Itwaspastmidnightwhenthepriestwasawakenedfromhissleepbyaknockonthedoor。Hewrappedhisgreatbuffalo-coatabouthim,andansweredthesummons。
WithoutinthedampdarknessstoodPierre。
"Father,"hecried,"Ninonhassentforyou。Sincesheleftyou,shehasbeenveryill。IhavedonewhatIcould;butnowshehardlyspeaks,butImakeoutthatshewantsyou。”Tenminuteslater,theywereinNinon'scabin。WhenFatherdeSmetlookedatherheknewshewasdying。HehadseentheIndianslikethatmanytimesduringthewinter。Itwastheplague,butdrivenintopreyuponthesystembytheexposure。TheParisienne'steethwereset,butshemanagedtosmileuponhervisitorashethrewoffhiscoatandbentoverher。
Hepouredsomewhiskeyforher;butshecouldnotgettheliquidoverherthroat。
"Donot,"shesaidfiercelybetweenthosesetwhiteteeth,"donotforgetthelilies。”Shesankbackandfixedherglazingeyesontheantlers,andkeptthemtherewatchingthosedanglingsilkenscarves,whilethepriest,inhaste,spokethewordsforthedepartingsoul。
Thenextmorningshelaydeadamongthosehalfbarbaricrelicsofhercoquetry,andtwowhitelilieswithheartsofgoldshedperfumefromanaltarinawilderness。
UptheGulch"GOWest?"sighedKate。"Why,yes!I'dliketogoWest。”
Shelookedatthebabies,whowereplay-
ingonthefloorwiththeirfather,andsighedagain。
"You'vegottogosomewhere,youknow,Kate。Itmightaswellbewestasinanyotherdirection。Andthisissuchachance!
Wecan'thavemammalyingaroundonsofaswithoutanyrosesinhercheeks,canwe?"Heputthislasttothechildren,who,beingyetattheagewhentheytalkedin"EarlyEnglish,"astheirfathercalledit,madeaclamorousbutinarticulatereply。
MajorShelly,thegrandfatheroftheseveryyoungpersons,strokedhismustacheandlookedindulgent。
"Showalmosthumanintelligence,don'tthey?"saidtheirfather,ashelayflatonhisbackandpermittedthebabiestoclimboverhim。
"Ya-as,"drawledthemajor。"Theydo。
Don'tseehowyouaccountforit,Jack。”
Jackroared,andthelipsofthebabiestrembledwithfear。
Theirmothersaidnothing。Shewasonthesofa,herhandslyinginert,hereyesfixedonherrosybabieswithanexpressionwhichherfather-in-lawandherhusbandtriedhardnottonotice。
ItwasnoteasytotellwhyKatewasailing。Ofcourse,thebabieswereyoung,buttherewereotherreasons。
"Ibelieveyou'retoohappy,"Jacksome-
timessaidtoher。"Trynottobequitesohappy,Kate。Atleast,trynottotakeyourhappinesssoseriously。Pleasedon'tadoremeso;I'monlyacommonplacefellow。Andthebabies——they'renotgoingtoblowaway。”
ButKatecontinuedtolookwithintenseeyesatherlittleworld,andtodrawintoitwithlovingandgeneroushandsallwhowerewillingtocome。
"Kateisjustlikeakite,"Jackexplainedtohisfather,themajor;"shecan'tkeepafloatwithoutjustsomanybobs。”
Kate's"bobs"weretheunfortunatesshecollectedaroundher。Theseabsorbedherstrength。Shefelttheirmiserywithsym-
pathiesthatwereabnormal。Theverylaborerinthestreetsfelthistoillesskeenlythanshe,asshewatchedthedropsgatheronhisbrow。
"Islifeworthkeepingatthecostofalotlikethat?"shewouldask。Shefeltashamedofherownease。Sheapologizedforherownsereneandperfecthappiness。
Sheevenfeltsorryforthosemotherswhohadnotchildrenasradiantlybeautifulasherown。
"Katemusthaveachange,"themajorhadgivenout。HewasgoingWestonbusinessandinsistedontakingherwithhim。Jacklookeddoubtful。Hewasn'tsurehowhewouldgetalongwithoutKatetolookaftereverything。Secretly,hehadanideathatservantswereakindofwildanimalthathadtobefedbyanexperiencedkeeper。Butwhenthetimecame,hekissedhergood-byinasjocularamannerashecouldsummon,andrefusedtoseethetearsthatgatheredinhereyes。
UntilChicagowasreached,therewasnothingverydifferentfromthatwhichKatehadbeeninthehabitofseeing。
Afterthat,shesetherselftowatchforWesterncharacteristics。Shefeltthatshewouldknowthemassoonasshesawthem。
"Iexpectedtobestirredupandshocked,"
sheexplainedtothemajor。Butsomehow,theWesterntypedidnotappear。Common-
placewomenwithwornfaces——brownedandseamed,thoughnotaged——wereatthestations,waitingforsomethingorsomeone。Menwithahurried,nervousairwereeverywhere。KatelookedinvainforthegayetyandheartinesswhichshehadalwaysassociatedwiththeWest。
Aftertheygotbeyondthetimbercountryandrodehourafterhouronatractsmoothasabecalmedocean,shegaveherselfuptothefeelingofimmeasurablevastnesswhichtookpossessionofher。Thesunrolledoutoftheskyintooblivionwithafrantic,head-
longhaste。Nothingsoftenedtheaspectofitswrath。Near,red,familiar,itseemedtovisiblybowlalongtheheavens。Inthemorningitroseasbaldlyasithadset。
Andbackandforthovertheawfulplainblewthewinds,——blewfromeasttowestandbackagain,strongasiffreshfromthechambersoftheirbirth,fullofelementalscentsandofmightymurmurings。
"ThisistheWest!"Katecried,againandagain。
Themajorlistenedtoherunsmilingly。
Italwaysseemedtohimawasteofmuscu-
larenergytosmile。Hedidnottalkmuch。
Conversationhadneverappealedtohiminthelightofanart。Hespokewhentherewasadirectionoracommandtobegiven,oraninquirytobemade。Themajor,ifthetruthmustbeknown,wasmaterial。
Thingsthathecouldtaste,touch,see,appealedtohim。Hehadbeenavolunteerinthecivilwar,——avolunteerwithagoodrecord,——whichhenevermentioned;and,havingacquittedhimselfdecently,letthemattergowithoutaskingreprisalorpay-
mentforwhathehadfreelygiven。Hewentintobusinessandsoldcerealfoods。
"Ibelieveinusefulthings,"themajorexpressedhimself。"Oatmeal,wheat,——
menhavetohavethem。Godintendedtheyshould。There'sJack——myson——
JackShelly——lawyer。What'stheuseoflitigation?Goddidn'tdesignlitigation。
Itdoesn'tdoanybodyanygood。Itisn'tjusticeyouget。It'ssomethingentirelydifferent,——averdictaccordingtolaw。
TheysayJack'sclever。ButI'mmightygladIsellwheat。”
Hedidn'tsellitasaspeculator,how-
ever。Thatwasn'thisway。
"IearnwhatImake,"heoftensaid;andhehadgrownrichinthesellingofhiswholesomefoods……
Helenaliesamonground,brownhills。
Aboveitisaskyofdeepandillimitableblue。Inthestreetsarecrumbsofgold,butitnolongerpaystomineforthese;
because,asrealestate,thepropertyismorevaluable。Itisaplaceoffictitiousvalues。
Thereisexcitementintheair。Menhavethefacesofspeculators。Everylaborerispatientathistaskbecausehecherishesahopethatsomedayhewillbeamillion-
naire。Thereishospitality,andcordialityandgoodfellowship,andanundeniabledemocracy。Thereiswealthandluxuriousliving。Thereisevenculture,——butitisobtrudedasasortofnovelty;itisnotacceptedasamatterofcourse。
Kateandthemajorweredrivenovertwoorthreemilesofdusty,hardroadtoadis-
tanthotel,whichstandsinthemidstofgreenness,——inanoasis。Immediatelyabovethegreenswardthatsurroundsitthebrownhillsrise,thegrassscorchedbythesun。
Kateyieldedherselftothealmostabsurdluxuryoftheplacewitheaseandcompla-
cency。Shetookkindlytothegreatveran-
das。Sheadaptedherselftotheelaborateandill-assortedmeals。Shebathedinthemarvellouspool,warmwiththeheatofeternalfiresinmid-earth。ThispoolwascoveredwithapicturesqueMoorishstruct-
ure,andatoneendacascadetumbled,overwhichthesun,comingthroughcoloredwin-
dows,madeamimicprisminthewhitespray。Thelifewasnotunendurable。Themajorwasseldomwithher,beingobligedtogoabouthisbusiness;andKateamusedherselfbydrivingoverthehills,bywatch-
ingtheinhabitants,bywonderingaboutthelivesinthegreat,pretentious,unhomelikehouseswiththeirtreelessyardsandtheirclosedshutters。Thesunlight,whiteastheglareonArabiansands,penetratedeverywhere。Itseemedtofairlyscorchtheeye-balls。
"Oh,we'reWest,now,"Katesaid,exult-
antly。"I'veseenathousandtypes。Butyet——notquiteTHEtype——nottheimper-
sonationofsimplicityanddaringthatIwaslookingfor。”
Themajordidn'tknowquitewhatshewastalkingabout。Butheacquiesced。
Allhecaredaboutwastoseehergrowstronger;andthatshewasdoingeveryday。
Shewasgrowingamazinglylovely,too,——
atleastthemajorthoughtso。Everyonelookedather;butthatwas,perhaps,be-
causeshewassuchasylphofawoman。
Besidethestalwartmajor,shelookedlikeafairyprincess。
Onedayshesuddenlyrealizedthefactthatshehadhadacompanionontheverandaforseveralmornings。Ofcourse,therewereagreatmanypersons——invalids,largely——sittingabout,butoneofthemhadbeenobtrudinghimselfpersistentlyintoherconsciousness。Itwasnotthathewasrude;itwasonlythathewasthinkingabouther。ApersonwithatemperamentlikeKate'scouldnotlongbeoblivioustoathinglikethat;andshefurtivelyobservedtheoffenderwiththatgeniusforpsycho-
logicalperceptionwhichwasatoncehergreatestdangerandhercharm。
Themanwasdressedwithachildishattemptatdisplay。Hisshirt-frontwasdecoratedwithadiamond,andhiscuff-
buttonswereofonyxwithdiamondsettings。
Hisclotheswereexpensiveandperceptiblynew,andheoftenchangedhiscostumes,butwithanoticeabledisregardforpro-
priety。Hewasveryconsciousofhissilkhat,andfrequentlywipeditwithahandker-
chiefonwhichhismonogramwasworkedinblue。
Whenthe'bussesbroughtuptheirloads,hewasalwaysonhandtowatchthenew-
comers。Hetookalongtimeathisdin-
ners,andappearedtoorderagreatdealandeatverylittle。Therewerecard-roomsandabilliard-hall,nottomentionabowling-
alleyandatennis-court,wheretheotherguestsofthehotelspentmuchtime。Butthismannevervisitedthem。Hesatoftenwithoneofthelatereviewsinhishand,lookingasifheintendedgivinghisatten-
tiontoitatanymoment。Butafterhehadscrupulouslycuttheleaveswithalittlecarvedivorypaper-cutter,hesatstaringstraightbeforehimwiththebookopen,butunread,inhishand。
Katetookmoreinterestinthismelan-
choly,middle-agedmanthanshewouldhavedoneifshehadnotbeenontheout-
lookforherWesterntype,——themanwhowastocombineallthequalitiesofchivalry,daring,bombast,andgenerosity,seasonedwithpiquantgrammar,whichshefirmlybelievedtobetherealthing。Butnotwith-
standingthiskindlyandsomewhatcuriousinterest,shemightneverhavemadehisacquaintanceifithadnotbeenforaratherunpleasantadventure。
Themajorwas"closingupadeal"andhadhurriedawayafterbreakfast,andKate,intheluxuryofconvalescence,half-reclinedinagreatchairontheverandaandwatchedtheduskybluemisttwiningitselfaroundthebrownhills。Shewasnotthinkingofthebabies;shewasnotworryingabouthome;shewasnotlongingforanything,orevenindulginginadream。Thatvacuouscontentwhichengrossesthebodyafterlongindisposition,heldherimperatively。Sud-
denlyshewasarousedfromthishappycon-
ditionofnothingnessbythespectacleofanenormousbull-dogapproachingherwiththreateningteeth。Shehadnoticedthemonsterofteninhiskennelnearthesta-
bles,anditwaswellunderstoodthathewasnevertobepermittedhisfreedom。Nowhewalkedtowardherwithasolidstepandanalarmingdeliberateness。Katesatstillandtriedtoassureherselfthathemeantnomis-
chief,butbythetimethegreatbodyhadmadeitselffeltontheskirtofhergownshecouldrestrainherfearnolonger,andgaveanervouscryofalarm。Thebruteansweredwithagrowl。Ifhehadlackedprovocationbefore,heconsideredthathehaditnow。
Heshowedhisteethandflunghisdetestablebodyuponher;andKatefeltherselfgrow-
ingdizzywithfear。Butjustthenanarmwasinterposedandthedogwasflungback。
Therewasamomentarystruggle。Somegentlemencamehurryingoutoftheoffice;
andastheybeatthedogbacktoitsretreat,Katesummonedwordsfromherparchedthroattothankherbenefactor。
Itwasthemelancholymanwiththenewclothes。Thismorninghewasdressedinasuitofthelightestgray,withawhitemarseilleswaistcoat,overwhichhisglitter-
ingchainshoneostentatiously。Whitetennis-shoes,awhiteroseinhisbutton-
hole,andawhitestrawhatinhishandcom-
pletedatoiletoverwhichmuchtimehadevidentlybeenspent。Katenotedthesedetailsassheheldoutherhand。
"Imayhavebeenalarmedwithoutcause,"
shesaid;"butIwashorriblyfrightened。
Thankyousomuchforcomingtomyres-
cue。AndIthink,ifyouwouldaddtoyourkindnessbygettingmeaglassofwater——"
Whenhecameback,hishandwastrem-
blingalittle;andasKatelookeduptolearnthecause,shesawthathisfacewasflushed。Hewasembarrassed。Shedecidedthathewasnotaccustomedtothesocietyofladies。"Bruteslikethatdogain'tnoplaceinth'world——that'smyopinion。
Therearesomebadthingswecan'thelphavin'aroun';butabull-dogain'toneof'em。”
"Iquiteagreewithyou,"Kateacqui-
esced,asshedrankthewater。"ButasthisisthefirstunpleasantexperienceofanykindthatIhavehadsinceIcamehere,Idon'tfeelthatIhaveanyrighttocomplain。”
"You'reherefuryurhealth?"
"Yes。AndIamgettingit。You'renotaninvalid,Iimagine?"
"No——no-op。I'mherebe——well,I'vethoughtfuralongtimeI'dliket'stayatthisherehotel。”
"Indeed!"
"Yes。I'vebeenupth'gulchthesefif-
teenyears。Binlivin'onashelfofblackrock。
Th'sungot'round'boutten。Couldn'tmakeathinggrow。”Themanwaslook-
ingofftowardthehills,withanexpressionofdeepsadnessinhiseyes。"Didn'tneverliveinaplacewherenothin''dgrow,didyou?Itookgeraniumsupthartimean'timeagin。Redones。Mademethinkofmother;she'sinGermany。Watered'emmornin'an'night。Th'damnedthingsdied。”
Theoathslippedoutwithanartlessun-
consciousness,andtherewasalittlemoist-
ureinhiseyes。Katefeltsheoughttobringtheconversationtoaclose。ShewonderedwhatJackwouldsayifhesawhertalkingwithaperfectstrangerwhousedoaths!Shewouldhavegoneintothehousebutforsomethingthatcaughthereye。Itwasthehandoftheman;thathandwasabludgeon。Allgraceandflexibilityhadgoneoutofit,andithadbecomeamereinstrumentoftoil。Itwasseamedandmisshapen;yetithadbeencarefullymani-
cured,andthepointednailslookedfantasticandanimal-like。Agreatseal-ringboreanelaboratemonogram,whilethelittlefingerdisplayedacollectionofdiamondsandemeraldstrulydazzlingtobehold。Animpulseofhumanityandasortofartisticcuriosity,muchstrongerthanherdiscretion,urgedKatetocontinueherconversation。
"Whatwereyoudoingupthegulch?"
shesaid。
Themanleanedbackinhischairandregardedheramomentbeforeanswering。
Herealizedthesignificanceofherquestion。
Hetookitasasignthatshewaswillingtobefriendly。Alookofgratitude,almosttender,sprangintohiseyes,——dullgrayeyes,theywere,withakindlinessfortheironlyrecommendation。
"Makin'mypile,"hereplied。"I'vebeeninthesepartstwentyyears。WhenI
comehere,IthoughtIwasgoin'tomakeafortunerightoff。Ihadallth'moneythatmothercouldgiveme,andIlosteverythingI
hadinthreemonths。Iwentupth'gulch。”
Hepaused,andwipedhisforeheadwithhishandkerchief。
TherewassomethinginhisremarkandtheintonationwhichmadeKatesaysoftly:
"Isupposeyou'vehadahardtimeofit。”
"Tharyouwere!"hecried。"Tharwasth'rock——risin',risin',black!Atth'
bottomwusth'creek,howlin'dayan'
night!Lonesome!Gee!Noonet'talkto。Ofcourse,th'men。Hadsomewithmealways。Theydidn'ttalk。It'stoo——
tooquiett'talkmuch。Theyplayedcards。
Curious,butIneverplayedcards。Don'tthinkI'dfinditamusin'。No,Iworked。
Camedownhereonceinsixmonthsorthreemonths。Hadt'come——grub-stakedth'men,youknow。Didyouevereatsaltpork?"HeturnedtoKatesuddenlywiththisquestion。
"Why,yes;afewtimes。Didyouhaveit?"
"Nothin'else,much。Iusedt'thinkofth'thingsmothercooked。Motherunder-
stoodcookin',ifeverawomandid。I'llneverforgetth'dinnershegavemeth'dayIcameaway。Awomanoughtt'cook。I
hearAmericanwomendon'tgoinmuchforcookin'。”
"Oh,Ithinkthat'samistake,"Katehastenedtointerrupt。"AllthatIknowun-
derstandhowtoserveexcellentdinners。Ofcourse,theymaynotcookthemthemselves,butIthinktheycouldifitwerenecessary。”
"Hum!"HepickedupalongglovethathadfallenfromKate'slapandfingereditbeforereturningit。
"Is'poseyoucook?"
"Imakeaspecialtyofsaladsandsor-
bets,"smiledKate。"IguessIcouldroastmeatandmakebread;butcircumstanceshavenotyetcompelledmetodoit。ButI'veatheorythatanAmericanwomancandoanythingsheputshermindto。”
Themanlaughedoutloud,——alaughquiteoutofproportiontothemildgoodhumoroftheremark;butitwasevidentthathecouldnolongerconcealhisdelightatthiscompanionship。
"Howaboutraisin'flowers?"heasked。
"Areyoustrongonthat?"
"I'veonlytolookataplanttomakeitgrow,"Katecried,withenthusiasm。
"Whenmyfriendsareindespairoveraplant,theybringittome,andIjustpetitalittle,anditbrightensup。I'vethemostwonderfulferneryyoueversaw。It'sgreen,summerandwinter。Hundredsofpeoplestopandlookupatit,itissogreenandenticing,thereabovethecitystreets。”
"Whatcity?"
"Philadelphia。”
"Mother'sjestthatway。Shehasagar-
denofroses。Andthemignonette——"
Buthebrokeoffsuddenly,andsatoncemorestaringbeforehim。
"Butnotadamnedthing,"headded,withpoeticpensiveness,"wouldgrowinthatgulch。”
"Whydidyoustaytheresolong?"askedKate,afteralittlepauseinwhichsheman-
agedtoregainherwaningcourage。
"Badluck。Youneverseeaplacewithsomanyfalseleads。To-dayyou'dgetastreakthatlookedbig。To-morrowyou'dfinditapocket。OnenightI'dgot'bedwithmyheartgoin'likearace-horse。
Nextnightitwouldbeploddin'alonglikeawindedburro。Don'tknowwhatmademestickt'it。Itwashotthere,too!Andcold!Alwaysroastin'urfreezin'。It'dbeendifferentifI'dhadanyonet'helpmestandit。Butth'menwerealwaysfindin'
fault。Theyblamedmefureverythin'。I
usedt'lieawakeatnightan'hear'emtalkin'meover。Itmademelonesome,I
tellyou!Tharwasn'tnoone!Motherusedt'write。ButInevertoldherth'
truth。Sheain'tasuspicionofwhatI'vebeena-goin'through。”
Katesatandlookedathiminsilence。
Hisfacewasseamed,thoughfarfromold。
Hisbodywasawkward,butimpressedherwithasenseofmagnificentstrength。
"Icouldn'tasknowomant'sharemyhardtimes,"heresumedafteratime。"I
alwayssaidwhenIgotawoman,itwasgoin't'bet'makeherhappy。Itwer'n'tt'bet'askhert'drudge。”
Therewasanothersilence。Thismanoutofthesolitudeseemedtobeelatedpastexpressionathisnewcompanionship。HelookedwithappreciationatthelittlepointedtoesofKate'sslippers,astheyglancedfrombelowtheskirtofherdaintyorgandie。Henotedthebandofpearlsonherfinger。Hiseyesrestedlongonthedaisiesatherwaist。
Thewindtosseduplittlecurlsofherwarmbrownhair。Hereyessuffusedwithinter-
est,hertendermouthseemedreadytolenditselftoanyemotion,andwithalshewassosmall,socompact,soexquisite。Themanwipedhisforeheadagain,inmereexuberance。
"Here'smycard,"hesaid,verysolemnly,ashedrewanengravedbitofpasteboardfromitsleathercase。Katebowedandtookit。
"Mr。PeterRoeder,"sheread。
"I'venocard,"shesaid。"MynameisShelly。I'mhereformyhealth,asItoldyou。”Sheroseatthispoint,andheldoutherhand。"Imustthankyouoncemoreforyourkindness,"shesaid。
Hiseyesfastenedonherswithanappealforalessformalword。Therewassomethingalmostterribleintheirsilenteloquence。
"Ihopewemaymeetagain,"shesaid。
Mr。PeterRoedermadeaverylowandawkwardbow,andopenedthedoorintothecorridorforher。
ThateveningthemajorannouncedthathewasobligedtogotoSeattle。Thejourneywasnotaninvitingone;Katewaswellplacedwhereshewas,andhedecidedtoleaveher。
Shewaswellenoughnowtotakelongerdrives;andshefoundstrange,lonelycan-
yons,wildandbeautiful,whereyellowwatersburstthroughrockybarrierswithroarandfury,——tortuous,terribleplaces,suchasshehadneverdreamedof。Comingbackfromoneofthesedrives,twodaysafterherconversationonthepiazzawithPeterRoeder,shemethimridingamassiveroan。
HesattheanimalwiththatairofperfectunconsciousnesswhichistheattributeoftheWesternman,andhisattire,eventohisEnglishstock,wasfaultless,——faultilyfaultless。
"Ihopeyouwon'tobjecttohavin'meridebesideyou,"hesaid,wheelinghishorse。Totellthetruth,Katedidnotobject。Shewasalittledull,andhadbeenconsciousallthemorningofthatpeculiarphysicaldepressionwhichmarksthebegin-
ningofafitofhomesickness。
"Thewindgitsafinesweep,"saidRoeder,afterhavingobtainedthepermis-
sionhedesired。"Nowinthegulchweeitherhadadeadstagnation,orelsethewindwastearin'upanddownlikeawildbeast。”
Katedidnotreply,andtheywentontogether,facingtheriotouswind。
"Youcan'tguesshowqueeritseemst'
behere,"hesaid,confidentially。"Itseemst'measifIhadcomefromsomeotherplanet。Thardon'trightlyseemt'benoplacefurme。Itellyouwhatit'slike。
It'sasifI'dcomedownt'enlistinth'
ranks,an'found'emfull,——everymanmarchin'alonginhisplace,an'noplaceleftfurme。”
Katecouldnotfindareply。
"Iain'tafriend,——notafriend!Iain'tcomplainin'。Itain'tth'faultofanyone——butmyself。Youdon'knowwhatadurnedfoolI'vebin。Someway,uptharinth'gulchIgott'seemin'sosortofimpor-
tantt'myself,andmymakin'mystakeseemedsuchabigthing,thatIthoughtI
hadonlyt'comedownheret'Helenat'
havefolkswantt'knowme。Ididn'tparticularwantth'moneybecauseitwusmoney。Butouthereyouworkfurit,jestasyouworkfurotherthingsinotherplaces,——jestbecauseeveryoneisworkin'furit,andit'sthemanwhogetsth'mostthatbeats。Itain'tthattheyareanymoregreedythanmenanywhereelse。Mypile'saprettygood-sizedone。An'it'slikelytobebigger;butnooneelseseemst'care。
Th'paperprintedsomepiecesaboutit。
Someofth'mencameroundt'seeme;
butIsawtheirgame。IsaidIguessedI'dlookfurtherfurmyacquaintances。I
ain'tspokentoalady,——notareallady,youknow,——t'talkwith,friendlylike,butyou,fur——years。”
Hisfaceflushedinthatsuddenwayagain。
Theywerepassingsomeofthosepreten-
tioushouseswhichriseinthemidstofHelena'sraggedstreetswithsuchanextra-
neousair,andKateleanedforwardtolookatthem。Thedriver,seeingherinterest,drewupthehorsesforamoment。
"Fine,fine!"ejaculatedRoeder。"Buttheyain'tgotnogarden。Ahousedon'tseemanythin't'mewithoutagarden。
DoyouknowwhatIthinkwouldbeth'
mostbeautifulthinginth'world?A
babyinarose-garden!Doyouknow,I
ain'thadababyinmyhands,excep'NedRamsey'slittlekid,once,fortenyear!"
Kate'sfaceshonewithsympathy。
"Howdreadful!"shecried。"Icouldn'tlivewithoutababyabout。”
"Likebabies,doyou?Well,well。
Boys?Likeboys?"
"Notabitbetterthangirls,"saidKate,stoutly。
"Ilikeboys,"respondedRoeder,withconviction。"Mymotherlikedboys。Shehadthreegirls,butshelikedmeadamnedsightthebest。”
Katelaughedoutright。
"Whydoyouswear?"shesaid。"I
neverheardamanswearbefore,——atleast,notonewithwhomIwastalking。That'soneofyourgulchhabits。Youmustgetoverit。”
Roeder'sblondfaceturnedscarlet。
"Youmustexcuseme,"hepleaded。
"I'llcuremyselfofit!Jestgivemeachance。”
ThiswasalittlemorepersonalthanKateapprovedof,andsheraisedherparasoltoconcealherannoyance。Itwasabrilliantlittlefluffofathingwhichlookedasifitweremadeofbutterflies'wings。Roedertoucheditwithawe。
"Youhavesechbeautifulthings,"hesaid。"Ididn'tknowwomenworesechnicethings。Nowthatdress——it'slike——Idon'tknowwhatit'slike。”Itwasasimplelittletaffeta,withwarpandwoofofazureandofcream,andgayknotsofribbonaboutit。
"Wehavetheadvantageofmen,"shesaid。"Ioftenthinkoneofthegreatestdrawbackstobeingamanwouldbethesombreclothes。Iliketoweartheprettiestthingsthatcanbefound。”
"Lace?"queriedRoeder。"Doyoulikelace?"
"Ishouldsayso!Didyoueverseeawomanwhodidn't?"
"Hu——um!ThesewomenI'veknowndon'tknowlace,——thesewivesofth'menouthere。They'reth'onlykindI'veseenthislongtime。”
"Oh,ofcourse,butImean——"
"Iknowwhatyoumean。Mymotherhasachestfulloflinenan'lace。Sheshoweditt'meth'dayIleft。'Peter,'shesaid,'somedayyoubringawifehomewithyou,an'I'llgiveyouthatlacean'thatlinen。'
An'I'mgoin't'doit,too,"hesaidquietly。
"Ihopeso,"saidKate,withhereyesmoist。"Ihopeyouwill,andthatyourmotherwillbeveryhappy。”……
Therewasahopatthehotelthatnight,anditwasalmostamatterofcourtesyforKatetogo。Ladieswereindemand,fortherewerenotverymanyofthematthehotel。Everyonewasexpectedtodohisbesttomakeitasuccess;andKate,notatallaversetoawaltzortwo,dressedherselffortheoccasionwithherhabitualstrivingafterartisticeffect。Shewasoneofthosewomenwhomakeapictureofthemselvesasnaturallyasabirdsings。ShehadanopalnecklacewhichJackhadgivenherbecause,hesaid,shehadasmanymoodsasanopalhadcolors;andsheworethiswithacré;pegown,thetintofthegreenlightsinhernecklace。Aboxofflowerscameforherasshewasdressing;theywerePuritanroses,andPeterRoeder'scardwasinthemidstofthem。Shewasusedtohavingflowersgivenher。Itwouldhaveseemedremark-
ableifsomeonehadnotsentherabouquetwhenshewasgoingtoaball。
"Ishalldancebuttwice,"shesaidtothosewhosoughtherforapartner。
"Neithermorenorless。”
"Ain'tyougoin't'dancewithmeatall?"Roedermanagedtosaytoherinthemidstofherlaughingaltercationwiththegentlemen。
"Dancewithyou!"criedKate。"Howdomenlearntodancewhentheyareupagulch?"
"Ikendance,"hesaidstubbornly。Hewasmortifiedatherchaffing。
"Thenyoumayhavethesecondwaltz,"
shesaid,inquickcontrition。"Nowyouothergentlemenhavebeendancinganynumberoftimestheselastfifteenyears。
ButMr。Roederisjustbackfromahardcampaign,——acampaignagainstfate。Mysecondwaltzishis。AndIshalldancemybest。”
Ithappenedtobejusttherightsortofspeech。Thewomentriedgood-naturedlytomakeRoeder'seveningapleasantone。
Theywerefilledwithcompassionforamanwhohadnotenjoyedthesocietyoftheirsexforfifteenyears。Theyfoundmuchamuse-
mentinleadinghimthroughthesquaredances,theformsofwhichwereutterlyunknowntohim。Buthewaltzedwithasortofseriousalertnessthatwasnotsobadasitmighthavebeen。
Katedancedwell。Herslightbodyseemedasfullofthespiritofthewaltzasathrush'sbodyisofsong。PeterRoedermovedalongwithherinamaze,onlyhalf-
answeringherquestions,hisgrayeyesfullofmystery。
Oncetheystoppedforamoment,andhelookeddownather,aswithflushedfaceshestoodsmilingandwavinghergossamerfan,eachmotionstirringthefrailleavesoftheroseshehadsenther。
"It'scur'ous,"hesaidsoftly,"butIkeepthinkin'aboutthatblackgulch。”
"Forgetit,"shesaid。"Whydoyouthinkofagulchwhen——"Shestoppedwithasuddenrecollectionthathewasnotusedtopersiflage。Butheanticipatedwhatshewasabouttosay。
"Whythinkofthegulchwhenyouarehere?"hesaid。"Why,becauseitisonlyth'gulchthatseemsreal。Allthis,——thesepleasant,politepeople,thisbeautifulroom,th'flowerseverywhere,andyou,andmeasIam,seemasifIwasdreamin'。Tharain'tanythinginitallthatislikewhatI
thoughtitwouldbe。”
"Notasyouthoughtitwouldbe?"
"No。Different。Ithoughtitwouldbe——well,Ithoughtth'peoplewouldnotbequitesohigh-toned。Ihopeyoudon'tmindthatword。”
"Notintheleast,"shesaid。"It'samu-
sicalterm。Itappliesverywelltopeople。”
Theytookupthedanceagainandwaltzedbreathlesslytilltheclose。Katewastired;
theexertionhadbeenalittlemorethanshehadbargainedfor。Shesatverystillontheverandaunderthewhiteglareofanelectricball,andletRoederdothetalking。Herthoughts,inspiteoftheentertainmentshewasderivingfromherpresentexperiences,wouldgobacktothebabies。Shesawthemtuckedwellinbed,eachinalittleironcrib,withthemuslincurtainsshieldingtheirrosyfacesfromthelight。ShewonderedifJackwerereadingaloneinthelibraryorwasattheclub,orperhapsatthesummercon-
cert,withtheswelloftheviolinsinhisears。Jackdidsolovemusic。Asshethoughthowdelicatehisperceptionswere,howherespondedtoeverythingmostsubtleinnatureandinart,ofhowlifeitselfwasafineartwithhim,andjoyathingtobecultivated,sheturnedwithasenseofdeepcompassiontothesimplemanbyherside。
Hisroughfacelookedalittlemoreunat-
tractivethanusual。Hiseveningclotheswerealmostgrotesque。Hisfaceworealookofsolitude,ofhunger。
"Whatwereyousaying?"shesaid,dreamily。"Ibegyourpardon。”
"Iwassayin'howIusedt'dreamofsittin'onthestepsofahotellikethis,andnothavin'athingt'do。WhenIusedt'
comedownhereoutofthegulch,andseemenwhohadhadgooddinners,an'goodbaths,sittin'aroundsmokin',withmoneyt'goovertheret'th'bookstan'an'getany-
thin'they'dwant,itusedt'seemt'meaboutallasinglemancouldwishfur。”
"Well,you'vegotitallnow。”
"ButIdidn'tanyofth'timesupposethatwouldsatisfyamanlong。OnlyIwassodarnedtiredIcouldn'thelpwantin't'
rest。ButI'mnotsoselfishurs'narrowastobesatisfiedwithTHAT。No,I'mnotgoin't'spendm'pilethatway——quite!"
Helaughedoutloud,andthensatinsilencewatchingKateasshelaybackwearilyinherchair。
"I'vegott'havethattheregarden,"hesaid,laughingly。"Gott'getthemroses。
An'I'llhaveabigbath-house,——plentyofspringsinthiscountry。Youkenhaveabathherethatwon'tfreezesummerNOR
winter。An'ababy!I'vegott'haveababy。He'llgowithth'rosesan'th'
bath。”Helaughedagainheartily。
"It'saqueerjoke,isn'tit?"Roederasked。"Talkin'aboutmybaby,an'I
haven'tevenawife。”Hisfaceflushedandheturnedhiseyesaway。
"HaveIshownyouthepicturesofmybabies?"Kateinquired。"You'dlikemyboy,Iknow。Andmygirlisjustlikeme,——inminiature。”
Therewasasilence。Shelookedupafteramoment。Roederappearedtobeexaminingthemonogramonhisringasifhehadneverseenitbefore。
"Ididn'tunderstandthatyouweremar-
ried,"hesaidgently。
"Didn'tyou?Idon'tthinkyouevercalledmebyanynameatall,orIshouldhavenoticedyourmistakeandsetyouright。
Yes,I'mmarried。Icameoutheretogetstrongforthebabies。”
"Gotaboyan'agirl,eh?"
"Yes。”
"Howold'sth'boy?"
"Five。”
"An'th'girl?"
"She'llsoonbefour。”
"An'yerhusband——he'slivin'?"
"Ishouldsayso!I'maveryhappywoman,Mr。Roeder。IfonlyIwerestronger!"
"Yerlookin'muchbetter,"hesaid,gravely,"thanwhenyoucome。You'llbeallright。”
Themoonbegantocomeupscarletbeyondtheeasternhills。Thetwowatcheditinsilence。Katehadafeelingofguilt,asifshehadbeenhurtingsomehelplessthing。
"Iwasinhopes,"hesaid,suddenly,inavoicethatseemedabruptandshrill,"thetyou'dseefitt'stayhere。”
"HereinHelena?Oh,no!"
"Iwasthinkin'I'dofferyouthattwohundredthousanddollars,ifyou'dstay。”
"Mr。Roeder!Youdon'tmean——
surely——"
"Why,yes。Whynot?"Hespokeratherdoggedly。"I'llneverseenootherwomanlikeyou。You'redifferentfromothers。Howgoodyou'vebeent'me!"
"Good!I'mafraidI'vebeenverybad——atleast,verystupid。”
"Isay,now——yourhusband'sgoodt'
you,ain'the?"
"Heisthekindestmanthateverlived。”
"Oh,well,Ididn'tknow。”
AratherawkwardpausefollowedwhichwasbrokenbyRoeder。
"Idon'tseejestwhatI'mgoin't'dowiththatthartwohundredthousanddol-
lars,"hesaid,mournfully。
"Dowithit?Why,livewithit!Sendsometoyourmother。”
"Oh,I'vedonethat。Fivethousanddollars。Itdon'tseemmuchhere;butit'llseemalott'her。I'dsendhermore,onlyitwould'vebotheredher。”
"Thenthereisyourhouse,——thehousewiththebath-room。ButIsupposeyou'llhaveotherrooms?"
Peterlaughedalittleinspiteofhimself。
"IguessIwon'thaveahouse,"hesaid。
"An'Icouldn'tmakeagardenalone。”
"Hireamantohelpyou。”Katewastrembling,butshekepttalkinggayly。Shewasprayingthatnothingveryseriouswouldhappen。Therewasanundercurrentofsom-
brenessintheman'smannerthatfrightenedher。
"IguessI'lljesthavet'keepondreamin'ofthatboyplayin'withth'roses。”
"No,no,"criedKate;"hewillcometruesomeday!Iknowhe'llcometrue。”
Petergotupandstoodbyherchair。
"Youdon'tknownothin'aboutit,"hesaid。"Youdon'tknow,an'youcan'tknowwhatit'sbint'met'talkwithyou。HereIcomeoutofaplacewherethereain'tnosoundbutthewaterandthepines。Yearscomean'go。Stillnosound。Onlythinkin',thinkin',thinkin'!Missin'allth'thingsmencarefur!Dreamin'ofatimewhenIsh'dstriketh'pile。ThenI
seedhome,wife,aboy,flowers,everythin'。
You'resobeautiful,an'you'resogood。
You'veawayofpickin'aman'sheartrightoutofhim。FirsttimeIsetmyeyesonyouIthoughtyouwereth'nicestthingI
eversee!Andhowlittleyouare!Thathandofyours,——lookatit,——it'slikealeaf!An'howeasyyousmile。Upth'
gulchwedidn'tsmile;welaughed,butgen'lybecausesomeonegotinafix。Thenyourvoice!Ah,I'vethoughtfuryearsthatsomedayImighthearavoicelikethat!Don'tyougo!Sitstill!I'mnotblamin'youfuranythin';butImaynever,'slong'sIlive,findanyonewhowillunderstandthingsth'wayyouunder-
stand'em。Here!Itellyouaboutthatgulchan'youseethatgulch。Youknowhowth'rainsoundedthar,an'howth'
shacklooked,an'th'lifeIled,an'allth'
thoughtsIhad,an'th'longnights,an'
th'timeswhen——butnevermind。Iknowyouknowitall。Isawitinyereyes。I
tellyouofmother,an'yousee'er。Youknow'eroldGermanface,an''erproudways,an'herprideinme,an'howshewouldthinkIwuzawfullyrich。An'youseehowshewouldgiveoutthemlinens,allmarkedfurmywife,an'howIwouldsitan'watchherdoin'it,an'——youseeevery-
thing。Iknowyoudo。Icouldfeelyoudoin'it。ThenIsaytomyself:'Hereisth'onewomaninth'worldmadefurme。
WhateverIhave,sheshallhave。I'llspendmylifewaitin'onher。She'lltellmeallth'thingsIoughtt'know,an'hevmissedknowin';she'llreadt'me;she'llbepatientwhenshefindshowdullI'vegrown。Andthar'llbeth'boy——'"
Heseizedherhandandwrungit,andwasgone。Katesawhimnomorethatnight。
Thenextmorningthemajorreturned。
Katethrewherarmsaroundhisneckandwept。
"Iwantthebabies,"sheexplainedwhenthemajorshowedhisconsternation。"Don'tmindmycrying。Yououghttobeusedtoseeingmecrybythistime。Imustgethome,that'sall。ImustseeJack。”
Sothatnighttheystarted。
AtthedoorofthecarriagestoodPeterRoeder,waiting。
"I'mgoingt'ridedownwithyou,"hesaid。Themajorlookednonplussed。
Kategotinandthemajorfollowed。
"Come,"shesaidtoRoeder。Hesatoppositeandlookedatherasifhewouldfastenherimageonhismind。
"Youremember,"hesaidafteratime,"thatItoldyouIusedt'dreamofsittin'ontheverandaofth'hotelandhavin'nothin'
t'do?"
"Yes。”
"Well,Idon'tthinkIcarefurit。I'vehadamonthofit。I'mgoin'backupth'gulch。”
"No!"criedKate,instinctivelyreachingoutherhandstowardhim。
"Whynot?Iguessyoudon'tknowme。
IknewthatsomewhereI'dfindafriend。I
foundthatfriend;an'nowI'maloneagain。It'sprettyquietuptharinthegulch;butI'lltryit。”
"No,no。GotoEurope;gotoseeyourmother。”
"Ithoughtaboutthatagooddeal,awhileago。ButIdon'tseemt'havenoheartfuritnow。IfeelasifI'dbesaferinth'gulch。”
"Safer?"