Whenmydiseaseabated,Pleyelhadforbornehisvisits,andhadlatelysetoutuponthisjourney。Thisamountedtoaproofthatmyguiltwasstillbelievedbyhim。Iwasgrievedforhiserrors,buttrustedthatmyvindicationwould,soonerorlater,bemade。
  Meanwhile,tumultuousthoughtswereagainsetafloatbyaproposalmadetomebymyuncle。Heimaginedthatnewairswouldrestoremylanguishingconstitution,andavariedsuccessionofobjectstendtorepairtheshockwhichmymindhadreceived。Forthisend,heproposedtometotakeupmyabodewithhiminFranceorItaly。
  Atamoreprosperousperiod,thisschemewouldhavepleasedforitsownsake。Nowmyheartsickenedattheprospectofnature。Theworldofmanwasshrowdedinmiseryandblood,andconstitutedaloathsomespectacle。Iwillinglyclosedmyeyesinsleep,andregrettedthattherespiteitaffordedmewassoshort。Imarkedwithsatisfactiontheprogressofdecayinmyframe,andconsentedtolive,merelyinthehopethatthecourseofnaturewouldspeedilyrelievemefromtheburthen。
  Nevertheless,ashepersistedinhisscheme,Iconcurredinitmerelybecausehewasentitledtomygratitude,andbecausemyrefusalgavehimpain。
  Nosoonerwasheinformedofmyconsent,thanhetoldmeI
  mustmakeimmediatepreparationtoembark,astheshipinwhichhehadengagedapassagewouldbereadytodepartinthreedays。
  Thisexpeditionwasunexpected。Therewasanimpatienceinhismannerwhenheurgedthenecessityofdispatchthatexcitedmysurprize。WhenIquestionedhimastothecauseofthishaste,hegenerallystatedreasonswhich,atthattime,Icouldnotdenytobeplausible;butwhich,onthereview,appearedinsufficient。Isuspectedthatthetruemotiveswereconcealed,andbelievedthatthesemotiveshadsomeconnectionwithmybrother'sdestiny。
  InowrecollectedthattheinformationrespectingWielandwhichhad,fromtimetotime,beenimpartedtome,wasalwaysaccompaniedwithairsofreserveandmysteriousness。Whathadappearedsufficientlyexplicitatthetimeitwasuttered,Inowrememberedtohavebeenfalteringandambiguous。Iwasresolvedtoremovemydoubts,byvisitingtheunfortunatemaninhisdungeon。
  Heretoforetheideaofthisvisithadoccurredtome;butthehorrorsofhisdwelling-place,hiswildyetplacidphysiognomy,hisneglectedlocks,thefetterswhichconstrainedhislimbs,terribleastheywereindescription,howcouldIenduretobehold!
  Now,however,thatIwaspreparingtotakeaneverlastingfarewellofmycountry,nowthatanoceanwashenceforthtoseparatemefromhim,howcouldIpartwithoutaninterview?I
  wouldexaminehissituationwithmyowneyes。Iwouldknowwhethertherepresentationswhichhadbeenmadetomeweretrue。
  Perhapsthesightofthesisterwhomhewaswonttolovewithapassionmorethanfraternal,mighthaveanauspiciousinfluenceonhismalady。
  Havingformedthisresolution,IwaitedtocommunicateittoMr。Cambridge。Iwasawarethat,withouthisconcurrence,I
  couldnothopetocarryitintoexecution,andcoulddiscovernoobjectiontowhichitwasliable。IfIhadnotbeendeceivedastohiscondition,noinconveniencecouldarisefromthisproceeding。Hisconsent,therefore,wouldbethetestofhissincerity。
  Iseizedthisopportunitytostatemywishesonthishead。
  Mysuspicionswereconfirmedbythemannerinwhichmyrequestaffectedhim。Aftersomepause,inwhichhiscountenancebetrayedeverymarkofperplexity,hesaidtome,"Whywouldyoupaythisvisit?Whatusefulpurposecanitserve?"
  "Wearepreparing,"saidI,"toleavethecountryforever:
  WhatkindofbeingshouldIbetoleavebehindmeabrotherincalamitywithoutevenapartinginterview?Indulgemeforthreeminutesinthesightofhim。MyheartwillbemucheasierafterIhavelookedathim,andshedafewtearsinhispresence。"
  "Ibelieveotherwise。Thesightofhimwouldonlyaugmentyourdistress,withoutcontributing,inanydegree,tohisbenefit。"
  "Iknownotthat,"returnedI。"Surelythesympathyofhissister,proofsthathertendernessisaslivelyasever,mustbeasourceofsatisfactiontohim。Atpresenthemustregardallmankindashisenemiesandcalumniators。Hissisterhe,probably,conceivestopartakeinthegeneralinfatuation,andtojoininthecryofabhorrencethatisraisedagainsthim。Tobeundeceivedinthisrespect,tobeassuredthat,howeverImayimputehisconducttodelusion,Istillretainallmyformeraffectionforhisperson,andvenerationforthepurityofhismotives,cannotbutaffordhimpleasure。WhenhehearsthatI
  haveleftthecountry,withouteventheceremoniousattentionofavisit,whatwillhethinkofme?Hismagnanimitymayhinderhimfromrepining,buthewillsurelyconsidermybehaviourassavageandunfeeling。Indeed,dearSir,Imustpaythisvisit。
  Toembarkwithyouwithoutpayingit,willbeimpossible。Itmaybeofnoservicetohim,butwillenablemetoacquitmyselfofwhatIcannotbutesteemaduty。Besides,"continuedI,"ifitbeamerefitofinsanitythathasseizedhim,maynotmypresencechancetohaveasalutaryinfluence?Themeresightofme,itisnotimpossible,mayrectifyhisperceptions。"
  "Ay,"saidmyuncle,withsomeeagerness;"itisbynomeansimpossiblethatyourinterviewmayhavethateffect;andforthatreason,beyondallothers,wouldIdissuadeyoufromit。"
  Iexpressedmysurprizeatthisdeclaration。"Isitnottobedesiredthatanerrorsofatalasthisshouldberectified?"
  "Iwonderatyourquestion。Reflectontheconsequencesofthiserror。Hashenotdestroyedthewifewhomheloved,thechildrenwhomheidolized?Whatisitthatenableshimtobeartheremembrance,butthebeliefthatheactedashisdutyenjoined?Wouldyourashlybereavehimofthisbelief?Wouldyourestorehimtohimself,andconvincehimthathewasinstigatedtothisdreadfuloutragebyaperversionofhisorgans,oradelusionfromhell?
  "Nowhisvisionsarejoyousandelate。Heconceiveshimselftohavereachedaloftierdegreeofvirtue,thananyotherhumanbeing。Themeritofhissacrificeisonlyenhancedintheeyesofsuperiorbeings,bythedetestationthatpursueshimhere,andthesufferingstowhichheiscondemned。Thebeliefthatevenhissisterhasdesertedhim,andgoneovertohisenemies,addstohissublimityoffeelings,andhisconfidenceindivineapprobationandfuturerecompense。
  "Lethimbeundeceivedinthisrespect,andwhatfloodsofdespairandofhorrorwilloverwhelmhim!Insteadofglowingapprobationandserenehope,willhenothateandtorturehimself?Self-violence,oraphrenzyfarmoresavageanddestructivethanthis,maybeexpectedtosucceed。Ibeseechyou,therefore,torelinquishthisscheme。Ifyoucalmlyreflectuponit,youwilldiscoverthatyourdutyliesincarefullyshunninghim。"
  Mr。Cambridge'sreasoningssuggestedviewstomyunderstanding,thathadnothithertooccurred。Icouldnotbutadmittheirvalidity,buttheyshewed,inanewlight,thedepthofthatmisfortuneinwhichmybrotherwasplunged。Iwassilentandirresolute。
  Presently,Iconsidered,thatwhetherWielandwasamaniac,afaithfulservantofhisGod,thevictimofhellishillusions,orthedupeofhumanimposture,wasbynomeanscertain。InthisstateofmyminditbecamemetobesilentduringthevisitthatIprojected。Thisvisitshouldbebrief:Ishouldbesatisfiedmerelytosnatchalookathim。Admittingthatachangeinhisopinionswerenottobedesired,therewasnodangerfromtheconductwhichIshouldpursue,thatthischangeshouldbewrought。
  ButIcouldnotconquermyuncle'saversiontothisscheme。
  YetIpersisted,andhefoundthattomakemevoluntarilyrelinquishit,itwasnecessarytobemoreexplicitthanhehadhithertobeen。Hetookbothmyhands,andanxiouslyexaminingmycountenanceashespoke,"Clara,"saidhe,"thisvisitmustnotbepaid。Wemusthastenwiththeutmostexpeditionfromthisshore。Itisfollytoconcealthetruthfromyou,and,sinceitisonlybydisclosingthetruththatyoucanbeprevailedupontolayasidethisproject,thetruthshallbetold。
  "Omydeargirl!"continuedhewithincreasingenergyinhisaccent,"yourbrother'sphrenzyis,indeed,stupendousandfrightful。Thesoulthatformerlyactuatedhisframehasdisappeared。Thesameformremains;butthewiseandbenevolentWielandisnomore。Afurythatisrapaciousofblood,thatliftshisstrengthalmostabovethatofmortals,thatbendsallhisenergiestothedestructionofwhateverwasoncedeartohim,possesseshimwholly。
  "Youmustnotenterhisdungeon;hiseyeswillnosoonerbefixeduponyou,thananexertionofhisforcewillbemade。Hewillshakeoffhisfettersinamoment,andrushuponyou。Nointerpositionwillthenbestrongorquickenoughtosaveyou。
  "ThephantomthathasurgedhimtothemurderofCatharineandherchildrenisnotyetappeased。Yourlife,andthatofPleyel,areexactedfromhimbythisimaginarybeing。Heiseagertocomplywiththisdemand。Twicehehasescapedfromhisprison。Thefirsttime,henosoonerfoundhimselfatliberty,thanhehastedtoPleyel'shouse。Itbeingmidnight,thelatterwasinbed。Wielandpenetratedunobservedtohischamber,andopenedhiscurtain。Happily,Pleyelawokeatthecriticalmoment,andescapedthefuryofhiskinsman,byleapingfromhischamber-windowintothecourt。Happily,hereachedthegroundwithoutinjury。Alarmsweregiven,andafterdiligentsearch,yourbrotherwasfoundinachamberofyourhouse,whither,nodoubt,hehadsoughtyou。
  "Hischains,andthewatchfulnessofhisguards,wereredoubled;butagain,bysomemiracle,herestoredhimselftoliberty。Hewasnowincautiouslyapprizedoftheplaceofyourabode:andhadnotinformationofhisescapebeeninstantlygiven,yourdeathwouldhavebeenaddedtothenumberofhisatrociousacts。
  "Younowseethedangerofyourproject。Youmustnotonlyforbeartovisithim,butifyouwouldsavehimfromthecrimeofembruinghishandsinyourblood,youmustleavethecountry。
  Thereisnohopethathismaladywillendbutwithhislife,andnoprecautionwillensureyoursafety,butthatofplacingtheoceanbetweenyou。
  "IconfessIcameoverwithanintentiontoresideamongyou,butthesedisastershavechangedmyviews。Yourownsafetyandmyhappinessrequirethatyoushouldaccompanymeinmyreturn,andIentreatyoutogiveyourcheerfulconcurrencetothismeasure。"
  Aftertheserepresentationsfrommyuncle,itwasimpossibletoretainmypurpose。IreadilyconsentedtosecludemyselffromWieland'spresence。IlikewiseacquiescedintheproposaltogotoEurope;notthatIeverexpectedtoarrivethere,butbecause,sincemyprinciplesforbadmetoassailmyownlife,changehadsometendencytomakesupportablethefewdayswhichdiseaseshouldsparetome。
  Whatatalehadthusbeenunfolded!Iwashuntedtodeath,notbyonewhommymisconducthadexasperated,whowasconsciousofillicitmotives,andwhosoughthisendbycircumventionandsurprize;butbyonewhodeemedhimselfcommissionedforthisactbyheaven;whoregardedthiscareerofhorrorasthelastrefinementofvirtue;whoseimplacabilitywasproportionedtothereverenceandlovewhichhefeltforme,andwhowasinaccessibletothefearofpunishmentandignominy!
  InvainshouldIendeavourtostayhishandbyurgingtheclaimsofasisterorfriend:thesewerehisonlyreasonsforpursuingmydestruction。HadIbeenastrangertohisblood;
  hadIbeenthemostworthlessofhumankind;mysafetyhadnotbeenendangered。
  Surely,saidI,myfateiswithoutexample。Thephrenzywhichischargeduponmybrother,mustbelongtomyself。Myfoeismanacledandguarded;butIderivenosecurityfromtheserestraints。Ilivenotinacommunityofsavages;yet,whetherIsitorwalk,gointocrouds,orhidemyselfinsolitude,mylifeismarkedforapreytoinhumanviolence;Iaminperpetualdangerofperishing;ofperishingunderthegraspofabrother!
  Irecollectedtheomensofthisdestiny;Irememberedthegulftowhichmybrother'sinvitationhadconductedme;I
  rememberedthat,whenonthebrinkofdanger,theauthorofmyperilwasdepictedbymyfearsinhisform:Thusrealized,werethecreaturesofpropheticsleep,andofwakefulterror!
  TheseimageswereunavoidablyconnectedwiththatofCarwin。
  Inthisparoxysmofdistress,myattentionfastenedonhimasthegranddeceiver;theauthorofthisblackconspiracy;theintelligencethatgovernedinthisstorm。
  Somereliefisaffordedinthemidstofsuffering,whenitsauthorisdiscoveredorimagined;andanobjectfoundonwhichwemaypouroutourindignationandourvengeance。Iranovertheeventsthathadtakenplacesincetheoriginofourintercoursewithhim,andreflectedonthetenorofthatdescriptionwhichwasreceivedfromLudloe。Mixedupwithnotionsofsupernaturalagency,werethevehementsuspicionswhichIentertained,thatCarwinwastheenemywhosemachinationshaddestroyedus。
  Ithirstedforknowledgeandforvengeance。Iregardedmyhastydeparturewithreluctance,sinceitwouldremovemefromthemeansbywhichthisknowledgemightbeobtained,andthisvengeancegratified。Thisdeparturewastotakeplaceintwodays。AttheendoftwodaysIwastobidaneternaladieutomynativecountry。ShouldInotpayapartingvisittothesceneofthesedisasters?ShouldInotbedewwithmytearsthegravesofmysisterandherchildren?ShouldInotexploretheirdesolatehabitation,andgatherfromthesightofitswallsandfurniturefoodformyeternalmelancholy?
  Thissuggestionwassucceededbyasecretshuddering。Somedisastrousinfluenceappearedtooverhangthescene。HowmanymemorialsshouldImeetwithservingtorecalltheimagesofthoseIhadlost!
  Iwastemptedtorelinquishmydesign,whenitoccurredtomethatIhadleftamongmypapersajournaloftransactionsinshorthand。IwasemployedinthismanuscriptonthatnightwhenPleyel'sincautiouscuriositytemptedhimtolookovermyshoulder。IwasthenrecordingmyadventureinTHERECESS,animperfectsightofwhichledhimintosuchfatalerrors。
  Ihadregulatedthedispositionofallmyproperty。Thismanuscript,however,whichcontainedthemostsecrettransactionsofmylife,Iwasdesirousofdestroying。ForthisendImustreturntomyhouse,andthisIimmediatelydeterminedtodo。
  Iwasnotwillingtoexposemyselftooppositionfrommyfriends,bymentioningmydesign;IthereforebespoketheuseofMr。Hallet'schaise,underpretenceofenjoyinganairing,asthedaywasremarkablybright。
  Thisrequestwasgladlycompliedwith,andIdirectedtheservanttoconductmetoMettingen。Idismissedhimatthegate,intendingtouse,inreturning,acarriagebelongingtomybrother。
  ChapterXXII
  TheinhabitantsoftheHUTreceivedmewithamixtureofjoyandsurprize。Theirhomelywelcome,andtheirartlesssympathy,weregratefultomyfeelings。Inthemidstoftheirinquiries,astomyhealth,theyavoidedallallusionstothesourceofmymalady。Theywerehonestcreatures,andIlovedthemwell。I
  participatedinthetearswhichtheyshedwhenImentionedtothemmyspeedydepartureforEurope,andpromisedtoacquaintthemwithmywelfareduringmylongabsence。
  TheyexpressedgreatsurprizewhenIinformedthemofmyintentiontovisitmycottage。Alarmandforebodingoverspreadtheirfeatures,andtheyattemptedtodissuademefromvisitinganhousewhichtheyfirmlybelievedtobehauntedbyathousandghastlyapparitions。
  Theseapprehensions,however,hadnopowerovermyconduct。
  Itookanirregularpathwhichledmetomyownhouse。Allwasvacantandforlorn。Asmallenclosure,nearwhichthepathled,wastheburying-groundbelongingtothefamily。ThisIwasobligedtopass。OnceIhadintendedtoenterit,andponderontheemblemsandinscriptionswhichmyunclehadcausedtobemadeonthetombsofCatharineandherchildren;butnowmyheartfalteredasIapproached,andIhastenedforward,thatdistancemightconcealitfrommyview。
  WhenIapproachedtherecess,myheartagainsunk。Iavertedmyeyes,andleftitbehindmeasquicklyaspossible。Silencereignedthroughmyhabitation,andadarknesswhichcloseddoorsandshuttersproduced。Everyobjectwasconnectedwithmineormybrother'shistory。Ipassedtheentry,mountedthestair,andunlockedthedoorofmychamber。ItwaswithdifficultythatIcurbedmyfancyandsmotheredmyfears。Slightmovementsandcasualsoundsweretransformedintobeckoningshadowsandcallingshapes。
  Iproceededtothecloset。Iopenedandlookedrounditwithfearfulness。Allthingswereintheiraccustomedorder。I
  soughtandfoundthemanuscriptwhereIwasusedtodepositit。
  Thisbeingsecured,therewasnothingtodetainme;yetIstoodandcontemplatedawhilethefurnitureandwallsofmychamber。
  Irememberedhowlongthisapartmenthadbeenasweetandtranquilasylum;Icompareditsformerstatewithitspresentdreariness,andreflectedthatInowbehelditforthelasttime。
  HereitwasthattheincomprehensiblebehaviourofCarwinwaswitnessed:thisthestageonwhichthatenemyofmanshewedhimselfforamomentunmasked。Herethemenacesofmurderwerewaftedtomyear;andherethesemenaceswereexecuted。
  Thesethoughtshadatendencytotakefrommemyself-command。Myfeeblelimbsrefusedtosupportme,andIsunkuponachair。Incoherentandhalf-articulateexclamationsescapedmylips。ThenameofCarwinwasuttered,andeternalwoes,woeslikethatwhichhismalicehadentaileduponus,wereheapeduponhim。Iinvokedall-seeingheaventodragtolightandtopunishthisbetrayer,andaccuseditsprovidenceforhavingthuslongdelayedtheretributionthatwasduetosoenormousaguilt。
  Ihavesaidthatthewindowshutterswereclosed。Afeeblelight,however,foundentrancethroughthecrevices。Asmallwindowilluminatedthecloset,andthedoorbeingclosed,adimraystreamedthroughthekey-hole。Akindoftwilightwasthuscreated,sufficientforthepurposesofvision;but,atthesametime,involvingallminuterobjectsinobscurity。
  Thisdarknesssuitedthecolourofmythoughts。Isickenedattheremembranceofthepast。Theprospectofthefutureexcitedmyloathing。Imutteredinalowvoice,WhyshouldI
  livelonger?WhyshouldIdragamiserablebeing?All,forwhomIoughttolive,haveperished。AmInotmyselfhuntedtodeath?
  Atthatmoment,mydespairsuddenlybecamevigorous。Mynerveswerenolongerunstrung。Mypowers,thathadlongbeendeadened,wererevived。Mybosomswelledwithasuddenenergy,andtheconvictiondartedthroughmymind,thattoendmytormentswas,atonce,practicableandwise。
  Iknewhowtofindwaytotherecessesoflife。Icouldusealancetwithsomeskill,andcoulddistinguishbetweenveinandartery。Bypiercingdeepintothelatter,Ishouldshuntheevilswhichthefuturehadinstoreforme,andtakerefugefrommywoesinquietdeath。
  Istartedonmyfeet,formyfeeblenesswasgone,andhastedtothecloset。AlancetandothersmallinstrumentswerepreservedinacasewhichIhaddepositedhere。InattentiveasIwastoforeignconsiderations,myearswerestillopentoanysoundofmysteriousimportthatshouldoccur。IthoughtIheardastepintheentry。Mypurposewassuspended,andIcastaneagerglanceatmychamberdoor,whichwasopen。Nooneappeared,unlesstheshadowwhichIdiscerneduponthefloor,wastheoutlineofaman。Ifitwere,Iwasauthorizedtosuspectthatsomeonewaspostedclosetotheentrance,whopossiblyhadoverheardmyexclamations。
  Myteethchattered,andawildconfusiontookplaceofmymomentarycalm。Thusitwaswhenaterrificvisagehaddiscloseditselfonaformernight。ThusitwaswhentheevildestinyofWielandassumedthelineamentsofsomethinghuman。
  Whathorridapparitionwaspreparingtoblastmysight?
  StillIlistenedandgazed。Notlong,fortheshadowmoved;
  afoot,unshapelyandhuge,wasthrustforward;aformadvancedfromitsconcealment,andstalkedintotheroom。ItwasCarwin!
  WhileIhadbreathIshrieked。WhileIhadpowerovermymuscles,Imotionedwithmyhandthatheshouldvanish。Myexertionscouldnotlastlong;Isunkintoafit。
  Othatthisgratefuloblivionhadlastedforever!TooquicklyIrecoveredmysenses。Thepowerofdistinctvisionwasnosoonerrestoredtome,thanthishatefulformagainpresenteditself,andIoncemorerelapsed。
  Asecondtime,untowardnaturerecalledmefromthesleepofdeath。Ifoundmyselfstretcheduponthebed。WhenIhadpowertolookup,IrememberedonlythatIhadcausetofear。Mydistemperedfancyfashionedtoitselfnodistinguishableimage。
  Ithrewalanguidglanceroundme;oncemoremyeyeslighteduponCarwin。
  Hewasseatedonthefloor,hisbackrestedagainstthewall,hiskneesweredrawnup,andhisfacewasburiedinhishands。
  Thathisstationwasatsomedistance,thathisattitudewasnotmenacing,thathisominousvisagewasconcealed,mayaccountformynowescapingashock,violentasthosewhichwerepast。I
  withdrewmyeyes,butwasnotagaindesertedbymysenses。
  OnperceivingthatIhadrecoveredmysensibility,heliftedhishead。Thismotionattractedmyattention。Hiscountenancewasmild,butsorrowandastonishmentsatuponhisfeatures。I
  avertedmyeyesandfeeblyexclaimed——"O!fly——flyfarandforever!——Icannotbeholdyouandlive!"
  Hedidnotriseuponhisfeet,butclaspedhishands,andsaidinatoneofdeprecation——"Iwillfly。Iambecomeafiend,thesightofwhomdestroys。Yettellmemyoffence!Youhavelinkedcurseswithmyname;youascribetomeamalicemonstrousandinfernal。Ilookaround;allislonelinessanddesert!Thishouseandyourbrother'saresolitaryanddismantled!Youdieawayatthesightofme!Myfearwhispersthatsomedeedofhorrorhasbeenperpetrated;thatIamtheundesigningcause。"
  Whatlanguagewasthis?Hadhenotavowedhimselfaravisher?Hadnotthischamberwitnessedhisatrociouspurposes?Ibesoughthimwithnewvehemencetogo。
  Heliftedhiseyes——"Greatheaven!whathaveIdone?IthinkIknowtheextentofmyoffences。Ihaveacted,butmyactionshavepossiblyeffectedmorethanIdesigned。Thisfearhasbroughtmebackfrommyretreat。Icometorepairtheevilofwhichmyrashnesswasthecause,andtopreventmoreevil。I
  cometoconfessmyerrors。"
  "Wretch!"Icriedwhenmysuffocatingemotionswouldpermitmetospeak,"theghostsofmysisterandherchildren,dotheynotrisetoaccusethee?WhowasitthatblastedtheintellectsofWieland?Whowasitthaturgedhimtofury,andguidedhimtomurder?Who,butthouandthedevil,withwhomthouartconfederated?"
  Atthesewordsanewspiritpervadedhiscountenance。Hiseyesoncemoreappealedtoheaven。"IfIhavememory,ifIhavebeing,Iaminnocent。Iintendednoill;butmyfolly,indirectlyandremotely,mayhavecausedit;butwhatwordsarethese!Yourbrotherlunatic!Hischildrendead!"
  WhatshouldIinferfromthisdeportment?Wastheignorancewhichthesewordsimpliedrealorpretended?——YethowcouldI
  imagineamerehumanagencyintheseevents?Butiftheinfluencewaspreternaturalormaniacalinmybrother'scase,theymustbeequallysoinmyown。ThenIrememberedthatthevoiceexerted,wastosavemefromCarwin'sattempts。Theseideastendedtoabatemyabhorrenceofthisman,andtodetecttheabsurdityofmyaccusations。
  "Alas!"saidI,"Ihavenoonetoaccuse。Leavemetomyfate。Flyfromascenestainedwithcruelty;devotedtodespair。"
  Carwinstoodforatimemusingandmournful。Atlengthhesaid,"Whathashappened?Icametoexpiatemycrimes:letmeknowthemintheirfullextent。Ihavehorribleforebodings!
  Whathashappened?"
  Iwassilent;butrecollectingtheintimationgivenbythismanwhenhewasdetectedinmycloset,whichimpliedsomeknowledgeofthatpowerwhichinterferedinmyfavor,Ieagerlyinquired,"WhatwasthatvoicewhichcalleduponmetoholdwhenIattemptedtoopenthecloset?WhatfacewasthatwhichIsawatthebottomofthestairs?Answermetruly。"
  "Icametoconfessthetruth。Yourallusionsarehorribleandstrange。PerhapsIhavebutfaintconceptionsoftheevilswhichmyinfatuationhasproduced;butwhatremainsIwillperform。ItwasmyVOICEthatyouheard!ItwasmyFACEthatyousaw!"
  ForamomentIdoubtedwhethermyremembranceofeventswerenotconfused。Howcouldhebeatoncestationedatmyshoulderandshutupinmycloset?Howcouldhestandnearmeandyetbeinvisible?ButifCarwin'swerethethrillingvoiceandthefieryvisagewhichIhadheardandseen,thenwashetheprompterofmybrother,andtheauthorofthesedismaloutrages。
  OncemoreIavertedmyeyesandstruggledforspeech。
  "Begone!thoumanofmischief!Remorselessandimplacablemiscreant!begone!"
  "Iwillobey,"saidheinadisconsolatevoice;"yet,wretchasIam,amIunworthytorepairtheevilsthatIhavecommitted?Icameasarepentantcriminal。ItisyouwhomI
  haveinjured,andatyourbaramIwillingtoappear,andconfessandexpiatemycrimes。Ihavedeceivedyou:Ihavesportedwithyourterrors:Ihaveplottedtodestroyyourreputation。Icomenowtoremoveyourerrors;tosetyoubeyondthereachofsimilarfears;torebuildyourfameasfarasIamable。
  "Thisistheamountofmyguilt,andthisthefruitofmyremorse。Willyounothearme?Listentomyconfession,andthendenouncepunishment。AllIaskisapatientaudience。"
  "What!"Ireplied,"wasnotthinethevoicethatcommandedmybrothertoimbruehishandsinthebloodofhischildren——tostranglethatangelofsweetnesshiswife?Hashenotvowedmydeath,andthedeathofPleyel,atthybidding?Hastthounotmadehimthebutcherofhisfamily;changedhimwhowasthegloryofhisspeciesintoworsethanbrute;robbedhimofreason,andconsignedtherestofhisdaystofettersandstripes?"
  Carwin'seyesglared,andhislimbswerepetrifiedatthisintelligence。Nowordswererequisitetoprovehimguiltlessoftheseenormities:atthetime,however,Iwasnearlyinsensibletotheseexculpatorytokens。Hewalkedtothefartherendoftheroom,andhavingrecoveredsomedegreeofcomposure,hespoke——
  "Iamnotthisvillain;Ihaveslainnoone;Ihavepromptednonetoslay;Ihavehandledatoolofwonderfulefficacywithoutmalignantintentions,butwithoutcaution;amplewillbethepunishmentofmytemerity,ifmyconducthascontributedtothisevil。"Hepaused——
  Ilikewisewassilent。Istruggledtocommandmyselfsofarastolistentothetalewhichheshouldtell。Observingthis,hecontinued——
  "YouarenotapprizedoftheexistenceofapowerwhichI
  possess。Iknownotbywhatnametocallit。*Itenablesmetomimicexactlythevoiceofanother,andtomodifythesoundsothatitshallappeartocomefromwhatquarter,andbeutteredatwhatdistanceIplease。
  "Iknownotthateveryonepossessesthispower。Perhaps,thoughacasualpositionofmyorgansinmyyouthshewedmethatIpossessedit,itisanartwhichmaybetaughttoall。WouldtoGodIhaddiedunknowingofthesecret!Ithasproducednothingbutdegradationandcalamity。
  "Foratimethepossessionofsopotentandstupendousanendowmentelatedmewithpride。Unfortifiedbyprinciple,subjectedtopoverty,stimulatedbyheadlongpassions,Imadethispowerfulenginesubservienttothesupplyofmywants,andthegratificationofmyvanity。IshallnotmentionhowdiligentlyIcultivatedthisgift,whichseemedcapableofunlimitedimprovement;nordetailthevariousoccasionsonwhichitwassuccessfullyexertedtoleadsuperstition,conqueravarice,orexciteawe。
  "IleftAmerica,whichismynativesoil,inmyyouth。I
  havebeenengagedinvariousscenesoflife,inwhichmypeculiartalenthasbeenexercisedwithmoreorlesssuccess。
  Iwasfinallybetrayedbyonewhocalledhimselfmyfriend,intoactswhichcannotbejustified,thoughtheyaresusceptibleofapology。
  "TheperfidyofthismancompelledmetowithdrawfromEurope。Ireturnedtomynativecountry,uncertainwhethersilenceandobscuritywouldsavemefromhismalice。Iresidedinthepurlieusofthecity。Iputonthegarbandassumedthemannersofaclown。
  "Mychiefrecreationwaswalking。MyprincipalhauntswerethelawnsandgardensofMettingen。Inthisdelightfulregiontheluxuriancesofnaturehadbeenchastenedbyjudiciousart,andeachsuccessivecontemplationunfoldednewenchantments。
  "Iwasstudiousofseclusion:Iwassatiatedwiththeintercourseofmankind,anddiscretionrequiredmetoshuntheirintercourse。ForthesereasonsIlongavoidedtheobservationofyourfamily,andchieflyvisitedtheseprecinctsatnight。
  "IwasneverwearyofadmiringthepositionandornamentsofTHETEMPLE。ManyanighthaveIpassedunderitsroof,revolvingnopleasingmeditations。When,inmyfrequentrambles,Iperceivedthisapartmentwasoccupied,Igaveadifferentdirectiontomysteps。Oneevening,whenashowerhadjustpassed,judgingbythesilencethatnoonewaswithin,I
  ascendedtothisbuilding。Glancingcarelesslyround,I
  perceivedanopenletteronthepedestal。Toreaditwasdoubtlessanoffenceagainstpoliteness。Ofthisoffence,however,Iwasguilty。
  "ScarcelyhadIgonehalfthroughwhenIwasalarmedbytheapproachofyourbrother。Toscrambledownthecliffontheoppositesidewasimpracticable。Iwasunpreparedtomeetastranger。Besidestheaukwardnessattendingsuchaninterviewinthesecircumstances,concealmentwasnecessarytomysafety。
  AthousandtimeshadIvowedneveragaintoemploythedangeroustalentwhichIpossessed;butsuchwastheforceofhabitandtheinfluenceofpresentconvenience,thatIusedthismethodofarrestinghisprogressandleadinghimbacktothehouse,withhiserrand,whateveritwas,unperformed。Ihadoftencaughtparts,frommystationbelow,ofyourconversationinthisplace,andwaswellacquaintedwiththevoiceofyoursister。
  "SomeweeksafterthisIwasagainquietlyseatedinthisrecess。Thelatenessofthehoursecuredme,asIthought,fromallinterruption。Inthis,however,Iwasmistaken,forWielandandPleyel,asIjudgedbytheirvoices,earnestindispute,ascendedthehill。
  "Iwasnotsensiblethatanyinconveniencecouldpossiblyhaveflowedfrommyformerexertion;yetitwasfollowedwithcompunction,becauseitwasadeviationfromapathwhichIhadassignedtomyself。Nowmyaversiontothismeansofescapewasenforcedbyanunauthorizedcuriosity,andbytheknowledgeofabushyhollowontheedgeofthehill,whereIshouldbesafefromdiscovery。IntothishollowIthrustmyself。
  "TheproprietyofremovaltoEuropewasthequestioneagerlydiscussed。PleyelintimatedthathisanxietytogowasaugmentedbythesilenceofTheresadeStolberg。Thetemptationtointerfereinthisdisputewasirresistible。InvainI
  contendedwithinveteratehabits。Idisguisedtomyselftheimproprietyofmyconduct,byrecollectingthebenefitswhichitmightproduce。Pleyel'sproposalwasunwise,yetitwasenforcedwithplausibleargumentsandindefatigablezeal。Yourbrothermightbepuzzledandwearied,butcouldnotbeconvinced。Iconceivedthattoterminatethecontroversyinfavorofthelatterwasconferringabenefitonallparties。
  ForthisendIprofitedbyanopeningintheconversation,andassuredthemofCatharine'sirreconcilableaversiontothescheme,andofthedeathoftheSaxonbaroness。Thelattereventwasmerelyaconjecture,butrenderedextremelyprobablebyPleyel'srepresentations。Mypurpose,youneednotbetold,waseffected。
  "Mypassionformystery,andaspeciesofimposture,whichI
  deemedharmless,wasthusawakenedafresh。Thissecondlapseintoerrormademyrecoverymoredifficult。IcannotconveytoyouanadequateideaofthekindofgratificationwhichI