ConfidentasIamthatyouwillnottriflewiththisappeal,myheartsinksandmyhandtremblesatthebarethoughtofsuchapossibility。Thinkofmeatthishour,inastrangeplace,labouringunderablacknessofdistressthatnofancycanexaggerate,andyetwellawarethat,ifyouwillbutpunctuallyserveme,mytroubleswillrollawaylikeastorythatistold。Serveme,mydearCanyon,andsaveYourfriend,H。J。
PS-Ihadalreadysealedthisupwhenafreshterrorstruckuponmysoul。Itispossiblethatthepostofficemayfailme,andthisletternotcomeintoyourhandsuntilto-morrowmorning。Inthatcase,dearCanyon,domyerrandwhenitshallbemostconvenientforyouinthecourseoftheday;andoncemoreexpectmymessengeratmidnight。Itmaythenalreadybetoolate;andifthatnightpasseswithoutevent,youwillknowthatyouhaveseenthelastofHenryJekyll。Uponthereadingofthisletter,Imadesuremycolleaguewasinsane;buttillthatwasprovedbeyondthepossibilityofdoubt,Ifeltboundtodoasherequested。ThelessIunderstoodofthisfarrago,thelessIwasinapositiontojudgeofitsimportance;andanappealsowordedcouldnotbesetasidewithoutagraveresponsibility。Iroseaccordinglyfromtable,gotintoahansom,anddrovestraighttoJekyll'shouse。Thebutlerwasawaitingmyarrival;hehadreceivedbythesamepostasminearegisteredletterofinstruction,andhadsentatonceforalocksmithandacarpenter。
Thetradesmencamewhilewewereyetspeaking;andwemovedinabodytooldDrDenman'ssurgicaltheatre,fromwhich(asyouaredoubtlessaware)
Jekyll'sprivatecabinetismostconvenientlyentered。Thedoorwasverystrong,thelockexcellent;thecarpenteravowedhewouldhavegreattrouble,andhavetodomuchdamage,ifforceweretobeused;andthelocksmithwasneardespair。Butthislastwasahandyfellow,andaftertwohours'
work,thedoorstoodopen。ThepressmarkedEwasunlocked;andItookoutthedrawer,haditfilledupwithstrawandtiedinasheet,andreturnedwithittoCavendishSquare。
HereIproceededtoexamineitscontents。Thepowderswereneatlyenoughmadeup,butnotwiththenicetyofthedispensingchemist;sothatitwasplaintheywereofJekyll'sprivatemanufacture;andwhenIopenedoneofthewrappers,Ifoundwhatseemedtomeasimplecrystallinesaltofawhitecolour。Thephial,towhichInextturnedmyattention,mighthavebeenabouthalf-fullofablood-redliquor,whichwashighlypungenttothesenseofsmell,andseemedtometocontainphosphorusandsomevolatileether。AttheotheringredientsIcouldmakenoguess。Thebookwasanordinaryversionbook,andcontainedlittlebutaseriesofdates。
Thesecoveredaperiodofmanyyears,butIobservedthattheentriesceasednearlyayearagoandquiteabruptly。Hereandthereabriefremarkwasappendedtoadate,usuallynomorethanasingleword:`double'occurringperhapssixtimesinatotalofseveralhundredentries;andonceveryearlyinthelistandfollowedbyseveralmarksofexclamation,`totalfailure!!!'Allthis,thoughitwhettedmycuriosity,toldmelittlethatwasdefinite。Herewereaphialofsometincture,apaperofsomesalt,andtherecordofaseriesofexperimentsthathadled(liketoomanyofJekyll'sinvestigations)tonoendofpracticalusefulness。Howcouldthepresenceofthesearticlesinmyhouseaffecteitherthehonour,thesanity,orthelifeofmyflightycolleague?Ifhismessengercouldgotooneplace,whycouldhenotgotoanother?Andevengrantingsomeimpediment,whywasthisgentlemantobereceivedbymeinsecret?ThemoreIreflected,themoreconvincedIgrewthatIwasdealingwithacaseofcerebraldisease;
andthoughIdismissedmyservantstobed,Iloadedanoldrevolver,thatImightbefoundinsomepostureofself-defence。
Twelveo'clockhadscarcerungoutoverLondon,eretheknockersoundedverygentlyonthedoor。Iwentmyselfatthesummons,andfoundasmallmancrouchingagainstthepillarsoftheportico。
`AreyoucomefromDrJekyll?'Iasked。
Hetoldme`yes'byaconstrainedgesture;andwhenIhadbiddenhimenter,hedidnotobeymewithoutasearchingbackwardglanceintothedarknessofthesquare。Therewasapolicemannotfaroff,advancingwithhisbull'seyeopen;andatthesight,Ithoughtmyvisitorstartedandmadegreaterhaste。
Theseparticularsstruckme,Iconfess,disagreeably;andasIfollowedhimintothebrightlightoftheconsulting-room,Ikeptmyhandreadyonmyweapon。Here,atlast,Ihadachanceofclearlyseeinghim。Ihadneverseteyesonhimbefore,somuchwascertain。Hewassmall,asIhavesaid;Iwasstruckbesideswiththeshockingexpressionofhisface,withhisremarkablecombinationofgreatmuscularactivityandgreatapparentdebilityofconstitution,and-lastbutnotleast-withtheodd,subjectivedisturbancecausedbyhisneighbourhood。Thisboresomeresemblancetoincipientrigor,andwasaccompaniedbyamarkedsinkingofthepulse。
Atthetime,Isetitdowntosomeidiosyncratic,personaldistaste,andmerelywonderedattheacutenessofthesymptoms;butIhavesincehadreasontobelievethecausetoliemuchdeeperinthenatureofman,andtoturnonsomenoblerhingethantheprincipleofhatred。
Thisperson(whohadthus,fromthefirstmomentofhisentrance,struckinmewhatIcanonlydescribeasadisgustfulcuriosity)wasdressedinafashionthatwouldhavemadeanordinarypersonlaughable;hisclothes,thatistosay,althoughtheywereofrichandsoberfabric,wereenormouslytoolargeforhimineverymeasurement-thetrousershangingonhislegsandrolleduptokeepthemfromtheground,thewaistofthecoatbelowhishaunches,andthecollarsprawlingwideuponhisshoulders。Strangetorelate,thisludicrousaccoutrementwasfarfrommovingmetolaughter。
Rather,astherewassomethingabnormalandmisbegottenintheveryessenceofthecreaturethatnowfacedme-somethingseizing,surprisingandrevolting-thisfreshdisparityseemedbuttofitinwithandtoreinforceit;sothattomyinterestintheman'snatureandcharactertherewasaddedacuriosityastohisorigin,hislife,hisfortuneandstatusintheworld。
Theseobservations,thoughtheyhavetakensogreataspacetobesetdownin,wereyettheworkofafewseconds。Myvisitorwas,indeed,onfirewithsombreexcitement。
`Haveyougotit?'hecried。`Haveyougotit?'Andsolivelywashisimpatiencethatheevenlaidhishanduponmyarmandsoughttoshakeme。
Iputhimback,consciousathistouchofacertainicypangalongmyblood。`Come,sir,'saidI。`YouforgetthatIhavenotyetthepleasureofyouracquaintance。Beseated,ifyouplease。'AndIshowedhimanexample,andsatdownmyselfinmycustomaryseatandwithasfairanimitationofmyordinarymannertoapatient,asthelatenessofthehour,thenatureofmypreoccupations,andthehorrorIhadofmyvisitorwouldsuffermetomuster。
`Ibegyourpardon,DrCanyon,'hereplied,civillyenough。`Whatyousayisverywellfounded;andmyimpatiencehasshownitsheelstomypoliteness。
Icomehereattheinstanceofyourcolleague,DrHenryJekyll,onapieceofbusinessofsomemoment;andIunderstood……'hepausedandputhishandtohisthroat,andIcouldsee,inspiteofhiscollectedmanner,thathewaswrestlingagainsttheapproachesofthehysteria-`Iunderstood,adrawer……'
ButhereItookpityonmyvisitor'ssuspense,andsomeperhapsonmyowngrowingcuriosity。
`Thereitis,sir,'saidI,pointingtothedrawerwhereitlayonthefloorbehindatable,andstillcoveredwiththesheet。
Hesprangtoit,andthenpaused,andlaidhishanduponhisheart;
Icouldhearhisteethgratewiththeconvulsiveactionofhisjaws;andhisfacewassoghastlytoseethatIgrewalarmedbothforhislifeandreason。
`Composeyourself,'saidI。
Heturnedadreadfulsmiletome,and,asifwiththedecisionofdespair,pluckedawaythesheet。Atsightofthecontents,heutteredoneloudsobofsuchimmensereliefthatIsatpetrified。Andthenextmoment,inavoicethatwasalreadyfairlywellundercontrol,`Haveyouagraduatedglass?'heasked。
Irosefrommyplacewithsomethingofaneffort,andgavehimwhatheasked。
Hethankedmewithasmilingnod,measuredoutafewminimsoftheredtinctureandaddedoneofthepowders。Themixture,whichwasatfirstofareddishhue,began,inproportionasthecrystalsmelted,tobrightenincolour,toeffervesceaudibly,andtothrowoffsmallfumesofvapour。
Suddenly,andatthesamemoment,theebullitionceased,andthecompoundchangedtoadarkpurple,whichfadedagainmoreslowlytoawaterygreen。
Myvisitor,whohadwatchedthesemetamorphoseswithakeeneye,smiled,setdowntheglassuponthetable,andthenturnedandlookeduponmewithanairofscrutiny。
`Andnow,'saidhe,`tosettlewhatremains。Willyoubewise?willyoubeguided?willyousuffermetotakethisglassinmyhand,andtogoforthfromyourhousewithoutfurtherparley?orhasthegreedofcuriositytoomuchcommandofyou?Thinkbeforeyouanswer,foritshallbedoneasyoudecide。Asyoudecide,youshallbeleftasyouwerebefore,andneitherrichernorwiser,unlessthesenseofservicerenderedtoamaninmortaldistressmaybecountedasakindofrichesofthesoul。Or,ifyoushallsoprefertochoose,anewprovinceofknowledgeandnewavenuestofameandpowershallbelaidopentoyou,here,inthisroom,upontheinstant;andyoursightshallbeblastedbyaprodigytostaggertheunbeliefofSatan。'
`Sir,'saidI,affectingacoolnessthatIwasfarfromtrulypossessing,`youspeakenigmas,andyouwillperhapsnotwonderthatIhearyouwithnoverystrongimpressionofbelief。ButIhavegonetoofarinthewayofinexplicableservicestopausebeforeIseetheend。'
`Itiswell,'repliedmyvisitor。`Lanyon,yourememberyourvows:whatfollowsisunderthesealofourprofession。Andnow,youwhohavesolongbeenboundtothemostnarrowandmaterialviews,youwhohavedeniedthevirtueoftranscendentalmedicine,youwhohavederidedyoursuperiors-behold!'
Heputtheglasstohislips,anddrankatonegulp。Acryfollowed;
hereeled,staggered,clutchedatthetableandheldon,staringwithinfectedeyes,gaspingwithopenmouth;andasIlooked,therecame,Ithought,achange-heseemedtoswell-hisfacebecamesuddenlyblack,andthefeaturesseemedtomeltandalter-andthenextmomentIhadsprungtomyfeetandleapedbackagainstthewall,myarmraisedtoshieldmefromthatprodigy,mymindsubmergedinterror。
`OGod!'Iscreamed,and`OGod!'againandagain;fortherebeforemyeyes-paleandshaken,andhalffainting,andgropingbeforehimwithhishands,likeamanrestoredfromdeath-therestoodHenryJekyll!
WhathetoldmeinthenexthourIcannotbringmymindtosetonpaper。
IsawwhatIsaw,IheardwhatIheard,andmysoulsickenedatit;andyet,nowwhenthatsighthasfadedfrommyeyes,IaskmyselfifIbelieveit,andIcannotanswer。Mylifeisshakentoitsroots;sleephasleftme;thedeadliestterrorsitsbymeatallhoursofthedayandnight;
Ifeelthatmydaysarenumbered,andthatImustdie;andyetIshalldieincredulous。Asforthemoralturpitudethatmanunveiledtome,evenwithtearsofpenitence,Icannot,eveninmemory,dwellonitwithoutastartofhorror。Iwillsaybutonething,Utterson,andthat(ifyoucanbringyourmindtocreditit)willbemorethanenough。Thecreaturewhocreptintomyhousethatnightwas,onJekyll'sownconfession,knownbythenameofHydeandhuntedforineverycornerofthelandasthemurdererofCarew。
HASTIELANYON
HENRYJEKYLL'SFULL
STATEMENTOFTHECASE
Iwasbornintheyear18——toalargefortune,endowedbesideswithexcellentparts,inclinedbynaturetoindustry,fondoftherespectofthewiseandgoodamongmyfellow-men,andthus,asmighthavebeensupposed,witheveryguaranteeofanhonourableanddistinguishedfuture。Andindeed,theworstofmyfaultswasacertainimpatientgaietyofdisposition,suchashasmadethehappinessofmany,butsuchasIfoundithardtoreconcilewithmyimperiousdesiretocarrymyheadhigh,andwearamorethancommonlygravecountenancebeforethepublic。HenceitcameaboutthatIconcealedmypleasures;andthatwhenIreachedyearsofreflection,andbegantolookroundmeandtakestockofmyprogressandpositionintheworld,Istoodalreadycommittedtoaprofoundduplicityoflife。ManyamanwouldhaveevenblazonedsuchirregularitiesasIwasguiltyof;butfromthehighviewsthatIhadsetbeforeme,Iregardedandhidthemwithanalmostmorbidsenseofshame。Itwasthusrathertheexactingnatureofmyaspirations,thananyparticulardegradationinmyfaults,thatmademewhatIwasand,withevenadeepertrenchthaninthemajorityofmen,severedinmethoseprovincesofgoodandillwhichdivideandcompoundman'sdualnature。
Inthiscase,Iwasdriventoreflectdeeplyandinveteratelyonthathardlawoflifewhichliesattherootofreligion,andisoneofthemostplentifulspringsofdistress。Thoughsoprofoundadouble-dealer,Iwasinnosenseahypocrite;bothsidesofmewereindeadearnest;IwasnomoremyselfwhenIlaidasiderestraintandplungedinshame,thanwhenIlaboured,intheeyeofday,atthefurtheranceofknowledgeorthereliefofsorrowandsuffering。Anditchancedthatthedirectionofmyscientificstudies,whichledwhollytowardsthemysticandthetranscendental,reactedandshedastronglightonthisconsciousnessoftheperennialwaramongmymembers。Witheveryday,andfrombothsidesofmyintelligence,themoralandtheintellectual,IthusdrewsteadilynearertothattruthbywhosepartialdiscoveryIhavebeendoomedtosuchadreadfulshipwreck:
thatmanisnottrulyone,buttrulytwo。Isaytwo,becausethestateofmyownknowledgedoesnotpassbeyondthatpoint。Otherswillfollow,otherswilloutstripmeonthesamelines;andIhazardtheguessthatmanwillbeultimatelyknownforamerepolityofmultifarious,incongruousandindependentdenizens。I,formypart,fromthenatureofmylife,advancedinfalliblyinonedirectionandinonedirectiononly。Itwasonthemoralside,andinmyownperson,thatIlearnedtorecognizethethoroughandprimitivedualityofman;Isawthat,ofthetwonaturesthatcontendedinthefieldofmyconsciousness,evenifIcouldrightlybesaidtobeeither,itwasonlybecauseIwasradicallyboth;andfromanearlydate,evenbeforethecourseofmyscientificdiscoverieshadbeguntosuggestthemostnakedpossibilityofsuchamiracle,Ihadlearnedtodwellwithpleasure,asabeloveddaydream,onthethoughtoftheseparationoftheseelements。Ifeach,Itoldmyself,couldbutbehousedinseparateidentities,lifewouldberelievedofallthatwasunbearable;theunjustmightgohisway,deliveredfromtheaspirationsandremorseofhismoreuprighttwin;andthejustcouldwalksteadfastlyandsecurelyonhisupwardpath,doingthegoodthingsinwhichhefoundhispleasure,andnolongerexposedtodisgraceandpenitencebythehandsofthisextraneousevil。Itwasthecurseofmankindthattheseincongruousfaggotswerethusboundtogether-thatintheagonizedwombofconsciousnessthesepolartwinsshouldbecontinuouslystruggling。How,then,weretheydissociated?
Iwassofarinmyreflectionswhen,asIhavesaid,asidelightbegantoshineuponthesubjectfromthelaboratorytable。Ibegantoperceivemoredeeplythanithaseveryetbeenstated,thetremblingimmateriality,themist-liketransience,ofthisseeminglysosolidbodyinwhichwewalkattiredCertainagentsIfoundtohavethepowertoshakeandtopluckbackthatfleshlyvestment,evenasawindmighttossthecurtainsofapavilion。Fortwogoodreasons,Iwillnotenterdeeplyintothisscientificbranchofmyconfession。First,becauseIhavebeenmadetolearnthatthedoomandburthenofourlifeisboundforeveronman'sshoulders;
andwhentheattemptismadetocastitoff,itbutreturnsuponuswithmoreunfamiliarandmoreawfulpressure。Second,because,asmynarrativewillmake,alas!tooevident,mydiscoverieswereincomplete。Enough,then,thatInotonlyrecognizedmynaturalbodyforthemereauraandeffulgenceofcertainofthepowersthatmadeupmyspirit,butmanagedtocompoundadrugbywhichthesepowersshouldbedethronedfromtheirsupremacy,andasecondformandcountenancesubstituted,nonethelessnaturaltomebecausetheyweretheexpression,andborethestamp,oflowerelementsinmysoul。
IhesitatedlongbeforeIputthistheorytothetestofpractice。I
knewwellthatIriskeddeath;foranydrugthatsopotentlycontrolledandshooktheveryfortressofidentity,mightbytheleastscrupleofanoverdoseorattheleastinopportunityinthemomentofexhibition,utterlyblotoutthatimmaterialtabernaclewhichIlookedtoittochange。
Butthetemptationofadiscoverysosingularandprofoundatlastovercamethesuggestionsofalarm。Ihadlongsincepreparedmytincture;Ipurchasedatonce,fromafirmofwholesalechemists,alargequantityofaparticularsalt,whichIknew,frommyexperiments,tobethelastingredientrequired;
and,lateoneaccursednight,Icompoundedtheelements,watchedthemboilandsmoketogetherintheglass,andwhentheebullitionhadsubsided,withastrongglowofcourage,drankoffthepotion。
Themostrackingpangssucceeded:agrindinginthebones,deadlynausea,andahorrorofthespiritthatcannotbeexceededatthehourofbirthordeath。Thentheseagoniesbeganswiftlytosubside,andIcametomyselfasifoutofagreatsickness。Therewassomethingstrangeinmysensations,somethingindescribablynewand,fromitsverynovelty,incrediblysweet。
Ifeltyounger,lighter,happierinbody;withinIwasconsciousofaheadyrecklessness,acurrentofdisorderedsensualimagesrunninglikeamillraceinmyfancy,asolutionofthebondsofobligation,anunknownbutnotaninnocentfreedomofthesoul。Iknewmyself,atthefirstbreathofthisnewlife,tobemorewicked,tenfoldmorewicked,soldaslavetomyoriginalevil;andthethought,inthatmoment,bracedanddelightedmelikewine。Istretchedoutmyhands,exultinginthefreshnessof`thesesensations;andintheact,IwassuddenlyawarethatIhadlostinstature。
Therewasnomirror,atthatdate,inmyroom;thatwhichstandsbesidemeasIwritewasbroughttherelateron,andfortheverypurposeofthosetransformations。Thenight,however,wasfargoneintothemorning-themorning,blackasitwas,wasnearlyripefortheconceptionoftheday-theinmatesofmyhousewerelockedinthemostrigoroushoursofslumber;
andIdetermined,flushedasIwaswithhopeandtriumph,toventureinmynewshapeasfarastomybedroom。Icrossedtheyard,whereintheconstellationslookeddownuponme,Icouldhavethought,withwonder,thefirstcreatureofthatsortthattheirunsleepingvigilancehadyetdisclosedtothem;
Istolethroughthecorridors,astrangerinmyownhouse;andcomingtomyroom,IsawforthefirsttimetheappearanceofEdwardHyde。
Imustherespeakbytheoryalone,sayingnotthatwhichIknow,butthatwhichIsupposetobemostprobable。Theevilsideofmynature,towhichIhadnowtransferredthestampingefficacy,waslessrobustandlessdevelopedthanthegoodwhichIhadjustdeposed。Again,inthecourseofmylife,whichhadbeen,afterall,nine-tenthsalifeofeffort,virtueandcontrol,ithadbeenmuchlessexercisedandmuchlessexhausted。Andhence,asIthink,itcameaboutthatEdwardHydewassomuchsmaller,slighter,andyoungerthanHenryJekyll。Evenasgoodshoneuponthecountenanceoftheone,evilwaswrittenbroadlyandplainlyonthefaceoftheother。
Evilbesides(whichImuststillbelievetobethelethalsideofman)
hadleftonthatbodyanimprintofdeformityanddecay。AndyetwhenI
lookeduponthatuglyidolintheglass,Iwasconsciousofnorepugnance,ratherofaleapofwelcome。This,too,wasmyself。Itseemednaturalandhuman。Inmyeyesitborealivelierimageofthespirit,itseemedmoreexpressandsingle,thantheimperfectanddividedcountenanceIhadbeenhithertoaccustomedtocallmine。AndinsofarIwasdoubtlessright。
IhaveobservedthatwhenIworethesemblanceofEdwardHyde,nonecouldcomeneartomeatfirstwithoutavisiblemisgivingoftheflesh。This,asItakeit,wasbecauseallhumanbeings,aswemeetthem,arecommingledoutofgoodandevil:andEdwardHyde,alone,intheranksofmankind,waspureevil。
Ilingeredbutamomentatthemirror:thesecondandconclusiveexperimenthadyettobeattempted;ityetremainedtobeseenifIhadlostmyidentitybeyondredemptionandmustfleebeforedaylightfromahousethatwasnolongermine;andhurryingbacktomycabinet,Ioncemorepreparedanddrankthecup,oncemoresufferedthepangsofdissolution,andcametomyselfoncemorewiththecharacter,thestature,andthefaceofHenryJekyll。
ThatnightIhadcometothefatalcrossroads。HadIapproachedmydiscoveryinamorenoblespirit,hadIriskedtheexperimentwhileundertheempireofgenerousorpiousaspirations,allmusthavebeenotherwise,andfromtheseagoniesofdeathandbirthIhadcomeforthanangelinsteadofafiend。Thedrughadnodiscriminatingaction;itwasneitherdiabolicalnordivine;itbutshookthedoorsoftheprisonhouseofmydisposition;
and,likethecaptivesofPhilippi,thatwhichstoodwithinranforth。
Atthattimemyvirtueslumbered;myevil,keptawakebyambition,wasalertandswifttoseizetheoccasion;andthethingthatwasprojectedwasEdwardHyde。Hence,althoughIhadnowtwocharactersaswellastwoappearances,onewaswhollyevil,andtheotherwasstilltheoldHenryJekyll,thatincongruouscompoundofwhosereformationandimprovementIhadalreadylearnedtodespair。Themovementwasthuswhollytowardtheworse。