InthesetermsdidMrVerlocdeclarehisthirstforrevenge。Itwasaveryappropriaterevenge。ItwasinharmonywiththepromptingsofMrVerloc’sgenius。Ithadalsotheadvantageofbeingwithintherangeofhispowersandofadjustingitselfeasilytothepracticeofhislife,whichhadconsistedpreciselyinbetrayingthesecretandunlawfulproceedingsofhisfellowmen。Anarchistsordiplomatswereallonetohim。MrVerlocwastemperamentallynorespecterofpersons。Hisscornwasequallydistributedoverthewholefieldofhisoperations。Butasamemberofarevolutionaryproletariat—whichheundoubtedlywas—henourishedaratherinimicalsentimentagainstsocialdistinction。
`Nothingonearthcanstopmenow,’headded,andpaused,lookingfixedlyathiswife,whowaslookingfixedlyatablankwall。
Thesilenceinthekitchenwasprolonged,andMrVerlocfeltdisappointed。
Hehadexpectedhiswifetosaysomething。ButMrsVerloc’slips,composedintheirusualform,preservedastatuesqueimmobilityliketherestofherface。AndMrVerlocwasdisappointed。Yettheoccasiondidnot,herecognized,demandspeechfromher。Shewasawomanofveryfewwords。
Forreasonsinvolvedintheveryfoundationofhispsychology。,MrVerlocwasinclinedtoputhistrustinanywomanwhohadgivenherselftohim。
Thereforehetrustedhiswife。Theiraccordwasperfect,butitwasnotprecise。Itwasatacitaccord,congenialtoMrsVerloc’sincuriosityandtoMrVerloc’shabitsofmind,whichwereindolentandsecret。Theyrefrainedfromgoingtothebottomoffactsandmotives。
Thisreserve,expressing,inaway,theirprofoundconfidenceineachother,introducedatthesametimeacertainelementofvaguenessintotheirintimacy。Nosystemofconjugalrelationsisperfect。MrVerlocpresumedthathiswifehadunderstoodhimbuthewouldhavebeengladtohearhersaywhatshethoughtatthemoment。Itwouldhavebeenacomfort。
Therewereseveralreasonswhythiscomfortwasdeniedhim。Therewasaphysicalobstacle:MrsVerlochadnotsufficientcommandoverhervoice。
Shedidnotseeanyalternativebetweenscreamingandsilence,andinstinctivelyshechosethesilence。WinnieVerlocwastemperamentallyasilentperson。
Andtherewastheparalysingatrocityofthethoughtwhichoccupiedher。
Hercheekswereblanched,herlipsashy,herimmobilityamazing。AndshethoughtwithoutlookingatMrVerloc:`Thismantooktheboyawaytomurderhim。Hetooktheboyfromhishometomurderhim。Hetooktheboyawayfrommetomurderhim!’
MrsVerloc’swholebeingwasrackedbythatinconclusiveandmaddeningthought。Itwasinherveins,inherbones,intherootsofherhair。Mentallysheassumedthebiblicalattitudeofmourning—thecoveredface,therentgarments;thesoundofwailingandlamentationfilledherhead。Butherteethwereviolentlyclenched,andhertearlesseyeswerehotwithrage,becauseshewasnotasubmissivecreature。Theprotectionshehadextendedoverherbrotherhadbeeninitsoriginofafierceandindignantcomplexion。
Shehadtolovehimwithamilitantlove。Shehadbattledforhim—evenagainstherself。Hislosshadthebitternessofdefeat,withtheanguishofabaffledpassion。Itwasnotanordinarystrokeofdeath。Moreover,itwasnotdeaththattookSteviefromher。ItwasMrVerlocwhotookhimaway。Shehadseenhim。Shehadwatchedhim,withoutraisingahand,taketheboyaway。Andshehadlethimgo,like—likeafool—ablindfool。
Thenafterhehadmurderedtheboyhecamehometoher。Justcamehomelikeanyothermanwouldcomehometohiswife……
ThroughhersetteethMrsVerlocmutteredatthewall:`AndIthoughthehadcaughtacold。’MrVerlocheardthesewordsandappropriatedthem。
`Itwasnothing,’hesaid,moodily。`Iwasupset。Iwasupsetonyouraccount。
MrsVerloc,turningherheadslowly,transferredherstarefromthewalltoherhusband’sperson。MrVerloc,withthetipsofhisfingersbetweenhislips,waslookingontheground。
`Can’tbehelped,’hemumbled,lettinghishandfall。`Youmustpullyourselftogether。You’llwantallyourwitsaboutyou。Itisyouwhobroughtthepoliceaboutourears。Nevermind,Iwon’tsayanythingmoreaboutit,’continuedMrVerloc,magnanimously。`Youcouldn’tknow。’
`Icouldn’t,’breathedoutMrsVerloc。Itwasasifacorpsehadspoken。
MrVerloctookupthethreadofhisdiscourse。
`Idon’tblameyou。I’llmakethemsitup。Onceunderlockandkeyitwillbesafeenoughformetotalk—youunderstand。Youmustreckononmebeingtwoyearsawayfromyou,’hecontinued,inatoneofsincereconcern。
`Itwillbeeasierforyouthanforme。You’llhavesomethingtodo,whileI—Lookhere,Winnie,whatyoumustdoistokeepthisbusinessgoingfortwoyears。Youknowenoughforthat。You’veagoodheadonyou。I’llsendyouwordwhenit’stimetogoabouttryingtosell。You’llhavetobeextracareful。Thecomradeswillbekeepinganeyeonyouallthetime。
You’llhavetobeasartfulasyouknowhow,andascloseasthegrave。
Noonemustknowwhatyouaregoingtodo。IhavenomindtogetaknockontheheadorastabinthebackdirectlyIamletout。’
ThusspokeMrVerloc,applyinghismindwithingenuityandforethoughttotheproblemsofthefuture。Hisvoicewassombre,becausehehadacorrectsentimentofthesituation。Everythingwhichhedidnotwishtopasshadcometopass。Thefuturehadbecomeprecarious。Hisjudgement,perhaps,hadbeenmomentarilyobscuredbyhisdreadofMrVladimir’struculentfolly。
Amansomewhatoverfortymaybeexcusablythrownintoconsiderabledisorderbytheprospectoflosinghisemployment,especiallyifthemanisasecretagentofpoliticalpolice,dwellingsecureintheconsciousnessofhishighvalueandintheesteemofhighpersonages。Hewasexcusable。
Nowthethinghadendedinacrash。MrVerlocwascool;buthewasnotcheerful。Asecretagentwhothrowshissecrecytothewindsfromdesireofvengeance,andflauntshisachievementsbeforethepubliceye,becomesthemarkfordesperateandbloodthirstyindignations。Withoutundulyexaggeratingthedanger,MrVerloctriedtobringitclearlybeforehiswife’smind。
Herepeatedthathehadnointentionoflettingtherevolutionistsdoawaywithhim。
Helookedstraightintohiswife’seyes。Theenlargedpupilsofthewomanreceivedhisstareintotheirunfathomabledepths。
`Iamtoofondofyouforthat,’hesaid,withalittlenervouslaugh。
AfaintflushcolouredMrsVerloc’sghastlyandmotionlessface。Havingdonewiththevisionsofthepast,shehadnotonlyheard,buthadalsounderstoodthewordsutteredbyherhusband。Bytheirextremedisaccordwithhermentalconditionthesewordsproducedonheraslightlysuffocatingeffect。MrsVerloc’smentalconditionhadthemeritofsimplicity;butitwasnotsound。Itwasgovernedtoomuchbyafixedidea。Everynookandcrannyofherbrainwasfilledwiththethoughtthatthisman,withwhomshehadlivedwithoutdistasteforsevenyears,hadtakenthe`poorboy’awayfromherinordertokillhim—themantowhomshehadgrownaccustomedinbodyandmind;themanwhomshehadtrusted,tooktheboyawaytokillhim!Initsform,initssubstance,initseffect,whichwasuniversal,alteringeventheaspectofinanimatethings,itwasathoughttositstillandmarvelatforeverandever。MrsVerlocsatstill。Andacrossthatthought(notacrossthekitchen)theformofMrVerlocwenttoandfro,familiarlyinhatandovercoat,stampingwithhisbootsuponherbrain。Hewasprobablytalking,too;butMrsVerloc’sthoughtforthemostpartcoveredthevoice。
Nowandthen,however,thevoicewouldmakeitselfheard。Severalconnectedwordsemergedattimes。Theirpurportwasgenerallyhopeful。OneachoftheseoccasionsMrsVerloc’sdilatedpupils,losingtheirfar—offfixity,followedherhusband’smovementswiththeeffectofblackcareandimpenetrableattention。Wellinformeduponallmattersrelatingtohissecretcalling,MrVerlocauguredwellforthesuccessofhisplansandcombinations。Hereallybelievedthatitwouldbeuponthewholeeasyforhimtoescapetheknifeofinfuriatedrevolutionists。Hehadexaggeratedthestrengthoftheirfuryandthelengthoftheirarm(forprofessionalpurposes)toooftentohavemanyillusionsonewayortheotter。Fortoexaggeratewithjudgementonemustbinbymeasuringwithnicety。Heknewalsohowmuchvirtueandhowmuchinfamyisforgottenintwoyears—twolongyears。
Hisfirstreallyconfidentialdiscoursetohiswifewasoptimisticfromconviction。Healsothoughtitgoodpolicytodisplayalltheassurancehecouldmuster。Itwouldputheartintothepoorwoman。Onhisliberation,whichharmonizingwiththewholetenorofhislife,wouldbesecret,ofcourse,theywouldvanishtogetherwithoutlossoftime。Astocoveringupthetracks,hebeggedhiswifetotrusthimforthat。Heknewhowitwastobedonesothatthedevilhimself——
Hewavedhishand。Heseemedtoboast。Hewishedonlytoputheartintoher。Itwasabenevolentintention,butMrVerlochadthemisfortunenottobeinaccordwithhisaudience。
Theself—confidenttonegrewuponMrsVerloc’searwhichletmostofthewordsgoby;forwhatwerewordstohernow?Whatcouldwordsdotoherforgoodorevilinthefaceofherfixedidea?Herblackglancefollowedthatmanwhowasassertinghisimpunity—themanwhohadtakenpoorSteviefromhometokillhimsomewhere。MrsVerloccouldnotrememberexactlywhere,butherheartbegantobeatveryperceptibly。
MrVerloc,inasoftandconjugaltone,wasnowexpressinghisfirmbeliefthattherewereyetagoodfewyearsofquietlifebeforethemboth。
Hedidnotgointothequestionofmeans。Aquietlifeitmustbeand,asitwere,nestlingintheshade,concealedamongmenwhosefleshisgrass;
modest,likethelifeofviolets。ThewordsusedbyMrVerlocwere:`Lielowforabit。’AndfarfromEngland,ofcourse。ItwasnotclearwhetherMrVerlochadinhismindSpainorSouthAmerica;butatanyratesomewhereabroad。
Thislastword,fallingintoMrsVerloc’sear,producedadefiniteimpression。
Thismanwastalkingofgoingabroad。Theimpressionwascompletelydisconnected;
andsuchistheforceofmentalhabitthatMrsVerlocatonceandautomaticallyaskedherself:`AndwhatofStevie?’
Itwasasortofforgetfulness;butinstantlyshebecameawarethattherewasnolongeranyoccasionforanxietyonthatscore。Therewouldneverbeanyoccasionanymore。Thepoorboyhadbeentakenoutandkilled。
Thepoorboywasdead。
ThisshakingpieceofforgetfulnessstimulatedMrsVerloc’sintelligence。
ShebegantoperceivecertainconsequenceswhichwouldhavesurprisedMrVerloc。Therewasnoneedforhernowtostaythere,inthatkitchen,inthathouse,withthatman—sincetheboywasgoneforever。Noneedwhatever。
AndonthatMrsVerlocroseasifraisedbyaspring。Butneithercouldsheseewhattherewastokeepherintheworldatall。Andthisinabilityarrested,her。MrVerlocwatchedherwithmaritalsolicitude。
`You’relookingmorelikeyourself,’hesaid,uneasily。Somethingpeculiarintheblacknessofhiswife’seyesdisturbedhisoptimism。AtthatprecisemomentMrsVerlocbegantolookuponherselfasreleasedfromallearthlyties。Shehadherfreedom。Hercontractwithexistence,asrepresentedbythatmanstandingoverthere,wasatanend。Shewasafreewoman。HadthisviewbecomeinsomewayperceptibletoMrVerlochewouldhavebeenextremelyshocked。InhisaffairsoftheheartMrVerlochadbeenalwayscarelesslygenerous,yetalwayswignootherideathanthatofbeinglovedforhimself。Uponthismatter,hisethicalnotionsbeinginagreementwithhisvanity,hewascompletelyincorrigible。Thatthisshouldbesointhecaseofhisvirtuousandlegalconnectionhewasperfectlycertain。Hehadgrownolder,fatter,heavier,inthebeliefthathelackednofascinationforbeinglovedforhisownsake。WhenhesawMrsVerlocstartingtowalkoutofthekitchenwithoutawordhewasdisappointed。
`Whereareyougoingto?’hecalledoutrathersharply。`Upstairs?’
MrsVerlocinthedoorwayturnedatthevoice。Aninstinctofprudencebornoffear,theexcessivefearofbeingapproachedandtouchedbythatman,inducedhertonodathimslightly(fromtheheightoftwosteps],withastirofthelipswhichtheconjugaloptimismofMrVerloctookforawananduncertainsmile。
`That’sright,’heencouragedhergruffly。`Restandquiet’swhatyouwant。Goon。Itwon’tbelongbeforeIamwithyou。’
MrsVerloc,thefreewomanwhohadhadreallynoideawhereshewasgoingto,obeyedthesuggestionwithrigidsteadiness。
MrVerlocwatchedher。Shedisappearedupthestairs。Hewasdisappointed。
Therewasthatwithinhimwhichwouldhavebeenmoresatisfiedifshehadbeenmovedtothrowherselfuponhisbreast。Buthewasgenerousandindulgent。
Winniewasalwaysundemonstrativeandsilent。NeitherwasMrVerlochimselfprodigalofendearmentsandwordsasarule。Butthiswasnotanordinaryevening。Itwasanoccasionwhenamanwantstobefortifiedandstrengthenedbyopenproofsofsympathyandaffection。MrVerlocsighed,andputoutthegasinthekitchen。MrVerloc’ssympathywithhiswifewasgenuineandintense。Italmostbroughttearsintohiseyesashestoodintheparlourreflectingonthelonelinesshangingoverherhead。InthismoodMrVerlocmissedStevieverymuchoutofadifficultworld。Hethoughtmournfullyofhisend。Ifonlythatladhadnotstupidlydestroyedhimself!
Thesensationofunappeasablehunger,notunknownafterthestrainofahazardousenterprisetoadventurersoftougherfibrethanMrVerloc,overcamehimagain。Thepieceofroastbeef,laidoutinthelikenessoffunerealbakedmeatsforStevie’sobsequies,offereditselflargelytohisnotice。AndMrVerlocagainpartook。Hepartookravenously,withoutrestraintanddecency,cuttingthicksliceswiththesharpcarvingknife,andswallowingthemwithoutbread。InthecourseofthatrefectionitoccurredtoMrVerlocthathewasnothearinghiswifemoveaboutinthebedroomasheshouldhavedone。ThethoughtoffindingherperhapssittingonthebedinthedarknotonlycutMrVerloc’sappetite,butalsotookfromhimtheinclinationtofollowherupstairsjustyet。Layingdownthecarvingknife,MrVerloclistenedwithcarewornattention。
Hewascomfortedbyhearinghermoveatlast。Shewalkedsuddenlyacrosstheroom,andthrewthewindowup。Afteraperiodofstillnessupthere,duringwhichhefiguredhertohimselfwithherheadout,heheardthesashbeingloweredslowly。Thenshemadeafewsteps,andsatdown。EveryresonanceofthishousewasfamiliartoMrVerloc,whowasthoroughlydomesticated。
Whennextheheardhiswife’sfootstepsoverheadheknew,aswellasifhehadseenherdoingit,thatshehadbeenputtingonherwalkingshoes。
MrVerlocwriggledhisshouldersslightlyatthisominoussymptom,andmovingawayfromthetable,stoodwithhisbacktothefireplace,hisheadononeside,andgnawingperplexedlyatthetipsofhisfingers。Hekepttrackofhermovementsbythesound。Shewalkedhereandthereviolently,withabruptstoppages,nowbeforethechestofdrawers,theninfrontofthewardrobe。Animmenseloadofweariness,theharvestofadayofshocksandsurprises,weighedMrVerloc’senergiestotheground。
Hedidnotraisehiseyestillheheardhiswifedescendingthestairs。
Itwasashehadguessed,shewasdressedforgoingout。
MrsVerlocwasafreewoman。ShehadthrownopenthewindowofthebedroomeitherwiththeintentionofscreamingMurder!Help!orofthrowingherselfout。Forshedidnotexactlyknowwhatusetomakeofherfreedom。Herpersonalityseemedtohavebeentornintotwopieces,whosementaloperationsdidnotadjustthemselvesverywelltoeachother。Thestreet,silentanddesertedfromendtoend,repelledherbytakingsideswiththatmanwhowassocertainofhisimpunity。Shewasafraidtoshoutlestnooneshouldcome。Obviouslynoonewouldcome。Herinstinctofself—preservationrecoiledfromthedepthofthefallintothatsortofslimy,deeptrench。MrsVerlocclosedthewindow,anddressedherselftogooutintothestreetbyanotherway。Shewasafreewoman。Shehaddressedherselfthoroughly,downtothetyingofablackveiloverherface。Assheappearedbeforehiminthelightoftheparlour,MrVerlocobservedthatshehadevenherlittlehandbaghangingfromherleftwrist……Flyingofftohermother,ofcourse。
Thethoughtthatwomenwerewearisomecreaturesafterallpresenteditselftohisfatiguedbrain。Buthewastoogeneroustoharbouritformorethananinstant。Thisman,hurtcruellyinhisvanity,remainedmagnanimousinhisconduct,allowinghimselfnosatisfactionofabittersmileorofacontemptuousgesture。Withtruegreatnessofsoul,heonlyglancedatthewoodenclockonthewall,andsaidinaperfectlycalmbutforciblemanner:
`Fiveandtwentyminutespasteight,Winnie。There’snosenseingoingovertheresolate。Youwillnevermanagetogetbacktonight。’
BeforehisextendedhandMrsVerlochadstoppedshort。Headded,heavily:
`Yourmotherwillbegonetobedbeforeyougetthere。Thisisthesortofnewsthatcanwait。’
NothingwasfurtherfromMrsVerloc’sthoughtsthangoingtohermother。
Sherecoiledatthemereidea,andfeelingachairbehindher,sheobeyedthesuggestionofthetouch,andsatdown。Herintentionhadbeensimplytogetoutsidethedoorforever。Andifthisfeelingwascorrect,itsmentalformtookanunrefinedshapecorrespondingtoheroriginandstation。
`Iwouldratherwalkthestreetsallthedaysofmylife,’shethought。
Butthiscreature,whosemoralnaturehadbeensubjectedtoashockofwhich,inthephysicalorder,themostviolentearthquakeofhistorycouldonlybeafaintandlanguidrendering,wasatthemercyofmeretrifles,ofcasualcontacts。Shesatdown。Withherhatandveilshehadtheairofavisitor,ofhavinglookedinonMrVerlocforamoment。Herinstantdocilityencouragedhim,whilstheraspectofonlytemporaryandsilentacquiescenceprovokedhimalittle。
`Letmetellyou,Winnie,’hesaidwithauthority,`thatyourplaceisherethisevening。Hangitall!youbroughtthedamnedpolicehighandlowaboutmyears。Idon’tblameyou—butit’syourdoingallthesame。
You’dbettertakethisconfoundedhatoff。Ican’tletyougoout,oldgirl,’headdedinasoftenedvoice。
MrsVerloc’smindgotholdofthatdeclarationwithmorbidtenacity。
`ThemanwhohadtakenStevieoutfromunderherveryeyestomurderhiminalocalitywhosenamewasatthemomentnotpresenttohermemorywouldnotallowhertogoout。Ofcoursehewouldn’t。NowhehadmurderedSteviehewouldneverlethergo。Hewouldwanttokeepherfornothing。Andonthischaracteristicreasoning,havingalltheforceofinsanelogic,MrsVerloc’sdisconnectedwitswenttoworkpractically。Shecouldslipbyhim,openthedoor,runout。Buthewoulddashoutafterher,seizeherroundthebody,dragherbackintotheshop。Shecouldscratch,kick,andbite—andstab,too;butforstabbingshewantedaknife。MrsVerlocsatstillunderherblackveil,inherownhouse,likeamaskedandmysteriousvisitorofimpenetrableintentions。
MrVerloc’smagnanimitywasnotmorethanhuman。Shehadexasperatedhimatlast。
`Can’tyousaysomething?Youhaveyourowndodgesforvexingaman。
Oh,yes!Iknowyourdeaf—and—dumbtrick。I’veseenyouatitbeforetoday。
Butjustnowitwon’tdo。Andtobeginwith,takethisdamnedthingoff。
Onecan’ttellwhetheroneistalkingtoadummyortoalivewoman。’
Headvanced,andstretchingouthishand,draggedtheveiloff,unmaskingastillunreadableface,againstwhichhisnervousexasperationwasshatteredlikeaglassbubbleSungagainstarock。`That’sbetter,’hesaid,tocoverhismomentaryuneasiness,andretreatedbacktohisoldstationbythemantelpiece。Itneverenteredhisheadthathiswifecouldgivehimup。
Hefeltalittleashamedofhimself,forhewasfondandgenerous。Whatcouldhedo?Everythinghadbeensaidalready。Heprotestedvehemently。
`Byheavens!YouknowthatIhuntedhighandlow。Irantheriskofgivingmyselfawaytofindsomebodyforthataccursedjob。AndItellyouagainIcouldn’tfindanyonecrazyenoughorhungenough。Whatdoyoutakemefor—amurderer,orwhat?Theboyisgone。DoyouthinkIwantedhimtoblowhimselfup?He’sgone。Histroublesareover。Oursarejustgoingtobegin,Itellyou,preciselybecausehedidblowhimselfup。I
don’tblameyou。Butjusttrytounderstandthatitwasapureaccident;
asmuchanaccidentasifhehadbeenrunoverbyabuswhilecrossingthestreet。’
Hisgenerositywasnotinfinite,becausehewasahumanbeing—andnotamonster,asMrsVerlocbelievedhimtobe。Hepaused,andasnarlliftinghismoustachesaboveagleamofwhiteteethgavehimtheexpressionofareflectivebeast,notverydangerous—aslowbeastwithasleekhead,gloomierthanaseal,andwithahuskyvoice。
`Andwhenitcomestothat,it’sasmuchyourdoingasmine。That’sso……Youmayglareasmuchasyoulike。Iknowwhatyoucandointhatway。StrikemedeadifIeverwouldhavethoughtoftheladforthatpurpose。
ItwasyouwhokeptonshovinghiminmywaywhenIwashalfdistractedwiththeworryofkeepingthelotofusoutoftrouble。Whatthedevilmadeyou?Onewouldthinkyouweredoingitonpurpose。AndIamdamnedifIknowthatyoudidn’t。There’snosayinghowmuchofwhat’sgoingonyouhavegotholdofontheslywithyourinfernaldon’t—care—a—damnwayoflookingnowhereinparticular,andsayingnothingatall……’
Hishusky,domesticvoiceceasedforawhile。MrsVerlocmadenoreply。
Beforethatsilencehefeltashamedofwhathehadsaid。Butasoftenhappenstopeacefulmenindomestictiffs,beingashamedhepushedanotherpoint。
`Youhaveadevilishwayofholdingyourtonguesometimes,’hebeganagain,withoutraisinghisvoice。`Enoughtomakesomemengomad。It’sluckyforyouthatIamnotsoeasilyputoutassomeofthemwouldbebyyourdeaf—and—dumbsulks。Iamfondofyou。Butdon’tyougotoofar。
Thisisn’tthetimeforit。Weoughttobethinkingofwhatwe’vegottodo。AndIcan’tletyougoouttonight,gallopingofftoyourmotherwithsomecrazytaleorotheraboutme。Iwon’thaveit。Don’tyoumakeanymistakeaboutit:ifyouwillhaveitthatIkilledtheboy,thenyou’vekilledhimasmuchasI。’
Insincerityoffeelingandopennessofstatement,thesewordswentfarbeyondanythingthathadeverbeensaidinthishome,keptuponthewagesofasecretindustryekedoutbythesaleofmoreorlesssecretwares:thepoorexpedientsdevisedbyamediocremankindforpreservinganimperfectsocietyfromthedangersofmoralandphysicalcorruption,bothsecret,too,oftheirkind。TheywerespokenbecauseMrVerlochadfelthimselfreallyoutraged;butthereticentdecenciesofthishomelife,nestlinginashadystreetbehindashopwherethesunnevershone,remainedapparentlyundisturbed。MrsVerlocheardhimoutwithperfectpropriety,andthenrosefromherchairinherhatandjacketlikeavisitorattheendofacall。Sheadvancedtowardsherhusband,onearmextendedasifforasilentleave—taking。Hernetveildanglingdownbyoneendoftheleftsideofherfacegaveanairofdisorderlyformalitytoherrestrainedmovements。Butwhenshearrivedasfarasthehearthrug,MrVerlocwasnolongerstandingthere。Hehadmovedoffinthedirectionofthesofa,withoutraisinghiseyestowatchtheeffectofhistirade。Hewastired,resignedinatrulymaritalspirit。Buthefelthurtinthetenderspotofhissecretweakness。Ifshewouldgoonsulkinginthatdreadfuloverchargedsilence—whythenshemust。Shewasamasterinthatdomesticart。MrVerlocflunghimselfheavilyuponthesofa,disregardingasusualthefateofhishat,which,asifaccustomedtotakecareofitself,madeforasafeshelterunderthetable。
Hewastired。Thelastparticleofhisnervousforcehadbeenexpendedinthewondersandagoniesofthisdayfullofsurprisingfailurescomingattheendofaharassingmonthofschemingandinsomnia。Hewastired。
Amanisn’tmadeofstone。Hangeverything!MrVerlocreposedcharacteristically,cladinhisoutdoorgarments。Onesideofhisopenovercoatwaslyingpartlyontheground。MrVerlocwallowedonhisback。Buthelongedforamoreperfectrest—forsleep—forafewhoursofdeliciousforgetfulness。
Thatwouldcomelater。Provisionallyherested。Andhethought:`Iwishshewouldgiveoverthisdamnednonsense。It’sexasperating。’
TheremusthavebeensomethingimperfectinMrsVerloc’ssentimentofregainedfreedom。Insteadoftakingthewayofthedoorsheleanedback,withhershouldersagainstthetabletofthemantelpiece,asawayfarerrestsagainstafence。Atingeofwildnessinheraspectwasderivedfromtheblackveilhanginglikearagagainsthercheek,andfromthefixityofherblackgazewherethelightoftheroomwasabsorbedandlostwithoutthetraceofasinglegleam。Thiswoman,capableofabargainthemeresuspicionofwhichwouldhavebeeninfinitelyshockingtoMrVerloc’sideaoflove,remainedirresolute,asifscrupulouslyawareofsomethingwantingonherpartfortheformalclosingofthetransaction。
OnthesofaMrVerlocwriggledhisshouldersintoperfectcomfort,andfromthefullnessofhisheartemittedawishwhichwascertainlyaspiousasanythinglikelytocomefromsuchasource。
`Iwishtogoodness,’hegrowled,huskily,`IhadneverseenGreenwichParkoranythingbelongingtoit。’
Theveiledsoundfilledthesmallroomwithitsmoderatevolume,welladaptedtothemodestnatureofthewish。Thewavesofairoftheproperlength,propagatedinaccordancewithcorrectmathematicalformulas,flowedaroundalltheinanimatethingsintheroom,lappedagainstMrsVerloc’sheadasifithadbeenaheadofstone。Andincredibleasitmayappear,theeyesofMrsVerlocseemedtogrowstilllarger。TheaudiblewishofMrVerloc’soverflowingheartflowedintoanenemyplaceinhiswife’smemory。GreenwichPark。Apark!That’swheretheboywaskilled。Apark—smashedbranches,tornleaves,gravel,bitsofbrotherlyfleshandbone,allspoutinguptogetherinthemannerofafirework。Sherememberednowwhatshehadheard,andsheremembereditpictorially。Theyhadtogatherhimupwiththeshovel。Tremblingalloverwithirrepressibleshudders,shesawbeforehertheveryimplementwithitsghastlyloadscrapedupfromtheground。MrsVerlocclosedhereyesdesperately,throwinguponthatvisionthenightofhereyelids,whereafterarain—likefallofmangledlimbsthedecapitatedheadofStevielingeredsuspendedalone,andfadingoutslowlylikethelaststarofapyrotechnicdisplay。MrsVerlocopenedhereyes。
Herfacewasnolongerstony。Anybodycouldhavenotedthesubtlechangeonherfeatures,inthestareofhereyes,givingheranewandstartlingexpression;anexpressionseldomobservedbycompetentpersonsundertheconditionsofleisureandsecuritydemandedforthoroughanalysis,butwhosemeaningcouldnotbemistakenataglance。MrsVerloc’sdoubtsastotheendofthebargainnolongerexisted;herwitsnolongerdisconnected,wereworkingunderthecontrolofherwill。ButMrVerlocobservednothing。