AtQueenstownonofmynewacquaintancesleftus,Mr。Lennox,andwhenIsaidsomethingabouttheLakesofKillarney,hesighedandand,withalookatme……"Oh,haveyoue’erheardofKateKearney?
ShelivesonthebanksofKillarney;
Fromtheglanceofhereye,Shundangerandfly,Forfatal’stheglanceofKateKearney。"
Wasn’tthatnonsensical?
WeonlystoppedatLiverpoolafewhours。It’sadirty,noisyplace,andIwasgladtoleaveit。Unclerushedoutandboughtapairofdog—skingloves,someugly,thickshoes,andanumbrella,andgotshavedàlamuttonchop,thefirstthing。ThenheflatteredhimselfthathelookedlikeatrueBriton,butthefirsttimehehadthemudcleanedoffhisshoes,thelittlebootblackknewthatanAmericanstoodinthem,andsaid,withagrin,"Thereyerhar,sir。I’vegiven`emthelatestYankeeshine。"ItamusedUncleimmensely。Oh,ImusttellyouwhatthatabsurdLennoxdid!HegothisfriendWard,whocameonwithus,toorderabouquetforme,andthefirstthingIsawinmyroomwasalovelyone,with"RobertLennox’scompliments,"onthecard。Wasn’tthatfun,girls?Iliketraveling。
InevershallgettoLondonifIdon’thurry。Thetripwaslikeridingthroughalongpicturegallery,fulloflovelylandscapes。Thefarmhousesweremydelight,withthatchedroofs,ivyuptotheeaves,latticedwindows,andstoutwomenwithrosychildrenatthedoors。Theverycattlelookedmoretranquilthanours,astheystoodknee—deepinclover,andthehenshadacontentedcluck,asiftheynevergotnervouslikeYankeebiddies。SuchperfectcolorIneversaw,thegrasssogreen,skysoblue,grainsoyellow,woodssodark,Iwasinarapturealltheway。SowasFlo,andwekeptbouncingfromonesidetotheother,tryingtoseeeverythingwhilewewerewhiskingalongattherateofsixtymilesanhour。Auntwastiredandwenttosleep,butUnclereadhisguidebook,andwouldn’tbeastonishedatanything。Thisisthewaywewenton。Amy,flyingup——"Oh,thatmustbeKenilworth,thatgrayplaceamongthetrees!"Flo,dartingtomywindow——"Howsweet!Wemustgotheresometime,won’twePapa?"Uncle,calmlyadmiringhisboots——"No,mydear,notunlessyouwantbeer,that’sabrewery。"
Apause——thenFlocriedout,"Blessme,there’sagallowsandamangoingup。""Where,where?"shrieksAmy,staringoutattwotallpostswithacrossbeamandsomedanglingchains。"Acolliery,"remarksUncle,withatwinkleoftheeye。"Here’salovelyflockoflambsalllyingdown,"saysAmy。"See,Papa,aren’ttheypretty?"addedFlosentimentally。"Geese,youngladies,"returnsUncle,inatonethatkeepsusquiettillFlosettlesdowntoenjoytheFLIRTATIONSOFCAPTAINCAVENDISH,andIhavethesceneryalltomyself。
OfcourseitrainedwhenwegottoLondon,andtherewasnothingtobeseenbutfogandumbrellas。Werested,unpacked,andshoppedalittlebetweentheshowers。AuntMarygotmesomenewthings,forIcameoffinsuchahurryIwasn’thalfready。Awhitehatandbluefeather,amuslindresstomatch,andtheloveliestmantleyoueversaw。ShoppinginRegentStreetisperfectlysplendid。Thingsseemsocheap,niceribbonsonlysixpenceayard。Ilaidinastock,butshallgetmyglovesinParis。Doesn’tthatsoundsortofelegantandrich?
FloandI,forthefunofit,orderedahansomcab,whileAuntandUnclewereout,andwentforadrive,thoughwelearnedafterwardthatitwasn’tthethingforyoungladiestorideinthemalone。Itwassodroll!Forwhenwewereshutinbythewoodenapron,themandrovesofastthatFlowasfrightened,andtoldmetostophim。buthewasupoutsidebehindsomewhere,andIcouldn’tgetathim。Hedidn’thearmecall,norseemeflapmyparasolinfront,andtherewewere,quitehelpless,rattlingaway,andwhirlingaroundcornersatabreakneckpace。Atlast,inmydespair,Isawalittledoorintheroof,andonpokingitopen,aredeyeappeared,andabeeryvoicesaid……
"Now,then,mum?"
IgavemyorderassoberlyasIcould,andslammingdownthedoor,withan"Aye,aye,mum,"themanmadehishorsewalk,asifgoingtoafuneral。Ipokedagainandsaid,"Alittlefaster,"thenoffhewent,helter—skelterasbefore,andweresignedourselvestoourfate。
Todaywasfair,andwewenttoHydePark,closeby,forwearemorearistocraticthanwelook。TheDukeofDevonshirelivesnear。Ioftenseehisfootmenloungingatthebackgate,andtheDukeofWellington’shouseisnotfaroff。SuchsightsasIsaw,mydear!ItwasasgoodasPunch,fortherewerefatdowagersrollingaboutintheirredandyellowcoaches,withgorgeousJeamesesinsilkstockingsandvelvetcoats,upbehind,andpowderedcoachmeninfront。Smartmaids,withtherosiestchildrenIeversaw,handsomegirls,lookinghalfasleep,dandiesinqueerEnglishhatsandlavenderkidsloungingabout,andtallsoldiers,inshortredjacketsandmuffincapsstuckononeside,lookingsofunnyIlongedtosketchthem。
RottenRowmeans`RoutedeRoi’,ortheking’sway,butnowit’smorelikearidingschoolthananythingelse。Thehorsesaresplendid,andthemen,especiallythegrooms,ridewell,butthewomenarestiff,andbounce,whichisn’taccordingtoourrules。IlongedtoshowthematearingAmericangallop,fortheytrottedsolemnlyupanddown,intheirscanthabitsandhighhats,lookinglikethewomeninatoyNoah’sArk。Everyonerides——oldmen,stoutladies,littlechildren——andtheyoungfolksdoadealofflirtinghere,Isayapairexchangerosebuds,forit’sthethingtowearoneinthebutton—hole,andIthoughtitratheranicelittleidea。
IntheP。M。toWestminsterAbbey,butdon’texpectmetodescribeit,that’simpossible,soI’llonlysayitwassublime!ThiseveningwearegoingtoseeFlechter,whichwillbeanappropriateendtothehappiestdayofmylife。
MidnightIt’sverylate,butIcan’tletmylettergointhemorningwithouttellingyouwhathappenedlastevening。Whodoyouthinkcamein,aswewereattea?Laurie’sEnglishfriends,FredandFrankVaughn!Iwassosurprised,forIshouldn’thaveknownthembutforthecards。botharetallfellowswithwhiskers,FredhandsomeintheEnglishstyle,andFrankmuchbetter,forheonlylimpsslightly,andusesnocrutches。TheyhadheardfromLauriewhereweweretobe,andcametoaskustotheirhouse,butUnclewon’tgo,soweshallreturnthecall,andseethemaswecan。Theywenttothetheaterwithus,andwedidhavesuchagoodtime,forFrankdevotedhimselftoFlo,andFredandItalkedoverpast,present,andfuturefunasifwehadknoweachotherallourdays。TellBethFrankaskedforher,andwassorrytohearofherillhealth。FredlaughedwhenIspokeofJo,andsenthis`respectfulcomplimentstothebighat’。NeitherofthemhadforgottenCampLaurence,orthefunwehadthere。Whatagesagoitseems,doesn’tit?
Auntistappingonthewallforthethirdtime,soImuststop。IreallyfeellikeadissipatedLondonfinelady,writingheresolate,withmyroomfullofprettythings,andmyheadajumbleofparks,theaters,newgowns,andgallantcreatureswhosay"Ah!"andtwirltheirblondmustacheswiththetrueEnglishlordliness。Ilongtoseeyouall,andinspiteofmynonsenseam,asever,yourloving……
AmyPARIS
Deargirls,InmylastItoldyouaboutourLondonvisit,howkindtheVaughnswere,andwhatpleasantpartiestheymadeforus。IenjoyedthetripstoHamptonCourtandtheKensingtonMuseummorethananythingelse,foratHamptonIsawRaphael’scartoons,andattheMuseum,roomsfullofpicturesbyTurner,Lawrence,Reynolds,Hogarth,andtheothergreatcreatures。ThedayinRichmondParkwascharming,forwehadaregularEnglishpicnic,andIhadmoresplendidoaksandgroupsofdeerthanIcouldcopy,alsoheardanightingale,andsawlarksgoup。We`did’Londontoourheart’scontent,thankstoFredandFrank,andweresorrytogoaway,forthoughEnglishpeopleareslowtotakeyouin,whentheyoncemakeuptheirmindstodoittheycannotbeoutdoneinhospitality,Ithink。TheVaughnshopetomeetusinRomenextwinter,andIshallbedreadfullydisappointediftheydon’t,forGraceandIaregreatfriends,andtheboysverynicefellows,especiallyFred。
Well,wewerehardlysettledhere,whenheturnedupagain,sayinghehadcomeforaholiday,andwasgoingtoSwitzerland。Auntlookedsoberatfirst,buthewassocoolaboutitshecouldn’tsayaword。Andnowwegetonnicely,andareverygladhecame,forhespeaksFrenchlikeanative,andIdon’tknowwhatweshoulddowithouthim。Uncledoesn’tknowtenwords,andinsistsontalkingEnglishveryloud,asifitwouldmakepeopleunderstandhim。Aunt’spronunciationisold—fashioned,andFloandI,thoughweflatteredourselvesthatweknewagooddeal,findwedon’t,andareverygratefultohaveFreddothe`parleyvooing’,asUnclecallsit。
Suchdelightfultimesaswearehaving!Sight—seeingfrommorningtillnight,stoppingfornicelunchesinthegaycafés,andmeetingwithallsortsofdrolladventures。RainydaysIspendintheLouvre,revellinginpictures。Jowouldturnuphernaughtynoseatsomeofthefinest,becauseshehasnosoulforart,butIhave,andI’mcultivationeyeandtasteasfastasIcan。Shewouldliketherelicsofgreatpeoplebetter,forI’veseenherNapoleon’scockedhatandgraycoat,hisbaby’scradleandhisoldtoothbrush,alsoMarieAntoinette’slittleshoe,theringofSaintDenis,Charlemagne’ssword,andmanyotherinterestingthings。I’lltalkforhoursaboutthemwhenIcome,buthaven’ttimetowrite。
ThePalaisRoyaleisaheavenlyplace,sofullofbijouterieandlovelythingsthatI’mnearlydistractedbecauseIcan’tbuythem。Fredwantedtogetmesome,butofcourseIdidn’tallowit。ThentheBoisandChampsElyséesaretrè:smagnifique。I’veseentheimperialfamilyseveraltimes,theemperoranugly,hard—lookingman,theempresspaleandpretty,butdressedinbadtaste,Ithought——purpledress,greenhat,andyellowgloves。LittleNapisahandsomeboy,whositschattingtohistutor,andkissedhishandtothepeopleashepassesinhisfour—horsebarouche,withpostilionsinredsatinjacketsandamountedguardbeforeandbehind。
WeoftenwalkintheTuileriesGardens,fortheyarelovely,thoughtheantiqueLuxembourgGardenssuitmebetter。PèrelaChaiseisverycurious,formanyofthetombsarelikesmallrooms,andlookingin,oneseesatable,withimagesorpicturesofthedead,andchairsforthemournerstositinwhentheycometolament。ThatissoFrenchy——n’est—cepas?。
OurroomsareontheRuedeRivoli,andsittingonthebalcony,welookupanddownthelong,brilliantstreet。Itissopleasantthatwespendoureveningstalkingtherewhentootiredwithourday’sworktogoout。Fredisveryentertaining,andisaltogetherthemostagreeableyoungmanIeverknew——exceptLaurie,whosemannersaremorecharming。IwishFredwasdark,forIdon’tfancylightmen,however,theVaughnsareveryrichandcomeofanexcellentfamily,soIwon’tfindfaultwiththeiryellowhair,asmyownisyellower。
NextweekweareofftoGermanyandSwitzerland,andasweshalltravelfast,Ishallonlybeabletogiveyouhastyletters。Ikeepmydiary,andtryto`remembercorrectlyanddescribeclearlyallthatIseeandadmire’,asFatheradvised。Itisgoodpracticeforme,andwithmysketchbookwillgiveyouabetterideaofmytourthanthesescribbles。
Adieu,Iembraceyoutenderly。
VotreAmieHEIDELBERG
MydearMamma,HavingaquiethourbeforeweleaveforBerne,I’lltrytotellyouwhathashappened,forsomeofitisveryimportant,asyouwillsee。
ThesailuptheRhinewasperfect,andIjustsatandenjoyeditwithallmymight。GetFather’soldguidebooksandreadaboutit。Ihaven’twordsbeautifulenoughtodescribeit。AtCoblenzwehadalovelytime,forsomestudentsfromBonn,withwhomFredgotacquaintedontheboat,gaveusaserenade。Itwasamoonlightnight,andaboutoneo’clockFloandIwerewakedbythemostdeliciousmusicunderourwindows。Weflewup,andhidbehindthecurtains,butslypeepsshowedusFredandthestudentssingingawaydownbelow。ItwasthemostromanticthingIeversaw——theriver,thebridgeofboats,thegreatfortressopposite,moonlighteverywhere,andmusicfittomeltaheartofstone。
Whentheyweredonewethrewdownsomeflowers,andsawthemscrambleforthem,kisstheirhandstotheinvisibleladies,andgolaughingaway,tosmokeanddrinkbeer,Isuppose。NextmorningFredshowedmeoneofthecrumpledflowersinhisvestpocket,andlookedverysentimental。Ilaughedathim,andsaidIdidn’tthrowit,butFlo,whichseemedtodisgusthim,forhetosseditoutofthewindow,andturnedsensibleagain。I’mafraidI’mgoingtohavetroublewiththatboy,itbeginstolooklikeit。
ThebathsatNassauwereverygay,sowasBaden—Baden,whereFredlostsomemoney,andIscoldedhim。HeneedssomeonetolookafterhimwhenFrankisnotwithhim。Katesaidonceshehopedhe’dmarrysoon,andIquiteagreewithherthatitwouldbewellforhim。Frankfurtwasdelightful。IsawGoeth’shouse,Schiller’sstatue,andDannecker’sfamousAriadne。Itwasverylovely,butIshouldhaveenjoyeditmoreifIhadknownthestorybetter。Ididn’tliketoask,aseveryoneknewitorpretendedtheydid。IwishJowouldtellmeallaboutit。Ioughttohavereadmore,forIfindIdon’tknowanything,anditmortifiesme。
Nowcomestheseriouspart,forithappenedhere,andFredhasjustgone。Hehasbeensokindandjollythatweallgotquitefondofhim。Ineverthoughtofanythingbutatravelingfriendshiptilltheserenadenight。SincethenI’vebeguntofeelthatthemoonlightwalks,balconytalks,anddailyadventuresweresomethingmoretohimthanfun。Ihaven’tflirted,Mother,truly,butrememberedwhatyousaidtome,andhavedonemyverybest。Ican’thelpitifpeoplelikeme。Idon’ttrytomakethem,anditworriesmeifIdon’tcareforthem,thoughJosaysIhaven’tgotanyheart。NowIknowMotherwillshakeherhead,andthegirlssay,"Oh,themercenarylittlewretch!",butI’vemadeupmymind,andifFredasksme,Ishallaccepthim,thoughI’mnotmadlyinlove。Ilikehim,andwegetoncomfortablytogether。Heishandsome,young,cleverenough,andveryrich——eversomuchricherthantheLaurences。Idon’tthinkhisfamilywouldobject,andIshouldbeveryhappy,fortheyareallkind,well—bred,generouspeople,andtheylikeme。Fred,astheeldesttwin,willhavetheestate,Isuppose,andsuchasplendidoneitis!Acityhouseinafashionablestreet,notsoshowyasourbighouses,buttwiceascomfortableandfullofsolidluxury,suchasEnglishpeoplebelievein。Ilikeit,forit’sgenuine。I’veseentheplate,thefamilyjewels,theoldservants,andpicturesofthecountryplace,withitspark,greathouse,lovelygrounds,andfinehorses。Oh,itwouldbeallIshouldask!AndI’dratherhaveitthananytitlesuchasgirlssnapupsoreadily,andfindnothingbehind。Imaybemercenary,butIhatepoverty,anddon’tmeantobearitaminutelongerthanIcanhelp。Oneofusmustmarrywell。Megdidn’t,Jowon’t,Bethcan’tyet,soIshall,andmakeeverythingokayallround。Iwouldn’tmarryamanIhatedordespised。Youmaybesureofthat,andthoughFredisnotmymodelhero,hedoesverywell,andintimeIshouldgetfondenoughofhimifhewasveryfondofme,andletmedojustasIliked。SoI’vebeenturningthematteroverinmymindthelastweek,foritwasimpossibletohelpseeingthatFredlikedme。Hesaidnothing,butlittlethingsshowedit。HenevergoeswithFlo,alwaysgetsonmysideofthecarriage,table,orpromenade,lookssentimentalwhenwearealone,andfrownsatanyoneelsewhoventurestospeaktome。Yesterdayatdinner,whenanAustrianofficerstaredatusandthensaidsomethingtohisfriend,arakish—lookingbaron,about`einwonderschönesBlöndchen’,Fredlookedasfierceasalion,andcuthismeatsosavagelyitnearlyflewoffhisplate。Heisn’toneofthecool,stiffEnglishmen,butisratherpeppery,forhehasScotchbloodinhim,asonemightguessfromhisbonnieblueeyes。
Well,lasteveningwewentuptothecastleaboutsunset,atleastallofusbutFred,whowastomeetusthereaftergoingtothePostRestanteforletters。Wehadacharmingtimepokingabouttheruins,thevaultswherethemonstertunis,andthebeautifulgardensmadebytheelectorlongagoforhisEnglishwife。Ilikedthegreatterracebest,fortheviewwasdivine,sowhiletherestwenttoseetheroomsinside,Isattheretryingtosketchthegraystonelion’sheadonthewall,withscarletwoodbinesprayshangingroundit。IfeltasifI’dgotintoaromance,sittingthere,watchingtheMeckarrollingthroughthevalley,listeningtothemusicoftheAustrianbandbelow,andwaitingformylover,likearealstorybookgirl。IhadafeelingthatsomethingwasgoingtohappenandIwasreadyforit。Ididn’tfeelblushyorquakey,butquitecoolandonlyalittleexcited。
By—and—byIheardFred’svoice,andthenhecamehurryingthroughthegreatarchtofindme。HelookedsotroubledthatIforgotallaboutmyself,andaskedwhatthematterwas。Hesaidhe’djustgotaletterbegginghimtocomehome,forFrankwasveryill。Sohewasgoingatonceonthenighttrainandonlyhadtimetosaygood—by。Iwasverysorryforhim,anddisappointedformyself,butonlyforaminutebecausehesaid,asheshookhands,andsaiditinawaythatIcouldnotmistake,"Ishallsooncomeback,youwon’tforgetme,Amy?"
Ididn’tpromise,butIlookedathim,andheseemedsatisfied,andtherewasnotimeforanythingbutmessagesandgood—byes,forhewasoffinanhour,andweallmisshimverymuch。Iknowhewantedtospeak,butIthink,fromsomethingheoncehinted,thathehadpromisedhisfathernottodoanythingofthesortyetawhile,forheisarashboy,andtheoldgentlemandreadsaforeigndaughter—in—law。WeshallsoonmeetinRome,andthen,ifIdon’tchangemymind,I’llsay"Yes,thankyou,"whenhesays"Willyou,please?"
Ofcoursethisisallveryprivate,butIwishedyoutoknowwhatwasgoingon。Don’tbeanxiousaboutme,rememberIamyour`prudentAmy’,andbesureIwilldonothingrashly。Sendmeasmuchadviceasyoulike。I’lluseitifIcan。IwishIcouldseeyouforagoodtalk,Marmee。Loveandtrustme。
EveryourAMY
GoodWives:Chapter9CHAPTER9TenderTroubles"Jo,I’manxiousaboutBeth。"
"Why,Mother,shehasseemedunusuallywellsincethebabiescame。"
"It’snotherhealththattroublesmenow,it’sherspirits。I’msurethereissomethingonhermind,andIwantyoutodiscoverwhatitis。"
"Whatmakesyouthinkso,Mother?"
"Shesitsaloneagooddeal,anddoesn’ttalktoherfatherasmuchassheused。Ifoundhercryingoverthebabiestheotherday。Whenshesings,thesongsarealwayssadones,andnowandthenIseealookinherfacethatIdon’tunderstand。Thisisn’tlikeBeth,anditworriesme。"
"Haveyouaskedheraboutit?’
"Ihavetriedonceortwice,butsheeitherevadedmyquestionsorlookedsodistressedthatIstopped。Ineverforcemychildren’sconfidence,andIseldomhavetowaitforlong。"
Mrs。MarchglancedatJoasshespoke,butthefaceoppositeseemedquiteunconsciousofanysecretdisquietudebutBeth’s,andaftersewingthoughtfullyforaminute,Josaid,"Ithinksheisgrowingup,andsobeginstodreamdreams,andhavehopesandfearsandfidgets,withoutknowingwhyorbeingabletoexplainthem。Why,Mother,Beth’seighteen,butwedon’trealizeit,andtreatherlikeachild,forgettingshe’sawoman。"
"Sosheis。Dearheart,howfastyoudogrowup,"returnedhermotherwithasighandasmile。
"Can’tbehelped,Marmee,soyoumustresignyourselftoallsortsofworries,andletyourbirdshopoutofthenest,onebyone。Ipromisenevertohopveryfar,ifthatisanycomforttoyou。"
"It’sagreatcomfort,Jo。Ialwaysfeelstrongwhenyouareathome,nowMegisgone。BethistoofeebleandAmytooyoungtodependupon,butwhenthetugcomes,youarealwaysready。"
"Why,youknowIdon’tmindhardjobsmuch,andtheremustalwaysbeonescrubinafamily。AmyissplendidinfineworksandI’mnot,butIfeelinmyelementwhenallthecarpetsaretobetakenup,orhalfthefamilyfallsickatonce。Amyisdistinguishingherselfabroad,butifanythingisamissathome,I’myourman。"
"IleaveBethtoyourhands,then,forshewillopenhertenderlittlehearttoherJosoonerthantoanyoneelse。Beverykind,anddon’tletherthinkanyonewatchesortalksabout;her。Ifsheonlywouldgetquitestrongandcheerfulagain,Ishouldn’thaveawishintheworld。"
"Happywoman!I’vegotheaps。"
"Mydear,whatarethey?"
"I’llsettleBethy’stroubles,andthenI’lltellyoumine。Theyarenotverywearing,sothey’llkeep。"AndJostitchedaway,withawisenodwhichsethermother’sheartatrestaboutherforthepresentatleast。
Whileapparentlyabsorbedinherownaffairs,JowatchedBeth,andaftermanyconflictingconjectures,finallysettledupononewhichseemedtoexplainthechangeinher。AslightincidentgaveJothecluetothemystery,shethought,andlivelyfancy,lovingheartdidtherest。ShewasaffectingtowritebusilyoneSaturdayafternoon,whensheandBethwerealonetogether。Yetasshescribbled,shekepthereyeonhersister,whoseemedunusuallyquiet。Sittingatthewindow,Beth’sworkoftendroppedintoherlap,andsheleanedherheaduponherhand,inadejectedattitude,whilehereyesrestedonthedull,autumnallandscape。Suddenlysomeonepassedbelow,whistlinglikeanoperaticblackbird,andavoicecalledout,"Allserene!Comingintonight。"
Bethstarted,leanedforward,smiledandnodded,watchedthepasser—bytillhisquicktrampdiedaway,thensaidsoftlyasiftoherself,"Howstrongandwellandhappythatdearboylooks。"
"Hum!"saidJo,stillintentuponhersister’sface,forthebrightcolorfadedasquicklyasitcame,thesmilevanished,andpresentlyatearlayshiningonthewindowledge。Bethwhiskeditoff,andinherhalf—avertedfacereadatendersorrowthatmadeherowneyesfill。Fearingtobetrayherself,sheslippedaway,murmuringsomethingaboutneedingmorepaper。
"Mercyonme,BethlovesLaurie!"shesaid,sittingdowninherownroom,palewiththeshockofthediscoverywhichshebelievedshehadjustmade。"Ineverdreamedofsuchathing。WhatwillMothersay?Iwonderifher……"thereJostoppedandturnedscarletwithasuddenthought。"Ifheshouldn’tlovebackagain,howdreadfulitwouldbe。Hemust。I’llmakehim!"Andsheshookherheadthreateninglyatthepictureofthemischievous—lookingboylaughingatherfromthewall。"Ohdear,wearegrowingupwithavengeance。Here’sMegmarriedandamamma,AmyflourishingawayatParis,andBethinlove。I’mtheonlyonethathassenseenoughtokeepoutofmischief。"Jothoughtintentlyforaminutewithhereyesfixedonthepicture,thenshesmoothedoutherwrinkledforeheadandsaid,withadecidednodatthefaceopposite,"Nothankyou,sir,you’reverycharming,butyou’venomorestabilitythanaweathercock。Soyouneedn’twritetouchingnotesandsmileinthatinsinuatingway,foritwon’tdoabitofgood,andIwon’thaveit。"
Thenshesighed,andfellintoareveriefromwhichshedidnotwaketilltheearlytwilightsentherdowntotakenewobservations,whichonlyconfirmedhersuspicion。ThoughLaurieflirtedwithAmyandjokedwithJo,hismannertoBethhadalwaysbeenpeculiarlykindandgentle,butsowaseverybody’s。Therefore,noonethoughtofimaginingthathecaredmoreforherthanfortheothers。Indeed,ageneralimpressionhadprevailedinthefamilyoflatethat`ourboy’wasgettingfonderthaneverofJo,who,however,wouldn’thearaworduponthesubjectandscoldedviolentlyifanyonedaredtosuggestit。Iftheyhadknownthevarioustenderpassageswhichhadbeennippedinthebud,theywouldhavehadtheimmensesatisfactionofsaying,"Itoldyouso。"ButJohated`philandering’,andwouldn’tallowit,alwayshavingajokeorasmilereadyattheleastsignofimpendingdanger。WhenLauriefirstwenttocollege,hefellinloveaboutonceamonth,butthesesmallflameswereasbriefasardent,didnodamage,andmuchamusedJo,whotookgreatinterestinthealternationsofhop,despair,andresignation,whichwereconfidedtoherintheirweeklyconferences。ButtherecameatimewhenLaurieceasedtoworshipatmanyshrines,hinteddarklyatoneall—absorbingpassion,andindulgedoccasionallyinByronicfitsofgloom。Thenheavoidedthetendersubjectaltogether,wrotephilosophicalnotestoJo,turnedstudious,andgaveoutthathewasgoingto`dig’,intendingtograduateinablazeofglory。Thissuitedtheyoungladybetterthantwilightconfidences,tenderpressuresofthehand,andeloquentglancesoftheeye,forwithJo,braindevelopedearlierthanheart,andshepreferredimaginaryheroestorealones,becausewhentiredofthem,theformercouldbeshutupinthetinkitchentillcalledfor,andthelatterwerelessmanageable。
Thingswereinthisstatewhenthegranddiscoverywasmade,andJowatchedLauriethatnightasshehadneverdonebefore。Ifshehadnotgotthenewideaintoherhead,shewouldhaveseennothingunusualinthefactthatBethwasveryquiet,andLaurieverykindtoher。Buthavinggiventhereintoherlivelyfancy,itgallopedawaywithheratagreatpace,andcommonsense,beingratherweakenedbyalongcourseorromancewriting,didnotcometotherescue。AsusualBethlayonthesofaandLauriesatinalowchaircloseby,amusingherwithallsortsofgossip,forshedependedonherweekly`spin’,andheneverdisappointedher。ButthateveningJofanciedthatBeth’seyesrestedonthelively,darkfacebesideherwithpeculiarpleasure,andthatshelistenedwithintenseinteresttoanaccountofsomeexcitingcricketmatch,thoughthephrases,`caughtoffatice’,`stumpedoffhisground’’,and`theleghitforthree’,wereasintelligibletoherasSanskrit。Shealsofancied,havingsetherheartuponseeingit,thatshesawacertainincreaseofgentlenessinLaurie’smanner,thathedroppedhisvoicenowandthen,laughedlessthanusual,wasalittleabsent——minded,andsettledtheafghanoverBeth’sfeetwithanassiduitythatwasreallyalmosttender。
"Whoknows?Strangerthingshavehappened,"thoughtJo,asshefussedabouttheroom。"Shewillmakequiteanangelofhim,andhewillmakelifedelightfullyeasyandpleasantforthedear,iftheyonlyloveeachother。Idon’tseehowhecanhelpit,andIdobelievehewouldiftherestofuswereoutoftheway。"
Aseveryonewasoutofthewaybutherself,Jobegantofeelthatsheoughttodisposeofherselfwithallspeed。Butwhereshouldshego?Andburningtolayherselfupontheshrineofsisterlydevotion,shesatdowntosettlethatpoint。