TheKentonswerenotrich,buttheywerecertainlyricherthantheaverageinthepleasantcountytownoftheMiddleWest,wheretheyhadspentnearlytheirwholemarriedlife。Astheircircumstanceshadgrowneasier,theyhadmellowedmoreandmoreinthekeepingoftheircomfortablehome,untiltheyhatedtoleaveitevenfortheshortoutings,whichtheirchildrenmadethemtake,toNiagaraortheUpperLakesinthehotweather。Theybelievedthattheycouldnotbesowellanywhereasinthegreatsquarebrickhousewhichstillkeptitsfouracresaboutit,intheheartofthegrowingtown,wherethetreestheyhadplantedwiththeirownhandstoppeditonthreeaides,andaspaciousgardenopenedsouthwardbehindittothesummerwind。Kentonhadhislibrary,wherehetransactedbydaysuchlawbusinessashehadretainedinhisownhands;butatnighthelikedtogotohiswife’sroomandsitwithherthere。Theylefttheparlorsandpiazzastotheirgirls,wheretheycouldhearthemlaughingwiththeyoungfellowswhocametomakethemorningcalls,longsincedisusedinthecentresoffashion,ortheeveningcalls,scarcelymoreauthorizedbythegreatworld。Shesewed,andhereadhispaperinhersatisfactorysilence,ortheyplayedcheckerstogether。Shedidnotlikehimtowin,andwhenshefoundherselfunabletobeartheprospectofdefeat,sherefusedtolethimmakethemovethatthreatenedthesafetyofhermen。Sometimeshelaughedather,andsometimeshescolded,buttheywereverygoodcomrades,aselderlymarriedpeopleareapttobe。Theyhadlongagoquarrelledouttheirseriousdifferences,whichmostlyarosefromsuchdifferencesoftemperamentashadfirstdrawnthemtogether;theycriticisedeachothertotheirchildrenfromtimetotime,buttheyatonedforthisdefectionbycomplainingofthechildrentoeachother,andtheyunitedingivingwaytothemonallpointsconcerningtheirhappiness,nottosaytheirpleasure。
Theyhadbothbeenteachersintheiryouthbeforehewentintothewar,andtheyhadnotmarrieduntilhehadsettledhimselfinthepracticeofthelawafterheleftthearmy。Hewasthenamanofthirty,andfiveyearsolderthanshe;fivechildrenwereborntothem,butthesecondsondiedwhenhewasyetababeinhismother’sarms,andtherewasanintervalofsixyearsbetweenthefirstboyandthefirstgirl。Theireldestsonwasalreadymarried,andsettlednexttheminahousewhichwasbrick,liketheirown,butnotsquare,andhadgroundssomuchlessamplethathegotmostofhisvegetablesfromtheirgarden。Hehadgrownnaturallyintoashareofhisfather’slawpractice,andhehadtakenitalloverwhenRentonwaselectedtothebench。Hemadeashowofgivingitbackafterthejudgeretired,butbythattimeKentonwaswelloninthefifties。Thepracticeitselfhadchanged,andhadbecomemainlythelegalbusinessofalargecorporation。Inthisformitwasdistastefultohim;hekepttheaffairsofsomeofhisoldclientsinhishands,buthegavemuchofhistime,whichhesavedhisself-respectbycallinghisleisure,toahistoryofhisregimentin-thewar。
Inhislaterlifehehadrevertedtomanyofthepreoccupationsofhisyouth,andhebelievedthatTuskingumenjoyedthebestclimate,onthewhole,intheunion;thatitspeopleofmingledVirginian,Pennsylvanian,andConnecticutorigin,withlittlerecentadmixtureofforeignstrains,wereofthepurestAmericanstock,andspokethebestEnglishintheworld;theyenjoyedobviouslythegreatestsumofhappiness,andhadincontestiblythelowestdeathrateanddivorcerateintheState。Thegrowthoftheplacewasnormalandhealthy;ithadincreasedonlytofivethousandduringthetimehehadknownit,whichwasalmostanidealfigureforacounty-town。Therewasahigheraverageofintelligencethaninanyotherplaceofitssize,andawiderandevenerdiffusionofprosperity。Itsrecordinthecivilwarwaslessbrilliant,perhaps,thanthatofsomeotherlocalities,butitwasfullyuptothegeneralOhiolevel,whichwasthehigh-watermarkofthenationalachievementinthegreatestwarofthegreatestpeopleunderthesun。It,wasKenton’sprideandglorythathehadbeenapartofthefinestarmyknowninhistory。Hebelievedthatthemenwhomadehistoryoughttowriteit,andinhisfirstCommemoration-Dayorationheurgedhiscompanionsinarmstosetdowneverythingtheycouldrememberoftheirsoldiering,andtosavetheletterstheyhadwrittenhome,sothattheymighteachcontributetoacollectiveautobiographyoftheregiment。Itwasonlyinthisway,heheld,thattheintenselypersonalcharacterofthestrugglecouldberecorded。Hehadfelthiswaytothefactthateverybattleisessentiallyepisodical,verycampaignasumoffortuities;anditwasnotstrangethatheshouldsuppose,withhiswantofperspective,thatthisuniversalfactwaspurelynationalandAmerican。Hiszealmadehimtherepositoryofavastmassofmaterialwhichhecouldnothaverefusedtokeepforthesoldierswhobroughtittohim,moreorlessinahumorousindulgenceofhiswhim。Butheevenofferedtoreceiveit,andinacommunitywhereeverythingtookthecomplexionofajoke,hecametobeaffectionatelyregardedasacrankonthatpoint;theshabbilyagingveterans,whomhepursuedtotheirworkbenchesandcornfields,for,thedocumentsoftheregimentalhistory,likedtoaskthecolonelifhehadbroughthisgun。They,alwaysgivehimthetitlewithwhichhehadbeenbrevetedatthecloseofthewar;buthewasknowntothe,younger,generationofhisfellow-citizensasthejudge。HiswifecalledhimMr。
Kentoninthepresenceofstrangers,andsometimestohimself,buttohischildrenshecalledhimPoppa,astheydid。
Thesteady-goingeldestson,whohadsucceededtohisfather’saffairswithoutgivinghimthesenseofdispossession,loyallyacceptedthepopularbeliefthathewouldneverbethemanhisfatherwas。HejoinedwithhismotherinarespectforKenton’stheoryoftheregimentalhistorywhichwasnonethelesssincerebecauseitwasunconsciouslyalittlescepticaloftheoutcome;andtheeldestdaughterwasoftheirparty。Theyoungestsaidfranklythatshehadnouseforanyhistory,butshesaidthesameofnearlyeverythingwhichhadnotdirectlyorindirectlytodowithdancing。Inthisregulationshehaduseforpartiesandpicnics,forbuggy-ridesandsleigh-rides,forcallsfromyoungmenandvisitstoandfromothergirls,forconcerts,forplays,forcircusesandchurchsociables,foreverythingbutlectures;andshedevotedherselftoherpleasureswithouttheshadowofchaperonage,whichwas,indeed,athingstillunheardofinTuskingum。
Intheexpansionwhichnooneelseventured,or,perhaps,wishedtosetboundsto,shecameunderthecriticismofheryoungerbrother,who,upontherareoccasionswhenhedeignedtomingleinthefamilyaffairs,drewtheirmother’snoticetohissister’sexcessesincarrying-on,andrequiredsomeactionthatshouldkeepherfrombringingthename,ofKentontodisgrace。Frombeinghimselfaboyofveryslovenlyandlawlesslifehehadsuddenly,attheageoffourteen,caughthimselfupfromthestreet,reformedhisdressandconduct,andconfinedhimselfinhislargeroomatthetopofthehouse,where,onthepursuitstowhichhegavehissparetime,thefriendswhofrequentedhissociety,andtheliteraturewhichnourishedhisdarklingspirit,mightfitlyhavebeenwrittenMystery。Thesisterwhomhereprobatedwasonlytwoyearshiselder,butsincethatdifferenceinagirlaccountsforagreatdeal,itapparentlyauthorizedhertotakehimmorelightlythanhewasabletotakehimself。Shesaidthathewasinlove,andsheachievedanimportancewithhimthroughhisspeechlessrageandscornwhichnoneoftherestofhisfamilyenjoyed。Withhisfatherandmotherhehadabearingofrepressedsuperioritywhichastrenuousconsciencekeptfromunmaskingitselfinopencontemptwhentheyfailedtomakehissisterpromisetobehaveherself。Sometimeshehadlapsesfromhisdignifiedgloomwithhismother,when,fornoreasonthatcouldbegiven,hefellfromhishabitualmajestytothetenderdependenceofalittleboy,justashisvoicebrokefromitsnascentbasetoitsearliertrebleatmomentswhenheleastexpectedorwishedsuchathingtohappen。Hisstatelybutvagueidealofhimselfwassupportedbyastaturebeyondhisyears,butthisrendereditthemoredifficultforhimtobearthehumiliationofhissuddencollapses,andmadehimatothertimestheeasierpreyofLottie’sridicule。Hegotonbest,oratleastmostevenly,withhiseldestsister。Shetookhimseriously,perhapsbecauseshetookalllifeso;andshewasabletointerprethimtohisfatherwhenhisintolerabledignityforbadeacommonunderstandingbetweenthem。Whenhegotsofarbeyondhisdepththathedidnotknowwhathemeanthimself,assometimeshappened,shegentlyfoundhimasafefootingnearershore。
Kenton’stheorywasthathedidnotdistinguishamonghischildren。
Hesaidthathedidnotsupposetheywerethebestchildrenintheworld,buttheysuitedhim;andhewouldnothaveknownhowtochangethemforthebetter。HesawnoharminthebehaviorofLottiewhenitmostshockedherbrother;helikedhertohaveagoodtime;butitflatteredhisnervestohaveEllenabouthim。Lottiewasagreatdealmoreaccomplished,heallowedthat;shecouldplayandsing,andshehadsocialgiftsfarbeyondhersister;butheeasilyprovedtohiswifethatNellyknewtentimesasmuch。
Nellyreadagreatdeal;shekeptupwithallthemagazines,andknewallthebooksinhislibrary。HebelievedthatshewasafineGermanscholar,andinfactshehadtakenupthatlanguageafterleavingschool,when,ifshehadbeenbetteradvisedthanshecouldhavebeeninTuskingum,shewouldhavekeptonwithherFrench。Shestartedthefirstbookclubintheplace;andshehelpedherfatherdotheintellectualhonorsofthehousetotheEasternlecturers,whoalwaysstayedwiththejudgewhentheycametoTuskingum。Shewasfaithfullypresentatthemoments,whichhersistershunnedinderision,whenherfatherexplainedtothemrespectivelyhistheoryofregimentalhistory,andwouldjust,ashesaid,showthemafewofthedocumentshehadcollected。HemadeEllenshowthem;sheknewwheretoputherhandonthemostcharacteristicandillustrative;andLottieofferedtobetwhatonedaredthatEllenwouldmarrysomeofthoselecturersyet;shewasliteraryenough。
Sheboastedthatshewasnotliteraryherself,andhadnouseforanyonewhowas;anditcouldnothavebeenherculturethatdrewthemostcultivatedyoungmaninTuskingumtoher。Ellenwasreallymorebeautiful;Lottiewasmerelyverypretty;butshehadcharmforthem,andEllen,whohadtheirhonorandfriendship,hadnocharmforthem。NooneseemeddrawntoherastheyweredrawntohersistertillamancamewhowasnotoneofthemostcultivatedinTuskingum;andthenitwasdoubtfulwhethershewasnotfirstdrawntohim。Shewastootransparenttohideherfeelingfromherfatherandmother,whosawwithevenmoregriefthanshamethatshecouldnothideitfromthemanhimself,whomtheythoughtsounworthyofit。
HehadsuddenlyarrivedinTuskingumfromoneofthevillagesofthecounty,wherehehadbeenteachingschool,andhadfoundsomethingtodoasreporterontheTuskingum’Intelligencer’,whichhewasinstinctivelycharacterizingwiththespiritofthenewjournalism,andwaspushingashardilyforwardonthelinesofpersonalityasifhehaddroppeddowntoitfromtheheightofaNewYorkorChicagoSundayedition。Thejudgesaid,withsomethinglessthanhishabitualhonesty,thathedidnotmindhisbeingareporter,buthemindedhisbeinglightandshallow;hemindedhisbeingflippantandmocking;hemindedhisbringinghiscigarettesandbanjointothehouseathissecondvisit。Hedidnotmindhispush;thefellowhadhiswaytomakeandhehadtopush;buthedidmindhisbeingallpush;andhishavingcomeoutofthecountrywithaslittlesimplicityasifhehadpassedhiswholelifeinthecity。Hehadnomodesty,andhehadnoreverence;hehadnoreverenceforEllenherself,andthepoorgirlseemedtolikehimforthat。
Hewasallthemoreoffensivetothejudgebecausehewashimselftoblamefortheiracquaintance,whichbeganwhenonedaythefellowhadcalledafterhiminthestreet,andthenfolloweddowntheshadysidewalkbesidehimtohishour,wantingtoknowwhatthiswashehadheardabouthishistory,andpleadingformorelightuponhisplaninit。Atthegatehemadeaflourishofopeningandshuttingitforthejudge,andwalkingupthepathtohisdoorhekepthishandonthejudge’sshouldermostoffensively;butinspiteofthisKentonhadtheweaknesstoaskhimin,andtocallEllentogethimthemostillustrativedocumentsofthehistory。
Theinterviewthatresultedinthe’Intelligencer’wastheleastevilthatcameofthiserror。Kentonwasamazed,andthenconsoled,andthenafflictedthatEllenwasnotdisgustedwithit;andinhisconferenceswithhiswifehefumedandfrettedathisownculpablefolly,andtriedtogetbackofthetimehehadcommittedit,inthatillusionwhichpeoplehavewithtroublethatitcouldsomehowbegotridofifitcouldfairlybegotbackof;tillthetimecamewhenhiswifecouldnolongersharehisunrestinthisfutileendeavor。
Shesaid,onenightwhentheyhadtalkedlateandlong,"Thatcan’tbehelpednow;andthequestioniswhatarewegoingtodotostopit。"
Thejudgeevadedthepointinsaying,"Thedevilofitisthatallthenicefellowsareafraidofher;theyrespecthertoomuch,andtheverythingwhichoughttodisgustherwiththischapiswhatgiveshimhispoweroverher。Idon’tknowwhatwearegoingtodo,butwemustbreakitoff,somehow。"
"Wemighttakeherwithussomewhere,"Mrs。Kentonsuggested。
"Runawayfromthefellow?IthinkIseemyself!No,wehavegottostayandfacethethingrighthere。ButIwon’thavehimaboutthehouseanymore,understandthat。He’snottobeletin,andEllenmustn’tseehim;youtellherIsaidso。Orno!Iwillspeaktohermyself。"Hiswifesaidthathewaswelcometodothat;buthedidnotquitedoit。Hecertainlyspoketohisdaughterabouther,lover,andhesatisfiedhimselfthattherewasyetnothingexplicitbetweenthem。Butshewassomuchlessfrankandopenwithhimthanshehadalwaysbeenbeforethathewaswoundedaswellasbaffledbyherreserve。Hecouldnotgethertoownthatshereallycaredforthefellow;butmanashewas,andoldmanashewas,hecouldnothelpperceivingthatshelivedinafonddreamofhim。
Hewentfromhertohermother。"Ifhewasonlyone-halfthemanshethinksheis!"——heendedhisreportinahopelesssigh。
"Youwanttogiveintoher!"hiswifepitilesslyinterpreted。"Well,perhapsthatwouldbethebestthing,afterall。"
"No,no,itwouldn’t,Sarah;itwouldbetheeasiestforbothofus,I
admit,butitwouldbetheworstthingforher。We’vegottoletitrunalongforawhileyet。Ifwegivehimropeenoughhemayhanghimself;
there’sthatchance。Wecan’tgoaway,andwecan’tshutherup,andwecan’tturnhimoutofthehouse。Wemusttrusthertofindhimoutforherself。"
"She’llneverdothat,"saidthemother。"LottiesaysEllenthinkshe’sjustperfect。Hecheersherup,andtakesheroutofherself。We’vealwaysactedwithherasifwethoughtshewasdifferentfromothergirls,andhebehavestoherasifshewasjustlikeallofthem,justassilly,andjustasweak,anditpleasesher,andflattersher;shelikesit。"
"Oh,Lord!"groanedthefather。"Isupposeshedoes。"
Thiswasbadenough;itwasablowtohisprideinEllen;buttherewassomethingthathurthimstillworse。Whenthefellowhadmadesureofher,heapparentlyfelthimselfsosafeinherfondnessthathedidnoturgehissuitwithher。HiscontentwithhertacitacceptancegavethebitternessofshametothepromiseKentonandhiswifehadmadeeachothernevertocrossanyoftheirchildreninlove。TheywerereadynowtokeepthatpromiseforEllen,ifheaskeditofthem,ratherthananswerforherlifelongdisappointment,iftheydeniedhim。But,whateverhemeantfinallytodo,hedidnotaskit;heusedhisfootingintheirhousechieflyasabasisforflirtationsbeyondit。HebegantosharehisdevotionstoEllenwithhergirlfriends,andnotwithhergirlfriendsalone。Itdidnotcometoscandal,butitcertainlycametogossipabouthimandasillyyoungwife;andKentonheardofitwithatormentofdoubtwhetherEllenknewofit,andwhatshewoulddo;hewouldwaitforhertodoherselfwhateverwastobedone。Hewasnevercertainhowmuchshehadheardofthegossipwhenshecametohermother,andsaidwiththegentleeagernessshehad,"Didn’tpoppatalkonceofgoingSouththiswinter?"
"HetalkedofgoingtoNewYork,"themotheranswered,withathrobofhope。
"Well,"thegirlreturned,patiently,andMrs。Kentonreadinherpassivityaneagernesstobegonefromsorrowthatshewouldnotsuffertobeseen,andinterpretedhertoherfatherinsuchwisethathecouldnothesitate。
II。
Ifsuchathingcouldbemercifullyordered,theorderofthiseventhadcertainlybeenmerciful;butitwasacruelwrenchthattoreKentonfromthehomewherehehadstrucksuchdeeproot。Whenheactuallycametoleavetheplacehisgoinghadaghastlyunreality,whichwasheightenedbyhissenseofthecommonreluctance。Noonewantedtogo,sofarashecouldmakeout,notevenEllenherself,whenhetriedtomakehersayshewishedit。Lottiewasinopenrevolt,andanimatedheryoungmentoashareintheinsurrection。Herolderbrotherwaskindlyandhelpfullyacquiescent,buthewassofarfromadvisingthemovethatKentonhadregularlytoconvincehimselfthatRichardapprovedit,bymakinghimsaythatitwasonlyforthewinterandthatitwasthebestwayofhelpingEllengetridofthatfellow。AllthisdidnotenableKentontomeettheproblemsofhisyoungerson,whorequiredhimtotellwhathewastodowithhisdogandhispigeons,andtodeclareatoncehowhewastodisposeofthecocoonshehadamassedsoasnottoendangerthefutureofthemothsandbutterfliesinvolvedinthem。Theboywassofertileindifficultiesandsoimportunatefortheirsolution,thathehadtobecrushedintosilencebyhisfather,whoachedinahelplesssympathywithhisreluctance。
Kentoncameheavilyuponthecourageofhiswife,whowasurgingforwardtheirdeparturewithsomuchenergythatheobscurelyaccusedherofbeingthecauseofit,andcouldonlybeconvincedofherinnocencewhensheofferedtogivethewholethingupifhesaidso。Whenhewouldnotsayso,shecarriedtheaffairthroughtothebitterend,andshedidnotsparehimsome,pangswhichsheperhapsneednothavesharedwithhim。
Butpeopleareseldommanandwifeforhalftheirliveswithoutwishingtoimparttheirsufferingsaswellastheirpleasurestoeachother;andMrs。Kenton,ifshewasnoworse,wasnobetterthanotherwivesinpressingtoherhusband’slipsthecupthatwasnotaltogethersweettoherown。Shewentaboutthehousethenightbeforeclosingit,toseethateverythingwasinastatetobeleft,andthenshecametoKentoninhislibrary,wherehehadbeenburningsomepapersandgettingothersreadytogiveinchargetohisson,andsatdownbyhiscoldhearthwithhim,andwrunghissoulwiththetaleofthelastthingsshehadbeendoing。Whenshehadmadehimbearitall,shebegantoturnthebrightsideoftheaffairtohim。ShepraisedthesenseandstrengthofEllen,inthecoursethegirlhadtakenwithherself,andaskedhimifhe,reallythoughttheycouldhavedonelessforherthantheyweredoing。
Sheremindedhimthattheywerenotrunningawayfromthefellow,asshehadoncethoughttheymust,butEllenwasrenouncinghim,andputtinghimoutofhersighttillshecouldputhimoutofhermind。Shedidnotpretendthatthegirlhaddonethisyet;butitwaseverythingthatshewishedtodoit,andsawthatitwasbest。Thenshekissedhimonhisgrayhead,andlefthimalonetothefirstecstasyofhishomesickness。
ItwasbetterwhentheyoncegottoNewYork,andweresettledinanapartmentofanold-fashioneddown-townhotel。Theythoughtthemselvesverycrampedinit,andtheywerebutlittleeasierwhentheyfoundthattheapartmentsoverandunderthemwereapparentlythoughtspaciousforfamiliesoftwicetheirnumbers。Itwastheveryquietestplaceinthewholecity,butKentonwasusedtothestillnessofTuskingum,where,sincepeoplenolongerkepthens,thenightswerestillerthaninthecountryitself;andforaweekhesleptbadly。Otherwise,assoonastheygotusedtolivinginsixroomsinsteadofseventeen,theywerereallyverycomfortable。
Hecouldseethathiswifewasgladofthereleasefromhousekeeping,andshewasgrowinggayerandseemedtobegrowingyoungerintheinspirationofthegreat,good-naturedtown。TheyhadfirstcometoNewYorkontheirweddingjourney,butsincethatvisitshehadalwayslethimgoaloneonhisbusinesserrandstotheEast;thesehadgrownlessandlessfrequent,andhehadnotseenNewYorkfortenortwelveyears。Hecouldhavewaitedasmuchlonger,buthelikedherpleasureintheplace,andwiththehomesicknessalwayslurkingathishearthewentaboutwithhertotheamusementswhichshefrequented,asshesaid,tohelpEllentakehermindoffherself。Attheplayandtheoperahesatthinkingofthesilent,lonelyhouseatTuakingum,darkamongitsleaflessmaples,andthelifethatwasnomoreinitthaniftheyhadalldiedoutofit;andhecouldnotkeepdownacertainresentment,senselessandcruel,asifthepoorgirlweresomehowtoblamefortheirexile。Whenhebetrayedthisfeelingtohiswife,ashesometimesmust,shescoldedhimforit,andthenoffered,ifhereallythoughtanythinglikethat,togobacktoTuskingumatonce;anditendedinhishavingtoownhimselfwrong,andhumblypromisethatheneverwouldletthechilddreamhowhefelt,unlesshereallywishedtokillher。Hewasobligedtocarryhisself-
punishmentsofarastotakeLottieverysharplytotaskwhenshebrokeoutinhotrebellion,anddeclaredthatitwasallEllen’sfault;shewasnotafraidofkillinghersister;andthoughshedidnotsayittoher,shesaiditofher,thatanybodyelsecouldhavegotridofthatfellowwithoutturningthewholefamilyoutofhouseandhome。
Lottie,infact,wasnothavingabitgoodtimeinNewYork,whichshedidnotfindequalinanywaytoTuskingumforfun。Shehatedthedullproprietyofthehotel,wherenobodygotacquainted,andeveryonewasasafraidasdeathofeveryoneelse;andinherdesolationshewasthrownbackuponthesocietyofherbrotherBoyne。TheybecamefriendsintheircommondislikeofNewYork;andpendingsomechanceofbringingeachotherundercondemnationtheylamentedtheirbanishmentfromTuskingumtogether。ButevenBoynecontrivedtomaketheheavytimepassmorelightlythansheinthelessonshehadwithatutor,andthestudiesofthecitywhichhecarriedon。WhentheskatingwasnotgoodinCentralParkhespentmostofhisafternoonsandeveningsatthevaudevilletheatres。Noneofthedimemuseumsescapedhisresearch,andheconversedwithfreaksandmonstersofallsortsupontermsoffriendlyconfidence。Hereportedtheirdifferenttheoriesofthemselvestohisfamilywiththesamesimple-heartedinterestthathecriticisedthesonganddanceartistsofthevaudevilletheatres。Hebecameaninnocentbutbynomeansuncriticalconnoisseuroftheirattractions,andhesurprisedwiththeconstancyandvarietyofhisexperienceinthemagentlemanwhosatnexthimonenight。Boynethoughthimapersonofcultivation,andconsultedhimupontheopinionhehadformedthattherewasnotsomuchharminsuchplacesaspeoplesaid。Thegentlemandistinguishedinsayingthathethoughtyouwouldnotfindmoreharminthem,ifyoudidnotbringitwithyou,thanyouwouldinthelegitimatetheatres;andinthehopeoffurtherwisdomfromhim,Boynefollowedhimoutofthetheatreandhelpedhimonwithhisovercoat。Thegentlemanwalkedhometohishotelwithhim,andprofessedapleasureinhisacquaintancewhichhesaidhetrustedtheymightsometimerenew。
AllatoncetheKentonsbegantobeacquaintedinthehotel,asoftenhappenswithpeopleaftertheyhavelongriddenupanddownintheelevatortogetherinbondsofapparentlyperpetualstrangeness。Fromonefriendlyfamilytheiracquaintancespreadtoothersuntiltheywere,almostwithoutknowingit,suddenlyandsimultaneouslyonsmilingandthenonspeakingtermswiththepeopleofeverypermanenttableinthedining-room。LottieandBoyneburstthechainsoftheunnaturalkindnesswhichboundthem,andresumedtheiroldrelationsofreciprocalcensure。
Hefoundafellowofhisownageintheapartmentbelow,whohadthesamecountrytraditionsandwasengagedinalikeinspectionofthecity;andshediscoveredtwogirlsonanotherfloor,whosaidtheyreceivedonSaturdaysandwantedhertoreceivewiththem。Theymadeateaforher,andaskedsomerealNewYorkers;andsucharoundofpleasantlittleeventsbeganforherthatBoynewasforcedtocallhismother’sattentiontothewayCharlottewasgoingonwiththeyoungmenwhomshemetandfranklyaskedtocalluponherwithoutknowinganythingaboutthem;youcouldnotdothatinNewYork,hesaid。
ButbythistimeNewYorkhadgonetoMrs。Kenton’shead,too,andshewaslessfittedtodealwithLottiethanathome。WhethershehadsucceededornotinhelpingEllentakehermindoffherself,shehadcertainlyfreedherownfromintrospectioninadreamofthingswhichhadseemedimpossiblebefore。Shewasinthatmomentofawoman’slifewhichhasacertainpathosfortheintelligentwitness,when,havingrearedherchildrenandoutgrownthemoreincessantcaresofhermotherhood,shesometimesrevertstohergirlishimpulsesandideals,andconfrontstheremainingopportunitiesoflifewithajoyfulhopeunknowntoourheavierandsullenersexinitslateryears。Itisthispeculiarpowerofrejuvenescencewhichperhapsmakessomanywomenoutlivetheirhusbands,whoatthesameageregardthisworldasanaccomplishedfact。Mrs。
KentonhadkeptuptheirreadinglongafterKentonfoundhimselftoobusyortootiredforit;andwhenhecamefromhisofficeatnightandfellasleepoverthebookshewishedhimtohear,shecontinueditherself,andtoldhimaboutit。WhenEllenbegantoshowthesametaste,theyreadtogether,andthemotherwasnotjealouswhenthefatherbetrayedthathewasmuchprouderofhisdaughter’sculturethanhiswife’s。ShehadherownmisgivingsthatshewasnotsomodernasEllen,andsheacceptedherjudgmentinthecaseofsomeauthorswhomshedidnotlikesowell。
ShenowwentaboutnotonlytoalltheplaceswhereshecouldmakeEllen’samusementserveasanexcuse,buttootherswhenshecouldnotcoaxorcompelthemelancholygirl。ShewasasconstantatmatineesofonekindasBoyneatanothersort;shewenttotheexhibitionsofpictures,andgotherselfupinschoolsofpainting;shefrequentedgalleries,publicandprivate,andgotaskedtostudioteas;shewenttomeetingsandconferencesofaestheticinterest,andshepaidaneasywaytoparlorlecturesexpressiveofthevaguebutprofoundfermentinwomen’ssouls;fromtheseherpresenceinintellectualclubswasasimpleandnaturaltransition。Shemetandtalkedwithinterestingpeople,andnowandthenshegotintroducedtoliterarypeople。Once,inabook-
store,shestoodnexttoagentlemanleaningoverthesamecounter,whomasalesmanaddressedbythenameofapopularauthor,andsheremainedstaringathimbreathlesstillhelefttheplace。Whenshebraggedoftheprodigiousexperienceathome,herhusbanddefiedhertosayhowitdifferedfrommeetingthelecturerswhohadbeentheirguestsinTuskingum,andsheansweredthatnoneofthemcomparedwiththisauthor;
and,besides,alioninhisownhauntswasverydifferentfromaliongoingroundthecountryonexhibition。Kentonthoughtthatwasprettygood,andownedthatshehadgothimthere。
Helaughedather,tothechildren,butallthesameshebelievedthatshewaslivinginanatmosphereofculture,andwitheverybreathshewassensibleofanintellectualexpansion。ShefoundherselfintheenjoymentofsowideandvariedasympathywithinterestshithertostrangetoherexperiencethatshecouldnoteasilymakepeoplebelieveshehadneverbeentoEurope。Nearlyeveryoneshemethadbeenseveraltimes,andtookitforgrantedthatsheknewtheContinentaswellastheythemselves。
Shedenieditwithincreasingshame;shetriedtomakeKentonunderstandhowshefelt,andshemighthavegonefurtherifshehadnotseenhowhomesickhewasforTuskingum。ShedidherbesttocoaxhimandscoldhimintoashareofthepleasuretheywereallbeginningtohaveinNewYork。ShemadehimownthatEllenherselfwasbeginningtobegayer;sheconvincedhimthathisbusinesswasnotsufferinginhisabsenceandthathewasthebetterfromthecompleteresthewashaving。Shedefiedhim,tosay,then,whatwasthematterwithhim,andshebitterlyreproachedherself,intheevent,fornothavingknownthatitwasnothomesicknessalonethatwasthetrouble。Whenhewasnotgoingaboutwithher,ordoingsomethingtoamusethechildren,hewentuponlong,lonelywalks,andcamehomesilentandfagged。Hehadgivenupsmoking,andhedidnotcaretositaboutintheofficeofthehotelwhereotheroldfellowspassedthetimeovertheirpapersandcigars,intheheatoftheglowinggrates。Theylookedtoomuchlikehimself,withtheirairofunrecognizedconsequence,andofpersonallossinanalienenvironment。
Heknewfromtheirdressandbearingthattheywerecountrypeople,anditwoundedhiminatenderplacetorealizethattheyhadeachleftbehindhiminhisowntownanauthorityandarespectwhichtheycouldnotenjoyinNewYork。Nobodycalledthemjudge,orgeneral,ordoctor,orsquire;nobodycaredwhotheywere,orwhattheythought;Kentondidnotcarehimself;butwhenhemissedoneofthemheenviedhim,forthenheknewthathehadgonebacktothesoft,warmkeepingofhisownneighborhood,andresumedtheintelligentregardofacommunityhehadgrownupwith。ThereweremeninNewYorkwhomKentonhadmetinformeryears,andwhomhehadsometimesfanciedlookingup;buthedidnotletthemknowhewasintown,andthenhewashurtthattheyignoredhim。
Hekeptawayfromplaceswherehewaslikelytomeetthem;hethoughtthatitmusthavecometothemthathewasspendingthewinterinNewYork,andasbitterlyashisnaturewouldsufferheresentedtheindifferenceoftheOhioSocietytothepresenceofanOhiomanofhislocaldistinction。Hehadnotthehabitofclubs,andwhenoneofthepleasantyoungerfellowswhomhemetinthehotelofferedtoputhimupatone,heshrankfromthecourtesyshylyandalmostdryly。Hehadoutlivedtheperiodofactivecuriosity,andhedidnotexplorethecityasheworldoncehavedone。Hehadnoresortsoutofthehotel,exceptthebasementsofthesecondhandbook-dealers。Hehauntedthese,andpickedupcopiesofwarhistoriesandbiographies,which,asfastashereadthem,hesentofftohissonatTuskingum,andhadhimputthemawaywiththedocumentsforthelifeofhisregiment。Hiswifecouldsee,withcompassionifnotsympathy,thathewasfondlystrengtheningbythesemeansthetiesthatboundhimtohishome,andshesilentlyproposedtogobacktoitwithhimwheneverheshouldsaytheword。
Hehadamechanicalfidelity,however,totheiragreementthattheyshouldstaytillspring,andhemadenosignofgoing,asthewinterworeawaytoitsend,excepttowriteouttoTuskingumminuteinstructionsforgettingthegardenready。Hevariedhisvisitstothebook-stallsbyconferenceswithseedsmenattheirstores;andhiswifecouldseethathehadaskeenasatisfactionindespatchingararefindfromoneasfromtheother。
Sheforboretomakehimrealizethatthesituationhadnotchanged,andthattheywouldbetakingtheirdaughterbacktothetroublethegirlherselfhadwishedtoescape。Shewastrusting,withnodefinitehope,forsomechanceofmakinghimfeelthis,whileKentonwaswaitingwithakindofpassionatepatienceforthetermofhisexile,whenhecameinonedayinAprilfromoneofhislongwalks,andsaidhehadbeenuptotheParktoseetheblackbirds。Buthecomplainedofbeingtired,andhelaydownonhisbed。Hedidnotgetupfordinner,andthenitwassixweeksbeforehelefthisroom。
Hecouldnotrememberthathehadeverbeensicksolongbefore,andhewassoawedbyhissuffering,whichwasseverebutnotserious,thatwhenhisdoctorsaidhethoughtavoyagetoEuropewouldbegoodforhimhesubmittedtoomeeklyforMrs。Kenton。Herheartsmoteherforherguiltyjoyinhissentence,andshepunishedherselfbyaskingifitwouldnotdohimmoregoodtogetbacktothecomfortandquietoftheirownhouse。
Shewenttothelengthofsayingthatshebelievedhisattackhadbeenbroughtonmorebyhomesicknessthananythingelse。Butthedoctoragreedratherwithherwishthanherword,andheldoutthathismelancholywasnotthecausebuttheeffectofhisdisorder。Thenshetookcourageandbegangettingreadytogo。ShedidnotflageveninthedarkhourswhenKentongotbackhiscouragewithhisreturningstrength,andscoffedatthenotionofEurope,andinsistedthatassoonastheywereinTuskingumheshouldbeallrightagain。
Shefelttheingratitude,nottosaytheperfidy,ofhisbehavior,andshefortifiedherselfindignantlyagainstit;butitwasnotherconstantpurpose,orthedoctor’sinflexibleopinion,thatprevailedwithKentonatlastalettercameonedayforEllenwhichsheshowedtohermother,andwhichhermother,withherdistressobscurelyrelievedbyasenseofitspowerfulinstrumentality,broughttothegirl’sfather。Itwasfromthatfellow,astheyalwayscalledhim,anditaskedofthegirlahearinguponacertainpointinwhich,ithadjustcometohisknowledge,shehadmisjudgedhim。Hemadenoclaimuponher,andonlyurgedhiswishtorighthimselfwithherbecauseshewastheonepersoninthewholeworld,afterhismother,forwhosegoodopinionhecared。Withsometawdrinessofsentiment,theletterwaswellworded;itwasprofessedlywrittenforthesolepurposeofknowingwhether,whenshecamebacktoTuskingum,shewouldseehim,andlethimprovetoherthathewasnotwhollyunworthyofthekindnessshehadshownhimwhenhewaswithoutotherfriends。
"Whatdoesshesay?"thejudgedemanded。
"Whatdoyousuppose?"hiswiferetorted。"Shethinkssheoughttoseehim。"
"Verywell,then。WewillgotoEurope。"
"Notonmyaccount!"Mrs。Kentonconsciouslyprotested。
"No;notonyouraccount,ormine,either。OnNelly’saccount。Whereisshe?Iwanttotalkwithher。"
"AndIwanttotalkwithyou。She’sout,withLottie;andwhenshecomesbackIwilltellherwhatyousay。ButIwanttoknowwhatyouthink,first。"
III。
ItwassometimebeforetheyarrivedatacommonagreementastowhatKentonthought,andwhentheyreachedittheydecidedthattheymustleavethematteraltogethertoEllen,astheyhaddonebefore。Theywouldneverforcehertoanything,andif,afterallthathermothercouldsay,shestillwishedtoseethefellow,theywouldnotdenyher。
Whenitcametothis,Ellenwasalongtimesilent,solongatimethathermotherwasbeginningrestivelytodoubtwhethershewasgoingtospeakatall。Thenshedrewalong,silentbreath。"IsupposeIoughttodespisemyself,momma,forcaringforhim,whenhe’sneverreallysaidthathecaredforme。"
"No,no,"hermotherfaltered。
"ButIdo,Ido!"shegavewaypiteously。"Ican’thelpit!Hedoesn’tsayso,evennow。"
"No,hedoesn’t。"Ithurthermothertoownthefactthatalonegaveherhope。
Thegirlwasalongtimesilentagainbeforesheasked,"Haspoppagotthetickets?"
"Why,hewouldn’t,Ellen,child,tillheknewhowyoufelt,"hermothertenderlyreproachedher。
"He’dbetternotwait!"ThetearsransilentlydownEllen’scheeks,andherlipstwitchedalittlebetweenthesewordsandthenext;shespokeasifitwerestillofherfather,buthermotherunderstood。"Ifheeverdoessayso,don’tyouspeakawordtome,momma;anddon’tyouletpoppa。"
"No;indeedIwon’t,"hermotherpromised。"Haveweeverinterfered,Ellen?Haveweevertriedtocontrolyou?"
"HeWOULDhavesaidso,ifhehadn’tseenthateverybodywasagainsthim。"Themotherborewithoutreplytheingratitudeandinjusticethatsheknewwerefromthechild’spainandnotfromherwill。"Whereishisletter?Givemehisletter!"Shenervouslytwitcheditfromhermother’shandandranitintoherpocket。Sheturnedawaytogoandputoffherhat,whichshestillworefromcominginwithLottie;butshestoppedandlookedoverhershoulderathermother。"I’mgoingtoanswerit,andIdon’twantyouevertoaskmewhatI’vesaid。Willyou?"
"No,Iwon’t,Nelly。"
"Well,then!"
ThenextnightshewentwithBoyneandLottietotheapartmentoverheadtospendtheirlasteveningwiththeyoungpeoplethere,whoweregoingintothecountrythenextday。Shecamebackwithouttheothers,whowishedtostayalittlelonger,asshesaid,withalookofgayexcitementinhereyes,whichhermotherknewwasnothappiness。Mrs。
Kentonhadanimpulsetosweepintoherlapthelithographplansofthesteamer,andthepassageticketwhichlayopenonthetablebeforeherselfandherhusband。ButitwastoolatetohidethemfromEllen。
Shesawthem,andcaughtuptheticket,andreadit,andflungitdownagain。"Oh,Ididn’tthinkyouwoulddoit!"sheburstout;andsheranawaytoherroom,wheretheycouldhearhersobbing,astheysathaggardlyfacingeachother。
"Well,thatsettlesit,"saidBentonatlast,withahardgulp。
"Oh,Isupposeso,"hiswifeassented。
Onhispart,now,hehadagenuineregretforherdisappointmentfromthesadsafetyofthetroublethatwouldkeepthemathome;andonherpartshecouldbegladofitifanysortofcomfortcouldcomeoutofittohim。
"Tillshesaysgo,"headded,"we’vegottostay。"
"Ohyes,"hiswiferesponded。"Theworstofitis,wecan’tevengobacktoTuskingum:’Helookedupsuddenlyather,andshesawthatbehadnotthoughtofthis。Shemade"Tchk!"insheeramazeathim。
"Wewon’tcrossthatrivertillwecometoit,"hesaid,sullenly,buthalf-ashamed。Thenextmorningthesituationhadnotchangedovernight,astheysomehowbothcrazilyhopeditmight,andatbreakfast,whichtheyhadatatablegrownmoreremotefromotherswiththethinningoutofthewinterguestsofthehotel,thefatherandmothersatdownaloneinsilencewhichwasscarcelybrokentillLottieandBoynejoinedthem。
"Where’sEllen?"theboydemanded。
"She’shavingherbreakfastinherroom,"Mrs。Kentonanswered。
"Shesaysshedon’twanttoeatanything,"Lottiereported。"Shemadethemantakeitawayagain。"
Thegloomdeepenedinthefacesofthefatherandmother,butneitherspoke,andBoyneresumedthewordagaininatoneofphilosophicspeculation。"Idon’tseehowI’mgoingtogetalong,withthoseEuropeanbreakfasts。Theysayyoucan’tgetanythingbutcoldmeatoreggs;andgenerallytheydon’texpecttogiveyouanythingbutbreadandbutterwithyourcoffee。Idon’tthinkthat’sthewaytostarttheday,doyou,poppa?"
Kentonseemednottohaveheard,forhewentonsilentlyeating,andthemother,whohadnotbeenappealedto,merelylookeddistractedlyacrossthetableatherchildren。
"Mr。Plumptonsayshe’scomingdowntoseeusoff,"saidLottie,smoothinghernapkininherlap。"Doyouknowthetimeofdaywhentheboatsails,momma?"
"Yes,"herbrotherbrokein,"andifIhadbeenmommaI’dhaveboxedyourearsforthewayyouwentonwithhim。Youfairlyteasedhimtocome。
ThewayLottiegoesonwithmenisashame,momma。"
"Whattimedoestheboatsail,momma!"Lottieblandlypersisted。"I
promisedtoletMr。Plumptonknow。"
"Yes,soastogetachancetowritetohim,"saidBoyne。"Iguesswhenheseesyourspelling!"
"Momma!Dowakeup!Whattimedoesoursteamersail?"
AlightofconsciousnesscameintoMrs。Renton’seyesatlast,andshesighedgently。"We’renotgoing,Lottie。"
"Notgoing!Why,butwe’vegotthetickets,andI’vetold——"
"Yourfatherhasdecidednottogo,forthepresent。Wemaygolaterinthesummer,orperhapsinthefall。"
Boynelookedathisfather’stroubledface,andsaidnothing,butLottiewasnotstayedfromtheexpressionofherfeelingsbyanyill-timedconsiderationforwhatherfather’smightbe。"Ijustknow,"shefired,"it’ssomethingtodowiththatnastyBittridge。He’sbeenabitterdosetothisfamily!AssoonasIsawEllenhavealetterIwassureitwasfromhim;andsheoughttobeashamed。IfIhadplayedthesimpletonwithsuchafellowIguessyouwouldn’thaveletmekeepyoufromgoingtoEuropeverymuch。Whatisshegoingtodonow?Marryhim?Ordoesn’thewantherto?"
"Lottie!"saidhermother,andherfatherglancedupatherwithafacethatsilencedher。
"Whenyou’vebeenhalfasgoodagirlasEllenhasbeen,inthiswholematter,"hesaid,darkly,"itwillbetimeforyoutocomplainofthewayyou’vebeentreated。"
"Ohyes,IknowyoulikeEllenthebest,"saidthegirl,defiantly。
"Don’tsaysuchathing,Lottie!"saidhermother。"Yourfatherlovesallhischildrenalike,andIwon’thaveyoutalkingsotohim。Ellenhashadagreatdealtobear,andshehasbehavedbeautifully。IfwearenotgoingtoEuropeitisbecausewehavedecidedthatitisbestnottogo,andIwishtohearnothingmorefromyouaboutit。"
"Ohyes!Andanicepositionitleavesmein,whenI’vebeentakinggood-byeofeverybody!Well,Ihopetogoodnessyouwon’tsayanythingaboutittillthePlumptonsgetaway。Icouldn’thavethefacetomeetthemifyoudid。"
"Itwon’tbenecessarytosayanything;oryoucansaythatwe’vemerelypostponedoursailing。Peoplearealwaysdoingthat。"
"It’snottobeapostponement,"saidKenton,sosternlythatnooneventuredtodisputehim,thechildrenbecausetheywereafraidofhim,andtheirmotherbecauseshewassufferingforhim。
Atthesteamshipoffice,however,theauthoritiesrepresentedthatitwasnowsonearthedateofhissailingthattheycouldnotallowhimtorelinquishhispassagesexceptathisownrisk。Theywouldtrytosellhisticketforhim,buttheycouldnottakeitback,andtheycouldnotpromisetosellit。Therewasreasoninwhattheysaid,butiftherehadbeennone,theyhadthefourhundreddollarswhichKentonhadpaidforhisfiveberthsandtheyhadatleasttheadvantageofhimintheargumentbythatmeans。Heputtheticketbackinhispocket-bookwithoutattemptingtoanswerthem,anddeferredhisdecisiontillhecouldadvisewithhiswife,who,afterheleftthebreakfast-tableuponhiserrandtothesteamshipoffice,hadabandonedherchildrentotheirowndevices,andgonetoscoldEllenfornoteating。
Shehadnotthehearttoscoldherwhenshefoundthegirllyingfacedownwardinthepillow,withherthinarmsthrownupthroughthecoilsandheapsofherloose-flunghair。Shewassoalightthatherfigurescarcelydefineditselfunderthebedclothes;thedarkhair,andthewhite,outstretchedarmsseemedalltherewasofher。Shedidnotstir,buthermotherknewshewasnotsleeping。"Ellen,"shesaid,gently,"youneedn’tbetroubledaboutourgoingtoEurope。Yourfatherhasgonedowntothesteamshipofficetogivebackhisticket。"
Thegirlflashedherfaceroundwithnervousquickness。"Gonetogivebackhisticket!"
"Yes,wedecideditlastnight。He’sneverreallywantedtogo,and——"
"ButIdon’twishpoppatogiveuphisticket!"saidEllen。"Hemustgetitagain。IshalldieifIstayhere,momma。Wehavegottogo。
Can’tyouunderstandthat?"
Mrs。Kentondidnotknowwhattoanswer。Shehadastrongsuperficialdesiretoshakeherdaughterasanaughtychildwhichhasvexeditsmother,butunderthiswasastirstrongerpityforherasawoman,whicheasily,prevailed。"Why,but,Ellendear!Wethoughtfromwhatyousaidlastnight——"
"Butcouldn’tyouSEE,"thegirlreproachedher,andshebegantocry,andturnedherfaceintothepillowagainandlaysobbing。
"Well,"saidhermother,aftershehadgivenheralittletime,"youneedn’tbetroubled。Yourfathercaneasilygettheticketagain;hecantelephonedownforit。Nothinghasbeendoneyet。Butdidn’tyoureallywanttostay,then?"
"Itisn’twhetherIwanttostayornot,"Ellenspokeintoherpillow。
"Youknowthat。YouknowthatIhavegottogo。YouknowthatifIsawhim——Oh,whydoyoumakemetalk?"
"Yes,Iunderstand,child。"Then,intheimperiousnecessityofblamingsomeone,Mrs。Kentonadded:"Youknowhowitiswithyourfather。Heisalwayssoprecipitate;andwhenheheardwhatyousaid,lastnight,itcuthimtotheheart。Hefeltasifheweredraggingyouaway,andthismorninghecouldhardlywaittogetthroughhisbreakfastbeforeherusheddowntothesteamshipoffice。Butnowit’sallrightagain,andifyouwanttogo,we’llgo,andyourfatherwillonlybetooglad。"
"Idon’twantfathertogoagainsthiswill。YousaidheneverwantedtogotoEurope。"Thegirlhadturnedherfaceuponhermotheragain;andfixedherwithhertearful,accusingeyes。
"Thedoctorssayheoughttogo。Heneedsthechange,andIthinkweshouldallbethebetterfargettingaway。"
"Ishallnot,"saidEllen。"ButifIdon’t——"
"Yes,"saidhermother,soothingly。
"Youknowthatnothinghaschanged。Hehasn’tchangedandIhaven’t。Ifhewasbad,he’sasbadasever,andI’mjustassilly。Oh,it’slikeadrunkard!Isupposetheyknowit’skillingthem,buttheycan’tgiveitup!Don’tyouthinkit’sverystrange,momma?Idon’tseewhyIshouldbeso。ItseemsasifIhadnocharacteratall,andIdespisemyselfso!DoyoubelieveIshallevergetoverit?SometimesIthinkthebestthingformewouldbetogointoanasylum。"
"Ohyes,dear;you’llgetoverit,andforgetitall。Assoonasyouseeothers——otherscenes——andgetinterested——"
"Andyoudon’tyoudon’tthinkI’dbetterlethimcome,and——"
"Ellen!"
Ellenbegantosobagain,andtossherheaduponthepillow。"WhatshallIdo?WhatshallIdo?"shewailed。"Hehasn’teverdoneanythingbadtome,andifIcanoverlookhis——hisflirting——withthathorridthing,Idon’tknowwhattherestofyouhavegottosay。Andhesayshecanexplaineverything。Whyshouldn’tIgivehimthechance,momma?Idothinkitisactingverycruelnottolethimevensayaword。"
"Youcanseehimifyouwish,Ellen,"saidhermother,gravely。"YourfatherandIhavealwayssaidthat。Andperhapsitwouldbethebestthing,afterall。"
"Oh,yousaythatbecauseyouthinkthatifIdidseehim,IshouldbesodisgustedwithhimthatI’dneverwanttospeaktohimagain。ButwhatifIshouldn’t?"
"Thenweshouldwishyoutodowhateveryouthoughtwasforyourhappiness,Ellen。Wecan’tbelieveitwouldbeforyourgood;butifitwouldbeforyourhappiness,wearewilling。Or,ifyoudon’tthinkit’sforyourhappiness,butonlyforhis,andyouwishtodoit,stillweshallbewilling,andyouknowthatasfarasyourfatherandIareconcerned,therewillneverbeawordofreproach——notawhisper。"
"Lottiewoulddespiseme;andwhatwouldRichardsay?"
"Richardwouldneversayanythingtowoundyou,dear,andifyoudon’tdespiseyourself,youneedn’tmindLottie。"
"ButIshould,momma;that’stheworstofit!Ishoulddespisemyself,andhewoulddespisemetoo。No,ifIseehim,IamgoingtodoitbecauseIamselfishandwicked,andwishtohavemyownway,nomatterwhoisharmedbyit,or——anything;andI’mnotgoingtohaveitputonanyotherground。Icouldseehim,"shesaid,asiftoherself,"justoncemore——onlyoncemore——andthenifIdidn’tbelieveinhim,IcouldstartrightofftoEurope。"
Hermothermadenoanswertothis,andEllenlayawhileapparentlyforgetfulofherpresence,inwardlydramatizingapassionatesceneofdismissalbetweenherselfandherfalselover。Sherousedherselffromthereveriewithalongsigh,andhermothersaid,"Won’tyouhavesomebreakfast,now;Ellen?"
"Yes;andIwillgetup。Youneedn’tbetroubledanymoreaboutme,momma。Iwillwritetohimnottocome,andpoppamustgobackandgethisticketagain。"
"Notunlessyouaredoingthisofyourownfreewill,child。Ican’thaveyoufeelingthatweareputtinganypressureuponyou。"
"You’renot。I’mdoingitofmyownwill。Ifitisn’tmyfreewill,thatisn’tyourfault。Iwonderwhosefaultitis?Mine,orwhatmademesosillyandweak?"
"Youarenotsillyandweak,"saidhermother,fondly,andshebentoverthegirlandwouldhavekissedher,butEllenavertedherfacewithapiteous"Don’t!"andMrs。Kentonwentoutandorderedherbreakfastbroughtback。
Shedidnotgointomakehereatit,asshewouldhavedoneinthebeginningofthegirl’strouble;theyhadalllearnedhowmuchbettershewasforbeinglefttofightherbattleswithherselfsinglehanded。
Mrs。Kentonwaitedintheparlortillherhusbandsamein,lookinggloomyandtired。Heputhishatdownandsankintoachairwithoutspeaking。
"Well?"shesaid。
"Wehavegottolosethepriceoftheticket,ifwegiveitback。I
thoughtIhadbettertalkwithyoufirst,"saidKenton,andheexplainedthesituation。
"Thenyouhadbettersimplyhaveitputofftillthenextsteamer。
IhavebeentalkingwithEllen,andshedoesn’twanttostay。Shewantstogo。"HiswifetookadvantageofKenton’smuteamazeinthenervousvagariesevenofthewomennearesthimamanlearnsnothingfromexperiencetoputherowninterpretationonthecase,which,asitwascreditabletothegirl’ssenseandprinciple,hefoundacceptableifnotimaginable。"Andifyouwilltakemyadvice,"sheended,"youwillgoquietlybacktothesteamshipofficeandexchangeyourticketforthenextsteamer,ortheoneafterthat,ifyoucan’tgetgoodrooms,andgiveEllentimetogetoverthisbeforesheleaves。Itwillbemuchbetterforhertoconquerherselfthantorunaway,forthatwouldalwaysgiveherafeelingofshame,andifshedecidesbeforeshegoes,itwillstrengthenherprideandself-respect,andtherewillbelessdanger——
whenwecomeback。"
"Doyouthinkhe’sgoingtokeepafterher!"
"HowcanItell?Hewillifhethinksit’stohisinterest,orhecanmakeanybodymiserablebyit。"
Kentonsaidnothingtothis,butafterawhilehesuggested,rathertimorously,asifitweresomethinghecouldnotexpecthertoapprove,andwashimselfhalfashamedof,"IbelieveifIdoputitoff,I’llrunouttoTuskingumbeforewesail,andlookafteralittlematterofbusinessthatIdon’tthinkDickcanattendtosowell。"
Hiswifeknewwhyhewantedtogo,andinherownmindshehadalreadydecidedthatifheshouldeverproposetogo,sheshouldnotgainsayhim。
Shehad,infact,beenrathersurprisedthathehadnotproposeditbeforethis,andnowsheassented,withouttaxinghimwithhisrealmotive,andbringinghimtoopendisgracebeforeher。Sheevenwentfurtherinsaying:"Verywell,thenyouhadbettergo。Icangetonverywellhere,andIthinkitwillleaveEllenfreertoactforherselfifyouareaway。AndtherearesomethingsinthehousethatIwant,andthatRichardwouldbesuretosendhiswifetogetifIaskedhim,andI
won’thaveherrummagingaroundinmyclosets。Isupposeyouwillwanttogointothehouse?"
"Isupposeso,"saidRenton,whohadnotletadaypass,sincehelefthishouse,withoutspendinghalfhishomesicktimeinit。Hiswifesufferedhisaffectedindifferencetogowithoutexposure,andtrumpedupacommissionforhim,whichwouldtakehimintimatelyintothehouse。
IV
ThepietyofhissonRichardhadmaintainedtheplaceatTuskinguminperfectorderoutwardly,andKenton’sheartachedwithtenderpainashepasseduptheneatlykeptwalkfromthegate,betweenthebloomingranksofsyringasandsnowballs,tohisdoor,andwitnessedthefaithfulcarethatRichard’shiredmanhadbestoweduponeverydetail。Thegrassbetweenthebanksofrosesandrhododendronshadbeenasscrupulouslylawn-moweredandassedulouslygarden-hosedasifKentonhimselfhadbeentheretolookafteritswelfare,orhadtendedtheshrubberyasheusedtodoinearlierdayswithhisownhand。Theoakswhichhehadplantedshookouttheirglossygreeninthemorninggale,andinthetulip-trees,whichhadsnowedtheirpetalsonthegroundinwidecirclesdefinedbythereachoftheirbranches,heheardthesquirrelsbarking;ared-birdfromthewoodydepthsbehindthehousemockedthecat-birdsinthequince-trees。TheJunerosewasredalongthetrellisoftheveranda,whereLottieoughttobesittingtoreceivethemorningcallsoftheyoungmenwhoweresometimesquiteasearlyasKenton’spresentvisitintheirdevotions,andthesoundofEllen’spiano,playedfitfullyandabsentlyinherfashion,oughttobecomingoutirrespectiveofthehour。
Itseemedtohimthathiswifemustopenthedoorashisstepsandhisson’smadethemselvesheardonthewalkbetweentheboxbordersintheirupperorchard,andhefalteredalittle。
"Lookhere,father,"saidhisson,detectinghishesitation。"Whydon’tyouletMarycomeinwithyou,andhelpyoufindthosethings?"
"No,no,"saidKenton,sinkingintooneofthewoodenseatsthatflankedthedoor-way。"IpromisedyourmotherthatIwouldgetthemmyself。Youknowwomendon’tliketohaveotherwomengoingthroughtheirhouses。"
"Yes,butMary!"hissonurged。
"Ah!It’sjustMary,withherperfecthousekeeping,thatyourmotherwouldn’tliketohaveseethewaysheleftthings,"saidKenton,andhesmiledatthenotionofanyonebeinghousekeeperenoughtofindaflawinhiswife’s。"My,butthisispleasant!"headded。Hetookoffhishatandletthebreezeplaythroughthelank,thinhairwhichwasstillblackonhisfine,highforehead。Hewasaveryhandsomeoldman,withadelicateaquilineprofile,oftheperfectRomantypewhichisperhapsoftenerfoundinAmericathaneveritwasinRome。"You’vekeptitverynice,Dick,"hesaid,withageneralizingwaveofhishat。
"Well,Icouldn’ttellwhetheryouwouldbecomingbackornot,andI
thoughtIhadbetterbereadyforyou。"
"Iwishwewere,"saidtheoldman,"andweshallbe,inthefall,orthelatterpartofthesummer。Butit’sbetternowthatweshouldgo——onEllen’saccount。"
"Oh,you’llenjoyit,"hissonevadedhim。
"Youhaven’tseenanythingofhimlately?"Kentonsuggested。
"Hewasn’tlikelytoletmeseeanythingofhim,"returnedtheson。
"No,"saidthefather。"Well!"Herosetoputthekeyintothedoor,andhissonsteppeddownfromthelittleporchtothebrickwalk。
"Marywillhavedinnerearly,father;andwhenyou’vegotthroughhere,you’dbettercomeoverandliedownawhilebeforehand。"
Kentonhadbeendroppedateighto’clockfromasleeperontheGreatThree,andhadrefusedbreakfastathisson’shouse,uponthepleathattheporterhadgivenhimaSoutherncantaloupeandacupofcoffeeonthetrain,andhewasnolongerhungry。
"Allright,"hesaid。"Iwon’tbelongerthanIcanhelp。"Hehadgotthedooropenandwasgoingtocloseitagain。
Hissonlaughed。"Betternotshutit,father。Itwillletthefreshairin。"
"Oh,allright,"saidtheoldman。
Thesonlingeredabout,givingsomeorderstothehiredmaninthevegetablegarden,foranexcuse,inthehopethathisfathermightchangehismindandaskhimtocomeintothehousewithhim;hefeltitsoforlornforhimtobegoingthroughthoselifelessroomsalone。Whenhelookedround,andsawhisfatherholdingthedoorajar,asifimpatientlywaitingforhimtobegone,helaughedandwavedhishandtohim。"Allright,father?I’mgoingnow。"Butthoughhetreatedthemattersolightlywithhisfather,hesaidgrimlytohiswife,ashepassedherontheirownporch,onhiswaytohisonce,"Idon’tliketothinkoffatherbeingdrivenoutofhouseandhomethisway。"
"NeitherdoI,Dick。Butitcan’tbehelped,canit?"
"IthinkIcouldhelpit,ifIgotmyhandsonthatfellowonce。"
"No,youcouldn’t,Dick。It’snothethat’sdoingit。It’sEllen;youknowthatwellenough;andyou’vejustgottostandit。"
"Yes,Isupposeso,"saidRichardKenton。
"Ofcourse,myheartachesforyourpooroldfather,butsoitwouldifEllenhadsomekindofawfulsickness。Itisakindofsickness,andyoucan’tfightitanymorethanifshereallywassick。"
"No,"saidthehusband,dejectedly。"Youjustslipoverthere,afterawhile,Mary,iffather’sgonetoolong,willyou?Idon’tliketohavehimtherealone。"
"’Deedand’deedIwon’t,Dick。Hewouldn’tlikeitatall,myspyinground。Nothingcanhappentohim,andIbelieveyourmother’sjustmadeanexcusetosendhimaftersomething,sothathecanbeintherealone,andrealizethatthehouseisn’thomeanymore。ItwillbeeasierforhimtogotoEuropewhenhefindsthatout。Ibelieveinmyheartthatwasherideainnotwantingmetofindthethingsforhim,andI’mnotgoingtomeddlemyself。"
Withthefatuityofamaninsuchthings,andwiththefatuityofageregardingallthethingsofthepast,Kentonhadthoughtinhishomesicknessofhishouseasheusedtobeinit,andhadneverbeenabletopictureitwithoutthefamilylife。Ashenowwalkedthroughtheemptyrooms,andupanddownthestairs,hispulsebeatlowasifinthepresenceofdeath。Everythingwasastheyhadleftit,whentheywentoutofthehouse,anditappearedtoKentonthatnothinghadbeentouchedtheresince,thoughwhenheafterwardsreportedtohiswifethattherewasnotaspeckofdustanywheresheknewthatMaryhadbeengoingthroughthehouse,intheirabsence,notonceonly,butoften,andshefeltapangofgratefuljealousy。HegottogetherthethingsthatMrs。
Kentonhadpretendedtowant,andafterglancinginatthedifferentrooms,whichseemedtobelyingstealthilyinwaitforhim,withtheiremptinessandsilence,hewentdown-stairswiththebundlehehadmade,andturnedintohislibrary。Hehadsomethoughtoflookingatthecollectionsforhishistory,but,afterpullingopenoneofthedrawersinwhichtheywerestored,hepushedittoagain,andsanklistlesslyintohisleather-coveredswivel-chair,whichstoodinitsplacebeforethewidewriting-table,andseemedtohavehadhiminitbeforehesatdown。Thetablewasbare,exceptforthebooksanddocumentswhichhehadsenthomefromtimetotimeduringthewinter,andwhichRichardorhiswifehadneatlyarrangedtherewithoutbreakingtheirwraps。Heletfallhisbundleathisfeet,andsatstaringattheranksofbooksagainstthewall,mechanicallyrelatingthemtothedifferentepochsofthepastinwhichheorhiswifeorhischildrenhadbeeninterestedinthem,andachingwithtenderpain。Hehadalwayssupposedhimselfahappyandstrongandsuccessfulman,butwhatadrearyruinhislifehadfalleninto!Wasittobefinallysohelplessandpowerlessforwithallthedefencesabouthimthatamancanhave,hefelthimselffatallyvulnerablethathehadfoughtsomanyyears?Why,athisage,shouldhebegoingintoexile,awayfromeverythingthatcouldmakehisdaysbrightandsweet?Whycouldnothecomebackthere,wherehewasnowmoresolitarythanhecouldbeanywhereelseonearth,andreanimatethedeadbodyofhishomewithhisoldlife?Heknewwhy,inanimmediatesort,buthisquestwasforthecausebehindthecause。Whathadhedone,orleftundone?Hehadtriedtobeajustman,andfulfilallhisdutiesbothtohisfamilyandtohisneighbors;hehadwishedtobekind,andnottoharmanyone;hereflectedhow,ashehadgrownolder,thedreadofdoinganyunkindnesshadgrownuponhim,andhowhehadtriednottobeproud,buttowalkmeeklyandhumbly。Whyshouldhebepunishedashewas,strickeninaplacesosacredthattheefforttodefendhimselfhadseemedakindofsacrilege?Hecouldnotmakeitout,andhewasnotawareofthetearsofself-pitythatstoleslowlydownhisface,thoughfromtimetotimehewipedthemaway。
Heheardstepsinthehallwithout,advancingandpausing,whichmustbethoseofhissoncomingbackforhim,andwiththeseadvancesandpausesgivinghimnoticeofhisapproach;buthedidnotmove,andatfirsthedidnotlookupwhenthestepsarrivedatthethresholdoftheroomwherehesat。WhenheliftedhiseyesatlasthesawBittridgelounginginthedoor-way,withoneshouldersupportedagainstthedoor-jamb,hishandsinhispocketsandhishatpushedwellbackonhisforehead。InaninstantallKenton’shumilityandsoftrepiningweregone。"Well,whatisit?"
hecalled。
"Oh,"saidBittridge,comingforward。Helaughedandexplained,"Didn’tknowifyourecognizedme。"
"Irecognizedyou,"saidKenton,fiercely。"Whatisityouwant?"
"Well,Ihappenedtobepassing,andIsawthedooropen,andIthoughtmaybeDickwashere。"
ItwasonKenton’stonguetosaythatitwasagoodthingforhimDickwasnotthere。Butpartlythesensethatthiswouldbeunbecomingbluster,andpartlythesuffocatingresentmentofthefellow’simpudence,limitedhisresponsetoaformlessgasp,andBittridgewenton:"ButI’mgladtofindyouhere,judge。Ididn’tknowthatyouwereintown。
FamilyallwellinNewYork?"Hewasnotquelledbythesilenceofthejudgeonthispoint,but,asifhehadnotexpectedanydefinitereplytowhatmightwellpassforformalcivility,henowlookedaslantintohisbreast-pocketfromwhichhedrewafoldedpaper。"IjustgotholdofadocumentthismorningthatIthinkwillinterestyou。IwasbringingitroundtoDick’swifeforyou。"TheintolerablefamiliarityofallthiswasfastworkingKentontoaviolentexplosion,buthecontainedhimself,andBittridgesteppedforwardtolaythepaperonthetablebeforehim。
"It’stheoriginalrosterofCompanyC,inyourregiment,and——"
"Takeitaway!"shoutedKenton,"andtakeyourselfawaywithit!"andhegraspedthestickthatshookinhishand。
AwickedlightcameintoBittridge’seyeashedrawled,inlazyscorn,"Oh,Idon’tknow。"Thenhistruculencebrokeinamaliciousamusement。
"Why,judge,what’sthematter?"Heputonafaceofmockgravity,andKentonknewwithhelplessfurythathewasenjoyinghisvantage。Hecouldfalluponhimandbeathimwithhisstick,leavingthesituationotherwiseundefined,butamoment’sreflectionconvincedKentonthatthiswouldnotdo。Itmadehimsicktothinkofstrikingthefellow,asifinthatactheshouldbestrikingEllen,too。Itdidnotoccurtohimthathecouldbephysicallyworsted,orthathisvehementagewouldbenomatchfortheother’svigorousyouth。Allhethoughtwasthatitwouldnotavail,excepttomakeknowntoeveryonewhatnonebutherdearestcouldnowconjecture。Bittridgecouldthenpubliclysay,anddoubtlesswouldsay,thathehadnevermadelovetoEllen;thatiftherehadbeenanylove-makingitwasallonherside;andthathehadonlypaidhertheattentionswhichanyyoungmanmightblamelesslypayaprettygirl。Thiswouldbetruetothefactsinthecase,thoughitwastruealsothathehadusedeverytacitarttomakeherbelievehiminlovewithher。Buthowcouldthistruthbeurged,andtowhom?SofartheaffairhadbeenquiteinthehandsofEllen’sfamily,andtheyhadallactedforthebest,uptothepresenttime。TheyhadgivenBittridgenogrievanceinmakinghimfeelthathewasunwelcomeintheirhouse,andtheywerequitewithintheirrightsingoingaway,andmakingitimpossibleforhimtoseeheragainanywhereinTuskingum。AsforhisseeingherinNewYork,Ellenhadbuttosaythatshedidnotwishit,andthatwouldendit。
Now,however,bytreatinghimrudely,KentonwasawarethathehadboundhimselftorenderBittridgesomeaccountofhisbehaviorthroughout,ifthefellowinsisteduponit。
"Iwantnothingtodowithyou,sir,"hesaid,lessviolently,but,ashefelt,notmoreeffectually。"Youareinmyhousewithoutmyinvitation,andagainstmywish!"
"Ididn’texpecttofindyouhere。IcameinbecauseIsawthedooropen,andIthoughtImightseeDickorhiswifeandgivethem,thispaperforyou。ButI’mgladIfoundyou,andifyouwon’tgivemeanyreasonfornotwantingmehere,Icangiveitmyself,andIthinkIcanmakeoutaverygoodcaseforyou。"KentonquiveredinanticipationofsomementionofEllen,andBittridgesmiledasifheunderstood。Buthewentontosay:"Iknowthattherewerethingshappenedafteryoufirstgavemetherunofyourhousethatmightmakeyouwanttoputupthebarsagain——iftheyweretrue。Buttheywerenottrue。AndIcanprovethatbythebestofallpossiblewitnesses——byUphillhimself。Hestandsshouldertoshoulderwithme,tomakeithotforanyonewhocoupleshiswife’snamewithmine。"
"Humph!"Kentoncouldnothelpmakingthiscomment,andBittridge,beingwhathewas,couldnothelplaughing。
"What’stheuse?"heasked,recoveringhimself。"Idon’tpretendthatIdidright,butyouknowtherewasn’tanyharminit。AndiftherehadbeenIshouldhavegottheworstofit。Honestly,judge,Icouldn’ttellyouhowmuchIprizedbeingadmittedtoyourhouseonthetermsIwas。
Don’tyouthinkIcouldappreciatethekindnessyouallshowedme?
Beforeyoutookmeup,IwasaloneinTuskingum,butyouopenedeverydoorintheplaceforme。Youmadeithometome;andyouwon’tbelieveit,ofcourse,becauseyou’reprejudiced;butIfeltlikeasonandbrothertoyouall。IfelttowardsMrs。KentonjustasIdotowardsmyownmother。IlostthebestfriendsIeverhadwhenyouturnedagainstme。Don’tyousupposeI’veseenthedifferencehereinTuskingum?Ofcourse,themenpassthetimeofdaywithmewhenwemeet,buttheydon’tlookmeup,andtherearemorenear-sightedgirlsinthistown!"Kentoncouldnotkeeptheremotedawnofasmileoutofhiseyes,andBittridgecaughtthefar-offgleam。"Andeverybody’sbeenawaythewholewinter。