyfingers。
"Now,writewhatIshalltellthee";andherehesopressedandwrungmywristthathisfingersenteredintomylivingfleshwithafierypang。Iwrithed,butIdidnotcry。
"Write——"
"I,NormanLeslieofPitcullo——"and,toescapethatagony,Iwroteashebademe。
"——beingnowinthearticleofdeath——"
AndIwrote。
"——doattestonmyhopeofsalvation——"AndIwrote。
"——anddoespeciallydesireMadameJeanne,LaPucelle,andallFrenchmenandScotsloyaltoourSovereignLordtheDauphin,toacceptmywitness,thatBrotherThomas,oftheOrderofSt。Francis,calledNoirouflewhileoftheworld,hasbeenmostfalselyandtreacherouslyaccusedbyme——"
Iwrote,butIwrotenothisfalsewords,puttingmyownintheirplace——"hasbeenmosttrulyandrighteouslyaccusedbyme——"
"——ofdiversdeedsofblacktreason,anddealingwithourenemiesofEngland,againstourLordtheDauphin,andtheMaid,theSisteroftheSaints,andofthisIheartilyrepentme,——"
ButIwrote,"AllwhichImaintain——"
"——asmayGodpardonmysins,onthefaithofasinfulanddyingman。”
"Nowsignthyname,andthatofthyworshipfulcabbage-gardenanddunghillinfilthyScotland。”SoIsigned,"NormanLeslie,theyounger,ofPitcullo,"andaddedtheplace,Orleans,withthedateofdayandyearofourLord,namely,Maytheeighth,fourteenhundredandtwenty-nine。
"Averylaudableconfession,"quothBrotherThomas;"wouldthatallthesinnerswhomIhaveabsolved,asIamabouttoabsolvethee,hadcleansedandpurgedtheirsinfulsoulsasfreely。Andnow,mybrother,readaloudtomethisscroll;nay,methinksitisillforthyhealthtospeakorread。Asadmatteristhis,for,infaith,I
haveforgottenmyclergymyself,andthoumaysthavebeguiledmebyinditingothermatterthanIhaveputintothylyingmouth。Still,wherethesafetyofasoulisconcerned,afewhoursmoreorlessofthisvain,perishablelifeweighbutasdustinthebalance。”
HerehetookfromabouthishairyneckaheavyItaliancrucifixofblackwood,whereonwasafigureofourLord,wroughtinwhiteenamel,withgoldennails,andagoldencrownofthorns。
"Nowread,"hewhispered,heavingupthecrucifixaboveme。Andasheliftedit,abrightblade,strong,narrow,andsharp,leapedoutfrombeneaththefeetofourLord,andglitteredwithinaninchofmythroat。Anemblemofthisfalsefriaritwas,theoutsideofwhomwasasthatofaholyman,whilewithinhewasamurderingsword。
"Read!"hewhisperedagain,prickingmythroatwiththedagger'spoint。
ThenIreadaloud,andasIreadIwashalfchokedwithmyblood,andnowandthenwasstopped;butstillhecried-
"Read,andifonewordiswrong,thineabsolutionshallcomealltheswifter。”
SoIread,and,mayIbeforgivenifIsinnedindeceivingonesovile!IutterednotwhatIhadwritten,butwhathehadbiddenmetowrite。
"I,NormanLeslieofPitcullo,beingnowinthearticleofdeath,doattestonmyhopeofsalvation,anddoespeciallydesireMadameJeanne,LaPucelle,andallFrenchmenandScotsloyaltoourSovereignLordtheDauphin,toacceptmywitnessthatBrotherThomas,oftheOrderofSt。Francis,calledNoirouflewhileoftheworld,hasbeenmostfalselyandtreacherouslyaccusedbymeofdiversdeedsofblacktreason,anddealingwithourenemiesofEngland,againstourLordtheDauphin,andtheMaid,theSisteroftheSaints,andofthisIheartilyrepentme,asmayGodpardonmysins,onthefaithofasinfulanddyingman。Signed,atOrleans,NormanLeslie,theyounger,ofPitcullo,thiseighthofMay,intheyearofourLordfourteenhundredandtwenty-nine。”
WhenIhadended,hetookawayhisblasphemousdagger-pointfrommythroat。
"Veryclerklyread,"hespake,"andallrunssmooth;methinksmyselfhadbeennopoorscribe,wereIbutaclerk。Hadstthouwrittenothermatter,tobetraymyinnocence,thoucouldstnotrememberwhatIsaid,evenwordforword,"headdedgleefully。"NowImightstrangletheeslowly";andhesethisfingersaboutmythroat,I
beingtooweaktodomorethanclutchathishand,withagrasplikeababe's。"Butthatleavesblackfinger-marks,anotherkindofwitnessthanthineinmyfavour。OrImightgivetheethebladeofthisblessedcrucifix;yetdaggerwoundsarelikelipsandhaveavoice,andbloodcriesfromtheground,saysHolyWrit。Pardonmytardiness,mypoorbrother,butthisdemandsdeepthought,andholyofficesmustnotbehurriedunseemly。”Hesatnowwithhisbacktome,hishandstillonmythroat,sodeepinthoughtthatheheardnot,asdidmysharpenedears,adoorshutsoftly,andfoot-fallsechoinginthehousebelow。IfIcouldonlycryaloud!buthewouldstiflemeerethecryreachedmythroat!
"Thiswillserve,"hesaid。"Thouwilthavediedofthymalady,andIwillgosoftlyforth,andwithhushedvoicewilltellhowthebraveyoungScotpassedquietlytothesaints。Yet,afterall,I
knownot。ThouhastbeensentbyHeaventomyaid;clearlythouartaninstrumentofGodtosuccourtheunworthyBrotherThomas。Onceandtwicethouhastbeenaboattocarrymeonmyway,andtosavemyusefullife。Athirdtimethoumightstwellbeserviceable,notbythywill,alas!butbyGod's,mypoorbrother";andhemockinglycaressedmyfacewithhisabhorredhand。"Still,thismustevenserve,thoughIwouldfainfindfortheeamorebitterwaytodeath";andhegentlyandcarefullydrewthepillowfrombeneathmyhead。"Thisleavesnomarksandtellsnotales,andpermitsnodyingcry。”
Hewaslookingatme,thepillowinhishands,hisgesturethatofatendernurse,whenalighttapsoundedonthedoor。Hepaused,thencamealouderknock,onepushed,andknockedagain。
"Open,inthenameoftheDauphin!"cameavoiceIknewwell,thevoiceofD'Aulon。
"TheropeofJudasstranglethee!"saidBrotherThomas,droppingthepillowandturningtothecasement。Butitwasheavilybarredwithstanchionsofiron,asthemanneris,andtherebyhemightnotflee。
Thencamefiercerknockingwithadaggerhilt,andthecry,"Open,inthenameoftheDauphin,orweburstthedoor!"
BrotherThomashastilyclosedthewoodenshutter,todarkenthechamberasmuchasmightbe。"Gently,gently,"hesaid。"Disturbnotmypenitent,whoisnewlyshrived,andabouttopass";andsospeaking,hewithdrewthebolt。
D'Aulonstrodein,daggerinhand,followedbythephysician。
"Whatmakeyouherewithdoorsbarred,falsepriest?"hesaid,layinghishandonthefrockofNoiroufle。
"Andwhatmakeyouhere,fairsquire,witharmsinasickman'schamber,andloudwordstodisturbthedying?Andwhereforecallestthoume"falsepriest"?Butanhouragone,theblessedMaidherselfbroughtmehither,tocomfortandabsolveherfollower,totendhim,ifhelivedand,ifhemustdie,togivehimhisduesasaChristianman。Andthedoorwasboltedthatthepenitentmightbeprivatewithhisconfessor,forhehasaheavyweighttounburdenhissinfulsoulwithal。”
"Ay,theMaidsentthee,notknowingwhothouwert,thetraitorfriartakenatSt。Loup,andthouhastatonguethatbeguiledhersimplicity。Butonethatknewtheesawthywolfsfaceinhercompany,andtoldme,andItoldtheMaid,whosentmestraightwaybackfromthegate,thatjusticemightbedoneonthee。ThouarthewhomthisScotchargedwithtreason,andwouldhaveslainforaspy,somenightsagone。”
BrotherThomascastuphiseyestoheaven。
"Forgiveusourtrespasses,"saidhe,"asweforgivethemthattrespassagainstus。VerilyandindeedIamthatpoorfriarwhotendsthewounded,andverifyIamheagainstwhomthisyoungScot,as,Ifear,isthemannerofallhisbenightedpeople,broughtaslanderousaccusationfalsely。AllthemorereasonwastherethatI
shouldhearhislastconfession,andforgivehimfreely,asmayI
alsobeforgiven。”
"Thouliestinthythroat,"saidD'Aulon。"Thisisabraveman-at-
arms,andaloyal。”
"Wouldthatthouwertnotbeguiled,fairsir,forIhavenopleasureinthesinofanyman。But,ifthouwiltbelievehimratherthanme,evenkeepthybelief,andreadthiswrittenconfessionofhisfalsehood。Offreewill,withhisownhand,mypenitentherebyabsolvesmefromallhisslanders。AsHolyChurchenjoins,inthegraceofrepentancehealsomakesrestitutionofwhathehadstolen,namely,allmywealthinthisworld,thegoodnameofapoorandlowlyfolloweroftheblessedFrancis。Hereisthescroll。”
Withthesewords,utteredinavoiceofsorrowingandhumblehonesty,thefriarstretchedoutthewrittensheetofpapertoD'Aulon。
"HadIbeenafalsetraitor,"hesaid,"wouldnotherbrethrenofheavenhavewarnedtheblessedMaidagainstme?AndIhavealsoawrittensafe-conductfromtheholysisterColette。”
ThenIknewthathehadfallenintomytrap,and,weakasIwas,I
couldhavelaughedtothinkofhisface,whenthewordsIhadwrittencameoutinplaceofthewordshehadbiddenmewrite。Foraclerkhathgreatpowerbeyondthesimpleandunletteredoftheworld,betheyascunningevenasBrotherThomas。
"NomDieu!thisisanotherstory,"saidD'Aulon,turningthepaperaboutinhishandsandlookingdoubtfullyatme。ButIsmileduponhim,wherebyhewasthemoreperplexed。"Theinkishardlydry,andinsomeplaceshasrunandpuddled,sothat,poorclerkasIam,I
canmakelittleofit";andheporedonitinaperplexedsort。
"Tush,itisbeyondmyclerkhood,"hesaidatlast。"You,MessireSaint-Mesmin,"——turningtothephysician——"mustinterpretthis。”
"Willingly,fairsir,"saidthephysician,movingroundtotheshutter,whichheopened,whilethecordelier'seyesglittered,fornowtherewasonemanlessbetweenhimandthehalf-opendoor。I
noddedtoD'Aulonthatheshouldshutit,buthemarkedmenot,beingwhollyinamazeatthewrittenscrollofmyconfession。
Thephysicianhimselfwasnogreatclerk,andhereadthepaperslowly,stumblingoverthewords,asitwere,whileBrotherThomas,claspinghiscrucifixtohisbreast,listenedintriumphasheheardwhathehimselfhadbiddenmewrite。
"I,NormanLeslie,of——ofPeet——Whatnameisthis?Peet——Icannotutterit。”
"Passezoutre,"quothD'Aulon。
"I,NormanLeslie,beingnowinthearticleofdeath"——heretheleechglancedatme,shakinghisheadmournfully——"doattestonmyhopeofsalvation,anddoespeciallydesireMadameJeanneLaPucelle,andallFrenchmenandScotsloyaltoourSovereignLordtheDauphin,toacceptmywitnessthatBrotherThomas,oftheOrderofSt。Francis,calledNoirouflewhileoftheworld,hasbeenmosttrulyandrighteouslyaccusedbymeofdiversdeedsofblacktreason。”
Atthesewordsthecordelier'shandleapedupfromhisbreast,hiscrucifixdaggerglitteredbright,hetorehisfrockfromD'Aulon'sgrip,leavingaragofitinhishand,andsmote,aimingatthesquirewherethegorgetjoinsthevambrace。Thoughhemissedbyaninch,yetsoterriblewastheblowthatD'Aulonreeledagainstthewall,whilethebrokenbladejingledonthestonefloor。Thenthefrockofthefriarwhiskedthroughtheopendoorofthechamber;weheardthestairsclearedintwoleaps,andD'Aulon,recoveringhisfeet,rushedafterthefalsepriest。Buthewasinheavyarmour,thecordelier'sbarelegsweredoubtlessthenimbler,andthephysician,crossinghimself,couldonlygapeandstareonthepaperinhishand。Ashegazedwithhismouthopenhiseyesfellonme,whiteasmysheets,thatweredabbledwiththebloodfrommymouth。
"NomDieu!"hestammered,"NomDieu!hereisbusinessmoretomymindandmytradethanchasingaftermadcordeliersthatstabwithcrucifixes!"
Then,comingtomyside,hebroughtwater,bathedmyface,anddidwhathisartmightdoforamaninsuchdeadlyextremityaswasmine。InwhichcarehewasstillbusywhenD'Aulonreturned,panting,havingsentadozenoftownsfolktohuntthefriar,whohadmadegoodhisflightovergardenwalls,andwasnowskulkingnoneknewwhere。D'AulonwouldfainhaveaskedmeconcerningthemysteryoftheconfessioninwhichBrotherThomashadplacedhishopesounhappily,butthephysicianforbadehimtoinquire,ormetoanswer,sayingthatitwasmorethanmylifewasworth。ButonD'Aulon'sbatteredarmourtherewasnodeeperdintthanthatdealtbythemurderouscrucifix。
ThusthissecondtimedidBrotherThomasmakehiswayoutofourhands,thedevilaidinghim,asalways;foritseemedthatropescouldnotbindorwaterdrownhim。
But,formypart,Ilaylonginanotherboutofsorefever,sickhereatOrleans,whereIwasverykindlyentreatedbythepeopleofthehouse,andnotablybythedaughterthereof,afairmaidandgentle。TohercaretheMaidhadcommandedmewhensheleftOrleans,theEnglishrefusingbattle,aslaterIheard,andwithdrawingtoJargeauandParis。ButoftherejoicingsinOrleansIknewlittleornothing,andhadnogreatdesirefornews,ormeat,ordrink,butonlyforsleepandpeace,asisthewontofsickmen。
Nowastouchessicknessandfever,Ihavewrittenmorethansufficient,asHeavenknowsIhavehadcauseenow。Alucklesslifewasmine,savefortheloveofElliot;dangerandwounds,andmaladyandescape,wherehopeseemedlost,wereandwereyettobemyportion,sinceIsailedforthoutofEden-mouth。AndsohardpressedofsicknesswasI,thatnotevenmyoutwittingofBrotherThomaswasacauseofcomforttome,thoughtothisdayIcannotthinkofitwithoutsomemirthfultriumph。
CHAPTERXVI——HOWSORROWCAMEONNORMANLESLIE,ANDJOYTHEREAFTER
ItlittleconcernsanymantoknowhowIslowlyrecoveredmyhealthaftercertainfailingsbackintotheshadowofdeath。ThereforeI
neednottellhowIwasphysicked,andbled,andhowIdrewonfromadietofmilktooneoffish,andsotoamealofchicken'sflesh,tillatlastIcouldsit,wrappedupinmanycloaks,onaseatinthegarden,belowagreatmulberrytree。InallthiswearytimeI
knewlittle,andforlongcaredless,astowhatwentonintheworldandthewars。ButsosoonasIcouldspeakitwasofElliotthatIdevised,withmykindnurse,CharlotteBoucher,theyoungdaughterofJacquesBoucher,theDuke'streasurer,inwhosehouseI
lay。Shewasafairlass,andmerryofmood,andgreatlyhoveupmyhearttofightwithmydisease。Itchancedthat,asshetendedme,whenIwasatmyworst,shemarked,hangingonasilkenstringaboutmyneck,alittlecaseofsilverartfullywrought,whereinwasthatportraitofmymistress,paintedbymebeforeIleftChinon。Beingcurious,likeallgirls,anddeemingthatthecaseheldsomerelic,sheopenedit,Iknowingnothingthenofwhatshedid。ButwhenI
waswellenoughtolieabedanddevisewithher,itchancedthatI
wasplayingidlywithmyfingersaboutthesilvercase。
"Belike,"saidCharlotte,"thatissomeholyrelic,towhich,maybe,youoweyourpresentrecovery。Surely,whenyouarewholeagain,youhavevowedapilgrimagetotheshrineofthesaint,yourfriend?"Hereshesmiledatmegaily,forshewasarightmerrydamsel,andagoodly。
"Nay,"shesaid,"Ihavedonemoreforyouthanyourphysician,seeingthatI,orthesaintyouserve,havenowbroughttheredcolourintothesewancheeksofyours。IssheaScottishsaint,then?perchanceSt。Margaret,ofwhomIhaveread?Willyounotletmelookatthesacredthing?"
"Nay,"saidI。"Methinks,fromyoursmiling,thatyouhavetakenopportunitytoseemytreasurebeforeto-day,beingadaughterofourmotherEve。”
"Sheisverybeautiful,"saidCharlotte;"nay,showhertomeagain!"
WiththatIpressedthespringandopenedthecase,forthereisnoloverbutlongstohearhisladycommended,andtoconverseabouther。YetIhadspokennoword,formypart,aboutherbeauty,havingheardsaythathewhowouldbewellwithonewomandoesilltopraiseanotherinherpresence。
"Beautiful,indeed,sheis,"saidCharlotte。"NeverhaveIseensucheyes,andhairlikegold,andalooksogracious!Andforthypilgrimagetotheshrineofthisfairsaint,wheredoesshedwell?"
ItoldheratChinon,oratTours,orcommonlywheresoevertheCourtmightbe,forthatherfatherwastheKing'spainter。
"Andyouloveherverydearly?"
"Morethanmylife,"Isaid。"Andmaythesaintssendyou,demoiselle,asfaithfulalover,toasfairalady。”
"Nay,"shesaid,reddening。"Thisishightreason,andwellyouwotthatyouholdnoladyhalfsofairasyourown。AreyouScotssosmooth-spoken?Youhavenotthatrepute。Now,whatwouldyougivetoseethatlady?"
"AllthatIhave,whichislittlebutmyserviceandgoodwill。ButsheknowsnotwhereIam,norknowIhowshefares,whichirksmemorethanallmymisfortunes。WouldthatIcouldsendalettertoherfather,andtellhimhowIdo,andaskoftheirtidings。”
"TheDauphinisatTours,"shesaid,"andthereismuchcomingandgoingbetweenToursandthistown。FortheMaidisinstantwiththeDauphintorideforthwithtoReims,andtherebesacredandcrowned;
butnowhelistensandbelieves,andanonhiscounsellorstellhimthatthisisfoolhardy,andathingimpossible。”
"Otheyoflittlefaith!"Isaid,sighing。
"Nonetheless,wordhascomethattheMaidhasbeeninheroratoryatprayers,andaVoicefromheavenhascalledtoher,saying,"FilledeDieu,va,va,va!Jeseraientonaide。Va!"{27}TheDauphinismuchconfirmedinhisfaithbythissign,andhasvowedthathewillindeedmarchwiththeMaidtoReims,thoughhisenemiesholdallthatcountrywhichliesbetween。ButfirstshemusttakethetownswhichtheEnglishholdonLoireside,suchasJargeau。
NowonJargeau,whileyoulayknowingnothing,theBastardofOrleans,andXaintrailles,andothergoodknights,madeanonslaught,andwonnothingbutlossfortheirpains,thoughtheyslewMessireHenryBisset,thecaptainofthetown。ButiftheMaidtakesJargeau,theDauphinwillindeedbelieveinherandfollowher。”
"Heishardofhearttobelieve,andwouldthatIwerewhereheshouldbe——underherholypennon,forthereon,atleast,Ishouldseethefacepaintedofmylady。Buthowdoesallthisbringmenearerthehopeofhearingabouther,andhowshefares?"
"TherearemanymessengerscomingandgoingtoTours,fortheDauphinisgatheringforceundertheMaid,andhassetthefairDucd'Alencontobeherlieutenant,withtheBastard,andLaHire,andMessireFlorentd'Illiers。AndallaretobehereinOrleanswithinfewdays;whereforenowwritetothefatherofthylady,andIwillmyselfwritetoher。”Withthatshegavemepaperandpen,andI
inditedalettertomymaster,tellinghimhowIhadlainneartodeathofmyoldwound,inOrleans,andthatIprayedhimofhisgoodnesstoletmeknowhowhedid,andtolaymeatthefeetofmylady。ThenCharlotteshowedmeherletter,whereinshebadeElliotknowthatIhadhardlyrecovered,afterwinningmuchfameforsoshesaidandaransomofgoldfromanEnglishprisoner,whichnowlayinthehandsofherfather,theDuke'streasurer。ThenshesaidthatawordfromElliot,nottosaythesightofherface,thefairestintheworldathingbeyondhope,wouldbeofmoreavailformyhealingthanallthePharaohpowdersoftheapothecaries。
These,intruth,Ihadnevertaken,butputthemawaysecretly,asdoubtingwhethersuchmedicaments,theverydustofthepersecutingEgyptianandidolatrousrace,werefitforaChristiantoswallow,withanyhopeofablessing。Thusmykindnurseended,callingherselfmylady'ssisterintheloveofFranceandoftheMaid,andbiddingmyladybemindfulofsotruealover,wholaysickforatokenatherhands。Theselettersshesealed,andintrustedtoColetdeVienne,theroyalmessenger,thesamewhorodefromVaucouleurstoChinon,inthebeginningoftheMaid'smission,andwho,asthen,wasfaringtoTourswithlettersfromOrleans。
Meanwhileallthetownwasfullofjoy,inearlyJune,becausetheMaidwastovisitthecity,withD'AlenconandtheBastard,onherwaytobesiegeJargeau。ItwasJunetheninth,intheyearofourLordfourteenhundredandtwenty-nine,thesunshiningwarminaclearbluesky,andallthebellsofOrleansa-ringing,towelcomebacktheMaiden。Imyselfsatinthewindow,overthedoorway,alonewithCharlottesittingbymyside,forherfatherhadgonetotheHoteldeVille,withhermother,towelcomethecaptains。Belowuswerehangingsofrichcarpets,tomakethehouselookgay,foreveryhousewasadornedinthebestmanner,andflagsfloatedinthelongstreet,andflowersstrewedtheroad,todohonourtoourdeliverer。Thuswewaited,andpresentlythesoundofmusicfilledtheair,withfragranceofincense,forthepriestswerewalkinginfront,swingingcensersandchantingtheTeDeumlaudamus。Andthencameacompanyofgirlsstrewingflowers,andfairboysblowingontrumpets,andnext,onablackhorse,inwhitearmour,withahucqueofscarletbroideredwithgold,theblessedMaidherself,unhelmeted,glancingeverywaywithherhappyeyes,whilethewomenrantotouchherarmourwiththeirrings,astoasaint,andthemenkissedhermailedfeet。
Tobealive,andtofeelmylifereturninginafloodofstrengthandjoyinthatsweetair,withthegladnessofthemultitudepulsingthroughitasaman'sheartbeatsinhisbody,seemedtomelikeParadise。ButoutofParadiseourfirstparentsweredrivenlongago,asanonIwastobefrommine。For,astheMaidpassed,I
doffedmycapandwavedit,sincetoshout"Noel"withtherest,I
darednot,becauseofmyinfirmity。Now,itsofellthat,glancingaround,shesawandknewme,andbowedtome,withagestureofherhand,asqueenlyasifshe,amanant'schild,hadbeenadaughterofFrance。Atthatmoment,notingtheMaid'scourtesytowardsme,Charlottestoodupfrombesideme,withahandfulofredroses,whichshethrewtowardsher。Asitchanced,belikebecauseshewasproudtobewithonewhomtheMaidhonoured,ortosteadyherselfasshethrew,shelaidherlefthandaboutmyneck,andsostanding,castherflowers,andthenlookedlaughingbackintomyeyes,withahappyface。TherosesmissedtheMaid,whosehorsecaracoledatthatmomentasshewentby,buttheylitinthelapofadamselthatrodeatherrein,onalyart{28}palfrey,andshelookingup,IsawthefaceofElliot,andElliotsawme,andsawCharlotteleaningonmeandlaughing。ThenElliot'sfacegrewdeadlypale,herlowerlipstiff,aswhenshewasangeredwithmeatChinon,andso,wryinghernecksuddenlytotheleft,sherodeonherway,noreverlookedtowardsusagain。
"Whomaythatprouddamselbe,andwhatailsheratmyroses?"quothCharlotte,sittingherselfdownagainandstillfollowingthemwithhereyes。"MethinksIhaveseenherfacebefore;andwhatailsyou?"sheasked,lookingearnestlyonme,"foryouareaswhiteasthelastsnowereitmeltsinspring。”
Ihadgoodreasontobepale,forIverywellguessedthatElliot,havingriddenintheMaiden'scompanytoseeme,andtosurprisemewiththeunlooked-forgladnessofhercoming,hadmarkedCharlotteasshesoinnocentlyleanedonmeandlaughedtome,andhadconceivedangeragainstusboth,forofatruthCharlottewasveryfairandofajoyousaspect。Yet,takensosuddenlyasIwas,betweentheextremeofdelightinlookingonmyladybeyondhope,andtheverydeepofsorrowthatshehadsobitterlyslightedme,I
wasyetwaryofbetrayingmyself。Forthegirlbesidemehad,inallhonestandmaidenlyservicethatwomanmaydoforman,beenkindertomethanasister,andnothoughtorwordofearthlylovehadeverpassedbetweenus。ThatsheshouldwotofElliot'sanger,andofitscause,andsoholdmyladylightly,ay,andtriumphoverherinherheartasisthenatureofawoman,herministrybeingthuschurlishlyrepaid,wasmorethanIcouldendure。So,maythesaintsforgiveme!Ilied,anditisastrangething,buttrue,thathowsoeveragentlemanmayhatetheverythoughtofalie,yetoftenhefindsithardtotellthetruthtoawoman。
"DoIlookwhite?"Isaid。"ThenitisbecauseIhaveasuddenpangofsorrow。ForonemomentIdeemedthatprouddamselwastheladyofmylove,whom,inverity,shemoststrangelyfavours,sothatyoumightthinkthemsisters。Butalas!sheisbutthedaughterofagoodScotsknightatChinon,whomIhaveseentherebeforeto-day,andmarvelledhowmuchsheandmyladyfavoureachother。ThereforeamIpale,becausethathopeofmineisbroken。Andyouknowherface,belike,frommypoorpictureofmylady。”
Charlottelookedatmesteadily,andflushedred;buteventhen,onewhorodebyamongthemen-at-armsnotedme,and,wavinghisarmtowardsme,criedinaloudvoice-
"Hail,fairson,soonwillIbewiththee!"andso,turninginhissaddletowatchme,helaughedaloudlaughandrodeonwards。Hewasmymaster,andasmyeyesfollowedhim,Charlottespoke。
"AndwhoisthatgreatScot,withhisScotstwangofthetongue,whocalledyou'son'?BytheMass,shewasyourlady,andyonderwightisherfather,ofwhomyouhavespokentomemorethanonce";for,indeed,Ihadtoldherallthestoryofmyloves。
ThenIwasconfused,forIcouldnolongerdenythetruth,andnothavingonewordtosay,Isighedfrommyheart。
"Ofaint-spiritedman-at-arms!"criedCharlotte,blushing,andlaughingasifsomeexquisitejestwereabroad。"Doyousoterriblydreadyourmistress'sanger?Nay,beofgoodcheer!Meshewillneverforgivewhiletheworldstands;forhaveInotbeenyournurse,andwonyoubacktolifeandtoherservice?Andhasshenotseenustwaintogetherinoneplace,andhappy,becauseofthecomingoftheMaid?Shewillpardonmenever,because,alsoformysake,shehasbeenwrothwithyou,andshownyouherwrath,andallwithoutacause。Thereforeshewillbeashamed,andallthemorecruel。Nay,norwouldIforgiveher,inthesamecase,ifitbefellme,forwewomenareallalike,heartsofwolveswhenwelove!Hastthounevermarkedacatthathadkittens,orabrachetthathadwhelps,howtheywillflyatmanorhorsethatdrawsneartheirbrood,evenunwittingly。Andso,whenwelove,areweall,andthebestofusarethentheworst。Verilythefriendshipofyouandmeisoveranddone;butforyourpartbeglad,notsorry,forwithallherheartandsoulshelovesyou。Elseshehadnotbeenangered。”
"Youmustnotspeak,norIhear,suchwordsofmylady,"Isaid;"itisnotseemly。”
"Suchwordsofyourlady,andofAymeric'slady,andofGiles'slady,andofmyselfwereIanyman'slady,asIamnoman'slady,I
willthinkandspeak,"saidCharlotte,"formywordsaretrue,andwemaidsare,atbest,prettyfools,andGodwilledustobesoforawhile,andthentobewiserthantherestofyou。For,werewenotpretty,wouldyouwedus?andwerewenotfools,wouldwewedyou?andwherewouldGod'sworldbethen?Butnowyouhaveheardenoughofmywisdom:forIlovenoman,beingverywise;oryouhaveheardenoughofmyfollythatmymirthbidsmespeak,asyoushalldeemit。Andnow,wemustconsiderhowthisgreatfeudmaybeclosed,andthefoessetatoneagain。”
"ShallIfindoutherlodgings,andbecarriedthitherstraightwayinalitter?HerheartmaybesoftenedwhensheseesthatIcannotwalkormountahorse?"
"Now,letmethinkwhatIshoulddeem,ifIhadriddenby,unlookedfor,andspiedmyloverwithamaid,notunfriendly,orperchanceuncomely,sittingsmilinginagallantbalcony。WouldIbeappeasedwhenhecamestraighttoseekme,borneinalitter?WouldI——?"
Andshemused,herfingerathermouth,andherbrowpuckered,butwithasmileonherlipsandinhereyes。
ThenI,seeinghersofair,yetbymesoundesired;andbeholdinghersomerry,whilemyheartwasamazedwiththeworstsorrow,andconsidering,too,thatbutforherallthiswouldneverhavebeen,butIsittinghappybymylady'sside,——thinkingonallthis,Isay,Iturnedfromherangrily,asifIwouldleavethebalcony。
"Nay,wait,"shecried,"forImustseealltheshowout,andherecometheScotsGuard,thyfriends,andIneedtimetotakecounselwithmywisdomonthisweightymatter。See,theyknowyou";and,indeed,manyamaninthatgallantarraywavedhishandtomemerrily,astheyfiledpastundertheirbanners——theDouglas'sbloodyheart,theCrescentmoonofHarden,theNapier'ssheafofspears,theblazonsofLindsaysandLeslies,Homes,andHepburns,andStuarts。ItwasasighttoputlifeintothedyingbreastofaScotinastrangecountry,andallwerestrongmenandyoung,ruddyandbrownofcheek,highofheartandheavyofhand。Andmostbeckonedtome,andpointedonwardstothatwaywhithertheywerebound,inchaseoffameandfortune。Allthismighthavemadeasickmanwhole,butmyspiritwasdeadwithinme,sothatIcouldscarcebeckonbacktothem,orevenremembertheirfaces。
"WouldIforgiveyou,"saidCharlotte,aftershehadthrowntheremnantofherrosestoherfriendsamongtheScots,"ifyouhurriedtome,pale,andborneinalitter?Nay,methinksnot,ornotforlong;andthenIshouldlayitonyounevertoseeherfaceagain;——
sheisI,youknow,forthenonce。Butifyouwaitedanddidnotcome,thenmypridemightyieldatlength,andIsendforyou。Butthen,ifso,methinksIwouldhateherthatis,memorethanever。
Oh,itisahardcasewhenmaidsareangry!"
"Youspeakofyourself,howyouwoulddothisorthat;butmyladyisotherthanyou,andpitiful。Didshenotcomealltheseleaguesatawordfromme,hearingthatIwassick?"
"Atawordfromyou,goodyouth!Nay,atawordfromme!Didyouspeakofmeinyourlettertoherfather?"
"Nay!"saidI。
"Youdidwell。AndthereforeitwasthatIwrote,forIknewshewouldmoveheavenandearthandtheMaidorshewouldcomewhensheheardofanotherlassbeinginyourcompany。Nay,trustme,wewomenunderstandeachother,andshewouldasktheMaid,wholodgedherewithus,whatmanneroflassIwastolookupon,andtheMaid'sanswerwouldbringher。”
"Youhavebeenkind,"Isaid。"AndtoyouandthesaintsIoweitthatIyetlivetocarryasoreheartandbetormentedwithyourilltongue。”