DEPROFUNDIS
I
"Percussussumsicutfoenum,etaruitcormeum。"
—Ps。ciWintertimenighs;
Butmybereavement—painItcannotbringagain:
Twicenoonedies。
Flower—petalsflee;
But,sinceitoncehathbeen,NomorethatseveringsceneCanharrowme。
Birdsfaintindread:
IshallnotloseoldstrengthInthelonefrost'sblacklength:
Strengthlongsincefled!
Leavesfreezetodun;
ButfriendscannotturncoldThisseasonasofoldForhimwithnone。
Tempestsmayscath;
ButlovecannotmakesmartAgainthisyearhisheartWhonohearthath。
Blackisnight'scope;
ButdeathwillnotappalOnewho,pastdoubtingsall,Waitsinunhope。
DEPROFUNDIS
II
"Considerabamaddexteram,etvidebam;etnoneratquicognosceretmeNonestquirequiratanimammeam。"—Ps。cxli。
Whentheclouds'swolnbosomsechobacktheshoutsofthemanyandstrongThatthingsareallastheybestmaybe,saveafewtoberighterelong,Andmyeyeshavenotthevisioninthemtodiscernwhattotheseissoclear,Theblotseemsstraightwayinmealone;onebetterhewerenothere。
Thestoutupstanderssay,All'swellwithus:ruershavenoughttorue!
Andwhatthepotentsaysooft,canitfailtobesomewhattrue?
Breezilygothey,breezilycome;theirdustsmokesaroundtheircareer,TillIthinkIamonehornoutofduetime,whohasnocallinghere。
Theirdawnsbringlustyjoys,itseems;theirevesexultancesweet;
Ourtimesareblessedtimes,theycry:Lifeshapesitasismostmeet,Andnothingismuchthematter;therearemanysmilestoatear;
ThenwhatisthematterisI,Isay。Whyshouldsuchanonebehere?……
Lethimtowhoseearsthelow—voicedBestseemsstilledbytheclashoftheFirst,WhoholdsthatifwaytotheBettertherebe,itexactsafulllookattheWorst,Whofeelsthatdelightisadelicategrowthcrampedbycrookedness,custom,andfear,Gethimupandbegoneasoneshapedawry;hedisturbstheorderhere。
1895—96。
DEPROFUNDIS
III
"Heumihi,quiaincolatusmeusprolongatusest!HabitavicumhabitantibusCedar;multumincolafuitaniniamea。"—Ps。cxix。
TherehavebeentimeswhenIwellmighthavepassedandtheendinghavecome
Pointsinmypathwhenthedarkmighthavestolenonme,artless,unrueing
EreIhadlearntthattheworldwasawelteroffutiledoing:
SuchhadbeentimeswhenIwellmighthavepassed,andtheendinghavecome!
Say,onthenoonwhenthehalf—sunnyhourstoldthatAprilwasnigh,AndIupgatheredandcastforththesnowfromthecrocus—border,Fashionedandfurbishedthesoilintoasummer—seemingorder,GlowingingladsomefaiththatIquickenedtheyearthereby。
Oronthatloneliestofeveswhenafarandbenightedwestood,ShewhoupheldmeandI,inthemidmostofEgdontogether,ConfidentIinherwatchingandwardthroughtheblackeningheather,Deeminghermatchlessinmightandwithmeasurelessscopeendued。
Oronthatwinter—wildnightwhen,reclinedbythechimney—nookquoin,Slowlyadrowseovergatme,thesmallestandfeeblestoffolkthere,Weakfrommybaptismofpain;whenattimesandanonIawokethere
Heardofaworldwheelingon,withnolistingorlongingtojoin。
Eventhen!whileunweetingthatvisioncouldvexorthatknowledgecouldnumb,Thatsweetstothemouthinthebellyarebitter,andtart,anduntoward,Then,onsomedim—colouredsceneshouldmybrieflyraisedcurtainhavelowered,ThenmighttheVoicethatislawhavesaid"Cease!"andtheendinghavecome。
1896。
THECHURCH—BUILDER
I
ThechurchflingsforthabattledshadeOverthemoon—blanchedsward;
Thechurch;mygift;wheretoIpaidMyallinhandandhoard:
LavishedmygainsWithstintlesspainsToglorifytheLord。
II
IsquaredthebroadfoundationsinOfashlaredmasonry;
Imouldedmullionsthickandthin,Hewedfilletandogee;
IcircletedEachsculpturedheadWithnimbandcanopy。
III
IcalledinmanyacraftsmasterTofixemblazonedglass,TofigureCrossandSepulchreOndossal,boss,andbrass。
Mygoldallspent,MyjewelswentTogemthecupsofMass。
IV
IborroweddeeptocarvethescreenAndraisetheivoriedRood;
IpartedwithmysmalldemesneTomakemyowingsgood。
Heir—loomsunpricedIsacrificed,Untildebt—freeIstood。
V
Soclosedthetask。"DeathlesstheCreedHeresubstanced!"saidmysoul:
"Iheardmebiddentothisdeed,Andstraightobeyedthecall。
Illumethisfane,ThatnotinvainIbuildit,Lordofall!"
VI
But,asitchancedme,thenandthereDiddiremisfortunesburst;
Myhomewentwasteforlackofcare,Mysonsrebelledandcurst;
TillIconfessedThataimsthebestWerelookingliketheworst。
VII
EnkindledbymyvotiveworkNoburningfaithIfind;
Thedeeperthinkerssneerandsmirk,Andgivemytoilnomind;
FromnodandwinkIreadtheythinkThatIamfoolandblind。
VIII
MygifttoGodseemsfutile,quite;
Theworldmovesaserstwhile;
AndpowerfulwrongonfeeblerightTramplesinoldenstyle。
Myfaithburnsdown,Iseenocrown;
ButCares,andGriefs,andGuile。
IX
Sonow,theremedy?Yea,this:
IgentlyswingthedoorHere,ofmyfane—nosoultowis
AndcrossthepatternedfloorTotherood—screenThatstandsbetweenThenaveandinnerchore。