"So_I_thought,tillIheardyousingit。"
"And,afterSiebel,youboughtmyphotograph。"
"Instantly。"
"Andwastedpearlsonit。"
"No,madam。Iwasteditonpearls。"
"IfIwerewell,Ishouldcallthatextravagant。Butitispermittedtoflatterthesick——itiskind。Meyouoverrate,Ifear;butyoudowelltohonormusic。Ay,I,wholieherewoundedandbroken-hearted,dothankGodformusic。Ourbodiesaresooncrushed,ourlovesdecayorturntohate,butartisimmortal。"
Shecouldnolongerrollthisoutinhergrandcontralto,butshecouldstillraisehereyeswithenthusiasm,andherpalefacewasilluminated。
Agrandsoulshonethroughher,thoughshewaspale,weak,andprostrate。
Theyadmiredherinsilence。
Afterawhilesheresumed,andsaid,"IfIlive,Imustliveformyartalone。"
MissGalesawherapproachingadangeroustopic,soshesaid,hastily,"Don'tsay_if_youlive,please,becausethatisarranged。Youhavebeenoutofdangerthistwenty-fourhours,providedyoudonotrelapse;andI
musttakecareofthat。"
"Mykindfriend,"saidIna,"Ishallnotrelapse;onlymyweaknessispitiable。SometimesIcanscarcelyforbearcrying,Ifeelsoweak。WhenshallIbestronger?"
"Youshallbealittlestrongereverythreedays。Therearealwaysupsanddownsinconvalescence。"
"WhenshallIbestrongenoughtomove?"
"Letmeanswerthatquestion,"saidVizard。"WhenyouarestrongenoughtosingusSiebel'sgreatsong。"
"There,"saidFannyDover;"thereisamercenaryhostforyou。Hemeanstohaveasongoutofyou。Tillthenyouarehisprisoner。"
"No,no,sheismine,saidMissGale;"andsheshan'tgotillshehassungme'Hail,Columbia。'NoneofyourItaliantrashforme。"
Inasmiled,andsaiditwasafaircondition,providedthat"Hail,Columbia,"withwhichcomposition,unfortunately,shewasunacquainted,wasnotbeyondherpowers。"Ihaveoftensungformoney,"saidshe;"butthistime"——heresheopenedhergrandarmsandtookRhodaGaletoherbosom——"Ishallsingforlove。"
"Nowwehavesettledthat,"saidVizard,"mymindismoreatease,andI
willretire。"
"Onemoment,"saidIna,turningtohim。Then,inalowandverymeaningvoice,_"Thereissomethingelse。"_
"Nodoubtthereisplenty,"saidMissGale,sharply;"and,bymyauthority,Ipostponeitalltillyouarestronger。Bidusgood-byforthepresent,Mr。Vizard。"
"Iobey,"saidhe。"But,madam,pleaserememberIamalwaysatyourservice。Sendformewhenyouplease,andtheoftenerthebetterforme。"
"Thankyou,mykindhost。Obligemewithyourhand。"
Hegaveherhishand。Shetookit,andputherlipstoitwithpureandgentleandseemlygratitude,andwithnolossofdignity,thoughtheactwashumble。
Heturnedhisheadaway,tohidetheemotionthatactandthetouchofhersweetlipscausedhim;MissGalehurriedhimoutoftheroom。
"Younaughtypatient,"saidshe;"youmustdonothingtoexciteyourself。"
"Sweetphysician,lovingnurse,Iamnotexcited。"
MissGalefeltherhearttosee。
"Gratitudedoesnotexcite,"saidIna。"Itistootameafeelinginthebestofus。"
"Thatisafact,"saidMissGale;"soletusallbegrateful,andavoidexcitingtopics。ThinkwhatIshouldfeelifyouhadarelapse。Why,youwouldbreakmyheart。"
"ShouldI?"
"Ireallythinkyouwould,toughasitis。Onegetssofondofanunselfishpatient。Youcannotthinkhowraretheyare,dear。Youareapearl。Icannotaffordtoloseyou。"
"Thenyoushallnot,"saidIna,firmly。"KnowthatI,whoseemsoweak,amawomanofgreatresolution。Iwillfollowgoodcounsel;IwillpostponealldangeroustopicstillIamstronger;Iwilllive。ForIwillnotgrievethetruefriendscalamityhasraisedme。"
OfcourseFannytoldZoeallaboutthisinterview。Shelistenedgloomily;
andallshesaidwas,"Sistersdonotgoformuchwhenamanisinlove。"
"Dobrothers,whenawomanis?"saidFanny。
"Idaresaytheygoforasmuchastheyareworth。"
"Zoe,thatisnotfair。Harringtonisfullofaffectionforyou。Butyouwillnotgonearhim。Anyothermanwouldbeveryangry。Dopraymakeaneffort,andcomedowntodinnerto-day。"
"No,no。HehasyouandhisKlosking。AndIhavemybrokenheart。I_am_
alone;andsowillbeallalone。"
Shecriedandsobbed,butshewasobstinate,andFannycouldonlyletherhaveherownwayinthat。
Anotherquestionwassoondisposedof。WhenFannyinvitedherintothesickroom,shesaid,haughtily,"Igotherenomore。Cureher,andsendheraway——ifHarringtonwilllethergo。Idaresaysheistobepitied。"
"Ofcoursesheis。Sheisyourfellow-victim,ifyouwouldonlyletyourselfseeit。"
"Unfortunately,insteadofpityingher,Ihateher。Shehasdestroyedmyhappiness,anddoneherselfnogood。Hedoesnotloveher,andneverwill。"
Fannyfoundherselfgettingangry,soshesaidnomore;forshewasdeterminednothingshouldmakeherquarrelwithpoorZoe;butafterdinner,being_te'te-'a-te'te_withVizard,shetoldhimshewasafraidZoecouldnotseethingsastheywere;andsheaskedhimifhehadanyideawhathadbecomeofSeverne。
"Fledthecountry,Isuppose。"
"Areyousureheisnotlurkingabout?"
"Whatfor?"
"TogetawordwithZoe——alone。"
"Hewillnotcomenearthis。Iwillbreakeveryboneinhisskinifhedoes。"
"Butheissosly;hemighthangabout。"
"Whatfor?Shenevergoesout;andifshedid,haveyousopooranopinionofherastothinkshewouldspeaktohim?"
"Oh,no!andshewouldforbidhimtospeaktoher。Buthewouldbesuretopersist;andhehassuchwonderfulpowersofexplanation,andsheisblindedbylove,Ithinkhewouldmakeherbelieveblackwaswhite,ifhehadachance;andifheisabout,hewillgetachancesomeday。Sheisdoingtheveryworstthingshecould——shuttingherselfupso。Anymomentshewillturnwild,andrushoutreckless。Sheisinadangerousstate,youmarkmywords;sheisbroken-hearted,andyetsheisbitteragainsteverybody,exceptthatyoungvillain,andheistheonlyenemyshehasintheworld。Idon'tbelieveMademoiselleKloskingeverwrongedher,noreverwill。Appearancesareagainsther;butsheisagoodwoman,orIamafool。Takemyadvice,Harrington,andbeonyourguard。IfhehadwrittenapenitentlettertoMademoiselleKlosking,thatwouldbeadifferentthing;butheignoresher,andthatfrightensmeforZoe。"
HarringtonwouldnotadmitthatZoeneededanyothersafeguardagainstadetectedscoundrelthanherownsenseofdignity。Heconsented,however,totakeprecautions,ifFannywouldsolemnlypromisenottotellZoe,andsowoundher。Onthatcondition,hewouldseehishead-keepertomorrow,andallthekeepersandwatchersshouldbepostedsoastoencircletheparishwithvigilance。HeassuredFannythesefellowshadawholesystemofsignalstotheearandeye,andSevernecouldnotgetwithinamileofthehouseundetected。"But,"saidhe,"Iwillnottrusttothatalone。I
willsendanadvertisementtothelocalpapersandtheleadingLondonjournals,sowordedthatthescoundrelshallknowhisforgeryisdetected,andthathewillbearrestedonamagistrate'swarrantifhesetsfootinBarfordshire。"
Fannysaidthatwascapital,and,altogether,hehadsethermindatrest。
"Thendoasmuchforme,"saidVizard。"Pleaseexplainaremarkablephenomenon。Youwerealwaysabrightgirl,andnofool;butnotexactlywhathumdrumpeoplewouldcallagoodgirl。Youarenotoffended?"
"Theidea!Why,Ihavepubliclydisownedgoodnessagainandagain。Youhaveheardme。"
"SoIhave。Butwasnotthatratherdeceitfulofyou?foryouhaveturnedoutasgoodasgold。Anxietyhaskeptmeathomeoflate,andIhavewatchedyou。Youliveforothers;youarealloverthehousetoservetwosuffering_women。_Thatisrealcharity,notsexualcharity,whichhumbugstheworld,butnotme。Youarecook,housemaid,butler,nurse,andfriendtobothofthem。Inanintervalofyourtime,socreditablyemployed,youcomeandcheermeupwithyourbrightlittleface,andgivemewiseadvice。Iknowthatwomenareallhumbugs;onlyyouareahumbugreversed,anddeserveastatue——andtrimmings。Youhavebeenpassingyourselfoffforanaughtygirl,andallthetimeyouwereanextragoodone。"
"Andthatpuzzlesthewoman-hater,thecynicalstudent,whosayshehasfathomedwoman。MypoordearHarrington,ifyoucannotreadsoshallowacharacterasIam,howwillyougetonwiththoseladiesupstairs——Zoe,whoisasdeepasthesea,andturbidwithpassion,andtheKlosking,whoisasdeepastheocean?"
Shethoughtamomentandsaid,"There,Iwillhavepityonyou。Youshallunderstandonewomanbeforeyoudie,andthatisme。I'llgiveyoutheclewtomyseeminginconsistencies——if_you_willgive_me_acigarette。"
"What!anotherhiddenvirtue?Yousmoke?"
"NotI,exceptwhenIhappentobewithanoblesoulwhowon'ttell。"
VizardfoundheraRussiancigarette,andlightedhisowncigar,andshelecturedasfollows:
"Whatwomenlove,andcan'tdowithout,iftheyareyoungandhealthyandspirited,is——Excitement。Iamonewhopinesforit。Now,societyissoconstructedthattogetexcitementyoumustbenaughty。Waltzingallnightandflirtingalldayareexcitement。Crochet,andchurch,andexamininggirlsinSt。Matthew,anddining_enfamille,_andgoingtobedatten,arestagnation。Goodgirls——thatmeansstagnantgirls:Ihateanddespisethetamelittlewretches,andIneverwasone,andneverwillbe。
Butnowlookhere:Wehavetwoladiesinlovewithonevillain——thatisexciting。Onegetsnearlykilledinthehouse——thatisgloriouslyexciting。Theotherisbroken-hearted。IfIweretobeabadgirl,andsay,'Itisnotmybusiness;Iwillleavethemtothemselves,andgomylittlemill-roundofselfishnessasbefore,'why,whatafoolImustbe!
IshouldloseExcitement。Insteadofthat,IrunandgetthinksfortheKlosking——Excitement。Icookforher,andnurseher,andsituphalfthenight——Excitement。ThenIruntoZoe,anddomybestforher——andgetsnubbed——Excitement。ThenIsitattheheadofyourtable,andorderyou——Excitement。Oh,itislovely!"
"Shallyounotbesorrywhentheybothgetwell,andRoutinerecommences?"
"OfcourseIshall。ThatisthesortofgoodgirlIam。And,oh!whenthatfataldaycomes,howIshallflirt。Heavenhelpmynextflirtee!I
shallsoonflirtoutthestigmaofagoodgirl。Youmarkmywords,I
shallflirtwithsome_marriedman_afterthis。Ineverdidthatyet。ButIshall;IknowIshall——Ah!——there,Ihaveburnedmyfinger。"
"Nevermind。Thatisexciting。"
"AssuchIacceptit。Good-by。ImustgoandrelieveMissGale。Exitthegoodgirlonhermissionofcharity——ha!ha!"Shehummeda_valse'adeuxtemps,_andwentdancingoutwithsuchawhirlthatherpetticoats,whichwereample,andnot,asnow,likeasacktiedattheknees,madequiteacoolairintheroom。
ShehadnotbeengonelongwhenMissGalecamedown,fullofherpatient。
Shewantedtogetheroutofbedduringthedaytime,butsaidshewasnotstrongenoughtositup。WouldheorderaninvalidcouchdownfromLondon?Shedescribedthearticle,andwhereitwastobehad。
HesaidHarrisshouldgoupinthemorningandbringonedownwithhim。
Hethenputherseveralquestionsaboutherpatient;andatlastaskedher,withananxietyheinvainendeavoredtoconceal,whatshethoughtwastherelationbetweenherandSeverne。
NowitmayberememberedthatMissGalehadoncebeenonthepointoftellinghimallsheknew,andhadwrittenhimaletter。ButatthattimetheKloskingwasnotexpectedtoappearonthesceneinperson。WereshenowtosayshehadseenherandSevernelivingtogether,Rhodafeltthatsheshouldlowerherpatient。Shehadnotthehearttodothat。
RhodaGalewasnotofanamoroustemperament,andshewasallthemoreopentofemaleattachments。WithalittleencouragementshewouldhavelovedZoe,butshehadnowtransferredheraffectiontotheKlosking。SherepliedtoVizardalmostlikeamaleloverdefendingtheobjectofhisaffection。
"TheexactrelationismorethanIcantell;butIthinkhehasliveduponher,forshewasricherthanhewas;andIfeelsurehehaspromisedhermarriage。Andmygreatfearnowislestheshouldgetholdofherandkeephispromise。Heisaspoorasaratorafemalephysician;andshehasafortuneinhervoice,andhasmoneybesides,MissDovertellsme。
Praykeepherheretillsheisquitewell,please。"
"Iwill。"
"AndthenletmehaveherupatHillstoke。Sheisbeginningtoloveme,andIdoteonher。"
"SodoI。"
"Ah,butyoumustnot。"
"Whynot?"
"Because。"
"Well,whynot?"
"Sheisnottoloveanymanagainwhowillnotmarryher。Iwon'tlether。I'llkillherfirst,Iloveherso。Aroguesheshan'tmarry,andI
can'tletyoumarryher,because,herconnectionwiththatSeverneismysterious。Sheseemsthesoulofvirtue,butIcouldnotlet_you_marryheruntilthingsareclearer。"
"Makeyourmindeasy。Iwillnotmarryher——noranybodyelse——tillthingsareagreatdealclearerthanIhaveeverfoundthem,whereyoursexisconcerned。"
MissGaleapprovedtheresolution。
NextdayVizardpostedhiskeepers,andsenthisadvertisementstotheLondonandcountryjournals。
Fannycameintohisstudytotellhimtherewasmoretrouble——MissMaitlandtakenseriouslyill,andhadwrittentoZoe。
"Pooroldsoul!"saidVizard。"Ihaveagreatmindtorideoverandseeher。"
"Somebodyoughttogo,"saidFanny。
"Well,yougo。"
"HowcanI——withZoe,andMademoiselleKlosking,andyou,tolookafter?"
"Insteadofoneoldwoman。Notmuchexcitementinthat。"
"No,cousin。Tothinkofyourremembering!Why,youmusthavegonetobedsober。"
"Ioftendo。"
"Youwerealwaysaneccentriclandowner。"
"Don'tyoutalk。Youareacaricature。"
ThisbanterwasinterruptedbyMissGale,whocametotellHarringtonMademoiselleKloskingdesiredtoseehim,athisleisure。
Hesaidhewouldcomedirectly。
"Beforeyougo,"saidMissGale,"letuscometoanunderstanding。Shehadonlytwodays'fever;butthatfever,andthelossofblood,andtheshocktohernerves,broughthertodeath'sdoorbyexhaustion。Nowsheisslowlyrecoveringherstrength,becauseshehasahealthystomach,andIgivehernostimulantstospurandthenweakenher,butchoiceandsimpleesculents,theeffectofwhichIwatch,andvarythemaccordingly。
Buttheconvalescentperiodisalwaysoneofdanger,especiallyfromchillstothebody,andexcitementstothebrain。Atnoperiodaremorepatientsthrownawayforwantofvigilance。NowIcanguardagainstchillsandotherbodilythings,butnotagainstexcitements——unlessyouco-operate。Thefactis,wemustagreetoavoidspeakingaboutMr。
Severne。Wemustbeonourguard。Wemustparry;wemustevade;wemustbedeaf,stupid,slippery;butnoSeverne——forfiveorsixdaysmore,atallevents。"
Thusforewarned,Vizard,induecourse,paidhissecondvisittoInaKlosking。
Hefoundherproppedupwithpillowsthistime。Shebeggedhimtobeseated。
Shehadevidentlysomethingonhermind,andhernurseswatchedherlikecats。
"Youarefondofmusic,sir?"
"Notofallmusic。Iadoregoodmusic,Ihatebad,andIdespisemediocre。Silenceisgolden,indeed,comparedwithpoormusic。"
"Youareright,sir。Haveyougoodmusicinthehouse?"
"Alittle。Igetalltheoperas,andyouknowtherearegenerallyoneortwogoodthingsinanopera——amongtherubbish。Butthegreatbulkofourcollectionisratherold-fashioned。Itissacredmusic——oratorios,masses,anthems,services,chants。Mymotherwasthecollector。Hertastesweregood,butnarrow。Doyoucareforthatsortofmusic?"
"Sacredmusic?Why,itis,ofallmusic,themostdivine,andsoothesthetroubledsoul。CanInotseethebooks?Ireadmusiclikewords。ByreadingIalmosthear。"
"Wewillbringyouupadozenbookstobeginon。"
Hewentdowndirectly;andsuchwashispleasureindoinganythingfortheKloskingthatheexecutedtheorderinperson,broughtupalittlepileoffoliosandquartos,beautifullyboundandlettered,aladyhavingbeenthecollector。
Now,ashemountedthestairs,withhisverychinuponthepile,whoshouldheseelookingovertherailsathimbuthissisterZoe。
Shewassadlychanged。Therewasafixedashenpalloronhercheek,andadarkcircleunderhereyes。
Hestoppedtolookather。"Mypoorchild,"saidhe,"youlookveryill。"
"Iamveryill,dear。"
"Wouldyounotbebetterforachange?"
"Imight。"
"Whycoopyourselfupinyourownroom?Whydenyyourselfabrother'ssympathy?"
Thegirltrembled,andtearscametohereyes。
"Isitwithmeyousympathize?"saidshe。
"Canyoudoubtit,Zoe?"
Zoehungherheadamoment,anddidnotreply。Thenshemadeadiversion。
"Whatarethosebooks?Oh,Isee——yourmother'smusic-books。Nothingistoogoodfor_her。"_
"Nothinginthewayofmusic-booksistoogoodforher。Forshame!areyoujealousofthatunfortunatelady?"
Zoemadenoreply。
Sheputherhandsbeforeherface,thatVizardmightnotseehermind。
Thenherestedhisbooksonatable,andcameandtookherheadinhishandspaternally。"Donotshutyourselfupanylonger。Solitudeisdangeroustotheafflicted。Bemorewithmethanever,andletthiscruelblowbindusmoreclosely,insteadofdisunitingus。"
Hekissedherlovingly,andhiskindwordssethertearsflowing;buttheydidherlittlegood——theywerebittertears。Betweenherandherbrothertherewasnowabarriersisterlylovecouldnotpass。HehatedanddespisedEdwardSeverne;andsheonlydistrustedhim,andfearedhewasavillain。Shelovedhimstillwitheveryfiberofherheart,andpinedforhisexplanationofallthatseemedsodark。
Sothenheenteredthesick-roomwithhismusic-books;andZoe,afterwatchinghiminwithoutseemingtodoso,creptawaytoherownroom。
Thentherewasratheraprettylittlescene。MissGaleandMissDover,oneachsideofthebed,heldaheavymusic-book,andMademoiselleKloskingturnedtheleavesandread,whenthecompositionwasworthreading。Ifitwasnot,shequietlypasseditover,withoutanyinjuriouscomment。
Vizardwatchedherfromthefootofthebed,andcouldtellinamoment,byherface,whetherthecompositionwasgood,bad,orindifferent。Whenbad,herfaceseemedtoturnimpassive,likemarble;whengood,toexpand;andwhenshelightedonamasterpiece,shewasalmosttransfigured,andherfaceshonewithelevatedjoy。
ThiswasastudytotheenamoredVizard,anditdidnotescapethequick-sighteddoctress。Shedespisedmusiconitsownmerits,butshedespisednothingthatcouldbepressedintotheserviceofmedicine;andshesaidtoherself,"I'llcureherwithesculentsandmusic。"
Thebookwastakenawaytomakeroomforanother。
ThensaidInaKlosking,"Mr。Vizard,Idesiretosayawordtoyou。
Excuseme,mydearfriends。"
MissGalecoloredup。Shehadnotforeseena_te'te-'a-te'te_betweenVizardandherpatient。However,therewasnohelpforit,andshewithdrewtoalittledistancewithFanny;butshesaidtoVizard,openlyandexpressively,"Remember!"
Whentheyhadwithdrawnalittleway,InaKloskingfixedhereyesonVizard,andsaid,inalowvoice,"Yoursister!"
Vizardstartedalittleatthesuddennessofthis,buthesaidnothing:
hedidnotknowwhattosay。
Whenshehadwaitedalittle,andhesaidnothing,shespokeagain。"Tellmesomethingabouther。Isshegood?Forgiveme:itisnotthatIdoubt。"
"Sheisgood,accordingtoherlights。"
"Issheproud?"
"Yes。"
"Isshejust?"
"No。AndInevermetawomanthatwas。"
"Indeeditisrare。Whydoesshenotvisitme?"
"Idon'tknow"
"Sheblamesmeforallthathashappened。"
"Idon'tknow,madam。Mysisterlooksveryill,andkeepsherownroom。
Ifshedoesnotvisityou,sheholdsequallyalooffromusall。Shehasnottakenasinglemealwithmeforsomedays。"
"SinceIwasyourpatientandyourguest。"
"Praydonotconcludefromthat——Whocaninterpretawoman?"
"Anotherwoman。Enigmastoyou,wearetransparenttoeachother。Sir,willyougrantmeafavor?WillyoupersuadeMissVizardtoseemeherealone——allalone?Itwillbeagreatertrialtomethantoher,forIamweak。InthisrequestIamnotselfish。Shecandonothingforme;butI
candoalittleforher,topaythedebtofgratitudeIowethishospitablehouse。MayHeavenblessit,fromtherooftothefoundationstone!"
"Iwillspeaktomysister,andsheshallvisityou——withtheconsentofyourphysician。"
"Itiswell,"saidInaKlosking,andbeckonedherfriends,oneofwhom,MissGale,proceededtofeelherpulse,withsuspiciousglancesatVizard。Butshefoundthepulsecalm,andsaidso。
VizardtookhisleaveandwentstraighttoZoe'sroom。Shewasnotthere。
Hewasgladofthat,foritgavehimhopesshewasgoingtorespecthisadviceandgiveuphersolitarylife。
Hewentdownstairsandontothelawntolookforher。Hecouldnotseeheranywhere。
Atlast,whenhehadgivenuplookingforher,hefoundherinhisstudycrouchedinacorner。
Sheroseatsightofhimandstoodbeforehim。"Harrington,"saidshe,inratheracommandingway,"AuntMaitlandisill,andIwishtogotoher。"
Harringtonstaredatherwithsurprise。"Youarenotwellenoughyourself。"
"Quitewellenoughinbodytogoanywhere。"
"Well,but——"saidHarrington。
Shecaughthimupimpatiently。"SurelyyoucannotobjecttomyvisitingAuntMaitland。Sheisdangerouslyill。Ihadasecondletterthismorning——see。"Andsheheldhimoutaletter。
Harringtonwasinadifficulty。Hefeltsurethiswasnotherrealmotive;buthedidnotliketosaysoharshlytoanunhappygirl。Hetookamoderatecourse。"Notjustnow,dear,"saidhe。
"What!amItowaittillshedies?"criedZoe,gettingagitatedathisopposition。
"Bereasonable,dear。Youknowyouarethemistressofthishouse。Donotdesertmejustnow。Considertheposition。Itisaverychatteringcounty。IentertainMademoiselleKlosking;Icouldnotdootherwisewhenshewasnearlykilledinmyhall。Butformysistertogoawaywhilesheremainsherewouldhaveabadeffect。"
"Itistoolatetothinkofthat,Harrington。Themischiefisdone,andyoumustpleadyoureccentricity。WhyshouldIbeartheblame?Ineverapprovedit。"
"Youwouldhavesenthertoaninn,eh?"
"No;butMissGaleofferedtotakeher。"
"ThenIamtounderstandthatyouproposetomarkyourreprobationofmyconductbyleavingmyhouse。"
"What!publicly?Ohno。YoumaysaytoyourselfthatyoursistercouldnotbeartostayunderthesameroofwithMr。Severne'smistress。Butthischatteringcountyshallneverknowmymind。Myauntisdangerouslyill。Shelivesbutthirtymilesoff。Sheisafitobjectofpity。Sheisa——respectable——lady;sheisallalone;nofemalephysician,noflirtturnedSisterofCharity,nowoman-hater,tofetchandcarryforher。AndsoIshallgotoher。Iamyoursister,notyourslave。Ifyougrudgemeyourhorses,Iwillgoonfoot。"
Vizardwaswhitewithwrath,butgovernedhimselflikeaman。"Goon,younglady!"saidhe;"goon!Jeer,andtaunt,andwoundthebestbrotheranyyoungmadwomaneverhad。Butdon'tthinkI'llansweryouasyoudeserve。I'mtoocunning。IfIwastosayanunkindwordtoyou,Ishouldsufferthetorturesofthedamned。Sogoon!"
"No,no。Forgiveme,Harrington。Itisyouroppositionthatdrivesmewild。Oh,havepityonme!IshallgomadifIstayhere。Do,pray,pray,prayletmegotoAuntMaitland!"
"Youshallgo,Zoe。ButItellyouplainly,thisstepwillbeablowtoouraffection——thefirst。"
Zoecriedatthat。Butasshedidnotwithdrawherrequest,Harringtontoldher,withcoldcivility,thatshemustbegoodenoughtobereadydirectlyafterbreakfastto-morrow,andtakeaslittleluggageasshecouldwithconveniencetoherself。
Horsesweresentonthatnighttothe"Fox,"aninnhalf-waybetweenVizardCourtandMissMaitland'splace。
Inthemorningalightbarouche,withaslingforluggage,cameround,andZoewassoonseatedinit。Then,tohersurprise,Harringtoncameoutandsatbesideher。
Shewaspleasedatthisandsaid,"What!areyougoingwithme,dear,allthatway?"
"Yes,tosaveappearances,"saidhe;andtookoutanewspapertoread。
ThisfrozeZoe,andsheretiredwithinherself。
Itwasafinefreshmorning;thecoachmandrovefast;theairfannedhercheek;themotionwasenlivening;thehorses'shoofsrangquickandclearupontheroad。Freshobjectsmettheeyeeverymoment。Herheartwasassadandachingasbefore,buttherearoseafaintencouragingsensethatsomedayshemightbebetter,orthingsmighttakesometurn。
Whentheyhadrolledabouttenmilesshesaid,inalowvoice,"Harrington。"
"Well?"
"Youwereright。Coopingone'sselfupisthewaytogomad。"
"Ofcourseitis。"
"Ifeelalittlebetternow——averylittle。"
"Iamgladofit。"
Buthewasnothearty,andshesaidnomore。
Hewasextremelyattentivetoherallthejourney,and,indeed,hadneverbeenhalfsopolitetoher。
This,however,ledtoaresulthedidnotintendnoranticipate。Zoe,beingnowcool,fellintoastateofcompunctionanddismay。Shesawhisaffectionleavingherfor_her,_andstiffpolitenesscominginstead。
Sheleanedforward,putherhandsonhisknees,andlooked,allscared,inhisface。"Harrington,"shecried,"Iwaswrong。WhatisAuntMaitlandtome?Youaremyall。Bidhimturnthehorses'headsandgohome。"
"Why,weareonlysixmilesfromtheplace。"
"Whatdoesthatmatter?Weshallhavehadagoodlongdrivetogether,andIwilldinewithyouafterit;andIwillrideordrivewithyoueveryday,ifyouwillletme。"
Vizardcouldnothelpsmiling。Hewasdisarmed。"Youimpulsiveyoungmonkey,"saidhe,"Ishalldonothingofthekind。Inthefirstplace,I
couldn'tturnbackfromanything;I'monlyaman。Inthenextplace,I
havebeenthinkingitover,asyouhave;andthisisagoodmoveofours,thoughIwasalittlemortifiedatfirst。Occupationisthebestcureoflove,andthisoldladywillfindyouplenty。Besides,nursingimprovesthecharacter。LookatthatfrivolousgirlFanny,howshehascomeout。
Andyouknow,Zoe,ifyougetsickofitinadayortwo,youhaveonlytowritetome,andIwillsendforyoudirectly。Ashortabsence,withsoreasonableamotiveasvisitingasickaunt,willprovokenocomments。
Itisallforthebest。"
ThissetZoeatherease,andbrotherandsisterresumedtheirusualmanners。
TheyreachedMissMaitland'shouse,andwereadmittedtohersick-room。
Shewasreallyveryill,andthankedthemsopatheticallyforcomingtovisitapoorloneoldwomanthatnowtheywerebothgladtheyhadcome。
Zoeenteredonherfunctionswithanalacritythatsurprisedherself,andVizarddroveaway。Buthedidnotdrivestraighthome。HehadstartedfromVizardCourtwithotherviews。HehadtelegraphedLordUxmoorthenightbefore,andnowdrovetohisplace,whichwasonlyfivemilesdistant。Hefoundhimathome,andsoontoldhimhiserrand。"Doyouremembermeetingayoungfellowatmyhouse,calledSeverne?"
"Ido,"saidLordUxmoor,drylyenough。
"Well,hehasturnedoutanimpostor。"
Uxmoor'seyeflashed。HehadalwayssuspectedSeverneofbeinghisrivalandamaincauseofhisdefeat。"Animpostor?"saidhe:"thatisratherastrongword。CertainlyIneverheardagentlemantellsuchafalsehoodashevolunteeredabout——what'sthefellow'sname?——adetective。"
"Oh,Poikilus。Thatisnothing。Thatwasoneofhiswhitelies。Heisavillainallround,andaforgerbywayofclimax。"
"Aforger!What,acriminal?"
"Rather!Herearehisdrafts。Thedrawerandacceptordonotexist。ThewholethingwaswrittenbyEdwardSeverne,whoseindorsementfiguresonthebill。Hegotmetocashthesebills。Idepositthemwithyou,andI
askyouforawarranttocommithim——ifheshouldcomethisway。"
"Isthatlikely?"
"Notatall;itisahundredtoonehenevershowshisnoseagaininBarfordshire。Whenhewasfoundout,hebolted,andlefthisveryclothesinmyhouse。Ipackedthemofftothe'Swan'atTaddington。Hehasneverbeenheardofsince;andIhavewarnedhim,byadvertisement,thathewillbearrestedifeverhesetsfootinBarfordshire。"
"Well,then?"
"Well,then,Iamnotgoingtothrowawayachance。ThebeggarhadtheimpudencetospoononmysisterZoe。Thatwasmyfault,nothers。Hewasanoldcollegeacquaintance,andIgavehimopportunities——Ideservetobehorsewhipped。However,Iamnotgoingtocommitthesameblundertwice。Mysisterisinyourneighborhoodforafewdays。"
"Ah!"
"Andperhapsyouwillbegoodenoughtokeepyoureyeonher。"
"Ifeelmuchhonoredbysuchacommission。ButyouhavenottoldmewhereMissVizardis。"
"Withheraunt,MissMaitland,atSomervilleVilla,nearBagley。Apropos,Ihadbettertellyouwhatsheistherefor,oryourgooddowagerwillbeaskinghertoparties。ShehascometonurseherauntMaitland。Theoldladyisseriouslyill,andallouryoungcoquettesaregoinginfornursing。Wehaveasickladyatourhouse,Iamsorrytosay,andsheisnursedlikeaqueenbyDoctressGaleandexFlirtFannyDover。Nowisfulfilledthesayingthatwassaid,'Owoman!inourhoursofease——'
Ispareyoutherest,andsimplyremarkthatourZoe,firedbytheexampleofthosetwoladies,hasdevotedherselftonursingAuntMaitland。Itisverygoodofher,butexperiencetellsmeshewillverysoonfinditextremelytrying;andassheisaveryprettygirl,andthereforeafitsubjectofmalecharity,youmightpayheravisitnowandthen,andshowherthatthisbestofallpossibleworldscontainsyounggentlemenofdistinction,withlongandglossybeards,aswellaspeevisholdwomen,whoareextraselfishandtyrannicalwhentheyhappentobesick。"
Uxmoorpositivelyradiatedasthisprogrammewasunfoldedtohim。Vizardobservedthat,andchuckledinwardly。
Hethenhandedhimtheforgedacceptances。
LordUxmoorbeggedhimtowritedownthefactsonpaper,andalsohisapplicationforthewarrant。Hedidso。LordUxmoorlockedthepaperup,andthefriendsparted。Vizarddroveoff,easyinhismind,andcongratulatinghimself,notunreasonably,onhislittlecombination,bymeansofwhichhehadprovidedhissisterwithawatch-dog,acompanion,andanhonorableloverallinone。
Uxmoorputonhishatandstrodeforthintohisowngrounds,withhisheartbeatinghighatthisstrangeturnofthingsinfavorofhislove。
Neitherforesawthestrangecombinationswhichweretoariseoutofaneventthatappearedsosimpleandone-sided。
CHAPTERXXII。
INAKLOSKING'Scurewasretardedbythestateofhermind。Theexcitementandsharpagonyherphysicianhadfeareddiedawayasthefeverofthebrainsubsided;butthentheresettleddownagrim,listlesslethargy,whichobstructedherreturntohealthandvigor。OnceshesaidtoRhodaGale,"ButIhavenothingtogetwellfor。"
Asarule,shedidnotspeakhermind,butthoughtagreatdeal。SheoftenaskedafterZoe;andhernursescouldseethatheronelanguidanxietywassomehowconnectedwiththatlady。Yetshedidnotseemhostiletohernow,norjealous。Itwashardtounderstandher;shewasreserved,andverydeep。
ThefirstrelieftothedeadlylanguorofhermindcametoherfromMusic。Thatwasnogreatwonder;but,strangetosay,themusicthatdidhergoodwasneitheroldenoughtoberevered,nornewenoughtobefashionable。ItwasEnglishmusictoo,and_passe'_music。ShecameacrossacollectionofAnglicananthemsandservices——written,mostofit,towardtheendofthelastcenturyandthebeginningofthis。Thecomposers'namespromisedlittle:theywereBlow,Nares,Green,Kent,King,Jackson,etc。Thewordsandthemusicofthesecompositionsseemedtosuitoneanother;and,astheywereallquitenewtoher,shewentthroughthemalmosteagerly,andhummedseveralofthestrains,andwithherwhitebutnowthinhandbeattimetoothers。SheevensentforVizard,andsaidtohim,"Youhaveatreasurehere。Doyouknowthesecompositions?"
Heinspectedhistreasure。"Iremember,"saidhe,"mymotherusedtosingthisone,'WhentheEyesawHer,thenitblessedHer;'andpartsofthisone,'HearmyPrayer;'and,letmesee,sheusedtosingthispsalm,'PraisetheLord,'byJackson。IamashamedtosayIusedtoaskfor'PraisetheLordJackson,'meaningtobefunny,notdevout。"
"Shedidnotchooseill,"saidIna。"IthoughtIknewEnglishmusic,yethereisawholestreamofitnewtome。Isitesteemed?"
"Ithinkitwasonce,butithashaditsday。"
"Thatisstrange;forherearesomeimmortalqualities。Thesecomposershadbrains,andbeganattherightend;theyselectedgrandandtunefulwords,greatandpiousthoughts;theyimpregnatedthemselveswiththosewordsandproducedappropriatemusic。Theharmoniesaresometimesthin,andthewritersseemscarcelytoknowtheskillfuluseofdiscords;buttheyhadheartandinvention;theysawtheirwayclearbeforetheywrotethefirstnote;thereisaninspiredsimplicityandfervor:ifallthesechoicethingsaredead,theymusthavefallenuponbadinterpreters。"
"Nodoubt,"saidVizard;"sopleasegetwell,andletmehearthesepiousstrains,whichmypoordearmotherlovedsowell,interpretedworthily。"
TheKlosking'seyesfilled。"Thatisatemptation,"saidshe,simply。
ThensheturnedtoRhodaGale。"Sweetphysician,hehasdonemegood。Hehasgivenmesomethingtogetwellfor。"
Vizard'sheartyearned。"Donottalklikethat,"saidhe,buoyantly;
then,inabrokenvoice,"Heavenforbidyoushouldhavenothingbettertoliveforthanthat。"
"Sir,"saidshe,gravely,"Ihavenothingbettertolivefornowthantointerpretgoodmusicworthily。"
Therewasapainfulsilence。
Inabrokeit。Shesaid,quitecalmly,"Firstofall,Iwishtoknowhowothersinterpretthesestrainsyourmotherloved,andIhavethehonortoagreewithher。"
"Oh,"saidVizard,"wewillsoonmanagethatforyou。Thesethingsarenotdefunct,onlyunfashionable。EverychoirinEnglandhassungthem,andcansingthem,afterafashion;so,attwelveo'clockto-morrow,lookout——forsqualls!"
Hemountedhishorse,rodeintothecathedraltown——distanteightmiles——andarrangedwiththeorganistforhimself,fourleadingboys,andthreelayclerks。Hewastosendacarriageinforthemafterthemorningservice,andreturnthemingoodtimeforvespers。
FannytoldInaKlosking,andsheinsistedongettingup。
BythistimeDoctressGalehadsatisfiedherselfthatalittleexcitementwasdownrightgoodforherpatient,andledtorefreshingsleep。Sotheydressedherlooselybutverywarmly,androlledhertothewindowonherinvalidcouch,setatahighangle。ItwasafinecleardayinOctober,keenbutgenial;andaftermufflingherwell,theyopenedthewindow。
Whileshesatthere,proppedhigh,andinhalingthepureair,Vizardconveyedhislittlechoir,byanotherstaircase,intotheantechamber;
and,underhisadvice,theyavoidedpreludesandopenedinfullchoruswithJackson'ssongofpraise。
Atthefirstburstofsacredharmony,InaKloskingwasobservedtoquiverallover。
Theysungitrathercoarsely,butcorrectlyandboldly,andwithacertainfervor。Therewerenooperaticartificestoremindherofearth;
thepurityandtheharmonystruckherfull。ThegreatsingerandsuffererliftedherclaspedhandstoGod,andthetearsflowedfastdownhercheeks。
Thesetearswerebalmtothatpoorlaceratedsoul,tormentedbymanyblows。
"Olacrymarumfons,tenerosacrosDucemtiumortusexanimo,quaterFelix,inimoquiscatentemPectore,te,pianympha,sensit。"
RhodaGale,whohatedmusiclikepoison,creptuptoher,and,infoldingherdelicately,laidapairofweteyessoftlyonhershoulder。
Vizardnowtappedatthedoor,andwasadmittedfromthemusic-room。HebeggedInatochooseanothercompositionfromherbook。Shemarkedaserviceandtwoanthems,andhandedhimthevolume,butbeggedtheymightnotbedonetoosoon,oneaftertheother。Thatwouldbequiteenoughforoneday,especiallyiftheywouldbegoodenoughtorepeatthehymnofpraisetoconclude;"for,"saidshe,"thesearethingstobedigested。"
Soontheboys'purevoicesroseagainandthosepoordeadEnglishcomposers,withprosaicnames,foundtheirwayagaintothegreatforeignsinger'ssoul。
Theysungananthem,whichisnowespeciallydespisedbythosegreatcritics,theorganistsofthecountry——"MySongshallbeofMercyandJudgment。"
TheKloskingforgavethethinnessoftheharmony,andmanylittlefaultsinthevocalexecution。Thewords,nodoubt,wentfarwithher,beingclearlyspoken。Shesatmeditating,withhermoisteyesraised,andherfacetransfigured,andattheendshemurmuredtoVizard,withhereyesstillraised,"Afterall,theyaregreatandpiouswords,andthemusichasatleastthiscrowningvirtue——itmeansthewords。"Thenshesuddenlyturneduponhimandsaid,"ThereisanotherpersoninthishousewhoneedsthisconsolationasmuchasIdo。Whydoesshenotcome?Butperhapssheiswiththemusicians。"
"Whomdoyoumean?"
"Yoursister。"
"Why,sheisnotinthehouse。"
InaKloskingstartedatthatinformation,andbenthereyeskeenlyandinquiringlyonhim。
"Shelefttwodaysago。"
"Indeed!"
"Tonurseasickaunt。"
"Indeed!Hadshenootherreason?"
"NotthatIknowof,"saidVizard;buthecouldnothelpcoloringalittle。
Thelittlechoirnowsungaservice,KinginF。Theysung"TheMagnificat"rudely,andratherprofanely,butrecoveredthemselvesinthe"Dimittis。"
Whenitwasover,Inawhispered,"'TobealighttolightentheGentiles。'Thatisaninspiredduet。Oh,howitmightbesung!"
"Ofcourseitmight,"whisperedVizard;"soyouhavesomethingtogetwellfor。"
"Yes,myfriend——thankstoyouandyoursaintedmother。"
This,utteredinavoicewhich,underthehealinginfluenceofmusic,seemedtohaveregainedsomeofitsrichmelody,wastoomuchforourcynic,andhebustledofftohidehisemotion,andinvitedthemusicianstolunch。
Alltheservantshadbeenlisteningonthestairs,andthehospitableoldbutlerpliedtheboyswithsparklingMoselle,which,beinghimselfrearedonmightyPort;hethoughtalightandplayfulwine——justthethingforwomenandchildren。Soafterluncheontheysungratherwild,andtheKloskingtoldVizard,dryly,thatwoulddoforthepresent。
Thenheorderedthecarriageforthem,andaskedMademoiselleKloskingwhenshewouldlikethemagain。
"When_can_I?"sheinquired,rathertimidly。
"Everyday,ifyoulike——Sundaysandall。"