Ibeggedhertodomyhair,intendingtodismissherdirectlyafter,butwhenshehadfinishedIaskedhertogivemetheointment。
"Whatdoyouwantitfor?"
"FortheblistersthatcursedsaddleonwhichIrodesixmilesgaveme。"
"Doestheointmentdothemgood?"
"Certainly;ittakesawaythesmart,andbyto—morrowIshallbecured,butyoumustsendCostatome,asIcannotputitonmyself。"
"Can’tIdoit?"
"Yes,butIamafraidthatwouldbeanabuseofyourkindness。"
"Iguesswhy;butasIamshort—sighted,howshallIseetheblisters?"
"Ifyouwanttodoitforme,Iwillplacemyselfsothatitwillbeeasierforyou。Stay,putthecandleonthistable。"
"Thereyouare,butdon’tletCostaputitonagainto—morrow,orhewillguessthatIormysisterdiditto—night。"
"Youwilldomethesameservice,then,to—morrow?"
"Iormysister,forshewillgetupearly。"
"Yoursister!No,mydear;shewouldbeafraidofgivingmetoomuchpleasurebytouchingmesonear。"
"AndIamonlyafraidofhurtingyou。Isthatright?Goodheavens!whatastateyourskinisin!"
"Youhavenotfinishedyet。"
"Iamsoshort—sighted;turnround。"
"Withpleasure。HereIam。"
Thelittlewantoncouldnotresistlaughingatwhatshesaw,doubtless,forthefirsttime。Shewasobligedtotouchittocontinuerubbingtheointmentin,andIsawthatshelikedit,asshetoucheditwhenshehadnoneed,andnotbeingabletostanditanylongerItookholdofherhandandmadeherstopherworkinfavourofapleasanteremployment。
WhenshehadfinishedIburstoutlaughingtohearherask,inthemostseriousway,thepotofointmentstillinherlefthand,"DidIdoitright!"
"Oh,admirably,dearAnnette!Youareanangel,andIamsureyouknowwhatpleasureyougaveme。Canyoucomeandspendanhourwithme?"
"Waitabit。"
Shewentoutandshutthedoor,andIwaitedforhertoreturn;
butmypatiencebeingexhaustedIopenedthedoorslightly,andsawherundressingandgettingintobedwithhersister。Iwentbacktomyroomandtobedagain,withoutlosingallhope。Iwasnotdisappointed,forinfiveminutesbackshecame,cladinherchemiseandwalkingontip—toe。
"Cometomyarms,mylove;itisverycold。"
"HereIam。Mysisterisasleepandsuspectsnothing;andevenifsheawokethebedissolargethatshewouldnotnoticemyabsence。"
"Youareadivinecreature,andIloveyouwithallmyheart。"
"Somuchthebetter。Igivemyselfuptoyou;dowhatyoulikewithme,ontheconditionthatyouthinkofmysisternomore。"
"Thatwillnotcostmemuch。IpromisethatIwillnotthinkofher。"
IfoundAnnetteaperfectneophyte,andthoughIsawnobloodonthealtaroflovenextmorningIdidnotsuspectheronthataccount。Ihaveoftenseensuchcases,andIknowbyexperiencethattheeffusionofbloodoritsabsenceprovesnothing。Asageneralruleagirlcannotbeconvictedofhavinghadaloverunlessshebewithchild。
Ispenttwohoursofdelightwiththisprettybaby,forshewassosmall,sodelicate,andsodaintilyshapedallover,thatIcanfindnobetternameforher。Herdocilitydidnotdetractfromthepiquancyofthepleasure,forshewasvoluptuouslyinclined。
WhenIroseinthemorningshecametomyroomwithVeronique,andIwasgladtoseethatwhiletheyoungersisterwasradiantwithhappinesstheelderlookedpleasantandasifshedesiredtomakeherselfagreeable。Iaskedherhowshewas,andshetoldmethatdietandsleephadcompletelycuredher。"Ihavealwaysfoundthemthebestremedyforaheadache。"AnnettehadalsocuredmeofthecuriosityIhadfeltabouther。Icongratulatedmyselfonmyachievement。
IwasinsuchhighspiritsatsupperthatM。deGrimaldithoughtI
hadwoneverythingfromVeronique,andIlethimthinkso。I
promisedtodinewithhimthenextday,andIkeptmyword。AfterdinnerIgavehimalongletterforRosalie,whomIdidnotexpecttoseeagainexceptasMadamePetri,thoughItookcarenottoletthemarquisknowwhatIthought。
IntheeveningIsuppedwiththetwosisters,andImademyselfequallyagreeabletobothofthem。WhenVeroniquewasalonewithme,puttingmyhairintocurl—papers,shesaidthatshelovedmemuchmorenowthatIbehaveddiscreetly。
"Mydiscretion,"Ireplied,"onlymeansthatIhavegivenupthehopeofwinningyou。Iknowhowtotakemypart。"
"Yourlovewasnotverygreat,then?"
"Itsprangupquickly,andyou,Veronique,couldhavemadeitincreasetoagiganticsize。"
Shesaidnothing,butbitherlip,wishedmegoodnightandlefttheroom。IwenttobedexpectingavisitfromAnnette,butI
waitedinvain。WhenIrangthenextmorningthedeargirlappearedlookingrathersad。Iaskedherthereason。
"Becausemysisterisill,andspentthewholenightinwriting,"
saidshe。
ThusIlearntthereasonofhernothavingpaidmeavisit。
"Doyouknowwhatshewaswritingabout?"
"Oh,no!Shedoesnottellmethatkindofthing,buthereisaletterforyou。"
Ireadthroughthelongandwell—composedletter,butasitboremarksofcraftanddissimulationitmademelaugh。Afterseveralremarksofnoconsequenceshesaidthatshehadrepulsedmebecauseshelovedmesomuchandthatshewasafraidthatifshesatisfiedmyfancyshemightloseme。
"Iwillbewhollyyours,"sheadded,"ifyouwillgivemethepositionwhichRosalieenjoyed。Iwilltravelinyourcompany,butyoumustgivemeadocument,whichM。deGrimaldiwillsignasawitness,inwhichyoumustengagetomarrymeinayear,andtogivemeaportionoffiftythousandfrancs;andifattheendofayearyoudonotwishtomarryme,thatsumtobeatmyabsolutedisposal。"
Shestipulatedalsothatifshebecameamotherinthecourseofayearthechildshouldbehersintheeventofourseparating。Ontheseconditionsshewouldbecomemymistress,andwouldhaveformeallpossibleloveandkindness。
Thisproposal,cleverlyconceived,butfoolishlycommunicatedtome,shewedmethatVeroniquehadnotthetalentofdupingothers。
IsawdirectlythatM。deGrimaldihadnothingtodowithit,andIfeltsurethathewouldlaughwhenItoldhimthestory。
Annettesooncamebackwiththechocolate,andtoldmethathersisterhopedIwouldanswerherletter。
"Yes,dear,"saidI,"IwillanswerherwhenIgetup。"
Itookmychocolate,putonmydressing—gown,andwenttoVeronique’sroom。Ifoundhersittingupinbedinanegligentattirethatmighthaveattractedmeifherletterhadnotdeprivedherofmygoodopinion。Isatonthebed,gaveherbacktheletter,andsaid,——
"Whywrite,whenwecantalkthematterover?"
"Becauseoneisoftenmoreateaseinwritingthaninspeaking。"
"Indiplomacyandbusinessthatwillpass,butnotinlove。Lovemakesnoconditions。Letushavenodocuments,nosafeguards,butgiveyourselfuptomeasRosaliedid,andbeginto—nightwithoutmypromisinganything。Ifyoutrustinlove,youwillmakehimyourprisoner。Thatwaywillhonourusandourpleasures,andifyoulikeIwillconsultM。deGrimaldionthesubject。Astoyourplan,ifitdoesnotinjureyourhonour,itdoessmalljusticetoyourcommonsense,andnoonebutafoolwouldagreetoit。Youcouldnotpossiblylovethemantowhomyoumakesuchaproposal,andastoM。deGrimaldi,farfromhavinganythingtodowithit,Iamsurehewouldbeindignantattheveryidea。"
ThisdiscoursedidnotputVeroniqueoutofcountenance。Shesaidshedidnotlovemewellenoughtogiveherselftomeunconditionally;towhichIrepliedthatIwasnotsufficientlytakenwithhercharmstobuythematthepriceshefixed,andsoI
lefther。
IcalledCosta,andtoldhimtogoandwarnthemasterofthefeluccathatIwasgoingthenextday,andwiththisideaIwenttobidgood—byetothemarquis,whoinformedmethathehadjustbeentakingPetritoseeRosalie,whohadreceivedhimwellenough。ItoldhimIwasgladtohearit,andsaidthatI
commendedtohimthecareofherhappiness,butsuchcommendationswerethrownaway。
Itisoneofthemostcuriouscircumstancesofmyhistory,thatinoneyeartwowomenwhomIsincerelylovedandwhomImighthavemarriedweretakenfrommebytwooldmen,whoseaffectionsIhadfosteredwithoutwishingtodoso。Happilythesegentlemenmademymistresses’fortunes,butontheotherhandtheydidmeastillgreaterserviceinrelievingmeofatiewhichIshouldhavefoundverytroublesomeincourseoftime。Nodoubttheybothsawthatmyfortune,thoughgreatinoutwardshow,restedonnosolidbasis,which,asthereaderwillsee,wasunhappilytootrue。I
shouldbehappyifIthoughtthatmyerrorsorratherfollieswouldserveasawarningtothereadersoftheseMemoirs。
IspentthedayinwatchingthecarewithwhichVeroniqueandAnnettepackedupmytrunks,forIwouldnotletmytwoservantshelpinanyway。Veroniquewasneithersadnorgay。Shelookedasifshehadmadeuphermind,andasiftherehadneverbeenanydifferencesbetweenus。Iwasveryglad,forasInolongercaredforherIshouldhavebeenannoyedtofindthatshestillcaredforme。
Wesuppedinourusualmanner,discussingonlycommonplacetopics,butjustasIwasgoingtobedAnnetteshookmyhandinawaythattoldmetoprepareforavisitfromher。Iadmiredthenaturalacutenessofyounggirls,whotaketheirdegreesintheartoflovewithsomucheaseandatsuchanearlyage。Annette,almostachild,knewmorethanayoungmanoftwenty。IdecidedongivingherfiftysequinswithoutlettingVeroniqueseeme,asI
didnotintendtobesoliberaltowardsher。Itookarollofducatsandgavethemtoherassoonasshecame。
Shelaydownbesideme,andafteramomentdevotedtoloveshesaidthatVeroniquewasasleep,adding,——
"Iheardallyousaidtomysister,andIamsureyouloveher。"
"IfIdid,dearAnnette,Ishouldnothavemademyproposalinsuchplainterms。"
"Ishouldliketobelievethat,butwhatwouldyouhavedoneifshehadacceptedyouroffer?Youwouldbeinonebedbythis,I
suppose?"
"Iwasmorethancertain,dearest,thatherpridewouldhinderherreceivingme。"
WehadreachedthispointinourconversationwhenweweresurprisedbythesuddenappearanceofVeroniquewithalightedcandle,andwearingonlyherchemise。Shelaughedathersistertoencourageher,andIjoinedinthelaughter,keepingafirmholdonthelittleoneforfearofherescaping。Veroniquelookedravishinginherscantyattire,andasshelaughedIcouldnotbeangrywithher。However,Isaid,——
"Youhaveinterruptedourenjoyment,andhurtyoursister’sfeelings;perhapsyouwilldespiseherforthefuture?"
"Onthecontrary,Ishallalwaysloveher。"
"Herfeelingsovercameher,andshesurrenderedtomewithoutmakinganyterms。"
"ShehasmoresensethanI"
"Doyoumeanthat?"
"Ido,really。"
"Iamastonishedanddelightedtohearit;butasitisso,kissyoursister。"
AtthisinvitationVeroniqueputdownthecandle,andcoveredAnnette’sbeautifulbodywithkisses。Thescenemademefeelveryhappy。
"Come,Veronique,"saidI,"youwilldieofcold;comeandliedown。"
Imaderoomforher,andsoontherewerethreeofusunderthesamesheet。Iwasinanecstasyatthisgroup,worthyofAretin’spencil。
"Dearestones,"saidI,"youhaveplayedmeaprettytrick;wasitpremeditated?AndwasVeroniquefalsethismorning,orisshefalsenow?"
"Wedidnotpremeditateanything,Iwastruethismorning,andI
amtruenow。IfeelthatIandmyplanwereverysilly,andI
hopeyouwillforgiveme,sinceIhaverepentedandhavehadmypunishment。NowIthinkIaminmyrightsenses,asIhaveyieldedtothefeelingswithwhichyouinspiredmewhenIsawyoufirst,andagainstwhichIhavefoughttoolong。"
"Whatyousaypleasesmeextremely。"
"Well,forgivemeandfinishmypunishmentbyshewingthatyouarenotangrywithme。"
"HowamItodothat?"
"Bytellingmethatyouarevexednolonger,andbycontinuingtogivemysisterproofsofyourlove。"
"IsweartoyouthatsofarfrombeingangrywithyouIamveryfondofyou;butwouldyoulikeustobefondinyourpresence?"
"Yes,ifyoudon’tmindme。"
Feelingexcitedbyvoluptuousemotions,Isawthatmypartcouldnolongerbeapassiveone。
"Whatdoyousay,"saidItomyblonde,"willyouallowyourheroicsistertoremainamerelooker—onatoursweetstruggles?
Areyounotgenerousenoughtoletmemakeheranactressinthedrama?"
"No;IconfessIdonotfeelasifIcouldbesogenerousto—
night,butnextnight,ifyouwillplaythesamepart,wewillchange。VeroniqueshallactandIwilllookon。"
"Thatwoulddobeautifully,"saidVeronique,withsomevexationinhermanner,"ifthegentlemanwasnotgoingto—morrowmorning。"
"Iwillstay,dearVeronique,ifonlytoprovehowmuchIloveyou,"
Icouldnothavewishedforplainerspeechonherpart,andI
shouldhavelikedtoshewherhowgratefulIfeltonthespot;butthatwouldhavebeenatAnnette’sexpense,asIhadnorighttomakeanyalterationinthepieceofwhichshewastheauthorandhadarighttoexpectalltheprofits。WheneverIrecallthispleasantsceneIfeelmyheartbeatwithvoluptuouspleasure,andevennow,withthehandofoldageuponme,Icannotrecallitwithoutdelight。
Veroniqueresignedherselftothepassivepartwhichheryoungersisterimposedonher,andturningasidesheleantherheadonherhand,disclosingabreastwhichwouldhaveexcitedthecoldestofmen,andbademebeginmyattackonAnnette。Itwasnohardtaskshelaiduponme,forIwasallonfire,andIwascertainofpleasingheraslongasshelookedatme。AsAnnettewasshort—
sighted,shecouldnotdistinguishintheheatoftheactionwhichwayIwaslooking,andIsucceededingettingmyrighthandfree,withouthernoticingme,andIwasthusenabledtocommunicateapleasureasrealthoughnotasacuteasthatenjoyedbyhersister。Whenthecoverletwasdisarranged,Veroniquetookthetroubletoreplaceit,andthusofferedme,asifbyaccident,anewspectacle。ShesawhowIenjoyedthesightofhercharms,andhereyebrightened。Atlast,fullofunsatisfieddesire,sheshewedmeallthetreasureswhichnaturehadgivenher,justasI
hadfinishedwithAnnetteforthefourthtime。ShemightwellthinkthatIwasonlyrehearsingforthefollowingnight,andherfancymusthavepaintedhercomingjoysinthebrightestcolours。
Suchatalleventsweremythoughts,butthefatesdeterminedotherwise。Iwasinthemiddleoftheseventhact,alwaysslowerandmorepleasantfortheactressthanthefirsttwoorthree,whenCostacameknockingloudlyatmydoor,callingoutthatthefeluccawasready。Iwasvexedatthisuntowardincident,gotupinarage,andaftertellinghimtopaythemasterfortheday,asIwasnotgoingtillthemorrow,Iwentbacktobed,nolonger,however,inastatetocontinuetheworkIbegun。Mytwosweetheartsweredelightedwithme,butweallwantedrest,thoughthepieceshouldnothavefinishedwithaninterruption。Iwantedtogetsomeamusementoutoftheinterval,andproposedanablution,whichmadeAnnettelaughandwhichVeroniquepronouncedtobeabsolutelynecessary。Ifounditadelicioushorsd’oeuvretothebanquetIhadenjoyed。Thetwosistersrenderedeachothervariousservices,standinginthemostlasciviouspostures,andI
foundmysituationaslooker—onanenviableone。
Whenthewashingandthelaughteritgaverisetowereover,wereturnedtothestagewherethelastactshouldhavebeenperformed。Ilongedtobeginagain,andIamsureIshouldhavesucceededifIhadbeenwellbackedupbymypartner;butAnnette,whowasyoungandtiredoutwiththetoilsofthenight,forgotherpart,andyieldedtosleepasshehadyieldedtolove。
Veroniquebegantolaughwhenshesawherasleep,andIhadtodothesame,whenIsawthatshewasasstillasacorpse。
"Whatapity!"saidVeronique’seyes;butshesaiditwithhereyesalone,whileIwaswaitingforthesewordstoissuefromherlips。Wewerebothofuswrong:shefornotspeaking,andIforwaitingforhertospeak。Itwasafavourablemoment,butweletitpassby,andlovepunishedus。Ihad,itistrue,anotherreasonforabstaining。Iwishedtoreservemyselfforthenight。
Veroniquewenttoherownbedtoquietherexcitedfeelings,andI
stayedinbedwithmysleepingbeautytillnoon,whenIwishedhergoodmorningbyafreshassaultwhichwascompletedneitheronhersidenoronminetothebestofmybelief。
Thedaywasspentintalkingaboutourselves,anddeterminedtoeatonlyonemeal,wedidnotsitdowntotabletillnightbegantofall。Wespenttwohoursintheconsumptionofdelicatedishes,andindefyingBacchustomakeusfeelhispower。WeroseaswesawAnnettefallingasleep,butwewerenotmuchannoyedatthethoughtthatshewouldnotseethepleasureswepromisedeachother。IthoughtthatIshouldhaveenoughtodotocontemplatethecharmsoftheonenymphwithoutlookingatAnnette’sbeauties。
Wewenttobed,ourarmsinterlaced,ourbodiestighttogether,andlippressedonlip,butthatwasall。Veroniquesawwhatpreventedmegoinganyfurther,andshewastoopoliteandmodesttocomplain。Shedissembledherfeelingsandcontinuedtocaressme,whileIwasinafrenzyofrage。Ihadneverhadsuchamisfortune,unlessastheresultofcompleteexhaustion,orfromastrongmentalimpressioncapableofdestroyingmynaturalfaculties。LetmyreadersimaginewhatIsuffered;intheflowerofmyage,withastrongconstitution,holdingthebodyofawomanIhadardentlydesiredinmyarms,whileshetenderlycaressedme,andyetIcoulddonothingforher。Iwasindespair;onecannotofferagreaterinsulttoawoman。
Atlastwehadtoacceptthefactsandspeakreasonably,andIwasthefirsttobewailmymisfortune。
"Youtiredyourselftoomuchyesterday,"saidshe,"andyouwerenotsufficientlytemperateatsupper。Donotletittroubleyou,dearest,Iamsureyouloveme。Donottrytoforcenature,youwillonlyweakenyourselfmore。Ithinkagentlesleepwouldrestoreyourmanlypowersbetterthananything。Ican’tsleepmyself,butdon’tmindme。Sleep,wewillmakelovetogetherafterwards。"
Afterthoseexcellentandreasonablesuggestions,VeroniqueturnedherbacktomeandIfollowedherexample,butinvaindidI
endeavourtoobtainarefreshingslumber;naturewhichwouldnotgivemethepowerofmakingher,theloveliestcreature,happy,enviedmethepowerofreposeaswell。Myamorousardourandmyrageforbadeallthoughtsofrest,andmyexcitedpassionsconspiredagainstthatwhichwouldenablethemtosatisfytheirdesires。Naturepunishedmeforhavingdistrustedher,andbecauseIhadtakenstimulantsfitonlyfortheweak。IfIhadfasted,Ishouldhavedonegreatthings,butnowtherewasaconflictbetweenthestimulantsandnature,andbymydesireforenjoymentIhaddeprivedmyselfofthepowertoenjoy。Thusnature,wiselikeitsDivineAuthor,punishestheignoranceandpresumptionofpoorweakmortals。
Throughoutthisterribleandsleeplessnightmymindroamedabroad,andamidstthereproacheswithwhichIoverwhelmedmyselfIfoundacertainsatisfactioninthethoughtthattheywerenotwhollyundeserved。ThisisthesoleenjoymentIstillhavewhenI
meditateonmypastlifeanditsvariedadventures。Ifeelthatnomisfortunehasbefallenmesavebymyownfault,whilstI
attributetonaturalcausestheblessings,ofwhichIhaveenjoyedmany。IthinkIshouldgomadifinmysoliloquiesIcameacrossanymisfortunewhichIcouldnottracetomyownfault,forI
shouldnotknowwheretoplacethereason,andthatwoulddegrademetotherankofcreaturesgovernedbyinstinctalone。IfeelthatIamsomewhatmorethanabeast。Abeast,intruth,isafoolishneighbourofmine,whotriestoarguethatthebrutesreasonbetterthanwedo。
"Iwillgrant,"Isaid,"thattheyreasonbetterthanyou,butI
cangonofarther;andIthinkeveryreasonablemanwouldsayasmuch。"
Thisreplyhasmademeanenemy,althoughheadmitsthefirstpartofthethesis。
HappierthanI,Veroniquesleptforthreehours;butshewasdisagreeablysurprisedonmytellingherthatIhadnotbeenabletocloseaneye,andonfindingmeinthesamestateofimpotenceasbefore。ShebegantogetangrywhenItriedtoconvinceherrathertooforciblythatmymisfortunewasnotduetomywantofwill,andthensheblamedherselfasthecauseofmyimpotence;
andmortifiedbytheidea,sheendeavouredtodestroythespellbyallthemeanswhichpassionsuggested,andwhichIhadhithertothoughtinfallible;buthereffortsandminewereallthrownaway。
Mydespairwasasgreatasherswhenatlast,wearied,ashamed,anddegradedinherowneyes,shediscontinuedherefforts,hereyesfulloftears。Shewentawaywithoutaword,andleftmealoneforthetwoorthreehourswhichhadstilltoelapsebeforethedawnappeared。
Atday—breakCostacameandtoldmethattheseabeingroughandacontrarywindblowing,thefeluccawouldbeindangerofperishing。
"Wewillgoassoonastheweatherimproves,"saidI;"inthemeantimelightmeafire"
Iarose,andproceededtowritedownthesadhistoryofthenight。
Thisoccupationsoothedme,andfeelinginclinedtosleepIlaydownagainandsleptforeighthours。WhenIawokeIfeltbetter,butstillrathersad。Thetwosistersweredelightedtoseemeingoodhealth,butIthoughtIsawonVeronique’sfeaturesanunpleasantexpressionofcontempt。However,Ihaddeservedit,andIdidnottakethetroubleofchangingheropinion,thoughifshehadbeenmorecaressingshemighteasilyhaveputmeinastatetorepairtheinvoluntarywrongsIhaddoneherinthenight。BeforewesatdowntotableIgaveherapresentofahundredsequins,whichmadeherlookalittlemorecheerful。I
gaveanequalpresenttomydearAnnette,whohadnotexpectedanything,thinkingherselfamplyrecompensedbymyfirstgiftandbythepleasureIhadaffordedher。
Atmidnightthemasterofthefeluccacametotellmethatthewindhadchanged,andItookleaveofthesisters。Veroniqueshedtears,butIknewtowhattoattributethem。Annettekissedmeaffectionately;thuseachplayedherownpart。IsailedforLerici,whereIarrivedthenextday,andthenpostedtoLeghorn。
BeforeIspeakofthistownIthinkIshallinterestmyreadersbynarratingacircumstancenotunworthyoftheseMemoirs。
CHAPTERVI
ACleverCheat——Passano——Pisa——Corilla——MyOpinionofSquintingEyes——Florence—ISeeThereseAgain——MySon——CorticelliIwasstandingatsomedistancefrommycarriageintowhichtheywereputtingfourhorses,whenamanaccostedmeandaskedmeifI
wouldpayinadvanceoratthenextstage。WithouttroublingtolookathimIsaidIwouldpayinadvance,andgavehimacoinrequestinghimtobringmethechange。
"Directly,sir,"saidhe,andwiththathewentintotheinn。
Afewminutesafter,justasIwasgoingtolookaftermychange,thepost—mastercameupandaskedmetopayforthestage。
"Ihavepaidalready,andIamwaitingformychange。DidInotgivethemoneytoyou?"
"Certainlynot,sir。"
"WhomdidIgiveitto,then?"
"Ireallycan’tsay;butyouwillbeabletorecognizetheman,doubtless。"
"Itmusthavebeenyouoroneofyourpeople。"
Iwasspeakingloud,andallthemencameaboutme。
"Theseareallthemeninmyemploy,"saidthemaster,andheaskedifanyofthemhadreceivedthemoneyfromme。
Theyalldeniedthefactwithanairofsinceritywhichleftnoroomforsuspicion。Icursedandswore,buttheyletmecurseandswearasmuchasIliked。AtlastIdiscoveredthattherewasnohelpforit,andIpaidasecondtime,laughingatthecleverrascalwhohadtakenmeinsothoroughly。Sucharethelessonsoflife;alwaysfullofnewexperiences,andyetoneneverknowsenough。FromthatdayIhavealwaystakencarenottopayforpostingexcepttotheproperpersons。
InnocountryareknavessocunningasinItaly,Greeceancientandmodernexcepted。
WhenIgottothebestinnatLeghorntheytoldmethattherewasatheatre,andmyluckmademegoandseetheplay。Iwasrecognizedbyanactorwhoaccostedme,andintroducedmetooneofhiscomrades,aself—styledpoet,andagreatenemyoftheAbbeChiari,whomIdidnotlike,ashehadwrittenabitingsatireagainstme,andIhadneversucceededinavengingmyselfonhim。
Iaskedthemtocomeandsupwithme——awindfallwhichthesepeoplearenotgiventorefusing。ThepretendedpoetwasaGenoese,andcalledhimselfGiacomoPassano。Heinformedmethathehadwrittenthreehundredsonnetsagainsttheabbe,whowouldburstwithrageiftheywereeverprinted。AsIcouldnotrestrainasmileatthegoodopinionthepoethadofhisworks,heofferedtoreadmeafewsonnets。Hehadthemanuscriptabouthim,andIcouldnotescapethepenance。Hereadadozenorso,whichIthoughtmediocre,andamediocresonnetisnecessarilyabadsonnet,asthisformofpoetrydemandssublimity;andthusamongstthemyriadsofsonnetstowhichItalygivesbirthveryfewcanbecalledgood。
IfIhadgivenmyselftimetoexaminetheman’sfeatures,I
should,nodoubt,havefoundhimtobearogue;butIwasblindedbypassion,andtheideaofthreehundredsonnetsagainsttheAbbeChiarifascinatedme。
Icastmyeyesoverthetitleofthemanuscript,andread,"LaChiareidediAscanioPogomas。"
"That’sananagramofmyChristiannameandmysurname;isitnotahappycombination?"
Thisfollymademesmileagain。Eachofthesonnetswasadulldiatribeendingwith"l’abbateChiarieuncoglione。"Hedidnotprovethathewasone,buthesaidsooverandoveragain,makinguseofthepoet’sprivilegetoexaggerateandlie。Whathewantedtodowastoannoytheabbe,whowasbynomeanswhatPassanocalledhim,butonthecontrary,awitandapoet;andifhehadbeenacquaintedwiththerequirementsofthestagehewouldhavewrittenbetterplaysthanGoldoni,ashehadagreatercommandoflanguage。
ItoldPassano,forcivility’ssake,thatheoughttogethisChiareideprinted。
"Iwoulddoso,"saidhe,"ifIcouldfindapublisher,forIamnotrichenoughtopaytheexpenses,andthepublishersareapackofignorantbeggars。Besides,thepressisnotfree,andthecensorwouldnotlettheepithetIgivetomyheropass。IfI
couldgotoSwitzerlandIamsureitcouldbemanaged;butImusthavesixsequinstowalktoSwitzerland,andIhavenotgotthem。"
"AndwhenyougottoSwitzerland,wheretherearenotheatres,whatwouldyoudoforaliving?"
"Iwouldpaintinminiature。Lookatthose。"
Hegavemeanumberofsmallivorytablets,representingobscenesubjects,badlydrawnandbadlypainted。
"IwillgiveyouanintroductiontoagentlemanatBerne,"Isaid;
andaftersupperIgavehimaletterandsixsequins。Hewantedtoforcesomeofhisproductionsonme,butIwouldnothavethem。
IwasfoolishenoughtogivehimalettertoprettySara’sfather,andItoldhimtowritetomeatRome,undercoverofthebankerBelloni。
IsetoutfromLeghornthenextdayandwenttoPisa,whereI
stoppedtwodays。ThereImadetheacquaintanceofanEnglishman,ofwhomIboughtatravellingcarriage。HetookmetoseeCorilla,thecelebratedpoetess。Shereceivedmewithgreatpoliteness,andwaskindenoughtoimproviseonseveralsubjectswhichIsuggested。Iwasenchanted,notsomuchwithhergraceandbeauty,asbyherwitandperfectelocution。Howsweetalanguagesoundswhenitisspokenwellandtheexpressionsarewellchosen。Alanguagebadlyspokenisintolerableevenfromaprettymouth,andIhavealwaysadmiredthewisdomoftheGreekswhomadetheirnursesteachthechildrenfromthecradletospeakcorrectlyandpleasantly。Wearefarfromfollowingtheirgoodexample;witnessthefearfulaccentsonehearsinwhatiscalled,oftenincorrectly,goodsociety。
Corillawas’straba’,likeVenusaspaintedbytheancients——why,Icannotthink,forhoweverfairasquint—eyedwomanmaybeotherwise,Ialwayslookuponherfaceasdistorted。IamsurethatifVenushadbeenintruthagoddess,shewouldhavemadetheeccentricGreek,whofirstdaredtopainthercross—eyed,feeltheweightofheranger。IwastoldthatwhenCorillasang,shehadonlytofixhersquintingeyesonamanandtheconquestwascomplete;but,praisedbeGod!shedidnotfixthemonme。
AtFlorenceIlodgedatthe"HotelCarrajo,"keptbyDr。Vannini,whodelightedtoconfesshimselfanunworthymemberoftheAcademyDellaCrusca。ItookasuiteofroomswhichlookedoutonthebankoftheArno。Ialsotookacarriageandafootman,whom,aswellasacoachman,Icladinblueandredlivery。ThiswasM。
deBragadin’slivery,andIthoughtImightusehiscolours,notwiththeintentionofdeceivinganyone,butmerelytocutadash。
ThemorningaftermyarrivalIputonmygreatcoattoescapeobservation,andproceededtowalkaboutFlorence。IntheeveningIwenttothetheatretoseethefamousharlequin,Rossi,butI
consideredhisreputationwasgreaterthanhedeserved。IpassedthesamejudgmentontheboastedFlorentineelocution;Ididnotcareforitatall。IenjoyedseeingPertici;havingbecomeold,andnotbeingabletosinganymore,heacted,and,strangetosay,actedwell;for,asarule,allsingers,menandwomen,trusttotheirvoiceandcarenothingforacting,sothatanordinarycoldentirelydisablesthemforthetimebeing。
NextdayIcalledonthebanker,SassoSassi,onwhomIhadagoodletterofcredit,andafteranexcellentdinnerIdressedandwenttotheoperaanviadellaPergola,takingastagebox,notsomuchforthemusic,ofwhichIwasnevermuchofanadmirer,asbecauseIwantedtolookattheactress。
ThereadermayguessmydelightandsurprisewhenIrecognisedintheprimadonnaTherese,thefalseBellino,whomIhadleftatRiminiintheyear1744;thatcharmingTheresewhomIshouldcertainlyhavemarriedifM。deGageshadnotputmeunderarrest。
Ihadnotseenherforseventeenyears,butshelookedasbeautifulandravishingaseverasshecameforwardonthestage。
Itseemedimpossible。Icouldnotbelievemyeyes,thinkingtheresemblancemustbeacoincidence,when,aftersinginganair,shefixedhereyesonmineandkeptthemthere。Icouldnolongerdoubtthatitwasshe;sheplainlyrecognizedme。Assheleftthestageshestoppedatthewingsandmadeasigntomewithherfantocomeandspeaktoher。
Iwentoutwithabeatingheart,thoughIcouldnotexplainmyperturbation,forIdidnotfeelguiltyinanywaytowardsTherese,saveinthatIhadnotansweredthelastlettershehadwrittenmefromNaples,thirteenyearsago。Iwentroundthetheatre,feelingagreatercuriosityastotheresultsofourinterviewthantoknowwhathadbefallenherduringtheseventeenyearswhichseemedanagetome。
Icametothestage—door,andIsawTheresestandingatthetopofthestair。Shetoldthedoor—keepertoletmepass;Iwentupandwestoodfacetoface。DumbwithsurpriseItookherhandandpresseditagainstmyheart。
"Knowfromthatbeatingheart,"saidI,"allthatIfeel。"
"Ican’tfollowyourexample,"saidshe,"butwhenIsawyouI
thoughtIshouldhavefainted。UnfortunatelyIamengagedtosupper。Ishallnotshutmyeyesallnight。Ishallexpectyouateighto’clockto—morrowmorning。Whereareyoustaying?"
"AtDr。Vannini’s。"
"Underwhatname?"
"Myown。"
"Howlonghaveyoubeenhere?"
"Sinceyesterday。"
"AreyoustoppinglonginFlorence?"
"Aslongasyoulike。"
"Areyoumarried?"
"No。"
"Cursedbethatsupper!Whatanevent!Youmustleavemenow,Ihavetogoon。Good—byetillseveno’clockto—morrow。"
Shehadsaideightatfirst,butanhoursoonerwasnoharm。
Ireturnedtothetheatre,andrecollectedthatIhadneitheraskedhernameoraddress,butIcouldfindoutallthateasily。ShewasplayingMandane,andhersingingandactingwereadmirable。
Iaskedawell—dressedyoungmanbesidemewhatthatadmirableactress’snamewas。
"YouhaveonlycometoFlorenceto—day,sir?"
"Iarrivedyesterday。"
"Ah!well,thenit’sexcusable。ThatactresshasthesamenameasIhave。Sheismywife,andIamCirilloPalesi,atyourservice。"
Ibowedandwassilentwithsurprise。Idarednotaskwhereshelived,lesthemightthinkmycuriosityimpertinent。Theresemarriedtothishandsomeyoungman,ofwhom,ofallothers,Ihadmadeenquiriesabouther!Itwaslikeasceneinaplay。
Icouldbearitnolonger。Ilongedtobealoneandtoponderoverthisstrangeadventureatmyease,andtothinkaboutmyvisittoThereseatseveno’clockthenextmorning。Ifeltthemostintensecuriositytoseewhatthehusbandwoulddowhenherecognizedme,andhewascertaintodoso,forhehadlookedatmeattentivelyashespoke。IfeltthatmyoldflameforTheresewasrekindledinmyheart,andIdidnotknowwhetherIwasgladorsorryatherbeingmarried。
Ilefttheopera—houseandtoldmyfootmantocallmycarriage。
"Youcan’thaveittillnineo’clock,sir;itwassocoldthecoachmansentthehorsesbacktothestable。"
"Wewillreturnonfoot,then。"
"Youwillcatchacold。"
"Whatistheprimadonna’sname?"
"Whenshecamehere,shecalledherselfLanti,butforthelasttwomonthsshehasbeenMadamePalesi。Shemarriedahandsomeyoungmanwithnopropertyandnoprofession,butsheisrich,sohetakeshiseaseanddoesnothing。"
"Wheredoesshelive?"
"Attheendofthisstreet。There’sherhouse,sir;shelodgesonthefirstfloor。"
ThiswasallIwantedtoknow,soIsaidnomore,buttooknoteofthevariousturnings,thatImightbeabletofindmywayalonethenextday。Iatealightsupper,andtoldLeDuctocallmeatsixo’clock。
"Butitisnotlighttillseven。"
"Iknowthat。"
"Verygood"
Atthedawnofday,IwasatthedoorofthewomanIhadlovedsopassionately。Iwenttothefirstfloor,rangthebell,andanoldwomancameoutandaskedmeifIwereM。Casanova。ItoldherthatIwas,whereuponshesaidthattheladyhadinformedherI
wasnotcomingtilleight。
"Shesaidseven。"
"Well,well,it’sofnoconsequence。Kindlywalkinhere。Iwillgoandawakeher。"
Infiveminutes,theyounghusbandinhisnight—capanddressing—
gowncamein,andsaidthathiswifewouldnotbelong。Thenlookingatmeattentivelywithanastoundedstare,hesaid,"Areyounotthegentlemanwhoaskedmemywife’snamelastnight?"
"Youareright,Idid。Ihavenotseenyourwifeformanyyears,butIthoughtIrecognizedher。Mygoodfortunemademeenquireofherhusband,andthefriendshipwhichformerlyattachedmetoherwillhenceforthattachmetoyou。"
AsIutteredthisprettycomplimentTherese,asfairaslove,rushedintotheroomwithopenarms。Itookhertomybosominatransportofdelight,andthusweremainedfortwominutes,twofriends,twolovers,happytoseeoneanotherafteralongandsadparting。Wekissedeachotheragainandagain,andthenbiddingherhusbandsitdownshedrewmetoacouchandgavefullcoursetohertears。Iwepttoo,andmytearswerehappyones。Atlastwewipedoureyes,andglancedtowardsthehusbandwhomwehadcompletelyforgotten。Hestoodinanattitudeofcompleteastonishment,andweburstoutlaughing。Therewassomethingsocomicinhissurprisethatitwouldhavetaxedallthetalentsofthepoetandthecaricaturisttodepicthisexpressionofamazement。Therese,whoknewhowtomanagehim,criedinapatheticanaffectionatevoice,——
"MydearPalesi,youseebeforeyoumyfather——nay,morethanafather,forthisismygenerousfriendtowhomIoweall。Oh,happymomentforwhichmyhearthaslongedforthesetenyearspast。"
Attheword"father"theunhappyhusbandfixedhisgazeonme,butIrestrainedmylaughterwithconsiderabledifficulty。AlthoughTheresewasyoungforherage,shewasonlytwoyearsyoungerthanI;butfriendshipgivesanewmeaningtothesweetnameoffather。
"Yes,sir,"saidI,"yourThereseismydaughter,mysister,mycherishedfriend;sheisanangel,andthistreasureisyourwife。"
"Ididnotreplytoyourlastletter,"saidI,notgivinghimtimetocometohimself。
"Iknowall,"shereplied。"Youfellinlovewithanun。YouwereimprisonedundertheLeads,andIheardofyouralmostmiraculousflightatVienna。IhadafalsepresentimentthatI
shouldseeyouinthattown。AfterwardsIheardofyouinParisandHolland,butafteryouleftParisnobodycouldtellmeanymoreaboutyou。YouwillhearsomefinetaleswhenItellyouallthathashappenedtomeduringthepasttenyears。NowIamhappy。IhavemydearPalesihere,whocomesfromRome。I
marriedhimacoupleofmonthsago。Weareveryfondofeachother,andIhopeyouwillbeasmuchhisfriendasmine。"
AtthisIaroseandembracedthehusband,whocutsuchanextraordinaryfigure。Hemetmewithopenarms,butinsomeconfusion;hewas,nodoubt,notyetquitesatisfiedastotheindividualwhowashiswife’sfather,brother,friend,andperhapslover,allatonce。Theresesawthisfeelinginhiseyes,andafterIhaddoneshecameandkissedhimmostaffectionately,whichconfusedmeinmyturn,forIfeltallmyoldloveforherrenewed,andasardentasitwaswhenDonSancioPicointroducedmetoheratAncona。
Reassuredbymyembraceandhiswife’scaress,M。PalesiaskedmeifIwouldtakeacupofchocolatewiththem,whichhehimselfwouldmake。Iansweredthatchocolatewasmyfavouritebreakfast—
dish,andallthemoresowhenitwasmadebyafriend。Hewentawaytoseetoit。Ourtimehadcome。
AssoonaswewerealoneTheresethrewherselfintomyarms,herfaceshiningwithsuchloveasnopencandescribe。
"Oh,mylove!whomIshallloveallmylife,claspmetoyourbreast!Letusgiveeachotherahundredembracesonthishappyday,butnotagain,sincemyfatehasmademeanother’sbride。
To—morrowwewillbelikebrotherandsister;to—dayletusbelovers。"
Shehadnotfinishedthisspeechbeforemyblisswascrowned。Ourtransportsweremutual,andwerenewedthemagainandagainduringthehalfhourinwhichwehadnofearofaninterruption。Hernegligentmorningdressandmygreatcoatwerehighlyconvenientunderthecircumstances。
Afterwehadsatiatedinpartouramorousardourwebreathedagainandsatdown。Therewasashortpause,andthenshesaid,"YoumustknowthatIaminlovewithmyhusbandanddeterminednottodeceivehim。WhatIhavejustdonewasadebtIhadtopaytotheremembranceofmyfirstlove。IhadtopayittoprovehowmuchIloveyou;butletusforgetitnow。Youmustbecontentedwiththethoughtofmygreataffectionforyou——ofwhichyoucanhavenodoubt——andletmestillthinkthatyouloveme;buthenceforthdonotletusbealonetogether,asIshouldgiveway,andthatwouldvexme。Whatmakesyoulooksosad?"
"Ifindyoubound,whileIamfree。Ithoughtwehadmetnevertopartagain;youhadkindledtheoldfires。IamthesametoyouasIwasatAncona。Ihaveprovedasmuch,andyoucanguesshowsadIfeelatyourdecreethatIamtoenjoyyounomore。Ifindthatyouarenotonlymarriedbutinlovewithyourhusband。
Alas!Ihavecometoolate,butifIhadnotstayedatGenoaI
shouldnothavebeenmorefortunate。Youshallknowallinduetime,andinthemeanwhileIwillbeguidedbyyouineverything。
Isupposeyourhusbandknowsnothingofourconnection,andmybestplanwillbetobereserved,willitnot?"
"Yes,dearest,forheknowsnothingofmyaffairs,andIamgladtosayheshewsnocuriosityrespectingthem。Likeeverybodyelse,heknowsImademyfortuneatNaples;ItoldhimIwenttherewhenIwastenyearsold。Thatwasaninnocentliewhichhurtsnobody;
andinmypositionIfindthatinconvenienttruthshavetogivewaytolies。Igivemyselfoutasonlytwenty—four,howdoyouthinkIlook?"
"Youlookasifyouweretellingthetruth,thoughIknowyoumustbethirty—two。"
"Youmeanthirty—one,forwhenIknewyouIcouldn’thavebeenmorethanfourteen。"
"Ithoughtyouwerefifteenatleast。"
"Well,Imightadmitthatbetweenourselves;buttellmeifIlookmorethantwenty—four。"
"Isweartoyouyoudon’tlookasold,butatNaples……"
"AtNaplessomepeoplemightbeabletocontradictme,butnobodywouldmindthem。ButIamwaitingforwhatoughttobethesweetestmomentofyourlife。"
"Whatisthat,pray?"
"Allowmetokeepmyowncounsel,Iwanttoenjoyyoursurprise。
Howareyouoff?Ifyouwantmoney,Icangiveyoubackallyougaveme,andwithcompoundinterest。AllIhavebelongstome;myhusbandisnotmasterofanything。IhavefiftythousandducatsatNaples,andanequalsumindiamonds。Tellmehowmuchyouwant——quick!thechocolateiscoming。"
SuchawomanwasTherese。Iwasdeeplymoved,andwasabouttothrowmyarmsaboutherneckwithoutansweringwhenthechocolatecame。Herhusbandwasfollowedbyagirlofexquisitebeauty,whocarriedthreecupsofchocolateonasilver—giltdish。WhilewedrankitPalesiamusedusbytellinguswithmuchhumourhowsurprisedhewaswhenherecognizedthemanwhomadehimriseatsuchanearlyhourasthesamewhohadaskedhimhiswife’snamethenightbefore。ThereseandIlaughedtilloursidesached,thestorywastoldsowittilyandpleasantly。ThisRomandispleasedmelessthanIexpected;hisjealousyseemedonlyputonforform’ssake。
"Atteno’clock,"saidTheresa,"Ihavearehearsalhereofthenewopera。Youcanstayandlistenifyoulike。Ihopeyouwilldinewithuseveryday,anditwillgivemegreatpleasureifyouwilllookuponmyhouseasyours。"
"To—day,"saidI,"Iwillstaywithyoutillaftersupper,andthenIwillleaveyouwithyourfortunatehusband。"
AsIpronouncedthesewordsM。Palesiembracedmewitheffusion,asiftothankmefornotobjectingtohisenjoyinghisrightsasahusband。
Hewasbetweentheagesoftwentyandtwenty—two,ofafaircomplexion,andwell—made,buttooprettyforaman。IdidnotwonderatTheresebeinginlovewithhim,forIknewtoowellthepowerofahandsomeface;butIthoughtthatshehadmadeamistakeinmarryinghim,forahusbandacquirescertainrightswhichmaybecometroublesome。
Therese’sprettymaidcametotellmethatmycarriagewasatthedoor。
"Willyouallowme,"saidItoher,"tohavemyfootmanin?"
"Rascal,"saidI,assoonashecamein,"whotoldyoutocomeherewithmycarriage?"
"Nobody,sir,butIknowmyduty。"
"WhotoldyouthatIwashere?"
"Iguessedasmuch。"
"GoandfetchLeDuc,andcomebackwithhim。"
WhentheyarrivedItoldLeDuctopaytheimpertinentfellowthreedays’wages,tostriphimofhislivery,andtoaskDr。
Vanninitogetmeaservantofthesamebuild,notgiftedwiththefacultyofdivination,butwhoknewhowtoobeyhismaster’sorders。Therascalwasmuchperturbedattheresultofhisofficiousness,andaskedTheresetopleadforhim;but,likeasensiblewoman,shetoldhimthathismasterwasthebestjudgeofthevalueofhisservices。
Atteno’clockalltheactorsandactressesarrived,bringingwiththemamobofamateurswhocrowdedthehall。Theresereceivedtheirgreetingsgraciously,andIcouldseesheenjoyedagreatreputation。Therehearsallastedthreehours,andweariedmeextremely。TorelievemyboredomItalkedtoPalesi,whomIlikedfornotaskingmeanyparticularsofmyacquaintancewithhiswife。Isawthatheknewhowtobehaveinthepositioninwhichhewasplaced。
AgirlfromParma,namedRedegonde,whoplayedaman’spartandsangverywell,stayedtodinner。TheresehadalsoaskedayoungBolognese,namedCorticelli。Iwasstruckwiththebuddingcharmsofthisprettydancer,butasIwasjustthenfullofTherese,I
didnotpaymuchattentiontoher。SoonafterwesatdownIsawaplumpabbecominginwithmeasuredsteps。HelookedtomearegularTartuffe,afternothingbutTherese。Hecameuptoherassoonashesawher,andgoingononekneeinthePortuguesefashion,kissedherhandtenderlyandrespectfully。Theresereceivedhimwithsmilingcourtesyandputhimatherrighthand;
Iwasattheirleft。Hisvoice,manner,andallabouthimtoldmethatIhadknownhim,andinfactIsoonrecognizedhimastheAbbeGama,whomIhadleftatRomeseventeenyearsbeforewithCardinalAcquaviva;butIpretendednottorecognizehim,andindeedhehadagedgreatly。ThisgallantpriesthadeyesfornoonebutTherese,andhewastoobusywithsayingathousandsoftnothingstohertotakenoticeofanybodyelseinthecompany。I
hopedthatinhisturnhewouldeithernotrecognizemeorpretendnottodoso,soIwascontinuingmytriflingtalkwiththeCorticelli,whenTheresetoldmethattheabbewantedtoknowwhetherIdidnotrecollecthim。Ilookedathisfaceattentively,andwiththeairofamanwhoistryingtorecollectsomething,andthenIroseandaskedifhewerenottheAbbeGama,withwhoseacquaintanceIwashonoured。
"Thesame,"saidhe,rising,andplacinghisarmsroundmyneckhekissedmeagainandagain。Thiswasinperfectagreementwithhiscraftycharacter;thereaderwillnothaveforgottentheportraitofhimcontainedinthefirstvolumeoftheseMemoirs。
Aftertheicehadbeenthusbrokenitwillbeimaginedthatwehadalongconversation。HespokeofBarbaruccia,ofthefairMarchionessG————,ofCardinalS————C————,andtoldmehowhehadpassedfromtheSpanishtothePortugueseservice,inwhichhestillcontinued。Iwasenjoyinghistalkaboutnumeroussubjectswhichhadinterestedmeinmyearlyyouth,whenanunexpectedsightabsorbedallmythinkingfaculties。Ayoungmanoffifteenorsixteen,aswellgrownasItaliansusuallyareatthatage,cameintotheroom,salutedthecompanywitheasygrace,andkissedTherese。Iwastheonlypersonwhodidnotknowhim,butI
wasnottheonlyonewholookedsurprised。ThedaringThereseintroducedhimtomewithperfectcoolnesswiththewords:——
"Thatismybrother。"
IgreetedhimaswarmlyasIcould,butmymannerwasslightlyconfused,asIhadnothadtimetorecovermycomposure。Thisso—
calledbrotherofTheresewasmylivingimage,thoughhiscomplexionwasratherclearerthanmine。Isawatoncethathewasmyson;naturehadneverbeensoindiscreetasintheamazinglikenessbetweenus。This,then,wasthesurpriseofwhichTheresehadspoken;shehaddevisedthepleasureofseeingmeatonceastoundedanddelighted,forsheknewthatmyheartwouldbetouchedatthethoughtofhavinglefthersuchapledgeofourmutuallove。Ihadnottheslightestforeknowledgeinthematter,forTheresehadneveralludedtoherbeingwithchildinherletters。Ithought,however,thatsheshouldnothavebroughtaboutthismeetinginthepresenceofathirdparty,foreveryonehaseyesintheirhead,andanyonewitheyesmusthaveseenthattheyoungmanwaseithermysonormybrother。Iglancedather,butsheavoidedmeetingmyeye,whilethepretendedbrotherwaslookingatmesoattentivelythathedidnothearwhatwassaidtohim。Astotheothers,theydidnothingbutlookfirstatmeandthenathim,andiftheycametotheconclusionthathewasmysontheywouldbeobligedtosupposethatIhadbeentheloverofTherese’smother,ifshewerereallyhissister,fortakingintoconsiderationtheageshelookedandgaveherselfouttobeshecouldnotpossiblybehismother。ItwasequallyimpossiblethatIcouldbeTherese’sfather,asIdidnotlookanyolderthanshedid。
MysonspoketheNeapolitandialectperfectly,buthealsospokeItalianverywell,andinwhateverhesaidIwasgladtorecognizetaste,goodsense,andintelligence。Hewaswell—informed,thoughhehadbeenbroughtupatNaples,andhismannerswereverydistinguished。Hismothermadehimsitbetweenusattable。
"Hisfavouriteamusement,"shesaidtome,"ismusic。Youmusthearhimontheclavier,andthoughIameightyearsolderIshallnotbesurprisedifyoupronouncehimthebetterperformer。"
Onlyawoman’sdelicateinstinctcouldhavesuggestedthisremark;
menhardlyeverapproachwomeninthisrespect。
Whetherfromnaturalimpulsesorself—esteem,IrosefromthetablesodelightedwithmysonthatIembracedhimwiththeutmosttenderness,andwasapplaudedbythecompany。Iaskedeverybodytodinewithmethenextday,andmyinvitationwasjoyfullyaccepted;buttheCorticellisaid,withtheutmostsimplicity,"MayIcome,too?"
"Certainty;youtoo。"
AfterdinnertheAbbeGamaaskedmetobreakfastwithhim,ortohavehimtobreakfastthenextmorning,asbewaslongingforagoodtalkwithme。
"Comeandbreakfastwithme,"saidI,"Ishallbedelightedtoseeyou。"
WhentheguestshadgoneDonCesarino,asthepretendedbrotherofTheresewascalled,askedmeifIwouldwalkwithhim。Ikissedhim,andrepliedthatmycarriagewasathisservice,andthatheandhisbrother—in—lawcoulddriveinit,butthatIhadresolvednottoleavehissisterthatday。Palesiseemedquitesatisfiedwiththearrangement,andtheybothwentaway。
Whenwewerealone,IgaveThereseanardentembrace,andcongratulatedheronhavingsuchabrother。
"Mydear,heisthefruitofouramours;heisyourson。Hemakesmehappy,andishappyhimself,andindeedhehaseverythingtomakehimso。"
"AndI,too,amhappy,dearTherese。YoumusthaveseenthatI
recognizedhimatonce。"
"Butdoyouwanttogivehimabrother?Howardentyouare!"
"Remember,belovedone,thatto—morrowwearetobefriends,andnothingmore。"
Bythismyeffortswerecrownedwithsuccess,butthethoughtthatitwasthelasttimewasabitterdropinthecupofhappiness。
Whenwehadregainedourcomposure,Theresesaid,——
"ThedukewhotookmefromRiminibroughtupourchild;assoonasIknewthatIwaspregnantIconfidedmysecrettohim。Nooneknewofmydelivery,andthechildwassenttonurseatSorrento,andthedukehadhimbaptizedunderthenameofCaesarPhilipLand。HeremainedatSorrentotillhewasnine,andthenhewasboardedwithaworthyman,whosuperintendedhiseducationandtaughthimmusic。Fromhisearliestchildhoodhehasknownmeashissister,andyoucannotthinkhowhappyIwaswhenIsawhimgrowingsolikeyou。Ihavealwaysconsideredhimasasurepledgeofourfinalunion。Iwaseverthinkingwhatwouldhappenwhenwemet,forIknewthathewouldhavethesameinfluenceoveryouashehasoverme。Iwassureyouwouldmarrymeandmakehimlegitimate。"
"Andyouhaverenderedallthis,whichwouldhavemademehappy,animpossibility。"
"Thefatesdecidedso;wewillsaynomoreaboutit。OnthedeathofthedukeIleftNaples,leavingCesarinoatthesameboardingschool,undertheprotectionofthePrincedelaRiccia,whohasalwayslookeduponhimasabrother。Yourson,thoughhedoesnotknowit,possessesthesumoftwentythousandducats,ofwhichI
receivetheinterest,butyoumayimaginethatIlethimwantfornothing。MyonlyregretisthatIcannottellhimIamhismother,asIthinkhewouldlovemestillmoreifheknewthatheowedhisbeingtome。YoucannotthinkhowgladIwastoseeyoursurpriseto—day,andhowsoonyougottolovehim。"
"Heiswonderfullylikeme。"
"Thatdelightsme。Peoplemustthinkthatyouweremymother’slover。Myhusbandthinksthatourfriendshipisduetotheconnectionbetweenyouandmymother。HetoldmeyesterdaythatCesarinomightbemybrotheronthemother’sside,butnotonmyfather’s;ashehadseenhisfatherinthetheatre,butthathecouldnotpossiblybemyfather,too。IfIhavechildrenbyPalesiallIhavewillgotothem,butifnotCesarinowillbemyheir。Mypropertyiswellsecured,evenifthePrincedeRicciaweretodie。"
"Come,"saidshe,drawingmeinthedirectionofherbed—room。
Sheopenedalargeboxwhichcontainedherjewelsanddiamonds,andsharestotheamountoffiftythousandducats。Besidesthatshehadalargeamountofplate,andhertalentswhichassuredherthefirstplaceinalltheItaliantheatres。
"DoyouknowwhetherourdearCesarinohasbeeninloveyet?"saidI。
"Idon’tthinkso,butIfancymyprettymaidisinlovewithhim。
Ishallkeepmyeyesopen。"
"Youmustn’tbetoostrict。"
"No,butitisn’tagoodthingforayoungmantoengagetoosooninthatpleasurewhichmakesoneneglecteverythingelse。"
"Letmehavehim,Iwillteachhimhowtolive。"
"Askall,butleavememyson。YoumustknowthatIneverkisshimforfearofmygivingwaytoexcessiveemotion。Iwishyouknewhowgoodandpureheis,andhowwellhelovesme,Icouldnotrefusehimanything。
WhatwillpeoplesayinVenicewhentheyseeCasanovaagain,whoescapedfromTheLeadsandhasbecometwentyyearsyounger?"
"YouaregoingtoVenice,then,fortheAscensa?"
"Yes,andyouaregoingtoRome?"
"AndtoNaples,toseemyfriendtheDukedeMatalone。"
"Iknowhimwell。HehasalreadyhadasonbythedaughteroftheDukedeBovino,whomhemarried。Shemustbeacharmingwomantohavemadeamanofhim,forallNaplesknewthathewasimpotent。"
"Probably,sheonlyknewthesecretofmakinghimafather。"
"Well,itispossible。"
WespentthetimebytalkingwithinterestonvarioustopicstillCesarinoandthehusbandcameback。Thedearchildfinishedhisconquestofmeatsupper;hehadamerryrandomwit,andalltheNeapolitanvivacity。Hesatdownattheclavier,andafterplayingseveralpieceswiththeutmostskillhebegantosingNeapolitansongswhichmadeusalllaugh。Thereseonlylookedathimandme,butnowandagainsheembracedherhusband,saying,thatinlovealonelieshappiness。
Ithoughtthen,andIthinknow,thatthisdaywasoneofthehappiestIhaveeverspent。
CHAPTERVII
TheCorticelli——TheJewManagerBeaten——TheFalseCharlesIvanoffandtheTrickHePlayedMe——IAmOrderedtoLeaveTuscany——IArriveatRome——MyBrotherJeanAtnineo’clockthenextmorning,theAbbeGamawasannounced。
Thefirstthinghedidwastoshedtearsofjoy(ashesaid)atseeingmesowellandprosperousaftersomanyyears。Thereaderwillguessthattheabbeaddressedmeinthemostflatteringterms,andperhapshemayknowthatonemaybeclever,experiencedinthewaysoftheworld,andevendistrustfulofflattery,butyetone’sself—love,everonthewatch,listenstotheflatterer,andthinkshimpleasant。Thispoliteandpleasantabbe,whohadbecomeextremelycraftyfromhavinglivedallhisdaysamongstthehighdignitariesatthecourtofthe’ServusServorumDei’(thebestschoolofstrategy),wasnotaltogetheranill—disposedman,butbothhisdispositionandhisprofessionconspiredtomakehiminquisitive;infine,suchasIhavedepictedhiminthefirstvolumeoftheseMemoirs。Hewantedtohearmyadventures,anddidnotwaitformetoaskhimtotellhisstory。Hetoldmeatgreatlengththevariousincidentsinhislifefortheseventeenyearsinwhichwehadnotseenoneanother。HehadlefttheserviceoftheKingofSpainforthatoftheKingofPortugal,hewassecretaryofembassytotheCommanderAlmada,andbehadbeenobligedtoleaveRomebecausethePopeRezzonicowouldnotallowtheKingofPortugaltopunishcertainworthyJesuitassassins,whohadonlybrokenhisarmasithappened,butwhohadnonethelessmeanttotakehislife。Thus,GamawasstayinginItalycorrespondingwithAlmadaandthefamousCarvalho,waitingforthedisputetobefinishedbeforehereturnedtoRome。Inpointoffactthiswastheonlysubstantialincidentintheabbe’sstory,butheworkedinsomanyepisodesofnoconsequencethatitlastedforanhour。Nodoubthewishedmetoshewmygratitudebytellinghimallmyadventureswithoutreserve;buttheupshotofitwasthatwebothshewedourselvestruediplomatists,heinlengtheninghisstory,Iinshorteningmine,whileIcouldnothelpfeelingsomeenjoymentinbulkingthecuriosityofmycassockedfriend。