I'llkillher,EllenDean,ifyoulethercomeintomysightagain!'
Haretontried,underhisbreath,topersuadehertogo。
`Dragheraway!'hecriedsavagely。`Areyoustayingtotalk?'
Andheapproachedtoexecutehisowncommand。
`He'llnotobeyyou,wickedman,anymore,'saidCatherine;`andhe'llsoondetestyouasmuchasIdo。'
"Wisht!wisht!'mutteredtheyoungmanreproachfully。`Iwillnothearyouspeaksotohim。Havedone。'
`Butyouwon'tlethimstrikeme?'shecried。`Come,then,'hewhisperedearnestly。Itwastoolate:Heathcliffhadcaughtholdofher。
`Nowyougo!'hesaidtoEarnshaw。`Accursedwitch!thistimeshehasprovokedmewhenIcouldnotbearit;andI'llmakeherrepentitforever!'
Hehadhishandinherhair;Haretonattemptedtoreleasethelocks,entreatinghimnottohurtherthatonce。Heathcliff'sblackeyesflashed;heseemedreadytotearCatherineinpieces,andIwasjustworkeduptoriskcomingtotherescue,whenofasuddenhisfingersrelaxed;
heshiftedhisgraspfromherheadtoherarm,andgazedintentlyinherface。Thenhedrewhishandoverhiseyes,stoodamomenttocollecthimselfapparently,andturninganewtoCatherine,saidwithassumedcalmness:
`Youmustlearntoavoidputtingmeinapassion,orIshallreallymurderyousometime!GowithMrsDean,andkeepwithher;andconfineyourinsolencetoherears。AstoHaretonEarnshaw,ifIseehimlistentoyou,I'llsendhimseekinghisbreadwherehecangetit!Yourlovewillmakehimanoutcastandabeggar。Nelly,takeher;andleavemeallofyou!Leaveme!'
Iledmyyoungladyout:shewastoogladofherescapetoresist;
theotherfollowed,andMrHeathcliffhadtheroomtohimselftilldinner。
IhadcounselledCatherinetogethersupstairs;but,assoonasheperceivedhervacantseat,hesentmetocallher。Hespoketononeofus,ateverylittle,andwentoutdirectlyafterwards,intimatingthatheshouldnotreturnbeforeevening。
Thetwonewfriendsestablishedthemselvesinthehouseduringhisabsence;whenIheardHaretonsternlycheckhiscousin,onherofferingarevelationofherfather-in-law'sconducttohisfather。Hesaidhewouldn'tsufferawordtobeutteredtohim,inhisdisparagement:ifhewerethedevil,itdidn'tsignify:hewouldstandbyhim;andhe'drathershewouldabusehimself,assheusedto,thanbeginonMrHeathcliff。Catherinewaswaxingcrossatthis;buthefoundmeanstomakeherholdhertongue,byaskinghowshewouldlikehimtospeakillofherfather?andthenshecomprehendedthatEarnshawtookthemaster'sreputationhometohimself;
andwasattachedbytiesstrongerthanreasoncouldbreak——chains,forgedbyhabit,whichitwouldbecrueltoattempttoloosen。Sheshowedagoodheart,thenceforth,inavoidingbothcomplaintsandexpressionsofantipathyconcerningHeathcliff;andconfessedtomehersorrowthatshehadendeavouredtoraiseabadspiritbetweenhimandHareton:indeed,Idon'tbelieveshehaseverbreathedasyllable,inthelatter'shearing,againstheroppressorsince。
`Whenthisslightdisagreementwasover,theywerethickagain,andasbusyaspossibleintheirseveraloccupationsofpupilandteacher。
Icameintositwiththem,afterIhaddonemywork;andIfeltsosoothedandcomfortedtowatchthem,thatIdidnotnoticehowtimegoton。Youknow,theybothappearedinameasuremychildren:Ihadlongbeenproudofone;andnow,Iwassure,theotherwouldbeasourceofequalsatisfaction。
Hishonest,warm,andintelligentnatureshookoffrapidlythecloudsofignoranceanddegradationinwhichithadbeenbred;andCatherine'ssincerecommendationsactedasaspurtohisindustry。Hisbrighteningmindbrightenedhisfeatures,andaddedspiritandnobilitytotheiraspect:IcouldhardlyfancyitthesameindividualIhadbeheldonthedayIdiscoveredmylittleladyat`WutheringHeights,afterherexpeditiontotheCrags。`WhileI
admiredandtheylaboured,duskgrewon,andwithitreturnedthemaster。
Hecameuponusquiteunexpectedly,enteringbythefrontway,andhadafullviewofthewholethree,erewecouldraiseourheadstoglanceathim。Well,Ireflected,therewasneverapleasanter,ormoreharmlesssight;anditwillbeaburningshametoscoldthem。Theredfirelightglowedontheirtwobonnyheads,andrevealedtheirfacesanimatedwiththeeagerinterestofchildren;for,——thoughhewastwenty-threeandsheeighteen,eachhadsomuchofnoveltytofeelandlearn,thatneitherexperiencednorevincedthesentimentsofsoberdisenchantedmaturity。
Theyliftedtheireyestogether,toencounterMrHeathcliff:perhapsyouhaveneverremarkedthattheireyesarepreciselysimilar,andtheyarethoseofCatherineEarnshaw。ThepresentCatherinehasnootherlikenesstoher,exceptabreadthofforehead,andacertainarchofthenostrilthatmakesherappearratherhaughty,whethershewillornot。`WithHaretontheresemblanceiscarriedfurther:itissingularatalltimes,thenitwasparticularlystriking;becausehissenseswerealert,andhismentalfacultieswakenedtounwontedactivity。IsupposethisresemblancedisarmedMrHeathcliff:hewalkedtothehearthinevidentagitation;butitquicklysubsidedashelookedattheyoungman:or,Ishouldsay,altereditscharacter;
foritwasthereyet。Hetookthebookfromhishand,andglancedattheopenpage,thenreturneditwithoutanyobservation;merelysigningCatherineaway:hercompanionlingeredverylittlebehindher,andIwasabouttodepartalso,buthebidmesitstill。
`Itisapoorconclusion,isitnot?'heobserved,havingbroodedawhileonthescenehehadjustwitnessed:`anabsurdterminationtomyviolentexertions?Igetleversandmattockstodemolishthetwohouses,andtrainmyselftobecapableofworkinglikeHercules,andwheneverythingisreadyandinmypower,Ifindthewilltoliftaslateoffeitherroofhasvanished!Myoldenemieshavenotbeatenme;nowwouldbetheprecisetimetorevengemyselfontheirrepresentatives:Icoulddoit;andnonecouldhinderme。Butwhereistheuse?Idon'tcareforstriking;Ican'ttakethetroubletoraisemyhand!ThatsoundsasifIhadbeenlabouringthewholetimeonlytoexhibitafinetraitofmagnanimity。Itisfarfrombeingthecase:Ihavelostthefacultyofenjoyingtheirdestruction,andIamtooidletodestroyfornothing。
`Nelly,thereisastrangechangeapproaching:I'minitsshadowatpresent。Itakesolittleinterestinmydailylife,thatIhardlyremembertoeatanddrink。Thosetwowhohavelefttheroomaretheonlyobjectswhichretainadistinctmaterialappearancetome;andthatappearancecausesmepain,amountingtoagony。AboutherIwon'tspeak;andIdon'tdesiretothink;butIearnestlywishshewereinvisible:herpresenceinvokesonlymaddeningsensations。Hemovesmedifferently:andyetifIcoulddoitwithoutseeminginsane,I'dneverseehimagain。You'llperhapsthinkmeratherinclinedtobecomeso,'headded,makinganefforttosmile,`ifItrytodescribethethousandformsofpastassociationsandideasheawakensorembodies。Butyou'llnottalkofwhatItellyou;andmymindissoeternallysecludedinitself,itistemptingatlasttoturnitouttoanother。
`Fiveminutesago,Haretonseemedapersonificationofmyyouth,notahumanbeing:Ifelttohiminsuchavarietyofways,thatitwouldhavebeenimpossibletohaveaccostedhimrationally。Inthefirstplace,hisstartlinglikenesstoCatherineconnectedhimfearfullywithher。That,however,whichyoumaysupposethemostpotenttoarrestmyimagination,isactuallytheleast:forwhatisnotconnectedwithhertome?andwhatdoesnotrecallher?Icannotlookdowntothisfloor,butherfeaturesareshapedintheflags!Ineverycloud,ineverytree——fillingtheairatnight,andcaughtbyglimpsesineveryobjectbyday——Iamsurroundedwithherimage!Themostordinaryfacesofmenandwomen——myownfeatures——mockmewitharesemblance。Theentireworldisadreadfulcollectionofmemorandathatshedidexist,andthatIhavelosther!Well,Hareton'saspectwastheghostofmyimmortallove;ofmywildendeavourstoholdmyright;
mydegradation,mypride,myhappiness,andmyanguish:
`Butitisfrenzytorepeatthesethoughtstoyou:onlyitwillletyouknowwhy,withareluctancetobealwaysalone,hissocietyisnobenefit;ratheranaggravationoftheconstanttormentIsuffer;anditpartlycontributestorendermeregardlesshowheandhiscousingoontogether。Icangivethemnoattention,anymore。
`Butwhatdoyoumeanbyachange,MrHeathcliff?'Isaid,alarmedathismanner:thoughhewasneitherindangeroflosinghissenses,nordying,accordingtomyjudgment;hewasquitestrongandhealthy:and,astohisreason,fromchildhoodhehadadelightindwellingondarkthings,andentertainingoddfancies。Hemighthavehadamonomaniaonthesubjectofhisdepartedidol;butoneveryotherpointhiswitswereassoundasmine。
`Ishallnotknowthattillitcomes,'hesaid,`I'monlyhalfconsciousofitnow。
`Youhavenofeelingsofillness,haveyou?'Iasked。
`No,Nelly,Ihavenot,'heanswered。
`Thenyouarenotafraidofdeath?'Ipursued。
`Afraid?No!'hereplied。`Ihaveneitherafear,norapresentiment,norahopeofdeath。WhyshouldI?`Withmyhardconstitutionandtemperatemodeofliving,andunperilousoccupations,Ioughtto,andprobablyshall,remainabovegroundtillthereisscarcelyablackhaironmyhead。AndyetIcannotcontinueinthiscondition!Ihavetoremindmyselftobreathe——almosttoremindmyhearttobeat!Anditislikebendingbackastiffspring;
itisbycompulsionthatIdotheslightestactnotpromptedbyonethought;
andbycompulsionthatInoticeanythingaliveordead,whichisnotassociatedwithoneuniversalidea。Ihaveasinglewish,andmywholebeingandfacultiesareyearningtoattainIt。Theyhaveyearnedtowardsitsolong,andsounwaveringly,thatI'mconvinceditwillbereached——andsoon——becauseithasdevouredmyexistence:Iamswallowedupintheanticipationofitsfulfilment。Myconfessionshavenotrelievedme;buttheymayaccountforsomeotherwiseunaccountablephasesofhumourwhichIshow。OGod!
Itisalongfight,Iwishitwereover!'
Hebegantopacetheroom,mutteringterriblethingstohimself,tillIwasinclinedtobelieve,ashesaidJosephdid,thatconsciencehadturnedhishearttoanearthlyhell。Iwonderedgreatlyhowitwouldend。Thoughheseldombeforehadrevealedthisstateofmind,evenbylooks,itwashishabitualmood,Ihadnodoubt:heassertedithimself;butnotasoul,fromhisgeneralbearing,wouldhaveconjecturedthefact。Youdidnotwhenyousawhim,MrLockwood:andattheperiodofwhichIspeakhewasjustthesameasthen;onlyfonderofcontinuedsolitude,andperhapsstillmorelaconicincompany。
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yethewouldnotconsentformallytoexcludeHaretonandCathy。Hehadanaversiontoyieldingsocompletelytohisfeelings,choosingrathertoabsenthimself;andeatingonceintwenty-fourhoursseemedsufficientsustenanceforhim。
Onenight,afterthefamilywereinbed,Iheardhimgodownstairs,andoutatthefrontdoor。Ididnothearhimre-enter,andinthemorningIfoundhewasstillaway。WewereinAprilthen:theweatherwassweetandwarm,thegrassasgreenasshowersandsuncouldmakeit,andthetwodwarfappletreesnearthesouthernwallinfullbloom。Afterbreakfast,Catherineinsistedonmybringingachairandsittingwithmyworkunderthefirtreesattheendofthehouse;andshebeguiledHareton,whohadperfectlyrecoveredfromhisaccident,todigandarrangeherlittlegarden,whichwasshiftedtothatcornerbytheinfluenceofJoseph'scomplaints。
Iwascomfortablyrevellinginthespringfragrancearound,andthebeautifulsoftblueoverhead,whenmyyounglady,whohadrundownnearthegatetoprocuresomeprimroserootsforaborder,returnedonlyhalfladen,andinformedusthatMrHeathcliffwascomingin。`Andhespoketome,'
sheadded,withaperplexedcountenance。
"Whatdidhesay?'askedHareton。
`HetoldmetobegoneasfastasIcould,'sheanswered。`ButhelookedsodifferentfromhisusuallookthatIstoppedamomenttostareathim。'
`How?'heinquired。
`Why,almostbrightandcheerful。No,almostnothing——verymuchexcited,andwildandglad!'shereplied。
`Nightwalkingamuseshim,then,'Iremarked,affectingacarelessmanner:inrealityassurprisedasshewas,andanxioustoascertainthetruthofherstatement;fortoseethemasterlookinggladwouldnotbeaneverydayspectacle。Iframedanexcusetogoin。Heathcliffstoodattheopendoor,hewaspale,andhetrembled:yet,certainly,hehadastrange,joyfulglitterinhiseyes,thatalteredtheaspectofhiswholeface。
`Willyouhavesomebreakfast?'Isaid。`Youmustbehungry,ramblingaboutallnight!'Iwantedtodiscoverwherehehadbeen,butIdidnotliketoaskdirectly。
`No,I'mnothungry,'heanswered,avertinghishead,andspeakingrathercontemptuously,asifheguessedIwastryingtodivinetheoccasionofhisgoodhumour。
Ifeltperplexed:Ididn'tknowwhetheritwerenotaproperopportunitytoofferabitofadmonition。
`Idon'tthinkitrighttowanderoutofdoors,'Iobserved,`insteadofbeinginbed:itisnotwise,atanyrate,thismoistseason。Idaresayyou'llcatchabadcold,orafever:youhavesomethingthematterwithyounow!'
`NothingbutwhatIcanbear,'hereplied;`andwiththegreatestpleasure,providedyou'llleavemealone;getin,anddon'tannoyme。'
Iobeyed:and,inpassing,Inoticedhebreathedasfastasacat。
`Yes!'Ireflectedtomyself,`weshallhaveafitofillness。
Icannotconceivewhathehasbeendoing。'
Thatnoonhesatdowntodinnerwithus,andreceivedaheaped-upplatefrommyhands,asifheintendedtomakeamendsforpreviousfasting。
`I'veneithercoldnorfever,Nelly,'heremarked,inallusiontomymorning'sspeech;`andI'mreadytodojusticetothefoodyougiveme。
Hetookhisknifeandfork,andwasgoingtocommenceeating,whentheinclinationappearedtobecomesuddenlyextinct。Helaidthemonthetable,lookedeagerlytowardsthewindow,thenroseandwentout。
`Wesawhimwalkingtoandfrointhegardenwhileweconcludedourmeal,andEarnshawsaidhe'dgoandaskwhyhewouldnotdine:hethoughtwehadgrievedhimsomeway。
`Well,ishecoming?'criedCatherine,whenhercousinreturned。
`Nay,'heanswered;`buthe'snotangry:heseemedrareandpleasedindeed;onlyImadehimimpatientbyspeakingtohimtwice;andthenhebidmebeofftoyou:hewonderedhowIcouldwantthecompanyofanybodyelse。'
Isethisplatetokeepwarmonthefender;andafteranhourortwohere-entered,whentheroomwasclear,innodegreecalmer:thesameunnatural——itwasunnatural——appearanceofjoyunderhisblackbrows;
thesamebloodlesshue,andhisteethvisible,nowandthen,inakindofsmile;hisframeshivering,notasoneshiverswithchillorweakness,butasatight-stretchedcordvibrates——astrongthrilling,ratherthantrembling。
Iwillaskwhatisthematter,Ithought;orwhoshould?AndI
exclaimed:
`Haveyouheardanygoodnews,MrHeathcliff?Youlookuncommonlyanimated。'
`Whereshouldgoodnewscomefromtome?'hesaid。`I'manimatedwithhunger;and,seemingly,Imustnoteat。'
`Yourdinnerishere,'Ireturned;`whywon'tyougetit?'
`Idon'twantitnow;'hemutteredhastily;`I'llwaittillsupper。
And,Nelly,onceforall,letmebegyoutowarnHaretonandtheotherawayfromme。Iwishtobetroubledbynobody:Iwishtohavethisplacetomyself。'
`Istheresomenewreasonforthisbanishment?'Iinquired。`Tellmewhyyouaresoqueer,MrHeathcliff?`Wherewereyoulastnight?I'mnotputtingthequestionthroughidlecuriosity,but——'
`Youareputtingthequestionthroughveryidlecuriosity,'heinterrupted,withalaugh。`YetI'llanswerit。LastnightIwasonthethresholdofhell。Today,Iamwithinsightofmyheaven。Ihavemyeyesonit:hardlythreefeettoseverme!Andnowyou'dbettergo!You'llneitherseenorhearanythingtofrightenyou,ifyourefrainfromprying。'
Havingsweptthehearthandwipedthetable,Ideparted;moreperplexedthanever。
Hedidnotquitthehouseagainthatafternoon,andnooneintrudedonhissolitude;till,ateighto'clock,Ideemeditproper,thoughunsummoned,tocarryacandleandhissuppertohim。Hewasleaningagainsttheledgeofanopenlattice,butnotlookingout:hisfacewasturnedtotheinteriorgloom。Thefirehadsmoulderedtoashes;theroomwasfilledwiththedamp,mildairofthecloudyevening;andsostill,thatnotonlythemurmurofthebeckdownGimmertonwasdistinguishable,butitsripplesanditsgurglingoverthepebbles,orthroughthelargestoneswhichitcouldnotcover。Iutteredanejaculationofdiscontentatseeingthedismalgrate,andcommencedshuttingthecasements,oneafteranother,tillIcametohis。
`MustIclosethis?'Iasked,inordertorousehim;forhewouldnotstir。
ThelightflashedonhisfeaturesasIspoke。Oh,MrLockwood,IcannotexpresswhataterriblestartIgotbythemomentaryview!Thosedeepblackeyes!Thatsmile,andghastlypaleness!Itappearedtome,notMrHeathcliff,butagoblin;and,inmyterror,Iletthecandlebendtowardsthewall,anditleftmeindarkness。
`Yes,closeit,'hereplied,inhisfamiliarvoice。`There,thatispureawkwardness!Whydidyouholdthecandlehorizontally?Bequick,andbringanother。'
Ihurriedoutinafoolishstateofdread,andsaidtoJoseph:
`Themasterwishesyoutotakehimalightandrekindlethefire。'
ForIdarenotgoinmyselfagainjustthen。
Josephrattledsomefireintotheshovel,andwent;buthebroughtitbackimmediately,withthesuppertrayinhisotherhand,explainingthatMrHeathcliffwasgoingtobed,andhewantednothingtoeattillmorning。Weheardhimmountthestairsdirectly;hedidnotproceedtohisordinarychamber,butturnedintothatwiththepanelledbed:itswindow,asImentionedbefore,iswideenoughforanybodytogetthrough;anditstruckmethatheplottedanothermidnightexcursion,ofwhichhehadratherwehadnosuspicion。
`Isheaghouloravampire?'Imused。Ihadreadofsuchhideousincarnatedemons。AndthenIsetmyselftoreflecthowIhadtendedhimininfancy,andwatchedhimgrowtoyouth,andfollowedhimalmostthroughhiswholecourse;andwhatabsurdnonsenseitwastoyieldtothatsenseofhorror。`Butwheredidhecomefrom,thelittledarkthing,harbouredbyagoodmantohisbane?'mutteredSuperstition,asIdozedintounconsciousness。
AndIbegan,halfdreaming,towearymyselfwithimaginingsomefitparentageforhim;and,repeatingmywakingmeditations,Itrackedhisexistenceoveragain,withgrimvariations;atlast,picturinghisdeathandfuneral:
ofwhich,allIcanrememberis,beingexceedinglyvexedathavingthetaskofdictatinganinscriptionforhismonument,andconsultingthesextonaboutit;and,ashehadnosurname,andwecouldnot`tellhisage,wewereobligedtocontentourselveswiththesingleword,`Heathcliff'。Thatcametrue:wewere。Ifyouenterthekirkyard,you'llreadonhisheadstone,onlythat,andthedateofhisdeath。
Dawnrestoredmetocommonsense。Irose,andwentintothegarden,assoonasIcouldsee,toascertainiftherewereanyfootmarksunderhiswindow。Therewerenone。`Hehasstayedathome~ought,`andhe'llbeallrighttoday。'Ipreparedbreakfastforthehousehold,aswasmyusualcustom,buttoldHaretonandCatherinetogettheirserethemastercamedown,forhelaylate。Theypreferredtakingitoutofdoors,underthetrees,andIsetalittletabletoaccommodatethem。
Onmyre-entrance,IfoundMrHeathcliffbelow。HeandJosephwereconversingaboutsomefarmingbusiness;hegaveclear,minutedirectionsconcerningthematterdiscussed,buthespokerapidly,andturnedhisheadcontinuallyaside,andhadthesameexcitedexpression,evenmoreexaggerated。
`WhenJosephquittedtheroomhetookhisseatintheplacehegenerallychose,andIputabasinofcoffeebeforehim。Hedrewitnearer,andthenrestedhisarmsonthetable,andlookedattheoppositewall,asIsupposed,surveyingoneparticularportion,upanddown,withglittering,restlesseyes,andwithsucheagerinterestthathestoppedbreathingduringhalfaminutetogether。
`Comenow,Iexclaimed,pushingsomebreadagainsthishand,`eatanddrinkthat,whileitishot:ithasbeenwaitingnearanhour。'
Hedidn'tnoticeme,andyethesmiled。I'dratherhaveseenhimgnashhisteeththansmileso。
`MrHeathcliff!master!'Icried,`don't,forGod'ssake,stareasifyousawanunearthlyvision。'
`Don't,forGod'ssake,shoutsoloud,'hereplied。`Turnround,andtellme,arewebyourselves?'
`Ofcourse,'wasmyanswer;`ofcourseweare。'
StillIinvoluntarilyobeyedhim,asifIwerenotquitesure。
`Withasweepofhishandheclearedavacantspaceinfrontamongthebreakfastthings,andleantforwardtogazemoreathisease。
Now,Iperceivedhewasnotlookingatthewall;forwhenIregardedhimalone,itseemedexactlythathegazedatsomethingwithintwoyards'
distance。Andwhateveritwas,itcommunicated,apparently,bothpleasureandpaininexquisiteextremes:atleasttheanguished,yetraptured,expressionofhiscountenancesuggestedthatidea。Thefanciedobjectwasnotfixed:
eitherhiseyespursueditwithunwearieddiligence,and,eveninspeakingtome,wereneverweanedaway。Ivainlyremindedhimofhisprotractedabstinencefromfood:ifhestirredtotouchanythingincompliancewithmyentreaties,ifhestretchedhishandouttogetapieceofbread,hisfingersclenchedbeforetheyreachedit,andremainedonthetable,forgetfuloftheiraim。
Isat,amodelofpatience,tryingtoattracthisabsorbedattentionfromitsengrossingspeculation;tillhegrewirritable,andgot——up,askingwhyIwouldnotallowhimtohavehisowntimeintakinghismeals?andsayingthatonthenextoccasion,Ineedn'twait:Imightsetthethingsdownandgo。Havingutteredthesewordsheleftthehouse,slowlysauntereddownthegardenpath,anddisappearedthroughthegate。
Thehourscreptanxiouslyby:anothereveningcame。Ididnotretiretoresttilllate,andwhenIdid,Icouldnotsleep。Hereturnedaftermidnight,and,insteadofgoingtobed,shuthimselfintotheroombeneath。Ilistened,andtossedabout,and,finally,dressedanddescended。
Itwastooirksometolieupthere,harassingmybrainwithahundredidlemisgivings。
IdistinguishedMrHeathcliff'sstep,restlesslymeasuringthefloor,andhefrequentlybrokethesilencebyadeepinspiration,resemblingagroan。Hemuttereddetachedwordsalso;theonlyoneIcouldcatchwasthenameofCatherine,coupledwithsomewildtermofendearmentorsuffering;
andspokenasonewouldspeaktoapersonpresent:lowandearnest,andwrungfromthedepthofhissoul。Ihadnotcouragetowalkstraightintotheapartment;butIdesiredtodiverthimfromhisreverie,andthereforefellfoulofthekitchenfire,stirredit,andbegantoscrapethecinders。
ItdrewhimforthsoonerthanIexpected。Heopenedthedoorimmediately,andsaid:
`Nelly,comehere——isitmorning?Comeinwithyourlight。'
`Itisstrikingfour,'Ianswered。`Youwantacandletotakeupstairs:youmighthavelitoneatthisfire。'
`No,Idon'twishtogoupstairs,'hesaid。`Comein,andkindlemeafire,anddoanythingthereistodoabouttheroom。'
`Imustblowthecoalsredfirst,beforeIcancarryany,'Ireplied,gettingachairandthebellows。
Heroamedtoandfro,meantime,inastateapproachingdistraction;
hisheavysighssucceedingeachothersothickastoleavenospaceforcommonbreathingbetween。
"WhendaybreaksI'llsendforGreen,'hesaid;`IwishtomakesomelegalinquiriesofhimwhileIcanbestowathoughtonthosematters,andwhileIcanactcalmly。Ihavenotwrittenmywillyet;andhowtoleavemypropertyIcannotdetermine。IwishIcouldannihilateitfromthefaceoftheearth。'
`Iwouldnottalkso,MrHeathcliff,'Iinterposed。`Letyourwillbeawhile:you'llbesparedtorepentofyourmanyinjusticesyet。
Ineverexpectedthatyournerveswouldbedisordered:theyare,atpresent,marvellouslyso,however;andalmostentirelythroughyourownfault。Thewayyou'vepassedthesethreelastdaysmightknockupaTitan。Dotakesomefood,andsomerepose。Youneedonlylookatyourselfinaglasstoseehowyourequireboth。Yourcheeksarehollow,andyoureyesbloodshot,likeapersonstarvingwithhungerandgoingblindwithlossofsleep。'
`ItisnotmyfaultthatIcannoteatorrest,'hereplied。`I
assureyouitisthroughnosettleddesigns。I'lldobothassoonasI
possiblycan。Butyoumightaswellbidamanstrugglinginthewaterrestwithinarm'slengthoftheshore!Imustreachitfirst,andthenI'llrest。Well,nevermindMrGreen:astorepentingofmyinjustices,I'vedonenoinjustice,andIrepentofnothing。I'mtoohappy;andyetI'mnothappyenough。Mysoul'sblisskillsmybody,butdoesnotsatisfyitself。'
`Happy,master?'Icried。`Strangehappiness!Ifyouwouldhearmewithoutbeingangry,Imightoffersomeadvicethatwouldmakeyouhappier。
"Whatisthat?'heasked。`Giveit。'
`Youareaware,MrHeathcliff,'Isaid,`thatfromthetimeyouwerethirteenyearsold,youhavelivedaselfish,unchristianlife;andprobablyhardlyhadaBibleinyourhandsduringallthatperiod。Youmusthaveforgottenthecontentsofthebook,andyoumaynothavespacetosearchitnow。Coulditbehurtfultosendforsomeone——someministerofanydenomination,itdoesnotmatterwhich——toexplainit,andshowyouhowveryfaryouhaveerredfromitsprecepts;andhowunfityouwillbeforitsheaven,unlessachangetakesplace`beforeyoudie?'
`I'mratherobligedthanangry,Nelly,'hesaid,`foryouremindmeofthemannerthatIdesiretobeburiedin。Itistobecarriedtothechurchyardintheevening。YouandHaretonmay,ifyouplease,accompanyme:andmind,particularly,tonoticethatthesextonobeysmydirectionsconcerningthetwocoffins!Noministerneedcome;norneedanythingbesaidoverme——ItellyouIhavenearlyattainedmyheaven;andthatofothersisaltogetherunvaluedanduncoveredbyme。
`Andsupposingyouperseveredinyourobstinatefast,anddiedbythatmeans,andtheyrefusedtoburyyouintheprecinctsofthekirk?'
Isaid,shockedathisgodlessindifference。`Howwouldyoulikeit?'
`Theywon'tdothat,'hereplied:`iftheydid,youmusthavemeremovedsecretly:andifyouneglectityoushallprove,practically,thatthedeadarenotannihilated!'
Assoonasheheardtheothermembersofthefamilystirringheretiredtohisden,andIbreathedfreer。Butintheafternoon,whileJosephandHaretonwereattheirwork,hecameintothekitchenagain,and,withawildlook,bidmecomeandsitinthehouse:hewantedsomebodywithhim。Ideclined:tellinghimplainlythathisstrangetalkandmannerfrightenedme,andIhadneitherthenervenorthewilltobehiscompanionalone。
`Ibelieveyouthinkmeafiend,'hesaid,withhisdismallaugh:
somethingtoohorribletoliveunderadecentroof。'ThenturningtoCatherine,whowasthere,andwhodrewbehindmeathisapproach,headded,halfsneeringly——`Willyoucome,chuck?I'llnothurtyou。No!toyouI'vemademyselfworsethanthedevil。Well,thereisonewhowon'tshrinkfrommycompany!ByGod!she'srelentless。Oh,damnit!It'sunutterablytoomuchforfleshandbloodtobear——evenmine。'
Hesolicitedthesocietyofnoonemore。Atdusk,hewentintohischamber。Throughthewholenight,andfarintothemorning,weheardhimgroaningandmurmuringtohimself。Haretonwasanxioustoenter;butIbadehimfetchMrKenneth,andheshouldgoinandseehim。Whenhecame,andIrequestedadmittanceandtriedtoopenthedoor,Ifounditlocked;
andHeathcliffbidusbedamned。Hewasbetter,andwouldbeleftalone;
sothedoctorwentaway。
Thefollowingeveningwasverywet:indeeditpoureddowntillday-dawn;and,asItookmymorningwalkroundthehouse,Iobservedthemaster'swindowswingingopen,andtheraindrivingstraightin。Hecannotbeinbed,Ithought:thoseshowerswoulddrenchhimthrough。Hemusteitherbeuporout。ButI'llmakenomoreado,I'llgoboldlyandlook。
Havingsucceededinobtainingentrancewithanotherkey,Irantounclosethepanels,forthechamberwasvacant;quicklypushingthemaside,Ipeepedin。MrHeathcliffwasthere——laidonhisback。Hiseyesmetminesokeenandfierce,Istarted;andthenheseemedtosmile。I
couldnotthinkhimdead:buthisfaceandthroatwerewashedwithrain;
thebedclothesdripped,andhewas~perfectlystill。Thelattice,flappingtoandfro,hadgrazedonehandthatrestedonthesill;nobloodtrickledfromthebrokenskin,andwhenIputmyfingerstoit,Icoulddoubtnomore:hewasdeadandstark!
Ihaspedthewindow;Icombedhisblacklonghairfromhisforehead;
Itriedtoclosehiseyes:toextinguish,ifpossible,thatfrightful,lifelikegazeofexultationbeforeanyoneelsebeheldit。Theywouldnotshut:theyseemedtosneeratmyattempts:andhispartedlipsandsharpwhiteteethsneeredtoo!Takenwithanotherfitofcowardice,IcriedoutforJoseph。Josephshuffledupandmadeanoise;butresolutelyrefusedtomeddlewithhim。
`Th'divil'sharriedoffhissoul,'hecried,`andhemuhhevhiscarcassintuht'bargain,forow'tAwcare!Ech!whatawickedunhelooksgirningatdeath!'andtheoldsinnergrinnedinmockery。Ithoughtheintendedtocutacaperroundthebed;but,suddenlycomposinghimself,hefellonhisknees,andraisedhishands,andreturnedthanksthatthelawfulmasterandtheancientstockwererestoredtotheirrights。
Ifeltstunnedbytheawfulevent;andmymemoryunavoidablyrecurredtoformertimeswithasortofoppressivesadness。ButpoorHareton,themostwronged,wastheonlyonethatreallysufferedmuch。Hesatbythecorpseallnight,weepinginbitterearnest。Hepresseditshand,andkissedthesarcasticsavagefacethateveryoneelseshrankfromcontemplating;
andbemoanedhimwiththatstronggriefwhichspringsnaturallyfromagenerousheart,thoughitbetoughastemperedsteel。
MrKennethwasperplexedtopronounceofwhatdisorderthemasterdied。Iconcealedthefactofhishavingswallowednothingforfourdays,fearingitmightleadtotrouble,andthen,Iampersuaded,hedidnotabstainonpurpose:itwastheconsequenceofhisstrangeillness,notthecause。
`Weburiedhim,tothescandalofthewholeneighbourhood,ashewished。EarnshawandI,thesexton,andsixmentocarrythecoffin,comprehendedthewholeattendance。Thesixmendepartedwhentheyhadletitdownintothegrave:westayedtoseeitcovered。Hareton,withastreamingface,duggreensods,andlaidthemoverthebrownmouldhimself:atpresentitisassmoothandverdantasitscompanionmounds——andIhopeitstenantsleepsassoundly。Butthecountryfolk,ifyouaskthem,wouldswearontheBiblethathewalks:therearethosewhospeaktohavingmethimnearthechurch,andonthemoor,andeveninthishouse。Idletales,you'llsay,andsosayI。Yetthatoldmanbythekitchenfireaffirmshehasseentwoon`em,lookingoutofhischamberwindow,oneveryrainynightsincehisdeath:andanoddthinghappenedtomeaboutamonthago。
IwasgoingtotheGrangeoneevening——adarkevening,threateningthunder——and,justattheturnoftheHeights,Iencounteredalittleboywithasheepandtwolambsbeforehim;hewascryingterribly;andIsupposedthelambswereskittish,andwouldnotbeguided。
"What'sthematter,mylittleman?'Iasked。
`There'sHeathcliffandawoman,yonder,undert'nab,'heblubbered,`un'Idarnutpass`em。'
Isawnothing;butneitherthesheepnorhewouldgoon;soI
bidhimtaketheroadlowerdown。Heprobablyraisedthephantomsfromthinking,ashetraversedthemoorsalone,onthenonsensehehadheardhisparentsandcompanionsrepeat。Yet,still,Idon'tlikebeingoutinthedarknow;andIdon'tlikebeingleftbymyselfinthisgrimhouse:
Icannothelpit;Ishallbegladwhentheyleaveit,andshifttotheGrange。
`TheyaregoingtotheGrange,then,'Isaid。
`Yes,'answeredMrsDean,`issoonastheyaremarried,andthatwillbeonNewYear'sDay。'
`Andwhowilllivehere,then?'
`Why,Josephwilltakecareofthehouse,and,perhaps,aladtokeephimcompany。Theywillliveinthekitchen,andtherestwillbeshutup。'
`Fortheuseofsuchghostsaschoosetoinhabitit,'Iobserved。
`No,MrLockwood,'saidNelly,shakingherhead。`Ibelievethedeadareatpeace:butitisnotrighttospeakofthemwithlevity。'
Atthatmomentthegardengateswungto;theramblerswerereturning。
`Theyareafraidofnothing,'Igrumbled,watchingtheirapproachthroughthewindow。`TogethertheywouldbraveSatanandallhislegions。'
Astheysteppedontothedoorstones,andhaltedtotakealastlookatthemoon——or,morecorrectly,ateachotherbyherlight——Ifeltirresistiblyimpelledtoescapethemagain;and,pressingaremembranceintothehandofMrsDean,anddisregardingherexpostulationsatmyrudeness,Ivanishedthroughthekitchenastheyopenedthehouse-door;andsoshouldhaveconfirmedJosephinhisopinionofhisfellow-servant'sgayindiscretions,hadhenotfortunatelyrecognizedmeforarespectablecharacterbythesweetringofasovereignathisfeet。
Mywalkhomewaslengthenedbyadiversioninthedirectionofthekirk。`Whenbeneathitswalls,Iperceiveddecayhadmadeprogress,eveninsevenmonths:manyawindowshowedblackgapsdeprivedofglass;
andslatesjuttedoff,hereandthere,beyondtherightlineoftheroof,tobegraduallyworkedoffincomingautumnstorms。
Isought,andsoondiscovered,thethreeheadstonesontheslopenextthemoor:themiddleonegrey,andhalfburiedinheath:EdgarLinton'sonlyharmonizedbytheturfandmosscreepingupitsfoot:Heathcliff'sstillbare。
Ilingeredroundthem,underthatbenignsky;watchedthemothsflutteringamongtheheathandharebells,listenedtothesoftwindbreathingthroughthegrass,andwonderedhowanyonecouldeverimagineunquietslumbersforthesleepersinthatquietearth。