CHAPTERXIII
  Hehadnotundressed,andhesatbesidethetable,smokinghispipeandreadinghisnewspaper。Uponhisforeheadthelinesinthatoldpattern,thehistoricalmapofhistroubles,hadgrownalittlevaguerlately;relaxedbythecomplacencyofamanwhonotonlyfindshishealthrestored,butseesthedaysbeforehimpromisingoncemoreafamiliarroutinethathehasalwayslikedtofollow。
  Ashiswifecamein,closingthedoorbehindher,helookedupcheerfully,"Well,mother,"hesaid,"what'sthenewsdownstairs?"
  "That'swhatIcametotellyou,"sheinformedhim,grimly。
  Adamsloweredhisnewspapertohiskneeandpeeredoverhisspectaclesather。Shehadremainedbythedoor,standing,andthegreatgreenishshadowofthesmalllamp-shadeuponhistablerevealedherbutdubiously。"Isn'teverythingallright?"heasked。"What'sthematter?"
  "Don'tworry:I'mgoingtotellyou,"shesaid,hergrimnessnotrelaxed。"There'smatterenough,VirgilAdams。Matterenoughtomakemesickofbeingalive!"
  Withthat,themarkingsonhisbrowsbegantoemergeagaininalltheirsharpness;theoldpatternreappeared。"Oh,my,my!"helamented。"Ithoughtmaybewewereallgoingtosettledowntoalittlepeaceforawhile。What'sitaboutnow?"
  "It'saboutAlice。DidyouthinkitwasaboutMEoranythingforMYSELF?"
  Likesomereadyoldmachine,alwaysinorder,hisirritabilityrespondedimmediatelyandautomaticallytoheremotion。"HowinthundercouldIthinkwhatit'sabout,orwhoit'sfor?SAYit,andgetitover!"
  "Oh,I'll'say'it,"shepromised,ominously。"WhatI'vecometoaskyouis,Howmuchlongerdoyouexpectmetoputupwiththatoldmanandhisdoings?"
  "Whosedoings?Whatoldman?"
  Shecameathim,fiercelyaccusing。"Youknowwellenoughwhatoldman,VirgilAdams!Thatoldmanwhowasheretheothernight。"
  "Mr。Lamb?"
  "Yes;'MisterLamb!'"Shemockedhisvoice。"WhatotheroldmanwouldIbelikelytomeanexceptJ。A。Lamb?"
  "What'shebeendoingnow?"herhusbandinquired,satirically。
  "Where'dyougetsomethingnewagainsthimsincethelasttimeyou——"
  "Justthis!"shecried。"Theothernightwhenthatmanwashere,ifI'dknownhowhewasgoingtomakemychildsuffer,I'dneverhavelethimsethisfootinmyhouse。"
  Adamsleanedbackinhischairasthoughherabsurdityhadeasedhismind。"Oh,Isee,"hesaid。"You'vejustgoneplaincrazy。
  That'stheonlyexplanationofsuchtalk,anditsuitsthecase。"
  "Hasn'tthatmanmadeusallsuffereverydayofourlives?"shedemanded。"I'dliketoknowwhyitisthatmylifeandmychildren'sliveshavetobesacrificedtohim?"
  "Howarethey'sacrificed'tohim?"
  "Becauseyoukeeponworkingforhim!Becauseyoukeeponlettinghimhandoutwhatevermiserablelittlepittancehechoosestogiveyou;that'swhy!It'sasifheweresomehorribleoldJuggernautandIhadtoseemychildren'sownfatherthrowingthemunderthewheelstokeephimsatisfied。"
  "Iwon'thearanymoresuchstuff!"Liftinghispaper,Adamsaffectedtoread。
  "You'dbetterlistentome,"sheadmonishedhim。"Youmightbesorryyoudidn't,incaseheevertriedtosetfootinmyhouseagain!ImighttellhimtohisfacewhatIthinkofhim。"
  Atthis,Adamsslappedthenewspaperdownuponhisknee。"Oh,thedevil!What'sitmatterwhatyouthinkofhim?"
  "Ithadbettermattertoyou!"shecried。"DoyousupposeI'mgoingtosubmitforevertohimandhisfamilyandwhatthey'redoingtomychild?"
  "Whatareheandhisfamilydoingto'yourchild?'"
  Mrs。Adamscameoutwithit。"ThatsnippylittleHenriettaLambhasalwayssnubbedAliceeverytimeshe'severhadthechance。
  She'sfollowedtheleadoftheothergirls;they'vealwaysallof'embeenjealousofAlicebecauseshedaredtotryandbehappy,andbecauseshe'sshowierandbetter-lookingthantheyare,eventhoughyoudogiveheronlyaboutthirty-fivecentsayeartodoiton!They'vealldoneeverythingonearththeycouldtodrivetheyoungmenawayfromherandbelittleherto'em;andthismeanlittleHenriettaLamb'sbeentheworstofthewholecrowdtoAlice,everytimeshecouldseeachance。"
  "Whatfor?"Adamsasked,incredulously。"WhyshouldsheoranybodyelsepickonAlice?"
  "'Why?''Whatfor?'"hiswiferepeatedwithagreatervehemence。
  "DoYOUaskmesuchathingasthat?Doyoureallywanttoknow?"
  "Yes;I'dwanttoknow——IwouldifIbelievedit。"
  "ThenI'lltellyou,"shesaidinacoldfury。"It'sonaccountofyou,Virgil,andnothingelseintheworld。"
  Hehootedather。"Oh,yes!Thesegirlsdon'tlikeME,sotheypickonAlice。"
  "Quityourpalaveringandevading,"shesaid。"Acrowdofgirlslikethat,whentheygetaprettygirllikeAliceamongthem,theyactjustlikewildbeasts。They'lltearhertopieces,orelsethey'llchaseherandrunherout,becausetheyknowifshehadhalfachanceshe'doutshine'em。Theycan'tdothattoagirllikeMildredPalmerbecauseshe'sgotmoneyandfamilytobackher。Nowyoulistentome,VirgilAdams:thewaytheworldisnow,moneyISfamily。Alicewouldhavejustasmuch'family'
  asanyof'emeverysinglebit——ifyouhadn'tfallenbehindintherace。"
  "HowdidI——"
  "Yes,youdid!"shecried。"Twenty-fiveyearsagowhenwewerestartingandthistownwassmaller,youandIcouldhavegonewithanyof'emifwe'dtriedhardenough。Lookatthepeopleweknewthenthatdoholdtheirheadsupalongsideofanybodyinthistown!WHYcanthey?Becausethemenofthosefamiliesmademoneyandgavetheirchildreneverythingthatmakeslifeworthliving!Whycan'tweholdourheadsup?Becausethosemenpassedyouintherace。Theywentuptheladder,andyou——you'restillaclerkdownatthatoldhole!"
  "Youleavethatout,please,"hesaid。"IthoughtyouweregoingtotellmesomethingHenriettaLambhaddonetoourAlice。"
  "YouBETI'mgoingtotellyou,"sheassuredhim,vehemently。
  "ButfirstI'mtellingWHYshedoesit。It'sbecauseyou'venevergivenAliceanybackingnoranybackground,andtheyallknowtheycandoanythingtheyliketoherwithperfectimpunity。
  IfshehadthehundredthpartofwhatTHEYhavetofallbackonshe'dhavemade'emsingamightydifferentsonglongago!"
  "Howwouldshe?"
  "Oh,myheavens,butyou'reslow!"Mrs。Adamsmoaned。"Lookhere!Yourememberhowpracticallyallthenicestboysinthistownusedtocomehereafewyearsago。Why,theywereallcrazyoverher;andthegirlsHADtobenicetoherthen。Lookatthedifferencenow!There'llbeawholemonthgobyandnotayoungmancometocallonher,letalonesendhercandyorflowers,oreverthinkofTAKINGheranyplaceandyetshe'sprettierandbrighterthanshewaswhentheyusedtocome。Itisn'tthechild'sfaultshecouldn'thold'em,isit?Poorthing,SHE
  triedhardenough!Isupposeyou'dsayitwasherfault,though。"
  "No;Iwouldn't。"
  "Thenwhosefaultisit?"
  "Oh,mine,mine,"hesaid,wearily。"Idrovetheyoungmenaway,ofcourse。"
  "Youmightaswellhavedriven'em,Virgil。Itamountstojustthesamething。"
  "Howdoesit?"
  "Becauseastheygotolderagoodmanyof'embegantothinkmoreaboutmoney;that'sonething。Money'satthebottomofitall,forthatmatter。Lookatthesecountryclubsandallsuchthings:theothergirls'familiesbelongandwedon't,andAlicedon't;andshecan'tgounlesssomebodytakesher,andnobodydoesanymore。Lookattheothergirls'houses,andthenlookatourhouse,soshabbyandold-fashionedshe'dbeprettynearashamedtoaskanybodytocomeinandsitdownnowadays!Lookatherclothes——oh,yes;youthinkyoushelledoutalotforthatlittlecoatofhersandthehatandskirtshegotlastMarch;butit'snothing。Someofthesegirlsnowadaysspendmorethanyourwholesalaryontheirclothes。Andwhatjewelleryhasshegot?
  Aplatedwatchandtwoorthreelittlepinsandringsofthekindpeople'smaidswouldn'twearnow。GoodLord,VirgilAdams,wakeup!Don'tsitthereandtellmeyoudon'tknowthingslikethismeanSUFFERINGforthechild!"
  Hehadbeguntorubhishandswretchedlybackandforthoverhisbonyknees,asifinthatwayhesomewhatalleviatedthetediumcausedbyherrackingvoice。"Oh,my,my!"hemuttered。"OH,my,my!"
  "Yes,IshouldthinkyouWOULDsay'Oh,my,my!'"shetookhimup,loudly。"Thatdoesn'thelpthingsmuch!IfyoueverwantedtoDOanythingaboutit,thepoorchildmightseesomegleamofhopeinherlife。Youdon'tCAREforher,that'sthetrouble;
  youdon'tcareasinglethingabouther。"
  "Idon't?"
  "No;youdon't。Why,evenwithyourmiserablelittlesalaryyoucouldhavegivenhermorethanyouhave。You'retheclosestmanIeverknew:it'slikepullingteethtogetadollaroutofyouforher,nowandthen,andyetyouhidesomeaway,everymonthorso,insomewretchedlittleinvestmentorother。You——"
  "Lookhere,now,"heinterrupted,angrily。"Youlookhere!IfI
  didn'tputalittlebywheneverIcould,inabondorsomething,wherewouldyoubeifanythinghappenedtome?Theinsurancedoctorsneverpassedme;YOUknowthat。Haven'twegottohaveSOMETHINGtofallbackon?"
  "Yes,wehave!"shecried。"Weoughttohavesomethingtogoonwithrightnow,too,whenweneedit。DoyousupposethesesnippetswouldtreatAlicethewaytheydoifshecouldaffordtoENTERTAIN?Theyleaveheroutoftheirdinnersanddancessimplybecausetheyknowshecan'tgiveanydinnersanddancestoleavethemoutof!Theyknowshecan'tgetEVEN,andthat'sthewholestory!That'swhyHenriettaLamb'sdonethisthingtohernow。"
  Adamshadgonebacktohisrubbingofhisknees。"Oh,my,my!"
  hesaid。"WHATthing?"
  Shetoldhim。"Yourdear,grand,oldMisterLamb'sHenriettahassentoutinvitationsforalargeparty——aLARGEone。Everybodythatisanybodyinthistownisasked,youcanbesure。There'saveryfineyoungman,aMr。Russell,hasjustcometotown,andhe'sinterestedinAlice,andhe'saskedhertogotothisdancewithhim。Well,Alicecan'taccept。Shecan'tgowithhim,thoughshe'dgiveanythingintheworldtodoit。Doyouunderstand?Thereasonshecan'tisbecauseHenriettaLambhasn'tinvitedher。DoyouwanttoknowwhyHenriettahasn'tinvitedher?It'sbecausesheknowsAlicecan'tgeteven,andbecauseshethinksAliceoughttobesnubbedlikethisonaccountofonlybeingthedaughterofoneofhergrandfather'sclerks。I
  HOPEyouunderstand!"
  "Oh,my,my!"hesaid。"OH,my,my!"
  "That'syoursweetoldemployer,"hiswifecried,tauntingly。
  "That'syourdear,kind,grandoldMisterLamb!Alicehasbeenleftoutofagoodmanysmallerthings,likebigdinnersandlittledances,butthisisjustthesameasservinghernoticethatshe'soutofeverything!Andit'salldonebyyourdear,grandold——"
  "Lookhere!"Adamsexclaimed。"Idon'twanttohearanymoreofthat!Youcan'tholdhimresponsibleforeverythinghisgrandchildrendo,Iguess!Heprobablydoesn'tknowathingaboutit。Youdon'tsupposehe'stroublingHISheadover——"
  Butsheburstoutathimpassionately。"SupposeyoutroubleYOUR
  headaboutit!You'dbetter,VirgilAdams!You'dbetter,unlessyouwanttoseeyourchildjustdryupintoamiserableoldmaid!
  She'sstillyoungandshehasachanceforhappiness,ifshehadafatherthatdidn'tbringamillstonetohangaroundherneck,insteadofwhatheoughttogiveher!YoujustwaittillyoudieandGodasksyouwhatyouhadinyourbreastinsteadofaheart!"
  "Oh,my,my!"hegroaned。"What'smyheartgottodowithit?"
  "Nothing!Youhaven'tgotoneoryou'dgiveherwhatsheneeded。
  AmIaskinganythingyouCAN'Tdo?Youknowbetter;youknowI'mnot!"
  Atthishesatsuddenlyrigid,histroubledhandsceasingtorubhisknees;andhelookedatherfixedly。"Now,tellme,"hesaid,slowly。"JustwhatAREyouasking?"
  "Youknow!"shesobbed。
  "Youmeanyou'vebrokenyourwordnevertospeakofTHATtomeagain?"
  "Whatdo_I_careformyword?"shecried,and,sinkingtothefloorathisfeet,rockedherselfbackandforththere。"DoyousupposeI'llletmy'word'keepmefromstrugglingforalittlehappinessformychildren?Itwon't,Itellyou;itwon't!I'llstruggleforthattillIdie!Iwill,tillIdietillIdie!"
  Herubbedhisheadnowinsteadofhisknees,and,shakingallover,hegotupandbeganwithuncertainstepstopacethefloor。
  "Hell,hell,hell!"hesaid。"I'vegottogothroughTHAT
  again!"
  "Yes,youhave!"shesobbed。"TillIdie。"
  "Yes;that'swhatyoubeenafterallthetimeIwasgettingwell。"
  "Yes,Ihave,andI'llkeepontillIdie!"
  "Afinewifeforaman,"hesaid。"Beggin'amantobeadirtydog!"
  "No!TobeaMAN——andI'llkeepontillIdie!"
  Adamsagainfellbackuponhislastsolace:hewalked,halfstaggering,upanddowntheroom,swearinginarhythmicrepetition。
  Hiswifehadrepetitionsofherown,andshekeptattheminavoicethatrosetoahigherandhigherpitch,likethesoundofanoldwell-pump。"TillIdie!TillIdie!TillIDIE!"
  Sheendedinascream;andAlice,comingupthestairs,thankedheaventhatRussellhadgone。Sherantoherfather'sdoorandwentin。
  Adamslookedather,andgesticulatedshakilyattheconvulsivefigureonthefloor。"Canyougetheroutofhere?"
  AlicehelpedMrs。Adamstoherfeet;andthestrickenwomanthrewherarmspassionatelyaboutherdaughter。
  "Getherout!"Adamssaid,harshly;thencried,"Wait!"
  Alice,movingtowardthedoor,halted,andlookedathimblankly,overhermother'sshoulder。"Whatisit,papa?"
  Hestretchedouthisarmandpointedather。"Shesays——shesaysyouhaveameanlife,Alice。"
  "No,papa。"
  Mrs。Adamsturnedinherdaughter'sarms。"Doyouhearherlie?
  Couldn'tyoubeasbraveassheis,Virgil?"
  "Areyoulying,Alice?"heasked。"Doyouhaveameantime?"
  "No,papa。"
  Hecametowardher。"Lookatme!"hesaid。"Thingslikethisdancenow——isthatsohardtobear?"
  Alicetriedtosay,"No,papa,"again,butshecouldn't。
  Suddenlyandinspiteofherselfshebegantocry。
  "Doyouhearher?"hiswifesobbed。"Nowdoyou——"
  Hewavedatthemfiercely。"Getoutofhere!"hesaid。"Bothofyou!Getoutofhere!"
  Astheywent,hedroppedinhischairandbentfarforward,sothathishaggardfacewasconcealedfromthem。Then,asAliceclosedthedoor,hebegantorubhiskneesagain,muttering,"Oh,my,my!OH,my,my!"
  CHAPTERXIV
  Thereshoneajovialsunoverheadontheappointed"dayafterto-morrow";adaynotcoolyetofatemperaturefriendlytowalkers;andtheair,powderedwithsunshine,hadsomuchlifeinitthatitseemedtosparkle。ToArthurRussellthiswasadaylikeagaycompanionwhopleasedhimwell;butthegaycompanionathissidepleasedhimevenbetter。Shelookedherprettiest,chatteredherwittiest,smiledherwistfulest,anddelightedhimwithalltogether。
  "Youlooksohappyit'seasytoseeyourfather'stakenagoodturn,"hetoldher。
  "Yes;hehasthisafternoon,atleast,"shesaid。"Imighthaveotherreasonsforlookingcheerful,though。"
  "Forinstance?"
  "Exactly!"shesaid,givinghimasweetlookjustenoughmockedbyherlaughter。"Forinstance!"
  "Well,goon,"hebegged。
  "Isn'titexpected?"sheasked。
  "Ofyou,youmean?"
  "No,"shereturned。"Foryou,Imean!"
  Inthisstyle,whichusesawordforanymeaningthatquicklookandcolourfulgesturecaretoendowitwith,shewasanexpert;
  andshecarrieditmerrilyon,leavinghimatlibertyoneofthegreatvaluesofthestyletochooseashewouldhowmuchorhowlittleshemeant。Hewascontenttosupplymerecues,foralthoughhehadlittlecoquetryofhisown,hehadlatelybeguntofindthattheonlyinterestingmomentsinhislifewerethoseduringwhichAliceAdamscoquettedwithhim。Happily,theseobligingmomentsextendedthemselvestocoverallthetimehespentwithher。Howeverseriousshemightseem,whateverappearedtobehertopic,allwasthou-and-I。
  Heplannedformoreofit,seeingotherwiseadulleveningahead;
  andreverted,afterwhile,toaforbiddensubject。"AboutthatdanceatMissLamb's——sinceyourfather'ssomuchbetter——"
  Sheflushedalittle。"Now,now!"shechidedhim。"Weagreednottosayanymoreaboutthat。"
  "Yes,butsinceheISbetter——"
  Aliceshookherhead。"Hewon'tbebetterto-morrow。Healwayshasabaddayafteragoodoneespeciallyaftersuchagoodoneasthisis。"
  "Butifthistimeitshouldbedifferent,"Russellpersisted;
  "wouldn'tyoubewillingtocomeifhe'sbetterbyto-morrowevening?Whynotwaitanddecideatthelastminute?"
  Shewavedherhandsairily。"Whatapother!"shecried。"WhatdoesitmatterwhetherpoorlittleAliceAdamsgoestoadanceornot?"
  "Well,IthoughtI'dmadeitclearthatitlooksfairlybleaktomeifyoudon'tgo。"
  "Oh,yes!"shejeered。
  "It'sthesimpletruth,"heinsisted。"Idon'tcareagreatdealaboutdancesthesedays;andifyouaren'tgoingtobethere——"
  "Youcouldstayaway,"shesuggested。"Youwouldn't!"
  "Unfortunately,Ican't。I'mafraidI'msupposedtobetheexcuse。MissLamb,inhercapacityasafriendofmyrelatives——"
  "Oh,she'sgivingitforYOU!Isee!OnMildred'saccountyoumean?"
  Atthathisfaceshowedanincreaseofcolour。"IsupposejustonaccountofmybeingacousinofMildred'sandof——"
  "Ofcourse!You'llhaveabeautifultime,too。Henrietta'llseethatyouhavesomebodytodancewithbesidesMissDowling,poorman!"
  "ButwhatIwantsomebodytoseeisthatIdancewithyou!Andperhapsyourfather——"
  "Wait!"shesaid,frowningasifshedebatedwhetherornottotellhimsomethingofimport;then,seemingtodecideaffirmatively,sheasked:"Wouldyoureallyliketoknowthetruthaboutit?"
  "Ifitisn'ttoounflattering。"
  "Ithasn'tanythingtodowithyouatall,"shesaid。"OfcourseI'dliketogowithyouandtodancewithyou——thoughyoudon'tseemtorealizethatyouwouldn'tbepermittedmuchtimewithme。"
  "Oh,yes,I——"
  "Nevermind!"shelaughed。"Ofcourseyouwouldn't。Butevenifpapashouldbebetterto-morrow,IdoubtifI'dgo。Infact,I
  knowIwouldn't。There'sanotherreasonbesidespapa。"
  "Isthere?"
  "Yes。Thetruthis,Idon'tgetonwithHenriettaLamb。Asamatteroffact,Idislikeher,andofcoursethatmeansshedislikesme。IshouldneverthinkofaskinghertoanythingI
  gave,andIreallywondersheasksmetothingsSHEgives。"Thiswasanewinspiration;andAlice,beginningtoseeherwayoutofaperplexity,wishedthatshehadthoughtofitearlier:sheshouldhavetoldhimfromthefirstthatsheandHenriettahadafeud,andconsequentlyexchangednoinvitations。Moreover,therewasanotherthingtobesetherwithlittleanxieties:shemightbetternothavetoldhimfromthefirst,asshehadindeedtoldhimbyintimation,thatshewasthepampereddaughterofanindulgentfather,presumablyabletoindulgeher;fornowshemustelaboratelykeeptothepart。Veracityisusuallysimple;
  anditsopposite,tobesuccessful,shouldbeassimple;butpractitionersoftheoppositearemostoftenimpulsive,likeAlice;and,likeher,theybecomeenmeshedinelaborations。
  "Itwouldn'tbeveryniceformetogotoherhouse,"Alicewenton,"whenIwouldn'twantherinmine。I'veneveradmiredher。
  I'vealwaysthoughtshewaslackinginsomethingsmostpeoplearesupposedtobeequippedwith——forinstance,acertainfeelingaboutthedeathofafatherwhowasalwaysprettydecenttohisdaughter。Henrietta'sfatherdiedjust,elevenmonthsandtwenty-sevendaysbeforeyourcousin'sdance,butshecouldn'tstickoutthosefewlastdaysandmakeitayear;shewasthere。"
  Alicestopped,thenlaughedruefully,exclaiming,"Butthisisdreadfulofme!"
  "Isit?"
  "Blackguardinghertoyouwhenshe'sgivingabigpartyforyou!
  JustthewayHenriettawouldblackguardmetoyou——heavenknowswhatsheWOULDN'Tsayifshetalkedaboutmetoyou!Itwouldbefair,ofcourse,but——well,I'drathershedidn't!"Andwiththat,Aliceletherprettyhand,initswhiteglove,restuponhisarmforamoment;andhelookeddownatit,notunmovedtoseeitthere。"Iwanttobeunfairaboutjustthis,"shesaid,lettingatroubledlaughtertremblethroughherappealingvoiceasshespoke。"Iwon'ttakeadvantageofherwithanybody,exceptjust——you!I'dalittleratheryoudidn'thearanybodyblackguardme,and,ifyoudon'tmind——couldyoupromisenottogiveHenriettathechance?"
  Itwascharminglydone,withahumorous,faintpathosaltogethergenuine;andRussellfoundhimselfsuddenlywantingtoshoutather,"Oh,youDEAR!"Nothingelseseemedadequate;buthecontrolledtheimpulseinfavourofsomethingmoreconservative。
  "Imagineanyonespeakingunkindlyofyou——notpraisingyou!"
  "WhoHASpraisedmetoyou?"sheasked,quickly。
  "Ihaven'ttalkedaboutyouwithanyone;butifIdid,Iknowthey'd——"
  "No,no!"shecried,andwenton,againaccompanyingherwordswithlittletremulousrunsoflaughter。"Youdon'tunderstandthistownyet。You'llbesurprisedwhenyoudo;we'redifferent。
  Wetalkaboutoneanotherfearfully!Haven'tIjustprovedit,thewayI'vebeengoingforHenrietta?OfcourseIdidn'tsayanythingreallyveryterribleabouther,butthat'sonlybecauseIdon'tfollowthatpracticethewaymostoftheothersdo。Theydon'tstopwiththeworstofthetruththeycanfind:theymakeUPthings——yes,theyreallydo!And,oh,I'dRATHERtheydidn'tmakeupthingsaboutme——toyou!"
  "Whatdifferencewoulditmakeiftheydid?"heinquired,cheerfully。"I'dknowtheyweren'ttrue。"
  "Evenifyoudidknowthat,they'dmakeadifference,"shesaid。
  "Oh,yes,theywould!It'stoobad,butwedon'tlikeanythingquitesowellthat'shadspecksonit,evenifwe'vewipedthespecksoff;——it'sjustthatmuchspoiled,andsomethingsareallspoiledtheinstantthey'retheleastbitspoiled。Whatamanthinksaboutagirl,forinstance。Doyouwanttohavewhatyouthinkaboutmespoiled,Mr。Russell?"
  "Oh,butthat'salreadyfarbeyondreach,"hesaid,lightly。
  "Butitcan'tbe!"sheprotested。
  "Whynot?"
  "Becauseitnevercanbe。Mendon'tchangetheirmindsaboutoneanotheroften:theymakeitquiteaneventwhentheydo,andtalkaboutitasifsomethingimportanthadhappened。Butagirlonlyhastogodown-townwithashoe-stringunfastened,andeverymanwhoseesherwillchangehismindabouther。Don'tyouknowthat'strue?"
  "Notofmyself,Ithink。"
  "There!"shecried。"That'spreciselywhateverymanintheworldwouldsay!"
  "Soyouwouldn'ttrustme?"
  "Well——I'llbeawfullyworriedifyougive'emachancetotellyouthatI'mtoolazytotiemyshoe-strings!"
  Helaugheddelightedly。"Isthatwhattheydosay?"heasked。
  "Justabout!Whatevertheyhopewillgetresults。"Sheshookherheadwisely。"Oh,yes;wedothathere!"
  "ButIdon'tmindlooseshoe-strings,"hesaid。"Notifthey'reyours。"
  "They'llfindoutwhatyoudomind。"
  "Butsuppose,"hesaid,lookingatherwhimsically;"supposeI
  wouldn'tmindanything——solongasit'syours?"
  Shecourtesied。"Oh,prettyenough!Butagirlwho'stalkedabouthasaweaknessthat'softenafatalone。"
  "Whatisit?"
  "It'sthis:whenshe'stalkedaboutsheisn'tTHERE。That'showtheykillher。"
  "I'mafraidIdon'tfollowyou。"
  "Don'tyousee?IfHenrietta——orMildred——oranyof'em——orsomeoftheirmothers——oh,weALLdoit!Well,ifanyof'emtoldyouIdidn'ttiemyshoe-strings,andifIwerethere,sothatyoucouldseeme,you'dknowitwasn'ttrue。EvenifIweresittingsothatyoucouldn'tseemyfeet,andcouldn'ttellwhetherthestringsweretiedornotjustthen,stillyoucouldlookatme,andseethatIwasn'tthesortofgirltoneglectmyshoe-strings。Butthatisn'tthewayithappens:they'llgetatyouwhenI'mnowherearoundandcan'tremindyouofthesortofgirlIreallyam。"
  "Butyoudon'tdothat,"hecomplained。"Youdon'tremindmeyoudon'teventellme——thesortofgirlyoureallyare!I'dliketoknow。"
  "Let'sbeseriousthen,"shesaid,andlookedseriousenoughherself。"Wouldyouhonestlyliketoknow?"
  "Yes。"
  "Well,then,youmustbecareful。"
  "'Careful?'"Thewordamusedhim。
  "Imeancarefulnottogetmemixedup,"shesaid。"CarefulnottomixupthegirlyoumighthearsomebodytalkingaboutwiththemeIhonestlytrytomakeyousee。Ifyoudogetthosetwomixedup——well,thewholeshow'llbespoiled!"
  "Whatmakesyouthinkso?"
  "Becauseit's——"Shecheckedherself,havingbeguntospeaktooimpulsively;andshewasdisturbed,realizinginwhattrickystuffshedealt。Whathadbeenonherlipstosaywas,"Becauseit'shappenedbefore!"Shechangedto,"Becauseit'ssoeasytospoilanything——easiestofalltospoilanythingthat'spleasant。"
  "Thatmightdepend。"
  "No;it'sso。Andifyoucareatallabout——aboutknowingagirlwho'dlikesomeonetoknowher——"
  "Just'someone?'That'sdisappointing。"
  "Well——you,"shesaid。
  "Tellmehow'careful'youwantmetobe,then!"
  "Well,don'tyouthinkitwouldbeniceifyoudidn'tgiveanybodythechancetotalkaboutmetheway——thewayI'vejustbeentalkingaboutHenriettaLamb?"
  Withthattheylaughedtogether,andhesaid,"Youmaybecuttingmeofffromagreatdealofinformation,youknow。"
  "Yes,"Aliceadmitted。"Somebodymightbegintopraisemetoyou,too;soit'sdangeroustoaskyoutochangethesubjectifI
  everhappentobementioned。Butafterall——"Shepaused。
  "'Afterall'isn'ttheendofathought,isit?"
  "Sometimesitisofagirl'sthought;Isupposemenareneaterabouttheirthoughts,andalwaysfinish'em。Itisn'ttheendofthethoughtIhadthen,though。"
  "Whatistheendofit?"
  Shelookedathimimpulsively。"Oh,it'sfoolish,"shesaid,andshelaughedaslaughsonewhoproposessomethingprobablyimpossible。"But,WOULDN'TitbepleasantiftwopeoplecouldeverjustkeepthemselvesTOthemselves,sofarastheytwowereconcerned?Imean,iftheycouldjustmanagetobefriendswithoutpeopletalkingaboutit,ortalkingtoTHEMaboutit?"
  "Isupposethatmightberatherdifficult,"hesaid,moreamusedthanimpressedbyheridea。
  "Idon'tknow:itmightbedone,"shereturned,hopefully。
  "Especiallyinatownofthissize;it'sgrownsoit'squiteahugeplacethesedays。Peoplecankeepthemselvestothemselvesinabigplacebetter,youknow。Forinstance,nobodyknowsthatyouandIaretakingawalktogethertoday。"
  "Howabsurd,whenhereweareonexhibition!"
  "No;wearen't。"
  "Wearen't?"
  "Notabitofit!"shelaughed。"Weweretheotherday,whenyouwalkedhomewithme,butanybodycouldtellthathadjusthappenedbychance,onaccountofyourovertakingme;peoplecanalwaysseethingslikethat。Butwe'renotonexhibitionnow。
  LookwhereI'veledyou!"
  Amusedandalittlebewildered,helookedupanddownthestreet,whichwasoneofgaunt-facedapartment-houses,old,sooty,frameboarding-houses,smallgroceriesanddrug-stores,laundriesandone-roomplumbers'shops,withthesignofaclairvoyanthereandthere。
  "Yousee?"shesaid。"I'vebeenleadingyouwithoutyourknowingit。Ofcoursethat'sbecauseyou'renewtothetown,andyougiveyourselfuptotheguidanceofanoldcitizen。"
  "I'mnotsosure,MissAdams。ItmightmeanthatIdon'tcarewhereIfollowsolongasIfollowyou。"
  "Verywell,"shesaid。"I'dlikeyoutokeeponfollowingmeatleastlongenoughformetoshowyouthatthere'ssomethingniceraheadofusthanthisdingystreet。"
  "Isthatfigurative?"heasked。
  "Mightbe!"shereturned,gaily。"There'saprettylittleparkattheend,butit'sveryproletarian,andnobodyyouandIknowwillbemorelikelytoseeustherethanonthisstreet。"
  "Whatanimaginationyouhave!"heexclaimed。"YouturnourproperlittlewalkintoaParisianadventure。"
  Shelookedathiminwhatseemedtobeamomentarygravepuzzlement。"PerhapsyoufeelthataParisianadventuremightn'tpleaseyour——yourrelatives?"
  "Why,no,"hereturned。"YouseemtothinkofthemoftenerthanIdo。"
  ThisappearedtoamuseAlice,oratleasttopleaseher,forshelaughed。"ThenIcanaffordtoquitthinkingofthem,Isuppose。
  It'sonlythatIusedtobequiteafriendofMildred's——butthere!weneedn'ttogointothat。I'veneverbeenafriendofHenriettaLamb's,though,andIalmostwishsheweren'ttakingsuchpainstobeafriendofyours。"
  "Oh,butshe'snot。It'sallonaccountof——"
  "OnMildred'saccount,"Alicefinishedthisforhim,coolly。
  "Yes,ofcourse。"
  "It'sonaccountofthetwofamilies,"hewasatpainstoexplain,alittleawkwardly。"It'sbecauseI'marelativeofthePalmers,andthePalmersandtheLambsseemtobeoldfamilyfriends。"
  "SomethingtheAdamsescertainlyarenot,"Alicesaid。"Notwitheitherof'em;particularlynotwiththeLambs!"Andhere,scarceawareofwhatimpelledher,shereturnedtoherformerelaborationsandcolourings。"Yousee,thedifferencesbetweenHenriettaandmearen'tentirelypersonal:Icouldn'tgotoherhouseevenifIlikedher。TheLambsandAdamsesdon'tgetonwitheachother,andwe'vejustaboutcometothebreaking-pointasithappens。"
  "Ihopeit'snothingtobotheryou。"
  "Why?Alotofthingsbotherme。"
  "I'msorrytheydo,"hesaid,andseemedsimplytomeanit。
  Shenoddedgratefully。"That'sniceofyou,Mr。Russell。Ithelps。ThebreakbetweentheAdamsesandtheLambsisaprettybothersomething。It'sbeencomingonalongtime。"Shesigheddeeply,andthesighwashalfgenuine;thishalfbeingforherfather,buttheotherhalfprobablybelongedtoherinstinctiverenderingofJulietCapulet,daughtertoawarringhouse。"I
  hateitallso!"sheadded。
  "Ofcourseyoumust。"
  "Isupposemostquarrelsbetweenfamiliesareonaccountofbusiness,"shesaid。"That'swhythey'resosordid。CertainlytheLambsseemasordidlottome,thoughofcourseI'mbiased。"
  AndwiththatshebegantosketchahistoryofthecommercialantagonismthathadrisenbetweentheAdamsesandtheLambs。
  Thesketchingwasspontaneousanddramatic。Mathematicshadnopartinit;norwasthereaccuratedefinitionofMr。Adams'srelationtotheinstitutionofLambandCompany。Thepointwasclouded,infact;thoughthatmighteasilybesetdowntothegeneralhazinessofyoungladiesconfrontedwiththemysteriesoftradeorcommerce。Mr。Adamseitherhadbeenavaguesortofjuniormemberofthefirm,itappeared,orelseheshouldhavebeenmadesomesuchthing;atallevents,hewasanoldmainstayofthebusiness;andhe,asmuchasanyLamb,hadhelpedtobuilduptheprosperityofthecompany。Butatlast,tiredofprovidingsomuchintelligenceandenergyforwhichotherpeopletookprofitgreaterthanhisown,hehaddecidedtoleavethecompanyandfoundabusinessentirelyforhimself。TheLambsweregoingtobeenragedwhentheylearnedwhatwasafoot。
  Suchwastheimpression,alittlemisted,wroughtbyAlice'squicknarrative。Buttherewasdolorousfactbehindit:Adamshadsuccumbed。
  Hiswife,graveandnervous,ratherthantriumphant,insuccess,hadtoldtheirdaughterthatthegreatJ。A。wouldbefuriousandpossiblyvindictive。Adamswasafraidofhim,shesaid。
  "Butwhatfor,mama?"Aliceasked,sincethisseemedaturnofaffairsoutofreason。"WhatintheworldhasMr。Lambtodowithpapa'sleavingthecompanytosetupforhimself?Whatrighthashetobeangryaboutit?Ifhe'ssuchafriendasheclaimstobe,Ishouldthinkhe'dbeglad——thatis,ifthegluefactoryturnsoutwell。Whatwillhebeangryfor?"
  Mrs。AdamsgaveAliceanuneasyglance,hesitated,andthenexplainedthataresignationfromLamb'shadalwaysbeenlookedupon,especiallyby"thatoldman,"astreachery。Youweresupposedtodieintheservice,shesaidbitterly,andherdaughter,alittlemystified,acceptedthisexplanation。Adamshadnotspokentoherofhissurrender;heseemednotinclinedtospeaktoheratall,ortoanyone。
  Alicewasnotserioustoolong,andshebegantolaughasshecametotheendofherdecorativesketch。"Afterall,thewholethingisperfectlyridiculous,"shesaid。"Infact,it'sFUNNY!
  That'sonaccountofwhatpapa'sgoingtothrowovertheLambbusinessFOR!Tosaveyourlifeyoucouldn'timaginewhathe'sgoingtodo!"
  "Iwon'ttry,then,"Russellassented。
  "IttakesalltheromanceoutofME,"shelaughed。"You'llnevergoforaParisianwalkwithmeagain,afterItellyouwhatI'llbeheiressto。"Theyhadcometotheentranceofthelittlepark;and,asAlicehadsaid,itwasaprettyplace,especiallyonadaysoradiant。Treesoftheoldestforeststoodthere,haleandsereneoverthetrim,brightgrass;andtheproletarianshadnotcomefromtheirfactoriesatthishour;onlyafewmothersandtheirbabiesweretobeseen,hereandthere,intheshade。"IthinkI'llpostponetellingyouaboutittillwegetnearlyhomeagain,"Alicesaid,astheybegantosaunterdownoneofthegravelledpaths。"There'sabenchbesideaspringfartheron;wecansitthereandtalkaboutalotofthings——thingsnotsostickyasmydowry'sgoingtobe。"
  "'Sticky?'"heechoed。"Whatintheworld——"Shelaugheddespairingly。
  "Agluefactory!"
  Thenhelaughed,too,asmuchfromfriendlinessasfromamusement;andsherememberedtotellhimthattheprojectofagluefactorywasstill"anAdamssecret。"Itwouldbeknownsoon,however,sheadded;andthewholeLambconnectionwouldprobablybeginsayingallsortsofthings,heavenknewwhat!
  ThusAlicebuiltherwallsofflimsy,workingalwaysgaily,orwithatleasttheairofgaiety;andevenassherattledon,therewassomewhereinhermindaconstantlittlewonder。
  Everythingshesaidseemedtobenecessarytosupportsomethingelseshehadsaid。Howhadithappened?Shefoundherselftellinghimthatsinceherfatherhaddecidedonmakingsogreatachangeinhisways,sheandhermotherhopedatlasttopersuadehimtogiveupthat"foolishlittlehouse"hehadbeensoobstinateabout;andshecheckedherselfabruptlyonthisdeclivityjustasshewasabouttoslideintoaremarkconcerningherownpreferencefora"countryplace。"Discretioncaughtherintime;andsomethingelse,incompanywithdiscretion,caughther,forshestoppedshortinhertalkandblushed。
  Theyhadtakenpossessionofthebenchbesidethespring,bythistime;andRussell,hiselbowonthebackofthebenchandhischinonhishand,thebettertolookather,hadnoguessatthecauseoftheblush,butwascontenttofinditlovely。AthisfirstsightofAliceshehadseemedprettyintheparticularwayofbeingprettythathehappenedtolikebest;and,witheverymomenthespentwithher,thisprettinessappearedtoincrease。
  Hefeltthathecouldnotlookatherenough:hisgazefollowedtheflutteringofthegracefulhandsinalmostcontinualgestureasshetalked;thenliftedhappilytothevivaciousfaceagain。
  Shecharmedhim。
  Afterherabruptpause,shesighed,thenlookedathimwithhereyebrowsliftedinacomedyappeal。"Youhaven'tsaidyouwouldn'tgiveHenriettathechance,"shesaid,inthesoftestvoicethatcanstillhavealittlelaughrunninginit。
  Hewaspuzzled。"GiveHenriettathechance?"
  "YOUknow!You'llletmekeeponbeingunfair,won'tyou?Notgivetheothergirlsachancetogeteven?"
  Hepromised,heartily。
  CHAPTERXV
  AlicehadsaidthatnoonewhokneweitherRussellorherselfwouldbelikelytoseethemintheparkoruponthedingystreet;
  butalthoughtheyreturnedbythatsameungenteelthoroughfaretheywereseenbyapersonwhoknewthemboth。Also,withsomesurpriseonthepartofRussell,andsomethingmorepoignantthansurpriseforAlice,theysawthisperson。
  Allofthedingystreetwasugly,butthegreaterpartofitappearedtobehonest。Thetwopedestrianscameuponablockortwo,however,whereitofferedsuggestionsofalessuprightcharacter,likeasteadyenoughworkingmanwithanaughtybookstickingoutofhispocket。Threeorfourdimshops,asinglestoryinheight,exhibitedfoulsignboards,yetfairenoughsofarasthewordingwent;oneproclaimingatobacconist,oneajunk-dealer,oneadispenserof"softdrinksandcigars。"Themostcredulouswouldhavedoubtedthesesignboards;forthecraftofthemoderntradesmanisexertedtolureindoorsthepassingglance,sinceiftheglanceispleasedthefeetmayfollow;butthisallegedtobacconistandhisneighbourshadlongbeenfondofdustontheirwindows,evidently,andshadeswerepulledfardownontheglassoftheirdoors。Thusthepubliceye,smallofpupilinthelightoftheopenstreet,wasintentionallynotinvitedtotheduskyinteriors。Somethingdifferentfrommerelackofenterprisewasapparent;andthesignboardsmighthavebeenomitted;theywerepainsthrownaway,sinceitwasplaintotheworldthatthebusinesspartsoftheseshopswerethebrighterbackroomsimpliedbythedarkfrontrooms;andthatthecommercetherewasinperilousnewliquorsandindiceandroughgirls。
  Nothingcouldhavebeenmoreinnocentthantheserenitywithwhichthesewickedlittleplacesrevealedthemselvesforwhattheywere;and,boundbythisfinaltieofguilelessness,theystoodtogetherinarowwhichendedwithacompanionablebarbershop,muchlikethem。Beyondwasaseriesofsoot-harriedframetwo-storyhouses,oncepartofacheerfulneighbourhoodwhenthetownwasmiddle-agedandsettled,andnotoldandgrowing。Thesehouses,allcarryingthelabel。"Rooms,"hadtheworriedlookofvacancythathouseshavewhentheyaretoofullofeverybodywithoutbeinganybody'shome;andtherewas,too,asurreptitiousairaboutthem,asif,likethefalselittleshops,theyadvertisedsomethingbyconcealingit。