"Youknownotwhatsheislike。Thehonourofthefamilywouldobligehertogetmeoutoftheway,butbeforethatshewouldmakemesuffertormentstowhichdeathispreferablebyfar。Butwhyhaveyousaidnomoreaboutthearoph?Isitnotallajest?Itwouldbeaverycruelone。"
"Onthecontrary,Ibelieveittobeinfallible,thoughIhaveneverbeenawitnessofitseffects;butwhatgoodisitformetospeaktoyou?Youcanguessthatadelicacyoffeelinghasmademekeepsilence。Confideinyourlover,whoisatVenice;writehimaletter,andIwilltakecarethatitisgivenintohishands,infiveorsixdays,byasuremessenger。IfheisnotwelloffIwillgiveyouwhatevermoneymaybeneededforhimtocomewithoutdelay,andsaveyourhonourandlifebygivingyouthearoph。"
"Thisideaisagoodoneandtheoffergenerousonyourpart,butitisnotfeasible,asyouwouldseeifyouknewmoreaboutmycircumstances。Donotthinkanymoreofmylover;butsupposingI
madeupmymindtoreceivethearophfromanother,tellmehowitcouldbedone。EvenifmyloverwereinParis,howcouldhespendanentireweekwithme,ashewouldhaveto?Andhowcouldhegivemethedosefiveorsixtimesadayforaweek?Youseeyourselfthatthisremedyisoutofthequestion。"
"Soyouwouldgiveyourselftoanother,ifyouthoughtthatwouldsaveyourhonour?"
"Certainly,ifIweresurethatthethingwouldbekeptsecret。ButwhereshallIfindsuchaperson?Doyouthinkhewouldbeeasytofind,orthatIcangoandlookforhim?"
Ididnotknowwhattomakeofthisspeech;forsheknewIlovedher,andIdidnotseewhysheshouldputherselftothetroubleofgoingfarwhenwhatshewantedwastoherhand。Iwasinclinedtothinkthatshewantedmetoaskhertomakechoiceofmyselfastheadministratoroftheremedy,eithertosparehermodesty,ortohavethemeritofyieldingtomyloveandthusobligingmetobegrateful;
butImightbewrong,andIdidnotcaretoexposemyselftothehumiliationofarefusal。OntheotherhandIcouldhardlythinkshewantedtoinsultme。Notknowingwhattosayorwhichwaytoturn,,andwantingtodrawanexplanationfromher,Isighedprofoundly,tookupmyhat,andmadeasifIweregoing,exclaiming,"Cruelgirl,mylotismorewretchedthanyours。"
Sheraisedherselfinthebedandbeggedmewithtearsinhereyestoremain,andaskedmehowIcouldcallmyselfmorewretchedthanher。
Pretendingtobeannoyedandyetfullofloveforher,Itoldherthatthecontemptinwhichsheheldmehadaffectedmedeeply,sinceinhernecessityshepreferredtheofficesofonewhowasunknowntoherratherthanmakeuseofme。
"Youarecruelandunjust,"shesaid,weeping。"Isee,formypart,thatyoulovemenolongersinceyouwishtotakeadvantageofmycruelnecessitytogainatriumphoverme。Thisisanactofrevengenotworthyofamanoffeeling。"
Hertearssoftenedme,andIfellonmykneesbeforeher。
"Sinceyouknow,dearest,thatIworshipyou,howcanyouthinkmecapableofrevengingmyselfonyou?DoyouthinkthatIcanbeartohearyousaythatsinceyourlovercannothelpyouyoudonotknowwheretolookforhelp?"
"Butafterrefusingyoumyfavours,couldIaskthisofficeofyouwithanydecency?HaveInotgoodreasontobeafraidthatasI
refusedtotakepityonyourlovesoyouwouldrefusetotakepityonmynecessity?"
"Doyouthinkthatapassionateloverceasestoloveonaccountofarefusalwhichmaybedictatedbyvirtue?LetmetellyouallI
think。IconfessIoncethoughtyoudidnotloveme,butnowIamsureofthecontrary;andthatyourheartwouldhaveledyoutosatisfymylove,evenifyouhadnotbeenthussituated。Imayaddthatyounodoubtfeelvexedatmyhavinganydoubtsofyourlove。"
"Youhaveinterpretedmyfeelingsadmirably。Buthowwearetobetogetherwiththenecessaryfreedomfromobservationremainstobeseen。"
"Donotbeafraid。NowIamsureofyourconsent,itwillnotbelongbeforeIcontrivesomeplan。InthemeanwhileIwillgoandmakethearoph。"
IhadresolvedthatifeverIsucceededinpersuadingMdlle。X。C。V。
tomakeuseofmyspecificIwouldusenothingbuthoney,sothecompositionofthearophwouldnotbeaverycomplicatedprocess。
Butifonepointwasthenplainandsimple,anotherremainedtobesolved,anditssolutiongavemesomedifficulty。Ishouldhavetopassseveralnightsincontinualtoils。IfearedIhadpromisedmorethanIcouldperform,andIshouldnotbeabletomakeanyabatementwithouthazarding,notthesuccessofthearoph,buttheblissIhadtakensuchpainstowin。Again,asheryoungersistersleptinthesameroomwithherandclosetoher,theoperationcouldnotbeperformedthere。Atlastchance——adivinitywhichoftenhelpslovers——cametomyaid。
Iwasobligedtoclimbuptothefourthfloorandmetthesculliononmyway,whoguessedwhereIwasgoing,andbeggedmenottogoanyfartherastheplacewastaken。
"But,"saidI,"youhavejustcomeoutofit。"
"Yes,butIonlywentinandcameoutagain。"
"ThenIwillwaittillthecoastisclear。"
"Forgoodness’sake,sir,donotwait!"
"Ah,yourascal!Iseewhatisgoingon。WellIwillsaynothingaboutit,butImustseeher。"
"Shewon’tcomeout,forsheheardyourstepsandshutherselfin。"
"Sheknowsme,doesshe?"
"Yes,andyouknowher。"
"Allright,getalongwithyou!Iwon’tsayanythingaboutit。"
Hewentdown,andtheideaimmediatelystruckmethattheadventuremightbeusefultome。Iwentuptothetop,andthroughachinkI
sawMadelaine,Mdlle。X。C。V。’smaid。Ireassuredher,andpromisedtokeepthesecret,whereonsheopenedthedoor,andafterIhadgivenheralouis,fledinsomeconfusion。Soonafter,Icamedown,andthescullionwhowaswaitingformeonthelandingbeggedmetomakeMadelainegivehimhalfthelouis。
"Iwillgiveyouonealltoyourself,"saidI,"ifyouwilltellmethestory"——anofferwhichpleasedtheroguewellenough。Hetoldmethetaleofhisloves,andsaidhealwaysspentthenightwithherinthegarret,butthatforthreedaystheyhadbeendeprivedoftheirpleasures,asmadamhadlockedthedoorandtakenawaythekey。I
madehimshewmetheplace,andlookingthroughthekeyholeIsawthattherewasplentyofroomforamattress。IgavethescullionaLouis,andwentawaytoripenmyplans。
Itseemedtomethattherewasnoreasonwhythemistressshouldnotsleepinthegarretaswellasthemaid。Igotapicklockandseveralskeletonkeys,Iputinatinboxseveraldosesofthearoph—
thatis,somehoneymixedwithpoundedstag’shorntomakeitthickenough,andthenextmorningIwenttothe"HoteldeBretagne,"andimmediatelytriedmypicklock。Icouldhavedonewithoutit,asthefirstskeletonkeyItriedopenedthewornoutlock。
Proudofmyidea,IwentdowntoseeMdlle。X。C。V。,andinafewwordstoldhertheplan。
"But,"saidshe,"IshouldhavetogothroughMadelaine’sroomtogettothegarret。"
"Inthatcase,dearest,wemustwinthegirlover。"
"Tellhermysecret?"
"Justso。"
"Oh,Icouldn’t!"
"Iwillseetoit;thegoldenkeyopensalldoors。"
ThegirlconsentedtoallIaskedher,butthesculliontroubledme,forifhefoundusouthemightbedangerous。Ithought,however,thatImighttrusttoMadelaine,whowasagirlofwit,tolookafterhim。
BeforegoingItoldthegirlthatIwantedtodiscusssomeimportantmatterswithher,andItoldhertomeetmeinthecloistersoftheAugustinianChurch。ShecameattheappointedtimeandIexplainedtoherthewholeplaninallitsdetails。Shesoonunderstoodme,andaftertellingmethatshewouldtakecaretoputherownbedinthenewkindofboudoir,sheaddedthat,tobequitesafe,wemustmakesureofthescullion。
"Heisasharplad,"saidMadelaine,"andIthinkIcananswerforhim。However,youmayleavethattome。"
Igaveherthekeyandsixlouis,biddingherinformhermistressofwhatwehadagreedupon,andgetthegarretreadytoreceiveus。Shewentawayquitemerry。Amaidwhoisinloveisneversohappyaswhenshecanmakehermistressprotectherintrigues。
Nextmorningthescullioncalledonmeatmyhouse。ThefirstthingItoldhimwastotakecarenottobetrayhimselftomyservants,andnevertocomeandseemeexceptinacaseofnecessity。Hepromiseddiscretion,andassuredmeofhisdevotiontomyservice。Hegavemethekeyofthegarretandtoldmethathehadgotanother。Iadmiredhisforethought,andgavehimapresentofsixlouis,whichhadmoreeffectonhimthanthefinestwords。
NextmorningIonlysawMdlle。X。C。V。foramomenttowarnherthatIshouldbeattheappointedplaceattenthatevening。Iwentthereearlywithoutbeingseenbyanybody。Iwasinacloak,andcarriedinmypocketthearoph,flintandsteel,andacandle。Ifoundagoodbed,pillows,andathickcoverlet——averyusefulprovision,asthenightswerecold,andweshouldrequiresomesleepintheintervalsoftheoperation。
Atelevenaslightnoisemademyheartbegintobeat——alwaysagoodsign。Iwentout,andfoundmymistressbyfeelingforher,andreassuredherbyatenderkiss。Ibroughtherin,barricadedthedoor,andtookcaretocoverupthekeyholetobafflethecurious,and,iftheworsehappened,toavoidasurprise。
Onmylightingthecandlesheseemeduneasy,andsaidthatthelightmightdiscoverusifanybodycameuptothefourthfloor。
"That’snotlikely,"Isaid;"andbesides,wecan’tdowithoutit,forhowamItogiveyouthearophinthedark?"
"Verygood,"shereplied,"wecanputitoutafterwards。"
Withoutstayingforthosepreliminarydallyingswhicharesosweetwhenoneisatease,weundressedourselves,andbeganwithallseriousnesstoplayourpart,whichwedidtoperfection。Welookedlikeamedicalstudentabouttoperformanoperation,andshelikeapatient,withthisdifferencethatitwasthepatientwhoarrangedthedressing。Whenshewasready——thatis,whenshehadplacedthearophasneatlyasaskull—capfitsaparson——sheputherselfintheproperpositionforthepreparationtomixwiththesemen。
Themostlaughablepartofitallwasthatwewerebothasseriousastwodoctorsofdivinity。
Whentheintroductionofthearophwasperfectthetimidladyputoutthecandle,butafewminutesafterithadtobelightedagain。I
toldherpolitelythatIwasdelightedtobeginagain,andthevoiceinwhichIpaidherthiscomplimentmadeusbothburstintolaughter。
Ididn’ttakesoshortatimeovermysecondoperationasmyfirst,andmysweetheart,whohadbeenalittleputout,wasnowquiteatherease。
Hermodestyhadnowbeenreplacedbyconfidence,andasshewaslookingatthearophfittedinitsplace,sheshewedmewithherprettyfingerveryevidentsignsofherco—operationinthework。
Thenwithanaffectionateair,sheaskedmeifIwouldnotliketorest,aswehadstillagooddealtodobeforeourworkwasatanend。
"Yousee,"saidI,"thatIdonotneedrest,andIthinkwehadbettersettoagain。"
Nodoubtshefoundmyreasonagoodone,for,withoutsayinganything,sheputherselfreadytobeginagain,andafterwardswetookagoodlongsleep。WhenIwokeup,feelingasfreshasever,I
askedhertotryanotheroperation;andaftercarryingthisthroughsuccessfully,Ideterminedtobeguidedbyherandtakecareofmyself,forwehadtoreserveourenergiesforthefollowingnights。
So,aboutfouro’clockinthemorningsheleftme,andsoftlymadeherwaytoherroom,andatdaybreakIleftthehotelundertheprotectionofthescullion,whotookmebyaprivatedoorIdidnotknowof。
Aboutnoon,aftertakinganaromaticbath,IwenttocallonMdlle。
X。C。V。,whomIfoundsittingupinbedasusual,elegantlyattired,andwithahappysmileonherlips。Shespokeatsuchlengthonhergratitude,andthankedmesooften,that,believingmyself,andwithgoodcause,tobeherdebtor,Ibegantogetimpatient。
"Isitpossible,"Isaid,"thatyoudonotseehowdegradingyourthanksaretome?Theyprovethatyoudonotloveme,orthatifyouloveme,youthinkmylovelessstrongthanyours。"
Ourconversationthentookatenderturn,andwewereabouttosealourmutualardourswithouttroublingaboutthearoph,whenprudencebadeusbeware。Itwouldnothavebeensafe,andwehadplentyoftimebeforeus。Wecontentedourselveswithatenderembracetillthenightshouldcome。
Mysituationwasapeculiarone,forthoughIwasinlovewiththischarminggirlIdidnotfeelintheleastashamedofhavingdeceivedher,especiallyaswhatIdidcouldhavenoeffect,theplacebeingtaken。Itwasmyself—esteemwhichmademecongratulatemyselfonthesharppracticewhichhadprocuredmesuchpleasures。ShetoldmethatshewassorryshehaddeniedmewhenIhadaskedherbefore,andsaidthatshefeltnowthatIhadgoodreasontosuspecttherealityofherlove。Ididmybesttoreassureher,andindeedallsuspicionsonmypartwouldhavebeenbutidlethoughts,asIhadsucceededbeyondallexpectation。However,thereisonepointuponwhichIcongratulatemyselftothisday——namely,thatduringthosenightlytoilsofmine,whichdidsolittletowardstheobjectofherdesires,Isucceededininspiringherwithsuchafeelingofresignationthatshepromised,ofherownaccord,nottodespairanymore,buttotrustinandbeguidedbyme。Sheoftentoldmeduringournocturnalconversationsthatshewashappyandwouldcontinuetobeso,eventhoughthearophhadnoeffect。Notthatshehadceasedtobelieveinit,forshecontinuedtheapplicationoftheharmlesspreparationtillourlastassaults,inwhichwewantedinthosesweetcombatstoexhaustallthegiftsofpleasure。
"Sweetheart,"saidshe,justbeforewepartedfinally,"itseemstomethatwhatwehavebeenaboutismuchmorelikelytocreatethantodestroy,andiftheaperturehadnotbeenhermeticallyclosedweshoulddoubtlesshavegiventhelittleprisoneracompanion。"
AdoctoroftheSorbonnecouldnothavereasonedbetter。
ThreeorfourdaysafterwardsIfoundherthoughtfulbutquiet。Shetoldmethatshehadlostallhopeofgettingridofherburdenbeforethepropertime。Allthewhile,however,hermotherpersecutedher,andshewouldhavetochooseinafewdaysbetweenmakingadeclarationastoherstateandsigningthemarriagecontract。Shewouldacceptneitherofthesealternatives,andhaddecidedonescapingfromherhome,andaskedmetohelpherindoingso。
Ihaddeterminedtohelpher,butIdesiredtosavemyreputation,foritmighthavebeentroublesomeifithadbeenabsolutelyknownthatIhadcarriedherofforfurnishedherwiththemeanstoescape。
Andasforanyotheralternative,neitherofushadanyideaofmatrimony。
IleftherandwenttotheTuileries,whereasacredconcertwasbeinggiven。ThepiecewasamotetcomposedbyMoudonville,thewordsbytheAbbedeVoisenon,whomIhadfurnishedwiththeidea,"TheIsraelitesonMountHoreb。"
AsIwasgettingoutofmycarriage,IsawMadameduRemaindescendingalonefromhers。Iranup。toher,andreceivedaheartywelcome。"Iamdelighted,"saidshe,"tofindyouhere,itisquiteapieceofluck。Iamgoingtohearthisnovelcomposition,andhavetworeservedseats。Willyoudomethehonourofacceptingone?"
AlthoughIhadmyticketinmypocketIcouldnotrefusesohonourableanoffer,so,givinghermyarm,wewalkeduptotwoofthebestplacesinthehouse。
AtParisnotalkingisallowedduringtheperformanceofsacredmusic,especiallywhenthepieceisheardforthefirsttime;soMadameduRemaincoulddrawnoconclusionsfrommysilencethroughouttheperformance,butsheguessedthatsomethingwasthematterfromthetroubledandabsentexpressionofmyface,whichwasbynomeansnaturaltome。
"M。Casanova,"saidshe,"begoodenoughtogivemeyourcompanyforanhour。Iwanttoaskyou—twoorthreequestionswhichcanonlybesolvedbyyourcabala。Ihopeyouwillobligeme,asIam,veryanxioustoknowtheanswers,butwemustbequickasIhaveanengagementtosupinParis。"
ItmaybeimaginedthatIdidnotwaittobeaskedtwice,andassoonaswegottoherhouseIwenttoworkonthequestions,andsolvedthemallinlessthanhalfanhour。
WhenIhadfinished,"M。Casanova;"saidshe,inthekindestmannerpossible,"whatisthematterwithyou?Youarenotinyourusualstateofequanimity,andifIamnotmistakenyouaredreadingsomedireevent。Orperhapsyouareontheeveoftakingsomeimportantresolution?Iamnotinquisitive,butifIcanbeofanyservicetoyouatCourt,makeuseofme,andbesurethatIwilldomybest。Ifnecessary,IwillgotoVersaillesto—morrowmorning。Iknowalltheministers。Confideinmeyourtroubles,ifIcannotlightenthemI
canatleastsharethem,andbesureIwillkeepyourcounsel。
Herwordsseemedtomeavoicefromheaven,awarningfrommygoodgeniustoopenmyhearttothislady,whohadalmostreadmythoughts,andhadsoplainlyexpressedherinterestinmywelfare。
Aftergazingatherforsomesecondswithoutspeaking,butwithamannerthatshewedherhowgratefulIwas,"Yesmadam,"Isaid,"Iamindeedcriticallysituated,maybeonthesergeofruin,butyourkindnesshascalmedmysoulandmademeoncemoreacquaintedwithhope。YoushallhearhowIamplaced。Iamgoingtotrustyouwithasecretofthemostdelicatedescription,butIcanrelyonyourbeingasdiscreetasyouaregood。Andifafterhearingmystoryyoudeigntogivemeyouradvice,Ipromisetofollowitandnevertodivulgeitsauthor。"
Afterthisbeginning,whichgainedhercloseattention,Itoldherallthecircumstancesofthecase,neitherconcealingtheyounglady’snamenoranyofthecircumstanceswhichmadeitmydutytowatchoverherwelfare。AllthesameIsaidnothingaboutthearophortheshareIhadtakeninitsexhibition。Theincidentappearedtometoofarcicalforaseriousdrama,butIconfessedthatIhadprocuredthegirldrugsinthehopeofrelievingherofherburden。
AfterthisweightycommunicationIstopped,andMadameduRumainremainedsilent,asiflostinthought,fornearlyaquarterofanhour。Atlastsherose,saying,"IamexpectedatMadamedelaMarque’s,andImustgo,asIamtomeettheBishopofMontrouge,towhomIwanttospeak,butIhopeI
shalleventuallybeabletohelpyou。Comeherethedayaftertomorrow,youwillfindmealone;aboveall,donothingbeforeyouseeme。Farewell。"
Ileftherfullofhope,andresolvedtofollowheradviceandhersonlyinthetroublesomeaffairinwhichIwasinvolved。
TheBishopofMontrougewhomshewasgoingtoaddressonanimportantmatter,thenatureofwhichwaswellknowntome,wastheAbbedeVoisenon,whowasthusnamedbecauseheoftenwentthere。MontrougeisanestatenearParis,belongingtotheDucdelaValiere。
IsawMdlle。X。C。V。thefollowingday,andcontentedmyselfwithtellingherthatinacoupleofdaysIhopetogivehersomegoodnews。Iwaspleasedwithhermanner,whichwasfullofresignationandtrustinmyendeavours。
Thedayafter,IwenttoMadameduRumain’spunctuallyateight。TheportertoldmethatIshouldfindthedoctorwithmylady,butIwentupstairsallthesame,andassoonasthedoctorsawmehetookhisleave。HisnamewasHerrenschwand,andalltheladiesinParisranafterhim。PoorPoinsinetputhiminalittleone—actplaycalledLeCercle,which,thoughofveryordinarymerit,wasagreatsuccess。
"Mydearsir,"saidMadameduRumain,assoonaswewerealone,"I
havesucceededinmyendeavoursonyourbehalf,anditisnowforyoutokeepsecretmyshareinthematter。AfterIhadponderedoverthecaseofconscienceyousubmittedtome,IwenttotheconventofC———
wheretheabbessisafriendofmine,andIentrustedherwiththesecret,relyingonherdiscretion。Weagreedthatsheshouldreceivetheyoungladyinherconvent,andgiveheragoodlay—sistertonurseherthroughherconfinement。Nowyouwillnotdeny,"saidshe,withasmile,"thatthecloistersareofsomeuse。Youryoungfriendmustgobyherselftotheconventwithaletterfortheabbess,whichIwillgiveher,andwhichshemustdelivertotheporter。Shewillthenbeadmittedandlodgedinasuitablechamber。Shewillreceivenovisitorsnoranylettersthathavenotpassedthroughmyhands。
Theabbesswillbringheranswerstome,andIwillpassthemontoyou。Youmustseethatheronlycorrespondentmustbeyourself,andyoumustreceivenewsofherwelfareonlythroughme。Onyourhandinwritingtoheryoumustleavetheaddresstobefilledinbyme。
Ihadtotelltheabbessthelady’sname,butnotyoursasshedidnotrequireit。
"Tellyouryoungfriendallaboutourplans,andwhensheisreadycomeandtellme,andIwillgiveyouthelettertotheabbess。Tellhertobringnothingbutwhatisstrictlynecessary,aboveallnodiamondsortrinketsofanyvalue。Youmayassureherthattheabbesswillbefriendly,willcomeandseehereverynowandthen,willgiveherproperbooks——inaword,thatshewillbewelllookedafter。Warnhernottoconfideinthelaysisterwhowillattendonher。Ihavenodoubtsheisanexcellentwoman,butsheisanun,andthesecretmightleakout。Aftersheissafelydelivered,shemustgotoconfessionandperformherEasterduties,andtheabbesswillgiveheracertificateofgoodbehaviour;andshecanthenreturntohermother,whowillbetoohappytoseehertosayanythingmoreaboutthemarriage,which,ofcourse,sheoughttogiveasherreasonofherleavinghome。"
Aftermanyexpressionsofmygratitudetoher,andofmyadmirationofherplan,Ibeggedhertogivemetheletteronthespot,astherewasnotimetobelost。Shewasgoodenoughtogoatoncetoherdesk,whereshewroteasfollows:
"Mydearabbess,——Theyoungladywhowillgiveyouthisletteristhesameofwhomwehavespoken。Shewishestospendthreeoffourmonthsunderyourprotection,torecoverherpeaceofmind,toperformherdevotions,andtomakesurethatwhenshereturnstohermothernothingmorewillbesaidaboutthemarriage,whichispartlythecauseofhertemporaryseparationfromherfamily。"
Afterreadingittome,sheputitintomyhandsunsealedthatMdlle。
X。C。V。mightbeabletoreadit。Theabbessinquestionwasaprincess,andherconventwasconsequentlyaplaceaboveallsuspicion。AsMadameduRumaingavemetheletter,IfeltsuchanimpulseofgratitudethatIfellonmykneesbeforeher。Thisgenerouswomanwasusefultomeonanotheroccasion,ofwhichIshallspeaklateron。
AfterleavingMadameduRumainIwentstraighttothe"HoteldeBretagne,"whereIsawMdlle。X。C。V。,whohadonlytimetotellmethatshewasengagedfortherestoftheday,butthatshewouldcometothegarretateleveno’clockthatnight,andthatthenwecouldtalkmattersover。Iwasoverjoyedatthisarrangement,asIforesawthatafterthiswouldcometheawakeningfromahappydream,andthatIshouldbealonewithhernomore。
BeforeleavingthehotelIgavethewordtoMadelaine,whointurngotthesculliontohaveeverythinginreadiness。
Ikepttheappointment,andhadnotlongtowaitformymistress。
AftermakingherreadtheletterwrittenbyMadameduRumain(whosenameIwithheldfromherwithouthertakingoffencethereat)Iputoutthecandle,andwithouttroublingaboutthearoph,wesetourselvestothepleasanttaskofprovingthatwetrulylovedeachother。
Inthemorning,beforeweseparated,IgaveheralltheinstructionsIhadreceivedfromMadameduRumain;andweagreedthatsheshouldleavethehouseateighto’clockwithsuchthingsassheabsolutelyrequired,thatsheshouldtakeacoachtothePlaceMaubert,thensenditaway,andtakeanothertothePlaceAntoine,andagain,fartheron,athirdcoach,inwhichshewastogototheconventnamed。Ibeggedhernottoforgettoburnallthelettersshehadreceivedfromme,andtowritetomefromtheconventasoftenasshecould,tosealherlettersbuttoleavetheaddressblank。Shepromisedtocarryoutmyinstructions,andIthenmadeheracceptapacketoftwohundredlouis,ofwhichshemightchancetobeinneed。
Shewept,moreformysituationthanherown,butIconsoledherbysayingthatIhadplentyofmoneyandpowerfulpatrons。
"Iwillsetout,"saidshe,"thedayafterto—morrow,atthehouragreedon。"Andthereupon,Ihavingpromisedtocometothehousethedayafterherdeparture,asifIknewnothingaboutit,andtoletherknowwhatpassed,weembracedeachothertenderly,andIlefther。
Iwastroubledinthinkingaboutherfate。Shehadwitandcourage,butwhenexperienceiswantingwitoftenleadsmentocommitactsofgreatfolly。
ThedayafterthemorrowItookacoach,andpostedmyselfinacornerofthestreetbywhichshehadtopass。Isawhercome,getoutofthecoach,paythecoachman,godownanarrowstreet,andafewminutesafterreappearagain,veiledandhooded,carryingasmallparcelinherhand。Shethentookanotherconveyancewhichwentoffinthedirectionwehadagreedupon。
ThedayfollowingbeingLowSunday,IfeltthatImustpresentmyselfatthe"HoteldeBretagne,"forasIwentthereeverydaybeforethedaughter’sflightIcouldnotstopgoingtherewithoutstrengtheninganysuspicionswhichmightbeentertainedaboutme。Butitwasapainfultask。IhadtoappearatmyeaseandcheerfulinaplacewhereIwasquitesureallwouldbesadnessandconfusion。Imustsaythatitwasanaffairrequiringhigherpowersofimpudencethanfalltothelotofmostmen。
Ichoseatimewhenallthefamilywouldbetogetherattable,andI
walkedstraightintothedining—room。Ienteredwithmyusualcheerfulmanner,andsatdownbymadame,alittlebehindher,pretendingnottoseehersurprise,which,however,wasplainlytobeseen,herwholefacebeingflushedwithrageandastonishment。IhadnotbeenlongintheroombeforeIaskedwhereherdaughterwas。Sheturnedround,lookedmethroughandthrough,andsaidnotaword。
"Issheill?"saidI。
"Iknownothingabouther。"
Thisremark,whichwaspronouncedinadrymanner,putmeatmyease,asInowfeltatlibertytolookconcerned。Isatthereforaquarterofanhour,playingthepartofgraveandastonishedsilence,andthen,rising,IaskedifIcoulddoanything,forwhichallmyrewardwasacoldexpressionofthanks。IthenlefttheroomandwenttoMdlle。X。C。V。’schamberasifIhadthoughtshewasthere,butfoundonlyMadelaine。Iaskedherwithameaninglookwherehermistresswas。Sherepliedbybeggingmetotellher,ifIknew。
"Hasshegonebyherself?"
"Iknownothingatallaboutit,sir,buttheysayyouknowall。I
begofyoutoleaveme。"
Pretendingtobeinthegreatestastonishment,Islowlywalkedawayandtookacoach,gladtohaveaccomplishedthispainfulduty。AfterthereceptionIhadmetwithIcouldwithoutaffectationposeasoffended,andvisitthefamilynomore,forwhetherIwereguiltyorinnocent,MadameX。C。V。mustseethathermannerhadbeenplainenoughformetoknowwhatitmeant。
Iwaslookingoutofmywindowatanearlyhourtwoorthreedaysafterwards,whenacoachstoppedbeforemydoor,andMadameXCV—,escortedbyM。Farsettigotout。Imadehastetomeetthemonthestair,andwelcomedthem,sayingIwasgladtheyhaddonemethehonourtocomeandtakebreakfastwithme,pretendingnottoknowofanyotherreason。Iaskedthemtositdownbeforethefire,andenquiredafterthelady’shealth;butwithoutnoticingmyquestionshesaidthatshehadnotcometotakebreakfast,buttohavesomeseriousconversation。
"Madam,"saidI,"Iamyourhumbleservant;butfirstofallpraybeseated。"
Shesatdown,whileFarsetticontinuedstanding。Ididnotpresshim,butturningtowardstheladybeggedhertocommandme。
"Iamcomehere,"shesaid,"toaskyoutogivememydaughterifshebeinyourpower,ortotellmewheresheis。"
"Yourdaughter,madam?Iknownothingabouther!Doyouthinkmecapableofacrime?"
"Idonotaccuseyouofabductingher;Ihavenotcomeheretoreproachyounortoutterthreats,Ihaveonlycometoaskyoutoshewyourselfmyfriend。Helpmetogetmydaughteragainthisveryday;youwillgivememylife。Iamcertainthatyouknowall。Youwereheronlyconfidantandheronlyfriend;youpassedhourswithhereveryday;shemusthavetoldyouofhersecret。Pityabereavedmother!Sofarnooneknowsofthefacts;giveherbacktomeandallshallbeforgotten,andherhonoursaved。"
"Madam,Ifeelforyouacutely,butIrepeatthatIknownothingofyourdaughter。"
Thepoorwoman,whosegrieftouchedme,fellatmyfeetandburstintotears。Iwasgoingtoliftherfromtheground,whenFarsettitoldher,inavoicefullofindignation,thatsheshouldblushtohumbleherselfinsuchamannerbeforeamanofmydescription。I
drewmyselfup,andlookingathimscornfullysaid,"Youinsolentscoundrel!Whatdoyoumeanbytalkingofmelikethat?"
"Everybodyiscertainthatyouknowallaboutit。"
"Thentheyareimpudentfools,likeyou。Getoutofmyhousethisinstantandwaitforme,Iwillbewithyouinaquarterofanhour。"
Sosaying,Itookthepoorchevalierbytheshoulders,andgivinghimsundryshakesIturnedhimoutoftheroom。Hecamebackandcalledtotheladytocome,too,butsheroseandtriedtoquietme。
"Yououghttobemoreconsideratetowardsalover,"saidshe,"forhewouldmarrymydaughternow,evenafterwhatshehasdone。"
"Iamawareofthefact,madam,andIhavenodoubtthathiscourtshipwasoneofthechiefreasonswhichmadeyourdaughterresolvetoleaveherhome,forshehatedhimevenmorethanshehatedthefermier—general。"
"Shehasbehavedverybadly,butIpromisenottosayanythingmoreaboutmarryingher。ButIamsureyouknowallaboutit,asyougaveherfiftylouis,withoutwhichshecouldnothavedoneanything。"
"Nay,notso。"
"Donotdenyit,sir;hereistheevidence——asmallpieceofyourlettertoher。"
ShegavemeascrapoftheletterIhadsentthedaughter,withthefiftylouisforherbrother。Itcontainedthefollowinglines,"IhopethatthesewretchedlouiswillconvinceyouthatIamreadytosacrificeeverything,mylifeifneedbe,toassureyouofmyaffection。"
"Iamfarfromdisavowingthisevidenceofmyesteemforyourdaughter,buttojustifymyselfIamobligedtotellyouafactwhichIshouldhaveotherwisekeptsecret——namely,thatIfurnishedyourdaughterwiththissumtoenablehertopayyourson’sdebts,forwhichhethankedmeinaletterwhichIcanshewyou。"
"Myson?"
"Yourson,madam。"
"Iwillmakeyouanampleatonementformysuspicions。"
BeforeIhadtimetomakeanyobjection,sherandowntofetchFarsetti,whowaswaitinginthecourtyard,andmadehimcomeupandhearwhatIhadjusttoldher。
"That’snotalikelytale,"saidtheinsolentfellow。
Ilookedathimcontemptuously,andtoldhimhewasnotworthconvincing,butthatIwouldbegtheladytoaskhersonandseewhetherItoldthetruth。
"Iassureyou,"Iadded,"thatIalwaysurgedyourdaughtertomarryM。delaPopeliniere。"
"Howcanyouhavethefacetosaythat,"saidFarsetti,"whenyoutalkintheletterofyouraffection?"
"Idonotdenyit,"saidI。"Ilovedher,andIwasproudofmyaffectionforher。Thisaffection,ofwhateversortitmayhavebeen(andthatisnotthisgentleman’sbusiness),wastheordinarytopicofconversationbetweenus。Ifshehadtoldmethatshewasgoingtoleaveherhome,Ishouldeitherhavedissuadedherorgonewithher,forIlovedherasIdoatthismoment;butIwouldneverhavegivenhermoneytogoalone。"
"MydearCasanova,"saidthemother,"ifyouwillhelpmetofindherIshallbelieveinyourinnocence。"
"Ishallbedelightedtoaidyou,andIpromisetocommencethequestto—day。"
"Assoonasyouhaveanynews,comeandtellme。"
"Youmaytrustmetodoso,"saidI,andweparted。
Ihadtoplaymypartcarefully;especiallyitwasessentialthatI
shouldbehaveinpublicinamannerconsistentwithmyprofessions。
Accordingly,thenextdayIwenttoM。Chaban,firstcommissaryofpolice,requestinghimtoinstituteenquiriesrespectingtheflightofMdlle。X。C。V。IwassurethatinthiswaytherealpartIhadtakeninthematterwouldbethebetterconcealed;butthecommissary,whohadthetruespiritofhisprofession,andhadlikedmewhenhefirstsawmesixyearsbefore,begantolaughwhenheheardwhatIwantedhimtodo。
"Doyoureallywantthepolicetodiscover,"saidhe,"wheretheprettyEnglishwomanistobefound?"
"Certainly。"
Itthenstruckmethathewastryingtomakemetalkandtocatchmetripping,andIhadnodoubtofitwhenImetFarsettigoinginasI
wascomingout。
NextdayIwenttoacquaintMadameX。C。V。withthestepsIhadtaken,thoughasyetmyeffortshadnotbeencrownedwithsuccess。
"Ihavebeenmorefortunatethanyou,"saidshe,"andifyouwillcomewithmetotheplacewheremydaughterhasgone,andwilljoinmeinpersuadinghertoreturn,allwillbewell。"
"Certainly,"saidI,"Ishallbemosthappytoaccompanyyou。"
Takingmeatmyword,sheputonhercloak,andleaningonmyarmwalkedalongtillwecametoacoach。Shethengavemeaslipofpaper,beggingmetotellthecoachmantodriveustotheaddressthereon。
Iwasonthorns,andmyheartbeatfast,forIthoughtIshouldhavetoreadouttheaddressoftheconvent。IdonotknowwhatIshouldhavedoneifmyfearshadbeenwellgrounded,butIshouldcertainlynothavegonetotheconvent。AtlastIreadwhatwaswritten;itwas"PlaceMaubert,"andIgrewcalmoncemore。
ItoldthecoachmantodriveustothePlaceMaubert。Wesetoff,andinashorttimestoppedattheopeningofanobscurebackstreetbeforeadirty—lookinghouse,whichdidnotgiveoneahighideaofthecharacterofitsoccupants。IgaveMadameX。C。V。myarm,andshehadthesatisfactionoflookingintoeveryroominthefivefloorsofthehouse,butwhatshesoughtforwasnotthere,andI
expectedtoseeheroverwhelmedwithgrief。Iwasmistaken,however。
Shelookeddistressedbutsatisfied,andhereyesseemedtoaskpardonofme。Shehadfoundoutfromthecoachman,whohadtakenherdaughteronthefirststageofherjourney,thatshehadalightedinfrontofthehouseinquestion,andhadgonedownthebackstreet。
Shetoldmethatthescullionhadconfessedthathehadtakenmeletterstwicefromhisyoungmistress,andthatMadelainesaidallthetimethatshewassurehermistressandIwereinlovewitheachother。Theyplayedtheirpartswell。
AssoonasIhadseenMadameX。C。V。safelyhome,IwenttoMadameduRumaintotellherwhathadhappened;andIthenwrotetomyfairrecluse,tellingherwhathadgoneonintheworldsinceherdisappearance。
Threeorfourdaysafterthisdate,MadameduRumaingavemethefirstletterIreceivedfromMdlle。X。C。V。Shespokeinitofthequietlifeshewasleading,andhergratitudetome,praisedtheabbessandthelay—sister,andgavemethetitlesofthebookstheylenther,whichshelikedreading。Shealsoinformedmewhatmoneyshehadspent,andsaidshewashappyineverything,almostinbeingforbiddentoleaveherroom。
Iwasdelightedwithherletter,butmuchmorewiththeabbess’sepistletoMadameduRumain。Shewasevidentlyfondofthegirl,andcouldnotsaytoomuchinherpraise,sayinghowsweet—tempered,clever,andlady—likeshewas;windingupbyassuringherfriendthatshewenttoseehereveryday。
IwascharmedtoseethepleasurethisletteraffordedMadameduRumain——pleasurewhichwasincreasedbytheperusaloftheletterI
hadreceived。Theonlypersonswhoweredispleasedwerethepoormother,thefrightfulFarsetti,andtheoldfermier,whosemisfortunewastalkedaboutintheclubs,thePalais—Royal,andthecoffee—
houses。Everybodyputmedownforsomeshareinthebusiness,butI
laughedattheirgossip,believingthatIwasquitesafe。
Allthesame,laPopelinieretooktheadventurephilosophicallyandmadeaone—actplayoutofit,whichhehadactedathislittletheatreinParis。Threemonthsafterwardshegotmarriedtoaveryprettygirl,thedaughterofaBordeauxalderman。Hediedinthecourseoftwoyears,leavinghiswidowpregnantwithason,whocameintotheworldsixmonthsafterthefather’sdeath。Theunworthyheirtotherichmanhadthefacetoaccusethewidowofadultery,andgotthechilddeclaredillegitimatetotheeternalshameofthecourtwhichgavethisiniquitousjudgmentandtothegriefofeveryhonestFrenchman。Theiniquitousnatureofthejudgmentwasafterwardsmoreclearlydemonstrated——puttingasidethefactthatnothingcouldbesaidagainstthemother’scharacter——bythesamecourthavingthe,facetodeclareachildbornelevenmonthsafterthefather’sdeathlegitimate。
IcontinuedfortendaystocalluponMadameX。C。V。,butfindingmyselfcoldlywelcomed,decidedtogotherenomore。
CHAPTERVIII
FreshAdventures——J。J。Rousseau——IsetUpABusiness——Castel——Bajac——ALawsuitisCommencedAgainstMe——M。deSartineMdlle。X。C。V。hadnowbeenintheconventforamonth,andheraffairhadceasedtobeacommontopicofconversation。IthoughtI
shouldhearnomoreofit,butIwasmistaken。Icontinued,however,toamusemyself,andmypleasureinspendingfreelyquitepreventedmefromthinkingaboutthefuture。TheAbbedeBernis,whomIwenttoseeregularlyonceaweek,toldmeonedaythatthecomptroller—
generaloftenenquiredhowIwasgettingon。"Youarewrong,"saidtheabbe,"toneglecthim。"Headvisedmetosaynomoreaboutmyclaims,buttocommunicatetohimthemeansIhadspokenofforincreasingtherevenuesofthestate。Ilaidtoogreatstorebytheadviceofthemanwhohadmademyfortunenottofollowit。Iwenttothecomptroller,andtrustinginhisprobityIexplainedmyschemetohim。Thiswastopassalawbywhicheveryestate,exceptthatleftbyfathertoson,shouldfurnishthetreasurywithoneyear’sincome;everydeedofgiftformallydrawnupbeingsubjecttothesameprovision。Itseemedtomethatthelawcouldnotgiveoffencetoanyone;theheirhadonlytoimaginethathehadinheritedayearlaterthanwasactuallythecase。Theministerwasofthesameopinionasmyself,toldmethattherewouldnotbetheslightestdifficultyinvolved,andassuredmethatmyfortunewasmade。InaweekafterwardshisplacewastakenbyM。deSilhouette,andwhenI
calledonthenewministerhetoldmecoldlythatwhenmyschemebecamelawhewouldtellme。Itbecamelawtwoyearsafterwards,andwhen,astheoriginatorofthescheme,Iattemptedtogetmyjustreward,theylaughedinmyface。
Shortlyafter,thePopedied,andhewassucceededbytheVenetianRezzonico,whocreatedmypatron,theAbbydeBernis,acardinal。
However,hehadtogointoexilebyorderofthekingtwodaysafterhisgraciousmajestyhadpresentedhimwiththeredcap:sogoodathingitistobethefriendofkings!
Thedisgraceofmydelightfulabbeleftmewithoutapatron,butI
hadplentyofmoney,andsowasenabledtobearthismisfortunewithresignation。
ForhavingundonealltheworkofCardinalRichelieu,forhavingchangedtheoldenmitybetweenFranceandAustriaintofriendship,fordeliveringItalyfromthehorrorsofwarwhichbefellherwheneverthesecountrieshadabonetopick,althoughhewasthefirstcardinalmadebyapopewhohadhadplentyofopportunitiesfordiscoveringhischaracter,merelybecause,onbeingasked,hehadgivenitashisopinionthatthePrincedeSoubisewasnotafitpersontocommandtheFrencharmies,thisgreatecclesiasticwasdrivenintoexile。ThemomentthePompadourheardofthisopinionofhis,shedecreedhisbanishment——asentencewhichwasunpopularwithallclassesofsociety;buttheyconsoledthemselveswithepigrams,andthenewcardinalwassoonforgotten。SuchisthecharacteroftheFrenchpeople;itcaresneitherforitsownmisfortunesnorforthoseofothers,ifonlyitcanextractlaughterfromthem。
Inmytimeepigrammatistsandpoetasterswhoassailedministersoreventheking’smistressesweresenttotheBastille,butthewitsstillpersistedinbeingamusing,andthereweresomewhoconsideredajestincompletethatwasnotfollowedbyaprosecution。AmanwhosenameIhaveforgotten——agreatloverofnotoriety——appropriatedthefollowingversesbytheyoungerCrebellonandwenttotheBastilleratherthandisownthem。
"Alltheworld’supsidedown!
Jupiterhasdonnedthegown——theKing。
Venusmountsthecouncilstair——thePompadour。
Plutustrifleswiththefair——M。deBoulogne。
Mercuryinmailisdrest——MarechaldeRichelieu。
MightyMarshasturnedapriest——theDucdeClermont,abbeofSt。Germain—des—pres。"
Crebillon,whowasnotthesortofmantoconcealhiswritings,toldtheDucdeChoiseulthathehadwrittensomeversesexactlylikethese,butthatitwaspossibletheprisonerhadbeeninspiredwithpreciselythesameideas。Thisjestwasapplauded,andtheauthorof"TheSofa"wasletalone。
CardinaldeBernispassedtenyearsinexile,’proculnegotiis’,buthewasnothappy,ashetoldmehimselfwhenIknewhiminRomefifteenyearsafterwards。Itissaidthatitisbettertobeaministerthanaking——an,opinionwhichseemsridiculouswhenitisanalyzed。Thequestionis,whichisthebetter,independenceoritscontrary。Theaxiommaypossiblybeverifiedinadespoticgovernmentunderanabsurd,weak,orcarelesskingwhoservesasameremaskforhismastertheminister;butinallothercasesitisanabsurdity。
CardinaldeBerniswasneverrecalled;thereisnoinstanceofLouisXV。havingeverrecalledaministerwhomhehaddisgraced;butonthedeathofRezzonicohehadtogotoRometobepresentattheconclave,andthereheremainedasFrenchambassador。
AboutthistimeMadamed’UrfeconceivedawishtomaketheacquaintanceofJ。J。Rousseau,andwewenttocalluponhimatMontmorenci,onthepretextofgivinghimmusictocopy——anoccupationinwhichhewasveryskilled。Hewaspaidtwicethesumgiventoanyothercopyist,butheguaranteedthattheworkshouldbefaultlesslydone。Atthatperiodofhislifecopyingmusicwasthegreatwriter’ssolemeansofsubsistence。
Wefoundhimtobeamanofasimpleandmodestdemeanour,whotalkedwell,butwhowasnototherwisedistinguishedeitherintellectuallyorphysically。Wedidnotthinkhimwhatwouldbecalledagood—
naturedman,andashewasfarfromhavingthemannersofgoodsocietyMadamed’Urfedidnothesitatetopronouncehimvulgar。Wesawthewomanwithwhomhelived,andofwhomwehadheard,butshescarcelylookedatus。OnourwayhomeweamusedourselvesbytalkingaboutRousseau’seccentrichabits。
IwillherenotedownthevisitofthePrinceofConti(fatherofthegentlemanwhoisnowknownastheComtedelaMarch)toRousseau。
Theprince——agood—naturedman—wentbyhimselftoMontmorenci,onpurposetospendadayinconversationwiththephilosopher,whowaseventhenfamous。Hefoundhiminthepark,accostedhim,andsaidthathehadcometodinewithhimandtotalkwithoutrestraint。
"Yourhighnesswillfarebutbadly,"saidRousseau:"however,Iwilltellthemtolayanotherknifeandfork。"
Thephilosophergavehisinstructions,andcameoutandrejoinedtheprince,withwhomhewalkedupanddownfortwoorthreehours。Whenitwasdinner—timehetooktheprinceintohisdining—room,wherethetablewaslaidforthree。
"Whoisgoingtodinewithus?"saidtheprince。"Ithoughtweweretobealone。"
"Thethirdparty,"saidRousseau,"ismyotherself——abeingwhoisneithermywife,normymistress,normyservant—maid,normymother,normydaughter,butyetpersonatesallthesecharactersatonce。"
"Idaresay,mydearfellow,Idaresay;butasIcametodinewithyoualone,Iwillnotdinewithyour——otherself,butwillleaveyouwithalltherestofyoutokeepyourcompany。"
Sosayingtheprincebadehimfarewellandwentout。Rousseaudidnottrytokeephim。
AboutthistimeIwitnessedthefailureofaplaycalled’Aristides’
Daughter’,writtenbytheingeniousMadamedeGraffini,whodiedofvexationfivedaysafterherplaywasdamned。TheAbbedeVoisenonwashorrified,ashehadadvisedtheladytoproduceit,andwasthoughttohavehadsomehandinitscomposition,aswellasinthatofthe’LettresPeruviennes’and’Cenie’。Byacuriouscoincidence,justaboutthesamedate,Rezzonico’smotherdiedofjoybecausehersonhadbecomepope。Griefandjoykillmanymorewomenthanmen,whichprovesthatifwomenhavemerefeelingthanmentheyhavealsolessstrength。
WhenMadamed’UrfethoughtthatmyadoptedsonwascomfortablysettledinViar’shouse,shemademegowithherandpayhimavisit。
Ifoundhimlodgedlikeaprince,welldressed,mademuchof,andalmostlookedupto。Iwasastonished,forthiswasmorethanIhadbargainedfor。Madamed’Urfehadgivenhimmastersofallsorts,andaprettylittleponyforhimtolearnridingon。HewasstyledM。
leComted’Aranda。Agirlofsixteen,Viar’sdaughter,afine—
lookingyoungwoman,wasappointedtolookafterhim,andshewasquiteproudtocallherselfmylord’sgoverness。SheassuredMadamed’Urfethatshetookspecialcareofhim;thatassoonashewokeshebroughthimhisbreakfastinbed;thatshethendressedhim,anddidnotleavehissidethewholeday。Madamed’Urfeapprovedofeverything,toldthegirltotakeevengreatercareofthecount,andpromisedthatsheshouldnotgounrewarded。Asfortheyounggentleman,hewasevidentlyquitehappy,ashetoldmehimselfagainandagain,butIsuspectedamysterysomewhere,anddeterminedthatI
wouldgoandseehimbymyselfanothertimeandsolveit。
OnourjourneyhomeItoldMadamed’UrfehowgratefulIwasforallhergoodnesstotheboy,andthatIapprovedofallthearrangementsthathadbeenmadewiththeexceptionofthenameAranda,"which,"
saidI,"maysomedayproveathorninhisside。"Sheansweredthattheladhadsaidenoughtoconvinceherthathehadarighttobearthatname。"Ihad,"shesaid,"inmydeskasealwiththearmsofthehouseofAranda,andhappeningtotakeitupIshewedithimasweshewtrinketstochildrentoamusethem,butassoonashesawitheburstout,"’Howcameyoutohavemyarms?’
"Yourarms!"Ianswered。"IgotthissealfromtheComted’Aranda;
howcanyouprovethatyouareascionofthatrace?"
"’Donotaskme,madam;mybirthisasecretIcanrevealtonoone。’"
Theimpositionandabovealltheimpudenceoftheyoungknaveastoundedme。Ishouldnothavethoughthimcapableofit,andaweekafterIwenttoseehimbymyselftogetatthebottomofallthismystery。
IfoundmyyoungcountwithViar,who,judgingbytheawethechildshewedofme,musthavethoughthebelongedtome。Hewasunsparinginhispraisesofhispupil,sayingthatheplayedtheflutecapitally,dancedandfencedadmirably,rodewell,andwroteagoodhand。Heshewedmethepenshehadcuthimselfwiththree,five,andevenninepoints,andbeggedtobeexaminedonheraldry,which,asthemasterobserved,wassonecessaryascienceforayoungnobleman。
Theyounggentlemanthencommencedinthejargonofheraldrytoblazonhisownpretendedarms,andIfeltmuchinclinedtoburstintolaughter,partlybecauseIdidnotunderstandawordhesaid,andpartlybecauseheseemedtothinkthematterasimportantaswouldacountrysquirewithhisthirty—twoquarters。However,Iwasdelightedtoseehisdexterityinpenmanship,whichwasundoubtedlyverygreat,andIexpressedmysatisfactiontoViar,whosoonleftustoourselves。Weproceededintothegarden。
"Willyoukindlyinformme,"Isaid,"howyoucanbesofoolishastocallyourselftheComted’Aranda?"
Hereplied,withtheutmostcalmness,"Iknowitisfoolish,butleavememytitle;itisofservicetomehereandgainsmerespect。"
"ItisanimpositionIcannotwinkat,asitmaybefraughtwithseriousresults,andmaydoharmtobothofus。Ishouldnothavethoughtthatatyourageyouwouldbecapableofsuchaknavishtrick。Iknowyoudiditoutofstupidity,butafteracertainlimitstupiditybecomescriminal;andIcannotseehowIamtoremedyyourfaultwithoutdisgracingyouintheeyesofMadamed’Urfe。"
Ikeptonscoldinghimtillheburstintotears,saying,"IhadrathertheshameofbeingsentbacktomymotherthantheshameofconfessingtoMadamed’UrfethatIhadimposedonher;andI
couldnotbeartostayhereifIhadtogiveupmyname。"
SeeingthatIcoulddonothingwithhim,unless,indeed,IsenthimtosomeplacefarremovedfromParisunderhispropername,ItoldhimtotakecomfortasIwouldtryanddothebestIcouldforbothofus。
"Andnowtellme——andtakecaretotellthetruth——whatsortoffeelingsdoesViar’sdaughterentertainforyou?"
"Ithink,papa,thatthisisacaseinwhichthereservecommendedbyyourself,aswellasbymother,wouldbeappropriate。"
"Yes,thatsortofanswertellsmeagooddeal,butIthinkyouarerathertooknowingforyourage。Andyoumayaswellobservethatwhenyouarecalleduponforaconfession,reserveisoutofplace,andit’saconfessionIrequirefromyou。"
"Well,papa,Viar’sdaughterisveryfondofme,andsheshewsherloveinallsortsofways。"
"Anddoyouloveher?"
"Oh,yes!"
"Isshemuchwithyouinthemorning?"
"Sheiswithmethewholeday。"
"Sheispresentwhenyougotobed?"
"Yes,shehelpsmetoundress。"
"Nothingelse?"
"Idonotcaretotellyou。"
Iwasastonishedatthemeasuredwayinwhichheansweredme,andasIhadheardenoughtoguessthattheboyandgirlwereverygoodfriendsindeed,Icontentedmyselfwithwarninghimtotakecareofhishealth,andwiththisIlefthim。
Sometimeafter,mythoughtswereoccupiedwithabusinessspeculationwhichallmycalculationsassuredmewouldbeextremelyprofitable。Theplanwastoproduceonsilks,bymeansofprinting,theexquisitedesignswhichareproducedatLyonsbythetediousprocessofweaving,andthustogivecustomersexcellentvalueatmuchlowerprices。Ihadtherequisiteknowledgeofchemistry,andenoughcapitaltomakethethingasuccess。Iobtainedtheassistanceofamanwiththenecessarytechnicalskillandknowledge,intendingtomakehimmymanager。
ItoldmyplantothePrincedeConti,whoencouragedmetopersevere,promisingmehispatronage,andalltheprivilegesIcouldwishfor。Thatdecidedmetobegin。
IrentedaverylargehouseneartheTempleforathousandcrownsperannum。Thehousecontainedaspacioushall,inwhichImeanttoputmyworkmen;anotherhallwhichwastobetheshop;numerousroomsformyworkpeopletolivein;andaniceroomformyselfincaseIcaredtoliveonthepremises。
Imadetheschemeintoacompanywiththirtyshares,ofwhichIgavefivetomydesigner,keepingtheremainingtwenty—fivetodistributetothosewhowereinclinedtojointhecompany。Igaveonetoadoctorwho,ongivingsurety,becamethestorekeeper,andcametoliveinthehousewithhiswholefamily;andIengagedfourservants,awaiting—maid,andaporter。Ihadtogiveanothersharetoanaccountant,whofurnishedmewithtwoclerks,whoalsotookuptheirabodeinthehouse。Thecarpenters,blacksmiths,andpaintersworkedhardfrommorningtonight,andinlessthanthreeweekstheplacewasready。Itoldthemanagertoengagetwentygirlstopaint,whoweretobepaideverySaturday。Istockedthewarehousewiththreehundredpiecesofsarcenetandcamletofdifferentshadesandcolourstoreceivethedesigns,andIpaidforeverythinginreadymoney。
IhadmadeanapproximatecalculationwithmymanagerthatIshouldhavetospendthreehundredthousandfrancs,andthatwouldnotbreakme。IftheworsthappenedIcouldfallbackonmyshares,whichproducedagoodincome,butIhopedIshouldnotbecompelledtodoso,asIwantedtohaveanincomeoftwohundredthousandfrancsayear。
AllthewhileIdidnotconcealfrommyselfthatthespeculationmightbemyruin,ifcustomdidnotcomein,butonlookingatmybeautifulmaterialsthesefearsweredispelled,especiallyasIheardeverybodysayingthatIsoldthemmuchtoocheap。
TosetupthebusinessIspentinthecourseofamonthaboutsixtythousandfrancs,andmyweeklyexpensesamountedtotwelvehundredfrancs。
AsforMadamed’Urfeshelaughedeverytimeshesawme,forshewasquitecertainthatthisbusinesswasonlymeanttoputthecuriousoffthescentandtopreservemyincognito:sopersuadedwassheofmyomnipotence。
Thesightoftwentygirls,allmoreorlesspretty,theeldestofwhomwasnottwenty—five,farfrommakingmetrembleasitought,delightedme。Ifanciedmyselfinthemidstofaseraglio,andI
amusedmyselfbywatchingtheirmeekandmodestlooksastheydidtheirworkunderthedirectionoftheforeman。Thebestpaiddidnotgetmorethantwenty—foursousaday,andallofthemhadexcellentreputations,fortheyhadbeenselectedatherownrequestbythemanager’swife,adevoutwomanofripeage,whomIhopedtofindobligingifthefancyseizedmetotestherchoice。ManonBalettididnotsharemysatisfactioninthem。Shetrembledtoseemetheownerofaharem,wellknowingthatsoonerorlaterthebarqueofmyvirtuewouldrunontherocks。Shescoldedmewellaboutthesegirls,thoughIassuredherthatnoneofthemsleptinthehouse。
Thisbusinessincreasedmyownideasofmyimportance;partlyfromthethoughtthatIwasonthehighroadtofortune,andpartlybecauseIfurnishedsomanypeoplewiththemeansofsubsistence。
Alas!Iwastoofortunate;andmyevilgeniussooncrossedmycareer。
ItwasnowthreemonthssinceMdlle。X。C。V。hadgoneintotheconvent,andthetimeofherdeliverydrewnear。Wewrotetoeachothertwiceaweek,andIconsideredthematterhappilysettled;M。
delaPopelinierehadmarried,andwhenMdlle。X。C。V。returnedtohermothertherewouldbenothingmoretobesaidButjustatthisperiod,whenmyhappinessseemedassured,thehiddenfireleaptforthandthreatenedtoconsumeme;how,thereaderwillsee。
OnedayafterleavingMadamed’Urfe’sIwenttowalkintheTuileries。IhadtakenacoupleofturnsinthechiefwalkwhenI
sawthatanoldwoman,accompaniedbyamandressedinblack,waslookingatmecloselyandcommunicatingherobservationstohercompanion。Therewasnothingveryastonishinginthisinapublicplace,andIcontinuedmywalk,andonturningagainsawthesamecouplestillwatchingme。InmyturnIlookedatthem,andrememberedseeingthemaninagaming—house,wherehewasknownbythenameofCastel—Bajac。Onscrutinizingthefeaturesofthehag,I
atlastsucceededinrecollectingwhoshewas;shewasthewomantowhomIhadtakenMdlle。X。C。V。Ifeltcertainthatshehadrecognizedme,butnottroublingmyselfaboutthematterIleftthegardenstowalkelsewhere。Thedayafternext,justasIwasgoingtogetintomycarriage,amanofevilaspectgavemeapaperandaskedmetoreadit。Iopenedit,butfindingitcoveredwithanillegiblescrawlIgaveithimback,tellinghimtoreadithimself。
Hedidso,andIfoundmyselfsummonedtoappearbeforethecommissaryofpolicetoanswertothepleawhichthemidwife(whosenameIforget)broughtagainstme。
AlthoughIcouldguesswhatthechargewouldbe,andwascertainthatthemidwifecouldfurnishnoproofsofheraccusation,IwenttoanattorneyIknewandtoldhimtoappearforme。IinstructedhimthatIdidnotknowanymidwifeinPariswhatsoever。Theattorneywaitedonthecommissary,andonthedayafterbroughtmeacopyofthepleas。
ThemidwifesaidthatIcametoheronenight,accompaniedbyayoungladyaboutfivemonthswithchild,andthat,holdingapistolinonehandandapacketoffiftyLouisintheother,Imadeherpromisetoprocureabortion。Webothofus(soshesaid)hadmaskson,thus。
shewingthatwehadbeenattheoperaball。Fear,saidshe,hadpreventedherfromflatlyrefusingtograntmyrequest;butshehadenoughpresenceofmindtosaythatthenecessarydrugswerenotready,thatshewouldhaveallinorderbythenextnight;whereuponweleft,promisingtoreturn。Inthebeliefthatwewouldnotfailtokeeptheappointment,shewentintoM。Castel—Bajactoaskhimtohideinthenextroomthatshemightbeprotectedfrommyfury,andthathemightbeawitnessofwhatIsaid,butshehadnotseenmeagain。SheaddedthatshewouldhavegiveninformationthedayaftertheeventifshehadknownwhoIwas,butsinceM。Castel—BajachadtoldhermynameonherrecognizingmeintheTuileries,shehadthoughtitherboundendutytodelivermetothelawthatshemightbecompensatedfortheviolenceIhadusedtoher。AndthisdocumentwassignedbythesaidCastel—Bajacasawitness。
"Thisisanevidentcaseoflibel,"saidmyattorney,"atleast,ifshecan’tprovethetruthofherallegations。Myadvicetoyouistotakethematterbeforethecriminallieutenant,whowillbeabletogiveyouthesatisfactionyourequire。"
Iauthorizedhimtodowhathethoughtadvisable,andthreeorfourdaysafterhetoldmethatthelieutenantwishedtospeaktomeinprivate,andwouldexpectmethesamedayatthreeo’clockintheafternoon。
Aswillbeexpected,Iwaspunctualtotheappointment。Ifoundthemagistratetobeapoliteandgood—heartedgentleman。Hewas,infact,thewell—knownM。deSartine,whowasthechiefofpolicetwoyearslater。Hisofficeofcriminallieutenantwassaleable,andM。
deSartinesolditwhenhewasappointedheadofthepolice。
AssoonasIhadmademybow,heaskedmetositdownbyhim,andaddressedmeasfollows:
"Ihaveaskedyoutocalluponmeintheinterestsofbothofus,asinyourpositionourinterestsareinseparable。Ifyouareinnocentofthechargewhichhasbeenbroughtagainstyou,youarequiterighttoappealtome;butbeforeproceedingsbegin,youshouldtellmethewholetruth。Iamreadytoforgetmypositionasjudge,andtogiveyoumyhelp,butyoumustseeyourselfthattoprovetheothersideguiltyofslander,youmustproveyourselfinnocent。WhatIwantfromyouisaninformalandstrictlyconfidentialdeclaration,forthecaseagainstyouisaseriousone,andofsuchakindastorequireallyoureffortstowipeoffthisblotuponyourhonour。
Yourenemieswillnotrespectyourdelicacyoffeeling。Theywillpressyousohardthatyouwilleitherbeobligedtosubmittoashamefulsentence,ortowoundyourfeelingsofhonourinprovingyourinnocence。YouseeIamconfidinginyou,forincertaincaseshonourseemssopreciousathingtomethatIamreadytodefenditwithallthepowerofthelaw。Paymeback,then,inthesamecoin,trustinmeentirely,tellmethewholestorywithoutanyreserves,andyoumayrelyuponmygoodoffices。Allwillbewellifyouareinnocent,forIshallnotbethelessajudgebecauseIamyourfriend;butifyouareguiltyIamsorryforyou,forIwarnyouthatIshallbejust。"
Afterdoingmybesttoexpressmygratitudetohim,Isaidthatmypositiondidnotobligemetomakeanyreservationsonaccountofhonour,andthatIhad,consequently,noinformalstatementtomakehim。