Theyhadonespringdaytogether——onlyone。Itwasthedaybeforethesailing;allthestoreshadbeenshipped,andYannremainedthewholedaywithher。Theystrolledalong,arm-in-arm,throughthelanes,likesweetheartsagain,veryclosetooneanother,murmuringathousandtenderthings。Thegoodfolksmiled,astheysawthempass,saying:
"It'sGaud,withlongYannfromPors-Even。Theyweremarriedonlyt'otherday!"
Thislastdaywasreallyspring。Itwasstrangeandwonderfultobeholdthisuniversalserenity。Notasinglecloudmarredthelatelyfleckedsky。Thewinddidnotblowanywhere。Theseahadbecomequitetranquil,andwasofapale,evenbluetint。Thesunshonewithglaringwhitebrilliancy,andtheroughBretonlandseemedbathedinitslight,asinarare,delicateether;itseemedtobrightenandreviveevenintheutmostdistance。Theairhadadelicious,balmyscent,asofsummeritself,andseemedasifitwerealwaysgoingtoremainso,andneverknowanymoregloomy,thunderousdays。Thecapesandbaysoverwhichthechangefulshadowsofthecloudsnolongerpassed,wereoutlinedinstrongsteadylinesinthesunlight,andappearedtorestalsointhelong-duringcalm。Allthismadetheirlovingfestivalsweeterandlongerdrawnout。Theearlyflowersalreadyappeared:primroses,andfrail,scentlessvioletsgrewalongthehedgerows。
WhenGaudasked:"Howlongthenareyougoingtoloveme,Yann?"
Heanswered,surprisedly,lookingatherfullinthefacewithhisfrankeyes:"Why,forever,Gaud。"
Thatword,spokensosimplybyhisfiercelips,seemedtohaveitstruesenseofeternity。
Sheleanedonhisarm。Intheenchantmentofherrealizeddream,shepressedclosetohim,alwaysanxious,feelingthathewasasflightyasawildsea-bird。To-morrowhewouldtakehissoaringontheopensea。Anditwastoolatenow,shecoulddonothingtostophim。
Fromthecliff-pathswheretheywandered,theycouldseethewholeofthissea-boundcountry;whichseemsalmosttreeless,strewnwithlow,stuntedbushandboulders。Hereandtherefishers'hutswerescatteredovertherocks,theirhighbatteredthatchesmadegreenbythecroppingupofnewmosses;andintheextremedistance,thesea,likeaboundlesstransparency,stretchedoutinanever-endinghorizon,whichseemedtoencircleeverything。
SheenjoyedtellinghimaboutallthewonderfulthingsshehadseeninParis,buthewasverycontemptuous,andwasnotinterested。
"It'ssofarfromthecoast,"saidhe,"andthereissomuchlandbetween,thatitmustbeunhealthy。Somanyhousesandsomanypeople,too,about!Theremustbelotsofillsandailsinthosebigtowns;
no,Ishouldn'tliketolivethere,certainsure!"
Shesmiled,surprisedtoseethisgiantsosimpleafellow。
Sometimestheycameacrosshollowswheretreesgrewandseemedtodefythewinds。Therewasnoviewhere,onlydeadleavesscatteredbeneaththeirfeetandchillydampness;thenarrowway,borderedonbothsidesbygreenreeds,seemedverydismalundertheshadowofthebranches;
hemmedinbythewallsofsomedark,lonelyhamlet,rottingwitholdage,andslumberinginthishollow。
Acrucifixaroseinevitablybeforethem,amongthedeadbranches,withitscolossalimageofOurSaviourinweather-wornwood,itsfeatureswrungwithHisendlessagony。
Thenthepathwayroseagain,andtheyfoundthemselvescommandingtheviewofimmensehorizons——andbreathedthebracingairofsea-heightsoncemore。
He,tomatchher,spokeofIceland,itspale,nightlesssummersandsunthatneverset。Gauddidnotunderstandandaskedhimtoexplain。
"Thesungoesallround,"saidhe,wavinghisarminthedirectionofthedistantcircleofthebluewaters。"Italwaysremainsverylow,becauseithasnostrengthtorise;atmidnight,itdragsabitthroughthewater,butsoongetsupandbeginsitsjourneyroundagain。Sometimesthemoonappearstoo,attheothersideofthesky;
thentheymovetogether,andyoucan'tverywelltellonefromt'other,fortheyaremuchalikeinthatqueercountry。"
Toseethesunatmidnight!HowveryfaroffIcelandmustbeforsuchmarvelstohappen!Andthefjords?Gaudhadreadthatwordseveraltimeswrittenamongthenamesofthedeadinthechapeloftheshipwrecked,anditseemedtoportendsomegrislything。
"Thefjords,"saidYann,"theyarenotbroadbays,likePaimpol,forinstance;onlytheyaresurroundedbyhighmountains——sohighthattheyseemendless,becauseofthecloudsupontheirtops。It'sasorrycountry,Icantellyou,darling。Nothingbutstones。ThepeopleofIcelandknowofnosuchthingsastrees。InthemiddleofAugust,whenourfisheryisover,it'squitetimetoreturn,forthenightsbeginagainthen,andtheylengthenoutveryquickly;thesunfallsbelowtheearthwithoutbeingabletogetup,andthatnightlastsallthewinterthrough。Talkingofnight,"hecontinued,"there'salittleburying-groundonthecoastinoneofthefjords,forPaimpolmenwhohavediedduringtheseasonorwentdownatsea;it'sconsecratedearth,justlikeatPors-Even,andthedeadhavewoodencrossesjustlikeourshere,withtheirnamespaintedonthem。ThetwoGoazdiousfromPloubazlanecliethere,andGuillaumeMoan,Sylvestre'sgrandfather。"
Shecouldalmostseethelittlechurchyardatthefootofthesolitarycapes,underthepalerose-colouredlightofthosenever-endingdays,andshethoughtofthosedistantdead,undertheiceanddarkwindingsheetsofthelongnight-likewinters。
"Doyoufishthewholetime?"sheasked,"withouteverstopping?"
"Thewholetime,thoughwesomehowgetonwithworkondeck,fortheseaisn'talwaysfineoutthere。Well!ofcoursewe'redeadbeatwhenthenightcomes,butitgivesamananappetite——blessyou,dearest,weregularlygobbledownourmeals。"
"Doyouneverfeelsickofit?"
"Never,"returnedhe,withanairofunshakenfaithwhichpainedher;
"ondeck,ontheopensea,thetimeneverseemslongtoaman——never!"
Shehungherhead,feelingsadderthanever,andmoreandmorevanquishedbyheronlyenemy,thesea。
PARTV
THESECONDWEDDING
CHAPTERI
THESTART
Afterthespringdaytheyhadenjoyed,thefallingnightbroughtbacktheimpressionofwinter,andtheyreturnedtodinebeforetheirfire,whichwasflamingwithnewbranches。Itwastheirlastmealtogether;
buttheyhadsomehoursyet,andwerenotsaddened。
Afterdinner,theyrecoveredthesweetimpressionofspringagain,outonthePors-Evenroad;fortheairwascalm,almostgenial,andthetwilightstilllingeredovertheland。
Theywenttoseethefamily——forYanntobidgood-bye——andreturnedearly,astheywishedtorisewithbreakofday。
ThenextmorningthequayofPaimpolwascrowdedwithpeople。ThedeparturesforIcelandhadbegunthedaybefore,andwitheachtidetherewasafreshfleetoff。Onthisparticularmorning,fifteenvesselsweretostartwiththe/Leopoldine/,andthewivesormothersofthesailorswereallpresentatthegettingundersail。
Gaud,whowasnowthewifeofanIcelander,wasmuchsurprisedtofindherselfamongthemall,andbroughtthitherforthesamefatefulpurpose。Herpositionseemedtohavebecomesointensifiedwithinthelastfewdays,thatshehadbarelyhadtimetorealizethingsastheywere;glidingirresistiblydownanincline,shehadarrivedatthisinexorableconclusionthatshemustbearupforthepresent,anddoastheothersdid,whowereaccustomedtoit。
Sheneverbeforehadbeenpresentatthesefarewells;henceallwasnewtoher。Amongthesewomenwasnonelikeher,andshefeltherdifferenceandisolation。Herpastlife,asalady,wasstillremembered,andcausedhertobesetasideasoneapart。
Theweatherhadremainedfineonthisparting-day;butoutatseaaheavyswellcamefromthewest,foretellingwind,andthesea,lyinginwaitforthesenewadventurers,burstitscrestsafar。
AroundGaudstoodmanygood-lookingwiveslikeher,andtouching,withtheireyesbigwithtears;otherswerethoughtlessandlively;thesehadnoheartorwerenotinlove。Oldwomen,threatenednearlybydeath,weptastheyclungtotheirsons;sweetheartskissedeachother;half-maudlinsailorssangtocheerthemselvesup,whileotherswentonboardwithgloomylooksastotheirexecution。
Manysadincidentscouldbemarked;therewerepoorlucklessfellowswhohadsignedtheircontractsunconsciously,wheninliquorinthegrog-shop,andtheyhadtobedraggedonboardbyforce;theirownwiveshelpingthegendarmes。Others,notedfortheirgreatstrength,hadbeendruggedindrinkbeforehand,andwerecarriedlikecorpsesonstretchers,andflungdownintheforecastles。
Gaudwasfrightenedbyallthis;whatcompanionsweretheseforherYann?andwhatafearfulthingwasthisIceland,toinspiremenwithsuchterrorofit?
Yetthereweresailorswhosmiled,andwerehappy;who,doubtless,likeYann,lovedtheuntrammelledlifeandhardfishingwork;thosewerethesound,ableseamen,whohadfinenoblecountenances;iftheywereunmarriedtheywentoffrecklessly,merelycastingalastlookonthelasses;andiftheyweremarried,theykissedtheirwivesandlittleones,withferventsadnessanddeephopefulnessastoreturninghomeallthericher。
Gaudwasalittlecomfortedwhenshesawthatallthe/Leopoldines/
wereofthelatterclass,formingreallyapickedcrew。
Thevesselssetofftwobytwo,orfourbyfour,drawnoutbythetugs。Assoonastheymovedthesailorsraisedtheircapsand,full-
voiced,struckupthehymntotheVirgin:"/Salut,Etoile-de-la-Mer/!"
AllHail!StaroftheSea!,whileonthequay,thewomenwavedtheirhandsforalastfarewell,andtearsfelluponthelacestringsofthecaps。
Assoonasthe/Leopoldine/started,GaudquicklysetofftowardsthehouseoftheGaoses。Afteranhourandahalf'swalkalongthecoast,throughthefamiliarpathsofPloubazlanec,shearrivedthere,attheveryland'send,withinthehomeofhernewfamily。
The/Leopoldine/wastocastanchoroffPors-Evenbeforestartingdefinitelyintheevening,sothemarriedpairhadmadealastappointmenthere。Yanncametolandintheyawl,andstayedanotherthreehourswithhertobidhergood-byeonfirmland。Theweatherwasstillbeautifulandspring-like,andtheskyserene。
Theywalkedoutonthehighroadarm-in-arm,anditremindedthemoftheirwalkthedaybefore。TheystrolledontowardsPaimpolwithoutanyapparentobjectinview,andsooncametotheirownhouse,asifunconsciouslydrawnthere;theyenteredtogetherforthelasttime。
GrandamMoanwasquiteamazedatseeingthemtogetheragain。
YannleftmanyinjunctionswithGaudconcerningseveralofhisthingsinhiswardrobe,especiallyabouthisfineweddingclothes;shewastotakethemoutoccasionallyandairtheminthesun,andsoon。Onboardshipthesailorslearnallthesehousehold-likematters;butGaudwasamusedtohearit。Herhusbandmighthavebeensure,though,thatallhisthingswouldbekeptandattendedto,withlovingcare。
Butallthesematterswereverysecondaryforthem;theyspokeofthemonlytohavesomethingtotalkabout,andtohidetheirrealfeelings。
Theywentonspeakinginlow,softtones,asiffearingtofrightenawaythemomentsthatremained,andsomaketimeflitbymoreswiftlystill。Theirconversationwasasathingthathadinexorablytocometoanend;andthemostinsignificantthingsthattheysaidseemed,onthisday,tobecomewondrous,mysterious,andimportant。
AttheverylastmomentYanncaughtuphiswifeinhisarms,andwithoutsayingaword,theywereenfoldedinalongandsilentembrace。
Heembarked;thegraysailswereunfurledandspreadouttothelightwindthatrosefromthewest。He,whomshestillcoulddistinguish,wavedhiscapinaparticularwayagreedonbetweenthem。Andwithherfigureoutlinedagainstthesea,shegazedforalong,longtimeuponherdepartinglove。
Thattiny,human-shapedspeck,appearingblackagainstthebluishgrayofthewaters,wasstillherhusband,eventhoughalreadyitbecamevagueandindefinable,lostinthedistance,wherepersistentsightbecomesbaffled,andcanseenolonger。
Asthe/Leopoldine/fadedoutofvision,Gaud,asifdrawnbyamagnet,followedthepathwayallalongthecliffstillshehadtostop,becausethelandcametoanend;shesatdownatthefootofatallcross,whichrisesamidstthegorseandstones。Asitwasratheranelevatedspot,thesea,asseenfromthere,appearedtoberimmed,asinabowl,andthe/Leopoldine/,nowamerepoint,appearedsailinguptheinclineofthatimmensecircle。Thewaterroseingreatslowundulations,liketheupheavalsofasubmarinecombatgoingonsomewherebeyondthehorizon;butoverthegreatspacewhereYannstillwas,alldweltcalm。
Gaudstillgazedattheship,tryingtofixitsimagewellinherbrain,sothatshemightrecogniseitagainfromafar,whenshereturnedtothesameplacetowatchforitshome-coming。
Greatswellsnowrolledinfromthewest,oneafteranother,withoutcessation,renewingtheiruselessefforts,andeverbreakingoverthesamerocks,foamingoverthesameplaces,towashthesamestones。Thestifledfuryoftheseaappearedstrange,consideringtheabsolutecalmnessoftheairandsky;itwasasifthebedoftheseaweretoofullandwouldoverflowandswallowupthestrand。
The/Leopoldine/hadgrownsmallerandsmaller,andwaslostinthedistance。Doubtlesstheunder-towcarriedheralong,forshemovedswiftlyandyettheeveningbreezeswereveryfaint。Nowshewasonlyatiny,graytouch,andwouldsoonreachtheextremehorizonofallvisiblethings,andenterthoseinfiniteregions,whencedarknesswasbeginningtocome。
Goingonseveno'clock,nightclosed,andtheboathaddisappeared。
Gaudreturnedhome,feelingwithalratherbrave,notwithstandingthetearsthatuncontainablyfell。Whatadifferenceitwouldhavebeen,andwhatstillgreaterpain,ifhehadgoneaway,asinthetwoprecedingyears,withoutevenagood-bye!Whilenoweverythingwassoftenedandbetteredbetweenthem。HewasreallyherownYann,andsheknewherselftobesotrulyloved,notwithstandingthisseparation,that,asshereturnedhomealone,shefeltatleastconsoledbythethoughtofthedelightfulwaitingforthat"soonagain!"toberealizedtowhichtheyhadpledgedthemselvesfortheautumn。
CHAPTERII
THEFIRSTOFTHEFLEET
Thesummerpassedsadly,beinghotanduneventful。Shewatchedanxiouslyforthefirstyellowedleaves,andthefirstgatheringoftheswallows,andbloomingofthechrysanthemums。ShewrotetoYannseveraltimesbytheboatsboundforRykawyk,andbythegovernmentcruisers,butonenevercanbesureofsuchlettersreachingtheirdestination。
TowardstheendofJuly,shereceivedaletterfromhim,however。Hetoldherthathishealthwasgood,thatthefishingseasonpromisedtobeexcellent,andthathealreadyhad1500fishforhisshare。Frombeginningtoend,itwaswritteninthesimpleconventionalwayofalltheseIcelanders'homeletters。MeneducatedlikeYanncompletelyignorehowtowritethethousandthingstheythink,feel,orfancy。
Beingmorecultivatedthanhe,Gaudcouldunderstandthis,andreadbetweenthelinesthatdeepaffectionthatwasunexpressed。Severaltimesinthefour-pagedletter,hecalledherbythetitleof"wife,"
asifhappyinrepeatingtheword。Andtheaddressabove:"/AMadameMargueriteGaos,maisonMoan,enPloubazlanec/"——shewas"MadameMargueriteGaos"sincesoshortatime。
Sheworkedhardduringthesesummermonths。TheladiesofPaimpolhad,atfirst,hardlybelievedinhertalentasanamateurdressmaker,sayingherhandsweretoofine-ladyish;buttheysoonperceivedthatsheexcelledinmakingdressesthatwereverynice-fitting,soshehadbecomealmostafamousdressmaker。
Shespentallherearningsinembellishingtheirhomeagainsthisreturn。Thewardrobeandold-shelvedbedswerealldoneupafresh,waxedover,andbrightnewfasteningsputon;shehadputapaneofglassintotheirlittlewindowtowardsthesea,andhungupapairofcurtains;andshehadboughtanewcounterpaneforthewinter,withnewchairsandtable。
ShehadkeptthemoneyuntouchedthatherYannhadlefther,carefullyputbyinasmallChinesebox,toshowhimwhenhereturned。Duringthesummerevenings,bythefadinglight,shesatoutbeforethecottagedoorwithGrannyMoan,whoseheadwasmuchbetterinthewarmweather,andknittedafinenewbluewooljerseyforherYann;roundthecollarandcuffswerewonderfulopen-workembroideries。GrannyYvonnehadbeenaverycleverknitterinherday,andnowshetaughtallsheknewtoGaud。Theworktookagreatdealofwool;forithadtobealargejerseytofitYann。
Butsoon,especiallyintheevenings,theshorteningofthedayscouldbeperceived。Someplants,whichhadputforthalltheirblossomsinJuly,begantolookyellowanddying,andthevioletscabiousbythewaysidebloomedforthesecondtime,smallernow,andlonger-stalked;
thelastdaysofAugustdrewnigh,andthefirstreturn-shipfromIcelandhoveinsightoneeveningatthecapeofPors-Even。Thefeastofthereturnersbegan。
Everyonepressedinacrowdontheclifftowelcomeit。Whichonewasit?
Itwasthe/Samuel-Azenide/,alwaysthefirsttoreturn。
"Surely,"saidYann'soldfather,"the/Leopoldine/won'tbelongnow;
Iknowhow'tisoutyonder:whenoneof'embeginstostarthomeward,theotherscan'thangbackinanypeace。"
CHAPTERIII
ALLBUTTWO
TheIcelanderswereallreturningnow。Twoshipscameinthesecondday,fourthenext,andtwelveduringthefollowingweek。And,allthroughthecountry,joyreturnedwiththem,andtherewashappinessforthewivesandmothers;andjunketsinthetavernswherethebeautifulbarmaidsofPaimpolservedoutdrinktothefishers。
The/Leopoldine/wasamongthebelated;therewereyetanothertenexpected。Theywouldnotbelongnow,andallowingaweek'sdelaysoasnottobedisappointed,Gaudwaitedinhappy,passionatejoyforYann,keepingtheirhomebrightandtidyforhisreturn。Wheneverythingwasingoodordertherewasnothingleftforhertodo,andbesidesshecouldthinkofnothingelsebutherhusbandinherimpatience。
Threemoreshipsappeared;thenanotherfive。Therewereonlytwolackingnow。
"Come,come,"theysaidtohercheerily,"thisyearthe/Leopoldine/
andthe/Marie-Jeanne/willbethelast,topickupallthebroomsfallenoverboardfromtheothercraft。"
Gaudlaughedalso。Shewasmoreanimatedandbeautifulthanever,inhergreatjoyofexpectancy。
CHAPTERIV
STILLATSEA
Butthedayssucceededoneanotherwithoutresult。Shestilldressedherselfeveryday,andwithajoyfullook,wentdowntotheharbourtogossipwiththeotherwives。Shesaidthatthisdelaywasbutnatural;
wasitnotthesameeventeveryyear?Theseweresuchsafeboats,andhadsuchcapitalsailors。
Butwhenathomealone,atnight,anervous,anxiousshiverofanguishwouldrunthroughherwholeframe。
Wasitrighttobefrightenedalready?Wasthereevenasinglereasontobeso?Butshebegantotrembleatthemereideaofgroundsforbeingafraid。
CHAPTERV
SHARINGTHEDREAD
ThetenthofSeptembercame。Howswiftlythedaysflewby!
Onemorning,atrueautumnmorning,withcoldmistfallingovertheearth,intherisingsun,shesatundertheporchofthechapeloftheshipwreckedmariners,wherethewidowsgotopray,witheyesfixedandglassy,throbbingtemplestightenedasbyanironhand。
Thesesadmorningmistshadbeguntwodaysbefore,andonthisparticulardayGaudhadawakenedwithastillmorebitteruneasiness,causedbytheforecastofadvancingwinter。Whydidthisday,thishour,thisverymoment,seemtohermorepainfulthanthepreceding?
Oftenshipsaredelayedafortnight,evenamonth,forthatmatter。
Butsurelytherewassomethingdifferentaboutthisparticularmorning,forshehadcometo-dayforthefirsttimetositintheporchofthischapelandreadthenamesofthedeadsailors,perishedintheirprime。
"InmemoryofGAOS,YVON,LostatseaNeartheNorden-Fjord。"
Likeagreatshudder,agustofwindrosefromthesea,andatthesametimesomethingfelllikerainupontheroofabove。Itwasonlythedeadleavesthough;manywereblowninattheporch;theoldwind-
tossedtreesofthegraveyardwerelosingtheirfoliageinthisrisinggale,andwinterwasmarchingnearer。
"Lostatsea,NeartheNorden-Fjord,Inthestormofthe4thand5thofAugust,1880。"
Shereadmechanicallyunderthearchofthedoorway;hereyessoughttopiercethedistanceoverthesea。Thatmorningitwasuntraceableunderthegraymist,andadraggingdraperyofcloudsoverhungthehorizonlikeamourningveil。
Anothergustofwind,andotherleavesdancedininwhirls。Astrongerguststill,asifthewesternstormthathadstrewnthosedeadoverthesea,wishedtodefacetheveryinscriptionsthatrememberedtheirnamestotheliving。
Gaudlookedwithinvoluntarypersistencyatanemptyspaceuponthewallthatseemedtoyawnexpectant。Byaterribleimpressionshewaspursued,thethoughtofafreshslabwhichmightsoon,perhaps,beplacedthere,withanothernamewhichshedidnotevendaretothinkofinsuchaspot。
Shefeltcold,andremainedseatedonthegranitebench,herheadrecliningagainstthestonewall。
"neartheNorden-Fjord,Inthestormofthe4thand5thofAugust,Attheageof23years,/Requiescatinpace/!"
ThenIcelandloomedupbeforeher,withitslittlecemeterylightedupfrombelowthesea-linebythemidnightsunSuddenlyinthesameemptyspaceonthewall,withhorrifyingclearnessshesawthefreshslabshewasthinkingof;aclearwhiteone,withaskullandcross-
bones,andinaflashofforesight,aname——theworshippednameof"YannGaos!"Thenshesuddenlyandfearfullydrewherselfupstraightandstiff,withahoarse,wildcryinherthroatlikeamadcreature。
Outsidethegraymistofthedawnfellovertheland,andthedeadleaveswereagainblowndancinglyintotheporch。
Stepsonthefootpath?Somebodywascoming?Sheroseandquicklysmootheddownhercapandcomposedherface。Nearerdrewthesteps。
Sheassumedtheairofonewhomightbetherebychance;for,aboveall,shedidnotwishtoappearyet,likethewidowofashipwreckedmariner。
IthappenedtobeFanteFloury,thewifeofthesecondmateofthe/Leopoldine/。SheunderstoodimmediatelywhatGaudwasdoingthere;itwasuselesstodissemblewithher。Atfirsteachwomanstoodspeechlessbeforetheother。Theywereangryandalmosthatedeachotherforhavingmetwithalikesentimentofapprehension。
"AllthemenofTreguierandSaintBrieuchavebeenbackthisweek,"
saidFanteatlast,inapitiless,muffled,half-irritatedvoice。
Shecarriedablessedtaperinherhand,toofferupaprayer。Gauddidnotwishyettoresorttothatextremeresourceofdespairingwives。YetsilentlysheenteredthechapelbehindFante,andtheykneltdowntogethersidebyside,liketwosisters。
Tothe"StaroftheSea"theyofferedardentimploringprayers,withtheirwholesoulinthem。Asoundofsobbingwasaloneheard,astheirrapidtearsswiftlyfelluponthefloor。Theyrosetogether,moreconfidentandsoftened。FanteheldupGaud,whostaggered,andtakingherinherarms,kissedher。
Wipingtheireyes,andsmoothingtheirdishevelledhair,theybrushedoffthesaltdustfromtheflagstones,soilingtheirgowns,andtheywentawayinoppositedirections,withoutanotherword。
CHAPTERVI
ALLBUTONE
ThisendofSeptemberwaslikeanothersummer,onlyalittlelesslively。Theweatherwassobeautiful,thathaditnotbeenforthedeadleavesthatfellupontheroads,onemighthavethoughtthatJunehadcomebackagain。Husbandsandsweetheartshadallreturned,andeverywherewasthejoyofasecondspring-timeoflove。
Atlast,oneday,oneofthemissingshipswassignalled。Whichonewasit?
Thegroupsofspeechlessandanxiouswomenhadrapidlyformedonthecliff。Gaud,paleandtrembling,wasthere,bythesideofherYann'sfather。
"I'malmostsure,"saidtheoldfisher,"I'malmostsureit'sthem!A
redrailandatopsailthatclewsup——it'sverylikethemanyhow。Whatdoyoumakeit,Gaud?
"No,itisn't,"hewenton,withsuddendiscouragement;"we'vemadeamistakeagain,theboomisn'tthesame,andourshasajiggersail。
Well,well,itisn'tourboatthistime,it'sonlythe/Marie-Jeanne/。
Nevermind,mylass,surelythey'llnotbelongnow。"
Butdayfollowedday,andnightsucceedednight,withuninterruptedserenity。
Gaudcontinuedtodresseverydaylikeapoorcrazedwoman,alwaysinfearofbeingtakenforthewidowofashipwreckedsailor,feelingexasperatedwhenotherslookedfurtivelyandcompassionatelyather,andglancingasidesothatshemightnotmeetthoseglancesthatfrozeherveryblood。
Shehadfallenintothehabitofgoingintheearlymorningrighttotheendoftheheadland,onthehighcliffsofPors-Even,passingbehindYann'soldhome,soasnottobeseenbyhismotherorlittlesisters。ShewenttotheextremepointofthePloubazlanecland,whichisoutlinedintheshapeofareindeer'shornuponthegraywatersofthechannel,andsattherealldaylongatthefootofthelonelycross,whichriseshighabovetheimmensewasteoftheocean。Therearemanyofthesecrosseshereabout;theyaresetuponthemostadvancedcliffsoftheseaboundland,asiftoimploremercyandtocalmthatrestlessmysteriouspowerthatdrawsmenaway,nevertogivethemback,andinpreferenceretainsthebravestandnoblest。
Aroundthiscrossstretchestheever-greenwaste,strewnwithshortrushes。Atthisgreatheighttheseaairwasverypure;itscarcelyretainedthebrinyodouroftheweeds,butwasperfumedwithalltheexquisiteripenessofSeptemberflowers。
Faraway,allthebaysandinletsofthecoastwerefirmlyoutlined,risingoneaboveanother;thelandofBrittanyterminatedinraggededges,whichspreadoutfarintothetranquilsurface。
Nearathandthereefswerenumerous,butoutbeyondnothingbrokeitspolishedmirror,fromwhicharoseasoft,caressingripple,lightandintensifiedfromthedepthsofitsmanybays。Itshorizonseemedsocalm,anditsdepthssosoft!ThegreatbluesepulchreofmanyGaoseshiditsinscrutablemystery,whilethebreezes,faintashumanbreath,waftedtoandfrotheperfumeofthestuntedgorse,whichhadbloomedagaininthelastestautumnsun。
Atregularhoursthesearetreated,andgreatspaceswereleftuncoveredeverywhere,asiftheChannelwasslowlydryingup;thenwiththesamelazyslowness,thewatersroseagain,andcontinuedtheireverlastingcomingandgoing,withoutanyheedofthedead。
Atthefootofthecross,Gaudremained,surroundedbythesetranquilmysteries,gazingeverbeforeher,untilthenightfellandshecouldseenomore。
CHAPTERVII
THEMOURNER'SVISION
Septemberhadpassed。Thesorrowingwifetookscarcelyanynourishment,andcouldnolongersleep。Sheremainedathomenow,crouchinglowwithherhandsbetweenherknees,herheadthrownbackandrestingagainstthewallbehind。Whatwasthegoodofgettinguporgoingtobednow?Whenshewasthoroughlyexhaustedshethrewherself,dressed,uponherbed。Otherwisesheremainedinthesameposition,chilledandbenumbed;inherquiescentstate,onlyherteethchatteredwiththecold;shehadthatcontinualimpressionofabandofironroundherbrows;hercheekslookedwasted;hermouthwasdry,withafeverishtaste,andattimesapainfulhoarsecryrosefromherthroat,andwasrepeatedinspasms,whileherheadbeatbackwardagainstthegranitewall。OrelseshecalledYannbyhisnameinalow,tendervoice,asifhewerequietclosetoher,whisperingwordsoflovetoher。
Sometimessheoccupiedherbrainwiththoughtsofquiteinsignificantthings;forinstance,sheamusedherselfbywatchingtheshadowofthechinaVirginlengthenslowlyoverthehighwoodworkofthebed,asthesunwentdown。Andthentheagonizedthoughtsreturnedmorehorrible,andherwailingcrybrokeoutagainasshebeatherheadagainstthewall。
Allthehoursofthedaypassed,andallthehoursofevening,andofnight,andthenthehoursofthemorning。Whenshereckonedthetimeheoughttohavebeenback,shewasseizedwithastillgreaterterror;shewishedtoforgetalldatesandtheverynamesofthedays。
UsuallythereissomeinformationconcerningthewrecksoffIceland;
thosewhoreturnhaveseenthetragedyfromafar,orelsehavefoundsomewreckageorbodies,orhaveanindicationtoguesstherest。Butofthe/Leopoldine/nothinghadbeenseen,andnothingwasknown。The/Marie-Jeanne/men,thelasttohaveseenher,onthe2dofAugust,saidthatshewastohavegoneonfishingfarthertowardsthenorth,and,beyondthat,thesecretwasunfathomable。
Waiting,alwayswaiting,andknowingnothing!Whenwouldthetimecomewhensheneedwaitnolonger?Shedidnotevenknowthat;and,now,shealmostwishedthatitmightbesoon。
Oh!ifheweredead;letthematleasthavepityenoughtotellherso!Oh!toseeherdarling,ashewasatthisverymoment,thatis,whatwaslefthim!Ifonlythemuch-imploredVirgin,orsomeotherpower,woulddohertheblessingtoshowher,bysecond-sight,herbeloved!eitherlivingandworkinghardtoreturnarichman,orelseasacorpse,surrenderedbythesea,sothatshemightatleastknowacertainty。
Sometimesshewasseizedwiththethoughtofashipappearingsuddenlyuponthehorizon;the/Leopoldine/hasteninghome。Thenshewouldsuddenlymakeanirreflectedmovementtorise,andrushtolookoutattheocean,toseewhetheritweretrue。
Butshewouldfallback。Alas!wherewasthis/Leopoldinenow?Wherecouldshebe?Outafar,atthatawfuldistanceofIceland,forsaken,crushed,andlost。
Allendedbyanever-fadingvisionappearingtoher——anempty,sea-
tossedwreck,slowlyandgentlyrockedbythesilentgrayandrose-
streakedsea;almostwithsoftmockery,inthemidstofthevastcalmofdeadenedwaters。
CHAPTERVIII
THEFALSEALARM
Twoo'clockinthemorning。
Itwasatnight,especially,thatshekeptattentivetoapproachingfootsteps;attheslightestrumourorunaccustomednoisehertemplesvibrated;bydintofbeingstrainedtooutwardthings,theyhadbecomefearfullysensitive。
Twoo'clockinthemorning。Onthisnightasonothers,withherhandsclaspedandhereyeswideopeninthedark,shelistenedtothewind,sweepinginnever-endingtumultovertheheath。
Suddenlyaman'sfootstepshurriedalongthepath!Atthishourwhowouldpassnow?Shedrewherselfup,stirredtotheverysoul,herheartceasingtobeat。
Someonestoppedbeforethedoor,andcameupthesmallstonesteps。
He!——OGod!——he!Someonehadknocked——itcouldbenootherthanhe!
Shewasupnow,barefooted;she,sofeebleforthelastfewdays,hadsprungupasnimblyasakitten,withherarmsoutstretchedtowindroundherdarling。Ofcoursethe/Leopoldine/hadarrivedatnight,andanchoredinPors-EvenBay,andhehadrushedhome;shearrangedallthisinhermindwiththeswiftnessoflightning。Shetorethefleshoffherfingersinherexcitementtodrawthebolt,whichhadstuck。
"Eh?"
Sheslowlymovedbackward,asifcrushed,herheadfallingonherbosom。Herbeautifulinsanedreamwasover。Shejustcouldgraspthatitwasnotherhusband,herYann,andthatnothingofhim,substantialorspiritual,hadpassedthroughtheair;shefeltplungedagainintoherdeepabyss,tothelowestdepthsofherterribledespair。
PoorFantec,foritwashe,stammeredmanyexcuses,hiswifewasveryill,andtheirchildwasstiflinginitscot,suddenlyattackedwithamalignantsorethroat;sohehadrunovertobegforassistanceontheroadtofetchthedoctorfromPaimpol。
Whatdidallthismattertoher?Shehadgonemadinherowndistress,andcouldgivenothoughtstothetroublesofothers。Huddledonabench,sheremainedbeforehimwithfixed,glazedeyes,likeadeadwoman's;withoutlisteningtohimorevenansweringatrandomorlookingathim。Whattoherwasthespeechthemanwasmaking?
Heunderstooditall;andguessedwhythedoorhadbeenopenedsoquicklytohim,andfeelingpityforthepainhehadunwittinglycaused,hestammeredoutanexcuse。
"Justso;heneverhadoughttohavedisturbedher——herinparticular。"
"I!"ejaculatedGaud,quickly,"whyshouldInotbedisturbedparticularly,Fantec?"
Lifehadsuddenlycomebacktoher;forshedidnotwishtoappearindespairbeforeothers。Besides,shepitiedhimnow;shedressedtoaccompanyhim,andfoundthestrengthtogoandseetohislittlechild。
Atfouro'clockinthemorning,whenshereturnedtothrowherselfonthebed,sleepsubduedher,forshewastiredout。Butthatmomentofexcessivejoyhadleftanimpressiononhermind,which,inspiteofall,waspermanent;sheawokesoonwithashudder,risingalittleandpartiallyrecollecting——sheknewnotwhat。NewshadcometoherconcerningherYann。Inthemidstofherconfusionofideas,shesoughtrapidlyinhermindwhatitcouldbe,buttherewasnothingsaveFantec'sinterruption。
Forthesecondtimeshefellbackintoherterribleabyss,nothingchangedinhermorbid,hopelesswaiting。
Yetinthatshort,hopefulmomentshehadfelthimsoneartoher,thatitwasasifhisspirithadfloatedovertheseauntoher,whatiscalledaforetoken/pressigne/inBretonland;andshelistenedstillmoreattentivelytothestepsoutside,trustingthatsomeonemightcometohertospeakofhim。
JustasthedaybrokeYann'sfatherentered。Hetookoffhiscap,andpushedbackhissplendidwhitelocks,whichwereincurlslikeYann's,andsatdownbyGaud'sbedside。
Hisheartachedfully,too,forYann,histall,handsomeYann,washisfirst-born,hisfavouriteandhispride;buthedidnotdespairyet。
HecomfortedGaudinhisownblunt,affectionateway;tobeginwith,thosewhohadlastreturnedfromIcelandspokeoftheincreasingdensefogsthatmightwellhavedelayedthevessel;andthen,too,anideastruckhim;theymightpossiblyhavestoppedatthedistantFaroeIslandsontheirhomewardcourse,whencelettersweresolongintravelling。Thishadhappenedtohimoncefortyyearsago,andhisownpoordeadandgonemotherhadhadamasssaidforhissoul。The/Leopoldine/wassuchagoodboat,nexttonew,andhercrewweresuchable-bodiedseamen。
GrannyMoanstoodbythemshakingherhead;thedistressofhergranddaughterhadalmostgivenherbackherownstrengthandreason;
shetidieduptheplace,glancingfromtimetotimeatthefadedportraitofSylvestre,whichhunguponthegranitewallwithitsanchoremblemsandmourning-wreathofblackbead-work。Eversincetheseahadrobbedherofherownlastoffspringshebelievednolongerinsafereturns;sheonlyprayedthroughfear,bearingHeavenagrudgeinthebottomofherheart。
ButGaudlistenedeagerlytotheseconsolingreasonings;herlargesunkeneyeslookedwithdeeptendernessoutuponthisoldsire,whosomuchresembledherbelovedone;merelytohavehimnearherwaslikeahostageagainstdeathhavingtakentheyoungerGaos;andshefeltreassured,nearertoherYann。Hertearsfellsoftlyandsilently,andsherepeatedagainherpassionateprayerstothe"StaroftheSea。"
Adelayoutatthoseislandstorepairdamageswasaverylikelyevent。Sheroseandbrushedherhair,andthendressedasifshemightfairlyexpecthim。Allthenwasnotlost,ifaseaman,hisownfather,didnotyetdespair。Andforafewdays,sheresumedlookingoutforhimagain。
Autumnatlastarrived,alateautumntoo,itsgloomyeveningsmakingallthingsappeardarkintheoldcottage,andallthelandlookedsombre,too。
Theverydaylightseemedcrepuscular;immeasurableclouds,passingslowlyoverhead,darkenedthewholecountryatbroadnoon。Thewindblewconstantlywiththesoundofagreatcathedralorganatadistance,butplayingprofane,despairingdirges;atothertimesthenoisecameclosetothedoor,likethehowlingofwildbeasts。
Shehadgrownpale,aye,blanched,andbentmorethanever,asifoldagehadalreadytouchedherwithitsfeatherlesswing。OftendidshefingertheweddingclothesofherYann,foldingandunfoldingthemagainandagainlikesomemaniac,especiallyoneofhisbluewoolenjerseys,whichstillhadpreservedhisshape;whenshethrewitgentlyonthetable,itfellwiththeshouldersandchestwelldefined;sosheplaceditbyitselfonashelfoftheirwardrobe,andleftitthere,sothatitmightforeverrestunaltered。
Everynightthecoldmistssankupontheland,asshegazedoverthedepressingheaththroughherlittlewindow,andwatchedthepaltrypuffsofwhitesmokearisefromthechimneysofothercottagesscatteredhereandthereonallsides。Therethehusbandshadreturned,likewanderingbirdsdrivenhomebythefrost。Beforetheirblazinghearthstheeveningspassed,cosyandwarm;forthespring-
timeoflovehadbegunagaininthislandofNorthSeafishermen。
Stillclingingtothethoughtofthoseislandswherehemightperhapshavelingered,shewasbuoyedupbyakindhopeandexpectedhimhomeanyday。
Butheneverreturned。OneAugustnight,outoffgloomyIceland,mingledwiththefuriousclamourofthesea,hisweddingwiththeseawasperformed。Ithadbeenhisnurse;ithadrockedhiminhisbabyhood,andhadafterwardmadehimbigandstrong;then,inhissuperbmanhood,ithadtakenhimbackagainforitselfalone。
Profoundestmysteryhadsurroundedthisunhallowedunion。Whileitwenton,darkcurtainshungpall-likeoveritasiftoconcealtheceremony,andtheghoulhowledinanawfuldeafeningvoicetostiflehiscries。He,thinkingofGaud,hissole,darlingwife,hadbattledwithgiantstrengthagainstthisdeathlyrival,untilheatlastsurrendered,withadeepdeath-cryliketheroarofadyingbull,throughamouthalreadyfilledwithwater;andhisarmswerestretchedapartandstiffenedforever。