AsIwasdoingnogoodatschool,myfatherwiselytookmeawayataratherearlieragethanusual,andsentme(Oct。1825)toEdinburghUniversitywithmybrother,whereIstayedfortwoyearsorsessions。Mybrotherwascompletinghismedicalstudies,thoughIdonotbelieveheeverreallyintendedtopractise,andIwassenttheretocommencethem。ButsoonafterthisperiodIbecameconvincedfromvarioussmallcircumstancesthatmyfatherwouldleavemepropertyenoughtosubsistonwithsomecomfort,thoughIneverimaginedthatIshouldbesorichamanasIam;butmybeliefwassufficienttocheckanystrenuouseffortstolearnmedicine。
TheinstructionatEdinburghwasaltogetherbylectures,andthesewereintolerablydull,withtheexceptionofthoseonchemistrybyHope;buttomymindtherearenoadvantagesandmanydisadvantagesinlecturescomparedwithreading。Dr。Duncan’slecturesonMateriaMedicaat8o’clockonawinter’smorningaresomethingfearfultoremember。Dr。——madehislecturesonhumananatomyasdullashewashimself,andthesubjectdisgustedme。IthasprovedoneofthegreatestevilsinmylifethatI
wasnoturgedtopractisedissection,forIshouldsoonhavegotovermydisgust;andthepracticewouldhavebeeninvaluableforallmyfuturework。Thishasbeenanirremediableevil,aswellasmyincapacitytodraw。Ialsoattendedregularlytheclinicalwardsinthehospital。Someofthecasesdistressedmeagooddeal,andIstillhavevividpicturesbeforemeofsomeofthem;butIwasnotsofoolishastoallowthistolessenmyattendance。Icannotunderstandwhythispartofmymedicalcoursedidnotinterestmeinagreaterdegree;forduringthesummerbeforecomingtoEdinburghIbeganattendingsomeofthepoorpeople,chieflychildrenandwomeninShrewsbury:IwrotedownasfullanaccountasIcouldofthecasewithallthesymptoms,andreadthemaloudtomyfather,whosuggestedfurtherinquiriesandadvisedmewhatmedicinestogive,whichImadeupmyself。AtonetimeIhadatleastadozenpatients,andIfeltakeeninterestinthework。Myfather,whowasbyfarthebestjudgeofcharacterwhomIeverknew,declaredthatIshouldmakeasuccessfulphysician,——meaningbythisonewhowouldgetmanypatients。Hemaintainedthatthechiefelementofsuccesswasexcitingconfidence;butwhathesawinmewhichconvincedhimthatIshouldcreateconfidenceI
knownot。IalsoattendedontwooccasionstheoperatingtheatreinthehospitalatEdinburgh,andsawtwoverybadoperations,oneonachild,butIrushedawaybeforetheywerecompleted。NordidIeverattendagain,forhardlyanyinducementwouldhavebeenstrongenoughtomakemedoso;thisbeinglongbeforetheblesseddaysofchloroform。Thetwocasesfairlyhauntedmeformanyalongyear。
MybrotherstayedonlyoneyearattheUniversity,sothatduringthesecondyearIwaslefttomyownresources;andthiswasanadvantage,forIbecamewellacquaintedwithseveralyoungmenfondofnaturalscience。
OneofthesewasAinsworth,whoafterwardspublishedhistravelsinAssyria;hewasaWerneriangeologist,andknewalittleaboutmanysubjects。Dr。Coldstreamwasaverydifferentyoungman,prim,formal,highlyreligious,andmostkind—hearted;heafterwardspublishedsomegoodzoologicalarticles。AthirdyoungmanwasHardie,whowould,Ithink,havemadeagoodbotanist,butdiedearlyinIndia。Lastly,Dr。Grant,myseniorbyseveralyears,buthowIbecameacquaintedwithhimIcannotremember;hepublishedsomefirst—ratezoologicalpapers,butaftercomingtoLondonasProfessorinUniversityCollege,hedidnothingmoreinscience,afactwhichhasalwaysbeeninexplicabletome。Iknewhimwell;
hewasdryandformalinmanner,withmuchenthusiasmbeneaththisoutercrust。Heoneday,whenwewerewalkingtogether,burstforthinhighadmirationofLamarckandhisviewsonevolution。Ilistenedinsilentastonishment,andasfarasIcanjudgewithoutanyeffectonmymind。I
hadpreviouslyreadthe’Zoonomia’ofmygrandfather,inwhichsimilarviewsaremaintained,butwithoutproducinganyeffectonme。Neverthelessitisprobablethatthehearingratherearlyinlifesuchviewsmaintainedandpraisedmayhavefavouredmyupholdingthemunderadifferentforminmy’OriginofSpecies。’AtthistimeIadmiredgreatlythe’Zoonomia;’butonreadingitasecondtimeafteranintervaloftenorfifteenyears,I
wasmuchdisappointed;theproportionofspeculationbeingsolargetothefactsgiven。
Drs。GrantandColdstreamattendedmuchtomarineZoology,andIoftenaccompaniedtheformertocollectanimalsinthetidalpools,whichI
dissectedaswellasIcould。IalsobecamefriendswithsomeoftheNewhavenfishermen,andsometimesaccompaniedthemwhentheytrawledforoysters,andthusgotmanyspecimens。Butfromnothavinghadanyregularpracticeindissection,andfrompossessingonlyawretchedmicroscope,myattemptswereverypoor。NeverthelessImadeoneinterestinglittlediscovery,andread,aboutthebeginningoftheyear1826,ashortpaperonthesubjectbeforethePlinianSociety。Thiswasthattheso—calledovaofFlustrahadthepowerofindependentmovementbymeansofcilia,andwereinfactlarvae。InanothershortpaperIshowedthatthelittleglobularbodieswhichhadbeensupposedtobetheyoungstateofFucusloreusweretheegg—casesofthewormlikePontobdellamuricata。
ThePlinianSocietywasencouragedand,Ibelieve,foundedbyProfessorJameson:itconsistedofstudentsandmetinanundergroundroomintheUniversityforthesakeofreadingpapersonnaturalscienceanddiscussingthem。Iusedregularlytoattend,andthemeetingshadagoodeffectonmeinstimulatingmyzealandgivingmenewcongenialacquaintances。Oneeveningapooryoungmangotup,andafterstammeringforaprodigiouslengthoftime,blushingcrimson,heatlastslowlygotoutthewords,"Mr。
President,IhaveforgottenwhatIwasgoingtosay。"Thepoorfellowlookedquiteoverwhelmed,andallthemembersweresosurprisedthatnoonecouldthinkofawordtosaytocoverhisconfusion。Thepaperswhichwerereadtoourlittlesocietywerenotprinted,sothatIhadnotthesatisfactionofseeingmypaperinprint;butIbelieveDr。GrantnoticedmysmalldiscoveryinhisexcellentmemoironFlustra。
IwasalsoamemberoftheRoyalMedicalSociety,andattendedprettyregularly;butasthesubjectswereexclusivelymedical,Ididnotmuchcareaboutthem。Muchrubbishwastalkedthere,butthereweresomegoodspeakers,ofwhomthebestwasthepresentSirJ。Kay—Shuttleworth。Dr。
GranttookmeoccasionallytothemeetingsoftheWernerianSociety,wherevariouspapersonnaturalhistorywereread,discussed,andafterwardspublishedinthe’Transactions。’IheardAudubondelivertheresomeinterestingdiscoursesonthehabitsofN。Americanbirds,sneeringsomewhatunjustlyatWaterton。Bytheway,anegrolivedinEdinburgh,whohadtravelledwithWaterton,andgainedhislivelihoodbystuffingbirds,whichhedidexcellently:hegavemelessonsforpayment,andIusedoftentositwithhim,forhewasaverypleasantandintelligentman。
Mr。LeonardHorneralsotookmeoncetoameetingoftheRoyalSocietyofEdinburgh,whereIsawSirWalterScottinthechairasPresident,andheapologisedtothemeetingasnotfeelingfittedforsuchaposition。I
lookedathimandatthewholescenewithsomeaweandreverence,andI
thinkitwasowingtothisvisitduringmyyouth,andtomyhavingattendedtheRoyalMedicalSociety,thatIfeltthehonourofbeingelectedafewyearsagoanhonorarymemberofboththeseSocieties,morethananyothersimilarhonour。IfIhadbeentoldatthattimethatIshouldonedayhavebeenthushonoured,IdeclarethatIshouldhavethoughtitasridiculousandimprobable,asifIhadbeentoldthatIshouldbeelectedKingofEngland。
DuringmysecondyearatEdinburghIattended——’slecturesonGeologyandZoology,buttheywereincrediblydull。ThesoleeffecttheyproducedonmewasthedeterminationneveraslongasIlivedtoreadabookonGeology,orinanywaytostudythescience。YetIfeelsurethatIwaspreparedforaphilosophicaltreatmentofthesubject;foranoldMr。
CottoninShropshire,whoknewagooddealaboutrocks,hadpointedouttometwoorthreeyearspreviouslyawell—knownlargeerraticboulderinthetownofShrewsbury,calledthe"bell—stone";hetoldmethattherewasnorockofthesamekindnearerthanCumberlandorScotland,andhesolemnlyassuredmethattheworldwouldcometoanendbeforeanyonewouldbeabletoexplainhowthisstonecamewhereitnowlay。Thisproducedadeepimpressiononme,andImeditatedoverthiswonderfulstone。SothatI
feltthekeenestdelightwhenIfirstreadoftheactionoficebergsintransportingboulders,andIgloriedintheprogressofGeology。EquallystrikingisthefactthatI,thoughnowonlysixty—sevenyearsold,heardtheProfessor,inafieldlectureatSalisburyCraigs,discoursingonatrapdyke,withamygdaloidalmarginsandthestratainduratedoneachside,withvolcanicrocksallaroundus,saythatitwasafissurefilledwithsedimentfromabove,addingwithasneerthatthereweremenwhomaintainedthatithadbeeninjectedfrombeneathinamoltencondition。WhenIthinkofthislecture,IdonotwonderthatIdeterminednevertoattendtoGeology。
>Fromattending——’slectures,Ibecameacquaintedwiththecuratorofthemuseum,Mr。Macgillivray,whoafterwardspublishedalargeandexcellentbookonthebirdsofScotland。Ihadmuchinterestingnatural—historytalkwithhim,andhewasverykindtome。Hegavemesomerareshells,forI
atthattimecollectedmarinemollusca,butwithnogreatzeal。
Mysummervacationsduringthesetwoyearswerewhollygivenuptoamusements,thoughIalwayshadsomebookinhand,whichIreadwithinterest。Duringthesummerof1826ItookalongwalkingtourwithtwofriendswithknapsacksonourbacksthroughNorthwales。Wewalkedthirtymilesmostdays,includingonedaytheascentofSnowdon。IalsowentwithmysisteraridingtourinNorthWales,aservantwithsaddle—bagscarryingourclothes。TheautumnsweredevotedtoshootingchieflyatMr。Owen’s,atWoodhouse,andatmyUncleJos’s(JosiahWedgwood,thesonofthefounderoftheEtruriaWorks。)atMaer。MyzealwassogreatthatIusedtoplacemyshooting—bootsopenbymybed—sidewhenIwenttobed,soasnottolosehalfaminuteinputtingthemoninthemorning;andononeoccasionIreachedadistantpartoftheMaerestate,onthe20thofAugustforblack—gameshooting,beforeIcouldsee:Ithentoiledonwiththegame—keeperthewholedaythroughthickheathandyoungScotchfirs。
IkeptanexactrecordofeverybirdwhichIshotthroughoutthewholeseason。OnedaywhenshootingatWoodhousewithCaptainOwen,theeldestson,andMajorHill,hiscousin,afterwardsLordBerwick,bothofwhomI
likedverymuch,Ithoughtmyselfshamefullyused,foreverytimeafterI
hadfiredandthoughtthatIhadkilledabird,oneofthetwoactedasifloadinghisgun,andcriedout,"Youmustnotcountthatbird,forIfiredatthesametime,"andthegamekeeper,perceivingthejoke,backedthemup。
Aftersomehourstheytoldmethejoke,butitwasnojoketome,forIhadshotalargenumberofbirds,butdidnotknowhowmany,andcouldnotaddthemtomylist,whichIusedtodobymakingaknotinapieceofstringtiedtoabutton—hole。Thismywickedfriendshadperceived。
HowIdidenjoyshooting!ButIthinkthatImusthavebeenhalf—
consciouslyashamedofmyzeal,forItriedtopersuademyselfthatshootingwasalmostanintellectualemployment;itrequiredsomuchskilltojudgewheretofindmostgameandtohuntthedogswell。
OneofmyautumnalvisitstoMaerin1827wasmemorablefrommeetingthereSirJ。Mackintosh,whowasthebestconverserIeverlistenedto。Iheardafterwardswithaglowofpridethathehadsaid,"Thereissomethinginthatyoungmanthatinterestsme。"ThismusthavebeenchieflyduetohisperceivingthatIlistenedwithmuchinteresttoeverythingwhichhesaid,forIwasasignorantasapigabouthissubjectsofhistory,politics,andmoralphilosophy。Tohearofpraisefromaneminentperson,thoughnodoubtaptorcertaintoexcitevanity,is,Ithink,goodforayoungman,asithelpstokeephimintherightcourse。
MyvisitstoMaerduringthesetwoorthreesucceedingyearswerequitedelightful,independentlyoftheautumnalshooting。Lifetherewasperfectlyfree;thecountrywasverypleasantforwalkingorriding;andintheeveningtherewasmuchveryagreeableconversation,notsopersonalasitgenerallyisinlargefamilyparties,togetherwithmusic。Inthesummerthewholefamilyusedoftentositonthestepsoftheoldportico,withtheflower—gardeninfront,andwiththesteepwoodedbankoppositethehousereflectedinthelake,withhereandthereafishrisingorawater—birdpaddlingabout。NothinghasleftamorevividpictureonmymindthantheseeveningsatMaer。IwasalsoattachedtoandgreatlyreveredmyUncleJos;hewassilentandreserved,soastobearatherawfulman;buthesometimestalkedopenlywithme。Hewastheverytypeofanuprightman,withtheclearestjudgment。Idonotbelievethatanypoweronearthcouldhavemadehimswerveaninchfromwhatheconsideredtherightcourse。Iusedtoapplytohiminmymindthewell—knownodeofHorace,nowforgottenbyme,inwhichthewords"necvultustyranni,etc。,"
comein。
(JustumettenacempropositivirumNonciviumardorpravajubentiumNonvultusinstantistyranniMentequatitsolida。)
CAMBRIDGE1828—1831。
AfterhavingspenttwosessionsinEdinburgh,myfatherperceived,orheheardfrommysisters,thatIdidnotlikethethoughtofbeingaphysician,soheproposedthatIshouldbecomeaclergyman。Hewasveryproperlyvehementagainstmyturningintoanidlesportingman,whichthenseemedmyprobabledestination。Iaskedforsometimetoconsider,asfromwhatlittleIhadheardorthoughtonthesubjectIhadscruplesaboutdeclaringmybeliefinallthedogmasoftheChurchofEngland;thoughotherwiseIlikedthethoughtofbeingacountryclergyman。AccordinglyI
readwithcare’PearsonontheCreed,’andafewotherbooksondivinity;
andasIdidnotthenintheleastdoubtthestrictandliteraltruthofeverywordintheBible,IsoonpersuadedmyselfthatourCreedmustbefullyaccepted。
ConsideringhowfiercelyIhavebeenattackedbytheorthodox,itseemsludicrousthatIonceintendedtobeaclergyman。Norwasthisintentionandmyfather’swisheverformerlygivenup,butdiedanaturaldeathwhen,onleavingCambridge,Ijoinedthe"Beagle"asnaturalist。Ifthephrenologistsaretobetrusted,Iwaswellfittedinonerespecttobeaclergyman。AfewyearsagothesecretariesofaGermanpsychologicalsocietyaskedmeearnestlybyletterforaphotographofmyself;andsometimeafterwardsIreceivedtheproceedingsofoneofthemeetings,inwhichitseemedthattheshapeofmyheadhadbeenthesubjectofapublicdiscussion,andoneofthespeakersdeclaredthatIhadthebumpofreverencedevelopedenoughfortenpriests。
AsitwasdecidedthatIshouldbeaclergyman,itwasnecessarythatI
shouldgotooneoftheEnglishuniversitiesandtakeadegree;butasI
hadneveropenedaclassicalbooksinceleavingschool,Ifoundtomydismay,thatinthetwointerveningyearsIhadactuallyforgotten,incredibleasitmayappear,almosteverythingwhichIhadlearnt,eventosomefewoftheGreekletters。IdidnotthereforeproceedtoCambridgeattheusualtimeinOctober,butworkedwithaprivatetutorinShrewsbury,andwenttoCambridgeaftertheChristmasvacation,earlyin1828。Isoonrecoveredmyschoolstandardofknowledge,andcouldtranslateeasyGreekbooks,suchasHomerandtheGreekTestament,withmoderatefacility。
DuringthethreeyearswhichIspentatCambridgemytimewaswasted,asfarastheacademicalstudieswereconcerned,ascompletelyasatEdinburghandatschool。Iattemptedmathematics,andevenwentduringthesummerof1828withaprivatetutor(averydullman)toBarmouth,butIgotonveryslowly。Theworkwasrepugnanttome,chieflyfrommynotbeingabletoseeanymeaningintheearlystepsinalgebra。Thisimpatiencewasveryfoolish,andinafteryearsIhavedeeplyregrettedthatIdidnotproceedfarenoughatleasttounderstandsomethingofthegreatleadingprinciplesofmathematics,formenthusendowedseemtohaveanextrasense。ButIdonotbelievethatIshouldeverhavesucceededbeyondaverylowgrade。
WithrespecttoClassicsIdidnothingexceptattendafewcompulsorycollegelectures,andtheattendancewasalmostnominal。InmysecondyearIhadtoworkforamonthortwotopasstheLittle—Go,whichIdideasily。
Again,inmylastyearIworkedwithsomeearnestnessformyfinaldegreeofB。A。,andbrushedupmyClassics,togetherwithalittleAlgebraandEuclid,whichlattergavememuchpleasure,asitdidatschool。InordertopasstheB。A。examination,itwasalsonecessarytogetupPaley’s’EvidencesofChristianity,’andhis’MoralPhilosophy。’Thiswasdoneinathoroughmanner,andIamconvincedthatIcouldhavewrittenoutthewholeofthe’Evidences’withperfectcorrectness,butnotofcourseintheclearlanguageofPaley。Thelogicofthisbookand,asImayadd,ofhis’NaturalTheology,’gavemeasmuchdelightasdidEuclid。Thecarefulstudyoftheseworks,withoutattemptingtolearnanypartbyrote,wastheonlypartoftheacademicalcoursewhich,asIthenfeltandasIstillbelieve,wasoftheleastusetomeintheeducationofmymind。IdidnotatthattimetroublemyselfaboutPaley’spremises;andtakingtheseontrust,Iwascharmedandconvincedbythelonglineofargumentation。ByansweringwelltheexaminationquestionsinPaley,bydoingEuclidwell,andbynotfailingmiserablyinClassics,Igainedagoodplaceamongtheoipolloiorcrowdofmenwhodonotgoinforhonours。Oddlyenough,I
cannotrememberhowhighIstood,andmymemoryfluctuatesbetweenthefifth,tenth,ortwelfth,nameonthelist。(TenthinthelistofJanuary1831。)
PubliclecturesonseveralbranchesweregivenintheUniversity,attendancebeingquitevoluntary;butIwassosickenedwithlecturesatEdinburghthatIdidnotevenattendSedgwick’seloquentandinterestinglectures。HadIdonesoIshouldprobablyhavebecomeageologistearlierthanIdid。Iattended,however,Henslow’slecturesonBotany,andlikedthemmuchfortheirextremeclearness,andtheadmirableillustrations;butIdidnotstudybotany。Henslowusedtotakehispupils,includingseveraloftheoldermembersoftheUniversity,fieldexcursions,onfootorincoaches,todistantplaces,orinabargedowntheriver,andlecturedontherarerplantsandanimalswhichwereobserved。Theseexcursionsweredelightful。
Although,asweshallpresentlysee,thereweresomeredeemingfeaturesinmylifeatCambridge,mytimewassadlywastedthere,andworsethanwasted。Frommypassionforshootingandforhunting,and,whenthisfailed,forridingacrosscountry,Igotintoasportingset,includingsomedissipatedlow—mindedyoungmen。Weusedoftentodinetogetherintheevening,thoughthesedinnersoftenincludedmenofahigherstamp,andwesometimesdranktoomuch,withjollysingingandplayingatcardsafterwards。IknowthatIoughttofeelashamedofdaysandeveningsthusspent,butassomeofmyfriendswereverypleasant,andwewereallinthehighestspirits,Icannothelplookingbacktothesetimeswithmuchpleasure。
ButIamgladtothinkthatIhadmanyotherfriendsofawidelydifferentnature。IwasveryintimatewithWhitley(Rev。C。Whitley,Hon。CanonofDurham,formerlyReaderinNaturalPhilosophyinDurhamUniversity。),whowasafterwardsSeniorWrangler,andweusedcontinuallytotakelongwalkstogether。Heinoculatedmewithatasteforpicturesandgoodengravings,ofwhichIboughtsome。IfrequentlywenttotheFitzwilliamGallery,andmytastemusthavebeenfairlygood,forIcertainlyadmiredthebestpictures,whichIdiscussedwiththeoldcurator。IreadalsowithmuchinterestSirJoshuaReynolds’book。Thistaste,thoughnotnaturaltome,lastedforseveralyears,andmanyofthepicturesintheNationalGalleryinLondongavememuchpleasure;thatofSebastiandelPiomboexcitinginmeasenseofsublimity。
Ialsogotintoamusicalset,Ibelievebymeansofmywarm—heartedfriend,Herbert(ThelateJohnMauriceHerbert,CountyCourtJudgeofCardiffandtheMonmouthCircuit。),whotookahighwrangler’sdegree。
>Fromassociatingwiththesemen,andhearingthemplay,Iacquiredastrongtasteformusic,andusedveryoftentotimemywalkssoastohearonweekdaystheantheminKing’sCollegeChapel。Thisgavemeintensepleasure,sothatmybackbonewouldsometimesshiver。Iamsurethattherewasnoaffectationormereimitationinthistaste,forIusedgenerallytogobymyselftoKing’sCollege,andIsometimeshiredthechoristerboystosinginmyrooms。NeverthelessIamsoutterlydestituteofanear,thatI
cannotperceiveadiscord,orkeeptimeandhumatunecorrectly;anditisamysteryhowIcouldpossiblyhavederivedpleasurefrommusic。
Mymusicalfriendssoonperceivedmystate,andsometimesamusedthemselvesbymakingmepassanexamination,whichconsistedinascertaininghowmanytunesIcouldrecognisewhentheywereplayedrathermorequicklyorslowlythanusual。’GodsavetheKing,’whenthusplayed,wasasorepuzzle。
TherewasanothermanwithalmostasbadanearasIhad,andstrangetosayheplayedalittleontheflute。OnceIhadthetriumphofbeatinghiminoneofourmusicalexaminations。
ButnopursuitatCambridgewasfollowedwithnearlysomucheagernessorgavemesomuchpleasureascollectingbeetles。Itwasthemerepassionforcollecting,forIdidnotdissectthem,andrarelycomparedtheirexternalcharacterswithpublisheddescriptions,butgotthemnamedanyhow。
Iwillgiveaproofofmyzeal:oneday,ontearingoffsomeoldbark,I
sawtworarebeetles,andseizedoneineachhand;thenIsawathirdandnewkind,whichIcouldnotbeartolose,sothatIpoppedtheonewhichI
heldinmyrighthandintomymouth。Alas!itejectedsomeintenselyacridfluid,whichburntmytonguesothatIwasforcedtospitthebeetleout,whichwaslost,aswasthethirdone。
Iwasverysuccessfulincollecting,andinventedtwonewmethods;I
employedalabourertoscrapeduringthewinter,mossoffoldtreesandplaceitinalargebag,andlikewisetocollecttherubbishatthebottomofthebargesinwhichreedsarebroughtfromthefens,andthusIgotsomeveryrarespecies。NopoeteverfeltmoredelightedatseeinghisfirstpoempublishedthanIdidatseeing,inStephens’’IllustrationsofBritishInsects,’themagicwords,"capturedbyC。Darwin,Esq。"IwasintroducedtoentomologybymysecondcousinW。DarwinFox,acleverandmostpleasantman,whowasthenatChrist’sCollege,andwithwhomIbecameextremelyintimate。AfterwardsIbecamewellacquainted,andwentoutcollecting,withAlbertWayofTrinity,whoinafteryearsbecameawell—knownarchaeologist;alsowithH。ThompsonofthesameCollege,afterwardsaleadingagriculturist,chairmanofagreatrailway,andMemberofParliament。Itseemsthereforethatatasteforcollectingbeetlesissomeindicationoffuturesuccessinlife!
IamsurprisedwhatanindelibleimpressionmanyofthebeetleswhichI
caughtatCambridgehaveleftonmymind。Icanremembertheexactappearanceofcertainposts,oldtreesandbankswhereImadeagoodcapture。TheprettyPanagaeuscrux—majorwasatreasureinthosedays,andhereatDownIsawabeetlerunningacrossawalk,andonpickingitupinstantlyperceivedthatitdifferedslightlyfromP。crux—major,anditturnedouttobeP。quadripunctatus,whichisonlyavarietyorcloselyalliedspecies,differingfromitveryslightlyinoutline。IhadneverseeninthoseolddaysLicinusalive,whichtoanuneducatedeyehardlydiffersfrommanyoftheblackCarabidousbeetles;butmysonsfoundhereaspecimen,andIinstantlyrecognisedthatitwasnewtome;yetIhadnotlookedataBritishbeetleforthelasttwentyyears。
Ihavenotasyetmentionedacircumstancewhichinfluencedmywholecareermorethananyother。ThiswasmyfriendshipwithProfessorHenslow。
BeforecominguptoCambridge,Ihadheardofhimfrommybrotherasamanwhokneweverybranchofscience,andIwasaccordinglypreparedtoreverencehim。Hekeptopenhouseonceeveryweekwhenallundergraduates,andsomeoldermembersoftheUniversity,whowereattachedtoscience,usedtomeetintheevening。Isoongot,throughFox,aninvitation,andwentthereregularly。BeforelongIbecamewellacquaintedwithHenslow,andduringthelatterhalfofmytimeatCambridgetooklongwalkswithhimonmostdays;sothatIwascalledbysomeofthedons"themanwhowalkswithHenslow;"andintheeveningIwasveryoftenaskedtojoinhisfamilydinner。Hisknowledgewasgreatinbotany,entomology,chemistry,mineralogy,andgeology。Hisstrongesttastewastodrawconclusionsfromlong—continuedminuteobservations。Hisjudgmentwasexcellent,andhiswholemindwellbalanced;butIdonotsupposethatanyonewouldsaythathepossessedmuchoriginalgenius。Hewasdeeplyreligious,andsoorthodoxthathetoldmeonedayheshouldbegrievedifasinglewordoftheThirty—nineArticleswerealtered。Hismoralqualitieswereineverywayadmirable。Hewasfreefromeverytingeofvanityorotherpettyfeeling;andIneversawamanwhothoughtsolittleabouthimselforhisownconcerns。Histemperwasimperturbablygood,withthemostwinningandcourteousmanners;yet,asIhaveseen,hecouldberousedbyanybadactiontothewarmestindignationandpromptaction。
IoncesawinhiscompanyinthestreetsofCambridgealmostashorridasceneascouldhavebeenwitnessedduringtheFrenchRevolution。Twobody—
snatchershadbeenarrested,andwhilstbeingtakentoprisonhadbeentornfromtheconstablebyacrowdoftheroughestmen,whodraggedthembytheirlegsalongthemuddyandstonyroad。Theywerecoveredfromheadtofootwithmud,andtheirfaceswerebleedingeitherfromhavingbeenkickedorfromthestones;theylookedlikecorpses,butthecrowdwassodensethatIgotonlyafewmomentaryglimpsesofthewretchedcreatures。NeverinmylifehaveIseensuchwrathpaintedonaman’sfaceaswasshownbyHenslowatthishorridscene。Hetriedrepeatedlytopenetratethemob;
butitwassimplyimpossible。Hethenrushedawaytothemayor,tellingmenottofollowhim,buttogetmorepolicemen。Iforgettheissue,exceptthatthetwomenweregotintotheprisonwithoutbeingkilled。
Henslow’sbenevolencewasunbounded,asheprovedbyhismanyexcellentschemesforhispoorparishioners,wheninafteryearsheheldthelivingofHitcham。Myintimacywithsuchamanoughttohavebeen,andIhopewas,aninestimablebenefit。Icannotresistmentioningatriflingincident,whichshowedhiskindconsideration。Whilstexaminingsomepollen—grainsonadampsurface,Isawthetubesexserted,andinstantlyrushedofftocommunicatemysurprisingdiscoverytohim。NowIdonotsupposeanyotherprofessorofbotanycouldhavehelpedlaughingatmycominginsuchahurrytomakesuchacommunication。Butheagreedhowinterestingthephenomenonwas,andexplaineditsmeaning,butmademeclearlyunderstandhowwellitwasknown;soIlefthimnotintheleastmortified,butwellpleasedathavingdiscoveredformyselfsoremarkableafact,butdeterminednottobeinsuchahurryagaintocommunicatemydiscoveries。
Dr。WhewellwasoneoftheolderanddistinguishedmenwhosometimesvisitedHenslow,andonseveraloccasionsIwalkedhomewithhimatnight。
NexttoSirJ。MackintoshhewasthebestconverserongravesubjectstowhomIeverlistened。LeonardJenyns(Thewell—knownSoameJenynswascousintoMr。Jenyns’father。),whoafterwardspublishedsomegoodessaysinNaturalHistory(Mr。Jenyns(nowBlomefield)describedthefishfortheZoologyofthe"Beagle";andisauthorofalongseriesofpapers,chieflyZoological。),oftenstayedwithHenslow,whowashisbrother—in—law。I
visitedhimathisparsonageonthebordersoftheFens[SwaffhamBulbeck],andhadmanyagoodwalkandtalkwithhimaboutNaturalHistory。Ibecamealsoacquaintedwithseveralothermenolderthanme,whodidnotcaremuchaboutscience,butwerefriendsofHenslow。OnewasaScotchman,brotherofSirAlexanderRamsay,andtutorofJesusCollege:hewasadelightfulman,butdidnotliveformanyyears。AnotherwasMr。Dawes,afterwardsDeanofHereford,andfamousforhissuccessintheeducationofthepoor。
Thesemenandothersofthesamestanding,togetherwithHenslow,usedsometimestotakedistantexcursionsintothecountry,whichIwasallowedtojoin,andtheyweremostagreeable。
Lookingback,Iinferthattheremusthavebeensomethinginmealittlesuperiortothecommonrunofyouths,otherwisetheabove—mentionedmen,somucholderthanmeandhigherinacademicalposition,wouldneverhaveallowedmetoassociatewiththem。CertainlyIwasnotawareofanysuchsuperiority,andIrememberoneofmysportingfriends,Turner,whosawmeatworkwithmybeetles,sayingthatIshouldsomedaybeaFellowoftheRoyalSociety,andthenotionseemedtomepreposterous。
DuringmylastyearatCambridge,IreadwithcareandprofoundinterestHumboldt’s’PersonalNarrative。’Thiswork,andSirJ。Herschel’s’IntroductiontotheStudyofNaturalPhilosophy,’stirredupinmeaburningzealtoaddeventhemosthumblecontributiontothenoblestructureofNaturalScience。Nooneoradozenotherbooksinfluencedmenearlysomuchasthesetwo。IcopiedoutfromHumboldtlongpassagesaboutTeneriffe,andreadthemaloudononeoftheabove—mentionedexcursions,to(Ithink)Henslow,Ramsay,andDawes,foronapreviousoccasionIhadtalkedaboutthegloriesofTeneriffe,andsomeofthepartydeclaredtheywouldendeavourtogothere;butIthinkthattheywereonlyhalfinearnest。Iwas,however,quiteinearnest,andgotanintroductiontoamerchantinLondontoenquireaboutships;buttheschemewas,ofcourse,knockedontheheadbythevoyageofthe"Beagle"。
Mysummervacationsweregivenuptocollectingbeetles,tosomereading,andshorttours。Intheautumnmywholetimewasdevotedtoshooting,chieflyatWoodhouseandMaer,andsometimeswithyoungEytonofEyton。
UponthewholethethreeyearswhichIspentatCambridgewerethemostjoyfulinmyhappylife;forIwastheninexcellenthealth,andalmostalwaysinhighspirits。
AsIhadatfirstcomeuptoCambridgeatChristmas,Iwasforcedtokeeptwotermsafterpassingmyfinalexamination,atthecommencementof1831;
andHenslowthenpersuadedmetobeginthestudyofgeology。ThereforeonmyreturntoShropshireIexaminedsections,andcolouredamapofpartsroundShrewsbury。ProfessorSedgwickintendedtovisitNorthWalesinthebeginningofAugusttopursuehisfamousgeologicalinvestigationsamongsttheolderrocks,andHenslowaskedhimtoallowmetoaccompanyhim。(InconnectionwiththistourmyfatherusedtotellastoryaboutSedgwick:
theyhadstartedfromtheirinnonemorning,andhadwalkedamileortwo,whenSedgwicksuddenlystopped,andvowedthathewouldreturn,beingcertain"thatdamnedscoundrel"(thewaiter)hadnotgiventhechambermaidthesixpenceintrustedtohimforthepurpose。Hewasultimatelypersuadedtogiveuptheproject,seeingthattherewasnoreasonforsuspectingthewaiterofespecialperfidy。——F。D。)Accordinglyhecameandsleptatmyfather’shouse。
Ashortconversationwithhimduringthiseveningproducedastrongimpressiononmymind。Whilstexamininganoldgravel—pitnearShrewsbury,alabourertoldmethathehadfoundinitalargeworntropicalVoluteshell,suchasmaybeseenonthechimney—piecesofcottages;andashewouldnotselltheshell,Iwasconvincedthathehadreallyfounditinthepit。ItoldSedgwickofthefact,andheatoncesaid(nodoubttruly)
thatitmusthavebeenthrownawaybysomeoneintothepit;butthenadded,ifreallyembeddedthereitwouldbethegreatestmisfortunetogeology,asitwouldoverthrowallthatweknowaboutthesuperficialdepositsoftheMidlandCounties。Thesegravel—bedsbelonginfacttotheglacialperiod,andinafteryearsIfoundinthembrokenarcticshells。
ButIwasthenutterlyastonishedatSedgwicknotbeingdelightedatsowonderfulafactasatropicalshellbeingfoundnearthesurfaceinthemiddleofEngland。Nothingbeforehadevermademethoroughlyrealise,thoughIhadreadvariousscientificbooks,thatscienceconsistsingroupingfactssothatgenerallawsorconclusionsmaybedrawnfromthem。
NextmorningwestartedforLlangollen,Conway,Bangor,andCapelCurig。
Thistourwasofdecideduseinteachingmealittlehowtomakeoutthegeologyofacountry。Sedgwickoftensentmeonalineparalleltohis,tellingmetobringbackspecimensoftherocksandtomarkthestratificationonamap。Ihavelittledoubtthathedidthisformygood,asIwastooignoranttohaveaidedhim。OnthistourIhadastrikinginstanceofhoweasyitistooverlookphenomena,howeverconspicuous,beforetheyhavebeenobservedbyanyone。WespentmanyhoursinCwmIdwal,examiningalltherockswithextremecare,asSedgwickwasanxioustofindfossilsinthem;butneitherofussawatraceofthewonderfulglacialphenomenaallaroundus;wedidnotnoticetheplainlyscoredrocks,theperchedboulders,thelateralandterminalmoraines。Yetthesephenomenaaresoconspicuousthat,asIdeclaredinapaperpublishedmanyyearsafterwardsinthe’PhilosophicalMagazine’(’PhilosophicalMagazine,’
1842。),ahouseburntdownbyfiredidnottellitsstorymoreplainlythandidthisvalley。Ifithadstillbeenfilledbyaglacier,thephenomenawouldhavebeenlessdistinctthantheynoware。
AtCapelCurigIleftSedgwickandwentinastraightlinebycompassandmapacrossthemountainstoBarmouth,neverfollowinganytrackunlessitcoincidedwithmycourse。Ithuscameonsomestrangewildplaces,andenjoyedmuchthismanneroftravelling。IvisitedBarmouthtoseesomeCambridgefriendswhowerereadingthere,andthencereturnedtoShrewsburyandtoMaerforshooting;foratthattimeIshouldhavethoughtmyselfmadtogiveupthefirstdaysofpartridge—shootingforgeologyoranyotherscience。