``Ifyouknowthat,’’saidthegeneralinhisevenslowway,monotonous,almostlifeless,``youknowyou’dbettercomewithmethanstandoutagainstme。’’
  Shedidnotlethimseehowthisstruckterrorintoher。Shesaid:``Nomatterwhatyoumightdotome,whenI’mawayfromyou,itwouldbelessthanyou’ddowithmeunderyourroof。Atanyrate,it’dseemless。’’
  Thegeneralreflected,decidedtochangetoanotherpoint:``Youmadeabargainwithme。You’vebrokenit。Ineverletanyonebreakabargainwithmewithoutmakingthemregretit。I’mgivingyouachancetokeepyourbargain。’’
  Shewastemptedtodiscuss,butshecouldnotfindthewords,orthestrength。Besides,howfutiletodiscusswithsuchaman。Shesankbackinherchairwearily。``Ishallnevergoback,’’shesaid。
  Helookedather,hisfacedevoidofexpression,butshehadasenseofmalignanceunutterableeyingherfrombehindascreen。Hesaid:``Iseeyou’vemisunderstoodmygenerosity。YouthinkI’mweakwhereyouareconcernedbecauseI’vecometoyouinsteadofdoingasIsaidandmakingyoucometome。’’Herose。
  ``Well,myoffertoyouisclosed。AndoncemoreI
  say,youwillcometomeandasktobetakenback。I
  mayormaynottakeyouback。ItdependsonhowI’llfeelatthattime。’’
  Slowly,withhisludicrouslypompousstrut,hemarchedtothedrawing-roomdoor。Shehadnotfeltlikesmiling,butiftherehadbeenanysuchinclinationitwouldhavefledbeforethecountenancethatturneduponheratthethreshold。Itwasthelean,littlefacewiththefunnytoupeeandneedle-likemustacheandimperial,butbehinditlayapersonalitylikethedull,cold,yelloweyesofthedevil-fishambushedinthehazymassofdun-coloredformlessnessofcollapsedbodyandtentacles。Hesaid:
  ``You’dbestbecarefulhowyouconductyourself。
  You’llbeunderconstantobservation。Andanyfriendsyoumake——they’ddowelltoavoidyou。’’
  Hewasgone。Shesatwithoutthepowerofmotion,withoutthepowerofthought。Afteratime——perhapslong,perhapsshort,shedidnotknow——Mrs。
  Belloccameinandentereduponavolubleapologyforthemaid’shavingshown``thelittlegentleman’’intothedrawing-roomwhenanotherwasalreadythere。
  ``Thatmaid’sasgreenasspringcorn,’’saidshe。
  ``Suchathingneverhappenedinmyhousebefore。
  Andit’llneverhappenagain。Idohopeitdidn’tcausetrouble。’’
  ``Itwasmyhusband,’’saidMildred。``Ihadtoseehimsometime。’’
  ``He’scertainlyaveryelegantlittlegentleman,’’
  saidMrs。Belloc。``Iratherlikesmallmen,myself。’’
  Mildredgazedathervaguelyandsaid,``Tellme——
  arichman,averyrichman——ifhehatesanyone,canhemaketrouble?’’
  ``Moneycandoanythinginthistown,’’repliedMrs。
  Belloc。``Butusuallyrichmenaretimidandstingy。
  Iftheyweren’t,they’dmakeusallcringe。Asitis,I’veheardsomeawfulstoriesofhowmenandwomenwho’vegotsomepowerfulpersondownonthemhavebeenhounded。’’
  Mildredturneddeathlysick。``IthinkI’llgotomyroom,’’shesaid,risinguncertainlyandforcingherselftowardthedoor。
  Mrs。Belloc’scuriositycouldnotrestrainitself。
  ``You’releaving?’’sheasked。``You’regoingbacktoyourhusband?’’
  Shewasstartledwhenthegirlabruptlyturnedonherandcriedwithflashingeyesandvoicestrongandvibrantwithpassion:``Never!Never!Nomatterwhatcomes——NEVER!’’
  Therestofthedayandthatnightshehidinherroomandmadenoefforttoresisttheterrorthatpreyeduponher。Justasourstrengthisoftenthesourceofweakness,soourweaknessesoftengivebirthtostrength。
  Herterrorofthelittlegeneral,givenfullswing,shriekedandgrimaceditselfintoabsurdity。Shewasashamedofherorgy,waslaughingatitasthesunandintoxicatingairofatypicalNewYorkmorningpouredinuponher。SheacceptedMrs。Belloc’sinvitationtotakeaturnthroughtheparkandupRiversideDriveinataxicab,camebackrestoredtohernormalstateofblindconfidenceinthefuture。AboutnoonStanleyBairdtelephoned。
  ``Wemustnotseeeachotheragainforsometime,’’
  saidhe。``Irathersuspectthatyou——know——whomaybehavingyouwatched。’’
  ``I’msureofit,’’saidshe。``Hewarnedme。’’
  ``Don’tletthatdisturbyou,’’pursuedStanley。``A
  man——asingingteacher——hisname’sEugeneJennings——
  willcallonyouthisafternoonatthree。Doexactlyashesuggests。Lethimdoallthetalking。’’
  ShehadintendedtotellBairdfranklythatshethought,indeedknew,thatitwashighlydangerousforhimtoenterintoheraffairsinanyway,andtourgehimtodrawoff。Shefeltthatitwasonlyfairtoactsotowardonewhohadbeenunselfishlygeneroustoher。Butnowthatthetimeforspeakinghadcome,shefoundherselfunabletospeak。Onlybyflatlyrefusingtohaveanythingtodowithhisprojectcouldsheprevailuponhim。Tosaylessthanthatshehadcompletelyandfinallychangedhermindwouldsound,andwouldbe,insincere。Andthatshecouldnotsay。
  Shefelthownobleitwouldbetosaythis,howselfish,andweak,too,itwastoclingtohim,possiblytoinvolvehimindisagreeableandevendangerouscomplications,butshehadnostrengthtodowhatshewouldhavedenouncedanotherasbasefornotdoing。Insteadoftheloftywordsthatflowsofreelyfromthelipsofstageandfictionheroines,insteadofthewordsthatanyandeveryreaderofthishistorywoulddoubtlesshavepronouncedinthesamecircumstances,shesaid:
  ``You’requitesureyouwanttogoon?’’
  ``Whynot?’’cameinstantlybackoverthewire。
  ``Heisavery,veryrelentlessman,’’repliedshe。
  ``Didhetrytofrightenyou?’’
  ``I’mafraidhesucceeded。’’
  ``You’renotgoingbackonthecareer!’’exclaimedheexcitedly。``I’llcomedownthereand——’’
  ``No,no,’’criedshe。``Iwassimplygivingyouachancetofreeyourself。’’Shefeltsureofhimnow。
  Shescrambledtowardtheheightsofmoralgrandeur。
  ``Iwantyoutostop。I’venorighttoaskyoutoinvolveyourselfinmymisfortunes。Stanley,youmustn’t。Ican’tallowit。’’
  ``Oh,fudge!’’laughedhe。``Don’tgivemethesescares。Don’tforget——Jenningsatthree。Good-byandgoodluck。’’
  Andherangoffthatshemighthavenochanceonimpulsetodoherselfmischiefwithhergenerousthoughtfulnessforhim。Shefeltrathermean,butnotnearlysomeanasshewouldhavefelthadshelettheopportunitygobywithnogenerouswordsaid。``Andnodoubtmyaversionforthatlittlewretch,’’thoughtshe,``makesmethinkhimmoreterriblethanheis。
  Afterall,whatcanhedo?Watchme——anddiscovernothing,becausethere’llbenothingtodiscover。’’
  Jenningscameexactlyatthree——camewiththeairofamanwhowastesnoone’stimeandletsnoonewastehistime。Hewasayoungishmanoffortyorthere-
  abouts,withalongsharpnose,alargetightmouth,andeyesthatseemedtobelookingrestlesslyaboutformoney。Thattheyhadnotlookedinvainseemedtobeindicatedbysuchfactsasthathecameinaprivatebroughamandthathewasmostcarefullydressed,apparentlywiththeaidofavalet。
  ``MissStevens,’’hesaidwithanabruptbow,beforeMildredhadachancetospeak,``youhavecometoNewYorktotakesinginglessons——toprepareyourselfforthestage。Andyouwishacomfortableplacetoliveandtowork。’’Heextendedhisglovedhand,shookhersfrigidly,droppedit。``Weshallgeton——IFyouwork,butonlyifyouwork。Idonotwastemyselfupontriflers。’’Hedrewacardfromhispocket。``Ifyouwillgotoseetheladywhosenameandaddressarewrittenonthiscard,Ithinkyouwillfindthequartersyouarelookingfor。’’
  ``Thankyou,’’saidMildred。
  ``Cometome——myaddressisonthecard,also——
  athalf-pasttenonSaturday。Wewillthenlayoutyourwork。’’
  ``IfyoufindIhaveavoiceworthwhile,’’Mildredventured。
  ``That,ofcourse,’’saidMr。Jenningscurtly。
  ``Untilhalf-pasttenonSaturday,goodday。’’
  Againhegavetheabruptforeignbowand,whileMildredwasstillstrugglingwithhersurpriseandconfusion,shesawhim,throughthewindow,drivingrapidlyaway。Mrs。Belloccamedriftingthroughtheroom。shehadthehabitoflookingaboutwhenevertherewerenewvisitors,andinheritwasnotirritatingbecauseherinterestwasinnocentandsympathetic。
  SaidMildred:
  ``Didyouseethatman,Mrs。Belloc?’’
  ``Whatanextraordinarynosehehad,’’repliedshe。
  ``Yes,Inoticedthat,’’saidMildred。``ButitwastheonlythingIdidnotice。Heisasingingteacher——
  Mr。Jennings。’’
  ``EugeneJennings?’’
  ``Yes,Eugene。’’
  ``He’sthebestknownsingingteacherinNewYork。
  Hegetsfifteendollarsahalf-hour。’’
  ``ThenIsimplycan’ttakefromhim!’’exclaimedMildred,beforeshethought。``That’sfrightful!’’
  ``Isn’tit,though?’’echoedMrs。Belloc。``I’veheardhisincomeisfiftythousandayear,whatwithlessonsandcoachingandoddsandends。There’salotofthemthatdowell,becausesomanyfoolwomenwithnothingtodocultivatetheirvoices——whentheycan’tsingalittlebit。Buthetopsthemall。Idon’tseehowANYteachercanputfifteendollarsofvalueintohalfanhour。ButIsupposehedoes,orhewouldn’tgetit。Still,hismaybejustanothercaseofNewYorknerve。Thisisthebiggestblufftownintheworld,I
  dobelieve。Here,youcangetawaywithanything,I
  don’tcarewhatitis,ifonlyyoubluffhardenough。’’
  Astherewasnoreasonfordelayandmanyreasonsagainstit,MildredwentatoncetotheaddressonthecardJenningshadleft。ShefoundMrs。HowellBrindleyinstalledinaplaincomfortableapartmentinFifty-ninthStreet,overlookingtheparkandhighenoughtomakethenoiseofthetrafficendurable。A
  Swedishmaid,prepossessinglywhiteandclean,usheredherintothelittledrawing-room,whichwasfurnishedwithmoresimplicityandindividualtastethanisusualanywhereinNewYork,cursedofthemaniaforuselessandtastelessshowiness。Therewerenomessydraperies,nofussystatuettes,vases,giltboxes,andthelike。
  MildredawaitedtheentranceofMrs。Brindleyhopefully。
  Shewasnotdisappointed。Presentlyincameaquietly-dressed,frank-lookingwomanofayoungforty——awomanwhohadbynomeanslostherphysicalfreshness,buthadgainedcharmofanotherandmoreenduringkind。Asshecameforwardwithextendedbutnotovereagerhand,shesaid:
  ``Iwasexpectingyou,Mrs。Siddall——thatis,MissStevens。’’
  ``Mr。JenningsdidnotsaywhenIwastocome。IfIamdisturbingyou——’’
  Mrs。Brindleyhastenedtoassureherthathervisitwasquiteconvenient。``Imusthavesomeonetosharetheexpenseofthisapartmentwithme,andIwantthemattersettled。Mr。Jenningshasexplainedaboutyoutome,andnowthatI’veseenyou——’’hereshesmiledcharmingly——``Iamreadytosaythatitisforyoutosay。’’
  Mildreddidnotknowhowtobegin。ShelookedatMrs。Brindleywithappealinhertroubledyoungeyes。
  ``Younodoubtwishtoknowsomethingaboutme,’’
  saidMrs。Brindley。``Myhusbandwasacomposer——
  afriendofMr。Jennings。Hediedtwoyearsago。
  IamhereinNewYorktoteachthepiano。Whatthelessonswillbring,withmysmallincome,willenablemetolive——ifIcanfindsomeonetohelpoutattheexpenseshere。AsIunderstandit,youarewillingtopayfortydollarsaweek,Itorunthehouse,payallthebills,andsoon——all,ofcourse,ifyouwishtocomehere。’’
  Mildredmadeanotverysuccessfulattempttoconcealherembarrassment。
  ``Perhapsyouwouldliketolookattheapartment?’’
  suggestedMrs。Brindley。
  ``Thankyou,yes,’’saidMildred。
  Thetouroftheapartment——twobedrooms,dining-
  room,kitchen,sitting-room,largebath-room,drawing-
  room——tookonlyafewminutes,butMildredandMrs。
  Brindleycontrivedtobecomemuchbetteracquainted。
  SaidMildred,whentheywereinthedrawing-roomagain:
  ``It’smostattractive——justwhatIshouldlike。
  What——howmuchdidMr。Jenningssay?’’
  ``Fortydollarsaweek。’’Shecoloredslightlyandspokewiththenervousnessofonenotinthehabitofdiscussingmoneymatters。``IdonotseehowIcouldmakeitless。Thatisthefairshareofthe——’’
  ``Oh,Ithinkthatismostreasonable,’’interruptedMildred。``AndIwishtocome。’’
  Mrs。Brindleygaveanalmostchildlikesighofreliefandsmiledradiantly。``Thenit’ssettled,’’saidshe。
  ``I’vebeensonervousaboutit。’’ShelookedatMildredwithfriendlyunderstanding。``IthinkyouandIaresomewhatalikeaboutpracticalthings。You’venothadmuchexperience,either,haveyou?IjudgesofromthefactthatMr。Jenningsislookingaftereverythingforyou。’’
  ``I’vehadnoexperienceatall,’’saidMildred。
  ``ThatiswhyI’mhesitating。I’mwonderingifIcanaffordtopaysomuch。’’
  Mrs。Brindleylaughed。``Mr。Jenningswishedtofixitatsixtyaweek,butIinsistedthatfortywasenough,’’saidshe。
  Mildredcoloredhighwithembarrassment。HowmuchdidMrs。Brindleyknow?——orhowlittle?Shestammered:``Well,ifMr。Jenningssaysitisallright,I’llcome。’’
  ``You’llletmeknowto-morrow?YoucantelephoneMr。Jennings。’’
  ``Yes,I’llletyouknowto-morrow。I’malmostsureI’llcome。Infact,I’mquitesure。And——Ithinkweshallgetonwelltogether。’’
  ``Wecanhelpeachother,’’saidMrs。Brindley。``I
  don’tcareforanythingintheworldbutmusic。’’
  ``Iwanttobethatway,’’saidMildred。``Ishallbethatway。’’
  ``It’stheonlysurehappiness——tocareforsomething,forsomeTHING,’’saidMrs。Brindley。``Peopledie,ordisappointone,orbecomeestranged。Butwhenonecentersonsomekindofwork,itgivespleasurealways——moreandmorepleasure。’’
  ``IamsoafraidIhaven’tvoiceenough,oroftherightkind,’’saidMildred。``Mr。JenningsisgoingtotrymeonSaturday。ReallyI’venorighttosettleanythinguntilhehasgivenhisopinion。’’
  Mrs。Brindleysmiledwithhereyesonly,andMildredwondered。
  ``IfheshouldsaythatIwouldn’tdo,’’shewenton,``I’dnotknowwhichwaytoturn。’’
  ``Buthe’llnotsaythat,’’saidMrs。Brindley。``Youcansing,can’tyou?Youhavesung?’’
  ``Oh,yes。’’
  ``Thenyou’llbeacceptedbyhim。Anditwilltakehimalongtimetofindoutwhetheryou’lldoforaprofessional。’’
  ``I’mafraidIsingverybadly。’’
  ``Thatwillnotmatter。You’llsingbetterthanatleasthalfofJennings’spupils。’’
  ``Thenhedoesn’ttakeonlythoseworthwhile?’’
  Mrs。Brindleylookedamused。``Howwouldheliveifhedidthat?It’sateacher’sbusinesstoteach。
  Learning——that’sthepupil’slookout。Ifteacherstaughtonlythosewhocouldandwouldlearn,howwouldtheylive?’’
  ``ThenI’llnotknowwhetherI’lldo!’’exclaimedMildred。
  ``You’llhavetofindoutforyourself,’’saidMrs。
  Brindley。``Noonecantellyou。Anyone’sopinionmightbewrong。Forexample,I’veknownJennings,whoisaverygoodjudge,tobewrong——bothways。’’
  Hesitatingly:``Whynotsingforme?I’dliketohear。’’
  ``Wouldyoutellmewhatyouhonestlythought?’’
  saidMildred。
  Mrs。Brindleylaughinglyshookherhead。
  Mildredlikedherhonesty。``Thenit’dbeuselesstosingforyou,’’saidshe。``I’mnotvainaboutmyvoice。
  I’dsimplyliketomakealivingbyit,ifIcould。I’llevenconfessthattherearemanythingsIcareformorethanformusic。DoesthatprovethatIcanneversingprofessionally?’’
  ``No,indeed,’’Mrs。Brindleyassuredher。``It’dbestrangeifagirlofyouragecaredexclusivelyformusic。Thepassioncomeswiththework,withprogress,success。Andsomeofthegreatest——thatis,themostfamousandbestpaid——singersnevercaremuchaboutmusic,exceptasavanity,andneverunderstandit。A
  singermeansapersonbornwithacertainshapeofmouthandthroat,acertainkindofvocalchords。Therestmaybenaturaloracquired。It’stheinstrumentthatmakesthesinger,notbrainsortemperament。’’
  ``Doletmesingforyou,’’saidMildred。``Ithinkitwillhelpme。’’
  BetweenthemtheychosealittleFrenchsong——
  ``Chansond’Antonine’’——andMrs。Brindleyinsistedonherplayingherownaccompaniment。``Iwishtolisten,’’saidshe,``andIcan’tifIplay。’’
  Mildredwassurprisedatherownfreedomfromnervousness。Shesangneitherbetternorworsethanusual——sangintheclearandpleasantsopranowhichsheflatteredherselfwasnotunmusical。Whenshefinishedshesaid:
  ``That’saboutasIusuallysing。Whatdoyouthink?’’
  Mrs。Brindleyreflectedbeforeshereplied:``I
  BELIEVEit’sworthtrying。IfIwereyou,Ishouldkeepontrying,nomatterwhatanyonesaid。’’
  Mildredwasinstantlydepressed。``YouthinkMr。
  Jenningsmayrejectme?’’sheasked。
  ``IKNOWhewillnot,’’repliedMrs。Brindley。``Notaslongasyoucanpayforthelessons。ButIwasthinkingoftherealthing——ofwhetheryoucouldwinoutasasinger。’’
  ``Andyoudon’tthinkIcan?’’saidMildred。
  ``Onthecontrary,Ibelieveyoucan,’’repliedMrs。
  Brindley。``Asingermeanssomuchbesidessinging。
  Thesingingisthesmallestpartofit。You’llunderstandwhenyougettowork。Icouldn’texplainnow。
  ButIcansaythatyououghttogoahead。’’
  Mildred,whohadhershareofvanity,hadhopedforsomeenthusiasm。Mrs。Brindley’sjudicialtonewasasevereblow。Shefeltalittleresentful,begantocastaboutforvanity-consolingreasonsforMrs。Brindley’srestraint。``Shemeanswell,’’shesaidtoherself,``butshe’sprobablyjustatinybitjealous。She’snotsoyoungassheoncewas,andshehasn’tthefaintesthopeofeverbeinganythingmorethanapiano-teacher。’’
  Mrs。BrindleyshowedthatshehadmorethananinklingofMildred’sframeofmindbygoingontosayinagentle,candidway:``Iwanttohelpyou。SoIshallbecarefulnottoencourageyoutobelievetoomuchinwhatyouhave。Thatwouldpreventyoufromgettingwhatyouneed。Youmustremember,youarenolongeradrawing-roomsinger,butacandidatefortheprofession。That’saverydifferentthing。’’
  Mildredsawthatshewasmistaken,thatMrs。Brindleywashonestandfrankandhaddoubtlesstoldhertheexacttruth。Buthervanityremainedsore。Neverbe-
  forehadanyonesaidanylessofhersingingthanthatitwaswonderful,marvelous,equaltoagreatdealthatpassedforfineingrandopera。Shehadknownthatthiswasexaggeration,butshehadnotknownhowgrosslyexaggerated。Thus,thisherfirstexperienceoftheprofessionalattitudewasgalling。OnlyherunusualgoodsensesavedherfrombeingangrywithMrs。
  Brindley。Anditwasthatsamegoodsensethatmovedherpresentlytotrytolaughatherself。Withabraveattempttosmilegaylyshesaid:
  ``Youdon’trealizehowyou’vetakenmedown。I
  hadnoideaIwassoconceitedaboutmysinging。I
  can’ttruthfullysayIlikeyourfrankness,butthere’sapartofmethat’sgratefultoyouforit,andwhenI
  getoverfeelinghurt,I’llbegratefulthroughandthrough。’’
  Mrs。Brindley’sfacelightedupbeautifully。``You’llDO!’’
  shecried。``I’msureyou’lldo。I’vebeenwaitingandwatchingtoseehowyouwouldtakemycriticism。
  That’sthetest——howtheytakecriticism。Iftheydon’ttakeitatall,they’llnotgoveryfar,nomatterhowtalentedtheyare。Iftheytakeitasyou’vetakenit,there’shope——greathope。Now,I’mnotafraidtotellyouthatyousangsplendidlyforanamateur——thatyousurprisedme。’’
  ``Don’tspoilitall,’’saidMildred。``Youwereright。Ican’tsing。’’
  ``Notforgrandopera,notforcomicoperaeven,’’
  repliedMrs。Brindley。``Butyouwillsing,andsingwell,inoneortheother,ifyouwork。’’
  ``Youreallymeanthat?’’saidMildred。
  ``Ifyouworkintelligentlyandpersistently,’’saidMrs。Brindley。``That’sabigif——asyou’lldiscoverinayearorso。’’
  ``You’llsee,’’saidMildredconfidently。``Why,I’venothingelsetodo,andnootherhope。’’
  Mrs。Brindley’ssmilehadacertainsadnessinit。
  Shesaid:
  ``It’sthebiggestifinallthisworld。’’
  V
  ATMrs。Belloc’satelephonemessagefromJenningswasawaitingher。hewouldcallataquarter-pasteightandwoulddetainMissStevensonlyamoment。Andateightfifteenexactlyherangthebell。ThistimeMildredwasprepared。sherefusedtobedisconcertedbyhisabruptmannerandbyhislongsharpnosethatseemedtowarnaway,tothreatenaway,eventothrustawayanyglanceseekingtoinvestigatetherestofhisfaceorhispersonality。Shelookedathimcandidly,calmly,andseeingly。Seeingly。Witheyesthatsawastheyhadneverseenbefore。Perhapsfromthedeathofherfather,certainlyfromthebeginningofSiddall’scourtship,Mildredhadbeenwakingup。Thereisapartofournature——theactiveandaggressivepart——
  thatsleepsallourliveslongorbecomesatrophiedifweleadlivesofeaseandsecuredependence。Itistheimportantpartofus,too——thepartthatdeterminescharacter。ThethingthatcompletedtheawakeningofMildredwasheracquaintancewithMrs。Belloc。
  Thatpositiveandfinely-poisedladyfascinatedher,influencedherpowerfully——gaveherjustwhatsheneededattheparticularmoment。Thevitalmomentsinlifearenotthecrisesoverwhichshallowpeoplelinger,butarethemomentswherewemetandabsorbedtheideasthatenabledustoweatherthesecrises。TheacquaintancewithMrs。Bellocwasoneofthosevitalmoments。for,Mrs。Belloc’spersonality——herlookandmanner,whatshesaidandthewayshesaidit——wasaproffertoMildredofinvaluablelessonswhichherawakeningcharactereagerlyabsorbed。ShesawJenningsashewas。Shedecidedthathewasofcommonorigin,thathisvanitywascolossalandaquiverthroughoutwithsensitiveness。thathebelongedtothefamiliartypeofNew-Yorkerwhosucceedsbybluffing。Also,shesaworfeltacertainsexlessnessorindifferencetosex——andthisshelaterunderstood。Menwhoseoccupationcompelsthemconstantlytodealwithwomengotooneextremeortheother——eitherbecomeacutelysensitivetowomenaswomenorbecomeutterlyindifferent,unlesstheirhighlydiscriminatedtasteisappealedto——whichcannothappenoften。Jennings,teachingonlywomenbecauseonlywomenspendingmoneytheyhadnotearnedandcouldnotearnwouldtoleratehistermsandhismethods,had,asmuchthroughnecessityasthroughinclination,gonetotheextremeoflackofinterestinallmattersofsex。Onelookathimandthewomanwhohadcomewiththeideaofofferingherselfinfullorpartpaymentforlessonsdroopedininstinctivediscouragement。
  JenningshastenedtoexplaintoMildredthatsheneednothesitateaboutclosingwithMrs。Brindley。``Yourlessonsarearrangedfor,’’saidhe。``TherehasbeenputinthePlazaTrustCompanytoyourcreditthesumoffivethousanddollars。Thisgivesyouaboutahundreddollarsaweekforyourboardandotherpersonalexpenses。Ifthatisnotenough,youwillletmeknow。
  ButIestimatedthatitwouldbeenough。Idonotthinkitwiseforyoungwomenenteringuponthepreparationforaseriouscareertohavetoomuchmoney。’’
  ``Itismorethanenough,’’murmuredthegirl。``I
  knownothingaboutthosethings,butitseemstome——’’
  ``Youcanuseaslittleofitasyoulike,’’interruptedJennings,rising。
  Mildredfeltasthoughshehadbeencaughtandexposedinahypocriticalprotest。Jenningswasholdingoutsomethingtowardher。Shetookit,andhewenton:
  ``That’syourcheck-book。Thebankwillsendyoustatementsofyouraccount,andwillnotifyyouwhenanyfurthersumsareadded。Now,Ihavenothingmoretodowithyouraffairs——except,ofcourse,theartisticside——yourdevelopmentasasinger。You’venotforgottenyourappointment?’’
  ``No,’’saidMildred,likeaprimaryschool-childbeforeaformidableteacher。
  ``Beprompt,please。Imakenoreductionforlessonswhollyorpartlymissed。Thehalf-hourIshallassigntoyoubelongstoyou。Ifyoudonotuseit,thatisyouraffair。Atfirstyouwillprobablybelikeallwomen——carelessaboutyourappointments,comingwithlessonsunprepared,telephoningexcuses。Butifyouareseriousyouwillsoonfallintotheroutine。’’
  ``Ishalltrytoberegular,’’murmuredMildred。
  Jenningsapparentlydidnothear。``I’monmywaytotheopera-house,’’saidhe。``Oneofmyoldpupilsisappearinginanewrole,andsheisnervous。Goodnight。’’
  Oncemorethatswift,quietexit,followedalmostinstantaneouslybythesoundofwheelsrollingaway。
  Neverhadsheseensuchrapidityofmotionwithoutlossofdignity。``Yes,he’safraud,’’shesaidtoherself,``buthe’sagoodone。’’
  Theideaofacareerhadnowbecomelessindefinite。
  Itwasstillwithoutanyattraction——notbecauseofthetoilitinvolved,forthatmadesmallimpressionuponherwhohadneverworkedandhadneverseenanyonework,butbecauseacareermeantcuttingherselfofffromeverythingshehadbeenbroughtuptoregardasfitandproperforalady。Shewasashamedofthis。
  shedidnotadmititsexistenceeventoherself,andinhertalkswithBairdaboutthecareershehadprofessedexactlytheoppositeview。Yetthereitwas——norneedshehavebeenashamedofafeelingthatisinstilledintowomenofherclassfrombabyhoodaspartoftheirladylikeeducation。Thecareerhadnotbecomedefinite。
  Shecouldnotimagineherselfoutonastageinsomesortofacostume,withapaintedface,singingbeforeanaudience。Still,thecareerwaslessindefinitethanwhenithadnoexistencebeyondStanleyBaird’senthusiasmandherownwhipped-uppretenseofenthusiasm。
  Sheshrankfromtheactualstart,butatthesametimewaseagerforit。Inactionbegantofrethernerves,andshewishedtobedoingsomethingtoshowherappreciationofStanleyBaird’sgenerosity。ShetelephonedMrs。Brindleythatshewouldcomeinthemorning,andthenshetoldherlandlady。
  Mrs。Bellocwasmorethanregretful。shewasdistressed。Saidshe:``I’vetakenatremendousfancytoyou,andIhatetogiveyouup。I’ddomostanythingtokeepyou。’’
  Mildredexplainedthatherworkcompelledhertogo。
  ``That’sveryinteresting,’’saidMrs。Belloc。``IfI
  wereafewyearsyounger,andhadn’tspentallmyenergyinteachingschoolandputtingthroughthatmarriage,I’dtrytogetonthestage,myself。Idon’twanttolosesightofyou。’’
  ``Oh,I’llcometoseeyoufromtimetotime。’’
  ``No,youwon’t,’’saidMrs。Bellocpractically。``NomorethanI’dcometoseeyou。Ourliveslieindifferentdirections,andinNewYorkthatmeanswe’llneverhavetimetomeet。Butwemaybethrowntogetheragain,sometime。AsI’vegotatwentyyears’leaseonthishouse,Iguessyou’llhavenotroubleinfindingme。IsupposeIcouldlookyouupthroughProfessorJennings?’’
  ``Yes,’’saidMildred。Thenimpulsively,``Mrs。
  Belloc,there’sareasonwhyI’dliketochangewithoutanyone’sknowingwhathasbecomeofme——Imean,anyonethatmightbe——watchingme。’’
  ``Iunderstandperfectly,’’saidMrs。BellocwithareadysympathythatmadeMildredappreciatetheadvantagesofthefriendshipofunconventional,knock-
  aboutpeople。``Nothingcouldbeeasier。You’vegotnoluggagebutthatbag。I’lltakeituptotheGrandCentralStationandcheckit,andbringthecheckbackhere。Youcansendforitwhenyouplease。’’
  ``Butwhataboutme?’’saidMildred。
  ``Iwascomingtothat。Youwalkoutofhere,say,abouthalfanhourafterIgointhetaxi。YouwalkthroughtothecornerofLexingtonAvenueandThirty-
  seventhStreet——therearen’tanycabstobehadthere。
  I’llbewaitinginthetaxi,andwe’llmakeadashuptheEastSideandIcandropyouatsomequietplaceintheparkandgoon——andyoucanwalktoyournewaddress。Howdoesthatstrikeyou?’’
  Mildredexpressedheradmiration。Theplanwascarriedout,asMrs。Belloc——aborngeniusatallformsofintrigue——hadevolveditinperfectiononthespurofthemoment。AstheywentupthefarEastSide,Mrs。Belloc,lookingbackthroughthelittlerearwindow,sawataxiafewblocksbehindthem。``Wehaven’tgiventhemtheslipyet,’’saidshe,``butwewillinthepark。’’TheyenteredtheparkatEastNinetiethStreet,crossedtotheWestDrive。ActingonMrs。
  Belloc’sinstructions,themotormanputonfullspeed——
  withdueregardtotheoccasionalpoliceman。AtasharpturningneartheMall,whenthetaxicouldbeseenfromneitherdirection,heabruptlystopped。OutsprangMildredanddisappearedbehindthebushescompletelyscreeningthewalkfromthedrive。Atoncethetaxiwasunder-wayagain。She,waitingwherethescreenofbusheswassecurelythick,sawthetaxithathadfollowedthemintheEastSideflashby——inpursuitofMrs。Bellocalone。
  Shewasfree——atleastuntilsomemischanceuncoveredhertothelittlegeneral。AtMrs。Brindley’sshefoundanoteawaitingher——anotefromStanleyBaird:
  DEARMILDRED:
  I’moffortheFarWest,andprobablyshallnotbeintownagainuntiltheearlysummer。Theclubforwardsmymailandrepeatstelegramsasmarked。Goinandwin,anddon’thesitatetocallonmeifyouneedme。Nofalsepride,PLEASE!I’mgettingoutofthewaybecauseit’sobviouslybestforthepresent。
  STANLEY。
  Asshefinished,hersenseoffreedomwascomplete。
  ShehadnotrealizedhowuneasyshewasfeelingaboutStanley。Shedidnotdoubthisgenerosity,didnotdoubtthathegenuinelyintendedtoleaveherfree,andshebelievedthathisdelicacywasworthyofhisgenerosity。Still,shewasconstantlyfearinglestcircumstancesshouldthrustthemboth——asmuchagainsthiswillashers——intoapositioninwhichshewouldhavetochoosebetweenseeming,nottosaybeing,ungrateful,andplayingthehypocrite,perhapsbasely,withhim。
  Thelittlegeneraleluded,Stanleyvoluntarilyremoved。
  shewasindeedfree。Nowshecouldworkwithanun-
  troubledmind,couldshowMrs。Brindleythatintelligentandpersistentwork——her``biggestifinalltheworld’’——wasinfactaverysimplematter。
  ShehadnotbeensettledatMrs。Brindley’smanyhoursbeforeshediscoveredthatnotonlywasshefreefromallhindrances,butwastohaveapositiveandgreathelp。Mrs。Brindley’stalentforputtingpeopleattheireasewasnomeredrawing-roomtrick。
  ShemadeMildredfeelimmediatelyathome,asshehadnotfeltathomesincehermotherintroducedJamesPresburyintotheirhouseatHangingRock。Mrs。
  Brindleywasabsolutelydevoidofpretenses。WhenMildredspoketoherofthisqualityinhershesaid:
  ``Iowethattomyhusband。Iwasbroughtuplikeeverybodyelse——tobemoreorlessofaposerandahypocrite。Infact,Ithinktherewasalmostnothinggenuineaboutme。Myhusbandtaughtmetobemyself,tobeafraidofnobody’sopinion,toshowmyselfjustasIwasandtoletpeopleseekoravoidmeastheysawfit。Hewasthatsortofmanhimself。’’
  ``Hemusthavebeenaremarkableman,’’saidMildred。
  ``Hewas,’’repliedMrs。Brindley。``Butnotattractive——atleastnottome。Ourmarriagewasamistake。Wequarreledwheneverwewerenotatworkwiththemusic。Ifhehadnotdied,weshouldhavebeendivorced。’’Shesmiledmerrily。``Thenhewouldhavehiredmeashismusicalsecretary,andwe’dhavegotonbeautifully。’’
  MildredwasstillthinkingofMrs。Brindley’sfreedomfrompretense。``I’veneverdaredbemyself,’’
  confessedshe。``Idon’tknowwhatmyselfreallyislike。
  IwasthinkingtheotherdayhowforonereasonandanotherI’vebeenahypocriteallmylife。Yousee,I’vealwaysbeenadependent——havealwayshadtopleasesomeoneinordertogetwhatIwanted。’’
  ``Youcanneverbeyourselfuntilyouhaveanindependentincome,howeversmall,’’saidMrs。Brindley。
  ``I’vehadthatjoyonlysincemyhusbanddied。It’saswellthatIdidn’thaveitsooner。Oneisthebetterforhavingservedanapprenticeshipatself-repressionandatpretendingtovirtuesonehasnot。Onlythosewhoearntheirfreedomknowhowtouseit。IfIhadhadittenorfifteenyearsagoI’dhavebeenanintolerabletyrant,makingeveryonearoundmeunhappyandthereforemyself。Theidealworldwouldbeonewhereeveryonewasbornfreeandneverknewanythingelse。
  Then,noonebeingafraidorhavingtoserve,everyonewouldhavetobeconsiderateinordertogethimselftolerated。’’
  ``IwonderifIreallyevershallbeabletoearnaliving?’’sighedMildred。
  ``Youmustdecidethatwhateveryoucanmakeshallbeforyoualiving,’’saidtheolderwoman。``Ihavelivedonmyfixedincome,whichisundertwothousandayear。AndIamreadytodoitagainratherthantolerateanythingoranybodythatdoesnotsuitme。’’
  ``Ishallhavetobeextremelycareful,’’laughedMildred。``Ishallbeadreadfulhypocritewithyou。’’
  Mrs。Brindleysmiled。butunderneath,Mildredsaw——orperhapsfelt——thathernewfriendwasindeednotonetobetrifledwith。Shesaid:
  ``YouandIwillgeton。We’llleteachotheralone。
  Wehavetobemoreorlessintimate,butwe’llneverbefamiliar。’’
  AfteratimeshediscoveredthatMrs。Brindley’sfirstnamewasCyrilla,butMrs。BrindleyandMissStevenstheyremainedtoeachotherforalongtime——untilcircumstanceschangedtheiraccidentalintimacyintoenduringfriendship。Nottoanticipate,inthecourseofthatsameconversationMildredsaid:
  ``Ifthereisanythingaboutme——aboutmylife——
  thatyouwishmetoexplain,Ishallbegladtodoso。’’
  ``IknowallIwishtoknow,’’repliedCyrillaBrindley。``Yourfaceandyourmannerandyourwayofspeakingtellmealltheessentials。’’
  ``ThenyoumustnotthinkitstrangewhenIsayI
  wishnoonetoknowanythingaboutme。’’
  ``Itwillbeimpossibleforyouentirelytoavoidmeetingpeople,’’saidCyrilla。``Youmusthavesomesimpleexplanationaboutyourself,oryouwillattractattentionanddefeatyourobject。’’
  ``LeadpeopletobelievethatI’manorphan——perhapsofsomeobscurefamily——whoistryingtogetupintheworld。Thatispracticallythetruth。’’
  Mrs。Brindleylaughed。``QuiteenoughforNewYork,’’saidshe。``Itisnotinterestedinfacts。AlltheNew-Yorkerasksofyouis,`Canyoupayyourbillsandhelpmepaymine?’’’
  Competentmenarerare。but,thankstotheadvantageofthemalesexinhavingtomakethestruggleforaliving,theyarenotsorareascompetentwomen。
  Mrs。BrindleywasthefirstcompetentwomanMildredhadeverknown。Shehadspentbutafewhourswithherbeforeshebegantoappreciatewhatabadatmosphereshehadalwaysbreathed——badforawomanwhohasherwaytomakeintheworld,orindeedforanywomannotwillingtobecontentasmeremoreorlessshiftless,moreorlesshypocriticalandpretentious,dependentandparasite。Mrs。Brindley——wellbredandwelleducated——knewallthelittlematterswhichMildredhadbeentaughttoregardasthewholeofalady’seducation。ButMildredsawthatthesetrifleswerebutatriflingincidentinMrs。Brindley’sknowledge。Sheknewrealthings,thiswomanwhowasathorough-goinghousekeeperandwhotrebledherincomebygivingmusiclessonsafewhoursadaytosuchpupilsasshethoughtworththeteaching。Whenshespoke,shealwayssaidsomethingoneofthefirstthingsnoticedbyMildred,who,beingtoolazytothinkexceptashernaturallygoodmindinsistedonexercisingitself,usuallytalkedsimplytokilltimeandwithoutanyideaofgettinganywhere。ButwhileCyrilla——withoutintheleastintendingit——rousedhertoapainfulsenseofherownlimitations,shedidnotdiscourageher。Mildredalsobegantofeelthatinthisnewatmosphereofideas,ofwork,ofaccomplishment,shewouldrapidlydevelopintoadifferentsortofperson。Itwasextremelyfortunateforher,thoughtshe,thatshewaslivingwithsuchapersonasCyrillaBrindley。Intheoldatmosphere,orwithanytaintofit,shewouldhavebeenunabletobecomeaseriousperson。Shewouldsimplyhavedawdledalong,twaddlingabout``art’’andseriousnessandcareersandsacrifice,contentwiththeamateur’smethodsandtheamateur’sresults——anddeludingherselfthatshewasmakingprogress。Now——
  Itwasasdifferentaspublicschoolfromprivateschool——publicschoolwherethemindisrudelystimulated,privateschoolwhereitissedulouslymollycoddled。Shehadcomeoutofthehothouseintotheopen。
  AtfirstshethoughtthatJenningswastobeasgreatahelptoherasCyrillaBrindley。Certainlyifevertherewasamanwiththeairofaworkerandaplacewiththeairofaworkshop,thatmanandthatplacewereEugeneJenningsandhisstudioinCarnegieHall。
  WhenMildredentered,onthatSaturdaymorning,atexactlyhalf-pastten,Jennings——inaplainifeleganthouse-suit——lookedather,lookedattheclock,stoppedagirlinthemidstofaburstoftremulousnoisymelody。
  ``Thatwilldo,MissBristow,’’saidhe。``Youhaveneversungitworse。Youdonotimprove。Anotherlessonlikethis,andweshallgobackandbeginalloveragain。’’
  Thegirl,afattish,``temperamental’’blonde,burstintotears。
  ``Kindlytakethatoutintothehall,’’saidJenningscoldly。``Yourtimeisup。WecannotwasteMissStevens’stimewithyourhysterics。’’
  MissBristowswitchedfromtearstofury。``Youbrute!Youbeast!’’sheshrieked,andflungherselfoutoftheroom,slammingthedoorafterher。Jenningstookabookfromapileuponatable,openedit,andsetitonamusic-stand。EvidentlyMissBristowwasforgotten——indeed,hadpassedoutofhismindathalf-pasttenexactly,nottoenteritagainuntilsheshouldappearattenonMondaymorning。HesaidtoMildred:
  ``Now,we’llseewhatyoucando。Begin。’’
  ``I’malittlenervous,’’saidMildredwithashylaugh。``Ifyoudon’tmind,I’dliketowaittillI’vegotusedtomysurroundings。’’
  Jenningslookedather。Thelongsharpnoseseemedtoberappingherontheforeheadlikeawood-
  pecker’sbeakonthebarkofthetree。``Begin,’’hesaid,pointingtothebook。
  Mildredflushedangrily。``IshallnotbeginuntilICANbegin,’’saidshe。Thetimetoshowthismanthathecouldnottreatherbrutallywasattheoutset。
  Jenningsopenedthedoorintothehall。``Goodday,MissStevens,’’hesaidwithhisabruptbow。
  Mildredlookedathim。helookedather。Herliptrembled,thehottearsfloodedandblindedhereyes。
  Shewentunsteadilytothemusic-standandtriedtoseethenotesoftheexercises。Jenningsclosedthedoorandseatedhimselfatthefarendoftheroom。Shebegan——aridiculousattempt。Shestopped,grittedherteeth,beganagain。Oncemoretheresultwasabsurd。butthistimeshewasabletokeepon,notimproving,butmaintainingherinitialoff-keyquavering。
  Shestopped。
  ``Yousee,’’saidshe。``ShallIgoon?’’
  ``Don’tstopagainuntilItellyouto,please,’’saidhe。
  ShestaggeredandstumbledandsomersaultedthroughtwopagesofDO-RE-ME-FA-SOL-LA-SI。Thenhehelduphisfinger。
  ``Enough,’’saidhe。
  Silence,anawfulsilence。SherecalledwhatMrs。
  Bellochadtoldherabouthim,whatMrs。Brindleyhadimplied。Butshegotnoconsolation。Shesaidtimidly:
  ``Really,Mr。Jennings,Icandobetterthanthat。
  Won’tyouletmetryasong?’’
  ``Godforbid!’’saidhe。``Youcan’tstand。Youcan’tbreathe。Youcan’topenyourmouth。Naturally,youcan’tsing。’’
  Shedroppedtoachair。
  ``Takethebook,andgooverthesamething,sitting,’’saidhe。
  Shebegantoremoveherwraps。
  ``Justasyouare,’’hecommanded。``Trytoforgetyourself。Trytoforgetme。TrytoforgetwhatabruteIam,andwhatawonderfulsingeryouare。Justopenyourmouthandthrowthenotesout。’’
  Shewasrosywithrage。Shewasreckless。Shesang。Attheendofthreepageshestoppedherwithanenthusiastichand-clapping。``Good!Good!’’hecried。``I’lltakeyou。I’llmakeasingerofyou。
  Yes,yes,there’ssomethingtoworkon。’’
  Thedooropened。Atall,thinwomanwithmanyjewelsandasuperbfurwrapcameglidingin。Jenningslookedattheclock。Thehandspointedtoeleven。
  SaidhetoMildred:
  ``Takethatbookwithyou。Practicewhatyou’vedoneto-day。Learntokeepyourmouthopen。We’llgointothatfurthernexttime。’’Hewasholdingthedooropenforher。Asshepassedout,sheheardhimsay:
  ``Ah,Mrs。Roswell。We’llgoatthatthirdsongfirst。’’
  Thedoorclosed。Reviewingallthathadoccurred,MildreddecidedthatshemustreviseheropinionofJennings。Amoney-makerhenodoubtwas。Andwhynot?Didhenothavetolive?Butateacheralso,andagreatteacher。Hadhenotdestroyedhervanityatoneblow,demolishedit?——yetwithoutdiscouragingher。Andhewentstraighttothebottomofthings——
  verydifferentfromanyoftheteacherssheusedtohavewhenshewasposingindrawing-roomsasapersonwithavoiceequaltothemostdifficultopera,ifonlysheweren’taladyandthereforenotforcedtobeaprofessionalsingingperson。Yes,agreatteacher——andindeadlyearnest。Hewouldpermitnotrifling!Howshewouldhavetowork!
  Andshewenttoworkwithanenergyshewouldnothavebelievedshepossessed。Heinstructedherminutelyinhowtostand,inhowtobreathe,inhowtoopenhermouthandkeepitopen,inhowtorelaxherthroatandleaveitrelaxed。Hefilledeverysecondofherhalf-hour。shehadneverbeforerealizedhowmuchtimehalfanhourwas,howusecouldbemadeofeveryoneofitseighteenhundredseconds。Shewenttohearotherteachersgivelessons,andsheunderstoodwhyJenningscouldgetsuchprices,couldtreathispupilsashesawfit。Shebecameanextravagantadmirerofhimasateacher,thoughthimagenius,feltconfidentthathewouldmakeagreatsingerofher。Withthesecondlessonshebegantoprogressrapidly。Inafewweekssheamazedherself。Atlastshewasreallysinging。
  Notinagreatway,butinthebeginningsofagreatway。Hervoicehadmanytimesthepowerofherdrawing-roomdays。Hernoteswerefullandround,andcamewithoutaneffort。Herformerideasofwhatconstitutedfacialandvocalexpressionnowseemedridiculoustoher。Shewasnowsingingwithoutmakingthosedreadfulfaceswhichshehadoncethoughtcharmingandnecessary。Herlowerregister,alwaysherbest,wasalmostperfect。Hermiddleregister——thetestpartofavoice——wasshowingsignsofstrengthandsteadinessandevenness。Andshewasfastgettingarealupperregister,asdistinguishedfromtheforcedandshriekyhighnotesthatpassasanupperregisterwithmostsingers,evenoperasingers。Afteramonthofthismarvelousforwardmarch,shesangforMrs。Brindley——sangthesamesongshehadessayedattheirfirstmeeting。Whenshefinished,Mrs。Brindleysaid:
  ``Yes,you’vedonewonders。I’vebeennoticingyourimprovementasyoupracticed。Youcertainlyhaveaverydifferentvoiceandmethodfromthoseyouhadamonthago,’’andsoonthroughaboutfiveminutesofcriticalanddiscriminatingpraise。
  Mildredlistened,wonderingwhyherdissatisfaction,herirritation,increasedasMrs。Brindleypraisedonandon。BeyondquestionCyrillawassincere,andwassayingevenmorethanMildredhadhopedshewouldsay。Yet——Mildredsatmoodilymeasuringoffoctavesonthekeyboardofthepiano。Ifshehadbeenlookingatherfriend’sfaceshewouldhaveflaredoutinanger。forCyrillaBrindleywastakingadvantageofherabstractiontoobserveherwithfriendlysympathyandsadness。Presentlysheconcealedthiscandidexpressionandsaid:
  ``Youaresatisfiedwithyourprogress,aren’tyou,MissStevens?’’
  Mildredflaredupangrily。``Certainly!’’repliedshe。``HowcouldIfailtobe?’’
  Mrs。Brindleydidnotanswer——perhapsbecauseshethoughtnoanswerwasneededorexpected。ButtoMildredhersilencesomehowseemedadenial。
  ``Ifyoucanonlykeepwhatyou’vegot——andgoon,’’saidMrs。Brindley。
  ``Oh,Ishall,neverfear,’’retortedMildred。
  ``ButIdofear,’’saidMrs。Brindley。``Ithinkit’salwayswelltofearuntilsuccessisactuallywon。Andthenthere’stheawfulfearofnotbeingabletoholdit。’’
  Afteramoment’ssilenceMildred,whocouldnothideawayresentmentagainstonesheliked,said:``Whyaren’tYOUsatisfied,Mrs。Brindley?’’
  ``ButIamsatisfied,’’protestedCyrilla。``OnlyitmakesmeafraidtoseeYOUsowellsatisfied。I’veseenthatofteninpeoplefirststarting,andit’salwaysdangerous。Yousee,mydear,you’vegotastraight-awayhundredmilestowalk。Can’tyouseethatitwouldbepossibleforyoutobecometoomuchelatedbythewayyouwalkedthefirstpartofthefirstmile?’’
  ``Whydoyoutrytodiscourageme?’’saidMildred。
  Mrs。Brindleycolored。``IdoitbecauseIwanttosaveyoufromdespairalittlelater,’’saidshe。``Butthatisfoolishofme。Ishallonlyirritateyouagainstme。I’llnotdoitagain。Andpleasedon’taskmyopinion。Ifyoudo,Ican’thelpshowingexactlywhatIthink。’’
  ``Thenyoudon’tthinkI’vedonewell?’’criedMildred。
  ``Indeedyouhave,’’repliedCyrillawarmly。
  ``ThenIdon’tunderstand。WhatDOyoumean?’’
  ``I’lltellyou,andthenI’llstopandyoumustnotaskmyopinionagain。Welivetooclosetogethertobeabletoaffordtocriticizeeachother。WhatImeantwasthis:Youhavedonewellthefirstpartofthegreattaskthat’sbeforeyou。Ifyouhaddoneitanylesswell,itwouldhavebeenfollyforyoutogoon。’’
  ``Thatis,whatI’vedonedoesn’tamounttoanything?Mr。Jenningsdoesn’tagreewithyou。’’
  ``Doubtlesshe’sright,’’saidMrs。Brindley。``Atanyrate,weallagreethatyouhaveshownthatyouhaveavoice。’’
  ShesaidthissosimplyandheartilythatMildredcouldnotbutbemollified。Mrs。BrindleychangedthesubjecttothesongMildredhadsung,andMildredstoppedpuzzlingoverthemysteryofwhatshehadmeantbyherapparentlyenthusiasticwords,whichhadyetdiffusedachillatmosphereofdoubt。
  Shewasdoingherscalessowellthatshebecameimpatientofsuch``tiresomechild’splay。’’AndpresentlyJenningsgavehersongs,anddidnotdiscourageherwhenshetalkedofroles,ofgettingseriouslyatwhat,afterall,sheintendedtodo。Thentherecameaweekofvileweather,andMildredcaughtacold。Sheneglectedit。Hervoicelefther。Hertonsilsswelled。
  Shehadabadattackofulceratedsorethroat。Fornearlythreeweeksshecouldnottakeasingleoneofthelessons,whichwere,nevertheless,paidfor。Jenningsrebukedhersharply。
  ``Asingerhasnorighttobesick,’’saidhe。
  ``Youhaveacoldyourself,’’retortedshe。
  ``ButIamnotasinger。I’venothingthatinterfereswithmywork。’’
  ``It’simpossiblenottotakecold,’’saidMildred。
  ``Youareunreasonablewithme。’’
  Heshruggedhisshoulders。``Gogetwell,’’hesaid。
  ThesorethroatfinallyyieldedtothetreatmentofDr。Hicks,thethroat-specialist。Hisbillwasseventy-
  fivedollars。Butwhiletheswellinginthetonsilssubsideditdidnotdepart。Shecouldtakelessonsagain。
  Somedaysshesangaswellasever,andonthosedaysJenningswascharming。Otherdaysshesangatrociously,andJenningstreatedherasifsheweredoingitdeliberately。Athirdandworsestatewasthatofthedayswhensheinthesamehalf-houralternatelysangwellandbadly。OnthosedaysJenningsactedlikealunatic。Heravedupanddownthestudio,allbutswearingather。Atfirstshewasafraidofhim——
  witheredunderhisscorn,fearedhewouldthrowopenhisdoorandorderheroutandforbidherevertoenteragain。Butgraduallyshecametounderstandhim——
  notenoughtoloseherfearofhimaltogether,butenoughtolosethefearofhisgivingupsoprofitableapupil。
  ThetruthwasthatJennings,likeeverymanwhosucceedsatanythinginthisworld,operateduponasystemtowhichherigidlyadhered。Hewasamanofsmalltalentandknowledge,butofgreat,persistenceandnotalittlecommonsense。Hehadtriedtobeasinger,hadfailedbecausehisvoicewassmallandunreliable。Hehadadoptedteachingsingingasameansofgettingaliving。Hehadlearnedjustenoughaboutittoenablehimtoteachthetechnicalelements——whatissetdowninthebooks。Byobservingotherandolderteachershehadgottogetherateachingsystemthatwasasgood——andasbad——asany,andthishedubbedtheJenningsMethodandproceededtoexploitastheonlyoneworthwhile。Whenthatmethodwasworkedoutandperfected,heceasedlearning,ceasedtogiveathoughttotheprofessionalsideofhisprofession,justasmostprofessionalmendo。HewouldhaveresentedasuggestionoranewideaasanattackupontheJenningsMethod。Theoverwhelmingmajorityofthehumanrace——indeed,allbutasmallhandful——havethispassionforstagnation,thisferocityagainstchange。
  Itisinlargepartduetolaziness。foranewideameansworkinlearningitandinunlearningtheoldideasthathavebeentrueuntiltheunwelcomeadventofthenew。Inpartalsothisresistancetothenewideaarisesfromafearthatthenewidea,iftolerated,willputoneoutofbusiness,willsethimadriftwithoutanymeansofsupport。Thecoachmanhatestheautomobile,thehand-workerhatesthemachine,theorthodoxpreacherhatestheheretic,thepoliticianhatesthereformer,thedoctorhatesthebacteriologistandthechemist,theoldwomanhatesthenew——alltheseinvaryingproportionsaccordingtothedegreeinwhichtheiconoclastattackslazinessorlivelihood。Finallyweallhateanyandallnewideasbecausetheyseemtoimplythatwe,whohaveheldtheoldideas,havebeenignorantandstupidinsodoing。Anewideaisanattackuponthevanityofeveryonewhohasbeenapartisanoftheoldideasandtheirestablishedorder。
  Jennings,thoroughlyhumaninthusclosinghismindtoallideasabouthisprofession,wasequallyhumaninthathehadhismindandhissensesopenedfullwidthtoideasonhowtomakemoremoney。IftherehadbeenmoneyinnewideasaboutteachingsingingJenningswouldnothaveclosedtothem。Butthemoneywasallinstudyingandlearninghowbettertohandlethewomen——theywereallwomenwhocametohimforinstruction。Hiscommonsensewarnedhimattheoutsetthattheobviouslyeasygoingteacherwouldnotlongretainhispupils。Ontheotherhand,hesawthatthereallysevereteacherwouldnotretainhispupils,either。
  Whowerethesepupils?Inthefirstplace,theywereallignorant,forpeoplewhoalreadyknowdonotgotoschooltolearn。Theyhadtheuniversaldelusionthatateachercanteach。Thefactisthatateacherisawell。Somewellsarefull,othersalmostdry。Somearesoarrangedthatwatercannotbegotfromthem,othershaveattachmentsofvariouskinds,makingthedrawingofwatermoreorlesseasy。Butnotfromthebestwellwiththelatestpumpattachmentcanonegetadrinkunlessonedoesthedrinkingoneself。Ateacherisrarelyawell。Thepupilmustnotonlydrawthewater,butalsodrinkit,mustnotonlyteachhimself,butalsolearnwhatheteaches。Nowweareallofusbornthirstyforknowledge,andnearlyallofusarebornbothcapableofteachingourselvesandcapableoflearningwhatweteach,thatis,ofretainingandassimilatingit。Thereissuchathingasartificiallyfeedingthemind,justasthereissuchathingasartificiallyfeedingthebody。butwhileeveryoneknowsthatartificialfeedingofthebodyisasuccessonlytoalimitedextentandforabriefperiod,everyonebelievesthattheartificialfeedingofthemindisnotonlythebestmethod,buttheonlymethod。Nordoesthediscoverythatthemindissimplythebrain,issimplyapartofthebody,subjecttothebody’slaws,seemmateriallytohavelessenedthisfatuousdelusion。
  SomeofJennings’spupils——notmorethantwooftheforty-oddwereingenuineearnest。thatis,thosetwowereeducatingthemselvestobeprofessionalsingers,weredeterminedsotobe,hadlimitedtimeandmeansandendlesscapacityforwork。Othersoftheforty——
  abouthalf-thoughttheywereserious,thoughinfacttheideaofacareerwasmoreorlesshazy。Theyweresimplytakinglessonsandtoilingaimlesslyalong,notlessaimlesslybecausetheyindulgedinvaguetalkandvaguerthoughtaboutacareer。Therest——theotherhalfoftheforty——wereamusingthemselvesbytakingsinginglessons。Itkilledtime,itgavethemafeelingofdoingsomething,itgavethemareputationofbeingseriouspeopleandnotmereidlers,itgavethemanexcuseforneglectingthedomesticdutieswhichtheyregardedasdegrading——probablybecausetodothemwellrequiresstudyandearnest,hardwork。TheJenningssinginglesson,atfifteendollarsahalf-hour,wasratheranexpensivehypocrisy。butthewomenwhouseditasacloakforidlenessasutterasthemereyawnersandbridgersandshoppershadrichhusbandsorfathers。
  ThusitappearsthattheJenningsSchoolwasaperfectmicrocosm,asthescientistswouldsay,ofthehumanrace——theseriousveryfew,toilingmoreorlesssuccessfullytowardadefinitegoal。themany,compelledtodosomething,andimaginingthemselvesseriousandpurposefulastheytoiledalongtowardnothinginpar-
  ticularbutthenextlesson——thatis,thenextday’sappointedtask。theutterlyidle,fancyingthemselvesbusyandimportantwhenintruththeyweresimplyafraudandanexpense。
  Jenningsgotverylittlefromthedeeplyandgenuinelyserious。Oneofthemhetaughtfree,takingpromissorynotesforthelessons。Butheheldontothembecausewhentheyfinallydidteachthemselvestosingandarrivedatfame,hiswouldbepartoftheglory——andglorymeantmoreandmorepupilsofthepayingkinds。Hislargeincomecamefromtheothertwokindsofpupils,thelargerpartofitfromthekindthathadnoseriousnessinthem。Hisproblemwashowtokeepallthesepayingpupilsandalsokeephisreputationasateacher。InsolvingthatproblemheevolvedamethodthatwasthetrueJennings’smethod。
  NotinallNewYork,filledasitiswithpeoplelivingandlivingwelluponthemanipulationoftheweaknessesoftheirfellowbeings——notinallNewYorkwasthereanadroitermanipulatorthanEugeneJennings。Hewasharshtobrutalitywhenhesawfittobeso——or,rather,whenhedeemeditwisetobeso。Yetneverhadhelostapayingpupilthroughhisharshness。