OnthisDr。Philipbeggedthemaidstogonearheraslittleaspossible。"Youarenotawareofit,"saidhe,"butyourlooks,andyourmannerofspeaking,rouseherattention,andsheisquickerthanIthoughtshewas,andobservesverysubtly。"
Thiswasdone;andthenshecomplainedthatnobodycamenearher。
Sheinsistedoncomingdown-stairs;itwassodull。
Dr。Philipconsented,ifshewouldbecontenttoreceivenovisitsforaweek。
Sheassentedtothat;andnowpassedsomehourseverydayinthedrawing-room。Inhermorningwrappers,sofreshandcrisp,shelookedlovely,andincreasedinhealthandstrengtheveryday。
Dr。Philipusedtolookather,andhisveryfleshwouldcreepatthethoughtthat,erelong,hemusthurlthisfaircreatureintothedustofaffliction;must,withaword,taketherubyfromherlips,therosefromhercheeks,thesparklefromhergloriouseyes——
eyesthatbeamedonhimwithsweetaffection,andamouththatneveropened,buttoshowsomesimplicityofmind,orsomeprettyburstofthesensitiveheart。
Heputoff,andputoff,andatlastcowardicebegantowhisper,"Whytellherthewholetruthatall?Whynottakeherthroughstagesofdoubt,alarm,and,afterall,leaveagrainofhopetillherchildgetssorootedinherheartthat"——Butconscienceandgoodsenseinterruptedthistemporarythought,andmadehimseetowhatahorriblelifeofsuspenseheshouldcondemnahumancreature,andliveaperpetuallie,andbealwaysattheedgeofsomepitfallorother。
Oneday,whilehesatlookingather,withallthesethoughts,andmanymore,coursingthroughhismind,shelookedupathim,andsurprisedhim。"Ah!"saidshegravely。
"Whatisthematter,mydear?"
"Oh,nothing,"saidshecunningly。
"Uncle,dear,"saidshepresently,"whendowegotoHerneBay?"
Now,Dr。Philiphadgiventhatup。HehadgottheservantsatKentVillaonhisside,andhefeltsaferherethaninanystrangeplace:sohesaid,"Idon'tknow:thatalldepends。Thereisplentyoftime。"
"No,uncle,"saidRosagravely。"Iwishtoleavethishouse。I
canhardlybreatheinit。"
"What!yournativeair?"
"Mysteryisnotmynativeair;andthishouseisfullofmystery。
Voiceswhisperatmydoor,andthepeopledon'tcomein。Themaidscaststrangelooksatme,andhurryaway。IscoldedthatpertgirlJane,andsheansweredmeasmeekasMoses。Icatchyoulookingatme,withlove,andsomethingelse。Whatisthatsomething——?ItisPity:thatiswhatitis。Doyouthink,becauseIamcalledasimpleton,thatIhavenoeyes,norears,norsense?Whatisthissecretwhichyouareallhidingfromoneperson,andthatisme?
Ah!Christopherhasnotwrittenthesefiveweeks。Tellmethetruth,forIwillknowit,"andshestartedupinwildexcitement。
ThenDr。Philipsawthehourwascome。
Hesaid,"Mypoorgirl,youhavereadusright。IamanxiousaboutChristopher,andalltheservantsknowit。"
"Anxious,andnottellME;hiswife;thewomanwhoselifeisboundupinhis。"
"Wasitforustoretardyourconvalescence,andsetyoufretting,andperhapsdestroyyourchild?Rosa,mydarling,thinkwhatatreasureHeavenhassentyou,toloveandcarefor。"
"Yes,"saidshe,trembling,"Heavenhasbeengoodtome;IhopeHeavenwillalwaysbeasgoodtome。Idon'tdeserveit;butthenItellGodso。Iamverygrateful,andverypenitent。Ineverforgetthat,ifIhadbeenagoodwife,myhusband——fiveweeksisalongtime。Whydoyoutrembleso?Whyareyousopale——astrongmanlikeyou?CALAMITY!CALAMITY!"
Dr。Philiphunghishead。
Shelookedathim,startedwildlyup,thensankbackintoherchair。Sothestrickendeerleaps,thenfalls。Yetevennowsheputonadeceitfulcalm,andsaid,"Tellmethetruth。Ihavearighttoknow。"
Hestammeredout,"Thereisareportofanaccidentatsea。"
Shekeptsilence。
"Ofapassengerdrowned——outofthatship。This,coupledwithhissilence,fillsourheartswithfear。"
"Itisworse——youarebreakingittome——youhavegonetoofartostop。Oneword:ishealive?Oh,sayheisalive!"
Philiprangthebellhard,andsaidinatroubledvoice,"Rosa,thinkofyourchild。"
"Notwhenmyhusband——Ishealiveordead?"
"Itishardtosay,withsuchaterriblereportabout,andnoletters,"falteredtheoldman,hiscouragefailinghim。
"Whatareyouafraidof?DoyouthinkIcan'tdie,andgotohim?
Alive,ordead?"andshestoodbeforehim,ragingandquiveringineverylimb。
Thenursecamein。
"Fetchherchild,"hecried;"Godhavemercyonher。"
"Ah,thenheisdead,"saidshe,withstonycalmness。"Idrovehimtosea,andheisdead。"
Thenurserushedin,andheldthechildtoher。
Shewouldnotlookatit。
"Dead!"
"Yes,ourpoorChristieisgone——buthischildishere——theimageofhim。Donotforgetthemother。Havepityonhischildandyours。"
"Takeitoutofmysight!"shescreamed。"Awaywithit,orIshallmurderit,asIhavemurdereditsfather。MydearChristie,beforeallthatlive!Ihavekilledhim。Ishalldieforhim。Ishallgotohim。"Sheravedandtoreherhair。Servantsrushedin。
Rosawascarriedtoherbed,screamingandraving,andherblackhairalldownonbothsides,apiteoussight。
Swoonfollowedswoon,andthatverynightbrainfeversetinwithallitssadaccompaniments;apoorbereavedcreature,tossingandmoaning;pale,anxious,butresolutefacesofthenurseandthekitchen-maidwatching:ononetableapailofice,andonanotherthelong,thickravenhairofourpoorSimpleton,lyingoncleansilverpaper。Dr。Philiphadcutitalloffwithhisownhand,andhewasnowfoldingitup,andcryingoverit;forhethoughttohimself,"Perhapsinafewdaysmoreonlythiswillbeleftofheronearth。"
CHAPTERXV。
Stainesfellhead-foremostintotheseawithaheavyplunge。Beinganexcellentswimmer,hestruckoutthemomenthetouchedthewater,andthatarrestedhisdive,andbroughthimupwithaslant,shockedandpanting,drenchedandconfused。Thenextmomenthesaw,asthroughafog——hiseyesbeingfullofwater——somethingfallfromtheship。Hebreastedthebigwaves,andswamtowardsit:itroseonthetopofawave,andhesawitwasalife-buoy。
Encumberedwithwetclothes,heseemedimpotentinthebigwaves;
theythrewhimupsohigh,anddownsolow。
Almostexhausted,hegottothelife-buoy,andclutcheditwithafiercegraspandawildcryofdelight。Hegotitoverhishead,and,placinghisarmsroundthebuoyantcircle,stoodwithhisbreastandheadoutofwater,gasping。
Henowdrewalongbreath,andgothiswethairoutofhiseyes,alreadysmartingwithsaltwater,and,raisinghimselfonthebuoy,lookedoutforhelp。
Hesaw,tohisgreatconcern,theshipalreadyatadistance。Sheseemedtohaveflown,andshewasstilldriftingfastawayfromhim。
Hesawnosignsofhelp。Hisheartbegantoturnascoldashisdrenchedbody。Ahorriblefearcrossedhim。
Butpresentlyhesawtheweather-boatfilled,andfallintothewater;andthenawaverolledbetweenhimandtheship,andheonlysawhertopmast。
Thenexttimeheroseonamightywavehesawtheboatstogetherasternofthevessel,butnotcominghisway;andthegloomwasthickening,theshipbecomingindistinct,andallwasdoubtandhorror。
Alifeofagonypassedinafewminutes。
Heroseandfelllikeacorkonthebuoyantwaves——roseandfell,andsawnothingbuttheship'slights,nowterriblydistant。
Butatlast,asheroseandfell,hecaughtafewfitfulglimpsesofasmallerlightrisingandfallinglikehimself。"Aboat!"hecried,andraisinghimselfashighashecould,shouted,cried,imploredforhelp。Hestretchedhishandsacrossthewater。"Thisway!thisway!"
Thelightkeptmoving,butitcamenonearer。Theyhadgreatlyunderratedthedrift。Theotherboathadnolight。
Minutespassedofsuspense,hope,doubt,dismay,terror。Thoseminutesseemedhours。
Intheagonyofsuspensethequakingheartsentbeadsofsweattothebrow,thoughthebodywasimmersed。
Andthegloomdeepened,andthecoldwavesflunghimuptoheavenwiththeirgiantarms,andthendownagaintohell:andstillthatlight,hisonlyhope,wasseveralhundredyardsfromhim。
Onlyforamomentatatimecouldhiseyeballs,strainingwithagony,catchthiswill-o'-the-wisp,theboat'slight。Itgropedtheseaupanddown,butcamenonear。
Whenwhatseemeddaysofagonyhadpassed,suddenlyarocketroseinthehorizon——soitseemedtohim。
Thelostmangaveashriekofjoy;sopronearewetointerpretthingshopefully。
Misery!Thenexttimehesawthatlittlelight,thatsolitarysparkofhope,itwasnotquitesonearasbefore。Amortalsicknessfellonhisheart。Theshiphadrecalledtheboatsbyrocket。
Heshrieked,hecried,hescreamed,heraved。"Oh,Rosa!Rosa!forhersake,men,men,donotleaveme。Iamhere!here!"
Invain。Themiserablemansawtheboat'slittlelightretire,recede,andmeltintotheship'slargerlight,andthatlightglidedaway。
Then,acold,deadlystuporfellonhim。Then,death'sicyclawseizedhisheart,andseemedtorunfromittoeverypartofhim。
Hewasadeadman。Onlyaquestionoftime。Nothingtogainbyfloating。
Butthedespairingmindcouldnotquittheworldinpeace,andevenhereinthecold,cruelsea,thequiveringbodyclungtothisfragmentoflife,andwincedatdeath'stouch,thoughmoremerciful。
Hedespisedthisweakness;heragedatit;hecouldnotovercomeit。
Unabletoliveortodie,condemnedtofloatslowly,hourbyhour,downintodeath'sjaws。
Toalong,death-likestuporsucceededfrenzy。Furyseizedthisgreatandlong-sufferingmind。Itroseagainstthecrueltyandinjusticeofhisfate。Hecursedtheworld,whosestupidityhaddrivenhimtosea,hecursedremorselessnature;andatlastherailedontheGodwhomadehim,andmadethecruelwater,thatwaswaitingforhisbody。"God'sjustice!God'smercy!God'spower!
theyarealllies,"heshouted,"dreams,chimeras,likeHimtheall-powerfulandgood,menbabbleofbythefire。IftherewasaGodmorepowerfulthanthesea,andonlyhalfasgoodasmenare,hewouldpitymypoorRosaandme,andsendahurricanetodrivethosecaitiffsbacktothewretchtheyhaveabandoned。Naturealoneismighty。Oh,ifIcouldhaveheronmyside,andonlyGodagainstme!ButsheisasdeaftoprayerasHeis:asmechanicalandremorseless。Iamabubblemeltingintothesea。SoulIhavenone;mybodywillsoonbenothing,nothing。Soendsanhonest,lovinglife。Ialwaystriedtolovemyfellow-creatures。Cursethem!cursethem!Cursetheearth!Cursethesea!Curseallnature:thereisnootherGodformetocurse。"
Themooncameout。
Heraisedhisheadandstaringeyeballs,andcursedher。
Thewindbegantowhistle,andflungsprayinhisface。
Heraisedhisfallenheadandstaringeyeballs,andcursedthewind。
Whilehewasthusraving,hebecamesensibleofablackobjecttowindward。
Itlookedlikearail,andamanleaningonit。
Hestared,heclearedthewethairfromhiseyes,andstaredagain。
Thething,beinglargerthanhimselfandpartlyoutofwater,wasdriftingtoleewardfasterthanhimself。
Hestaredandtrembled,andatlastitcamenearlyabreast,black,black。
Hegavealoudcry,andtriedtoswimtowardsit;butencumberedwithhislife-buoy,hemadelittleprogress。Thethingdriftedabreastofhim,buttenyardsdistant。
Astheyeachrosehighuponthewaves,hesawitplainly。
Itwastheveryraftthathadbeentheinnocentcauseofhissadfate。
Heshoutedwithhope,heswam,hestruggled;hegotnearit,butnottoit;itdriftedpast,andhelosthischanceofinterceptingit。Hestruggledafterit。Thelife-buoywouldnotlethimcatchit。
Thenhegaveacryofagony,rage,despair,andflungoffthelife-
buoy,andriskedallonthisonechance。
Hegainsalittleontheraft。
Heloses。
Hegains:hecries,"Rosa!Rosa!"andstruggleswithallhissoul,aswellashisbody:hegains。
Butwhenalmostwithinreach,awavehalfdrownshim,andheloses。
Hecries,"Rosa!Rosa!"andswimshighandstrong。"Rosa!Rosa!
Rosa!"
Heisnearit。Hecries,"Rosa!Rosa!"andwithalltheenergyofloveandlifeflingshimselfalmostoutofthewater,andcatchesholdofthenearestthingontheraft。
Itwasthedeadman'sleg。
Itseemedasifitwouldcomeawayinhisgrasp。Hedarednottrytopullhimselfupbythat。Butheheldonbyit,panting,exhausting,faint。
Thisfaintnessterrifiedhim。"Oh,"thoughthe,"ifIfaintnow,allisover。"
Holdingbythatterribleandstrangesupport,hemadeagrasp,andcaughtholdofthewoodworkatthebottomoftherail。Hetriedtodrawhimselfup。Impossible。
Hewasnobetteroffthanwithhislife-buoy。
Butinsituationssodreadful,menthinkfast;heworkedgraduallyroundthebottomoftheraftbyhishands,tillhegottoleeward,stillholdingon。Therehefoundasolidblockofwoodattheedgeoftheraft。Heprisedhimselfcarefullyup;theraftinthatpartthensankalittle:hegothiskneeuponthetimberoftheraft,andwithawildcryseizedthenearestupright,andthrewbotharmsrounditandclungtight。Thenfirsthefoundbreathtospeak。
"THANKGOD!"hecried,kneelingonthetimber,andgraspingtheuprightpost——"OH,THANKGOD!THANKGOD!"
CHAPTERXVI。
"ThankGod!"why,accordingtohistheory,itshouldhavebeen"ThankNature。"ButIobservethat,insuchcases,evenphilosophersareungratefultothemistresstheyworship。
OurphilosophernotonlythankedGod,butbeingonhisknees,prayedforgivenessforhislateravings,prayedhard,withonearmcurledroundtheupright,lestthesea,whicheverandanonrushedoverthebottomoftheraft,shouldswallowhimupinamoment。
Thenherosecarefully,andwedgedhimselfintothecorneroftheraftoppositetothatotherfigure,ominousrelicofthewildvoyagethenew-comerhadenteredupon;heputbotharmsovertherail,andstooderect。
Themoonwasnowup;butsowasthebreeze:fleecycloudsflewwithvastrapidityacrossherbrightface,anditwasbyfitfulthoughvividglancesStainesexaminedtheraftandhiscompanion。
Theraftwaslarge,andwellmadeoftimberstiedandnailedtogether,andastrongrailranrounditrestingonseveraluprights。Therewerealsosomeblocksofaverylightwoodscrewedtothehorizontaltimbers,andthesemadeitfloathigh。
Butwhatarrestedandfascinatedtheman'sgazewashisdeadcompanion,solesurvivor,doubtless,ofahorriblevoyage,sincetheraftwasnotmadeforone,norbyone。
Itwasaskeleton,ornearly,whoseclothestheseabirdshadtorn,andpeckedeverylimbinallthefleshyparts;therestofthebodyhaddriedtodarkleatheronthebones。Theheadwaslittlemorethananeyelessskull;butinthefitfulmoonlight,thosehugehollowcavernsseemedgiganticlamp-likeeyes,andglaredathimfiendishly,appallingly。
Hesickenedatthesight。Hetriednottolookatit;butitwouldbelookedat,andthreatenhiminthemoonlight,withgreatlack-
lustreeyes。
Thewindwhistled,andlashedhisfacewithspraytornoffthebigwaves,andthewaterwasnearlyuptohisknees,andtherafttossedsowildly,itwasallhecoulddotoholdoninhiscorner:
inwhichstruggle,stillthosemonstrouslack-lustreeyes,likelampsofdeath,glaredathiminthemoon;allelsewasdark,exceptthefierycrestsoftheblackmountain-billows,tumblingandragingallaround。
Whatanight!
But,beforemorning,thebreezesank,themoonset,andasombrequietsucceeded,withonlythatgrimfigureinoutlinedimlyvisible。Owingtothemotionstillretainedbythewaves,itseemedtonodandrear,andbeeverpreparingtorushuponhim。
Thesunroseglorious,onalovelyscene;theskywasaverymosaicofcolorssweetandvivid,andthetranquil,ripplingsea,peach-
coloredtothehorizon,withlinesofdiamondswherethemyriadripplesbrokeintosmiles。
Staineswasasleep,exhausted。Soonthelightawokehim,andhelookedup。Whatanincongruouspicturemethiseye:thatheavenofcolorallaboveandaround,andrightbeforehim,likeadevilstuckinmid-heaven,thatgrinningcorpse,whosefateforeshadowedhisown。
Butdaylightisagreatstrengthenerofthenerves;thefigurenolongerappalledhim——amanwhohadlonglearnedtolookwithScience'scalmeyeuponthedead。Whentheseabecamelikeglass,andfrompeach-colordeepenedtorose,hewalkedalongtheraft,andinspectedthedeadman。Hefounditwasamanofcolor,butnotablack。Thebodywasnotkeptinitsplace,ashehadsupposed,merelybybeingjammedintotheanglecausedbytherail;
itwasalsolashedtothecorneruprightbyalong,stoutbelt。
Stainesconcludedthishadkeptthebodythere,anditscompanionshadbeensweptaway。
Thiswasnotlostonhim:heremovedthebeltforhisownuse:hethenfounditwasnotonlyabelt,butareceptacle;itwasnearlyfullofsmall,hardsubstancesthatfeltlikestones。
Whenhehadtakenitoffthebody,hefeltacompunction。"Oughthetorobthedead,andexposeittobesweptintotheseaatthefirstwave,likeadeaddog?"
Hewasabouttoreplacethebelt,whenamiddlecourseoccurredtohim。Hewasamanwhoalwayscarriedcertainusefullittlethingsabouthim,viz。,needles,thread,scissors,andstring。Hetookapieceofstring,andeasilysecuredthispoorlightskeletontotheraft。Thebelthestrappedtotherail,andkeptforhisownneed。
Andnowhungergnawedhim。Nofoodwasnear。Therewasnothingbutthelovelyseaandsky,mosaicwithcolor,andthatgrim,ominousskeleton。
Hungercomesandgoesmanytimesbeforeitbecomesinsupportable。
Allthatdayandnight,andthenextday,hesuffereditspangs;
andthenitbecametorture,butthethirstmaddening。
Towardsnightfellagentlerain。Hespreadahandkerchiefandcaughtit。Hesuckedthehandkerchief。
Thisrevivedhim,andevenallayedinsomedegreethepangsofhunger。
Nextdaywascloudless。Ahotsunglaredonhisunprotectedhead,andbattereddownhisenfeebledframe。
Heresistedaswellashecould。Heoftendippedhishead,andasoftenthepersistentsun,withcruelglare,madeitsmokeagain。
Nextdaythesame:butthestrengthtomeetitwaswaning。HelaydownandthoughtofRosa,andweptbitterly。Hetookthedeadman'sbelt,andlashedhimselftotheupright。Thatact,andhistearsforhisbeloved,werealmosthislastactsofperfectreason:
fornextdaycamethedelusionsandthedreamsthatsucceedwhenhungerceasestotorture,andthevitalpowersbegintoebb。Helayandsawpleasantmeadowswithmeanderingstreams,andclustersofrichfruitthatcourtedthehandandmeltedinthemouth。
Everandanontheyvanished,andhesawgrimdeathlookingdownonhimwiththosebigcavernouseyes。
Byandby,whetherhisbody'seyesawthegrimskeleton,orhismind'seyethejuicyfruits,greenmeadows,andpearlybrooks,allwasshadowy。
So,inaplacidcalm,beneathabluesky,theraftdrifteddead,withitsdeadfreight,upontheglassypurple,andhedrifted,too,towardstheworldunknown。
Therecameacrossthewaterstothatdismalraftathingnonetoocommon,byseaorland——agoodman。
Hewastall,stalwart,bronzed,andhadhairlikesnow,beforehistime,forhehadknowntrouble。Hecommandedamerchantsteamer,boundforCalcutta,ontheoldroute。
Themanatthemast-headdescriedafloatingwreck,andhailedthedeckaccordingly。Thecaptainalteredhiscoursewithoutonemoment'shesitation,andbroughtupalongside,loweredaboat,andbroughtthedead,andthebreathingman,onboard。
AyoungmiddyliftedStainesinhisarmsfromthewrecktotheboat;hewhosepersonIdescribedinchapteroneweighednownomorethanthat。
Menarenotalwaysrougherthanwomen。Theirstrengthandnerveenablethemnowandthentobegentlerthanbuttery-fingeredangels,whodropfrailthingsthroughsensitiveagitation,andbreakthem。TheseroughmensawStaineswashoveringbetweenlifeanddeath,andtheyhandledhimlikeathingtheebbinglifemightbeshakenoutofinamoment。Itwasprettytoseehowgingerlythesailorscarriedthesinkingmanuptheladder,andonefetchedswabs,andtheotherslaidhimdownsoftlyonthemattheircaptain'sfeet。
"Welldone,men,"saidhe。"Poorfellow!PrayHeaven,wemaynothavecometoolate。Nowstandaloofabit。Sendthesurgeonaft。"
Thesurgeoncame,andlooked,andfelttheheart。Heshookhishead,andcalledforbrandy。HehadStaines'sheadraised,andgothalfaspoonfulofdilutedbrandydownhisthroat。Buttherewasanominousgurgling。
Afterseveralsuchattemptsatintervals,hesaidplainlytheman'slifecouldnotbesavedbyordinarymeans。
"Thentryextraordinary,"saidthecaptain。"Myordersarethatheistobesaved。Thereislifeinhim。Youhaveonlygottokeepitthere。HeMUSTbesaved;heSHALLbesaved。"
"IshouldliketotryDr。Staines'sremedy,"saidthesurgeon。
"Tryit,thenwhatisit?"
"Abathofbeef-tea。Dr。Stainessaysheappliedittoastarvedchild——intheLancet。"
"Takeahundred-weightofbeef,andboilitinthecoppers。"
Thusencouraged,thesurgeonwenttothecook,andverysoonbeefwassteamingonascaleandatarateunparalleled。
Meantime,CaptainDoddhadthepatienttakentohisowncabin,andheandhisservantadministeredweakbrandyandwaterwithgreatcautionandskill。
Therewasnoperceptibleresult。Butatalleventstherewaslifeandvitalinstinctleft,orhecouldnothaveswallowed。
Thustheyhoveredabouthimforsomehours,andthenthebathwasready。
Thecaptaintookchargeofthepatient'sclothes:thesurgeonandasailorbathedhiminlukewarmbeef-tea,andthencoveredhimverywarmwithblanketsnexttheskin。Guesshownearathingitseemedtothem,whenItellyoutheydarednotrubhim。
Justbeforesunsethispulsebecameperceptible。Thesurgeonadministeredhalfaspoonfulofegg-flip。Thepatientswallowedit。
Byandbyhesighed。
"Hemustnotbeleft,dayornight,"saidthecaptain。"Idon'tknowwhoorwhatheis,butheisaman;andIcouldnotbearhimtodienow。"
ThatnightCaptainDoddoverhauledthepatient'sclothes,andlookedformarksonhislinen。Therewerenone。
"Poordevil"saidCaptainDodd。"Heisabachelor。"
CaptainDoddfoundhispocket-book,withbank-notes,twohundredpounds。Hetookthenumbers,madeamemorandumofthem,andlockedthenotesup。