Theoldcrone“nichered”alaughunderherbonnetandbandage;shethendrewoutashortblackpipe,andlightingitbegantosmoke。Havingindulgedawhileinthissedative,sheraisedherbentbody,tookthepipefromherlips,andwhilegazingsteadilyatthefire,saidverydeliberately—“Youarecold;youaresick;andyouaresilly。”
  “Proveit,”Irejoined。
  “Iwill,infewwords。Youarecold,becauseyouarealone:nocontactstrikesthefirefromyouthatisinyou。Youaresick;becausethebestoffeelings,thehighestandthesweetestgiventoman,keepsfarawayfromyou。Youaresilly,because,sufferasyoumay,youwillnotbeckonittoapproach,norwillyoustironesteptomeetitwhereitwaitsyou。”
  Sheagainputhershortblackpipetoherlips,andrenewedhersmokingwithvigour。
  “Youmightsayallthattoalmostanyonewhoyouknewlivedasasolitarydependentinagreathouse。”
  “Imightsayittoalmostanyone:butwoulditbetrueofalmostanyone?”
  “Inmycircumstances。”
  “Yes;justso,inyourcircumstances:butfindmeanotherpreciselyplacedasyouare。”
  “Itwouldbeeasytofindyouthousands。”
  “Youcouldscarcelyfindmeone。Ifyouknewit,youarepeculiarlysituated:verynearhappiness;yes,withinreachofit。Thematerialsareallprepared;thereonlywantsamovementtocombinethem。Chancelaidthemsomewhatapart;letthembeonceapproachedandblissresults。”
  “Idon’tunderstandenigmas。Inevercouldguessariddleinmylife。”
  “Ifyouwishmetospeakmoreplainly,showmeyourpalm。”
  “AndImustcrossitwithsilver,Isuppose?”
  “Tobesure。”
  Igaveherashilling:sheputitintoanoldstocking—footwhichshetookoutofherpocket,andhavingtieditroundandreturnedit,shetoldmetoholdoutmyhand。Idid。Sheachedherfacetothepalm,andporedoveritwithouttouchingit。
  “Itistoofine,”saidshe。“Icanmakenothingofsuchahandasthat;almostwithoutlines:besides,whatisinapalm?Destinyisnotwrittenthere。”
  “Ibelieveyou,”saidI。
  “No,”shecontinued,“itisintheface:ontheforehead,abouttheeyes,inthelinesofthemouth。Kneel,andliftupyourhead。”
  “Ah!nowyouarecomingtoreality,”Isaid,asIobeyedher。“Ishallbegintoputsomefaithinyoupresently。”
  Ikneltwithinhalfayardofher。Shestirredthefire,sothatarippleoflightbrokefromthedisturbedcoal:theglare,however,asshesat,onlythrewherfaceintodeepershadow:mine,itillumined。
  “Iwonderwithwhatfeelingsyoucametometo—night,”shesaid,whenshehadexaminedmeawhile。“Iwonderwhatthoughtsarebusyinyourheartduringallthehoursyousitinyonderroomwiththefinepeopleflittingbeforeyoulikeshapesinamagic—lantern:justaslittlesympatheticcommunionpassingbetweenyouandthemasiftheywerereallymereshadowsofhumanforms,andnottheactualsubstance。”
  “Ifeeltiredoften,sleepysometimes,butseldomsad。”
  “Thenyouhavesomesecrethopetobuoyyouupandpleaseyouwithwhispersofthefuture?”
  “NotI。TheutmostIhopeis,tosavemoneyenoughoutofmyearningstosetupaschoolsomedayinalittlehouserentedbymyself。”
  “Ameannutrimentforthespirittoexiston:andsittinginthatwindow—seat(youseeIknowyourhabits)—”
  “Youhavelearnedthemfromtheservants。”
  “Ah!youthinkyourselfsharp。Well,perhapsIhave:tospeaktruth,Ihaveanacquaintancewithoneofthem,Mrs。Poole—”
  IstartedtomyfeetwhenIheardthename。
  “Youhave—haveyou?”thoughtI;“thereisdiablerieinthebusinessafterall,then!”
  “Don’tbealarmed,”continuedthestrangebeing;“she’sasafehandisMrs。Poole:closeandquiet;anyonemayreposeconfidenceinher。But,asIwassaying:sittinginthatwindow—seat,doyouthinkofnothingbutyourfutureschool?Haveyounopresentinterestinanyofthecompanywhooccupythesofasandchairsbeforeyou?Istherenotonefaceyoustudy?onefigurewhosemovementsyoufollowwithatleastcuriosity?”
  “Iliketoobserveallthefacesandallthefigures。”
  “Butdoyouneversingleonefromtherest—oritmaybe,two?”
  “Idofrequently;whenthegesturesorlooksofapairseemtellingatale:itamusesmetowatchthem。”
  “Whattaledoyoulikebesttohear?”
  “Oh,Ihavenotmuchchoice!Theygenerallyrunonthesametheme—courtship;andpromisetoendinthesamecatastrophe—marriage。”
  “Anddoyoulikethatmonotonoustheme?”
  “Positively,Idon’tcareaboutit:itisnothingtome。”
  “Nothingtoyou?Whenalady,youngandfulloflifeandhealth,charmingwithbeautyandendowedwiththegiftsofrankandfortune,sitsandsmilesintheeyesofagentlemanyou—”
  “Iwhat?”
  “Youknow—andperhapsthinkwellof。”
  “Idon’tknowthegentlemenhere。Ihavescarcelyinterchangedasyllablewithoneofthem;andastothinkingwellofthem,Iconsidersomerespectable,andstately,andmiddle—aged,andothersyoung,dashing,handsome,andlively:butcertainlytheyareallatlibertytobetherecipientsofwhosesmilestheyplease,withoutmyfeelingdisposedtoconsiderthetransactionofanymomenttome。”
  “Youdon’tknowthegentlemenhere?Youhavenotexchangedasyllablewithoneofthem?Willyousaythatofthemasterofthehouse!”
  “Heisnotathome。”
  “Aprofoundremark!Amostingeniousquibble!HewenttoMillcotethismorning,andwillbebackhereto—nightorto—morrow:doesthatcircumstanceexcludehimfromthelistofyouracquaintance—blothim,asitwere,outofexistence?”
  “No;butIcanscarcelyseewhatMr。Rochesterhastodowiththethemeyouhadintroduced。”
  “Iwastalkingofladiessmilingintheeyesofgentlemen;andoflatesomanysmileshavebeenshedintoMr。Rochester’seyesthattheyoverflowliketwocupsfilledabovethebrim:haveyouneverremarkedthat?”
  “Mr。Rochesterhasarighttoenjoythesocietyofhisguests。”
  “Noquestionabouthisright:buthaveyouneverobservedthat,ofallthetalestoldhereaboutmatrimony,Mr。Rochesterhasbeenfavouredwiththemostlivelyandthemostcontinuous?”
  “Theeagernessofalistenerquickensthetongueofanarrator。”Isaidthisrathertomyselfthantothegipsy,whosestrangetalk,voice,manner,hadbythistimewrappedmeinakindofdream。Oneunexpectedsentencecamefromherlipsafteranother,tillIgotinvolvedinawebofmystification;andwonderedwhatunseenspirithadbeensittingforweeksbymyheartwatchingitsworkingsandtakingrecordofeverypulse。
  “Eagernessofalistener!”repeatedshe:“yes;Mr。Rochesterhassatbythehour,hisearinclinedtothefascinatinglipsthattooksuchdelightintheirtaskofcommunicating;andMr。Rochesterwassowillingtoreceiveandlookedsogratefulforthepastimegivenhim;youhavenoticedthis?”
  “Grateful!Icannotrememberdetectinggratitudeinhisface。”
  “Detecting!Youhaveanalysed,then。Andwhatdidyoudetect,ifnotgratitude?”
  Isaidnothing。
  “Youhaveseenlove:haveyounot?—and,lookingforward,youhaveseenhimmarried,andbeheldhisbridehappy?”
  “Humph!Notexactly。Yourwitch’sskillisratheratfaultsometimes。”
  “Whatthedevilhaveyouseen,then?”
  “Nevermind:Icameheretoinquire,nottoconfess。IsitknownthatMr。Rochesteristobemarried?”
  “Yes;andtothebeautifulMissIngram。”
  “Shortly?”
  “Appearanceswouldwarrantthatconclusion:and,nodoubt(though,withanaudacitythatwantschastisingoutofyou,youseemtoquestionit),theywillbeasuperlativelyhappypair。Hemustlovesuchahandsome,noble,witty,accomplishedlady;andprobablysheloveshim,or,ifnothisperson,atleasthispurse。IknowsheconsiderstheRochesterestateeligibletothelastdegree;though(Godpardonme!)Itoldhersomethingonthatpointaboutanhouragowhichmadeherlookwondrousgrave:thecornersofhermouthfellhalfaninch。Iwouldadviseherblackavicedsuitortolookout:ifanothercomes,withalongerorclearerrent—roll,—he’sdished—”
  “But,mother,IdidnotcometohearMr。Rochester’sfortune:Icametohearmyown;andyouhavetoldmenothingofit。”
  “Yourfortuneisyetdoubtful:whenIexaminedyourface,onetraitcontradictedanother。Chancehasmetedyouameasureofhappiness:thatIknow。IknewitbeforeIcameherethisevening。Shehaslaiditcarefullyononesideforyou。Isawherdoit。Itdependsonyourselftostretchoutyourhand,andtakeitup:butwhetheryouwilldoso,istheproblemIstudy。Kneelagainontherug。”
  “Don’tkeepmelong;thefirescorchesme。”
  Iknelt。Shedidnotstooptowardsme,butonlygazed,leaningbackinherchair。Shebeganmuttering,—
  “Theflameflickersintheeye;theeyeshineslikedew;itlookssoftandfulloffeeling;itsmilesatmyjargon:itissusceptible;impressionfollowsimpressionthroughitsclearsphere;whereitceasestosmile,itissad;anunconsciouslassitudeweighsonthelid:thatsignifiesmelancholyresultingfromloneliness。Itturnsfromme;itwillnotsufferfurtherscrutiny;itseemstodeny,byamockingglance,thetruthofthediscoveriesIhavealreadymade,—todisownthechargebothofsensibilityandchagrin:itsprideandreserveonlyconfirmmeinmyopinion。Theeyeisfavourable。
  “Astothemouth,itdelightsattimesinlaughter;itisdisposedtoimpartallthatthebrainconceives;thoughIdaresayitwouldbesilentonmuchtheheartexperiences。Mobileandflexible,itwasneverintendedtobecompressedintheeternalsilenceofsolitude:itisamouthwhichshouldspeakmuchandsmileoften,andhavehumanaffectionforitsinterlocutor。Thatfeaturetooispropitious。
  “Iseenoenemytoafortunateissuebutinthebrow;andthatbrowprofessestosay,—‘Icanlivealone,ifself—respect,andcircumstancesrequiremesotodo。Ineednotsellmysoultobuybliss。Ihaveaninwardtreasurebornwithme,whichcankeepmealiveifallextraneousdelightsshouldbewithheld,orofferedonlyatapriceIcannotaffordtogive。’Theforeheaddeclares,‘Reasonsitsfirmandholdsthereins,andshewillnotletthefeelingsburstawayandhurryhertowildchasms。Thepassionsmayragefuriously,liketrueheathens,astheyare;andthedesiresmayimagineallsortsofvainthings:butjudgmentshallstillhavethelastwordineveryargument,andthecastingvoteineverydecision。Strongwind,earthquake—shock,andfiremaypassby:butIshallfollowtheguidingofthatstillsmallvoicewhichinterpretsthedictatesofconscience。’
  “Wellsaid,forehead;yourdeclarationshallberespected。Ihaveformedmyplans—rightplansIdeemthem—andinthemIhaveattendedtotheclaimsofconscience,thecounselsofreason。Iknowhowsoonyouthwouldfadeandbloomperish,if,inthecupofblissoffered,butonedregofshame,oroneflavourofremorseweredetected;andIdonotwantsacrifice,sorrow,dissolution—suchisnotmytaste。Iwishtofoster,nottoblight—toearngratitude,nottowringtearsofblood—no,norofbrine:myharvestmustbeinsmiles,inendearments,insweet—Thatwilldo。IthinkIraveinakindofexquisitedelirium。Ishouldwishnowtoprotractthismomentadinfinitum;butIdarenot。SofarIhavegovernedmyselfthoroughly。IhaveactedasIinwardlysworeIwouldact;butfurthermighttrymebeyondmystrength。Rise,MissEyre:leaveme;theplayisplayedout’。”
  WherewasI?DidIwakeorsleep?HadIbeendreaming?DidIdreamstill?Theoldwoman’svoicehadchanged:heraccent,hergesture,andallwerefamiliartomeasmyownfaceinaglass—asthespeechofmyowntongue。Igotup,butdidnotgo。Ilooked;Istirredthefire,andIlookedagain:butshedrewherbonnetandherbandagecloseraboutherface,andagainbeckonedmetodepart。Theflameilluminatedherhandstretchedout:rousednow,andonthealertfordiscoveries,Iatoncenoticedthathand。Itwasnomorethewitheredlimbofeldthanmyown;itwasaroundedsupplemember,withsmoothfingers,symmetricallyturned;abroadringflashedonthelittlefinger,andstoopingforward,Ilookedatit,andsawagemIhadseenahundredtimesbefore。AgainIlookedattheface;whichwasnolongerturnedfromme—onthecontrary,thebonnetwasdoffed,thebandagedisplaced,theheadadvanced。
  “Well,Jane,doyouknowme?”askedthefamiliarvoice。
  “Onlytakeofftheredcloak,sir,andthen—”
  “Butthestringisinaknot—helpme。”
  “Breakit,sir。”
  “There,then—‘Off,yelendings!’”AndMr。Rochestersteppedoutofhisdisguise。
  “Now,sir,whatastrangeidea!”
  “Butwellcarriedout,eh?Don’tyouthinkso?”
  “Withtheladiesyoumusthavemanagedwell。”
  “Butnotwithyou?”
  “Youdidnotactthecharacterofagipsywithme。”
  “WhatcharacterdidIact?Myown?”
  “No;someunaccountableone。Inshort,Ibelieveyouhavebeentryingtodrawmeout—orin;youhavebeentalkingnonsensetomakemetalknonsense。Itisscarcelyfair,sir。”
  “Doyouforgiveme,Jane?”
  “IcannottelltillIhavethoughtitallover。If,onreflection,IfindIhavefallenintonogreatabsurdity,Ishalltrytoforgiveyou;butitwasnotright。”
  “Oh,youhavebeenverycorrect—verycareful,verysensible。”
  Ireflected,andthought,onthewhole,Ihad。Itwasacomfort;but,indeed,Ihadbeenonmyguardalmostfromthebeginningoftheinterview。SomethingofmasqueradeIsuspected。Iknewgipsiesandfortune—tellersdidnotexpressthemselvesasthisseemingoldwomanhadexpressedherself;besidesIhadnotedherfeignedvoice,heranxietytoconcealherfeatures。ButmymindhadbeenrunningonGracePoole—thatlivingenigma,thatmysteryofmysteries,asIconsideredher。IhadneverthoughtofMr。Rochester。
  “Well,”saidhe,“whatareyoumusingabout?Whatdoesthatgravesmilesignify?”
  “Wonderandself—congratulation,sir。Ihaveyourpermissiontoretirenow,Isuppose?”
  “No;stayamoment;andtellmewhatthepeopleinthedrawing—roomyonderaredoing。”
  “Discussingthegipsy,Idaresay。”
  “Sitdown!—Letmehearwhattheysaidaboutme。”
  “Ihadbetternotstaylong,sir;itmustbeneareleveno’clock。Oh,areyouaware,Mr。Rochester,thatastrangerhasarrivedheresinceyouleftthismorning?”
  “Astranger!—no;whocanitbe?Iexpectednoone;ishegone?”
  “No;hesaidhehadknownyoulong,andthathecouldtakethelibertyofinstallinghimselfheretillyoureturned。”
  “Thedevilhedid!Didhegivehisname?”
  “HisnameisMason,sir;andhecomesfromtheWestIndies;fromSpanishTown,inJamaica,Ithink。”
  Mr。Rochesterwasstandingnearme;hehadtakenmyhand,asiftoleadmetoachair。AsIspokehegavemywristaconvulsivegrip;thesmileonhislipsfroze:apparentlyaspasmcaughthisbreath。
  “Mason!—theWestIndies!”hesaid,inthetoneonemightfancyaspeakingautomatontoenounceitssinglewords;“Mason!—theWestIndies!”hereiterated;andhewentoverthesyllablesthreetimes,growing,intheintervalsofspeaking,whiterthanashes:hehardlyseemedtoknowwhathewasdoing。
  “Doyoufeelill,sir?”Iinquired。
  “Jane,I’vegotablow;I’vegotablow,Jane!”Hestaggered。
  “Oh,leanonme,sir。”
  “Jane,youofferedmeyourshoulderoncebefore;letmehaveitnow。”
  “Yes,sir,yes;andmyarm。”
  Hesatdown,andmademesitbesidehim。Holdingmyhandinbothhisown,hechafedit;gazingonme,atthesametime,withthemosttroubledanddrearylook。
  “Mylittlefriend!”saidhe,“IwishIwereinaquietislandwithonlyyou;andtrouble,anddanger,andhideousrecollectionsremovedfromme。”
  “CanIhelpyou,sir?—I’dgivemylifetoserveyou。”
  “Jane,ifaidiswanted,I’llseekitatyourhands;Ipromiseyouthat。”
  “Thankyou,sir。Tellmewhattodo,—I’lltry,atleast,todoit。”
  “Fetchmenow,Jane,aglassofwinefromthedining—room:theywillbeatsupperthere;andtellmeifMasoniswiththem,andwhatheisdoing。”
  Iwent。Ifoundallthepartyinthedining—roomatsupper,asMr。Rochesterhadsaid;theywerenotseatedattable,—thesupperwasarrangedonthesideboard;eachhadtakenwhathechose,andtheystoodabouthereandthereingroups,theirplatesandglassesintheirhands。Everyoneseemedinhighglee;laughterandconversationweregeneralandanimated。Mr。Masonstoodnearthefire,talkingtoColonelandMrs。Dent,andappearedasmerryasanyofthem。Ifilledawine—glass(IsawMissIngramwatchmefrowninglyasIdidso:shethoughtIwastakingaliberty,Idaresay),andIreturnedtothelibrary。
  Mr。Rochester’sextremepallorhaddisappeared,andhelookedoncemorefirmandstern。Hetooktheglassfrommyhand。
  “Hereistoyourhealth,ministrantspirit!”hesaid。Heswallowedthecontentsandreturnedittome。“Whataretheydoing,Jane?”
  “Laughingandtalking,sir。”
  “Theydon’tlookgraveandmysterious,asiftheyhadheardsomethingstrange?”
  “Notatall:theyarefullofjestsandgaiety。”
  “AndMason?”
  “Hewaslaughingtoo。”
  “Ifallthesepeoplecameinabodyandspatatme,whatwouldyoudo,Jane?”
  “Turnthemoutoftheroom,sir,ifIcould。”
  Hehalfsmiled。“ButifIweretogotothem,andtheyonlylookedatmecoldly,andwhisperedsneeringlyamongsteachother,andthendroppedoffandleftmeonebyone,whatthen?Wouldyougowiththem?”
  “Iratherthinknot,sir:Ishouldhavemorepleasureinstayingwithyou。”
  “Tocomfortme?”
  “Yes,sir,tocomfortyou,aswellasIcould。”
  “Andiftheylaidyouunderabanforadheringtome?”
  “I,probably,shouldknownothingabouttheirban;andifIdid,Ishouldcarenothingaboutit。”
  “Then,youcoulddarecensureformysake?”
  “Icoulddareitforthesakeofanyfriendwhodeservedmyadherence;asyou,Iamsure,do。”
  “Gobacknowintotheroom;stepquietlyuptoMason,andwhisperinhisearthatMr。Rochesteriscomeandwishestoseehim:showhiminhereandthenleaveme。”
  “Yes,sir。”
  Ididhisbehest。ThecompanyallstaredatmeasIpassedstraightamongthem。IsoughtMr。Mason,deliveredthemessage,andprecededhimfromtheroom:Iusheredhimintothelibrary,andthenIwentupstairs。
  Atalatehour,afterIhadbeeninbedsometime,Iheardthevisitorsrepairtotheirchambers:IdistinguishedMr。Rochester’svoice,andheardhimsay,“Thisway,Mason;thisisyourroom。”
  Hespokecheerfully:thegaytonessetmyheartatease。Iwassoonasleep。
  Chapter20
  Ihadforgottentodrawmycurtain,whichIusuallydid,andalsotoletdownmywindow—blind。Theconsequencewas,thatwhenthemoon,whichwasfullandbright(forthenightwasfine),cameinhercoursetothatspaceintheskyoppositemycasement,andlookedinatmethroughtheunveiledpanes,hergloriousgazerousedme。Awakinginthedeadofnight,Iopenedmyeyesonherdisk—silver—whiteandcrystalclear。Itwasbeautiful,buttoosolemn;Ihalfrose,andstretchedmyarmtodrawthecurtain。
  GoodGod!Whatacry!
  Thenight—itssilence—itsrest,wasrentintwainbyasavage,asharp,ashrillysoundthatranfromendtoendofThornfieldHall。
  Mypulsestopped:myheartstoodstill;mystretchedarmwasparalysed。Thecrydied,andwasnotrenewed。Indeed,whateverbeingutteredthatfearfulshriekcouldnotsoonrepeatit:notthewidest—wingedcondorontheAndescould,twiceinsuccession,sendoutsuchayellfromthecloudshroudinghiseyrie。Thethingdeliveringsuchutterancemustrestereitcouldrepeattheeffort。
  Itcameoutofthethirdstorey;foritpassedoverhead。Andoverhead—yes,intheroomjustabovemychamber—ceiling—Inowheardastruggle:adeadlyoneitseemedfromthenoise;andahalf—smotheredvoiceshouted—
  “Help!help!help!”threetimesrapidly。
  “Willnoonecome?”itcried;andthen,whilethestaggeringandstampingwentonwildly,Idistinguishedthroughplankandplaster:—
  “Rochester!Rochester!forGod’ssake,come!”
  Achamber—dooropened:someoneran,orrushed,alongthegallery。Anotherstepstampedontheflooringaboveandsomethingfell;andtherewassilence。
  Ihadputonsomeclothes,thoughhorrorshookallmylimbs;Iissuedfrommyapartment。Thesleeperswereallaroused:ejaculations,terrifiedmurmurssoundedineveryroom;doorafterdoorunclosed;onelookedoutandanotherlookedout;thegalleryfilled。Gentlemenandladiesalikehadquittedtheirbeds;and“Oh!whatisit?”—“Whoishurt?”—“Whathashappened?”—“Fetchalight!”—“Isitfire?”—“Arethererobbers?”—“Whereshallwerun?”wasdemandedconfusedlyonallhands。Butforthemoonlighttheywouldhavebeenincompletedarkness。Theyrantoandfro;theycrowdedtogether:somesobbed,somestumbled:theconfusionwasinextricable。
  “WherethedevilisRochester?”criedColonelDent。“Icannotfindhiminhisbed。”
  “Here!here!”wasshoutedinreturn。“Becomposed,allofyou:I’mcoming。”
  Andthedoorattheendofthegalleryopened,andMr。Rochesteradvancedwithacandle:hehadjustdescendedfromtheupperstorey。Oneoftheladiesrantohimdirectly;sheseizedhisarm:itwasMissIngram。
  “Whatawfuleventhastakenplace?”saidshe。“Speak!letusknowtheworstatonce!”
  “Butdon’tpullmedownorstrangleme,”hereplied:fortheMissesEshtonwereclingingabouthimnow;andthetwodowagers,invastwhitewrappers,werebearingdownonhimlikeshipsinfullsail。
  “All’sright!—all’sright!”hecried。“It’samererehearsalofMuchAdoaboutNothing。Ladies,keepoff,orIshallwaxdangerous。”
  Anddangeroushelooked:hisblackeyesdartedsparks。Calminghimselfbyaneffort,headded—
  “Aservanthashadthenightmare;thatisall。She’sanexcitable,nervousperson:sheconstruedherdreamintoanapparition,orsomethingofthatsort,nodoubt;andhastakenafitwithfright。Now,then,Imustseeyouallbackintoyourrooms;for,tillthehouseissettled,shecannotbelookedafter。Gentlemen,havethegoodnesstosettheladiestheexample。MissIngram,Iamsureyouwillnotfailinevincingsuperioritytoidleterrors。AmyandLouisa,returntoyournestslikeapairofdoves,asyouare。Mesdames”(tothedowagers),“youwilltakecoldtoadeadcertainty,ifyoustayinthischillgalleryanylonger。”
  Andso,bydintofalternatecoaxingandcommanding,hecontrivedtogetthemalloncemoreenclosedintheirseparatedormitories。Ididnotwaittobeorderedbacktomine,butretreatedunnoticed,asunnoticedIhadleftit。
  Not,however,togotobed:onthecontrary,Ibegananddressedmyselfcarefully。ThesoundsIhadheardafterthescream,andthewordsthathadbeenuttered,hadprobablybeenheardonlybyme;fortheyhadproceededfromtheroomabovemine:buttheyassuredmethatitwasnotaservant’sdreamwhichhadthusstruckhorrorthroughthehouse;andthattheexplanationMr。Rochesterhadgivenwasmerelyaninventionframedtopacifyhisguests。Idressed,then,tobereadyforemergencies。Whendressed,IsatalongtimebythewindowlookingoutoverthesilentgroundsandsilveredfieldsandwaitingforIknewnotwhat。Itseemedtomethatsomeeventmustfollowthestrangecry,struggle,andcall。
  No:stillnessreturned:eachmurmurandmovementceasedgradually,andinaboutanhourThornfieldHallwasagainashushedasadesert。Itseemedthatsleepandnighthadresumedtheirempire。Meantimethemoondeclined:shewasabouttoset。Notlikingtositinthecoldanddarkness,IthoughtIwouldliedownonmybed,dressedasIwas。Ileftthewindow,andmovedwithlittlenoiseacrossthecarpet;asIstoopedtotakeoffmyshoes,acautioushandtappedlowatthedoor。
  “AmIwanted?”Iasked。
  “Areyouup?”askedthevoiceIexpectedtohear,viz。,mymaster’s。
  “Yes,sir。”
  “Anddressed?”
  “Yes。”
  “Comeout,then,quietly。”
  Iobeyed。Mr。Rochesterstoodinthegalleryholdingalight。
  “Iwantyou,”hesaid:“comethisway:takeyourtime,andmakenonoise。”
  Myslipperswerethin:Icouldwalkthemattedfloorassoftlyasacat。Heglidedupthegalleryandupthestairs,andstoppedinthedark,lowcorridorofthefatefulthirdstorey:Ihadfollowedandstoodathisside。
  “Haveyouaspongeinyourroom?”heaskedinawhisper。
  “Yes,sir。”
  “Haveyouanysalts—volatilesalts?Yes。”
  “Gobackandfetchboth。”
  Ireturned,soughtthespongeonthewashstand,thesaltsinmydrawer,andoncemoreretracedmysteps。Hestillwaited;heheldakeyinhishand:approachingoneofthesmall,blackdoors,heputitinthelock;hepaused,andaddressedmeagain。
  “Youdon’tturnsickatthesightofblood?”
  “IthinkIshallnot:Ihaveneverbeentriedyet。”
  IfeltathrillwhileIansweredhim;butnocoldness,andnofaintness。
  “Justgivemeyourhand,”hesaid:“itwillnotdotoriskafaintingfit。”
  Iputmyfingersintohis。“Warmandsteady,”washisremark:heturnedthekeyandopenedthedoor。
  IsawaroomIrememberedtohaveseenbefore,thedayMrs。Fairfaxshowedmeoverthehouse:itwashungwithtapestry;butthetapestrywasnowloopedupinonepart,andtherewasadoorapparent,whichhadthenbeenconcealed。Thisdoorwasopen;alightshoneoutoftheroomwithin:Iheardthenceasnarling,snatchingsound,almostlikeadogquarrelling。Mr。Rochester,puttingdownhiscandle,saidtome,“Waitaminute,”andhewentforwardtotheinnerapartment。Ashoutoflaughtergreetedhisentrance;noisyatfirst,andterminatinginGracePoole’sowngoblinha!ha!Shethenwasthere。Hemadesomesortofarrangementwithoutspeaking,thoughIheardalowvoiceaddresshim:hecameoutandclosedthedoorbehindhim。
  “Here,Jane!”hesaid;andIwalkedroundtotheothersideofalargebed,whichwithitsdrawncurtainsconcealedaconsiderableportionofthechamber。Aneasy—chairwasnearthebed—head:amansatinit,dressedwiththeexceptionofhiscoat;hewasstill;hisheadleantback;hiseyeswereclosed。Mr。Rochesterheldthecandleoverhim;Irecognisedinhispaleandseeminglylifelessface—thestranger,Mason:Isawtoothathislinenononeside,andonearm,wasalmostsoakedinblood。
  “Holdthecandle,”saidMr。Rochester,andItookit:hefetchedabasinofwaterfromthewashstand:“Holdthat,”saidhe。Iobeyed。Hetookthesponge,dippeditin,andmoistenedthecorpse—likeface;heaskedformysmelling—bottle,andappliedittothenostrils。Mr。Masonshortlyunclosedhiseyes;hegroaned。Mr。Rochesteropenedtheshirtofthewoundedman,whosearmandshoulderwerebandaged:hespongedawayblood,tricklingfastdown。