PoorEustace!Whydidhetakethingssohardly?Ifhereallycarriedouthisresolve——andheneverchangedhismind——itwouldbetragic!Itwouldmeantheendofeverythingforhim!
  PerhapsnowhewouldgettiredofMrs。Noel。Butshewasnotthesortofwomanamanwouldgettiredof。EvenBarbarainherinexperiencefeltthat。Shewouldalwaysbetoodelicatelycarefulnevertocloyhim,nevertoexactanythingfromhim,orlethimfeelthathewasboundtoherbysomuchasahair。Ah!whycouldn'ttheygoonasifnothinghadhappened?Couldnobodypersuadehim?ShethoughtagainofCourtier。Ifhe,whoknewthemboth,andwassofondofMrs。Noel,wouldtalktoMiltoun,abouttherighttobehappy,therighttorevolt?Eustaceoughttorevolt!Itwashisduty。Shesatdowntowrite;then,puttingonherhat,tookthenoteandslippeddownstairs。
  CHAPTERXIX
  TheflowersofsummerinthegreatglasshouseatRavenshamwerekeepingthelastafternoon—watchwhenCliftonsummonedLadyCasterleywiththewords:
  "LadyValleysinthewhiteroom。"
  SincethenewsofMiltoun'sillness,andofMrs。Noel'snursing,thelittleoldladyhadpossessedhersoulinpatience;often,itistrue,afflictedwithpoignantmisgivingsastothisnewinfluenceinthelifeofherfavourite,affectedtoobyasortofjealousy,nottobeadmitted,eveninherprayers,which,thoughregularenough,wereperhapssomewhatformal。Havingsmalllikingnowforleavinghome,evenforCatton,hercountryplace,shewasstillatRavensham,whereLordDennishadcomeuptostaywithherassoonasMiltounhadleftSeaHouse。ButLadyCasterleywasneververydependentoncompany。
  Sheretainedunimpairedherintenseinterestinpolitics,andstillcorrespondedfreelywithprominentmen。Oflate,too,aslightrevivaloftheJunewarscarehadmadeitsmarkonherinacertainrejuvenescence,whichalwaysaccompaniedhercontemplationofnationalcrises,evenwhensuchwerealittleintheair。Atblastoftrumpetherspiritstillleapedforward,unsheatheditssword,andstoodatthesalute。Atsuchtimes,sheroseearlier,wenttobedlater,wasfarlesssusceptibletodraughts,andrefusedwithasperityanyfoodbetweenmeals。Shewrotetoowithherownhandletterswhichshewouldotherwisehavedictatedtohersecretary。
  Unfortunatelythescarehaddieddownagainalmostatonce;andthepassingofdangeralwaysleftherratherirritable。LadyValleys'
  visitcameasatimelyconsolation。
  Shekissedherdaughtercritically;fortherewasthatabouthermannerwhichshedidnotlike。
  "Yes,ofcourseIamwell!"shesaid。"Whydidn'tyoubringBarbara?"
  "Shewastired!"
  "H'm!Afraidofmeetingme,sinceshecommittedthatpieceoffollyoverEustace。Youmustbecarefulofthatchild,Gertrude,orshewillbedoingsomethingsillyherself。Idon'tlikethewayshekeepsClaudHarbingerhanginginthewind。"
  Herdaughtercuthershort:
  "ThereisbadnewsaboutEustace。"
  LadyCasterleylostthelittlecolourinhercheeks;lost,too,allhersuperfluityofirritableenergy。
  "Tellme,atonce!"
  Havingheard,shesaidnothing;butLadyValleysnoticedwithalarmthatoverhereyeshadcomesuddenlythepeculiarfilminessofage。
  "Well,whatdoyouadvise?"sheasked。
  Herselftired,andtroubled,shewasconsciousofaquiteunwontedfeelingofdiscouragementbeforethissilentlittlefigure,inthesilentwhiteroom。ShehadneverbeforeseenhermotherlookasifsheheardDefeatpassingonitsdarkwings。Andmovedbysuddentendernessforthelittlefrailbodythathadbornehersolongago,shemurmuredalmostwithsurprise:
  "Mother,dear!"
  "Yes,"saidLadyCasterley,asifspeakingtoherself,"theboysavesthingsup;hestoreshisfeelings——theyburstandsweephimaway。
  Firsthispassion;nowhisconscience。Therearetwomeninhim;butthiswillbethedeathofoneofthem。"Andsuddenlyturningonherdaughter,shesaid:
  "DidyoueverhearabouthimatOxford,Gertrude?Hebrokeoutonce,andatehuskswiththeGadarenes。Youneverknew。Ofcourse——youneverhaveknownanythingofhim。"
  ResentmentroseinLadyValleys,thatanyoneshouldknewhersonbetterthanherself;butshelostitagainlookingatthelittlefigure,andsaid,sighing:
  "Well?"
  LadyCasterleymurmured:
  "Goaway,child;Imustthink。Yousayhe'stoconsult'Dennis?Doyouknowheraddress?AskBarbarawhenyougetbackandtelephoneittome。Andatherdaughter'skiss,sheaddedgrimly:
  "Ishalllivetoseehiminthesaddleyet,thoughIamseventy—
  eight。"
  Whenthesoundofherdaughter'scarhaddied:away,sherangthebell。
  "IfLadyValleysringsup,Clifton,don'ttakethemessage,butcallme。"AndseeingthatCliftondidnotmovesheaddedsharply:"Well?"
  "Thereisnobadnewsofhisyounglordship'shealth,Ihope?"
  "No。"
  "Forgiveme,mylady,butIhavehaditonmymindforsometimetoaskyousomething。"
  Andtheoldmanraisedhishandwithapeculiardignity,seemingtosay:YouwillexcusemethatforthemomentIamahumanbeingspeakingtoahumanbeing。
  "Thematterofhisattachment,"hewenton,"isknowntome;ithasgivenmeacuteanxiety,knowinghislordshipasIdo,andhavingheardhimsaysomethingsingularwhenhewashereinJuly。Ishouldbegratefulifyouwouldassure——methatthereistobenohitchinhiscareer,mylady。"
  TheexpressiononLadyCasterley'sfacewasstrangelycompoundedofsurprise,kindliness,defence,andimpatienceaswithachild。
  "NotifIcanpreventit,Clifton,"shesaidshortly;"infact,youneednotconcernyourself。"
  Cliftonbowed。
  "Excusemementioningit,mylady;"aquiverranoverhisfacebetweenitslongwhitewhiskers,"buthisyounglordship'scareerismoretomethanmyown。"
  Whenhehadlefther,LadyCasterleysatdowninalittlelowchair——
  longshesattherebytheemptyhearth,tillthedaylight,wasallgone。
  CHAPTERXX
  Notfarfromthedark—haloedindeterminatelimbowheredweltthatbugbearofCharlesCourtier,thegreatHalf—TruthAuthority,hehimselfhadacoupleofroomsatfifteenshillingsaweek。TheirchiefattractionwasthatthegreatHalf—TruthLibertyhadrecommendedthem。Theytiedhimtonothing,andwereeverathisdisposalwhenhewasinLondon;forhislandlady,thoughnotboundbyagreementsotodo,lettheminsuchaway,thatshecouldturnanyoneelseoutataweek'snotice。Shewasagentlesoul,marriedtoasocialisticplumbertwentyyearshersenior。Theworthymanhadgivenhertwolittleboys,andthethreeofthemkeptherinsuchpermanentorderthattobeinthepresenceofCourtierwasthegreatestpleasuresheknew。Whenhedisappearedononeofhisnomadicmissions,explorations,oradventures,sheenclosedthewholeofhisbelongingsintwotintrunksandplacedtheminacupboardwhichsmelledalittleofmice。Whenhereappearedthetrunkswerereopened,andapowerfulscentofdriedrose—leaveswouldescape。
  For,recognizingthemortalityofthingshuman,sheprocuredeverysummerfromhersister,thewifeofamarketgardener,aconsignmentofthiscommodity,whichshepassionatelysewedupinbags,andcontinuedtodeposityearbyyear,inCourtier'strunks。
  This,andthewayshemadehistoast——verycrisp——andairedhislinen——verydry,werepracticallytheonlythingsshecoulddoforamannaturallyinclinedtoindependence,andaccustomedfromhismanneroflifetofendforhimself。
  Atfirstsignsofhisdepartureshewouldgointosomeclosetorother,awayfromtheplumberandthetwomarksofhisaffection,andcryquietly;butneverinCourtier'spresencedidshedreamofmanifestinggrief——assoonweepinthepresenceofdeathorbirth,oranyotherfundamentaltragedyorjoy。Infaceoftherealitiesoflifeshehadknownfromheryouthupthevalueofthesimpleverb'sto——stare—tostandfast。'
  AndtoherCourtierwasareality,thechiefrealityoflife,thefocusofheraspiration,themorningandtheeveningstar。
  Therequest,thenfivedaysafterhisfarewellvisittoMrs。Noel——
  fortheelephant—hidetrunkwhichaccompaniedhisrovings,producedherhabitualperiodofseclusion,followedbyherhabitualappearanceinhissitting—roombearinganote,andsomebagsofdriedrose——
  leavesonatray。Shefoundhiminhisshirtsleeves,packing。
  "Well,Mrs。Benton;offagain!"
  Mrs。Benton,plaitingherhands,forshehadnotyetlostsomethingofthelookandmannerofalittlegirl,answeredinherflat,butserenevoice:
  "Yes,sir;andIhopeyou'renotgoinganywhereverydangerousthistime。Ialwaysthinkyougotosuchdangerousplaces。"
  "ToPersia,Mrs。Benton,wherethecarpetscomefrom。"
  "Oh!yes,sir。Yourwashing'sjustcomehome。"
  Her,apparentlycast—down,eyesstoredupawealthoflittledetails;
  thewayhishairgrew,thesetofhisback,thecolourofhisbraces。
  Butsuddenlyshesaidinasurprisingvoice:
  "Youhaven'taphotographyoucouldspare,sir,toleavebehind?Mr。
  Bentonwasonlysayingtomeyesterday,we'venothingtorememberhimby,incaseheshouldn'tcomeback。"
  "Here'sanoldone。"
  Mrs。Bentontookthephotograph。
  "Oh!"shesaid;"youcanseewhoitis。"Andholdingitperhapstootightly,forherfingerstrembled,sheadded:
  "Anote,please,sir;andthemessengerboyiswaitingfor——ananswer。"
  Whilehereadthenoteshenoticedwithconcernhowpackinghadbroughtthebloodintohishead……
  When,inresponsetothatnote,Courtierenteredthewell—knownconfectioner'scalledGustard's,itwasstillnotquitetea—time,andthereseemedtohimatfirstnooneintheroomsavethreemiddle—
  agedwomenpackingsweets;theninthecornerhesawBarbara。Thebloodwasnolongerinhishead;hewaspale,walkingdownthatmahogany—colouredroomimpregnatedwiththescentofwedding—cake。
  Barbara,too,waspale。
  Soclosetoherthathecouldcounthereveryeyelash,andinhalethescentofherhairandclothestolistentoherstoryofMiltoun,sohesitatingly,sowistfullytold,seemedverylikebeingkeptwaitingwiththeropealreadyroundhisneck,tohearaboutanotherperson'stoothache。HefeltthistohavebeenunnecessaryonthepartofFate!Andtherecametohimperverselythememoryofthatrideoverthesun—warmedheather,whenhehadparaphrasedtheoldSiciliansong:'HerewillIsitandsing。'Hewasalongwayfromsingingnow;norwasthereloveinhisarms。Therewasinsteadacupoftea;
  andinhisnostrilsthescentofcake,withnowandthenawhiffoforange—flowerwater。
  "Isee,"hesaid,whenshehadfinishedtellinghim:"'Liberty'sagloriousfeast!'Youwantmetogotoyourbrother,andquoteBums?
  Youknow,ofcourse,thatheregardsmeasdangerous。"
  "Yes;butherespectsandlikesyou。"
  "AndIrespectandlikehim,"answeredCourtier。
  Oneofthemiddle—agedfemalespassed,carryingalargewhitecard—
  boardbox;andthecreakingofherstaysbrokethehush。
  "Youhavebeenverysweettome,"saidBarbara,suddenly。
  Courtier'sheartstirred,asifitwereturningoverwithinhim;andgazingintohisteacup,heanswered"Allmenaredecenttotheeveningstar。Iwillgoatonceandfindyourbrother。WhenshallIbringyounews?"
  "To—morrowatfiveI'llbeathome。"
  Andrepeating,"To—morrowatfive,"herose。
  Lookingbackfromthedoor,hesawherfacepuzzled,ratherreproachful,andwentoutgloomily。Thescentofcake,andorange—
  flowerwater,thecreakingofthefemale'sstays,thecolourofmahogany,stillclungtohisnoseandears,andeyes;butwithinhimitwasalldullbaffledrage。Whyhadhenotmadethemostofthisunexpectedchance;whyhadhenotmadedesperatelovetoher?A
  conscientiousass!Andyet——thewholethingwasabsurd!Shewassoyoung!Godknewhewouldbegladtobeoutofit。Ifhestayedhewasafraidthathewouldplaythefool。Butthememoryofherwords:
  "Youhavebeenverysweettome!"wouldnotleavehim;northememoryofherface,sopuzzled,andreproachful。Yes,ifhestayedhewouldplaythefool!Hewouldbeaskinghertomarryamandoubleherage,ofnopositionbutthatwhichhehadcarvedforhimself,andwithoutarap。Andhewouldbeaskingherinsuchawaythatshemightpossiblyhavesomelittledifficultyinrefusing。Hewouldbelettinghimselfgo。Andshewasonlytwenty——forallherwoman—of—
  the—worldair,achild!No!Hewouldbeusefultoher,ifpossible,thisonce,andthenclearout!
  CHAPTERXXI
  WhenMiltounleftValleysHousehewalkedinthedirectionofWestminster。DuringthefivedaysthathehadbeenbackinLondonhehadnotyetenteredtheHouseofCommons。Aftertheseclusionofhisillness,hestillfeltayearning,almostpainful,towardsthemovementandstirofthetown。Everythingheheardandsawmadeanintenselyvividimpression。ThelionsinTrafalgarSquare,thegreatbuildingsofWhitehall,filledhimwithasortofexultation。Hewaslikeaman,who,afteralongseavoyage,firstcatchessightofland,andstandsstraininghiseyes,hardlybreathing,takinginonebyonethelostfeaturesofthatface。HewalkedontoWestminsterBridge,andgoingtoanembrasureintheverycentre,lookedbacktowardsthetowers。
  Itwassaidthattheloveofthosetowerspassedintotheblood。Itwassaidthathewhohadsatbeneaththemcouldneveragainbequitethesame。Miltounknewthatitwastrue——desperatelytrue,ofhimself。Inpersonhehadsattherebutthreeweeks,butinsoulheseemedtohavebeensittingtherehundredsofyears。Andnowhewouldsittherenomore!Analmostfranticdesiretofreehimselffromthiscoilroseupwithinhim。Tobeheldaprisonerbythatmostsecretofallhisinstincts,theinstinctforauthority!Tobeunabletowieldauthoritybecausetowieldauthoritywastoinsultauthority。God!Itwashard!Heturnedhisbackonthetowers;andsoughtdistractioninthefacesofthepassers—by。
  Eachofthese,heknew,hadhisstruggletokeepself—respect!Orwasitthattheywereunconsciousofstruggleorofself—respect,andjustletthingsdrift?Theylookedlikethat,mostofthem!Andallhisinherentcontemptfortheaverageorcommonwelledupashewatchedthem。Yes,theylookedlikethat!Ironically,thesightofthosefromwhomhehaddesiredthecomfortofcompromise,servedinsteadtostimulatethatpartofhimwhichrefusedtolethimcompromise。Theylookedsoft,soggy,withoutprideorwill,asthoughtheyknewthatlifewastoomuchforthem,andhadshamefullyacceptedthefact。Theysoobviouslyneededtobetoldwhattheymightdo,andwhichwaytheyshould,go;theywouldacceptordersastheyacceptedtheirwork,orpleasures:Andthethoughtthathewasnowdebarredfromtherighttogivethemorders,rankledinhimfuriously。They,intheirturn,glancedcasuallyathistallfigureleaningagainsttheparapet,notknowinghowtheirfatewastremblinginthebalance。Histhin,sallowface,andhungryeyesgaveoneortwoofthemperhapsafeelingofinterestordiscomfort;buttomosthewasassuredlynomorethananyothermanorwomaninthehurly—
  burly。Thatdarkfigureofconsciouspowerstrugglinginthefettersofitsownbeliefinpower,wasapieceofsculpturetheyhadneithertimenorwishtounderstand,havingnotastefortragedy——forwitnessingthehumanspiritdriventothewall。
  Itwasfiveo'clockbeforeMiltounlefttheBridge,andpassed,likeanexile,beforethegatesofChurchandState,onhiswaytohisuncle'sClub。HestoppedtotelegraphtoAudreythetimehewouldbecomingto—morrowafternoon;andonleavingthePost—Office,noticedinthewindowoftheadjoiningshopsomereproductionsofoldItalianmasterpieces,amongstthemoneofBotticelli's'BirthofVenus。'Hehadneverseenthatpicture;and,rememberingthatshehadtoldhimitwasherfavourite,hestoppedtolookatit。Averagelywellversedinsuchmatters,asbecameoneofhiscaste,Miltounhadnotthepoweroflettingaworkofartinsidiouslystealtheprivateselffromhissoul,andreplaceitwiththeselfofalltheworld;andheexaminedthisfar—famedpresentmentoftheheathengoddesswithaloofness,evenirritation。Thedrawingofthebodyseemedtohimcrude,thewholepicturealittleflatandEarly;hedidnotlikethefigureoftheFlora。Thegoldenserenity,andtenderness,ofwhichshehadspoken,lefthimcold。Thenhefoundhimselflookingattheface,andslowly,butwithuncannycertainty,begantofeelthathewaslookingatthefaceofAudreyherself。Thehairwasgoldenanddifferent,theeyesgreyanddifferent,themouthalittlefuller;
  yet——itwasherface;thesameovalshape,thesamefar—apart,archedbrows,thesamestrangelytender,elusivespirit。And,asthoughoffended,heturnedandwalkedon。Inthewindowofthatlittleshopwastheeffigyofherforwhomhehadbarteredawayhislife——theincarnationofpassiveandentwininglove,thatgentlecreature,whohadgivenherselftohimsoutterly,forwhomlove,andtheflowers,andtrees,andbirds,music,thesky,andthequick—flowingstreams,wereall—sufficing;andwho,likethegoddessinthepicture,seemedwonderingatherownexistence。Hehadasuddenglimpseofunderstanding,strangeindeedinonewhohadsolittlepowerofseeingintoothers'hearts:Oughtsheevertohavebeenbornintoaworldlikethis?Buttheflashofinsightyieldedquicklytothatsickeningconsciousnessofhisownposition,whichneverlefthimnow。Whateverelsehedid,hemustgetridofthatmalaise!Butwhatcouldhedointhatcominglife?Writebooks?Whatsortofbookscouldhewrite?Onlysuchasexpressedhisviewsofcitizenship,hispoliticalandsocialbeliefs。Aswellremainsittingandspeakingbeneaththosetowers!Hecouldneverjointhehappybandofartists,thosesoftandindeterminatespirits,forwhombarriershadnomeaning,content—tounderstand,interpret,andcreate。Whatshouldhebedoinginthatgalley?Thethoughtwasinconceivable。AcareerattheBar——yes,hemighttakethatup;buttowhatend?Tobecomeajudge!Aswellcontinuetositbeneaththosetowers!Toolatefordiplomacy。ToolatefortheArmy;
  besides,hehadnotthefaintesttasteformilitaryglory。BuryhimselfinthecountrylikeUncleDennis,andadministeroneofhisfather'sestates?Itwouldbedeath。Goamongstthepoor?Foramomenthethoughthehadfoundanewvocation。Butinwhatcapacity——toordertheirlives,whenhehimselfcouldnotorderhisown;or,asamereconduitpipeformoney,whenhebelievedthatcharitywasrottingthenationtoitscore?Attheheadofeveryavenuestoodanangelordevilwithdrawnsword。Andthentherecametohimanotherthought。SincehewasbeingcastforthfromChurchandState,couldhenotplaythefallenspiritlikeaman——beLucifer,anddestroy!
  Andinstinctivelyheatoncesawhimselfreturningtothosetowers,andbeneaththemcrossingthefloor;joiningtherevolutionaries,theRadicals,thefreethinkers,scourginghispresentParty,thepartyofauthorityandinstitutions。Theideastruckhimassupremelycomic,andhelaughedoutloudinthestreet……
  TheClubwhichLordDennisfrequentedwasinSt。James'suntouchedbythetidesofthewatersoffashion——steadilyswingingtoitsmooringsinaquietbackwater,andMiltounfoundhisuncleinthelibrary。HewasreadingavolumeofBurton'stravels,anddrinkingtea。
  "Nobodycomeshere,"hesaid,"so,inspiteofthatwordonthedoor,weshalltalk。Waiter,bringsomemoretea,please。"
  Impatiently,butwithasortofpity,MiltounwatchedLordDennis'surbanemovements,whereinoldagewas,pathetically,tryingtomakeeachlittlethingseemimportant,ifonlytothedoer。Nothinghisgreat—unclecouldsaywouldoutweighthewarningofhispicturesqueoldfigure!Tobeabystander;toseeitallgopastyou;toletyourswordrustinitssheath,asthispooroldfellowhaddone!ThenotionofexplainingwhathehadcomeaboutwasparticularlyhatefultoMiltoun;butsincehehadgivenhisword,henervedhimselfwithsecretanger,andbegan:
  "Ipromisedmymothertoaskyouaquestion,UncleDennis。Youknowofmyattachment,Ibelieve?"
  LordDennisnodded。
  "Well,Ihavejoinedmylifetothislady's。Therewillbenoscandal,butIconsideritmydutytoresignmyseat,andleavepubliclifealone。Isthatrightorwrongaccordingto,yourview?"
  LordDennislookedathisnephewinsilence。Afaintflushcolouredhisbrowncheeks。Hehadtheappearanceofonetravellinginmindoverthepast。
  "Wrong,Ithink,"hesaid,atlast。
  "Why,ifImayask?"
  "Ihavenotthepleasureofknowingthislady,andamthereforesomewhatinthedark;butitappearstomethatyourdecisionisnotfairtoher。"
  "Thatisbeyondme,"saidMiltoun。
  LordDennisansweredfirmly:
  "Youhaveaskedmeafrankquestion,expectingafrankanswer,I
  suppose?"
  Miltounnodded。
  "Then,mydear,don'tblamemeifwhatIsayisunpalatable。"
  "Ishallnot。"
  "Good!Yousayyouaregoingtogiveuppubliclifeforthesakeofyourconscience。Ishouldhavenocriticismtomakeifitstoppedthere。"
  Hepaused,andforquiteaminuteremainedsilent,evidentlysearchingforwordstoexpresssomeintricatethreadofthought。
  "Butitwon't,Eustace;thepublicmaninyouisfarstrongerthantheother。Youwantleadershipmorethanyouwantlove。Yoursacrificewillkillyouraffection;whatyouimagineisyourlossandhurt,willprovetobethislady'sintheend。"
  Miltounsmiled。
  LordDenniscontinuedverydrylyandwithatouchofmalice:
  "Youarenotlisteningtome;butIcanseeverywellthattheprocesshasbegunalreadyunderneath。There'sacuriousstreakoftheJesuitinyou,Eustace。Whatyoudon'twanttosee,youwon'tlookat。"
  "Youadviseme,then,tocompromise?"
  "Onthecontrary,Ipointoutthatyouwillbecompromisingifyoutrytokeepbothyourconscienceandyourlove。Youwillbeseekingtohave,itbothways。"
  "Thatisinteresting。"
  "Andyouwillfindyourselfhavingitneither,"saidLordDennissharply。
  Miltounrose。"Inotherwords,you,liketheothers,recommendmetodesertthisladywholovesme,andwhomIlove。Andyet,Uncle,theysaythatinyourowncase————"
  ButLordDennishadrisen,too,havinglostalltheappanageandmannerofoldage。
  "Ofmyowncase,"hesaidbluntly,"wewon'ttalk。Idon'tadviseyoutodesertanyone;youquitemistakeme。Iadviseyoutoknowyourself。AndItellyoumyopinionofyou——youwerecutoutbyNatureforastatesman,notalover!There'ssomethingdried—upinyou,Eustace;I'mnotsurethereisn'tsomethingdried—upinallourcaste。We'vehadtodowithformsandceremoniestoolong。We'renotgoodattakingthelyricalpointofview。"
  "Unfortunately,"saidMiltoun,"Icannot,tofitinwithatheoryofyours,commitabaseness。"
  LordDennisbeganpacingupanddown。Hewaskeepinghislipsclosedverytight。
  "Amanwhogivesadvice,"hesaidatlast,"isalwayssomethingofafool。Forallthat,youhavemistakenmine。Iamnotsopresumptuousastoattempttoentertheinnerchamberofyourspirit。
  Ihavemerelytoldyouthat,inmyopinion,itwouldbemorehonesttoyourself,andfairertothislady,tocompoundwithyourconscience,andkeepbothyourloveandyourpubliclife,thantopretendthatyouwerecapableofsacrificingwhatIknowisthestrongerelementinyouforthesakeoftheweaker。Yourememberthesaying,DemocritusIthink:'eachman'snatureorcharacterishisfateorGod'。Irecommendittoyou。"
  ForafullminuteMiltounstoodwithoutreplying,thensaid:
  "Iamsorrytohavetroubledyou,UncleDennis。Amiddlepolicyisnousetome。Good—bye!"Andwithoutshakinghands,hewentout。
  CHAPTERXXII
  Inthehallsomeonerosefromasofa,andcametowardshim。ItwasCourtier。
  "Runyoutoearthatlast,"hesaid;"Iwishyou'dcomeanddinewithme。I'mleavingEnglandto—morrownight,andtherearethingsIwanttosay。"
  TherepassedthroughMiltoun'smindtherapidthought:'Doesheknow?'Heassented,however,andtheywentouttogether。
  "It'sdifficulttofindaquietplace,"saidCourtier;"butthismightdo。"
  Theplacechosenwasalittlehostel,frequentedbyracingmen,andfamedfortheexcellenceofitssteaks。Andastheysatdownoppositeeachotherinthealmostemptyroom,Miltounthought:Yes,hedoesknow!CanIstandanymoreofthis?Hewaitedalmostsavagelyfortheattackhefeltwascoming。
  "Soyouaregoingtogiveupyourseat?"saidCourtier。
  Miltounlookedathimforsomeseconds,beforereplying。
  "Fromwhattown—crierdidyouhearthat?"
  ButtherewasthatinCourtier'sfacewhichcheckedhisanger;itsfriendlinesswastransparent。
  "Iamaboutheronlyfriend,"Courtierproceededearnestly;"andthisismylastchance——tosaynothingofmyfeelingtowardsyou,which,believeme,isverycordial。"
  "Goon,then,"Miltounmuttered。
  "Forgivemeforputtingitbluntly。Haveyouconsideredwhatherpositionwasbeforeshemetyou?"
  Miltounfeltthebloodrushingtohisface,buthesatstill,clenchinghisnailsintothepalmsofhishands。
  "Yes,yes,"saidCourtier,"butthatattitudeofmind——youusedtohaveityourself——whichdecreeseitherlivingdeath,orspiritualadulterytowomen,makesmybloodboil。Youcan'tdenythatthosewerethealternatives,andIsayyouhadtherightfundamentallytoprotestagainstthem,notonlyinwordsbutdeeds。Youdidprotest,Iknow;butthispresentdecisionofyoursisaclimbdown,asmuchastosaythatyourprotestwaswrong。"
  Miltounrosefromhisseat。"Icannotdiscussthis,"hesaid;"I
  cannot。"
  "Forhersake,youmust。Ifyougiveupyourpublicwork,you'llspoilherlifeasecondtime。"
  Miltounagainsatdown。Attheword'must'asteelyfeelinghadcometohisaid;hiseyesbegantoresembletheoldCardinal's。"Yournatureandmine,Courtier,"hesaid,"aretoofarapart;weshallneverunderstandeachother。"
  "Nevermindthat,"answeredCourtier。"Admittingthosetwoalternativestobehorrible,whichyouneverwouldhavedoneunlessthefactshadbeenbroughthometoyoupersonally"That,"saidMiltounicily,"Idenyyourrighttosay。"
  "Anyway,youdoadmitthem——ifyoubelieveyouhadnottherighttorescueher,onwhatprincipledoyoubasethatbelief?"
  Miltounplacedhiselbowonthetable,andleaninghischinonhishand,regardedthechampionoflostcauseswithoutspeaking。Therewassuchaturmoilgoingonwithinhimthatwithdifficultyhecouldforcehislipstoobeyhim。
  "Bywhatrightdoyouaskmethat?"hesaidatlast。HesawCourtier'sfacegrowscarlet,andhisfingerstwistingfuriouslyatthoseflame—likemoustaches;buthisanswerwasassteadilyironicalasusual。
  "Well,Icanhardlysitstill,mylasteveninginEngland,withoutliftingafinger,whileyouimmolateawomantowhomIfeellikeabrother。I'lltellyouwhatyourprincipleis:Authority,unjustorjust,desirableorundesirable,mustbeimplicitlyobeyed。Tobreakalaw,nomatteronwhatprovocation,orforwhosesake,istobreakthecommandment"
  "Don'thesitate——say,ofGod。"
  "OfaninfalliblefixedPower。Isthatatruedefinitionofyourprinciple?"
  "Yes,"saidMiltoun,betweenhisteeth,"Ithinkso。"