Whentwooftheseassesmet,therewouldbeananxious"Haveyougotyourlantern?"andagratified"Yes!"Thatwastheshibboleth,andveryneedfultoo;for,asitwastheruletokeepourglorycontained,nonecouldrecognisealantern-bearer,unlesslikethepolecatbythesmell。Fourorfivewouldsometimesclimbintothebellyofaten-manlugger,withnothingbutthethwartsabovethem-forthecabinwasusuallylocked,orchooseoutsomehollowofthelinkswherethewindmightwhistleoverhead。Therethecoatswouldbeunbuttonedandthebull's-eyesdiscovered;andinthechequeringglimmer,underthehugewindyhallofthenight,andcheeredbyarichsteamoftoastingtinware,thesefortunateyounggentlemenwouldcrouchtogetherinthecoldsandofthelinksoronthescalybilgesofthefishing-boat,anddelightthemselveswithinappropriatetalk。WoeismethatImaynotgivesomespecimens-
  someoftheirforesightsoflife,ordeepinquiriesintotherudimentsofmanandnature,theseweresofieryandsoinnocent,theyweresorichlysilly,soromanticallyyoung。Butthetalk,atanyrate,wasbutacondiment;andthesegatheringsthemselvesonlyaccidentsinthecareerofthelantern-bearer。Theessenceofthisblisswastowalkbyyourselfintheblacknight;theslideshut,thetop-coatbuttoned;notarayescaping,whethertoconductyourfootstepsortomakeyourglorypublic:amerepillarofdarknessinthedark;andallthewhile,deepdownintheprivacyofyourfool'sheart,toknowyouhadabull's-eyeatyourbelt,andtoexultandsingovertheknowledge。
  II
  Itissaidthatapoethasdiedyounginthebreastofthemoststolid。Itmaybecontended,rather,thatthissomewhatminor
  bardinalmosteverycasesurvives,andisthespiceoflifetohispossessor。Justiceisnotdonetotheversatilityandtheunplumbedchildishnessofman'simagination。Hislifefromwithoutmayseembutarudemoundofmud;therewillbesomegoldenchamberattheheartofit,inwhichhedwellsdelighted;andforasdarkashispathwayseemstotheobserver,hewillhavesomekindofabull's-eyeathisbelt。
  ItwouldbehardtopickoutacareermorecheerlessthanthatofDancer,themiser,ashefiguresinthe"OldBaileyReports,"apreytothemostsordidpersecutions,thebuttofhisneighbourhood,betrayedbyhishiredman,hishousebeleagueredbytheimpishschoolboy,andhehimselfgrindingandfumingandimpotentlyfleeingtothelawagainstthesepin-pricks。Youmarvelatfirstthatanyoneshouldwillinglyprolongalifesodestituteofcharmanddignity;andthenyoucalltomemorythathadhechosen,hadheceasedtobeamiser,hecouldhavebeenfreedatoncefromthesetrials,andmighthavebuilthimselfacastleandgoneescortedbyasquadron。Fortheloveofmorereconditejoys,whichwecannotestimate,which,itmaybe,weshouldenvy,themanhadwillinglyforgonebothcomfortandconsideration。"Hismindtohimakingdomwas";andsureenough,diggingintothatmind,whichseemsatfirstadust-heap,weunearthsomepricelessjewels。ForDancermusthavehadtheloveofpowerandthedisdainofusingit,anoblecharacterinitself;disdainofmanypleasures,achiefpartofwhatiscommonlycalledwisdom;disdainoftheinevitableend,thatfinesttraitofmankind;scornofmen'sopinions,anotherelementofvirtue;andatthebackofall,aconsciencejustlikeyoursandmine,whininglikeacur,swindlinglikeathimble-
  rigger,butstillpointingthereorthere-abouttosomeconventionalstandard。HerewereacabinetportraittowhichHawthorneperhapshaddonejustice;andyetnotHawthorneeither,forhewasmildlyminded,anditlaynotinhimtocreateforusthatthrobofthemiser'spulse,hisfretfulenergyofgusto,hisvastarmsofambitionclutchinginheknowsnotwhat:insatiable,insane,agodwithamuck-rake。Thus,atleast,lookinginthebosomofthemiser,considerationdetectsthepoetinthefulltideoflife,withmore,indeed,ofthepoeticfirethanusuallygoestoepics;andtracingthatmeanmanabouthiscoldhearth,andtoandfroinhisdiscomfortablehouse,spieswithinhimablazingbonfireofdelight。Andsowithothers,whodonotlivebybreadalone,butbysomecherishedandperhapsfantasticpleasure;whoaremeatsalesmentotheexternaleye,andpossiblytothemselvesareShakespeares,Napoleons,orBeethovens;whohavenotonevirtuetorubagainstanotherinthefieldofactivelife,andyetperhaps,inthelifeofcontemplation,sitwiththesaints。Weseethemonthestreet,andwecancounttheirbuttons;butheavenknowsinwhattheypridethemselves!heavenknowswheretheyhavesettheirtreasure!
  Thereisonefablethattouchesverynearthequickoflife:thefableofthemonkwhopassedintothewoods,heardabirdbreakintosong,hearkenedforatrillortwo,andfoundhimselfonhisreturnastrangerathisconventgates;forhehadbeenabsentfiftyyears,andofallhiscomradestheresurvivedbutonetorecognisehim。Itisnotonlyinthewoodsthatthisenchantercarols,thoughperhapsheisnativethere。Hesingsinthemostdolefulplaces。Themiserhearshimandchuckles,andthedaysaremoments。Withnomoreapparatusthananill-smellinglanternI
  haveevokedhimonthenakedlinks。Alllifethatisnotmerelymechanicalisspunoutoftwostrands:seekingforthatbirdandhearinghim。Anditisjustthisthatmakeslifesohardtovalue,andthedelightofeachsoincommunicable。Andjustaknowledgeofthis,andaremembranceofthosefortunatehoursinwhichthebirdhassungtous,thatfillsuswithsuchwonderwhenweturnthepagesoftherealist。There,tobesure,wefindapictureoflifeinsofarasitconsistsofmudandofoldiron,cheapdesiresandcheapfears,thatwhichweareashamedtorememberandthatwhichwearecarelesswhetherweforget;butofthenoteofthattime-
  devouringnightingalewehearnonews。
  Thecaseofthesewritersofromanceismostobscure。Theyhavebeenboysandyouths;theyhavelingeredoutsidethewindowofthebeloved,whowasthenmostprobablywritingtosomeoneelse;theyhavesatbeforeasheetofpaper,andfeltthemselvesmerecontinentsofcongestedpoetry,notonelineofwhichwouldflow;
  theyhavewalkedaloneinthewoods,theyhavewalkedincitiesunderthecountlesslamps;theyhavebeentosea,theyhavehated,theyhavefeared,theyhavelongedtoknifeaman,andmaybedoneit;thewildtasteoflifehasstungtheirpalate。Or,ifyoudenythemalltherest,onepleasureatleasttheyhavetastedtothefull-theirbooksaretheretoproveit-thekeenpleasureofsuccessfulliterarycomposition。Andyettheyfilltheglobewithvolumes,whoseclevernessinspiresmewithdespairingadmiration,andwhoseconsistentfalsitytoallIcaretocallexistence,withdespairingwrath。IfIhadnobetterhopethantocontinuetorevolveamongthedrearyandpettybusinesses,andtobemovedbythepaltryhopesandfearswithwhichtheysurroundandanimatetheirheroes,IdeclareIwoulddienow。Buttherehasneveranhourofminegonequitesodullyyet;ifitwerespentwaitingatarailwayjunction,Iwouldhavesomescatteringthoughts,Icouldcountsomegrainsofmemory,comparedtowhichthewholeofoneoftheseromancesseemsbutdross。
  ThesewriterswouldretortifItakethemproperlythatthiswasverytrue;thatitwasthesamewiththemselvesandotherpersonsofwhattheycalltheartistictemperament;thatinthiswewereexceptional,andshouldapparentlybeashamedofourselves;butthatourworksmustdealexclusivelywithwhattheycalltheaverageman,whowasaprodigiousdullfellow,andquitedeadtoallbutthepaltriestconsiderations。Iaccepttheissue。Wecanonlyknowothersbyourselves。Theartistictemperamentaplagueontheexpression!doesnotmakeusdifferentfromourfellowmen,oritwouldmakeusincapableofwritingnovels;andtheaveragemanamurrainontheword!isjustlikeyouandme,orhewouldnotbeaverage。ItwasWhitmanwhostampedakindofBirminghamsacrednessuponthelatterphrase;butWhitmanknewverywell,andshowedverynobly,thattheaveragemanwasfullofjoysandfullofapoetryofhisown。Andthisharpingonlife'sdulnessandman'smeannessisaloudprofessionofincompetence;itisoneoftwothings:thecryoftheblindeye,ICANNOTSEE,orthecomplaintofthedumbtongue,ICANNOTUTTER。TodrawalifewithoutdelightsistoproveIhavenotrealisedit。Topictureamanwithoutsomesortofpoetry-well,itgoesneartoprovemycase,foritshowsanauthormayhavelittleenough。ToseeDanceronlyasadirty,old,small-minded,impotentlyfumingman,inadirtyhouse,besiegedbyHarrowboys,andprobablybesetbysmallattorneys,istoshowmyselfaskeenanobserveras……theHarrowboys。ButtheseyounggentlemenwithamorebecomingmodestywerecontenttopluckDancerbythecoat-tails;theydidnotsupposetheyhadsurprisedhissecretorcouldputhimlivinginabook:anditistheremyerrorwouldhavelain。Orsaythatinthesameromance-Icontinuetocallthesebooksromances,inthehopeofgivingpain-saythatinthesameromance,whichnowbeginsreallytotakeshape,IshouldleavetospeakofDancer,andfollowinsteadtheHarrowboys;andsaythatIcameonsomesuchbusinessasthatofmylantern-bearersonthelinks;anddescribedtheboysasverycold,spatuponbyflurriesofrain,anddrearilysurrounded,allofwhichtheywere;andtheirtalkassillyandindecent,whichitcertainlywas。Imightupontheselines,andhadIZola'sgenius,turnout,inapageorso,agemofliteraryart,renderthelantern-lightwiththetouchesofamaster,andlayontheindecencywiththeungrudginghandoflove;andwhenallwasdone,whatatriumphwouldmypicturebeofshallownessanddulness!howitwouldhavemissedthepoint!howitwouldhavebeliedtheboys!Totheearofthestenographer,thetalkismerelysillyandindecent;butasktheboysthemselves,andtheyarediscussingasitishighlypropertheyshouldthepossibilitiesofexistence。Totheeyeoftheobservertheyarewetandcoldanddrearilysurrounded;butaskthemselves,andtheyareintheheavenofareconditepleasure,thegroundofwhichisanill-smellinglantern。
  III
  For,torepeat,thegroundofaman'sjoyisoftenhardtohit。Itmayhingeattimesuponamereaccessory,likethelantern;itmayreside,likeDancer's,inthemysteriousinwardsofpsychology。Itmayconsistwithperpetualfailure,andfindexerciseinthecontinuedchase。Ithassolittlebondwithexternalssuchastheobserverscribblesinhisnote-bookthatitmayeventouchthemnot;andtheman'struelife,forwhichheconsentstolive,liealtogetherinthefieldoffancy。Theclergyman,inhissparehours,maybewinningbattles,thefarmersailingships,thebankerreapingtriumphinthearts:allleadinganotherlife,plyinganothertradefromthattheychose;likethepoet'shousebuilder,who,afterall,iscasedinstone,"Byhisfireside,asimpotentfancyprompts。
  Rebuildsittohisliking。"
  Insuchacasethepoetryrunsunderground。Theobserverpoorsoul,withhisdocuments!isallabroad。Fortolookatthemanisbuttocourtdeception。Weshallseethetrunkfromwhichhedrawshisnourishment;buthehimselfisaboveandabroadinthegreendomeoffoliage,hummedthroughbywindsandnestedinbynightingales。Andthetruerealismwerethatofthepoets,toclimbupafterhimlikeasquirrel,andcatchsomeglimpseoftheheavenforwhichhelives。
  And,thetruerealism,alwaysandeverywhere,isthatofthepoets:
  tofindoutwherejoyresides,andgiveitavoicefarbeyondsinging。
  Fortomissthejoyistomissall。Inthejoyoftheactorsliesthesenseofanyaction。Thatistheexplanation,thattheexcuse。
  Toonewhohasnotthesecretofthelanterns,thesceneuponthelinksismeaningless。Andhencethehauntingandtrulyspectralunrealityofrealisticbooks。Hence,whenwereadtheEnglishrealists,theincredulouswonderwithwhichweobservethehero'sconstancyunderthesubmergingtideofdulness,andhowhebearsupwithhisjibbingsweetheart,andenduresthechatterofidiotgirls,andstandsbyhiswholeunfeaturedwildernessofanexistence,insteadofseekingreliefindrinkorforeigntravel。
  HenceintheFrench,inthatmeat-marketofmiddle-agedsensuality,thedisgustedsurprisewithwhichweseetheherodriftsidelong,andpracticallyquiteuntempted,intoeverydescriptionofmisconductanddishonour。Ineach,wemissthepersonalpoetry,theenchantedatmosphere,thatrainbowworkoffancythatclotheswhatisnakedandseemstoennoblewhatisbase;ineach,lifefallsdeadlikedough,insteadofsoaringawaylikeaballoonintothecoloursofthesunset;eachistrue,eachinconceivable;fornomanlivesintheexternaltruth,amongsaltsandacids,butinthewarm,phantasmagoricchamberofhisbrain,withthepaintedwindowsandthestoriedwalls。
  Ofthisfalsitywehavehadarecentexamplefromamanwhoknowsfarbetter-Tolstoi'sPOWERSOFDARKNESS。Hereisapiecefullofforceandtruth,yetquiteuntrue。ForbeforeMikitawasledintosodireasituationhewastempted,andtemptationsarebeautifulatleastinpart;andaworkwhichdwellsontheuglinessofcrimeandgivesnohintofanylovelinessinthetemptation,sinsagainstthemodestyoflife,andevenwhenaTolstoiwritesit,sinkstomelodrama。Thepeasantsarenotunderstood;theysawtheirlifeinfairercolours;eventhedeafgirlwasclothedinpoetryforMikita,orhehadneverfallen。Andso,onceagain,evenanOldBaileymelodrama,withoutsomebrightnessofpoetryandlustreofexistence,fallsintotheinconceivableandrankswithfairytales。
  IV
  Innoblerbookswearemovedwithsomethingliketheemotionsoflife;andthisemotionisveryvariouslyprovoked。WearesomovedwhenLevinelaboursinthefield,whenAndresinksbeyondemotion,whenRichardFeverelandLucyDesboroughmeetbesidetheriver,whenAntony,"notcowardly,putsoffhishelmet,"whenKenthasinfinitepityonthedyingLear,when,inDostoieffky'sDESPISED
  ANDREJECTED,theuncomplainingherodrainshiscupofsufferingandvirtue。Thesearenotesthatpleasethegreatheartofman。
  Notonlylove,andthefields,andthebrightfaceofdanger,butsacrificeanddeathandunmeritedsufferinghumblysupported,touchinustheveinofthepoetic。Welovetothinkofthem,welongtotrythem,wearehumblyhopefulthatwemayproveheroesalso。
  Wehaveheard,perhaps,toomuchoflessermatters。Hereisthedoor,hereistheopenair。ITURINANTIQUAMSILVAM。
  CHAPTERVIII-ACHAPTERONDREAMS
  THEpastisallofonetexture-whetherfeignedorsuffered-
  whetheractedoutinthreedimensions,oronlywitnessedinthatsmalltheatreofthebrainwhichwekeepbrightlylightedallnightlong,afterthejetsaredown,anddarknessandsleepreignundisturbedintheremainderofthebody。Thereisnodistinctiononthefaceofourexperiences;oneisvividindeed,andonedull,andonepleasant,andanotheragonisingtoremember;butwhichofthemiswhatwecalltrue,andwhichadream,thereisnotonehairtoprove。Thepaststandsonaprecariousfooting;anotherstrawsplitinthefieldofmetaphysic,andbeholdusrobbedofit。
  Thereisscarceafamilythatcancountfourgenerationsbutlaysaclaimtosomedormanttitleorsomecastleandestate:aclaimnotprosecutableinanycourtoflaw,butflatteringtothefancyandagreatalleviationofidlehours。Aman'sclaimtohisownpastisyetlessvalid。Apapermightturnupinproperstory-bookfashioninthesecretdrawerofanoldebonysecretary,andrestoreyourfamilytoitsancienthonours,andreinstatemineinacertainWestIndianisletnotfarfromSt。Kitt's,asbelovedtraditionhummedinmyyoungearswhichwasonceours,andisnowunjustlysomeoneelse's,andforthatmatterinthestateofthesugartradeisnotworthanythingtoanybody。Idonotsaythattheserevolutionsarelikely;onlynomancandenythattheyarepossible;andthepast,ontheotherbaud,is,lostforever:ourolddaysanddeeds,ouroldselves,too,andtheveryworldinwhichthesesceneswereacted,allbroughtdowntothesamefaintresiduumasalastnight'sdream,tosomeincontinuousimages,andanechointhechambersofthebrain。Notanhour,notamood,notaglanceoftheeye,canwerevoke;itisallgone,pastconjuring。
  Andyetconceiveusrobbedofit,conceivethatlittlethreadofmemorythatwetrailbehindusbrokenatthepocket'sedge;andinwhatnakednullityshouldwebeleft!forweonlyguideourselves,andonlyknowourselves,bytheseair-paintedpicturesofthepast。
  Uponthesegrounds,therearesomeamonguswhoclaimtohavelivedlongerandmorerichlythantheirneighbours;whentheylayasleeptheyclaimtheywerestillactive;andamongthetreasuresofmemorythatallmenreviewfortheiramusement,thesecountinnosecondplacetheharvestsoftheirdreams。ThereisoneofthiskindwhomIhaveinmyeye,andwhosecaseisperhapsunusualenoughtobedescribed。Hewasfromachildanardentanduncomfortabledreamer。Whenhehadatouchoffeveratnight,andtheroomswelledandshrank,andhisclothes,hangingonanail,nowloomedupinstanttothebignessofachurch,andnowdrewawayintoahorrorofinfinitedistanceandinfinitelittleness,thepoorsoulwasverywellawareofwhatmustfollow,andstruggledhardagainsttheapproachesofthatslumberwhichwasthebeginningofsorrows。
  Buthisstruggleswereinvain;soonerorlaterthenight-hagwouldhavehimbythethroat,andpluckhimstranglingandscreaming,fromhissleep。Hisdreamswereattimescommonplaceenough,attimesverystrange,attimestheywerealmostformless:hewouldbehaunted,forinstance,bynothingmoredefinitethanacertainhueofbrown,whichhedidnotmindintheleastwhilehewasawake,butfearedandloathedwhilehewasdreaming;attimes,again,theytookoneverydetailofcircumstance,aswhenoncehesupposedhemustswallowthepopulousworld,andawokescreamingwiththehorrorofthethought。Thetwochieftroublesofhisverynarrowexistence-thepracticalandeverydaytroubleofschooltasksandtheultimateandairyoneofhellandjudgment-wereoftenconfoundedtogetherintooneappallingnightmare。HeseemedtohimselftostandbeforetheGreatWhiteThrone;hewascalledon,poorlittledevil,torecitesomeformofwords,onwhichhisdestinydepended;histonguestuck,hismemorywasblank,hellgapedforhim;andhewouldawake,clingingtothecurtain-rodwithhiskneestohischin。
  Thesewereextremelypoorexperiences,onthewhole;andatthattimeoflifemydreamerwouldhaveverywillinglypartedwithhispowerofdreams。Butpresently,inthecourseofhisgrowth,thecriesandphysicalcontortionspassedaway,seeminglyforever;hisvisionswerestillforthemostpartmiserable,buttheyweremoreconstantlysupported;andhewouldawakewithnomoreextremesymptomthanaflyingheart,afreezingscalp,coldsweats,andthespeechlessmidnightfear。Hisdreams,too,asbefittedamindbetterstockedwithparticulars,becamemorecircumstantial,andhadmoretheairandcontinuityoflife。Thelookoftheworldbeginningtotakeholdonhisattention,scenerycametoplayapartinhissleepingaswellasinhiswakingthoughts,sothathewouldtakelong,uneventfuljourneysandseestrangetownsandbeautifulplacesashelayinbed。And,whatismoresignificant,anoddtastethathehadfortheGeorgiancostumeandforstorieslaidinthatperiodofEnglishhistory,begantorulethefeaturesofhisdreams;sothathemasqueradedthereinathree-corneredhatandwasmuchengagedwithJacobiteconspiracybetweenthehourforbedandthatforbreakfast。Aboutthesametime,hebegantoreadinhisdreams-tales,forthemostpart,andforthemostpartafterthemannerofG。P。R。James,butsoincrediblymorevividandmovingthananyprintedbook,thathehaseversincebeenmalcontentwithliterature。
  Andthen,whilehewasyetastudent,therecametohimadream-
  adventurewhichhehasnoanxietytorepeat;hebegan,thatistosay,todreaminsequenceandthustoleadadoublelife-oneoftheday,oneofthenight-onethathehadeveryreasontobelievewasthetrueone,anotherthathehadnomeansofprovingtobefalse。Ishouldhavesaidhestudied,orwasbywayofstudying,atEdinburghCollege,whichitmaybesupposedwashowIcametoknowhim。Well,inhisdream-life,hepassedalongdayinthesurgicaltheatre,hisheartinhismouth,histeethonedge,seeingmonstrousmalformationsandtheabhorreddexterityofsurgeons。Inaheavy,rainy,foggyeveninghecameforthintotheSouthBridge,turneduptheHighStreet,andenteredthedoorofatallLAND,atthetopofwhichhesupposedhimselftolodge。Allnightlong,inhiswetclothes,heclimbedthestairs,stairafterstairinendlessseries,andateverysecondflightaflaringlampwithareflector。Allnightlong,hebrushedbysinglepersonspassingdownward-beggarlywomenofthestreet,great,weary,muddylabourers,poorscarecrowsofmen,paleparodiesofwomen-butalldrowsyandwearylikehimself,andallsingle,andallbrushingagainsthimastheypassed。Intheend,outofanorthernwindow,hewouldseedaybeginningtowhitenovertheFirth,giveuptheascent,turntodescend,andinabreathbebackagainuponthestreets,inhiswetclothes,inthewet,haggarddawn,trudgingtoanotherdayofmonstrositiesandoperations。Timewentquickerinthelifeofdreams,somesevenhoursasnearashecanguesstoone;anditwent,besides,moreintensely,sothatthegloomofthesefanciedexperiencescloudedtheday,andhehadnotshakenofftheirshadowereitwastimetoliedownandtorenewthem。I