"Ididn’taskher,Chris;Ididn’tthinkitthesquarething;itseemsthat’soutoffashion!"
Christian’scheekswereburning。
"IthinkalotwhileIliehere,"Mr。Treffrywenton;"nothingmuchelsetodo。WhatIaskmyselfisthis:Whatdoyouknowaboutwhat’sbestforyou?Whatdoyouknowoflife?Takeitorleaveit,life’snotallyouthink;it’sgiveandgetalltheway,afairstartiseverything。"
Christianthought:’Willheneversee?’
Mr。Treffrywenton:
"Igetbettereveryday,butIcan’tlastforever。It’snotpleasanttoliehereandknowthatwhenI’mgonethere’llbenoonetokeepahandonthecheckstring!"
"Don’ttalklikethat,dear!"Christianmurmured。
"It’snouseblinkingfacts,Chris。I’velivedalongtimeintheworld;I’veseenthingsprettywellastheyare;andnowthere’snotmuchleftformetothinkaboutbutyou。"
"But,Uncle,ifyoulovedhim,asIdo,youcouldn’ttellmetobeafraid!It’scowardlyandmeantobeafraid。Youmusthaveforgotten!"
Mr。Treffryclosedhiseyes。
"Yes,"hesaid;"I’mold。"
ThefanhaddroppedintoChristian’slap;itrestedonherwhitefrocklikealargecrimsonleaf;hereyeswerefixedonit。
Mr。Treffrylookedather。"Haveyouheardfromhim?"heaskedwithsuddenintuition。
"Lastnight,inthatroom,whenyouthoughtIwastalkingtoDominique——"
Thepipefellfromhishand。
"What!"hestammered:"Back?"
Christian,withoutlookingup,said:
"Yes,he’sback;hewantsme——Imustgotohim,Uncle。"
Therewasalongsilence。
"Youmustgotohim?"herepeated。
Shelongedtoflingherselfdownathisknees,buthewassostill,thattomoveseemedimpossible;sheremainedsilent,withfoldedhands。
Mr。Treffryspoke:
"You’llletmeknow——before——you——go。Goodnight!"
Christianstoleoutintothepassage。Abeadcurtainrustledinthedraught;voicesreachedher。
"Myhonourisinvolved,orIwouldgivethecaseup。"
"Heisverytrying,poorNicholas!Healwayshadthatpeculiarqualityofopposition;ithasbroughthimtogriefahundredtimes。
Thereisoppositioninourblood;myfamilyallhaveit。Myeldestbrotherdiedofit;withmypoorsister,whowasasgentleasalamb,ittooktheformofdoingtherightthinginthewrongplace。Itisamatteroftemperament,yousee。Youmusthavepatience。"
"Patience,"repeatedDawney’svoice,"isonething;patiencewherethereisresponsibilityisanother。I’venothadawinkofsleeptheselasttwonights。"
Therewasafaint,shrillswishofsilk。
"Ishesoveryill?"
Christianheldherbreath。Theanswercameatlast。
"Hashemadehiswill?Withthistroubleinthesideagain,Itellyouplainly,Mrs。Decie,there’slittleornochance。"
Christianputherhandsuptoherears,andranoutintotheair。
Whatwassheabouttodo,then——toleavehimdying!
OnthefollowingdayHarzwassummonedtotheVilla。Mr。Treffryhadjustrisen,andwasgarbedinadressing—suit,oldandworn,whichhadacertainairofmagnificence。Hisseamedcheekswerenewlyshaved。
"IhopeIseeyouwell,"hesaidmajestically。
Thinkingofthedriveandtheirlastparting,Harzfeltsorryandashamed。SuddenlyChristiancameintotheroom;shestoodforamomentlookingathim;thensatdown。
"Chris!"saidMr。Treffryreproachfully。Sheshookherhead,anddidnotmove;mournfulandintent,hereyesseemedfullofsecretknowledge。
Mr。Treffryspoke:
"I’venorighttoblameyou,Mr。Harz,andChristellsmeyoucametoseemefirst,whichiswhatIwouldhaveexpectedofyou;butyoushouldn’thavecomeback。"
"Icameback,sir,becauseIfoundIwasobliged。Imustspeakout。"
"Iasknothingbetter,"Mr。Treffryreplied。
HarzlookedagainatChristian;butshemadenosign,sittingwithherchinrestingonherhands。
"Ihavecomeforher,"hesaid;"Icanmakemyliving——enoughforbothofus。ButIcan’twait。"
"Why?"
Harzmadenoanswer。
Mr。Treffryboomedoutagain:"Why?Isn’tsheworthwaitingfor?
Isn’tsheworthservingfor?"
"Ican’texpectyoutounderstandme,"thepaintersaid。"Myartismylifetome。Doyousupposethatifitwasn’tIshouldeverhaveleftmyvillage;orgonethroughallthatI’vegonethrough,togetasfarevenasIam?Youtellmetowait。Ifmythoughtsandmywillaren’tfree,howcanIwork?Ishan’tbeworthmysalt。YoutellmetogobacktoEngland——knowingsheishere,amongstyouwhohateme,athousandmilesaway。Ishallknowthatthere’sadeathfightgoingoninherandoutsideheragainstme——youthinkthatI
cangoonworkingundertheseconditions。Othersmaybeable,Iamnot。That’stheplaintruth。IfIlovedherless——"
Therewasasilence,thenMr。Treffrysaid:
"Itisn’tfairtocomehereandaskwhatyou’reasking。Youdon’tknowwhat’sinthefutureforyou,youdon’tknowthatyoucankeepawife。Itisn’tpleasant,either,tothinkyoucan’tholdupyourheadinyourowncountry。"
Harzturnedwhite。
"Ah!youbringthatupagain!"hebrokeout。"SevenyearsagoIwasaboyandstarving;ifyouhadbeeninmyplaceyouwouldhavedonewhatIdid。Mycountryisasmuchtomeasyourcountryistoyou。
I’vebeenanexilesevenyears,IsupposeIshallalwaysbeI’vehadpunishmentenough;butifyouthinkIamarascal,I’llgoandgivemyselfup。"Heturnedonhisheel。
"Stop!Ibegyourpardon!Inevermeanttohurtyou。Itisn’teasyformetoeatmywords,"Mr。Treffrysaidwistfully,"letthatcountforsomething。"Heheldouthishand。
Harzcamequicklybackandtookit。Christian’sgazewasneverforamomentwithdrawn;sheseemedtryingtostoreupthesightofhimwithinher。Thelightdartingthroughthehalf—closedshuttersgavehereyesastrange,brightintensity,andshoneinthefoldsofherwhitedresslikethesheenofbirds’wings。
Mr。Treffryglanceduneasilyabouthim。"GodknowsIdon’twantanythingbutherhappiness,"hesaid。"Whatisittomeifyou’dmurderedyourmother?It’sherI’mthinkingof。"
"Howcanyoutellwhatishappinesstoher?Youhaveyourownideasofhappiness——nothers,notmine。Youcan’tdaretostopus,sir!"
"Dare?"saidMr。Treffry。"Herfathergaveherovertomewhenshewasamiteofalittlething;I’veknownherallherlife。I’ve——
I’velovedher——andyoucomeherewithyour’dare’!"Hishanddraggedathisbeard,andshookasthoughpalsied。
AlookofterrorcameintoChristian’sface。
"Allright,Chris!Idon’taskforquarter,andIdon’tgiveit!"
Harzmadeagestureofdespair。
"I’veactedsquarelybyyou,sir,"Mr。Treffrywenton,"Iaskthesameofyou。Iaskyoutowait,andcomelikeanhonestman,whenyoucansay,’Iseemyway——here’sthisandthatforher。’Whatmakesthisartyoutalkofdifferentfromanyothercallinlife?Itdoesn’talterfacts,orgiveyouwhatothermenhavenorighttoexpect。Itdoesn’tputgritintoyou,orkeepyourhandsclean,orprovethattwoandtwomakefive。"
Harzansweredbitterly:
"YouknowasmuchofartasIknowofmoney。Ifweliveathousandyearsweshallneverunderstandeachother。IamdoingwhatIfeelisbestforbothofus。"
Mr。Treffrytookholdofthepainter’ssleeve。
"Imakeyouanoffer,"hesaid。"Yourwordnottoseeorwritetoherforayear!Then,positionornot,moneyornomoney,ifshe’llhaveyou,I’llmakeitrightforyou。"
"Icouldnottakeyourmoney。"
AkindofdespairseemedsuddenlytoseizeonMr。NicholasTreffry。
Herose,andstoodtoweringoverthem。
"Allmylife——"hesaid;butsomethingseemedtoclickdeepdowninhisthroat,andhesankbackinhisseat。
"Go!"whisperedChristian,"go!"ButMr。Treffryfoundhisvoiceagain:"It’sforthechildtosay。Well,Chris!"
Christiandidnotspeak。
ItwasHarzwhobrokethesilence。HepointedtoMr。Treffry。
"YouknowIcan’ttellyoutocomewith——that,there。Whydidyousendforme?"And,turning,hewentout。
Christiansankonherknees,buryingherfaceinherhands。Mr。
Treffrypressedhishandkerchiefwithastealthymovementtohismouth。Itwasdyedcrimsonwiththepriceofhisvictory。
XXVI
AtelegramhadsummonedHerrPaulfromVienna。Hehadstartedforthwith,leavingseveralunpaidaccountstoamorejoyfulopportunity,amongstthemachemist’sbill,forawonderfulquackmedicineofwhichhebroughtsixbottles。
HecamefromMr。Treffry’sroomwithtearsrollingdownhischeeks,saying:
"PoorNicholas!PoorNicholas!Iln’apasdechance!"
Itwasdifficulttofindanyonetolisten;thewomenwerescaredandsilent,waitingfortheordersthatwerenowandthenwhisperedthroughthedoor。HerrPaulcouldnotbearthissilence,andtalkedtohisservantforhalfanhour,tillFritzalsovanishedtofetchsomethingfromthetown。ThenindespairHerrPaulwenttohisroom。
Itwashardnottobeallowedtohelp——itwashardtowait!Whentheheartwassuffering,itwasfrightful!Heturnedand,lookingfurtivelyabouthim,lightedacigar。Yes,itcametoeveryone——atsometimeorother;andwhatwasit,thatdeaththeytalkedof?Wasitanyworsethanlife?Thatfrightfuljumblepeoplemadeforthemselves!PoorNicholas!Afterall,itwashethathadtheluck!
Hiseyesfilledwithtears,anddrawingapenknifefromhispocket,hebegantostabitintothestuffingofhischair。Scruff,whosatwatchingthechinkoflightunderthedoor,turnedhishead,blinkedathim,andbeganfeeblytappingwithaclaw。
Itwasintolerable,thisuncertainty——tobenear,andyetsofar,wasnotendurable!
HerrPaulsteppedacrosstheroom。Thedog,following,threwhisblack—markedmuzzleupwardswithagruffnoise,andwentbacktothedoor。Hismasterwasholdinginhishandabottleofchampagne。
PoorNicholas!Hehadchosenit。HerrPauldrainedaglass。
PoorNicholas!Theprinceoffellows,andofwhatusewasone?TheykepthimawayfromNicholas!
HerrPaul’seyesfellontheterrier。"Ach!mydear,"hesaid,"youandI,wealonearekeptaway!"
Hedrainedasecondglass。
Whatwasit?Thislife!Froth—likethat!Hetossedoffathirdglass。Forget!Ifonecouldnothelp,itwasbettertoforget!
Heputonhishat。Yes。Therewasnoroomforhimthere!Hewasnotwanted!
Hefinishedthebottle,andwentoutintothepassage。ScruffranandlaydownatMr。Treffry’sdoor。HerrPaullookedathim。"Ach!"
hesaid,tappinghischest,"ungratefulhound!"Andopeningthefrontdoorhewentoutontiptoe……
LatethatafternoonGretastolehatlessthroughthelilacbushes;shelookedtiredafterhernightjourney,andsatidlyonachairinthespeckledshadowofalime—tree。
’Itisnotlikehome,’shethought;’Iamunhappy。Eventhebirdsaresilent,butperhapsthatisbecauseitissohot。Ihaveneverbeensadlikethis——foritisnotfancythatIamsadthistime,asitissometimes。Itisinmyheartlikethesoundthewindmakesthroughawood,itfeelsquiteemptyinmyheart。Ifitisalwayslikethistobeunhappy,thenIamsorryforalltheunhappythingsintheworld;IamsorrierthanIeverwasbefore。’
Ashadowfellonthegrass,sheraisedhereyes,andsawDawney。
"Dr。Edmund!"shewhispered。
Dawneyturnedtoher;aheavyfurrowshowedbetweenhisbrows。Hiseyes,alwaysratherclosetogether,staredpainfully。
"Dr。Edmund,"Gretawhispered,"isittrue?"
Hetookherhand,andspreadhisownpalmoverit。
"Perhaps,"hesaid;"perhapsnot。Wemusthope。"
Gretalookedup,awed。
"Theysayheisdying。"
"WehavesentforthebestmaninVienna。"
Gretashookherhead。
"Butyouareclever,Dr。Edmund;andyouareafraid。"
"Heisbrave,"saidDawney;"wemustallbebrave,youknow。Youtoo!"
"Brave?"repeatedGreta;"whatisittobebrave?Ifitisnottocryandmakeafuss——thatIcando。Butifitisnottobesadinhere,"shetouchedherbreast,"thatIcannotdo,anditshallnotbeanygoodformetotry。"
"Tobebraveistohope;don’tgiveuphope,dear。"
"No,"saidGreta,tracingthepatternofthesunlightonherskirt。
"ButIthinkthatwhenwehope,wearenotbrave,becauseweareexpectingsomethingforourselves。Chrissaysthathopeisprayer,andifitisprayer,thenallthetimewearehoping,weareaskingforsomething,anditisnotbravetoaskforthings。"
AsmilecurvedDawney’smouth。
"Goon,Philosopher!"hesaid。"Bebraveinyourownway,itwillbejustasgoodasanybodyelse’s。"
"Whatareyougoingtodotobebrave,Dr。Edmund?"
"I?Fight!Ifonlywehadfiveyearsoffhislife!"
Gretawatchedhimashewalkedaway。
"Ishallneverbebrave,"shemourned;"Ishallalwaysbewantingtobehappy。"And,kneelingdown,shebegantodisentangleafly,imprisonedinacobweb。Aplantofhemlockhadsprungupinthelonggrassbyherfeet。Gretathought,dismayed:’Thereareweeds!’
Itseemedbutanothersignofthedeathofjoy。
’Butit’sverybeautiful,’shethought,’theblossomsarelikestars。
Iamnotgoingtopullitup。Iwillleaveit;perhapsitwillspreadallthroughthegarden;andifitdoesIdonotcare,fornowthingsarenotliketheyusedtobeandIdonot,thinktheyevershallbeagain。’
XXVII
Thedayswentby;thoselong,hotdays,whentheheathazeswimsupabouttenoftheforenoon,and,asthesunsinkslevelwiththemountains,meltsintogoldenetherwhichsetstheworldquiveringwithsparkles。
Atthelightingofthestarsthosesparklesdie,vanishingonebyoneoffthehillsides;eveningcomesflyingdownthevalleys,andliferestsunderhercoolwings。Thenightfalls;andthehundredlittlevoicesofthenightarise。
Itwasneargrape—gathering,andintheheatthefightforNicholasTreffry’slifewenton,dayin,dayout,withgleamsofhopeandmomentsofdespair。Doctorscame,butafterthefirstherefusedtoseethem。
"No,"hesaidtoDawney——"throwingawaymoney。IfIpullthroughitwon’tbebecauseofthem。"
FordaystogetherhewouldallownoonebutDawney,Dominique,andthepaidnurseintheroom。
"Icanstanditbetter,"hesaidtoChristian,"whenIdon’tseeanyofyou;keepaway,oldgirl,andletmegetonwithit!"
Tohavebeenabletohelpwouldhaveeasedthetensionofhernerves,andtheachingofherheart。Athisownrequesttheyhadmovedhisbedintoacornersothathemightfacethewall。Therehewouldlieforhourstogether,notspeakingaword,excepttoaskfordrink。
SometimesChristiancreptinunnoticed,andsatwatching,withherarmstightlyfoldedacrossherbreast。Atnight,afterGretawasasleep,shewouldtossfromsidetoside,mutteringfeverishprayers。
Shespenthoursatherlittletableintheschoolroom,writingletterstoHarzthatwereneversent。Onceshewrotethesewords:"I
amthemostwickedofallcreatures——Ihaveevenwishedthathemaydie!"AfewminutesafterwardsMissNaylorfoundherwithherheadburiedonherarms。Christiansprangup;tearswerestreamingdownhercheeks。"Don’ttouchme!"shecried,andrushedaway。Later,shestoleintoheruncle’sroom,andsankdownonthefloorbesidethebed。Shesattheresilently,unnoticedalltheevening。Whennightcameshecouldhardlybepersuadedtoleavetheroom。
OnedayMr。TreffryexpressedawishtoseeHerrPaul;itwasalongwhilebeforethelattercouldsummoncouragetogoin。
"There’safewdozenoftheGordonsherryatmyChambers,inLondon,Paul,"Mr。Treffrysaid;"I’dbegladtothinkyouhad’em。Andmyman,Dominique,I’vemadehimallrightinmywill,butkeepyoureyeonhim;he’sagoodsortforaforeigner,andnochicken,butsoonerorlater,thewomen’llgetholdofhim。That’sallIhadtosay。
SendChristome。"
HerrPaulstoodbythebedsidespeechless。Suddenlyheblurtedout。
"Ah!mydear!Courage!Weareallmortal。Youwillgetwell!"Allthemorninghewalkedaboutquiteinconsolable。"Itwasfrightfultoseehim,youknow,frightful!Anironmancouldnothaveborneit。"
WhenChristiancametohim,Mr。Treffryraisedhimselfandlookedatheralongwhile。
Hiswistfulfacewaslikeanaccusation。Butthatveryafternoonthenewscamefromthesickroomthathewasbetter,havinghadnopainforseveralhours。
Everyonewentaboutwithsmileslurkingintheireyes,andreadytobreakforthataword。InthekitchenBarbiburstoutcrying,and,forgettingtotossthepan,spoiledaKaiser—Schmarnshewasmaking。
DominiquewasobserveddrainingaglassofChianti,andsolemnlycastingforththelastdropsinlibation。Anorderwasgivenforteatobetakenoutundertheacacias,whereitwasalwayscool;itwasfeltthatsomethinginthenatureofhighfestivalwasbeingheld。
EvenHerrPaulwaspresent;butChristiandidnotcome。Nobodyspokeofillness;tomentionitmightbreakthespell。
MissNaylor,whohadgoneintothehouse,cameback,saying:
"Thereisastrangemanstandingovertherebythecornerofthehouse。"
"Really!"askedMrs。Decie;"whatdoeshewant?"
MissNaylorreddened。"Ididnotaskhim。I——don’t——know——whetherheisquiterespectable。Hiscoatisbuttonedveryclose,andhe——
doesn’tseem——tohavea——collar。"
"Goandseewhathewants,dearchild,"Mrs。DeciesaidtoGreta。
"Idon’tknow——Ireallydonotknow——"beganMissNaylor;"hehasvery——high——boots,"butGretawasalreadyonherway,withhandsclaspedbehindher,anddemureeyestakinginthestranger’sfigure。
"Please?"shesaid,whenshewasclosetohim。
Thestrangertookhiscapoffwithajerk。
"Thishousehasnobells,"hesaidinanasalvoice;"ithasatendencytodiscourageone。"
"Yes,"saidGretagravely,"thereisabell,butitdoesnotringnow,becausemyuncleissoill。"
"Iamverysorrytohearthat。Idon’tknowthepeoplehere,butI
amverysorrytohearthat。
Iwouldbegladtospeakafewwordstoyoursister,ifitisyoursisterthatIwant。"
Andthestranger’sfacegrewveryred。
"Isit,"saidGreta,"thatyouareafriendofHerrHarz?Ifyouareafriendofhis,youwillpleasecomeandhavesometea,andwhileyouarehavingteaIwilllookforChris。"
Perspirationbedewedthestranger’sforehead。
"Tea?Excuseme!Idon’tdrinktea。"
"Thereisalsocoffee,"Gretasaid。
Thestranger’sprogresstowardsthearbourwassoslowthatGretaarrivedconsiderablybeforehim。
"ItisafriendofHerrHarz,"shewhispered;"hewilldrinkcoffee。
IamgoingtofindChris。"
"Greta!"gaspedMissNaylor。
Mrs。Decieputupherhand。
"Ah!"shesaid,"ifitisso,wemustbeverynicetohimforChristian’ssake。"
MissNaylor’sfacegrewsoft。—
"Ah,yes!"shesaid;"ofcourse。"
"Bah!"mutteredHerrPaul,"thatrecommences。’
"Paul!"murmuredMrs。Decie,"youlacktheelementsofwisdom。"
HerrPaulglaredattheapproachingstranger。
Mrs。Deciehadrisen,andsmilinglyheldoutherhand。
"Wearesogladtoknowyou;youareanartisttoo,perhaps?Itakeagreatinterestinart,andespeciallyinthatschoolwhichMr。Harzrepresents。"
Thestrangersmiled。
"Heisthegenuinearticle,ma’am,"hesaid。"Herepresentsnoschool,heisoneofthatkindwhosecorpsesmakeschools。"
"Ah!"murmuredMrs。Decie,"youareanAmerican。Thatissonice。
Dositdown!Myniecewillsoonbehere。"
Gretacamerunningback。
"Willyoucome,please?"shesaid。"Chrisisready。"
Gulpingdownhiscoffee,thestrangerincludedthemallinasinglebow,andfollowedher。
"Ach!"saidHerrPaul,"garcontreschic,celui—la!"
Christianwasstandingbyherlittletable。Thestrangerbegan。
"IamsendingMr。Harz’sthingstoEngland;therearesomepictureshere。Hewouldbegladtohavethem。"
Afloodofcrimsonsweptoverherface。
"IamsendingthemtoLondon,"thestrangerrepeated;"perhapsyoucouldgivethemtometo—day。"
"Theyareready;mysisterwillshowyou。"
Hereyesseemedtodartintohissoul,andtrytodragsomethingfromit。Thewordsrushedfromherlips"Isthereanymessageforme?"
Thestrangerregardedhercuriously。
"No,"hestammered,"no!Iguessnot。Heiswell……Iwish……"Hestopped;herwhitefaceseemedtoflashscorn,despair,andentreatyonhimallatonce。Andturning,shelefthimstandingthere。
XXVII
WhenChristianwentthateveningtoheruncle’sroomhewassittingupinbed,andatoncebegantotalk。"Chris,"hesaid,"Ican’tstandthisdyingbyinches。I’mgoingtotrywhatajourney’lldoforme。Iwanttogetbacktotheoldcountry。Thedoctor’spromised。There’sashotinthelockeryet!Ibelieveinthatyoungchap;he’sstucktomelikeaman……It’llbeyourbirthday,onTuesday,oldgirl,andyou’llbetwenty。Seventeenyearssinceyourfatherdied。You’vebeenalottome……Aparsoncameheretoday。
That’sabadsign。Thoughtithisduty!Verycivilofhim!
Iwouldn’tseehim,though。Ifthere’sanythinginwhattheytellyou,I’mnotgoingtosneakinatthistimeo’day。There’sonethingthat’sratherbadlyonmymind。ItookadvantageofMr。Harzwiththisdamnedpitifulnessofmine。You’vearighttolookatmeasI’veseenyousometimeswhenyouthoughtIwasasleep。IfI
hadn’tbeenillhe’dneverhaveleftyou。Idon’tblameyou,Chris——
notI!Youloveme?Iknowthat,mydear。Butone’salonewhenitcomestotherun—in。Don’tcry!Ourmindsaren’tSunday—schoolbooks;you’refindingitout,that’sall!"Hesighedandturnedaway。