ThenthemanytrailsleadingawayfromtheJorthranch——thesegrewtohaveafascinationforEllen;andthetimecamewhensherodeoutonthemtoseeforherselfwheretheyled。ThesheepranchofDaggs,supposedtobeonlyafewmilesacrosstheridges,downinBearCanyon,nevermaterializedatallforEllen。ThiscircumstancesointerestedherthatshewentuptoseeherfriendSpragueandgothimtodirecthertoBearCanyon,sothatshewouldbesurenottomissit。Andsherodefromthenarrow,maple—thicketedheadofitneartheRimdownallitslength。Shefoundnoranch,nocabin,notevenacorralinBearCanyon。Spraguesaidtherewasonlyonecanyonbythatname。Daggshadassuredheroftheexactlocationonhisplace,andsohadherfather。Hadtheylied?Weretheymistakeninthecanyon?Thereweremanycanyons,allheadingupneartheRim,allrunningandwideningdownformilesthroughthewoodedmountain,andvastlydifferentfromthedeep,short,yellow—walledgorgesthatcutintotheRimfromtheBasinside。
  Elleninvestigatedthecanyonswithinsixoreightmilesofherhome,bothtoeastandtowest。Allshediscoveredwasacoupleofoldlogcabins,longdeserted。Still,shedidnotfollowoutallthetrailstotheirends。Severalofthemledfarintothedeepest,roughest,wildestbrakesofgorgeandthicketthatshehadseen。Nocattleorsheephadeverbeendrivenoverthesetrails。
  ThisridingaroundofEllen’satlengthgottoherfather’sears。
  Ellenexpectedthatabitterquarrelwouldensue,forshecertainlywouldrefusetobeconfinedtothecamp;butherfatheronlyaskedhertolimitherridingtothemeadowvalley,andstraightwayforgotallaboutit。Infact,hisabstractiononemoment,hisintensenervousnessthenext,hisharderdrinkingandfiercerharangueswiththemen,grewtobedistressingforEllen。Theypresagedhisfurtherdeteriorationandtheever—presentevilofthegrowingfeud。
  OnedayJorthrodehomeintheearlymorning,afteranabsenceoftwonights。Ellenheardtheclip—clopof,horseslongbeforeshesawthem。
  "Hey,Ellen!Comeoutheah,"calledherfather。
  Ellenleftherworkandwentoutside。Astrangerhadriddeninwithherfather,ayounggiantwhosesharp—featuredfaceappearedmarkedbyferret—likeeyesandafine,light,fuzzybeard。Hewaslong,loosejointed,notheavyofbuild,andhehadthelargesthandsandfeetEllenbadeverseen。NextEllenespiedablackhorsetheyhadevidentlybroughtwiththem。Herfatherwasholdingaropehalter。AtoncetheblackhorsestruckEllenasbeingabeautyandathoroughbred。
  "Ellen,heah’sahorseforyou,"saidJorth,withsomethingofpride。
  "Imadeatrade。ReckonIwantedhimmyself,buthe’stoogentleformean’maybealittlesmallformyweight。"
  DelightvisitedEllenforthefirsttimeinmanydays。Seldomhadsheownedagoodhorse,andneveronelikethis。
  "Oh,dad!"sheexclaimed,inhergratitude。
  "Shorehe’syoursononecondition,"saidherfather。
  "What’sthat?"askedEllen,asshelaidcaressinghandsontherestlesshorse。
  "You’renottoridehimoutofthecanyon。"
  "Agreed……Alldaidblack,isn’the,exceptthatwhiteface?
  What’shisname,dad?
  "Iforgottoask,"repliedJorth。ashebeganunsaddlinghisownhorse。
  "Slater,what’sthisheahblack’sname?"
  Thelankygiantgrinned。"IreckonitwasSpades。"
  "Spades?"ejaculatedEllen,blankly。"Whataname!……Well,Iguessit’sasgoodasany。He’sshoreblack。"
  "Ellen,keephimhobbledwhenyou’renotridin’him,"washerfather’spartingadviceashewalkedoffwiththestranger。
  Spadeswaswetanddustyandhissatinyskinquivered。Hehadfine,dark,intelligenteyesthatwatchedEllen’severymove。Sheknewhowherfatherandhisfriendsdraggedandjammedhorsesthroughthewoodsandovertheroughtrails。Itdidnottakeherlongtodiscoverthatthishorsehadbeenapet。Ellencleanedhiscoatandbrushedhimandfedhim。Thenshefittedherbridletosuithisheadandsaddledhim。
  Hisevidentresponsetoherkindnessassuredherthathewasgentle,soshemountedandrodehim,todiscoverhehadtheeasiestgaitshehadeverexperienced。Hewalkedandtrottedtosuitherwill,butwhenlefttochoosehisowngaithefellintoagracefullittlepacethatwasveryeasyforher。Heappearedquitereadytobreakintoarunatherslightestbidding,butEllensatisfiedherselfonthisfirstridewithhisslowergaits。
  "Spades,y’u’veshorecutoutmyburroJinny,"saidEllen,regretfully。
  "Well,Ireckonwomenarefickle。"
  NextdaysherodeupthecanyontoshowSpadestoherfriendJohnSprague。Theoldburrobreederwasnotathome。Ashisdoorwasopen,however,andafiresmoldering,Ellenconcludedhewouldsoonreturn。
  Soshewaited。Dismounting,sheleftSpadesfreetograzeonthenewgreengrassthatcarpetedtheground。Thecabinandlittlelevelclearingaccentuatedthelonelinessandwildnessoftheforest。
  Ellenalwayslikedithereandhadoncebeeninthehabitofvisitingtheoldmanoften。Butoflateshehadstayedaway,forthereasonthatSprague’stalkandhisnewsandhispoorlyhiddenpitydepressedher。
  Presentlysheheardhoofbeatsonthehard,packedtrailleadingdownthecanyoninthedirectionfromwhichshehadcome。ScarcelylikelywasitthatSpragueshouldreturnfromthisdirection。Ellenthoughtherfatherhadsentoneoftheherdersforher。Butwhenshecaughtaglimpseoftheapproachinghorseman,downintheaspens,shefailedtorecognizehim。Afterhehadpassedoneoftheopeningssheheardhishorsestop。Probablythemanhadseenher;atleastshecouldnototherwiseaccountforhisstopping。Theglimpseshehadofhimhadgivenhertheimpressionthathewasbendingover,peeringaheadinthetrail,lookingfortracks。Thensheheardtheridercomeonagain,moreslowlythistime。Atlengththehorsetrottedoutintotheopening,tobehauledupshort。Ellenrecognizedthebuckskin—cladfigure,thebroadshoulders,thedarkfaceofJeanIsbel。
  Ellenfeltpreytothestrangestquakingsensationshehadeversuffered。
  Ittookviolenceofhernew—bornspirittosubduethatfeeling。
  Isbelrodeslowlyacrosstheclearingtowardher。ForEllenhisapproachseemedsingularlyswift——soswiftthathersurprise,dismay,conjecture,andangerobstructedherwill。TheoutwardlycalmandcoldEllenJorthwasatravestythatmockedher——thatshefelthewoulddiscern。
  ThemomentIsbeldrewcloseenoughforEllentoseehisfacesheexperiencedastrong,shudderingrepetitionofherfirstshockofrecognition。Hewasnotthesame。Thelight,theyouthwasgone。
  This,however,didnotcauseheremotion。Wasitnotasuddentransitionofhernaturetothedominanceofhate?Ellenseemedtofeeltheshadowofherunknownselfstandingwithher。
  Isbelhaltedhishorse。Ellenhadbeenstandingnearthetrunkofafallenpineandsheinstinctivelybackedagainstit。Howherlegstrembled!Isbeltookoffhiscapandcrusheditnervouslyinhisbare,brownhand。
  "Goodmornin’,MissEllen!"hesaid。
  Ellendidnotreturnhisgreeting,butqueried,almostbreathlessly,"Didy’ucomebyourranch?"
  "No。Icircled,"hereplied。
  "JeanIsbel!Whatdoy’uwantheah?"shedemanded。
  "Don’tyouknow?"hereturned。Hiseyeswereintenselyblackandpiercing。TheyseemedtosearchEllen’sverysoul。Tomeettheirgazewasanordealthatonlyherrousingfurysustained。
  Ellenfeltonherlipsascornfulallusiontohishalf—breedIndiantraitsandthereputationthathadprecededhim。Butshecouldnotutterit。
  "No"shereplied。
  "It’shardtocallawomanaliar,"hereturned,bitterly。Butyoumustbe——seein’you’reaJorth。
  "Liar!Nottoy’u,JeanIsbel,"sheretorted。"I’dnotlietoy’utosavemylife。"
  Hestudiedherwithkeen,sober,moodyintent。Thedarkfireofhiseyesthrilledher。
  "Ifthat’strue,I’mglad,"hesaid。
  "Shoreit’strue。I’venoideawhyy’ucameheah。"
  Ellendidhaveadawningideathatshecouldnotforceintooblivion。
  Butifsheeveradmittedittoherconsciousness,shemustfailinthecontemptandscornandfearlessnessshechosetothrowinthisman’sface。
  "DoesoldSpraguelivehere?"askedIsbel。
  "Yes。Iexpecthimbacksoon……Didy’ucometoseehim?"
  "No……DidSpraguetellyouanythin’abouttherowhesawmein?"
  "He——didnot,"repliedEllen,lyingwithstifflips。Shewhohadswornshecouldnotlie!Shefeltthehotbloodleavingherheart,mountinginawave。Allherconsciouswillseemedimpelledtodeceive。WhathadshetohidefromJeanIsbel?Andastill,smallvoicerepliedthatshehadtohidetheEllenJorthwhohadwaitedforhimthatday,whohadspieduponhim,whohadtreasuredagiftshecouldnotdestroy,whohadhuggedtohermiserableheartthefactthathehadfoughtforhername。
  "I’mgladofthat,"Isbelwassaying,thoughtfully。
  "Didyoucomeheahtoseeme?"interruptedEllen。Shefeltthatshecouldnotendurethisreiteratedsuggestionoffineness,ofconsiderationinhim。Shewouldbetrayherself——betraywhatshedidnotevenrealizeherself。Shemustforceotherfooting——andthatshouldbetheoneofstrifebetweentheJorthsandIsbels。
  "No——honest,Ididn’t,MissEllen,"herejoined,humbly。"I’lltellyou,presently,whyIcame。Butitwasn’ttoseeyou……Idon’tdenyIwanted……butthat’snomatter。Youdidn’tmeetmethatdayontheRim。"
  "Meety’u!"sheechoed,coldly。"Shorey’uneverexpectedme?"
  "SomehowIdid,"hereplied,withthosepenetratingeyesonher。
  "Iputsomethin’inyourtentthatday。Didyoufindit?"
  "Yes,"shereplied,withthesamecasualcoldness。
  "Whatdidyoudowithit?"
  "Ikickeditout,ofcourse,"shereplied。
  Shesawhimflinch。
  "Andyouneveropenedit?"
  "Certainlynot,"sheretorted,asifforced。"Doon’ty’uknowanythin’
  about——aboutpeople?……Shoreevenify’uareanIsbely’uneverwereborninTexas。"
  "ThankGodIwasn’t!"hereplied。"Iwasborninabeautifulcountryofgreenmeadowsanddeepforestsandwhiterivers,notinabarrendesertwheremenlivedryandhardasthecactus。WhereIcomefrommendon’tliveonhate。Theycanforgive。"
  "Forgive!……Couldy’uforgiveaJorth?"
  "Yes,Icould。"
  "Shorethat’seasytosay——withthewrongsallonyourside,"
  shedeclared,bitterly。
  "EllenJorth,thefirstwrongwasonyour,side,"retortedJean,hisvoicefall。"Yourfatherstolemyfather’ssweetheart——bylies,byslander,bydishonor,bymakin’terriblelovetoherinhisabsence。"
  "It’salie,"criedEllen,passionately。
  "Itisnot,"hedeclared,solemnly。
  "JeanIsbel,Isayy’ulie!"
  "No!Isayyou’vebeenliedto,"hethundered。
  ThetremendousforceofhisspiritseemedtoflingtruthatEllen。
  Itweakenedher。
  "But——motherloveddad——best。"
  "Yes,afterward。Nowonder,poorwoman!……Butitwastheactionofyourfatherandyourmotherthatruinedalltheselives。You’vegottoknowthetruth,EllenJorth……Alltheyearsofhatehavebornetheirfruit。GodAlmightycanneversaveusnow。Bloodmustbespilled。TheJorthsandtheIsbelscan’tliveonthesameearth……Andyou’vegottoknowthetruthbecausetheworstofthishellfallsonyouandme。"
  Thehatethathespokeofaloneupheldher。
  "Never,JeanIsbel!"shecried。"I’llneverknowtruthfromy’u……I’llnevershareanythin’withy’u——notevenhell。"
  Isbeldismountedandstoodbeforeher,stillholdinghisbridlereins。
  Thebayhorsechampedhisbitandtossedhishead。
  "Whydoyouhatemeso?"heasked。"Ijusthappentobemyfather’sson。
  Ineverharmedyouoranyofyourpeople。Imetyou……fellinlovewithyouinaflash——thoughIneverknewittillafter……Whydoyouhatemesoterribly?"
  Ellenfeltaheavy,stiflingpressurewithinherbreast。"Y’u’reanIsbel……Doon’tspeakoflovetome。"
  "Ididn’tintendto。Butyour——yourhateseemsunnatural。Andwe’llprobablynevermeetagain……Ican’thelpit。Iloveyou。Loveatfirstsight!JeanIsbelandEllenJorth!Strange,isn’tit?……
  Itwasallsostrange。Mymeetin’yousolonelyandunhappy,myseein’
  yousosweetandbeautiful,mythinkin’yousogoodinspiteof——"
  "Shoreitwasstrange,"interruptedEllen,withscornfullaugh。
  Shehadfoundherdefense。Inhurtinghimshecouldhideherownhurt。
  "Thinkingmesogoodinspiteof——Ha—ha!AndIsaidI’dbeenkissedbefore!"
  "Yes,inspiteofeverything,"hesaid。
  Ellencouldnotlookathimasheloomedoverher。Shefeltawildtumultinherheart。Allthatcrowdedtoherlipsforutterancewasfalse。
  "Yes——kissedbeforeImetyou——andsince,"shesaid,mockingly。
  "AndIlaughatwhaty’ucalllove,JeanIsbel。"
  "Laughifyouwant——butbelieveitwassweet,honorable——thebestinme,"
  hereplied,indeepearnestness。
  "Bah!"criedEllen,withalltheforceofherpainandshameandhate。
  "ByHeaven,youmustbedifferentfromwhatIthought!"exclaimedIsbel,huskily。
  "ShoreifIwasn’t,I’dmakemyself……Now,MisterJeanIsbel,getonyourhorsean’go!"
  SomethingofcomposurecametoEllenwiththesewordsofdismissal,andsheglancedupathimwithhalf—veiledeyes。Hischangedaspectpreparedherforsomeblow。
  "That’saprettyblackhorse。"
  "Yes,"repliedEllen,blankly。
  "Doyoulikehim?"
  "I——Ilovehim。"
  "Allright,I’llgivehimtoyouthen。He’llhavelessworkandkindertreatmentthanifIusedhim。I’vegotsomeprettyhardridesaheadofme。"
  "Y’u——y’ugive——"whisperedEllen,slowlystiffening。"Yes。He’smine,"
  repliedIsbel。Withthatheturnedtowhistle。Spadesthrewuphishead,snorted,andstartedforwardatatrot。Hecamefasterthecloserhegot,andifeverEllensawthejoyofahorseatsightofabelovedmastershesawitthen。Isbellaidahandontheanimal’sneckandcaressedhim,then,turningbacktoEllen,hewentonspeaking:"Ipickedhimfromalotoffinehorsesofmyfather’s。Wegotalongwell。MysisterAnnrodehimagooddeal……Hewasstolenfromourpasturedaybeforeyesterday。Itookhistrailandtrackedhimuphere。NeverlosthistrailtillIgottoyourranch,whereIhadtocircletillIpickeditupagain。"
  "Stolen——pasture——trackedhimupheah?"echoedEllen,withoutanyevidenceofemotionwhatever。Indeed,sheseemedtohavebeenturnedtostone。
  "Trackin’him。waseasy。Iwishforyoursakeit’dbeenimpossible,"
  hesaid,bluntly。
  "Formysake?"sheechoed,inpreciselythesametone,ManifestlythattoneirritatedIsbelbeyondcontrol。Hemisunderstoodit。Withahandfarfromgentlehepushedherbentheadbacksohecouldlookintoherface。
  "Yes,foryoursake!"hedeclared,harshly。"Haven’tyousenseenoughtoseethat?……Whatkindofagamedoyouthinkyoucanplaywithme?"
  "GameI……Gameofwhat?"sheasked。
  "Why,a——agameofignorance——innocence——anyoldgametofoolamanwho’stryin’tobedecent。"
  ThistimeEllenmutelylookedherdull,blankquestioning。AnditinflamedIsbel。
  "Youknowyourfather’sahorsethief!"hethundered。
  OutwardlyEllenremainedthesame。Shehadbeenpreparedforanunknownandaterribleblow。Ithadfallen。Andherface,herbody,herhands,lockedwiththesupremefortitudeofprideandsustainedbyhate,gavenobetrayalofthecrashing,thunderingruinwithinhermindandsoul。Motionlesssheleanedthere,meetingthepiercingfireofIsbel’seyes,seeinginthemarighteousandterriblescorn。Inoneflashthenakedtruthseemedblazedather。Thefaithshehadfostereddiedasuddendeath。Athousandperplexingproblemsweresolvedinasecondofwhirling,revealingthought。
  "EllenJorth,youknowyourfather’sinwiththisHashKnifeGangofrustlers,"thunderedIsbel。
  "Shore,"shereplied,withthecool,easy,carelessdefianceofaTexan。
  "Youknowhe’sgotthisDaggstoleadhisfactionagainsttheIsbels?"
  "Shore。"
  Youknowthistalkofsheepmenbuckin’thecattlemenisallablind?"
  "Shore,"reiteratedEllen。
  Isbelgazeddarklydownuponher。Withhisangerspentforthemoment,heappearedreadytoendtheinterview。Butheseemedfascinatedbythestrangelookofher,bytheincomprehensiblesomethingsheemanated。
  Havocgleamedinhispale,setface。Heshookhisdarkheadandhisbroadhandwenttohisbreast。
  "TothinkIfellinlovewithsuchasyou!"heexclaimed,andhisotherhandsweptoutinatragicgestureofhelplesspathosandimpotence。
  ThehellIsbelhadhintedatnowpossessedEllen——body,mind,andsoul。
  Disgraced,scornedbyanIsbel!Yetlovedbyhim!Inthatdivinationthereflamedupawild,fiercepassiontohurt,torend,toflay,toflingbackuponhimastingingagony。Herthoughtflewuponherlikewhips。PrideoftheJorths!PrideoftheoldTexanblueblood!Itlaydeadatherfeet,killedbythescornfulwordsofthelastofthatfamilytowhomsheowedherdegradation。Daughterofahorsethiefandrustler!Darkandevilandgrimsettheforceswithinher,acceptingherfate,damningherenemies,truetothebloodoftheJorths。Thesinsofthefathermustbevisiteduponthedaughter。
  "Shorey’umighthavehadme——thatdayontheRim——ify’uhadn’ttoldyourname,"shesaid,mockingly,andshegazedintohiseyeswithallthemysteryofawoman’snature。
  Isbel’spowerfulframeshookaswithanague。"Girl,whatdoyoumean?"
  "Shore,I’dhavebeenplumbfondofhavin’y’umakeuptome,"shedrawled。Itpossessedhernowwithirresistiblepower,thisfactofthelovehecouldnothelp。Somefiendishwoman’ssatisfactiondweltinherconsciousnessofherpowertokillthenoble,thefaithful,thegoodinhim。
  "EllenJorth,youlie!"heburstout,hoarsely。
  "Jean,shoreI’dbeenatoyandaragfortheserustlerslongenough。
  Iwastiredofthem……Iwantedanewlover……Andify’uhadn’tgiveyourselfaway——"
  Isbelmovedsoswiftlythatshedidnotrealizehisintentionuntilhishardhandsmotehermouth。Instantlyshetastedthehot,saltybloodfromacutlip。
  "Shutup,youhussy!"heordered,roughly。"Haveyounoshame?……
  MysisterAnnspokewellofyou。Shemadeexcuses——shepitiedyou。"
  ThatforEllenseemedtheculminatingblowunderwhichshealmostsank。
  Butonemomentlongercouldshemaintainthisunnaturalandterriblepoise。
  "JeanIsbel——goalongwithy’u,"shesaid,impatiently。"I’mwaitingheahforSimmBruce!"
  Atlastitwasasifshestruckhisheart。Becauseofdoubtofhimselfandastubbornfaithinher,hispassionandjealousywerenotproofagainstthislaststab。InstinctivesubtletyinherentinEllenhadpromptedthespeechthattorturedIsbel。Howtheshocktohimreboundedonher!Shegaspedashelungedforher,tooswiftforhertomoveahand。Onearmcrushedroundherlikeasteelband;theother,hardacrossherbreastandneck,forcedherheadback。Thenshetriedtowrestleaway。Butshewasutterlypowerless。Hisdarkfacebentdowncloserandcloser。SuddenlyEllenceasedtryingtostruggle。Shewaslikeastrickencreatureparalyzedbythepiercing,hypnoticeyesofasnake。Yetinspiteofherterror,ifhemeantdeathbyher,shewelcomedit。
  "EllenJorth,I’mthinkin’yet——youlie!"hesaid,lowandtensebetweenhisteeth。
  "No!No!"shescreamed,wildly。Hernervebrokethere。Shecouldnolongermeetthoseterribleblackeyes。Herpassionatedenialwasnotonlythelastofhershamefuldeceit;itwasthewomanofher,repudiatingherselfandhim,andallthissickening,miserablesituation。
  Isbeltookherliterally。Shehadconvincedhim。AndtheinstantheldblankhorrorforEllen。
  "ByGod——thenI’llhavesomethin’——ofyouanyway!"mutteredIsbel,thickly。
  Ellensawthebloodbulgeinhispowerfulneck。Shesawhisdark,hardface,strangenow,fearfultobehold,comelowerandlower,tillitblurredandobstructedhergaze。Shefelttheswellandrippleandstretch——thenthebindofhismuscles,likehugecoilsofelasticrope。
  Thenwithsavagerudeforcehismouthclosedonhers。AllEllen’ssensesreeled,asifshewereswooning。Shewassuffocating。Thespasmpassed,andaburstingspurtofbloodrevivedhertoacuteandterribleconsciousness。Fortheendlessperiodofonemomentheheldhersothatherbreastseemedcrushed。Hiskissesburnedandbraisedherlips。Andthen,shiftingviolentlytoherneck,theypressedsohardthatshechokedunderthem。Itwasasifahugebathadfasteneduponherthroat。
  Suddenlytheremorselessbindingembraces——thehotandsavagekisses——
  fellawayfromher。Isbelhadletgo。Shesawhimthrowuphishands,andstaggerbackalittle,allthewhilewithhispiercinggazeonher。
  Hisfacehadbeendarkpurple:nowitwaswhite。
  "No——EllenJorth,"hepanted,"Idon’t——wantanyofyou——thatway。"
  Andsuddenlyhesankonthelogandcoveredhisfacewithhishands。
  "WhatIlovedinyou——waswhatIthought——youwere。"
  LikeawildcatEllenspranguponhim,beatinghimwithherfists,tearingathishair,scratchinghisface,inablindfury。Isbelmadenomovetostopher,andherviolencespentitselfwithherstrength。Sheswayedbackfromhim,shakingsothatshecouldscarcelystand。
  "Y’u——damned——Isbel!"shegasped,withhoarsepassion。"Y’uinsultedme!"
  "Insultedyou?……"laughedIsbel,inbitterscorn。"Itcouldn’tbedone。"
  "Oh!……I’llKILLy’u!"shehissed。
  Isbelstoodupandwipedtheredscratchesonhisface。"Goahead。
  There’smygun,"hesaid,pointingtohissaddlesheath。"Somebody’sgottobeginthisJorth—Isbelfeud。It’llbeadirtybusiness。I’msickofitalready……Killme!……FirstbloodforEllenJorth!"
  SuddenlythedarkgrimtidethathadseemedtoengulfEllen’sverysoulcooledandreceded,leavingherwithoutitsfalsestrength。Shebegantosag。ShestaredatIsbel’sgun。"Killhim,"whisperedtheretreatingvoicesofherhate。ButshewasaspowerlessasifshewerestillheldinJeanIsbel’sgiantembrace。
  "I——Iwantto——killy’u,"shewhispered,"butIcain’t……
  Leaveme。"
  "You’renoJorth——thesameasI’mnoIsbel。Weoughtn’tbemixedinthisdeal,"hesaid,somberly。"I’msorrierforyouthanIamformyself……You’reagirl……Youoncehadagoodmother——adecenthome。Andthislifeyou’veledhere——meanasit’sbeen——isnothin’towhatyou’llfacenow。Damnthementhatbroughtyoutothis!I’mgoin’
  tokillsomeofthem。"