Shewasnotabsentamoment。"Hestood,foratime,asiftoassurehimselfofmysincerity。Then,clinchinghishands,andwildlyliftingthemabovehishead,"Lo,"criedhe,"Ihavenewstotellyou。TheBaronessdeStolbergisdead?"
Thiswasherwhomheloved。Iwasnotsurprisedattheagitationswhichhebetrayed。"Buthowwastheinformationprocured?HowwasthetruthofthisnewsconnectedwiththecircumstanceofCatharine'sremaininginourcompany?"Hewasforsometimeinattentivetomyquestions。Whenhespoke,itseemedmerelyacontinuationofthereverieintowhichhehadbeenplunged。
"Andyetitmightbeameredeception。Butcouldbothofusinthatcasehavebeendeceived?Arareandprodigiouscoincidence!Barelynotimpossible。Andyet,iftheaccentbeoracular——Theresaisdead。No,no,"continuedhe,coveringhisfacewithhishands,andinatonehalfbrokenintosobs,"I
cannotbelieveit。Shehasnotwritten,butifsheweredead,thefaithfulBertrandwouldhavegivenmetheearliestinformation。Andyetifheknewhismaster,hemusthaveeasilyguessedattheeffectofsuchtidings。Inpitytomehewassilent。"
"Clara,forgiveme;toyou,thisbehaviourismysterious。I
willexplainaswellasIamable。ButsaynotawordtoCatharine。Herstrengthofmindisinferiortoyour's。Shewill,besides,havemorereasontobestartled。SheisWieland'sangel。"
Pleyelproceededtoinformme,forthefirsttime,oftheschemewhichhehadpressed,withsomuchearnestness,onmybrother。Heenumeratedtheobjectionswhichhadbeenmade,andtheindustrywithwhichhehadendeavouredtoconfutethem。Hementionedtheeffectuponhisresolutionsproducedbythefailureofaletter。"Duringourlatewalk,"continuedhe,"I
introducedthesubjectthatwasnearestmyheart。Ire-urgedallmyformerarguments,andplacedtheminmoreforciblelights。Wielandwasstillrefractory。Heexpatiatedontheperilsofwealthandpower,onthesacrednessofconjugalandparentalduties,andthehappinessofmediocrity。
"Nowonderthatthetimepassed,unperceived,away。Ourwholesoulswereengagedinthiscause。Severaltimeswecametothefootoftherock;assoonasweperceivedit,wechangedourcourse,butneverfailedtoterminateourcircuitousanddeviousrambleatthisspot。Atlengthyourbrotherobserved,"Weseemtobeledhitherbyakindoffatality。Sincewearesonear,letusascendandrestourselvesawhile。Ifyouarenotwearyofthisargumentwewillresumeitthere。"
"Itacitlyconsented。Wemountedthestairs,anddrawingthesofainfrontoftheriver,weseatedourselvesuponit。Itookupthethreadofourdiscoursewherewehaddroppedit。I
ridiculedhisdreadofthesea,andhisattachmenttohome。I
keptoninthisstrain,socongenialwithmydisposition,forsometime,uninterruptedbyhim。Atlength,hesaidtome,"SupposenowthatI,whomargumenthasnotconvinced,shouldyieldtoridicule,andshouldagreethatyourschemeiseligible;whatwillyouhavegained?Nothing。Youhaveotherenemiesbesidemyselftoencounter。Whenyouhavevanquishedme,yourtoilhasscarcelybegun。Therearemysisterandwife,withwhomitwillremainforyoutomaintainthecontest。Andtrustme,theyareadversarieswhomallyourforceandstratagemwillneversubdue。"Iinsinuatedthattheywouldmodelthemselvesbyhiswill:thatCatharinewouldthinkobedienceherduty。Heanswered,withsomequickness,"Youmistake。
Theirconcurrenceisindispensable。Itisnotmycustomtoexactsacrificesofthiskind。Ilivetobetheirprotectorandfriend,andnottheirtyrantandfoe。Ifmywifeshalldeemherhappiness,andthatofherchildren,mostconsultedbyremainingwheresheis,heresheshallremain。""But,"saidI,"whensheknowsyourpleasure,willshenotconformtoit?"Beforemyfriendhadtimetoanswerthisquestion,anegativewasclearlyanddistinctlyutteredfromanotherquarter。Itdidnotcomefromonesideortheother,frombeforeusorbehind。Whencethendiditcome?Bywhoseorganswasitfashioned?
"Ifanyuncertaintyhadexistedwithregardtotheseparticulars,itwouldhavebeenremovedbyadeliberateandequallydistinctrepetitionofthesamemonosyllable,"No。"Thevoicewasmysister's。Itappearedtocomefromtheroof。I
startedfrommyseat。Catharine,exclaimedI,whereareyou?
Noanswerwasreturned。Isearchedtheroom,andtheareabeforeit,butinvain。Yourbrotherwasmotionlessinhisseat。Ireturnedtohim,andplacedmyselfagainbyhisside。
Myastonishmentwasnotlessthanhis。"
"Well,"saidhe,atlength,"Whatthinkyouofthis?Thisistheself-samevoicewhichIformerlyheard;youarenowconvincedthatmyearswerewellinformed。"
"Yes,"saidI,"this,itisplain,isnofictionofthefancy。"Weagainsunkintomutualandthoughtfulsilence。A
recollectionofthehour,andofthelengthofourabsence,mademeatlastproposetoreturn。Weroseupforthispurpose。Indoingthis,mymindrevertedtothecontemplationofmyowncondition。"Yes,"saidIaloud,butwithoutparticularlyaddressingmyselftoWieland,"myresolutionistaken。Icannothopetoprevailwithmyfriendstoaccompanyme。TheymaydozeawaytheirdaysonthebanksofSchuylkill,butastome,Igointhenextvessel;Iwillflytoherpresence,anddemandthereasonofthisextraordinarysilence。"
"Ihadscarcelyfinishedthesentence,whenthesamemysteriousvoiceexclaimed,"Youshallnotgo。Thesealofdeathisonherlips。Hersilenceisthesilenceofthetomb。"
Thinkoftheeffectswhichaccentslikethesemusthavehaduponme。IshudderedasIlistened。AssoonasIrecoveredfrommyfirstamazement,"Whoisitthatspeaks?"saidI,"whencedidyouprocurethesedismaltidings?"Ididnotwaitlongforananswer。"Fromasourcethatcannotfail。Besatisfied。Sheisdead。"Youmayjustlybesurprised,that,inthecircumstancesinwhichIheardthetidings,andnotwithstandingthemysterywhichenvironedhimbywhomtheywereimparted,Icouldgiveanundividedattentiontothefacts,whichwerethesubjectofourdialogue。Ieagerlyinquired,whenandwheredidshedie?Whatwasthecauseofherdeath?Washerdeathabsolutelycertain?
Ananswerwasreturnedonlytothelastofthesequestions。
"Yes,"waspronouncedbythesamevoice;butitnowsoundedfromagreaterdistance,andthedeepestsilencewasallthereturnmadetomysubsequentinterrogatories。
"Itwasmysister'svoice;butitcouldnotbeutteredbyher;andyet,ifnotbyher,bywhomwasituttered?Whenwereturnedhither,anddiscoveredyoutogether,thedoubtthathadpreviouslyexistedwasremoved。Itwasmanifestthattheintimationcamenotfromher。Yetifnotfromher,fromwhomcoulditcome?Arethecircumstancesattendingtheimpartingofthisnewsproofthatthetidingsaretrue?Godforbidthattheyshouldbetrue。"
HerePleyelsunkintoanxioussilence,andgavemeleisuretoruminateonthisinexplicableevent。Iamatalosstodescribethesensationsthataffectedme。Iamnotfearfulofshadows。
Thetalesofapparitionsandenchantmentsdidnotpossessthatpowerovermybeliefwhichcouldevenrendertheminteresting。
Isawnothinginthembutignoranceandfolly,andwasastrangereventothatterrorwhichispleasing。ButthisincidentwasdifferentfromanythatIhadeverbeforeknown。
Herewereproofsofasensibleandintelligentexistence,whichcouldnotbedenied。Herewasinformationobtainedandimpartedbymeansunquestionablysuper-human。
Thatthereareconsciousbeings,besideourselves,inexistence,whosemodesofactivityandinformationsurpassourown,canscarcelybedenied。Isthereaglimpseaffordedusintoaworldofthesesuperiorbeings?Myheartwasscarcelylargeenoughtogiveadmittancetososwellingathought。Anawe,thesweetestandmostsolemnthatimaginationcanconceive,pervadedmywholeframe。ItforsookmenotwhenIpartedfromPleyelandretiredtomychamber。Animpulsewasgiventomyspiritsutterlyincompatiblewithsleep。Ipassedthenightwakefulandfullofmeditation。Iwasimpressedwiththebeliefofmysterious,butnotofmalignantagency。Hithertonothinghadoccurredtopersuademethatthisairyministerwasbusytoevilratherthantogoodpurposes。Onthecontrary,theideaofsuperiorvirtuehadalwaysbeenassociatedinmymindwiththatofsuperiorpower。Thewarningsthathadthusbeenheardappearedtohavebeenpromptedbybeneficentintentions。Mybrotherhadbeenhinderedbythisvoicefromascendingthehill。
Hewastoldthatdangerlurkedinhispath,andhisobediencetotheintimationhadperhapssavedhimfromadestinysimilartothatofmyfather。
Pleyelhadbeenrescuedfromtormentinguncertainty,andfromthehazardsandfatiguesofafruitlessvoyage,bythesameinterposition。IthadassuredhimofthedeathofhisTheresa。
Thiswomanwasthendead。Aconfirmationofthetidings,iftrue,wouldspeedilyarrive。Wasthisconfirmationtobedeprecatedordesired?Byherdeath,thetiethatattachedhimtoEurope,wastakenaway。Henceforwardeverymotivewouldcombinetoretainhiminhisnativecountry,andwewererescuedfromthedeepregretsthatwouldaccompanyhishopelessabsencefromus。Propitiouswasthespiritthatimpartedthesetidings。
Propitioushewouldperhapshavebeen,ifhehadbeeninstrumentalinproducing,aswellasincommunicatingthetidingsofherdeath。Propitioustous,thefriendsofPleyel,towhomhastherebybeensecuredtheenjoymentofhissociety;
andnotunpropitioustohimself;forthoughthisobjectofhislovebesnatchedaway,istherenotanotherwhoisableandwillingtoconsolehimforherloss?
Twentydaysafterthis,anothervesselarrivedfromthesameport。Inthisinterval,Pleyel,forthemostpart,estrangedhimselffromhisoldcompanions。Hewasbecomethepreyofagloomyandunsociablegrief。HiswalkswerelimitedtothebankoftheDelaware。Thisbankisanartificialone。Reedsandtheriverareononeside,andawaterymarshontheother,inthatpartwhichboundedhislands,andwhichextendedfromthemouthofHollander'screektothatofSchuylkill。Noscenecanbeimaginedlessenticingtoaloverofthepicturesquethanthis。
Theshoreisdeformedwithmud,andincumberedwithaforestofreeds。Thefields,inmostseasons,aremire;butwhentheyaffordafirmfooting,theditchesbywhichtheyareboundedandintersected,aremantledwithstagnatinggreen,andemitthemostnoxiousexhalations。Healthisnolessastrangertothoseseatsthanpleasure。Springandautumnaresuretobeaccompaniedwithaguesandbiliousremittents。
ThesceneswhichenvironedourdwellingsatMettingenconstitutedthereverseofthis。Schuylkillwashereapureandtranslucidcurrent,brokenintOwildandceaselessmusicbyrockypoints,murmuringonasandymargin,andreflectingonitssurface,banksofallvarietiesofheightanddegreesofdeclivity。Thesebankswerechequeredbypatchesofdarkverdureandshapelessmassesofwhitemarble,andcrownedbycopsesofcedar,orbytheregularmagnificenceoforchards,which,atthisseason,wereinblossom,andwereprodigalofodours。Thegroundwhichrecededfromtheriverwasscoopedintovalleysanddales。Itsbeautieswereenhancedbythehorticulturalskillofmybrother,whobedeckedthisexquisiteassemblageofslopesandrisingswitheveryspeciesofvegetableornament,fromthegiantarmsoftheoaktotheclusteringtendrilsofthehoney-suckle。
Toscreenhimfromtheunwholesomeairsofhisownresidence,ithadbeenproposedtoPleyeltospendthemonthsofspringwithus。Hehadapparentlyacquiescedinthisproposal;butthelateeventinducedhimtochangehispurpose。Hewasonlytobeseenbyvisitinghiminhisretirements。Hisgaietyhadflown,andeverypassionwasabsorbedineagernesstoprocuretidingsfromSaxony。IhavementionedthearrivalofanothervesselfromtheElbe。Hedescriedherearlyonemorningashewaspassingalongtheskirtoftheriver。Shewaseasilyrecognized,beingtheshipinwhichhehadperformedhisfirstvoyagetoGermany。Heimmediatelywentonboard,butfoundnolettersdirectedtohim。Thisomissionwas,insomedegree,compensatedbymeetingwithanoldacquaintanceamongthepassengers,whohadtilllatelybeenaresidentinLeipsig。
ThispersonputanendtoallsuspenserespectingthefateofTheresa,byrelatingtheparticularsofherdeathandfuneral。
Thuswasthetruthoftheformerintimationattested。Nolongerdevouredbysuspense,thegriefofPleyelwasnotlonginyieldingtotheinfluenceofsociety。Hegavehimselfuponcemoretoourcompany。Hisvivacityhadindeedbeendamped;buteveninthisrespecthewasamoreacceptablecompanionthanformerly,sincehisseriousnesswasneitherincommunicativenorsullen。
Theseincidents,foratime,occupiedallourthoughts。Inmetheyproducedasentimentnotunalliedtopleasure,andmorespeedilythaninthecaseofmyfriendswereintermixedwithothertopics。Mybrotherwasparticularlyaffectedbythem。Itwaseasytoperceivethatmostofhismeditationsweretincturedfromthissource。Tothiswastobeascribedadesigninwhichhispenwas,atthisperiod,engaged,ofcollectingandinvestigatingthefactswhichrelatetothatmysteriouspersonage,theDaemonofSocrates。
Mybrother'sskillinGreekandRomanlearningwasexceededbythatoffew,andnodoubttheworldwouldhaveacceptedatreatiseuponthissubjectfromhishandwithavidity;butalas!
thisandeveryotherschemeoffelicityandhonor,weredoomedtosuddenblastandhopelessextermination。
ChapterVI
Inowcometothementionofapersonwithwhosenamethemostturbulentsensationsareconnected。ItiswithashudderingreluctancethatIenterontheprovinceofdescribinghim。NowitisthatIbegintoperceivethedifficultyofthetaskwhichIhaveundertaken;butitwouldbeweaknesstoshrinkfromit。Mybloodiscongealed:andmyfingersarepalsiedwhenIcalluphisimage。Shameuponmycowardlyandinfirmheart!HithertoIhaveproceededwithsomedegreeofcomposure,butnowImustpause。Imeannotthatdireremembranceshallsubduemycourageorbafflemydesign,butthisweaknesscannotbeimmediatelyconquered。Imustdesistforalittlewhile。
Ihavetakenafewturnsinmychamber,andhavegatheredstrengthenoughtoproceed。YethaveInotprojectedataskbeyondmypowertoexecute?Ifthus,ontheverythresholdofthescene,mykneesfaulterandIsink,howshallIsupportmyself,whenIrushintothemidstofhorrorssuchasnohearthashithertoconceived,nortonguerelated?Isickenandrecoilattheprospect,andyetmyirresolutionismomentary。Ihavenotformedthisdesignuponslightgrounds,andthoughImayattimespauseandhesitate,Iwillnotbefinallydivertedfromit。
Andthou,Omostfatalandpotentofmankind,inwhattermsshallIdescribethee?Whatwordsareadequatetothejustdelineationofthycharacter?HowshallIdetailthemeanswhichrenderedthesecrecyofthypurposesunfathomable?ButI
willnotanticipate。Letmerecoverifpossible,asoberstrain。Letmekeepdownthefloodofpassionthatwouldrendermeprecipitateorpowerless。Letmestifletheagoniesthatareawakenedbythyname。Letme,foratime,regardtheeasabeingofnoterribleattributes。Letmetearmyselffromcontemplationoftheevilsofwhichitisbuttoocertainthatthouwasttheauthor,andlimitmyviewtothoseharmlessappearanceswhichattendedthyentranceonthestage。
Onesunnyafternoon,Iwasstandinginthedoorofmyhouse,whenImarkedapersonpassingclosetotheedgeofthebankthatwasinfront。Hispacewasacarelessandlingeringone,andhadnoneofthatgracefulnessandeasewhichdistinguishapersonwithcertainadvantagesofeducationfromaclown。Hisgaitwasrusticandaukward。Hisformwasungainlyanddisproportioned。Shouldersbroadandsquare,breastsunken,hisheaddrooping,hisbodyofuniformbreadth,supportedbylongandlanklegs,weretheingredientsofhisframe。Hisgarbwasnotilladaptedtosuchafigure。Aslouchedhat,tarnishedbytheweather,acoatofthickgreycloth,cutandwrought,asitseemed,byacountrytailor,blueworstedstockings,andshoesfastenedbythongs,anddeeplydiscolouredbydust,whichbrushhadneverdisturbed,constitutedhisdress。
Therewasnothingremarkableintheseappearances;theywerefrequentlytobemetwithontheroad,andintheharvestfield。
IcannottellwhyIgazeduponthem,onthisoccasion,withmorethanordinaryattention,unlessitwerethatsuchfigureswereseldomseenbyme,exceptontheroadorfield。Thislawnwasonlytraversedbymenwhoseviewsweredirectedtothepleasuresofthewalk,orthegrandeurofthescenery。
Hepassedslowlyalong,frequentlypausing,asiftoexaminetheprospectmoredeliberately,butneverturninghiseyetowardsthehouse,soastoallowmeaviewofhiscountenance。
Presently,heenteredacopseatasmalldistance,anddisappeared。Myeyefollowedhimwhileheremainedinsight。
Ifhisimageremainedforanydurationinmyfancyafterhisdeparture,itwasbecausenootherobjectoccurredsufficienttoexpelit。
Icontinuedinthesamespotforhalfanhour,vaguely,andbyfits,contemplatingtheimageofthiswanderer,anddrawing,fromoutwardappearances,thoseinferenceswithrespecttotheintellectualhistoryofthisperson,whichexperienceaffordsus。Ireflectedonthealliancewhichcommonlysubsistsbetweenignoranceandthepracticeofagriculture,andindulgedmyselfinairyspeculationsastotheinfluenceofprogressiveknowledgeindissolvingthisalliance,andembodyingthedreamsofthepoets。Iaskedwhytheploughandthehoemightnotbecomethetradeofeveryhumanbeing,andhowthistrademightbemadeconduciveto,or,atleast,consistentwiththeacquisitionofwisdomandeloquence。
Wearywiththesereflections,Ireturnedtothekitchentoperformsomehouseholdoffice。Ihadusuallybutoneservant,andshewasagirlaboutmyownage。Iwasbusynearthechimney,andshewasemployednearthedooroftheapartment,whensomeoneknocked。Thedoorwasopenedbyher,andshewasimmediatelyaddressedwith"Pry'thee,goodgirl,canstthousupplyathirstymanwithaglassofbuttermilk?"Sheansweredthattherewasnoneinthehouse。"Aye,butthereissomeinthedairyyonder。ThouknowestaswellasI,thoughHermesnevertaughtthee,thatthougheverydairybeanhouse,everyhouseisnotadairy。"Tothisspeech,thoughsheunderstoodonlyapartofit,sherepliedbyrepeatingherassurances,thatshehadnonetogive。"Wellthen,"rejoinedthestranger,"forcharity'ssweetsake,handmeforthacupofcoldwater。"Thegirlsaidshewouldgotothespringandfetchit。"Nay,givemethecup,andsuffermetohelpmyself。Neithermanaclednorlame,Ishouldmeritburialinthemawofcarrioncrows,ifI
laidthistaskuponthee。"Shegavehimthecup,andheturnedtogotothespring。
Ilistenedtothisdialogueinsilence。Thewordsutteredbythepersonwithout,affectedmeassomewhatsingular,butwhatchieflyrenderedthemremarkable,wasthetonethataccompaniedthem。Itwaswhollynew。Mybrother'svoiceandPleyel'sweremusicalandenergetic。Ihadfondlyimagined,that,inthisrespect,theyweresurpassedbynone。Nowmymistakewasdetected。Icannotpretendtocommunicatetheimpressionthatwasmadeuponmebytheseaccents,ortodepictthedegreeinwhichforceandsweetnesswereblendedinthem。Theywerearticulatedwithadistinctnessthatwasunexampledinmyexperience。Butthiswasnotall。Thevoicewasnotonlymellifluentandclear,buttheemphasiswassojust,andthemodulationsoimpassioned,thatitseemedasifanheartofstonecouldnotfailofbeingmovedbyit。Itimpartedtomeanemotionaltogetherinvoluntaryandincontroulable。Whenheutteredthewords"forcharity'ssweetsake,"IdroppedthecloththatIheldinmyhand,myheartoverflowedwithsympathy,andmyeyeswithunbiddentears。
Thisdescriptionwillappeartoyoutriflingorincredible。
Theimportanceofthesecircumstanceswillbemanifestedinthesequel。ThemannerinwhichIwasaffectedonthisoccasion,was,tomyownapprehension,asubjectofastonishment。ThetoneswereindeedsuchasIneverheardbefore;butthattheyshould,inaninstant,asitwere,dissolvemeintears,willnoteasilybebelievedbyothers,andcanscarcelybecomprehendedbymyself。
ItwillbereadilysupposedthatIwassomewhatinquisitiveastothepersonanddemeanourofourvisitant。Afteramoment'spause,Isteppedtothedoorandlookedafterhim。
Judgemysurprize,whenIbeheldtheself-samefigurethathadappearedanhalfhourbeforeuponthebank。Myfancyhadconjuredupaverydifferentimage。Aform,andattitude,andgarb,wereinstantlycreatedworthytoaccompanysuchelocution;
butthispersonwas,inallvisiblerespects,thereverseofthisphantom。Strangeasitmayseem,Icouldnotspeedilyreconcilemyselftothisdisappointment。Insteadofreturningtomyemployment,Ithrewmyselfinachairthatwasplacedoppositethedoor,andsunkintoafitofmusing。
Myattentionwas,inafewminutes,recalledbythestranger,whoreturnedwiththeemptycupinhishand。Ihadnotthoughtofthecircumstance,orshouldcertainlyhavechosenadifferentseat。Henosoonershewedhimself,thanaconfusedsenseofimpropriety,addedtothesuddennessoftheinterview,forwhich,nothavingforeseenit,Ihadmadenopreparation,threwmeintoastateofthemostpainfulembarrassment。Hebroughtwithhimaplacidbrow;butnosoonerhadhecasthiseyesuponme,thanhisfacewasasglowinglysuffusedasmyown。Heplacedthecupuponthebench,stammeredoutthanks,andretired。
ItwassometimebeforeIcouldrecovermywontedcomposure。
Ihadsnatchedaviewofthestranger'scountenance。Theimpressionthatitmadewasvividandindelible。Hischeekswerepallidandlank,hiseyessunken,hisforeheadovershadowedbycoarsestragglinghairs,histeethlargeandirregular,thoughsoundandbrilliantlywhite,andhischindiscolouredbyatetter。Hisskinwasofcoarsegrain,andsallowhue。Everyfeaturewaswideofbeauty,andtheoutlineofhisfaceremindedyouofaninvertedcone。
Andyethisforehead,sofarasshaggylockswouldallowittobeseen,hiseyeslustrouslyblack,andpossessing,inthemidstofhaggardness,aradianceinexpressiblysereneandpotent,andsomethingintherestofhisfeatures,whichitwouldbeinvaintodescribe,butwhichservedtobetokenamindofthehighestorder,wereessentialingredientsintheportrait。This,intheeffectswhichimmediatelyflowedfromit,Icountamongthemostextraordinaryincidentsofmylife。
Thisface,seenforamoment,continuedforhourstooccupymyfancy,totheexclusionofalmosteveryotherimage。Ihadpurposedtospendtheeveningwithmybrother,butIcouldnotresisttheinclinationofformingasketchuponpaperofthismemorablevisage。Whethermyhandwasaidedbyanypeculiarinspiration,orIwasdeceivedbymyownfondconceptions,thisportrait,thoughhastilyexecuted,appearedunexceptionabletomyowntaste。
Iplaceditatalldistances,andinalllights;myeyeswererivetteduponit。Halfthenightpassedawayinwakefulnessandincontemplationofthispicture。Soflexible,andyetsostubborn,isthehumanmind。Soobedienttoimpulsesthemosttransientandbrief,andyetsounalterablyobservantofthedirectionwhichisgiventoit!HowlittledidIthenforeseetheterminationofthatchain,ofwhichthismayberegardedasthefirstlink?
Nextdayaroseindarknessandstorm。Torrentsofrainfellduringthewholeday,attendedwithincessantthunder,whichreverberatedinstunningechoesfromtheoppositedeclivity。
Theinclemencyoftheairwouldnotallowmetowalk-out。I
had,indeed,noinclinationtoleavemyapartment。Ibetookmyselftothecontemplationofthisportrait,whoseattractionstimehadratherenhancedthandiminished。Ilaidasidemyusualoccupations,andseatingmyselfatawindow,consumedthedayinalternatelylookingoutuponthestorm,andgazingatthepicturewhichlayuponatablebeforeme。Youwill,perhaps,deemthisconductsomewhatsingular,andascribeittocertainpeculiaritiesoftemper。Iamnotawareofanysuchpeculiarities。Icanaccountformydevotiontothisimagenootherwise,thanbysupposingthatitspropertieswererareandprodigious。Perhapsyouwillsuspectthatsuchwerethefirstinroadsofapassionincidenttoeveryfemaleheart,andwhichfrequentlygainsafootingbymeansevenmoreslight,andmoreimprobablethanthese。Ishallnotcontrovertthereasonablenessofthesuspicion,butleaveyouatlibertytodraw,frommynarrative,whatconclusionsyouplease。
Nightatlengthreturned,andthestormceased。Theairwasoncemoreclearandcalm,andboreanaffectingcontrasttothatuproaroftheelementsbywhichithadbeenpreceded。Ispentthedarksomehours,asIspenttheday,contemplativeandseatedatthewindow。Whywasmymindabsorbedinthoughtsominousanddreary?Whydidmybosomheavewithsighs,andmyeyesoverflowwithtears?Wasthetempestthathadjustpastasignaloftheruinwhichimpendedoverme?Mysoulfondlydweltupontheimagesofmybrotherandhischildren,yettheyonlyincreasedthemournfulnessofmycontemplations。Thesmilesofthecharmingbabeswereasblandasformerly。Thesamedignitysatonthebrowoftheirfather,andyetIthoughtofthemwithanguish。Somethingwhisperedthatthehappinessweatpresentenjoyedwassetonmutablefoundations。Deathmusthappentoall。Whetherourfelicitywastobesubvertedbyitto-morrow,orwhetheritwasordainedthatweshouldlaydownourheadsfullofyearsandofhonor,wasaquestionthatnohumanbeingcouldsolve。Atothertimes,theseideasseldomintruded。I
eitherforboretoreflectuponthedestinythatisreservedforallmen,orthereflectionwasmixedupwithimagesthatdisrobeditofterror;butnowtheuncertaintyoflifeoccurredtomewithoutanyofitsusualandalleviatingaccompaniments。
Isaidtomyself,wemustdie。Soonerorlater,wemustdisappearforeverfromthefaceoftheearth。Whateverbethelinksthatholdustolife,theymustbebroken。Thissceneofexistenceis,inallitsparts,calamitous。Thegreaternumberisoppressedwithimmediateevils,andthose,thetideofwhosefortunesisfull,howsmallistheirportionofenjoyment,sincetheyknowthatitwillterminate。
ForsometimeIindulgedmyself,withoutreluctance,inthesegloomythoughts;butatlength,thedejectionwhichtheyproducedbecameinsupportablypainful。Iendeavouredtodissipateitwithmusic。Ihadallmygrand-father'smelodyaswellaspoetrybyrote。Inowlightedbychanceonaballad,whichcommemoratedthefateofaGermanCavalier,whofellatthesiegeofNiceunderGodfreyofBouillon。Mychoicewasunfortunate,forthescenesofviolenceandcarnagewhichwereherewildlybutforciblypourtrayed,onlysuggestedtomythoughtsanewtopicinthehorrorsofwar。
Isoughtrefuge,butineffectually,insleep。Mymindwasthrongedbyvivid,butconfusedimages,andnoeffortthatI
madewassufficienttodrivethemaway。InthissituationI
heardtheclock,whichhungintheroom,givethesignalfortwelve。Itwasthesameinstrumentwhichformerlyhunginmyfather'schamber,andwhich,onaccountofitsbeinghisworkmanship,wasregarded,byeveryoneofourfamily,withveneration。Ithadfallentome,inthedivisionofhisproperty,andwasplacedinthisasylum。Thesoundawakenedaseriesofreflections,respectinghisdeath。Iwasnotallowedtopursuethem;forscarcelyhadthevibrationsceased,whenmyattentionwasattractedbyawhisper,which,atfirst,appearedtoproceedfromlipsthatwerelaidclosetomyear。
Nowonderthatacircumstancelikethisstartledme。Inthefirstimpulseofmyterror,Iutteredaslightscream,andshrunktotheoppositesideofthebed。Inamoment,however,Irecoveredfrommytrepidation。Iwashabituallyindifferenttoallthecausesoffear,bywhichthemajorityareafflicted。
Ientertainednoapprehensionofeitherghostsorrobbers。Oursecurityhadneverbeenmolestedbyeither,andImadeuseofnomeanstopreventorcounterworktheirmachinations。Mytranquillity,onthisoccasion,wasquicklyretrieved。Thewhisperevidentlyproceededfromonewhowaspostedatmybed-side。Thefirstideathatsuggesteditselfwas,thatitwasutteredbythegirlwholivedwithmeasaservant。Perhaps,somewhathadalarmedher,orshewassick,andhadcometorequestmyassistance。Bywhisperinginmyear,sheintendedtorousewithoutalarmingme。
Fullofthispersuasion,Icalled;"Judith,"saidI,"isityou?Whatdoyouwant?Isthereanythingthematterwithyou?"Noanswerwasreturned。Irepeatedmyinquiry,butequallyinvain。Cloudyaswastheatmosphere,andcurtainedasmybedwas,nothingwasvisible。Iwithdrewthecurtain,andleaningmyheadonmyelbow,Ilistenedwiththedeepestattentiontocatchsomenewsound。Meanwhile,Iranoverinmythoughts,everycircumstancethatcouldassistmyconjectures。
Myhabitationwasawoodenedifice,consistingoftwostories。Ineachstoryweretworooms,separatedbyanentry,ormiddlepassage,withwhichtheycommunicatedbyoppositedoors。Thepassage,onthelowerstory,haddoorsatthetwoends,andastair-case。Windowsansweredtothedoorsontheupperstory。Annexedtothis,ontheeasternside,werewings,divided,inlikemanner,intoanupperandlowerroom;oneofthemcomprizedakitchen,andchamberaboveitfortheservant,andcommunicated,onbothstories,withtheparlouradjoiningitbelow,andthechamberadjoiningitabove。Theoppositewingisofsmallerdimensions,theroomsnotbeingaboveeightfeetsquare。Thelowerofthesewasusedasadepositoryofhouseholdimplements,theupperwasaclosetinwhichI
depositedmybooksandpapers。Theyhadbutoneinlet,whichwasfromtheroomadjoining。Therewasnowindowinthelowerone,andintheupper,asmallaperturewhichcommunicatedlightandair,butwouldscarcelyadmitthebody。Thedoorwhichledintothis,wasclosetomybed-head,andwasalwayslocked,butwhenImyselfwaswithin。Theavenuesbelowwereaccustomedtobeclosedandboltedatnights。
Themaidwasmyonlycompanion,andshecouldnotreachmychamberwithoutpreviouslypassingthroughtheoppositechamber,andthemiddlepassage,ofwhich,however,thedoorswereusuallyunfastened。Ifshehadoccasionedthisnoise,shewouldhaveansweredmyrepeatedcalls。Nootherconclusion,therefore,wasleftme,butthatIhadmistakenthesounds,andthatmyimaginationhadtransformedsomecasualnoiseintothevoiceofahumancreature。Satisfiedwiththissolution,Iwaspreparingtorelinquishmylisteningattitude,whenmyearwasagainsalutedwithanewandyetlouderwhispering。Itappeared,asbefore,toissuefromlipsthattouchedmypillow。
Asecondeffortofattention,however,clearlyshewedme,thatthesoundsissuedfromwithinthecloset,thedoorofwhichwasnotmorethaneightinchesfrommypillow。
Thissecondinterruptionoccasionedashocklessvehementthantheformer。Istarted,butgavenoaudibletokenofalarm。
Iwassomuchmistressofmyfeelings,astocontinuelisteningtowhatshouldbesaid。Thewhisperwasdistinct,hoarse,andutteredsoastoshewthatthespeakerwasdesirousofbeingheardbysomeonenear,but,atthesametime,studioustoavoidbeingoverheardbyanyother。
"Stop,stop,Isay;madmanasyouare!therearebettermeansthanthat。Curseuponyourrashness!Thereisnoneedtoshoot。"
Suchwerethewordsutteredinatoneofeagernessandanger,withinsosmalladistanceofmypillow。WhatconstructioncouldIputuponthem?Myheartbegantopalpitatewithdreadofsomeunknowndanger。Presently,anothervoice,butequallynearme,washeardwhisperinginanswer。"Whynot?Iwilldrawatriggerinthisbusiness,butperditionbemylotifIdomore。"Tothis,thefirstvoicereturned,inatonewhichragehadheightenedinasmalldegreeaboveawhisper,"Coward!standaside,andseemedoit。Iwillgraspherthroat;Iwilldoherbusinessinaninstant;sheshallnothavetimesomuchastogroan。"WhatwonderthatIwaspetrifiedbysoundssodreadful!
Murdererslurkedinmycloset。Theywereplanningthemeansofmydestruction。Oneresolvedtoshoot,andtheothermenacedsuffocation。Theirmeansbeingchosen,theywouldforthwithbreakthedoor。Flightinstantlysuggesteditselfasmosteligibleincircumstancessoperilous。Ideliberatednotamoment;but,fearaddingwingstomyspeed,Ileapedoutofbed,andscantilyrobedasIwas,rushedoutofthechamber,downstairs,andintotheopenair。Icanhardlyrecollecttheprocessofturningkeys,andwithdrawingbolts。Myterrorsurgedmeforwardwithalmostamechanicalimpulse。IstoppednottillIreachedmybrother'sdoor。Ihadnotgainedthethreshold,when,exhaustedbytheviolenceofmyemotions,andbymyspeed,Isunkdowninafit。
HowlongIremainedinthissituationIknownot。WhenI
recovered,Ifoundmyselfstretchedonabed,surroundedbymysisterandherfemaleservants。Iwasastonishedatthescenebeforeme,butgraduallyrecoveredtherecollectionofwhathadhappened。IansweredtheirimportunateinquiriesaswellasI
wasable。MybrotherandPleyel,whomthestormoftheprecedingdaychancedtodetainhere,informingthemselvesofeveryparticular,proceededwithlightsandweaponstomydesertedhabitation。Theyenteredmychamberandmycloset,andfoundeverythinginitsproperplaceandcustomaryorder。Thedooroftheclosetwaslocked,andappearednottohavebeenopenedinmyabsence。TheywenttoJudith'sapartment。Theyfoundherasleepandinsafety。Pleyel'scautioninducedhimtoforbearalarmingthegirl;andfindingherwhollyignorantofwhathadpassed,theydirectedhertoreturntoherchamber。
Theythenfastenedthedoors,andreturned。
Myfriendsweredisposedtoregardthistransactionasadream。Thatpersonsshouldbeactuallyimmuredinthiscloset,towhich,inthecircumstancesofthetime,accessfromwithoutorwithinwasapparentlyimpossible,theycouldnotseriouslybelieve。Thatanyhumanbeingshadintendedmurder,unlessitweretocoveraschemeofpillage,wasincredible;butthatnosuchdesignhadbeenformed,wasevidentfromthesecurityinwhichthefurnitureofthehouseandtheclosetremained。
Irevolvedeveryincidentandexpressionthathadoccurred。
Mysensesassuredmeofthetruthofthem,andyettheirabruptnessandimprobabilitymademe,inmyturn,somewhatincredulous。Theadventurehadmadeadeepimpressiononmyfancy,anditwasnottillafteraweek'sabodeatmybrother's,thatIresolvedtoresumethepossessionofmyowndwelling。
Therewasanothercircumstancethatenhancedthemysteriousnessofthisevent。Aftermyrecoveryitwasobvioustoinquirebywhatmeanstheattentionofthefamilyhadbeendrawntomysituation。IhadfallenbeforeIhadreachedthethreshold,orwasabletogiveanysignal。Mybrotherrelated,thatwhilethiswastransactinginmychamber,hehimselfwasawake,inconsequenceofsomeslightindisposition,andlay,accordingtohiscustom,musingonsomefavoritetopic。
Suddenlythesilence,whichwasremarkablyprofound,wasbrokenbyavoiceofmostpiercingshrillness,thatseemedtobeutteredbyoneinthehallbelowhischamber。"Awake!arise!"
itexclaimed:"hastentosuccouronethatisdyingatyourdoor。"
Thissummonswaseffectual。Therewasnooneinthehousewhowasnotrousedbyit。Pleyelwasthefirsttoobey,andmybrotherovertookhimbeforehereachedthehall。Whatwasthegeneralastonishmentwhenyourfriendwasdiscoveredstretcheduponthegrassbeforethedoor,pale,ghastly,andwitheverymarkofdeath!
Thiswasthethirdinstanceofavoice,exertedforthebenefitofthislittlecommunity。Theagentwasnolessinscrutableinthis,thanintheformercase。WhenIruminatedupontheseevents,mysoulwassuspendedinwonderandawe。WasIreallydeceivedinimaginingthatIheardtheclosetconversation?Iwasnolongeratlibertytoquestiontherealityofthoseaccentswhichhadformerlyrecalledmybrotherfromthehill;whichhadimpartedtidingsofthedeathoftheGermanladytoPleyel;andwhichhadlatelysummonedthemtomyassistance。
ButhowwasItoregardthismidnightconversation?Hoarseandmanlikevoicesconferringonthemeansofdeath,sonearmybed,andatsuchanhour!Howhadmyancientsecurityvanished!