`Youshallnotmeddlewithhim!'Icontinued。`Hehatesyou——theyallhateyou——that'sthetruth!Ahappyfamilyyouhave:andaprettystateyou'recometo!'
`Ishallcometoaprettier,yet,Nelly,'laughedthemisguidedman,recoveringhishardness。`Atpresent,conveyyourselfandhimaway。
And,harkyou,Heathcliff!clearyoutoo,quitefrommyreachandhearing。
Iwouldn'tmurderyoutonight;unless,perhaps,Isetthehouseonfire:
butthat'sasmyfancygoes。
Whilesayingthishetookapintbottleofbrandyfromthedresser,andpouredsomeintoatumbler。
`Nay,don't!'Ientreated。`MrHindley,dotakewarning。Havemercyonthisunfortunateboy,ifyoucarenothingforyourself!'
`AnyonewilldobetterforhimthanIshall,'heanswered。
`Havemercyonyourownsoul!'Isaid,endeavouringtosnatchtheglassfromhishand。
`NotI!Onthecontrary,IshallhavegreatpleasureinsendingittoperditiontopunishitsMaker,'exclaimedtheblasphemer。`Here'stoitsheartydamnation!'
Hedrankthespiritsandimpatientlybadeusgo;terminatinghiscommandwithasequelofhorridimprecations,toobadtorepeatorremember。
`It'sapityhecannotkillhimselfwithdrink,'observedHeathcliff,mutteringanechoofcursesbackwhenthedoorwasshut。`He'sdoinghisveryutmost;buthisconstitutiondefieshim。MrKennethsayshewouldwagerhismare,thathe'lloutliveanymanonthissideGimmerton,andgotothegraveahoarysinner;unlesssomehappychanceoutofthecommoncoursebefallhim。'
Iwentintothekitchen,andsatdowntolullmylittlelambtosleep。Heathcliff,asIthought,walkedthroughtothebarn。Itturnedoutafterwardsthatheonlygotasfarastheothersidethesettle,whenheflunghimselfonabenchbythewall,removedfromthefire,andremainedsilent。
IwasrockingHaretononmyknee,andhummingasongthatbegan:
Itwasfarinthenight,andthebairniesgrat,Themitherbeneaththemoolsheardthat——whenMissCathy,whohadlistenedtothehubbubfromherroom,putherheadin,andwhispered:
`Areyoualone,Nelly?'
`Yes,miss,'Ireplied。
Sheenteredandapproachedthehearth。I,supposingshewasgoingtosaysomething,lookedup。Theexpressionofherfaceseemeddisturbedandanxious。Herlipswerehalfasunder,asifshemeanttospeak,andshedrewabreath;butitescapedinasighinsteadofasentence。Iresumedmysong;nothavingforgottenherrecentbehaviour。
`Where'sHeathcliff?'shesaid,interruptingme。
`Abouthisworkinthestable,'wasmyanswer。
Hedidnotcontradictme;perhapshehadfallenintoadoze。Therefollowedanotherlongpause,duringwhichIperceivedadroportwotricklefromCatherine'scheektotheflags。Isshesorryforhershamefulconduct?
Iaskedmyself。Thatwillbeanovelty:butshemaycometothepointasshewill——Ishan'thelpher!No,shefeltsmalltroubleregardinganysubject,saveherownconcerns。
`Oh,dear!'shecriedatlast。`I'mveryunhappy!'
`Apity,'observedI。`You'rehardtoplease:somanyfriendsandsofewcares,andcan'tmakeyourselfcontent!'
`Nelly,willyoukeepasecretforme?'shepursued,kneelingdownbyme,andliftingherwinsomeeyestomyfacewiththatsortoflookwhichturnsoffbadtemper,evenwhenonehasalltherightintheworldtoindulgeit。
`Isitworthkeeping?'Iinquired,lesssulkily。
`Yes,anditworriesme,andImustletitout!IwanttoknowwhatIshoulddo。Today,EdgarLintonhasaskedmetomarryhim,andI'vegivenhimananswer。Now,beforeItellyouwhetheritwasaconsentordenial,youtellmewhichitoughttohavebeen。'
`Really,MissCatherine,howcanIknow?'Ireplied。`Tobesure,consideringtheexhibitionyouperformedinhispresencethisafternoon,Imightsayitwouldbewisetorefusehim:sinceheaskedyouafterthat,hemusteitherbehopelesslystupidoraventuresomefool。'
`Ifyoutalkso,Iwon'ttellyouanymore,'shereturnedpeevishly,risingtoherfeet。`Iacceptedhim,Nelly。Bequick,andsaywhetherI
waswrong!'
`Youacceptedhim!thenwhatgoodisitdiscussingthematter?
Youhavepledgedyourword,andcannotretract。'
`But,saywhetherIshouldhavedoneso——do!'sheexclaimedinanirritatedtone;chafingherhandstogether,andfrowning。
`Therearemanythingstobeconsideredbeforethatquestioncanbeansweredproperly,'Isaidsententiously。`Firstandfore-most,doyouloveMrEdgar?'
`Whocanhelpit?OfcourseIdo,'sheanswered。
ThenIputherthroughthefollowingcatechism:foragirloftwenty-twoitwasnotinjudicious。
`Whydoyoulovehim,MissCathy?'
`Nonsense,Ido——that'ssufficient。'
`Bynomeans;youmustsaywhy?'
`Well,becauseheishandsome,andpleasanttobewith。'
`Bad!'wasmycommentary。
`Andbecauseheisyoungandcheerful。'
`Bad,still。'
`Andbecausehelovesme。'
`Indifferent,comingthere。'
`Andhewillberich,andIshallliketobethegreatestwomanoftheneighbourhood,andIshallbeproudofhavingsuchahusband。'
`Worstofall。Andnow,sayhowyoulovehim?'
`Aseverybodyloves——You'resilly,Nelly。'
`Notatall——Answer。'
`Ilovethegroundunderhisfeet,andtheairoverhishead,andeverythinghetouches,andeverywordhesays。Iloveallhislooks,andallhisactions,andhimentirelyandaltogether。Therenow!'
`Andwhy?'
`Nay;youaremakingajestofit;itisexceedinglyill-natured!It'snojesttome!'saidtheyounglady,scowling,andturningherfacetothefire。
`I'mveryfarfromjesting,MissCatherine,'Ireplied。`YouloveMrEdgarbecauseheishandsome,andyoung,andcheerful,andrich,andlovesyou。Thelast,however,goesfornothing:youwouldlovehimwithoutthat,probably;andwithityouwouldn't,unlesshepossessedthefourformerattractions。'
`No,tobesurenot:Ishouldonlypityhim——hatehim,perhaps,ifhewereugly,andaclown。'
`Butthereareseveralotherhandsome,richyoungmenintheworld:
handsomer,possibly,andricherthanheis。Whatshouldhinderyoufromlovingthem?'
`Iftherebeany,theyareoutofmyway!I'veseennonelikeEdgar。'
`Youmayseesome;andhewon'talwaysbehandsome,andyoung,andmaynotalwaysberich。'
`Heisnow;andIhaveonlytodowiththepresent。Iwishyouwouldspeakrationally。'
`Well,thatsettlesit:ifyouhaveonlytodowiththepresent,marryMrLinton。'
`Idon'twantyourpermissionforthat——Ishallmarryhim:
andyetyouhavenottoldmewhetherI'mright。'
`Perfectlyright;ifpeopleberighttomarryonlyforthepresent。
Andnow,letushearwhatyouareunhappyabout。Yourbrotherwillbepleased;
theoldladyandgentlemanwillnotobject,Ithink;youwillescapefromadisorderly,comfortlesshomeintoawealthy,respectableone;andyouloveEdgar,andEdgarlovesyou。Allseemssmoothandeasy:whereistheobstacle?'
`Here!andhere!'repliedCatherine,strikingonehandonherforehead,andtheotheronherbreast:`inwhicheverplacethesoullives。Inmysoulandinmyheart,I'mconvincedI'mwrong!'
`That'sverystrange!Icannotmakeitout。'
`It'smysecret。Butifyouwillnotmockatme,I'llexplainit:Ican'tdoitdistinctly:butI'llgiveyouafeelingofhowIfeel。'
Sheseatedherselfbymeagain:hercountenancegrewsadderandgraver,andherclaspedhandstrembled。
`Nelly,doyouneverdreamqueerdreams?'shesaid,suddenly,aftersomeminutes'reflection。
`Yes,nowandthen,'Ianswered。
`AndsodoI。I'vedreamtinmylifedreamsthathavestayedwithmeeverafter,andchangedmyideas:they'vegonethroughandthroughme,likewinethroughwater,andalteredthecolourofmymind。Andthisisone;I'mgoingtotellit——buttakecarenottosmileatanypartofit。'
`Oh!don't,MissCatherine!'Icried。`We'redismalenoughwithoutconjuringupghostsandvisionstoperplexus。Come,come,bemerryandlikeyourself!LookatlittleHareton!he'sdreamingnothingdreary。Howsweetlyhesmilesinhissleep!'
`Yes;andhowsweetlyhisfathercursesinhissolitude!Yourememberhim,Idaresay,whenhewasjustsuchanotherasthatchubbything:nearlyasyoungandinnocent。However,Nelly,Ishallobligeyoutolisten:it'snotlong;andI'venopowertobemerrytonight。'
`Iwon'thearit,Iwon'thearit!'Irepeatedhastily。
Iwassuperstitiousaboutdreamsthen,andamstill;andCatherinehadanunusualgloominheraspect,thatmademedreadsomethingfromwhichImightshapeaprophecy,andforeseeafearfulcatastrophe。Shewasvexed,butshedidnotproceed。Apparentlytakingupanothersubject,sherecommencedinashorttime。
`IfIwereinheaven,Nelly,Ishouldbeextremelymiserable。'
`Becauseyouarenotfittogothere,',Ianswered。`Allsinnerswouldbemiserableinheaven。'
`Butitisnotforthat。IdreamtoncethatIwasthere。'
`ItellyouIwon'thearkentoyourdreams,MissCatherine!I'llgotobed,'Iinterruptedagain。
Shelaughed,andheldmedown;forImadeamotiontoleavemychair。
`Thisisnothing,'criedshe:`Iwasonlygoingtosaythatheavendidnotseemtobemyhome;andIbrokemyheartwithweepingtocomebacktoearth;andtheangelsweresoangrythattheyflungmeoutintothemiddleoftheheathonthetopofWutheringHeights;whereIwokesobbingforjoy。Thatwilldotoexplainmysecret,aswellastheother。I'venomorebusinesstomarryEdgarLintonthanIhavetobeinheaven;andifthewickedmanintherehadnotbroughtHeathcliffsolow,Ishouldn'thavethoughtofit。ItwoulddegrademetomarryHeathcliffnow;soheshallneverknowhowIlovehim:andthat,notbecausehe'shandsome,Nelly,butbecausehe'smoremyselfthanIam。Whateveroursoulsaremadeof,hisandminearethesame;andLinton'sisasdifferentasamoonbeamfromlightning,orfrostfromfire。'
Erethisspeechended,IbecamesensibleofHeathcliff'spresence。
Havingnoticedaslightmovement,Iturnedmyhead,andsawhimrisefromthebench,andstealoutnoiselessly。HehadlistenedtillheheardCatherinesayitwoulddegradehertomarryhim,andthenhestayedtohearnofurther。
Mycompanion,sittingontheground,waspreventedbythebackofthesettlefromremarkinghispresenceordeparture;butIstarted,andbadeherhush!
`Why?'sheasked,gazingnervouslyround。
`Josephishere,'Ianswered,catchingopportunelytherollofhiscart-wheelsuptheroad;`andHeathcliffwillcomeinwithhim。I'mnotsurewhetherhewerenotatthedoorthismoment。'
`Oh,hecouldn'toverhearmeatthedoor!'saidshe。`GivemeHareton,whileyougetthesupper,andwhenitisreadyaskmetosupwithyou。Iwanttocheatmyuncomfortableconscience,andbeconvincedthatHeathcliffhasnonotionofthesethings。Hehasnot,hashe?Hedoesnotknowwhatbeinginloveis?'
`Iseenoreasonthatheshouldnotknow,aswellasyou,'Ireturned;
`andifyouarehischoice,hewillbethemostunfortunatecreaturethateverwasborn!AssoonasyoubecomeMrsLinton,helosesfriend,andlove,andall!Haveyouconsideredhowyou'llbeartheseparation,andhowhe'llbedesertedintheworld?Because,MissCatherine——'
`Hequitedeserted!weseparated!'sheexclaimed,withanaccentofindignation。`Whoistoseparateus,pray?They'llmeetthefateofMilo!NotaslongasIlive,Ellen:fornomortalcreature。EveryLintononthefaceoftheearthmightmeltintonothing,beforeIcouldconsenttoforsakeHeathcliff。Oh,that'snotwhatIintend——that'snotwhatI
mean!Ishouldn'tbeMrsLintonweresuchapricedemanded!He'llbeasmuchtomeashehasbeenallhislifetime。Edgarmustshakeoffhisantipathy,andtoleratehim,atleast。Hewill,whenhelearnsmytruefeelingstowardshim。Nelly,Iseenow,youthinkmeaselfishwretch;butdiditneverstrikeyouthatifHeathcliffandImarried,weshouldbebeggars?whereas,ifImarryLinton,IcanaidHeathclifftorise,andplacehimoutofmybrother'spower。'
`Withyourhusband'smoney,MissCatherine?'Iasked。`You'llfindhimnotsopliableasyoucalculateupon:and,thoughI'mhardlyajudge,Ithinkthat'stheworstmotiveyou'vegivenyetforbeingthewifeofyoungLinton。'
`Itisnot,'retortedshe;`itisthebest!Theotherswerethesatisfactionofmywhims:andforEdgar'ssake,too,tosatisfyhim。ThisisforthesakeofonewhocomprehendsinhispersonmyfeelingstoEdgarandmyself。Icannotexpressit;butsurelyyouandeverybodyhaveanotionthatthereisorshouldbeanexistenceofyoursbeyondyou。Whatweretheuseofmycreation,ifIwereentirelycontainedhere?MygreatmiseriesinthisworldhavebeenHeathcliff'smiseries,andIwatchedandfelteachfromthebeginning:mygreatthoughtinlivingishimself。Ifallelseperished,andheremained,Ishouldstillcontinuetobe;andifallelseremained,andhewereannihilated,theuniversewouldturntoamightystranger:Ishouldnotseemapartofit。MyloveforLintonislikethefoliageinthewoods:timewillchangeit,I'mwellaware,aswinterchangesthetrees。MyloveforHeathcliffresemblestheeternalrocksbeneath:
asourceoflittlevisibledelight,butnecessary。Nelly,IamHeathcliff!
He'salways,alwaysinmymind:notasapleasure,anymorethanIamalwaysapleasuretomyself,butasmyownbeing。Sodon'ttalkofourseparationagain:itisimpracticable;and——'
Shepaused,andhidherfaceinthefoldsofmygown;butIjerkeditforciblyaway。Iwasoutofpatiencewithherfolly!
`IfIcanmakeanysenseofyournonsense,miss,'Isaid,`itonlygoestoconvincemethatyouareignorantofthedutiesyouundertakeinmarrying;orelsethatyouareawicked,unprincipledgirl。Buttroublemewithnomoresecrets:I'llnotpromisetokeepthem。'
`You'llkeepthat?'sheaskedeagerly。
`No,I'llnotpromise,'Irepeated。
Shewasabouttoinsist,whentheentranceofJosephfinishedourconversation;andCatherineremovedherseattoacorner,andnursedHareton,whileImadethesupper。Afteritwascooked,myfellow-servantandIbegantoquarrelwhoshouldcarrysometoMrHindley;andwedidn'tsettleittillallwasnearlycold。Thenwecametotheagreementthatwewouldlethimask,ifhewantedany;forwefearedparticularlytogointohispresencewhenhehadbeensometimealone。
`Undhahisn'tthatnowtcomedinfroughth'field,bethistime?
Whatisheabaht?girteedleseeght!'demandedtheoldman,lookingroundforHeathcliff。
`I'llcallhim,'Ireplied。`He'sinthebarn,I'venodoubt。'
Iwentandcalled,butgotnoanswer。Onreturning,IwhisperedtoCatherinethathehadheardagoodpartofwhatshesaid,Iwassure;
andtoldhowIsawhimquitthekitchenjustasshecomplainedofherbrother'sconductregardinghim。Shejumpedupinafinefright,flungHaretonontothesettle,andrantoseekforherfriendherself;nottakingleisuretoconsiderwhyshewassoflurried,orhowhertalkwouldhaveaffectedhim。ShewasabsentsuchawhilethatJosephproposedweshouldwaitnolonger。Hecunninglyconjecturedtheywerestayingawayinordertoavoidhearinghisprotractedblessing。Theywere`illeneughforonyfahlmanners',heaffirmed。Andontheirbehalfheaddedthatnightaspecialprayertotheusualquarterofanhour'ssupplicationbeforemeat,andwouldhavetackedanothertotheendofthegrace,hadnothisyoungmistressbrokeninuponhimwithahurriedcommandthathemustrundowntheroad,andwhereverHeathcliffhadrambled,findandmakehimre-enterdirectly!
`Iwanttospeaktohim,andImust,beforeIgoupstairs,'
shesaid。`Andthegateisopen:heissomewhereoutofhearing;forhewouldnotreply,thoughIshoutedatthetopofthefoldasloudasIcould。'
Josephobjectedatfirst;shewastoomuchinearnest,however,tosuffercontradiction;andatlastheplacedhishatonhishead,andwalkedgrumblingforth。Meantime,Catherinepacedupanddownthefloor,exclaiming:
`Iwonderwhereheis——Iwonderwherehecanbe?WhatdidIsay,Nelly?I'veforgotten。Washevexedatmybadhumourthisafternoon?
Dear!tellmewhatI'vesaidtogrievehim?Idowishhe'dcome。Idowishhewould!'
`Whatanoisefornothing!'Icried,thoughratheruneasymyself。
`Whatatriflescaresyou!It'ssurelynogreatcauseofalarmthatHeathcliffshouldtakeamoonlightsaunteronthemoors,orevenlietoosulkytospeaktousinthehay-loft。I'llengagehe'slurkingthere。SeeifIdon'tferrethimout!'
Idepartedtorenewmysearch;itsresultwasdisappointment,andJoseph'squestendedinthesame。
`Yonladsgetswarunwar!'observedheonre-entering。`He'sleftth'yateutt'fullswing,andMiss'sponyhastroddendahntworigsuhcorn,unplotteredthrough,raighto'erintuht'meadow!Hahsomdiver,t'maister'ullplayt'deviltomorn,andhe'lldoweel。He'spatienceitsselnwi'sichcareless,offaldcraters——patienceitsselnheis!Budhe'llnutbesoaallus——yah'ssee,allonye!Yahmum'ntdrivehimahtufhisheeadfornowt!'
`HaveyoufoundHeathcliff,youass?'interruptedCatherine。`Haveyoubeenlookingforhim,asIordered?'
`Awsudmorelikkerlookforth'horse,'hereplied。`It'udbetuhmoresense。Bud,Awcanlookfornortherhorsenurmanufaneeghtloikethis——asblackast'chimbley!undHathecliff'snoant'chaptocoomatmawwhistle——happenhe'llbelessharduhhearingwi'ye!'
Itwasaverydarkeveningforsummer:thecloudsappearedinclinedtothunder,andIsaidwehadbetterallsitdown;theapproachingrainwouldbecertaintobringhimhomewithoutfurthertrouble。However,Catherinewouldnotbepersuadedintotranquillity。Shekeptwanderingtoandfro,fromthegatetothedoor,inastateofagitationwhichpermittednorepose;andatlengthtookupapermanentsituationononesideofthewall,neartheroad:where,heedlessofmyexpostulationsandthegrowlingthunder,andthegreatdropsthatbegantoplasharoundher,sheremained,callingatintervals,andthenlistening,andthencryingoutright。ShebeatHareton,oranychild,atagoodpassionatefitofcrying。
Aboutmidnight,whilewestillsatup,thestormcamerattlingovertheHeightsinfullfury。Therewasaviolentwind,aswellasthunder,andeitheroneortheothersplitatreeoffatthecornerofthebuilding:
ahugeboughfellacrosstheroof,andknockeddownaportionoftheeastchimney-stack,sendingaclatterofstonesandsootintothekitchenfire。
Wethoughtabolthadfalleninthemiddleofus;andJosephswungontohiskneesbeseechingtheLordtorememberthepatriarchsNoahandLot,and,asinformertimes,sparetherighteous,thoughHesmotetheungodly。
Ifeltsomesentimentthatitmustbeajudgmentonusalso。TheJonah,inmymind,wasMrEarnshaw;andIshookthehandleofhisdenthatImightascertainifhewereyetliving。Herepliedaudiblyenough,inafashionwhichmademycompanionvociferate,moreclamorouslythanbefore,thatawidedistinctionmightbedrawnbetweensaintslikehimselfandsinnerslikehismaster。Buttheuproarpassedawayintwentyminutes,leavingusallunharmed;exceptingCathy,whogotthoroughlydrenchedforherobstinacyinrefusingtotakeshelter,andstandingbonnetlessandshawl-lesstocatchasmuchwaterasshecouldwithherhairandclothes。Shecameinandlaydownonthesettle,allsoakedasshewas,turningherfacetotheback,andputtingherhandsbeforeit。
`Well,miss!'Iexclaimed,touchinghershoulder;`youarenotbentongettingyourdeath,areyou?Doyouknowwhato'clockitis?Halfpasttwelve。Come,cometobed!there'snousewaitinglongeronthatfoolishboy:he'llbegonetoGimmetton,andhe'llstaytherenow。Heguessesweshouldn'twaitforhimtillthislatehour:atleast,heguessesthatonlyMrHindleywouldbeup;andhe'dratheravoidhavingthedooropenedbythemaster。
`Nay,nay,he'snoanatGimmerton,'saidJoseph。`Aw'sniverwonder,budhe'satt'bothomufabog-hoile。Thisvisitationworn'tfornowt,andIwodhevyetolookout,miss——yahmuhbet'next。ThankHivenforall!Allwarkstogitherforgooidtothemasischozzen,andpikedoutfro'th'rubbidge!Yahknawwhett'Scriptureses。'Andhebeganquotingseveraltexts,referringustothechaptersandverseswherewemightfindthem。
I,havingvainlybeggedthewilfulgirltoriseandremoveherwetthings,lefthimpreachingandhershivering,andbetookmyselftobedwithlittleHareton,whosleptasfastasifeveryonehadbeensleepingroundhim。IheardJosephreadonawhileafterwards;thenIdistinguishedhisslowstepontheladder,andthenIdroppedasleep。
Comingdownsomewhatlaterthanusual,Isaw,bythesunbeamspiercingthechinksoftheshutters,MissCatherinestillseatednearthefireplace。Thehousedoorwasajar,too;lightenteredfromitsunclosedwindows;Hindleyhadcomeout,andstoodonthekitchenhearth,haggardanddrowsy。
`Whatailsyou,Cathy?'hewassayingwhenIentered:`youlookasdismalasadrownedwhelp。Whyareyousodampandpale,child?'
`I'vebeenwet,'sheansweredreluctantly'`andI'mcold,that'sall。'
`Oh,sheisnaughty!'Icried,perceivingthemastertobetolerablysober。`Shegotsteepedintheshowerofyesterdayevening,andthereshehassatthenightthrough,andIcouldn'tprevailonhertostir。'
MrEarnshawstaredatusinsurprise。`Thenightthrough,'herepeated。`Whatkeptherup?notfearofthethunder,surely?Thatwasoverhourssince。'
NeitherofuswishedtomentionHeathcliff'sabsence,aslongaswecouldconcealit;soIreplied,Ididn'tknowhowshetookitintoherheadtositup;andshesaidnothing。Themorningwasfreshandcool;
Ithrewbackthelattice,andpresentlytheroomfilledwithsweetscentsfromthegarden;butCatherinecalledpeevishlytome,`Ellen,shutthewindow。I'mstarving!'Andherteethchatteredassheshrunkclosertothealmostextinguishedembers。
`She'sill,'saidHindley,takingherwrist;`Isupposethat'sthereasonshewouldnotgotobed。Damnit!Idon'twanttobetroubledwithmoresicknesshere。Whattookyouintotherain!'
`Runningaftert'lads,asusuald!'croakedJoseph,catchinganopportunity,fromourhesitation,tothrustinhiseviltongue。`IfIwaryah,maister,I'djustslamt'boardsi'theirfacesallon'em,gentleandsimple!Neveradayutyah'reoff,butyoncato'Lintoncomessneakinghither;andMissNelly,shoo'safinelass!shoositswatchingforyei'
t'kitchen;andasyah'reinatonedoor,he'soutatt'other;and,then,wergrandladygoesacoortingofherside!It'sbonnybehaviour,lurkingamangt'fields,aftertwelveo't'night,wi'thatfahl,flaysomedivilofagipsy,Heathcliff!TheythinkI'mblind;butI'mnoan:nowtutt'soart!——IseedyoungLintonboathcomingandgoing,andIseedyah'
directinghisdiscoursetome,`yahgooidfurnowt,slattenlywitch!
nipupandboltintoth'house,t'minuteyahheardt'maister'shorsefitclatterupt'road。'
`Silence,eavesdropper!'criedCatherine;`noneofyourinsolencebeforeme!EdgarLintoncameyesterdaybychance,Hindley;anditwasIwhotoldhimtobeoff:becauseIknewyouwouldnotliketohavemethimasyouwere。
`Youlie,Cathy,nodoubt,'answeredherbrother,`andyouareaconfoundedsimpleton!ButnevermindLintonatpresent:tellme,wereyounotwithHeathclifflastnight?Speakthetruth,now。Youneednotbeafraidofharminghim:thoughIhatehimasmuchasever,hedidmeagoodturnashorttimesince,thatwillmakemyconsciencetenderofbreakinghisneck。Topreventit,Ishallsendhimabouthisbusiness,thisverymorning;andafterhe'sgone,I'dadviseyoualltolooksharp:
Ishallonlyhavethemorehumourforyou。
`IneversawHeathclifflastnight,'answeredCatherine,beginningtosobbitterly:`andifyoudoturnhimoutofdoors,I'llgowithhim。
But,perhaps,you'llneverhaveanopportunity:perhapshe'sgone。'Heresheburstintouncontrollablegrief,andtheremainderofherwordswereinarticulate。
Hindleylavishedonheratorrentofscornfulabuse,andbadehergettoherroomimmediately,orsheshouldn'tcryfornothing!Iobligedhertoobey;andIshallneverforgetwhatascenesheactedwhenwereachedherchamber:itterrifiedme。Ithoughtshewasgoingmad,andIbeggedJosephtorunforthedoctor。Itprovedthecommencementofdelirium:MrKenneth,assoonashesawher,pronouncedherdangerouslyill;shehadafever。Hebledher,andhetoldmetoletherliveonwheyandwatergruel,andtakecareshedidnotthrowherselfdownstairsoroutofthewindow;andthenheleft:forhehadenoughtodointheparish,wheretwoorthreemileswastheordinarydistancebetweencottageandcottage。
ThoughIcannotsayImadeagentlenurse,andJosephandthemasterwerenobetter;andthoughourpatientwasaswearisomeandheadstrongasapatientcouldbe,sheweathereditthrough。OldMrsLintonpaidusseveralvisits,tobesure,andsetthingstorights,andscoldedandorderedusall;andwhenCatherinewasconvalescent,sheinsistedonconveyinghertoThrushcrossGrange:forwhichdeliverancewewereverygrateful。
Butthepoordamehadreasontorepentofherkindness:sheandherhusbandbothtookthefever,anddiedwithinafewdaysofeachother。
Ouryoungladyreturnedtous,saucierandmorepassionate,andhaughtierthanever。Heathcliffhadneverbeenheardofsincetheeveningofthethunder-storm;andonedayIhadthemisfortune,whenshehadprovokedmeexceedingly,tolaytheblameofhisdisappearanceonher:whereindeeditbelonged,asshewellknew。Fromthatperiod,forseveralmonths,sheceasedtoholdanycommunicationwithme,saveintherelationofamereservant。Josephfellunderabanalso:hewouldspeakhismind,andlectureherallthesameasifshewerealittlegirl;andsheesteemedherselfawoman,andourmistress,andthoughtthatherrecentillnessgaveheraclaimtobetreatedwithconsideration。Thenthedoctorhadsaidthatshewouldnotbearcrossingmuch;sheoughttohaveherownway;
anditwasnothinglessthanmurderinhereyesforanyonetopresumetostandupandcontradicther。FromMrEarnshawandhiscompanionsshekeptaloof;andtutoredbyKenneth,andseriousthreatsofafitthatoftenattendedherrages,herbrotherallowedherwhatevershepleasedtodemand,andgenerallyavoidedaggravatingherfierytemper。Hewasrathertooindulgentinhumouringhercaprices;notfromaffection,butfrompride:
hewishedearnestlytoseeherbringhonourtothefamilybyanalliancewiththeLintons,andaslongasshelet。himaloneshemighttrampleuslikeslaves,foraughthecared!EdgarLinton,asmultitudeshavebeenbeforeandwillbeafterhim,wasinfatuated;andbelievedhimselfth,ehappiestmanaliveonthedayheledhertoGimmertonChapel,threeyearssubsequenttohisfather'sdeath。
Muchagainstmyinclination,IwaspersuadedtoleaveWutheringHeightsandaccompanyherhere。LittleHaretonwasnearlyfiveyearsold,andIhadjustbeguntoteachhimhisletters。Wemadeasadparting;butCatherine'stearsweremorepowerfulthanours。WhenIrefusedtogo,andwhenshefoundherentreatiesdidnotmoveme,shewentlamentingtoherhusbandandbrother。Theformerofferedmemunificentwages;thelatterorderedmetopackup:hewantednowomeninthehouse,hesaid,nowthattherewasnomistress;andastoHareton,thecurateshouldtakehiminhand,byandby。AndsoIhadbutonechoiceleft:todoasIwasordered。
Itoldthemasterhegotridofalldecentpeopleonlytoruntoruinalittlefaster;IkissedHaretongoodbye;andsincethenhehasbeenastranger:
andit'sveryqueertothinkit,butI'venodoubthehascompletelyforgottenallaboutEllenDean,andthathewasevermorethanalltheworldtoher,andshetohim!
Atthispointofthehousekeeper'sstory,shechancedtoglancetowardsthetimepieceoverthechimney;andwasinamazementonseeingtheminutehandmeasurehalfpastone。Shewouldnothearofstayingasecondlonger:intruth,Ifeltratherdisposedtodeferthesequelofhernarrative,myself。Andnowthatsheisvanishedtoherrest,andI
havemeditatedforanotherhourortwo,Ishallsummoncouragetogo,also,inspiteofachinglazinessofheadandlimbs。
[NextChapter][TableofContents]WutheringHeights[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter10Acharmingintroductiontoahermit'slife!Fourweeks'torture,tossing,andsickness!Oh!thesebleakwindsandbitternorthernskies,andimpassableroads,anddilatorycountrysurgeons!And,oh,thisdearthofthehumanphysiognomy!and,worsethanall,theterribleintimationofKenneththatIneednotexpecttobeoutofdoorstillspring!
MrHeathcliffhasjusthonouredmewithacallsAboutsevendaysagohesentmeabraceofgrouse——thelastoftheseason。Scoundrel!Heisnotaltogetherguiltlessinthisillnessofmine;andthatIhadagreatmindtotellhim。But,alas!howcouldIoffendamanwhowascharitableenoughtositatmybedsideagoodhour,andtalkonsomeothersubjectthanpillsanddraughts,blistersandleeches?Thisisquiteaneasyinterval。
Iamtooweaktoread;yetIfeelasifIcouldenjoysomethinginteresting。
WhynothaveupMrsDeantofinishhertale?Icanrecollectitschiefincidentsasfarasshehadgone。Yes:Irememberherherohadrunoff,andneverbeenheardofforthreeyears;andtheheroinewasmarried。I'llring:she'llbedelightedtofindmecapableoftalkingcheerfully。MrsDeancame。
`Itwantstwentyminutes,sir,totakingthemedicine,'shecommenced。
`Away,awaywithit!'Ireplied;`Idesiretohave——'
`Thedoctorsaysyoumustdropthepowders。'
`Withallmyheart!Don'tinterruptme。Comeandtakeyourseathere。Keepyourfingersfromthatbitterphalanxofvials。Drawyourknittingoutofyourpocket——thatwilldo——nowcontinuethehistoryofMrHeathcliff,fromwhereyouleftoff,tothepresentday。DidhefinishhiseducationontheContinent,andcomebackagentleman?or。didhegetasizar'splaceatcollege,orescapetoAmerica,andearnhonoursbydrawingbloodfromhisfoster-country?ormakeafortunemorepromptlyontheEnglishhighways?'
`Hemayhavedonealittleinallthesevocations,MrLockwood;
butIcouldn'tgivemywordforany。IstatedbeforethatIdidn'tknowhowhegainedhismoney;neitheramIawareofthemeanshetooktoraisehismindfromthesavageignoranceintowhichitwassunk:but,withyourleave,I'llproceedinmyownfashion,ifyouthinkitwillamuseandnotwearyyou。Areyoufeelingbetterthismorning?'
`Much。'
`That'sgoodnews。IgotMissCatherineandmyselftoThrushcrossGrange;and,tomyagreeabledisappointment,shebehavedinfinitelybetterthanIdaredexpect。SheseemedalmostoverfondofMrLinton;andeventohissistersheshowedplentyofaffection。Theywerebothveryattentivetohercomfort,certainly。Itwasnotthethornbendingtothehoneysuckles,butthehoneysucklesembracingthethorn。Therewerenomutualconcessions;
onestooderect,andtheothersyielded:andwhocanbeill-naturedandbad-temperedwhentheyencounterneitheroppositionnorindifference?I
observedthatMrEdgarhadadeeprootedfearofrufflingherhumour。Heconcealeditfromher;butifeverheheardmeanswersharply,orsawanyotherservantgrowcloudyatsomeimperiousorderofhers,hewouldshowhistroublebyafrownofdispleasurethatneverdarkenedonhisownaccount。
Hemanyatimespokesternlytomeaboutmypertness;andaverredthatthestabofaknifecouldnotinflictaworsepangthanhesufferedatseeinghisladyvexed。Nottogrieveakindmaster,Ilearnedtobelesstouchy;and,forthespaceofhalfayear,thegunpowderlayasharmlessassand,becausenofirecameneartoexplodeit。Catherinehadseasonsofgloomandsilencenowandthen:theywererespectedwithsympathizingsilencebyherhusband,whoascribedthemtoanalterationinherconstitution,producedbyherperilousillness;asshewasneversubjecttodepressionofspiritsbefore。Thereturnofsunshinewaswelcomedbyansweringsunshinefromhim。IbelieveImayassertthattheywerereallyinpossessionofdeepandgrowinghappiness。
Itended。Well,wemustbeforourselvesinthelongrun;
themildandgenerousareonlymorejustlyselfishthanthedomineering;
anditendedwhencircumstancescausedeachtofeelthattheonesinterestwasnotthechiefconsiderationintheother'sthoughts。OnamelloweveninginSeptember,IwascomingfromthegardenwithaheavybasketofappleswhichIhadbeengathering。Ithadgotdusk,andthemoonlookedoverthehighwallofthecourt,causingundefinedshadowstolurkinthecornersofthenumerousprojectingportionsofthebuilding。Isetmyburdenonthehousestepsbythekitchendoor,andlingeredtorest,anddrewinafewmorebreathsofthesoft,sweetair;myeyeswereonthemoon,andmybacktotheentrance,whenIheardavoicebehindmesay——
`Nelly,isthatyou?'
Itwasadeepvoice,andforeignintone;yettherewassomethinginthemannerofpronouncingmynamewhichmadeitsoundfamiliar。Iturnedabouttodiscoverwhospoke,fearfully;forthedoorswereshut,andI
hadseennobodyonapproachingthesteps。Somethingstirredintheporch;
and,movingnearer,Idistinguishedatallmandressedindarkclothes,withdarkfaceandhair。Heleantagainsttheside,andheldhisfingersonthelatchasifintendingtoopenforhimself。`Whocanitbe?'Ithought。
`MrEarnshaw?Oh,no!Thevoicehasnoresemblancetohis。'
`Ihavewaitedhereanhour,'heresumed,whileIcontinuedstaring;
`andthewholeofthattimeallroundhasbeenasstillasdeath。Idarednotenter。Youdonotknowme?Look,I'mnotastranger!'
Arayfellonhisfeatures;thecheeksweresallow,andhalfcoveredwithblackwhiskers;thebrowslowering,theeyesdeepsetandsingular。
Irememberedtheeyes。
`What!'Icried,uncertainwhethertoregardhimasaworldlyvisitor,andIraisedmyhandsinamazement。What!youcomeback?Isitreallyyou?Isit?'
`Yes,Heathcliff,'hereplied,glancingfrommeuptothewindows,whichreflectedascoreofglitteringmoons,butshowednolightsfromwithin。`Aretheyathome?whereisshe?Nelly,youarenotglad!youneedn'tbesodisturbed。Isshehere?Speak!Iwanttohaveonewordwithher——yourmistress。Go,andsaysomepersonfromGimmertondesirestoseeher。'
`Howwillshetakeit?'Iexclaimed。`Whatwillshedo?Thesurprisebewildersme——itwillputheroutofherhead!AndyouareHeathcliff!
Butaltered!Nay,there'snocomprehendingit。Haveyoubeenforasoldier?'
`Goandcarrymymessage,'heinterruptedimpatiently。`I'minhelltillyoudo!'
Heliftedthelatch,andIentered;butwhenIgottotheparlourwhereMrandMrsLintonwere,Icouldnotpersuademyselftoproceed。Atlength,Iresolvedonmakinganexcusetoaskiftheywouldhavethecandleslighted,andIopenedthedoor。
Theysattogetherinawindowwhoselatticelaybackagainstthewall,anddisplayed,beyondthegardentreesandthewildgreenpark,thevalleyofGimmerton,withalonglineofmistwindingnearlytoitstopforverysoonafteryoupassthechapel,asyoumayhavenoticed,thesoughthatrunsfromthemarshesjoinsabeckwhichfollowsthebendoftheglen。WutheringHeightsroseabovethissilveryvapour;butouroldhousewasinvisible;itratherdipsdownontheotherside。Boththeroomanditsoccupants,andthescenetheygazedon,lookedwondrouslypeaceful。
Ishrankreluctantlyfromperformingmyerrand;andwasactuallygoingawayleavingitunsaid,afterhavingputmyquestionaboutthecandles,whenasenseofmyfollycompelledmetoreturn,andmutter——`ApersonfromGimmertonwishestoseeyou,ma'am。'
`Whatdoeshewant?'askedMrsLinton。
`Ididnotquestionhim,'Ianswered。
`Well,closethecurtains,Nelly,'shesaid;`andbringuptea。
I'llbebackagaindirectly。'
Shequittedtheapartment;MrEdgarinquired,carelessly,whoitwas。
`Someonemistressdoesnotexpect,'Ireplied。`ThatHeathcliff——yourecollecthim,sir,——whousedtoliveatMrEarnshaw's。'
`What!thegipsy——theploughboy?'hecried。`WhydidyounotsaysotoCatherine?'
`Hush!youmustnotcallhimbythosenames,master,'Isaid。
`She'dbesadlygrievedtohearyou。Shewasnearlyheartbrokenwhenheranoff。Iguesshisreturnwillmakeajubileetoher。'
MrLintonwalkedtoawindowontheothersideoftheroomthatoverlookedthecourt。Heunfasteneditandleantout。Isupposetheywerebelow,forheexclaimedquickly——`Don'tstandthere,love!Bringthepersonin,ifitbeanyoneparticular。'ErelongIheardtheclickofthelatch,andCatherineflewupstairs,breathlessandwild;tooexcitedtoshowgladness:
indeed,byherface,youwouldratherhavesurmisedanawfulcalamity。
`Oh,Edgar,Edgar!'shepanted,flingingherarmsroundhisneck。
`OhEdgar,darling!Heathcliff'scomeback-heis!'Andshetightenedherembracetoasqueeze。
`Well,well,'criedherhusbandcrossly,`don'tstranglemeforthat!Heneverstruckmeassuchamarvelloustreasure。Thereisnoneedtobefrantic!'
`Iknowyoudidn'tlikehim,'sheanswered,repressingalittletheintensityofherdelight。`Yet,formysake,youmustbefriendsnow。
ShallItellhimtocomeup?'
`Here?'hesaid,`intotheparlour?'
`Whereelse?'sheasked。
Helookedvexed,andsuggestedthekitchenasamoresuitableplaceforhim。MrsLintoneyedhimwithadrollexpression——halfangry,halflaughingathisfastidiousness。
`No,'sheaddedafterawhile;`Icannotsitinthekitchen。Settwotableshere,Ellen:oneforyourmasterandMissIsabella,beinggentry;
theotherforHeathcliffandmyself,beingofthelowerorders。Willthatpleaseyou,dear?OrmustIhaveafirelightedelsewhere?Ifso,givedirections。I'llrundownandsecuremyguest。I'mafraidthejoyistoogreattobereal!'
Shewasabouttodartoffagain;butEdgararrestedher。
`Youbidhimstepup,'hesaid,addressingme!`and,Catherine,trytobeglad,withoutbeingabsurd!thewholehouseholdneednotwitnessthesightofyourwelcomingarunawayservantasabrother。'
IdescendedandfoundHeathcliffwaitingundertheporch,evidentlyanticipatinganinvitationtoenter。Hefollowedmyguidancewithoutwasteofwords,andIusheredhimintothepresenceofthemasterandmistress,whoseflushedcheeksbetrayedsignsofwarmtalking。Butthelady'sglowedwithanotherfeelingwhenherfriendappearedatthedoor:shesprangforward,tookbothhishands,andledhimtoLinton;andthensheseizedLinton'sreluctantfingersandcrushedthemintohis。Nowfullyrevealedbythefireandcandlelight,Iwasamazed,morethanever,tobeholdthetransformationofHeathcliff。Hehadgrownatall,athletic,well-formedman;besidewhom,mymasterseemedquiteslenderandyouth-like。Hisuprightcarriagesuggestedtheideaofhishavingbeeninthearmy。HiscountenancewasmucholderinexpressionanddecisionoffeaturethanMrLinton's;itlookedintelligent,andretainednomarksofformerdegradation。Ahalf-civilizedferocitylurkedyetinthedepressedbrowsandeyesfullofblackfire,butitwassubdued;andhismannerwasevendignified:quitedivestedofroughness,thoughtoosternforgrace。Mymaster'ssurpriseequalledorexceededmine:
heremainedforaminuteatalosshowtoaddresstheploughboy,ashehadcalledhim。Heathcliffdroppedhisslighthand,andstoodlookingathimcoollytillhechosetospeak。
`Sitdown,sir,'hesaid,atlength。`MrsLinton,recallingoldtimes,wouldhavemegiveyouacordialreception;and,ofcourse,Iamgratifiedwhenanythingoccurstopleaseher。'
`AndIalso,'answeredHeathcliff,`especiallyifitbeanythinginwhichIhaveapart。Ishallstayanhourortwowillingly。'
HetookaseatoppositeCatherine,whokepthergazefixedonhimasifshefearedhewouldvanishwereshetoremoveit。Hedidnotraisehistoheroften:aquickglancenowandthensufficed;butitflashedback,eachtimemoreconfidently,theundisguiseddelighthedrankfromhers。Theyweretoomuchabsorbedintheirmutualjoytosufferembarrassment。
NotsoMrEdgar:hegrewpalewithpureannoyance:afeelingthatreacheditsclimaxwhenhisladyrose,andsteppingacrosstherug,seizedHeathcliff'shandsagain,andlaughedlikeonebesideherself。
`Ishallthinkitadreamtomorrow!'shecried。`IshallnotbeabletobelievethatIhaveseen,andtouched,andspokentoyouoncemore。
Andyet,cruelHeathcliff!youdon'tdeservethiswelcome。Tobeabsentandsilentforthreeyears,andnevertothinkofme!'
`Alittlemorethanyouhavethoughtofme,'hemurmured。`Iheardofyourmarriage,Cathy,notlongsince;and,whilewaitingintheyardbelow,Imeditatedthisplan:——justtohaveoneglimpseofyourface,astareofsurprise,perhaps,andpretendedpleasure;afterwardssettlemyscorewithHindley;andthenpreventthelawbydoingexecutiononmyself。
Yourwelcomehasputtheseideasoutofmymind;butbewareofmeetingmewithanotheraspectnexttime!Nay,you'llnotdrivemeoffagain。Youwerereallysorryforme,wereyou?Well,therewascause。I'vefoughtthroughabitterlifesinceIlastheardyourvoice;andyoumustforgiveme,forIstruggledonlyforyou!'
`Catherine,unlesswearetohavecoldtea,pleasetocometothetable,'interruptedLinton,strivingtopreservehisordinarytone,andaduemeasureofpoliteness。`MrHeathcliffwillhavealongwalk,whereverhemaylodgetonight;andI'mthirsty。'
Shetookherpostbeforetheurn;andMissIsabellacame,summonedbythebell;then,havinghandedtheirchairsforward,Ilefttheroom。
Themealhardlyenduredtenminutes。Catherine'scupwasneverfilled:
shecouldneithereatnordrink。Edgarhadmadeaslopinhissaucer,andscarcelyswallowedamouthful。Theirguestdidnotprotracthisstaythateveningaboveanhourlonger。Iasked,ashedeparted,ifhewenttoGimmerton?
`No,toWutheringHeights,'heanswered:`MrEarnshawinvitedme,whenIcalledthismorning。'