EvenifthiscleverladyenjoyedpoorPickering’sbedazzlement,itwasconceivablethat,takingvanityandcharitytogether,sheshouldcaremoreforhiswelfarethanforherownentertainment;andheroffertoabidebytheresultofhazardouscomparisonwithotherwomenwasafinerstrokethanherreputationhadledmetoexpect。Shereceivedmeinashabbylittlesitting—roomlitteredwithuncutbooksandnewspapers,manyofwhichIsawataglancewereFrench。Onesideofitwasoccupiedbyanopenpiano,surmountedbyajarfullofwhiteroses。Theyperfumedtheair;theyseemedtometoexhalethepurearomaofPickering’sdevotion。Buriedinanarm—chair,theobjectofthisdevotionwasreadingtheRevuedesDeuxMondes。ThepurposeofmyvisitwasnottoadmireMadameBlumenthalonmyownaccount,buttoascertainhowfarImightsafelyleavehertoworkherwilluponmyfriend。Shehadimpugnedmysinceritytheeveningoftheopera,andIwascarefulonthisoccasiontoabstainfromcompliments,andnottoplaceheronherguardagainstmypenetration。Itisneedlesstonarrateourinterviewindetail;
indeed,totelltheperfecttruth,Iwaspunishedformyrashattempttosurpriseherbyatemporaryeclipseofmyownperspicacity。Shesattheresoquestioning,soperceptive,sogenial,sogenerous,andsoprettywithal,thatIwasquitereadyattheendofhalfanhourtosubscribetothemostcomprehensiveofPickering’srhapsodies。
Shewascertainlyawonderfulwoman。Ihaveneverlikedtolinger,inmemory,onthathalf—hour。Theresultofitwastoprovethatthereweremanymorethingsinthecompositionofawomanwho,asNiedermeyersaid,hadlodgedherimaginationintheplaceofherheartthanweredreamtofinmyphilosophy。Yet,asIsattherestrokingmyhatandbalancingtheaccountbetweennatureandartinmyaffablehostess,Ifeltlikeaverycompetentphilosopher。Shehadsaidshewishedmetotellhereverythingaboutourfriend,andshequestionedmeastohisfamily,hisfortune,hisantecedents,andhischaracter。Allthiswasnaturalinawomanwhohadreceivedapassionatedeclarationoflove,anditwasexpressedwithanairofcharmedsolicitude,aradiantconfidencethattherewasreallynomistakeabouthisbeingamostdistinguishedyoungman,andthatifI
chosetobeexplicit,Imightdeepenherconvictiontodisinterestedecstasy,whichmighthavealmostprovokedmetoinventagoodopinion,ifIhadnothadonereadymade。ItoldherthatshereallyknewPickeringbetterthanIdid,andthatuntilwemetatHomburgI
hadnotseenhimsincehewasaboy。
"Buthetalkstoyoufreely,"sheanswered;"Iknowyouarehisconfidant。Hehastoldmecertainlyagreatmanythings,butI
alwaysfeelasifhewerekeepingsomethingback;asifhewereholdingsomethingbehindhim,andshowingmeonlyonehandatonce。
Heseemsoftentobehoveringontheedgeofasecret。Ihavehadseveralfriendshipsinmylife——thankHeaven!butIhavehadnonemoredeartomethanthisone。YetinthemidstofitIhavethepainfulsenseofmyfriendbeinghalfafraidofme;ofhisthinkingmeterrible,strange,perhapsatrifleoutofmywits。Poorme!IfheonlyknewwhataplaingoodsoulIam,andhowIonlywanttoknowhimandbefriendhim!"
Thesewordswerefullofaplaintivemagnanimitywhichmademistrustseemcruel。HowmuchbetterImightplayprovidenceoverPickering’sexperimentswithlifeifIcouldengagethefineinstinctsofthischarmingwomanontheprovidentialside!Pickering’ssecretwas,ofcourse,hisengagementtoMissVernor;itwasnaturalenoughthatheshouldhavebeenunabletobringhimselftotalkofittoMadameBlumenthal。Thesimplesweetnessofthisyounggirl’sfacehadnotfadedfrommymemory;IcouldnotridmyselfofthesuspicionthatingoingfurtherPickeringmightfaremuchworse。MadameBlumenthal’sprofessionsseemedavirtualpromisetoagreewithme,and,aftersomehesitation,Isaidthatmyfriendhad,infact,asubstantialsecret,andthatperhapsImightdohimagoodturnbyputtingherinpossessionofit。InasfewwordsaspossibleItoldherthatPickeringstoodpledgedbyfilialpietytomarryayoungladyatSmyrna。Shelistenedintentlytomystory;whenIhadfinishedittherewasafaintflushofexcitementineachofhercheeks。Shebrokeoutintoadozenexclamationsofadmirationandcompassion。
"Whatawonderfultale——whataromanticsituation!NowonderpoorMr。Pickeringseemedrestlessandunsatisfied;nowonderhewishedtoputoffthedayofsubmission。AndthepoorlittlegirlatSmyrna,waitingtherefortheyoungWesternprinceliketheheroineofanEasterntale!Shewouldgivetheworldtoseeherphotograph;didI
thinkMr。Pickeringwouldshowittoher?Butneverfear;shewouldasknothingindiscreet!Yes,itwasamarvellousstory,andifshehadinventeditherself,peoplewouldhavesaiditwasabsurdlyimprobable。"Sheleftherseatandtookseveralturnsabouttheroom,smilingtoherself,andutteringlittleGermancriesofwonderment。Suddenlyshestoppedbeforethepianoandbrokeintoalittlelaugh;thenextmomentsheburiedherfaceinthegreatbouquetofroses。ItwastimeIshouldgo,butIwasindisposedtoleaveherwithoutobtainingsomedefiniteassurancethat,asfaraspitywasconcerned,shepitiedtheyounggirlatSmyrnamorethantheyoungmanatHomburg。
"OfcourseyouknowwhatIwishedintellingyouthis,"Isaid,rising。"Sheisevidentlyacharmingcreature,andthebestthinghecandoistomarryher。Iwishedtointerestyouinthatviewofit。"
Shehadtakenoneoftherosesfromthevaseandwasarrangingitinthefrontofherdress。Suddenly,lookingup,"Leaveittome,leaveittome!"shecried。"Iaminterested!"Andwithherlittleblue—
gemmedhandshetappedherforehead。"Iamdeeplyinterested!"
AndwiththisIhadtocontentmyself。ButmorethanoncethenextdayIrepentedofmyzeal,andwonderedwhetheraprovidencewithawhiteroseinherbosommightnotturnoutatrifletoohuman。Intheevening,attheKursaal,IlookedforPickering,buthewasnotvisible,andIreflectedthatmyrevelationhadnotasyet,atanyrate,seemedtoMadameBlumenthalareasonforprescribingacooling—
termtohispassion。Verylate,asIwasturningaway,Isawhimarrive——withnosmallsatisfaction,forIhaddeterminedtolethimknowimmediatelyinwhatwayIhadattemptedtoservehim。Buthestraightwaypassedhisarmthroughmyownandledmeofftowardsthegardens。Isawthathewastooexcitedtoallowmetospeakfirst。
"Ihaveburntmyships!"hecried,whenwewereoutofearshotofthecrowd。"Ihavetoldhereverything。Ihaveinsistedthatit’ssimpletortureformetowaitwiththisidleviewoflovingherless。
It’swellenoughforhertoaskit,butIfeelstrongenoughnowtooverrideherreluctance。Ihavecastoffthemillstonefromroundmyneck。Icarefornothing,Iknownothing,butthatIloveherwitheverypulseofmybeing——andthateverythingelsehasbeenahideousdream,fromwhichshemaywakemeintoblissfulmorningwithasingleword!"
Iheldhimoffatarm’s—lengthandlookedathimgravely。"Youhavetoldher,youmean,ofyourengagementtoMissVernor?"
"Thewholestory!Ihavegivenitup——Ihavethrownittothewinds。
Ihavebrokenutterlywiththepast。Itmayriseinitsgraveandgivemeitscurse,butitcan’tfrightenmenow。Ihavearighttobehappy,Ihavearighttobefree,Ihavearightnottoburymyselfalive。Itwasnot_I_whopromised——Iwasnotbornthen。I
myself,mysoul,mymind,myoption——allthisisbutamonthold!
Ah,"hewenton,"ifyouknewthedifferenceitmakes——thishavingchosenandbrokenandspoken!IamtwicethemanIwasyesterday!
YesterdayIwasafraidofher;therewasakindofmockingmysteryofknowledgeandclevernessabouther,whichoppressedmeinthemidstofmylove。ButnowIamafraidofnothingbutofbeingtoohappy!"
Istoodsilent,tolethimspendhiseloquence。Buthepausedamoment,andtookoffhishatandfannedhimself。"Letmeperfectlyunderstand,"Isaidatlast。"YouhaveaskedMadameBlumenthaltobeyourwife?"
"Thewifeofmyintelligentchoice!"
"Anddoessheconsent?"
"Sheasksthreedaystodecide。"
"Callitfour!Shehasknownyoursecretsincethismorning。IamboundtoletyouknowItoldher。"
"Somuchthebetter!"criedPickering,withoutapparentresentmentorsurprise。"It’snotabrilliantofferforsuchawoman,andinspiteofwhatIhaveatstake,Ifeelthatitwouldbebrutaltopressher。"
"Whatdoesshesaytoyourbreakingyourpromise?"Iaskedinamoment。
Pickeringwastoomuchinloveforfalseshame。"Shetellsmethatshelovesmetoomuchtofindcouragetocondemnme。SheagreeswithmethatIhavearighttobehappy。Iasknoexemptionfromthecommonlaw。WhatIclaimissimplyfreedomtotrytobe!"
OfcourseIwaspuzzled;itwasnotinthatfashionthatIhadexpectedMadameBlumenthaltomakeuseofmyinformation。Butthematternowwasquiteoutofmyhands,andallIcoulddowastobidmycompanionnotworkhimselfintoafeverovereitherfortune。
ThenextdayIhadavisitfromNiedermeyer,onwhom,afterourtalkattheopera,Ihadleftacard。Wegossipedawhile,andatlasthesaidsuddenly,"Bytheway,IhaveasequeltothehistoryofClorinda。ThemajorisatHomburg!"
"Indeed!"saidI。"Sincewhen?"
"Thesethreedays。"
"Andwhatishedoing?"
"Heseems,"saidNiedermeyer,withalaugh,"tobechieflyoccupiedinsendingflowerstoMadameBlumenthal。Thatis,Iwentwithhimthemorningofhisarrivaltochooseanosegay,andnothingwouldsuithimbutasmallhaystackofwhiteroses。Ihopeitwasreceived。"
"Icanassureyouitwas,"Icried。"Isawtheladyfairlynestlingherheadinit。ButIadvisethemajornottobuilduponthat。Hehasarival。"
"Doyoumeanthesoftyoungmanoftheothernight?"
"Pickeringissoft,ifyouwill,buthissoftnessseemstohaveservedhim。Hehasofferedhereverything,andshehasnotyetrefusedit。"Ihadhandedmyvisitoracigar,andhewaspuffingitinsilence。AtlastheabruptlyaskedifIhadbeenintroducedtoMadameBlumenthal,and,onmyaffirmative,inquiredwhatIthoughtofher。"Iwillnottellyou,"Isaid,"oryou’llcallMEsoft。"
Heknockedawayhisashes,eyeingmeaskance。"Ihavenoticedyourfriendabout,"hesaid,"andevenifyouhadnottoldme,Ishouldhaveknownhewasinlove。Afterhehaslefthisadored,hisfacewearsfortherestofthedaytheexpressionwithwhichhehasrisenfromherfeet,andmorethanonceIhavefeltliketouchinghiselbow,asyouwouldthatofamanwhohasinadvertentlycomeintoadrawing—roominhisovershoes。Yousayhehasofferedourfriendeverything;but,mydearfellow,hehasnoteverythingtoofferher。
Heevidentlyisasamiableasthemorning,buttheladyhasnotastefordaylight。"
"IassureyouPickeringisaveryinterestingfellow,"Isaid。
"Ah,thereitis!Hashenotsomestoryorother?Isn’theanorphan,oranaturalchild,orconsumptive,orcontingentheirtogreatestates?Shewillreadhislittlestorytotheend,andclosethebookverytenderlyandsmoothdownthecover;andthen,whenheleastexpectsit,shewilltossitintothedustylimboofherotherromances。Shewilllethimdangle,butshewilllethimdrop!"
"Uponmyword,"Icried,withheat,"ifshedoes,shewillbeaveryunprincipledlittlecreature!"
Niedermeyershruggedhisshoulders。"Ineversaidshewasasaint!"
ShrewdasIfeltNiedermeyertobe,Iwasnotpreparedtotakehissimplewordforthisevent,andintheeveningIreceivedacommunicationwhichfortifiedmydoubts。ItwasanotefromPickering,anditranasfollows:—
"MyDearFriend——Ihaveeveryhopeofbeinghappy,butIamtogotoWiesbadentolearnmyfate。MadameBlumenthalgoesthitherthisafternoontospendafewdays,andsheallowsmetoaccompanyher。
Givemeyourgoodwishes;youshallhearoftheresult。E。P。"
OneofthediversionsofHomburgfornew—comersistodineinrotationatthedifferenttablesd’hote。Itsohappenedthat,acoupleofdayslater,Niedermeyertookpot—luckatmyhotel,andsecuredaseatbesidemyown。AswetookourplacesIfoundaletteronmyplate,and,asitwaspostmarkedWiesbaden,Ilostnotimeinopeningit。Itcontainedbutthreelines——"Iamhappy——Iamaccepted——anhourago。Icanhardlybelieveit’syourpoorfriendE。P。"
IplacedthenotebeforeNiedermeyer;notexactlyintriumph,butwiththealacrityofallfelicitousconfutation。Helookedatitmuchlongerthanwasneedfultoreadit,strokingdownhisbeardgravely,andIfeltitwasnotsoeasytoconfuteapupiloftheschoolofMetternich。Atlast,foldingthenoteandhandingitback,"HasyourfriendmentionedMadameBlumenthal’serrandatWiesbaden?"
heasked。
"Youlookverywise。Igiveitup!"saidI。
"Sheisgonetheretomakethemajorfollowher。Hewentbythenexttrain。"
"Andhasthemajor,onhisside,droppedyoualine?"
"Heisnotaletter—writer。"
"Well,"saidI,pocketingmyletter,"withthisdocumentinmyhandI
amboundtoreservemyjudgment。WewillhaveabottleofJohannisberg,anddrinktothetriumphofvirtue。"
ForawholeweekmoreIheardnothingfromPickering——somewhattomysurprise,and,asthedayswentby,notalittletomydiscomposure。
Ihadexpectedthathisblisswouldcontinuetooverflowinbriefbulletins,andhissilencewaspossiblyanindicationthatithadbeenclouded。AtlastIwrotetohishotelatWiesbaden,butreceivednoanswer;whereupon,asmynextresource,IrepairedtohisformerlodgingatHomburg,whereIthoughtitpossiblehehadleftpropertywhichhewouldsoonerorlatersendfor。ThereIlearnedthathehadindeedjusttelegraphedfromCologneforhisluggage。ToCologneIimmediatelydespatchedalineofinquiryastohisprosperityandthecauseofhissilence。ThenextdayIreceivedthreewordsinanswer——asimpleuncommentedrequestthatIwouldcometohim。Ilostnotime,andreachedhiminthecourseofafewhours。ItwasdarkwhenIarrived,andthecitywassheetedinacoldautumnalrain。Pickeringhadstumbled,withanindifferencewhichwasitselfasymptomofdistress,onacertainmustyoldMainzerhof,andIfoundhimsittingoverasmoulderingfireinavastdingychamberwhichlookedasifithadgrowngraywithwatchingtheennuioftengenerationsoftravellers。Lookingathim,asheroseonmyentrance,Isawthathewasinextremetribulation。Hewaspaleandhaggard;hisfacewasfiveyearsolder。Now,atleast,inallconscience,hehadtastedofthecupoflife!Iwasanxioustoknowwhathadturneditsosuddenlytobitterness;butIsparedhimallimportunatecuriosity,andlethimtakehistime。Iacceptedtacitlyhistacitconfessionofdistress,andwemadeforawhileafeebleefforttodiscussthepicturesquenessofCologne。Atlastheroseandstoodalongtimelookingintothefire,whileIslowlypacedthelengthoftheduskyroom。
"Well!"hesaid,asIcameback;"Iwantedknowledge,andIcertainlyknowsomethingIdidn’tamonthago。"Andherewith,calmlyandsuccinctlyenough,asifdismayhadwornitselfout,herelatedthehistoryoftheforegoingdays。Hetouchedlightlyondetails;heevidentlyneverwastogushasfreelyagainashehaddoneduringtheprosperityofhissuit。Hehadbeenacceptedoneevening,asexplicitlyashisimaginationcoulddesire,andhadgoneforthinhisraptureandroamedabouttillnearlymorninginthegardensoftheConversation—house,takingthestarsandtheperfumesofthesummernightintohisconfidence。"Itisworthitall,almost,"hesaid,"tohavebeenwoundupforanhourtothatcelestialpitch。Noman,Iamsure,caneverknowitbutonce。"ThenextmorninghehadrepairedtoMadameBlumenthal’slodgingandhadbeenmet,tohisamazement,byanakedrefusaltoseehim。Hehadstrodeaboutforacoupleofhours——inanothermood——andthenhadreturnedtothecharge。Theservanthandedhimathree—cornerednote;itcontainedthesewords:"Leavemealoneto—day;Iwillgiveyoutenminutesto—
morrowevening。"Ofthenextthirty—sixhourshecouldgivenocoherentaccount,butattheappointedtimeMadameBlumenthalhadreceivedhim。Almostbeforeshespoketherehadcometohimasenseofthedepthofhisfollyinsupposingheknewher。"Onehasheardallone’sdays,"hesaid,"ofpeopleremovingthemask;it’soneofthestockphrasesofromance。Well,thereshestoodwithhermaskinherhand。Herface,"hewentongravely,afterapause——"herfacewashorrible!"……"Igiveyoutenminutes,"shehadsaid,pointingtotheclock。"Makeyourscene,tearyourhair,brandishyourdagger!"Andshehadsatdownandfoldedherarms。"It’snotajoke,"shecried,"it’sdeadearnest;letushaveitover。Youaredismissed——haveyounothingtosay?"Hehadstammeredsomefranticdemandforanexplanation;andshehadrisenandcomenearhim,lookingathimfromheadtofeet,verypale,andevidentlymoreexcitedthanshewishedhimtosee。"Ihavedonewithyou!"shesaid,withasmile;"yououghttohavedonewithme!Ithasallbeendelightful,butthereareexcellentreasonswhyitshouldcometoanend。""Youhavebeenplayingapart,then,"hehadgaspedout;"younevercaredforme?""Yes;tillIknewyou;tillIsawhowfaryouwouldgo。Butnowthestory’sfinished;wehavereachedthedenoument。Wewillclosethebookandbegoodfriends。""ToseehowfarIwouldgo?"hehadrepeated。"Youledmeon,meaningallthewhiletodoTHIS!""Iledyouon,ifyouwill。Ireceivedyourvisits,inseasonandout!Sometimestheywereveryentertaining;