Involuntarilyhestretchedhishandstowardsit,feltapangofgriefwhenitvanished,leavingonlythegreylight。Hedrewtherustybolts,flungopenthegreatdoor。Astrangeworldlaybeforehim,anewworldoflightsandshadows,thatwooedhimwiththeirbeauty——aworldoflow,softvoicesthatcalledtohim。Therecametohimagainthatbittersenseofhavingbeenrobbed。
"Icouldhavebeensohappyalltheseyears,"murmuredoldNicholastohimself。"ItisjustthelittletownIcouldhaveloved——soquaint,soquiet,sohomelike。Imighthavehadfriends,oldcronies,childrenofmyownmaybe——"
AvisionofthesleepingChristinaflashedbeforehiseyes。Shehadcometohimachild,feelingonlygratitudetowardshim。Hadhehadeyeswithwhichtoseeher,allthingsmighthavebeendifferent。
Wasittoolate?Heisnotsoold——notsoveryold。Newlifeisinhisveins。ShestilllovesJan,butthatwastheJanofyesterday。
Inthefuture,Jan’severywordanddeedwillbepromptedbytheevilsoulthatwasoncethesoulofNicholasSnyders——thatNicholasSnydersrememberswell。Cananywomanlovethat,letthecasebeashandsomeasyouwill?
Oughthe,asanhonestman,tokeepthesoulhehadwonfromJanbywhatmightbecalledatrick?Yes,ithadbeenafairbargain,andJanhadtakenhisprice。Besides,itwasnotasifJanhadfashionedhisownsoul;thesethingsarechance。Whyshouldonemanbegivengold,andanotherbegivenparchedpeas?HehasasmuchrighttoJan’ssoulasJaneverhad。Heiswiser,hecandomoregoodwithit。
ItwasJan’ssoulthatlovedChristina;letJan’ssoulwinherifitcan。AndJan’ssoul,listeningtotheargument,couldnotthinkofawordtoofferinopposition。
ChristinawasstillasleepwhenNicholasre—enteredthekitchen。Helightedthefireandcookedthebreakfastandthenarousedhergently。
TherewasnodoubtitwasChristina。ThemomenthereyesrestedonoldNicholas,therecamebacktoherthefrightenedrabbitlookthathadalwaysirritatedhim。Itirritatedhimnow,buttheirritationwasagainsthimself。
"YouweresleepingsosoundlywhenIcameinlastnight——"Christinacommenced。
"Andyouwereafraidtowakeme,"Nicholasinterruptedher。"Youthoughttheoldcurmudgeonwouldbecross。Listen,Christina。Youpaidoffyesterdaythelastdebtyourfatherowed。Itwastoanoldsailor——Ihadnotbeenabletofindhimbefore。Notacentmoredoyouowe,andthereremainstoyou,outofyourwages,ahundredflorins。Itisyourswheneveryouliketoaskmeforit。"
Christinacouldnotunderstand,neitherthennorduringthedaysthatfollowed;nordidNicholasenlightenher。ForthesoulofJanhadenteredintoaverywiseoldman,whoknewthatthebestwaytolivedownthepastistoliveboldlythepresent。AllthatChristinacouldbesureofwasthattheoldNicholasSnydershadmysteriouslyvanished,thatinhisplaceremainedanewNicholas,wholookedatherwithkindlyeyes——frankandhonest,compellingconfidence。ThoughNicholasneversaidso,itcametoChristinathatsheherself,hersweetexample,herennoblinginfluenceitwasthathadwroughtthiswondrouschange。AndtoChristinatheexplanationseemednotimpossible——seemedevenpleasing。
Thesightofhislittereddeskwashatefultohim。Startingearlyinthemorning,Nicholaswoulddisappearfortheentireday,returningintheeveningtiredbutcheerful,bringingwithhimflowersthatChristinalaughedat,tellinghimtheywereweeds。Butwhatmatterednames?ToNicholastheywerebeautiful。InZandamthechildrenranfromhim,thedogsbarkedafterhim。SoNicholas,escapingthroughbyways,wouldwanderfarintothecountry。Childreninthevillagesaroundcametoknowakindoldfellowwholovedtolinger,hishandsrestingonhisstaff,watchingtheirplay,listeningtotheirlaughter;whoseamplepocketswerestorehousesofgoodthings。Theirelders,passingby,wouldwhispertooneanotherhowlikehewasinfeaturestowickedoldNick,themiserofZandam,andwouldwonderwherehecamefrom。Norwasitonlythefacesofthechildrenthattaughthislipstosmile。Ittroubledhimatfirsttofindtheworldsofullofmarvellouslyprettygirls——ofprettywomenalso,allmoreorlesslovable。Itbewilderedhim。Untilhefoundthat,notwithstanding,Christinaremainedalwaysinhisthoughtstheprettiest,themostlovableofthemall。Theneveryprettyfacerejoicedhim:itremindedhimofChristina。
Onhisreturnthesecondday,Christinahadmethimwithsadnessinhereyes。FarmerBeerstraater,anoldfriendofherfather’s,hadcalledtoseeNicholas;notfindingNicholas,hadtalkedalittlewithChristina。Ahardheartedcreditorwasturninghimoutofhisfarm。
ChristinapretendednottoknowthatthecreditorwasNicholashimself,butmarvelledthatsuchwickedmencouldbe。Nicholassaidnothing,butthenextdayFarmerBeerstraaterhadcalledagain,allsmiles,blessings,andgreatwonder。
"Butwhatcanhavecometohim?"repeatedFarmerBeerstraateroverandover。
ChristinahadsmiledandansweredthatperhapsthegoodGodhadtouchedhisheart;butthoughttoherselfthatperhapsithadbeenthegoodinfluenceofanother。Thetaleflew。Christinafoundherselfbesiegedoneveryhand,and,findingherintercessionsinvariablysuccessful,grewdaybydaymorepleasedwithherself,andbyconsequencemorepleasedwithNicholasSnyders。ForNicholaswasacunningoldgentleman。Jan’ssoulinhimtookdelightinundoingtheevilthesoulofNicholashadwrought。ButthebrainofNicholasSnydersthatremainedtohimwhispered:"Letthelittlemaidthinkitisallherdoing。"
ThenewsreachedtheearsofDameToelast。ThesameeveningsawherseatedintheinglenookoppositeNicholasSnyders,whosmokedandseemedbored。
"Youaremakingafoolofyourself,NicholasSnyders,"theDametoldhim。"Everybodyislaughingatyou。"
"Ihadrathertheylaughedthancursedme,"growledNicholas。
"Haveyouforgottenallthathaspassedbetweenus?"demandedtheDame。
"WishIcould,"sighedNicholas。
"Atyourage——"commencedtheDame。
"IamfeelingyoungerthanIeverfeltinallmylife,"Nicholasinterruptedher。
"Youdon’tlookit,"commentedtheDame。
"Whatdolooksmatter?"snappedNicholas。"Itisthesoulofamanthatistherealman。"
"Theycountforsomething,astheworldgoes,"explainedtheDame。
"Why,ifIlikedtofollowyourexampleandmakeafoolofmyself,thereareyoungmen,fineyoungmen,handsomeyoungmen——"
"Don’tletmestandinyourway,"interposedNicholasquickly。"Asyousay,IamoldandIhaveadevilofatemper。TheremustbemanybettermenthanIam,menmoreworthyofyou。"
"Idon’tsaytherearenot,"returnedtheDame:"butnobodymoresuitable。Girlsforboys,andoldwomenforoldmen。Ihaven’tlostmywits,NicholasSnyders,ifyouhave。Whenyouareyourselfagain——"
NicholasSnyderssprangtohisfeet。"Iammyself,"hecried,"andintendtoremainmyself!WhodaressayIamnotmyself?"
"Ido,"retortedtheDamewithexasperatingcoolness。"NicholasSnydersisnothimselfwhenatthebiddingofapretty—faceddollheflingshismoneyoutofthewindowwithbothhands。Heisacreaturebewitched,andIamsorryforhim。She’llfoolyouforthesakeofherfriendstillyouhaven’tacentleft,andthenshe’lllaughatyou。Whenyouareyourself,NicholasSnyders,youwillbecrazywithyourself——rememberthat。"AndDameToelastmarchedoutandslammedthedoorbehindher。
"Girlsforboys,andoldwomenforoldmen。"Thephrasekeptringinginhisears。Hithertohisnew—foundhappinesshadfilledhislife,leavingnoroomforthought。ButtheoldDame’swordshadsowntheseedofreflection。
WasChristinafoolinghim?Thethoughtwasimpossible。Neveroncehadshepleadedforherself,neveronceforJan。TheevilthoughtwasthecreatureofDameToelast’sevilmind。Christinalovedhim。Herfacebrightenedathiscoming。Thefearofhimhadgoneoutofher;aprettytyrannyhadreplacedit。Butwasitthelovethathesought?
Jan’ssoulinoldNick’sbodywasyoungandardent。ItdesiredChristinanotasadaughter,butasawife。CoulditwinherinspiteofoldNick’sbody?ThesoulofJanwasanimpatientsoul。Bettertoknowthantodoubt。
"Donotlightthecandles;letustalkalittlebythelightofthefireonly,"saidNicholas。AndChristina,smiling,drewherchairtowardstheblaze。ButNicholassatintheshadow。
"Yougrowmorebeautifuleveryday,Christina,"saidNicholas——
"sweeterandmorewomanly。Hewillbeahappymanwhocallsyouwife。"
ThesmilepassedfromChristina’sface。"Ishallnevermarry,"sheanswered。"Neverisalongword,littleone。"
"Atruewomandoesnotmarrythemanshedoesnotlove。"
"Butmayshenotmarrythemanshedoes?"smiledNicholas。
"Sometimesshemaynot,"Christinaexplained。
"Andwhenisthat?"
Christina’sfacewasturnedaway。"Whenhehasceasedtoloveher。"
ThesoulinoldNick’sbodyleaptwithjoy。"Heisnotworthyofyou,Christina。Hisnewfortunehaschangedhim。Isitnotso?Hethinksonlyofmoney。Itisasthoughthesoulofamiserhadenteredintohim。HewouldmarryevenDameToelastforthesakeofhergold—bagsandherbroadlandsandhermanymills,ifonlyshewouldhavehim。
Cannotyouforgethim?"
"Ishallneverforgethim。Ishallneverloveanotherman。Itrytohideit;andoftenIamcontenttofindthereissomuchintheworldthatIcando。Butmyheartisbreaking。"Sheroseand,kneelingbesidehim,claspedherhandsaroundhim。"Iamgladyouhaveletmetellyou,"shesaid。"ButforyouIcouldnothaveborneit。Youaresogoodtome。"
Foranswerhestrokedwithhiswitheredhandthegoldenhairthatfelldisorderedabouthiswitheredknees。Sheraisedhereyestohim;theywerefilledwithtears,butsmiling。
"Icannotunderstand,"shesaid。"Ithinksometimesthatyouandhemusthavechangedsouls。Heishardandmeanandcruel,asyouusedtobe。"Shelaughed,andthearmsaroundhimtightenedforamoment。
"Andnowyouarekindandtenderandgreat,asoncehewas。ItisasifthegoodGodhadtakenawaymyloverfrommetogivetomeafather。"
"Listentome,Christina,"hesaid。"Itisthesoulthatistheman,notthebody。Couldyounotlovemeformynewsoul?"
"ButIdoloveyou,"answeredChristina,smilingthroughhertears。
"Couldyouasahusband?"Thefirelightfelluponherface。
Nicholas,holdingitbetweenhiswitheredhands,lookedintoitlongandhard;andreadingwhathereadthere,laiditbackagainsthisbreastandsootheditwithhiswitheredhand。
"Iwasjesting,littleone,"hesaid。"Girlsforboys,andoldwomenforoldmen。Andso,inspiteofall,youstillloveJan?"
"Ilovehim,"answeredChristina。"Icannothelpit。"
"Andifhewould,youwouldmarryhim,lethissoulbewhatitmay?"
"Ilovehim,"answeredChristina。"Icannothelpit。"
OldNicholassatalonebeforethedyingfire。Isitthesoulorthebodythatistherealman?Theanswerwasnotsosimpleashehadthoughtit。
"ChristinalovedJan"——soNicholasmumbledtothedyingfire——"whenhehadthesoulofJan。Sheloveshimstill,thoughhehasthesoulofNicholasSnyders。WhenIaskedherifshecouldloveme,itwasterrorIreadinhereyes,thoughJan’ssoulisnowinme;shedivinedit。ItmustbethebodythatistherealJan,therealNicholas。IfthesoulofChristinaenteredintothebodyofDameToelast,shouldI
turnfromChristina,fromhergoldenhair,herfathomlesseyes,heraskinglips,todesiretheshrivelledcarcassofDameToelast?No;I
shouldstillshudderatthethoughtofher。YetwhenIhadthesoulofNicholasSnyders,Ididnotloatheher,whileChristinawasnaughttome。Itmustbewiththesoulthatwelove,elseJanwouldstillloveChristinaandIshouldbeMiserNick。YethereamIlovingChristina,usingNicholasSnyders’brainandgoldtothwartNicholasSnyders’everyscheme,doingeverythingthatIknowwillmakehimmadwhenhecomesbackintohisownbody;whileJancaresnolongerforChristina,wouldmarryDameToelastforherbroadlands,hermanymills。Clearlyitisthesoulthatistherealman。ThenoughtInottobeglad,thinkingIamgoingbackintomyownbody,knowingthatI
shallwedChristina?ButIamnotglad;Iamverymiserable。IshallnotgowithJan’ssoul,Ifeelit;myownsoulwillcomebacktome。
Ishallbeagainthehard,cruel,meanoldmanIwasbefore,onlynowIshallbepoorandhelpless。Thefolkswilllaughatme,andIshallcursethem,powerlesstodothemevil。EvenDameToelastwillnotwantmewhenshelearnsall。AndyetImustdothisthing。SolongasJan’ssoulisinme,IloveChristinabetterthanmyself。Imustdothisforhersake。Iloveher——Icannothelpit。"
OldNicholasrose,tookfromtheplace,whereamonthbeforehehadhiddenit,thesilverflaskofcunningworkmanship。
"Justtwomoreglassfulsleft,"musedNicholas,ashegentlyshooktheflaskagainsthisear。Helaiditonthedeskbeforehim,thenopenedonceagaintheoldgreenledger,fortherestillremainedworktobedone。
HewokeChristinaearly。"Taketheseletters,Christina,"hecommanded。"Whenyouhavedeliveredthemall,butnotbefore,gotoJan;tellhimIamwaitingheretoseehimonamatterofbusiness。"
Hekissedherandseemedlothtolethergo。
"Ishallonlybealittlewhile,"smiledChristina。
"Allpartingstakebutalittlewhile,"heanswered。
OldNicholashadforeseenthetroublehewouldhave。Janwascontent,hadnodesiretobeagainasentimentalyoungfool,eagertosaddlehimselfwithapennilesswife。Janhadotherdreams。
"Drink,man,drink!"criedNicholasimpatiently,"beforeIamtemptedtochangemymind。Christina,providedyoumarryher,istherichestbrideinZandam。Thereisthedeed;readit;andreadquickly。"
ThenJanconsented,andthetwomendrank。Andtherepassedabreathbetweenthemasbefore;andJanwithhishandscoveredhiseyesamoment。
Itwasapity,perhaps,thathedidso,forinthatmomentNicholassnatchedatthedeedthatlaybesideJanonthedesk。Thenextinstantitwasblazinginthefire。
"Notsopoorasyouthought!"camethecroakingvoiceofNicholas。
"Notsopoorasyouthought!Icanbuildagain,Icanbuildagain!"
Andthecreature,laughinghideously,dancedwithitswitheredarmsspreadoutbeforetheblaze,lestJanshouldseektorescueChristina’sburningdowrybeforeitwasdestroyed。
JandidnottellChristina。InspiteofallJancouldsay,shewouldgoback。NicholasSnydersdroveherfromthedoorwithcurses。Shecouldnotunderstand。TheonlythingclearwasthatJanhadcomebacktoher。
"’Twasastrangemadnessthatseizeduponme,"Janexplained。"Letthegoodseabreezesbringushealth。"
SofromthedeckofJan’sshiptheywatchedoldZandamtillitvanishedintoair。
Christinacriedalittleatthethoughtofneverseeingitagain;butJancomfortedherandlaternewfaceshidtheold。
AndoldNicholasmarriedDameToelast,but,happily,livedtodoevilonlyforafewyearslonger。
Longafter,JantoldChristinathewholestory,butitsoundedveryimprobable,andChristina——though,ofcourse,shedidnotsayso——didnotquitebelieveit,butthoughtJanwastryingtoexplainawaythatstrangemonthofhislifeduringwhichhehadwooedDameToelast。YetitcertainlywasstrangethatNicholas,forthesameshortmonth,hadbeensodifferentfromhisusualself。
"Perhaps,"thoughtChristina,"ifIhadnottoldhimIlovedJan,hewouldnothavegonebacktohisoldways。Pooroldgentleman!Nodoubtitwasdespair。"