Herfathercriedforhelpindismay。InranHarriet,saw,andscreamed,butdidnotloseherhead;thisveraciouspersonwhippedapairofscissorsoffthetable,andcuttheyounglady'sstay-
lacesdirectly。Thentherewasaburstofimprisonedbeauty;adeep,deepsighofreliefcamefromabosomthatwouldhavedonehonortoDiana;andthescenesoonconcludedwithfitsofharmlessweeping,renewedatintervals。
Whenithadsettleddowntothis,herfather,tosootheher,saidhewouldwritetoDr。Staines,andbringaboutareconciliation,ifsheliked。
"No,"saidshe,"youshallkillmesooner。Ishoulddieofshame。"
Sheadded,"Oh,pray,fromthishour,nevermentionhisnametome。"
Andthenshehadanothercry。
Mr。Lusignanwasasensibleman:hedroppedthesubjectforthepresent;buthemadeuphismindtoonething——thathewouldneverpartwithDr。Stainesasaphysician。
NextdayRosakeptherownroomuntildinner-time,andwasasunhappyasshedeservedtobe。Shespenthertimeinsewingonstiffflannelliningsandcrying。ShehalfhopedChristopherwouldwritetoher,sothatshemightwritebackthatsheforgavehim。
Butnotaline。
Athalf-pastsixhervolatilemindtookaturn,realoraffected。
Shewouldcrynomoreforanungratefulfellow,——ungratefulfornotseeingthroughthestonewallshowshehadbeenemployedallthemorning;andmakingitup。Soshebathedherredeyes,madeagreatalterationinherdress,andcamedancingintotheroomhumminganItalianditty。
Astheyweresittingtogetherinthedining-roomafterdinner,twoletterscamebythesameposttoMr。LusignanfromMr。WymanandDr。Snell。
Mr。Wyman'sletter:——
DEARSIR,——IamsorrytohearfromMissLusignanthatsheintendstodiscontinuemedicaladvice。Thedisorderwasprogressingfavorably,andnothingtobefeared,underpropertreatment。
Yours,etc。
Dr。Snell'sletter:——
DEARSIR,——MissLusignanhaswrittentomesomewhatimpatientlyandseemsdisposedtodispensewithmyvisits。Idonot,however,thinkitrighttowithdrawwithouttellingyoucandidlythatthisisanunwisestep。Yourdaughter'shealthisinaveryprecariouscondition。
Yours,etc。
Rosaburstoutlaughing。"Ihavenothingtofear,andI'monthebrinkofthegrave。Thatcomesofwritingwithoutaconsultation。
Iftheyhadwrittenatonetable,Ishouldhavebeenneitherwellnorill。PoorChristopher!"andhersweetfacebegantoworkpiteously。
"There!there!drinkaglassofwine。"
Shedid,andatearwithit,thatranintotheglasslikelightning。
Warnedbythisthatgriefsatverynearthebright,hilarioussurface,Mr。Lusignanavoidedallemotionalsubjectsforthepresent。Nextday,however,hetoldhershemightdismissherlover,butnopowershouldmakehimdismisshispetphysician,unlessherhealthimproved。
"Iwillnotgiveyouthatexcuseforinflictinghimonmeagain,"
saidtheyounghypocrite。
Shekeptherword。Shegotbetterandbetter,stronger,brighter,gayer。
Shetooktowalkingeveryday,andincreasingthedistance,tillshecouldwalktenmileswithoutfatigue。
Herfavoritewalkwastoacertaincliffthatcommandedanobleviewofthesea。TogettoitshemustpassthroughthetownofGravesend;andwemaybesureshedidnotpasssooftenthroughthatcitywithoutsomeideaofmeetingthelovershehadusedsoill,andelicitinganAPOLOGYfromhim。Slypuss!
Whenshehadwalkedtwentytimes,orthereabouts,throughthetown,andneverseenhim,shebegantofearshehadoffendedhimpasthope。Thensheusedtocryattheendofeverywalk。
Butbyandbybodilyhealth,vanity,andtempercombinedtorousethedefiantspirit。Saidshe,"Ifhereallylovedme,hewouldnottakemywordinsuchahurry。Andbesides,whydoeshenotwatchme,andfindoutwhatIamdoing,andwhereIwalk?"
Atlastshereallybegantopersuadeherselfthatshewasanill-
usedandslightedgirl。Shewasveryangryattimes,anddisconsolateatothers;amixedstateinwhichhastyandimpulsiveyoungladiescommitlifelongfollies。
Mr。Lusignanobservedthesurfaceonly:hesawhisinvaliddaughtergettingbettereveryday,tillatlastshebecameapictureofhealthandbodilyvigor。Relievedofhisfears,hetroubledhisheadbutlittleaboutChristopherStaines。Yetheesteemedhim,andhadgottolikehim;butRosawasabeauty,andcoulddobetterthanmarryastrugglingphysician,howeverable。Helaunchedoutintoalittlegayety,resumedhisquietdinner-parties;and,aftersomepersuasion,tookhisnowbloomingdaughtertoaballgivenbytheofficersofChatham。
Shewasthebelleoftheballbeyonddispute,anddancedwithetherealgraceandathleticendurance。Shewasmadlyfondofwaltzing,andheresheencounteredwhatshewaspleasedtocalladivinedancer。ItwasaMr。ReginaldFalcon,agentlemanwhohadretiredtotheseasidetorecruithishealthandfinancessoretriedbyLondonandParis。Falconhadrunthroughhisfortune,buthadacquired,intheprocess,certaintalentswhich,astheycosttheacquirerdear,sotheysometimesrepayhim,especiallyifheisnotoverburdenedwithprinciple,andadoptsthenotionthat,theworldhavingpluckedhim,hehasarighttoplucktheworld。Hecouldplaybilliardswell,butneversowellaswhenbackinghimselfforaheavystake。Hecouldshootpigeonswell,andhisshootingimprovedunderthatwhichmakessomemarksmenmiss——aheavybetagainstthegun。Hedancedtoperfection;andbeingawell-bred,experienced,brazen,adroitfellow,whoknewalittleofeverythingthatwasgoing,hehadalwaysplentytosay。Aboveall,hehadmadeaparticularstudyofthefairsex;hadmetwithmanysuccesses,manyrebuffs;and,atlast,bykeenstudyoftheirminds,andahabithehadacquiredofwatchingtheirfaces,andshiftinghishelmaccordingly,hadlearnedthegreatartofpleasingthem。Theyadmiredhisface;tome,theshortspacebetweenhiseyesandhishair,hisaquilinenose,andthinstraightlips,suggestedthebirdofpreyalittletoomuch:buttofairdoves,borntobeclutched,thissimilitudeperhapswasnotveryalarming,eveniftheyobservedit。
Rosadancedseveraltimeswithhim,andtoldhimhedancedlikeanangel。Heinformedherthatwasbecause,foronce,hewasdancingwithanangel。Shelaughedandblushed。Heflattereddeliciously,anditcosthimlittle;forhefellinlovewithherthatnight,deeperthanhehadeverbeeninhiswholelifeofintrigue。Heaskedleavetocallonher:shelookedalittleshyatthat,anddidnotrespond。Heinstantlywithdrewhisproposal,withanapologyandasighthatraisedherpity。However,shewasnotaforwardgirl,evenwhenexcitedbydancingandcharmedwithherpartner;soshelefthimtofindhisownwayoutofthatdifficulty。
Hewasnotlongaboutit。Attheendofthenextwaltzheaskedherifhemightventuretosolicitanintroductiontoherfather。
"Oh,certainly,"saidshe。"WhataselfishgirlIam!thisisterriblydullforhim。"
Theintroductionbeingmade,andRosabeingengagedforthenextthreedances,Mr。FalconsatbyMr。Lusignanandentertainedhim。
Forthislittlepieceofapparentself-denialhewaspaidinvariouscoin:Lusignanfoundouthewasthesonofanoldacquaintance,andsothedoorofKentVillaopenedtohim;
meantime,RosaLusignanneverpassedhim,eveninthearmsofacavalryofficer,withoutbestowingaglanceofapprovalandgratitudeonhim。"Whatagood-heartedyoungman!"thoughtshe。
"Howkindofhimtoamusepapa;andnowIcanstaysomuchlonger。"
Falconfollowedupthedancebyacall,andwasinfinitelyagreeable:followedupthecallbyanother,andadmiredRosawithsolittledisguisethatMr。Lusignansaidtoher,"Ithinkyouhavemadeaconquest。HisfatherhadconsiderableestatesinEssex。I
presumeheinheritsthem。"
"Oh,nevermindhisestates,"saidRosa,"hedanceslikeanangel,andgossipscharmingly,andISsonice。"
ChristopherStainespinedforthisgirlinsilence:hisfineframegotthinner,hispalecheekpaler,asshegotrosierandrosier;
andhow?Why,byfollowingtheveryadviceshehadsnubbedhimforgivingher。Atlast,heheardshehadbeenthebelleofaball,andthatshehadbeenseenwalkingmilesfromhome,andbloomingasaHebe。Thenhisdeepanxietyceased,hispridestunghimfuriously;hebegantothinkofhisownvalue,andtostrugglewithallhismightagainsthisdeeplove。Sometimeshewouldeveninveighagainsther,andcallherafickle,ungratefulgirl,capableofnostrongpassionbutvanity。Manyahardtermheappliedtoherinhissorrowfulsolitude;butnotawordwhenhehadahearer。Hefoundithardtorest:hekeptdashinguptoLondonandback。Heplungedfuriouslyintostudy。Hegroanedandsighed,andfoughtthehardandbitterfightthatistoooftenthelotofthedeepthatlovetheshallow。Strong,butsingle-hearted,nootherladycouldcomforthim。Heturnedfromfemalecompany,andshunnedallforthefaultofone。
Theinwardcontestworehim。Hebegantolookverythinandwan;
andallforaSimpleton!
Mr。Falconprolongedhisstayintheneighborhood,anddroveahandsomedogcartovertwiceaweektovisitMr。Lusignan。
Heusedtocallonthatgentlemanatfouro'clock,foratthathourMr。Lusignanwasalwaysout,andhisdaughteralwaysathome。
Shewasathomeatthathourbecauseshetookherlongwalksinthemorning。Whilehernewadmirerwasinbed,ordressing,orbreakfasting,shewasspringingalongtheroadwithalltheelasticityofyouth,andhealth,andnativevigor,bracedbydailyexercise。
Twenty-oneofthesewalksdidshetake,withnootherresultthanhealthandappetite;butthetwenty-secondwasmorefertile——
extremelyfertile。Startinglaterthanusual,shepassedthroughGravesendwhileReginaldFalconwassmokingathisfrontwindow。
Hesawher,andinstantlydoffedhisdressing-gownanddonnedhiscoattofollowher。Hewasmadlyinlovewithher,andbeingamanwhohadlearnedtoshootpigeonsandopportunitiesflying,heinstantlyresolvedtojoinherinherwalk,getherclearofthetown,bythesea-beach,wherebeautymelts,andproposetoher。
Yes,marriagehadnotbeenhithertohishabit,butthisgirlwaspeerless:hewaspledgedbyhonorandgratitudetoPhoebeDale;buthangallthatnow。"Nomanshouldmarryonewomanwhenhelovesanother;itisdishonorable。"Hegotintothestreetandfollowedherasfastashecouldwithoutrunning。
Itwasnotsoeasytocatchher。Ladiesarenotbuiltforrunning;
butafine,tall,symmetricalgirlwhohaspractisedwalkingfastcancoverthegroundwonderfullyinwalking——ifshechooses。ItwasasighttoseehowRosaLusignansquaredhershouldersandsteppedoutfromthewaistlikeaCanadiangirlskating,whileherelasticfootslappedthepavementasshespankedalong。
ShehadnearlyclearedthetownbeforeFalconcameupwithher。
Hewashardlytenyardsfromherwhenanunexpectedincidentoccurred。ShewhiskedroundthecornerofBirdStreet,andranplumpagainstChristopherStaines;infact,shedartedintohisarms,andherfacealmosttouchedthebreastshehadwoundedsodeeply。
CHAPTERIV。
Rosacried"Oh!"andputupherhandstoherfaceinlovelyconfusion,coloringlikeapeony。
"Ibegyourpardon,"saidChristopher,stiffly,butinavoicethattrembled。
"No,"saidRosa,"itwasIranagainstyou。Iwalksofastnow。
HopeIdidnothurtyou。"
"Hurtme?"
"Well,then,frightenyou?"
Noanswer。
"Oh,pleasedon'tquarrelwithmeintheSTREET,"saidRosa,cunninglyimplyingthathewasthequarrelsomeone。"Iamgoingonthebeach。Good-by!"Thisadieusheutteredsoftly,andinahesitatingtonethatbeliedit。Shestartedoff,however,butmuchmoreslowlythanshewasgoingbefore;and,asshewent,sheturnedherheadwithinfinitegrace,andkeptlookingaskantdownatthepavementtwoyardsbehindher:moreovershewentclosetothewall,andleftroomathersideforanothertowalk。
Christopherhesitatedamoment;butthemuteinvitation,soarchyettimid,sopretty,tender,sly,andwomanly,wastoomuchforhim,asithasgenerallyprovedformales,andthephilosopher'sfootwassoonintheveryplacetowhichtheSimpletonwiththemeretailofhereyedirectedit。
Theywalkedalong,sidebyside,insilence,Stainesagitated,gloomy,confused,Rosaradiantandglowing,yetnotknowingwhattosayforherself,andwantingChristophertobegin。Sotheywalkedalongwithoutaword。
Falconfollowedthematsomedistancetoseewhetheritwasanadmireroronlyanacquaintance。Aloverheneverdreamedof;shehadshownsuchevidentpleasureinhiscompany,andhadreceivedhisvisitsalonesoconstantly。
However,whenthepairhadgottothebeach,andwerewalkingslowerandslower,hefeltapangofrageandjealousy,turnedonhisheelwithanaudiblecurse,andfoundPhoebeDaleafewyardsbehindhimwithawhitefaceandapeculiarlook。Heknewwhatthelookmeant;hehadbroughtittothatfaithfulfacebeforeto-day。
"Youarebetter,MissLusignan。"
"Better,Dr。Staines?Iamhealthitselfthanksto——hem!"
"Ourestrangementhasagreedwithyou?"Thisverybitterly。
"Youknowverywellitisnotthat。Oh,pleasedon'tmakemecryinthestreets。"
Thishumblepetition,orrathermeekthreat,ledtoanotherlongsilence。Itwascontinuedtilltheyhadnearlyreachedtheshore。
But,meantime,Rosa'sfurtiveeyesscannedChristopher'sface,andherconsciencesmoteheratthesignsofsuffering。Shefeltadesiretobeghispardonwithdeephumility;butshesuppressedthatweakness。Shehungherheadwithapretty,sheepishair,andaskedhimifhecouldnotthinkofsomethingagreeabletosaytooneafterdesertingonesolong。
"Iamafraidnot,"saidChristopher,bluntly。"Ihaveanawkwardhabitofspeakingthetruth;andsomepeoplecan'tbearthat,notevenwhenitisspokenfortheirgood。"
"Thatdependsontemper,andnerves,andthings,"saidRosa,deprecatingly;thensoftly,"Icouldbearanythingfromyounow。"
"Indeed!"saidChristopher,grimly。"Well,then,Ihearyouhadnosoonergotridofyouroldlover,forlovingyoutoowellandtellingyouthetruth,thanyoutookupanother,——someflimsymanoffashion,whowilltellyouanylieyoulike。"
"Itisastory,awickedstory,"criedRosa,thoroughlyalarmed。
"Me,alover!Hedanceslikeanangel;Ican'thelpthat。"
"Arehisvisitsatyourhouselikeangels'——fewandfarbetween?"
Andthetruelover'sbrowloweredblackuponherforthefirsttime。
Rosachangedcolor,andhereyesfellamoment。"Askpapa,"shesaid。"Hisfatherwasanoldfriendofpapa's。"
"Rosa,youareprevaricating。Youngmendonotcallonoldgentlemenwhenthereisanattractiveyoungladyinthehouse。"
Theargumentwasgettingtooclose;soRosaoperatedadiversion。
"So,"saidshe,withasuddenairofloftydisdain,swiftlyandadroitlyassumed,"youhavehadmewatched?"
"NotI;Ionlyhearwhatpeoplesay。"
"Listentogossipandnothavemewatched!Thatshowshowlittleyoureallycaredforme。Well,ifyouhad,youwouldhavemadealittlediscovery,thatisall。"
"ShouldI?"saidChristopher,puzzled。"What?"
"Ishallnottellyou。Thinkwhatyouplease。Yes,sir,youwouldhavefoundoutthatItakelongwalkseveryday,allalone;andwhatismore,thatIwalkthroughGravesend,hoping——likeagoose——
thatsomebodyreallylovedme,andwouldmeetme,andbegmypardon;andifhehad,Ishouldhavetoldhimitwasonlymytongue,andmynerves,andthings;myheartwashis,andmygratitude。Andafterall,whatdowordssignify,whenIamagood,obedientgirlatbottom?Sothatiswhatyouhavelostbynotcondescendingtolookafterme。Finelove!——Christopher,begmypardon。"
"MayIinquireforwhat?"
"Why,fornotunderstandingme;fornotknowingthatIshouldbesorrythemomentyouweregone。Itookthemofftheverynextday,topleaseyou。"
"Tookoffwhom?——Oh,Iunderstand。Youdid?ThenyouAREagoodgirl。"
"Didn'tItellyouIwas?Agood,obedientgirl,andanythingbutaflirt。"
"Idon'tsaythat。"
"ButIdo。Don'tinterrupt。ItistoyourgoodadviceIowemyhealth;andtoloveanybodybutyou,whenIoweyoumyloveandmylife,Imustbeaheartless,ungrateful,worthless——Oh,Christopher,forgiveme!No,no;Imean,begmypardon。"
"I'lldoboth,"saidChristopher,takingherinhisarms。"Ibegyourpardon,andIforgiveyou。"
Rosaleanedherheadtenderlyonhisshoulder,andbegantosigh。
"Oh,dear,dear!Iamawicked,foolishgirl,notfittowalkalone。"
Onthisadmission,Christopherspokeout,andurgedhertoputanendtoalltheseunhappymisunderstandings,andtohisnewtorment,jealousy,bymarryinghim。
"AndsoIwouldthisveryminute,ifpapawouldconsent。But,"
saidshe,slyly,"younevercanbesofoolishtowishit。What!awisemanlikeyoumarryasimpleton!"
"DidIevercallyouthat?"askedChristopher,reproachfully。
"No,dear;butyouaretheonlyonewhohasnot;andperhapsI
shouldloseeventheone,ifyouweretomarryme。Oh,husbandsarenotsopoliteaslovers!Ihaveobservedthat,simpletonornot。"
Christopherassuredherthathetookquiteadifferentviewofhercharacter;hebelievedhertobetooprofoundforshallowpeopletoreadallinamoment:heevenintimatedthathehimselfhadexperiencednolittledifficultyinunderstandingheratoddtimes。
"Andso,"saidhe,"theyturnrounduponyou,andinsteadofsaying,'Wearetooshallowtofathomyou,'theypretendyouareasimpleton。"
ThissolutionofthemysteryhadneveroccurredtoRosa,norindeedwasitlikelytooccurtoanycreaturelessingeniousthanalover:
itpleasedherhugely;herfineeyessparkled,andshenestledcloserstilltothestrongarmthatwastoparryeveryill,frommortaldiseasetogallingepithets。
Shelistenedwithawillingeartoallhisreasons,hishopes,hisfears,and,whentheyreachedherfather'sdoor,itwassettledthatheshoulddinetherethatday,andurgehissuittoherfatherafterdinner。Shewouldimploretheoldgentlemantolistentoitfavorably。
Theloversparted,andChristopherwenthomelikeonewhohasawakenedfromahideousdreamtodaylightandhappiness。
Hehadnotgonefarbeforehemetadashingdogcart,drivenbyanexquisite。Heturnedtolookafterit,andsawitdriveuptoKentVilla。
Inamomenthedivinedhisrival,andasicknessofheartcameoverhim。Butherecoveredhimselfdirectly,andsaid,"Ifthatisthefellow,shewillnotreceivehimnow。"
Shedidreceivehimthough:atallevents,thedogcartstoodatthedoor,anditsmasterremainedinside。
Christopherstood,andcountedtheminutes:five,ten,fifteen,twentyminutes,andstillthedogcartstoodthere。
Itwasmorethanhecouldbear。Heturnedsavagely,andstrodebacktoGravesend,resolvingthatallthistortureshouldendthatnight,onewayorother。
PhoebeDalewasthedaughterofafarmerinEssex,andoneofthehappiestyoungwomeninEnglandtillsheknewReginaldFalcon,Esq。
Shewasrearedonwholesomefood,inwholesomeair,andusedtochurnbutter,makebread,cookabitnowandthen,cutoutandsewallherowndresses,getupherownlinen,makehay,rideanythingonfourlegs;and,forallthat,wasagreatreader,andtaughtintheSundayschooltoobligethevicar;wroteaneathand,andwasagoodarithmetician,keptallthehouseaccountsandfarmaccounts。
Shewasamusician,too,——notprofound,butverycorrect。Shewouldtakeherturnattheharmoniuminchurch,and,whenshewasthere,youneverheardawrongnoteinthebass,noraninappropriateflourish,norbadtime。Shecouldsing,too,butneverwould,exceptherpartinapsalm。Hervoicewasadeepcontralto,andshechosetobeashamedofthisheavenlyorgan,becauseapackofenviousgirlshadgiggled,andsaiditwaslikeaman's。
Inshort,hernaturalabilityandtherangeandvarietyofherusefulaccomplishmentswereconsiderable;notthatshewasaprodigy;butshebelongedtoasmallclassofwomeninthisislandwhoarenottoohightousetheirarms,nortoolowtocultivatetheirminds;and,havingafacultyandahabitdeplorablyrareamongsthersex,viz。,Attention,shehadprofitedbyhermiscellaneousadvantages。
Herfigureandfacebothtoldherbreedatonce:herewasanoldEnglishpastoralbeauty;nottheround-backed,narrow-chestedcottager,butthewell-fed,erectrustic,withbroad,fullbustandmassiveshoulder,andarmashardasarockwithhealthandconstantuse;ahandfinelycut,thoughneithersmallnorverywhite,andjustalittlehardinside,comparedwithLuxury'ssoftpalm;afacehonest,fair,andratherlargethansmall;notbeautiful,butexceedinglycomely;acomplexionnotpinkandwhite,butthatdelicatelyblendedbrickdustycolor,whichtintsthewholecheekinfinegradation,outlastsothercomplexionstwentyyears,andbeautifiesthetrueNorthern,eveninoldage。Gray,limpid,honest,point-blank,searchingeyes;hairtruenut-brown,withoutashadeofredorblack;andahigh,smoothforehead,fullofsense。
Acrossitranonedeepwrinklethatdidnotbelongtoheryouth。
Thatwrinklewasthebrandoftrouble,thelineofagony。Ithadcomeoflovingaboveher,yetbelowher,andoflovinganegotist。
Threeyearsbeforeourtalecommenced,agentleman'shorseranawaywithhim,andthrewhimonaheapofstonesbytheroadside,notveryfarfromFarmerDale'sgate。Thefarmerhadhimtakenin。
Thedoctorsaidhemustnotbemoved。Hewasinsensible;hischeeklikedelicatewax;hisfairhairlikesilkstainedwithblood。HebecamePhoebe'spatient,and,induecourse,herconvalescent:hispale,handsomefaceandfascinatingmannersgainedonecharmmorefromweakness;hisviceswereinabeyance。
Thewomanlynurse'sheartyearnedoverherchild;forhewasfeebleasachild;and,whenhegotwellenoughtoamusehiswearyhoursbymakinglovetoher,andtellingherapackofarrantlies,shewasareadydupe。Hewastomarryherassoonaseverhisolduncledied,andlefthimthemeans,etc。,etc。Atlasthegotwellenoughtoleaveher,andwentaway,heropenadmirerandsecretlover。Heborrowedtwentypoundsofherthedayheleft。
Heusedtowritehercharmingletters,andfeedtheflame;butonedayherfathersentheruptoLondon,onhisownbusiness,allofasudden,andshecalledonMr。Falconathisrealaddress。Shefoundhedidnotlivethere——onlyreceivedletters。However,half-
a-crownsoonboughthisrealaddress,andthitherPhoebeproceededwithatroubledheart,forshesuspectedthathertrueloverwasindebtortrouble,andobligedtohide。Well,hemustbegotoutofit,andhideatthefarmmeantime。
Sothelovinggirlknockedatthedoor,askedforMr。Falcon,andwasshownintoaladyrathershowilydressed,whoaskedherbusiness。
PhoebeDalestaredather,andthenturnedpaleasashes。Shewasparalyzed,andcouldnotfindhertongue。
"Why,whatisthematternow?"saidtheother,sharply。
"AreyoumarriedtoReginaldFalcon?"
"OfcourseIam。Lookatmywedding-ring。"
"ThenIamnotwantedhere,"falteredPhoebe,readytosinkonthefloor。
"Certainlynot,ifyouareoneofthebygones,"saidthewoman,coarsely;andPhoebeDalewaitedtohearnomore,butfoundherway,Heavenknowshow,intothestreet,andthereleaned,half-
fainting,onarail,tillapolicemancame,andtoldhershehadbeendrinking,andsuggestedacoolcellasthebestcure。
"Notdrink;onlyabreakingheart,"saidshe,inherlow,mellowvoicethatfewcouldresist。
Hegotheraglassofwater,droveawaytheboysthatcongregateddirectly,andsheleftthestreet。Butshesooncamebackagain,andwaitedaboutforReginaldFalcon。
Itwasnightwhenheappeared。Sheseizedhimbythebreast,andtaxedhimwithhisvillany。
Whatwithherirongrasp,paleface,andflashingeyes,helosthiscoolimpudence,andblurtedoutexcuses。Itwasanoldandunfortunateconnection;hewouldgivetheworldtodissolveit,ifhecoulddoitlikeagentleman。
Phoebetoldhimtopleasehimself:hemustpartwithoneortheother。
"Don'ttalknonsense,"saidthismanofbrass;"I'llun-Falconheronthespot。"
"Verywell,"saidPhoebe。"Iamgoinghome;and,ifyouarenottherebyto-morrowatnoon"——Shesaidnomore,butlookedagreatdeal。Thenshedeparted,andrefusedhimherhandatparting。"Wewillseeaboutthatbyandby,"saidshe。
Atnoonmylordcamedowntothefarm,and,unfortunatelyforPhoebe,playedthepenitentsoskilfullyforaboutamonth,thatsheforgavehim,andlovedhimallthemoreforhavingsonearlypartedwithhim。
Herpeacewasnottoendurelong。Hewasdetectedinanintrigueintheveryvillage。
TheinsultstrucksohomethatPhoebeherself,toherparents'
satisfaction,orderedhimoutofthehouseatonce。
But,whenhewasgone,shehadfitsofweeping,andcouldsettletonothingforalongtime。
Monthshadelapsed,andshewasgettingasortofdulltranquillity,when,oneevening,takingawalkshehadoftenwithhim,andmourninghersolitudeandwastedaffection,hewaylaidher,andclungtoherknees,andshedcrocodiletearsonherhands,and,afteralongresistance,violentatfirst,butfainterandfainter,gotherinhispoweragain,andthatsocompletelythatshemethimseveraltimesbynight,beingashamedtobeseenwithhiminthosepartsbyday。
Thisendedinfreshpromisesofmarriage,andinaconstantcorrespondencebyletter。Thispestknewexactlyhowtotalktoawoman,andhowtowritetoone。Hislettersfedtheunhappyflame;
and,mindyou,hesometimesdeceivedhimself,andthoughthelovedher;butitwasonlyhimselfheloved。Shewasaninvaluablelover;afaithful,disinterestedfriend;herswasavilebargain;
his,anexcellentone,andheclungtoit。
Andsotheywenton。Shedetectedhiminanotherinfidelity,andreproachedhimbitterly;butshehadnolongerthestrengthtobreakwithhim。Nevertheless,thistimeshehadthesensetomakeastruggle。Sheimploredhim,onherveryknees,toshowheralittlemercyinreturnforallherlove。"Forpity'ssake,leaveme!"shecried。"Youarestrong,andIamweak。Youcanenditforever,andpraydo。Youdon'twantme;youdon'tvalueme:then,leaveme,onceandforall,andendthishellyoukeepmein。"
No;hecouldnot,orhewouldnot,leaveheralone。Lookatabird'swings!——howlikeanangel's!Yetsovileathingasabitofbirdlimesubduesthemutterly;andsuchwasthefascinatingpowerofthismeanmanoverthisworthywoman。Shewasareader,athinker,amodelofrespectability,industry,andsense;abusinesswoman,keenandpractical;couldencountersharphandsinsharptrades;couldbuyorsellhogs,calves,orbeastswithanyfarmerorbutcherinthecountry,yetnomatchforacunningfool。
Shehadenshrinedanidolinherheart,andthatheartadoredit,andclungtoit,thoughthesuperiorheadsawthroughit,dreadedit,despisedit。