Ihavealreadysaid,thattheentranceintothisclosetwasbesidemybed,which,ontwosides,wascloselyshrowdedbycurtains。Onthatsidenearestthecloset,thecurtainwasraised。AsIpassedalongIcastmyeyethither。Istarted,andlookedagain。Iborealightinmyhand,andbroughtitnearermyeyes,inordertodispelanyillusivemiststhatmighthavehoveredbeforethem。OncemoreIfixedmyeyesuponthebed,inhopethatthismorestedfastscrutinywouldannihilatetheobjectwhichbeforeseemedtobethere。
ThisthenwasthesightwhichCarwinhadpredicted!Thiswastheeventwhichmyunderstandingwastofindinexplicable!Thiswasthefatewhichhadbeenreservedforme,butwhich,bysomeuntowardchance,hadbefallenonanother!
Ihadnotbeenterrifiedbyemptymenaces。Violationanddeathawaitedmyentranceintothischamber。SomeinscrutablechancehadledHERhitherbeforeme,andthemercilessfangsofwhichIwasdesignedtobetheprey,hadmistakentheirvictim,andhadfixedthemselvesinHERheart。Butwherewasmysafety?Wasthemischiefexhaustedorflown?Thestepsoftheassassinhadjustbeenhere;theycouldnotbefaroff;
inamomenthewouldrushintomypresence,andIshouldperishunderthesamepollutingandsuffocatinggrasp!
Myframeshook,andmykneeswereunabletosupportme。I
gazedalternatelyattheclosetdoorandatthedoorofmyroom。
Atoneoftheseavenueswouldentertheexterminatorofmyhonorandmylife。Iwaspreparedfordefence;butnowthatdangerwasimminent,mymeansofdefence,andmypowertousethemweregone。Iwasnotqualified,byeducationandexperience,toencounterperilslikethese:or,perhaps,IwaspowerlessbecauseIwasagainassaultedbysurprize,andhadnotfortifiedmymindbyforesightandpreviousreflectionagainstascenelikethis。
Fearsformyownsafetyagainyieldedplacetoreflectionsonthescenebeforeme。Ifixedmyeyesuponhercountenance。Mysister'swell-knownandbelovedfeaturescouldnotbeconcealedbyconvulsionorlividness。Whatdirefulillusionledtheehither?Bereftofthee,whatholdonhappinessremainstothyoffspringandthyspouse?Tolosetheebyacommonfatewouldhavebeensufficientlyhard;butthussuddenlytoperish——tobecomethepreyofthisghastlydeath!HowwillaspectaclelikethisbeenduredbyWieland?Todiebeneathhisgraspwouldnotsatisfythyenemy。Thiswasmercytotheevilswhichhepreviouslymadetheesuffer!Aftertheseevilsdeathwasaboonwhichthoubesoughtesthimtogrant。Heentertainednoenmityagainstthee:Iwastheobjectofhistreason;butbysometremendousmistakehisfurywasmisplaced。Buthowcomestthouhither?andwherewasWielandinthyhourofdistress?
Iapproachedthecorpse:Iliftedthestillflexiblehand,andkissedthelipswhichwerebreathless。Herflowingdraperywasdiscomposed。Irestoredittoorder,andseatingmyselfonthebed,againfixedstedfasteyesuponhercountenance。I
cannotdistinctlyrecollecttheruminationsofthatmoment。I
sawconfusedly,butforcibly,thateveryhopewasextinguishedwiththelifeofCATHARINE。AllhappinessanddignitymusthenceforthbebanishedfromthehouseandnameofWieland:allthatremainedwastolingeroutinagoniesashortexistence;
andleavetotheworldamonumentofblastedhopesandchangeablefortune。Pleyelwasalreadylosttome;yet,whileCatharinelivedlifewasnotadetestablepossession:butnow,severedfromthecompanionofmyinfancy,thepartakerofallmythoughts,mycares,andmywishes,Iwaslikeonesetafloatuponastormysea,andhanginghissafetyuponaplank;nightwasclosinguponhim,andanunexpectedsurgehadtornhimfromhisholdandoverwhelmedhimforever。
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Ihadnoinclinationnorpowertomovefromthisspot。Formorethananhour,myfacultiesandlimbsseemedtobedeprivedofallactivity。Thedoorbelowcreakedonitshinges,andstepsascendedthestairs。Mywanderingandconfusedthoughtswereinstantlyrecalledbythesesounds,anddroppingthecurtainofthebed,Imovedtoapartoftheroomwhereanyonewhoenteredshouldbevisible;sucharethevibrationsofsentiment,thatnotwithstandingtheseemingfulfilmentofmyfears,andincreaseofmydanger,Iwasconscious,onthisoccasion,tonoturbulencebutthatofcuriosity。
Atlengthheenteredtheapartment,andIrecognizedmybrother。ItwasthesameWielandwhomIhadeverseen。Yethisfeatureswerepervadedbyanewexpression。Isupposedhimunacquaintedwiththefateofhiswife,andhisappearanceconfirmedthispersuasion。AbrowexpandingintoexultationI
hadhithertoneverseeninhim,yetsuchabrowdidhenowwear。
Notonlywasheunapprizedofthedisasterthathadhappened,butsomejoyousoccurrencehadbetided。Whatareversewaspreparingtoannihilatehistransitorybliss!Nohusbandeverdoatedmorefondly,fornowifeeverclaimedsoboundlessadevotion。Iwasnotuncertainastotheeffectstoflowfromthediscoveryofherfate。Iconfidednotatallintheeffortsofhisreasonorhispiety。Therewerefewevilswhichhismodesofthinkingwouldnotdisarmoftheirsting;buthere,allopiatestogrief,andallcompellersofpatiencewerevain。
Thisspectaclewouldbeunavoidablyfollowedbytheoutragesofdesperation,andarushingtodeath。
Forthepresent,Ineglectedtoaskmyselfwhatmotivebroughthimhither。Iwasonlyfearfuloftheeffectstoflowfromthesightofthedead。Yetcoulditbelongconcealedfromhim?Sometimeandspeedilyhewouldobtainthisknowledge。Nostratagemscouldconsiderablyorusefullyprolonghisignorance。
Allthatcouldbesoughtwastotakeawaytheabruptnessofthechange,andshutouttheconfusionofdespair,andtheinroadsofmadness:butIknewmybrother,andknewthatallexertionstoconsolehimwouldbefruitless。
WhatcouldIsay?Iwasmute,andpouredforththosetearsonhisaccount,whichmyownunhappinesshadbeenunabletoextort。Inthemidstofmytears,Iwasnotunobservantofhismotions。Thesewereofanaturetorousesomeothersentimentthangriefor,atleast,tomixwithitaportionofastonishment。
Hiscountenancesuddenlybecametroubled。Hishandswereclaspedwithaforcethatlefttheprintofhisnailsinhisflesh。Hiseyeswerefixedonmyfeet。Hisbrainseemedtoswellbeyonditscontinent。Hedidnotceasetobreathe,buthisbreathwasstifledintogroans。Ihadneverwitnessedthehurricaneofhumanpassions。Myelementhad,tilllately,beenallsunshineandcalm。Iwasunconversantwiththealtitudesandenergiesofsentiment,andwastransfixedwithinexplicablehorrorbythesymptomswhichInowbeheld。
AfterasilenceandaconflictwhichIcouldnotinterpret,heliftedhiseyestoheaven,andinbrokenaccentsexclaimed,"Thisistoomuch!Anyvictimbutthis,andthywillbedone。
HaveInotsufficientlyattestedmyfaithandmyobedience?Shethatisgone,theythathaveperished,werelinkedwithmysoulbytieswhichonlythycommandwouldhavebroken;buthereissanctityandexcellencesurpassinghuman。Thisworkmanshipisthine,anditcannotbethywilltoheapitintoruins。"
Heresuddenlyunclaspinghishands,hestruckoneofthemagainsthisforehead,andcontinued——"Wretch!whomadetheequicksightedinthecouncilsofthyMaker?Deliverancefrommortalfettersisawardedtothisbeing,andthouarttheministerofthisdecree。"
Sosaying,Wielandadvancedtowardsme。Hiswordsandhismotionswerewithoutmeaning,exceptononesupposition。ThedeathofCatharinewasalreadyknowntohim,andthatknowledge,asmighthavebeensuspected,haddestroyedhisreason。Ihadfearednothingless;butnowthatIbeheldtheextinctionofamindthemostluminousandpenetratingthateverdignifiedthehumanform,mysensationswerefraughtwithnewandinsupportableanguish。
Ihadnottimetoreflectinwhatwaymyownsafetywouldbeeffectedbythisrevolution,orwhatIhadtodreadfromthewildconceptionsofamadman。Headvancedtowardsme。Somehollownoiseswerewaftedbythebreeze。Confusedclamoursweresucceededbymanyfeettraversingthegrass,andthencrowdingintOthepiazza。
Thesesoundssuspendedmybrother'spurpose,andhestoodtolisten。Thesignalsmultipliedandgrewlouder;perceivingthis,heturnedfromme,andhurriedoutofmysight。Allaboutmewaspregnantwithmotivestoastonishment。Mysister'scorpse,Wieland'sfranticdemeanour,and,atlength,thiscrowdofvisitantssolittleaccordedwithmyforesight,thatmymentalprogresswasstopped。Theimpulsehadceasedwhichwasaccustomedtogivemotionandordertomythoughts。
Footstepsthrongeduponthestairs,andpresentlymanyfacesshewedthemselveswithinthedoorofmyapartment。Theselookswerefullofalarmandwatchfulness。Theypryedintocornersasifinsearchofsomefugitive;nexttheirgazewasfixeduponme,andbetokenedallthevehemenceofterrorandpity。ForatimeIquestionedwhetherthesewerenotshapesandfaceslikethatwhichIhadseenatthebottomofthestairs,creaturesofmyfancyorairyexistences。
Myeyewanderedfromonetoanother,tillatlengthitfellonacountenancewhichIwellknew。ItwasthatofMr。Hallet。
Thismanwasadistantkinsmanofmymother,venerableforhisage,hisuprightness,andsagacity。Hehadlongdischargedthefunctionsofamagistrateandgoodcitizen。Ifanyterrorsremained,hispresencewassufficienttodispelthem。
Heapproached,tookmyhandwithacompassionateair,andsaidinalowvoice,"Where,mydearClara,areyourbrotherandsister?"Imadenoanswer,butpointedtothebed。Hisattendantsdrewasidethecurtain,andwhiletheireyesglaredwithhorroratthespectaclewhichtheybeheld,thoseofMr。
Halletoverflowedwithtears。
Afterconsiderablepause,heoncemoreturnedtome。"Mydeargirl,thissightisnotforyou。Canyouconfideinmycare,andthatofMrs。Baynton's?Wewillseeperformedallthatcircumstancesrequire。"
Imadestrenuousoppositiontothisrequest。Iinsistedonremainingnearhertillshewereinterred。Hisremonstrances,however,andmyownfeelings,shewedmetheproprietyofatemporarydereliction。Louisastoodinneedofacomforter,andmybrother'schildrenofanurse。Myunhappybrotherwashimselfanobjectofsolicitudeandcare。Atlength,I
consentedtorelinquishthecorpse,andgotomybrother's,whosehouse,Isaid,wouldneedmistress,andhischildrenaparent。
Duringthisdiscourse,myvenerablefriendstruggledwithhistears,butmylastintimationcalledthemforthwithfreshviolence。Meanwhile,hisattendantsstoodroundinmournfulsilence,gazingonmeandateachother。Irepeatedmyresolution,androsetoexecuteit;buthetookmyhandtodetainme。Hiscountenancebetrayedirresolutionandreluctance。Irequestedhimtostatethereasonofhisoppositiontothismeasure。Ientreatedhimtobeexplicit。I
toldhimthatmybrotherhadjustbeenthere,andthatIknewhiscondition。Thismisfortunehaddrivenhimtomadness,andhisoffspringmustnotwantaprotector。Ifhechose,IwouldresignWielandtohiscare;buthisinnocentandhelplessbabesstoodininstantneedofnurseandmother,andtheseofficesI
wouldbynomeansallowanothertoperformwhileIhadlife。
EverywordthatIutteredseemedtoaugmenthisperplexityanddistress。Atlasthesaid,"Ithink,Clara,Ihaveentitledmyselftosomeregardfromyou。Youhaveprofessedyourwillingnesstoobligeme。NowIcalluponyoutoconferuponmethehighestobligationinyourpower。PermitMrs。Bayntontohavethemanagementofyourbrother'shousefortwoorthreedays;thenitshallbeyourstoactinitasyouplease。Nomatterwhataremymotivesinmakingthisrequest:perhapsI
thinkyourage,yoursex,orthedistresswhichthisdisastermustoccasion,incapacitatesyoufortheoffice。SurelyyouhavenodoubtofMrs。Baynton'stendernessordiscretion。"
Newideasnowrushedintomymind。IfixedmyeyesstedfastlyonMr。Hallet。"Aretheywell?"saidI。"IsLouisawell?AreBenjamin,andWilliam,andConstantine,andLittleClara,aretheysafe?Tellmetruly,Ibeseechyou!"
"Theyarewell,"hereplied;"theyareperfectlysafe。"
"Fearnoeffeminateweaknessinme:Icanbeartohearthetruth。Tellmetruly,aretheywell?"
Heagainassuredmethattheywerewell。
"Whatthen,"resumedI,"doyoufear?Isitpossibleforanycalamitytodisqualifymeforperformingmydutytothesehelplessinnocents?IamwillingtodividethecareofthemwithMrs。Baynton;Ishallbegratefulforhersympathyandaid;
butwhatshouldIbetodesertthematanhourlikethis!"
Iwillcutshortthisdistressfuldialogue。Istillpersistedinmypurpose,andhestillpersistedinhisopposition。Thisexcitedmysuspicionsanew;butthesewereremovedbysolemndeclarationsoftheirsafety。Icouldnotexplainthisconductinmyfriend;butatlengthconsentedtogotothecity,providedIshouldseethemforafewminutesatpresent,andshouldreturnonthemorrow。
Eventhisarrangementwasobjectedto。Atlengthhetoldmetheywereremovedtothecity。Whyweretheyremoved,Iasked,andwhither?Myimportunitieswouldnotnowbeeluded。Mysuspicionswereroused,andnoevasionorartificewassufficienttoallaythem。Manyoftheaudiencebegantogiveventtotheiremotionsintears。Mr。Hallethimselfseemedasiftheconflictweretoohardtobelongersustained。SomethingwhisperedtomyheartthathavochadbeenwiderthanInowwitnessed。Isuspectedthisconcealmenttoarisefromapprehensionsoftheeffectswhichaknowledgeofthetruthwouldproduceinme。Ioncemoreentreatedhimtoinformmetrulyoftheirstate。Toenforcemyentreaties,Iputonanairofinsensibility。"Icanguess,"saidI,"whathashappened——Theyareindeedbeyondthereachofinjury,fortheyaredead!Isitnotso?"Myvoicefalteredinspiteofmycourageousefforts。
"Yes,"saidhe,"theyaredead!Deadbythesamefate,andbythesamehand,withtheirmother!"
"Dead!"repliedI;"what,all?"
"All!"repliedhe:"hesparedNOTONE!"
Allowme,myfriends,toclosemyeyesupontheafter-scene。
WhyshouldIprotractatalewhichIalreadybegintofeelistoolong?Overthissceneatleastletmepasslightly。Here,indeed,mynarrativewouldbeimperfect。Allwastempestuouscommotioninmyheartandinmybrain。Ihavenomemoryforoughtbutunconscioustransitionsandruefulsights。Iwasingeniousandindefatigableintheinventionoftorments。I
wouldnotdispensewithanyspectacleadaptedtoexasperatemygrief。EachpaleandmangledformIcrushedtomybosom。
Louisa,whomIlovedwithsoineffableapassion,wasdeniedtomeatfirst,butmyobstinacyconqueredtheirreluctance。
Theyledthewayintoadarkenedhall。Alamppendantfromtheceilingwasuncovered,andtheypointedtoatable。Theassassinhaddefraudedmeofmylastandmiserableconsolation。
Isoughtnotinhervisage,forthetingeofthemorning,andthelustreofheaven。Thesehadvanishedwithlife;butIhopedforlibertytoprintalastkissuponherlips。Thiswasdeniedme;forsuchhadbeenthemercilessblowthatdestroyedher,thatnotaLINEAMENTREMAINED!
Iwascarriedhencetothecity。Mrs。Halletwasmycompanionandmynurse。WhyshouldIdwellupontherageoffever,andtheeffusionsofdelirium?Carwinwasthephantomthatpursuedmydreams,thegiantoppressorunderwhosearmI
wasforeveronthepointofbeingcrushed。Strenuousmuscleswererequiredtohindermyflight,andheartsofsteeltowithstandtheeloquenceofmyfears。InvainIcalleduponthemtolookupward,tomarkhissparklingrageandscowlingcontempt。AllIsoughtwastoflyfromthestrokethatwaslifted。ThenIheapeduponmyguardsthemostvehementreproaches,orbetookmyselftowailingsonthehaplessnessofmycondition。
Thismalady,atlength,declined,andmyweepingfriendsbegantolookformyrestoration。Slowly,andwithintermittedbeams,memoryrevisitedme。ThescenesthatIhadwitnessedwererevived,becamethethemeofdeliberationanddeduction,andcalledforththeeffusionsofmorerationalsorrow。
ChapterXVIII
Ihadimperfectlyrecoveredmystrength,whenIwasinformedofthearrivalofmymother'sbrother,ThomasCambridge。Tenyearssince,hewenttoEurope,andwasasurgeonintheBritishforcesinGermany,duringthewholeofthelatewar。Afteritsconclusion,someconnectionthathehadformedwithanIrishofficer,madehimretireintoIreland。Intercoursehadbeenpunctuallymaintainedbyletterswithhissister'schildren,andhopesweregiventhathewouldshortlyreturntohisnativecountry,andpasshisoldageinoursociety。Hewasnowinanevilhourarrived。
Idesiredaninterviewwithhimfornumerousandurgentreasons。WiththefirstreturnsofmyunderstandingIhadanxiouslysoughtinformationofthefateofmybrother。DuringthecourseofmydiseaseIhadneverseenhim;andvagueandunsatisfactoryanswerswerereturnedtoallmyinquires。IhadvehementlyinterrogatedMrs。Halletandherhusband,andsolicitedaninterviewwiththisunfortunateman;buttheymysteriouslyinsinuatedthathisreasonwasstillunsettled,andthathiscircumstancesrenderedaninterviewimpossible。Theirreserveontheparticularsofthisdestruction,andtheauthorofit,wasequallyinvincible。
Forsometime,findingallmyeffortsfruitless,Ihaddesistedfromdirectinquiriesandsolicitations,determined,assoonasmystrengthwassufficientlyrenewed,topursueothermeansofdispellingmyuncertainty。Inthisstateofthingsmyuncle'sarrivalandintentiontovisitmewereannounced。I
almostshudderedtobeholdthefaceofthisman。WhenI
reflectedonthedisastersthathadbefallenus,Iwashalfunwillingtowitnessthatdejectionandgriefwhichwouldbedisclosedinhiscountenance。ButIbelievedthatalltransactionshadbeenthoroughlydisclosedtohim,andconfidedinmyimportunitytoextortfromhimtheknowledgethatI
sought。
Ihadnodoubtastothepersonofourenemy;butthemotivesthaturgedhimtoperpetratethesehorrors,themeansthatheused,andhispresentcondition,weretotallyunknown。Itwasreasonabletoexpectsomeinformationonthishead,frommyuncle。Ithereforewaitedhiscomingwithimpatience。Atlength,intheduskoftheevening,andinmysolitarychamber,thismeetingtookplace。
Thismanwasournearestrelation,andhadevertreateduswiththeaffectionofaparent。Ourmeeting,therefore,couldnotbewithoutoverflowingtendernessandgloomyjoy。HeratherencouragedthanrestrainedthetearsthatIpouredoutinhisarms,andtookuponhimselfthetaskofcomforter。Allusionstorecentdisasterscouldnotbelongomitted。Onetopicfacilitatedtheadmissionofanother。Atlength,ImentionedanddeploredtheignoranceinwhichIhadbeenkeptrespectingmybrother'sdestiny,andthecircumstancesofourmisfortunes。
IentreatedhimtotellmewhatwasWieland'scondition,andwhatprogresshadbeenmadeindetectingorpunishingtheauthorofthisunheard-ofdevastation。
"Theauthor!"saidhe;"Doyouknowtheauthor?"
"Alas!"Ianswered,"Iamtoowellacquaintedwithhim。Thestoryofthegroundsofmysuspicionswouldbepainfulandtoolong。Iamnotapprizedoftheextentofyourpresentknowledge。TherearenonebutWieland,Pleyel,andmyself,whoareabletorelatecertainfacts。"
"Spareyourselfthepain,"saidhe。"AllthatWielandandPleyelcancommunicate,Iknowalready。Ifanythingofmomenthasfallenwithinyourownexclusiveknowledge,andtherelationbenottooarduousforyourpresentstrength,IconfessIamdesirousofhearingit。PerhapsyoualludetoonebythenameofCarwin。Iwillanticipateyourcuriositybysaying,thatsincethesedisasters,noonehasseenorheardofhim。Hisagencyis,therefore,amysterystillunsolved。"
Ireadilycompliedwithhisrequest,andrelatedasdistinctlyasIcould,thoughingeneralterms,theeventstransactedinthesummer-houseandmychamber。HelistenedwithoutapparentsurprizetothetaleofPleyel'serrorsandsuspicions,andwithaugmentedseriousness,tomynarrativeofthewarningsandinexplicablevision,andtheletterfounduponthetable。Iwaitedforhiscomments。
"Yougatherfromthis,"saidhe,"thatCarwinistheauthorofallthismisery。"
"Isitnot,"answeredI,"anunavoidableinference?Butwhatknowyourespectingit?Wasitpossibletoexecutethismischiefwithoutwitnessorcoadjutor?Ibeseechyoutorelatetome,whenandwhyMr。Halletwassummonedtothescene,andbywhomthisdisasterwasfirstsuspectedordiscovered。Surely,suspicionmusthavefallenuponsomeone,andpursuitwasmade。"
Myunclerosefromhisseat,andtraversedthefloorwithhastysteps。Hiseyeswerefixedupontheground,andheseemedburiedinperplexity。Atlengthhepaused,andsaidwithanemphatictone,"Itistrue;theinstrumentisknown。Carwinmayhaveplotted,buttheexecutionwasanother's。Thatotherisfound,andhisdeedisascertained。"
"Goodheaven!"Iexclaimed,"whatsayyou?WasnotCarwintheassassin?Couldanyhandbuthishavecarriedintoactthisdreadfulpurpose?"
"HaveInotsaid,"returnedhe,"thattheperformancewasanother's?Carwin,perhaps,orheaven,orinsanity,promptedthemurderer;butCarwinisunknown。Theactualperformerhas,longsince,beencalledtojudgmentandconvicted,andis,atthismoment,atthebottomofadungeonloadedwithchains。"
Iliftedmyhandsandeyes。"Whothenisthisassassin?Bywhatmeans,andwhitherwashetraced?Whatisthetestimonyofhisguilt?"
"Hisown,corroboratedwiththatofaservant-maidwhospiedthemurderofthechildrenfromaclosetwhereshewasconcealed。Themagistratereturnedfromyourdwellingtoyourbrother's。Hewasemployedinhearingandrecordingthetestimonyoftheonlywitness,whenthecriminalhimself,unexpected,unsolicited,unsought,enteredthehall,acknowledgedhisguilt,andrenderedhimselfuptojustice。
"Hehassincebeensummonedtothebar。Theaudiencewascomposedofthousandswhomrumoursofthiswonderfuleventhadattractedfromthegreatestdistance。Alongandimpartialexaminationwasmade,andtheprisonerwascalleduponforhisdefence。Incompliancewiththiscallhedeliveredanamplerelationofhismotivesandactions。"Therehestopped。
Ibesoughthimtosaywhothiscriminalwas,andwhattheinstigationsthatcompelledhim。Myunclewassilent。Iurgedthisinquirywithnewforce。Irevertedtomyownknowledge,andsoughtinthissomebasistoconjecture。IranoverthescantycatalogueofthemenwhomIknew;Ilightedonnoonewhowasqualifiedforministeringtomalicelikethis。AgainI
resortedtoimportunity。HadIeverseenthecriminal?Wasitsheercruelty,ordiabolicalrevengethatproducedthisoverthrow?
Hesurveyedme,foraconsiderabletime,andlistenedtomyinterrogationsinsilence。Atlengthhespoke:"Clara,Ihaveknowntheebyreport,andinsomedegreebyobservation。Thouartabeingofnovulgarsort。Thyfriendshavehithertotreatedtheeasachild。Theymeantwell,but,perhaps,theywereunacquaintedwiththystrength。Iassuremyselfthatnothingwillsurpassthyfortitude。
"Thouartanxioustoknowthedestroyerofthyfamily,hisactions,andhismotives。ShallIcallhimtothypresence,andpermithimtoconfessbeforethee?ShallImakehimthenarratorofhisowntale?"
Istartedonmyfeet,andlookedroundmewithfearfulglances,asifthemurdererwascloseathand。"Whatdoyoumean?"saidI;"putanend,Ibeseechyou,tothissuspence。"
"Benotalarmed;youwillnevermorebeholdthefaceofthiscriminal,unlesshebegiftedwithsupernaturalstrength,andseverlikethreadstheconstraintoflinksandbolts。Ihavesaidthattheassassinwasarraignedatthebar,andthatthetrialendedwithasummonsfromthejudgetoconfessortovindicatehisactions。Areplywasimmediatelymadewithsignificanceofgesture,andatranquilmajesty,whichdenotedlessofhumanitythangodhead。Judges,advocatesandauditorswerepanic-struckandbreathlesswithattention。Oneofthehearersfaithfullyrecordedthespeech。Thereitis,"continuedhe,puttingarollofpapersinmyhand,"youmayreaditatyourleisure。"
Withthesewordsmyuncleleftmealone。Mycuriosityrefusedmeamoment'sdelay。Iopenedthepapers,andreadasfollows。
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"TheodoreWieland,theprisoneratthebar,wasnowcalleduponforhisdefence。Helookedaroundhimforsometimeinsilence,andwithamildcountenance。Atlengthhespoke:
"Itisstrange;Iamknowntomyjudgesandmyauditors。WhoistherepresentastrangertothecharacterofWieland?whoknowshimnotasanhusband——asafather——asafriend?yethereamIarraignedascriminal。Iamchargedwithdiabolicalmalice;Iamaccusedofthemurderofmywifeandmychildren!
"Itistrue,theywereslainbyme;theyallperishedbymyhand。Thetaskofvindicationisignoble。WhatisitthatIamcalledtovindicate?andbeforewhom?
"Youknowthattheyaredead,andthattheywerekilledbyme。Whatmorewouldyouhave?Wouldyouextortfrommeastatementofmymotives?Haveyoufailedtodiscoverthemalready?Youchargemewithmalice;butyoureyesarenotshut;
yourreasonisstillvigorous;yourmemoryhasnotforsakenyou。
Youknowwhomitisthatyouthuscharge。Thehabitsofhislifeareknowntoyou;histreatmentofhiswifeandhisoffspringisknowntoyou;thesoundnessofhisintegrity,andtheunchangeablenessofhisprinciples,arefamiliartoyourapprehension;yetyoupersistinthischarge!Youleadmehithermanacledasafelon;youdeemmeworthyofavileandtormentingdeath!
"WhoaretheywhomIhavedevotedtodeath?Mywife——thelittleones,thatdrewtheirbeingfromme——thatcreaturewho,asshesurpassedtheminexcellence,claimedalargeraffectionthanthosewhomnaturalaffinitiesboundtomyheart。Thinkyethatmalicecouldhaveurgedmetothisdeed?Hideyouraudaciousfrontsfromthescrutinyofheaven。Takerefugeinsomecavernunvisitedbyhumaneyes。Yemaydeploreyourwickednessorfolly,butyecannotexpiateit。
"ThinknotthatIspeakforyoursakes。Hugtoyourheartsthisdetestableinfatuation。Deemmestillamurderer,anddragmetountimelydeath。Imakenotanefforttodispelyourillusion:Iutternotawordtocureyouofyoursanguinaryfolly:butthereareprobablysomeinthisassemblywhohavecomefromfar:fortheirsakes,whosedistancehasdisabledthemfromknowingme,IwilltellwhatIhavedone,andwhy。
"ItisneedlesstosaythatGodistheobjectofmysupremepassion。Ihavecherished,inhispresence,asingleanduprightheart。Ihavethirstedfortheknowledgeofhiswill。
Ihaveburntwithardourtoapprovemyfaithandmyobedience。
"Mydayshavebeenspentinsearchingfortherevelationofthatwill;butmydayshavebeenmournful,becausemysearchfailed。Isoliciteddirection:Iturnedoneverysidewhereglimmeringsoflightcouldbediscovered。Ihavenotbeenwhollyuninformed;butmyknowledgehasalwaysstoppedshortofcertainty。Dissatisfactionhasinsinuateditselfintoallmythoughts。Mypurposeshavebeenpure;mywishesindefatigable;
butnottilllatelywerethesepurposesthoroughlyaccomplished,andthesewishesfullygratified。
"Ithankthee,myfather,forthybounty;thatthoudidstnotaskalesssacrificethanthis;thatthouplacedstmeinaconditiontotestifymysubmissiontothywill!WhathaveI
withheldwhichitwasthypleasuretoexact?NowmayI,withdauntlessanderecteye,claimmyreward,sinceIhavegiventheethetreasureofmysoul。
"Iwasatmyownhouse:itwaslateintheevening:mysisterhadgonetothecity,butproposedtoreturn。ItwasinexpectationofherreturnthatmywifeandIdelayedgoingtobedbeyondtheusualhour;therestofthefamily,however,wereretired。
"Mymindwascontemplativeandcalm;notwhollydevoidofapprehensiononaccountofmysister'ssafety。Recentevents,noteasilyexplained,hadsuggestedtheexistenceofsomedanger;butthisdangerwaswithoutadistinctforminourimagination,andscarcelyruffledourtranquillity。
"Timepassed,andmysisterdidnotarrive;herhouseisatsomedistancefrommine,andthoughherarrangementshadbeenmadewithaviewtoresidingwithus,itwaspossiblethat,throughforgetfulness,ortheoccurrenceofunforeseenemergencies,shehadreturnedtoherowndwelling。
"HenceitwasconceivedproperthatIshouldascertainthetruthbygoingthither。Iwent。Onmywaymymindwasfulloftheseideaswhichrelatedtomyintellectualcondition。Inthetorrentoffervidconceptions,Ilostsightofmypurpose。SometimesIstoodstill;sometimesIwanderedfrommypath,andexperiencedsomedifficulty,onrecoveringfrommyfitofmusing,toregainit。
"Theseriesofmythoughtsiseasilytraced。Atfirsteveryveinbeatwithrapturesknownonlytothemanwhoseparentalandconjugalloveiswithoutlimits,andthecupofwhosedesires,immenseasitis,overflowswithgratification。Iknownotwhyemotionsthatwereperpetualvisitantsshouldnowhaverecurredwithunusualenergy。Thetransitionwasnotnewfromsensationsofjoytoaconsciousnessofgratitude。Theauthorofmybeingwaslikewisethedispenserofeverygiftwithwhichthatbeingwasembellished。Theservicetowhichabenefactorlikethiswasentitled,couldnotbecircumscribed。Mysocialsentimentswereindebtedtotheiralliancewithdevotionforalltheirvalue。Allpassionsarebase,alljoysfeeble,allenergiesmalignant,whicharenotdrawnfromthissource。
"Foratime,mycontemplationssoaredaboveearthanditsinhabitants。Istretchedforthmyhands;Iliftedmyeyes,andexclaimed,O!thatImightbeadmittedtothypresence;thatminewerethesupremedelightofknowingthywill,andofperformingit!Theblissfulprivilegeofdirectcommunicationwiththee,andoflisteningtotheaudibleenunciationofthypleasure!
"WhattaskwouldInotundertake,whatprivationwouldInotcheerfullyendure,totestifymyloveofthee?Alas!thouhidestthyselffrommyview:glimpsesonlyofthyexcellenceandbeautyareaffordedme。Wouldthatamomentaryemanationfromthyglorywouldvisitme!thatsomeunambiguoustokenofthypresencewouldsalutemysenses!
"Inthismood,Ienteredthehouseofmysister。Itwasvacant。ScarcelyhadIregainedrecollectionofthepurposethatbroughtmehither。Thoughtsofadifferenttendencyhadsuchabsolutepossessionofmymind,thattherelationsoftimeandspacewerealmostobliteratedfrommyunderstanding。Thesewanderings,however,wererestrained,andIascendedtoherchamber。
"Ihadnolight,andmighthaveknownbyexternalobservation,thatthehousewaswithoutanyinhabitant。Withthis,however,Iwasnotsatisfied。Ienteredtheroom,andtheobjectofmysearchnotappearing,Ipreparedtoreturn。
"Thedarknessrequiredsomecautionindescendingthestair。
IstretchedmyhandtoseizethebalustradebywhichImightregulatemysteps。HowshallIdescribethelustre,which,atthatmoment,burstuponmyvision!
"Iwasdazzled。Myorganswerebereavedoftheiractivity。
Myeye-lidswerehalf-closed,andmyhandswithdrawnfromthebalustrade。Anamelessfearchilledmyveins,andIstoodmotionless。Thisirradiationdidnotretireorlessen。Itseemedasifsomepowerfuleffulgencecoveredmelikeamantle。
"Iopenedmyeyesandfoundallaboutmeluminousandglowing。Itwastheelementofheaventhatflowedaround。
Nothingbutafierystreamwasatfirstvisible;but,anon,ashrillvoicefrombehindcalleduponmetoattend。
"Iturned:ItisforbiddentodescribewhatIsaw:Words,indeed,wouldbewantingtothetask。Thelineamentsofthatbeing,whoseveilwasnowlifted,andwhosevisagebeameduponmysight,nohuesofpenciloroflanguagecanpourtray。
"Asitspoke,theaccentsthrilledtomyheart。"Thyprayersareheard。Inproofofthyfaith,rendermethywife。ThisisthevictimIchuse。Callherhither,andhereletherfall。"——Thesound,andvisage,andlightvanishedatonce。
"Whatdemandwasthis?ThebloodofCatharinewastobeshed!Mywifewastoperishbymyhand!Isoughtopportunitytoattestmyvirtue。LittledidIexpectthataprooflikethiswouldhavebeendemanded。
"Mywife!Iexclaimed:OGod!substitutesomeothervictim。
Makemenotthebutcherofmywife。Myownbloodischeap。
ThiswillIpouroutbeforetheewithawillingheart;butspare,Ibeseechthee,thispreciouslife,orcommissionsomeotherthanherhusbandtoperformthebloodydeed。
"Invain。Theconditionswereprescribed;thedecreehadgoneforth,andnothingremainedbuttoexecuteit。Irushedoutofthehouseandacrosstheintermediatefields,andstoppednottillIenteredmyownparlour。