Anditwasofnousethat,whencatchingherselfinthisstateofmind,shecalledherselfafeeblespirit,acoward。ItwasnotthatshelovedRalphless,butthatalmostanythingseemedpreferabletorepudiatingthemostseriousact-thesinglesacredact-ofherlife。
Thatappearedtomakethewholefuturehideous。TobreakwithOsmondoncewouldbetobreakforever。anyopenacknowledgementofirreconcilableneedswouldbeanadmissionthattheirwholeattempthadprovedafailure。Forthemtherecouldbenocondonement,nocompromise,noeasyforgetfulness,noformalreadjustment。Theyhadattemptedonlyonething,butthatonethingwastohavebeenexquisite。Oncetheymisseditnothingelsewoulddo。therewasnoconceivablesubstituteforthatsuccess。Forthemoment,IsabelwenttotheHoteldeParisasoftenasshethoughtwell。themeasureofproprietywasinthecanonoftaste,andtherecouldn’thavebeenabetterproofthatmoralitywas,sotospeak,amatterofearnestappreciation。Isabel’sapplicationofthatmeasurehadbeenparticularlyfreeto-day,forinadditiontothegeneraltruththatshecouldn’tleaveRalphtodiealoneshehadsomethingimportanttoaskofhim。ThisindeedwasGilbert’sbusinessaswellasherown。
Shecameverysoontowhatshewishedtospeakof。Iwantyoutoanswermeaquestion。It’saboutLordWarburton。
IthinkIguessyourquestion,Ralphansweredfromhisarm-chair,outofwhichhisthinlegsprotrudedatgreaterlengththanever。
Verypossiblyyouguessit。Pleasethenanswerit。
Oh,Idon’tsayIcandothat。
You’reintimatewithhim,shesaid。you’veagreatdealofobservationofhim。
Verytrue。Butthinkhowhemustdissimulate!
Whyshouldhedissimulate?That’snothisnature。
Ah,youmustrememberthatthecircumstancesarepeculiar,saidRalphwithanairofprivateamusement。
Toacertainextent-yes。Butishereallyinlove?
Verymuch,Ithink。Icanmakethatout。
Ah!saidIsabelwithacertaindryness。
Ralphlookedatherasifhismildhilarityhadbeentouchedwithmystification。Yousaythatasifyouweredisappointed。
Isabelgotup,slowlysmoothingherglovesandeyeingthemthoughtfully。
It’safterallnobusinessofmine。
You’reveryphilosophic,saidhercousin。Andtheninamoment:
MayIenquirewhatyou’retalkingabout?
Isabelstared。Ithoughtyouknew。LordWarburtontellsmehewants,ofallthingsintheworld,tomarryPansy。I’vetoldyouthatbefore,withoutelicitingacommentfromyou。Youmightriskonethismorning,Ithink。Isityourbeliefthathereallycaresforher?
Ah,forPansy,no!criedRalphverypositively。
Butyousaidjustnowhedid。
Ralphwaitedamoment。Thathecaredforyou,Mrs。Osmond。
Isabelshookherheadgravely。That’snonsense,youknow。
Ofcourseitis。ButthenonsenseisWarburton’s,notmine。
Thatwouldbeverytiresome。Shespoke,assheflatteredherself,withmuchsubtlety。
Ioughttotellyouindeed,Ralphwenton,thattomehehasdeniedit。
It’sverygoodofyoutotalkaboutittogether!Hashealsotoldyouthathe’sinlovewithPansy?
Hehasspokenverywellofher-veryproperly。Hehasletmeknow,ofcourse,thathethinksshewoulddoverywellatLockleigh。
Doeshereallythinkit?
Ah,whatWarburtonreallythinks-!saidRalph。
Isabelfelltosmoothingherglovesagain。theywerelong,looseglovesonwhichshecouldfreelyexpendherself。Soon,however,shelookedup,andthen,Ah,Ralph,yougivemenohelp!shecriedabruptlyandpassionately。
Itwasthefirsttimeshehadalludedtotheneedforhelp,andthewordsshookhercousinwiththeirviolence。Hegavealongmurmurofrelief,ofpity,oftenderness。itseemedtohimthatatlastthegulfbetweenthemhadbeenbridged。Itwasthisthatmadehimexclaiminamoment:Howunhappyyoumustbe!
Hehadnosoonerspokenthansherecoveredherself-possession,andthefirstuseshemadeofitwastopretendshehadnotheardhim。
WhenItalkofyourhelpingmeItalkgreatnonsense,shesaidwithaquicksmile。Theideaofmytroublingyouwithmydomesticembarrassments!Thematter’sverysimple。LordWarburtonmustgetonbyhimself。Ican’tundertaketoseehimthrough。
Heoughttosucceedeasily,saidRalph。
Isabeldebated。Yes-buthehasnotalwayssucceeded。
Verytrue。Youknow,however,howthatalwayssurprisedme。IsMissOsmondcapableofgivingusasurprise?
Itwillcomefromhim,rather。Iseemtoseethatafterallhe’llletthematterdrop。
He’lldonothingdishonourable,saidRalph。
I’mverysureofthat。Nothingcanbemorehonourablethanforhimtoleavethepoorchildalone。Shecaresforanotherperson,andit’scrueltoattempttobribeherbymagnificentofferstogivehimup。
Crueltotheotherpersonperhaps-theoneshecaresfor。ButWarburtonisn’tobligedtomindthat。
No,crueltoher,saidIsabel。ShewouldbeveryunhappyifsheweretoallowherselftobepersuadedtodesertpoorMr。Rosier。
Thatideaseemstoamuseyou。ofcourseyou’renotinlovewithhim。
Hehasthemerit-forPansy-ofbeinginlovewithPansy。ShecanseeataglancethatLordWarburtonisn’t。
He’dbeverygoodtoher,saidRalph。
Hehasbeengoodtoheralready。Fortunately,however,hehasnotsaidawordtodisturbher。Hecouldcomeandbidhergood-byeto-morrowwithperfectpropriety。
Howwouldyourhusbandlikethat?
Notatall。andhemayberightinnotlikingit。Onlyhemustobtainsatisfactionhimself。
Hashecommissionedyoutoobtainit?Ralphventuredtoask。
ItwasnaturalthatasanoldfriendofLordWarburton’s-anolderfriend,thatis,thanGilbert-Ishouldtakeaninterestinhisintentions。
Takeaninterestinhisrenouncingthem,youmean?
Isabelhesitated,frowningalittle。Letmeunderstand。Areyoupleadinghiscause?
Notintheleast。I’mverygladheshouldn’tbecomeyourstepdaughter’shusband。Itmakessuchaveryqueerrelationtoyou!
saidRalph,smiling。ButI’mrathernervouslestyourhusbandshouldthinkyouhaven’tpushedhimenough。
Isabelfoundherselfabletosmileaswellashe。Heknowsmewellenoughnottohaveexpectedmetopush。Hehimselfhasnointentionofpushing,Ipresume。I’mnotafraidIshallnotbeabletojustifymyself!shesaidlightly。
Hermaskhaddroppedforaninstant,butshehadputitonagain,toRalph’sinfinitedisappointment。Hehadcaughtaglimpseofhernaturalfaceandhewishedimmenselytolookintoit。Hehadanalmostsavagedesiretohearhercomplainofherhusband-hearhersaythatsheshouldbeheldaccountableforLordWarburton’sdefection。Ralphwascertainthatthiswashersituation。heknewbyinstinct,inadvance,theformthatinsuchaneventOsmond’sdispleasurewouldtake。Itcouldonlytakethemeanestandcruellest。HewouldhavelikedtowarnIsabelofit-toletherseeatleasthowhejudgedforherandhowheknew。ItlittlematteredthatIsabelwouldknowmuchbetter。itwasforhisownsatisfactionmorethanforhersthathelongedtoshowherhewasnotdeceived。HetriedandtriedagaintomakeherbetrayOsmond。hefeltcold-blooded,cruel,dishonourablealmost,indoingso。Butitscarcelymattered,forheonlyfailed。
Whathadshecomeforthen,andwhydidsheseemalmosttoofferhimachancetoviolatetheirtacitconvention?Whydidsheaskhimhisadviceifshegavehimnolibertytoanswerher?Howcouldtheytalkofherdomesticembarrassments,asitpleasedherhumorouslytodesignatethem,iftheprincipalfactorwasnottobementioned?Thesecontradictionswerethemselvesbutanindicationofhertrouble,andhercryforhelp,justbefore,wastheonlythinghewasboundtoconsider。You’llbedecidedlyatvariance,allthesame,hesaidinamoment。Andassheanswerednothing,lookingasifshescarceunderstood,You’llfindyourselvesthinkingverydifferently,hecontinued。
Thatmayeasilyhappen,amongthemostunitedcouples!Shetookupherparasol。hesawshewasnervous,afraidofwhathemightsay。
It’samatterwecanhardlyquarrelabout,however,sheadded。
foralmostalltheinterestisonhisside。That’sverynatural。
Pansy’safterallhisdaughter-notmine。Andsheputoutherhandtowishhimgood-bye。
Ralphtookaninwardresolutionthatsheshouldn’tleavehimwithouthislettingherknowthathekneweverything:itseemedtoogreatanopportunitytolose。Doyouknowwhathisinterestwillmakehimsay?heaskedashetookherhand。Sheshookherhead,ratherdryly-notdiscouragingly-andhewenton。Itwillmakehimsaythatyourwantofzealisowingtojealousy。Hestoppedamoment。herfacemadehimafraid。
Tojealousy?
Tojealousyofhisdaughter。
Sheblushedredandthrewbackherhead。You’renotkind,shesaidinavoicethathehadneverheardonherlips。
Befrankwithmeandyou’llsee,heanswered。
Butshemadenoreply。sheonlypulledherhandoutofhisown,whichhetriedstilltohold,andrapidlywithdrewfromtheroom。
ShemadeuphermindtospeaktoPansy,andshetookanoccasiononthesameday,goingtothegirl’sroombeforedinner。Pansywasalreadydressed。shewasalwaysinadvanceofthetime:itseemedtoillustrateherprettypatienceandthegracefulstillnesswithwhichshecouldsitandwait。Atpresentshewasseated,inherfresharray,beforethebed-roomfire。shehadblownouthercandlesonthecompletionofhertoilet,inaccordancewiththeeconomicalhabitsinwhichshehadbeenbroughtupandwhichshewasnowmorecarefulthanevertoobserve。sothattheroomwaslightedonlybyacoupleoflogs。TheroomsinPalazzoRoccanerawereasspaciousastheywerenumerous,andPansy’svirginalbowerwasanimmensechamberwithadark,heavily-timberedceiling。Itsdiminutivemistress,inthemidstofit,appearedbutaspeckofhumanity,andasshegotup,withquickdeference,towelcomeIsabel,thelatterwasmorethaneverstruckwithhershysincerity。Isabelhadadifficulttask-theonlythingwastoperformitassimplyaspossible。Shefeltbitterandangry,butshewarnedherselfagainstbetrayingthisheat。Shewasafraidevenoflookingtoograve,oratleasttoostern。shewasafraidofcausingalarm。ButPansyseemedtohaveguessedshehadcomemoreorlessasaconfessor。foraftershehadmovedthechairinwhichshehadbeensittingalittlenearertothefireandIsabelhadtakenherplaceinit,shekneeleddownonacushioninfrontofher,lookingupandrestingherclaspedhandsonherstepmother’sknees。WhatIsabelwishedtodowastohearfromherownlipsthathermindwasnotoccupiedwithLordWarburton。butifshedesiredtheassuranceshefeltherselfbynomeansatlibertytoprovokeit。Thegirl’sfatherwouldhavequalifiedthisasranktreachery。andindeedIsabelknewthatifPansyshoulddisplaythesmallestgermofadispositiontoencourageLordWarburtonherowndutywastoholdhertongue。Itwasdifficulttointerrogatewithoutappearingtosuggest。Pansy’ssupremesimplicity,aninnocenceevenmorecompletethanIsabelhadyetjudgedit,gavetothemosttentativeenquirysomethingoftheeffectofanadmonition。Asshekneltthereinthevaguefirelight,withherprettydressdimlyshining,herhandsfoldedhalfinappealandhalfinsubmission,hersofteyes,raisedandfixed,fulloftheseriousnessofthesituation,shelookedtoIsabellikeachildishmartyrdeckedoutforsacrificeandscarcelypresumingeventohopetoavertit。WhenIsabelsaidtoherthatshehadneveryetspokentoherofwhatmighthavebeengoingoninrelationtohergettingmarried,butthathersilencehadnotbeenindifferenceorignorance,hadonlybeenthedesiretoleaveheratliberty,Pansybentforward,raisedherfacenearerandnearer,andwithalittlemurmurwhichevidentlyexpressedadeeplonging,answeredthatshehadgreatlywishedhertospeakandthatshebeggedhertoadvisehernow。
It’sdifficultformetoadviseyou,Isabelreturned。Idon’tknowhowIcanundertakethat。That’sforyourfather。youmustgethisadviceand,aboveall,youmustactonit。
AtthisPansydroppedhereyes。foramomentshesaidnothing。I
thinkIshouldlikeyouradvicebetterthanpapa’s,shepresentlyremarked。
That’snotasitshouldbe,saidIsabelcoldly。Iloveyouverymuch,butyourfatherlovesyoubetter。
Itisn’tbecauseyouloveme-it’sbecauseyou’realady,Pansyansweredwiththeairofsayingsomethingveryreasonable。Aladycanadviseayounggirlbetterthanaman。
Iadviseyouthentopaythegreatestrespecttoyourfather’swishes。
Ahyes,saidthechildeagerly,Imustdothat。
ButifIspeaktoyounowaboutyourgettingmarriedit’snotforyourownsake,it’sformine,Isabelwenton。IfItrytolearnfromyouwhatyouexpect,whatyoudesire,it’sonlythatImayactaccordingly。
Pansystared,andthenveryquickly,WillyoudoeverythingI
want?sheasked。
BeforeIsayyesImustknowwhatsuchthingsare。
PansypresentlytoldherthattheonlythingshewantedinlifewastomarryMr。Rosier。Hehadaskedherandshehadtoldhimshewoulddosoifherpapawouldallowit。Nowherpapawouldn’tallowit。
Verywellthen,it’simpossible,Isabelpronounced。
Yes,it’simpossible,saidPansywithoutasighandwiththesameextremeattentioninherclearlittleface。
Youmustthinkofsomethingelsethen,Isabelwenton。butPansy,sighingatthis,toldherthatshehadattemptedthatfeatwithouttheleastsuccess。
Youthinkofthosewhothinkofyou,shesaidwithafaintsmile。IknowMr。Rosierthinksofme。
Heoughtnotto,saidIsabelloftily。Yourfatherhasexpresslyrequestedheshouldn’t。
Hecan’thelpit,becauseheknowsIthinkofhim。
Youshouldn’tthinkofhim。There’ssomeexcuseforhim,perhaps。
butthere’snoneforyou。
Iwishyouwouldtrytofindone,thegirlexclaimedasifshewereprayingtotheMadonna。
Ishouldbeverysorrytoattemptit,saidtheMadonnawithunusualfrigidity。Ifyouknewsomeoneelsewasthinkingofyou,wouldyouthinkofhim?
NoonecanthinkofmeasMr。Rosierdoes。noonehastheright。
Ah,butIdon’tadmitMr。Rosier’sright!Isabelhypocriticallycried。
Pansyonlygazedather,evidentlymuchpuzzled。andIsabel,takingadvantageofit,begantorepresenttoherthewretchedconsequencesofdisobeyingherfather。AtthisPansystoppedherwiththeassurancethatshewouldneverdisobeyhim,wouldnevermarrywithouthisconsent。Andsheannounced,intheserenest,simplesttone,that,thoughshemightnevermarryMr。Rosier,shewouldneverceasetothinkofhim。Sheappearedtohaveacceptedtheideaofeternalsingleness。butIsabelofcoursewasfreetoreflectthatshehadnoconceptionofitsmeaning。Shewasperfectlysincere。shewaspreparedtogiveupherlover。Thismightseemanimportantsteptowardtakinganother,butforPansy,evidently,itfailedtoleadinthatdirection。Shefeltnobitternesstowardherfather。therewasnobitternessinherheart。therewasonlythesweetnessoffidelitytoEdwardRosier,andastrange,exquisiteintimationthatshecouldproveitbetterbyremainingsinglethanevenbymarryinghim。
Yourfatherwouldlikeyoutomakeabettermarriage,saidIsabel。
Mr。Rosier’sfortuneisnotatalllarge。
Howdoyoumeanbetter-ifthatwouldbegoodenough?AndIhavemyselfsolittlemoney。whyshouldIlookforafortune?
Yourhavingsolittleisareasonforlookingformore。WithwhichIsabelwasgratefulforthedimnessoftheroom。shefeltasifherfacewerehideouslyinsincere。ItwaswhatshewasdoingforOsmond。
itwaswhatonehadtodoforOsmond!Pansy’ssolemneyes,fixedonherown,almostembarrassedher。shewasashamedtothinkshehadmadesolightofthegirl’spreference。
Whatshouldyoulikemetodo?hercompanionsoftlydemanded。
Thequestionwasaterribleone,andIsabeltookrefugeintimorousvagueness。Torememberallthepleasureit’sinyourpowertogiveyourfather。
Tomarrysomeoneelse,youmean-ifheshouldaskme?
ForamomentIsabel’sanswercauseditselftobewaitedfor。thensheheardherselfutteritinthestillnessthatPansy’sattentionseemedtomake。
Yes-tomarrysomeoneelse。
Thechild’seyesgrewmorepenetrating。Isabelbelievedshewasdoubtinghersincerity,andtheimpressiontookforcefromherslowlygettingupfromhercushion。Shestoodthereamomentwithhersmallhandsunclaspedandthenquaveredout:Well,Ihopenoonewillaskme!
Therehasbeenaquestionofthat。Someoneelsewouldhavebeenreadytoaskyou。
don’tthinkhecanhavebeenready,saidPansy。
Itwouldappearso-ifhehadbeensurehe’dsucceed。
Ifhehadbeensure?Thenhewasn’tready!
Isabelthoughtthisrathersharp。shealsogotupandstoodamomentlookingintothefire。LordWarburtonhasshownyougreatattention,
sheresumed。ofcourseyouknowit’sofhimIspeak。Shefoundherself,againstherexpectation,almostplacedinthepositionofjustifyingherself。whichledhertointroducethisnoblemanmorecrudelythanshehadintended。
Hehasbeenverykindtome,andIlikehimverymuch。Butifyoumeanthathe’llproposeformeIthinkyou’remistaken。
PerhapsIam。Butyourfatherwouldlikeitextremely。
Pansyshookherheadwithalittlewisesmile。LordWarburtonwon’tproposesimplytopleasepapa。
Yourfatherwouldlikeyoutoencouragehim,Isabelwentonmechanically。
HowcanIencouragehim?
don’tknow。Yourfathermusttellyouthat。
Pansysaidnothingforamoment。sheonlycontinuedtosmileasifshewereinpossessionofabrightassurance。There’snodanger-nodanger!shedeclaredatlast。
Therewasaconvictioninthewayshesaidthis,andafelicityinherbelievingit,whichconducedtoIsabel’sawkwardness。Shefeltaccusedofdishonesty,andtheideawasdisgusting。Torepairherself-respectshewasonthepointofsayingthatLordWarburtonhadletherknowthattherewasadanger。Butshedidn’t。sheonlysaid-inherembarrassmentratherwideofthemark-thathesurelyhadbeenmostkind,mostfriendly。
Yes,hehasbeenverykind,Pansyanswered。That’swhatIlikehimfor。
Whythenisthedifficultysogreat?
I’vealwaysfeltsureofhisknowingthatIdon’twant-whatdidyousayIshoulddo?-toencouragehim。HeknowsIdon’twanttomarry,andhewantsmetoknowthathethereforewon’ttroubleme。That’sthemeaningofhiskindness。It’sasifhesaidtome:’Ilikeyouverymuch,butifitdoesn’tpleaseyouI’llneversayitagain。’Ithinkthat’sverykind,verynoble,Pansywentonwithdeepeningpositiveness。Thatisallwe’vesaidtoeachother。Andhedoesn’tcareformeeither。Ahno,there’snodanger。
Isabelwastouchedwithwonderatthedepthsofperceptionofwhichthissubmissivelittlepersonwascapable。shefeltafraidofPansy’swisdom-beganalmosttoretreatbeforeit。Youmusttellyourfatherthat,sheremarkedreservedly。
IthinkI’drathernot,Pansyunreservedlyanswered。
Yououghtn’ttolethimhavefalsehopes。
Perhapsnot。butitwillbegoodformethatheshould。SolongashebelievesthatLordWarburtonintendsanythingofthekindyousay,papawon’tproposeanyoneelse。Andthatwillbeanadvantageforme,saidthechildverylucidly。
Therewassomethingbrilliantinherlucidity,anditmadehercompaniondrawalongbreath。Itrelievedthisfriendofaheavyresponsibility。Pansyhadasufficientilluminationofherown,andIsabelfeltthatsheherselfjustnowhadnolighttosparefromhersmallstock。NeverthelessitstillclungtoherthatshemustbeloyaltoOsmond,thatshewasonherhonourindealingwithhisdaughter。
Undertheinfluenceofthissentimentshethrewoutanothersuggestionbeforesheretired-asuggestionwithwhichitseemedtoherthatsheshouldhavedoneherutmost。Yourfathertakesforgrantedatleastthatyouwouldliketomarryanobleman。
Pansystoodintheopendoorway。shehaddrawnbackthecurtainforIsabeltopass。IthinkMr。Rosierlookslikeone!sheremarkedverygravely。
CHAPTER46
LordWarburtonwasnotseeninMrs。Osmond’sdrawing-roomforseveraldays,andIsabelcouldn’tfailtoobservethatherhusbandsaidnothingtoherabouthavingreceivedaletterfromhim。Shecouldn’tfailtoobserve,either,thatOsmondwasinastateofexpectancyandthat,thoughitwasnotagreeabletohimtobetrayit,hethoughttheirdistinguishedfriendkepthimwaitingquitetoolong。Attheendoffourdayshealludedtohisabsence。
WhathasbecomeofWarburton?Whatdoeshemeanbytreatingonelikeatradesmanwithabill?
Iknownothingabouthim,Isabelsaid。IsawhimlastFridayattheGermanball。Hetoldmethenthathemeanttowritetoyou。
Hehasneverwrittentome。
SoIsupposed,fromyournothavingtoldme。
He’sanoddfish,saidOsmondcomprehensively。AndonIsabel’smakingnorejoinderhewentontoenquirewhetherittookhislordshipfivedaystoinditealetter。Doesheformhiswordswithsuchdifficulty?
Idon’tknow,Isabelwasreducedtoreplying。I’veneverhadaletterfromhim。
Neverhadaletter?Ihadanideathatyouwereatonetimeinintimatecorrespondence。
Sheansweredthatthishadnotbeenthecase,andlettheconversationdrop。Onthemorrow,however,comingintothedrawing-roomlateintheafternoon,herhusbandtookitupagain。
WhenLordWarburtontoldyouofhisintentionofwritingwhatdidyousaytohim?heasked。
Shejustfaltered。IthinkItoldhimnottoforgetit。
Didyoubelievetherewasadangerofthat?
Asyousay,he’sanoddfish。
Apparentlyhehasforgottenit,saidOsmond。BesogoodastoremindShouldyoulikemetowritetohim?shedemanded。
I’venoobjectionwhatever。
Youexpecttoomuchofme。
Ahyes,Iexpectagreatdealofyou。
I’mafraidIshalldisappointyou,saidIsabel。
Myexpectationshavesurvivedagooddealofdisappointment。
OfcourseIknowthat。ThinkhowImusthavedisappointedmyself!
IfyoureallywishhandslaidonLordWarburtonyoumustlaythemyourself。
ForacoupleofminutesOsmondanswerednothing。thenhesaid:Thatwon’tbeeasy,withyouworkingagainstme。
Isabelstarted。shefeltherselfbeginningtotremble。Hehadawayoflookingatherthroughhalf-closedeyelids,asifhewerethinkingofherbutscarcelysawher,whichseemedtohertohaveawonderfullycruelintention。Itappearedtorecognizeherasadisagreeablenecessityofthought,buttoignoreherforthetimeasapresence。Thateffecthadneverbeensomarkedasnow。Ithinkyouaccusemeofsomethingverybase,shereturned。
Iaccuseyouofnotbeingtrustworthy。Ifhedoesn’tafterallcomeforwarditwillbebecauseyou’vekepthimoff。Idon’tknowthatit’sbase:itisthekindofthingawomanalwaysthinksshemaydo。I’venodoubtyou’vethefinestideasaboutit。
ItoldyouIwoulddowhatIcould,shewenton。
Yes,thatgainedyoutime。
Itcameoverher,afterhehadsaidthis,thatshehadoncethoughthimbeautiful。Howmuchyoumustwanttomakesureofhim!
sheexclaimedinamoment。
Shehadnosoonerspokenthansheperceivedthefullreachofherwords,ofwhichshehadnotbeenconsciousinutteringthem。TheymadeacomparisonbetweenOsmondandherself,recalledthefactthatshehadonceheldthiscovetedtreasureinherhandandfeltherselfrichenoughtoletitfall。Amomentaryexultationtookpossessionofher-ahorribledelightinhavingwoundedhim。forhisfaceinstantlytoldherthatnoneoftheforceofherexclamationwaslost。
Heexpressednothingotherwise,however。heonlysaidquickly:Yes,I
wantitimmensely。
Atthismomentaservantcameintousheravisitor,andhewasfollowedthenextbyLordWarburton,whoreceivedavisiblecheckonseeingOsmond。Helookedrapidlyfromthemasterofthehousetothemistress。amovementthatseemedtodenoteareluctancetointerruptorevenaperceptionofominousconditions。Thenheadvanced,withhisEnglishaddress,inwhichavagueshynessseemedtoofferitselfasanelementofgoodbreeding。inwhichtheonlydefectwasadifficultyinachievingtransitions。Osmondwasembarrassed。hefoundnothingtosay。butIsabelremarked,promptlyenough,thattheyhadbeenintheactoftalkingabouttheirvisitor。Uponthisherhusbandaddedthattheyhadn’tknownwhatwasbecomeofhim-theyhadbeenafraidhehadgoneaway。No,heexplained,smilingandlookingatOsmond。I’monlyonthepointofgoing。AndthenhementionedthathefoundhimselfsuddenlyrecalledtoEngland:heshouldstartonthemorroworthedayafter。I’mawfullysorrytoleavepoorTouchett!heendedbyexclaiming。
Foramomentneitherofhiscompanionsspoke。Osmondonlyleanedbackinhischair,listening。Isabeldidn’tlookathim。shecouldonlyfancyhowhelooked。Hereyeswereontheirvisitor’sface,wheretheywerethemorefreetorestthatthoseofhislordshipcarefullyavoidedthem。YetIsabelwassurethathadshemethisglanceshewouldhavefounditexpressive。YouhadbettertakepoorTouchettwithyou,sheheardherhusbandsay,lightlyenough,inamoment。
Hehadbetterwaitforwarmerweather,LordWarburtonanswered。I
shouldn’tadvisehimtotraveljustnow。
Hesatthereaquarterofanhour,talkingasifhemightnotsoonseethemagain-unlessindeedtheyshouldcometoEngland,acoursehestronglyrecommended。Whyshouldn’ttheycometoEnglandintheautumn?-thatstruckhimasaveryhappythought。Itwouldgivehimsuchpleasuretodowhathecouldforthem-tohavethemcomeandspendamonthwithhim。Osmond,byhisownadmission,hadbeentoEnglandbutonce。whichwasanabsurdstateofthingsforamanofhisleisureandintelligence。Itwasjustthecountryforhim-hewouldbesuretogetonwellthere。ThenLordWarburtonaskedIsabelifsherememberedwhatagoodtimeshehadhadthereandifshedidn’twanttotryitagain。Didn’tshewanttoseeGardencourtoncemore?
Gardencourtwasreallyverygood。Touchettdidn’ttakepropercareofit,butitwasthesortofplaceyoucouldhardlyspoilbylettingitalone。Whydidn’ttheycomeandpayTouchettavisit?Hesurelymusthaveaskedthem。Hadn’taskedthem?Whatanill-manneredwretch!-andLordWarburtonpromisedtogivethemasterofGardencourtapieceofhismind。Ofcourseitwasamereaccident。
hewouldbedelightedtohavethem。SpendingamonthwithTouchettandamonthwithhimself,andseeingalltherestofthepeopletheymustknowthere,theyreallywouldn’tfindithalfbad。LordWarburtonaddedthatitwouldamuseMissOsmondaswell,whohadtoldhimthatshehadneverbeentoEnglandandwhomhehadassureditwasacountryshedeservedtosee。Ofcourseshedidn’tneedtogotoEnglandtobeadmired-thatwasherfateeverywhere。butshewouldbeanimmensesuccessthere,shecertainlywould,ifthatwasanyinducement。Heaskedifshewerenotathome:couldn’thesaygood-bye?Notthathelikedgood-byes-healwaysfunkedthem。WhenheleftEnglandtheotherdayhehadn’tsaidgood-byetoatwo-leggedcreature。HehadhadhalfamindtoleaveRomewithouttroublingMrs。Osmondforafinalinterview。Whatcouldbemoredrearythanfinalinterviews?Oneneversaidthethingsonewanted-onerememberedthemallanhourafterwards。Ontheotherhandoneusuallysaidalotofthingsoneshouldn’t,simplyfromasensethatonehadtosaysomething。Suchasensewasupsetting。itmuddledone’swits。Hehaditatpresent,andthatwastheeffectitproducedonhim。IfMrs。Osmonddidn’tthinkhespokeasheoughtshemustsetitdowntoagitation。itwasnolightthingtopartwithMrs。Osmond。Hewasreallyverysorrytobegoing。Hehadthoughtofwritingtoherinsteadofcalling-buthewouldwritetoheratanyrate,totellheralotofthingsthatwouldbesuretooccurtohimassoonashehadleftthehouse。TheymustthinkseriouslyaboutcomingtoLockleigh。
Iftherewasanythingawkwardintheconditionsofhisvisitorintheannouncementofhisdepartureitfailedtocometothesurface。
LordWarburtontalkedabouthisagitation。butheshoweditinnoothermanner,andIsabelsawthatsincehehaddeterminedonaretreathewascapableofexecutingitgallantly。Shewasverygladforhim。
shelikedhimquitewellenoughtowishhimtoappeartocarryathingoff。Hewoulddothatonanyoccasion-notfromimpudencebutsimplyfromthehabitofsuccess。andIsabelfeltitoutofherhusband’spowertofrustratethisfaculty。Acomplexoperation,asshesatthere,wentoninhermind。Ononesideshelistenedtotheirvisitor。
saidwhatwaspropertohim。read,moreorless,betweenthelinesofwhathesaidhimself。andwonderedhowhewouldhavespokenifhehadfoundheralone。OntheothershehadaperfectconsciousnessofOsmond’semotion。Shefeltalmostsorryforhim。hewascondemnedtothesharppainoflosswithoutthereliefofcursing。Hehadhadagreathope,andnow,ashesawitvanishintosmoke,hewasobligedtositandsmileandtwirlhisthumbs。Notthathetroubledhimselftosmileverybrightly。hetreatedtheirfriendonthewholetoasvacantacountenanceassocleveramancouldverywellwear。ItwasindeedapartofOsmond’sclevernessthathecouldlookconsummatelyuncompromised。Hispresentappearance,however,wasnotaconfessionofdisappointment。itwassimplyapartofOsmond’shabitualsystem,whichwastobeinexpressiveexactlyinproportionashewasreallyintent。Hehadbeenintentonthisprizefromthefirst。buthehadneverallowedhiseagernesstoirradiatehisrefinedface。Hehadtreatedhispossibleson-in-lawashetreatedeveryone-withanairofbeinginterestedinhimonlyforhisownadvantage,notforanyprofittoapersonalreadysogenerally,soperfectlyprovidedasGilbertOsmond。Hewouldgivenosignnowofaninwardragewhichwastheresultofavanishedprospectofgain-notthefaintestnorsubtlest。
Isabelcouldbesureofthat,ifitwasanysatisfactiontoher。
Strangely,verystrangely,itwasasatisfaction。shewishedLordWarburtontotriumphbeforeherhusband,andatthesametimeshewishedherhusbandtobeverysuperiorbeforeLordWarburton。
Osmond,inhisway,wasadmirable。hehad,liketheirvisitor,theadvantageofanacquiredhabit。Itwasnotthatofsucceeding,butitwassomethingalmostasgood-thatofnotattempting。Asheleanedbackinhisplace,listeningbutvaguelytotheother’sfriendlyoffersandsuppressedexplanationsifitwereonlypropertoassumethattheywereaddressedessentiallytohiswife-hehadatleastsincesolittleelsewaslefthimthecomfortofthinkinghowwellhepersonallyhadkeptoutofit,andhowtheairofindifference,whichhewasnowabletowear,hadtheaddedbeautyofconsistency。Itwassomethingtobeabletolookasiftheleave-taker’smovementshadnorelationtohisownmind。Thelatterdidwell,certainly。butOsmond’sperformancewasinitsverynaturemorefinished。LordWarburton’spositionwasafterallaneasyone。therewasnoreasonintheworldwhyheshouldn’tleaveRome。Hehadhadbeneficentinclinations,buttheyhadstoppedshortoffruition。hehadnevercommittedhimself,andhishonourwassafe。OsmondappearedtotakebutamoderateinterestintheproposalthattheyshouldgoandstaywithhimandinhisallusiontothesuccessPansymightextractfromtheirvisit。Hemurmuredarecognition,butleftIsabeltosaythatitwasamatterrequiringgraveconsideration。Isabel,evenwhileshemadethisremark,couldseethegreatvistawhichhadsuddenlyopenedoutinherhusband’smind,withPansy’slittlefiguremarchingupthemiddleofit。
LordWarburtonhadaskedleavetobidgood-byetoPansy,butneitherIsabelnorOsmondhadmadeanymotiontosendforher。Hehadtheairofgivingoutthathisvisitmustbeshort。hesatonasmallchair,asifitwereonlyforamoment,keepinghishatinhishand。
Buthestayedandstayed。Isabelwonderedwhathewaswaitingfor。ShebelieveditwasnottoseePansy。shehadanimpressionthatonthewholehewouldrathernotseePansy。Itwasofcoursetoseeherselfalone-hehadsomethingtosaytoher。Isabelhadnogreatwishtohearit,forshewasafraiditwouldbeanexplanation,andshecouldperfectlydispensewithexplanations。Osmond,however,presentlygotup,likeamanofgoodtastetowhomithadoccurredthatsoinveterateavisitormightwishtosayjustthelastwordofalltotheladies。I’vealettertowritebeforedinner,hesaid。youmustexcuseme。I’llseeifmydaughter’sdisengaged,andifsheissheshallknowyou’rehere。OfcoursewhenyoucometoRomeyou’llalwayslookusup。Mrs。OsmondwilltalktoyouabouttheEnglishexpedition:shedecidesallthosethings。
Thenodwithwhich,insteadofahand-shake,hewoundupthislittlespeechwasperhapsratherameagreformofsalutation。butonthewholeitwasalltheoccasiondemanded。IsabelreflectedthatafterhelefttheroomLordWarburtonwouldhavenopretextforsaying,Yourhusband’sveryangry。whichwouldhavebeenextremelydisagreeabletoher。Nevertheless,ifhehaddoneso,shewouldhavesaid:Oh,don’tbeanxious。Hedoesn’thateyou:it’smethathehates!
Itwasonlywhentheyhadbeenleftalonetogetherthatherfriendshowedacertainvagueawkwardness-sittingdowninanotherchair,handlingtwoorthreeoftheobjectsthatwerenearhim。Ihopehe’llmakeMissOsmondcome,hepresentlyremarked。Iwantverymuchtoseeher。
I’mgladit’sthelasttime,saidIsabel。
SoamI。Shedoesn’tcareforme。
No,shedoesn’tcareforyou。
Idon’twonderatit,hereturned。Thenheaddedwithinconsequence:
You’llcometoEngland,won’tyou?
Ithinkwehadbetternot。
Ah,youowemeavisit。Don’tyourememberthatyouweretohavecometoLockleighonce,andyouneverdid?
Everything’schangedsincethen,saidIsabel。
Notchangedfortheworse,surely-asfaraswe’reconcerned。Toseeyouundermyroof-andhehungfirebutaninstant-wouldbeagreatsatisfaction。
Shehadfearedanexplanation。butthatwastheonlyonethatoccurred。TheytalkedalittleofRalph,andinanothermomentPansycamein,alreadydressedfordinnerandwithalittleredspotineithercheek。SheshookhandswithLordWarburtonandstoodlookingupintohisfacewithafixedsmile-asmilethatIsabelknew,thoughhislordshipprobablyneversuspectedit,tobenearakintoaburstoftears。
I’mgoingaway,hesaid。Iwanttobidyougood-bye。
Good-bye,LordWarburton。Hervoiceperceptiblytrembled。
AndIwanttotellyouhowmuchIwishyoumaybeveryhappy。
Thankyou,LordWarburton,Pansyanswered。
HelingeredamomentandgaveaglanceatIsabel。Yououghttobeveryhappy-you’vegotaguardianangel。
I’msureIshallbehappy,saidPansyinthetoneofapersonwhosecertaintieswerealwayscheerful。
Suchaconvictionasthatwilltakeyouagreatway。Butifitshouldeverfailyou,remember-remember-Andherinterlocutorstammeredalittle。Thinkofmesometimes,youknow!hesaidwithavaguelaugh。ThenheshookhandswithIsabelinsilence,andpresentlyhewasgone。
Whenhehadlefttheroomsheexpectedaneffusionoftearsfromherstepdaughter。butPansyinfacttreatedhertosomethingverydifferent。
Ithinkyouaremyguardianangel!sheexclaimedverysweetly。
Isabelshookherhead。I’mnotanangelofanykind。I’matthemostyourgoodfriend。
You’reaverygoodfriendthen-tohaveaskedpapatobegentlewithme。
I’veaskedyourfathernothing,saidIsabelwondering。
Hetoldmejustnowtocometothedrawing-room,andthenhegavemeaverykindkiss。
Ah,saidIsabel,thatwasquitehisownidea!
Sherecognizedtheideaperfectly。itwasverycharacteristic,andshewastoseeagreatdealmoreofit。EvenwithPansyhecouldn’tputhimselftheleastinthewrong。Theywerediningoutthatday,andaftertheirdinnertheywenttoanotherentertainment。sothatitwasnottilllateintheeveningthatIsabelsawhimalone。WhenPansykissedhimbeforegoingtobedhereturnedherembracewithevenmorethanhisusualmunificence,andIsabelwonderedifhemeantitasahintthathisdaughterhadbeeninjuredbythemachinationsofherstepmother。Itwasapartialexpression,atanyrate,ofwhathecontinuedtoexpectofhiswife。ShewasabouttofollowPansy,butheremarkedthathewishedshewouldremain。hehadsomethingtosaytoher。Thenhewalkedaboutthedrawing-roomalittle,whileshestoodwaitinginhercloak。
Idon’tunderstandwhatyouwishtodo,hesaidinamoment。I
shouldliketoknow-sothatImayknowhowtoact。
JustnowIwishtogotobed。I’mverytired。
Sitdownandrest。Ishallnotkeepyoulong。Notthere-takeacomfortableplace。Andhearrangedamultitudeofcushionsthatwerescatteredinpicturesquedisorderuponavastdivan。Thiswasnot,however,wheresheseatedherself。shedroppedintothenearestchair。Thefirehadgoneout。thelightsinthegreatroomwerefew。
Shedrewhercloakabouther。shefeltmortallycold。Ithinkyou’retryingtohumiliateme,Osmondwenton。It’samostabsurdundertaking。
Ihaven’ttheleastideawhatyoumean,shereturned。
You’veplayedaverydeepgame。you’vemanageditbeautifully。
WhatisitthatI’vemanaged?
You’venotquitesettledit,however。weshallseehimagain。
Andhestoppedinfrontofher,withhishandsinhispockets,lookingdownatherthoughtfully,inhisusualway,whichseemedmeanttoletherknowthatshewasnotanobject,butonlyaratherdisagreeableincident,ofthought。
IfyoumeanthatLordWarburton’sunderanobligationtocomebackyou’rewrong,Isabelsaid。He’sundernonewhatever。
That’sjustwhatIcomplainof。ButwhenIsayhe’llcomebackI
don’tmeanhe’llcomefromasenseofduty。
There’snothingelsetomakehim。IthinkhehasquiteexhaustedRome。
Ahno,that’sashallowjudgement。Rome’sinexhaustible。AndOsmondbegantowalkaboutagain。However,aboutthatperhapsthere’snohurry,headded。It’sratheragoodideaofhisthatweshouldgotoEngland。IfitwerenotforthefearoffindingyourcousinthereI
thinkIshouldtrytopersuadeyou。
Itmaybethatyou’llnotfindmycousin,saidIsabel。
Ishouldliketobesureofit。However,Ishallbeassureaspossible。AtthesametimeIshouldliketoseehishouse,thatyoutoldmesomuchaboutatonetime:whatdoyoucallit?-Gardencourt。
Itmustbeacharmingthing。Andthen,youknow,I’veadevotiontothememoryofyouruncle:youmademetakeagreatfancytohim。I
shouldliketoseewherehelivedanddied。Thatindeedisadetail。
Yourfriendwasright。PansyoughttoseeEngland。
I’venodoubtshewouldenjoyit,saidIsabel。
Butthat’salongtimehence。nextautumn’sfaroff,Osmondcontinued。andmeantimetherearethingsthatmorenearlyinterestus。Doyouthinkmesoveryproud?hesuddenlyasked。
Ithinkyouverystrange。
Youdon’tunderstandme。
No,notevenwhenyouinsultme。
Idon’tinsultyou。I’mincapableofit。Imerelyspeakofcertainfacts,andiftheallusion’saninjurytoyouthefault’snotmine。It’ssurelyafactthatyouhavekeptallthismatterquiteinyourownhands。
AreyougoingbacktoLordWarburton?Isabelasked。I’mverytiredofhisname。
Youshallhearitagainbeforewe’vedonewithit。
Shehadspokenofhisinsultingher,butitsuddenlyseemedtoherthatthisceasedtobeapain。Hewasgoingdown-down。thevisionofsuchafallmadeheralmostgiddy:thatwastheonlypain。Hewastoostrange,toodifferent。hedidn’ttouchher。Still,theworkingofhismorbidpassionwasextraordinary,andshefeltarisingcuriositytoknowinwhatlighthesawhimselfjustified。ImightsaytoyouthatIjudgeyou’venothingtosaytomethat’sworthhearing,
shereturnedinamoment。ButIshouldperhapsbewrong。There’sathingthatwouldbeworthmyhearing-toknowintheplainestwordsofwhatitisyouaccuseme。
OfhavingpreventedPansy’smarriagetoWarburton。Arethosewordsplainenough?
Onthecontrary,Itookagreatinterestinit。Itoldyouso。
andwhenyoutoldmethatyoucountedonme-thatIthinkwaswhatyousaid-Iacceptedtheobligation。Iwasafooltodoso,butIdidit。
Youpretendedtodoit,andyouevenpretendedreluctancetomakememorewillingtotrustyou。Thenyoubegantouseyouringenuitytogethimoutoftheway。
IthinkIseewhatyoumean,saidIsabel。
Where’stheletteryoutoldmehehadwrittenme?herhusbanddemanded。
Ihaven’ttheleastidea。Ihaven’taskedhim。
Youstoppeditontheway,saidOsmond。
Isabelslowlygotup。standingthereinherwhitecloak,whichcoveredhertoherfeet,shemighthaverepresentedtheangelofdisdain,firstcousintothatofpity。Oh,Gilbert,foramanwhowassofine-!sheexclaimedinalongmurmur。
Iwasneversofineasyou。You’vedoneeverythingyouwanted。
You’vegothimoutofthewaywithoutappearingtodoso,andyou’veplacedmeinthepositioninwhichyouwishedtoseeme-thatofamanwhohastriedtomarryhisdaughtertoalord,buthasgrotesquelyfailed。
Pansydoesn’tcareforhim。She’sverygladhe’sgone,Isabelsaid。
Thathasnothingtodowiththematter。
Andhedoesn’tcareforPansy。
Thatwon’tdo。youtoldmehedid。Idon’tknowwhyyouwantedthisparticularsatisfaction,Osmondcontinued。youmighthavetakensomeother。Itdoesn’tseemtomethatI’vebeenpresumptuous-thatIhavetakentoomuchforgranted。I’vebeenverymodestaboutit,veryquiet。Theideadidn’toriginatewithme。HebegantoshowthathelikedherbeforeIeverthoughtofit。Ileftitalltoyou。
Yes,youwereverygladtoleaveittome。Afterthisyoumustattendtosuchthingsyourself。
Helookedatheramoment。thenheturnedaway。Ithoughtyouwereveryfondofmydaughter。
I’veneverbeenmoresothanto-day。
Youraffectionisattendedwithimmenselimitations。However,thatperhapsisnatural。
Isthisallyouwishedtosaytome?Isabelasked,takingacandlethatstoodononeofthetables。
Areyousatisfied?AmIsufficientlydisappointed?
Idon’tthinkthatonthewholeyou’redisappointed。You’vehadanotheropportunitytotrytostupefyme。
It’snotthat。It’sprovedthatPansycanaimhigh。
PoorlittlePansy!saidIsabelassheturnedawaywithhercandle。
CHAPTER47
ItwasfromHenriettaStackpolethatshelearnedhowCasparGoodwoodhadcometoRome。aneventthattookplacethreedaysafterLordWarburton’sdeparture。ThislatterfacthadbeenprecededbyanincidentofmgIsomeimportancetoIsabel-thetemporaryabsence,onceagain,ofMadameMerle,whohadgonetoNaplestostaywithafriend,thehappypossessorofavillaatPosilippo。MadameMerlehadceasedtoministertoIsabel’shappiness,whofoundherselfwonderingwhetherthemostdiscreetofwomenmightnotalsobychancebethemostdangerous。Sometimes,atnight,shehadstrangevisions。sheseemedtoseeherhusbandandherfriend-hisfriend-indim,indistinguishablecombination。Itseemedtoherthatshehadnotdonewithher。thisladyhadsomethinginreserve。Isabel’simaginationapplieditselfactivelytothiselusivepoint,buteverynowandthenitwascheckedbyanamelessdread,sothatwhenthecharmingwomanwasawayfromRomeshehadalmostaconsciousnessofrespite。ShehadalreadylearnedfromMissStackpolethatCasparGoodwoodwasinEurope,HenriettahavingwrittentomakeitknowntoherimmediatelyaftermeetinghiminParis。HehimselfneverwrotetoIsabel,andthoughhewasinEuropeshethoughtitverypossiblehemightnotdesiretoseeher。Theirlastinterview,beforehermarriage,hadhadquitethecharacterofacompleterupture。ifsherememberedrightlyhehadsaidhewishedtotakehislastlookather。
Sincethenhehadbeenthemostdiscordantsurvivalofherearliertime-theonlyoneinfactwithwhichapermanentpainwasassociated。Hehadleftherthatmorningwithasenseofthemostsuperfluousofshocks:itwaslikeacollisionbetweenvesselsinbroaddaylight。Therehadbeennomist,nohiddencurrenttoexcuseit,andsheherselfhadonlywishedtosteerwide。Hehadbumpedagainstherprow,however,whileherhandwasonthetiller,and-tocompletethemetaphor-hadgiventhelightervesselastrainwhichstilloccasionallybetrayeditselfinafaintcreaking。Ithadbeenhorridtoseehim,becauseherepresentedtheonlyseriousharmthattoherbeliefshehadeverdoneintheworld:hewastheonlypersonwithanunsatisfiedclaimonher。Shehadmadehimunhappy,shecouldn’thelpit。andhisunhappinesswasagrimreality。Shehadcriedwithrage,afterhehadlefther,at-shehardlyknewwhat:shetriedtothinkithadbeenathiswantofconsideration。Hehadcometoherwithhisunhappinesswhenherownblisswassoperfect。hehaddonehisbesttodarkenthebrightnessofthosepurerays。Hehadnotbeenviolent,andyettherehadbeenaviolenceintheimpression。Therehadbeenaviolenceatanyrateinsomethingsomewhere。perhapsitwasonlyinherownfitofweepingandinthatafter-senseofthesamewhichhadlastedthreeorfourdays。
Theeffectofhisfinalappealhadinshortfadedaway,andallthefirstyearofhermarriagehehaddroppedoutofherbooks。Hewasathanklesssubjectofreference。itwasdisagreeabletohavetothinkofapersonwhowassoreandsombreaboutyouandwhomyoucouldyetdonothingtorelieve。Itwouldhavebeendifferentifshehadbeenabletodoubt,evenalittle,ofhisunreconciledstate,asshedoubtedofLordWarburton’s。unfortunatelyitwasbeyondquestion,andthisaggressive,uncompromisinglookofitwasjustwhatmadeitunattractive。Shecouldneversaytoherselfthatherewasasuffererwhohadcompensations,asshewasabletosayinthecaseofherEnglishsuitor。ShehadnofaithinMr。Goodwood’scompensationsandnoesteemforthem。Acotton-factorywasnotacompensationforanything-leastofallforhavingfailedtomarryIsabelArcher。Andyet,beyondthat,shehardlyknewwhathehad-saveofcoursehisintrinsicqualities。Oh,hewasintrinsicenough。sheneverthoughtofhisevenlookingforartificialaids。
Ifheextendedhisbusiness-that,tothebestofherbelief,wastheonlyformexertioncouldtakewithhim-itwouldbebecauseitwasanenterprisingthing,orgoodforthebusiness。notintheleastbecausehemighthopeitwouldoverlaythepast。Thisgavehisfigureakindofbarenessandbleaknesswhichmadetheaccidentofmeetingitinmemoryorinapprehensionapeculiarconcussion。itwasdeficientinthesocialdraperycommonlymuffling,inanovercivilizedage,thesharpnessofhumancontacts。Hisperfectsilence,moreover,thefactthatsheneverheardfromhimandveryseldomheardanymentionofhim,deepenedthisimpressionofhisloneliness。SheaskedLilyfornewsofhim,fromtimetotime。butLilyknewnothingofBoston-herimaginationwasallboundedontheeastbyMadisonAvenue。AstimewentonIsabelhadthoughtofhimoftener,andwithfewerrestrictions。shehadhadmorethanoncetheideaofwritingtohim。
Shehadnevertoldherhusbandabouthim-neverletOsmondknowofhisvisitstoherinFlorence。areservenotdictatedintheearlyperiodbyawantofconfidenceinOsmond,butsimplybytheconsiderationthattheyoungman’sdisappointmentwasnothersecretbuthisown。Itwouldbewrongofher,shehadbelieved,toconveyittoanother,andMr。Goodwood’saffairscouldhave,afterall,littleinterestforGilbert。Whenithadcometothepointshehadneverwrittentohim。itseemedtoherthat,consideringhisgrievance,theleastshecoulddowastolethimalone。Neverthelessshewouldhavebeengladtobeinsomewaynearertohim。Itwasnotthatiteveroccurredtoherthatshemighthavemarriedhim。evenaftertheconsequencesofheractualunionhadgrownvividtoherthatparticularreflection,thoughsheindulgedinsomany,hadnothadtheassurancetopresentitself。Butonfindingherselfintroublehehadbecomeamemberofthatcircleofthingswithwhichshewishedtosetherselfright。Ihavementionedhowpassionatelysheneededtofeelthatherunhappinessshouldnothavecometoherthroughherownfault。Shehadnonearprospectofdying,andyetshewishedtomakeherpeacewiththeworld-toputherspiritualaffairsinorder。
ItcamebacktoherfromtimetotimethattherewasanaccountstilltobesettledwithCaspar,andshesawherselfdisposedorabletosettleitto-dayontermseasierforhimthaneverbefore。
Still,whenshelearnedhewascomingtoRomeshefeltallafraid。
itwouldbemoredisagreeableforhimthanforanyoneelsetomakeout-sincehewouldmakeitout,asoverafalsifiedbalance-sheetorsomethingofthatsort-theintimatedisarrayofheraffairs。Deepinherbreastshebelievedthathehadinvestedhisallinherhappiness,whiletheothershadinvestedonlyapart。Hewasonemorepersonfromwhomsheshouldhavetoconcealherstress。Shewasreassured,however,afterhearrivedinRome,forhespentseveraldayswithoutcomingtoseeher。
HenriettaStackpole,itmaywellbeimagined,wasmuchmorepunctual,andIsabelwaslargelyfavouredwiththesocietyofherfriend。Shethrewherselfintoit,fornowthatshehadmadesuchapointofkeepingherconscienceclear,thatwasonewayofprovingshehadnotbeensuperficial-themoresoastheyears,intheirflight,hadratherenrichedthanblightedthosepeculiaritieswhichhadbeenhumorouslycriticizedbypersonslessinterestedthanIsabel,andwhichwerestillmarkedenoughtogiveloyaltyaspiceofheroism。
Henriettawasaskeenandquickandfreshasever,andasneatandbrightandfair。Herremarkablyopeneyes,lightedlikegreatglazedrailway-stations,hadputupnoshutters。herattirehadlostnoneofitscrispness,heropinionsnoneoftheirnationalreference。Shewasbynomeansquiteunchanged,however。itstruckIsabelshehadgrownvague。Ofoldshehadneverbeenvague。thoughundertakingmanyenquiriesatonce,shehadmanagedtobeentireandpointedabouteach。Shehadareasonforeverythingshedid。shefairlybristledwithmotives。Formerly,whenshecametoEuropeitwasbecauseshewishedtoseeit,butnow,havingalreadyseenit,shehadnosuchexcuse。Shedidn’tforamomentpretendthatthedesiretoexaminedecayingcivilizationshadanythingtodowithherpresententerprise。
herjourneywasratheranexpressionofherindependenceoftheoldworldthanofasenseoffurtherobligationstoit。It’snothingtocometoEurope,shesaidtoIsabel。itdoesn’tseemtomeoneneedssomanyreasonsforthat。Itissomethingtostayathome。
thisismuchmoreimportant。ItwasnotthereforewithasenseofdoinganythingveryimportantthatshetreatedherselftoanotherpilgrimagetoRome。shehadseentheplacebeforeandcarefullyinspectedit。herpresentactwassimplyasignoffamiliarity,ofherknowingallaboutit,ofherhavingasgoodarightasanyoneelsetobethere。Thiswasallverywell,andHenriettawasrestless。shehadaperfectrighttoberestlesstoo,ifonecametothat。ButshehadafterallabetterreasonforcomingtoRomethanthatshecaredforitsolittle。Herfriendeasilyrecognizedit,andwithittheworthoftheother’sfidelity。ShehadcrossedthestormyoceaninmidwinterbecauseshehadguessedthatIsabelwassad。Henriettaguessedagreatdeal,butshehadneverguessedsohappilyasthat。
Isabel’ssatisfactionsjustnowwerefew,buteveniftheyhadbeenmorenumeroustherewouldstillhavebeensomethingofindividualjoyinhersenseofbeingjustifiedinhavingalwaysthoughthighlyofHenrietta。Shehadmadelargeconcessionswithregardtoher,andhadyetinsistedthat,withallabatements,shewasveryvaluable。
Itwasnotherowntriumph,however,thatshefoundgood。itwassimplythereliefofconfessingtothisconfidant,thefirstpersontowhomshehadownedit,thatshewasnotintheleastatherease。
Henriettahadherselfapproachedthispointwiththesmallestpossibledelay,andhadaccusedhertoherfaceofbeingwretched。Shewasawoman,shewasasister。shewasnotRalph,norLordWarburton,norCasparGoodwood,andIsabelcouldspeak。
Yes,I’mwretched,shesaidverymildly。Shehatedtohearherselfsayit。shetriedtosayitasjudiciallyaspossible。
Whatdoeshedotoyou?Henriettaasked,frowningasifshewereenquiringintotheoperationsofaquackdoctor。
Hedoesnothing。Buthedoesn’tlikeme。
He’sveryhardtoplease!criedMissStackpole。Whydon’tyouleavehim?
Ican’tchangethatway,Isabelsaid。
Whynot,Ishouldliketoknow?Youwon’tconfessthatyou’vemadeamistake。You’retooproud。
Idon’tknowwhetherI’mtooproud。ButIcan’tpublishmymistake。
Idon’tthinkthat’sdecent。I’dmuchratherdie。
Youwon’tthinksoalways,saidHenrietta。
Idon’tknowwhatgreatunhappinessmightbringmeto。butitseemstomeIshallalwaysbeashamed。Onemustacceptone’sdeeds。I
marriedhimbeforealltheworld。Iwasperfectlyfree。itwasimpossibletodoanythingmoredeliberate。Onecan’tchangethatway,
Isabelrepeated。
Youhavechanged,inspiteoftheimpossibility。Ihopeyoudon’tmeantosayyoulikehim。
Isabeldebated。No,Idon’tlikehim。Icantellyou,becauseI’mwearyofmysecret。Butthat’senough。Ican’tannounceitonthehousetops。
Henriettagavealaugh。Don’tyouthinkyou’rerathertooconsiderate?
It’snotofhimthatI’mconsiderate-it’sofmyself!Isabelanswered。
ItwasnotsurprisingGilbertOsmondshouldnothavetakencomfortinMissStackpole。hisinstincthadnaturallysethiminoppositiontoayoungladycapableofadvisinghiswifetowithdrawfromtheconjugalroof。
WhenshearrivedinRomehehadsaidtoIsabelthathehopedshewouldleaveherfriendtheintervieweralone。andIsabelhadansweredthatheatleasthadnothingtofearfromher。ShesaidtoHenriettathatasOsmonddidn’tlikehershecouldn’tinvitehertodine,buttheycouldeasilyseeeachotherinotherways。IsabelreceivedMissStackpolefreelyinherownsitting-room,andtookherrepeatedlytodrive,facetofacewithPansy,who,bendingalittleforward,ontheoppositeseatofthecarriage,gazedatthecelebratedauthoresswitharespectfulattentionwhichHenriettaoccasionallyfoundirritating。ShecomplainedtoIsabelthatMissOsmondhadalittlelookasifsheshouldremembereverythingonesaid。Idon’twanttoberememberedthatway,MissStackpoledeclared。I
considerthatmyconversationrefersonlytothemoment,likethemorningpapers。Yourstepdaughter,asshesitsthere,looksasifshekeptallthebacknumbersandwouldbringthemoutsomedayagainstme。ShecouldnotteachherselftothinkfavourablyofPansy,whoseabsenceofinitiative,ofconversation,ofpersonalclaims,seemedtoher,inagirloftwenty,unnaturalandevenuncanny。IsabelpresentlysawthatOsmondwouldhavelikedhertourgealittlethecauseofherfriend,insistalittleuponhisreceivingher,sothathemightappeartosufferforgoodmanners’sake。Herimmediateacceptanceofhisobjectionsputhimtoomuchinthewrong-itbeingineffectoneofthedisadvantagesofexpressingcontemptthatyoucannotenjoyatthesametimethecreditofexpressingsympathy。Osmondheldtohiscredit,andyetheheldtohisobjections-allofwhichwereelementsdifficulttoreconcile。TherightthingwouldhavebeenthatMissStackpoleshouldcometodineatPalazzoRoccaneraonceortwice,sothatinspiteofhissuperficialcivility,alwayssogreatshemightjudgeforherselfhowlittlepleasureitgavehim。
Fromthemoment,however,thatboththeladiesweresounaccommodating,therewasnothingforOsmondbuttowishtheladyfromNewYorkwouldtakeherselfoff。Itwassurprisinghowlittlesatisfactionhegotfromhiswife’sfriends。hetookoccasiontocallIsabel’sattentiontoit。
You’recertainlynotfortunateinyourintimates。Iwishyoumightmakeanewcollection,hesaidtoheronemorninginreferencetonothingvisibleatthemoment,butinatoneofripereflectionwhichdeprivedtheremarkofallbrutalabruptness。It’sasifyouhadtakenthetroubletopickoutthepeopleintheworldthatIhaveleastincommonwith。YourcousinIhavealwaysthoughtaconceitedass-besideshisbeingthemostill-favouredanimalIknow。
Thenit’sinsufferablytiresomethatonecan’ttellhimso。onemustsparehimonaccountofhishealth。Hishealthseemstomethebestpartofhim。itgiveshimprivilegesenjoyedbynooneelse。Ifhe’ssodesperatelyillthere’sonlyonewaytoproveit。butheseemstohavenomindforthat。Ican’tsaymuchmoreforthegreatWarburton。Whenonereallythinksofit,thecoolinsolenceofthatperformancewassomethingrare!Hecomesandlooksatone’sdaughterasifshewereasuiteofapartments。hetriesthedoor-handlesandlooksoutofthewindows,rapsonthewallsandalmostthinkshe’lltaketheplace。Willyoubesogoodastodrawupalease?Then,onthewhole,hedecidesthattheroomsaretoosmall。hedoesn’tthinkhecouldliveonathirdfloor。hemustlookoutforapianonobile。
Andhegoesawayafterhavinggotamonth’slodginginthepoorlittleapartmentfornothing。MissStackpole,however,isyourmostwonderfulinvention。Shestrikesmeasakindofmonster。Onehasn’tanerveinone’sbodythatshedoesn’tsetquivering。YouknowIneverhaveadmittedthatshe’sawoman。Doyouknowwhatsheremindsmeof?Ofanewsteelpen-themostodiousthinginnature。Shetalksasasteelpenwrites。aren’therletters,bytheway,onruledpaper?
Shethinksandmovesandwalksandlooksexactlyasshetalks。Youmaysaythatshedoesn’thurtme,inasmuchasIdon’tseeher。Idon’tseeher,butIhearher。Ihearheralldaylong。Hervoiceisinmyears。
Ican’tgetridofit。Iknowexactlywhatshesays,andeveryinflexionofthetoneinwhichshesaysit。Shesayscharmingthingsaboutme,andtheygiveyougreatcomfort。Idon’tlikeatalltothinkshetalksaboutme-IfeelasIshouldfeelifIknewthefootmanwerewearingmyhat。
HenriettatalkedaboutGilbertOsmond,ashiswifeassuredhim,ratherlessthanhesuspected。Shehadplentyofothersubjects,intwoofwhichthereadermaybesupposedtobeespeciallyinterested。