`Small!Isit?I’mgladtohearthat。Butit’sapityyoudidn’tkeepaway,then。Thisfighttakesitoutofhimfrightfully。Theman’sgettingexhausted。Ifeelitbythewayheleansonmyarmaswewalkover。And,Isay,ishesafeinthestreets?Mullinshasbeenmarchinghismenupherethisafternoon。There’saconstablestuckbyeverylamp—post,andeverysecondpersonwemeetbetweenthisandPalaceYardisanobvioustec。Itwillgetonhisnervespresently。Isay,theseforeignscoundrelsaren’tlikelytothrowsomethingathim—arethey?Itwouldbeanationalcalamity。Thecountrycan’tsparehim。’
`Nottomentionyourself。Heleansonyourarm,’suggestedtheAssistantCommissioner,soberly。`Youwouldbothgo。’
`Itwouldbeaneasywayforayoungmantogodownintohistory。NotsomanyBritishMinistershavebeenassassinatedastomakeitaminorincident。Butseriouslynow——’
`Iamafraidthatifyouwanttogodownintohistoryyou’llhavetodosomethingforit。Seriously,there’snodangerwhateverforbothofyoubutfromoverwork。’
ThesympatheticToodleswelcomedthisopeningforachuckle。
`TheFisherieswon’tkillme。Iamusedtolatehours,’hedeclared,withingenuouslevity。But,feelinganinstantcompunction,hebegantoassumeanairofstatesmanlikemoodiness,asonedrawsonaglove。`Hismassiveintellectwillstandanyamountofwork。It’shisnervesthatI
amafraidof。Thereactionarygang,withthatabusivebruteCheesemanattheirhead,insulthimeverynight。’
`Ifhewillinsistonbeginningarevolution!’murmuredtheAssistantCommissioner。
`Thetimehascome,andheistheonlymangreatenoughforthework,’
protestedtherevolutionaryToodles,flaringupunderthecalm,speculativegazeoftheAssistantCommissioner。Somewhereinacorridoradistantbelltinkledurgently,andwithdevotedvigilancetheyoungmanprickeduphisearsatthesound。`He’sreadytogonow,’heexclaimedinawhisper,snatcheduphishat,andvanishedfromtheroom。
TheAssistantCommissionerwentoutbyanotherdoorinalesselasticmanner。Againhecrossedthewidethoroughfare,walkedalonganarrowstreet,andre—enteredhastilyhisowndepartmentalbuildings。Hekeptupthisacceleratedpacetothedoorofhisprivateroom。Beforehehadcloseditfairlyhiseyessoughthisdesk。Hestoodstillforamoment,thenwalkedup,lookedallroundonthefloor,satdowninhischair,rangabell,andwaited。
`ChiefInspectorHeatgoneyet?’
`Yes,sir。Wentawayhalfanhourago。’
Henodded。`Thatwilldo。’Andsittingstill,withhishatpushedoffhisforehead,hethoughtthatitwasjustlikeHeat’sconfoundedcheektocarryoffquietlytheonlypieceofmaterialevidence。Buthethoughtthiswithoutanimosity。Oldandvaluedservantswilltakeliberties。Thepieceofovercoatwiththeaddresssewnonwascertainlynotathingtoleaveabout。DismissingfromhismindthismanifestationofChiefInspectorHeat’smistrust,hewroteanddispatchedanotetohiswife,charginghertomakehisapologiestoMichaelis’sgreatlady,withwhomtheywereengagedtodinethatevening。
Theshortjacketandthelow,roundhatheassumedinasortofcurtainedalcovecontainingawashstand,arowofwoodenpegsandashelf,broughtoutwonderfullythelengthofhisgrave,brownface。Hesteppedbackintothefulllightoftheroom,lookinglikethevisionofacool,reflectiveDonQuixote,withthesunkeneyesofadarkenthusiastandaverydeliberatemanner。Heleftthesceneofhisdailylaboursquicklylikeanunobtrusiveshadow。Hisdescentintothestreetwaslikethedescentintoaslimyaquariumfromwhichthewaterhadbeenrunoff。Amurky,gloomydampnessenvelopedhim。Thewallsofthehouseswerewet,themudoftheroadwayglistenedwithaneffectofphosphorescence,andwhenheemergedintotheStrandoutofanarrowstreetbythesideofCharingCrossStationthegeniusofthelocalityassimilatedhim。Hemighthavebeenbutonemoreofthequeerforeignfishthatcanbeseenofaneveningaboutthereflittingroundthedarkcorners。
Hecametoastandontheveryedgeofthepavement,andwaited。Hisexercisedeyeshadmadeoutintheconfusedmovementoflightsandshowsthrongingtheroadwaythecrawlingapproachofahansom。Hegavenosign;
butwhenthelowstepglidingalongthekerbstonecametohisfeethedodgedinskilfullyinfrontofthebigturningwheel,’andspokeupthroughthelittletrapdooralmostbeforethemangazingsupinelyaheadfromhisperchwasawareofhavingbeenboardedbyafare。
Itwasnotalongdrive。Itendedbysignalabruptly,nowhereinparticular,betweentwolamp—postsbeforealargedraperyestablishment—alongrangeofshopsalreadylappedupinsheetsofcorrugatedironforthenight。
Tenderingacointhroughthetrapdoorthefareslippedoutandaway,leavinganeffectofuncanny,eccentricghostlinessuponthedriver’smind。Butthesizeofthecoinwassatisfactorytohistouch,andhiseducationnotbeingliterary,heremaineduntroubledbythefearoffindingitpresentlyturnedtoadeadleafinhispocket。Raisedabovetheworldoffaresbythenatureofhiscalling,hecontemplatedtheiractionwithalimitedinterest。Thesharppullingofhishorserightroundexpressedhisphilosophy。
Meantime,theAssistantCommissionerwasalreadygivinghisordertoawaiterinalittleItalianrestaurantroundthecorner—oneofthosetrapsforthehungry,longandnarrow,baitedwithaperspectiveofmirrorsandwhitenapery;withoutair,butwithanatmosphereoftheirown—anatmosphereoffraudulentcookerymockinganabjectmankindinthemostpressingofitsmiserablenecessities。InthisimmoralatmospheretheAssistantCommissioner,reflectinguponhisenterprise,seemedtolosesomemoreofhisidentity。Hehadasenseofloneliness,ofevilfreedom。Itwasratherpleasant。When,afterpayingforhisshortmeal,hestoodupandwaitedforhischange,hesawhimselfinthesheetofglass,andwasstruckbyhisforeignappearance。HecontemplatedhisownimagewithamelancholyandInquisitivegaze,thenbysuddeninspirationraisedthecollarofhisjacket。Thisarrangementappearedtohimcommendable,andhecompleteditbygivinganupwardtwisttotheendsofhisblackmoustache。Hewassatisfiedbythesubtlemodificationofhispersonalaspectcausedbythesesmallchanges。`That’lldoverywell,’hethought。`I’llgetalittlewet,alittlesplashed——’
Hebecameawareofthewaiterathiselbowandofasmallpileofsilvercoinsontheedgeofthetablebeforehim。Thewaiterkeptoneeyeonit,whilehisothereyefollowedthelongbackofatall,notveryyounggirl,whopasseduptoadistanttablelookingperfectlysightlessandaltogetherunapproachable。Sheseemedtobeanhabitualcustomer。
OngoingouttheAssistantCommissionermadetohimselftheobservationthatthepatronsoftheplacehadlostinthefrequentationoffraudulentcookeryalltheirnationalandprivatecharacteristics。Andthiswasstrange,sincetheItalianrestaurantissuchapeculiarlyBritishinstitution。
Butthesepeoplewereasdenationalizedasthedishessetbeforethemwitheverycircumstanceofunstampedrespectability。Neitherwastheirpersonalitystampedinanyway,professionally,sociallyorracially。TheyseemedcreatedfortheItalianrestaurant,unlesstheItalianrestauranthadbeenperchancecreatedforthem。Butthatlasthypothesiswasunthinkable,sinceonecouldnotplacethemanywhereoutsidethosespecialestablishments。Onenevermettheseenigmaticalpersonselsewhere。Itwasimpossibletoformapreciseideawhatoccupationstheyfollowedbydayandwheretheywenttobedatnight。Andhehimselfhadbecomeunplaced。Itwouldhavebeenimpossibleforanybodytoguesshisoccupation。Astogoingtobed,therewasadoubteveninhisownmind。Notindeedinregardtohisdomicileitself,butverymuchsoinrespectofthetimewhenhewouldbeabletoreturnthere。
Apleasurablefeelingofindependencepossessedhimwhenheheardtheglassdoorsswingtobehindhisbackwithasortofimperfectbaffledthud。HeadvancedatonceintoanimmensityofgreasyslimeanddampplasterInterspersedwithlamps,andenveloped,oppressed,penetrated,choked,andsuffocatedbytheblacknessofawetLondonnight,whichiscomposedofsootanddropsofwater。
BrettStreetwasnotveryfaraway。Itbranchesoff,narrow,fromthesideofanopentriangularspacesurroundedbydarkandmysterioushouses,templesofpettycommerceemptiedoftradersforthenight。Onlyafruiterer’sstallatthecornermadeaviolentblazeoflightandcolour。Beyondallwasblack,andthefewpeoplepassinginthatdirectionvanishedatonestridebeyondtheglowingheapsoforangesandlemons。Nofootstepsechoed。
Theywouldneverbeheardofagain。TheadventurousheadoftheSpecialCrimesDepartmentwatchedthesedisappearancesfromadistancewithaninterestedeye。Hefeltlight—hearted,asthoughhehadbeenambushedallaloneinajunglemanythousandsofmilesawayfromdepartmentaldesksandofficialinkstands。Thisjoyousnessanddispersionofthoughtbeforeataskofsomeimportanceseemstoprovethatthisworldofoursisnotsuchaveryseriousaffairafterall。FortheAssistantCommissionerwasnotconstitutionallyinclinedtolevity。
Thepolicemanonthebeatprojectedhissombreandmovingformagainsttheluminousgloryoforangesandlemons,andenteredBrettStreetwithouthaste。TheAssistantCommissioner,asthoughhewereamemberofthecriminalclasses,lingeredoutofsight,awaitinghisreturn。Butthisconstableseemedtobelostforevertotheforce。Heneverreturned:musthavegoneoutattheotherendofBrettStreet。
TheAssistantCommissioner,reachingthisconclusion,enteredthestreetinhisturn,andcameuponalargevanarrestedinfrontofthedimlylitwindow—panesofacarter’seating—house。Themanwasrefreshinghimselfinside,andthehorses,theirbigheadsloweredtotheground,fedoutofnose—bagssteadily。Fartheron,ontheoppositesideofthestreet,anothersuspectpatchofdimlightissuedfromMrVerloc’sshopfront,hungwithpapers,heavingwithvaguepilesofcardboardboxesandtheshapesofbooks。TheAssistantCommissionerstoodobservingitacrosstheroadway。
Therecouldbenomistake。Bythesideofthefrontwindow,encumberedbytheshadowsofnondescriptthings,thedoor,standingajar,letescapeonthepavementanarrow,clearstreakofgaslightwithin。
BehindtheAssistantCommissionerthevanandhorses,mergedintoonemass,seemedsomethingalive—asquare—backedblackmonsterblockinghalfthestreet,withsuddeniron—shodstampings,fiercejingles,andheavy,blowingsighs。Theharshlyfestive,ill—omenedglareofalargeandprosperouspublic—housefacedtheotherendofBrettStreetacrossawideroad。Thisbarrierofblazinglights,opposingtheshadowsgatheredaboutthehumbleabodeofMrVerloc’sdomestichappiness,seemedtodrivetheobscurityofthestreetbackuponitself,makeitmoresullen,brooding,andsinister。
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Havinginfusedbypersistentimportunitiessomesortofheatintothechillyinterestofseverallicensedvictuallers(theacquaintancesonceuponatimeofherlateunluckyhusband),MrsVerloc’smotherhadatlastsecuredheradmissiontocertainalmshousesfoundedbyawealthyinnkeeperforthedestitutewidowsofthetrade。
Thisend,conceivedintheastutenessofheruneasyheart,theoldwomanhadpursuedwithsecrecyanddetermination。ThatwasthetimewhenherdaughterWinniecouldnothelppassingaremarktoMrVerlocthatmotherhasbeenspendinghalf—crownsandfiveshillingsalmosteverydaythislastweekincabfares’。Buttheremarkwasnotmadegrudgingly。Winnierespectedhermother’sinfirmities。Shewasonlyalittlesurprisedatthissuddenmaniaforlocomotion。MrVerloc,whowassufficientlymagnificentinhisway,hadgruntedtheremarkimpatientlyasideasinterferingwithhismeditations。Thesewerefrequent,deep,andprolonged;theyboreuponamattermoreimportantthanfiveshillings。Distinctlymoreimportant,andbeyondallcomparisonmoredifficulttoconsiderinallitsaspectswithphilosophicalserenity。Herobjectattainedinastutesecrecy,theheroicoldwomanhadmadeacleanbreastofittoMrsVerloc。Hersoulwastriumphantandherhearttremulous。Inwardly,shequaked,becauseshedreadedandadmiredthecalm,self—containedcharacterofherdaughterWinnie,whosedispleasurewasmaderedoubtablebyadiversityofdreadfulsilences。Butshedidnotallowherinwardapprehensionstorobheroftheadvantageofvenerableplacidityconferreduponheroutwardpersonbyhertriplechin,thefloatingamplenessofherancientform,andtheimpotentconditionofherlegs。
TheshockoftheinformationwassounexpectedthatMrsVerloc,againstherusualpracticewhenaddressed,interruptedthedomesticoccupationshewasengagedupon。Itwasthedustingofthefurnitureintheparlourbehindtheshop。Sheturnedherheadtowardshermother。
`Whateverdidyouwanttodothatfor?’sheexclaimed,inscandalizedastonishment。
Theshockmusthavebeenseveretomakeherdepartfromthatdistantanduninquiringacceptanceoffactswhichwasherforceandhersafeguardinlife。
`Weren’tyoumadecomfortableenoughhere?’
Shehadlapsedintotheseinquiries,butnextmomentshesavedtheconsistencyofherconductbyresumingherdusting,whiletheoldwomansatscaredanddumbunderherdingywhitecapandlustrelessdarkwig。
Winniefinishedthechair,andranthedusteralongthemahoganyatthebackofthehorsehairsofaonwhichMrVerloclovedtotakehiseaseinhatandovercoat。Shewasintentonherwork,butpresentlyshepermittedherselfanotherquestion。
`Howintheworlddidyoumanageit,mother?’
Asnotaffectingtheinwardnessofthings,whichitwasMrsVerloc’sprincipletoignore,thiscuriositywasexcusable。Itboremerelyonthemethods。Theoldwomanwelcomediteagerlyasbringingforwardsomethingthatcouldbetalkedaboutwithmuchsincerity。
Shefavouredherdaughterbyanexhaustiveanswerfullofnamesandenrichedbyside—commentsupontheravagesoftimeasobservedinthealterationofhumancountenances。Thenameswereprincipallythenamesoflicensedvictuallers—`poordaddy’sfriends,mydear’。Sheenlargedwithspecialappreciationonthekindnessandcondescensionofalargebrewer,aBaronetandanM。P。,theChairmanoftheGovernorsoftheCharity。SheexpressedherselfthuswarmlybecauseshehadbeenallowedtointerviewbyappointmenthisPrivateSecretary—`averypolitegentleman,allinblack,withagentle,sadvoice,butsovery,verythinandquiet。Hewaslikeashadow,mydear。’
Winnie,prolongingherdustingoperationstillthetalewastoldtotheend,walkedoutoftheparlourintothekitchen(downtwosteps)inherusualmanner,withouttheslightestcomment。
Sheddingafewtearsinsignofrejoicingatherdaughter’smansuetudeinthisterribleaffair,MrsVerloc’smothergaveplaytoherastutenessinthedirectionofherfurniture,becauseitwasherown;andsometimesshewishedithadn’tbeen。Heroismisallverywell,buttherearecircumstanceswhenthedisposalofafewtablesandchairs,brassbedsteads,andsoon,maybebigwithremoteanddisastrousconsequences。Sherequiredafewpiecesherself,theFoundationwhich,aftermanyimportunities,hadgatheredhertoitscharitablebreast,givingnothingbutbareplanksandcheaplypaperedbrickstotheobjectsofitssolicitude。Thedelicacyguidingherchoicetotheleastvaluableandmostdilapidatedarticlespassedunacknowledged,becauseWinnie’sphilosophyconsistedinnottakingnoticeoftheinsideoffacts;sheassumedthatmothertookwhatsuitedherbest。AstoMrVerloc,hisintensemeditation,likeasortofChinesewall,isolatedhimcompletelyfromthephenomenaofthisworldofvaineffortandillusoryappearances。
Herselectionmade,thedisposaloftherestbecameaperplexingquestioninaparticularway。ShewasleavingitinBrettStreet,ofcourse。Butshehadtwochildren。Winniewasprovidedforbyhersensibleunionwiththatexcellenthusband,MrVerloc。Steviewasdestitute—andalittlepeculiar。Hispositionhadtobeconsideredbeforetheclaimsoflegaljusticeandeventhepromptingsofpartiality。Thepossessionofthefurniturewouldnotbeinanysenseaprovision。Heoughttohaveit—thepoorboy。
Buttogiveiftohimwouldbeliketamperingwithhispositionofcompletedependence。Itwasasortofclaimwhichshefearedtoweaken。Moreover,thesusceptibilitiesofMrVerlocwouldperhapsnotbrookbeingbeholdentohisbrother—in—lawforthechairshesaton。Inalongexperienceofgentlemenlodgers,MrsVerloc’smotherhadacquiredadismalbutresignednotionofthefantasticsideofhumannature。WhatifMrVerlocsuddenlytookitintohisheadtotellStevietotakehisblessedstickssomewhereoutofthat?Adivision,ontheotherhand,howevercarefullymade,mightgivesomecauseofoffencetoWinnie。No。Steviemustremaindestituteanddependent。AndatthemomentofleavingBrettStreetshehadsaidtoherdaughter:`NousewaitingtillIamdead,isthere?EverythingIleavehereisaltogetheryourownnow,mydear。’
Winnie,withherhaton,silentbehindhermother’sback,wentonarrangingthecollaroftheoldwoman’scloak。Shegotherhandbag,anumbrella,withanimpassiveface。Thetimehadcomefortheexpenditureofthesumofthreeandsixpenceonwhatmightwellbesupposedthelastcab—driveofMrsVerloc’smother’slife。Theywentoutattheshopdoor。
Theconveyanceawaitingthemwouldhaveillustratedtheproverbthat`truthcanbemorecruelthancaricature’,ifsuchaproverbexisted。Crawlingbehindaninfirmhorse,ametropolitanhackneydrewuponwobblywheelsandwithamaimeddriveronthebox。Thislastpeculiaritycausedsomeembarrassment。Catchingsightofahookedironcontrivanceprotrudingfromtheleftsleeveoftheman’scoat,MrsVerloc’smotherlostsuddenlytheheroiccourageofthesedays。Shereallycouldn’ttrustherself。`Whatdoyouthink,Winnie?’Shehungback。Thepassionateexpostulationsofthebig—facedcabmanseemedtobesqueezedoutofablockedthroat。Leaningoverfromhisbox,hewhisperedwithmysteriousindignation。Whatwasthematternow?Wasitpossibletotreatamanso?Hisenormousandunwashedcountenanceflamedredinthemuddystretchofthestreet。Wasitlikelytheywouldhavegivenhimalicence,heinquireddesperately,if——
Thepoliceconstableofthelocalityquietedhimbyafriendlyglance;
thenaddressinghimselftothetwowomenwithoutmarkedconsideration,said:`He’sbeendrivingacabfortwentyyears。Ineverknewhimtohaveanaccident。’
`Accident!’shoutedthedriverinascornfulwhisper。
Thepoliceman’stestimonysettledit。Themodestassemblageofsevenpeople,mostlyunderage,dispersed。Winniefollowedhermotherintothecab。Stevieclimbedonthebox。Hisvacantmouthanddistressedeyesdepictedthestateofhismindinregardtothetransactionswhichweretakingplace。
Inthenarrowstreetstheprogressofthejourneywasmadesensibletothosewithinbythenearfrontsofthehousesglidingpastslowlyandshakily,withagreatrattleandjinglingofglass,asifabouttocollapsebehindthecab;andtheinfirmhorse,withtheharnesshungoverhissharpbackboneflappingverylooseabouthisthighs,appearingtobedancingmincinglyonhistoeswithinfinitepatience。Lateron,inthewiderspaceofWhitehall,allvisualevidencesofmotionbecameimperceptible。TherattleandjingleofglasswentonindefinitelyinfrontofthelongTreasurybuilding—
andtimeitselfseemedtostandstill。
AtlastWinnieobserved:`Thisisn’taverygoodhorse。’
Hereyesgleamedintheshadowofthecabstraightahead,immovable。
Onthebox,Stevieshuthisvacantmouthfirst,inordertoejaculateearnestly:
`Don’t。’
Thedriver,holdinghighthereinstwistedaroundthehook,tooknonotice。Perhapshehadnotheard。Stevie’sbreastheaved。
`Don’twhip。’
Themanturnedslowlyhisbloatedandsoddenfaceofmanycoloursbristlingwithwhitehairs。Hislittleredeyesglistenedwithmoisture。Hisbiglipshadaviolettint。Theyremainedclosed。Withthedirtybackofhiswhip—handherubbedthestubblesproutingonhisenormouschin。
`Youmustn’t,’stammeredoutStevie,violently,`ithurts。’
`Mustn’twhip,’queriedtheotherinathoughtfulwhisper,andimmediatelywhipped。Hedidthis,notbecausehissoulwascruelandhisheartevil,butbecausehehadtoearnhisfare。AndforatimethewallsofStStephen’s,withitstowersandpinnacles,contemplatedinimmobilityandsilenceacabthatjingled。Itrolled,too,however。Butonthebridgetherewasacommotion。Steviesuddenlyproceededtogetdownfromthebox。Therewereshoutsonthepavement,peopleranforward,thedriverpulledup,whisperingcursesofindignationandastonishment。Winnieloweredthewindow,andputherheadout,whiteasaghost。Inthedepthsofthecab,hermotherwasexclaiming,intonesofanguish:`Isthatboyhurt?Isthatboyhurt?’
Steviewasnothurt,hehadnotevenfallen,butexcitementasusualhadrobbedhimofthepowerofconnectedspeech。Hecoulddonomorethanstammeratthewindow:`Tooheavy。Tooheavy。’Winnieputoutherhandontohisshoulder。
`Stevie!Getupontheboxdirectly,anddon’ttrytogetdownagain。’
`No。No。Walk。Mustwalk。’
Intryingtostatethenatureofthatnecessityhestammeredhimselfintoutterincoherence。Nophysicalimpossibilitystoodinthewayofhiswhim。Steviecouldhavemanagedeasilytokeeppacewiththeinfirm,dancinghorsewithoutgettingoutofbreath。Buthissisterwithheldherconsentdecisively。`Theidea!Whoeverheardofsuchathing!Runafteracab!’
Hermother,frightenedandhelplessinthedepthoftheconveyance,entreated:
`Oh,don’tlethim,Winnie。He’llgetlost。Don’tlethim。’
`Certainlynot。Whatnext!MrVerlocwillbesorrytohearofthisnonsense,Stevie—Icantellyou。Hewon’tbehappyatall。’
TheideaofMrVerloc’sgriefandunhappinessactingasusualpowerfullyuponStevie’sfundamentallydociledisposition,heabandonedallresistanceandclimbedupagainonthebox,withafaceofdespair。
Thecabbyturnedathimhisenormousandinflamedcountenancetruculently。
`Don’tyougofortryingthissillygameagain,youngfellow。’
Afterdeliveringhimselfthusinasternwhisper,strainedalmosttoextinction,hedroveon,ruminatingsolemnly。Tohismindtheincidentremainedsomewhatobscure。Buthisintellect,thoughithadlostitspristinevivacityinthebenumbingyearsofsedentaryexposuretotheweather,lackednotindependenceorsanity。GravelyhedismissedthehypothesisofSteviebeingadrunkenyoungnipper。
Insidethecabthespellofsilence,inwhichthetwowomenhadenduredshouldertoshoulderthejolting,rattling,andjinglingofthejourney,hadbeenbrokenbyStevie’soutbreak。Winnieraisedhervoice。
`You’vedonewhatyouwanted,mother。Youhaveonlyyourselftothankforitifyouaren’thappyafterwards。AndIdon’tthinkyou’llbe。ThatIdon’t。Weren’tyoucomfortableenoughinthehouse?Whateverpeople’llthinkofus—youthrowingyourselflikethisonaCharity?’
`Mydear,’screamedtheoldwomanearnestlyabovethenoise,`you’vebeenthebestofdaughterstome。AstoMrVerloc—there——
WordsfailingheronthesubjectofMrVerloc’sexcellence,sheturnedheroldtearfuleyestotheroofofthecab。Thensheavertedherheadonthepretenceoflookingoutofthewindow,asiftojudgeoftheirprogress。
Itwasinsignificant,andwentonclosetothekerbstone。Night,theearlydirtynight,thesinister,noisy,hopeless,androwdynightofSouthLondon,hadovertakenheronherlastcabdrive。Inthegas—lightofthelow—frontedshopsherbigcheeksglowedwithanorangehueunderablackandmauvebonnet。
MrsVerloc’smother’scomplexionhadbecomeyellowbytheeffectofageandfromanaturalpredispositiontobiliousness,favouredbythetrialsofadifficultandworriedexistence,firstaswife,thenaswidow。Itwasacomplexionthatundertheinfluenceofablushwouldtakeonanorangetint。Andthiswoman,modestindeedbuthardenedinthefiresofadversity,ofanage,moreover,whenblushesarenotexpected,hadpositivelyblushedbeforeherdaughter。Intheprivacyofafour—wheeler,onherwaytoacharitycottage(oneofarow)whichbytheexiguityofitsdimensionsandthesimplicityofitsaccommodation,mightwellhavebeendevisedinkindnessasaplaceoftrainingforthestillmorestraitenedcircumstancesofthegrave,shewasforcedtohidefromherownchildablushofremorseandshame。
Whateverpeoplewillthink?Sheknewverywellwhattheydidthink,thepeopleWinniehadinhermind—theoldfriendsofherhusband,andotherstoo,whoseinterestshehadsolicitedwithsuchflatteringsuccess。
Shehadnotknownbeforewhatagoodbeggarshecouldbe。Butsheguessedverywellwhatinferencewasdrawnfromherapplication。Onaccountofthatshrinkingdelicacy,whichexistssidebysidewithaggressivebrutalityinmasculinenature,theinquiriesintohercircumstanceshadnotbeenpushedveryfar。Shehadcheckedthembyavisiblecompressionofthelipsandsomedisplayofanemotiondeterminedtobeeloquentlysilent。Andthemenwouldbecomesuddenlyincurious,afterthemanneroftheirkind。
Shecongratulatedherselfmorethanonceonhavingnothingtodowithwomen,whobeingnaturallymorecallousandavidofdetails,wouldhavebeenanxioustobeexactlyinformedbywhatsortofunkindconductherdaughterandson—in—lawhaddrivenhertothatsadextremity。ItwasonlybeforetheSecretaryofthegreatbrewerM。P。andChairmanoftheCharity,who,actingforhisprincipal,feltboundtobeconscientiouslyinquisitiveastotherealcircumstancesoftheapplicant,thatshehadburstintotearsoutrightandaloud,asacorneredwomanwillweep。Thethinandpolitegentleman,aftercontemplatingherwithanairofbeing`struckallofaheap’,abandonedhispositionunderthecoverofsoothingremarks。Shemustnotdistressherself。ThedeedoftheCharitydidnotabsolutelyspecify`childlesswidows’。Infact,itdidnotbyanymeansdisqualifyher。ButthediscretionoftheCommitteemustbeaninformeddiscretion。Onecouldunderstandverywellherunwillingnesstobeaburden,etc。,etc。Thereupon,tohisprofounddisappointment,MrsVerloc’smotherweptsomemorewithanaugmentedvehemence。
Thetearsofthatlargefemaleinadark,dustywig,andancientsilkdressfestoonedwithdingywhitecottonlace,werethetearsofgenuinedistress。Shehadweptbecauseshewasheroicandunscrupulousandfullofloveforbothherchildren。Girlsfrequentlygetsacrificedtothewelfareoftheboys。InthiscaseshewassacrificingWinnie。Bythesuppressionoftruthshewasslanderingher。Ofcourse,Winniewasindependent,andneednotcarefortheopinionofpeoplethatshewouldneverseeandwhowouldneverseeher;whereaspoorSteviehadnothingintheworldhecouldcallhisownexcepthismother’sheroismandunscrupulousness。
ThefirstsenseofsecurityfollowingonWinnie’smarriageworeoffintime(fornothinglasts),andMrsVerloc’smother,intheseclusionofthebackbedroom,hadrecalledtheteachingofthatexperiencewhichtheworldimpressesuponawidowedwoman。Butshehadrecalleditwithoutvainbitterness;herstoreofresignationamountedalmosttodignity。Shereflectedstoicallythateverythingdecays,wearsout,inthisworld;chatthewayofkindnessshouldbemadeeasytothewelldisposed;thatherdaughterWinniewasamostdevotedsister,andaveryself—confidentwifeindeed。AsregardsWinnie’ssisterlydevotion,herstoicismflinched。Sheexceptedthatsentimentfromtheruleofdecayaffectingallthingshumanandsomethingsdivine。Shecouldnothelpit;nottodosowouldhavefrightenedhertoomuch。Butinconsideringtheconditionsofherdaughter’smarriedstate,sherejectedfirmlyallflatteringillusions。ShetookthecoldandreasonableviewthatthelessstrainputonMrVerloc’skindnessthelongeritseffectswerelikely’tolast。Thatexcellentmanlovedhiswife,ofcourse,buthewould,nodoubt,prefertokeepasfewofherrelationsaswasconsistentwiththeproperdisplayofthatsentiment。ItwouldbebetterifitswholeeffectwereconcentratedonpoorStevie。Andtheheroicoldwomanresolvedongoingawayfromherchildrenasanactofdevotionandasamoveofdeeppolicy。
The`virtue’ofthispolicyconsistedinthis(MrsVerloc’smotherwassubtleinherway),thatStevie’smoralclaimwouldbestrengthened。Thepoorboy—agood,usefulboy,ifalittlepeculiar—hadnotasufficientstanding。Hehadbeentakenoverwithhismother,somewhatinthesamewayasthefurnitureoftheBelgravianmansionhadbeentakenover,asifonthegroundofbelongingtoherexclusively。Whatwillhappen,sheaskedherself(forMrsVerloc’smotherwasinameasureimaginative),whenIdie?Andwhensheaskedherselfthatquestionitwaswithdread。Itwasalsoterribletothinkthatshewouldnotthenhavethemeansofknowingwhathappenedtothepoorboy。Butbymakinghimovertohissister,bygoingthusaway,shegavehimtheadvantageofadirectlydependentposition。