"Itisalltrue,"hesaid;"beautifullytrue。Butneedsuchaviewoflifenecessitatetheworkofroadmending?Surelyallmenshouldberoadmenders。"
Owiseparson,sotoreadthelessonoftheroad!
"Itistrue,"Ianswered;"butsomeofusfindoursalvationintheactualwork,andearnourbreadbetterinthisthaninanyotherway。Nomanisdependentonourearning,allmenonourwork。Weare'richbeyondthedreamsofavarice'becausewehaveallthatweneed,andyetwetastethelifeandpovertyoftheverypoor。Weare,ifyouwill,uncloisteredmonks,preachingfriarswhospeaknotwiththetongue,discipleswhohearthewisewordsofasilentmaster。"
"RobertLouisStevensonwasaroadmender,"saidthewiseparson。
"Ay,andwithmorethanhispen,"Ianswered。"Iwonderwasheeversotrulygreat,soentirelythemanweknowandlove,aswhenheinspiredthechiefstomakeahighwayinthewilderness。SurelynomorefittingmonumentcouldexisttohismemorythantheRoadofGratitude,cut,laid,andkeptbythepure-bloodedtribekingsofSamoa。"
Parsonnodded。
"Heknewthatthepeoplewhomakenoroadsareruledoutfromintelligentparticipationintheworld'sbrotherhood。"Hefilledhispipe,thinkingthewhile,thenheheldouthispouchtome。
"Trysomeofthisbaccy,"hesaid;"SherwoodofMagdalensentitmefromsomeoutlandishplace。"
Iacceptedgratefully。Itwassuchtobaccoasfallstothelotoffewroadmenders。
Herosetogo。
"IwishIcouldcomeandbreakstones,"hesaid,alittlewistfully。
"Nay,"saidI,"fewmenhavesuchwearyroadmendingasyours,andperhapsyouneedmyroadlessthanmostmen,andlessthanmostparsons。"
Weshookhands,andhewentdowntheroadandoutofmylife。
HelittleguessedthatIknewSherwood,ay,andknewhimtoo,forhadnotSherwoodtoldmeofthemanhedelightedtohonour。
Ah,well!IamnoBrowningJunior,andSherwood'snameisnotSherwood。
CHAPTERVI
AWHILEagoItookaholiday;mouched,playedtruantfrommyroad。
Jemthewaggonerhailedmeashepassed-hewasgoingtothemill-wouldIridewithhimandcomebackatopofthefullsacks?
Ihidmyhammerinthehedge,climbedintothegreatwaggonwhiteandfragrantwiththecleansweetmeal,andflungmyselfdownontheemptyflourbags。Thelooped-backtarpaulinframedthelongvistaofmyroadwiththedownsbeyond;andIlayinthecooldark,caressedbythefreshbreezeinitsthoroughfare,soothedbythestrongmonotonoustrampofthegreatgreyteamandthemusicofthejanglingharness。
Jemwalkedattheleaders'heads;itishisrulewhenthewaggonisempty,aruleno"company"willmakehimbreak。AtfirstI
regrettedit,butsoondiscoveredIlearnttoknowhimbetterso,asheploddedalong,histhicksetfigureslightlybent,hishandsinhispockets,hiswhipunderonearm,whistlinghymntunesinalowminor,whilethegreathorsesansweredtohisvoicewithouttouchoflashorguidingrein。
Ilayasinablissfuldreamandwatchedmyroadunfold。Thesunsetthepine-bolesaflarewherethehedgeissparse,andstretchedthelongshadowsofthebesompoplarsinslantingbarsacrossthewhitehighway;theroadsidegardenssmiledfriendlywiththeirtrim-cutlaurelsandrowsofstatelysunflowers-aseemlyproximitythis,DaphneandClytie,sistersinexperience,wrappedinthewarmcaressofthegodwhosewooingtheyneednolongerfear。Hereandtherewepassedlittlegroupsofwomenandchildrenofftoworkintheearlycornfields,andJempausedinhisfondrepetitionof"TheLordmypastureshallprepare"togivethemgood-day。
ItislikeLife,thistravellingbackwards-thatwhichhasbeen,alonevisible-likeLife,whichisafterall,retrospectivewithasteadymovingonintotheUnknown,Unseen,untilFaithislostinSightandexperienceisnolongerthetouchstoneofhumanity。ThefaceofthesonofAdamissetontheroadhisbrothershavetravelled,markingtheirlandmarks,tracingtheirjourneyings;butwiththeeyesofachildofGodhelooksforward,strainingtocatchaglimpseofthejewelledwallsofhisfuturehome,thecity"EternalintheHeavens。"
Presentlyweleftmyroadforthedeepshadeofanarrowcountrywaywherethegreatoaksandbeechesmeetoverheadandnohedge-
clippersetshishandtostaynature'sprofusion;andsobypleasantlanesscarcethewaggon'swidthacross,nowshady,nowsunny,hereborderedbythicksetcoverts,theregivingonfruitfulfields,wecameatlengthtothemill。
IleftJemtohisbusinesswiththemillerandwandereddowntheflowerymeadowtolistentothemerryclackofthestreamandthevoiceofthewatersontheweir。Thegreatwheelwasatrest,asI
lovebesttoseeitinthelaterafternoon;thesplashandchurnofthewaterbelongrathertothemorninghours。Itisthechiefmistakewemakeinportioningoutourdaythatwebanishresttothenight-time,whichisforsleepandrecreating,insteadofsettingapartthelaterafternoonandquiettwilighthoursforthestretchingofwearylimbsandreposeoftiredmindafteraday'stoilthatshouldbeginandendatfive。
Thelittlestonebridgeoverthemill-streamisalmostonalevelwiththeclearrunningwater,andIlaythereandgazedatthehugewheelwhich,undermultitudinousformsanduses,isoneoftheworld'swonders,becauseoneofthefewthingsweimitativechildrenhavenotlearntfromnature。IsitperchanceamemoryoutofthatpastwhenAdamwalkedclear-eyedinParadiseandtalkedwiththeLordinthecooloftheday?Didheseethentheflamingwheelsinstinctwithservice,wondrousmessengersoftheMostHighvouchsafedinvisiontothelaterprophets?
Maybehedid,andgoingforthfrombeforetheavengingswordofhisownforgingtothebitternessofanaccursedearth,tookwithhimthisbrightmemoryofperfect,ceaselessservice,andsofashionedourlabouringwheel-patheticlinkwiththetimeofhisinnocency。
Itisoneofmanyunansweredquestions,goodtoaskbecauseithasnoanswer,onlythesuggestionofatrainofthought:perhapsweareneversoreceptiveaswhenwithfoldedhandswesaysimply,"Thisisagreatmystery。"IwatchedandwondereduntilJemcalled,andIhadtoleavetheripplingweirandthewater'sside,andthewheelwithitsuntoldsecret。
Themiller'swifegavemeteaandacrustofhome-madebread,andthemiller'slittlemaidsatonmykneewhileItoldthesadtaleofalittlepinkcloudseparatedfromitsparentsandteazedandhuntedbymischievouslittleairs。To-morrow,ifImistakenot,hergardenwillbewetwithitstears,and,letushope,pointamoral;forthetalehaditsorigininafrenziedchickendrivenfromthesideofananxiousmother,andpursuedbyasturdy,relentlessfigureinawhitesun-bonnet。
Thelittlemaidtrottedoff,greatlysobered,tolooksomewhatprematurelyforthecloud'stears;andIclimbedtomyplaceatthetopofthepiled-upsacks,andthencewatchedtwilightpasstostarlightthroughmynarrowpeep,and,sowatching,sleptuntilJem'svoicehailedmefromDreamland,andIwent,onlyhalfawake,acrossthedarkfieldshome。
Autumnishereanditisalreadylate。Hehaspaintedthehedgesrussetandgold,scarletandblack,andatangleofgrey;nowhehasdampbrownleavesinhishairandfrostinhisfinger-tips。
Itisaseasonofcontrasts;atfirstallisstirandbustle,theingatheringofmanandbeast;barnandrickyardstandfilledwithgoldentreasure;atthefarmthesoundofthreshing;inwoodandcopsethesquirrelsbusied'twixttreeandstorehouse,whiletheripenutsfallwiththudofthunderrain。Whentheharvestingisover,thefruitgathered,thelastrickthatched,therecomesapause。Earthstripsoffherbrightcoloursandshowsabareandfurrowedface;thedeadleavesfallgentlyandsadlythroughthecalm,sweetair;greymistsdrapethefieldsandhedges。Themigratorybirdshaveleft,saveafewlateswallows;andasIsitatworkinthesoft,stillrain,Icanheartheblackbird'smelancholytrillandthethinpipeoftheredbreast'swintersong-
theairisfullofthesoundoffarewell。
ForethoughtandpreparationfortheFuturewhichshallbe;
farewell,becauseoftheFuturewhichmayneverbe-forus;"Man,thouhastgoodslaidupformanyyears,anditiswell;but,remember,thisnightTHYsoulmayberequired";istheunvoicedlessonofautumn。Thereisgrowingupamongusagreatfear;itstaresatuswhite,wide-eyed,fromthefacesofmenandwomenalike-thefearofpain,mentalandbodilypain。Forthelasttwentyyearswehavewagedwarwithsuffering-anoblewarwhenfoughtintheinterestofthemany,butfraughtwithgreatdangertoeachindividualman。Itisthefearwhichshouldnotbe,ratherthanthe'hopewhichisinus,'thatleadsmeninthesedaystodrapeDeathinaflowerymantle,tolaystressontheshortnessofparting,thespeedyreunion,topostponetheirgood-byesuntilthelastmoment,oravoidsayingthemaltogether;andthisfearisapoor,ignoblething,unworthyofthosewhoareasgods,knowinggoodandevil。Wearestillpayingthepriceofthatknowledge;
sufferinginbothkindsisasubstantialpartofit,andbringsitsownhealing。Letuspaylikemen,ourfacetotheopenheaven,neitherwhimperinglikechildreninthedark,norlulledtounnecessaryoblivionbysomelethaldrug;foritismanly,notmorbid,todaretotastethepungentsavourofpain,thelingeringsadnessoffarewellwhichemphasisestheaftermathoflife;itshouldhaveitsplaceinallourpreparationasapartofourinheritancewedarenotbewithout。
Thereisanoldcoupleinourvillagewhoarepastwork。Themarrieddaughterhasmadeshifttotakehermotherandtheparishhalf-crown,butthereisneitherroomnorfoodforthefather,andhemustgotoN。Ifhusbandandwifewenttogether,theywouldbeseparatedattheworkhousedoor。Thepartinghadtocome;itcameyesterday。Isawthemstumblinglamelydowntheroadontheirlastjourneytogether,walkingsidebysidewithouttouchorspeech,seeingandheedingnothingbutablankfuture。Astheypassedmetheoldmansaidgruffly,"'Tisfareno';betterbegettin'back";
butthewomanshookherhead,andtheybreastedthehilltogether。
Atthetoptheypaused,shookhands,andseparated;onewenton,theotherturnedback;andastheoldwomanlimpedblindlybyI
turnedaway,fortherearesightsamandarenotlookupon。Shepassed;andIheardachild'sshrillvoicesay,"Icometolookforyou,gran";andIthankedGodthatthereneedbenoutterlonelinessintheworldwhileitholdsalittlechild。
Nowitismyturn,andImustleavethewaysidetoserveinthesheepfoldsduringthewintermonths。Itisscarcelyafarewell,formyroadisubiquitous,eternal;therearegreenwaysinParadiseandgoldenstreetsinthebeautifulCityofGod。
Nevertheless,myheartisheavy;for,viewedbythelightofthewaningyear,roadmendingseemsagreatandwonderfulworkwhichI
havepoorlyconceivedofandmeanlyperformed:yetIhavelearnttounderstanddimlythetruthsofthreegreatparadoxes-theblessingofacurse,thevoiceofsilence,thecompanionshipofsolitude-andsotakemyleaveofthisstretchofroad,andofyouwhohavefaredalongthewhitehighwaythroughthemediumofaprintedpage。
Farewell!Itisaroadmender'sword;IcryyouGodspeedtothenextmilestone-andbeyond。
OUTOFTHESHADOW
CHAPTERI
IAMnolongeraroadmender;thestretchofwhitehighwaywhichleadstotheendoftheworldwillknowmenomore;thefieldsandhedgerows,grassandleafstiffwiththecrisprimeofwinter'sbreath,liebeyondmyhorizon;theewesinthefolding,theirmysteriouseyesquickwiththeconsciousnessofcomingmotherhood,answeranother'svoiceandhand;whileIliehere,notinthelonelycompanionshipofmyexpectations,butwheretheshadowisbrightwithkindlyfacesandgentlehands,untilonekinderandgentlerstillcarriesmedownthestairwayintothelargerroom。
Butnowtheveilwasheldasideandonewentbycrownedwiththemajestyofyears,wearingtheermineofanunstainedrule,thepurpleofherpeople'sloyalty。Nationsstoodwithbatedbreathtoseeherpassinthestarlitmistofherchildren'stears;amonarch-greatestofhertime;anempress-conqueredmencalledmother;awoman-Englishmencriedqueen;stillthecrownedcaptiveofherpeople'sheart-theprisoneroflove。
Thenight-goerspassedundermywindowinsilence,neithersongnorshoutbrokethewelcomedark;nextmorningtheworkmenwhowentbywerestrangelyquiet。
'VICTORIADEIGRATIABRITANNIARUMREGINA。'
Didtheythinkofhowthatlegendwoulddisappear,andofallitmeant,astheypaidtheirpenniesatthecoffee-stall?Thefeetrarelyknowthetruevalueandworkofthehead;butallEnglishmenhavebeenandwillbequicktoacknowledgeandrevereVictoriabythegraceofGodawisewoman,agreatandlovingmother。
Yearsago,I,standingatalevelcrossing,sawherpass。Thetrainsloweddownandshecaughtsightofthegatekeeper'slittlegirlwhohadclimbedthebarrier。Suchasmileasshegaveher!
AndthenIcaughtaquickstartledgestureassheslippedfrommyvision;Ithoughtafterwardsitwasthatshefearedthechildmightfall。Motherfirst,thenQueen;evensorestcametoher-notinoneoftheroyalpalaces,butinherownhome,surroundedbytheimmediatecircleofhernearestanddearest,whiletheworldkeptwatchandward。
I,ashyloverofthefieldsandwoods,longedalways,shouldapainlesspassingbevouchsafedme,tomakemybedonthefragrantpineneedlesinthealonenessofagreatforest;tolieonceagainasIhadlainmanyatime,bathedinthebittersweetnessofthesun-blessedpines,lappedinthemanifoldsilence;myearattunedtothewindofHeavenwithitscallfromtheCitiesofPeace。Insternermood,whenLove'shandheldascourge,Icravedratherthestressofthemoorlandwithitsbleakermindimperativeofsacrifice。TorestagainundertheleeofRipponTorsweptbythestrongpeat-smellingbreeze;tostareuntiredatthelongcloud-
shadowedreaches,andwatchthemist-wraithshuddleandshrinkroundthestonesofblood;untilmysacrificetoowasaccomplished,andmysoulhadfled。Awildwastemoor;avastvoidsky;andnaughtbetweenheavenandearthbutman,hissin-glazedeyesseekingafarthedistantlightofhisownheart。
Withyearscamecounselsmoreprofound,andtheknowledgethatmanwasnomeredwellerinthewoodstofollowthefootstepsofthepipinggod,butanintegralpartofanorganisedwhole,inwhichPantoohashisfulfilment。ThewiseVenetiansknew;andreadpantheismintoChristianitywhentheysetthesewordsroundEzekiel'slivingcreaturesinthealtarvaultofStMark's:-
QUAEQUESUBOBSCURISDECRISTODICTAFIGURISHISAPERIREDATURET
INHIS,DEUSIPSENOTATUR。
"Thoushalthavenoneothergodsbutme。"Ifmanhadbeenabletokeepthisonecommandmentperfectlytheotherninewouldneverhavebeenwritten;insteadhehascomprehensivelydisregardedit,andperhapsnevermorethannowinthetwentiethcentury。Ah,well!
thisworld,inspiteofallitssinning,isstilltheGardenofEdenwheretheLordwalkedwithman,notinthecoolofevening,butintheheatandstressoftheimmediateworkingday。ThereisnoangelnowwithflamingswordtokeepthewayoftheTreeofLife,buttapersalightmorningbymorningintheHostelofGodtopointustoit;andwe,whoareasgodsknowinggoodandevil,partakeofthatfruit"whereofwhosoeatethshallneverdie";thegreatestgiftorthemostawfulpenalty-EternalLife。
Ithen,withmycravingfortreeandsky,heldthatagreatcapitalwithitsstiroflifeanddeath,oftoilandstrifeandpleasure,wasanillplaceforasickmantowaitin;aplacetoshrinkfromasachildshrinksfromtherudeblowofoneoutofauthority。Yethere,farfrommoorandforest,hillsideandhedgerow,inthefamilysitting-roomoftheEnglish-speakingpeoples,theLondonmuchmisunderstood,Ifindthefulfilmentbyantithesisofalldesire。Forthelonelinessofthemoorland,thereisthewarmthandcompanionshipofLondon'sswiftbeatingheart。Forsilencethereissound-thesoundandstirofservice-forthemostpartfarinexcessofitsearthlyequivalent。AgainstthefragrantincenseofthepinesIsetthehonestsweatofthemanwhoselifetimeisthemeasureofhisworkingday。"Hethatlovethnothisbrotherwhomhehathseen,howshallheloveGodwhomhehathnotseen?"wroteBlessedJohn,whohimselflovedsomuchthathebeheldtheLambasithadbeenslainfromthebeginningwhenAdamfell,andtheCityofGodwithlightmostprecious。Theburdenofcorporatesin,theswordofcorporatesorrow,thejoyofcorporaterighteousness;thuswebecomecitizensintheKingdomofGod,andcompanionsofallhiscreatures。"Itisnotgoodthatthemanshouldbealone,"saidtheLordGod。
Ilivenowasitwereintwoworlds,theworldofsight,andtheworldofsound;andtheyscarcelyevertoucheachother。Ihearthegrindofheavytraffic,thestruggleofhorsesonthefrost-
breathedground,thedecorousjoltofomnibuses,thejangleofcabbells,thesharpwarningofbicyclesatthecorner,theswiftrattleofcosters'cartsastheygosouthatnightwiththeirshouting,goadingcrew。AllthesethingsIhear,andmore;butI
seenoroad,onlythesilentriverofmyheartwithitstaleofwonderandyears,andthewhitebeatofseagulls'wingsinstronginquiringflight。
Sometimesthereisnaughttoseeonthewaterwaybutasolitaryblackhull,averyStygianferry-boat,mannedbyasolitaryfigure,andmovingslowlyupundertheimpulseofthefar-reachingsweeps。
Thenthegreatbargespasswiththeircoffinedtreasure,drawnbyasmallself-righteoussteam-tug。Later,lightenedoftheirload,andwaitingonwindandtide,Iseethemswoopingbylikebirdssetfree;tawnysailsthatmindmeofred-roofedWhitbywithitsnorthernfleet;blacksailsasofsomeheedlessTheseus;whitesailsthatsweepoutofthemorningmist"likerestlessgossameres。"Theymakethebridge,whichisjustwithinmyvision,andthenawaypastWestminsterandBlackfriarswhereStPaul'sgreatdomeliftsthecrosshighoveraself-seekingcity;pastSouthwarkwhereEngland'spoetilluminatesinthescrollofdivinewisdomthesignoftheTabard;pasttheTowerwithitshauntingghostsofhistory;pastGreenwich,fairycity,caughtinthemeshesofriversidemist;andthenthesaltandspeerofthesea,thecompanyingwithgreatships,thefreshburden。
AtnightIseethemagain,silent,mysterious;searchingthedarknesswithunwinkingyellowstare,ledbyagreatgreenlight。
Theycreepupunderthebridgewhichspanstheriverwithitswatchingeyes,andvanish,cryingbackawarningnoteastheymaketheupperreach,orstridenthail,asachainofkindredphantomspasses,ploughingacontrarytide。