Raoul,howthatlittlefairyoftheNorthhastrifledwithyou!
Wasitreally,wasitreallynecessarytohavesofreshandyoungaface,aforeheadsoshyandalwaysreadytocoveritselfwiththepinkblushofmodestyinordertopassinthelonelynight,inacarriageandpair,accompaniedbyamysteriouslover?
Surelythereshouldbesomelimittohypocrisyandlying!……
Shehadpassedwithoutansweringhiscry……Andhewasthinkingofdying。andhewastwentyyearsold!……
Hisvaletfoundhiminthemorningsittingonhisbed。Hehadnotundressedandtheservantfeared,atthesightofhisface,thatsomedisasterhadoccurred。Raoulsnatchedhislettersfromtheman’shands。
HehadrecognizedChristine’spaperandhand-writing。Shesaid:
DEAR:
GotothemaskedballattheOperaonthenightafterto-morrow。
Attwelveo’clock,beinthelittleroombehindthechimney-placeofthebigcrush-room。StandnearthedoorthatleadstotheRotunda。
Don’tmentionthisappointmenttoanyoneonearth。Wearawhitedominoandbecarefullymasked。Asyouloveme,donotletyourselfberecognized。CHRISTINE。
ChapterIXAttheMaskedBallTheenvelopewascoveredwithmudandunstamped。ItborethewordsTobehandedtoM。leVicomteRaouldeChagny,withtheaddressinpencil。Itmusthavebeenflungoutinthehopethatapasser-bywouldpickupthenoteanddeliverit,whichwaswhathappened。
ThenotehadbeenpickeduponthepavementofthePlacedel’Opera。
Raoulreaditoveragainwithfeveredeyes。Nomorewasneededtorevivehishope。ThesomberpicturewhichhehadforamomentimaginedofaChristineforgettingherdutytoherselfmadewayforhisoriginalconceptionofanunfortunate,innocentchild,thevictimofimprudenceandexaggeratedsensibility。Towhatextent,atthistime,wasshereallyavictim?Whoseprisonerwasshe?
Intowhatwhirlpoolhadshebeendragged?Heaskedhimselfthesequestionswithacruelanguish。buteventhispainseemedendurablebesidethefrenzyintowhichhewasthrownatthethoughtofalyinganddeceitfulChristine。Whathadhappened?Whatinfluencehadsheundergone?Whatmonsterhadcarriedheroffandbywhatmeans?……
Bywhatmeansindeedbutthatofmusic?HeknewChristine’sstory。
Afterherfather’sdeath,sheacquiredadistasteofeverythinginlife,includingherart。ShewentthroughtheCONSERVATOIRElikeapoorsoullesssinging-machine。And,suddenly,sheawokeasthoughthroughtheinterventionofagod。TheAngelofMusicappeareduponthescene!
ShesangMargaritainFAUSTandtriumphed!……
TheAngelofMusic!……ForthreemonthstheAngelofMusichadbeengivingChristinelessons……Ah,hewasapunctualsinging-master!……
AndnowhewastakingherfordrivesintheBois!……
Raoul’sfingersclutchedathisflesh,abovehisjealousheart。
Inhisinexperience,henowaskedhimselfwithterrorwhatgamethegirlwasplaying?Uptowhatpointcouldanopera-singermakeafoolofagood-naturedyoungman,quitenewtolove?Omisery!……
ThusdidRaoul’sthoughtsflyfromoneextremetotheother。
HenolongerknewwhethertopityChristineortocurseher。
andhepitiedandcursedherturnandturnabout。Atallevents,heboughtawhitedomino。
Thehouroftheappointmentcameatlast。Withhisfaceinamasktrimmedwithlong,thicklace,lookinglikeapierrotinhiswhitewrap,theviscountthoughthimselfveryridiculous。MenoftheworlddonotgototheOperaballinfancy-dress!Itwasabsurd。
Onethought,however,consoledtheviscount:hewouldcertainlyneverberecognized!
Thisballwasanexceptionalaffair,givensometimebeforeShrovetide,inhonoroftheanniversaryofthebirthofafamousdraftsman。
anditwasexpectedtobemuchgayer,noisier,moreBohemianthantheordinarymaskedball。Numbersofartistshadarrangedtogo,accompaniedbyawholecohortofmodelsandpupils,who,bymidnight,begantocreateatremendousdin。Raoulclimbedthegrandstaircaseatfiveminutestotwelve,didnotlingertolookatthemotleydressesdisplayedallthewayupthemarblesteps,oneoftherichestsettingsintheworld,allowednofacetiousmasktodrawhimintoawarofwits,repliedtonojestsandshookofftheboldfamiliarityofanumberofcoupleswhohadalreadybecomeatrifletoogay。
Crossingthebigcrush-roomandescapingfromamadwhirlofdancersinwhichhewascaughtforamoment,heatlastenteredtheroommentionedinChristine’sletter。Hefounditcrammed。forthissmallspacewasthepointwhereallthosewhoweregoingtosupperintheRotundacrossedthosewhowerereturningfromtakingaglassofchampagne。Thefun,here,waxedfastandfurious。
Raoulleanedagainstadoor-postandwaited。Hedidnotwaitlong。
Ablackdominopassedandgaveaquicksqueezetothetipsofhisfingers。Heunderstoodthatitwassheandfollowedher:
Isthatyou,Christine?heasked,betweenhisteeth。
Theblackdominoturnedroundpromptlyandraisedherfingertoherlips,nodoubttowarnhimnottomentionhernameagain。
Raoulcontinuedtofollowherinsilence。
Hewasafraidoflosingher,aftermeetingheragaininsuchstrangecircumstances。Hisgrudgeagainstherwasgone。Henolongerdoubtedthatshehadnothingtoreproachherselfwith,
howeverpeculiarandinexplicableherconductmightseem。Hewasreadytomakeanydisplayofclemency,forgivenessorcowardice。
Hewasinlove。And,nodoubt,hewouldsoonreceiveaverynaturalexplanationofhercuriousabsence。
Theblackdominoturnedbackfromtimetotimetoseeifthewhitedominowasstillfollowing。
AsRaouloncemorepassedthroughthegreatcrush-room,thistimeinthewakeofhisguide,hecouldnothelpnoticingagroupcrowdingroundapersonwhosedisguise,eccentricairandgruesomeappearancewerecausingasensation。Itwasamandressedallinscarlet,withahugehatandfeathersonthetopofawonderfuldeath’shead。
Fromhisshouldershunganimmensered-velvetcloak,whichtrailedalongthefloorlikeaking’strain。andonthiscloakwasembroidered,ingoldletters,whicheveryonereadandrepeatedaloud,Don’ttouchme!IamRedDeathstalkingabroad!
Thenone,greatlydaring,didtrytotouchhim……butaskeletonhandshotoutofacrimsonsleeveandviolentlyseizedtherashone’swrist。andhe,feelingtheclutchoftheknucklebones,thefuriousgraspofDeath,utteredacryofpainandterror。
WhenRedDeathreleasedhimatlast,heranawaylikeaverymadman,pursuedbythejeersofthebystanders。
ItwasatthismomentthatRaoulpassedinfrontofthefunerealmasquerader,whohadjusthappenedtoturninhisdirection。
Andhenearlyexclaimed:
Thedeath’sheadofPerros-Guirec!
Hehadrecognizedhim!……Hewantedtodartforward,forgettingChristine。
buttheblackdomino,whoalsoseemedapreytosomestrangeexcitement,caughthimbythearmanddraggedhimfromthecrush-room,farfromthemadcrowdthroughwhichRedDeathwasstalking……
Theblackdominokeptonturningbackand,apparently,ontwooccasionssawsomethingthatstartledher,forshehurriedherpaceandRaoul’sasthoughtheywerebeingpursued。
Theywentuptwofloors。Here,thestairsandcorridorswerealmostdeserted。Theblackdominoopenedthedoorofaprivateboxandbeckonedtothewhitedominotofollowher。
ThenChristine,whomherecognizedbythesoundofhervoice,closedthedoorbehindthemandwarnedhim,inawhisper,toremainatthebackoftheboxandonnoaccounttoshowhimself。
Raoultookoffhismask。Christinekeptherson。And,whenRaoulwasabouttoaskhertoremoveit,hewassurprisedtoseeherputhereartothepartitionandlisteneagerlyforasoundoutside。
Thensheopenedthedoorajar,lookedoutintothecorridorand,inalowvoice,said:
Hemusthavegoneuphigher。Suddenlysheexclaimed:Heiscomingdownagain!
Shetriedtoclosethedoor,butRaoulpreventedher。forhehadseen,onthetopstepofthestaircasethatledtothefloorabove,AREDFOOT,followedbyanother……andslowly,majestically,thewholescarletdressofRedDeathmethiseyes。Andheoncemoresawthedeath’sheadofPerros-Guirec。
It’she!heexclaimed。Thistime,heshallnotescapeme!……
ButChristian{sic}hadslammedthedooratthemomentwhenRaoulwasonthepointofrushingout。Hetriedtopushheraside。
Whomdoyoumeanby`he’?sheasked,inachangedvoice。
Whoshallnotescapeyou?
Raoultriedtoovercomethegirl’sresistancebyforce,butsherepelledhimwithastrengthwhichhewouldnothavesuspectedinher。
Heunderstood,orthoughtheunderstood,andatoncelosthistemper。
Who?herepeatedangrily。Why,he,themanwhohidesbehindthathideousmaskofdeath!……TheevilgeniusofthechurchyardatPerros!……RedDeath!……Inaword,madam,yourfriend……
yourAngelofMusic!……ButIshallsnatchoffhismask,asIshallsnatchoffmyown。and,thistime,weshalllookeachotherintheface,heandI,withnoveilandnoliesbetweenus。
andIshallknowwhomyouloveandwholovesyou!
Heburstintoamadlaugh,whileChristinegaveadisconsolatemoanbehindhervelvetmask。Withatragicgesture,sheflungouthertwoarms,whichfixedabarrierofwhitefleshagainstthedoor。
Inthenameofourlove,Raoul,youshallnotpass!……
Hestopped。Whathadshesaid?……Inthenameoftheirlove?……
Neverbeforehadsheconfessedthatshelovedhim。Andyetshehadhadopportunitiesenough……Pooh,heronlyobjectwastogainafewseconds!……ShewishedtogivetheRedDeathtimetoescape……
And,inaccentsofchildishhatred,hesaid:
Youlie,madam,foryoudonotlovemeandyouhaveneverlovedme!
WhatapoorfellowImustbetoletyoumockandfloutmeasyouhavedone!Whydidyougivemeeveryreasonforhope,atPerros……
forhonesthope,madam,forIamanhonestmanandIbelievedyoutobeanhonestwoman,whenyouronlyintentionwastodeceiveme!
Alas,youhavedeceivedusall!Youhavetakenashamefuladvantageofthecandidaffectionofyourbenefactressherself,whocontinuestobelieveinyoursinceritywhileyougoabouttheOperaballwithRedDeath!……Idespiseyou!……
Andheburstintotears。Sheallowedhimtoinsulther。
Shethoughtofbutonething,tokeephimfromleavingthebox。
Youwillbegmypardon,oneday,forallthoseuglywords,Raoul,andwhenyoudoIshallforgiveyou!
Heshookhishead。No,no,youhavedrivenmemad!WhenIthinkthatIhadonlyoneobjectinlife:togivemynametoanoperawench!
Raoul!……Howcanyou?
Ishalldieofshame!
No,dear,live!saidChristine’sgraveandchangedvoice。
And……good-by。Good-by,Raoul……
Theboysteppedforward,staggeringashewent。Heriskedonemoresarcasm:
Oh,youmustletmecomeandapplaudyoufromtimetotime!
Ishallneversingagain,Raoul!……
Really?hereplied,stillmoresatirically。Soheistakingyouoffthestage:Icongratulateyou!……ButweshallmeetintheBois,oneoftheseevenings!
NotintheBoisnoranywhere,Raoul:youshallnotseemeagain……
Mayoneaskatleasttowhatdarknessyouarereturning?……Forwhathellareyouleaving,mysteriouslady……orforwhatparadise?
Icametotellyou,dear,butIcan’ttellyounow……youwouldnotbelieveme!Youhavelostfaithinme,Raoul。itisfinished!
Shespokeinsuchadespairingvoicethattheladbegantofeelremorseforhiscruelty。
Butlookhere!hecried。Can’tyoutellmewhatallthismeans!……Youarefree,thereisnoonetointerferewithyou……
YougoaboutParis……Youputonadominotocometotheball……Whydoyounotgohome?……Whathaveyoubeendoingthispastfortnight?……WhatisthistaleabouttheAngelofMusic,whichyouhavebeentellingMammaValerius?Someonemayhavetakenyouin,playeduponyourinnocence。Iwasawitnessofitmyself,atPerros……butyouknowwhattobelievenow!Youseemtomequitesensible,Christine。Youknowwhatyouaredoing……AndmeanwhileMammaValeriuslieswaitingforyouathomeandappealingtoyour`goodgenius!’……Explainyourself,Christine,Ibegofyou!
AnyonemighthavebeendeceivedasIwas。Whatisthisfarce?
Christinesimplytookoffhermaskandsaid:Dear,itisatragedy!
Raoulnowsawherfaceandcouldnotrestrainanexclamationofsurpriseandterror。Thefreshcomplexionofformerdayswasgone。
Amortalpallorcoveredthosefeatures,whichhehadknownsocharmingandsogentle,andsorrowhadfurrowedthemwithpitilesslinesandtraceddarkandunspeakablysadshadowsunderhereyes。
Mydearest!Mydearest!hemoaned,holdingouthisarms。
Youpromisedtoforgiveme……
Perhaps!……Someday,perhaps!shesaid,resuminghermask。
andshewentaway,forbiddinghim,withagesture,tofollowher。
Hetriedtodisobeyher。butsheturnedroundandrepeatedhergestureoffarewellwithsuchauthoritythathedarednotmoveastep。
Hewatchedhertillshewasoutofsight。Thenhealsowentdownamongthecrowd,hardlyknowingwhathewasdoing,withthrobbingtemplesandanachingheart。and,ashecrossedthedancing-floor,heaskedifanybodyhadseenRedDeath。Yes,everyonehadseenRedDeath。
butRaoulcouldnotfindhim。and,attwoo’clockinthemorning,heturneddownthepassage,behindthescenes,thatledtoChristineDaae’sdressing-room。
Hisfootstepstookhimtothatroomwherehehadfirstknownsuffering。
Hetappedatthedoor。Therewasnoanswer。Heentered,ashehadenteredwhenhelookedeverywherefortheman’svoice。
Theroomwasempty。Agas-jetwasburning,turneddownlow。
Hesawsomewriting-paperonalittledesk。HethoughtofwritingtoChristine,butheheardstepsinthepassage。Hehadonlytimetohideintheinnerroom,whichwasseparatedfromthedressing-roombyacurtain。
Christineentered,tookoffhermaskwithawearymovementandflungitonthetable。Shesighedandletherprettyheadfallintohertwohands。Whatwasshethinkingof?OfRaoul?No,forRaoulheardhermurmur:PoorErik!
Atfirst,hethoughthemustbemistaken。Tobeginwith,hewaspersuadedthat,ifanyonewastobepitied,itwashe,Raoul。
Itwouldhavebeenquitenaturalifshehadsaid,PoorRaoul,
afterwhathadhappenedbetweenthem。But,shakingherhead,sherepeated:PoorErik!
WhathadthisEriktodowithChristine’ssighsandwhywasshepityingErikwhenRaoulwassounhappy?
Christinebegantowrite,deliberately,calmlyandsoplacidlythatRaoul,whowasstilltremblingfromtheeffectsofthetragedythatseparatedthem,waspainfullyimpressed。
Whatcoolness!hesaidtohimself。
Shewroteon,fillingtwo,three,foursheets。Suddenly,sheraisedherheadandhidthesheetsinherbodice……Sheseemedtobelistening……Raoulalsolistened……Whencecamethatstrangesound,thatdistantrhythm?……Afaintsingingseemedtoissuefromthewalls……yes,itwasasthoughthewallsthemselvesweresinging!……Thesongbecameplainer……thewordswerenowdistinguishable……heheardavoice,averybeautiful,verysoft,verycaptivatingvoice……but,forallitssoftness,itremainedamalevoice……Thevoicecamenearerandnearer……itcamethroughthewall……itapproached……andnowthevoicewasINTHEROOM,infrontofChristine。
Christineroseandaddressedthevoice,asthoughspeakingtosomeone:
HereIam,Erik,shesaid。Iamready。Butyouarelate。
Raoul,peepingfrombehindthecurtain,couldnotbelievehiseyes,whichshowedhimnothing。Christine’sfacelitup。Asmileofhappinessappeareduponherbloodlesslips,asmilelikethatofsickpeoplewhentheyreceivethefirsthopeofrecovery。
Thevoicewithoutabodywentonsinging。andcertainlyRaoulhadneverinhislifeheardanythingmoreabsolutelyandheroicallysweet,moregloriouslyinsidious,moredelicate,morepowerful,inshort,moreirresistiblytriumphant。HelistenedtoitinafeverandhenowbegantounderstandhowChristineDaaewasabletoappearoneevening,beforethestupefiedaudience,withaccentsofabeautyhithertounknown,ofasuperhumanexaltation,whiledoubtlessstillundertheinfluenceofthemysteriousandinvisiblemaster。
ThevoicewassingingtheWedding-nightSongfromRomeoandJuliet。
RaoulsawChristinestretchoutherarmstothevoiceasshehaddone,inPerroschurchyard,totheinvisibleviolinplayingTheResurrectionofLazarus。Andnothingcoulddescribethepassionwithwhichthevoicesang:
Fatelinkstheetomeforeverandaday!
ThestrainswentthroughRaoul’sheart。Strugglingagainstthecharmthatseemedtodeprivehimofallhiswillandallhisenergyandofalmostallhislucidityatthemomentwhenheneededthemmost,hesucceededindrawingbackthecurtainthathidhimandhewalkedtowhereChristinestood。Sheherselfwasmovingtothebackoftheroom,thewholewallofwhichwasoccupiedbyagreatmirrorthatreflectedherimage,butnothis,forhewasjustbehindherandentirelycoveredbyher。
Fatelinkstheetomeforeverandaday!
Christinewalkedtowardherimageintheglassandtheimagecametowardher。ThetwoChristines——therealoneandthereflection——
endedbytouching。andRaoulputouthisarmstoclaspthetwoinoneembrace。But,byasortofdazzlingmiraclethatsenthimstaggering,Raoulwassuddenlyflungback,whileanicyblastsweptoverhisface。hesaw,nottwo,butfour,eight,twentyChristinesspinningroundhim,laughingathimandfleeingsoswiftlythathecouldnottouchoneofthem。Atlast,everythingstoodstillagain。
andhesawhimselfintheglass。ButChristinehaddisappeared。
Herusheduptotheglass。Hestruckatthewalls。Nobody!
Andmeanwhiletheroomstillechoedwithadistantpassionatesinging:
Fatelinkstheetomeforeverandaday!
Whichway,whichwayhadChristinegone?……Whichwaywouldshereturn?……
Wouldshereturn?Alas,hadshenotdeclaredtohimthateverythingwasfinished?Andwasthevoicenotrepeating:
Fatelinkstheetomeforeverandaday!
Tome?Towhom?
Then,wornout,beaten,empty-brained,hesatdownonthechairwhichChristinehadjustleft。Likeher,helethisheadfallintohishands。Whenheraisedit,thetearswerestreamingdownhisyoungcheeks,real,heavytearslikethosewhichjealouschildrenshed,tearsthatweptforasorrowwhichwasinnowayfanciful,butwhichiscommontoalltheloversonearthandwhichheexpressedaloud:
WhoisthisErik?hesaid。
ChapterXForgettheNameoftheMan’sVoiceThedayafterChristinehadvanishedbeforehiseyesinasortofdazzlementthatstillmadehimdoubttheevidenceofhissenses,M。leVicomtedeChagnycalledtoinquireatMammaValerius’。
Hecameuponacharmingpicture。Christineherselfwasseatedbythebedsideoftheoldlady,whowassittingupagainstthepillows,knitting。Thepinkandwhitehadreturnedtotheyounggirl’scheeks。Thedarkringsroundhereyeshaddisappeared。
Raoulnolongerrecognizedthetragicfaceofthedaybefore。
Iftheveilofmelancholyoverthoseadorablefeatureshadnotstillappearedtotheyoungmanasthelasttraceoftheweirddramainwhosetoilsthatmysteriouschildwasstruggling,hecouldhavebelievedthatChristinewasnotitsheroineatall。
Sherose,withoutshowinganyemotion,andofferedhimherhand。
ButRaoul’sstupefactionwassogreatthathestoodtheredumfounded,withoutagesture,withoutaword。
Well,M。deChagny,exclaimedMammaValerius,don’tyouknowourChristine?Hergoodgeniushassentherbacktous!
Mamma!thegirlbrokeinpromptly,whileadeepblushmantledtohereyes。Ithought,mamma,thattherewastobenomorequestionofthat!……YouknowthereisnosuchthingastheAngelofMusic!
But,child,hegaveyoulessonsforthreemonths!
Mamma,Ihavepromisedtoexplaineverythingtoyouoneofthesedays。
andIhopetodosobutyouhavepromisedme,untilthatday,tobesilentandtoaskmenomorequestionswhatever!
Providedthatyoupromisednevertoleavemeagain!Buthaveyoupromisedthat,Christine?
Mamma,allthiscannotinterestM。deChagny。
Onthecontrary,mademoiselle,saidtheyoungman,inavoicewhichhetriedtomakefirmandbrave,butwhichstilltrembled,anythingthatconcernsyouinterestsmetoanextentwhichperhapsyouwillonedayunderstand。Idonotdenythatmysurpriseequalsmypleasureatfindingyouwithyouradoptedmotherandthat,afterwhathappenedbetweenusyesterday,afterwhatyousaidandwhatIwasabletoguess,Ihardlyexpectedtoseeyouheresosoon。
Ishouldbethefirsttodelightatyourreturn,ifyouwerenotsobentonpreservingasecrecythatmaybefataltoyou……andI
havebeenyourfriendtoolongnottobealarmed,withMme。Valerius,atadisastrousadventurewhichwillremaindangeroussolongaswehavenotunraveleditsthreadsandofwhichyouwillcertainlyendbybeingthevictim,Christine。
Atthesewords,MammaValeriustossedaboutinherbed。
Whatdoesthismean?shecried。IsChristineindanger?
Yes,madame,saidRaoulcourageously,notwithstandingthesignswhichChristinemadetohim。
MyGod!exclaimedthegood,simpleoldwoman,gaspingforbreath。
Youmusttellmeeverything,Christine!Whydidyoutrytoreassureme?
Andwhatdangerisit,M。deChagny?
Animpostorisabusinghergoodfaith。
IstheAngelofMusicanimpostor?
ShetoldyouherselfthatthereisnoAngelofMusic。
Butthenwhatisit,inHeaven’sname?Youwillbethedeathofme!
Thereisaterriblemysteryaroundus,madame,aroundyou,aroundChristine,amysterymuchmoretobefearedthananynumberofghostsorgenii!
MammaValeriusturnedaterrifiedfacetoChristine,whohadalreadyruntoheradoptedmotherandwasholdingherinherarms。
Don’tbelievehim,mummy,don’tbelievehim,sherepeated。
Thentellmethatyouwillneverleavemeagain,imploredthewidow。
ChristinewassilentandRaoulresumed。
Thatiswhatyoumustpromise,Christine。Itistheonlythingthatcanreassureyourmotherandme。Wewillundertakenottoaskyouasinglequestionaboutthepast,ifyoupromiseustoremainunderourprotectioninfuture。
ThatisanundertakingwhichIhavenotaskedofyouandapromisewhichIrefusetomakeyou!saidtheyounggirlhaughtily。
Iammistressofmyownactions,M。deChagny:youhavenorighttocontrolthem,andIwillbegyoutodesisthenceforth。
AstowhatIhavedoneduringthelastfortnight,thereisonlyonemanintheworldwhohastherighttodemandanaccountofme:myhusband!
Well,IhavenohusbandandInevermeantomarry!
ShethrewoutherhandstoemphasizeherwordsandRaoulturnedpale,notonlybecauseofthewordswhichhehadheard,butbecausehehadcaughtsightofaplaingoldringonChristine’sfinger。
Youhavenohusbandandyetyouwearawedding-ring。
Hetriedtoseizeherhand,butsheswiftlydrewitback。
That’sapresent!shesaid,blushingoncemoreandvainlystrivingtohideherembarrassment。
Christine!Asyouhavenohusband,thatringcanonlyhavebeengivenbyonewhohopestomakeyouhiswife!Whydeceiveusfurther?
Whytorturemestillmore?Thatringisapromise。andthatpromisehasbeenaccepted!
That’swhatIsaid!exclaimedtheoldlady。
Andwhatdidsheanswer,madame?
WhatIchose,saidChristine,driventoexasperation。
Don’tyouthink,monsieur,thatthiscross-examinationhaslastedlongenough?AsfarasIamconcerned……
Raoulwasafraidtoletherfinishherspeech。Heinterruptedher:
IbegyourpardonforspeakingasIdid,mademoiselle。Youknowthegoodintentionsthatmakememeddle,justnow,inmatterswhich,younodoubtthink,havenothingtodowithme。ButallowmetotellyouwhatIhaveseen——andIhaveseenmorethanyoususpect,Christine——orwhatIthoughtIsaw,for,totellyouthetruth,Ihavesometimesbeeninclinedtodoubttheevidenceofmyeyes。
Well,whatdidyousee,sir,orthinkyousaw?
IsawyourecstasyATTHESOUNDOFTHEVOICE,Christine:thevoicethatcamefromthewallorthenextroomtoyours……yes,YOURECSTASY!Andthatiswhatmakesmealarmedonyourbehalf。
Youareunderaverydangerousspell。Andyetitseemsthatyouareawareoftheimposture,becauseyousayto-dayTHATTHERE
ISNOANGELOFMUSIC!Inthatcase,Christine,whydidyoufollowhimthattime?Whydidyoustandup,withradiantfeatures,asthoughyouwerereallyhearingangels?……Ah,itisaverydangerousvoice,Christine,forImyself,whenIheardit,wassomuchfascinatedbyitthatyouvanishedbeforemyeyeswithoutmyseeingwhichwayyoupassed!Christine,Christine,inthenameofHeaven,inthenameofyourfatherwhoisinHeavennowandwholovedyousodearlyandwholovedmetoo,Christine,tellus,tellyourbenefactressandme,towhomdoesthatvoicebelong?Ifyoudo,wewillsaveyouinspiteofyourself。Come,Christine,thenameoftheman!Thenameofthemanwhohadtheaudacitytoputaringonyourfinger!
M。deChagny,thegirldeclaredcoldly,youshallneverknow!
Thereupon,seeingthehostilitywithwhichherwardhadaddressedtheviscount,MammaValeriussuddenlytookChristine’spart。
And,ifshedoeslovethatman,MonsieurleVicomte,eventhenitisnobusinessofyours!
Alas,madame,Raoulhumblyreplied,unabletorestrainhistears,alas,IbelievethatChristinereallydoeslovehim!……Butitisnotonlythatwhichdrivesmetodespair。forwhatIamnotcertainof,madame,isthatthemanwhomChristinelovesisworthyofherlove!
Itisformetobethejudgeofthat,monsieur!saidChristine,lookingRaoulangrilyintheface。
Whenaman,continuedRaoul,adoptssuchromanticmethodstoenticeayounggirl’saffections……
Themanmustbeeitheravillain,orthegirlafool:isthatit?
Christine!
Raoul,whydoyoucondemnamanwhomyouhaveneverseen,whomnooneknowsandaboutwhomyouyourselfknownothing?
Yes,Christine……Yes……Iatleastknowthenamethatyouthoughttokeepfrommeforever……ThenameofyourAngelofMusic,mademoiselle,isErik!
Christineatoncebetrayedherself。Sheturnedaswhiteasasheetandstammered:Whotoldyou?
Youyourself!
Howdoyoumean?
Bypityinghimtheothernight,thenightofthemaskedball。
Whenyouwenttoyourdressing-room,didyounotsay,`PoorErik?’
Well,Christine,therewasapoorRaoulwhooverheardyou。
Thisisthesecondtimethatyouhavelistenedbehindthedoor,M。deChagny!
Iwasnotbehindthedoor……Iwasinthedressing-room,intheinnerroom,mademoiselle。
Oh,unhappyman!moanedthegirl,showingeverysignofunspeakableterror。Unhappyman!Doyouwanttobekilled?
Perhaps。
RaoulutteredthisperhapswithsomuchloveanddespairinhisvoicethatChristinecouldnotkeepbackasob。Shetookhishandsandlookedathimwithallthepureaffectionofwhichshewascapable:
Raoul,shesaid,forgetTHEMAN’SVOICEanddonotevenrememberitsname……YoumustnevertrytofathomthemysteryofTHE
MAN’SVOICE。
Isthemysterysoveryterrible?
Thereisnomoreawfulmysteryonthisearth。Sweartomethatyouwillmakenoattempttofindout,sheinsisted。Sweartomethatyouwillnevercometomydressing-room,unlessIsendforyou。
Thenyoupromisetosendformesometimes,Christine?
Ipromise。
When?
To-morrow。
ThenIsweartodoasyouask。
Hekissedherhandsandwentaway,cursingErikandresolvingtobepatient。
ChapterXIAbovetheTrap-DoorsThenextday,hesawherattheOpera。Shewasstillwearingtheplaingoldring。Shewasgentleandkindtohim。Shetalkedtohimoftheplanswhichhewasforming,ofhisfuture,ofhiscareer。
HetoldherthatthedateofthePolarexpeditionhadbeenputforwardandthathewouldleaveFranceinthreeweeks,oramonthatlatest。
Shesuggested,almostgaily,thathemustlookuponthevoyagewithdelight,asastagetowardhiscomingfame。Andwhenherepliedthatfamewithoutlovewasnoattractioninhiseyes,shetreatedhimasachildwhosesorrowswereonlyshort-lived。
Howcanyouspeaksolightlyofsuchseriousthings?heasked。
Perhapsweshallneverseeeachotheragain!Imaydieduringthatexpedition。
OrI,shesaidsimply。
Shenolongersmiledorjested。Sheseemedtobethinkingofsomenewthingthathadenteredhermindforthefirsttime。
Hereyeswereallaglowwithit。
Whatareyouthinkingof,Christine?
Iamthinkingthatweshallnotseeeachotheragain……
Anddoesthatmakeyousoradiant?
Andthat,inamonth,weshallhavetosaygood-byforever!
Unless,Christine,wepledgeourfaithandwaitforeachotherforever。
Sheputherhandonhismouth。
Hush,Raoul!……Youknowthereisnoquestionofthat……
Andweshallneverbemarried:thatisunderstood!
Sheseemedsuddenlyalmostunabletocontainanoverpoweringgaiety。
Sheclappedherhandswithchildishglee。Raoulstaredatherinamazement。
But……but,shecontinued,holdingouthertwohandstoRaoul,orrathergivingthemtohim,asthoughshehadsuddenlyresolvedtomakehimapresentofthem,butifwecannotbemarried,wecan……wecanbeengaged!Nobodywillknowbutourselves,Raoul。
Therehavebeenplentyofsecretmarriages:whynotasecretengagement?……Weareengaged,dear,foramonth!Inamonth,youwillgoaway,andIcanbehappyatthethoughtofthatmonthallmylifelong!
Shewasenchantedwithherinspiration。Thenshebecameseriousagain。
This,shesaid,ISAHAPPINESSTHATWILLHARMNOONE。
Raouljumpedattheidea。HebowedtoChristineandsaid:
Mademoiselle,Ihavethehonortoaskforyourhand。
Why,youhavebothofthemalready,mydearbetrothed!……
Oh,Raoul,howhappyweshallbe!……Wemustplayatbeingengagedalldaylong。
Itwastheprettiestgameintheworldandtheyenjoyeditlikethechildrenthattheywere。Oh,thewonderfulspeechestheymadetoeachotherandtheeternalvowstheyexchanged!Theyplayedatheartsasotherchildrenmightplayatball。only,asitwasreallytheirtwoheartsthattheyflungtoandfro,theyhadtobevery,veryhandytocatchthem,eachtime,withouthurtingthem。
Oneday,aboutaweekafterthegamebegan,Raoul’sheartwasbadlyhurtandhestoppedplayingandutteredthesewildwords:
Ishan’tgototheNorthPole!
Christine,who,inherinnocence,hadnotdreamedofsuchapossibility,suddenlydiscoveredthedangerofthegameandreproachedherselfbitterly。
ShedidnotsayawordinreplytoRaoul’sremarkandwentstraighthome。
Thishappenedintheafternoon,inthesinger’sdressing-room,wheretheymeteverydayandwheretheyamusedthemselvesbydiningonthreebiscuits,twoglassesofportandabunchofviolets。
Intheevening,shedidnotsing。andhedidnotreceivehisusualletter,thoughtheyhadarrangedtowritetoeachotherdailyduringthatmonth。Thenextmorning,heranofftoMammaValerius,whotoldhimthatChristinehadgoneawayfortwodays。Shehadleftatfiveo’clockthedaybefore。
Raoulwasdistracted。HehatedMammaValeriusforgivinghimsuchnewsasthatwithsuchstupefyingcalmness。Hetriedtosoundher,buttheoldladyobviouslyknewnothing。
Christinereturnedonthefollowingday。Shereturnedintriumph。
Sherenewedherextraordinarysuccessofthegalaperformance。
Sincetheadventureofthetoad,Carlottahadnotbeenabletoappearonthestage。Theterrorofafreshco-ackfilledherheartanddeprivedherofallherpowerofsinging。andthetheaterthathadwitnessedherincomprehensibledisgracehadbecomeodioustoher。Shecontrivedtocancelhercontract。Daaewasofferedthevacantplaceforthetime。ShereceivedthundersofapplauseintheJuive。
Theviscount,who,ofcourse,waspresent,wastheonlyonetosufferonhearingthethousandechoesofthisfreshtriumph。
forChristinestillworeherplaingoldring。Adistantvoicewhisperedintheyoungman’sear:
Sheiswearingtheringagainto-night。andyoudidnotgiveittoher。Shegavehersoulagaintonightanddidnotgiveittoyou……Ifshewillnottellyouwhatshehasbeendoingthepasttwodays……youmustgoandaskErik!
Heranbehindthescenesandplacedhimselfinherway。Shesawhimforhereyeswerelookingforhim。Shesaid:
Quick!Quick!……Come!
Andshedraggedhimtoherdressing-room。
Raoulatoncethrewhimselfonhiskneesbeforeher。Hesworetoherthathewouldgoandheentreatedherneveragaintowithholdasinglehouroftheidealhappinesswhichshehadpromisedhim。
Shelethertearsflow。Theykissedlikeadespairingbrotherandsisterwhohavebeensmittenwithacommonlossandwhomeettomournadeadparent。
Suddenly,shesnatchedherselffromtheyoungman’ssoftandtimidembrace,seemedtolistentosomething,and,withaquickgesture,pointedtothedoor。Whenhewasonthethreshold,shesaid,insolowavoicethattheviscountguessedratherthanheardherwords:
To-morrow,mydearbetrothed!Andbehappy,Raoul:Isangforyouto-night!
Hereturnedthenextday。Butthosetwodaysofabsencehadbrokenthecharmoftheirdelightfulmake-believe。Theylookedateachother,inthedressing-room,withtheirsadeyes,withoutexchangingaword。
Raoulhadtorestrainhimselfnottocryout:
Iamjealous!Iamjealous!Iamjealous!
Butsheheardhimallthesame。Thenshesaid:
Comeforawalk,dear。Theairwilldoyougood。
Raoulthoughtthatshewouldproposeastrollinthecountry,farfromthatbuildingwhichhedetestedasaprisonwhosejailerhecouldfeelwalkingwithinthewalls……thejailerErik……
Butshetookhimtothestageandmadehimsitonthewoodencurbofawell,inthedoubtfulpeaceandcoolnessofafirstscenesetfortheevening’sperformance。
Onanotherday,shewanderedwithhim,handin,hand,alongthedesertedpathsofagardenwhosecreepershadbeencutoutbyadecorator’sskilfulhands。Itwasasthoughtherealsky,therealflowers,therealearthwereforbiddenherforalltimeandshecondemnedtobreathenootherairthanthatofthetheater。Anoccasionalfiremanpassed,watchingovertheirmelancholyidyllfromafar。
Andshewoulddraghimupabovetheclouds,inthemagnificentdisorderofthegrid,whereshelovedtomakehimgiddybyrunninginfrontofhimalongthefrailbridges,amongthethousandsofropesfastenedtothepulleys,thewindlasses,therollers,inthemidstofaregularforestofyardsandmasts。Ifhehesitated,shesaid,withanadorablepoutofherlips:
You,asailor!
Andthentheyreturnedtoterrafirma,thatistosay,tosomepassagethatledthemtothelittlegirls’dancing-school,wherebratsbetweensixandtenwerepractisingtheirsteps,inthehopeofbecominggreatdancersoneday,coveredwithdiamonds……
Meanwhile,Christinegavethemsweetsinstead。
Shetookhimtothewardrobeandproperty-rooms,tookhimalloverherempire,whichwasartificial,butimmense,coveringseventeenstoriesfromtheground-floortotheroofandinhabitedbyanarmyofsubjects。Shemovedamongthemlikeapopularqueen,encouragingthemintheirlabors,sittingdownintheworkshops,givingwordsofadvicetotheworkmenwhosehandshesitatedtocutintotherichstuffsthatweretoclotheheroes。Therewereinhabitantsofthatcountrywhopractisedeverytrade。Therewerecobblers,thereweregoldsmiths。Allhadlearnedtoknowherandtoloveher,forshealwaysinterestedherselfinalltheirtroublesandalltheirlittlehobbies。
Sheknewunsuspectedcornersthatweresecretlyoccupiedbylittleoldcouples。SheknockedattheirdoorandintroducedRaoultothemasaPrinceCharmingwhohadaskedforherhand。andthetwoofthem,sittingonsomeworm-eatenproperty,wouldlistentothelegendsoftheOpera,evenas,intheirchildhood,theyhadlistenedtotheoldBretontales。ThoseoldpeoplerememberednothingoutsidetheOpera。
Theyhadlivedthereforyearswithoutnumber。Pastmanagementshadforgottenthem。palacerevolutionshadtakennonoticeofthem。
thehistoryofFrancehadrunitscourseunknowntothem。andnobodyrecollectedtheirexistence。
Thepreciousdaysspedinthisway。andRaoulandChristine,byaffectingexcessiveinterestinoutsidematters,stroveawkwardlytohidefromeachothertheonethoughtoftheirhearts。Onefactwascertain,thatChristine,whountilthenhadshownherselfthestrongerofthetwo,becamesuddenlyinexpressiblynervous。
Whenontheirexpeditions,shewouldstartrunningwithoutreasonorelsesuddenlystop。andherhand,turningice-coldinamoment,wouldholdtheyoungmanback。Sometimeshereyesseemedtopursueimaginaryshadows。Shecried,Thisway,andThisway,
andThisway,laughingabreathlesslaughthatoftenendedintears。ThenRaoultriedtospeak,toquestionher,inspiteofhispromises。But,evenbeforehehadwordedhisquestion,sheansweredfeverishly:
Nothing……Iswearitisnothing。
Once,whentheywerepassingbeforeanopentrapdooronthestage,Raoulstoppedoverthedarkcavity。
Youhaveshownmeovertheupperpartofyourempire,Christine,buttherearestrangestoriestoldofthelowerpart。Shallwegodown?
Shecaughthiminherarms,asthoughshefearedtoseehimdisappeardowntheblackhole,and,inatremblingvoice,whispered:
Never!……Iwillnothaveyougothere!……Besides,it’snotmine……EVERYTHINGTHATISUNDERGROUNDBELONGSTOHIM!
Raoullookedherintheeyesandsaidroughly:
Sohelivesdownthere,doeshe?
Ineversaidso……Whotoldyouathinglikethat?Comeaway!
Isometimeswonderifyouarequitesane,Raoul……Youalwaystakethingsinsuchanimpossibleway……Comealong!Come!
Andsheliterallydraggedhimaway,forhewasobstinateandwantedtoremainbythetrap-door。thatholeattractedhim。
Suddenly,thetrap-doorwasclosedandsoquicklythattheydidnotevenseethehandthatworkedit。andtheyremainedquitedazed。
PerhapsHEwasthere,Raoulsaid,atlast。
Sheshruggedhershoulders,butdidnotseemeasy。
No,no,itwasthe`trap-door-shutters。’Theymustdosomething,youknow……Theyopenandshutthetrap-doorswithoutanyparticularreason……It’slikethe`door-shutters:’
theymustspendtheirtimesomehow。
ButsupposeitwereHE,Christine?
No,no!Hehasshuthimselfup,heisworking。
Oh,really!He’sworking,ishe?
Yes,hecan’topenandshutthetrap-doorsandworkatthesametime。
Sheshivered。
Whatisheworkingat?
Oh,somethingterrible!……Butit’sallthebetterforus……Whenhe’sworkingatthat,heseesnothing。hedoesnoteat,drink,orbreathefordaysandnightsatatime……hebecomesalivingdeadmanandhasnotimetoamusehimselfwiththetrap-doors。
Sheshiveredagain。Shewasstillholdinghiminherarms。
Thenshesighedandsaid,inherturn:
SupposeitwereHE!
Areyouafraidofhim?
No,no,ofcoursenot,shesaid。
Forallthat,onthenextdayandthefollowingdays,Christinewascarefultoavoidthetrap-doors。Heragitationonlyincreasedasthehourspassed。Atlast,oneafternoon,shearrivedverylate,withherfacesodesperatelypaleandhereyessodesperatelyred,thatRaoulresolvedtogotoalllengths,includingthatwhichheforeshadowedwhenheblurtedoutthathewouldnotgoontheNorthPoleexpeditionunlessshefirsttoldhimthesecretoftheman’svoice。
Hush!Hush,inHeaven’snameISupposeHEheardyou,youunfortunateRaoul!
AndChristine’seyesstaredwildlyateverythingaroundher。
Iwillremoveyoufromhispower,Christine,Iswearit。
Andyoushallnotthinkofhimanymore。
Isitpossible?
Sheallowedherselfthisdoubt,whichwasanencouragernent,whiledraggingtheyoungmanuptothetopmostfloorofthetheater,far,veryfarfromthetrap-doors。
Ishallhideyouinsomeunknowncorneroftheworld,whereHE
cannotcometolookforyou。Youwillbesafe。andthenIshallgoaway……asyouhaveswornnevertomarry。
ChristineseizedRaoul’shandsandsqueezedthemwithincrediblerapture。
But,suddenlybecomingalarmedagain,sheturnedawayherhead。
Higher!wasallshesaid。Higherstill!
Andshedraggedhimuptowardthesummit。
Hehadadifficultyinfollowingher。Theyweresoonundertheveryroof,inthemazeoftimber-work。Theyslippedthroughthebuttresses,therafters,thejoists。theyranfrombeamtobeamastheymighthaverunfromtreetotreeinaforest。
And,despitethecarewhichshetooktolookbehindherateverymoment,shefailedtoseeashadowwhichfollowedherlikeherownshadow,whichstoppedwhenshestopped,whichstartedagainwhenshedidandwhichmadenomorenoisethanawell-conductedshadowshould。
AsforRaoul,hesawnothingeither。for,whenhehadChristineinfrontofhim,nothinginterestedhimthathappenedbehind。
ChapterXIIApollo’sLyreOnthisway,theyreachedtheroof。Christinetrippedoveritaslightlyasaswallow。Theireyesswepttheemptyspacebetweenthethreedomesandthetriangularpediment。ShebreathedfreelyoverParis,thewholevalleyofwhichwasseenatworkbelow。
ShecalledRaoultocomequiteclosetoherandtheywalkedsidebysidealongthezincstreets,intheleadenavenues。theylookedattheirtwinshapesinthehugetanks,fullofstagnantwater,where,inthehotweather,thelittleboysoftheballet,ascoreorso,learntoswimanddive。
Theshadowhadfollowedbehindthemclingingtotheirsteps。
andthetwochildrenlittlesuspecteditspresencewhentheyatlastsatdown,trustingly,underthemightyprotectionofApollo,who,withagreatbronzegesture,liftedhishugelyretotheheartofacrimsonsky。
Itwasagorgeousspringevening。Clouds,whichhadjustreceivedtheirgossamerrobeofgoldandpurplefromthesettingsun,driftedslowlyby。andChristinesaidtoRaoul:
Soonweshallgofartherandfasterthantheclouds,totheendoftheworld,andthenyouwillleaveme,Raoul。But,if,whenthemomentcomesAPOLLO’foryoutotakemeaway,Irefusetogowithyou——
wellyoumustcarrymeoffbyforce!
Areyouafraidthatyouwillchangeyourmind,Christine?
Idon’tknow,shesaid,shakingherheadinanoddfashion。
Heisademon!Andsheshiveredandnestledinhisarmswithamoan。
Iamafraidnowofgoingbacktolivewithhim……intheground!
Whatcompelsyoutogoback,Christine?
IfIdonotgobacktohim,terriblemisfortunesmayhappen!……
ButIcan’tdoit,Ican’tdoit!……Iknowoneoughttobesorryforpeoplewholiveunderground……Butheistoohorrible!
Andyetthetimeisathand。Ihaveonlyadayleft。and,ifI
donotgo,hewillcomeandfetchmewithhisvoice。Andhewilldragmewithhim,underground,andgoonhiskneesbeforeme,withhisdeath’shead。Andhewilltellmethathelovesme!
Andhewillcry!Oh,thosetears,Raoul,thosetearsinthetwoblackeye-socketsofthedeath’shead!Icannotseethosetearsflowagain!
Shewrungherhandsinanguish,whileRaoulpressedhertohisheart。
No,no,youshallneveragainhearhimtellyouthathelovesyou!
Youshallnotseehistears!Letusfly,Christine,letusflyatonce!
Andhetriedtodragheraway,thenandthere。Butshestoppedhim。
No,no,shesaid,shakingherheadsadly。Notnow!……Itwouldbetoocruel……lethimhearmesingto-morrowevening……andthenwewillgoaway。Youmustcomeandfetchmeinmydressing-roomatmidnightexactly。Hewillthenbewaitingformeinthedining-roombythelake……weshallbefreeandyoushalltakemeaway……
Youmustpromisemethat,Raoul,evenifIrefuse。forIfeelthat,ifIgobackthistime,Ishallperhapsneverreturn。
Andshegaveasightowhichitseemedtoherthatanothersigh,behindher,replied。
Didn’tyouhear?
Herteethchattered。
No,saidRaoul,Iheardnothing。
Itistooterrible,sheconfessed,tobealwaystremblinglikethis!……Andyetwerunnodangerhere。weareathome,inthesky,intheopenair,inthelight。Thesunisflaming。
andnight-birdscannotbeartolookatthesun。Ihaveneverseenhimbydaylight……itmustbeawful!……Oh,thefirsttimeI
sawhim!……Ithoughtthathewasgoingtodie。
Why?askedRaoul,reallyfrightenedattheaspectwhichthisstrangeconfidencewastaking。
BECAUSEIHADSEENHIM!
Thistime,RaoulandChristineturnedroundatthesametime:
Thereissomeoneinpain,saidRaoul。Perhapssomeonehasbeenhurt。Didyouhear?
Ican’tsay,Christineconfessed。Evenwhenheisnotthere,myearsarefullofhissighs。Still,ifyouheard……
Theystoodupandlookedaroundthem。Theywerequitealoneontheimmenseleadroof。TheysatdownagainandRaoulsaid:
Tellmehowyousawhimfirst。
Ihadheardhimforthreemonthswithoutseeinghim。ThefirsttimeI
heardit,Ithought,asyoudid,thatthatadorablevoicewassinginginanotherroom。Iwentoutandlookedeverywhere。but,asyouknow,Raoul,mydressing-roomisverymuchbyitself。andIcouldnotfindthevoiceoutsidemyroom,whereasitwentonsteadilyinside。
Anditnotonlysang,butitspoketomeandansweredmyquestions,likearealman’svoice,withthisdifference,thatitwasasbeautifulasthevoiceofanangel。IhadnevergottheAngelofMusicwhommypoorfatherhadpromisedtosendmeassoonashewasdead。
IreallythinkthatMammaValeriuswasalittlebittoblame。
Itoldheraboutit。andsheatoncesaid,`ItmustbetheAngel。
atanyrate,youcandonoharmbyaskinghim。’Ididso。
andtheman’svoicerepliedthat,yes,itwastheAngel’svoice,thevoicewhichIwasexpectingandwhichmyfatherhadpromisedme。
Fromthattimeonward,thevoiceandIbecamegreatfriends。
Itaskedleavetogivemelessonseveryday。Iagreedandneverfailedtokeeptheappointmentwhichitgavemeinmydressing-room。Youhavenoidea,thoughyouhaveheardthevoice,ofwhatthoselessonswerelike。
No,Ihavenoidea,saidRaoul。Whatwasyouraccompaniment?
WewereaccompaniedbyamusicwhichIdonotknow:itwasbehindthewallandwonderfullyaccurate。Thevoiceseemedtounderstandmineexactly,toknowpreciselywheremyfatherhadleftoffteachingme。Inafewweeks’time,IhardlyknewmyselfwhenIsang。
Iwasevenfrightened。Iseemedtodreadasortofwitchcraftbehindit。butMammaValeriusreassuredme。ShesaidthatsheknewIwasmuchtoosimpleagirltogivethedevilaholdonme……Myprogress,bythevoice’sownorder,waskeptasecretbetweenthevoice,MammaValeriusandmyself。Itwasacuriousthing,but,outsidethedressing-room,Isangwithmyordinary,every-dayvoiceandnobodynoticedanything。Ididallthatthevoiceasked。Itsaid,`Waitandsee:weshallastonishParis!’
AndIwaitedandlivedoninasortofecstaticdream。ItwasthenthatIsawyouforthefirsttimeoneevening,inthehouse。
IwassogladthatIneverthoughtofconcealingmydelightwhenI
reachedmydressing-room。Unfortunately,thevoicewastherebeforemeandsoonnoticed,bymyair,thatsomethinghadhappened。
ItaskedwhatwasthematterandIsawnoreasonforkeepingourstorysecretorconcealingtheplacewhichyoufilledinmyheart。
Thenthevoicewassilent。Icalledtoit,butitdidnotreply。
Ibeggedandentreated,butinvain。Iwasterrifiedlestithadgoneforgood。IwishtoHeavenithad,dear!……Thatnight,Iwenthomeinadesperatecondition。ItoldMammaValerius,whosaid,`Why,ofcourse,thevoiceisjealous!’Andthat,dear,firstrevealedtomethatIlovedyou。
ChristinestoppedandlaidherheadonRaoul’sshoulder。Theysatlikethatforamoment,insilence,andtheydidnotsee,didnotperceivethemovement,atafewstepsfromthem,ofthecreepingshadowoftwogreatblackwings,ashadowthatcamealongtheroofsonear,sonearthemthatitcouldhavestifledthembyclosingoverthem。
Thenextday,Christinecontinued,withasigh,Iwentbacktomydressing-roominaverypensiveframeofmind。Thevoicewasthere,spoketomewithgreatsadnessandtoldmeplainlythat,ifImustbestowmyheartonearth,therewasnothingforthevoicetodobuttogobacktoHeaven。AnditsaidthiswithsuchanaccentofHUMANsorrowthatIoughtthenandtheretohavesuspectedandbeguntobelievethatIwasthevictimofmydeludedsenses。
Butmyfaithinthevoice,withwhichthememoryofmyfatherwassocloselyintermingled,remainedundisturbed。IfearednothingsomuchasthatImightneverhearitagain。Ihadthoughtaboutmyloveforyouandrealizedalltheuselessdangerofit。
andIdidnotevenknowifyourememberedme。Whateverhappened,yourpositioninsocietyforbademetocontemplatethepossibilityofevermarryingyou。andIsworetothevoicethatyouwerenomorethanabrothertomenoreverwouldbeandthatmyheartwasincapableofanyearthlylove。Andthat,dear,waswhyIrefusedtorecognizeorseeyouwhenImetyouonthestageorinthepassages。
Meanwhile,thehoursduringwhichthevoicetaughtmewerespentinadivinefrenzy,until,atlast,thevoicesaidtome,`Youcannow,ChristineDaae,givetomenalittleofthemusicofHeaven。’