'WhenyouwerewithHewby,ofcourse,ofcourse。Well,Ican'tunderstandit。'Histonesrose。'Idon'tknowwhattosay,yourhoodwinkingmelikethisforsolong!'
  'Idon'tseethatIhavehoodwinkedyouatall。'
  'Yes,yes,but'——
  Knightarosefromhisseat,andbeganpacingupanddowntheroom。
  Hisfacewasmarkedlypale,andhisvoiceperturbed,ashesaid——
  'YoudidnotactasIshouldhaveactedtowardsyouunderthosecircumstances。Ifeelitdeeply;andItellyouplainly,Ishallneverforgetit!'
  'What?'
  'Yourbehaviouratthatmeetinginthefamilyvault,whenItoldyouweweregoingtobemarried。Deception,dishonesty,everywhere;alltheworld'sofapiece!'
  Stephendidnotmuchlikethismisconstructionofhismotives,eventhoughitwasbutthehastyconclusionofafrienddisturbedbyemotion。
  'IcoulddonootherwisethanIdid,withdueregardtoher,'hesaidstiffly。
  'Indeed!'saidKnight,inthebitteresttoneofreproach。'Norcouldyouwithdueregardtoherhavemarriedher,Isuppose!I
  havehoped——longed——thatHE,whoturnsouttobeYOU,wouldultimatelyhavedonethat。'
  'Iammuchobligedtoyouforthathope。Butyoutalkverymysteriously。IthinkIhadaboutthebestreasonanybodycouldhavehadfornotdoingthat。'
  'Oh,whatreasonwasit?'
  'ThatIcouldnot。'
  'Yououghttohavemadeanopportunity;yououghttodosonow,inbarejusticetoher,Stephen!'criedKnight,carriedbeyondhimself。'Thatyouknowverywell,andithurtsandwoundsmemorethanyoudreamtofindyouneverhavetriedtomakeanyreparationtoawomanofthatkind——sotrusting,soapttoberunawaywithbyherfeelings——poorlittlefool,somuchtheworseforher!'
  'Why,youtalklikeamadman!Youtookherawayfromme,didyounot?'
  'Pickingupwhatanotherthrowsdowncanscarcelybecalled"takingaway。”However,weshallnotagreetoowelluponthatsubject,sowehadbetterpart。'
  'ButIamquitecertainyoumisapprehendsomethingmostgrievously,'saidStephen,shakentothebottomofhisheart。
  'WhathaveIdone;tellme?IhavelostElfride,butisthatsuchasin?'
  'Wasitherdoing,oryours?'
  'Waswhat?'
  'Thatyouparted。'
  'Iwilltellyouhonestly。Itwashersentirely,entirely。'
  'Whatwasherreason?'
  'Icanhardlysay。ButI'lltellthestorywithoutreserve。'
  Stephenuntilto-dayhadunhesitatinglyheldthatshegrewtiredofhimandturnedtoKnight;buthedidnotliketoadvancethestatementnow,oreventothinkthethought。TofancyotherwiseaccordedbetterwiththehopetowhichKnight'sestrangementhadgivenbirth:thatloveforhisfriendwasnotthedirectcause,butaresultofhersuspensionofloveforhimself。
  'Suchamattermustnotbeallowedtobreeddiscordbetweenus,'
  Knightreturned,relapsingintoamannerwhichconcealedallhistruefeeling,asifconfidencenowwasintolerable。'Idoseethatyourreticencetowardsmeinthevaultmayhavebeendictatedbyprudentialconsiderations。'Heconcludedartificially,'Itwasastrangethingaltogether;butnotofmuchimportance,Isuppose,atthisdistanceoftime;anditdoesnotconcernmenow,thoughI
  don'tmindhearingyourstory。'
  ThesewordsfromKnight,utteredwithsuchanairofrenunciationandapparentindifference,promptedSmithtospeakon——perhapswithalittlecomplacency——ofhisoldsecretengagementtoElfride。Hetoldthedetailsofitsorigin,andtheperemptorywordsandactionsofherfathertoextinguishtheirlove。
  Knightperseveredinthetoneandmannerofadisinterestedoutsider。IthadbecomemorethaneverimperativetoscreenhisemotionsfromStephen'seye;theyoungmanwouldotherwisebelessfrank,andtheirmeetingwouldbeagainembittered。Whatwastheuseofuntowardcandour?
  Stephenhadnowarrivedatthepointinhisingenuousnarrativewhereheleftthevicaragebecauseofherfather'smanner。
  Knight'sinterestincreased。Theirloveseemedsoinnocentandchildlikethusfar。
  'Itisanicepointincasuistry,'heobserved,'todecidewhetheryouwereculpableornotinnottellingSwancourtthatyourfriendswereparishionersofhis。Itwasonlyhumannaturetoholdyourtongueunderthecircumstances。Well,whatwastheresultofyourdismissalbyhim?'
  'Thatweagreedtobesecretlyfaithful。Andtoinsurethiswethoughtwewouldmarry。'
  Knight'ssuspenseandagitationrosehigherwhenStephenentereduponthisphaseofthesubject。
  'Doyoumindtellingon?'hesaid,steadyinghismannerofspeech。
  'Oh,notatall。'
  ThenStephengaveinfulltheparticularsofthemeetingwithElfrideattherailwaystation;thenecessitytheywereunderofgoingtoLondon,unlesstheceremonyweretobepostponed。Thelongjourneyoftheafternoonandevening;hertimidityandrevulsionoffeeling;itsculminationonreachingLondon;thecrossingovertothedown-platformandtheirimmediatedepartureagain,solelyinobediencetoherwish;thejourneyallnight;
  theiranxiouswatchingforthedawn;theirarrivalatSt。Launce'satlast——weredetailed。AndhetoldhowavillagewomannamedJethwaywastheonlypersonwhorecognizedthem,eithergoingorcoming;andhowdreadfullythisterrifiedElfride。Hetoldhowhewaitedinthefieldswhilstthisthenreproachfulsweetheartwentforherpony,andhowthelastkissheevergaveherwasgivenamileoutofthetown,onthewaytoEndelstow。
  ThesethingsStephenrelatedwithawill。HebelievedthatindoingsoheestablishedwordbywordthereasonablenessofhisclaimtoElfride。
  'Curseher!cursethatwoman!——thatmiserableletterthatpartedus!OGod!'
  Knightbeganpacingtheroomagain,andutteredthisatfurtherend。
  'Whatdidyousay?'saidStephen,turninground。
  'Say?DidIsayanything?Oh,Iwasmerelythinkingaboutyourstory,andtheoddnessofmyhavingafancyforthesamewomanafterwards。AndthatnowI——Ihaveforgottenheralmost;andneitherofuscareabouther,exceptjustasafriend,youknow,eh?'
  Knightstillcontinuedatthefurtherendoftheroom,somewhatinshadow。
  'Exactly,'saidStephen,inwardlyexultant,forhewasreallydeceivedbyKnight'soff-handmanner。
  YethewasdeceivedlessbythecompletenessofKnight'sdisguisethanbythepersuasivepowerwhichlayinthefactthatKnighthadneverbeforedeceivedhiminanything。SothissuppositionthathiscompanionhadceasedtoloveElfridewasanenormouslighteningoftheweightwhichhadturnedthescaleagainsthim。
  'AdmittingthatElfrideCOULDloveanothermanafteryou,'saidtheelder,underthesamevarnishofcarelesscriticism,'shewasnonetheworseforthatexperience。'
  'Theworse?Ofcourseshewasnonetheworse。'
  'Didyoueverthinkitawildandthoughtlessthingforhertodo?'
  'Indeed,Ineverdid,'saidStephen。'Ipersuadedher。Shesawnoharminituntilshedecidedtoreturn,nordidI;norwasthere,excepttotheextentofindiscretion。'
  'Directlyshethoughtitwaswrongshewouldgonofurther?'
  'Thatwasit。Ihadjustbeguntothinkitwrongtoo。'
  'Suchachildishescapademighthavebeenmisrepresentedbyanyevil-disposedperson,mightitnot?'
  'Itmight;butIneverheardthatitwas。Nobodywhoreallyknewallthecircumstanceswouldhavedoneotherwisethansmile。Ifalltheworldhadknownit,Elfridewouldstillhaveremainedtheonlyonewhothoughtheractionasin。Poorchild,shealwayspersistedinthinkingso,andwasfrightenedmorethanenough。'
  'Stephen,doyoulovehernow?'
  'Well,Ilikeher;Ialwaysshall,youknow,'hesaidevasively,andwithallthestrategylovesuggested。'ButIhavenotseenherforsolongthatIcanhardlybeexpectedtoloveher。Doyouloveherstill?'
  'HowshallIanswerwithoutbeingashamed?Whatficklebeingswemenare,Stephen!Menmaylovestrongestforawhile,butwomenlovelongest。Iusedtoloveher——inmyway,youknow。'
  'Yes,Iunderstand。Ah,andIusedtoloveherinmyway。Infact,Ilovedheragooddealatonetime;buttravelhasatendencytoobliterateearlyfancies。'
  'Ithas——ithas,truly。'
  Perhapsthemostextraordinaryfeatureinthisconversationwasthecircumstancethat,thougheachinterlocutorhadatfirsthissuspicionsoftheother'sabidingpassionawakenedbyseverallittleacts,neitherwouldallowhimselftoseethathisfriendmightnowbespeakingdeceitfullyaswellashe。
  'Stephen。'resumedKnight,'nowthatmattersaresmoothbetweenus,IthinkImustleaveyou。Youwon'tmindmyhurryingofftomyquarters?'
  'You'llstaytosomesortofsuppersurely?didn'tyoucometodinner!'
  'Youmustreallyexcusemethisonce。'
  'Thenyou'lldropintobreakfastto-morrow。'
  'Ishallberatherpressedfortime。'
  'Anearlybreakfast,whichshallinterferewithnothing?'
  'I'llcome,'saidKnight,withasmuchreadinessasitwaspossibletograftuponahugestockofreluctance。'Yes,early;
  eighto'clocksay,asweareunderthesameroof。'
  'Anytimeyoulike。Eightitshallbe。'
  AndKnightlefthim。Towearamask,todissemblehisfeelingsashehadintheirlatemiserableconversation,wassuchtorturethathecouldsupportitnolonger。ItwasthefirsttimeinKnight'slifethathehadeverbeensoentirelytheplayerofapart。AndthemanhehadthusdeceivedwasStephen,whohaddocilelylookeduptohimfromyouthasasuperiorofunblemishedintegrity。
  Hewenttobed,andallowedthefeverofhisexcitementtorageuncontrolled。Stephen——itwasonlyhewhowastherival——onlyStephen!Therewasananti-climaxofabsurditywhichKnight,wretchedandconscience-strickenashewas,couldnothelprecognizing。Stephenwasbutaboytohim。WherethegreatgrieflaywasinperceivingthattheveryinnocenceofElfrideinreadingherlittlefaultasonesogravewaswhathadfatallymisledhim。HadElfride,withanydegreeofcoolness,assertedthatshehaddonenoharm,thepoisonousbreathofthedeadMrs。
  Jethwaywouldhavebeeninoperative。Whydidhenotmakehislittledocilegirltellmore?Ifonthatsubjecthehadonlyexercisedtheimperativenesscustomarywithhimonothers,allmighthavebeenrevealed。Itsmotehisheartlikeaswitchwhenherememberedhowgentlyshehadbornehisscourgingspeeches,neveransweringhimwithasinglereproach,onlyassuringhimofherunboundedlove。
  KnightblessedElfrideforhersweetness,andforgotherfault。
  Hepicturedwithavividfancythosefairsummersceneswithher。
  Heagainsawherasattheirfirstmeeting,timidatspeaking,yetinhereagernesstobeexplanatoryborneforwardalmostagainstherwill。Howshewouldwaitforhimingreenplaces,withoutshowinganyoftheordinarywomanlyaffectationsofindifference!
  Howproudshewastobeseenwalkingwithhim,bearinglegiblyinhereyesthethoughtthathewasthegreatestgeniusintheworld!
  Heformedaresolution;andafterthatcouldmakepretenceofslumbernolonger。Risinganddressinghimself,hesatdownandwaitedforday。
  ThatnightStephenwasrestlesstoo。NotbecauseoftheunwontednessofareturntoEnglishscenery;notbecausehewasabouttomeethisparents,andsettledownforawhiletoEnglishcottagelife。Hewasindulgingindreams,andforthenoncethewarehousesofBombayandtheplainsandfortsofPoonahwerebutashadow'sshadow。Hisdreamwasbasedonthisoneatomoffact:
  ElfrideandKnighthadbecomeseparated,andtheirengagementwasasifithadneverbeen。TheirrupturemusthaveoccurredsoonafterStephen'sdiscoveryofthefactoftheirunion;and,Stephenwentontothink,whatsoprobableasthatareturnofhererrantaffectiontohimselfwasthecause?
  Stephen'sopinionsinthismatterwerethoseofalover,andnotthebalancedjudgmentofanunbiassedspectator。Hisnaturallysanguinespiritbuilthopeuponhope,tillscarcelyadoubtremainedinhismindthatherlingeringtendernessforhimhadinsomewaybeenperceivedbyKnight,andhadprovokedtheirparting。
  TogoandseeElfridewasthesuggestionofimpulsesitwasimpossibletowithstand。Atanyrate,torundownfromSt。
  Launce'stoCastlePoterel,adistanceoflessthantwentymiles,andglidelikeaghostabouttheiroldhaunts,makingstealthyinquiriesabouther,wouldbeafascinatingwayofpassingthefirstsparehoursafterreachinghomeonthedayafterthemorrow。
  Hewasnowarichermanthanheretofore,standingonhisownbottom;andthedefinitepositioninwhichhehadrootedhimselfnullifiedoldlocaldistinctions。Hehadbecomeillustrious,evensanguineclarus,judgingfromthetoneoftheworthyMayorofSt。
  Launce's。
  ChapterXXXIX
  'Eachtothelovedone'sside。'
  Thefriendsandrivalsbreakfastedtogetherthenextmorning。Notawordwassaidoneithersideuponthematterdiscussedthepreviouseveningsogliblyandsohollowly。Stephenwasabsorbedthegreaterpartofthetimeinwishinghewerenotforcedtostayintownyetanotherday。
  'Idon'tintendtoleaveforSt。Launce'stillto-morrow,asyouknow,'hesaidtoKnightattheendofthemeal。'Whatareyougoingtodowithyourselfto-day?'
  'Ihaveanengagementjustbeforeten,'saidKnightdeliberately;
  'andafterthattimeImustcallupontwoorthreepeople。'
  'I'lllookforyouthisevening,'saidStephen。
  'Yes,do。Youmayaswellcomeanddinewithme;thatis,ifwecanmeet。ImaynotsleepinLondonto-night;infact,Iamabsolutelyunsettledastomymovementsyet。However,thefirstthingIamgoingtodoistogetmybaggageshiftedfromthisplacetoBede'sInn。Good-byeforthepresent。I'llwrite,youknow,ifIcan'tmeetyou。'
  Itnowwantedaquartertonineo'clock。WhenKnightwasgone,Stephenfeltyetmoreimpatientofthecircumstancethatanotherdaywouldhavetodragitselfawaywearilybeforehecouldsetoutforthatspotofearthwhereonasoftthoughtofhimmightperhapsbenourishedstill。Onasuddenheadmittedtohismindthepossibilitythattheengagementhewaswaitingintowntokeepmightbepostponedwithoutmuchharm。
  Itwasnosoonerperceivedthanattempted。Lookingathiswatch,hefounditwantedfortyminutestothedepartureoftheteno'clocktrainfromPaddington,whichlefthimasurplusquarterofanhourbeforeitwouldbenecessarytostartforthestation。
  Scribblingahastynoteortwo——oneputtingoffthebusinessmeeting,anothertoKnightapologizingfornotbeingabletoseehimintheevening——payinghisbill,andleavinghisheavierluggagetofollowhimbygoods-train,hejumpedintoacabandrattledofftotheGreatWesternStation。
  Shortlyafterwardshetookhisseatintherailwaycarriage。
  Theguardpausedonhiswhistle,toletintothenextcompartmenttoSmith'samanofwhomStephenhadcaughtbutahastyglimpseasheranacrosstheplatformatthelastmoment。
  Smithsankbackintothecarriage,stilledbyperplexity。ThemanwaslikeKnight——astonishinglylikehim。Wasitpossibleitcouldbehe?TohavegottherehemusthavedrivenlikethewindtoBede'sInn,andhardlyhavealightedbeforestartingagain。No,itcouldnotbehe;thatwasnothiswayofdoingthings。
  DuringtheearlypartofthejourneyStephenSmith'sthoughtsbusiedthemselvestillhisbrainseemedswollen。Onesubjectwasconcerninghisownapproachingactions。Hewasadayearlierthanhislettertohisparentshadstated,andhisarrangementwiththemhadbeenthattheyshouldmeethimatPlymouth;aplanwhichpleasedtheworthycouplebeyondexpression。Oncebeforethesameengagementhadbeenmade,whichhehadthenquashedbyante-datinghisarrival。ThistimehewouldgorightontoCastleBoterel;
  rambleinthatwell-knownneighbourhoodduringtheeveningandnextmorning,makinginquiries;andreturntoPlymouthtomeetthemasarranged——acontrivancewhichwouldleavetheircherishedprojectundisturbed,relievinghisownimpatiencealso。
  AtChippenhamtherewasalittlewaiting,andsomelooseningandattachingofcarriages。
  Stephenlookedout。Atthesamemomentanotherman'sheademergedfromtheadjoiningwindow。Eachlookedintheother'sface。
  KnightandStephenconfrontedoneanother。
  'Youhere!'saidtheyoungerman。
  'Yes。Itseemsthatyouaretoo,'saidKnight,strangely。
  'Yes。'
  Theselfishnessofloveandthecrueltyofjealousywerefairlyexemplifiedatthismoment。Eachofthetwomenlookedathisfriendashehadneverlookedathimbefore。EachwasTROUBLEDattheother'spresence。
  'Ithoughtyousaidyouwerenotcomingtillto-morrow,'remarkedKnight。
  'Idid。Itwasanafterthoughttocometo-day。Thisjourneywasyourengagement,then?'
  'No,itwasnot。Thisisanafterthoughtofminetoo。Ileftanotetoexplainit,andaccountformynotbeingabletomeetyouthiseveningaswearranged。'
  'SodidIforyou。'
  'Youdon'tlookwell:youdidnotthismorning。'
  'Ihaveaheadache。Youarepalerto-daythanyouwere。'
  'I,too,havebeensufferingfromheadache。Wehavetowaithereafewminutes,Ithink。'
  Theywalkedupanddowntheplatform,eachonemoreandmoreembarrassinglyconcernedwiththeawkwardnessofhisfriend'spresence。Theyreachedtheendofthefootway,andpausedinsheerabsent-mindedness。Stephen'svacanteyesrestedupontheoperationsofsomeporters,whowereshiftingadarkandcurious-
  lookingvanfromtherearofthetrain,toshuntanotherwhichwasbetweenitandtheforepartofthetrain。Thisoperationhavingbeenconcluded,thetwofriendsreturnedtothesideoftheircarriage。
  'Willyoucomeinhere?'saidKnight,notverywarmly。
  'Ihavemyrugandportmanteauandumbrellawithme:itisratherbotheringtomovenow,'saidStephenreluctantly。'Whynotyoucomehere?'
  'Ihavemytrapstoo。Itishardlyworthwhiletoshiftthem,forIshallseeyouagain,youknow。'
  'Oh,yes。'
  Andeachgotintohisownplace。Justatstarting,amanontheplatformhelduphishandsandstoppedthetrain。
  Stephenlookedouttoseewhatwasthematter。
  Oneoftheofficialswasexclaimingtoanother,'Thatcarriageshouldhavebeenattachedagain。Can'tyouseeitisforthemainline?Quick!Whatfoolsthereareintheworld!'
  'Whataconfoundednuisancethesestoppagesare!'exclaimedKnightimpatiently,lookingoutfromhiscompartment。'Whatisit?'
  'Thatsingularcarriagewesawhasbeenunfastenedfromourtrainbymistake,itseems,'saidStephen。
  Hewaswatchingtheprocessofattachingit。Thevanorcarriage,whichhenowrecognizedashavingseenatPaddingtonbeforetheystarted,wasrichandsolemnratherthangloomyinaspect。Itseemedtobequitenew,andofmoderndesign,anditsimpressivepersonalityattractedthenoticeofothersbesidehimself。Hebehelditgraduallywheeledforwardbytwomenoneachside:
  slowerandmoresadlyitseemedtoapproach:thenaslightconcussion,andtheywereconnectedwithit,andoffagain。
  StephensatalltheafternoonponderinguponthereasonofKnight'sunexpectedreappearance。WashegoingasfarasCastleBoterel?Ifso,hecouldonlyhaveoneobjectinview——avisittoElfride。Andwhatanideaitseemed!
  AtPlymouthSmithpartookofalittlerefreshment,andthenwentroundtothesidefromwhichthetrainstartedforCamelton,thenewstationnearCastleBoterelandEndelstow。
  Knightwasalreadythere。
  Stephenwalkedupandstoodbesidehimwithoutspeaking。Twomenatthismomentcreptoutfromamongthewheelsofthewaitingtrain。
  'Thecarriageislightenough,'saidoneinagrimtone。'Lightasvanity;fullofnothing。'
  'Nothinginsize,butagooddealinsignification,'saidtheother,amanofbrightermindandmanners。
  SmiththenperceivedthattotheirtrainwasattachedthatsamecarriageofgrandanddarkaspectwhichhadhauntedthemallthewayfromLondon。
  'Youaregoingon,Isuppose?'saidKnight,turningtoStephen,afteridlylookingatthesameobject。
  'Yes。'
  'Wemayaswelltraveltogetherfortheremainingdistance,maywenot?'
  'Certainlywewill;'andtheybothenteredthesamedoor。
  Eveningdrewonapace。ItchancedtobetheeveofSt。
  Valentine's——thatbishopofblessedmemorytoyouthfullovers——andthesunshonelowundertherimofathickhardcloud,decoratingtheeminencesofthelandscapewithcrownsoforangefire。Asthetrainchangeditsdirectiononacurve,thesameraysstretchedinthroughthewindow,andcoaxedopenKnight'shalf-closedeyes。
  'YouwillgetoutatSt。Launce's,Isuppose?'hemurmured。
  'No,'saidStephen,'Iamnotexpectedtillto-morrow。'Knightwassilent。
  'Andyou——areyougoingtoEndelstow?'saidtheyoungermanpointedly。
  'Sinceyouask,IcandonolessthansayIam,Stephen,'
  continuedKnightslowly,andwithmoreresolutionofmannerthanhehadshownalltheday。'IamgoingtoEndelstowtoseeifElfrideSwancourtisstillfree;andifso,toaskhertobemywife。'
  'SoamI,'saidStephenSmith。
  'Ithinkyou'llloseyourlabour,'Knightreturnedwithdecision。
  'Naturallyyoudo。'TherewasastrongaccentofbitternessinStephen'svoice。'YoumighthavesaidHOPEinsteadofTHINK,'headded。
  'Imighthavedonenosuchthing。Igaveyoumyopinion。ElfrideSwancourtmayhavelovedyouonce,nodoubt,butitwaswhenshewassoyoungthatshehardlyknewherownmind。'
  'Thankyou,'saidStephenlaconically。'SheknewhermindaswellasIdid。Wearethesameage。Ifyouhadn'tinterfered——'
  'Don'tsaythat——don'tsayit,Stephen!HowcanyoumakeoutthatIinterfered?Bejust,please!'
  'Well,'saidhisfriend,'shewasminebeforeshewasyours——youknowthat!Anditseemedahardthingtofindyouhadgother,andthatifithadnotbeenforyou,allmighthaveturnedoutwellforme。'Stephenspokewithaswellingheart,andlookedoutofthewindowtohidetheemotionthatwouldmakeitselfvisibleuponhisface。
  'Itisabsurd,'saidKnightinakindertone,'foryoutolookatthematterinthatlight。WhatItellyouisforyourgood。Younaturallydonotliketorealizethetruth——thatherlikingforyouwasonlyagirl'sfirstfancy,whichhasnorootever。'
  'Itisnottrue!'saidStephenpassionately。'Itwasyouputmeout。Andnowyou'llbepushinginagainbetweenus,anddeprivingmeofmychanceagain!Myright,that'swhatitis!Howungenerousofyoutocomeanewandtrytotakeherawayfromme!Whenyouhadwonher,Ididnotinterfere;andyoumight,Ithink,Mr。Knight,dobymeasIdidbyyou!'
  'Don't"Mr。”me;youareaswellintheworldasIamnow。'
  'Firstloveisdeepest;andthatwasmine。'
  'Whotoldyouthat?'saidKnightsuperciliously。
  'Ihadherfirstlove。Anditwasthroughmethatyouandsheparted。Icanguessthatwellenough。'
  'Itwas。AndifIweretoexplaintoyouinwhatwaythatoperatedinpartingus,Ishouldconvinceyouthatyoudoquitewronginintrudinguponher——that,asIsaidatfirst,yourlabourwillbelost。Idon'tchoosetoexplain,becausetheparticularsarepainful。Butifyouwon'tlistentome,goon,forHeaven'ssake。Idon'tcarewhatyoudo,myboy。'
  'Youhavenorighttodomineerovermeasyoudo。Justbecause,whenIwasalad,Iwasaccustomedtolookuptoyouasamaster,andyouhelpedmealittle,forwhichIwasgratefultoyouandhavelovedyou,youassumetoomuchnow,andstepinbeforeme。
  Itiscruel——itisunjust——ofyoutoinjuremeso!'
  Knightshowedhimselfkeenlyhurtatthis。'Stephen,thosewordsareuntrueandunworthyofanyman,andtheyareunworthyofyou。
  Youknowyouwrongme。Ifyouhaveeverprofitedbyanyinstructionofmine,Iamonlytoogladtoknowit。Youknowitwasgivenungrudgingly,andthatIhaveneveroncelookeduponitasmakingyouinanywayadebtortome。'
  Stephen'snaturallygentlenaturewastouched,anditwasinatroubledvoicethathesaid,'Yes,yes。Iamunjustinthat——I
  ownit。'
  'ThisisSt。Launce'sStation,Ithink。Areyougoingtogetout?'
  Knight'smannerofreturningtothematterinhanddrewStephenagainintohimself。'No;ItoldyouIwasgoingtoEndelstow,'heresolutelyreplied。
  Knight'sfeaturesbecameimpassive,andhesaidnomore。Thetraincontinuedrattlingon,andStephenleantbackinhiscornerandclosedhiseyes。Theyellowsofeveninghadturnedtobrowns,theduskyshadesthickened,andaflyingcloudofdustoccasionallystrokedthewindow——borneuponachillingbreezewhichblewfromthenorth-east。Thepreviouslygildedbutnowdrearyhillsbegantolosetheirdaylightaspectsofrotundity,andtobecomeblackdiscsvandykedagainstthesky,allnaturewearingthecloakthatsixo'clockcastsoverthelandscapeatthistimeoftheyear。
  Stephenstartedupinbewildermentafteralongstillness,anditwassometimebeforeherecollectedhimself。
  'Well,howreal,howreal!'heexclaimed,brushinghishandacrosshiseyes。
  'Whatis?'saidKnight。
  'Thatdream。Ifellasleepforafewminutes,andhavehadadream——themostvividIeverremember。'
  Hewearilylookedoutintothegloom。TheywerenowdrawingneartoCamelton。Thelightingofthelampswasperceptiblethroughtheveilofevening——eachflamestartingintoexistenceatintervals,andblinkingweaklyagainstthegustsofwind。
  'Whatdidyoudream?'saidKnightmoodily。
  'Oh,nothingtobetold。'Twasasortofincubus。Thereisneveranythingindreams。'
  'Ihardlysupposedtherewas。'
  'Iknowthat。However,whatIsovividlydreamtwasthis,sinceyouwouldliketohear。ItwasthebrightestofbrightmorningsatEastEndelstowChurch,andyouandIstoodbythefont。FarawayinthechancelLordLuxellianwasstandingalone,coldandimpassive,andutterlyunlikehisusualself:butIknewitwashe。Insidethealtarrailstoodastrangeclergymanwithhisbookopen。HelookedupandsaidtoLordLuxellian,"Where'sthebride?"LordLuxelliansaid,"There'snobride。”Atthatmomentsomebodycameinatthedoor,andIknewhertobeLadyLuxellianwhodied。Heturnedandsaidtoher,"Ithoughtyouwereinthevaultbelowus;butthatcouldhaveonlybeenadreamofmine。
  Comeon。”Thenshecameon。AndinbrushingbetweenusshechilledmesowithcoldthatIexclaimed,"Thelifeisgoneoutofme!"and,inthewayofdreams,Iawoke。ButhereweareatCamelton。'
  Theywereslowlyenteringthestation。
  'Whatareyougoingtodo?'saidKnight。'DoyoureallyintendtocallontheSwancourts?'
  'Bynomeans。Iamgoingtomakeinquiriesfirst。IshallstayattheLuxellianArmsto-night。YouwillgorightontoEndelstow,Isuppose,atonce?'
  'Icanhardlydothatatthistimeoftheday。Perhapsyouarenotawarethatthefamily——herfather,atanyrate——isatvariancewithmeasmuchaswithyou。
  'Ididn'tknowit。'
  'AndthatIcannotrushintothehouseasanoldfriendanymorethanyoucan。CertainlyIhavetheprivilegesofadistantrelationship,whatevertheymaybe。'
  Knightletdownthewindow,andlookedahead。'Thereareagreatmanypeopleatthestation,'hesaid。'Theyseemalltobeonthelook-outforus。'
  Whenthetrainstopped,thehalf-estrangedfriendscouldperceivebythelamplightthattheassemblageofidlersenclosedasakernelagroupofmeninblackcloaks。Asidegateintheplatformrailingwasopen,andoutsidethisstoodadarkvehicle,whichtheycouldnotatfirstcharacterize。ThenKnightsawonitsupperpartformsagainsttheskylikecedarsbynight,andknewthevehicletobeahearse。Fewpeoplewereatthecarriagedoorstomeetthepassengers——themajorityhadcongregatedatthisupperend。KnightandStephenalighted,andturnedforamomentinthesamedirection。
  Thesombrevan,whichhadaccompaniedthemalldayfromLondon,nowbegantorevealthattheirdestinationwasalsoitsown。Ithadbeendrawnupexactlyoppositetheopengate。Thebystandersallfellback,formingaclearlanefromthegatewaytothevan,andthemenincloaksenteredthelatterconveyance。
  'Theyarelabourers,Ifancy,'saidStephen。'Ah,itisstrange;
  butIrecognizethreeofthemasEndelstowmen。Ratherremarkablethis。'
  Presentlytheybegantocomeout,twoandtwo;andundertheraysofthelamptheywereseentobearbetweenthemalight-colouredcoffinofsatin-wood,brightlypolished,andwithoutanail。Theeightmentooktheburdenupontheirshoulders,andslowlycrossedwithitovertothegate。
  KnightandStephenwentoutside,andcameclosetotheprocessionasitmovedoff。Acarriagebelongingtothecortegeturnedroundclosetoalamp。TheraysshoneinuponthefaceofthevicarofEndelstow,Mr。Swancourt——lookingmanyyearsolderthanwhentheyhadlastseenhim。KnightandStepheninvoluntarilydrewback。
  Knightspoketoabystander。'WhathasMr。Swancourttodowiththatfuneral?'
  'Heisthelady'sfather,'saidthebystander。
  'Whatlady'sfather?'saidKnight,inavoicesohollowthatthemanstaredathim。
  'Thefatheroftheladyinthecoffin。ShediedinLondon,youknow,andhasbeenbroughtherebythistrain。Sheistobetakenhometo-night,andburiedto-morrow。'
  Knightstoodstaringblindlyatwherethehearsehadbeen;asifhesawit,orsomeone,there。Thenheturned,andbeheldthelitheformofStephenboweddownlikethatofanoldman。Hetookhisyoungfriend'sarm,andledhimawayfromthelight。
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  'Welcome,proudlady。'
  Halfanhourhaspassed。TwomiserablemenarewanderinginthedarknessupthemilesofroadfromCameltontoEndelstow。
  'Hasshebrokenherheart?'saidHenryKnight。'CanitbethatI
  havekilledher?Iwasbitterwithher,Stephen,andshehasdied!
  AndmayGodhaveNOmercyuponme!'
  'HowcanyouhavekilledhermorethanI?'
  'Why,Iwentawayfromher——stoleawayalmost——anddidn'ttellherIshouldnotcomeagain;andatthatlastmeetingIdidnotkissheronce,butlethermiserablygo。Ihavebeenafool——afool!I
  wishthemostabjectconfessionofitbeforecrowdsofmycountrymencouldinanywaymakeamendstomydarlingfortheintensecrueltyIhaveshownher!'
  'YOURdarling!'saidStephen,withasortoflaugh。'Anymancansaythat,Isuppose;anymancan。Iknowthis,shewasMYdarlingbeforeshewasyours;andaftertoo。Ifanybodyhasarighttocallherhisown,itisI。'
  'Youtalklikeamaninthedark;whichiswhatyouare。Didsheeverdoanythingforyou?Riskhername,forinstance,foryou?'
  Yes,shedid,'saidStephenemphatically。
  'Notentirely。Didsheeverliveforyou——proveshecouldnotlivewithoutyou——laughandweepforyou?'
  'Yes。'
  'Never!Didsheeverriskherlifeforyou——no!Mydarlingdidforme。'
  'Thenitwasinkindnessonly。Whendidsheriskherlifeforyou?'
  'Tosavemineonthecliffyonder。ThepoorchildwaswithmelookingattheapproachofthePuffinsteamboat,andIslippeddown。Webothhadanarrowescape。Iwishwehaddiedthere!'
  'Ah,butwait,'Stephenpleadedwithweteyes。'Shewentonthatclifftoseemearrivehome:shehadpromisedit。Shetoldmeshewouldmonthsbefore。Andwouldshehavegonethereifshehadnotcaredformeatall?'
  'YouhaveanideathatElfridediedforyou,nodoubt,'saidKnight,withamournfulsarcasmtoonervelesstosupportitself。
  'Nevermind。Ifwefindthat——thatshediedyours,I'llsaynomoreever。'
  'Andifwefindshediedyours,I'llsaynomore。'
  'Verywell——soitshallbe。'
  Thedarkcloudsintowhichthesunhadsunkhadbeguntodropraininanincreasingvolume。
  'Canwewaitsomewhereheretillthisshowerisover?'saidStephendesultorily。
  'Asyouwill。Butitisnotworthwhile。We'llheartheparticulars,andreturn。Don'tletpeopleknowwhoweare。Iamnotmuchnow。'
  Theyhadreachedapointatwhichtheroadbranchedintotwo——justoutsidethewestvillage,oneforkofthedivergingroutespassingintothelatterplace,theotherstretchingontoEastEndelstow。
  Havingcomesomeofthedistancebythefootpath,theynowfoundthatthehearsewasonlyalittleinadvanceofthem。
  'IfancyithasturnedofftoEastEndelstow。Canyousee?'
  'Icannot。Youmustbemistaken。'
  KnightandStephenenteredthevillage。Abaroffierylightlayacrosstheroad,proceedingfromthehalf-opendoorofasmithy,inwhichbellowswereheardblowingandahammerringing。Therainhadincreased,andtheymechanicallyturnedforsheltertowardsthewarmandcosyscene。
  Closeattheirheelscameanotherman,withoutover-coatorumbrella,andwithaparcelunderhisarm。
  'Awetevening,'hesaidtothetwofriends,andpassedbythem。
  Theystoodintheouterpenthouse,butthemanwentintothefire。
  Thesmithceasedhisblowing,andbegantalkingtothemanwhohadentered。
  'IhavewalkedallthewayfromCamelton,'saidthelatter。'Wasobligedtocometo-night,youknow。'
  Heheldtheparcel,whichwasaflatone,towardsthefirelight,tolearniftherainhadpenetratedit。Restingitedgewiseontheforge,hesupporteditperpendicularlywithonehand,wipinghisfacewiththehandkerchiefheheldintheother。
  'IsupposeyouknowwhatI'vegothere?'heobservedtothesmith。
  'No,Idon't,'saidthesmith,pausingagainonhisbellows。
  'Astherain'snotover,I'llshowyou,'saidthebearer。
  Helaidthethinandbroadpackage,whichhadacuteanglesindifferentdirections,flatupontheanvil,andthesmithblewupthefiretogivehimmorelight。First,afteruntyingthepackage,asheetofbrownpaperwasremoved:thiswaslaidflat。
  Thenheunfoldedapieceofbaize:thisalsohespreadflatonthepaper。Thethirdcoveringwasawrapperoftissuepaper,whichwasspreadoutinitsturn。Theenclosurewasrevealed,andhehelditupforthesmith'sinspection。
  'Oh——Isee!'saidthesmith,kindlingwithachastenedinterest,anddrawingclose。'Pooryounglady——ah,terriblemelancholything——sosoontoo!'
  KnightandStephenturnedtheirheadsandlooked。
  'Andwhat'sthat?'continuedthesmith。
  'That'sthecoronet——beautifullyfinished,isn'tit?Ah,thatcostsomemoney!'
  ''TisasfineabitofmetalworkaseverIsee——that'tis。'
  'Itcamefromthesamepeopleasthecoffin,youknow,butwasnotreadysoonenoughtobesentroundtothehouseinLondonyesterday。I'vegottofixitonthisverynight。'
  Thecarefully-packedarticleswereacoffin-plateandcoronet。
  KnightandStephencameforward。Theundertaker'sman,onseeingthemlookfortheinscription,civillyturneditroundtowardsthem,andeachread,almostatonemoment,bytheruddylightofthecoals:
  ELFRIDE,WifeofSpenserHugoLuxellian,FifteenthBaronLuxellian:
  DiedFebruary10,18。
  Theyreadit,andreadit,andreaditagain——StephenandKnight——
  asifanimatedbyonesoul。ThenStephenputhishanduponKnight'sarm,andtheyretiredfromtheyellowglow,further,further,tillthechilldarknessenclosedthemround,andthequietskyasserteditspresenceoverheadasadimgreysheetofblankmonotony。
  'Whereshallwego?'saidStephen。
  'Idon'tknow。'
  Alongsilenceensued……'Elfridemarried!'saidStephentheninathinwhisper,asifhefearedtolettheassertionlooseontheworld。
  'False,'whisperedKnight。
  'Anddead。Deniedusboth。Ihate"false"——Ihateit!'
  Knightmadenoanswer。
  Nothingwasheardbythemnowsavetheslowmeasurementoftimebytheirbeatingpulses,thesofttouchofthedribblingrainupontheirclothes,andthelowpurroftheblacksmith'sbellowshardby。
  'ShallwefollowElfieanyfurther?'Stephensaid。
  'No:letusleaveheralone。Sheisbeyondourlove,andletherbebeyondourreproach。Sincewedon'tknowhalfthereasonsthatmadeherdoasshedid,Stephen,howcanwesay,evennow,thatshewasnotpureandtrueinheart?'Knight'svoicehadnowbecomemildandgentleasachild's。Hewenton:'Canwecallherambitious?No。Circumstancehas,asusual,overpoweredherpurposes——fragileanddelicateasshe——liabletobeoverthrowninamomentbythecoarseelementsofaccident。Iknowthat'sit,——
  don'tyou?'
  'Itmaybe——itmustbe。Letusgoon。'
  TheybegantobendtheirstepstowardsCastleBoterel,whithertheyhadsenttheirbagsfromCamelton。Theywanderedoninsilenceformanyminutes。Stephenthenpaused,andlightlyputhishandwithinKnight'sarm。
  'Iwonderhowshecametodie,'hesaidinabrokenwhisper。
  'Shallwereturnandlearnalittlemore?'
  Theyturnedbackagain,andenteringEndelstowasecondtime,cametoadoorwhichwasstandingopen。ItwasthatofaninncalledtheWelcomeHome,andthehouseappearedtohavebeenrecentlyrepairedandentirelymodernized。Thenametoowasnotthatofthesamelandlordasformerly,butMartinCannister's。
  KnightandSmithentered。Theinnwasquitesilent,andtheyfollowedthepassagetilltheyreachedthekitchen,whereahugefirewasburning,whichroaredupthechimney,andsentoverthefloor,ceiling,andnewly-whitenedwallsaglaresointenseastomakethecandlequiteasecondarylight。Awomaninawhiteapronandblackgownwasstandingtherealonebehindacleanly-scrubbeddealtable。Stephenfirst,andKnightafterwards,recognizedherasUnity,whohadbeenparlour-maidatthevicarageandyounglady's-maidattheCrags。
  'Unity,'saidStephensoftly,'don'tyouknowme?'
  Shelookedinquiringlyamoment,andherfaceclearedup。
  'Mr。Smith——ay,thatitis!'shesaid。'Andthat'sMr。Knight。I
  begyoutositdown。PerhapsyouknowthatsinceIsawyoulastI
  havemarriedMartinCannister。'
  'Howlonghaveyoubeenmarried?'
  'Aboutfivemonths。WeweremarriedthesamedaythatmydearMissElfiebecameLadyLuxellian。'TearsappearedinUnity'seyes,andfilledthem,andfelldownhercheek,inspiteofeffortstothecontrary。
  Thepainofthetwomeninresolutelycontrollingthemselveswhenthusexampledtoadmitreliefofthesamekindwasdistressing。
  Theybothturnedtheirbacksandwalkedafewstepsaway。
  ThenUnitysaid,'Willyougointotheparlour,gentlemen?'
  'Letusstayherewithher,'Knightwhispered,andturningsaid,'No;wewillsithere。Wewanttorestanddryourselveshereforatime,ifyouplease。'
  Thateveningthesorrowingfriendssatwiththeirhostessbesidethelargefire,Knightintherecessformedbythechimneybreast,wherehewasinshade。Andbyshowingalittleconfidencetheywonhers,andshetoldthemwhattheyhadstayedtohear——thelatterhistoryofpoorElfride。
  'Oneday——afteryou,Mr。Knight,leftusforthelasttime——shewasmissedfromtheCrags,andherfatherwentafterher,andbroughtherhomeill。Whereshewentto,Ineverknew——butshewasveryunwellforweeksafterwards。Andshesaidtomethatshedidn'tcarewhatbecameofher,andshewishedshecoulddie。
  Whenshewasbetter,Isaidshewouldlivetobemarriedyet,andshesaidthen,"Yes;I'lldoanythingforthebenefitofmyfamily,soastoturnmyuselesslifetosomepracticalaccount。”
  Well,itbeganlikethisaboutLordLuxelliancourtingher。ThefirstLadyLuxellianhaddied,andhewasingreattroublebecausethelittlegirlswereleftmotherless。Afterawhiletheyusedtocomeandseeherintheirlittleblackfrocks,fortheylikedheraswellorbetterthantheirownmother——that'strue。Theyusedtocallher"littlemamma。”Thesechildrenmadeherashadelivelier,butshewasnotthegirlshehadbeen——Icouldseethat——
  andshegrewthinneragooddeal。Well,mylordgottoasktheSwancourtsoftenerandoftenertodinner——nobodyelseofhisacquaintance——andatlastthevicar'sfamilywerebackwardsandforwardsatallhoursoftheday。Well,peoplesaythatthelittlegirlsaskedtheirfathertoletMissElfridecomeandlivewiththem,andthathesaidperhapshewouldiftheyweregoodchildren。However,thetimewenton,andonedayIsaid,"MissElfride,youdon'tlooksowellasyouusedto;andthoughnobodyelseseemstonoticeitIdo。”Shelaughedalittle,andsaid,"I
  shalllivetobemarriedyet,asyoutoldme。”
  '"Shallyou,miss?Iamgladtohearthat,"Isaid。
  '"WhomdoyouthinkIamgoingtobemarriedto?"shesaidagain。
  '"Mr。Knight,Isuppose,"saidI。
  '"Oh!"shecried,andturnedoffsowhite,andaforeIcouldgettohershehadsunkdownlikeaheapofclothes,andfaintedaway。
  Well,then,shecametoherselfafteratime,andsaid,"Unity,nowwe'llgoonwithourconversation。”
  '"Betternotto-day,miss,"Isaid。
  '"Yes,wewill,"shesaid。"WhomdoyouthinkIamgoingtobemarriedto?"
  '"Idon'tknow,"Isaidthistime。
  '"Guess,"shesaid。
  '"'Tisn'tmylord,isit?"saysI。
  '"Yes,'tis,"saysshe,inasickwildway。
  '"Buthedon'tcomecourtingmuch,"Isaid。
  "'Ah!youdon'tknow,"shesaid,andtoldme'twasgoingtobeinOctober。Afterthatshefreshenedupabit——whether'twaswiththethoughtofgettingawayfromhomeornot,Idon'tknow。For,perhaps,Imayaswellspeakplainly,andtellyouthatherhomewasnohometohernow。Herfatherwasbittertoherandharshuponher;andthoughMrs。Swancourtwaswellenoughinherway,'twasasortofcoldpolitenessthatwasnotworthmuch,andthelittlethinghadaworryingtimeofitaltogether。Aboutamonthbeforethewedding,sheandmylordandthetwochildrenusedtorideabouttogetheruponhorseback,andaveryprettysighttheywere;andifyou'llbelieveme,Ineversawhimoncewithherunlessthechildrenwerewithhertoo——whichmadethecourtingsostrange-looking。Ay,andmylordissohandsome,youknow,sothatatlastIthinksheratherlikedhim;andIhaveseenhersmileandblushabitatthingshesaid。Hewantedherthemorebecausethechildrendid,foreverybodycouldseethatshewouldbeamosttendermothertothem,andfriendandplaymatetoo。Andmylordisnotonlyhandsome,butasplendidcourter,anduptoallthewayso't。Sohemadeherthebeautifullestpresents;ah,oneIcanmind——alovelybracelet,withdiamondsandemeralds。
  Oh,howredherfacecamewhenshesawit!Theoldrosescamebacktohercheeksforaminuteortwothen。Ihelpeddressherthedaywebothweremarried——itwasthelastserviceIdidher,poorchild!Whenshewasready,Iranupstairsandslippedonmyownweddinggown,andawaytheywent,andawaywentMartinandI;andnosoonerhadmylordandmyladybeenmarriedthantheparsonmarriedus。Itwasaveryquietpairofweddings——hardlyanybodyknewit。Well,hopewillholditsowninayoungheart,ifsobeitcan;andmyladyfreshenedupabit,formylordwasSO
  handsomeandkind。'
  'Howcameshetodie——andawayfromhome?'murmuredKnight。
  'Don'tyousee,sir,shefelloffagainaforethey'dbeenmarriedlong,andmylordtookherabroadforchangeofscene。Theywerecominghome,andhadgotasfarasLondon,whenshewastakenveryillandcouldn'tbemoved,andthereshedied。'
  'Washeveryfondofher?'
  'What,mylord?Oh,hewas!'
  'VERYfondofher?'
  'VERY,beyondeverything。Notsuddenly,butbyslowdegrees。
  'Twashernaturetowinpeoplemorewhentheyknewherwell。He'dhavediedforher,Ibelieve。Poormylord,he'sheart-brokennow!'
  'Thefuneralisto-morrow?'
  'Yes;myhusbandisnowatthevaultwiththemasons,openingthestepsandcleaningdownthewalls。'
  ThenextdaytwomenwalkedupthefamiliarvalleyfromCastleBotereltoEastEndelstowChurch。Andwhenthefuneralwasover,andeveryonehadleftthelawn-likechurchyard,thepairwentsoftlydownthestepsoftheLuxellianvault,andunderthelow-
  groinedarchestheyhadbeheldoncebefore,litupthenasnow。
  Inthenewnicheofthecryptlayarathernewcoffin,whichhadlostsomeofitslustre,andanewercoffinstill,brightanduntarnishedintheslightestdegree。
  Besidethelatterwasthedarkformofaman,kneelingonthedampfloor,hisbodyflungacrossthecoffin,hishandsclasped,andhiswholeframeseeminglygivenupinutterabandonmenttogrief。
  Hewasstillyoung——younger,perhaps,thanKnight——andevennowshowedhowgracefulwashisfigureandsymmetricalhisbuild。Hemurmuredaprayerhalfaloud,andwasquiteunconsciousthattwootherswerestandingwithinafewyardsofhim。
  KnightandStephenhadadvancedtowheretheyoncestoodbesideElfrideonthedayallthreehadmetthere,beforeshehadherselfgonedownintosilencelikeherancestors,andshutherbrightblueeyesforever。Notuntilthendidtheyseethekneelingfigureinthedimlight。KnightinstantlyrecognizedthemournerasLordLuxellian,thebereavedhusbandofElfride。
  Theyfeltthemselvestobeintruders。KnightpressedStephenback,andtheysilentlywithdrewastheyhadentered。
  'Comeaway,'hesaid,inabrokenvoice。'Wehavenorighttobethere。Anotherstandsbeforeus——nearertoherthanwe!'
  AndsidebysidetheybothretracedtheirstepsdownthegreystillvalleytoCastleBoterel。