AnAmericanTalebyCharlesBrockdenBrownFromVirtue'sblissfulpathsawayThedouble-tonguedaresuretostray;
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ThefollowingWorkisdeliveredtotheworldasthefirstofaseriesofperformances,whichthefavorablereceptionofthiswillinducetheWritertopublish。Hispurposeisneitherselfishnortemporary,butaimsattheillustrationofsomeimportantbranchesofthemoralconstitutionofman。Whetherthistalewillbeclassedwiththeordinaryorfrivoloussourcesofamusement,orberankedwiththefewproductionswhoseusefulnesssecurestothemalastingreputation,thereadermustbepermittedtodecide。
Theincidentsrelatedareextraordinaryandrare。Someofthem,perhaps,approachasnearlytothenatureofmiraclesascanbedonebythatwhichisnottrulymiraculous。Itishopedthatintelligentreaderswillnotdisapproveofthemannerinwhichappearancesaresolved,butthatthesolutionwillbefoundtocorrespondwiththeknownprinciplesofhumannature。
Thepowerwhichtheprincipalpersonissaidtopossesscanscarcelybedeniedtobereal。Itmustbeacknowledgedtobeextremelyrare;butnofact,equallyuncommon,issupportedbythesamestrengthofhistoricalevidence。
SomereadersmaythinktheconductoftheyoungerWielandimpossible。InsupportofitspossibilitytheWritermustappealtoPhysiciansandtomenconversantwiththelatentspringsandoccasionalperversionsofthehumanmind。Itwillnotbeobjectedthattheinstancesofsimilardelusionarerare,becauseitisthebusinessofmoralpainterstoexhibittheirsubjectinitsmostinstructiveandmemorableforms。Ifhistoryfurnishesoneparallelfact,itisasufficientvindicationoftheWriter;butmostreaderswillprobablyrecollectanauthenticcase,remarkablysimilartothatofWieland。
Itwillbenecessarytoadd,thatthisnarrativeisaddressed,inanepistolaryform,bytheLadywhosestoryitcontains,toasmallnumberoffriends,whosecuriosity,withregardtoit,hadbeengreatlyawakened。Itmaylikewisebementioned,thattheseeventstookplacebetweentheconclusionoftheFrenchandthebeginningoftherevolutionarywar。ThememoirsofCarwin,alludedtoattheconclusionofthework,willbepublishedorsuppressedaccordingtothereceptionwhichisgiventothepresentattempt。
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September3,1798。
ChapterI
Ifeellittlereluctanceincomplyingwithyourrequest。Youknownotfullythecauseofmysorrows。Youareastrangertothedepthofmydistresses。Henceyoureffortsatconsolationmustnecessarilyfail。YetthetalethatIamgoingtotellisnotintendedasaclaimuponyoursympathy。Inthemidstofmydespair,IdonotdisdaintocontributewhatlittleIcantothebenefitofmankind。Iacknowledgeyourrighttobeinformedoftheeventsthathavelatelyhappenedinmyfamily。Makewhatuseofthetaleyoushallthinkproper。Ifitbecommunicatedtotheworld,itwillinculcatethedutyofavoidingdeceit。Itwillexemplifytheforceofearlyimpressions,andshowtheimmeasurableevilsthatflowfromanerroneousorimperfectdiscipline。
Mystateisnotdestituteoftranquillity。Thesentimentthatdictatesmyfeelingsisnothope。Futurityhasnopowerovermythoughts。ToallthatistocomeIamperfectlyindifferent。Withregardtomyself,Ihavenothingmoretofear。Fatehasdoneitsworst。Henceforth,Iamcalloustomisfortune。
IaddressnosupplicationtotheDeity。Thepowerthatgovernsthecourseofhumanaffairshaschosenhispath。Thedecreethatascertainedtheconditionofmylife,admitsofnorecal。Nodoubtitsquareswiththemaximsofeternalequity。
Thatisneithertobequestionednordeniedbyme。Itsufficesthatthepastisexemptfrommutation。Thestormthattoreupourhappiness,andchangedintodrearinessanddesertthebloomingsceneofourexistence,islulledintogrimrepose;butnotuntilthevictimwastransfixedandmangled;tilleveryobstaclewasdissipatedbyitsrage;tilleveryremnantofgoodwaswrestedfromourgraspandexterminated。
Howwillyourwonder,andthatofyourcompanions,beexcitedbymystory!Everysentimentwillyieldtoyouramazement。Ifmytestimonywerewithoutcorroborations,youwouldrejectitasincredible。Theexperienceofnohumanbeingcanfurnishaparallel:ThatI,beyondtherestofmankind,shouldbereservedforadestinywithoutalleviation,andwithoutexample!
Listentomynarrative,andthensaywhatitisthathasmademedeservetobeplacedonthisdreadfuleminence,if,indeed,everyfacultybenotsuspendedinwonderthatIamstillalive,andamabletorelateit。
Myfather'sancestrywasnobleonthepaternalside;buthismotherwasthedaughterofamerchant。Mygrand-fatherwasayoungerbrother,andanativeofSaxony。Hewasplaced,whenhehadreachedthesuitableage,ataGermancollege。Duringthevacations,heemployedhimselfintraversingtheneighbouringterritory。OnoneoccasionitwashisfortunetovisitHamburg。
HeformedanacquaintancewithLeonardWeise,amerchantofthatcity,andwasafrequentguestathishouse。Themerchanthadanonlydaughter,forwhomhisguestspeedilycontractedanaffection;and,inspiteofparentalmenacesandprohibitions,he,indueseason,becameherhusband。
Bythisacthemortallyoffendedhisrelations。
Thenceforwardhewasentirelydisownedandrejectedbythem。
Theyrefusedtocontributeanythingtohissupport。Allintercourseceased,andhereceivedfromthemmerelythattreatmenttowhichanabsolutestranger,ordetestedenemy,wouldbeentitled。
Hefoundanasyluminthehouseofhisnewfather,whosetemperwaskind,andwhosepridewasflatteredbythisalliance。
Thenobilityofhisbirthwasputinthebalanceagainsthispoverty。Weiseconceivedhimself,onthewhole,tohaveactedwiththehighestdiscretion,inthusdisposingofhischild。Mygrand-fatherfounditincumbentonhimtosearchoutsomemodeofindependentsubsistence。Hisyouthhadbeeneagerlydevotedtoliteratureandmusic。Thesehadhithertobeencultivatedmerelyassourcesofamusement。Theywerenowconvertedintothemeansofgain。AtthisperiodtherewerefewworksoftasteintheSaxondialect。MyancestormaybeconsideredasthefounderoftheGermanTheatre。Themodernpoetofthesamenameissprungfromthesamefamily,and,perhaps,surpassesbutlittle,inthefruitfulnessofhisinvention,orthesoundnessofhistaste,theelderWieland。Hislifewasspentinthecompositionofsonatasanddramaticpieces。Theywerenotunpopular,butmerelyaffordedhimascantysubsistence。Hediedinthebloomofhislife,andwasquicklyfollowedtothegravebyhiswife。Theironlychildwastakenundertheprotectionofthemerchant。AtanearlyagehewasapprenticedtoaLondontrader,andpassedsevenyearsofmercantileservitude。
Myfatherwasnotfortunateinthecharacterofhimunderwhosecarehewasnowplaced。Hewastreatedwithrigor,andfullemploymentwasprovidedforeveryhourofhistime。Hisdutieswerelaboriousandmechanical。Hehadbeeneducatedwithaviewtothisprofession,and,therefore,wasnottormentedwithunsatisfieddesires。Hedidnotholdhispresentoccupationsinabhorrence,becausetheywithheldhimfrompathsmorefloweryandmoresmooth,buthefoundinunintermittedlabour,andinthesternnessofhismaster,sufficientoccasionsfordiscontent。Noopportunitiesofrecreationwereallowedhim。Hespentallhistimepentupinagloomyapartment,ortraversingnarrowandcrowdedstreets。Hisfoodwascoarse,andhislodginghumble。
Hisheartgraduallycontractedahabitofmoroseandgloomyreflection。Hecouldnotaccuratelydefinewhatwaswantingtohishappiness。Hewasnottorturedbycomparisonsdrawnbetweenhisownsituationandthatofothers。Hisstatewassuchassuitedhisageandhisviewsastofortune。Hedidnotimaginehimselftreatedwithextraordinaryorunjustifiablerigor。Inthisrespecthesupposedtheconditionofothers,boundlikehimselftomercantileservice,toresemblehisown;yeteveryengagementwasirksome,andeveryhourtediousinitslapse。
InthisstateofmindhechancedtolightuponabookwrittenbyoneoftheteachersoftheAlbigenses,orFrenchProtestants。
Heentertainednorelishforbooks,andwaswhollyunconsciousofanypowertheypossessedtodelightorinstruct。Thisvolumehadlainforyearsinacornerofhisgarret,halfburiedindustandrubbish。Hehadmarkeditasitlay;hadthrownit,ashisoccasionsrequired,fromonespottoanother;buthadfeltnoinclinationtoexamineitscontents,oreventoinquirewhatwasthesubjectofwhichittreated。
OneSundayafternoon,beinginducedtoretireforafewminutestohisgarret,hiseyewasattractedbyapageofthisbook,which,bysomeaccident,hadbeenopenedandplacedfullinhisview。Hewasseatedontheedgeofhisbed,andwasemployedinrepairingarentinsomepartofhisclothes。Hiseyeswerenotconfinedtohiswork,butoccasionallywandering,lightedatlengthuponthepage。Thewords"Seekandyeshallfind,"werethosethatfirstofferedthemselvestohisnotice。
Hiscuriositywasrousedbythesesofarastoprompthimtoproceed。Assoonashefinishedhiswork,hetookupthebookandturnedtothefirstpage。Thefurtherheread,themoreinducementhefoundtocontinue,andheregrettedthedeclineofthelightwhichobligedhimforthepresenttocloseit。
ThebookcontainedanexpositionofthedoctrineofthesectofCamissards,andanhistoricalaccountofitsorigin。Hismindwasinastatepeculiarlyfittedforthereceptionofdevotionalsentiments。Thecravingwhichhadhauntedhimwasnowsuppliedwithanobject。Hismindwasatnolossforathemeofmeditation。Ondaysofbusiness,heroseatthedawn,andretiredtohischambernottilllateatnight。Henowsuppliedhimselfwithcandles,andemployedhisnocturnalandSundayhoursinstudyingthisbook。It,ofcourse,aboundedwithallusionstotheBible。Allitsconclusionswerededucedfromthesacredtext。Thiswasthefountain,beyondwhichitwasunnecessarytotracethestreamofreligioustruth;butitwashisdutytotraceitthusfar。
ABiblewaseasilyprocured,andheardentlyenteredonthestudyofit。Hisunderstandinghadreceivedaparticulardirection。Allhisreverieswerefashionedinthesamemould。
Hisprogresstowardstheformationofhiscreedwasrapid。
EveryfactandsentimentinthisbookwereviewedthroughamediumwhichthewritingsoftheCamissardapostlehadsuggested。Hisconstructionsofthetextwerehasty,andformedonanarrowscale。Everythingwasviewedinadisconnectedposition。Oneactionandonepreceptwerenotemployedtoillustrateandrestrictthemeaningofanother。Hencearoseathousandscruplestowhichhehadhithertobeenastranger。Hewasalternatelyagitatedbyfearandbyecstacy。Heimaginedhimselfbesetbythesnaresofaspiritualfoe,andthathissecuritylayinceaselesswatchfulnessandprayer。
Hismorals,whichhadneverbeenloose,werenowmodelledbyastricterstandard。Theempireofreligiousdutyextendeditselftohislooks,gestures,andphrases。Alllevitiesofspeech,andnegligencesofbehaviour,wereproscribed。Hisairwasmournfulandcontemplative。Helabouredtokeepaliveasentimentoffear,andabeliefoftheawe-creatingpresenceoftheDeity。Ideasforeigntothisweresedulouslyexcluded。TosuffertheirintrusionwasacrimeagainsttheDivineMajestyinexpiablebutbydaysandweeksofthekeenestagonies。
Nomaterialvariationhadoccurredinthelapseoftwoyears。
Everydayconfirmedhiminhispresentmodesofthinkingandacting。Itwastobeexpectedthatthetideofhisemotionswouldsometimesrecede,thatintervalsofdespondencyanddoubtwouldoccur;butthesegraduallyweremorerare,andofshorterduration;andhe,atlast,arrivedatastateconsiderablyuniforminthisrespect。
Hisapprenticeshipwasnowalmostexpired。Onhisarrivalofagehebecameentitled,bythewillofmygrand-father,toasmallsum。Thissumwouldhardlysufficetosethimafloatasatraderinhispresentsituation,andhehadnothingtoexpectfromthegenerosityofhismaster。ResidenceinEnglandhad,besides,becomealmostimpossible,onaccountofhisreligioustenets。Inadditiontothesemotivesforseekinganewhabitation,therewasanotherofthemostimperiousandirresistablenecessity。Hehadimbibedanopinionthatitwashisdutytodisseminatethetruthsofthegospelamongtheunbelievingnations。Hewasterrifiedatfirstbytheperilsandhardshipstowhichthelifeofamissionaryisexposed。
Thiscowardicemadehimdiligentintheinventionofobjectionsandexcuses;buthefounditimpossiblewhollytoshakeoffthebeliefthatsuchwastheinjunctionofhisduty。Thebelief,aftereverynewconflictwithhispassions,acquirednewstrength;and,atlength,heformedaresolutionofcomplyingwithwhathedeemedthewillofheaven。
TheNorth-AmericanIndiansnaturallypresentedthemselvesasthefirstobjectsforthisspeciesofbenevolence。Assoonashisservitudeexpired,heconvertedhislittlefortuneintomoney,andembarkedforPhiladelphia。Herehisfearswererevived,andanearersurveyofsavagemannersoncemoreshookhisresolution。Forawhileherelinquishedhispurpose,andpurchasingafarmonSchuylkill,withinafewmilesofthecity,sethimselfdowntothecultivationofit。Thecheapnessofland,andtheserviceofAfricanslaves,whichweretheningeneraluse,gavehimwhowaspoorinEuropealltheadvantagesofwealth。Hepassedfourteenyearsinathriftyandlaboriousmanner。Inthistimenewobjects,newemployments,andnewassociatesappearedtohavenearlyobliteratedthedevoutimpressionsofhisyouth。Henowbecameacquaintedwithawomanofameekandquietdisposition,andofslenderacquirementslikehimself。Heprofferedhishandandwasaccepted。
Hispreviousindustryhadnowenabledhimtodispensewithpersonallabour,anddirectattentiontohisownconcerns。Heenjoyedleisure,andwasvisitedafreshbydevotionalcontemplation。Thereadingofthescriptures,andotherreligiousbooks,becameoncemorehisfavoriteemployment。Hisancientbeliefrelativetotheconversionofthesavagetribes,wasrevivedwithuncommonenergy。Totheformerobstacleswerenowaddedthepleadingsofparentalandconjugallove。Thestrugglewaslongandvehement;buthissenseofdutywouldnotbestifledorenfeebled,andfinallytriumphedovereveryimpediment。
Hiseffortswereattendedwithnopermanentsuccess。Hisexhortationshadsometimesatemporarypower,butmorefrequentlywererepelledwithinsultandderision。Inpursuitofthisobjectheencounteredthemostimminentperils,andunderwentincrediblefatigues,hunger,sickness,andsolitude。
Thelicenceofsavagepassion,andtheartificesofhisdepravedcountrymen,allopposedthemselvestohisprogress。Hiscouragedidnotforsakehimtillthereappearednoreasonablegroundtohopeforsuccess。Hedesistednottillhisheartwasrelievedfromthesupposedobligationtopersevere。Withhisconstitutionsomewhatdecayed,heatlengthreturnedtohisfamily。Anintervaloftranquillitysucceeded。Hewasfrugal,regular,andstrictintheperformanceofdomesticduties。Healliedhimselfwithnosect,becauseheperfectlyagreedwithnone。Socialworshipisthatbywhichtheyarealldistinguished;butthisarticlefoundnoplaceinhiscreed。Herigidlyinterpretedthatpreceptwhichenjoinsus,whenweworship,toretireintosolitude,andshutouteveryspeciesofsociety。Accordingtohimdevotionwasnotonlyasilentoffice,butmustbeperformedalone。Anhouratnoon,andanhouratmidnightwerethusappropriated。
Atthedistanceofthreehundredyardsfromhishouse,onthetopofarockwhosesidesweresteep,rugged,andencumberedwithdwarfcedarsandstonyasperities,hebuiltwhattoacommoneyewouldhaveseemedasummer-house。Theeasternvergeofthisprecipicewassixtyfeetabovetheriverwhichflowedatitsfoot。Theviewbeforeitconsistedofatransparentcurrent,fluctuatingandripplinginarockychannel,andboundedbyarisingsceneofcornfieldsandorchards。Theedificewasslightandairy。Itwasnomorethanacirculararea,twelvefeetindiameter,whoseflooringwastherock,clearedofmossandshrubs,andexactlylevelled,edgedbytwelveTuscancolumns,andcoveredbyanundulatingdome。Myfatherfurnishedthedimensionsandoutlines,butallowedtheartistwhomheemployedtocompletethestructureonhisownplan。Itwaswithoutseat,table,orornamentofanykind。
ThiswasthetempleofhisDeity。Twiceintwenty-fourhoursherepairedhither,unaccompaniedbyanyhumanbeing。Nothingbutphysicalinabilitytomovewasallowedtoobstructorpostponethisvisit。Hedidnotexactfromhisfamilycompliancewithhisexample。Fewmen,equallysincereintheirfaith,wereassparingintheircensuresandrestrictions,withrespecttotheconductofothers,asmyfather。Thecharacterofmymotherwasnolessdevout;buthereducationhadhabituatedhertoadifferentmodeofworship。Thelonelinessoftheirdwellingpreventedherfromjoininganyestablishedcongregation;butshewaspunctualintheofficesofprayer,andintheperformanceofhymnstoherSaviour,afterthemannerofthedisciplesofZinzendorf。Myfatherrefusedtointerfereinherarrangements。Hisownsystemwasembracednot,accuratelyspeaking,becauseitwasthebest,butbecauseithadbeenexpresslyprescribedtohim。Othermodes,ifpractisedbyotherpersons,mightbeequallyacceptable。
Hisdeportmenttootherswasfullofcharityandmildness。
Asadnessperpetuallyoverspreadhisfeatures,butwasunmingledwithsternnessordiscontent。Thetonesofhisvoice,hisgestures,hisstepswereallintranquilunison。Hisconductwascharacterisedbyacertainforbearanceandhumility,whichsecuredtheesteemofthosetowhomhistenetsweremostobnoxious。Theymightcallhimafanaticandadreamer,buttheycouldnotdenytheirvenerationtohisinvinciblecandourandinvariableintegrity。Hisownbeliefofrectitudewasthefoundationofhishappiness。This,however,wasdestinedtofindanend。
Suddenlythesadnessthatconstantlyattendedhimwasdeepened。Sighs,andeventears,sometimesescapedhim。Totheexpostulationsofhiswifeheseldomansweredanything。Whenhedesignedtobecommunicative,hehintedthathispeaceofmindwasflown,inconsequenceofdeviationfromhisduty。A
commandhadbeenlaiduponhim,whichhehaddelayedtoperform。
Hefeltasifacertainperiodofhesitationandreluctancehadbeenallowedhim,butthatthisperiodwaspassed。Hewasnolongerpermittedtoobey。Thedutyassignedtohimwastransferred,inconsequenceofhisdisobedience,toanother,andallthatremainedwastoendurethepenalty。
Hedidnotdescribethispenalty。Itappearedtobenothingmoreforsometimethanasenseofwrong。Thiswassufficientlyacute,andwasaggravatedbythebeliefthathisoffencewasincapableofexpiation。Noonecouldcontemplatetheagonieswhichheseemedtosufferwithoutthedeepestcompassion。Time,insteadoflighteningtheburthen,appearedtoaddtoit。Atlengthhehintedtohiswife,thathisendwasnear。Hisimaginationdidnotprefigurethemodeorthetimeofhisdecease,butwasfraughtwithanincurablepersuasionthathisdeathwasathand。Hewaslikewisehauntedbythebeliefthatthekindofdeaththatawaitedhimwasstrangeandterrible。
Hisanticipationswerethusfarvagueandindefinite;buttheysufficedtopoisoneverymomentofhisbeing,anddevotehimtoceaselessanguish。
ChapterII
EarlyinthemorningofasultrydayinAugust,heleftMettingen,togotothecity。HehadseldompassedadayfromhomesincehisreturnfromtheshoresoftheOhio。Someurgentengagementsatthistimeexisted,whichwouldnotadmitoffurtherdelay。Hereturnedintheevening,butappearedtobegreatlyoppressedwithfatigue。Hissilenceanddejectionwerelikewiseinamorethanordinarydegreeconspicuous。Mymother'sbrother,whoseprofessionwasthatofasurgeon,chancedtospendthisnightatourhouse。ItwasfromhimthatIhavefrequentlyreceivedanexactaccountofthemournfulcatastrophethatfollowed。
Astheeveningadvanced,myfather'sinquietudesincreased。
Hesatwithhisfamilyasusual,buttooknopartintheirconversation。Heappearedfullyengrossedbyhisownreflections。Occasionallyhiscountenanceexhibitedtokensofalarm;hegazedstedfastlyandwildlyattheceiling;andtheexertionsofhiscompanionswerescarcelysufficienttointerrupthisreverie。Onrecoveringfromthesefits,heexpressednosurprize;butpressinghishandtohishead,complained,inatremulousandterrifiedtone,thathisbrainwasscorchedtocinders。Hewouldthenbetraymarksofinsupportableanxiety。
Myuncleperceived,byhispulse,thathewasindisposed,butinnoalarmingdegree,andascribedappearanceschieflytotheworkingsofhismind。Heexhortedhimtorecollectionandcomposure,butinvain。Atthehourofreposehereadilyretiredtohischamber。Atthepersuasionofmymotherheevenundressedandwenttobed。Nothingcouldabatehisrestlessness。Hecheckedhertenderexpostulationswithsomesternness。"Besilent,"saidhe,"forthatwhichIfeelthereisbutonecure,andthatwillshortlycome。Youcanhelpmenothing。Looktoyourowncondition,andpraytoGodtostrengthenyouunderthecalamitiesthatawaityou。""WhatamItofear?"sheanswered。"Whatterribledisasterisitthatyouthinkof?""Peace——asyetIknowitnotmyself,butcomeitwill,andshortly。"Sherepeatedherinquiriesanddoubts;buthesuddenlyputanendtothediscourse,byasterncommandtobesilent。
Shehadneverbeforeknownhiminthismood。Hithertoallwasbenigninhisdeportment。Herheartwaspiercedwithsorrowatthecontemplationofthischange。Shewasutterlyunabletoaccountforit,ortofiguretoherselfthespeciesofdisasterthatwasmenaced。
Contrarytocustom,thelamp,insteadofbeingplacedonthehearth,wasleftuponthetable。Overitagainstthewalltherehungasmallclock,socontrivedastostrikeaveryhardstrokeattheendofeverysixthhour。Thatwhichwasnowapproachingwasthesignalforretiringtothefaneatwhichheaddressedhisdevotions。Longhabithadoccasionedhimtobealwaysawakeatthishour,andthetollwasinstantlyobeyed。
Nowfrequentandanxiousglanceswerecastattheclock。Notasinglemovementoftheindexappearedtoescapehisnotice。
Asthehourvergedtowardstwelvehisanxietyvisiblyaugmented。
Thetrepidationsofmymotherkeptpacewiththoseofherhusband;butshewasintimidatedintosilence。Allthatwaslefttoherwastowatcheverychangeofhisfeatures,andgiveventtohersympathyintears。
Atlengththehourwasspent,andtheclocktolled。Thesoundappearedtocommunicateashocktoeverypartofmyfather'sframe。Heroseimmediately,andthrewoverhimselfaloosegown。Eventhisofficewasperformedwithdifficulty,forhisjointstrembled,andhisteethchatteredwithdismay。Atthishourhisdutycalledhimtotherock,andmymothernaturallyconcludedthatitwasthitherheintendedtorepair。
Yettheseincidentsweresouncommon,astofillherwithastonishmentandforeboding。Shesawhimleavetheroom,andheardhisstepsastheyhastilydescendedthestairs。Shehalfresolvedtoriseandpursuehim,butthewildnessoftheschemequicklysuggesteditself。Hewasgoingtoaplacewhithernopoweronearthcouldinducehimtosufferanattendant。
Thewindowofherchamberlookedtowardtherock。Theatmospherewasclearandcalm,buttheedificecouldnotbediscoveredatthatdistancethroughthedusk。Mymother'sanxietywouldnotallowhertoremainwhereshewas。Sherose,andseatedherselfatthewindow。Shestrainedhersighttogetaviewofthedome,andofthepaththatledtoit。Thefirstpainteditselfwithsufficientdistinctnessonherfancy,butwasundistinguishablebytheeyefromtherockymassonwhichitwaserected。Thesecondcouldbeimperfectlyseen;butherhusbandhadalreadypassed,orhadtakenadifferentdirection。
Whatwasitthatshefeared?Somedisasterimpendedoverherhusbandorherself。Hehadpredictedevils,butprofessedhimselfignorantofwhatnaturetheywere。Whenweretheytocome?Wasthisnight,orthishourtowitnesstheaccomplishment?Shewastorturedwithimpatience,anduncertainty。Allherfearswereatpresentlinkedtohisperson,andshegazedattheclock,withnearlyasmucheagernessasmyfatherhaddone,inexpectationofthenexthour。
Anhalfhourpassedawayinthisstateofsuspence。Hereyeswerefixedupontherock;suddenlyitwasilluminated。Alightproceedingfromtheedifice,madeeverypartofthescenevisible。Agleamdiffuseditselfovertheintermediatespace,andinstantlyaloudreport,liketheexplosionofamine,followed。Sheutteredaninvoluntaryshriek,butthenewsoundsthatgreetedherear,quicklyconqueredhersurprise。Theywerepiercingshrieks,andutteredwithoutintermission。Thegleamswhichhaddiffusedthemselvesfarandwidewereinamomentwithdrawn,buttheinterioroftheedificewasfilledwithrays。
Thefirstsuggestionwasthatapistolwasdischarged,andthatthestructurewasonfire。Shedidnotallowherselftimetomeditateasecondthought,butrushedintotheentryandknockedloudlyatthedoorofherbrother'schamber。Myunclehadbeenpreviouslyrousedbythenoise,andinstantlyflewtothewindow。Healsoimaginedwhathesawtobefire。Theloudandvehementshriekswhichsucceededthefirstexplosion,seemedtobeaninvocationofsuccour。Theincidentwasinexplicable;
buthecouldnotfailtoperceivetheproprietyofhasteningtothespot。Hewasunboltingthedoor,whenhissister'svoicewasheardontheoutsideconjuringhimtocomeforth。
Heobeyedthesummonswithallthespeedinhispower。Hestoppednottoquestionher,buthurrieddownstairsandacrossthemeadowwhichlaybetweenthehouseandtherock。Theshriekswerenolongertobeheard;butablazinglightwasclearlydiscerniblebetweenthecolumnsofthetemple。
Irregularsteps,hewninthestone,ledhimtothesummit。Onthreesides,thisedificetouchedtheveryvergeofthecliff。
Onthefourthside,whichmightberegardedasthefront,therewasanareaofsmallextent,towhichtherudestaircaseconductedyou。Myunclespeedilygainedthisspot。Hisstrengthwasforamomentexhaustedbyhishaste。Hepausedtoresthimself。Meanwhilehebentthemostvigilantattentiontowardstheobjectbeforehim。
Withinthecolumnshebeheldwhathecouldnobetterdescribe,thanbysayingthatitresembledacloudimpregnatedwithlight。Ithadthebrightnessofflame,butwaswithoutitsupwardmotion。Itdidnotoccupythewholearea,androsebutafewfeetabovethefloor。Nopartofthebuildingwasonfire。Thisappearancewasastonishing。Heapproachedthetemple。Ashewentforwardthelightretired,and,whenheputhisfeetwithintheapartment,utterlyvanished。Thesuddennessofthistransitionincreasedthedarknessthatsucceededinatenfolddegree。Fearandwonderrenderedhimpowerless。Anoccurrencelikethis,inaplaceassignedtodevotion,wasadaptedtointimidatethestoutestheart。
Hiswanderingthoughtswererecalledbythegroansofonenearhim。Hissightgraduallyrecovereditspower,andhewasabletodiscernmyfatherstretchedonthefloor。Atthatmoment,mymotherandservantsarrivedwithalanthorn,andenabledmyuncletoexaminemorecloselythisscene。Myfather,whenheleftthehouse,besidesalooseuppervestandslippers,woreashirtanddrawers。Nowhewasnaked,hisskinthroughoutthegreaterpartofhisbodywasscorchedandbruised。Hisrightarmexhibitedmarksasofhavingbeenstruckbysomeheavybody。Hisclotheshadbeenremoved,anditwasnotimmediatelyperceivedthattheywerereducedtoashes。Hisslippersandhishairwereuntouched。
Hewasremovedtohischamber,andtherequisiteattentionpaidtohiswounds,whichgraduallybecamemorepainful。A
mortificationspeedilysheweditselfinthearm,whichhadbeenmosthurt。Soonafter,theotherwoundedpartsexhibitedthelikeappearance。
Immediatelysubsequenttothisdisaster,myfatherseemednearlyinastateofinsensibility。Hewaspassiveundereveryoperation。Hescarcelyopenedhiseyes,andwaswithdifficultyprevailedupontoanswerthequestionsthatwereputtohim。Byhisimperfectaccount,itappeared,thatwhileengagedinsilentorisons,withthoughtsfullofconfusionandanxiety,afaintgleamsuddenlyshotathwarttheapartment。Hisfancyimmediatelypicturedtoitself,apersonbearingalamp。Itseemedtocomefrombehind。Hewasintheactofturningtoexaminethevisitant,whenhisrightarmreceivedablowfromaheavyclub。Atthesameinstant,averybrightsparkwasseentolightuponhisclothes。Inamoment,thewholewasreducedtoashes。Thiswasthesumoftheinformationwhichhechosetogive。Therewassomewhatinhismannerthatindicatedanimperfecttale。Myunclewasinclinedtobelievethathalfthetruthhadbeensuppressed。
Meanwhile,thediseasethuswonderfullygenerated,betrayedmoreterriblesymptoms。Feveranddeliriumterminatedinlethargicslumber,which,inthecourseoftwohours,gaveplacetodeath。Yetnottillinsupportableexhalationsandcrawlingputrefactionhaddrivenfromhischamberandthehouseeveryonewhomtheirdutydidnotdetain。
Suchwastheendofmyfather。Nonesurelywasevermoremysterious。Whenwerecollecthisgloomyanticipationsandunconquerableanxiety;thesecurityfromhumanmalicewhichhischaracter,theplace,andtheconditionofthetimes,mightbesupposedtoconfer;thepurityandcloudlessnessoftheatmosphere,whichrendereditimpossiblethatlightningwasthecause;whataretheconclusionsthatwemustform?
Theprelusivegleam,theblowuponhisarm,thefatalspark,theexplosionheardsofar,thefierycloudthatenvironedhim,withoutdetrimenttothestructure,thoughcomposedofcombustiblematerials,thesuddenvanishingofthiscloudatmyuncle'sapproach——whatistheinferencetobedrawnfromthesefacts?Theirtruthcannotbedoubted。Myuncle'stestimonyispeculiarlyworthyofcredit,becausenoman'stemperismoresceptical,andhisbeliefisunalterablyattachedtonaturalcauses。
Iwasatthistimeachildofsixyearsofage。Theimpressionsthatwerethenmadeuponme,canneverbeeffaced。
Iwasillqualifiedtojudgerespectingwhatwasthenpassing;
butasIadvancedinage,andbecamemorefullyacquaintedwiththesefacts,theyoftenerbecamethesubjectofmythoughts。
Theirresemblancetorecenteventsrevivedthemwithnewforceinmymemory,andmadememoreanxioustoexplainthem。Wasthisthepenaltyofdisobedience?thisthestrokeofavindictiveandinvisiblehand?IsitafreshproofthattheDivineRulerinterferesinhumanaffairs,meditatesanend,selects,andcommissionshisagents,andenforces,byunequivocalsanctions,submissiontohiswill?Or,wasitmerelytheirregularexpansionofthefluidthatimpartswarmthtoourheartandourblood,causedbythefatigueoftheprecedingday,orflowing,byestablishedlaws,fromtheconditionofhisthoughts?*
*Acase,initssymptomsexactlyparalleltothis,ispublishedinoneoftheJournalsofFlorence。See,likewise,similarcasesreportedbyMessrs。MerilleandMuraire,inthe"JournaldeMedicine,"forFebruaryandMay,1783。TheresearchesofMaffeiandFontanahavethrownsomelightuponthissubject。
ChapterIII
Theshockwhichthisdisastrousoccurrenceoccasionedtomymother,wasthefoundationofadiseasewhichcarriedher,inafewmonths,tothegrave。Mybrotherandmyselfwerechildrenatthistime,andwerenowreducedtotheconditionoforphans。
Thepropertywhichourparentsleftwasbynomeansinconsiderable。Itwasentrustedtofaithfulhands,tillweshouldarriveatasuitableage。Meanwhile,oureducationwasassignedtoamaidenauntwhoresidedinthecity,andwhosetendernessmadeusinashorttimeceasetoregretthatwehadlostamother。
Theyearsthatsucceededweretranquilandhappy。Ourlivesweremolestedbyfewofthosecaresthatareincidenttochildhood。Byaccidentmorethandesign,theindulgenceandyieldingtemperofourauntwasmingledwithresolutionandstedfastness。Sheseldomdeviatedintoeitherextremeofrigourorlenity。Oursocialpleasuresweresubjecttonounreasonablerestraints。Wewereinstructedinmostbranchesofusefulknowledge,andweresavedfromthecorruptionandtyrannyofcollegesandboarding-schools。
Ourcompanionswerechieflyselectedfromthechildrenofourneighbours。Betweenoneoftheseandmybrother,therequicklygrewthemostaffectionateintimacy。HernamewasCatharinePleyel。Shewasrich,beautiful,andcontrivedtoblendthemostbewitchingsoftnesswiththemostexuberantvivacity。Thetiebywhichmybrotherandshewereunited,seemedtoaddforcetothelovewhichIboreher,andwhichwasamplyreturned。
Betweenherandmyselftherewaseverycircumstancetendingtoproduceandfosterfriendship。Oursexandagewerethesame。
Welivedwithinsightofeachother'sabode。Ourtemperswereremarkablycongenial,andthesuperintendantsofoureducationnotonlyprescribedtousthesamepursuits,butallowedustocultivatethemtogether。
Everydayaddedstrengthtothetriplebondsthatunitedus。
Wegraduallywithdrewourselvesfromthesocietyofothers,andfoundeverymomentirksomethatwasnotdevotedtoeachother。
Mybrother'sadvanceinagemadenochangeinoursituation。Itwasdeterminedthathisprofessionshouldbeagriculture。Hisfortuneexemptedhimfromthenecessityofpersonallabour。Thetasktobeperformedbyhimwasnothingmorethansuperintendance。Theskillthatwasdemandedbythiswasmerelytheoretical,andwasfurnishedbycasualinspection,orbyclosetstudy。Theattentionthatwaspaidtothissubjectdidnotsecludehimforanylongtimefromus,onwhomtimehadnoothereffectthantoaugmentourimpatienceintheabsenceofeachotherandofhim。Ourtasks,ourwalks,ourmusic,wereseldomperformedbutineachother'scompany。
ItwaseasytoseethatCatharineandmybrotherwerebornforeachother。Thepassionwhichtheymutuallyentertainedquicklybrokethoseboundswhichextremeyouthhadsettoit;
confessionsweremadeorextorted,andtheirunionwaspostponedonlytillmybrotherhadpassedhisminority。Thepreviouslapseoftwoyearswasconstantlyandusefullyemployed。
Omybrother!ButthetaskIhavesetmyselfletmeperformwithsteadiness。Thefelicityofthatperiodwasmarredbynogloomyanticipations。Thefuture,likethepresent,wasserene。
Timewassupposedtohaveonlynewdelightsinstore。Imeannottodwellonpreviousincidentslongerthanisnecessarytoillustrateorexplainthegreateventsthathavesincehappened。
Thenuptialdayatlengtharrived。Mybrothertookpossessionofthehouseinwhichhewasborn,andherethelongprotractedmarriagewassolemnized。
Myfather'spropertywasequallydividedbetweenus。Aneatdwelling,situatedonthebankoftheriver,threequartersofamilefrommybrother's,wasnowoccupiedbyme。Thesedomainswerecalled,fromthenameofthefirstpossessor,Mettingen。
Icanscarcelyaccountformyrefusingtotakeupmyabodewithhim,unlessitwerefromadispositiontobeaneconomistofpleasure。Self-denial,seasonablyexercised,isonemeansofenhancingourgratifications。Iwas,beside,desirousofadministeringafund,andregulatinganhousehold,ofmyown。
Theshortdistanceallowedustoexchangevisitsasoftenaswepleased。Thewalkfromonemansiontotheotherwasnoundelightfulpreludetoourinterviews。Iwassometimestheirvisitant,andthey,asfrequently,weremyguests。
Oureducationhadbeenmodelledbynoreligiousstandard。Wewerelefttotheguidanceofourownunderstanding,andthecasualimpressionswhichsocietymightmakeuponus。Myfriend'stemper,aswellasmyown,exemptedusfrommuchanxietyonthisaccount。Itmustnotbesupposedthatwewerewithoutreligion,butwithusitwastheproductoflivelyfeelings,excitedbyreflectiononourownhappiness,andbythegrandeurofexternalnature。Wesoughtnotabasisforourfaith,intheweighingofproofs,andthedissectionofcreeds。