"Doyouthenregardyourselfasimmortal?"
"No,myboy。Iamnotimmortal。Butthevoiceofthepressgoesonforever……Anditwillsaythatthiswasthesecretofyourgreatsuccessinataskwherebettermenthanyou-meaningnooffence-didfailrepeatedly。"
"Success,"mutteredRenouard,pulling-totheofficedoorafterhimwithconsiderableenergy。AndthelettersofthewordPRIVATElikearowofwhiteeyesseemedtostareafterhisbacksinkingdownthestaircaseofthattempleofpublicity。
Renouardhadnodoubtthatallthemeansofpublicitywouldbeputattheserviceofloveandusedforthediscoveryofthelovedman。
Hedidnotwishhimdead。Hedidnotwishhimanyharm。Weareallequippedwithafundofhumanitywhichisnotexhaustedwithoutmanyandrepeatedprovocations-andthismanhaddonehimnoevil。
ButbeforeRenouardhadleftoldDunster'shouse,attheconclusionofthecallhemadetherethatveryafternoon,hehaddiscoveredinhimselfthedesirethatthesearchmightlastlong。Heneverreallyflatteredhimselfthatitmightfail。Itseemedtohimthattherewasnoothercourseinthisworldforhimself,forallmankind,butresignation。AndhecouldnothelpthinkingthatProfessorMoorsomhadarrivedatthesameconclusiontoo。
ProfessorMoorsom,slightframeofmiddleheight,athoughtfulkeenheadunderthethickwavyhair,veileddarkeyesunderstraighteyebrows,andwithaninwardgazewhichwhendisengagedandarrivingatoneseemedtoissuefromanobscuredreamofbooks,fromthelimboofmeditation,showedhimselfextremelygracioustohim。Renouardguessedinhimamanwhomanincurablehabitofinvestigationandanalysishadmadegentleandindulgent;inaptforaction,andmoresensitivetothethoughtsthantotheeventsofexistence。Withalnotcrushed,sub-ironicwithoutatraceofacidity,andwithasimplemannerwhichputpeopleateasequickly。
Theyhadalongconversationontheterracecommandinganextendedviewofthetownandtheharbour。
Thesplendidimmobilityofthebayrestingunderhisgaze,withitsgreyspursandshiningindentations,helpedRenouardtoregainhisself-possession,whichhehadfeltshaken,incomingoutontheterrace,intothesettingofthemostpowerfulemotionofhislife,whenhehadsatwithinafootofMissMoorsomwithfireinhisbreast,ahumminginhisears,andinacompletedisorderofhismind。Therewastheverygardenseatonwhichhehadbeenenvelopedintheradiantspell。Andpresentlyhewassittingonitagainwiththeprofessortalkingofher。NearbythepatriarchalDunsterleanedforwardinawickerarm-chair,benignandalittledeaf,hisbighandtohisearwiththeinnocenteagernessofhisadvancedagerememberingthefiresoflife。
ItwaswithasortofapprehensionthatRenouardlookedforwardtoseeingMissMoorsom。Andstrangelyenoughitresembledthestateofmindofamanwhofearsdisenchantmentmorethansortilege。Butheneednothavebeenafraid。Directlyhesawherinadistanceattheotherendoftheterraceheshudderedtotherootsofhishair。
Withherapproachthepowerofspeechlefthimforatime。Mrs。
Dunsterandherauntwereaccompanyingher。Allthesepeoplesatdown;itwasanintimatecircleintowhichRenouardfelthimselfcordiallyadmitted;andthetalkwasofthegreatsearchwhichoccupiedalltheirminds。Discretionwasexpectedbythesepeople,butofreticenceastotheobjectofthejourneytherecouldbenoquestion。Nothingbutwaysandmeansandarrangementscouldbetalkedabout。
Byfixinghiseyesobstinatelyontheground,whichgavehimanairofreflectivesadness,Renouardmanagedtorecoverhisself-
possession。Heusedittokeephisvoiceinalowkeyandtomeasurehiswordsonthegreatsubject。Andhetookcarewithagreatinwardefforttomakethemreasonablewithoutgivingthemadiscouragingcomplexion。Forhedidnotwantthequesttobegivenup,sinceitwouldmeanhergoingawaywithhertwoattendantgrey-
headstotheothersideoftheworld。
Hewasaskedtocomeagain,tocomeoftenandtakepartinthecounselsofallthesepeoplecaptivatedbythesentimentalenterpriseofadeclaredlove。OntakingMissMoorsom'shandhelookedup,wouldhavelikedtosaysomething,butfoundhimselfvoiceless,withhislipssuddenlysealed。Shereturnedthepressureofhisfingers,andheleftherwithhereyesvaguelystaringbeyondhim,anairoflisteningforanexpectedsound,andthefaintestpossiblesmileonherlips。Asmilenotforhim,evidently,butthereflectionofsomedeepandinscrutablethought。
CHAPTERIV
Hewentonboardhisschooner。Shelaywhite,andasifsuspended,inthecrepuscularatmosphereofsunsetminglingwiththeashygleamofthevastanchorage。Hetriedtokeephisthoughtsassober,asreasonable,asmeasuredashiswordshadbeen,lesttheyshouldgetawayfromhimandcausesomesortofmoraldisaster。
Whathewasafraidofinthecomingnightwassleeplessnessandtheendlessstrainofthatwearisometask。Ithadtobefacedhowever。
Helayonhisback,sighingprofoundlyinthedark,andsuddenlybeheldhisveryownself,carryingasmallbizarrelamp,reflectedinalongmirrorinsidearoominanemptyandunfurnishedpalace。
Inthisstartlingimageofhimselfherecognisedsomebodyhehadtofollow-thefrightenedguideofhisdream。Hetraversedendlessgalleries,noendofloftyhalls,innumerabledoors。Helosthimselfutterly-hefoundhiswayagain。Roomsucceededroom。Atlastthelampwentout,andhestumbledagainstsomeobjectwhich,whenhestoopedforit,hefoundtobeverycoldandheavytolift。
Thesicklywhitelightofdawnshowedhimtheheadofastatue。
Itsmarblehairwasdoneintheboldlinesofahelmet,onitslipsthechiselhadleftafaintsmile,anditresembledMissMoorsom。
Whilehewasstaringatitfixedly,theheadbegantogrowlightinhisfingers,todiminishandcrumbletopieces,andatlastturnedintoahandfulofdust,whichwasblownawaybyapuffofwindsochillythathewokeupwithadesperateshiverandleapedheadlongoutofhisbed-place。Thedayhadreallycome。Hesatdownbythecabintable,andtakinghisheadbetweenhishands,didnotstirforaverylongtime。
Veryquiet,hesethimselftoreviewthisdream。Thelamp,ofcourse,heconnectedwiththesearchforaman。ButoncloserexaminationheperceivedthatthereflectionofhimselfinthemirrorwasnotreallythetrueRenouard,butsomebodyelsewhosefacehecouldnotremember。Inthedesertedpalaceherecognisedasinisteradaptationbyhisbrainofthelongcorridorswithmanydoors,inthegreatbuildinginwhichhisfriend'snewspaperwaslodgedonthefirstfloor。ThemarbleheadwithMissMoorsom'sface!Well!Whatotherfacecouldhehavedreamedof?AndhercomplexionwasfairerthanParianmarble,thantheheadsofangels。
Thewindattheendwasthemorningbreezeenteringthroughtheopenportholeandtouchinghisfacebeforetheschoonercouldswingtothechillygust。
Yes!Andallthisrationalexplanationofthefantasticmadeitonlymoremysteriousandweird。Therewassomethingdaemonicinthatdream。Itwasoneofthoseexperienceswhichthrowamanoutofconformitywiththeestablishedorderofhiskindandmakehimacreatureofobscuresuggestions。
Henceforth,withoutevertryingtoresist,hewenteveryafternoontothehousewhereshelived。Hewentthereaspassivelyasifinadream。HecouldnevermakeouthowhehadattainedthefootingofintimacyintheDunstermansionabovethebay-whetheronthegroundofpersonalmeritorasthepioneerofthevegetablesilkindustry。Itmusthavebeenthelast,becauseheremembereddistinctly,asdistinctlyasinadream,hearingoldDunsteroncetellinghimthathisnextpublictaskwouldbeacarefulsurveyoftheNorthernDistrictstodiscovertractssuitableforthecultivationofthesilkplant。Theoldmanwaggedhisbeardathimsagely。Itwasindeedasabsurdasadream。
Willieofcoursewouldbethereintheevening。Buthewasmoreofafigureoutofanightmare,hoveringaboutthecircleofchairsinhisdress-clotheslikeagigantic,repulsive,andsentimentalbat。
"Doawaywiththebeastlycocoonsallovertheworld,"hebuzzedinhisblurred,water-loggedvoice。Heaffectedagreathorrorofinsectsofallkinds。Oneeveningheappearedwitharedflowerinhisbutton-hole。Nothingcouldhavebeenmoredisgustinglyfantastic。AndhewouldalsosaytoRenouard:"Youmayyetchangethehistoryofourcountry。Foreconomicconditionsdoshapethehistoryofnations。Eh?What?"AndhewouldturntoMissMoorsomforapproval,loweringprotectinglyhisspatulousnoseandlookingupwithfeelingfromunderhisabsurdeyebrows,whichgrewthin,inthemannerofcanebrakes,outofhisspongyskin。Forthislarge,biliouscreaturewasaneconomistandasentimentalist,faciletotears,andamemberoftheCobdenClub。
InordertoseeaslittleofhimaspossibleRenouardbegancomingearliersoastogetawaybeforehisarrival,withoutcurtailingtoomuchthehoursofsecretcontemplationforwhichhelived。Hehadgivenuptryingtodeceivehimself。Hisresignationwaswithoutbounds。Heacceptedtheimmensemisfortuneofbeinginlovewithawomanwhowasinsearchofanothermanonlytothrowherselfintohisarms。Withsuchdesperateprecisionhedefinedinhisthoughtsthesituation,theconsciousnessofwhichtraversedlikeasharparrowthesuddensilencesofgeneralconversation。
Theonlythoughtbeforewhichhequailedwasthethoughtthatthiscouldnotlast;thatitmustcometoanend。Hefeareditinstinctivelyasasickmanmayfeardeath。Foritseemedtohimthatitmustbethedeathofhimfollowedbyalightless,bottomlesspit。Buthisresignationwasnotsparedthetormentsofjealousy:thecruel,insensate,poignant,andimbecilejealousy,whenitseemsthatawomanbetraysussimplybythisthatsheexists,thatshebreathes-andwhenthedeepmovementsofhernervesorhersoulbecomeamatterofdistractingsuspicion,ofkillingdoubt,ofmortalanxiety。
InthepeculiarconditionoftheirsojournMissMoorsomwentoutverylittle。SheacceptedthisseclusionattheDunsters'mansionasinahermitage,andlivedthere,watchedoverbyagroupofoldpeople,withtheloftyenduranceofacondescendingandstrong-
headedgoddess。Itwasimpossibletosayifshesufferedfromanythingintheworld,andwhetherthiswastheinsensibilityofagreatpassionconcentratedonitself,oraperfectrestraintofmanner,ortheindifferenceofsuperioritysocompleteastobesufficienttoitself。ButitwasvisibletoRenouardthatshetooksomepleasureintalkingtohimattimes。Wasitbecausehewastheonlypersonnearherage?Wasthis,then,thesecretofhisadmissiontothecircle?
Headmiredhervoiceaswellpoisedashermovements,asherattitudes。Hehimselfhadalwaysbeenamanoftranquiltones。
Butthepoweroffascinationhadtornhimoutofhisverynaturesocompletelythattopreservehishabitualcalmnessfromgoingtopieceshadbecomeaterribleeffort。
Heusedtogofromheronboardtheschoonerexhausted,broken,shakenup,asthoughhehadbeenputtothemostexquisitetorture。
Whenhesawherapproachinghealwayshadamomentofhallucination。Shewasamistyandfaircreature,fittedforinvisiblemusic,fortheshadowsoflove,forthemurmursofwaters。Afteratimehecouldnotbealwaysstaringatthegroundhewouldsummonupallhisresolutionandlookather。
Therewasasparkleintheclearobscurityofhereyes;andwhensheturnedthemonhimtheyseemedtogiveanewmeaningtolife。
Hewouldsaytohimselfthatanothermanwouldhavefoundlongbeforethehappyreleaseofmadness,hiswitsburnttocindersinthatradiance。Butnosuchluckforhim。Hiswitshadcomeunscathedthroughthefurnacesofhotsuns,ofblazingdeserts,offlamingangersagainsttheweaknessesofmenandtheobstinatecrueltiesofhostilenature。
Beingsanehehadtobeconstantlyonhisguardagainstfallingintoadoringsilencesorbreakingoutintowildspeeches。Hehadtokeepwatchonhiseyes,hislimbs,onthemusclesofhisface。
Theirconversationsweresuchastheycouldbebetweenthesetwopeople:sheayoungladyfreshfromthethicktwilightoffourmillionpeopleandtheartificialityofseveralLondonseasons;hethemanofdefiniteconqueringtasks,thefamiliarofwidehorizons,andinhisveryreposeholdingalooffromtheseagglomerationsofunitsinwhichonelosesone'simportanceeventooneself。Theyhadnocommonconversationalsmallchange。Theyhadtousethegreatpiecesofgeneralideas,buttheyexchangedthemtrivially。Itwasnoseriouscommerce。Perhapsshehadnotmuchofthatcoin。Nothingsignificantcamefromher。Itcouldnotbesaidthatshehadreceivedfromthecontactsoftheexternalworldimpressionsofapersonalkind,differentfromotherwomen。Whatwasravishinginherwasherquietnessand,inhergraveattitudes,theunfailingbrillianceofherfemininity。Hedidnotknowwhattherewasunderthativoryforeheadsosplendidlyshaped,sogloriouslycrowned。Hecouldnottellwhatwereherthoughts,herfeelings。Herreplieswerereflective,alwaysprecededbyashortsilence,whilehehungonherlipsanxiously。Hefelthimselfinthepresenceofamysteriousbeinginwhomspokeanunknownvoice,likethevoiceoforacles,bringingeverlastingunresttotheheart。
Hewasthankfulenoughtositinsilencewithsecretlyclenchedteeth,devouredbyjealousy-andnobodycouldhaveguessedthathisquietdeferentialbearingtoallthesegrey-headswasthesupremeeffortofstoicism,thatthemanwasengagedinkeepingasinisterwatchonhistortureslesthisstrengthshouldfailhim。
Asbefore,whengrapplingwithotherforcesofnature,hecouldfindinhimselfallsortsofcourageexceptthecouragetorunaway。
ItwasperhapsfromthelackofsubjectstheycouldhaveincommonthatMissMoorsommadehimsooftenspeakofhisownlife。Hedidnotshrinkfromtalkingabouthimself,forhewasfreefromthatexacerbated,timidvanitywhichsealssomanyvain-gloriouslips。
Hetalkedtoherinhisrestrainedvoice,gazingatthetipofhershoe,andthinkingthatthetimewasboundtocomesoonwhenherveryinattentionwouldgetwearyofhim。Andindeedonstealingaglancehewouldseeherdazzlingandperfect,hereyesvague,staringinmournfulimmobility,withadroopingheadthatmadehimthinkofatragicVenusarisingbeforehim,notfromthefoamofthesea,butfromadistant,stillmoreformless,mysterious,andpotentimmensityofmankind。
CHAPTERV
OneafternoonRenouardsteppingoutontheterracefoundnobodythere。Itwasforhim,atthesametime,amelancholydisappointmentandapoignantrelief。
Theheatwasgreat,theairwasstill,allthelongwindowsofthehousestoodwideopen。Atthefurtherend,groupedroundalady'swork-table,severalchairsdisposedsociablysuggestedinvisibleoccupants,acompanyofconversingshades。Renouardlookedtowardsthemwithasortofdread。Amostelusive,faintsoundofghostlytalkissuingfromoneoftheroomsaddedtotheillusionandstoppedhisalreadyhesitatingfootsteps。Heleanedoverthebalustradeofstonenearasquatvaseholdingatropicalplantofabizarreshape。ProfessorMoorsomcomingupfromthegardenwithabookunderhisarmandawhiteparasolheldoverhisbarehead,foundhimthereand,closingtheparasol,leanedoverbyhissidewitharemarkontheincreasingheatoftheseason。Renouardassentedandchangedhispositionalittle;theother,afterashortsilence,administeredunexpectedlyaquestionwhich,liketheblowofaclubonthehead,deprivedRenouardofthepowerofspeechandeventhought,but,morecruel,lefthimquiveringwithapprehension,notofdeathbutofeverlastingtorment。Yetthewordswereextremelysimple。
"Somethingwillhavetobedonesoon。Wecan'tremaininastateofsuspendedexpectationforever。Tellmewhatdoyouthinkofourchances?"
Renouard,speechless,producedafaintsmile。Theprofessorconfessedinajoculartonehisimpatiencetocompletethecircuitoftheglobeandbedonewithit。ItwasimpossibletoremainquarteredonthedearexcellentDunstersforanindefinitetime。
AndthentherewerethelectureshehadarrangedtodeliverinParis。Aseriousmatter。
ThatlecturesbyProfessorMoorsomwereaEuropeaneventandthatbrilliantaudienceswouldgathertohearthemRenouarddidnotknow。Allhewasawareofwastheshockofthishintofdeparture。
Themenaceofseparationfellonhisheadlikeathunderbolt。Andhesawtheabsurdityofhisemotion,forhadn'thelivedallthesedaysundertheverycloud?Theprofessor,hiselbowsspreadout,lookeddownintothegardenandwentonunburdeninghismind。Yes。
Thedepartmentofsentimentwasdirectedbyhisdaughter,andshehadplentyofvolunteeredmoralsupport;buthehadtolookafterthepracticalsideoflifewithoutassistance。
"Ihavethelesshesitationinspeakingtoyouaboutmyanxiety,becauseIfeelyouarefriendlytousandatthesametimeyouaredetachedfromallthesesublimities-confoundthem。"
"Whatdoyoumean?"murmuredRenouard。
"Imeanthatyouarecapableofcalmjudgment。Heretheatmosphereissimplydetestable。Everybodyhasknuckledundertosentiment。
Perhapsyourdeliberateopinioncouldinfluence……"
"YouwantMissMoorsomtogiveitup?"Theprofessorturnedtotheyoungmandismally。
"HeavenonlyknowswhatIwant。"
Renouardleaninghisbackagainstthebalustradefoldedhisarmsonhisbreast,appearedtomeditateprofoundly。Hisface,shadedsoftlybythebroadbrimofaplanter'sPanamahat,withthestraightlineofthenoselevelwiththeforehead,theeyeslostinthedepthofthesetting,andthechinwellforward,hadsuchaprofileasmaybeseenamongstthebronzesofclassicalmuseums,pureunderacrestedhelmet-recalledvaguelyaMinerva'shead。
"ThisisthemosttroublesometimeIeverhadinmylife,"
exclaimedtheprofessortestily。
"Surelythemanmustbeworthit,"mutteredRenouardwithapangofjealousytraversinghisbreastlikeaself-inflictedstab。
Whetherenervatedbytheheatorgivingwaytopentupirritationtheprofessorsurrenderedhimselftothemoodofsincerity。
"Hebeganbybeingapleasantlydullboy。Hedevelopedintoapointlesslycleveryoungman,without,Isuspect,evertryingtounderstandanything。Mydaughterknewhimfromchildhood。Iamabusyman,andIconfessthattheirengagementwasacompletesurprisetome。Iwishtheirreasonsforthatstephadbeenmorenaive。Butsimplicitywasoutoffashionintheirset。Fromaworldlypointofviewheseemstohavebeenamerebaby。Ofcourse,now,Iamassuredthatheisthevictimofhisnobleconfidenceintherectitudeofhiskind。Butthat'smereidealisingofasadreality。FormypartIwilltellyouthatfromtheverybeginningIhadthegravestdoubtsofhisdishonesty。
Unfortunatelymycleverdaughterhadn't。Andnowwebeholdthereaction。No。Tobeearnestlydishonestonemustbereallypoor。
Thiswasonlyamanifestationofhisextremelyrefinedcleverness。
Thecomplicatedsimpleton。Hehadanawfulawakeningthough。"
InsuchwordsdidProfessorMoorsomgivehis"youngfriend"tounderstandthestateofhisfeelingstowardthelostman。ItwasevidentthatthefatherofMissMoorsomwishedhimtoremainlost。
PerhapstheunprecedentedheatoftheseasonmadehimlongforthecoolspacesofthePacific,thesweepoftheocean'sfreewindalongthepromenadedecks,cumberedwithlongchairs,ofashipsteamingtowardstheCaliforniancoast。ToRenouardthephilosopherappearedsimplythemosttreacherousoffathers。Hewasamazed。Buthewasnotattheendofhisdiscoveries。
"Hemaybedead,"theprofessormurmured。
"Why?Peopledon'tdieheresoonerthaninEurope。IfhehadgonetohideinItaly,forinstance,youwouldn'tthinkofsayingthat。"
"Well!Andsupposehehasbecomemorallydisintegrated。Youknowhewasnotastrongpersonality,"theprofessorsuggestedmoodily。
"Mydaughter'sfutureisinquestionhere。"
Renouardthoughtthattheloveofsuchawomanwasenoughtopullanybrokenmantogether-todragamanoutofhisgrave。Andhethoughtthiswithinwarddespair,whichkepthimsilentasmuchalmostashisastonishment。Atlasthemanagedtostammeroutagenerous-
"Oh!Don'tletusevensuppose……"
Theprofessorstruckinwithasadderaccentthanbefore-
"It'sgoodtobeyoung。Andthenyouhavebeenamanofaction,andnecessarilyabelieverinsuccess。ButIhavebeenlookingtoolongatlifenottodistrustitssurprises。Age!Age!HereI
standbeforeyouamanfullofdoubtsandhesitation-SPELENTUS,TIMIDUSFUTURI。"
HemadeasigntoRenouardnottointerrupt,andinaloweredvoice,asifafraidofbeingoverheard,eventhere,inthesolitudeoftheterrace-
"AndtheworstisthatIamnotevensurehowfarthissentimentalpilgrimageisgenuine。Yes。Idoubtmyownchild。It'struethatshe'sawoman……"
Renouarddetectedwithhorroratoneofresentment,asiftheprofessorhadneverforgivenhisdaughterfornotdyinginsteadofhisson。Thelatternoticedtheyoungman'sstonystare。
"Ah!youdon'tunderstand。Yes,she'sclever,open-minded,popular,and-well,charming。Butyoudon'tknowwhatitistohavemoved,breathed,existed,andeventriumphedinthemeresmotherandfrothoflife-thebrilliantfroth。Therethoughts,sentiments,opinions,feelings,actionstoo,arenothingbutagitationinemptyspace-toamuselife-asortofsuperiordebauchery,excitingandfatiguing,meaningnothing,leadingnowhere。Sheisthecreatureofthatcircle。AndIaskmyselfifsheisobeyingtheuneasinessofaninstinctseekingitssatisfaction,orisitarevulsionoffeeling,orisshemerelydeceivingherownheartbythisdangeroustriflingwithromanticimages。Andeverythingispossible-exceptsincerity,suchasonlystark,strugglinghumanitycanknow。Nowomancanstandthatmodeoflifeinwhichwomenrule,andremainaperfectlygenuine,simplehumanbeing。Ah!There'ssomepeoplecomingout。"
Hemovedoffapace,thenturninghishead:"Uponmyword!I
wouldbeinfinitelyobligedtoyouifyoucouldthrowalittlecoldwater……"andatavaguelydismayedgestureofRenouard,headded:"Don'tbeafraid。Youwouldn'tbeputtingoutasacredfire。"
Renouardcouldhardlyfindwordsforaprotest:"IassureyouthatInevertalkwithMissMoorsom-on-on-that。Andifyou,herfather……"
"Ienvyyouyourinnocence,"sighedtheprofessor。"Afatherisonlyaneverydayperson。Flat。Stale。Moreover,mychildwouldnaturallymistrustme。Webelongtothesameset。Whereasyoucarrywithyoutheprestigeoftheunknown。Youhaveprovedyourselftobeaforce。"
ThereupontheprofessorfollowedbyRenouardjoinedthecircleofalltheinmatesofthehouseassembledattheotherendoftheterraceaboutatea-table;threewhiteheadsandthatresplendentvisionofwoman'sglory,thesightofwhichhadthepowertoflutterhisheartlikeareminderofthemortalityofhisframe。
HeavoidedtheseatbythesideofMissMoorsom。Theothersweretalkingtogetherlanguidly。Unnoticedhelookedatthatwomansomarvellousthatcenturiesseemedtoliebetweenthem。Hewasoppressedandovercomeatthethoughtofwhatshecouldgivetosomemanwhoreallywouldbeaforce!Whatagloriousstrugglewiththisamazon。Whatnobleburdenforthevictoriousstrength。
DearoldMrs。Dunsterwasdispensingtea,lookingfromtimetotimewithinteresttowardsMissMoorsom。Theagedstatesmanhavingeatenarawtomatoanddrunkaglassofmilkahabitofhisearlyfarmingdays,longbeforepolitics,when,pioneerofwheat-growing,hedemonstratedthepossibilityofraisingcropsongroundlookingbarrenenoughtodiscourageamagician,smoothedhiswhitebeard,andstrucklightlyRenouard'skneewithhisbigwrinkledhand。
"Youhadbettercomebackto-nightanddinewithusquietly。"
Helikedthisyoungman,apioneer,too,inmorethanonedirection。Mrs。Dunsteradded:"Do。Itwillbeveryquiet。I
don'tevenknowifWilliewillbehomefordinner。"Renouardmurmuredhisthanks,andlefttheterracetogoonboardtheschooner。Whilelingeringinthedrawing-roomdoorwayheheardtheresonantvoiceofoldDunsterutteringoracularly-
"……theleadingmanheresomeday……Likeme。"
Renouardletthethinsummerportiereofthedoorwayfallbehindhim。ThevoiceofProfessorMoorsomsaid-
"Iamtoldthathehasmadeanenemyofalmosteverymanwhohadtoworkwithhim。"
"That'snothing。Hedidhiswork……Likeme。"
"Henevercountedthecosttheysay。Notevenoflives。"
Renouardunderstoodthattheyweretalkingofhim。Beforehecouldmoveaway,Mrs。Dunsterstruckinplacidly-
"Don'tletyourselfbeshockedbythetalesyoumayhearofhim,mydear。Mostofitisenvy。"
ThenheheardMissMoorsom'svoicereplyingtotheoldlady-
"Oh!Iamnoteasilydeceived。IthinkImaysayIhaveaninstinctfortruth。"
Hehastenedawayfromthathousewithhisheartfullofdread。
CHAPTERVI
Onboardtheschooner,lyingonthesetteeonhisbackwiththeknucklesofhishandspressedoverhiseyes,hemadeuphismindthathewouldnotreturntothathousefordinner-thathewouldnevergobackthereanymore。Hemadeuphismindsometwentytimes。Theknowledgethathehadonlytogouponthequarterdeck,utterquietlythewords:"Manthewindlass,"andthattheschoonerspringingintolifewouldrunahundredmilesouttoseabeforesunrise,deceivedhisstrugglingwill。Nothingeasier!
Yet,intheend,thisyoungman,almostill-famedforhisruthlessdaring,theinflexibleleaderoftwotragicallysuccessfulexpeditions,shrankfromthatactofsavageenergy,andbegan,instead,tohuntforexcuses。
No!Itwasnotforhimtorunawaylikeanincurablewhocutshisthroat。Hefinisheddressingandlookedathisownimpassivefaceinthesaloonmirrorscornfully。Whilebeingpulledonshoreinthegig,herememberedsuddenlythewildbeautyofawaterfallseenwhenhardlymorethanaboy,yearsago,inMenado。Therewasalegendofagovernor-generaloftheDutchEastIndies,onofficialtour,committingsuicideonthatspotbyleapingintothechasm。
Itwassupposedthatapainfuldiseasehadmadehimwearyoflife。
Butwasthereeveravisitationlikehisown,atthesametimebindingonetolifeandsocruellymortal!
Thedinnerwasindeedquiet。Willie,givenhalfanhour'sgrace,failedtoturnup,andhischairremainedvacantbythesideofMissMoorsom。Renouardhadtheprofessor'ssisteronhisleft,dressedinanexpensivegownbecomingherage。ThatmaidenladyinherwonderfulpreservationremindedRenouardsomehowofawaxflowerunderglass。Therewerenotracesofthedustoflife'sbattlesonheranywhere。Shedidnotlikehimverymuchintheafternoons,inhiswhitedrillsuitandplanter'shat,whichseemedtoheranundulyBohemiancostumeforcallinginahousewheretherewereladies。Butintheevening,litheandelegantinhisdressclothesandwithhispleasant,slightlyveiledvoice,healwaysmadeherconquestafresh。Hemighthavebeenanybodydistinguished-thesonofaduke。Fallingunderthatcharmprobablyandalsobecauseherbrotherhadgivenherahint,sheattemptedtoopenherhearttoRenouard,whowaswatchingwithallthepowerofhissoulhernieceacrossthetable。Shespoketohimasfranklyasthoughthatmiserablemortalenvelope,emptiedofeverythingbuthopelesspassion,wereindeedthesonofaduke。
Inattentive,heheardheronlyinsnatches,tillthefinalconfidentialburst:"……gladifyouwouldexpressanopinion。
Lookather,socharming,suchagreatfavourite,sogenerallyadmired!Itwouldbetoosad。Weallhopedshewouldmakeabrilliantmarriagewithsomebodyveryrichandofhighposition,haveahouseinLondonandinthecountry,andentertainusallsplendidly。She'ssoeminentlyfittedforit。Shehassuchhostsofdistinguishedfriends!Andthen-thisinstead!……Myheartreallyaches。"
Herwell-bredifanxiouswhisperwascoveredbythevoiceofprofessorMoorsomdiscoursingsubtlydowntheshortlengthofthedinnertableontheImpermanencyoftheMeasurabletohisvenerabledisciple。ItmighthavebeenachapterinanewandpopularbookofMoorsonianphilosophy。Patriarchalanddelighted,oldDunsterleanedforwardalittle,hiseyesshiningyouthfully,twospotsofcolourattherootsofhiswhitebeard;andRenouard,glancingatthesenileexcitement,recalledthewordsheardonthosesubtlelips,adoptedtheirscornforhisown,sawtheirtruthbeforethismanreadytobeamusedbythesideofthegrave。Yes!
Intellectualdebaucheryinthefrothofexistence!Frothandfraud!
OnthesamesideofthetableMissMoorsomneveroncelookedtowardsherfather,allhergraceasiffrozen,herredlipscompressed,thefaintestrosinessunderherdazzlingcomplexion,herblackeyesburningmotionless,andtheverycopperygleamsoflightlyingstillonthewavesandundulationofherhair。
Renouardfanciedhimselfoverturningthetable,smashingcrystalandchina,treadingfruitandflowersunderfoot,seizingherinhisarms,carryingheroffinatumultofshrieksfromallthesepeople,asilentfrightenedmortal,intosomeprofoundretreatasintheageofCavernmen。Suddenlyeverybodygotup,andhehastenedtorisetoo,findinghimselfoutofbreathandquiteunsteadyonhisfeet。
Ontheterracethephilosopher,afterlightingacigar,slippedhishandcondescendinglyunderhis"dearyoungfriend's"arm。Renouardregardedhimnowwiththeprofoundestmistrust。Butthegreatmanseemedreallytohavealikingforhisyoungfriend-oneofthosemysterioussympathies,disregardingthedifferencesofageandposition,whichinthiscasemighthavebeenexplainedbythefailureofphilosophytomeetaveryrealworryofapracticalkind。
Afteraturnortwoandsomecasualtalktheprofessorsaidsuddenly:"Mylatesonwasinyourschool-doyouknow?Icanimaginethathadhelivedandyouhadevermetyouwouldhaveunderstoodeachother。Hetoowasinclinedtoaction。"
Hesighed,then,shakingoffthemournfulthoughtandwithanodattheduskypartoftheterracewherethedressofhisdaughtermadealuminousstain:"Ireallywishyouwoulddropinthatquarterafewsensible,discouragingwords。"
Renouarddisengagedhimselffromthatmostperfidiousofmenunderthepretenceofastonishment,andsteppingbackapace-
"Surelyyouaremakingfunofme,ProfessorMoorsom,"hesaidwithalowlaugh,whichwasreallyasoundofrage。
"Mydearyoungfriend!It'snosubjectforjokes,tome……Youdon'tseemtohaveanynotionofyourprestige,"headded,walkingawaytowardsthechairs。
"Humbug!"thoughtRenouard,standingstillandlookingafterhim。
"Andyet!Andyet!Whatifitweretrue?"
HeadvancedthentowardsMissMoorsom。Posedontheseatonwhichtheyhadfirstspokentoeachother,itwasherturntowatchhimcomingon。Butmanyofthewindowswerenotlightedthatevening。
Itwasdarkoverthere。Sheappearedtohimluminousinhercleardress,afigurewithoutshape,afacewithoutfeatures,awaitinghisapproach,tillhegotquiteneartoher,satdown,andtheyhadexchangedafewinsignificantwords。Graduallyshecameoutlikeamagicpaintingofcharm,fascination,anddesire,glowingmysteriouslyonthedarkbackground。Somethingimperceptibleinthelinesofherattitude,inthemodulationsofhervoice,seemedtosoftenthatsuggestionofcalmunconsciouspridewhichenvelopedheralwayslikeamantle。He,sensitivelikeabondslavetothemoodsofthemaster,wasmovedbythesubtlerelentingofhergracetoaninfinitetenderness。Hefoughtdowntheimpulsetoseizeherbythehand,leadherdownintothegardenawayunderthebigtrees,andthrowhimselfatherfeetutteringwordsoflove。Hisemotionwassostrongthathehadtocoughslightly,andnotknowingwhattotalktoherabouthebegantotellherofhismotherandsisters。AllthefamilywerecomingtoLondontolivethere,forsomelittletimeatleast。
"Ihopeyouwillgoandtellthemsomethingofme。Somethingseen,"hesaidpressingly。
Bythismiserablesubterfuge,likeamanabouttopartwithhislife,hehopedtomakeherrememberhimalittlelonger。
"Certainly,"shesaid。"I'llbegladtocallwhenIgetback。Butthat'when'maybealongtime。"
Heheardalightsigh。Acrueljealouscuriositymadehimask-
"Areyougrowingweary,MissMoorsom?"
Asilencefellonhislowspokenquestion。
"Doyoumeanheart-weary?"soundedMissMoorsom'svoice。"Youdon'tknowme,Isee。"
"Ah!Neverdespair,"hemuttered。
"This,Mr。Renouard,isaworkofreparation。Istandfortruthhere。Ican'tthinkofmyself。"
Hecouldhavetakenherbythethroatforeverywordseemedaninsulttohispassion;butheonlysaid-
"Ineverdoubtedthe-the-nobilityofyourpurpose。"
"Andtohearthewordwearinesspronouncedinthisconnectionsurprisesme。Andfromamantoowho,Iunderstand,hasnevercountedthecost。"
"Youarepleasedtoteaseme,"hesaid,directlyhehadrecoveredhisvoiceandhadmasteredhisanger。ItwasasifProfessorMoorsomhaddroppedpoisoninhisearwhichwasspreadingnowandtaintinghispassion,hisveryjealousy。Hemistrustedeverywordthatcamefromthoselipsonwhichhislifehung。"Howcanyouknowanythingofmenwhodonotcountthecost?"heaskedinhisgentlesttones。
"Fromhearsay-alittle。"
"Well,Iassureyoutheyareliketheothers,subjecttosuffering,victimsofspells……"
"Oneofthem,atleast,speaksverystrangely。"
Shedismissedthesubjectafterashortsilence。"Mr。Renouard,I
hadadisappointmentthismorning。Thismailbroughtmealetterfromthewidowoftheoldbutler-youknow。Iexpectedtolearnthatshehadheardfrom-fromhere。Butno。Noletterarrivedhomesinceweleft。"
Hervoicewascalm。Hisjealousycouldn'tstandmuchmoreofthissortoftalk;buthewasgladthatnothinghadturneduptohelpthesearch;gladblindly,unreasonably-onlybecauseitwouldkeepherlongerinhissight-sinceshewouldn'tgiveup。
"Iamtoonearher,"hethought,movingalittlefurtherontheseat。Hewasafraidintherevulsionoffeelingofflinginghimselfonherhands,whichwerelyingonherlap,andcoveringthemwithkisses。Hewasafraid。Nothing,nothingcouldshakethatspell-notifshewereeversofalse,stupid,ordegraded。
Shewasfateitself。Theextentofhismisfortuneplungedhiminsuchastuporthathefailedatfirsttohearthesoundofvoicesandfootstepsinsidethedrawing-room。Williehadcomehome-andtheEditorwaswithhim。
Theyburstoutontheterracebabblingnoisily,andthenpullingthemselvestogetherstoodstill,surprising-andasifthemselvessurprised。
CHAPTERVII
Theyhadbeenfeastingapoetfromthebush,thelatestdiscoveryoftheEditor。Suchdiscoverieswerethebusiness,thevocation,theprideanddelightoftheonlyapostleoflettersinthehemisphere,thesolitarypatronofculture,theSlaveoftheLamp-
ashesubscribedhimselfatthebottomoftheweeklyliterarypageofhispaper。HehadhadnodifficultyinpersuadingthevirtuousWilliewhohadfestiveinstinctstohelpinthegoodwork,andnowtheyhadleftthepoetlyingasleeponthehearthrugoftheeditorialroomandhadrushedtotheDunstermansionwildly。TheEditorhadanotherdiscoverytoannounce。Swayingalittlewherehestoodheopenedhismouthverywidetoshouttheoneword"Found!"BehindhimWillieflungbothhishandsabovehisheadandletthemfalldramatically。Renouardsawthefourwhite-headedpeopleattheendoftheterracerisealltogetherfromtheirchairswithaneffectofsuddenpanic。
"Itellyou-he-is-found,"thepatronoflettersshoutedemphatically。
"Whatisthis!"exclaimedRenouardinachokedvoice。MissMoorsomseizedhiswristsuddenly,andatthatcontactfireranthroughallhisveins,ahotstillnessdescendeduponhiminwhichheheardtheblood-orthefire-beatinginhisears。Hemadeamovementasiftorise,butwasrestrainedbytheconvulsivepressureonhiswrist。
"No,no。"MissMoorsom'seyesstaredblackasnight,searchingthespacebeforeher。FarawaytheEditorstruttedforward,Williefollowingwithhisostentatiousmannerofcarryinghisbulkyandoppressivecarcasswhich,however,didnotremainexactlyperpendicularfortwosecondstogether。
"TheinnocentArthur……Yes。We'vegothim,"theEditorbecameverybusiness-like。"Yes,thisletterhasdoneit。"
Heplungedintoaninsidepocketforit,slappedthescrapofpaperwithhisopenpalm。"Fromthatoldwoman。WilliamhaditinhispocketsincethismorningwhenMissMoorsomgaveittohimtoshowme。Forgotallaboutittillanhourago。Thoughtitwasofnoimportance。Well,no!Nottillitwasproperlyread。"
RenouardandMissMoorsomemergedfromtheshadowssidebyside,awell-matchedcouple,animatedyetstatuesqueintheircalmnessandintheirpallor。Shehadletgohiswrist。OncatchingsightofRenouardtheEditorexclaimed:
"What-youhere!"inaquiteshrillvoice。
Therecameadeadpause。Allthefaceshadinthemsomethingdismayedandcruel。
"He'stheverymanwewant,"continuedtheEditor。"Excusemyexcitement。Youaretheveryman,Renouard。Didn'tyoutellmethatyourassistantcalledhimselfWalter?Yes?Thoughtso。Buthere'sthatoldwoman-thebutler'swife-listentothis。Shewrites:AllIcantellyou,Miss,isthatmypoorhusbanddirectedhisletterstothenameofH。Walter。"
Renouard'sviolentbutrepressedexclamationwaslostinageneralmurmurandshuffleoffeet。TheEditormadeastepforward,bowedwithcreditablesteadiness。
"MissMoorsom,allowmetocongratulateyoufromthebottomofmyheartonthehappy-er-issue……"
"Wait,"mutteredRenouardirresolutely。
TheEditorjumpedonhiminthemanneroftheiroldfriendship。
"Ah,you!Youareafinefellowtoo。Withyoursolitarywaysoflifeyouwillendbyhavingnomorediscriminationthanasavage。
Fancylivingwithagentlemanformonthsandneverguessing。A
man,Iamcertain,accomplished,remarkable,outofthecommon,sincehehadbeendistinguished"hebowedagain"byMissMoorsom,whomwealladmire。"
Sheturnedherbackonhim。
"Ihopetogoodnessyouhaven'tbeenleadinghimadog'slife,Geoffrey,"theEditoraddressedhisfriendinawhisperedaside。
Renouardseizedachairviolently,satdown,andproppinghiselbowonhiskneeleanedhisheadonhishand。Behindhimthesisteroftheprofessorlookeduptoheavenandwrungherhandsstealthily。
Mrs。Dunster'shandswereclaspedforciblyunderherchin,butshe,dearsoul,waslookingsorrowfullyatWillie。Themodelnephew!
Inthisstrangestate!Soverymuchflushed!ThecarefuldispositionofthethinhairsacrossWillie'sbaldspotwasdeplorablydisarranged,andthespotitselfwasredand,asitwere,steaming。
"What'sthematter,Geoffrey?"TheEditorseemeddisconcertedbythesilentattitudesroundhim,asthoughhehadexpectedallthesepeopletoshoutanddance。"Youhavehimontheisland-haven'tyou?"
"Oh,yes:Ihavehimthere,"saidRenouard,withoutlookingup。
"Well,then!"TheEditorlookedhelplesslyaroundasifbeggingforresponseofsomesort。Buttheonlyresponsethatcamewasveryunexpected。Annoyedatbeingleftinthebackground,andalsobecauseverylittledrinkmadehimnasty,theemotionalWillieturnedmalignantallatonce,andinabibuloustonesurprisinginamanabletokeephisbalancesowell-
"Aha!Butyouhaven'tgothimhere-notyet!"hesneered。"No!
Youhaven'tgothimyet。"
ThisoutrageousexhibitionwastotheEditorlikethelashtoajadedhorse。Hepositivelyjumped。
"Whatofthat?Whatdoyoumean?We-haven't-got-him-here。
Ofcourseheisn'there!ButGeoffrey'sschoonerishere。Shecanbesentatoncetofetchhimhere。No!Stay!There'sabetterplan。Whyshouldn'tyouallsailovertoMalata,professor?Savetime!IamsureMissMoorsomwouldprefer……"
WithagallantflourishofhisarmhelookedforMissMoorsom。Shehaddisappeared。Hewastakenabacksomewhat。
"Ah!H'm。Yes……Whynot。Apleasurecruise,delightfulship,delightfulseason,delightfulerrand,del……No!Therearenoobjections。Geoffrey,Iunderstand,hasindulgedinabungalowthreesizestoolargeforhim。Hecanputyouallup。Itwillbeapleasureforhim。Itwillbethegreatestprivilege。
Anymanwouldbeproudofbeinganagentofthishappyreunion。I
amproudofthelittlepartI'veplayed。Hewillconsideritthegreatesthonour。Geoff,myboy,youhadbetterbestirringto-
morrowbrightandearlyaboutthepreparationsforthetrip。Itwouldbecriminaltoloseasingleday。"
HewasasflushedasWillie,theexcitementkeepinguptheeffectofthefestivedinner。ForatimeRenouard,silent,asifhehadnotheardawordofallthatbabble,didnotstir。ButwhenhegotupitwastoadvancetowardstheEditorandgivehimsuchaheartyslaponthebackthattheplumplittlemanreeledinhistracksandlookedquitefrightenedforamoment。
"Youareaheaven-borndiscovererandafirst-ratemanager……
He'sright。It'stheonlyway。Youcan'tresisttheclaimofsentiment,andyoumustevenriskthevoyagetoMalata……"
Renouard'svoicesank。"Alonelyspot,"headded,andfellintothoughtunderalltheseeyesconvergingonhiminthesuddensilence。Hisslowglancepassedoverallthefacesinsuccession,remainingarrestedonProfessorMoorsom,stonyeyed,asmoulderingcigarinhisfingers,andwithhissisterstandingbyhisside。
"Ishallbeinfinitelygratifiedifyouconsenttocome。But,ofcourse,youwill。Weshallsailto-morroweveningthen。Andnowletmeleaveyoutoyourhappiness。"
Hebowed,verygrave,pointedsuddenlyhisfingeratWilliewhowasswayingaboutwithasleepyfrown……"Lookathim。He'sovercomewithhappiness。Youhadbetterputhimtobed……"anddisappearedwhileeveryheadontheterracewasturnedtoWilliewithvariedexpressions。
Renouardranthroughthehouse。Avoidingthecarriageroadhefleddownthesteepshortcuttotheshore,wherehisgigwaswaiting。
AthisloudshoutthesleepingKanakasjumpedup。Heleapedin。
"Shoveoff。Giveway!"andthegigdartedthroughthewater。
"Giveway!Giveway!"Sheflewpastthewool-clipperssleepingattheiranchorseachwiththeopenunwinkingeyeofthelampintherigging;sheflewpasttheflagshipofthePacificsquadron,agreatmassalldarkandsilent,heavywiththeslumbersoffivehundredmen,andwheretheinvisiblesentriesheardhisurgent"Giveway!Giveway!"inthenight。TheKanakas,panting,roseoffthethwartsateverystroke。Nothingcouldbefastenoughforhim!Andheranupthesideofhisschoonershakingtheladdernoisilywithhisrush。
Ondeckhestumbledandstoodstill。
Whereforethishaste?Towhatend,sinceheknewwellbeforehestartedthathehadapursuerfromwhomtherewasnoescape。
Ashisfoottouchedthedeckhiswill,hispurposehehadbeenhurryingtosave,diedoutwithin。Ithadbeennothinglessthangettingtheschoonerunder-way,lettinghervanishsilentlyinthenightfromamongstthesesleepingships。Andnowhewascertainhecouldnotdoit。Itwasimpossible!Andhereflectedthatwhetherhelivedordiedsuchanactwouldlayhimunderadarksuspicionfromwhichheshrank。No,therewasnothingtobedone。
Hewentdownintothecabinand,beforeevenunbuttoninghisovercoat,tookoutofthedrawertheletteraddressedtohisassistant;thatletterwhichhehadfoundinthepigeon-holelabelled"Malata"inyoungDunster'souteroffice,whereithadbeenwaitingforthreemonthssomeoccasionforbeingforwarded。
Fromthemomentofdroppingitinthedrawerhehadutterlyforgottenitsexistence-tillnow,whentheman'snamehadcomeoutsoclamorously。Heglancedatthecommonenvelope,notedtheshakyandlaborioushandwriting:H。Walter,Esqre。Undoubtedlytheverylastlettertheoldbutlerhadpostedbeforehisillness,andinanswerclearlytoonefrom"MasterArthur"instructinghimtoaddressinthefuture:"CareofMessrs。W。DunsterandCo。"
Renouardmadeasiftoopentheenvelope,butpaused,and,instead,toretheletterdeliberatelyintwo,infour,ineight。Withhishandfullofpiecesofpaperhereturnedondeckandscatteredthemoverboardonthedarkwater,inwhichtheyvanishedinstantly。
Hediditslowly,withouthesitationorremorse。H。Walter,Esqre,inMalata。TheinnocentArthur-Whatwashisname?Themansoughtforbythatwomanwhoasshewentbyseemedtodrawallthepassionoftheearthtoher,withouteffort,notdeigningtonotice,naturally,asotherwomenbreathedtheair。ButRenouardwasnolongerjealousofherveryexistence。Whateveritsmeaningitwasnotforthatmanhehadpickedupcasuallyonobscureimpulse,togetridofthetiresomeexpostulationsofaso-calledfriend;amanofwhomhereallyknewnothing-andnowadeadman。
InMalata。Oh,yes!Hewastheresecureenough,untroubledinhisgrave。InMalata。ToburyhimwasthelastserviceRenouardhadrenderedtohisassistantbeforeleavingtheislandonthistriptotown。
LikemanymenreadyenoughforarduousenterprisesRenouardwasinclinedtoevadethesmallcomplicationsofexistence。Thistraitofhischaracterwascomposedofalittleindolence,somedisdain,andashrinkingfromcontestswithcertainformsofvulgarity-
likeamanwhowouldfacealionandgooutofhiswaytoavoidatoad。Hisintercoursewiththemeddlesomejournalistwasthatmerelyoutwardintimacywithoutsympathysomeyoungmengetdrawnintoeasily。Ithadamusedhimrathertokeepthat"friend"inthedarkaboutthefateofhisassistant。Renouardhadneverneededothercompanythanhisown,fortherewasinhimsomethingofthesensitivenessofadreamerwhoiseasilyjarred。Hehadsaidtohimselfthattheall-knowingonewouldonlypreachagainabouttheevilsofsolitudeandworryhisheadoffinfavourofsomeforlornlyuselessprotegeofhis。AlsotheinquisitivenessoftheEditorhadirritatedhimandhadclosedhislipsinsheerdisgust。
Andnowhecontemplatedthenooseofconsequencesdrawingtightaroundhim。
Itwasthememoryofthatdiplomaticreticencewhichontheterracehadstiffledhisfirstcrywhichwouldhavetoldthemallthatthemansoughtforwasnottobemetonearthanymore。Heshrankfromtheabsurdityofhearingtheall-knowingone,andnotverysoberatthat,turningonhimwithrighteousreproaches-
"Younevertoldme。Yougavemetounderstandthatyourassistantwasalive,andnowyousayhe'sdead。Whichisit?Wereyoulyingthenorareyoulyingnow?"No!thethoughtofsuchascenewasnottobeborne。Hehadsatdownappalled,thinking:"WhatshallIdonow?"
Hiscouragehadoozedoutofhim。SpeakingthetruthmeanttheMoorsomsgoingawayatonce-whileitseemedtohimthathewouldgivethelastshredofhisrectitudetosecureadaymoreofhercompany。Hesaton-silent。Slowly,fromconfusedsensations,fromhistalkwiththeprofessor,themannerofthegirlherself,theintoxicatingfamiliarityofhersuddenhand-clasp,therehadcometohimahalfglimmerofhope。Theothermanwasdead。Then!……Madness,ofcourse-buthecouldnotgiveitup。Hehadlistenedtothatconfoundedbusybodyarrangingeverything-whileallthesepeoplestoodaroundassenting,underthespellofthatdeadromance。Hehadlistenedscornfulandsilent。Theglimmersofhope,ofopportunity,passedbeforehiseyes。Hehadonlytositstillandsaynothing。Thatandnomore。Andwhatwastruthtohiminthefaceofthatgreatpassionwhichhadflunghimprostrateinspiritatheradoredfeet!
Andnowitwasdone!Fatalityhadwilledit!Withtheeyesofamortalstruckbythemaddeningthunderboltofthegods,Renouardlookeduptothesky,animmenseblackpalldustedoverwithgold,onwhichgreatshuddersseemedtopassfromthebreathoflifeaffirmingitssway。