V
NowyouknowhowIcametoleavehome。Thenextthingtotellis,whathappenedonthejourney。
Ireachedthegreathouseinreasonablygoodtimeconsideringthedistance。Attheveryfirsttrialofit,theprophecyofthecardsturnedouttobewrong。Thepersonwhometmeatthelodgegatewasnotadarkwoman——infact,notawomanatall——butaboy。Hedirectedmeonthewaytotheservants”offices;andthereagainthecardswereallwrong。Iencountered,notonewoman,butthree——
andnotoneofthethreewasdark。IhavestatedthatIamnotsuperstitious,andIhavetoldthetruth。ButImustownthatI
didfeelacertainflutteringattheheartwhenImademybowtothesteward,andtoldhimwhatbusinesshadbroughtmetothehouse。HisanswercompletedthediscomfitureofauntChance”sfortune-telling。Myill-luckstillpursuedme。Thatverymorninganothermanhadappliedforthegroom”splace,andhadgotit。
IswallowedmydisappointmentaswellasIcould,andthankedthesteward,andwenttotheinninthevillagetogettherestandfoodwhichIsorelyneededbythistime。
BeforestartingonmyhomewardwalkImadesomeinquiriesattheinn,andascertainedthatImightsaveafewmiles,onmyreturn,byfollowinganewroad。Furnishedwithfullinstructions,severaltimesrepeated,astothevariousturningsIwastotake,Isetforth,andwalkedontilltheeveningwithonlyonestoppageforbreadandcheese。Justasitwasgettingtowarddark,theraincameonandthewindbegantorise;andIfoundmyself,tomakemattersworse,inapartofthecountrywithwhichIwasentirelyunacquainted,thoughIguessedmyselftobesomefifteenmilesfromhome。ThefirsthouseIfoundtoinquireat,wasalonelyroadsideinn,standingontheoutskirtsofathickwood。Solitaryastheplacelooked,itwaswelcometoalostmanwhowasalsohungry,thirsty,footsore,andwet。Thelandlordwascivilandrespectable-looking;andthepriceheaskedforabedwasreasonableenough。Iwasgrievedtodisappointmymother。Buttherewasnoconveyancetobehad,andIcouldgonofartherafootthatnight。Mywearinessfairlyforcedmetostopattheinn。
ImaysayformyselfthatIamatemperateman。Mysuppersimplyconsistedofsomerashersofbacon,asliceofhome-madebread,andapintofale。Ididnotgotobedimmediatelyafterthismoderatemeal,butsatupwiththelandlord,talkingaboutmybadprospectsandmylongrunofill-luck,anddivergingfromthesetopicstothesubjectsofhorse-fleshandracing。Nothingwassaid,eitherbymyself,myhost,orthefewlaborerswhostrayedintothetap-room,whichcould,intheslightestdegree,excitemymind,orsetmyfancy——whichisonlyasmallfancyatthebestoftimes——playingtrickswithmycommonsense。
Atalittleaftereleventhehousewasclosed。Iwentroundwiththelandlord,andheldthecandlewhilethedoorsandlowerwindowswerebeingsecured。Inoticedwithsurprisethestrengthofthebolts,bars,andiron-sheathedshutters。
“Yousee,weareratherlonelyhere,“saidthelandlord。“Weneverhavehadanyattemptstobreakinyet,butit”salwaysaswelltobeonthesafeside。Whennobodyissleepinghere,Iamtheonlymaninthehouse。Mywifeanddaughteraretimid,andtheservantgirltakesafterhermissuses。Anotherglassofale,beforeyouturnin?——No!——Well,howsuchasobermanasyoucomestobeoutofaplaceismorethanIcanunderstandforone——Here”swhereyou”retosleep。You”retheonlylodgerto-night,andIthinkyou”llsaymymissushasdoneherbesttomakeyoucomfortable。You”requitesureyouwon”thaveanotherglassofale?——Verywell。Goodnight。”
Itwashalf-pastelevenbytheclockinthepassageaswewentupstairstothebedroom。Thewindowlookedoutonthewoodatthebackofthehouse。
Ilockedmydoor,setmycandleonthechestofdrawers,andwearilygotmereadyforbed。Thebleakwindwasstillblowing,andthesolemn,surgingmoanofitinthewoodwasverydrearytohearthroughthenightsilence。Feelingstrangelywakeful,I
resolvedtokeepthecandlealightuntilIbegantogrowsleepy。
Thetruthis,Iwasnotquitemyself。Iwasdepressedinmindbymydisappointmentofthemorning;andIwaswornoutinbodybymylongwalk。Betweenthetwo,IownIcouldn”tfacetheprospectoflyingawakeinthedarkness,listeningtothedismalmoanofthewindinthewood。
SleepstoleonmebeforeIwasawareofit;myeyesclosed,andI
fellofftorest,withouthavingsomuchasthoughtofextinguishingthecandle。
ThenextthingthatIrememberwasafaintshiveringthatranthroughmefromheadtofoot,andadreadfulsinkingpainatmyheart,suchasIhadneverfeltbefore。Theshiveringonlydisturbedmyslumbers——thepainwokemeinstantly。InonemomentI
passedfromastateofsleeptoastateofwakefulness——myeyeswideopen——mymindclearonasuddenasifbyamiracle。Thecandlehadburneddownnearlytothelastmorseloftallow,buttheunsnuffedwickhadjustfallenoff,andthelightwas,forthemoment,fairandfull。
Betweenthefootofthebedandtheclosetdoor,Isawapersoninmyroom。Thepersonwasawoman,standinglookingatme,withaknifeinherhand。Itdoesnocredittomycouragetoconfessit——
butthetruthISthetruth。Iwasstruckspeechlesswithterror。
ThereIlaywithmyeyesonthewoman;therethewomanstoodwiththeknifeinherhandwithHEReyesonME。
Shesaidnotawordaswestaredeachotherintheface;butshemovedafteralittle——movedslowlytowardtheleft-handsideofthebed。
Thelightfellfullonherface。Afair,finewoman,withyellowishflaxenhair,andlightgrayeyes,withadroopinthelefteyelid。Inoticedthesethingsandfixedtheminmymind,beforeshewasquiteroundatthesideofthebed。Withoutsayingaword;withoutanychangeinthestonystillnessofherface;
withoutanynoisefollowingherfootfall,shecamecloserandcloser;stoppedatthebed-head;andliftedtheknifetostabme。
Ilaidmyarmovermythroattosaveit;but,asIsawtheblowcoming,Ithrewmyhandacrossthebedtotherightside,andjerkedmybodyoverthatway,justastheknifecamedown,likelightning,withinahair”sbreadthofmyshoulder。
Myeyesfixedonherarmandherhand——shegavemetimetolookatthemassheslowlydrewtheknifeoutofthebed。Awhite,well-
shapedarm,withaprettydownlyinglightlyoverthefairskin。A
delicatelady”shand,withapinkflushroundthefingernails。
Shedrewtheknifeout,andpassedbackagainslowlytothefootofthebed;shestoppedthereforamomentlookingatme;thenshecameonwithoutsayingaword;withoutanychangeinthestonystillnessofherface;withoutanynoisefollowingherfootfall——
cameontothesideofthebedwhereInowlay。
Gettingnearme,sheliftedtheknifeagain,andIdrewmyselfawaytotheleftside。Shestruck,asbeforerightintothemattress,withaswiftdownwardactionofherarm;andshemissedme,asbefore;byahair”sbreadth。ThistimemyeyeswanderedfromHER
totheknife。Itwaslikethelargeclaspkniveswhichlaboringmenusetocuttheirbreadandbaconwith。Herdelicatelittlefingersdidnothidemorethantwothirdsofthehandle;Inoticedthatitwasmadeofbuckhorn,cleanandshiningasthebladewas,andlookinglikenew。
Forthesecondtimeshedrewtheknifeoutofthebed,andsuddenlyhiditawayinthewidesleeveofhergown。Thatdone,shestoppedbythebedsidewatchingme。ForaninstantIsawherstandinginthatposition——thenthewickofthespentcandlefelloverintothesocket。Theflamedwindledtoalittlebluepoint,andtheroomgrewdark。
Amoment,orless,ifpossible,passedso——andthenthewickflaredup,smokily,forthelasttime。Myeyeswerestilllookingforherovertheright-handsideofthebedwhenthelastflashoflightcame。LookasImight,Icouldseenothing。Thewomanwiththeknifewasgone。
Ibegantogetbacktomyselfagain。Icouldfeelmyheartbeating;Icouldhearthewoefulmoaningofthewindinthewood;I
couldleapupinbed,andgivethealarmbeforesheescapedfromthehouse。“Murder!Wakeupthere!Murder!“
Nobodyansweredtothealarm。Iroseandgropedmywaythroughthedarknesstothedooroftheroom。Bythatwayshemusthavegotin。Bythatwayshemusthavegoneout。
Thedooroftheroomwasfastlocked,exactlyasIhadleftitongoingtobed!Ilookedatthewindow。Fastlockedtoo!
Hearingavoiceoutside,Iopenedthedoor。Therewasthelandlord,comingtowardmealongthepassage,withhisburningcandleinonehand,andhisgunintheother。
“Whatisit?“hesays,lookingatmeinnoveryfriendlyway。
Icouldonlyanswerinawhisper,“Awoman,withaknifeinherhand。Inmyroom。Afair,yellow-hairedwoman。Shejabbedatmewiththeknife,twiceover。”
Heliftedhiscandle,andlookedatmesteadilyfromheadtofoot。
“Sheseemstohavemissedyou——twiceover。”
“Idodgedtheknifeasitcamedown。Itstruckthebedeachtime。
Goin,andsee。”
Thelandlordtookhiscandleintothebedroomimmediately。Inlessthanaminutehecameoutagainintothepassageinaviolentpassion。
“Thedevilflyawaywithyouandyourwomanwiththeknife!Thereisn”tamarkinthebedclothesanywhere。Whatdoyoumeanbycomingintoaman”splaceandfrighteninghisfamilyoutoftheirwitsbyadream?“
Adream?Thewomanwhohadtriedtostabme,notalivinghumanbeinglikemyself?Ibegantoshakeandshiver。Thehorrorsgotholdofmeatthebarethoughtofit。
“I”llleavethehouse,“Isaid。“Betterbeoutontheroadintherainanddark,thanbackinthatroom,afterwhatI”veseeninit。
Lendmethelighttogetmyclothesby,andtellmewhatI”mtopay。”
Thelandlordledthewaybackwithhislightintothebedroom。
“Pay?“sayshe。“You”llfindyourscoreontheslatewhenyougodownstairs。Iwouldn”thavetakenyouinforallthemoneyyou”vegotaboutyou,ifIhadknownyourdreaming,screechingwaysbeforehand。Lookatthebed——where”sthecutofaknifeinit?
Lookatthewindow——isthelockbursted?LookatthedoorwhichI
heardyoufastenyourself——isitbrokein?Amurderingwomanwithaknifeinmyhouse!Yououghttobeashamedofyourself!“
Myeyesfollowedhishandasitpointedfirsttothebed——thentothewindow——thentothedoor。Therewasnogainsayingit。Thebedsheetwasassoundasonthedayitwasmade。Thewindowwasfast。
Thedoorhungonitshingesassteadyasever。Ihuddledmyclothesonwithoutspeaking。Wewentdownstairstogether。I
lookedattheclockinthebar-room。Thetimewastwentyminutespasttwointhemorning。Ipaidmybill,andthelandlordletmeout。Therainhadceased;butthenightwasdark,andthewindwasbleakerthanever。Littledidthedarkness,orthecold,orthedoubtaboutthewayhomemattertoME。Mymindwasawayfromallthesethings。Mymindwasfixedonthevisioninthebedroom。
WhathadIseentryingtomurderme?Thecreatureofadream?Orthatothercreaturefromtheworldbeyondthegrave,whommencallghost?IcouldmakenothingofitasIwalkedalonginthenight;
Ihadmadenothingbyitbymidday——whenIstoodatlast,aftermanytimesmissingmyroad,onthedoorstepofhome。
VI
Mymothercameoutalonetowelcomemeback。Therewerenosecretsbetweenustwo。Itoldherallthathadhappened,justasIhavetoldittoyou。ShekeptsilencetillIhaddone。Andthensheputaquestiontome。
“Whattimewasit,Francis,whenyousawtheWomaninyourDream?“
IhadlookedattheclockwhenIlefttheinn,andIhadnoticedthatthehandspointedtotwentyminutespasttwo。Allowingforthetimeconsumedinspeakingtothelandlord,andingettingonmyclothes,IansweredthatImusthavefirstseentheWomanattwoo”clockinthemorning。Inotherwords,Ihadnotonlyseenheronmybirthday,butatthehourofmybirth。
Mymotherstillkeptsilence。Lostinherownthoughts,shetookmebythehand,andledmeintotheparlor。Herwriting-deskwasonthetablebythefireplace。Sheopenedit,andsignedtometotakeachairbyherside。
“Myson!yourmemoryisabadone,andmineisfastfailingme。
TellmeagainwhattheWomanlookedlike。Iwanthertobeaswellknowntobothofus,yearshence,assheisnow。”
Iobeyed;wonderingwhatstrangefancymightbeworkinginhermind。Ispoke;andshewrotethewordsastheyfellfrommylips:
“Lightgrayeyes,withadroopinthelefteyelid。Flaxenhair,withagolden-yellowstreakinit。Whitearms,withadownuponthem。Little,lady”shands,witharosy-redlookaboutthefingernails。”
“Didyounoticehowshewasdressed,Francis?“
“No,mother。”
“Didyounoticetheknife?“
“Yes。Alargeclaspknife,withabuckhornhandle,asgoodasnew。”
Mymotheraddedthedescriptionoftheknife。Alsotheyear,month,dayoftheweek,andhourofthedaywhentheDream-Womanappearedtomeattheinn。Thatdone,shelockedupthepaperinherdesk。
“Notaword,Francis,toyouraunt。Notawordtoanylivingsoul。
KeepyourDreamasecretbetweenyouandme。”
Theweekspassed,andthemonthspassed。Mymotherneverreturnedtothesubjectagain。Asforme,time,whichwearsoutallthings,woreoutmyremembranceoftheDream。Littlebylittle,theimageoftheWomangrewdimmeranddimmer。Littlebylittle,shefadedoutofmymind。
VII
Thestoryofthewarningisnowtold。Judgeforyourselfifitwasatruewarningorafalse,whenyouhearwhathappenedtomeonmynextbirthday。
IntheSummertimeoftheyear,theWheelofFortuneturnedtherightwayformeatlast。Iwassmokingmypipeoneday,nearanoldstonequarryattheentrancetoourvillage,whenacarriageaccidenthappened,whichgaveanewturn,asitwere,tomylotinlife。Itwasanaccidentofthecommonestkind——notworthmentioningatanylength。Aladydrivingherself;arunawayhorse;
acowardlyman-servantinattendance,frightenedoutofhiswits;
andthestonequarrytooneartobeagreeable——thatiswhatIsaw,allinafewmoments,betweentwowhiffsofmypipe。Istoppedthehorseattheedgeofthequarry,andgotmyselfalittlehurtbytheshaftofthechaise。Butthatdidn”tmatter。TheladydeclaredIhadsavedherlife;andherhusband,comingwithhertoourcottagethenextday,tookmeintohisservicethenandthere。
Theladyhappenedtobeofadarkcomplexion;anditmayamuseyoutohearthatmyauntChanceinstantlypitchedonthatcircumstanceasameansofsavingthecreditofthecards。HerewasthepromiseoftheQueenofSpadesperformedtotheveryletter,bymeansof“adarkwoman,“justasmyaunthadtoldme。“Inthetimetocome,Francis,bewareo”pettin”yerainblindedintairpretationonthecairds。Ye”reowerready,Itrow,tomurmurunderdispensationofProavidencethatyecannafathom——liketheEesraelitesofauld。
I”llsaynaemairtoye。Mebbewhenthemony”spoweringintoyerpoakets,ye”llnoforgetyerauntChance,leftlikeasparrowonthehousetop,wiasma”annuiteeo”thrattypundsayear。”
IremainedinmysituationattheWest-endofLondonuntiltheSpringoftheNewYear。Aboutthattime,mymaster”shealthfailed。Thedoctorsorderedhimawaytoforeignparts,andtheestablishmentwasbrokenup。Buttheturninmyluckstillheldgood。WhenIleftmyplace,Ileftit——thankstothegenerosityofmykindmaster——withayearlyallowancegrantedtome,inremembranceofthedaywhenIhadsavedmymistress”slife。Forthefuture,Icouldgobacktoserviceornot,asIpleased;mylittleincomewasenoughtosupportmymotherandmyself。
MymasterandmistressleftEnglandtowardtheendofFebruary。
CertainmattersofbusinesstodoforthemdetainedmeinLondonuntilthelastdayofthemonth。Iwasonlyabletoleaveforourvillagebytheeveningtrain,tokeepmybirthdaywithmymotherasusual。ItwasbedtimewhenIgottothecottage;andIwassorrytofindthatshewasfarfromwell。Tomakemattersworse,shehadfinishedherbottleofmedicineonthepreviousday,andhadomittedtogetitreplenished,asthedoctorhadstrictlydirected。
Hedispensedhisownmedicines,andIofferedtogoandknockhimup。Sherefusedtoletmedothis;and,aftergivingmemysupper,sentmeawaytomybed。
Ifellasleepforalittle,andwokeagain。Mymother”sbed-
chamberwasnexttomine。IheardmyauntChance”sheavyfootstepsgoingtoandfrointheroom,and,suspectingsomethingwrong,knockedatthedoor。Mymother”spainshadreturneduponher;
therewasaseriousnecessityforrelievinghersufferingsasspeedilyaspossible,Iputonmyclothes,andranoff,withthemedicinebottleinmyhand,totheotherendofthevillage,wherethedoctorlived。ThechurchclockchimedthequartertotwoonmybirthdayjustasIreachedhishouse。Oneringofthenightbellbroughthimtohisbedroomwindowtospeaktome。Hetoldmetowait,andhewouldletmeinatthesurgerydoor。Inoticed,whileIwaswaiting,thatthenightwaswonderfullyfairandwarmforthetimeofyear。Theoldstonequarrywherethecarriageaccidenthadhappenedwaswithinview。Themoonintheclearheavenslititupalmostasbrightasday。
Inaminuteortwothedoctorletmeintothesurgery。Iclosedthedoor,noticingthathehadlefthisroomverylightlyclad。Hekindlypardonedmymother”sneglectofhisdirections,andsettoworkatonceatcompoundingthemedicine。Wewerebothintentonthebottle;hefillingit,andIholdingthelight——whenweheardthesurgerydoorsuddenlyopenedfromthestreet。
VIII
Whocouldpossiblybeupandaboutinourquietvillageatthesecondhourofthemorning?
Thepersonwhoopenedthedoorappearedwithinrangeofthelightofthecandle。Tocompleteouramazement,thepersonprovedtobeawoman!Shewalkeduptothecounter,andstandingsidebysidewithme,liftedherveil。Atthemomentwhensheshowedherface,Iheardthechurchclockstriketwo。Shewasastrangertome,andastrangertothedoctor。Shewasalso,beyondallcomparison,themostbeautifulwomanIhaveeverseeninmylife。
“Isawthelightunderthedoor,“shesaid。“Iwantsomemedicine。”
Shespokequitecomposedly,asiftherewasnothingatallextraordinaryinherbeingoutinthevillageattwointhemorning,andfollowingmeintothesurgerytoaskformedicine!
Thedoctorstaredatherasifhesuspectedhisowneyesofdeceivinghim。“Whoareyou?“beasked。“Howdoyoucometobewanderingaboutatthistimeinthemorning?“
Shepaidnoheedtohisquestions。Sheonlytoldhimcoollywhatshewanted。“Ihavegotabadtoothache。Iwantabottleoflaudanum。”
Thedoctorrecoveredhimselfwhensheaskedforthelaudanum。Hewasonhisownground,youknow,whenitcametoamatteroflaudanum;andhespoketohersmartlyenoughthistime。
“Oh,youhavegotthetoothache,haveyou?Letmelookatthetooth。”
Sheshookherbead,andlaidatwo-shillingpieceonthecounter。
“Iwon”ttroubleyoutolookatthetooth,“shesaid。“Thereisthemoney。Letmehavethelaudanum,ifyouplease。”
Thedoctorputthetwo-shillingpiecebackagaininherhand。“I
don”tselllaudanumtostrangers,“heanswered。“Ifyouareinanydistressofbodyormind,thatisanothermatter。Ishallbegladtohelpyou。”
Sheputthemoneybackinherpocket。“YOUcan”thelpme,“shesaid,asquietlyasever。“Goodmorning。”
Withthat,sheopenedthesurgerydoortogooutagainintothestreet。Sofar,Ihadnotspokenawordonmyside。IhadstoodwiththecandleinmyhandnotknowingIwasholdingit——withmyeyesfixedonher,withmymindfixedonherlikeamanbewitched。
Herlooksbetrayed,evenmoreplainlythanherwords,herresolution,inonewayoranother,todestroyherself。Whensheopenedthedoor,inmyalarmatwhatmighthappenIfoundtheuseofmytongue。
“Stop!“Icriedout。“Waitforme。Iwanttospeaktoyoubeforeyougoaway。”Sheliftedhereyeswithalookofcarelesssurpriseandamockingsmileonherlips。
“WhatcanYOUhavetosaytome?“Shestopped,andlaughedtoherself。“Whynot?“shesaid。“Ihavegotnothingtodo,andnowheretogo。”Sheturnedbackastep,andnoddedtome。“You”reastrangeman——IthinkI”llhumoryou——I”llwaitoutside。”Thedoorofthesurgeryclosedonher。Shewasgone。
Iamashamedtoownwhathappenednext。TheonlyexcuseformeisthatIwasreallyandtrulyamanbewitched。Iturnedmeroundtofollowherout,withoutoncethinkingofmymother。Thedoctorstoppedme。
“Don”tforgetthemedicine,“hesaid。“Andifyouwilltakemyadvice,don”ttroubleyourselfaboutthatwoman。Rouseuptheconstable。It”shisbusinesstolookafterher——notyours。”
Iheldoutmyhandforthemedicineinsilence:IwasafraidI
shouldfailinrespectifItrustedmyselftoanswerhim。Hemusthaveseen,asIsaw,thatshewantedthelaudanumtopoisonherself。Hehad,tomymind,takenaveryheartlessviewofthematter。Ijustthankedhimwhenhegavemethemedicine——andwentout。
Shewaswaitingformeasshehadpromised;walkingslowlytoandfro——atall,graceful,solitaryfigureinthebrightmoonbeams。
Theyshedoverherfaircomplexion,herbrightgoldenhair,herlargegrayeyes,justthelightthatsuitedthembest。Shelookedhardlymortalwhenshefirstturnedtospeaktome。
“Well?“shesaid。“Andwhatdoyouwant?“
Inspiteofmypride,ormyshyness,ormybettersense——whicheveritmightbe——allmyheartwentouttoherinamoment。Icaughtholdofherbythehands,andownedwhatwasinmythoughts,asfreelyasifIhadknownherforhalfalifetime。
“Youmeantodestroyyourself,“Isaid。“AndImeantopreventyoufromdoingit。IfIfollowyouaboutallnight,I”llpreventyoufromdoingit。”
Shelaughed。“Yousawyourselfthathewouldn”tsellmethelaudanum。DoyoureallycarewhetherIliveordie?“Shesqueezedmyhandsgentlyassheputthequestion:hereyessearchedminewithalanguid,lingeringlookinthemthatranthroughmelikefire。Myvoicediedawayonmylips;Icouldn”tanswerher。
Sheunderstood,withoutmyanswering。“Youhavegivenmeafancyforliving,byspeakingkindlytome,“shesaid。“Kindnesshasawonderfuleffectonwomen,anddogs,andotherdomesticanimals。
Itisonlymenwhoaresuperiortokindness。Makeyourmindeasy——
IpromisetotakeasmuchcareofmyselfasifIwasthehappiestwomanliving!Don”tletmekeepyouhere,outofyourbed。Whichwayareyougoing?“
MiserablewretchthatIwas,Ihadforgottenmymother——withthemedicineinmyhand!“Iamgoinghome,“Isaid。“Whereareyoustaying?Attheinn?“
Shelaughedherbitterlaugh,andpointedtothestonequarry。
“ThereisMYinnforto-night,“shesaid。“WhenIgottiredofwalkingabout,Irestedthere。”
Wewalkedontogether,onmywayhome。Itookthelibertyofaskingherifshehadanyfriends。
“IthoughtIhadonefriendleft,“shesaid,“oryouwouldneverhavemetmeinthisplace。ItturnsoutIwaswrong。Myfriend”sdoorwasclosedinmyfacesomehourssince;myfriend”sservantsthreatenedmewiththepolice。Ihadnowhereelsetogo,aftertryingmyluckinyourneighborhood;andnothingleftbutmytwo-
shillingpieceandtheseragsonmyback。WhatrespectableinnkeeperwouldtakeMEintohishouse?Iwalkedabout,wonderinghowIcouldfindmywayoutoftheworldwithoutdisfiguringmyself,andwithoutsufferingmuchpain。Youhavenoriverintheseparts。Ididn”tseemywayoutoftheworld,tillIheardyouringingatthedoctor”shouse。Igotaglimpseatthebottlesinthesurgery,whenheletyouin,andIthoughtofthelaudanumdirectly。Whatwereyoudoingthere?Whoisthatmedicinefor?
Yourwife?“
“Iamnotmarried!“
Shelaughedagain。“Notmarried!IfIwasalittlebetterdressedtheremightbeachanceforME。Wheredoyoulive?Here?“
Wehadarrived,bythistime,atmymother”sdoor。Sheheldoutherhandtosaygood-by。Houselessandhomelessasshewas,sheneveraskedmetogiveherashelterforthenight。ItwasMY
proposalthatsheshouldrest,undermyroof,unknowntomymotherandmyaunt。Ourkitchenwasbuiltoutatthebackofthecottage:
shemightremainthereunseenandunhearduntilthehouseholdwasastirinthemorning。Iledherintothekitchen,andsetachairforherbythedyingembersofthefire。IdaresayIwastoblame——shamefullytoblame,ifyoulike。IonlywonderwhatYOU
wouldhavedoneinmyplace。Onyourwordofhonorasaman,wouldYOUhaveletthatbeautifulcreaturewanderbacktotheshelterofthestonequarrylikeastraydog?Godhelpthewomanwhoisfoolishenoughtotrustandloveyou,ifyouwouldhavedonethat!
Ileftherbythefire,andwenttomymother”sroom。
IX
Ifyouhaveeverfelttheheartache,youwillknowwhatIsufferedinsecretwhenmymothertookmyhand,andsaid,“Iamsorry,Francis,thatyournight”sresthasbeendisturbedthroughME。”I
gaveherthemedicine;andIwaitedbyhertillthepainsabated。
MyauntChancewentbacktoherbed;andmymotherandIwereleftalone。Inoticedthatherwriting-desk,movedfromitscustomaryplace,wasonthebedbyherside。Shesawmelookingatit。
“Thisisyourbirthday,Francis,“shesaid。“Haveyouanythingtotellme?“IhadsocompletelyforgottenmyDream,thatIhadnonotionofwhatwaspassinginhermindwhenshesaidthosewords。
Foramomenttherewasaguiltyfearinmethatshesuspectedsomething。Iturnedawaymyface,andsaid,“No,mother;Ihavenothingtotell。”Shesignedtometostoopdownoverthepillowandkissher。“Godblessyou,mylove!“shesaid;andmanyhappyreturnsoftheday。”Shepattedmyhand,andclosedherwearyeyes,and,littlebylittle,felloffpeaceablyintosleep。
Istoledownstairsagain。Ithinkthegoodinfluenceofmymothermusthavefollowedmedown。Atanyrate,thisistrue:Istoppedwithmyhandontheclosedkitchendoor,andsaidtomyself:
“SupposeIleavethehouse,andleavethevillage,withoutseeingherorspeakingtohermore?“
ShouldIreallyhavefledfromtemptationinthisway,ifIhadbeenlefttomyselftodecide?Whocantell?Asthingswere,I
wasnotlefttodecide。Whilemydoubtwasinmymind,sheheardme,andopenedthekitchendoor。Myeyesandhereyesmet。Thatendedit。
Weweretogether,unsuspectedandundisturbed,forthenexttwohours。Timeenoughforhertorevealthesecretofherwastedlife。Timeenoughforhertotakepossessionofmeasherown,todowithmeassheliked。Itisneedlesstodwellhereonthemisfortuneswhichhadbroughtherlow;theyaremisfortunestoocommontointerestanybody。
HernamewasAliciaWarlock。Shehadbeenbornandbredalady。
Shehadlostherstation,hercharacter,andherfriends。Virtueshudderedatthesightofher;andVicehadgotherfortherestofherdays。Shockingandcommon,asItoldyou。ItmadenodifferencetoME。Ihavesaiditalready——Isayitagain——Iwasamanbewitched。Isthereanythingsoverywonderfulinthat?JustrememberwhoIwas。Amongthehonestwomeninmyownstationinlife,wherecouldIhavefoundthelikeofHER?CouldTHEYwalkasshewalked?andlookasshelooked?WhenTHEYgavemeakiss,didtheirlipslingeroveritashersdid?HadTHEYherskin,herlaugh,herfoot,herhand,hertouch?SHEneverhadaspeckofdirtonher:Itellyouherfleshwasaperfume。Whensheembracedme,herarmsfoldedroundmelikethewingsofangels;andhersmilecoveredmesoftlywithitslightlikethesuninheaven。I
leaveyoutolaughatme,ortocryoverme,justasyourtempermayincline。Iamnottryingtoexcusemyself——Iamtryingtoexplain。Youaregentle-folks;whatdazzledandmaddenedME,iseverydayexperiencetoYOU。Fallenornot,angelordevil,itcametothis——shewasalady;andIwasagroom。
Beforethehousewasastir,Igotherawaybytheworkmen”strain
toalargemanufacturingtowninourparts。
Here——withmysavingsinmoneytohelpher——shecouldgetheroutfitofdecentclothesandherlodgingamongstrangerswhoaskednoquestionssolongastheywerepaid。Here——nowononepretenseandnowonanother——Icouldvisither,andwecouldbothplantogetherwhatourfuturelivesweretobe。IneednottellyouthatIstoodpledgedtomakehermywife。Amaninmystationalwaysmarriesawomanofhersort。
DoyouwonderifIwashappyatthistime?Ishouldhavebeenperfectlyhappybutforonelittledrawback。Itwasthis:Iwasneverquiteatmyeaseinthepresenceofmypromisedwife。
Idon”tmeanthatIwasshywithher,orsuspiciousofher,orashamedofher。TheuneasinessIamspeakingofwascausedbyafaintdoubtinmymindwhetherIhadnotseenhersomewhere,beforethemorningwhenwemetatthedoctor”shouse。Overandoveragain,Ifoundmyselfwonderingwhetherherfacedidnotremindmeofsomeotherface——whatotherInevercouldtell。Thisstrangefeeling,thisonequestionthatcouldneverbeanswered,vexedmetoadegreethatyouwouldhardlycredit。Itcamebetweenusatthestrangesttimes——oftenest,however,atnight,whenthecandleswerelit。Youhaveknownwhatitistotryandrememberaforgottenname——andtofail,searchasyoumay,tofinditinyourmind。Thatwasmycase。Ifailedtofindmylostface,justasyoufailedtofindyourlostname。
Inthreeweekswehadtalkedmattersover,andhadarrangedhowI
wastomakeacleanbreastofitathome。ByAlicia”sadvice,I
wastodescribeherashavingbeenoneofmyfellowservantsduringthetimeIwasemployedundermykindmasterandmistressinLondon。Therewasnofearnowofmymothertakinganyharmfromtheshockofagreatsurprise。Herhealthhadimprovedduringthethreeweeks”interval。Onthefirsteveningwhenshewasabletotakeheroldplaceatteatime,Isummonedmycourage,andtoldherIwasgoingtobemarried。Thepoorsoulflungherarmsroundmyneck,andburstoutcryingforjoy。“Oh,Francis!“shesays,“IamsogladyouwillhavesomebodytocomfortyouandcareforyouwhenIamgone!“AsformyauntChance,youcananticipatewhatSHE
did,withoutbeingtold。Ah,me!Iftherehadreallybeenanypropheticvirtueinthecards,whataterriblewarningtheymighthavegivenusthatnight!ItwasarrangedthatIwastobringmypromisedwifetodinneratthecottageonthenextday。
X
IownIwasproudofAliciawhenIledherintoourlittleparlorattheappointedtime。Shehadnever,tomymind,lookedsobeautifulasshelookedthatday。Inevernoticedanyotherwoman”sdress——InoticedhersascarefullyasifIhadbeenawomanmyself!Sheworeablacksilkgown,withplaincollarandcuffs,andamodestlavender-coloredbonnet,withonewhiteroseinitplacedattheside。Mymother,dressedinherSundaybest,roseup,allinaflutter,towelcomeherdaughter-in-lawthatwastobe。Shewalkedforwardafewsteps,halfsmiling,halfintears——
shelookedAliciafullintheface——andsuddenlystoodstill。Hercheeksturnedwhiteinaninstant;hereyesstaredinhorror;herhandsdroppedhelplesslyathersides。Shestaggeredback,andfellintothearmsofmyaunt,standingbehindher。Itwasnoswoon——shekepthersenses。HereyesturnedslowlyfromAliciatome。“Francis,“shesaid,“doesthatwoman”sfaceremindyouofnothing?“
BeforeIcouldanswer,shepointedtoherwriting-deskonthetableatthefireside。“Bringit!“shecried,“bringit!“
AtthesamemomentIfeltAlicia”shandonmyshoulder,andsawAlicia”sfaceredwithanger——andnowonder!
“Whatdoesthismean?“sheasked。“Doesyourmotherwanttoinsultme?“
Isaidafewwordstoquiether;whattheywereIdon”tremember——I
wassoconfusedandastonishedatthetime。BeforeIhaddone,I
heardmymotherbehindme。
Myaunthadfetchedherdesk。Shehadopenedit;shehadtakenapaperfromit。Stepbystep,helpingherselfalongbythewall,shecamenearerandnearer,withthepaperinherhand。Shelookedatthepaper——shelookedinAlicia”sface——sheliftedthelong,loosesleeveofhergown,andexaminedherhandandarm。IsawfearsuddenlytaketheplaceofangerinAlicia”seyes。Sheshookherselffreeofmymother”sgrasp。“Mad!“shesaidtoherself,“andFrancisnevertoldme!“Withthosewordssheranoutoftheroom。
Iwashasteningoutafterher,whenmymothersignedtometostop。
Shereadthewordswrittenonthepaper。Whiletheyfellslowly,onebyone,fromherlips,shepointedtowardtheopendoor。
“Lightgrayeyes,withadroopinthelefteyelid。Flaxenhair,withagold-yellowstreakinit。Whitearms,withadownuponthem。Little,lady”shand,witharosy-redlookaboutthefingernails。TheDreamWoman,Francis!TheDreamWoman!“
Somethingdarkenedtheparlorwindowasthosewordswerespoken。I
lookedsidelongattheshadow。AliciaWarlockhadcomeback!Shewaspeeringinatusoverthelowwindowblind。Therewasthefatalfacewhichhadfirstlookedatmeinthebedroomofthelonelyinn。There,restingonthewindowblind,wasthelovelylittlehandwhichhadheldthemurderousknife。IHADseenherbeforewemetinthevillage。TheDreamWoman!TheDreamWoman!
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IexpectnobodytoapproveofwhatIhavenexttotellofmyself。
InthreeweeksfromthedaywhenmymotherhadidentifiedherwiththeWomanoftheDream,ItookAliciaWarlocktochurch,andmadehermywife。Iwasamanbewitched。AgainandagainIsayit——I
wasamanbewitched!
Duringtheintervalbeforemymarriage,ourlittlehouseholdatthecottagewasbrokenup。Mymotherandmyauntquarreled。Mymother,believingintheDream,entreatedmetobreakoffmyengagement。Myaunt,believinginthecards,urgedmetomarry。
Thisdifferenceofopinionproducedadisputebetweenthem,inthecourseofwhichmyauntChance——quiteunconsciousofhavinganysuperstitiousfeelingsofherown——actuallysetoutthecardswhichprophesiedhappinesstomeinmymarriedlife,andaskedmymotherhowanybodybut“ablindedheathencouldbefuleenough,afterseeingthosecairds,tobelieveinadream!“Thiswas,naturally,toomuchformymother”spatience;hardwordsfollowedoneitherside;Mrs。ChancereturnedindudgeontoherfriendsinScotland。
Sheleftmeawrittenstatementofmyfutureprospects,asrevealedbythecards,andwithitanaddressatwhichapost-officeorderwouldreachher。“Thedaywasnotthatfaroff,“sheremarked,“whenFranciemightrememberwhatheowedtohisauntChance,maintainingherainunbleemishedwidowhoodonthrattypundsayear。”
Havingrefusedtogivehersanctiontomymarriage,mymotheralsorefusedtobepresentatthewedding,ortovisitAliciaafterwards。Therewasnoangeratthebottomofthisconductonherpart。BelievingasshedidinthisDream,shewassimplyinmortalfearofmywife。Iunderstoodthis,andImadeallowancesforher。Notacrosswordpassedbetweenus。Myonehappyremembrancenow——thoughIdiddisobeyherinthematterofmymarriage——isthis:Ilovedandrespectedmygoodmothertothelast。
Asformywife,sheexpressednoregretattheestrangementbetweenhermother-in-lawandherself。Bycommonconsent,weneverspokeonthatsubject。WesettledinthemanufacturingtownwhichIhavealreadymentioned,andwekeptalodging-house。Mykindmaster,atmyrequest,grantedmealumpsuminplaceofmyannuity。Thisputusintoagoodhouse,decentlyfurnished。Forawhilethingswentwellenough。Imaydescribemyselfatthistimeofmylifeasahappyman。
Mymisfortunesbeganwithareturnofthecomplaintwithwhichmymotherhadalreadysuffered。Thedoctorconfessed,whenIaskedhimthequestion,thattherewasdangertobedreadedthistime。
Naturally,afterhearingthis,Iwasagooddealawayatthecottage。Naturallyalso,Ileftthebusinessoflookingafterthehouse,inmyabsence,tomywife。Littlebylittle,Ifoundherbeginningtoaltertowardme。Whilemybackwasturned,sheformedacquaintanceswithpeopleofthedoubtfulanddissipatedsort。Oneday,Iobservedsomethinginhermannerwhichforcedthesuspiciononmethatshehadbeendrinking。Beforetheweekwasout,mysuspicionwasacertainty。Fromkeepingcompanywithdrunkards,shehadgrowntobeadrunkardherself。
Ididallamancoulddotoreclaimher。Quiteuseless!ShehadneverreallyreturnedtheloveIfeltforher:Ihadnoinfluence;
Icoulddonothing。Mymother,hearingofthislastworsetrouble,resolvedtotrywhatherinfluencecoulddo。Illasshewas,I
foundheronedaydressedtogoout。
“Iamnotlongforthisworld,Francis,“shesaid。“Ishallnotfeeleasyonmydeathbed,unlessIhavedonemybesttothelasttomakeyouhappy。Imeantoputmyownfearsandmyownfeelingsoutofthequestion,andgowithyoutoyourwife,andtrywhatIcandotoreclaimher。Takemehomewithyou,Francis。LetmedoallIcantohelpmyson,beforeitistoolate。”
HowcouldIdisobeyher?Wetooktherailwaytothetown:itwasonlyhalfanhour”sride。Byoneo”clockintheafternoonwereachedmyhouse。Itwasourdinnerhour,andAliciawasinthekitchen。Iwasabletotakemymotherquietlyintotheparlorandthentopreparemywifeforthevisit。Shehaddrunkbutlittleatthatearlyhour;and,luckily,thedevilinherwastamedforthetime。
Shefollowedmeintotheparlor,andthemeetingpassedoffbetterthanIhadventuredtoforecast;withthisonedrawback,thatmymother——thoughshetriedhardtocontrolherself——shrankfromlookingmywifeinthefacewhenshespoketoher。ItwasarelieftomewhenAliciabegantopreparethetablefordinner。
Shelaidthecloth,broughtinthebreadtray,andcutsomeslicesforusfromtheloaf。Thenshereturnedtothekitchen。Atthatmoment,whileIwasstillanxiouslywatchingmymother,IwasstartledbyseeingthesameghastlychangepassoverherfacewhichhadaltereditinthemorningwhenAliciaandshefirstmet。
BeforeIcouldsayaword,shestartedupwithalookofhorror。
“Takemeback!——home,homeagain,Francis!Comewithme,andnevergobackmore!“
Iwasafraidtoaskforanexplanation;Icouldonlysignhertobesilent,andhelpherquicklytothedoor。Aswepassedthebreadtrayonthetable,shestoppedandpointedtoit。
“Didyouseewhatyourwifecutyourbreadwith?“sheasked。
“No,mother;Iwasnotnoticing。Whatwasit?“
“Look!“
Ididlook。Anewclaspknife,withabuckhornhandle,laywiththeloafinthebreadtray。Istretchedoutmyhandtopossessmyselfofit。Atthesamemoment,therewasanoiseinthekitchen,andmymothercaughtmebythearm。
“TheknifeoftheDream!Francis,I”mfaintwithfear——takemeawaybeforeshecomesback!“
Icouldn”tspeaktocomfortoreventoanswerher。SuperiorasI
wastosuperstition,thediscoveryoftheknifestaggeredme。Insilence,Ihelpedmymotheroutofthehouse;andtookherhome。
Iheldoutmyhandtosaygood-by。Shetriedtostopme。
“Don”tgoback,Francis!don”tgoback!“
“Imustgettheknife,mother。Imustgobackbythenexttrain。”
Iheldtothatresolution。BythenexttrainIwentback。
XII
Mywifehad,ofcourse,discoveredoursecretdeparturefromthehouse。Shehadbeendrinking。Shewasinafuryofpassion。Thedinnerinthekitchenwasflungunderthegrate;theclothwasofftheparlortable。Wherewastheknife?
Iwasfoolishenoughtoaskforit。Sherefusedtogiveittome。
Inthecourseofthedisputebetweenuswhichfollowed,I
discoveredthattherewasahorriblestoryattachedtotheknife。
Ithadbeenusedinamurder——yearssince——andhadbeensoskillfullyhiddenthattheauthoritieshadbeenunabletoproduceitatthetrial。Byhelpofsomeofherdisreputablefriends,mywifehadbeenabletopurchasethisrelicofabygonecrime。Herpervertednaturesetsomehorridunacknowledgedvalueontheknife。
Seeingtherewasnohopeofgettingitbyfairmeans,Ideterminedtosearchforit,laterintheday,insecret。Thesearchwasunsuccessful。Nightcameon,andIleftthehousetowalkaboutthestreets。YouwillunderstandwhatabrokenmanIwasbythistime,whenItellyouIwasafraidtosleepinthesameroomwithher!
Threeweekspassed。Stillsherefusedtogiveuptheknife;andstillthatfearofsleepinginthesameroomwithherpossessedme。
Iwalkedaboutatnight,ordozedintheparlor,orsatwatchingbymymother”sbedside。Beforetheendofthefirstweekinthenewmonth,theworstmisfortuneofallbefellme——mymotherdied。Itwantedthenbutashorttimetomybirthday。Shehadlongedtolivetillthatday。Iwaspresentatherdeath。Herlastwordsinthisworldwereaddressedtome。“Don”tgoback,myson——don”tgoback!“
Iwasobligedtogoback,ifitwasonlytowatchmywife。Inthelastdaysofmymother”sillnessshehadspitefullyaddedastingtomygriefbydeclaringshewouldassertherrighttoattendthefuneral。InspiteofallthatIcoulddoorsay,sheheldtoherword。Onthedayappointedfortheburialsheforcedherself,inflamedandshamelesswithdrink,intomypresence,andsworeshewouldwalkinthefuneralprocessiontomymother”sgrave。
Thislastinsult——afterallIhadgonethroughalready——wasmorethanIcouldendure。Itmaddenedme。Trytomakeallowancesforamanbesidehimself。Istruckher。
Theinstanttheblowwasdealt,Irepentedit。Shecroucheddown,silent,inacorneroftheroom,andeyedmesteadily。Itwasalookthatcooledmyhotbloodinaninstant。Therewasnotimenowtothinkofmakingatonement。Icouldonlyrisktheworst,andmakesureofhertillthefuneralwasover。Ilockedherintoherbedroom。
WhenIcameback,afterlayingmymotherinthegrave,Ifoundhersittingbythebedside,verymuchalteredinlookandbearing,withabundleonherlap。Shefacedmequietly;shespokewithacuriousstillnessinhervoice——strangelyandunnaturallycomposedinlookandmanner。
“Nomanhaseverstruckmeyet,“shesaid。“Myhusbandshallhavenosecondopportunity。Setthedooropen,andletmego。”
Shepassedme,andlefttheroom。Isawherwalkawayupthestreet。Wasshegoneforgood?
AllthatnightIwatchedandwaited。Nofootstepcamenearthehouse。Thenextnight,overcomewithfatigue,Ilaydownonthebedinmyclothes,withthedoorlocked,thekeyonthetable,andthecandleburning。Myslumberwasnotdisturbed。Thethirdnight,thefourth,thefifth,thesixth,passed,andnothinghappened。Ilaydownontheseventhnight,stillsuspiciousofsomethinghappening;stillinmyclothes;stillwiththedoorlocked,thekeyonthetable,andthecandleburning。
Myrestwasdisturbed。Iawoketwice,withoutanysensationofuneasiness。Thethirdtime,thathorridshiveringofthenightatthelonelyinn,thatawfulsinkingpainattheheart,camebackagain,androusedmeinaninstant。Myeyesturnedtotheleft-
handsideofthebed。Andtherestood,lookingatme——
TheDreamWomanagain?No!Mywife。Thelivingwoman,withthefaceoftheDream——intheattitudeoftheDream——thefairarmup;
theknifeclaspedinthedelicatewhitehand。
Ispranguponherontheinstant;butnotquicklyenoughtostopherfromhidingtheknife。Withoutawordfromme,withoutacryfromher,Ipinionedherinachair。WithonehandIfeltuphersleeve;andthere,wheretheDreamWomanhadhiddentheknife,mywifehadhiddenit——theknifewiththebuckhornhandle,thatlookedlikenew。
WhatIfeltwhenImadethatdiscoveryIcouldnotrealizeatthetime,andIcan”tdescribenow。Itookonesteadylookatherwiththeknifeinmyhand。“Youmeanttokillme?“Isaid。
“Yes,“sheanswered;“Imeanttokillyou。”Shecrossedherarmsoverherbosom,andstaredmecoollyintheface。“Ishalldoityet,“shesaid。“Withthatknife。”
Idon”tknowwhatpossessedme——IsweartoyouIamnocoward;andyetIactedlikeacoward。Thehorrorsgotholdofme。Icouldn”tlookather——Icouldn”tspeaktoher。Ileftherwiththeknifeinmyhand,andwentoutintothenight。
Therewasableakwindabroad,andthesmellofrainwasintheair。ThechurchclockschimedthequarterasIwalkedbeyondthelasthouseinthetown。IaskedthefirstpolicemanImetwhathourthatwas,ofwhichthequarterpasthadjuststruck。
Themanlookedathiswatch,andanswered,“Twoo”clock。”Twointhemorning。Whatdayofthemonthwasthisdaythathadjustbegun?Ireckoneditupfromthedateofmymother”sfuneral。Thehorridparallelbetweenthedreamandtherealitywascomplete——itwasmybirthday!
HadIescapedthemortalperilwhichthedreamforetold?orhadI
onlyreceivedasecondwarning?AsthatdoubtcrossedmymindI
stoppedonmywayoutofthetown。Theairhadrevivedme——Ifeltinsomedegreelikemyownselfagain。Afteralittlethinking,I
begantoseeplainlythemistakeIhadmadeinleavingmywifefreetogowhereshelikedandtodoasshepleased。
Iturnedinstantly,andmademywaybacktothehouse。Itwasstilldark。Ihadleftthecandleburninginthebedchamber。WhenIlookeduptothewindowoftheroomnow,therewasnolightinit。Iadvancedtothehousedoor。Ongoingaway,Irememberedtohaveclosedit;ontryingitnow,Ifounditopen。
Iwaitedoutside,neverlosingsightofthehousetilldaylight。
ThenIventuredindoors——listened,andheardnothing——lookedintothekitchen,scullery,parlor,andfoundnothing——wentupatlastintothebedroom。Itwasempty。
Apicklocklayonthefloor,whichtoldmehowshehadgainedentranceinthenight。AndthatwastheonetraceIcouldfindoftheDreamWoman。
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Iwaitedinthehousetillthetownwasastirfortheday,andthenIwenttoconsultalawyer。Intheconfusedstateofmymindatthetime,IhadoneclearnotionofwhatImeanttodo:Iwasdeterminedtosellmyhouseandleavetheneighborhood。TherewereobstaclesinthewaywhichIhadnotcountedon。IwastoldIhadcreditorstosatisfybeforeIcouldleave——I,whohadgivenmywifethemoneytopaymybillsregularlyeveryweek!InquiryshowedthatshehadembezzledeveryfarthingofthemoneyIhadintrustedtoher。Ihadnochoicebuttopayoveragain。
Placedinthisawkwardposition,myfirstdutywastosetthingsright,withthehelpofmylawyer。DuringmyforcedsojourninthetownIdidtwofoolishthings。And,asaconsequencethatfollowed,Iheardoncemore,andheardforthelasttime,ofmywife。
Inthefirstplace,havinggotpossessionoftheknife,Iwasrashenoughtokeepitinmypocket。Inthesecondplace,havingsomethingofimportancetosaytomylawyer,atalatehouroftheevening,Iwenttohishouseafterdark——aloneandonfoot。Igottheresafelyenough。Returning,Iwasseizedonfrombehindbytwomen,draggeddownapassageandrobbed——notonlyofthelittlemoneyIhadaboutme,butalsooftheknife。Itwasthelawyer”sopinionasitwasminethatthethieveswereamongthedisreputableacquaintancesformedbymywife,andthatthey,hadattackedmeatherinstigation。ToconfirmthisviewIreceivedaletterthenextday,withoutdateoraddress,writteninAlicia”shand。Thefirstlineinformedmethattheknifewasbackagaininherpossession。ThesecondlineremindedmeofthedaywhenI
struckher。Thethirdlinewarnedmethatshewouldwashoutthestainofthatblowinmyblood,andrepeatedthewords,“Ishalldoitwiththeknife!“
Thesethingshappenedayearago。Thelawlaidhandsonthemenwhohadrobbedme;butfromthattimetothis,thelawhasfailedcompletelytofindatraceofmywife。
Mystoryistold。WhenIhadpaidthecreditorsandpaidthelegalexpenses,Ihadbarelyfivepoundsleftoutofthesaleofmyhouse;andIhadtheworldtobeginoveragain。Somemonthssince——
driftinghereandthere——IfoundmywaytoUnderbridge。Thelandlordoftheinnhadknownsomethingofmyfather”sfamilyintimespast。Hegavemeallhehadtogivemyfood,andshelterintheyard。Exceptonmarketdays,thereisnothingtodo。Inthecomingwintertheinnistobeshutup,andIshallhavetoshiftformyself。MyoldmasterwouldhelpmeifIappliedtohim——
butIdon”tliketoapply:hehasdonemoreformealreadythanI
deserve。Besides,inanotheryearwhoknowsbutmytroublesmayallbeatanend?Nextwinterwillbringmenightomynextbirthday,andmynextbirthdaymaybethedayofmydeath。Yes!
it”strueIsatupalllastnight;andIheardtwointhemorningstrike:andnothinghappened。Still,allowingforthat,thetimetocomeisatimeIdon”ttrust。Mywifehasgottheknife——mywifeislookingforme。Iamabovesuperstition,mind!Idon”tsayIbelieveindreams;Ionlysay,AliciaWarlockislookingforme。ItispossibleImaybewrong。ItispossibleImayberight。
Whocantell?
THETHIRDNARRATIVE
THESTORYCONTINUEDBYPERCYFAIRBANK
XIV
WetookleaveofFrancisRavenatthedoorofFarleighHall,withtheunderstandingthathemightexpecttohearfromusagain。
ThesamenightMrs。FairbankandIhadadiscussioninthesanctuaryofourownroom。Thetopicwas“TheHostler”sStory“;
andthequestionindisputebetweenusturnedonthemeasureofcharitabledutythatweowedtothehostlerhimself。
TheviewItookoftheman”snarrativewasofthepurelymatter-of-
factkind。FrancisRavenhad,inmyopinion,broodedoverthemistyconnectionbetweenhisstrangedreamandhisvilewife,untilhismindwasinastateofpartialdelusiononthatsubject。Iwasquitewillingtohelphimwithatrifleofmoney,andtorecommendhimtothekindnessofmylawyer,ifhewasreallyinanydangerandwantedadvice。Theremyideaofmydutytowardthisafflictedpersonbeganandended。
Confrontedwiththissensibleviewofthematter,Mrs。Fairbank”sromantictemperamentrushed,asusual,intoextremes。“IshouldnomorethinkoflosingsightofFrancisRavenwhenhisnextbirthdaycomesround,“saysmywife,“thanIshouldthinkoflayingdownagoodstorywiththelastchaptersunread。Iampositivelydetermined,Percy,totakehimbackwithuswhenwereturntoFrance,inthecapacityofgroom。Whatdoesonemanmoreorlessamongthehorsesmattertopeopleasrichasweare?“Inthisstrainthepartnerofmyjoysandsorrowsranon,perfectlyimpenetrabletoeverythingthatIcouldsayonthesideofcommonsense。NeedItellmymarriedbrethrenhowitended?OfcourseI
allowedmywifetoirritateme,andspoketohersharply。
Ofcoursemywifeturnedherfaceawayindignantlyontheconjugalpillow,andburstintotears。Ofcourseuponthat,“Mr。”madehisexcuses,and“Mrs。”hadherownway。
BeforetheweekwasoutwerodeovertoUnderbridge,anddulyofferedtoFrancisRavenaplaceinourserviceassupernumerarygroom。
Atfirstthepoorfellowseemedhardlyabletorealizehisownextraordinarygoodfortune。Recoveringhimself,heexpressedhisgratitudemodestlyandbecomingly。Mrs。Fairbank”sreadysympathiesoverflowed,asusual,atherlips。ShetalkedtohimaboutourhomeinFrance,asiftheworn,gray-headedhostlerhadbeenachild。“Suchadearoldhouse,Francis;andsuchprettygardens!Stables!Stablestentimesasbigasyourstableshere——
quiteachoiceofroomsforyou。Youmustlearnthenameofourhouse——MaisonRouge。OurnearesttownisMetz。WearewithinawalkofthebeautifulRiverMoselle。Andwhenwewantachangewehaveonlytotaketherailwaytothefrontier,andfindourselvesinGermany。”
Listening,sofar,withaverybewilderedface,Francisstartedandchangedcolorwhenmywifereachedtheendofherlastsentence。
“Germany?“herepeated。
“Yes。DoesGermanyremindyouofanything?“
Thehostler”seyeslookeddownsadlyontheground。“Germanyremindsmeofmywife,“hereplied。
“Indeed!How?“
“SheoncetoldmeshehadlivedinGermany——longbeforeIknewher——
inthetimewhenshewasayounggirl。”
“Wasshelivingwithrelationsorfriends?“
“Shewaslivingasgovernessinaforeignfamily。”
“InwhatpartofGermany?“
“Idon”tremember,ma”am。Idoubtifshetoldme。”
“Didshetellyouthenameofthefamily?“
“Yes,ma”am。Itwasaforeignname,andithasslippedmymemorylongsince。Theheadofthefamilywasawinegrowerinalargewayofbusiness——Irememberthat。”
“Didyouhearwhatsortofwinehegrew?Therearewinegrowersinourneighborhood。WasitMosellewine?“
“Icouldn”tsay,ma”am,IdoubtifIeverheard。”
Theretheconversationdropped。WeengagedtocommunicatewithFrancisRavenbeforeweleftEngland,andtookourleave。IhadmadearrangementstopayourroundofvisitstoEnglishfriends,andtoreturntoMaisonRougeinthesummer。Ontheeveofdeparture,certaindifficultiesinconnectionwiththemanagementofsomelandedpropertyofmineinIrelandobligedustoalterourplans。InsteadofgettingbacktoourhouseinFranceintheSummer,weonlyreturnedaweekortwobeforeChristmas。FrancisRavenaccompaniedus,andwasdulyestablished,inthenominalcapacityofstablekeeper,amongtheservantsatMaisonRouge。
Beforelong,someoftheobjectionstotakinghimintoouremployment,whichIhadforeseenandhadvainlymentionedtomywife,forcedthemselvesonourattentioninnoveryagreeableform。
FrancisRavenfailedasIhadfearedhewouldtogetonsmoothlywithhisfellow-servants。TheywereallFrench;andnotoneofthemunderstoodEnglish。Francis,onhisside,wasequallyignorantofFrench。Hisreservedmanners,hismelancholytemperament,hissolitaryways——alltoldagainsthim。Ourservantscalledhim“theEnglishBear。”Hegrewwidelyknownintheneighborhoodunderhisnickname。Quarrelstookplace,endingonceortwiceinblows。Itbecameplain,eventoMrs。Fairbankherself,thatsomewisechangemustbemade。Whilewewerestillconsideringwhatthechangewastobe,theunfortunatehostlerwasthrownonourhandsforsometimetocomebyanaccidentinthestables。Stillpursuedbyhisproverbialill-luck,thepoorwretch”slegwasbrokenbyakickfromahorse。
Hewasattendedtobyourownsurgeon,inhiscomfortablebedroomatthestables。Asthedateofhisbirthdaydrewnear,hewasstillconfinedtohisbed。
Physicallyspeaking,hewasdoingverywell。Morallyspeaking,thesurgeonwasnotsatisfied。FrancisRavenwassufferingundersomemysteriousmentaldisturbance,whichinterferedseriouslywithhisrestatnight。Hearingthis,Ithoughtitmydutytotellthemedicalattendantwhatwaspreyingonthepatient”smind。Asapracticalman,hesharedmyopinionthatthehostlerwasinastateofdelusiononthesubjectofhisWifeandhisDream。“Curabledelusion,inmyopinion,“thesurgeonadded,“iftheexperimentcouldbefairlytried。”
“Howcanitbetried?“Iasked。Insteadofreplying,thesurgeonputaquestiontome,onhisside。
“Doyouhappentoknow,“hesaid,“thatthisyearisLeapYear?“
“Mrs。Fairbankremindedmeofityesterday,“Ianswered。
“OtherwiseImightNOThaveknownit。”
“DoyouthinkFrancisRavenknowsthatthisyearisLeapYear?“
Ibegantoseedimlywhatmyfriendwasdrivingat。
“Itdepends,“Ianswered,“onwhetherhehasgotanEnglishalmanac。SupposehehasNOTgotthealmanac——whatthen?“
“Inthatcase,“pursuedthesurgeon,“FrancisRavenisinnocentofallsuspicionthatthereisatwenty-ninthdayinFebruarythisyear。Asanecessaryconsequence——whatwillhedo?HewillanticipatetheappearanceoftheWomanwiththeKnife,attwointhemorningofthetwenty-ninthofFebruary,insteadofthefirstofMarch。Lethimsufferallhissuperstitiousterrorsonthewrongday。Leavehim,onthedaythatisreallyhisbirthday,topassaperfectlyquietnight,andtobeassoundasleepasotherpeopleattwointhemorning。Andthen,whenhewakescomfortablyintimeforhisbreakfast,shamehimoutofhisdelusionbytellinghimthetruth。”
Iagreedtotrytheexperiment。LeavingthesurgeontocautionMrs。FairbankonthesubjectofLeapYear,IwenttothestablestoseeMr。Raven。
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ThepoorfellowwasfullofforebodingsofthefateinstoreforhimontheominousfirstofMarch。Heeagerlyentreatedmetoorderoneofthemenservantstositupwithhimonthebirthdaymorning。Ingrantinghisrequest,Iaskedhimtotellmeonwhichdayoftheweekhisbirthdayfell。Hereckonedthedaysonhisfingers;andprovedhisinnocenceofallsuspicionthatitwasLeapYear,byfixingonthetwenty-ninthofFebruary,inthefullpersuasionthatitwasthefirstofMarch。Pledgedtotrythesurgeon”sexperiment,Ilefthiserroruncorrected,ofcourse。Insodoing,ItookmyfirststepblindfoldtowardthelastactinthedramaoftheHostler”sDream。
Thenextdaybroughtwithitalittledomesticdifficulty,whichindirectlyandstrangelyassociateditselfwiththecomingend。
Mywifereceivedaletter,invitingustoassistincelebratingthe“SilverWedding“oftwoworthyGermanneighborsofours——Mr。andMrs。Beldheimer。Mr。BeldheimerwasalargewinegroweronthebanksoftheMoselle。HishousewassituatedonthefrontierlineofFranceandGermany;andthedistancefromourhousewassufficientlyconsiderabletomakeitnecessaryforustosleepunderourhost”sroof。Underthesecircumstances,ifweacceptedtheinvitation,acomparisonofdatesshowedthatweshouldbeawayfromhomeonthemorningofthefirstofMarch。Mrs。Fairbank——
holdingtoherabsurdresolutiontoseewithherowneyeswhatmight,ormightnot,happentoFrancisRavenonhisbirthday——
flatlydeclinedtoleaveMaisonRouge。“It”seasytosendanexcuse,“shesaid,inheroff-handmanner。
Ifailed,formypart,toseeanyeasywayoutofthedifficulty。
Thecelebrationofa“SilverWedding“inGermanyisthecelebrationoftwenty-fiveyearsofhappymarriedlife;andthehost”sclaimupontheconsiderationofhisfriendsonsuchanoccasionissomethinginthenatureofaroyal“command。”Afterconsiderablediscussion,findingmywife”sobstinacyinvincible,andfeelingthattheabsenceofbothofusfromthefestivalwouldcertainlyoffendourfriends,IleftMrs。Fairbanktomakeherexcusesforherself,anddirectedhertoaccepttheinvitationsofarasIwasconcerned。Insodoing,Itookmysecondstep,blindfold,towardthelastactinthedramaoftheHostler”sDream。
Aweekelapsed;thelastdaysofFebruarywereathand。Anotherdomesticdifficultyhappened;and,again,thiseventalsoprovedtobestrangelyassociatedwiththecomingend。
MyheadgroomatthestableswasoneJosephRigobert。Hewasanill-conditionedfellow,inordinatelyvainofhispersonalappearance,andbynomeansscrupulousinhisconductwithwomen。
Hisonevirtueconsistedofhisfondnessforhorses,andinthecarehetookoftheanimalsunderhischarge。Inaword,hewastoogoodagroomtobeeasilyreplaced,orhewouldhavequittedmyservicelongsince。OntheoccasionofwhichIamnowwriting,hewasreportedtomebymystewardasgrowingidleanddisorderlyinhishabits。Theprincipaloffenseallegedagainsthimwas,thathehadbeenseenthatdayinthecityofMetz,inthecompanyofawomansupposedtobeanEnglishwoman,whomhewasentertainingatatavern,whenheoughttohavebeenonhiswaybacktoMaisonRouge。Theman”sdefensewasthat“thelady“ashecalledher
wasanEnglishstranger,unacquaintedwiththewaysoftheplace,andthathehadonlyshownherwhereshecouldobtainsomerefreshmentsatherownrequest。Iadministeredthenecessaryreprimand,withouttroublingmyselftoinquirefurtherintothematter。Infailingtodothis,Itookmythirdstep,blindfold,towardthelastactinthedramaoftheHostler”sDream。
Ontheeveningofthetwenty-eighth,IinformedtheservantsatthestablesthatoneofthemmustwatchthroughthenightbytheEnglishman”sbedside。JosephRigobertimmediatelyvolunteeredfortheduty——asameans,nodoubt,ofwinninghiswaybacktomyfavor。Iacceptedhisproposal。
Thatdaythesurgeondinedwithus。TowardmidnightheandIleftthesmokingroom,andrepairedtoFrancisRaven”sbedside。
Rigobertwasathispost,withnoveryagreeableexpressiononhisface。TheFrenchmanandtheEnglishmanhadevidentlynotgotonwelltogethersofar。FrancisRavenlayhelplessonhisbed,waitingsilentlyfortwointhemorningandtheDreamWoman。
“Ihavecome,Francis,tobidyougoodnight,“Isaid,cheerfully。
“To-morrowmorningIshalllookinatbreakfasttime,beforeI
leavehomeonajourney。”
“Thankyouforallyourkindness,sir。Youwillnotseemealiveto-morrowmorning。Shewillfindmethistime。Markmywords——shewillfindmethistime。”
“Mygoodfellow!shecouldn”tfindyouinEngland。HowintheworldisshetofindyouinFrance?“
“It”sborneinonmymind,sir,thatshewillfindmehere。AttwointhemorningonmybirthdayIshallseeheragain,andseeherforthelasttime。”
“Doyoumeanthatshewillkillyou?“
“Imeanthat,sir,shewillkillme——withtheknife。”
“AndwithRigobertintheroomtoprotectyou?“
“Iamadoomedman。FiftyRigobertscouldn”tprotectme。”
“Andyouwantedsomebodytositupwithyou?“
“Mereweakness,sir。Idon”tliketobeleftaloneonmydeathbed。”
Ilookedatthesurgeon。Ifhehadencouragedme,Ishouldcertainly,outofsheercompassion,haveconfessedtoFrancisRaventhetrickthatwewereplayinghim。Thesurgeonheldtohisexperiment;thesurgeon”sfaceplainlysaid”No。”
Thenextdaythetwenty-ninthofFebruarywasthedayofthe“SilverWedding。”Thefirstthinginthemorning,IwenttoFrancisRaven”sroom。Rigobertmetmeatthedoor。
“Howhashepassedthenight?“Iasked。
“Sayinghisprayers,andlookingforghosts,“Rigobertanswered。
“Alunaticasylumistheonlyproperplaceforhim。”
Iapproachedthebedside。“Well,Francis,hereyouare,safeandsound,inspiteofwhatyousaidtomelastnight。”
Hiseyesrestedonminewithavacant,wonderinglook。
“Idon”tunderstandit,“hesaid。
“Didyouseeanythingofyourwifewhentheclockstrucktwo?“
“No,sir。”
“Didanythinghappen?“
“Nothinghappened,sir。”
“Doesn”tTHISsatisfyyouthatyouwerewrong?“
Hiseyesstillkepttheirvacant,wonderinglook。Heonlyrepeatedthewordshehadspokenalready:“Idon”tunderstandit。”
Imadealastattempttocheerhim。“Come,come,Francis!keepagoodheart。Youwillbeoutofbedinafortnight。”
Heshookhisheadonthepillow。“There”ssomethingwrong,“hesaid。“Idon”texpectyoutobelieveme,sir。Ionlysaythere”ssomethingwrong——andtimewillshowit。”
Ilefttheroom。HalfanhourlaterIstartedforMr。Beldheimer”shouse;leavingthearrangementsforthemorningofthefirstofMarchinthehandsofthedoctorandmywife。
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TheonethingwhichprincipallystruckmewhenIjoinedtheguestsatthe“SilverWedding“isalsotheonethingwhichitisnecessarytomentionhere。Onthisjoyfuloccasionanoticeableladypresentwasoutofspirits。Thatladywasnootherthantheheroineofthefestival,themistressofthehouse!
InthecourseoftheeveningIspoketoMr。Beldheimer”seldestsononthesubjectofhismother。Asanoldfriendofthefamily,I
hadaclaimonhisconfidencewhichtheyoungmanwillinglyrecognized。
“Wehavehadaverydisagreeablemattertodealwith,“hesaid;
“andmymotherhasnotrecoveredthepainfulimpressionleftonhermind。Manyyearssince,whenmysisterswerechildren,wehadanEnglishgovernessinthehouse。Sheleftus,aswethenunderstood,tobemarried。Weheardnomoreofheruntilaweekortendayssince,whenmymotherreceivedaletter,inwhichourex-
governessdescribedherselfasbeinginaconditionofgreatpovertyanddistress。Aftermuchhesitationshehadventured——atthesuggestionofaladywhohadbeenkindtoher——towritetoherformeremployers,andtoappealtotheirremembranceofoldtimes。
Youknowmymothersheisnotonlythemostkind-headed,butthemostinnocentofwomen——itisimpossibletopersuadeherofthewickednessthatthereisintheworld。Sherepliedbyreturnofpost,invitingthegovernesstocomehereandseeher,andinclosingthemoneyforhertravelingexpenses。Whenmyfathercamehome,andheardwhathadbeendone,hewroteatoncetohisagentinLondontomakeinquiries,inclosingtheaddressonthegoverness”letter。Beforehecouldreceivetheagent”sreplythegovernessarrived。Sheproducedtheworstpossibleimpressiononhismind。Theagent”sletter,arrivingafewdayslater,confirmedhissuspicions。Sincewehadlostsightofher,thewomanhadledamostdisreputablelife。Myfatherspoketoherprivately:heoffered——onconditionofherleavingthehouse——asumofmoneytotakeherbacktoEngland。Ifsherefused,thealternativewouldbeanappealtotheauthoritiesandapublicscandal。Sheacceptedthemoney,andleftthehouse。OnherwaybacktoEnglandsheappearstohavestoppedatMetz。YouwillunderstandwhatsortofwomansheiswhenItellyouthatshewasseentheotherdayinatavernwithyourhandsomegroom,JosephRigobert。”
Whilemyinformantwasrelatingthesecircumstances,mymemorywasatwork。IrecalledwhatFrancisRavenhadvaguelytoldusofhiswife”sexperienceinformerdaysasgovernessinaGermanfamily。
Asuspicionofthetruthsuddenlyflashedacrossmymind。“Whatwasthewoman”sname?“Iasked。
Mr。Beldheimer”ssonanswered:“AliciaWarlock。”
IhadbutoneideawhenIheardthatreply——togetbacktomyhousewithoutamoment”sneedlessdelay。Itwasthenteno”clockatnight——thelasttraintoMetzhadleftlongsince。Iarrangedwithmyyoungfriend——afterdulyinforminghimofthecircumstances——
thatIshouldgobythefirsttraininthemorning,insteadofstayingtobreakfastwiththeotherguestswhosleptinthehouse。
AtintervalsduringthenightIwondereduneasilyhowthingsweregoingonatMaisonRouge。Againandagainthesamequestionoccurredtome,onmyjourneyhomeintheearlymorning——themorningofthefirstofMarch。Astheeventproved,butonepersoninmyhouseknewwhatreallyhappenedatthestablesonFrancisRaven”sbirthday。LetJosephRigoberttakemyplaceasnarrator,andtellthestoryoftheendtoYou——ashetoldit,intimespast,tohislawyerandtoMe。
FOURTHANDLASTNARRATIVE
STATEMENTOFJOSEPHRIGOBERT:ADDRESSEDTOTHEADVOCATEWHO
DEFENDEDHIMATHISTRIAL
RESPECTEDSIR,——Onthetwenty-seventhofFebruaryIwassent,onbusinessconnectedwiththestablesatMaisonRouge,tothecityofMetz。OnthepublicpromenadeImetamagnificentwoman。
Complexion,blond。Nationality,English。Wemutuallyadmiredeachother;wefellintoconversation。ShespokeFrenchperfectly——
withtheEnglishaccent。Iofferedrefreshment;myproposalwasaccepted。Wehadalongandinterestinginterview——wediscoveredthatweweremadeforeachother。Sofar,Whoistoblame?
IsitmyfaultthatIamahandsomeman——universallyagreeableassuchtothefairsex?Isitacriminaloffensetobeaccessibletotheamiableweaknessoflove?Iaskagain,Whoistoblame?
Clearly,nature。Notthebeautifullady——notmyhumbleself。
Toresume。Themosthard-heartedpersonlivingwillunderstandthattwobeingsmadeforeachothercouldnotpossiblypartwithoutanappointmenttomeetagain。
ImadearrangementsfortheaccommodationoftheladyinthevillagenearMaisonRouge。Sheconsentedtohonormewithhercompanyatsupper,inmyapartmentatthestables,onthenightofthetwenty-ninth。Thetimefixedonwasthetimewhentheotherservantswereaccustomedtoretire——eleveno”clock。
AmongthegroomsattachedtothestableswasanEnglishman,laidupwithabrokenleg。HisnamewasFrancis。Hismannerswererepulsive;hewasignorantoftheFrenchlanguage。Inthekitchenhewentbythenicknameofthe“EnglishBear。”Strangetosay,hewasagreatfavoritewithmymasterandmymistress。Theyevenhumoredcertainsuperstitiousterrorstowhichthisrepulsivepersonwassubject——terrorsintothenatureofwhichI,asanadvancedfreethinker,neverthoughtitworthmywhiletoinquire。
Ontheeveningofthetwenty-eighththeEnglishman,beingapreytotheterrorswhichIhavementioned,requestedthatoneofhisfellow-servantsmightsitupwithhimforthatnightonly。ThewishthatheexpressedwasbackedbyMr。Fairbank”sauthority。