Theoldcrone“nichered”alaughunderherbonnetandbandage;shethendrewoutashortblackpipe,andlightingitbegantosmoke。Havingindulgedawhileinthissedative,sheraisedherbentbody,tookthepipefromherlips,andwhilegazingsteadilyatthefire,saidverydeliberately—“Youarecold;youaresick;andyouaresilly。”
“Proveit,”Irejoined。
“Iwill,infewwords。Youarecold,becauseyouarealone:nocontactstrikesthefirefromyouthatisinyou。Youaresick;becausethebestoffeelings,thehighestandthesweetestgiventoman,keepsfarawayfromyou。Youaresilly,because,sufferasyoumay,youwillnotbeckonittoapproach,norwillyoustironesteptomeetitwhereitwaitsyou。”
Sheagainputhershortblackpipetoherlips,andrenewedhersmokingwithvigour。
“Youmightsayallthattoalmostanyonewhoyouknewlivedasasolitarydependentinagreathouse。”
“Imightsayittoalmostanyone:butwoulditbetrueofalmostanyone?”
“Inmycircumstances。”
“Yes;justso,inyourcircumstances:butfindmeanotherpreciselyplacedasyouare。”
“Itwouldbeeasytofindyouthousands。”
“Youcouldscarcelyfindmeone。Ifyouknewit,youarepeculiarlysituated:verynearhappiness;yes,withinreachofit。Thematerialsareallprepared;thereonlywantsamovementtocombinethem。Chancelaidthemsomewhatapart;letthembeonceapproachedandblissresults。”
“Idon’tunderstandenigmas。Inevercouldguessariddleinmylife。”
“Ifyouwishmetospeakmoreplainly,showmeyourpalm。”
“AndImustcrossitwithsilver,Isuppose?”
“Tobesure。”
Igaveherashilling:sheputitintoanoldstocking—footwhichshetookoutofherpocket,andhavingtieditroundandreturnedit,shetoldmetoholdoutmyhand。Idid。Sheachedherfacetothepalm,andporedoveritwithouttouchingit。
“Itistoofine,”saidshe。“Icanmakenothingofsuchahandasthat;almostwithoutlines:besides,whatisinapalm?Destinyisnotwrittenthere。”
“Ibelieveyou,”saidI。
“No,”shecontinued,“itisintheface:ontheforehead,abouttheeyes,inthelinesofthemouth。Kneel,andliftupyourhead。”
“Ah!nowyouarecomingtoreality,”Isaid,asIobeyedher。“Ishallbegintoputsomefaithinyoupresently。”
Ikneltwithinhalfayardofher。Shestirredthefire,sothatarippleoflightbrokefromthedisturbedcoal:theglare,however,asshesat,onlythrewherfaceintodeepershadow:mine,itillumined。
“Iwonderwithwhatfeelingsyoucametometo—night,”shesaid,whenshehadexaminedmeawhile。“Iwonderwhatthoughtsarebusyinyourheartduringallthehoursyousitinyonderroomwiththefinepeopleflittingbeforeyoulikeshapesinamagic—lantern:justaslittlesympatheticcommunionpassingbetweenyouandthemasiftheywerereallymereshadowsofhumanforms,andnottheactualsubstance。”
“Ifeeltiredoften,sleepysometimes,butseldomsad。”
“Thenyouhavesomesecrethopetobuoyyouupandpleaseyouwithwhispersofthefuture?”
“NotI。TheutmostIhopeis,tosavemoneyenoughoutofmyearningstosetupaschoolsomedayinalittlehouserentedbymyself。”
“Ameannutrimentforthespirittoexiston:andsittinginthatwindow—seat(youseeIknowyourhabits)—”
“Youhavelearnedthemfromtheservants。”
“Ah!youthinkyourselfsharp。Well,perhapsIhave:tospeaktruth,Ihaveanacquaintancewithoneofthem,Mrs。Poole—”
IstartedtomyfeetwhenIheardthename。
“Youhave—haveyou?”thoughtI;“thereisdiablerieinthebusinessafterall,then!”
“Don’tbealarmed,”continuedthestrangebeing;“she’sasafehandisMrs。Poole:closeandquiet;anyonemayreposeconfidenceinher。But,asIwassaying:sittinginthatwindow—seat,doyouthinkofnothingbutyourfutureschool?Haveyounopresentinterestinanyofthecompanywhooccupythesofasandchairsbeforeyou?Istherenotonefaceyoustudy?onefigurewhosemovementsyoufollowwithatleastcuriosity?”
“Iliketoobserveallthefacesandallthefigures。”
“Butdoyouneversingleonefromtherest—oritmaybe,two?”
“Idofrequently;whenthegesturesorlooksofapairseemtellingatale:itamusesmetowatchthem。”
“Whattaledoyoulikebesttohear?”
“Oh,Ihavenotmuchchoice!Theygenerallyrunonthesametheme—courtship;andpromisetoendinthesamecatastrophe—marriage。”
“Anddoyoulikethatmonotonoustheme?”
“Positively,Idon’tcareaboutit:itisnothingtome。”
“Nothingtoyou?Whenalady,youngandfulloflifeandhealth,charmingwithbeautyandendowedwiththegiftsofrankandfortune,sitsandsmilesintheeyesofagentlemanyou—”
“Iwhat?”
“Youknow—andperhapsthinkwellof。”
“Idon’tknowthegentlemenhere。Ihavescarcelyinterchangedasyllablewithoneofthem;andastothinkingwellofthem,Iconsidersomerespectable,andstately,andmiddle—aged,andothersyoung,dashing,handsome,andlively:butcertainlytheyareallatlibertytobetherecipientsofwhosesmilestheyplease,withoutmyfeelingdisposedtoconsiderthetransactionofanymomenttome。”
“Youdon’tknowthegentlemenhere?Youhavenotexchangedasyllablewithoneofthem?Willyousaythatofthemasterofthehouse!”
“Heisnotathome。”
“Aprofoundremark!Amostingeniousquibble!HewenttoMillcotethismorning,andwillbebackhereto—nightorto—morrow:doesthatcircumstanceexcludehimfromthelistofyouracquaintance—blothim,asitwere,outofexistence?”
“No;butIcanscarcelyseewhatMr。Rochesterhastodowiththethemeyouhadintroduced。”
“Iwastalkingofladiessmilingintheeyesofgentlemen;andoflatesomanysmileshavebeenshedintoMr。Rochester’seyesthattheyoverflowliketwocupsfilledabovethebrim:haveyouneverremarkedthat?”
“Mr。Rochesterhasarighttoenjoythesocietyofhisguests。”
“Noquestionabouthisright:buthaveyouneverobservedthat,ofallthetalestoldhereaboutmatrimony,Mr。Rochesterhasbeenfavouredwiththemostlivelyandthemostcontinuous?”
“Theeagernessofalistenerquickensthetongueofanarrator。”Isaidthisrathertomyselfthantothegipsy,whosestrangetalk,voice,manner,hadbythistimewrappedmeinakindofdream。Oneunexpectedsentencecamefromherlipsafteranother,tillIgotinvolvedinawebofmystification;andwonderedwhatunseenspirithadbeensittingforweeksbymyheartwatchingitsworkingsandtakingrecordofeverypulse。
“Eagernessofalistener!”repeatedshe:“yes;Mr。Rochesterhassatbythehour,hisearinclinedtothefascinatinglipsthattooksuchdelightintheirtaskofcommunicating;andMr。Rochesterwassowillingtoreceiveandlookedsogratefulforthepastimegivenhim;youhavenoticedthis?”
“Grateful!Icannotrememberdetectinggratitudeinhisface。”
“Detecting!Youhaveanalysed,then。Andwhatdidyoudetect,ifnotgratitude?”
Isaidnothing。
“Youhaveseenlove:haveyounot?—and,lookingforward,youhaveseenhimmarried,andbeheldhisbridehappy?”
“Humph!Notexactly。Yourwitch’sskillisratheratfaultsometimes。”
“Whatthedevilhaveyouseen,then?”
“Nevermind:Icameheretoinquire,nottoconfess。IsitknownthatMr。Rochesteristobemarried?”
“Yes;andtothebeautifulMissIngram。”
“Shortly?”
“Appearanceswouldwarrantthatconclusion:and,nodoubt(though,withanaudacitythatwantschastisingoutofyou,youseemtoquestionit),theywillbeasuperlativelyhappypair。Hemustlovesuchahandsome,noble,witty,accomplishedlady;andprobablysheloveshim,or,ifnothisperson,atleasthispurse。IknowsheconsiderstheRochesterestateeligibletothelastdegree;though(Godpardonme!)Itoldhersomethingonthatpointaboutanhouragowhichmadeherlookwondrousgrave:thecornersofhermouthfellhalfaninch。Iwouldadviseherblackavicedsuitortolookout:ifanothercomes,withalongerorclearerrent—roll,—he’sdished—”
“But,mother,IdidnotcometohearMr。Rochester’sfortune:Icametohearmyown;andyouhavetoldmenothingofit。”
“Yourfortuneisyetdoubtful:whenIexaminedyourface,onetraitcontradictedanother。Chancehasmetedyouameasureofhappiness:thatIknow。IknewitbeforeIcameherethisevening。Shehaslaiditcarefullyononesideforyou。Isawherdoit。Itdependsonyourselftostretchoutyourhand,andtakeitup:butwhetheryouwilldoso,istheproblemIstudy。Kneelagainontherug。”
“Don’tkeepmelong;thefirescorchesme。”
Iknelt。Shedidnotstooptowardsme,butonlygazed,leaningbackinherchair。Shebeganmuttering,—
“Theflameflickersintheeye;theeyeshineslikedew;itlookssoftandfulloffeeling;itsmilesatmyjargon:itissusceptible;impressionfollowsimpressionthroughitsclearsphere;whereitceasestosmile,itissad;anunconsciouslassitudeweighsonthelid:thatsignifiesmelancholyresultingfromloneliness。Itturnsfromme;itwillnotsufferfurtherscrutiny;itseemstodeny,byamockingglance,thetruthofthediscoveriesIhavealreadymade,—todisownthechargebothofsensibilityandchagrin:itsprideandreserveonlyconfirmmeinmyopinion。Theeyeisfavourable。
“Astothemouth,itdelightsattimesinlaughter;itisdisposedtoimpartallthatthebrainconceives;thoughIdaresayitwouldbesilentonmuchtheheartexperiences。Mobileandflexible,itwasneverintendedtobecompressedintheeternalsilenceofsolitude:itisamouthwhichshouldspeakmuchandsmileoften,andhavehumanaffectionforitsinterlocutor。Thatfeaturetooispropitious。
“Iseenoenemytoafortunateissuebutinthebrow;andthatbrowprofessestosay,—‘Icanlivealone,ifself—respect,andcircumstancesrequiremesotodo。Ineednotsellmysoultobuybliss。Ihaveaninwardtreasurebornwithme,whichcankeepmealiveifallextraneousdelightsshouldbewithheld,orofferedonlyatapriceIcannotaffordtogive。’Theforeheaddeclares,‘Reasonsitsfirmandholdsthereins,andshewillnotletthefeelingsburstawayandhurryhertowildchasms。Thepassionsmayragefuriously,liketrueheathens,astheyare;andthedesiresmayimagineallsortsofvainthings:butjudgmentshallstillhavethelastwordineveryargument,andthecastingvoteineverydecision。Strongwind,earthquake—shock,andfiremaypassby:butIshallfollowtheguidingofthatstillsmallvoicewhichinterpretsthedictatesofconscience。’
“Wellsaid,forehead;yourdeclarationshallberespected。Ihaveformedmyplans—rightplansIdeemthem—andinthemIhaveattendedtotheclaimsofconscience,thecounselsofreason。Iknowhowsoonyouthwouldfadeandbloomperish,if,inthecupofblissoffered,butonedregofshame,oroneflavourofremorseweredetected;andIdonotwantsacrifice,sorrow,dissolution—suchisnotmytaste。Iwishtofoster,nottoblight—toearngratitude,nottowringtearsofblood—no,norofbrine:myharvestmustbeinsmiles,inendearments,insweet—Thatwilldo。IthinkIraveinakindofexquisitedelirium。Ishouldwishnowtoprotractthismomentadinfinitum;butIdarenot。SofarIhavegovernedmyselfthoroughly。IhaveactedasIinwardlysworeIwouldact;butfurthermighttrymebeyondmystrength。Rise,MissEyre:leaveme;theplayisplayedout’。”
WherewasI?DidIwakeorsleep?HadIbeendreaming?DidIdreamstill?Theoldwoman’svoicehadchanged:heraccent,hergesture,andallwerefamiliartomeasmyownfaceinaglass—asthespeechofmyowntongue。Igotup,butdidnotgo。Ilooked;Istirredthefire,andIlookedagain:butshedrewherbonnetandherbandagecloseraboutherface,andagainbeckonedmetodepart。Theflameilluminatedherhandstretchedout:rousednow,andonthealertfordiscoveries,Iatoncenoticedthathand。Itwasnomorethewitheredlimbofeldthanmyown;itwasaroundedsupplemember,withsmoothfingers,symmetricallyturned;abroadringflashedonthelittlefinger,andstoopingforward,Ilookedatit,andsawagemIhadseenahundredtimesbefore。AgainIlookedattheface;whichwasnolongerturnedfromme—onthecontrary,thebonnetwasdoffed,thebandagedisplaced,theheadadvanced。
“Well,Jane,doyouknowme?”askedthefamiliarvoice。
“Onlytakeofftheredcloak,sir,andthen—”
“Butthestringisinaknot—helpme。”
“Breakit,sir。”
“There,then—‘Off,yelendings!’”AndMr。Rochestersteppedoutofhisdisguise。
“Now,sir,whatastrangeidea!”
“Butwellcarriedout,eh?Don’tyouthinkso?”
“Withtheladiesyoumusthavemanagedwell。”
“Butnotwithyou?”
“Youdidnotactthecharacterofagipsywithme。”
“WhatcharacterdidIact?Myown?”
“No;someunaccountableone。Inshort,Ibelieveyouhavebeentryingtodrawmeout—orin;youhavebeentalkingnonsensetomakemetalknonsense。Itisscarcelyfair,sir。”
“Doyouforgiveme,Jane?”
“IcannottelltillIhavethoughtitallover。If,onreflection,IfindIhavefallenintonogreatabsurdity,Ishalltrytoforgiveyou;butitwasnotright。”
“Oh,youhavebeenverycorrect—verycareful,verysensible。”
Ireflected,andthought,onthewhole,Ihad。Itwasacomfort;but,indeed,Ihadbeenonmyguardalmostfromthebeginningoftheinterview。SomethingofmasqueradeIsuspected。Iknewgipsiesandfortune—tellersdidnotexpressthemselvesasthisseemingoldwomanhadexpressedherself;besidesIhadnotedherfeignedvoice,heranxietytoconcealherfeatures。ButmymindhadbeenrunningonGracePoole—thatlivingenigma,thatmysteryofmysteries,asIconsideredher。IhadneverthoughtofMr。Rochester。
“Well,”saidhe,“whatareyoumusingabout?Whatdoesthatgravesmilesignify?”
“Wonderandself—congratulation,sir。Ihaveyourpermissiontoretirenow,Isuppose?”
“No;stayamoment;andtellmewhatthepeopleinthedrawing—roomyonderaredoing。”
“Discussingthegipsy,Idaresay。”
“Sitdown!—Letmehearwhattheysaidaboutme。”
“Ihadbetternotstaylong,sir;itmustbeneareleveno’clock。Oh,areyouaware,Mr。Rochester,thatastrangerhasarrivedheresinceyouleftthismorning?”
“Astranger!—no;whocanitbe?Iexpectednoone;ishegone?”
“No;hesaidhehadknownyoulong,andthathecouldtakethelibertyofinstallinghimselfheretillyoureturned。”
“Thedevilhedid!Didhegivehisname?”
“HisnameisMason,sir;andhecomesfromtheWestIndies;fromSpanishTown,inJamaica,Ithink。”
Mr。Rochesterwasstandingnearme;hehadtakenmyhand,asiftoleadmetoachair。AsIspokehegavemywristaconvulsivegrip;thesmileonhislipsfroze:apparentlyaspasmcaughthisbreath。
“Mason!—theWestIndies!”hesaid,inthetoneonemightfancyaspeakingautomatontoenounceitssinglewords;“Mason!—theWestIndies!”hereiterated;andhewentoverthesyllablesthreetimes,growing,intheintervalsofspeaking,whiterthanashes:hehardlyseemedtoknowwhathewasdoing。
“Doyoufeelill,sir?”Iinquired。
“Jane,I’vegotablow;I’vegotablow,Jane!”Hestaggered。
“Oh,leanonme,sir。”
“Jane,youofferedmeyourshoulderoncebefore;letmehaveitnow。”
“Yes,sir,yes;andmyarm。”
Hesatdown,andmademesitbesidehim。Holdingmyhandinbothhisown,hechafedit;gazingonme,atthesametime,withthemosttroubledanddrearylook。
“Mylittlefriend!”saidhe,“IwishIwereinaquietislandwithonlyyou;andtrouble,anddanger,andhideousrecollectionsremovedfromme。”
“CanIhelpyou,sir?—I’dgivemylifetoserveyou。”
“Jane,ifaidiswanted,I’llseekitatyourhands;Ipromiseyouthat。”
“Thankyou,sir。Tellmewhattodo,—I’lltry,atleast,todoit。”
“Fetchmenow,Jane,aglassofwinefromthedining—room:theywillbeatsupperthere;andtellmeifMasoniswiththem,andwhatheisdoing。”
Iwent。Ifoundallthepartyinthedining—roomatsupper,asMr。Rochesterhadsaid;theywerenotseatedattable,—thesupperwasarrangedonthesideboard;eachhadtakenwhathechose,andtheystoodabouthereandthereingroups,theirplatesandglassesintheirhands。Everyoneseemedinhighglee;laughterandconversationweregeneralandanimated。Mr。Masonstoodnearthefire,talkingtoColonelandMrs。Dent,andappearedasmerryasanyofthem。Ifilledawine—glass(IsawMissIngramwatchmefrowninglyasIdidso:shethoughtIwastakingaliberty,Idaresay),andIreturnedtothelibrary。
Mr。Rochester’sextremepallorhaddisappeared,andhelookedoncemorefirmandstern。Hetooktheglassfrommyhand。
“Hereistoyourhealth,ministrantspirit!”hesaid。Heswallowedthecontentsandreturnedittome。“Whataretheydoing,Jane?”
“Laughingandtalking,sir。”
“Theydon’tlookgraveandmysterious,asiftheyhadheardsomethingstrange?”
“Notatall:theyarefullofjestsandgaiety。”
“AndMason?”
“Hewaslaughingtoo。”
“Ifallthesepeoplecameinabodyandspatatme,whatwouldyoudo,Jane?”
“Turnthemoutoftheroom,sir,ifIcould。”
Hehalfsmiled。“ButifIweretogotothem,andtheyonlylookedatmecoldly,andwhisperedsneeringlyamongsteachother,andthendroppedoffandleftmeonebyone,whatthen?Wouldyougowiththem?”
“Iratherthinknot,sir:Ishouldhavemorepleasureinstayingwithyou。”
“Tocomfortme?”
“Yes,sir,tocomfortyou,aswellasIcould。”
“Andiftheylaidyouunderabanforadheringtome?”
“I,probably,shouldknownothingabouttheirban;andifIdid,Ishouldcarenothingaboutit。”
“Then,youcoulddarecensureformysake?”
“Icoulddareitforthesakeofanyfriendwhodeservedmyadherence;asyou,Iamsure,do。”
“Gobacknowintotheroom;stepquietlyuptoMason,andwhisperinhisearthatMr。Rochesteriscomeandwishestoseehim:showhiminhereandthenleaveme。”
“Yes,sir。”
Ididhisbehest。ThecompanyallstaredatmeasIpassedstraightamongthem。IsoughtMr。Mason,deliveredthemessage,andprecededhimfromtheroom:Iusheredhimintothelibrary,andthenIwentupstairs。
Atalatehour,afterIhadbeeninbedsometime,Iheardthevisitorsrepairtotheirchambers:IdistinguishedMr。Rochester’svoice,andheardhimsay,“Thisway,Mason;thisisyourroom。”
Hespokecheerfully:thegaytonessetmyheartatease。Iwassoonasleep。
Chapter20
Ihadforgottentodrawmycurtain,whichIusuallydid,andalsotoletdownmywindow—blind。Theconsequencewas,thatwhenthemoon,whichwasfullandbright(forthenightwasfine),cameinhercoursetothatspaceintheskyoppositemycasement,andlookedinatmethroughtheunveiledpanes,hergloriousgazerousedme。Awakinginthedeadofnight,Iopenedmyeyesonherdisk—silver—whiteandcrystalclear。Itwasbeautiful,buttoosolemn;Ihalfrose,andstretchedmyarmtodrawthecurtain。
GoodGod!Whatacry!
Thenight—itssilence—itsrest,wasrentintwainbyasavage,asharp,ashrillysoundthatranfromendtoendofThornfieldHall。
Mypulsestopped:myheartstoodstill;mystretchedarmwasparalysed。Thecrydied,andwasnotrenewed。Indeed,whateverbeingutteredthatfearfulshriekcouldnotsoonrepeatit:notthewidest—wingedcondorontheAndescould,twiceinsuccession,sendoutsuchayellfromthecloudshroudinghiseyrie。Thethingdeliveringsuchutterancemustrestereitcouldrepeattheeffort。
Itcameoutofthethirdstorey;foritpassedoverhead。Andoverhead—yes,intheroomjustabovemychamber—ceiling—Inowheardastruggle:adeadlyoneitseemedfromthenoise;andahalf—smotheredvoiceshouted—
“Help!help!help!”threetimesrapidly。
“Willnoonecome?”itcried;andthen,whilethestaggeringandstampingwentonwildly,Idistinguishedthroughplankandplaster:—
“Rochester!Rochester!forGod’ssake,come!”
Achamber—dooropened:someoneran,orrushed,alongthegallery。Anotherstepstampedontheflooringaboveandsomethingfell;andtherewassilence。
Ihadputonsomeclothes,thoughhorrorshookallmylimbs;Iissuedfrommyapartment。Thesleeperswereallaroused:ejaculations,terrifiedmurmurssoundedineveryroom;doorafterdoorunclosed;onelookedoutandanotherlookedout;thegalleryfilled。Gentlemenandladiesalikehadquittedtheirbeds;and“Oh!whatisit?”—“Whoishurt?”—“Whathashappened?”—“Fetchalight!”—“Isitfire?”—“Arethererobbers?”—“Whereshallwerun?”wasdemandedconfusedlyonallhands。Butforthemoonlighttheywouldhavebeenincompletedarkness。Theyrantoandfro;theycrowdedtogether:somesobbed,somestumbled:theconfusionwasinextricable。
“WherethedevilisRochester?”criedColonelDent。“Icannotfindhiminhisbed。”
“Here!here!”wasshoutedinreturn。“Becomposed,allofyou:I’mcoming。”
Andthedoorattheendofthegalleryopened,andMr。Rochesteradvancedwithacandle:hehadjustdescendedfromtheupperstorey。Oneoftheladiesrantohimdirectly;sheseizedhisarm:itwasMissIngram。
“Whatawfuleventhastakenplace?”saidshe。“Speak!letusknowtheworstatonce!”
“Butdon’tpullmedownorstrangleme,”hereplied:fortheMissesEshtonwereclingingabouthimnow;andthetwodowagers,invastwhitewrappers,werebearingdownonhimlikeshipsinfullsail。
“All’sright!—all’sright!”hecried。“It’samererehearsalofMuchAdoaboutNothing。Ladies,keepoff,orIshallwaxdangerous。”
Anddangeroushelooked:hisblackeyesdartedsparks。Calminghimselfbyaneffort,headded—
“Aservanthashadthenightmare;thatisall。She’sanexcitable,nervousperson:sheconstruedherdreamintoanapparition,orsomethingofthatsort,nodoubt;andhastakenafitwithfright。Now,then,Imustseeyouallbackintoyourrooms;for,tillthehouseissettled,shecannotbelookedafter。Gentlemen,havethegoodnesstosettheladiestheexample。MissIngram,Iamsureyouwillnotfailinevincingsuperioritytoidleterrors。AmyandLouisa,returntoyournestslikeapairofdoves,asyouare。Mesdames”(tothedowagers),“youwilltakecoldtoadeadcertainty,ifyoustayinthischillgalleryanylonger。”
Andso,bydintofalternatecoaxingandcommanding,hecontrivedtogetthemalloncemoreenclosedintheirseparatedormitories。Ididnotwaittobeorderedbacktomine,butretreatedunnoticed,asunnoticedIhadleftit。
Not,however,togotobed:onthecontrary,Ibegananddressedmyselfcarefully。ThesoundsIhadheardafterthescream,andthewordsthathadbeenuttered,hadprobablybeenheardonlybyme;fortheyhadproceededfromtheroomabovemine:buttheyassuredmethatitwasnotaservant’sdreamwhichhadthusstruckhorrorthroughthehouse;andthattheexplanationMr。Rochesterhadgivenwasmerelyaninventionframedtopacifyhisguests。Idressed,then,tobereadyforemergencies。Whendressed,IsatalongtimebythewindowlookingoutoverthesilentgroundsandsilveredfieldsandwaitingforIknewnotwhat。Itseemedtomethatsomeeventmustfollowthestrangecry,struggle,andcall。
No:stillnessreturned:eachmurmurandmovementceasedgradually,andinaboutanhourThornfieldHallwasagainashushedasadesert。Itseemedthatsleepandnighthadresumedtheirempire。Meantimethemoondeclined:shewasabouttoset。Notlikingtositinthecoldanddarkness,IthoughtIwouldliedownonmybed,dressedasIwas。Ileftthewindow,andmovedwithlittlenoiseacrossthecarpet;asIstoopedtotakeoffmyshoes,acautioushandtappedlowatthedoor。
“AmIwanted?”Iasked。
“Areyouup?”askedthevoiceIexpectedtohear,viz。,mymaster’s。
“Yes,sir。”
“Anddressed?”
“Yes。”
“Comeout,then,quietly。”
Iobeyed。Mr。Rochesterstoodinthegalleryholdingalight。
“Iwantyou,”hesaid:“comethisway:takeyourtime,andmakenonoise。”
Myslipperswerethin:Icouldwalkthemattedfloorassoftlyasacat。Heglidedupthegalleryandupthestairs,andstoppedinthedark,lowcorridorofthefatefulthirdstorey:Ihadfollowedandstoodathisside。
“Haveyouaspongeinyourroom?”heaskedinawhisper。
“Yes,sir。”
“Haveyouanysalts—volatilesalts?Yes。”
“Gobackandfetchboth。”
Ireturned,soughtthespongeonthewashstand,thesaltsinmydrawer,andoncemoreretracedmysteps。Hestillwaited;heheldakeyinhishand:approachingoneofthesmall,blackdoors,heputitinthelock;hepaused,andaddressedmeagain。
“Youdon’tturnsickatthesightofblood?”
“IthinkIshallnot:Ihaveneverbeentriedyet。”
IfeltathrillwhileIansweredhim;butnocoldness,andnofaintness。
“Justgivemeyourhand,”hesaid:“itwillnotdotoriskafaintingfit。”
Iputmyfingersintohis。“Warmandsteady,”washisremark:heturnedthekeyandopenedthedoor。
IsawaroomIrememberedtohaveseenbefore,thedayMrs。Fairfaxshowedmeoverthehouse:itwashungwithtapestry;butthetapestrywasnowloopedupinonepart,andtherewasadoorapparent,whichhadthenbeenconcealed。Thisdoorwasopen;alightshoneoutoftheroomwithin:Iheardthenceasnarling,snatchingsound,almostlikeadogquarrelling。Mr。Rochester,puttingdownhiscandle,saidtome,“Waitaminute,”andhewentforwardtotheinnerapartment。Ashoutoflaughtergreetedhisentrance;noisyatfirst,andterminatinginGracePoole’sowngoblinha!ha!Shethenwasthere。Hemadesomesortofarrangementwithoutspeaking,thoughIheardalowvoiceaddresshim:hecameoutandclosedthedoorbehindhim。
“Here,Jane!”hesaid;andIwalkedroundtotheothersideofalargebed,whichwithitsdrawncurtainsconcealedaconsiderableportionofthechamber。Aneasy—chairwasnearthebed—head:amansatinit,dressedwiththeexceptionofhiscoat;hewasstill;hisheadleantback;hiseyeswereclosed。Mr。Rochesterheldthecandleoverhim;Irecognisedinhispaleandseeminglylifelessface—thestranger,Mason:Isawtoothathislinenononeside,andonearm,wasalmostsoakedinblood。
“Holdthecandle,”saidMr。Rochester,andItookit:hefetchedabasinofwaterfromthewashstand:“Holdthat,”saidhe。Iobeyed。Hetookthesponge,dippeditin,andmoistenedthecorpse—likeface;heaskedformysmelling—bottle,andappliedittothenostrils。Mr。Masonshortlyunclosedhiseyes;hegroaned。Mr。Rochesteropenedtheshirtofthewoundedman,whosearmandshoulderwerebandaged:hespongedawayblood,tricklingfastdown。