Itisthematerialcounterpartofthe'NightoftheSoul。'Wehaveleftourhouseandsetforthinthedarknesswhichparalysesthosefacultiesthatmakeusmenintheworldofmen。Butsurelythegreatmystics,withalltheirinsightandheavenlylove,fellshortwhentheysoughtfreedomincompleteseparatenessfromcreationinsteadofinperfectunitywithit。TheGreeksknewbetterwhentheyflungAriadne'scrownamongthestars,andwroteDemeter'sgriefonabarrenearth,andPersephone'sjoyinthefruitfulfield。Fortheearthisgatheredupinman;heisthewholewhichisgreaterthanthesumofitsparts。StandingintheimageofGod,andclothedinthegarmentofGod,heliftsuppriestlyhandsandpresentsthesacrificeofredeemedearthbeforethethroneoftheAll-Father。"Dustandashesandahouseofdevils,"hecries;
andtherecomesbackforanswer,"REXCONCUPISCETDECOREMTUAM。"
TheAngelofDeathhasbroadwingsofsilenceandmysterywithwhichheshadowsthevalleywhereweneedfearnoevil,andwherethevoicewhichspeakstousisasthe"voiceofdoves,taberingupontheirbreasts。"Itisaplaceofhealingandpreparation,ofpeaceandrefreshingafterthesharply-definedoutlinesofagarishday。Walkingtherewelearntousethosenaturalfacultiesofthesoulwhicharehamperedbythefamiliarityofbodilyprogress,toapprehendthetruthswhichwehaveintellectuallyaccepted。Itistheplaceofsecretswherethehumilitywhichembracesallattainableknowledgecries"Iknownot";andwhileweproclaimfromthehouse-topsthatwhichwehavelearnt,themannerofourlearninglieshidforeachoneofusinthesanctuaryofoursouls。
TheEgyptians,intheirancientwisdom,actinthedesertagreatandrosphinx,imageofmysteryandsilence,staringfromunderlevelbrowsacrossthearidsandsofthesea-way。TheGreeksborrowedanddebasedtheimage,turningtheinscrutableintoasemi-womanwhoaskedafoolishriddle,andhurledherselfdowninpetulantpridewhenOEdipusansweredaright。Sowe,marringtheofficeofsilence,questionitsmystery;thwartourselveswithriddlesofourownsuggesting;andturnaway,leavingourofferingbuthalfconsumedonthealtaroftheunknowngod。ItwasnotthetheftoffirethatbroughtthevengeanceofheavenuponPrometheus,butthemockingsacrifice。OrpheuslostEurydicebecausehemustseeherfacebeforetheappointedtime。Persephoneateofthepomegranateandhungeredingloomforthedayoflightwhichshouldhavebeenendless。
Theuniverseisfullofmiracleandmystery;thedarknessandsilencearesetforasignwedarenotdespise。Thepallofnightlifts,leavingusengulphedinthelightofimmensityunderatossingheavenofstars。Thedawnbreaks,butitdoesnotsurpriseus,forwehavewatchedfromthevalleyandseenthepaletwilight。
ThroughthewondrousSabbathoffaithfulsouls,thelongdayofrosemaryandrue,thelightbrightensintheEast;andwepassontowardsitwithquietfeetandopeningeyes,bearingwithusalloftheredeemedearththatwehavemadeourown,untilwearefulfilledinthesunriseofthegreatEasterDay,andthepeoplescomefromnorthandsouthandeastandwesttotheCitywhichliethfoursquare-theBeatificVisionofGod。
VereIerusalemestillacivitasCuiuspaxiugisetsummaiucunditas;
Ubinonpraevenitremdesiderium,Necdesideriominusestpraemium。
ATTHEWHITEGATE
CHAPTERI
AGREATjoyhascometome;oneofthoseunexpectedgiftswhichlifelovestobestowafterwehavelearnttolooseourgripofher。
Iambackinmyownplaceverynearmyroad-thewhitegatelieswithinmydistantvision;neartheleangreyDownswhichkeepwatchandwardbetweenthecountryandthesea;verynear,nay,inthelapofMotherEarth,forasIwriteIamlyingonagreencarpet,powderedyellowandwhitewiththesun'sownflowers;overheadagreatsycamorewherethebeestoilandsing;andsighingshimmeringpoplarsgoldengreyagainsttheblue。ThedayofPersephonehasdawnedforme,andI,setfreelikeDemeter'schild,gladdenmyeyeswiththisforetasteofcomingradiance,andrestmytiredsensewiththescentandsoundofhome。AwaydownthemeadowI
heartheearlyscythesong,andthewarmairisfragrantwiththefallengrass。IthasitsownmessageformeasIliehere,Iwhohaveobtainedyetonemoremercy,andtheburdenofitislife,notdeath。
Irememberwhen,takingagracefrommyroad,IhelpedtomowFarmerMarler'sten-acrefield,richinripeupstandinggrass。Themechanismoftheancientreaperhadgivenwayunderthestrainofthehomemeadows,andifthiscropwastobesaveditmustbebyhand。IhavekepttherecordofthosedaysofjoyouslabourunderaJunesky。Menwerehardtogetinourvillage;oldDodden,whowasoverseventy,volunteeredhisservices-hehaddoneyeomanworkwiththescytheinhisyouth-andtwoofthefarmhandswiththeirmastercompletedourstrength。
Wetookourplacesunderafiveo'clockmorningsky,andthelarkscrieddowntousaswestoodknee-deepinthefragrantdew-steepedgrass,eachmanwithhisgleamingscythepoisedreadyforitssweepingswing。OldDoddenledbyrightofageandripeexperience;bentlikeasickle,brownanddryasanut,hisfaceatraceryofinnumerablewrinkles,hehasneverailedaday,andthecunningofhiscraftwasstillwithhim。Atfirstweworkedstiffly,unreadily,butsoonthemonotonousmotionpossesseduswithitsinsistentrhythm,andthegrassbowedtoeachsibilantswishandfellinsweet-smellingswathesatourfeet。Nowandthenastartledrabbitscurriedthroughtheminiatureforesttovanishwithwhiteflickoftailinthetangledhedge;hereandthereamotherlarkwasdiscoveredsittingmotionless,immovableuponherlittlebrood;butsavefortheseinfrequentincidentswepacedsteadilyonwithnospeechsavethecryofthehoneonthesteelandtheswishofthefallingswathes。Thesunrosehighintheheavenandburntonbentneckandbareandachingarms,thebloodbeatanddrummedinmyveinswiththeunwontedpostureandexercise;Iworkedasamanwhoseesandhearsinamist。Once,asIpausedtowhetmyscythe,myeyecaughtthelineoftheuntroubledhillsstrongandstillinthebroadsunshine;thentoworkagaininthelabouring,fertilevalley。
Resttimecame,andwipingthesweatfrombrowandbladewesoughtthewelcomeshadowofthehedgeandthecoolsweetoatmealwaterwithwhichthewisereaperquencheshisthirst。FarmerMarlerhastenedofftoseewithmaster-eyethatallwentwellelsewhere;
thefarmmenslepttranquilly,stretchedatfulllength,claspedhandsforpillow;andoldDodden,sittingwithcrookedfingersinterlacedtochecktheirtremblingbetrayalofoldage,toldhowinhisyouthhehad"swep"afour-acrefieldsingle-handedinthreedays-analmostimpossiblefeat-andofthefirstreapingmachineintheseparts,andhowitbrought,tohisthinking,theruinofagriculturalmoralswithit。"'Tisagainnature,"hesaid,"theLardgaveusthelandan'theseed,but'Eesaidthatamanshouldsweat。Where'sthesweatdrivin'roundwi'twohorsescuttin'thestrawdownan'gatherin'itagain,wi'scarceahand'sturni'theday'swork?"
OldDodden'shigh-pitchedquaveringvoiceroseandfell,mournfulashesurveyedthepresent,vehementasherecordedtheheroicpast。Hespokeoftheruralexodusandshookhisheadmournfully。
"Weold'unswerecontentwi'earthandtheopenskylikeourfeythersbeforeus,butwi'thechildren'tisfirstmachinestosavedoin'ahand'sturno'honestwork,an'thenlandan'skyain'tbigenoughseemin'ly,norgrandenough;itmustbetownan'apavedstreet,an'theysweattheirlivesoutatwixtfourwallsan'
callitseein'life-'tisdeathan'worsecomestothemostof'em。Ay,'tisbettertostaybytheland,astheLardsaid,tilltimecomestolieunderit。"Ilookedawayacrossthefieldwherethehotairthrobbedandquivered,andthefallengrass,robbedalreadyofitsfreshness,layproneatthefeetofitsupstandingfellows。ItisquiteuselesstoarguewitholdDodden;heonlyshakeshisheadandsaysfirmly,"Anoldman,seventy-fivecomeMartinmassknowsmoreo'lifethanayoungchap,standsterreason";besides,hisepitomeofthetownlifeheknowsnothingofwasajustoneasfarasitwent;andhisownsonisthesweeperofaHolborncrossing,andmanyotherthingsthatheshouldnotbe;
butthatistheparson'ssecretandmine。
Wetookrankagainandsweptsteadilyonthroughthehotstillhoursintotheeveningshadows,untilthesinkingsunsetaGLORIA
tothepsalmofanotherworkingday。Onlyathirdofthefieldlaymown,forwewerenotskilledlabourerstocutouracreaday;I
sawitagainthatnightunderthemoonlightandthestarlight,wrappedinashroudofsummer'smist。
Thewomenjoinedusonthethirddaytobeginhaymaking,andtheairwasfragrantoftossedandsun-driedgrass。Oneofthemwalkedapartfromtherest,withoutinterestorfreedomofmovement;herface,sealedandimpassive,wasagedbeyondthevigourofheryears。Iknewthewomanbysight,andherhistorybyhearsay。Wehaveacodeofmoralshere-notindeedpeculiartothisplaceorpeople-thataweddingis'respectable'ifitprecedeschild-birthbyabaremonth,tolerable,andtoberecognised,shoulditsucceedthesamebylessthanayear(providedthepairarenotlivinginthesamevillage);butthechildthathasneverbeen'fathered'andthewifewithoutaringare'anathema,'andsuchinonewasElizabethBanks。Shewentawayamaidandcamebackayearagowithachildandwithoutaname。Hermotherwasdead,herfatherandthevillagewouldhavenoneofher:thehominginstinctisverystrong,orshewouldscarcelyhavereturned,knowingthetraditionsoftheplace。OldDodden,seeingher,grumbledtomeintherest-time-"Can'tthinkwhatthefarmerwantswi'LizzieBanksin'isfield。""Shemustlive,"Isaid,"andbyallshowingherlifeisahardone。""She'adthemakin'of'erbed,"hewenton,obstinately。"Whatfordoshebringherdisgracehome,wi'afatherlessbratforallfolkstosee?Wedon'twantthemsortinourvillage。TheLord'shandisheavy,an'abrat'sacursethatcannotbehid。"
Whentea-timecameIcrossedthefieldtolookforamissinghone,andsawElizabethBanksfarfromtheotherwomen,busiedwithabundleunderthehedge。Ipassedcloseonmysearch,andlo!thebundlewasalittleboy。Helaysmilingandstretching,fightingtheairwithhissmallpinkfists,whilethewindplayedwithhiscurls。"Acursethatcannotbehid,"oldDoddenhadsaid。Themotherkneltamoment,devouringhimwithhereyes,thensnatchedhimtoherwithachinggreedandcoveredhimwithkisses。Isawthepoor,plainfaceillumined,transfigured,alivewithamother'slove,andrememberedhowthewordcameoncetoaHebrewprophet:-
SayuntoyourbrethrenAmmi,andtoyoursistersRuhamah。
Theeveningskywascloudingfast,thesoundofrainwasintheair;FarmerMarlershookhisheadashelookedatthegrasslyinginorderedrows。Iwasthelasttoleave,andasIlingeredatthegatedrinkinginthescentofthefieldandthecoolofthecomingrain,thefirstdropsfellonmyupturnedfaceandkissedthepoordryswathesatmyfeet,andIwasglad。
David,childofthefieldsandthesheepfolds,hiskingshiplaidaside,seesthroughthepartedcurtainoftheyearstheadventofhisgreaterSon,andcriesinhispsalmofthehilltops,hislastpropheticprayer:-
Heshallcomedownlikerainuponthemowngrass。
EvensoHecame,andshallstillcome。Threedaysagothefield,initspageantoffreshbeauty,withshimmeringbladesandtossingbanners,greetedsunandshoweralikewithjoyforthefurtheranceofitslifeandpurpose;now,laidlow,ithearstheyounggrasswhisperthesplendourofitscominggreen;andthepoorswathesaregladatthetelling,butfullofgrieffortheirownapparentfailure。Theningreatpitycomestherain,therainofsummer,gentle,refreshing,penetrating,andtheswathesarecomforted,fortheyknowthatstandingtogreetorprostratetosuffer,theconsolationsoftheformerandthelatterrainarestilltheirown,withtendertouchandcoolcaress。Then,oncemoreparchedbythesun,theyareborneawaytothenewservicetheirapparentfailurehasfittedthemfor;andperhapsastheywaitinthedarkfortheunknownthatisstilltocometheyhearsometimesthecallofthedistantrain,andatthesoundthedrysapstirsafresh-theyarenotforgottenandcanwait。
"SAYUNTOYOURSISTERSRUHAMAH,"criestheprophet。
"HESHALLCOMEDOWNLIKERAINONTHEMOWNGRASS,"sangthepoetofthesheepfolds。
"MYWAYSARENOTYOURWAYS,SAITHTHELORD。"
IrememberhowIwenthomealongthedampsweet-scentedlanesthroughthegreymistoftherain,thinkingofthemownfieldandElizabethBanksandmany,manymore;andthatnight,whentheskyhadclearedandthenightingalesang,Ilookedoutatthemoonridingatanchor,asilverboatinastillblueseaablazewiththeheadlightsofthestars,andthesayingoftheherdsmanofTekoacametome-asithascomeoftentimessince:-
SeekHimthatmakeththesevenstarsandOrion,andturneththeshadowofdeathintothemorning,andmakeththedaydarkwithnight;thatcallethforthewatersoftheseaandpoureththemoutuponthefaceofearth;theLordisHisname。
CHAPTERII
THISgardenisanepitomeofpeace;sunandwind,rain,flowers,andbirdsgathermeintotheblessednessoftheiractiveharmony。
Theworldholdsnowishforme,nowthatIhavecomehometodiewithmyownpeople,forverifyIthinkthatthesapofgrassandtreesmustruninmyveins,sosteadyistheirpulluponmyheart-
strings。Londonclaimedallmyphilosophy,butthecountrygivesall,andasksofmeonlythewarmreceptivityofachildinitsmother'sarms。
WhenIlieinmycoollightroomonthegardenlevel,Ilookacrossthebrightgrass-ILVERDESMALTO-toagreatredrosebushinlavishdisarrayagainstthedarkcypress。Nearby,amidatangleofmany-huedcorn-flowersIseethepromiseofcominglilies,thesuddencrimsonofasolitarypaeony;andinlowlierstateagainstthepoorparchedearthglowthegoldencupsoftheeschseholtzias。
Beyondthelowhedgeliespasturebrightwithbuttercups,wherethecattlefeed。Fartheroff,wherethescythehasbeenbusy,aresheep,cleanandshorn,withmerry,well-grownlambs;andinthefarthestfieldIcanseethegreathorsesmovinginslowsteadypaceasthefarmerturnshisfurrow。
Thebirdsarenoisycomradesandoldfriends,fromthelarkwhichchantsthedew-steepedmorning,tothenightingalethatbreaksthesilenceofthemostwonderfulnights。Ihearthewisdomoftherooksinthegreatelms;theliftingliltofthelinnet,andtherobin'squaintlittlesummersong。Thestarlingschatterceaselessly,theirqueerstridentvoicesharshagainstthemelodiousgossipoftheotherbirds;themartinsshrillsoftlyastheyswooptoandfrobusiedwiththeirnestingunderthecaves;
thrushandblackbirdvieinfriendlyrivalryliketheMeister-
singerofold;sometimesIhearthedrawlingcryofapeacockstrayedfromthegreathouse,orthelaughofthewoodpecker;andatnightthehuntingnoteoftheowlreachesmeashesweepsbyinsearchofprey。
To-dayIamoutagain;andthegreatsycamoreshowershoneyandflowersonmeasIliebeneathit。Sometimesabeefallslikeanover-ripefruit,andwaitsawhiletocleanhispollen-coatedlegsereheflieshometodischargehisburden。Heistoobusytobefriendly,buthisgreatvelvetycousinismuchmoresociable,andstaysforagentlerubbetweenhisnoisyshimmeringwings,andanapinthehollowofmyhand,forheisanidlefriendlysoulwithplentyoftimeathisowndisposalandnoresponsibilities。
LookingacrossIcanwatchthemartinsatwork;theyhaveastarlingandasparrowfornearneighboursinthewoodengutter。
Onenestisalreadycompleteallbutthecoping,theothertwoarea-building:IwonderwhetherIortheywillbefirsttogosouththroughthemist。
Thisgreattreeisaworldinitself,andthedenizensappearfullofcuriosityastotheGulliverwhohastakenuphisabodebeneathit。Palegreencaterpillarsandspidersofallsizescomespinningdowntovisitme,andhavetobepersuadedwithinfinitedifficultytoascendtheirthreadsagain。Thereareflieswithbeautifuliridescentwings,beetlesofallshapes,someofthemliketinyjewelsinthesunlight。Theirnomenclatureisasealedbooktome;
oftheirlifeandhabitsIknownothing;yetthisisbutalittlecornerofthecosmosIamleaving,andIfeelnotsomuchdesireforthebeautytocome,asagreatlongingtoopenmyeyesalittlewiderduringthetimewhichremainstomeinthisbeautifulworldofGod'smaking,whereeachmomenttellsitsowntaleofactive,progressivelifeinwhichthereisnoundoing。NatureknowsnaughtofthewebofPenelope,thatacmeofanxiouspatheticwaiting,butgoessteadilyonineverwideningcircletowardsthefulfilmentofthemysteryofGod。
Thereare,Itakeit,twomaster-keystothesecretsoftheuniverse,viewedSUBSPECIEAETERNITATIS,theIncarnationofGod,andthePersonalityofMan;withtheseitistrueforusasforthepantheisticlittlemanofcontemptiblespeech,that"allthingsareours,"yea,evenuntothethirdheaven。
Ihavelostmyvoraciousappetiteforbooks;theirlanguageislessplainthanscentandsongandthewindinthetrees;andformethecluetothenextworldliesinthewisdomofearthratherthaninthelearningofmen。"LIBERAMEABFUSCINAHOPHNI,"prayedthegoodBishopfearfulofreligiousgreed。Iknowtoomuch,nottoolittle;itisrealisationthatIlack,whereforeIdesiretheselastdaystoconfirminmyselfthesustaininggoodnessofGod,thelovewhichisourcontinuingcity,theNewJerusalemwhoselength,breadth,andheightareallone。Itisatimeofexceedingpeace。
Thereisaplacewaitingformeunderthefirsinthequietchurchyard;thankstomypovertyIhavenoworldlyanxietiesorpersonaldispositions;andIamrichinfriends,manyofthemunknowntome,wholavishlysupplymyneedsandmakeitidealtoliveonthecharityofone'sfellow-men。Iammostgladlyindebttoalltheworld;andtoEarth,mymother,forhergreatbeauty。
IcanneverrememberthetimewhenIdidnotloveher,thismotherofminewithherwonderfulgarmentsandorderedloveliness,hertendercareandpatientbearingofman'sburden。IntheearliestdaysofmylonelychildhoodIusedtoliechinonhandamidthemilkmaids,redsorrel,andheavyspear-grasslisteningtohermanyvoices,andabovealltothevoiceofthelittlebrookwhichranthroughthemeadowswhereIusedtoplay:Ithinkithasrunthroughmywholelifealso,toloseitselfatlast,notinthegreatseabutintheriverthatmakethgladtheCityofGod。
Valleyandplain,mountainandfruitfulfield;thelark'ssongandthespeedwellinthegrass;surelyamanneednotsighforgreaterlovelinessuntilhehasreadsomethingmoreofthislivingletter,andkneltbeforethatearthofwhichheistheonlyconfusion。
Itisagravematterthatthewordreligionholdssuchawayamongus,makingtheverygapseemtoyawnagainwhichtheIncarnationonceandforeverfilledfull。Wehavebanishedtheprotectinggodsthatruledinriverandmountain,treeandgrove;wehavegainsayedforthemostpartfolk-loreandmyth,superstitionandfairy-tale,evilonlyintheirabuse。Wehavedoneawaywithmystery,ornameditdeceit。Allthiswehavedoneinanenlightenedage,butdespitethispolicyofdestructionwehaveleftourselvesabelief,thegrandestandmostsimpletheworldhaseverknown,whichsanctifiesthewaterthatisshedbyeverypassingcloud;andgathersupinitsgreatcentralactvineyardandcornfield,proclaimingthemtobethatLifeoftheworldwithoutwhichamanisdeadwhileheliveth。Further,itisabeliefwhosefoundationsarethemostheavenlymysteryoftheTrinity,butwhosecentreisalittleChild:itsetsapriceupontheheadofthesparrow,andreckonstherichesofthisworldattheirtruevalue;