"Oh,Polly,Iamsoglad!Ineverthoughtofit­;youaresogood,andhe'ssuchawildboy,­;Ican'tbelieveit­;butitissodearofyoutocareforhim。"
"Couldn'thelpit­;triednotto­;butitwassohard­;youknow,Fan,youknow,"saidastifledvoicefromthedepthsoftheveryfuzzycushionwhichTomhadoncecondemned。
Thelastwords,andtheappealinghandoutstretchedtoher,toldFannythesecretofherfriend'stendersympathyforherownlovetroubles,andseemedsopathetic,thatshetookPollyinherarms,andcriedoverher,inthefond,foolishwaygirlshaveofdoingwhentheirheartsarefull,andtearscansaymorethantongues。Thesilenceneverlastslong,however,forthefemininedesireto"talkitover"usuallygetsthebetterofthedeepestemotion。Sopresentlythegirlswerehardatit,Pollyveryhumbleanddowncast,Fannyexcitedandoverflowingwithcuriosityanddelight。
"Reallymysister!Youdearthing,howheavenlythatwillbe,"shecried。
"Itneverwillbe,"answeredPollyinatoneofcalmdespair。
"Whatwillpreventit?"
"MariaBailey,"wasthetragicreply。
"Whatdoyoumean?IsshetheWesterngirl?Sheshan'thaveTom;I'llkillherfirst!"
"Toolate,letmetellyou­;isthatdoorshut,andMaudsafe?"
Fannyreconnoitered,andreturning,listenedbreathlessly,whilePollypouredintoherearthebittersecretwhichwaspreyingonhersoul。
"Hasn'thementionedMariainhisletters?"
"Onceortwice,butsortofjokingly,andIthoughtitwasonlysomelittleflirtation。Hecan'thavetimeformuchofthatfun,he'ssobusy。"
"Nedwritesgood,gossipyletters­;Itaughthimhow­;andhetellsmeallthat'sgoingon。Whenhe'dspokenofthisgirlseveraltimes­;theyboardwithhermother,youknow,­;Iaskedabouther,quitecarelessly,andhetoldmeshewaspretty,good,andwelleducated,andhethoughtTomwasrathersmitten。Thatwasablow,foryousee,Fan,sinceTrixbroketheengagement,anditwasn'twrongtothinkofTom,Iletmyselfhope,justalittle,andwassohappy!NowImustgiveitup,andnowIseehowmuchIhoped,andwhatadreadfullossit'sgoingtobe。"
TwogreattearsrolleddownPolly'scheeks,andFannywipedthemaway,feelinganintensedesiretogoWestbythenexttrain,witherMariaBaileywithasinglelook,andbringTombackasagifttoPolly。
"Itwassostupidofmenottoguessbefore。ButyouseeTomalwaysseemssolikeaboy,andyouaremorewomanlyforyouragethananygirlIknow,soIneverthoughtofyourcaringforhiminthatway。Iknewyouwereverygoodtohim,youaretoeveryone,myprecious;andIknewthathewasfondofyouasheisofme,fonderifanything,becausehethinksyouareperfect;butstillIneverdreamedofhislovingyouasmorethanadearfriend。"
"Hedoesn't,"sighedPolly。
"Well,heought;andifIcouldgetholdofhim,heshould!"
PollyclutchedFanatthat,andheldhertight,sayingsternly,­;
"Ifyoueverbreatheaword,dropahint,lookalookthatwilltellhimoranyoneelseaboutme,I'll­;yes,assureasmynameisMaryMilton­;I'llproclaimfromthehousetopsthatyoulikeAr­;"
Pollygotnofurther,forFan'shandwasonhermouth,andFan'salarmedvoicevehementlyprotested,­;
"Iwon't!IpromisesolemnlyI'llneversayawordtoamortalcreature。Don'tbesofierce,Polly;youquitefrightenme。"
"It'sbadenoughtolovesomeonewhodon'tloveyou,buttohavethemtoldofitisperfectlyawful。Itmakesmewildjusttothinkofit。Oh,Fan,I'mgettingsoill-temperedandenviousandwicked,Idon'tknowwhatwillhappentome。"
"I'mnotafraidforyou,mydear,andIdobelievethingswillgoright,becauseyouaresogoodtoeveryone。HowTomcouldhelpadoringyouI
don'tsee。IknowhewouldifhehadstayedathomelongerafterhegotridofTrix。Itwouldbethemakingofhim;butthoughheismybrother,Idon'tthinkhe'sgoodenoughforyou,Polly,andIdon'tquiteseehowyoucancareforhimsomuch,whenyoumighthavehadapersonsoinfinitelysuperior。"
"Idon'twanta'superior'person;he'dtiremeifhewaslikeA。S。
Besides,IdothinkTomissuperiortohiminmanythings。Well,youneedn'tstare;Iknowheis,orwillbe。He'ssodifferent,andveryyoung,andhaslotsoffaults,Iknow,butIlikehimallthebetterforit,andhe'shonestandbrave,andhasgotabig,warmheart,andI'dratherhavehimcareformethanthewisest,best,mostaccomplishedmanintheworld,simplybecauseIlovehim!"
IfTomcouldonlyhaveseenPolly'sfacewhenshesaidthat!Itwassotender,earnest,anddefiant,thatFannyforgotthedefenceofherownloverinadmirationofPolly'sloyaltytohers;forthisfaithful,allabsorbinglovewasanewrevelationtoFanny,whowasusedtohearingherfriendsboastoftwoorthreeloversayear,andcalculatetheirrespectivevalues,withalmostasmuchcoolnessastheyoungmendiscussedthefortunesofthegirlstheywishedfor,but"couldnotaffordtomarry。"ShehadthoughtherloveforSydneyveryromantic,becauseshedidnotreallycarewhetherhewasrichorpoor,thoughsheneverdaredtosayso,eventoPolly,forfearofbeinglaughedat。Shebegantoseenowwhattruelovewas,andtofeelthatthesentimentwhichshecouldnotconquerwasatreasuretobeacceptedwithreverence,andcherishedwithdevotion。
"Idon'tknowwhenIbegantoloveTom,butIfoundoutthatIdidlastwinter,andwasasmuchsurprisedasyouare,"continuedPolly,asifgladtounburdenherheart。"Ididn'tapproveofhimatall。Ithoughthewasextravagant,reckless,anddandified。IwasverymuchdisappointedwhenhechoseTrix,andthemoreIthoughtandsawofit,theworseIfelt,forTomwastoogoodforher,andIhatedtoseeherdosolittleforhim,whenshemighthavedonesomuch;becauseheisoneofthemenwhocanbeledbytheiraffections,andthewomanhemarriescanmakeormarhim。"
"That'strue!"criedFan,asPollypausedtolookatthepicture,whichappearedtoregardherwithagrave,steadylook,whichseemedrathertobelieherassertions。
"Idon'tmeanthathe'sweakorbad。Ifhewas,Ishouldhatehim;
buthedoesneedsomeonetolovehimverymuch,andmakehimhappy,asagoodwomanbestknowshow,"saidPolly,asifansweringthemutelanguageofTom'sface。
"IhopeMariaBaileyisallhethinksher,"sheadded,softly,"forIcouldn'tbeartohavehimdisappointedagain。"
"Idaresayhedon'tcareafigforher,andyouareonlyborrowingtrouble。WhatdoyousayNedansweredwhenyouaskedaboutthisinconvenientgirl?"saidFannyturninghopefulallatonce。
Pollyrepeatedit,andadded,"Iaskedhiminanotherletterifhedidn'tadmireMissB。asmuchasTom,andhewrotebackthatshewas'anicegirl,'buthehadnotimefornonsense,andIneedn'tgetmywhitekidsreadyforsomeyearsyet,unlesstodanceatTom'swedding。Sincethenhehasn'tmentionedMaria,soIwassuretherewassomethingseriousgoingon,andbeinginTom'sconfidence,hekeptquiet。"
"Itdoeslookbad。SupposeIsayawordtoTom,justinquireafterhisheartinageneralway,youknow,andgivehimachancetotellme,ifthereisanythingtotell。"
"I'mwilling,butyoumustletmeseetheletter。Ican'ttrustyounottohintorsaytoomuch。"
"Youshall。I'llkeepmypromiseinspiteofeverything,butitwillbehardtoseethingsgoingwrongwhenawordwouldsetitright。"
"Youknowwhatwillhappenifyoudo,"andPollylookedsothreateningthatFantrembledbeforeher,discoveringthatthegentlestgirlswhenrousedaremoreimpressivethananyshrew;foreventurtledovespeckgallantlytodefendtheirnests。
"IfitistrueaboutMaria,whatshallwedo?"saidFannyafterapause。
"Bearit;Peoplealwaysdobearthings,somehow,"answeredPolly,lookingasifsentencehadbeenpasseduponher。
"Butifitisn't?"criedFan,unabletoendurethesight。
"ThenIshallwait。"AndPolly'sfacechangedsobeautifullythatFanhuggedheronthespot,ferventlywishingthatMariaBaileyneverhadbeenborn。
Thentheconversationturnedtolovernumbertwo,andafteralongconfabulation,PollygaveitasherfirmbeliefthatA。S。hadforgottenM。M。,andwasrapidlyfindingconsolationintheregardofF。S。WiththissatisfactorydecisionthecouncilendedaftertheratificationofaLoyalLeague,bywhichthefriendspledgedthemselvestostandstaunchlybyoneanother,throughthetrialsofthecomingyear。
Itwasaverydifferentwinterfromthelastforboththegirls。Fannyappliedherselftoherdutieswithredoubledardor,for"A。S。"wasadomesticman,andadmiredhousewifelyaccomplishments。IfFannywantedtoshowhimwhatshecoulddotowardmakingapleasanthome,shecertainlysucceededbetterthanshesuspected,forinspiteofmanyfailuresanddiscouragementsbehindthescenes,thelittlehousebecameamostattractiveplace,toMr。Sydneyatleast,forhewasmorethehouse-friendthanever,andseemeddeterminedtoprovethatchangeoffortunemadenodifferencetohim。
FannyhadbeenafraidthatPolly'sreturnmightendangerherhopes,butSydneymetPollywiththeoldfriendliness,andverysoonconvincedherthatthenippinginthebudprocesshadbeeneffectual,forbeingtakenearly,thesproutingaffectionhaddiedeasy,andleftroomforanolderfriendshiptoblossomintoahappierlove。
Fannyseemedgladofthis,andPollysoonsetherheartatrestbyprovingthatshehadnowishtotryherpower。Shekeptmuchathomewhentheday'sworkwasdone,findingitpleasantertositdreamingoverbookorsewingalone,thantoexertherselfeventogototheShaws'。
"Fandon'tneedme,andSydneydon'tcarewhetherIcomeornot,soI'llkeepoutoftheway,"shewouldsay,asiftoexcuseherseemingindolence。
Pollywasnotatalllikeherselfthatwinter,andthosenearesttohersawandwonderedatitmost。Willgotveryanxious,shewassoquiet,paleandspiritless,anddistractedpoorPollybyhisaffectionatestupidity,tillshecompletedhisbewildermentbygettingcrossandscoldinghim。
SoheconsoledhimselfwithMaud,who,nowbeinginherteens,assumeddignifiedairs,andorderedhimaboutinastylethataffordedhimcontinuedamusementandemployment。
Westernnewscontinuedvague,forFan'sgeneralinquiriesproducedonlyprovokinglyunsatisfactoryrepliesfromTom,whosangthepraisesof"thebeautifulMissBailey,"andprofessedtobeconsumedbyahopelesspassionforsomebody,insuchhalf-comic,half-tragicterms,thatthegirlscouldnotdecidewhetheritwas"allthatboy'smischief,"oronlyacloaktohidethedreadfultruth。
"We'llhaveitoutofhimwhenhecomeshomeinthespring,"saidFannytoPolly,astheycomparedthelettersoftheirbrothers,andagreedthat"menwerethemostuncommunicativeandprovokinganimalsunderthesun。"
ForNedwassoabsorbedinbusinessthatheignoredthewholeBaileyquestionandlefttheminutterdarkness。
Hungerofanysortisahardthingtobear,especiallywhenthesuffererhasayouthfulappetite,andPollywaskeptonsuchashortallowanceofhappinessforsixmonths,thatshegotquitethinandinteresting;andoften,whenshesawhowbighereyesweregetting,andhowplainlytheveinsonhertemplesshowed,indulgedthepensivethoughtthatperhapsspringdandelionsmightblossomo'erhergrave。ShehadnointentionofdyingtillTom'svisitwasover,however,andasthetimedrewnear,shewentthroughsuchalternationsofhopeandfear,andlivedinsuchastateoffeverishexcitement,thatspiritsandcolorcameback,andshesawthattheinterestingpallorshehadcountedonwouldbeanentirefailure。
Maycameatlast,andwithitaburstofsunshinewhichcheeredevenpoorPolly'smuch-enduringheart。Fannycamewalkinginuponheroneday,lookingasifshebroughttidingsofsuchgreatjoythatshehardlyknewhowtotellthem。
"Prepareyourself­;somebodyisengaged!"shesaid,inasolemntone,thatmadePollyputupherhandasiftowardoffanexpectedblow。"No,don'tlooklikethat,mypoordear;itisn'tTom,it's­;I!"
Ofcoursetherewasarapture,followedbyoneofthedeliciouslyconfidentialtalkswhichbosomfriendsenjoy,interspersedwithtearsandkisses,smilesandsighs。
"Oh,Polly,thoughI'vewaitedandhopedsolongIcouldn'tbelieveitwhenitcame,anddon'tdeserveit;butIwill!fortheknowledgethathelovesmeseemstomakeeverythingpossible,"saidFanny,withanexpressionwhichmadeherreallybeautiful,forthefirsttimeinherlife。
"Youhappygirl!"sighedPolly,thensmiledandadded,"Ithinkyoudeserveallthat'scometoyou,foryouhavetrulytriedtobeworthyofit,andwhetheritevercameornotthatwouldhavebeenathingtobeproudof。"
"Hesaysthatiswhatmadehimloveme,"answeredFanny,nevercallingherloverbyhisname,butmakingthelittlepersonalpronounaverysweetwordbythetoneinwhichsheutteredit。"Hewasdisappointedinmelastyear,hetoldme,butyousaidgoodthingsaboutmeandthoughhedidn'tcaremuchthen,yetwhenhelostyou,andcamebacktome,hefoundthatyouwerenotaltogethermistaken,andhehaswatchedmeallthiswinter,learningtorespectandlovemebettereveryday。Oh,Polly,whenhesaidthat,Icouldn'tbearit,becauseinspiteofallmytrying,I'mstillsoweakandpoorandsilly。"
"Wedon'tthinkso;andIknowyou'llbeallhehopestofindyou,forhe'sjustthehusbandyououghttohave。"
"Thankyouallthemore,then,fornotkeepinghimyourself,"saidFanny,laughingtheoldblithelaughagain。
"Thatwasonlyaslightaberrationofhis;heknewbetterallthetime。
Itwasyourwhitecloakandmyidioticbehaviorthenightwewenttotheoperathatputtheideaintohishead,"saidPolly,feelingasiftheeventsofthateveninghadhappenedsometwentyyearsago,whenshewasagiddyyoungthing,fondofgaybonnetsandgirlishpranks。
"I'mnotgoingtotellTomawordaboutit,butkeepitforasurprisetillhecomes。Hewillbeherenextweek,andthenwe'llhaveagrandclearingupofmysteries,"saidFan,evidentlyfeelingthatthemillenniumwasathand。
"Perhaps,"saidPolly,asherheartflutteredandthensunk,forthiswasacasewhereshecoulddonothingbuthope,andkeepherhandsbusywithWill'snewsetofshirts。
Thereisagooddealmoreofthissortofsilentsufferingthantheworldsuspects,forthe"womenwhodare"arefew,thewomenwho"standandwait"aremany。Butifwork-basketsweregiftedwithpowersofspeech,theycouldtellstoriesmoretrueandtenderthananyweread。Forwomenoftensewthetragedyorcomedyoflifeintotheirworkastheysitapparentlysafeandsereneathome,yetarethinkingdeeply,livingwholeheart-histories,andprayingferventprayerswhiletheyembroiderprettytriflesordotheweeklymending。ChapterXIX。ChapterXIX。CHAPTERXIXTOM'SSUCCESS"Come,Philander,letusbeamarching,Everyonehistrueloveasearching,"WOULDbethemostappropriatemottoforthischapter,because,intimidatedbythethreats,denunciations,andcomplaintsshowereduponmeinconsequenceoftakingthelibertytoendacertainstoryasIliked,Inowyieldtotheamiabledesireofgivingsatisfaction,and,attheriskofoutragingalltheunities,intendtopairoffeverybodyIcanlaymyhandson。
Occasionallyamatrimonialepidemicappears,especiallytowardspring,devastatingsociety,thinningtheranksofbachelordom,andleavingmotherslamentingfortheirfairestdaughters。ThatspringthediseasebrokeoutwithgreatviolenceintheShawcircle,causingpaternalheadsmuchbewilderment,asonecaseafteranotherappearedwithalarmingrapidity。Fanny,aswehaveseen,wasstrickenfirst,andhardlyhadshebeencarriedsafelythroughthecrisis,whenTomreturnedtoswellthelistofvictims。AsFannywasoutagooddealwithherArthur,whowassurethatexercisewasnecessaryfortheconvalescent,PollywenteverydaytoseeMrs。Shaw,whofoundherselflonely,thoughmuchbetterthanusual,fortheengagementhadafinereffectuponherconstitutionthananytonicsheevertried。SomethreedaysafterFan'sjoyfulcallPollywasstartledonenteringtheShaws'
door,byMaud,whocametumblingdownstairs,sendinganavalancheofwordsbeforeher,­;
"He'scomebeforehesaidheshouldtosurpriseus!He'supinmamma'sroom,andwasjustsaying,'How'sPolly?'whenIheardyoucome,inyourcreep-mouseway,andyoumustgorightup。Helookssofunnywithwhiskers,buthe'seversonice,realbigandbrown,andheswungmerightupwhenhekissedme。Nevermindyourbonnet,Ican'twait。"
AndpouncinguponPolly,Mauddraggedherawaylikeacapturedshiptowedbyanoisylittlesteam-tug。
"Thesoonerit'soverthebetterforme,"wastheonlythoughtPollyhadtimeforbeforesheplungedintotheroomabove,propelledbyMaud,whocriedtriumphantly,­;
"Thereheis!Ain'thesplendid?"
Foraminute,everythingdancedbeforePolly'seyes,asahandshookherswarmly,andagruffishvoicesaidheartily,­;
"Howareyou,Polly?"ThensheslippedintoachairbesideMrs。
Shaw,hopingthatherreplyhadbeenallrightandproper,forshehadnottheleastideawhatshesaid。
Thingsgotsteadyagaindirectly,andwhileMaudexpatiatedonthegreatsurprise,PollyventuredtolookatTom,feelinggladthatherbackwastowardthelight,andhiswasnot。Itwasnotalargeroom,andTomseemedtofillitentirely;notthathehadgrownsoverymuch,exceptbroaderintheshoulders,buttherewasabrisk,genial,free-and-easyairabouthim,suggestiveofastirring,out-of-doorlife,withpeoplewhokepttheireyeswideopen,andwerenotveryparticularwhattheydidwiththeirarmsandlegs。Therough-and-readytravellingsuit,stoutboots,brownface,andmanlybeard,changedhimsomuch,thatPollycouldfindscarcelyatraceofelegantTomShawinthehearty-lookingyoungmanwhostoodwithonefootonachair,whilehetalkedbusinesstohisfatherinasensibleway,whichdelightedtheoldgentleman。Pollylikedthechangeimmensely,andsatlisteningtothestateofWesterntradewithasmuchinterestasifithadbeenthemostthrillingromance,for,ashetalked,Tomkeptlookingatherwithanodorasmilesolikeoldtimes,thatforalittlewhile,sheforgotMariaBailey,andwasinbliss。
ByandbyFannycameflyingin,andgaveTomagreatersurprisethanhishadbeen。Hehadnottheleastsuspicionofwhathadbeengoingonathome,forFanhadsaidtoherself,withgirlishmalice,"Ifhedon'tchoosetotellmehissecrets,I'mnotgoingtotellmine,"andhadsaidnothingaboutSydney,exceptanoccasionalallusiontohisbeingoftenthere,andverykind。Therefore,whensheannouncedherengagement,Tomlookedsostaggeredforaminute,thatFanthoughthedidn'tlikeit;
butafterthefirstsurprisepassed,heshowedsuchanaffectionatesatisfaction,thatshewasbothtouchedandflattered。
"Whatdoyouthinkofthisperformance?"askedTom,wheelingroundtoPolly,whostillsatbyMrs。Shaw,intheshadowofthebed-curtains。
"Ilikeitverymuch,"shesaidinsuchaheartytone,thatTomcouldnotdoubtthegenuinenessofherpleasure。
"Gladofthat。Hopeyou'llbeaswellpleasedwithanotherengagementthat'scomingoutbeforelong";andwithanoddlaugh,TomcarriedSydneyofftohisden,leavingthegirlstotelegraphtooneanothertheawfulmessage,­;
"ItisMariaBailey。"
Howshemanagedtogetthroughthatevening,Pollyneverknew,yetitwasnotalongone,forateighto'clocksheslippedoutoftheroom,meaningtorunhomealone,andnotcompelanyonetoserveasescort。Butshedidnotsucceed,forasshestoodwarmingherrubbersatthedining-roomfire,wonderingpensivelyasshedidsoifMariaBaileyhadsmallfeet,andifTomeverputherrubbersonforher,thelittleovershoesweretakenoutofherhands,andTom'svoicesaid,reproachfully,­;
"Didyoureallymeantorunaway,andnotletmegohomewithyou?"
"I'mnotafraid;Ididn'twanttotakeyouaway,"beganPolly,secretlyhopingthatshedidn'tlooktoopleased。
"ButIliketobetakenaway。Why,it'sawholeyearsinceIwenthomewithyou;doyourememberthat?"saidTom,flappingtherubbersaboutwithoutanysignsofhaste。
"Doesitseemlong?"
"Everlasting!"
Pollymeanttosaythatquiteeasily,andsmileincredulouslyathisanswer;butinspiteofthecoquettishlittlerose-coloredhoodshewore,andwhichsheknewwasverybecoming,shedidnotlookorspeakgayly,andTomsawsomethinginthealteredfacethatmadehimsayhastily,­;
"I'mafraidyou'vebeendoingtoomuchthiswinter;youlooktiredout,Polly。"
"Oh,no!itsuitsmetobeverybusy,"andshebegantodragonherglovesasiftoproveit。
"Butitdoesn'tsuitmetohaveyougetthinandpale,youknow。"
Pollylookeduptothankhim,butneverdid,fortherewassomethingdeeperthangratitudeinthehonestblueeyes,thatcouldnothidethetruthentirely。Tomsawit,flushedalloverhisbrownface,anddroppingtherubberswithacrash,tookherhands,saying,inhisoldimpetuousway,­;
"Polly,Iwanttotellyousomething!"
"Yes,Iknow,we'vebeenexpectingit。Ihopeyou'llbeveryhappy,Tom;"andPollyshookhishandswithasmilethatwasmorepatheticthanafloodoftears。
"What!"criedTom,lookingasifhethoughtshehadlosthermind。
"Nedtoldusallabouther;hethoughtitwouldbeso,andwhenyouspokeofanotherengagement,weknewyoumeantyourown。"
"ButIdidn't!Ned'stheman;hetoldmetotellyou。It'sjustsettled。"
"IsitMaria?"criedPolly,holdingontoachairasiftobepreparedforanything。
"Ofcourse。Whoelseshoulditbe?"
"Hedidn'tsay­;youtalkedabouthermost­;andsowethought­;"
stammeredPolly,fallingintoasuddenflutter。
"ThatIwasinlove?Well,Iam,butnotwithher。"
"Oh!"andPollycaughtherbreathasifadashofcoldwaterhadfallenonher,forthemoreinearnestTomgrew,theblunterhebecame。
"DoyouwanttoknowthenameofthegirlI'velovedformorethanayear?Well,it'sPolly!"Ashespoke,Tomstretchedouthisarmstoher,withthesortofmuteeloquencethatcannotberesisted,andPollywentstraightintothem,withoutaword。
Nevermindwhathappenedforalittlebit。Lovescenes,ifgenuine,areindescribable;fortothosewhohaveenactedthem,themostelaboratedescriptionseemstame,andtothosewhohavenot,thesimplestpictureseemsoverdone。Soromancershadbetterletimaginationpaintforthemthatwhichisaboveallart,andleavetheirloverstothemselvesduringthehappiestminutesoftheirlives。
Beforelong,TomandPollyweresittingsidebyside,enjoyingtheblissfulstateofmindwhichusuallyfollowsthefirststepoutofourwork-a-dayworld,intotheglorifiedregionwhereinloversrapturouslyexistforamonthortwo。TomjustsatandlookedatPollyasifhefounditdifficulttobelievethatthewinterofhisdiscontenthadendedinthisgloriousspring。ButPolly,beingatruewoman,askedquestions,evenwhileshelaughedandcriedforjoy。
"Now,Tom,howcouldIknowyoulovedmewhenyouwentawayandneversaidaword?"shebegan,inatenderlyreproachfultone,thinkingofthehardyearshehadspent。
"AndhowcouldIhavethecouragetosayaword,whenIhadnothingonthefaceoftheearthtoofferyoubutmyworthlessself?"answeredTom,warmly。
"ThatwasallIwanted!"whisperedPolly,inatonewhichcausedhimtofeelthattheraceofangelswasnotentirelyextinct。
"I'vealwaysbeenfondofyou,myPolly,butIneverrealizedhowfondtilljustbeforeIwentaway。Iwasn'tfree,youknow,andbesidesIhadastrongimpressionthatyoulikedSydneyinspiteofthedamperwhichFanhintedyougavehimlastwinter。He'ssuchacapitalfellow,Ireallydon'tseehowyoucouldhelpit。"
"Itisstrange;Idon'tunderstanditmyself;butwomenarequeercreatures,andthere'snoaccountingfortheirtastes,"saidPolly,withaslylook,whichTomfullyappreciated。
"Youweresogoodtomethoselastdays,thatIcameverynearspeakingout,butcouldn'tbeartoseemtobeofferingyouapoor,disgracedsortoffellow,whomTrixwouldn'thave,andnooneseemedtothinkworthmuch。
'No,'Isaidtomyself,'Pollyoughttohavethebest;ifSydcangether,lethim,andIwon'tsayaword。I'lltrytobebetterworthyherfriendship,anyway;andperhaps,whenI'veprovedthatIcandosomething,andamnotashamedtowork,then,ifPollyisfree,Ishan'tbeafraidtotrymychance。'SoIheldmytongue,workedlikeahorse,satisfiedmyselfandothersthatIcouldgetmylivinghonestly,andthencamehometoseeiftherewasanyhopeforme。"
"AndIwaswaitingforyouallthetime,"saidasoftvoiceclosetohisshoulder;forPollywasmuchtouchedbyTom'smanlyeffortstodeserveher。
"Ididn'tmeantodoitthefirstminute,butlookaboutmealittle,andbesureSydwasallright。ButFan'snewssettledthatpoint,andjustnowthelookinmyPolly'sfacesettledtheother。Icouldn'twaitanotherminute,orletyoueither,andIcouldn'thelpstretchingoutmyarmstomylittlewife,Godblessher,thoughIknowIdon'tdeserveher。"
Tom'svoicegotlowerandlowerashespoke,andhisfacewasfullofanemotionofwhichheneednotbeashamed,foraverysincereloveennobledhim,makinghimhumble,whereashalloweraffectionwouldhavebeenproudofitssuccess。Pollyunderstoodthis,andfoundthehonest,heartyspeechofherlovermoreeloquentthanpoetryitself。Herhandstoleuptohischeek,andsheleanedherownconfidinglyagainsttheroughcoat,asshesaid,inherfranksimpleway,­;
"Tom,dear,don'tsaythat,asifIwasthebestgirlintheworld。
I'vegoteversomanyfaults,andIwantyoutoknowthemall,andhelpmecurethem,asyouhaveyourown。Waitinghasnotdoneusanyharm,andIloveyouallthebetterforyourtrial。ButI'mafraidyouryearhasbeenharderthanmine,youlooksomucholderandgraverthanwhenyouwentaway。Youneverwouldcomplain;butI'vehadafeelingthatyouweregoingthroughagooddealmorethananyofusguessed。"
"Prettytoughworkatfirst,Iown。Itwasallsonewandstrange,I
'mafraidIshouldn'thavestooditifithadnotbeenforNed。He'dlaughandsay'Pooh!'ifheheardmesayit,butit'strueneverthelessthathe'sagrandfellowandhelpedmethroughthefirstsixmonthslikea­;well,abrotherasheis。Therewasnoreasonwhyheshouldgooutofhiswaytobackupashiftlesspartylikeme,yethedid,andmademanythingseasyandsafethatwouldhavebeenconfoundedlyhardanddangerousifI'dbeenlefttomyself。TheonlywayIcanexplainitisthatit'safamilytrait,andasnaturaltothebrotherasitistothesister。"
"It'saShawtraittodothesame。ButtellmeaboutMaria;isNedreallyengagedtoher?"
"Verymuchso;you'llgetaletterfullofrapturestomorrow;hehadn'ttimetosendbyme,Icameoffinsuchahurry。Mariaisasensible,prettygirlandNedwillbeahappyoldfellow。"
"Whydidyouletusthinkitwasyou?"
"IonlyteasedFanalittle;IdidlikeMaria,forsheremindedmeofyousometimes,andwassuchakind,cosylittlewomanIcouldn'thelpenjoyinghersocietyafterahardday'swork。ButNedgotjealous,andthenIknewthathewasinearnest,soIlefthimaclearfield,andpromisednottobreatheawordtoanyonetillhehadgotaYesorNofromhisMaria。"
"IwishI'dknownit,"sighedPolly。"Peopleinlovealwaysdosuchstupidthings!"
"Sotheydo;forneitheryounorFangaveuspoorfellowstheleasthintaboutSyd,andthereI'vebeenhavingallsortsofscaresaboutyou。"
"Servesusright;brothersandsistersshouldn'thavesecretsfromeachother。"
"Weneverwillagain。Didyoumissmeverymuch?"
"Yes,Tom;very,verymuch。"
"MypatientlittlePolly!"
"Didyoureallycareformebeforeyouwent?"
"SeeifIdidn't;"andwithgreatprideTomproducedaportlypocket-bookstuffedwithbusiness-likedocumentsofamostimposingappearance,openedaprivatecompartment,andtookoutaworn-lookingpaper,unfoldeditcarefully,anddisplayedasmallbrownobjectwhichgaveoutafaintfragrance。
"That'stheroseyouputinthebirthdaycake,andnextweekwe'llhaveafreshoneinanotherjollylittlecakewhichyou'llmakeme;youleftitonthefloorofmydenthenightwetalkedthere,andI'vekeptiteversince。There'sloveandromanceforyou!"
Pollytouchedthelittlerelic,treasuredforayear,andsmiledtoreadthewords"MyPolly'srose,"scribbledunderthecrumblingleaves。
"Ididn'tknowyoucouldbesosentimental,"shesaid,lookingsopleasedthathedidnotregretconfessinghisfolly。
"IneverwastillIlovedyou,mydear,andI'mnotverybadyet,forIdon'twearmyposynextmyheart,butwhereIcanseeiteveryday,andsoneverforgetforwhomIamworking。Shouldn'twonderifthatbitofnonsensehadkeptmeeconomical,honest,andhardatit,forIneveropenedmypocket-bookthatIdidn'tthinkofyou。"
"That'slovely,Tom,"andPollyfounditsotouchingthatshefeltforherhandkerchief;butTomtookitaway,andmadeherlaughinsteadofcry,bysaying,inawheedlesometone,­;
"Idon'tbelieveyoudidasmuch,forallyourromance。Didyou,now?"
"Ifyouwon'tlaugh,I'llshowyoumytreasures。Ibeganfirst,andI'vewornthemlongest。"
Asshespoke,Pollydrewouttheoldlocket,openedit,andshowedthepictureTomgaveherinthebagofpeanutscutsmallandfittedinononesideontheotherwasacurlofreddishhairandablackbutton。HowTomlaughedwhenhesawthem!
"Youdon'tmeanyou'vekeptthatfrightfulguyofaboyallthistime?
Polly!Polly!youarethemostfaithful'loveress,'asMaudsays,thatwaseverknown。"
"Don'tflatteryourselfthatI'vewornitalltheseyears,sir;IonlyputitinlastspringbecauseIdidn'tdaretoaskforoneofthenewones。Thebuttoncameofftheoldcoatyouinsistedonwearingafterthefailure,asifitwasyourdutytolookasshabbyaspossible,andthecurlIstolefromMaud。Aren'twesilly?"
Hedidnotseemtothinkso,andafterashortpauseforrefreshments,Pollyturnedserious,andsaidanxiously,­;
"Whenmustyougobacktoyourhardwork?"
"Inaweekortwo;butitwon'tseemdrudgerynow,foryou'llwriteeveryday,andIshallfeelthatI'mworkingtogetahomeforyou。Thatwillgivemeaforty-man-power,andI'llpayupmydebtsandgetagoodstart,andthenNedandIwillbemarriedandgointopartnership,andwe'llallbethehappiest,busiestpeopleintheWest。"
"Itsoundsdelightful;butwon'tittakealongtime,Tom?"
"Onlyafewyears,andweneedn'twaitaminuteafterSydispaid,ifyoudon'tmindbeginningratherlowdown,Polly。"
"I'dratherworkupwithyou,thansitidlewhileyoutoilawayallalone。That'sthewayfatherandmotherdid,andIthinktheywereveryhappyinspiteofthepovertyandhardwork。"
"Thenwe'lldoitbyanotheryear,forImustgetmoresalarybeforeItakeyouawayfromagoodhomehere。Iwish,oh,Polly,howIwishI
hadahalfofthemoneyI'vewasted,tomakeyoucomfortable,now。"
"Nevermind,Idon'twantit;I'dratherhaveless,andknowyouearneditallyourself,"criedPolly,asTomstruckhishandonhiskneewithanacutepangofregretatthepowerhehadlost。
"It'slikeyoutosayit,andIwon'twasteanywordsbewailingmyself,becauseIwasafool。Wewillworkuptogether,mybravePolly,andyoushallyetbeproudofyourhusband,thoughheis'poorTomShaw。'"
Shewasassureofthatasifanoraclehadforetoldit,andwasnotdeceived;forthelovingheartthathadalwaysseen,believed,andtriedtostrengthenallgoodimpulsesinTom,waswellrepaidforitsinstinctivetrustbythehappinessoftheyearstocome。
"Yes,"shesaid,hopefully,"Iknowyouwillsucceed,forthebestthingamancanhave,isworkwithapurposeinit,andthewilltodoitheartily。"
"Thereisonebetterthing,Polly,"answeredTom,turningherfaceupalittle,thathemightseehisinspirationshininginhereyes。
"Whatisit,dear?"
"Agoodwomantoloveandhelphimallhislife,asyouwillme,pleaseGod。"
"Eventhoughsheisold-fashioned,"whisperedPolly,withhappyeyes,thebrighterfortheirtears,asshelookedupattheyoungman,who,throughher,hadcaughtaglimpseofthetruestsuccess,andwasnotashamedtooweittoloveandlabor,twobeautifuloldfashionsthatbeganlongago,withthefirstpairinEden。
LestanyofmyyoungreaderswhohavehonoredMaudwiththeirinterestshouldsufferthepangsofunsatisfiedcuriosityastoherfuture,IwilladdfortheirbenefitthatshedidnotmarryWill,butremainedabusy,livelyspinsterallherdays,andkepthouseforherfatherinthemostdelightfulmanner。
Will'sministerialdreamcametopassinthecourseoftime,however,andagentle,bright-eyedladyruledovertheparsonage,whomthereverendWilliamcalledhis"littleJane。"
Fartherintofuturityeventhisrashpendaresnotproceed,butpauseshere,concludinginthewordsofthedearoldfairytales,"Andsotheyweremarried,andalllivedhappilytilltheydied。"