mean——they'llSAYsomething——"
"Whatiftheydo?"
Shemovedhershouldersinalittleapprehensiveshiver。"It'llchangeyou,"shesaid。"I'mjustsuresomethingspiteful'sgoingtohappentome。You'llfeeldifferentlyabout——things。"
"Now,isn'tthatanidea!"heexclaimed。
"Itwill,"sheinsisted。"Iknowsomethingspiteful'sgoingtohappen!"
"Youseempossessedbyanotionnotabitflatteringtome,"heremarked。
"Oh,butisn'tit?That'sjustwhatitis!Whyisn'tit?"
"BecauseitimpliesthatI'mmadeofsuchsoftmaterialtheslightestbreezewillmessmeallup。I'mnotsolikethatasI
evidentlyappear;andifit'struethatwe'reafraidotherpeoplewilldothethingswe'dbemostlikelytodoourselves,itseemstomethatIoughttobetheonetobeafraid。IoughttobeafraidthatsomebodymaysaysomethingaboutmetoyouthatwillmakeyoubelieveI'maprofessionalforger。"
"No。Webothknowtheywon't,"shesaid。"Webothknowyou'rethesortofpersoneverybodyintheworldsaysnicethingsabout。"Sheliftedherhandtosilencehimashelaughedatthis。"Oh,ofcourseyouare!Ithinkperhapsyou'realittleflirtatious——mostquietmenhavethatoneslywaywith'em——oh,yes,theydo!Butyouhappentobethekindofmaneverybodylovestopraise。Andifyouweren't,_I_shouldn'thearanythingterribleaboutyou。ItoldyouIwasunpopular:Idon'tseeanybodyatallanymore。Theonlymanexceptyouwho'sbeentoseemeinamonthisthatfearfullittlefatFrankDowling,andI
sentwordtoHIMIwasn'thome。Nobody'dtellmeofyourwickedness,yousee。"
"Thenletmebreaksomenewstoyou,"Russellsaid。"Nobodywouldtellmeofyours,either。Nobody'sevenmentionedyoutome。"
Sheburlesquedacryofanguish。"ThatISobscurity!IsupposeI'mtooapttoforgetthattheysaythepopulation'sabouthalfamillionnowadays。ThereAREotherpeopletotalkabout,youfeel,then?"
"NonethatIwantto,"hesaid。"ButIshouldthinkthesizeoftheplacemightrelieveyourmindofwhatseemstoinsistonburdeningit。Besides,I'dratheryouthoughtmeabettermanthanyoudo。"
"WhatkindofamandoIthinkyouare?"
"Thekindaffectedbywhat'ssaidaboutpeopleinsteadofbywhattheydothemselves。"
"Aren'tyou?"
"No,I'mnot,"hesaid。"Ifyouwantoursummereveningstobeoveryou'llhavetodrivemeawayyourself。"
"Nobodyelsecould?"
"No。"
Shewassilent,leaningforward,withherelbowsonherkneesandherclaspedhandsagainstherlips。Then,notmoving,shesaidsoftly:
"Well——Iwon't!"
Shewassilentagain,andhesaidnothing,butlookedather,seemingtobecontentwithlooking。Herattitudewasoneonlyagracefulpersonshouldassume,butshewasgraceful;and,inthewanlight,whichmadeaprettilyshapedmistofher,shehadbeauty。Perhapsitwasbeautyofthehour,andofthelovescenealmostmadeintoformbywhattheyhadbothjustsaid,butshehadit;andthoughbeautyofthehourpasses,hewhoseesitwilllongrememberitandthehourwhenitcame。
"Whatareyouthinkingof?"heasked。
Sheleanedbackinherchairanddidnotansweratonce。Thenshesaid:
"Idon'tknow;IdoubtifIwasthinkingofanything。ItseemstomeIwasn't。IthinkIwasjustbeingsortofsadlyhappyjustthen。"
"Wereyou?Wasit'sadly,'too?"
"Don'tyouknow?"shesaid。"Itseemstomethatonlylittlechildrencanbejusthappilyhappy。IthinkwhenwegetolderourhappiestmomentsareliketheoneIhadjustthen:it'sasifweheardstrainsofminormusicrunningthroughthem——oh,sosweet,butoh,sosad!"
"ButwhatmakesitsadforYOU?"
"Idon'tknow,"shesaid,inalightertone。"Perhapsit'sakindofuselessforebodingIseemtohaveprettyoften。Itmaybethat——oritmaybepoorpapa。"
"YouAREafunny,delightfulgirl,though!"Russelllaughed。
"Whenyourfather'ssowellagainthathegoesoutwalkingintheevenings!"
"Hedoestoomuchwalking,"Alicesaid。"Toomuchaltogether,overathisnewplant。Butthereisn'tanystoppinghim。"Shelaughedandshookherhead。"Whenamangetsanambitiontobeamulti-millionairehisfamilydon'tappeartohavemuchweightwithhim。He'llwalkallhewantsto,inspiteofthem。"
"Isupposeso,"Russellsaid,absently;thenheleanedforward。
"IwishIcouldunderstandbetterwhyyouwere'sadly'happy。"
Meanwhile,asAliceshedwhatfurtherlightshecouldonthispoint,themanambitioustobea"multi-millionaire"wasindeedwalkingtoomuchforhisowngood。Hehadgonetobed,hopingtosleepwellandriseearlyforalongday'swork,buthecouldnotrest,andnow,inhisnightgownandslippers,hewaspacingthefloorofhisroom。
"IwishIDIDknow,"hethought,overandover。"IDOwishI
knewhowhefeelsaboutit。"
CHAPTERXVIII
Thatwasathoughtalmostcontinuouslyinhismind,evenwhenhewashardestatwork;and,asthedayswentonandhecouldnotfreehimself,hebecamequerulousaboutit。"IguessI'mthebiggestdangfoolalive,"hetoldhiswifeastheysattogetheroneevening。"Igotplentyelsetobotherme,withoutworryingmyheadoffaboutwhatHEthinks。Ican'thelpwhathethinks;
it'stoolateforthat。SowhyshouldIkeeppesteringmyselfaboutit?"
"It'llwearoff,Virgil,"Mrs。Adamssaid,reassuringly。Shewasgentleandsympatheticwithhim,andforthefirsttimeinmanyyearshewouldcometositwithherandtalk,whenhehadfinishedhisday'swork。Hehadtoldher,evadinghereye,"Oh,Idon'tblameyou。Youdidn'tgetaftermetodothisonyourownaccount;youcouldn'thelpit。"
"Yes;butitdon'twearoff,"hecomplained。"ThisafternoonI
wasshowingthemenhowIwantedmyvatstogo,andIcaughtmyfoolselfstandingtheresayingtomyfoolself,'It'sfunnyI
don'thearhowhefeelsaboutitfromSOMEbody。'Iwassayingitaloud,almost——anditISfunnyIdon'thearanything!"
"Well,youseewhatitmeans,don'tyou,Virgil?Itonlymeanshehasn'tsaidanythingtoanybodyaboutit。Don'tyouthinkyou'regettingkindofmorbidoverit?"
"Maybe,maybe,"hemuttered。
"Why,yes,"shesaid,briskly。"Youdon'trealizewhatalittlebitofathingallthisistohim。It'sbeenalong,longwhilesincethelasttimeyouevenmentionedgluetohim,andhe'sprobablyforgotteneverythingaboutit。"
"You'reoffyourbase;itisn'tlikehimtoforgetthings,"Adamsreturned,peevishly。"Hemayseemtoforget'em,buthedon't。"
"Buthe'snotthinkingaboutthis,oryou'dhaveheardfromhimbeforenow。"
Herhusbandshookhishead。"Ah,that'sjustit!"hesaid。"WhyHAVEN'TIheardfromhim?"
"It'sallyourmorbidness,Virgil。LookatWalter:ifMr。Lambheldthisupagainstyou,wouldhestillletWalterstaythere?
Wouldn'thehavedischargedWalterifhefeltangrywithyou?"
"Thatdangboy!"Adamssaid。"IfheWANTEDtocomewithmenow,Iwouldn'thardlylethim,Whatdoyousupposemakeshimsobull-headed?"
"Buthasn'thearighttochooseforhimself?"sheasked。"I
supposehefeelsheoughttosticktowhathethinksissurepay。
Assoonasheseesthatyou'regoingtosucceedwiththeglue-workshe'llwanttobewithyouquickenough。"
"Well,hebettergetalittlesenseinhishead,"Adamsreturned,crossly。"Hewantedmetopayhimathree-hundred-dollarbonusinadvance,whenanybodywithagrainofcommonsenseknowsI
needeverypennyIcanlaymyhandson!"
"Nevermind,"shesaid。"He'llcomearoundlaterandbegladofthechance。"
"He'llhavetobegforitthen!_I_won'taskhimagain。"
"Oh,Walterwillcomeoutallright;youneedn'tworry。Anddon'tyouseethatMr。Lamb'snotdischarginghimmeansthere'snohardfeelingagainstyou,Virgil?"
"Ican'tmakeitoutatall,"hesaid,frowning。"TheonlythingIcanTHINKitmeansisthatJ。A。Lambissofair-minded——andofcourseheISoneofthefair-mindedestmenaliveIsupposethat'sthereasonhehasn'tfiredWalter。Hemayknow,"Adamsconcluded,morosely——"hemayknowthat'sjustanotherthingtomakemefeelallthemeaner:keepingmyboythereonasalaryafterI'vedonehimaninjury。"
"Now,now!"shesaid,tryingtocomforthim。"Youcouldn'tdoanybodyaninjurytosaveyourlife,andeverybodyknowsit。"
"Well,anybodyoughttoknowIwouldn'tWANTtodoaninjury,butthisworldisn'tbuiltso'twecandojustwhatwewant。"Hepaused,reflecting。"OfcoursetheremaybeoneexplanationofwhyWalter'sstillthere:J。A。maybehasn'tnoticedthatheIS
there。There'ssomanyIexpecthehardlyknowshimbysight。"
"Well,justdoquitthinkingaboutit,"sheurgedhim。"Itonlybothersyouwithoutdoinganygood。Don'tyouknowthat?"
"Don'tI,though!"helaughed,feebly。"Iknowitbetter'nanybody!Howfunnythatis:whenyouknowthinkingaboutathingonlypestersyouwithouthelpinganythingatall,andyetyoukeeprightonpesteringyourselfwithit!"
"ButWHY?"shesaid。"What'stheusewhenyouknowyouhaven'tdoneanythingwrong,Virgil?Yousaidyourselfyouweregoingtoimprovetheprocesssomuchitwouldbedifferentfromtheoldone,andyou'dREALLYhavearighttoit。"
Adamshadpersuadedhimselfofthiswhenheyielded;hehadfounditnecessarytopersuadehimselfofit——thoughtherewasapartofhim,ofcourse,thatremainedunpersuaded;andthisdiscomfitingpartofhimwaswhatmadehispresenttrouble。
"Yes,Iknow,"hesaid。"That'strue,butIcan'tquiteseemtogetawayfromthefactthattheprincipleoftheprocessisagooddealthesame——well,it'smore'nthat;it'sjustaboutthesameastheonehehiredCampbellandmetoworkoutforhim。
Truthis,nobodycouldtellthedifference,andIdon'tknowasthereISanydifferenceexceptintheseimprovementsI'mmaking。
Ofcourse,theimprovementsdogivemeprettynearaperfectrighttoit,asapersonmightsay;andthat'soneofthethingsIthoughtofputtinginmylettertohim;butIwasafraidhe'djustthinkIwastryingtomakeupexcuses,soIleftitout。I
kindofworriedallthetimeIwaswritingthatletter,becauseifhethoughtIWASjustmakingupexcuses,why,itmightsethimjustsomuchmoreagainstme。"
EversinceMrs。Adamshadfoundthatshewastohaveherway,thedepthsofhereyeshadbeentroubledbyacontinuousuneasiness;and,althoughsheknewitwasthere,andsometimesveileditbykeepingtherevealingeyesavertedfromherhusbandandchildren,shecouldnotalwayscoveritunderthatassumptionofabsent-mindedness。Theuneasylookbecamevivid,andhervoicewasslightlytremulousnow,asshesaid,"ButwhatifheSHOULDbeagainstyou——althoughIdon'tbelieveheis,ofcourse——youtoldmehecouldn'tDOanythingtoyou,Virgil。"
"No,"hesaid,slowly。"Ican'tseehowhecoulddoanything。
Itwasjustasecret,notapatent;thethingain'tpatentable。
I'vetriedtothinkwhathecoulddo——supposinghewastowantto——butIcan'tfigureoutanythingatallthatwouldbeanyharmtome。Thereisn'tanywayintheworlditcouldbemadeaquestionoflaw。Onlythinghecoulddo'dbetoTELLpeoplehissideofit,andset'emagainstme。Ibeenkindofwaitingforthattohappen,allalong。"
Shelookedsomewhatrelieved。"SodidIexpectit,"shesaid。
"IwasdreadingitmostonAlice'saccount:itmighthave——well,youngmenaresoeasilyinfluencedandall。Butsofarasthebusinessisconcerned,whatifMr。Lambdidtalk?Thatwouldn'tamounttomuch。Itwouldn'taffectthebusiness;nottohurt。
And,besides,heisn'tevendoingthat。"
"No;anyhownotyet,itseems。"AndAdamssighedagain,wistfully。"ButIWOULDgiveagooddealtoknowwhathethinks!"
Beforehissurrenderhehadalwayssupposedthatifhedidsuchanunthinkablethingastoseizeupontheglueprocessforhimself,whathewouldfeelmustbeanoverpoweringshame。Butshameistherarestthingintheworld:whathefeltwasthisunremittentcuriosityabouthisoldemployer'sthoughts。Itwasanobsession,yethedidnotwanttohearwhatLamb"thought"
fromLambhimself,forAdamshadasecondobsession,andthiswashisdreadofmeetingtheoldmanfacetoface。Suchanencountercouldhappenonlybychanceandunexpectedly;sinceAdamswouldhaveavoidedanydeliberatemeeting,solongashislegshadstrengthtocarryhim,evenifLambcametothehousetoseehim。
Butpeopledomeetunexpectedly;andwhenAdamshadtobedown-townhekeptawayfromthe"wholesaledistrict。"OnedayhedidseeLamb,asthelatterwentbyinhiscar,impassive,goinghometolunch;andAdams,inthecrowdatacorner,knewthattheoldmanhadnotseenhim。Nevertheless,inastreetcar,onthewaybacktohissheds,anhourlater,hewasstillsubjecttolittleshiveringseizuresofhorror。
Heworkedunceasingly,seemingtokeepatiteveninhissleep,forhealwayswokeinthemidstofaplanningandestimatingthatmusthavebeengoingoninhismindbeforeconsciousnessofhimselfreturned。Moreover,thework,thusurged,wentrapidly,inspiteofthehighwageshehadtopayhislabourersfortheirshorthours。"Iteatsmoney,"hecomplained,and,infact,bythetimehisvatsandboilerswereinplaceithadeatenalmostallhecouldsupply;butinadditiontohisequipmenthenowownedastockof"rawmaterial,"rawindeed;andwhenoperationsshouldbealittlefurtheralonghewasconfidenthisbankerwouldbewillingto"carry"him。
Sixweeksfromthedayhehadobtainedhisleasehebeganhisglue-making。Theterriblesmellscameoutoftheshedsandwentwrithinglikesnakesallthroughthatquarterofthetown。A
smilingman,strollingandbreathingtheairwithsatisfaction,wouldturnacornerandsmilenomore,buthurry。However,colouredpeoplehadalmostallthedwellingsofthisoldsectiontothemselves;andalthougheventheyweretroubled,therewasrecompenseforthem。Beingphilosophicaboutwhatappearedtothemasintheorderofnature,theysoughtneitherescapenorredress,andsoonlearnedtobearwhatthewindbroughtthem。
Theyevenmadeuseofittoenrichthosefiguresofspeechwithwhichthenativeimpulsesofcolouredpeopledecoratetheircommunications:theyflavouredmetaphor,simile,andinvectivewithit;andthusmaybesaidtohaveenjoyedit。Butthemanwhoproducedittookahotbathassoonashereachedhishometheeveningofthatfirstdaywhenhismanufacturingbegan。Thenheputonfreshclothes;butafterdinnerheseemedtobehaunted,andaskedhiswifeifshe"noticedanything。"
Shelaughedandinquiredwhathemeant。
"Seemstomeasifthatglue-workssmellhadn'tquithangingtome,"heexplained。"Don'tyounoticeit?"
"No!Whatanidea!"
Helaughed,too,butuneasily;andtoldherhewassure"thedanggluesmell"wassomehowstickingtohim。Later,hewentoutdoorsandwalkedupanddownthesmallyardinthedusk;butnowandthenhestoodstill,withhisheadlifted,andsniffedtheairsuspiciously。"CanYOUsmellit?"hecalledtoAlice,whosatupontheveranda,prettilydressedandwaitinginareverie。
"Smellwhat,papa?"
"Thatdangglue-works。"
Shedidthesamethinghermotherhaddone:laughed,andsaid,"No!Howfoolish!Why,papa,it'sovertwomilesfromhere!"
"Youdon'tgetitatall?"heinsisted。
"Theidea!Theairislovelyto-night,papa。"
Theairdidnotseemlovelytohim,forhewaspositivethathedetectedthetaint。Hewonderedhowfaritcarried,andifJ。
A。Lambwouldsmellit,too,outonhisownlawnamiletothenorth;andifhedid,wouldheguesswhatitwas?ThenAdamslaughedathimselfforsuchnonsense;butcouldnotridhisnostrilsoftheirdisgust。Tohimthewholetownseemedtosmellofhisglue-works。
Nevertheless,thegluewasmaking,andhisshedswerebusy。
"Guesswe'restirrin'upthisoleneighbourhoodwithmorethanthesmell,"hisforemanremarkedonemorning。
"How'sthat?"Adamsinquired。
"Thatgreatbig,enormousoledeadbutterinefactoryacrossthestreetfromourlot,"themansaid。"Nothin'likesettin'anexampletobringrealestatetolife。Thatplaceisfullo'
carpentersstartin'intomakearegularbuildin'ofitagain。
Guessyououghttohavethecreditofit,becauseyouwasthefirstmanintenyearstoseeanypossibilitiesinthisneighbourhood。"
Adamswaspleased,and,goingouttoseeforhimself,heardagreathammeringandsawingfromwithinthebuilding;whilecarpenterswerejustemerginggingerlyuponthedangerousroof。
Hewalkedoutoverthedriedmudofhisdeeplot,crossedthestreet,andspokegeniallytoaworkmanwhowasremovingthebrokenglassofawindowonthegroundfloor。
"Here!What'sallthishowdy-dooverhere?"
"Goin'tofixherallup,Iguess,"theworkmansaid。"Bigjobitis,too。"
"Sh'thinkitwouldbe。"
"Yes,sir;aprettybigjob——aprettybigjob。Gotmenatitonallfourfloorsandontheroof。They'redoin'itRIGHT。"
"Who'sdoingit?"
"Lord!Id'know。Someo'theseherebigmanufacturingcorporations,Iguess。"
"What'sitgoingtobe?"
"TheytellME,"theworkmananswered——"theytellMEshe'sgoin'
tobeabutterinefactoryagain。Anyways,Ihopeshewon'tbeanythingtosmelllikethatglue-worksyougotovertherenotwhileI'mworkin'aroundher,anyways!"
"Thatsmell'sallright,"Adamssaid。"Yousoongetusedtoit。"
"Youdo?"Themanappearedincredulous。"Listen!IwasoverinFrance:it'sagoodthingthemDutchmenneverthoughtofit;we'dofhadtoquit!"
Adamslaughed,andwentbacktohissheds。"Iguessmyforemanwasright,"hetoldhiswife,thatevening,withalittlesatisfaction。"Assoonasonemanshowsenterpriseenoughtofoundanindustryinabroken-downneighbourhood,somebodyelseissuretofollow。Ikindoflikethelookofit:it'llhelpmakeourplaceseemsortofmorebusyandprosperouswhenitcomestogettingaloanfromthebank——andIgottogetonemightysoon,too。Ididthinksomethatifthingsgoaswellasthere'severyreasontothinktheyOUGHTto,Imightwanttospreadoutandmaybegetholdofthatoldfactorymyself;butI
hardlyexpectedtobeabletohandleapropositionofthatsizebeforetwoorthreeyearsfromnow,andanyhowthere'sroomenoughonthelotIgot,ifweneedmorebuildingssomeday。
ThingsaregoingaboutasfineasIcouldask:Ihiredsomegirlsto-daytodothebottling——colouredgirlsalongaboutsixteentotwentyyearsold。Afterwhile,Iexpecttogetamachinetoputthestuffinthelittlebottles,whenwebegintogetgoodreturns;buthalfadozenofthesecolouredgirlscandoitallrightnow,byhand。We'regettingtohavereallyquitealittleplantoverthere:yes,sir,quitearegularlittleplant!"
Hechuckled,andatthischeerfulsound,ofakindhiswifehadalmostforgottenhewascapableofproducing,sheventuredtoputherhanduponhisarm。Theyhadgoneoutdoors,afterdinner,takingtwochairswiththem,andweresittingthroughthelatetwilighttogether,keepingwellawayfromthe"frontporch,"
whichwasnotyetoccupied,howeverAlicewasinherroomchangingherdress。
"Well,honey,"Mrs。Adamssaid,takingconfidencenotonlytoputherhanduponhisarm,buttorevivethisdisusedendearment;——"it'sgrandtohaveyousooptimistic。Maybesometimeyou'lladmitIwasright,afterall。Everything'sgoingsowell,itseemsapityyoudidn'ttakethis——thisstep——longago。
Don'tyouthinkmaybeso,Virgil?"
"Well——ifIwasevergoingto,Idon'tknowbutImightaswellof。Igottoadmitthepropositionbeginstolookprettygood:I
knowthestuff'llsell,andIcan'tseeathingintheworldtostopit。Itdoeslookgood,andif——if——"Hepaused。
"Ifwhat?"shesaid,suddenlyanxious。
Helaughedplaintively,asifconfessingasuperstition。"It'sfunny——well,it'smightyfunnyaboutthatsmell。I'vegotsousedtoitattheplantIneverseemtonoticeitatalloverthere。It'sonlywhenIgetaway。Honestly,can'tyounotice——?"
"Virgil!"Sheliftedherhandtostrikehisarmchidingly。"Doquitharpingonthatnonsense!"
"Oh,ofcourseitdon'tamounttoanything,"hesaid。"Apersoncanstandagooddealofjustsmell。Itdon'tWORRYmeany。"
"Ishouldthinknotespeciallyasthereisn'tany。"
"Well,"hesaid,"Ifeelprettyfairoverthewholething——alotbetter'nIeverexpectedto,anyhow。Idon'tknowasthere'sanyreasonIshouldn'ttellyouso。"
Shewasdeeplypleasedwiththisacknowledgment,andhervoicehadtendernessinitassheresponded:"There,honey!Didn'tI
alwayssayyou'dbegladifyoudidit?"
Embarrassed,hecoughedloudly,thenfilledhispipeandlitit。
"Well,"hesaid,slowly,"it'sapuzzle。Yes,sir,it'sapuzzle。"
"Whatis?"
"Prettymucheverything,Iguess。"
Ashespoke,asongcametothemfromalightedwindowovertheirheads。Thenthewindowdarkenedabruptly,butthesongcontinuedasAlicewentdownthroughthehousetowaitonthelittleveranda。"MichiamoMimi,"shesang,andinhervoicethrobbedsomethingalmoststartlinginitssweetness。Herfatherandmotherlistened,notspeakinguntilthesongstoppedwiththeclickofthewirescreenatthefrontdoorasAlicecameout。
"My!"saidherfather。"Howsweetshedoessing!Idon'tknowasIeverheardhervoicesoundnicerthanitdidjustthen。"
"There'ssomethingthatmakesitsoundthatway,"hiswifetoldhim。
"Isupposeso,"hesaid,sighing。"Isupposeso。Youthink——"
"She'sjustterriblyinlovewithhim!"
"Iexpectthat'sthewayitoughttobe,"hesaid,thendrewuponhispipeforreflection,andbecamemurmurouswiththesymptomsofmelancholylaughter。"Itdon'tmakethingslessofapuzzle,though,doesit?"
"Inwhatway,Virgil?"
"Why,here,"hesaid——"herewegothroughallthismuckandmoiltohelpfixthingsnicerforherathome,andwhat'sitallamountto?Seemslikeshe'sjustgoneaheadthewayshe'd'a'
goneanyhow;andnow,Isuppose,gettingreadytoupandleaveus!Ain'tthatapuzzletoyou?Itistome。"
"Oh,butthingshaven'tgonethatfaryet。"
"Why,youjustsaid——"
Shegavealittlecryofprotest。"Oh,theyaren'tENGAGEDyet。
OfcoursetheyWILLbe;he'sjustasmuchinterestedinherassheisinhim,but——"
"Well,what'sthetroublethen?"
"YouAREasimpleoldfellow!"hiswifeexclaimed,andthenrosefromherchair。"Thatremindsme,"shesaid。
"Whatof?"heasked。"What'smybeingsimpleremindyouof?"
"Nothing!"shelaughed。"Itwasn'tyouthatremindedme。Itwasjustsomethingthat'sbeenonmymind。Idon'tbelievehe'sactuallyeverbeeninsideourhouse!"
"Hasn'the?"
"Iactuallydon'tbelieveheeverhas,"shesaid。"Ofcoursewemust——"Shepaused,debating。
"Wemustwhat?"
"IguessIbettertalktoAliceaboutitrightnow,"shesaid。
"Hedon'tusuallycomeforabouthalfanhouryet;IguessI'vegottime。"Andwiththatshewalkedaway,leavinghimtohispuzzles。
CHAPTERXIX
Alicewassoftlycrooningtoherselfashermotherturnedthecornerofthehouseandapproachedthroughthedusk。
"Isn'titthemostBEAUTIFULevening!"thedaughtersaid。"WHY
can'tsummerlastallyear?Didyoueverknowaloveliertwilightthanthis,mama?"
Mrs。Adamslaughed,andanswered,"NotsinceIwasyourage,I
expect。"
Alicewaswistfulatonce。"Don'ttheystaybeautifulaftermyage?"
"Well,it'snotthesamething。"
"Isn'tit?Notever?"
"Youmayhaveadifferentkindfrommine,"themothersaid,alittlesadly。"Ithinkyouwill,Alice。Youdeserve——"
"No,Idon't。Idon'tdeserveanything,andIknowit。ButI'mgettingagreatdealthesedays——morethanIeverdreamedCOULD
cometome。I'm——I'mprettyhappy,mama!"
"Dearie!"Hermotherwouldhavekissedher,butAlicedrewaway。
"Oh,Idon'tmean——"Shelaughednervously。"Iwasn'tmeaningtotellyouI'mENGAGED,mama。We'renot。Imean——oh!thingsseemprettybeautifulinspiteofallI'vedonetospoil'em。"
"You?"Mrs。Adamscried,incredulously。"Whathaveyoudonetospoilanything?"
"Littlethings,"Alicesaid。"Athousandlittlesilly——oh,what'stheuse?He'ssohonestlywhatheis——justsimpleandgoodandintelligent——Ifeelatrickymessbesidehim!Idon'tseewhyhelikesme;andsometimesI'mafraidhewouldn'tifheknewme。"
"He'djustworshipyou,"saidthefondmother。"Andthemoreheknewyou,themorehe'dworshipyou。"
Aliceshookherhead。"He'snottheworshipingkind。Notlikethatatall。He'smore——"
ButMrs。Adamswasnotinterestedinthisanalysis,andsheinterruptedbriskly,"Ofcourseit'stimeyourfatherandI
showedsomeinterestinhim。IwasjustsayingIactuallydon'tbelievehe'severbeeninsidethehouse。"
"No,"Alicesaid,musingly;"that'strue:Idon'tbelievehehas。
Exceptwhenwe'vewalkedintheeveningwe'vealwayssatouthere,eventhosetwotimeswhenitwasdrizzly。It'ssomuchnicer。"
"We'llhavetodoSOMETHINGorother,ofcourse,"hermothersaid。
"Whatlike?"
"Iwasthinking——"Mrs。Adamspaused。"Well,ofcoursewecouldhardlyputoffaskinghimtodinner,orsomething,muchlonger。"
Alicewasnotenthusiastic;sofarfromit,indeed,thattherewasamelancholyalarminhervoice。"Oh,mama,mustwe?Doyouthinkso?"
"Yes,Ido。Ireallydo。"
"Couldn'twe——well,couldn'twewait?"
"Itlooksqueer,"Mrs。Adamssaid。"Itisn'tthethingatallforayoungmantocomeasmuchashedoes,andnevermorethanjustbarelymeetyourfatherandmother。No。Weoughttodosomething。"
"Butadinner!"Aliceobjected。"Inthefirstplace,thereisn'tanybodyIwanttoask。Thereisn'tanybodyIWOULDask。"
"Ididn'tmeantryingtogiveabigdinner,"hermotherexplained。"Ijustmeanhavinghimtodinner。Thatmulattowoman,MalenaBurns,goesoutbytheday,andshecouldbringawaitress。Wecangetsomeflowersforthetableandsometoputintheliving-room。Wemightjustaswellgoaheadanddoitto-morrowasanyothertime;becauseyourfather'sinafinemood,andIsawMalenathisafternoonandtoldherImightwanthersoon。Shesaidshedidn'thaveanyengagementsthisweek,andIcanletherknowto-night。Supposewhenhecomesyouaskhimforto-morrow,Alice。Everything'llbeverynice,I'msure。
Don'tworryaboutit。"
"Well——but——"Alicewasuncertain。
"Butdon'tyousee,itlookssoqueer,nottodoSOMETHING?"hermotherurged。"Itlookssokindofpoverty-stricken。Wereallyoughtn'ttowaitanylonger。"
Aliceassented,thoughnotwithagoodheart。"Verywell,I'llaskhim,ifyouthinkwe'vegotto。"
"Thatmatter'ssettledthen,"Mrs。Adamssaid。"I'llgotelephoneMalena,andthenI'lltellyourfatheraboutit。"
Butwhenshewentbacktoherhusband,shefoundhiminanexcitedstateofmind,andWalterstandingbeforehiminthedarkness。Adamswasalmostshouting,sogreatwashisvehemence。
"Hush,hush!"hiswifeimplored,asshecamenearthem。"They'llhearyououtonthefrontporch!"
"Idon'tcarewhohearsme,"Adamssaid,harshly,thoughhetemperedhisloudness。"Doyouwanttoknowwhatthisboy'saskingmefor?Ithoughthe'dmaybecometotellmehe'dgotalittlesenseinhisheadatlast,andalittledecencyaboutwhat'sduehisfamily!Ithoughthewasgoingtoaskmetotakehimintomyplant。No,ma'am;THAT'Snotwhathewants!"
"No,itisn't,"Waltersaid。Inthedarknesshisfacecouldnotbeseen;hestoodmotionless,inwhatseemedanapatheticattitude;andhespokequietly,"No,"herepeated。"Thatisn'twhatIwant。"
"Youstaydownatthatplace,"Adamswenton,hotly,"insteadoftryingtobealittleusetoyourfamily;andtheonlyreasonyou'reALLOWEDtostaythereisbecauseMr。Lamb'sneverhappenedtonoticeyouAREstillthere!Youjustwait——"
"You'reoff,"Waltersaid,inthesamequietway。"HeknowsI'mthere。Hespoketomeyesterday:heaskedmehowIwasgettingalongwithmywork。"
"Hedid?"Adamssaid,seemingnottobelievehim。
"Yes。Hedid。"
"Whatelsedidhesay,Walter?"Mrs。Adamsaskedquickly。
"Nothin'。Justwalkedon。"
"Idon'tbelieveheknewwhoyouwere,"Adamsdeclared。
"Thinknot?Hecalledme'WalterAdams。'"
AtthisAdamswassilent;andWalter,afterwaitingamoment,said:
"Well,areyougoingtodoanythingaboutme?AboutwhatItoldyouIgottohave?"
"Whatisit,Walter?"hismotherasked,sinceAdamsdidnotspeak。
Walterclearedhisthroat,andrepliedinatoneasquietasthathehadusedbefore,thoughwithaslighthuskiness,"Igottohavethreehundredandfiftydollars。Youbettergethimtogiveittomeifyoucan。"
Adamsfoundhisvoice。"Yes,"hesaid,bitterly。"That'sallheasks!Hewon'tdoanythingIaskHIMto,andinreturnheasksmeforthreehundredandfiftydollars!That'sall!"
"Whatintheworld!"Mrs。Adamsexclaimed。"WhatFOR,Walter?"
"Igottohaveit,"Waltersaid。
"ButwhatFOR?"
Hisquiethuskinessdidnotalter。"Igottohaveit。"
"Butcan'tyoutellus——"
"Igottohaveit。"
"That'sallyoucangetoutofhim,"Adamssaid。"Heseemstothinkit'llbringhiminthreehundredandfiftydollars!"
Afainttremulousnessbecameevidentinthehuskyvoice。
"Haven'tyougotit?"
"NO,Ihaven'tgotit!"hisfatheranswered。"AndI'vegottogotoabankformorethanmypay-rollnextweek。DoyouthinkI'mamint?"
"Idon'tunderstandwhatyoumean,Walter,"Mrs。Adamsinterposed,perplexedanddistressed。"Ifyourfatherhadthemoney,ofcoursehe'dneedeverycentofit,especiallyjustnow,and,anyhow,youcouldscarcelyexpecthimtogiveittoyou,unlessyoutolduswhatyouwantwithit。Buthehasn'tgotit。"
"Allright,"Waltersaid;andafterstandingamomentmore,insilence,headded,impersonally,"Idon'tseeasyoueverdidanythingmuchforme,anyhoweitherofyou。"
Then,asifthiswerehisvaledictory,heturnedhisbackuponthem,walkedawayquickly,andwasatoncelosttotheirsightinthedarkness。
"There'safineboyto'vehadthetroubleofraising!"Adamsgrumbled。"Justcrazy,that'sall。"
"Whatintheworlddoyousupposehewantsallthatmoneyfor?"
hiswifesaid,wonderingly。"Ican'timaginewhathecouldDO
withit。Iwonder——"Shepaused。"Iwonderifhe——"
"Ifhewhat?"Adamspromptedherirritably。
"IfheCOULDhavebad——associates。"
"Godknows!"saidAdams。"_I_don't!ItjustlookstomelikehehadsomethinginhimIdon'tunderstand。Youcan'tkeepyoureyeonaboyallthetimeinacitythissize,notaboyWalter'sage。Yougotagirlprettymuchinthehouse,butaboy'llfollowhisnature。_I_don'tknowwhattodowithhim!"
Mrs。Adamsbrightenedalittle。"He'llcomeoutallright,"shesaid。"I'msurehewill。I'msurehe'dneverbeanythingreallybad:andhe'llcomearoundallrightabouttheglue-works,too;
you'llsee。Ofcourseeveryyoungmanwantsmoney——itdoesn'tprovehe'sdoinganythingwrongjustbecauseheasksyouforit。"
"No。Allitprovestomeisthathehasn'tgotgoodsenseaskingmeforthreehundredandfiftydollars,whenheknowsaswellasyoudothepositionI'min!IfIwantedto,Icouldn'thardlylethimhavethreehundredandfiftycents,letalonedollars!"
"I'mafraidyou'llhavetoletMEhavethatmuch——andmaybealittlemore,"sheventured,timidly;andshetoldhimofherplansforthemorrow。Heobjectedvehemently。
"Oh,butAlicehasprobablyaskedhimbythistime,"Mrs。Adamssaid。"Itreallymustbedone,Virgil:youdon'twanthimtothinkshe'sashamedofus,doyou?"
"Well,goahead,butjustletmestayaway,"hebegged。"OfcourseIexpecttoundergoakindoftalkwithhim,whenhegetsreadytosaysomethingtousaboutAlice,butIdohatetohavetositthroughafashionabledinner。"
"Why,itisn'tgoingtobotheryou,"shesaid;"justoneyoungmanasaguest。"
"Yes,Iknow;butyouwanttohaveallthisfancycookin';andI
seewellenoughyou'regoingtogetthatolddresssuitoutofthecedarchestintheattic,andtrytomakemeputitonme。"
"Idothinkyoubetter,Virgil。"
"Ihopethemothshavegotinit,"hesaid。"LasttimeIworeitwastothebanquet,anditwasprettyoldthen。OfcourseI
didn'tmindwearingittothebanquetsomuch,becausethatwaswhatyoumightcallquiteanoccasion。"Hespokewithsomereminiscentcomplacency;"thebanquet,"anaffairnowfiveyearspast,havingprovidedtheonetimeinhislifewhenhehadbeensodistinguishedamonghisfellow-citizensastoreceiveaninvitationtobepresent,withsomesevenhundredothers,attheannualeatingandspeech-makingofthecity'sChamberofCommerce。"Anyhow,asyousay,Ithinkitwouldlookfoolishofmetowearadresssuitforjustoneyoungman,"hewentonprotesting,feebly。"What'stheuseofallsomuchhowdy-do,anyway?Youdon'texpecthimtobelieveweputonallthatstyleeverynight,doyou?Isthatwhatyou'reafter?"
"Well,wewanthimtothinkwelivenicely,"sheadmitted。
"Sothat'sit!"hesaid,querulously。"Youwanthimtothinkthat'sourregulargait,doyou?Well,he'llknowbetteraboutme,nomatterhowyoufixmeup,becausehesawmeinmyregularsuittheeveningsheintroducedmetohim,andhecouldtellanywayI'mnotoneofthesemoving-picturesporting-menthat'salwaysgotadresssuiton。Besides,youandAlicecertainlyhavesomeideahe'llcomeAGAIN,haven'tyou?Iftheygetthingssettledbetween'emhe'llbearoundthehouseandtomealsmostanytime,won'the?Youdon'thardlyexpecttoputonstyleallthetime,Iguess。Well,he'llseethenthatthiskindofthingwasallshow-off,andbluff,won'the?Whataboutit?"
"Oh,well,byTHATtime——"Sheleftthesentenceunfinished,asifabsently。"Youcouldletushavealittlemoneyforto-morrow,couldn'tyou,honey?"
"Oh,Ireckon,Ireckon,"hemumbled。"AgirllikeAliceissomecomfort:shedon'tcomearoundactingasifshe'dcommitsuicideifshedidn'tgetthreehundredandfiftydollarsinthenextfiveminutes。IexpectIcansparefiveorsixdollarsforyourshow-offifIgotto。"
However,shefinallyobtainedfifteenbeforehisbedtime;andthenextmorning"wenttomarket"afterbreakfast,leavingAlicetomakethebeds。Walterhadnotyetcomedownstairs。"Youhadbettercallhim,"Mrs。Adamssaid,asshedepartedwithabigbasketonherarm。"Iexpecthe'sprettysleepy;hewasoutsolatelastnightIdidn'thearhimcomein,thoughIkeptawaketillaftermidnight,listeningforhim。Tellhimhe'llbelatetoworkifhedoesn'thurry;andseethathedrinkshiscoffee,evenifhehasn'ttimeforanythingelse。AndwhenMalenacomes,getherstartedinthekitchen:showherwhereeverythingis。"
Shewavedherhand,asshesetoutforacornerwherethecarsstopped。"Everything'llbelovely。Don'tforgetaboutWalter。"