WhyMrs。GeneralTalboysfirstmadeuphermindtopassthewinterof1859atRomeIneverclearlyunderstood。Tomyselfsheexplainedherpurposes,soonafterherarrivalattheEternalCity,bydeclaring,inherownenthusiasticmanner,thatshewasinspiredbyaburningdesiretodrinkfreshatthestilllivingfountainsofclassicalpoetryandsentiment。ButIalwaysthoughtthattherewassomethingmorethanthisinit。Classicalpoetryandsentimentweredoubtlessverydeartoher;butsoalso,Iimagine,werethesubstantialcomfortsofHardoverLodge,theGeneral'shouseinBerkshire;andIdonotthinkthatshewouldhaveemigratedforthewinterhadtherenotbeensomeslightdomesticmisunderstanding。
Letthis,however,befullymadeclear,thatsuchmisunderstanding,ifitexisted,musthavebeensimplyanaffairoftemper。Noimproprietyofconducthas,Iamverysure,everbeenimputedtothelady。TheGeneral,asalltheworldknows,ishot;andMrs。
Talboys,whenthesweetriversofherenthusiasmareunfedbycongenialwaters,can,Ibelieve,makeherselfdisagreeable。
Butbethisasitmay,inNovember,1859,Mrs。TalboyscameamongusEnglishatRome,andsoonsucceededinobtainingforherselfacomfortablefootinginoursociety。Weallthoughthermoreremarkableforhermentalattributesthanforphysicalperfection;
but,nevertheless,shewas,inherownway,asightlywoman。Shehadnospecialbrilliance,eitherofeyeorcomplexion,suchaswouldproducesuddenflamesinsusceptiblehearts;nordidsheseemtodemandinstanthomagebytheformandstepofagoddess;butwefoundhertobeagood-lookingwomanofsomethirtyorthirty-threeyearsofage,withsoft,peach-likecheeks,rathertoolikethoseofacherub,withsparklingeyeswhichwerehardlylargeenough,withgoodteeth,awhiteforehead,adimpledchinandafullbust。
Such,outwardly,wasMrs。GeneralTalboys。Thedescriptionoftheinwardwomanisthepurporttowhichthesefewpageswillbedevoted。
Therearetwoqualitiestowhichthebestofmankindaremuchsubject,whicharenearlyrelatedtoeachother,andastowhichtheworldhasnotyetdecidedwhethertheyaretobeclassedamongthegoodorevilattributesofournature。Menandwomenareundertheinfluenceofthemboth,butmenoftenestundergotheformer,andwomenthelatter。Theyareambitionandenthusiasm。NowMrs。
Talboyswasanenthusiasticwoman。
Astoambition,generallyastheworldagreeswithMarkAntonyinstigmatisingitasagrievousfault,Iammyselfclearthatitisavirtue;butwithambitionatpresentwehavenoconcern。Enthusiasmalso,asIthink,leanstovirtue'sside;or,atleast,ifitbeafault,ofallfaultsitistheprettiest。Butthen,topartakeatallofvirtue,oreventobeinanydegreepretty,theenthusiasmmustbetrue。
Badcoinisknownfromgoodbytheringofit;andsoisbadenthusiasm。Letthecoinerbeeversocleverathisart,inthecoiningofenthusiasmthesoundoftruegoldcanneverbeimpartedtothefalsemetal。AndIdoubtwhetherthecleverestsheintheworldcanmakefalseenthusiasmpalatabletothetasteofman。Tothetasteofanywomantheenthusiasmofanotherwomanisneververypalatable。
WeunderstoodatHomethatMrs。Talboyshadaconsiderablefamily,
fourorfivechildren,weweretold;butshebroughtwithheronlyonedaughter,alittlegirlabouttwelveyearsofage。Shehadtornherselfasunder,asshetoldme,fromtheyoungernurslingsofherheart,andhadleftthemtothecareofadevotedfemaleattendant,whoselovewasallbutmaternal。AndthenshesaidawordortwoabouttheGeneral,intermswhichmademealmostthinkthatthisquasi-maternalloveextendeditselfbeyondthechildren。Theidea,however,wasamistakenone,arisingfromthestrengthofherlanguage,towhichIwasthenunaccustomed。IhavesincebecomeawarethatnothingcanbemoredecorousthanoldMrs。Upton,theexcellenthead-nurseatHardoverLodge;andnogentlemanmorediscreetinhisconductthanGeneralTalboys。
AndImayaswellheredeclare,also,thattherecouldbenomorevirtuouswomanthantheGeneral'swife。Hermarriagevowwastoherparamounttoallothervowsandbondswhatever。TheGeneral'shonourwasquitesafewhenhesentherofftoRomebyherself;andhenodoubtknewthatitwasso。Illiroburetaestriplex,ofwhichIbelievenoweaponsofanyassailantcouldgetthebetter。
But,nevertheless,weusedtofancythatshehadnorepugnancetoimproprietyinotherwomen,towhattheworldgenerallycallsimpropriety。Invinciblyattachedherselftothemarriagetie,shewouldconstantlyspeakofitasbynomeansnecessarilybindingonothers;and,virtuousherselfasanygriffinofpropriety,sheconstantlypatronised,atanyrate,thetheoryofinfidelityinherneighbours。ShewasveryeagerindenouncingtheprejudicesoftheEnglishworld,declaringthatshehadfoundexistenceamongthemtobenolongerpossibleforherself。ShewashotagainstthesternunforgivenessofBritishmatrons,andequallyeagerinreprobatingthestiffconventionalitiesofareligioninwhichshesaidthatnoneofitsvotarieshadfaith,thoughtheyallallowedthemselvestobeenslaved。
WehadatthattimeasmallsetatRome,consistingchieflyofEnglishandAmericans,whohabituallymetateachother'srooms,andspentmanyofoureveninghoursindiscussingItalianpolitics。Wewere,mostofus,painters,poets,novelists,orsculptors;perhapsIshouldsaywould-bepainters,poets,novelists,andsculptors,
aspirantshopingtobecomesomedayrecognised;andamongusMrs。
Talboystookherplace,naturallyenough,onaccountofaveryprettytasteshehadforpainting。
Idonotknowthatsheeveroriginatedanythingthatwasgrand;butshemadesomenicecopies,andwasfond,atanyrate,ofartconversation。Shewroteessays,too,whichsheshowedinconfidencetovariousgentlemen,andhadsomeideaoftakinglessonsinmodelling。
InallourcircleConradMackinnon,anAmerican,was,perhaps,thepersonmostqualifiedtobestyleditsleader。Hewasonewhoabsolutelydidgainhisliving,andanamplelivingtoo,byhispen,andwasregardedonallsidesasaliterarylion,justifiedbysuccessinroaringatanytonehemightplease。Hisusualroarwasnotexactlythatofasucking-doveoranightingale;butitwasagood-humouredroar,notveryoffensivetoanyman,andapparentlyacceptableenoughtosomeladies。Hewasabigburlyman,neartofiftyasIsuppose,somewhatawkwardinhisgait,andsomewhatloudinhislaugh。Butthoughnightofifty,andthusungainly,helikedtobesmiledonbyprettywomen,andliked,assomesaid,tobeflatteredbythemalso。Ifso,heshouldhavebeenhappy,fortheladiesatRomeatthattimemademuchofConradMackinnon。
OfMrs。Mackinnonnoonedidmakeverymuch,andyetshewasoneofthesweetest,dearest,quietest,littlecreaturesthatevermadegladaman'sfireside。Shewasexquisitelypretty,alwaysingoodhumour,neverstupid,self-denyingtoafault,andyetshewasgenerallyinthebackground。Shewouldseldomcomeforwardofherownwill,butwascontentedtositbehindherteapotandhearMackinnondohisroaring。HewascertainlymuchgiventowhattheworldatRomecalledflirting,butthisdidnotintheleastannoyher。Shewastwentyyearshisjunior,andyetsheneverflirtedwithanyone。Womenwouldtellhergood-naturedfriendshowMackinnonwenton;butshereceivedsuchtidingsasanexcellentjoke,observingthathehadalwaysdonethesame,andnodoubtalwayswoulduntilhewasninety。Idobelievethatshewasahappywoman;andyetIusedtothinkthatsheshouldhavebeenhappier。
Thereis,however,noknowingtheinsideofanotherman'shouse,orreadingtheriddlesofanotherman'sjoyandsorrow。