Ithankedherforherconsideratechoice,andasIreallyfeltfatiguedwithmylongjourney,expressedmyreadinesstoretire。Shetookhercandle,andIfollowedherfromtheroom。Firstshewenttoseeifthehall—doorwasfastened;havingtakenthekeyfromthelock,sheledthewayupstairs。Thestepsandbanisterswereofoak;thestaircasewindowwashighandlatticed;bothitandthelonggalleryintowhichthebedroomdoorsopenedlookedasiftheybelongedtoachurchratherthanahouse。Averychillandvault—likeairpervadedthestairsandgallery,suggestingcheerlessideasofspaceandsolitude;andIwasglad,whenfinallyusheredintomychamber,tofinditofsmalldimensions,andfurnishedinordinary,modernstyle。
  WhenMrs。Fairfaxhadbiddenmeakindgood—night,andIhadfastenedmydoor,gazedleisurelyround,andinsomemeasureeffacedtheeerieimpressionmadebythatwidehall,thatdarkandspaciousstaircase,andthatlong,coldgallery,bythelivelieraspectofmylittleroom,Irememberedthat,afteradayofbodilyfatigueandmentalanxiety,Iwasnowatlastinsafehaven。Theimpulseofgratitudeswelledmyheart,andIkneltdownatthebedside,andofferedupthankswherethanksweredue;notforgetting,ereIrose,toimploreaidonmyfurtherpath,andthepowerofmeritingthekindnesswhichseemedsofranklyofferedmebeforeitwasearned。Mycouchhadnothornsinitthatnight;mysolitaryroomnofears。Atoncewearyandcontent,Isleptsoonandsoundly:whenIawokeitwasbroadday。
  Thechamberlookedsuchabrightlittleplacetomeasthesunshoneinbetweenthegaybluechintzwindowcurtains,showingpaperedwallsandacarpetedfloor,sounlikethebareplanksandstainedplasterofLowood,thatmyspiritsroseattheview。Externalshaveagreateffectontheyoung:Ithoughtthatafairereraoflifewasbeginningforme,onethatwastohaveitsflowersandpleasures,aswellasitsthornsandtoils。Myfaculties,rousedbythechangeofscene,thenewfieldofferedtohope,seemedallastir。Icannotpreciselydefinewhattheyexpected,butitwassomethingpleasant:notperhapsthatdayorthatmonth,butatanindefinitefutureperiod。
  Irose;Idressedmyselfwithcare:obligedtobeplain—forIhadnoarticleofattirethatwasnotmadewithextremesimplicity—Iwasstillbynaturesolicitoustobeneat。ItwasnotmyhabittobedisregardfulofappearanceorcarelessoftheimpressionImade:onthecontrary,IeverwishedtolookaswellasIcould,andtopleaseasmuchasmywantofbeautywouldpermit。IsometimesregrettedthatIwasnothandsomer;Isometimeswishedtohaverosycheeks,astraightnose,andsmallcherrymouth;Idesiredtobetall,stately,andfinelydevelopedinfigure;IfeltitamisfortunethatIwassolittle,sopale,andhadfeaturessoirregularandsomarked。AndwhyhadItheseaspirationsandtheseregrets?Itwouldbedifficulttosay:Icouldnotthendistinctlysayittomyself;yetIhadareason,andalogical,naturalreasontoo。However,whenIhadbrushedmyhairverysmooth,andputonmyblackfrock—which,Quakerlikeasitwas,atleasthadthemeritoffittingtoanicety—andadjustedmycleanwhitetucker,IthoughtIshoulddorespectablyenoughtoappearbeforeMrs。Fairfax,andthatmynewpupilwouldnotatleastrecoilfrommewithantipathy。Havingopenedmychamberwindow,andseenthatIleftallthingsstraightandneatonthetoilettable,Iventuredforth。
  Traversingthelongandmattedgallery,Idescendedtheslipperystepsofoak;thenIgainedthehall:Ihaltedthereaminute;Ilookedatsomepicturesonthewalls(one,Iremember,representedagrimmaninacuirass,andonealadywithpowderedhairandapearlnecklace),atabronzelamppendentfromtheceiling,atagreatclockwhosecasewasofoakcuriouslycarved,andebonblackwithtimeandrubbing。Everythingappearedverystatelyandimposingtome;butthenIwassolittleaccustomedtograndeur。Thehall—door,whichwashalfofglass,stoodopen;Isteppedoverthethreshold。Itwasafineautumnmorning;theearlysunshoneserenelyonembrownedgrovesandstillgreenfields;advancingontothelawn,Ilookedupandsurveyedthefrontofthemansion。Itwasthreestoreyshigh,ofproportionsnotvast,thoughconsiderable:agentleman’smanor—house,notanobleman’sseat:battlementsroundthetopgaveitapicturesquelook。Itsgreyfrontstoodoutwellfromthebackgroundofarookery,whosecawingtenantswerenowonthewing:theyflewoverthelawnandgroundstoalightinagreatmeadow,fromwhichthesewereseparatedbyasunkfence,andwhereanarrayofmightyoldthorntrees,strong,knotty,andbroadasoaks,atonceexplainedtheetymologyofthemansion’sdesignation。Fartheroffwerehills:notsoloftyasthoseroundLowood,norsocraggy,norsolikebarriersofseparationfromthelivingworld;butyetquietandlonelyhillsenough,andseemingtoembraceThornfieldwithaseclusionIhadnotexpectedtofindexistentsonearthestirringlocalityofMillcote。Alittlehamlet,whoseroofswereblentwithtrees,straggledupthesideofoneofthesehills;thechurchofthedistrictstoodnearerThornfield:itsoldtower—toplookedoveraknollbetweenthehouseandgates。
  Iwasyetenjoyingthecalmprospectandpleasantfreshair,yetlisteningwithdelighttothecawingoftherooks,yetsurveyingthewide,hoaryfrontofthehall,andthinkingwhatagreatplaceitwasforonelonelylittledamelikeMrs。Fairfaxtoinhabit,whenthatladyappearedatthedoor。
  “What!outalready?”saidshe。“Iseeyouareanearlyriser。”Iwentuptoher,andwasreceivedwithanaffablekissandshakeofthehand。
  “HowdoyoulikeThornfield?”sheasked。ItoldherIlikeditverymuch。
  “Yes,”shesaid,“itisaprettyplace;butIfearitwillbegettingoutoforder,unlessMr。Rochestershouldtakeitintohisheadtocomeandresideherepermanently;or,atleast,visititratheroftener:greathousesandfinegroundsrequirethepresenceoftheproprietor。”
  “Mr。Rochester!”Iexclaimed。“Whoishe?”
  “TheownerofThornfield,”sherespondedquietly。“DidyounotknowhewascalledRochester?”
  OfcourseIdidnot—Ihadneverheardofhimbefore;buttheoldladyseemedtoregardhisexistenceasauniversallyunderstoodfact,withwhicheverybodymustbeacquaintedbyinstinct。
  “Ithought,”Icontinued,“Thornfieldbelongedtoyou。”
  “Tome?Blessyou,child;whatanidea!Tome!Iamonlythehousekeeper—themanager。TobesureIamdistantlyrelatedtotheRochestersbythemother’sside,oratleastmyhusbandwas;hewasaclergyman,incumbentofHay—thatlittlevillageyonderonthehill—andthatchurchnearthegateswashis。ThepresentMr。Rochester’smotherwasaFairfax,andsecondcousintomyhusband:butIneverpresumeontheconnection—infact,itisnothingtome;Iconsidermyselfquiteinthelightofanordinaryhousekeeper:myemployerisalwayscivil,andIexpectnothingmore。”
  “Andthelittlegirl—mypupil!”
  “SheisMr。Rochester’sward;hecommissionedmetofindagovernessforher。Heintendedtohaveherbroughtupin—shire,Ibelieve。Hereshecomes,withher‘bonne,’asshecallshernurse。”Theenigmathenwasexplained:thisaffableandkindlittlewidowwasnogreatdame;butadependantlikemyself。Ididnotlikehertheworseforthat;onthecontrary,Ifeltbetterpleasedthanever。Theequalitybetweenherandmewasreal;notthemereresultofcondescensiononherpart:somuchthebetter—mypositionwasallthefreer。
  AsIwasmeditatingonthisdiscovery,alittlegirl,followedbyherattendant,camerunningupthelawn。Ilookedatmypupil,whodidnotatfirstappeartonoticeme:shewasquiteachild,perhapssevenoreightyearsold,slightlybuilt,withapale,small—featuredface,andaredundancyofhairfallingincurlstoherwaist。
  “Goodmorning,MissAdela,”saidMrs。Fairfax。“Comeandspeaktotheladywhoistoteachyou,andtomakeyouacleverwomansomeday。”Sheapproached。
  “C’estlemagouverante!”saidshe,pointingtome,andaddressinghernurse;whoanswered—
  “Maisoui,certainement。”
  “Aretheyforeigners?”Iinquired,amazedathearingtheFrenchlanguage。
  “Thenurseisaforeigner,andAdelawasbornontheContinent;and,Ibelieve,neverleftittillwithinsixmonthsago。WhenshefirstcamehereshecouldspeaknoEnglish;nowshecanmakeshifttotalkitalittle:Idon’tunderstandher,shemixesitsowithFrench;butyouwillmakeouthermeaningverywell,Idaresay。”
  FortunatelyIhadhadtheadvantageofbeingtaughtFrenchbyaFrenchlady;andasIhadalwaysmadeapointofconversingwithMadamePierrotasoftenasIcould,andhadbesides,duringthelastsevenyears,learntaportionofFrenchbyheartdaily—applyingmyselftotakepainswithmyaccent,andimitatingascloselyaspossiblethepronunciationofmyteacher,Ihadacquiredacertaindegreeofreadinessandcorrectnessinthelanguage,andwasnotlikelytobemuchatalosswithMademoiselleAdela。ShecameandshookhandwithmewhensheheardthatIwashergoverness;andasIledherintobreakfast,Iaddressedsomephrasestoherinherowntongue:sherepliedbrieflyatfirst,butafterwewereseatedatthetable,andshehadexaminedmesometenminuteswithherlargehazeleyes,shesuddenlycommencedchatteringfluently。
  “Ah!”criedshe,inFrench,“youspeakmylanguageaswellasMr。Rochesterdoes:IcantalktoyouasIcantohim,andsocanSophie。Shewillbeglad:nobodyhereunderstandsher:MadameFairfaxisallEnglish。Sophieismynurse;shecamewithmeovertheseainagreatshipwithachimneythatsmoked—howitdidsmoke!—andIwassick,andsowasSophie,andsowasMr。Rochester。Mr。Rochesterlaydownonasofainaprettyroomcalledthesalon,andSophieandIhadlittlebedsinanotherplace。Inearlyfelloutofmine;itwaslikeashelf。AndMademoiselle—whatisyourname?”
  “Eyre—JaneEyre。”
  “Aire?Bah!Icannotsayit。Well,ourshipstoppedinthemorning,beforeitwasquitedaylight,atagreatcity—ahugecity,withverydarkhousesandallsmoky;notatallliketheprettycleantownIcamefrom;andMr。Rochestercarriedmeinhisarmsoveraplanktotheland,andSophiecameafter,andweallgotintoacoach,whichtookustoabeautifullargehouse,largerthanthisandfiner,calledanhotel。Westayedtherenearlyaweek:IandSophieusedtowalkeverydayinagreatgreenplacefulloftrees,calledthePark;andthereweremanychildrentherebesidesme,andapondwithbeautifulbirdsinit,thatIfedwithcrumbs。”
  “Canyouunderstandherwhensherunsonsofast?”askedMrs。Fairfax。
  Iunderstoodherverywell,forIhadbeenaccustomedtothefluenttongueofMadamePierrot。
  “Iwish,”continuedthegoodlady,“youwouldaskheraquestionortwoaboutherparents:Iwonderifsheremembersthem?”
  “Adèle,”Iinquired,“withwhomdidyoulivewhenyouwereinthatprettycleantownyouspokeof?”
  “Ilivedlongagowithmama;butsheisgonetotheHolyVirgin。Mamausedtoteachmetodanceandsing,andtosayverses。Agreatmanygentlemenandladiescametoseemama,andIusedtodancebeforethem,ortositontheirkneesandsingtothem:Ilikedit。ShallIletyouhearmesingnow?”
  Shehadfinishedherbreakfast,soIpermittedhertogiveaspecimenofheraccomplishments。Descendingfromherchair,shecameandplacedherselfonmyknee;then,foldingherlittlehandsdemurelybeforeher,shakingbackhercurlsandliftinghereyestotheceiling,shecommencedsingingasongfromsomeopera。Itwasthestrainofaforsakenlady,who,afterbewailingtheperfidyofherlover,callspridetoheraid;desiresherattendanttodeckherinherbrightestjewelsandrichestrobes,andresolvestomeetthefalseonethatnightataball,andprovetohim,bythegaietyofherdemeanour,howlittlehisdesertionhasaffectedher。
  Thesubjectseemedstrangelychosenforaninfantsinger;butIsupposethepointoftheexhibitionlayinhearingthenotesofloveandjealousywarbledwiththelispofchildhood;andinverybadtastethatpointwas:atleastIthoughtso。
  Adèlesangthecanzonettetunefullyenough,andwiththena?vetéofherage。Thisachieved,shejumpedfrommykneeandsaid,“Now,Mademoiselle,Iwillrepeatyousomepoetry。”
  Assuminganattitude,shebegan,“LaLiguedesRats:fabledeLaFontaine。”Shethendeclaimedthelittlepiecewithanattentiontopunctuationandemphasis,aflexibilityofvoiceandanappropriatenessofgesture,veryunusualindeedatherage,andwhichprovedshehadbeencarefullytrained。
  “Wasityourmamawhotaughtyouthatpiece?”Iasked。
  “Yes,andshejustusedtosayitinthisway:‘Qu’avezvousdonc?luiditundecesrats;parlez!’Shemademeliftmyhand—so—toremindmetoraisemyvoiceatthequestion。NowshallIdanceforyou?”
  “No,thatwilldo:butafteryourmamawenttotheHolyVirgin,asyousay,withwhomdidyoulivethen?”
  “WithMadameFrédéricandherhusband:shetookcareofme,butsheisnothingrelatedtome。Ithinksheispoor,forshehadnotsofineahouseasmama。Iwasnotlongthere。Mr。RochesteraskedmeifIwouldliketogoandlivewithhiminEngland,andIsaidyes;forIknewMr。RochesterbeforeIknewMadameFrédéric,andhewasalwayskindtomeandgavemeprettydressesandtoys:butyouseehehasnotkepthisword,forhehasbroughtmetoEngland,andnowheisgonebackagainhimself,andIneverseehim。”
  Afterbreakfast,AdèleandIwithdrewtothelibrary,whichroom,itappears,Mr。Rochesterhaddirectedshouldbeusedastheschoolroom。Mostofthebookswerelockedupbehindglassdoors;buttherewasonebookcaseleftopencontainingeverythingthatcouldbeneededinthewayofelementaryworks,andseveralvolumesoflightliterature,poetry,biography,travels,afewromances,&c。Isupposehehadconsideredthatthesewereallthegovernesswouldrequireforherprivateperusal;and,indeed,theycontentedmeamplyforthepresent;comparedwiththescantypickingsIhadnowandthenbeenabletogleanatLowood,theyseemedtoofferanabundantharvestofentertainmentandinformation。Inthisroom,too,therewasacabinetpiano,quitenewandofsuperiortone;alsoaneaselforpaintingandapairofglobes。
  Ifoundmypupilsufficientlydocile,thoughdisinclinedtoapply:shehadnotbeenusedtoregularoccupationofanykind。Ifeltitwouldbeinjudicioustoconfinehertoomuchatfirst;so,whenIhadtalkedtoheragreatdeal,andgothertolearnalittle,andwhenthemorninghadadvancedtonoon,Iallowedhertoreturntohernurse。Ithenproposedtooccupymyselftilldinner—timeindrawingsomelittlesketchesforheruse。
  AsIwasgoingupstairstofetchmyportfolioandpencils,Mrs。Fairfaxcalledtome:“Yourmorningschool—hoursareovernow,Isuppose,”saidshe。Shewasinaroomthefolding—doorsofwhichstoodopen:Iwentinwhensheaddressedme。Itwasalarge,statelyapartment,withpurplechairsandcurtains,aTurkeycarpet,walnut—panelledwalls,onevastwindowrichinslantedglass,andaloftyceiling,noblymoulded。Mrs。Fairfaxwasdustingsomevasesoffinepurplespar,whichstoodonasideboard。
  “Whatabeautifulroom!”Iexclaimed,asIlookedround;forIhadneverbeforeseenanyhalfsoimposing。
  “Yes;thisisthedining—room。Ihavejustopenedthewindow,toletinalittleairandsunshine;foreverythinggetssodampinapartmentsthatareseldominhabited;thedrawing—roomyonderfeelslikeavault。”
  Shepointedtoawidearchcorrespondingtothewindow,andhunglikeitwithaTyrian—dyedcurtain,nowloopedup。Mountingtoitbytwobroadsteps,andlookingthrough,IthoughtIcaughtaglimpseofafairyplace,sobrighttomynovice—eyesappearedtheviewbeyond。Yetitwasmerelyaveryprettydrawing—room,andwithinitaboudoir,bothspreadwithwhitecarpets,onwhichseemedlaidbrilliantgarlandsofflowers;bothceiledwithsnowymouldingsofwhitegrapesandvine—leaves,beneathwhichglowedinrichcontrastcrimsoncouchesandottomans;whiletheornamentsonthepalePariainmantelpiecewereofsparklingBohemianglass,rubyred;andbetweenthewindowslargemirrorsrepeatedthegeneralblendingofsnowandfire。
  “Inwhatorderyoukeeptheserooms,Mrs。Fairfax!”saidI。“Nodust,nocanvascoverings:exceptthattheairfeelschilly,onewouldthinktheywereinhabiteddaily。”
  “Why,MissEyre,thoughMr。Rochester’svisitsherearerare,theyarealwayssuddenandunexpected;andasIobservedthatitputhimouttofindeverythingswathedup,andtohaveabustleofarrangementonhisarrival,Ithoughtitbesttokeeptheroomsinreadiness。”
  “IsMr。Rochesteranexacting,fastidioussortofman?”
  “Notparticularlyso;buthehasagentleman’stastesandhabits,andheexpectstohavethingsmanagedinconformitytothem。”
  “Doyoulikehim?Ishegenerallyliked?”
  “Oh,yes;thefamilyhavealwaysbeenrespectedhere。Almostallthelandinthisneighbourhood,asfarasyoucansee,hasbelongedtotheRochesterstimeoutofmind。”
  “Well,but,leavinghislandoutofthequestion,doyoulikehim?Ishelikedforhimself?”
  “Ihavenocausetodootherwisethanlikehim;andIbelieveheisconsideredajustandliberallandlordbyhistenants:buthehasneverlivedmuchamongstthem。”
  “Buthashenopeculiarities?What,inshort,ishischaracter?”
  “Oh!hischaracterisunimpeachable,Isuppose。Heisratherpeculiar,perhaps:hehastravelledagreatdeal,andseenagreatdealoftheworld,Ishouldthink。Idaresayheisclever,butIneverhadmuchconversationwithhim。”
  “Inwhatwayishepeculiar?”
  “Idon’tknow—itisnoteasytodescribe—nothingstriking,butyoufeelitwhenhespeakstoyou;youcannotbealwayssurewhetherheisinjestorearnest,whetherheispleasedorthecontrary;youdon’tthoroughlyunderstandhim,inshort—atleast,Idon’t:butitisofnoconsequence,heisaverygoodmaster。”
  ThiswasalltheaccountIgotfromMrs。Fairfaxofheremployerandmine。Therearepeoplewhoseemtohavenonotionofsketchingacharacter,orobservinganddescribingsalientpoints,eitherinpersonsorthings:thegoodladyevidentlybelongedtothisclass;myqueriespuzzled,butdidnotdrawherout。Mr。RochesterwasMr。Rochesterinhereyes;agentleman,alandedproprietor—nothingmore:sheinquiredandsearchednofurther,andevidentlywonderedatmywishtogainamoredefinitenotionofhisidentity。
  Whenweleftthedining—room,sheproposedtoshowmeovertherestofthehouse;andIfollowedherupstairsanddownstairs,admiringasIwent;forallwaswellarrangedandhandsome。ThelargefrontchambersIthoughtespeciallygrand:andsomeofthethird—storeyrooms,thoughdarkandlow,wereinterestingfromtheirairofantiquity。Thefurnitureonceappropriatedtothelowerapartmentshadfromtimetotimebeenremovedhere,asfashionschanged:andtheimperfectlightenteringbytheirnarrowcasementshowedbedsteadsofahundredyearsold;chestsinoakorwalnut,looking,withtheirstrangecarvingsofpalmbranchesandcherubs’heads,liketypesoftheHebrewark;rowsofvenerablechairs,high—backedandnarrow;stoolsstillmoreantiquated,onwhosecushionedtopswereyetapparenttracesofhalf—effacedembroideries,wroughtbyfingersthatfortwogenerationshadbeencoffin—dust。AlltheserelicsgavetothethirdstoreyofThornfieldHalltheaspectofahomeofthepast:ashrineofmemory。Ilikedthehush,thegloom,thequaintnessoftheseretreatsintheday;butIbynomeanscovetedanight’sreposeononeofthosewideandheavybeds:shutin,someofthem,withdoorsofoak;shaded,others,withwroughtoldEnglishhangingscrustedwiththickwork,portrayingeffigiesofstrangeflowers,andstrangerbirds,andstrangesthumanbeings,—allwhichwouldhavelookedstrange,indeed,bythepallidgleamofmoonlight。
  “Dotheservantssleepintheserooms?”Iasked。
  “No;theyoccupyarangeofsmallerapartmentstotheback;nooneeversleepshere:onewouldalmostsaythat,iftherewereaghostatThornfieldHall,thiswouldbeitshaunt。”
  “SoIthink:youhavenoghost,then?”
  “NonethatIeverheardof,”returnedMrs。Fairfax,smiling。
  “Noranytraditionsofone?nolegendsorghoststories?”
  “Ibelievenot。AndyetitissaidtheRochestershavebeenratheraviolentthanaquietraceintheirtime:perhaps,though,thatisthereasontheyresttranquillyintheirgravesnow。”
  “Yes—‘afterlife’sfitfulfevertheysleepwell,’”Imuttered。“Whereareyougoingnow,Mrs。Fairfax?”forshewasmovingaway。
  “Ontotheleads;willyoucomeandseetheviewfromthence?”Ifollowedstill,upaverynarrowstaircasetotheattics,andthencebyaladderandthroughatrap—doortotheroofofthehall。Iwasnowonalevelwiththecrowcolony,andcouldseeintotheirnests。Leaningoverthebattlementsandlookingfardown,Isurveyedthegroundslaidoutlikeamap:thebrightandvelvetlawncloselygirdlingthegreybaseofthemansion;thefield,wideasapark,dottedwithitsancienttimber;thewood,dunandsere,dividedbyapathvisiblyovergrown,greenerwithmossthanthetreeswerewithfoliage;thechurchatthegates,theroad,thetranquilhills,allreposingintheautumnday’ssun;thehorizonboundedbyapropitioussky,azure,marbledwithpearlywhite。Nofeatureinthescenewasextraordinary,butallwaspleasing。WhenIturnedfromitandrepassedthetrap—door,Icouldscarcelyseemywaydowntheladder;theatticseemedblackasavaultcomparedwiththatarchofblueairtowhichIhadbeenlookingup,andtothatsunlitsceneofgrove,pasture,andgreenhill,ofwhichthehallwasthecentre,andoverwhichIhadbeengazingwithdelight。
  Mrs。Fairfaxstayedbehindamomenttofastenthetrap—door;I,bydriftofgroping,foundtheoutletfromtheattic,andproceededtodescendthenarrowgarretstaircase。Ilingeredinthelongpassagetowhichthisled,separatingthefrontandbackroomsofthethirdstorey:narrow,low,anddim,withonlyonelittlewindowatthefarend,andlooking,withitstworowsofsmallblackdoorsallshut,likeacorridorinsomeBluebeard’scastle。
  WhileIpacedsoftlyon,thelastsoundIexpectedtohearinsostillaregion,alaugh,struckmyear。Itwasacuriouslaugh;distinct,formal,mirthless。Istopped:thesoundceased,onlyforaninstant;itbeganagain,louder:foratfirst,thoughdistinct,itwasverylow。Itpassedoffinaclamorouspealthatseemedtowakeanechoineverylonelychamber;thoughitoriginatedbutinone,andIcouldhavepointedoutthedoorwhencetheaccentsissued。
  “Mrs。Fairfax!”Icalledout:forInowheardherdescendingthegreatstairs。“Didyouhearthatloudlaugh?Whoisit?”
  “Someoftheservants,verylikely,”sheanswered:“perhapsGracePoole。”
  “Didyouhearit?”Iagaininquired。
  “Yes,plainly:Ioftenhearher:shesewsinoneoftheserooms。SometimesLeahiswithher;theyarefrequentlynoisytogether。”
  Thelaughwasrepeatedinitslow,syllabictone,andterminatedinanoddmurmur。
  “Grace!”exclaimedMrs。Fairfax。
  IreallydidnotexpectanyGracetoanswer;forthelaughwasastragic,aspreternaturalalaughasanyIeverheard;and,butthatitwashighnoon,andthatnocircumstanceofghostlinessaccompaniedthecuriouscachinnation;butthatneitherscenenorseasonfavouredfear,Ishouldhavebeensuperstitiouslyafraid。However,theeventshowedmeIwasafoolforentertainingasenseevenofsurprise。
  Thedoornearestmeopened,andaservantcameout,—awomanofbetweenthirtyandforty;aset,square—madefigure,red—haired,andwithahard,plainface:anyapparitionlessromanticorlessghostlycouldscarcelybeconceived。
  “Toomuchnoise,Grace,”saidMrs。Fairfax。“Rememberdirections!”Gracecurtseyedsilentlyandwentin。
  “SheisapersonwehavetosewandassistLeahinherhousemaid’swork,”continuedthewidow;“notaltogetherunobjectionableinsomepoints,butshedoeswellenough。By—the—bye,howhaveyougotonwithyournewpupilthismorning?”
  Theconversation,thusturnedonAdèle,continuedtillwereachedthelightandcheerfulregionbelow。Adèlecamerunningtomeetusinthehall,exclaiming—
  “Mesdames,vousetesservies!”adding,“J’aibienfaim,moi!”
  Wefounddinnerready,andwaitingforusinMrs。Fairfax’sroom。
  Chapter12
  Thepromiseofasmoothcareer,whichmyfirstcalmintroductiontoThornfieldHallseemedtopledge,wasnotbeliedonalongeracquaintancewiththeplaceanditsinmates。Mrs。Fairfaxturnedouttobewhatsheappeared,aplacid—tempered,kind—naturedwoman,ofcompetenteducationandaverageintelligence。Mypupilwasalivelychild,whohadbeenspoiltandindulged,andthereforewassometimeswayward;butasshewascommittedentirelytomycare,andnoinjudiciousinterferencefromanyquartereverthwartedmyplansforherimprovement,shesoonforgotherlittlefreaks,andbecameobedientandteachable。Shehadnogreattalents,nomarkedtraitsofcharacter,nopeculiardevelopmentoffeelingortastewhichraisedheroneinchabovetheordinarylevelofchildhood;butneitherhadsheanydeficiencyorvicewhichsunkherbelowit。Shemadereasonableprogress,entertainedformeavivacious,thoughperhapsnotveryprofound,affection;andbyhersimplicity,gayprattle,andeffortstoplease,inspiredme,inreturn,withadegreeofattachmentsufficienttomakeusbothcontentineachother’ssociety。
  This,parparenthèse,willbethoughtcoollanguagebypersonswhoentertainsolemndoctrinesabouttheangelicnatureofchildren,andthedutyofthosechargedwiththeireducationtoconceiveforthemanidolatrousdevotion:butIamnotwritingtoflatterparentalegotism,toechocant,orpropuphumbug;Iammerelytellingthetruth。IfeltaconscientioussolicitudeforAdèle’swelfareandprogress,andaquietlikingforherlittleself:justasIcherishedtowardsMrs。Fairfaxathankfulnessforherkindness,andapleasureinhersocietyproportionatetothetranquilregardshehadforme,andthemoderationofhermindandcharacter。
  Anybodymayblamemewholikes,whenIaddfurther,that,nowandthen,whenItookawalkbymyselfinthegrounds;whenIwentdowntothegatesandlookedthroughthemalongtheroad;orwhen,whileAdèleplayedwithhernurse,andMrs。Fairfaxmadejelliesinthestoreroom,Iclimbedthethreestaircases,raisedthetrap—dooroftheattic,andhavingreachedtheleads,lookedoutafaroversequesteredfieldandhill,andalongdimsky—line—thatthenIlongedforapowerofvisionwhichmightoverpassthatlimit;whichmightreachthebusyworld,towns,regionsfulloflifeIhadheardofbutneverseen—thatthenIdesiredmoreofpracticalexperiencethanIpossessed;moreofintercoursewithmykind,ofacquaintancewithvarietyofcharacter,thanwasherewithinmyreach。IvaluedwhatwasgoodinMrs。Fairfax,andwhatwasgoodinAdèle;butIbelievedintheexistenceofotherandmorevividkindsofgoodness,andwhatIbelievedinIwishedtobehold。
  Whoblamesme?Many,nodoubt;andIshallbecalleddiscontented。Icouldnothelpit:therestlessnesswasinmynature;itagitatedmetopainsometimes。Thenmysolereliefwastowalkalongthecorridorofthethirdstorey,backwardsandforwards,safeinthesilenceandsolitudeofthespot,andallowmymind’seyetodwellonwhateverbrightvisionsrosebeforeit—and,certainly,theyweremanyandglowing;toletmyheartbeheavedbytheexultantmovement,which,whileitswelleditintrouble,expandeditwithlife;and,bestofall,toopenmyinwardeartoatalethatwasneverended—atalemyimaginationcreated,andnarratedcontinuously;quickenedwithallofincident,life,fire,feeling,thatIdesiredandhadnotinmyactualexistence。
  Itisinvaintosayhumanbeingsoughttobesatisfiedwithtranquillity:theymusthaveaction;andtheywillmakeitiftheycannotfindit。Millionsarecondemnedtoastillerdoomthanmine,andmillionsareinsilentrevoltagainsttheirlot。Nobodyknowshowmanyrebellionsbesidespoliticalrebellionsfermentinthemassesoflifewhichpeopleearth。Womenaresupposedtobeverycalmgenerally:butwomenfeeljustasmenfeel;theyneedexercisefortheirfaculties,andafieldfortheirefforts,asmuchastheirbrothersdo;theysufferfromtoorigidarestraint,tooabsoluteastagnation,preciselyasmenwouldsuffer;anditisnarrow—mindedintheirmoreprivilegedfellow—creaturestosaythattheyoughttoconfinethemselvestomakingpuddingsandknittingstockings,toplayingonthepianoandembroideringbags。Itisthoughtlesstocondemnthem,orlaughatthem,iftheyseektodomoreorlearnmorethancustomhaspronouncednecessaryfortheirsex。
  Whenthusalone,InotunfrequentlyheardGracePoole’slaugh:thesamepeal,thesamelow,slowha!ha!which,whenfirstheard,hadthrilledme:Iheard,too,hereccentricmurmurs;strangerthanherlaugh。Thereweredayswhenshewasquitesilent;buttherewereotherswhenIcouldnotaccountforthesoundsshemade。SometimesIsawher:shewouldcomeoutofherroomwithabasin,oraplate,oratrayinherhand,godowntothekitchenandshortlyreturn,generally(oh,romanticreader,forgivemefortellingtheplaintruth!)bearingapotofporter。Herappearancealwaysactedasadampertothecuriosityraisedbyheroraloddities:hard—featuredandstaid,shehadnopointtowhichinterestcouldattach。Imadesomeattemptstodrawherintoconversation,butsheseemedapersonoffewwords:amonosyllabicreplyusuallycutshorteveryeffortofthatsort。
  Theothermembersofthehousehold,viz。,Johnandhiswife,Leahthehousemaid,andSophietheFrenchnurse,weredecentpeople;butinnorespectremarkable;withSophieIusedtotalkFrench,andsometimesIaskedherquestionsabouthernativecountry;butshewasnotofadescriptiveornarrativeturn,andgenerallygavesuchvapidandconfusedanswersaswerecalculatedrathertocheckthanencourageinquiry。
  October,November,Decemberpassedaway。OneafternooninJanuary,Mrs。FairfaxhadbeggedaholidayforAdèle,becauseshehadacold;and,asAdèlesecondedtherequestwithanardourthatremindedmehowpreciousoccasionalholidayshadbeentomeinmyownchildhood,Iaccordedit,deemingthatIdidwellinshowingpliabilityonthepoint。Itwasafine,calmday,thoughverycold;Iwastiredofsittingstillinthelibrarythroughawholelongmorning:Mrs。Fairfaxhadjustwrittenaletterwhichwaswaitingtobeposted,soIputonmybonnetandcloakandvolunteeredtocarryittoHay;thedistance,twomiles,wouldbeapleasantwinterafternoonwalk。HavingseenAdèlecomfortablyseatedinherlittlechairbyMrs。Fairfax’sparlourfireside,andgivenherherbestwaxdoll(whichIusuallykeptenvelopedinsilverpaperinadrawer)toplaywith,andastory—bookforchangeofamusement;andhavingrepliedtoher“Revenezbient?t,mabonneamie,machèreMdlle。Jeannette,”withakissIsetout。
  Thegroundwashard,theairwasstill,myroadwaslonely;IwalkedfasttillIgotwarm,andthenIwalkedslowlytoenjoyandanalysethespeciesofpleasurebroodingformeinthehourandsituation。Itwasthreeo’clock;thechurchbelltolledasIpassedunderthebelfry:thecharmofthehourlayinitsapproachingdimness,inthelow—glidingandpale—beamingsun。IwasamilefromThornfield,inalanenotedforwildrosesinsummer,fornutsandblackberriesinautumn,andevennowpossessingafewcoraltreasuresinhipsandhaws,butwhosebestwinterdelightlayinitsuttersolitudeandleaflessrepose。Ifabreathofairstirred,itmadenosoundhere;fortherewasnotaholly,notanevergreentorustle,andthestrippedhawthornandhazelbusheswereasstillasthewhite,wornstoneswhichcausewayedthemiddleofthepath。Farandwide,oneachside,therewereonlyfields,wherenocattlenowbrowsed;andthelittlebrownbirds,whichstirredoccasionallyinthehedge,lookedlikesinglerussetleavesthathadforgottentodrop。