Butthehasteningeveningwilldecide。Woulditwerecome!
  AndyetIshudderatitsnearapproach。Aninterviewthatmustthusterminate,issurelytobewishedforbyme;andyetitisnotwithoutitsterrors。Wouldtoheavenitwerecomeandgone!
  Ifeelnoreluctance,myfriendstobethusexplicit。Timewas,whentheseemotionswouldbehiddenwithimmeasurablesolicitude,fromeveryhumaneye。Alas!theseairyandfleetingimpulsesofshamearegone。Myscrupleswerepreposterousandcriminal。Theyarebredinallhearts,byaperverseandviciouseducation,andtheywouldstillhavemaintainedtheirplaceinmyheart,hadnotmyportionbeensetinmisery。Myerrorshavetaughtmethusmuchwisdom;thatthosesentimentswhichweoughtnottodisclose,itiscriminaltoharbour。
  Itwasproposedtobegintherehearsalatfouro'clock;I
  countedtheminutesastheypassed;theirflightwasatoncetoorapidandtooslow;mysensationswereofanexcruciatingkind;
  Icouldtastenofood,norapplytoanytask,norenjoyamoment'srepose:whenthehourarrived,Ihastenedtomybrother's。
  Pleyelwasnotthere。Hehadnotyetcome。Onordinaryoccasions,hewaseminentforpunctuality。Hehadtestifiedgreateagernesstoshareinthepleasuresofthisrehearsal。Hewastodividethetaskwithmybrother,and,intaskslikethese,healwaysengagedwithpeculiarzeal。Hiselocutionwaslesssweetthansonorous;and,therefore,betteradaptedthanthemellifluencesofhisfriend,totheoutrageousvehemenceofthisdrama。
  Whatcoulddetainhim?Perhapshelingeredthroughforgetfulness。Yetthiswasincredible。Neverhadhismemorybeenknowntofailuponevenmoretrivialoccasions。Notlessimpossiblewasit,thattheschemehadlostitsattractions,andthathestaid,becausehiscomingwouldaffordhimnogratification。Butwhyshouldweexpecthimtoadheretotheminute?
  Anhalfhourelapsed,butPleyelwasstillatadistance。
  Perhapshehadmisunderstoodthehourwhichhadbeenproposed。
  Perhapshehadconceivedthatto-morrow,andnotto-day,hadbeenselectedforthispurpose:butno。Areviewofprecedingcircumstancesdemonstratedthatsuchmisapprehensionwasimpossible;forhehadhimselfproposedthisday,andthishour。
  Thisday,hisattentionwouldnototherwisebeoccupied;butto-morrow,anindispensibleengagementwasforeseen,bywhichallhistimewouldbeengrossed:hisdetention,therefore,mustbeowingtosomeunforeseenandextraordinaryevent。Ourconjectureswerevague,tumultuous,andsometimesfearful。Hissicknessandhisdeathmightpossiblyhavedetainedhim。
  Torturedwithsuspense,wesatgazingateachother,andatthepathwhichledfromtheroad。Everyhorsemanthatpassedwas,foramoment,imaginedtobehim。Hoursucceededhour,andthesun,graduallydeclining,atlength,disappeared。Everysignalofhiscomingprovedfallacious,andourhopeswereatlengthdismissed。Hisabsenceaffectedmyfriendsinnoinsupportabledegree。Theyshouldbeobliged,theysaid,todeferthisundertakingtillthemorrow;and,perhaps,theirimpatientcuriositywouldcompelthemtodispenseentirelywithhispresence。Nodoubt,someharmlessoccurrencehaddivertedhimfromhispurpose;andtheytrustedthattheyshouldreceiveasatisfactoryaccountofhiminthemorning。
  Itmaybesupposedthatthisdisappointmentaffectedmeinaverydifferentmanner。Iturnedasidemyheadtoconcealmytears。Ifledintosolitude,togiveventtomyreproaches,withoutinterruptionorrestraint。Myheartwasreadytoburstwithindignationandgrief。Pleyelwasnottheonlyobjectofmykeenbutunjustupbraiding。DeeplydidIexecratemyownfolly。ThusfallenintoruinswasthegayfabricwhichIhadreared!Thushadmygoldenvisionmeltedintoair!
  HowfondlydidIdreamthatPleyelwasalover!Ifhewere,wouldhehavesufferedanyobstacletohinderhiscoming?Blindandinfatuatedman!Iexclaimed。Thousportestwithhappiness。
  Thegoodthatisofferedthee,thouhasttheinsolenceandfollytorefuse。Well,Iwillhenceforthintrustmyfelicitytonoone'skeepingbutmyown。
  Thefirstagoniesofthisdisappointmentwouldnotallowmetobereasonableorjust。EverygroundonwhichIhadbuiltthepersuasionthatPleyelwasnotunimpressedinmyfavor,appearedtovanish。ItseemedasifIhadbeenmisledintothisopinion,bythemostpalpableillusions。
  Imadesometriflingexcuse,andreturned,muchearlierthanIexpected,tomyownhouse。Iretiredearlytomychamber,withoutdesigningtosleep。Iplacedmyselfatawindow,andgavethereinstoreflection。
  Thehatefulanddegradingimpulseswhichhadlatelycontrouledmewere,insomedegree,removed。Newdejectionsucceeded,butwasnowproducedbycontemplatingmylatebehaviour。Surelythatpassionisworthytobeabhorredwhichobscuresourunderstanding,andurgesustothecommissionofinjustice。WhatrighthadItoexpecthisattendance?HadI
  notdemeanedmyselflikeoneindifferenttohishappiness,andashavingbestowedmyregardsuponanother?HisabsencemightbepromptedbythelovewhichIconsideredhisabsenceasaproofthathewanted。Hecamenotbecausethesightofme,thespectacleofmycoldnessoraversion,contributedtohisdespair。WhyshouldIprolong,byhypocrisyorsilence,hismiseryaswellasmyown?Whynotdealwithhimexplicitly,andassurehimofthetruth?
  Youwillhardlybelievethat,inobediencetothissuggestion,Iroseforthepurposeoforderingalight,thatI
  mightinstantlymakethisconfessioninaletter。Asecondthoughtshewedmetherashnessofthisscheme,andIwonderedbywhatinfirmityofmindIcouldbebetrayedintoamomentaryapprobationofit。Isawwiththeutmostclearnessthataconfessionlikethatwouldbethemostremedilessandunpardonableoutrageuponthedignityofmysex,andutterlyunworthyofthatpassionwhichcontrouledme。
  Iresumedmyseatandmymusing。ToaccountfortheabsenceofPleyelbecameoncemorethescopeofmyconjectures。Howmanyincidentsmightoccurtoraiseaninsuperableimpedimentinhisway?WhenIwasachild,aschemeofpleasure,inwhichheandhissisterwereparties,hadbeen,inlikemanner,frustratedbyhisabsence;buthisabsence,inthatinstance,hadbeenoccasionedbyhisfallingfromaboatintotheriver,inconsequenceofwhichhehadrunthemostimminenthazardofbeingdrowned。Herewasaseconddisappointmentenduredbythesamepersons,andproducedbyhisfailure。Mightitnotoriginateinthesamecause?HadhenotdesignedtocrosstheriverthatmorningtomakesomenecessarypurchasesinJersey?
  Hehadpreconcertedtoreturntohisownhousetodinner;but,perhaps,somedisasterhadbefallenhim。Experiencehadtaughtmetheinsecurityofacanoe,andthatwastheonlykindofboatwhichPleyelused:Iwas,likewise,actuatedbyanhereditarydreadofwater。Thesecircumstancescombinedtobestowconsiderableplausibilityonthisconjecture;buttheconsternationwithwhichIbegantobeseizedwasallayedbyreflecting,thatifthisdisasterhadhappenedmybrotherwouldhavereceivedthespeediestinformationofit。Theconsolationwhichthisideaimpartedwasravishedfrommebyanewthought。
  Thisdisastermighthavehappened,andhisfamilynotbeapprizedofit。Thefirstintelligenceofhisfatemaybecommunicatedbythelividcorpsewhichthetidemaycast,manydayshence,upontheshore。
  ThuswasIdistressedbyoppositeconjectures:thuswasI
  tormentedbyphantomsofmyowncreation。Itwasnotalwaysthus。Icanascertainthedatewhenmymindbecamethevictimofthisimbecility;perhapsitwascoevalwiththeinroadofafatalpassion;apassionthatwillneverrankmeinthenumberofitseulogists;itwasalonesufficienttotheexterminationofmypeace:itwasitselfaplenteoussourceofcalamity,andneedednottheconcurrenceofotherevilstotakeawaytheattractionsofexistence,anddigformeanuntimelygrave。
  Thestateofmymindnaturallyintroducedatrainofreflectionsuponthedangersandcareswhichinevitablybesetanhumanbeing。BynoviolenttransitionwasIledtoponderontheturbulentlifeandmysteriousendofmyfather。I
  cherished,withtheutmostveneration,thememoryofthisman,andeveryreliqueconnectedwithhisfatewaspreservedwiththemostscrupulouscare。Amongthesewastobenumberedamanuscript,containingmemoirsofhisownlife。Thenarrativewasbynomeansrecommendedbyitseloquence;butneitherdidallitsvalueflowfrommyrelationshiptotheauthor。Itsstilehadanunaffectedandpicturesquesimplicity。Thegreatvarietyandcircumstantialdisplayoftheincidents,togetherwiththeirintrinsicimportance,asdescriptiveofhumanmannersandpassions,madeitthemostusefulbookinmycollection。Itwaslate;butbeingsensibleofnoinclinationtosleep,I
  resolvedtobetakemyselftotheperusalofit。
  Todothisitwasrequisitetoprocurealight。Thegirlhadlongsinceretiredtoherchamber:itwasthereforepropertowaituponmyself。Alamp,andthemeansoflightingit,wereonlytobefoundinthekitchen。ThitherIresolvedforthwithtorepair;butthelightwasofusemerelytoenablemetoreadthebook。Iknewtheshelfandthespotwhereitstood。
  WhetherItookdownthebook,orpreparedthelampinthefirstplace,appearedtobeamatterofnomoment。Thelatterwaspreferred,and,leavingmyseat,Iapproachedtheclosetinwhich,asImentionedformerly,mybooksandpapersweredeposited。
  Suddenlytheremembranceofwhathadlatelypassedinthisclosetoccurred。Whethermidnightwasapproaching,orhadpassed,Iknewnot。Iwas,asthen,alone,anddefenceless。
  Thewindwasinthatdirectioninwhich,aidedbythedeathlikereposeofnature,itbroughttomethemurmurofthewater-fall。
  Thiswasmingledwiththatsolemnandenchantingsound,whichabreezeproducesamongtheleavesofpines。Thewordsofthatmysteriousdialogue,theirfearfulimport,andthewildexcesstowhichIwastransportedbymyterrors,filledmyimaginationanew。Mystepsfaultered,andIstoodamomenttorecovermyself。
  Iprevailedonmyselfatlengthtomovetowardsthecloset。
  Itouchedthelock,butmyfingerswerepowerless;Iwasvisitedafreshbyunconquerableapprehensions。Asortofbeliefdartedintomymind,thatsomebeingwasconcealedwithin,whosepurposeswereevil。Ibegantocontendwiththosefears,whenitoccurredtomethatImight,withoutimpropriety,goforalamppreviouslytoopeningthecloset。Irecededafewsteps;
  butbeforeIreachedmychamberdoormythoughtstookanewdirection。Motionseemedtoproduceamechanicalinfluenceuponme。Iwasashamedofmyweakness。Besides,whataidcouldbeaffordedmebyalamp?
  Myfearshadpicturedtothemselvesnopreciseobject。Itwouldbedifficulttodepict,inwords,theingredientsandhuesofthatphantomwhichhauntedme。Anhandinvisibleandofpreternaturalstrength,liftedbyhumanpassions,andselectingmylifeforitsaim,werepartsofthisterrificimage。Allplaceswerealikeaccessibletothisfoe,orifhisempirewererestrictedbylocalbounds,thoseboundswereutterlyinscrutablebyme。ButhadInotbeentoldbysomeoneinleaguewiththisenemy,thateveryplacebuttherecessinthebankwasexemptfromdanger?
  Ireturnedtothecloset,andoncemoreputmyhanduponthelock。O!maymyearslosetheirsensibility,eretheybeagainassailedbyashrieksoterrible!Notmerelymyunderstandingwassubduedbythesound:itactedonmynerveslikeanedgeofsteel。Itappearedtocutasunderthefibresofmybrain,andrackeveryjointwithagony。
  Thecry,loudandpiercingasitwas,wasneverthelesshuman。
  Noarticulationwasevermoredistinct。Thebreathwhichaccompanieditdidnotfanmyhair,yetdideverycircumstancecombinetopersuademethatthelipswhichutteredittouchedmyveryshoulder。
  "Hold!Hold!"werethewordsofthistremendousprohibition,inwhosetonethewholesoulseemedtobewrappedup,andeveryenergyconvertedintoeagernessandterror。
  Shuddering,Idashedmyselfagainstthewall,andbythesameinvoluntaryimpulse,turnedmyfacebackwardtoexaminethemysteriousmonitor。Themoon-lightstreamedintoeachwindow,andeverycorneroftheroomwasconspicuous,andyetIbeheldnothing!
  Theintervalwastoobrieftobeartificiallymeasured,betweentheutteranceofthesewords,andmyscrutinydirectedtothequarterwhencetheycame。Yetifahumanbeinghadbeenthere,couldhefailtohavebeenvisible?Whichofmysenseswasthepreyofafatalillusion?Theshockwhichthesoundproducedwasstillfeltineverypartofmyframe。Thesound,therefore,couldnotbutbeagenuinecommotion。ButthatIhadheardit,wasnotmoretruethanthatthebeingwhouttereditwasstationedatmyrightear;yetmyattendantwasinvisible。
  Icannotdescribethestateofmythoughtsatthatmoment。
  Surprizehadmasteredmyfaculties。Myframeshook,andthevitalcurrentwascongealed。Iwasconsciousonlytothevehemenceofmysensations。Thisconditioncouldnotbelasting。Likeatide,whichsuddenlymountstoanoverwhelmingheight,andthengraduallysubsides,myconfusionslowlygaveplacetoorder,andmytumultstoacalm。Iwasabletodeliberateandmove。Iresumedmyfeet,andadvancedintothemidstoftheroom。Upward,andbehind,andoneachside,I
  threwpenetratingglances。Iwasnotsatisfiedwithoneexamination。Hethathithertorefusedtobeseen,mightchangehispurpose,andonthenextsurveybeclearlydistinguishable。
  Solitudeimposesleastrestraintuponthefancy。Darkislessfertileofimagesthanthefeeblelustreofthemoon。I
  wasalone,andthewallswerechequeredbyshadowyforms。Asthemoonpassedbehindacloudandemerged,theseshadowsseemedtobeendowedwithlife,andtomove。Theapartmentwasopentothebreeze,andthecurtainwasoccasionallyblownfromitsordinaryposition。Thismotionwasnotunaccompaniedwithsound。Ifailednottosnatchalook,andtolistenwhenthismotionandthissoundoccurred。Mybeliefthatmymonitorwaspostednear,wasstrong,andinstantlyconvertedtheseappearancestotokensofhispresence,andyetIcoulddiscernnothing。
  Whenmythoughtswereatlengthpermittedtoreverttothepast,thefirstideathatoccurredwastheresemblancebetweenthewordsofthevoicewhichIhadjustheard,andthosewhichhadterminatedmydreaminthesummer-house。Therearemeansbywhichweareabletodistinguishasubstancefromashadow,arealityfromthephantomofadream。Thepit,mybrotherbeckoningmeforward,theseizureofmyarm,andthevoicebehind,weresurelyimaginary。Thattheseincidentswerefashionedinmysleep,issupportedbythesameindubitableevidencethatcompelsmetobelievemyselfawakeatpresent;yetthewordsandthevoicewerethesame。Then,bysomeinexplicablecontrivance,Iwasawareofthedanger,whilemyactionsandsensationswerethoseofonewhollyunacquaintedwithit。Now,wasitnotequallytruethatmyactionsandpersuasionswereatwar?Hadnotthebelief,thatevillurkedinthecloset,gainedadmittance,andhadnotmyactionsbetokenedanunwarrantablesecurity?Toobviatetheeffectsofmyinfatuation,thesamemeanshadbeenused。
  Inmydream,hethattemptedmetomydestruction,wasmybrother。Deathwasambushedinmypath。FromwhatevilwasI
  nowrescued?Whatministerorimplementofillwasshutupinthisrecess?WhowasitwhosesuffocatinggraspIwastofeel,shouldIdaretoenterit?Whatmonstrousconceptionisthis?
  mybrother!
  No;protection,andnotinjuryishisprovince。Strangeandterriblechimera!Yetitwouldnotbesuddenlydismissed。Itwassurelynovulgaragencythatgavethisformtomyfears。Hetowhomallpartsoftimeareequallypresent,whomnocontingencyapproaches,wastheauthorofthatspellwhichnowseizeduponme。Lifewasdeartome。Noconsiderationwaspresentthatenjoinedmetorelinquishit。Sacreddutycombinedwitheveryspontaneoussentimenttoendeartomemybeing。
  ShouldInotshudderwhenmybeingwasendangered?ButwhatemotionshouldpossessmewhenthearmliftedaginstmewasWieland's?
  Ideasexistinourmindsthatcanbeaccountedforbynoestablishedlaws。WhydidIdreamthatmybrotherwasmyfoe?
  Whybutbecauseanomenofmyfatewasordainedtobecommunicated?Yetwhatsalutaryenddiditserve?Diditarmmewithcautiontoelude,orfortitudetobeartheevilstowhichIwasreserved?Mypresentthoughtswere,nodoubt,indebtedfortheirhuetothesimilitudeexistingbetweentheseincidentsandthoseofmydream。Surelyitwasphrenzythatdictatedmydeed。Thataruffianwashiddeninthecloset,wasanidea,thegenuinetendencyofwhichwastourgemetoflight。
  Suchhadbeentheeffectformerlyproduced。Hadmymindbeensimplyoccupiedwiththisthoughtatpresent,nodoubt,thesameimpulsewouldhavebeenexperienced;butnowitwasmybrotherwhomIwasirresistablypersuadedtoregardasthecontriverofthatillofwhichIhadbeenforewarned。Thispersuasiondidnotextenuatemyfearsormydanger。WhythendidIagainapproachtheclosetandwithdrawthebolt?Myresolutionwasinstantlyconceived,andexecutedwithoutfaultering。
  Thedoorwasformedoflightmaterials。Thelock,ofsimplestructure,easilyforewentitshold。Itopenedintotheroom,andcommonlymoveduponitshinges,afterbeingunfastened,withoutanyeffortofmine。Thiseffort,however,wasbestoweduponthepresentoccasion。Itwasmypurposetoopenitwithquickness,buttheexertionwhichImadewasineffectual。Itrefusedtoopen。
  Atanothertime,thiscircumstancewouldnothavelookedwithafaceofmystery。Ishouldhavesupposedsomecasualobstruction,andrepeatedmyeffortstosurmountit。Butnowmymindwasaccessibletonoconjecturebutone。Thedoorwashinderedfromopeningbyhumanforce。Surely,herewasnewcauseforaffright。Thiswasconfirmationpropertodecidemyconduct。Nowwasallgroundofhesitationtakenaway。WhatcouldbesupposedbutthatIdesertedthechamberandthehouse?
  thatIatleastendeavourednolongertowithdrawthedoor?
  HaveInotsaidthatmyactionsweredictatedbyphrenzy?Myreasonhadforborne,foratime,tosuggestortoswaymyresolves。Ireiteratedmyendeavours。Iexertedallmyforcetoovercometheobstacle,butinvain。Thestrengththatwasexertedtokeepitshut,wassuperiortomine。
  Acasualobservermight,perhaps,applaudtheaudaciousnessofthisconduct。Whence,butfromanhabitualdefianceofdanger,couldmyperseverancearise?Ihavealreadyassigned,asdistinctlyasIamable,thecauseofit。Thefranticconceptionthatmybrotherwaswithin,thattheresistancemadetomydesignwasexertedbyhim,hadrooteditselfinmymind。
  Youwillcomprehendtheheightofthisinfatuation,whenItellyou,that,findingallmyexertionsvain,Ibetookmyselftoexclamations。SurelyIwasutterlybereftofunderstanding。
  NowhadIarrivedatthecrisisofmyfate。"O!hindernotthedoortoopen,"Iexclaimed,inatonethathadlessoffearthanofgriefinit。"Iknowyouwell。Comeforth,butharmmenot。Ibeseechyoucomeforth。"
  Ihadtakenmyhandfromthelock,andremovedtoasmalldistancefromthedoor。Ihadscarcelyutteredthesewords,whenthedoorswunguponitshinges,anddisplayedtomyviewtheinteriorofthecloset。Whoeverwaswithin,wasshroudedindarkness。Afewsecondspassedwithoutinterruptionofthesilence。Iknewnotwhattoexpectortofear。Myeyeswouldnotstrayfromtherecess。Presently,adeepsighwasheard。
  Thequarterfromwhichitcameheightenedtheeagernessofmygaze。Someoneapproachedfromthefartherend。Iquicklyperceivedtheoutlinesofahumanfigure。Itsstepswereirresoluteandslow。Irecoiledasitadvanced。
  Bycomingatlengthwithinthevergeoftheroom,hisformwasclearlydistinguishable。Ihadprefiguredtomyselfaverydifferentpersonage。ThefacethatpresenteditselfwasthelastthatIshoulddesiretomeetatanhour,andinaplacelikethis。Mywonderwasstifledbymyfears。Assassinshadlurkedinthisrecess。Somedivinevoicewarnedmeofdanger,thatatthismomentawaitedme。Ihadspurnedtheintimation,andchallengedmyadversary。
  IrecalledthemysteriouscountenanceanddubiouscharacterofCarwin。Whatmotivebutatrociousonescouldguidehisstepshither?Iwasalone。Myhabitsuitedthehour,andtheplace,andthewarmthoftheseason。Allsuccourwasremote。Hehadplacedhimselfbetweenmeandthedoor。Myframeshookwiththevehemenceofmyapprehensions。
  YetIwasnotwhollylosttomyself:Ivigilantlymarkedhisdemeanour。Hislooksweregrave,butnotwithoutperturbation。
  Whatspeciesofinquietudeitbetrayed,thelightwasnotstrongenoughtoenablemetodiscover。Hestoodstill;buthiseyeswanderedfromoneobjecttoanother。Whenthesepowerfulorganswerefixeduponme,Ishrunkintomyself。Atlength,hebrokesilence。Earnestness,andnotembarrassment,wasinhistone。
  Headvancedclosetomewhilehespoke。
  "Whatvoicewasthatwhichlatelyaddressedyou?"
  Hepausedforananswer;butobservingmytrepidation,heresumed,withundiminishedsolemnity:"Benotterrified。
  Whoeverhewas,hehastdoneyouanimportantservice。Ineednotaskyouifitwerethevoiceofacompanion。Thatsoundwasbeyondthecompassofhumanorgans。Theknowledgethatenabledhimtotellyouwhowasinthecloset,wasobtainedbyincomprehensiblemeans。
  "YouknewthatCarwinwasthere。Wereyounotapprizedofhisintents?Thesamepowercouldimparttheoneaswellastheother。Yet,knowingthese,youpersisted。Audaciousgirl!but,perhaps,youconfidedinhisguardianship。Yourconfidencewasjust。Withsuccourlikethisathandyoumaysafelydefyme。
  "Heismyeternalfoe;thebafflerofmybestconcertedschemes。Twicehaveyoubeensavedbyhisaccursedinterposition。ButforhimIshouldlongerenowhaveborneawaythespoilsofyourhonor。"
  Helookedatmewithgreaterstedfastnessthanbefore。I
  becameeverymomentmoreanxiousformysafety。ItwaswithdifficultyIstammeredoutanentreatythathewouldinstantlydepart,orsuffermetodoso。Hepaidnoregardtomyrequest,butproceededinamoreimpassionedmanner。
  "Whatisityoufear?HaveInottoldyou,youaresafe?
  Hasnotoneinwhomyoumorereasonablyplacetrustassuredyouofit?EvenifIexecutemypurpose,whatinjuryisdone?Yourprejudiceswillcallitbythatname,butitmeritsitnot。
  "Iwasimpelledbyasentimentthatdoesyouhonor;asentiment,thatwouldsanctifymydeed;but,whateveritbe,youaresafe。Bethischimerastillworshipped;Iwilldonothingtopolluteit。"Therehestopped。
  Theaccentsandgesturesofthismanleftmedrainedofallcourage。Surely,onnootheroccasionshouldIhavebeenthuspusillanimous。MystateIregardedasahopelessone。Iwaswhollyatthemercyofthisbeing。WhicheverwayIturnedmyeyes,IsawnoavenuebywhichImightescape。Theresourcesofmypersonalstrength,myingenuity,andmyeloquence,I
  estimatedatnothing。Thedignityofvirtue,andtheforceoftruth,Ihadbeenaccustomedtocelebrate;andhadfrequentlyvauntedoftheconquestswhichIshouldmakewiththeirassistance。
  Iusedtosupposethatcertainevilscouldneverbefallabeinginpossessionofasoundmind;thattruevirtuesuppliesuswithenergywhichvicecanneverresist;thatitwasalwaysinourpowertoobstruct,byhisowndeath,thedesignsofanenemywhoaimedatlessthanourlife。Howwasitthatasentimentlikedespairhadnowinvadedme,andthatItrustedtotheprotectionofchance,ortothepityofmypersecutor?
  Hiswordsimpartedsomenotionoftheinjurywhichhehadmeditated。Hetalkedofobstaclesthathadriseninhisway。
  Hehadrelinquishedhisdesign。Thesesourcessuppliedmewithslenderconsolation。Therewasnosecuritybutinhisabsence。
  WhenIlookedatmyself,whenIreflectedonthehourandtheplace,Iwasoverpoweredbyhorroranddejection。
  Hewassilent,museful,andinattentivetomysituation,yetmadenomotiontodepart。Iwassilentinmyturn。WhatcouldIsay?Iwasconfidentthatreasoninthiscontestwouldbeimpotent。Imustowemysafetytohisownsuggestions。
  Whateverpurposebroughthimhither,hehadchangedit。Whythendidheremain?Hisresolutionsmightfluctuate,andthepauseofafewminutesrestoretohimhisfirstresolutions。
  Yetwasnotthisthemanwhomwehadtreatedwithunweariedkindness?Whosesocietywasendearedtousbyhisintellectualelevationandaccomplishments?Whohadathousandtimesexpatiatedontheusefulnessandbeautyofvirtue?Whyshouldsuchaonebedreaded?IfIcouldhaveforgottenthecircumstancesinwhichourinterviewhadtakenplace,Imighthavetreatedhiswordsasjests。Presently,heresumed:
  "Fearmenot:thespacethatseversusissmall,andallvisiblesuccourisdistant。Youbelieveyourselfcompletelyinmypower;thatyoustanduponthebrinkofruin。Suchareyourgroundlessfears。Icannotliftafingertohurtyou。Easieritwouldbetostopthemooninhercoursethantoinjureyou。
  Thepowerthatprotectsyouwouldcrumblemysinews,andreducemetoaheapofashesinamoment,ifIweretoharbourathoughthostiletoyoursafety。
  "Thusareappearancesatlengthsolved。LittledidIexpectthattheyoriginatedhence。Whataportionisassignedtoyou?
  Scannedbytheeyesofthisintelligence,yourpathwillbewithoutpitstoswallow,orsnarestoentangleyou。Environedbythearmsofthisprotection,allartificeswillbefrustrated,andallmalicerepelled。"
  Heresucceededanewpause。Iwasstillobservantofeverygestureandlook。Thetranquilsolemnitythathadlatelypossessedhiscountenancegavewaytoanewexpression。Allnowwastrepidationandanxiety。
  "Imustbegone,"saidheinafalteringaccent。"WhydoI
  lingerhere?Iwillnotaskyourforgiveness。Iseethatyourterrorsareinvincible。Yourpardonwillbeextortedbyfear,andnotdictatedbycompassion。Imustflyfromyouforever。
  Hethatcouldplotagainstyourhonor,mustexpectfromyouandyourfriendspersecutionanddeath。Imustdoommyselftoendlessexile。"
  Sayingthis,hehastilylefttheroom。Ilistenedwhilehedescendedthestairs,and,unboltingtheouterdoor,wentforth。
  Ididnotfollowhimwithmyeyes,asthemoon-lightwouldhaveenabledmetodo。Relievedbyhisabsence,andexhaustedbytheconflictofmyfears,Ithrewmyselfonachair,andresignedmyselftothosebewilderingideaswhichincidentslikethesecouldnotfailtoproduce。
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  Ordercouldnotreadilybeintroducedintomythoughts。Thevoicestillrunginmyears。EveryaccentthatwasutteredbyCarwinwasfreshinmyremembrance。Hisunwelcomeapproach,therecognitionofhisperson,hishastydeparture,producedacompleximpressiononmymindwhichnowordscandelineate。I
  strovetogiveaslowermotiontomythoughts,andtoregulateaconfusionwhichbecamepainful;butmyeffortswerenugatory。
  Icoveredmyeyeswithmyhand,andsat,Iknownothowlong,withoutpowertoarrangeoruttermyconceptions。
  Ihadremainedforhours,asIbelieved,inabsolutesolitude。Nothoughtofpersonaldangerhadmolestedmytranquillity。Ihadmadenopreparationfordefence。Whatwasitthatsuggestedthedesignofperusingmyfather'smanuscript?
  If,insteadofthis,Ihadretiredtobed,andtosleep,towhatfatemightInothavebeenreserved?Theruffian,whomustalmosthavesuppressedhisbreathingtoscreenhimselffromdiscovery,wouldhavenoticedthissignal,andIshouldhaveawakenedonlytoperishwithaffright,andtoabhormyself。
  CouldIhaveremainedunconsciousofmydanger?CouldIhavetranquillysleptinthemidstofsodeadlyasnare?
  Andwhowashethatthreatenedtodestroyme?Bywhatmeanscouldhehidehimselfinthiscloset?Surelyheisgiftedwithsupernaturalpower。SuchistheenemyofwhoseattemptsIwasforewarned。DailyIhadseenhimandconversedwithhim。
  Nothingcouldbediscernedthroughtheimpenetrableveilofhisduplicity。Whenbusiedinconjectures,astotheauthoroftheevilthatwasthreatened,myminddidnotlight,foramoment,uponhisimage。Yethashenotavowedhimselfmyenemy?Whyshouldhebehereifhehadnotmeditatedevil?
  Heconfessesthatthishasbeenhissecondattempt。Whatwasthesceneofhisformerconspiracy?Wasitnothewhosewhispersbetrayedhim?AmIdeceived;orwastherenotafaintresemblancebetweenthevoiceofthismanandthatwhichtalkedofgraspingmythroat,andextinguishingmylifeinamoment?
  Thenhehadacolleagueinhiscrime;nowheisalone。Thendeathwasthescopeofhisthoughts;nowaninjuryunspeakablymoredreadful。HowthankfulshouldIbetothepowerthathasinterposedtosaveme!
  Thatpowerisinvisible。Itissubjecttothecognizanceofoneofmysenses。Whatarethemeansthatwillinformmeofwhatnatureitis?Hehassethimselftocounterworkthemachinationsofthisman,whohadmenaceddestructiontoallthatisdeartome,andwhosecunninghadsurmountedeveryhumanimpediment。Therewasnonetorescuemefromhisgrasp。Myrashnessevenhastenedthecompletionofhisscheme,andprecludedhimfromthebenefitsofdeliberation。Ihadrobbedhimofthepowertorepentandforbear。HadIbeenapprizedofthedanger,Ishouldhaveregardedmyconductasthemeansofrenderingmyescapefromitimpossible。Such,likewise,seemtohavebeenthefearsofmyinvisibleprotector。Elsewhythatstartlingintreatytorefrainfromopeningthecloset?BywhatinexplicableinfatuationwasIcompelledtoproceed?
  Yetmyconductwaswise。Carwin,unabletocomprehendmyfolly,ascribedmybehaviourtomyknowledge。Heconceivedhimselfpreviouslydetected,andsuchdetectionbeingpossibletoflowonlyfromMYheavenlyfriend,andHISenemy,hisfearsacquiredadditionalstrength。
  Heisapprizedofthenatureandintentionsofthisbeing。
  Perhapsheisahumanagent。Yet,onthatsuppositionhisatchievementsareincredible。WhyshouldIbeselectedastheobjectofhiscare;or,ifameremortal,shouldInotrecognizesomeone,whom,benefitsimpartedandreceivedhadpromptedtoloveme?Whatwerethelimitsanddurationofhisguardianship?
  Wasthegeniusofmybirthentrustedbydivinebenignitywiththisprovince?ArehumanfacultiesadequatetoreceivestrongerproofsoftheexistenceofunfetteredandbeneficentintelligencesthanIhavereceived?
  Butwhowasthisman'scoadjutor?ThevoicethatacknowledgedanallianceintreacherywithCarwinwarnedmetoavoidthesummer-house。Heassuredmethatthereonlymysafetywasendangered。Hisassurance,asitnowappears,wasfallacious。Wastherenotdeceitinhisadmonition?Washiscompactreallyannulled?Somepurposewas,perhaps,tobeaccomplishedbypreventingmyfuturevisitstothatspot。WhywasIenjoinedsilencetoothers,onthesubjectofthisadmonition,unlessitwereforsomeunauthorizedandguiltypurpose?
  Noonebutmyselfwasaccustomedtovisitit。Backward,itwashiddenfromdistantviewbytherock,andinfront,itwasscreenedfromallexamination,bycreepingplants,andthebranchesofcedars。Whatrecesscouldbemorepropitioustosecrecy?Thespiritwhichhaunteditformerlywaspureandrapturous。Itwasafanesacredtothememoryofinfantiledays,andtoblissfulimaginationsofthefuture!Whatagloomyreversehadsucceededsincetheominousarrivalofthisstranger!Now,perhaps,itisthesceneofhismeditations。
  Purposesfraughtwithhorror,thatshunthelight,andcontemplatethepollutionofinnocence,arehereengendered,andfostered,andrearedtomaturity。
  Suchweretheideasthat,duringthenight,weretumultuouslyrevolvedbyme。IreviewedeveryconversationinwhichCarwinhadborneapart。Istudiedtodiscoverthetrueinferencesdeduciblefromhisdeportmentandwordswithregardtohisformeradventuresandactualviews。IponderedonthecommentswhichhemadeontherelationwhichIhadgivenoftheclosetdialogue。Nonewideassuggestedthemselvesinthecourseofthisreview。Myexpectationhad,fromthefirst,beendisappointedonthesmalldegreeofsurprizewhichthisnarrativeexcitedinhim。Heneverexplicitlydeclaredhisopinionastothenatureofthosevoices,ordecidedwhethertheywererealorvisionary。Herecommendednomeasuresofcautionorprevention。
  Butwhatmeasureswerenowtobetaken?Wasthedangerwhichthreatenedmeatanend?HadInothingmoretofear?Iwaslonely,andwithoutmeansofdefence。Icouldnotcalculatethemotivesandregulatethefootstepsofthisperson。Whatcertaintywasthere,thathewouldnotre-assumehispurposes,andswiftlyreturntotheexecutionofthem?
  Thisideacoveredmeoncemorewithdismay。HowdeeplydidIregretthesolitudeinwhichIwasplaced,andhowardentlydidIdesirethereturnofday!Butneitheroftheseinconvenienciesweresusceptibleofremedy。Atfirst,itoccurredtometosummonmyservant,andmakeherspendthenightinmychamber;buttheinefficacyofthisexpedienttoenhancemysafetywaseasilyseen。OnceIresolvedtoleavethehouse,andretiretomybrother's,butwasdeterredbyreflectingontheunseasonablenessofthehour,onthealarmwhichmyarrival,andtheaccountwhichIshouldbeobligedtogive,mightoccasion,andonthedangertowhichImightexposemyselfinthewaythither。Ibegan,likewise,toconsiderCarwin'sreturntomolestmeasexceedinglyimprobable。Hehadrelinquished,ofhisownaccord,hisdesign,anddepartedwithoutcompulsion。
  "Surely,"saidI,"thereisomnipotenceinthecausethatchangedtheviewsofamanlikeCarwin。Thedivinitythatshieldedmefromhisattemptswilltakesuitablecareofmyfuturesafety。Thustoyieldtomyfearsistodeservethattheyshouldbereal。"