shewassureallalongitwasgoin'tohappen;and,besides,Iguessshe'sgotallthatfoolishnessprettymuchoutofher,bein'sosick。ButwhatI
thoughtwas,nousebein'roughwithher,papa——Iexpectshe'ssufferedagooddeal——andIdon'tthinkwe'doughttobe,onRoscoe'saccount。You'll——you'llbekindo'politetoher,won'tyou,papa?"
Hemumbledsomethingwhichwassmotheredunderthecoverlethehadpulledoverhishead。
"What?"shesaid,timidly。"Iwasjustsayin'Ihopedyou'dtreatSibylallrightwhenshecomes,thisafternoon。Youwill,won'tyou,papa?"
Hethrewthecoverletofffuriously。"Ipresumeso!"heroared。
Shedepartedguiltily。
ButifhehadacceptedherprofferedwagerthatBibbswouldgotochurchwithMaryVertreesthatmorning,Mrs。Sheridanwouldhavelost。Nevertheless,BibbsandMarydidcertainlysetoutfromMr。Vertrees'shousewiththepurposeofgoingtochurch。Thatwastheirintention,andtheyhadnoother。Theymeanttogotochurch。
Butithappenedthattheywereattentivelypreoccupiedinaconversationastheycametothechurch;andthoughMarywaslookingtotherightandBibbswaslookingtotheleft,Bibbs'sleftwardglanceconvergedwithMary'srightwardglance,andneitherwaslookingfarbeyondtheotheratthistime。
Italsohappenedthat,thoughtheywerealittlejostledamonggroupsofpeopleinthevicinityofthechurch,theypassedthissomewhatprominentedificewithoutbeingawareoftheirproximitytoit,andtheyhadgoneanincrediblenumberofblocksbeyonditbeforetheydiscoveredtheirerror。
However,feelingthattheymightbeembarrassinglylateiftheyreturned,theydecidedthatawalkwouldmakethemasgood。Itwasawindlesswintermorning,withaninchofcrispsnowovertheground。Sotheywalked,andforthemostparttheyweresilent,butontheirwayhome,aftertheyhadturnedbackatnoon,theybegantobetalkativeagain。
"Mary,"saidBibbs,afteratime,"amIasleep—walker?"
Shelaughedalittle,thenlookedgrave。"Doesyourfathersayyouare?"
"Yes——whenhe'sinamoodtoflatterme。Othertimes,othernames。Hehasquitealist。"
"Youmustn'tmind,"shesaid,gently。"He'sbeengettingsomeprettysevereshocks。Whatyou'vetoldmemakesmeprettysorryforhim,Bibbs。I'vealwaysbeensurehe'sverybig。"
"Yes。Bigand——blind。He'slikeaHerculeswithouteyesandwithoutanyconsciousnessexceptthatofhisstrengthandofhispurposetogrowstronger。
Strongerforwhat?Fornothing。"
"Areyousure,Bibbs?ItCAN'Tbefornothing;itmustbestrongerforsomething,eventhoughhedoesn'tknowwhatitis。PerhapswhatheandhiskindarestrugglingforissomethingsogreattheyCOULDN'Tseeit——sogreatnoneofuscouldseeit。"
"No,he'sjustlikesomeblind,unconsciousthingheavingunderground——"
"Tillhebreaksthroughandleapsoutintothedaylight,"shefinishedforhim,cheerily。
"Intothesmoke,"saidBibbs。"Lookatthepowderofcoal—dustalreadydirtyingthedecentsnow,eventhoughit'sSunday。That'sfromthelittlepigs;thebigonesaren'tsobad,onSunday!There'safleckofsootonyourcheek。Somepigsentitoutintotheair;hemightaswellhavethrownitonyou。Itwouldhavebeenbraver,forthenhe'dhavetakenhischanceofmywhippinghimforitifIcould。"
"IStheresootonmycheek,Bibbs,orwereyouonlysayingsorhetorically?
ISthere?"
"Isthere?ThereAREsootonyourcheeks,Mary——afleckoneach。OnelandedsinceImentionedthefirst。"
Shehaltedimmediately,givinghimherhandkerchief,andhesucceededintransferringmostoftheblackfromherfacetothecambric。Theywereentirelymatter—of—courseaboutit。
Anelderlycouple,itchanced,hadbeenwalkingbehindBibbsandMaryforthelastblockorso,andpassedaheadduringtheremovalofthesoot。"There!"
saidtheelderlywife。"You'realwayswrongwhenyoubeginguessingaboutstrangers。Thosetwoyoungpeoplearen'thoneymoonersatall——they'vebeenmarriedforyears。Ablindmancouldseethat。"
"IwishIdidknowwhothrewthatsootonyou,"saidBibbs,lookingupattheneighboringchimneys,astheywenton。"Theyarrestchildrenforthrowingsnowballsatthestreet—cars,but——"
"Buttheydon'tarrestthestreet—carsforshakingallthepicturesinthehousescrookedeverytimetheygoby。Norfortheuproartheymake。Iwonderwhat'sthecostinnervesforthenoiseofthecityeachyear。Yes,wepaythepriceforlivingina'growingtown,'whetherwehavemoneytopayornone。"
"Whoisitgetsthepay?"saidBibbs。
"NotI!"shelaughed。
"Nobodygetsit。Thereisn'tanypay;there'sonlymoney。Andonlysomeofthemendown—towngetmuchofthat。That'swhatmyfatherwantsmetoget。"
"Yes,"shesaid,smilingtohim,andnodding。"Andyoudon'twantit,andyoudon'tneedit。"
"Butyoudon'tthinkI'masleep—walker,Mary?"Hehadtoldherofhisfather'snewplansforhim,thoughhehadnotdescribedthevigorandpicturesquenessoftheirsettingforth。"YouthinkI'mright?"
"Athousandtimes!"shecried。"Therearen'tsomanyhappypeopleinthisworld,Ithink——andyousayyou'vefoundwhatmakesyouhappy。Ifit'sadream——keepit!"
"Thethoughtofgoingdownthere——intothemoneyshuffle——IhateitasIneverhatedtheshop!"hesaid。"Ihateit!Andthecityitself,thecitythatthemoneyshufflehasmade——justlookatit!Lookatitinwinter。Thesnow'striedhardtomaketheuglinessbearable,buttheuglinessiswinning;it'smakingthesnowhideous;thesnow'sgettingdirtyontop,andit'sfoulunderneathwiththedirtanddiseaseoftheuncleanstreet。Andthedirtandtheuglinessandtherushandthenoisearen'ttheworstofit;it'swhatthedirtanduglinessandrushandnoiseMEAN——that'stheworst!Theoutwardthingsareinsufferable,butthey'reonlytheexpressionofaspirit——ablindenbryoofaspirit,notyetasoul——oh,justgreed!Andthis'goahead'
nonsense!Oughtn'titalltobeafellowship?Ishouldn'twanttogetaheadifIcould——I'dwanttohelptheotherfellowtokeepupwithme。"
"Ireadsomethingtheotherdayandremembereditforyou,"saidMary。"ItwassomethingBurne—Jonessaidofapicturehewasgoingtopaint:'InthefirstpictureIshallmakeamanwalkinginthestreetofagreatcity,fullofallkindsofhappylife:children,andloverswalking,andladiesleaningfromthewindowsalldowngreatlengthsofstreetleadingtothecitywalls;andtherethegatesarewideopen,lettinginaspaceofgreenfieldandcornfieldinharvest;andallroundhisheadagreatrainofswirlingautumnleavesblowingfromalttlewalledgraveyard。"
"AndifIpainted,"Bibbsreturned,"I'dpaintaladywalkinginthestreetofagreatcity,fullofallkindsofuproariousandfutilelife——childrenbeingtaughtonlyhowtomakemoney,andlovershurryingtogetricher,andladieswho'dgivenuptryingtowashtheirwindowsclean,andthegatesofthecitywideopen,lettinginslumsandslaughter—housesandfreight—yards,andallroundthislady'sheadagreatrainofswirlingsoot——"Hepaused,adding,thoughtfully:"AndyetIbelieveI'mgladthatsootgotonyourcheek。ItwasjustasifIwereyourbrother——thewayyougavemeyourhandkerchieftorubitoffforyou。Still,Edithnever——"
"Didn'tshe?"saidMary,ashepausedagain。
"No。AndI——"Hecontentedhimselfwithshakinghisheadinsteadofofferingmoredefiniteinformation。ThenherealizedthattheywerepassingtheNewHouse,andhesighedprofoundly。"Mary,ourwalk'salmostover。"
Shelookedasblank。"Soitis,Bibbs。"
Theysaidnomoreuntiltheycametohergate。Astheydriftedslowlytoastop,thedoorofRoscoe'shouseopened,andRoscoecameoutwithSibyl,whowasstartlinglypale。Sheseemedlittleenfeebledbyherillness,however,walkingratherquicklyatherhusband'ssideandnottakinghisarm。ThetwocrossedthestreetwithoutappearingtoseeMaryandhercompanion,andenteringtheNewHouse,werelosttosight。Marygazedafterthemgravely,butBibbs,lookingatMary,didnotseethem。
"Mary,"hesaid,"youseemveryserious。Isanythingbotheringyou?"
"No,Bibbs。"Andshegavehimabright,quicklookthatmadehiminstantlyunreasonablyhappy。
"Iknowyouwanttogoin——"hebegan。
"No。Idon'twantto。"
"Imustn'tkeepyoustandingher,andImustn'tgoinwithyou——but——Ijustwantedtosay——I'veseemedverystupidtomyselfthismorning,grumblingaboutsootandallthat——whileallthetimeI——Mary,Ithinkit'sbeentheveryhappiestofallthehoursyou'vegivenme。Ido。And——Idon'tknowjustwhy——butit'sseemedtomethatitwasoneI'dalwaysremember。Andyou,"headded,falteringly,"youlookso——sobeautifulto—day!"
"Itmusthavebeenthesootonmycheek,Bibbs。"
"Mary,willyoutellmesomething?"heasked。
"IthinkIwill。"
"It'ssomethingI'vehadalotoftheoriesabout,butnoneofthemeverjustfits。Youusedtowearfursinthefall,butnowit'ssomuchcolder,youdon't——youneverwearthematallanymore。Whydon'tyou?"
Hereyesfellforamoment,andshegrewred。Thenshelookedupgaily。
"Bibbs,ifItellyoutheanswerwillyoupromisenottoaskanymorequestions?"
"Yes。Whydidyoustopwearingthem?"
"BecauseIfoundI'dbewarmerwithoutthem!"Shecaughthishandquicklyinherownforaninstant,laughedintohiseyes,andranintothehouse。
Itistheconsolingattributeofunusedbooksthattheirdecorativewarmthwillsooftenmakeevenaready—madelibrarytheactual"living—room"ofafamilytowhomtheshelvedvolumesareindeedsealed。ThusitwaswithSheridan,whoreadnothingexceptnewspapers,businessletters,andfigures;
wholookeduponbooksashelookeduponbric—a—bracorcrocheting——whenhewasathome,andnotabedoreating,hewasinthelibrary。
Hestoodinthemany—coloredlightofthestained—glasswindowatthefarendofthelongroom,whenRoscoeandhiswifecamein,andheexhaledasolemnity。HisdeferencetotheSabbathwasmanifest,asalways,inthelengthofhiscoatandtheclosenessofhisSaturday—nightshave;andhisexpression,tomatchthisreligiouspomp,wasmorethanSabbatical,butthemostdismayingofhisdemonstrationswashiskeepinghishandinhissling。
Sibyladvancedtothemiddleoftheroomandhaltedthere,notlookingathim,butdownathermuff,inwhich,itcouldbeseen,herhandswerenervouslymoving。Roscoewenttoachairinanotherpartoftheroom。Therewasadeadlysilence。
ButSibylfoundashakyvoice,afteranintervalofgulping,thoughshewasunabletolifthereyes,andthedarklinglidscontinuedtoveilthem。Shespokehurriedly,likeanungiftedchildrecitingsomethingcommittedtomemory,buthersinceritywasnonethelessevidentforthat。
"FatherSheridan,youandmotherSheridanhavealwaysbeensokindtome,andIwouldhatetohaveyouthinkIdon'tappreciateit,fromthewayIacted。
I'vecometotellyouIamsorryforthewayIdidthatnight,andtosayI
knowaswellasanybodythewayIbehaved,anditwillneverhappenagain,becauseit'sbeenaprettyhardlesson;andwhenwecomeback,someday,I
hopeyou'llseethatyou'vegotadaughter—in—lawyouneverneedtobeashamedofagain。IwanttoaskyoutoexcusemeforthewayIdid,andIcansayI
haven'tanyfeelingstowardEdithnow,butonlywishherhappinessandgoodinhernewlife。Ithankyouforallyourkindnesstome,andIknowImadeapoorreturnforit,butifyoucanoverlookthewayIbehavedIknowIwouldfeelagooddealhappier——andIknowRoscoewould,too。Iwishtopromisenottobeasfoolishinthefuture,andthesameerrorwouldneveroccuragaintomakeusallsounhappy,ifyoucanbecharitableenoughttoexcuseitthistime。"
Helookedsteadilyatherwithoutreplying,andshestoodbeforehim,neverliftinghereyes;motionless,savewherethemovingfurprovedtheagitationofherhandswithinthemuff。
"Allright,"hesaidatlast。
Shelookedupthenwithvastrelief,thoughtherewasarevelationofheavytearswhentheeyelidslifted。
"Thankyou,"shesaid。"There'ssomethingelse——aboutsomethingdifferent——I
wanttosaytoyou,butIwantmotherSheridantohearit,too。"
"She'sup—stairsinherroom,"saidSheridan。"Roscoe——"
Sibylinterrupted。ShehadjustseenBibbspassthroughthehallandbegintoascendthestairs;andinaflashsheinstinctivelyperceivedthechanceforpreciselytheeffectshewanted。
"No,letmego,"shesaid。"Iwanttospeaktoheraminutefirst,anyway。"
Andshewentawayquickly,gainingthetopofthestairsintimetoseeBibbsenterhisroomandclosethedoor。SibylknewthatBibbs,inhisroom,hadoverheardherquarrelwithEdithinthehalloutside;forbitterEdith,thinkingthemoretoshameher,hadsubsequentlyinformedherofthecircumstance。Sibylhadjustrememberedthis,andwiththerecollectiontherehadflashedthethought——outofherownexperience——thatpeopleareoftenmuchmoredeeplyimpressedbywordstheyoverhearthanbywordsdirectlyaddressedtothem。SibylintendedtomakeitimpossibleforBibbsnottooverhear。Shedidnothesitate——herheartwashotwiththeoldsore,andshebelievedwhollyinthejusticeofhercauseandinthetruthofwhatshewasgoingtosay。Fatewasvirtuousattimes;ithaddeliveredintoherhandsthegirlwhohadaffrontedher。
Mrs。Sheridanwasinherownroom。TheapproachofSibylandRoscoehaddrivenherfromthelibrary,forshehadmiscalculatedherhusband'smood,andshefeltthatifheusedhisinjuredhandasamarkofemphasisagain,inherpresence,shewould(asshethoughtofit)"haveafitrightthere。"SheheardSibyl'sstep,andpretendedtobeputtingatouchtoherhairbeforeamirror。
"Iwasjustcomingdown,"shesaid,asthedooropened。
"Yes,hewantsyouto,"saidSibyl。"It'sallright,motherSheridan。He'sforgivenme。"
Mrs。Sheridansniffedinstantly;tearsappeared。Shekissedherdaughter—in—law'scheek;then,insilence,regardedthemirrorafresh,wipedhereyes,andappliedpowder。
"AndIhopeEdithwillbehappy,"Sibyladded,incitingmoreapplicationsofMrs。Sheridan'shandkerchiefandpowder。
"Yes,yes,"murmuredthegoodwoman。"Wemustn'tmaketheworstofthings。"
"Well,therewassomethingelseIhadtosay,andhewantsyoutohearit,too,"saidSibyl。"Webettergodown,motherSheridan。"
Sheledtheway,Mrs。Sheridanfollowingobediently,butwhentheycametoaspotclosebyBibbs'sdoor,Sibylstopped。"Iwanttotellyouaboutitfirst,"shesaid,abruptly。"Itisn'tasecret,ofcourse,inanyway;it'ssomethingthewholefamilyhastoknow,andthesoonerthewholefamilyknowsitthebetter。It'ssomethingitwouldn'tbeRIGHTforusALLnottounderstand,andofcoursefatherSheridanmostofall。ButIwanttojustkindofgooveritfirstwithyou;it'llkindofhelpmetoseeIgotitallstratight。Ihaven'tgotanyreasonforsayingitexceptthegoodofthefamily,andit'snothingtome,onewayortheother,ofcourse,exceptforthat。Ioughtn'tto'vebehavedthewayIdidthatnight,anditseemstomeifthere'sanythingIcandotohelpthefamily,Ioughtto,becauseitwouldhelpshowIfelttherightway。Well,whatIwanttodoistotellthisso'stokeepthefamilyfrombeingmadeafoolof。Idon'twanttoseethefamilyjustmadeuseofandtwistedaroundherfingerbysomebodythat'sgotnomoreheartthansomuchice,andjustassuretobringtroublesinthelongrunas——asEdith'smistakeis。Well,then,thisisthewayitis。I'lljusttellyouhowitlookstomeandseeifitdon'tstrikeyouthesameway。"
Withintheroom,Bibbs,muchannoyed,tappedhisearwithhispencil。Hewishedtheywouldn'tstandtalkingnearhisdoorwhenhewastryingtowrite。
HehadjusttakenfromhistrunkthemanuscriptofapoembeguntheprecedingSundayafternoon,andhehadsomeideashewantedtofixuponpaperbeforetheymaliciouslyseizedthefirstopportunitytovanish,fortheywerebutgossamer。Bibbswaspleasedwiththebeginningsofhispoem,andifhecouldcarryitthroughhemeanttodaregreatlywithit——hewouldventureituponaneditor。Forhehadhisplanoflifenow:hisdaywouldbeofmanuallaborandthinking——hecouldthinkofhisfriendandhecouldthinkincadencesforpoems,tothecrashingofthestrongmachine——andifhisfatherturnedhimoutofhomeandoutoftheWorks,hewouldworkelsewhereandliveelsewhere。Hisfatherhadtheright,anditmatteredverylittletoBibbs——hefacedtheprospectofaworking—man'slodging—housewithouttrepidation。Hecouldfindawashstandtowriteupon,hethought;andeveryeveningwhenheleftMaryhewouldwritealittle;andhewouldwriteonholidaysandonSundays——onSundaysintheafternoon。Inalodging—house,atleasthewouldn'tbeinterruptedbyhissister—in—law'schoosingtheimmediatevicinityofhisdoorforconversationsevidentlyimportanttoherself,butmerelydisturbingtohim。Hefrownedplaintively,wishinghecouldthinkofsomepolitewayofaskinghertogoaway。But,asshewenton,hestartedviolently,droppingmanuscriptandpenciluponthefloor。
"Idon'tknowwhetheryouheardit,motherSheridan,"shesaid,"butthisoldVertreeshouse,nextdoor,hadbeensoldonforeclosure,andallTHEYgotoutofitwasanagreementthatlet's'emlivetherealittlelonger。Roscoetoldme,andhesaysheheardMr。Vertreeshasbeenupanddownthestreetsmore'ntwoyears,tryin'togetajobhecouldcalla'position,'andcouldn'tlandit。Youheardanythingaboutit,motherSheridan?"
"Well,IDIDknowtheybeendoin'theirownhouse—workagoodwhileback,"
saidMrs。Sheridan。"Andnowthey'redoin'thecookin',too。"
Sibylsentforthalittletitterwithasharpedge。"Ihopetheyfindsomethingtocook!ShesoldherpianomightyquickafterJimdied!"
Bibbsjumpedup。Hewastremblingfromheadtofootandhewasdizzy——ofalltherealthingshecouldneverhavedreamedinhisdreamthelastwouldhavebeenwhatheheardnow。Hefeltthatsomethingincrediblewashappening,andthathewaspowerlesstostopit。ItseemedtohimthatheavyblowswerefallingonhisheadanduponMary's;itseemedtohimthatheandMarywerebeingstruckandbeatenphysically——andthatsomethinghideousimpended。HewantedtoshouttoSibyltobesilent,buthecouldnot;hecouldonlystand,swallowingandtrembling。
"WhatIthinkthewholefamilyoughttounderstandisjustthis,"saidSibyl,sharply。"ThosepeopleweresohardupthatthisMissVertreesstartedafterBibbsbeforetheyknewwhetherhewasINSANEornot!They'dgotanotionhemightbe,fromhisbeinginasanitarium,andMrs。VertreesASKEDmeifhewasinsane,theveryfirstdayBibbstookthedaughteroutauto—riding!"Shepausedamoment,lookingatMrs。Sheridan,butlisteningintently。Therewasnosoundfromwithintheroom。
"No!"exclaimedMrs。Sheridan。
"It'sthetruth,"Sibyldeclared,loudly。"Oh,ofcoursewewereallcrazyaboutthatgirlatfirst。Wewereprettygreenwhenwemoveduphere,andwethoughtshe'dgetusIN——butitdidn'ttakeMElongtoreadher!Herfamilyweredownandoutwhenitcametomoney——andtheyhadtogoafterit,onewayoranother,SOMEHOW!SoshestartedforRoscoe;butshefoundoutprettyquickhewasmarried,andsheturnedrightaroundtoJim——andshelandedhim!
There'snodoubtaboutit,shehadJim,andifhe'dlivedyou'dhadanotherdaughter—in—lawbeforethis,assureasIstandheretellingyoutheGod'struthaboutit!Well——whenJimwasleftinthecemeteryshewaswaitingouttheretodrivehomewithBibbs!Jimwasn'tCOLD——andshedidn'tknowwhetherBibbswasinsaneornot,buthewastheonlyoneoftherichSheridanboysleft。Shehadtogethim。"
Thetextureofwhatwasthetruthmadeanevenfabricwithwhatwasnot,inSibyl'smind;shebelievedeverywordthatsheuttered,andshespokewiththerapidityandvehemenceoffierceconviction。
"WhatIfeelaboutitis,"shesaid,"itoughtn'ttobeallowedtogoon。It'stoomean!IlikepoorBibbs,andIdon'twanttoseehimmadesuchafoolof,andIdon'twanttoseethefamilymadesuchafoolof!IlikepoorBibbs,butifhe'donlystoptothinkaminutehimselfhe'dhavetorealizeheisn'tthekindofmanANYgirlwouldbeapttofallinlovewith。He'sbetter—lookinglately,maybe,butyouknowhowheWAS——justkindofalongwhiteragingoodclothes。AndgirlslikemenwithsomeSOto'em——SOMEsortofdashingness,anyhow!NobodyeverlookedatpoorBibbsbefore,andneither'dshe——no,SIR!nottillshe'dtriedbothRoscoeandJimfirst!Itwasonlywhenherandherfamilygotdesperatethatshe——"
Bibbs——whiterthanwhenhecamefromthesanitarium——openedthedoor。Hesteppedacrossitsthresholdandstooklookingather。Bothwomenscreamed。
"Oh,goodheavens!"criedSibyl。"WereyouinTHERE?Oh,Iwouldn't——"SheseizedMrs。Sheridan'sarm,pullinghertowardthestairway。"Comeon,motherSheridan!"sheurged,andasthebefuddledandconfusedladyobeyed,Sibylleftatrailofnoisyexclamations:"Goodgracious!Oh,Iwouldn't——Toobad!
Ididn'tDREAMhewasthere!Iwouldn'thurthisfeelings!Notfortheworld!OfcoursehehadtoknowSOMEtime!But,goodheavens——"
SheheardhisdoorcloseassheandMrs。Sheridanreachedthetopofthestairs,andsheglancedoverhershoulderquickly,butBibbswasnotfollowing;hehadgonebackintohisroom。
"He——helooked——oh,terriblebad!"stammeredMrs。Sheridan。"I——Iwish——"
"Still,it'sagooddealbetterheknowsaboutit,"saidSibyl。"Ishouldn'twonderitmightturnouttheverybestthingcouldhappened。Comeon!"
Andcompletingtheirdescenttothelibrary,thetwomadetheirappearancetoRoscoeandhisfather。Sibylatoncegaveafullandtruthfulaccountofwhathadtakenplace,repeatingherownremarks,andomittingonlythefactthatitwasthroughherdesignthatBibbshadoverheardthem。
"ButasItoldmotherSheridan,"shesaid,inconclusion,"itmightturnoutfortheverybestthathedidhear——justthatway。Don'tyouthinkso,fatherSheridan?"
Hemerelygruntedinreply,andsatrubbingthethickhaironthetopofhisheadwithhislefthandandlookingatthefire。HehadgivennosignofbeingimpressedinanymannerbyherexposureofMaryVertrees'scharacter;
buthisimpassivitydidnotdismaySibyl——itwasBibbswhomshedesiredtoimpress,andshewascontentinthatmatter。
"I'msureitwasallforthebest,"shesaid。"It'sovernow,andheknowswhatsheis。InonewayIthinkitwaslucky,because,justhearingathingthatway,apersoncantellit'sSO——andheknowsIhaven'tgotanyaxtogrindexcepthisowngoodandthegoodofthefamily。"
Mrs。Sheridanwentnervouslytothedoorandstoodthere,lookingtowardthestairway。"Iwish——IwishIknewwhathewasdoin',"shesaid。"Hedidlookterriblebad。Itwaslikesomethinghadbeendonetohimthatwas——Idon'tknowwhat。Ineversawanybodylooklikehedid。Helooked——soqueer。Itwaslikeyou'd——"Shecalleddownthehall,"George!"
"Yes'm?"
"WereyouupinMr。Bibbs'sroomjustnow?"
"Yes,m。Heringbell;tolememakehimfiahinhisgrate。Idonebuil'himnicefiah。Ireckonheain'feelin'sowell。Yes'm。"Hedeparted。
"Whatdoyouexpecthewantsafirefor?"sheasked,turningtowardherhusband。"Thehouseiswarmascanbe,IdowishI——"
"Oh,quitfrettin'!"saidSheridan。
"Well,I——Ikindo'wishyouhadn'tsaidanything,Sibyl。Iknowyoumeantitforthebestandall,butIdon'tbelieveitwouldbeensomuchharmif——"
"MotherSheridan,youdon'tmeanyouWANTthatkindofagirlinthefamily?
Why,she——"
"Idon'tknow,Idon'tknow,"thetroubledwomanquavered。"Ifhelikedheritseemskindofapitytospoilit。He'ssoqueer,andhehasn'tevertakenmuchenjoyment。Andbesides,Ibelievethewayitwas,therewasmorechanceofhimbein'willin'todowhatpapawantshimto。Ifshewantstomarryhim——"
Sheridaninterruptedherwithahootinglaugh。"Shedon't!"hesaid。"You'rebarkin'upthewrongtree,Sibyl。Sheain'tthatkindofagirl。"
"But,fatherSheridan,didn'tshe——"
Hecuthershort。"That'senough。Youmaymeanallright,butyouguesswrong。Sodoyou,mamma。"
Sibylcriedout,"Oh!ButjustLOOKhowsheranafterJim——"
"Shedidnot,"hesaid,curtly。"Shewouldn'ttakeJim。Sheturnedhimdowncold。"
"Butthat'simpossi——"
"It'snot。IKNOWshedid。"
Sibyllookedflatlyincredulous。
"AndYOUneedn'tworry,"hesaid,turningtohiswife。"Thiswon'thaveanyeffectonyouridea,becausetherewasn'tanysensetoit,anyhow。D'youthinkshe'dbeverylikelytotakeBibbs——aftershewouldn'ttakeJIM?She'sagood—heartedgirl,andsheletsBibbscometoseeher,butifshe'devergivenhimonesignofencouragementthewayyouwomenthink,hewouldn'tofactedthestubbornfoolhehas——he'd'a'beenatmelongago,beggin'meforsomekindofajobhecouldsupportawifeon。There'snothin'init——andI'vegotthesameoldfightwithhimonmyhandsI'vehadallhislife——andtheLordknowswhathewon'tdotobalkme!What'shappenednow'llprobablyonlymakehimtwiceassrubborn,but——"
"SH!"Mrs。Sheridan,stillinthedoorway,liftedherhand。"That'shisstep——he'scomin'down—stairs。"SheshrankawayfromthedoorasifshefearedtohaveBibbsseeher。"I——Iwonder——"shesaid,almostinawhisper——"Iwonderwhathe'dgoin'——todo。"
Hertimorousnesshaditseffectupontheothers。Sheridanrose,frowning,butremainedstandingbesidehischair;andRoscoemovedtowardSibyl,whostareduneasilyattheopendoorway。Theylistenedastheslowstepsdescendedthestairsandcametowardthelibrary。
Bibbsstoppeduponthethreshold,andwithsickandhaggardeyeslookedslowlyfromonetotheotheruntilatlasthisgazeresteduponhisfather。Thenhecameandstoodbeforehim。
"I'msorryyou'vehadsomuchtroublewithme,"hesaid,gently。"Youwon't,anymore。I'lltakethejobyouofferedme。"
Sheridandidnotspeak——hestared,astoundedandincredulous;andBibbshadlefttheroombeforeanyofitsoccupantsutteredasound,thoughhewentasslowlyashecame。Mrs。Sheridanwasthefirsttomove。Shewentnervouslybacktothedoorway,andthenoutintothehall。Bibbshadgonefromthehouse。
Bibbs'smotherhadafeelingabouthimthenthatshehadneverknownbefore;
itwasindefiniteandvague,butverypoignant——somethinginhermournedforhimuncomprehendingly。Shefeltthatanawfulthinghadbeendonetohim,thoughshedidnotknowwhatitwas。Shewentuptohisroom。
ThefireGeorgehadbuiltforhimwasalmostsmotheredunderthick,charredashesofpaper。Thelidofhistrunkstoodopen,andthelargeuppertray,whichsherememberedtohaveseenfullofpapersandnote—books,wasempty。
AndsomehowsheunderstoodthatBibbshadgivenupthemysteriousvocationhehadhopedtofollow——andthathehadgivenitupforever。Shethoughtitwasthewisestthinghecouldhavedone——andyet,foranunknownreason,shesatuponthebedandweptalittlebeforeshewentdown—stairs。
SoSheridanhadhiswaywithBibbs,allthrough。