"Itisn’t,"saidthegirl。"Atleast,notliketheEast。Iusedtobeprovokedwhenthelecturerssaidanythinglikethat;butwhenyou’vebeentoNewYorkyouseewhattheymean。"
"Thelecturers?"hequeried。
"TheyalwaysstayedatourhousewhentheylecturedinTuskingum。"
"Ah!Ohyes,"saidBreckon,graspingasituationofwhichhehadheardsomething,chieflysatirical。"Ofcourse。Andisyourfather——isJudgeKentonliterary?Excuseme!"
"Onlyinhishistory。He’swritingthehistoryofhisregiment;orhegetsthesoldierstowritedownalltheycanrememberofthewar,andthenheputstheirstoriestogether。"
"Howdelightful!"saidBreckon。"AndIsupposeit’sagreatpleasuretohim。"
"Idon’tbelieveitis,"saidEllen。"Poppadoesn’tbelieveinwaranymore。"
"Indeed!"saidBreckon。"Thatisveryinteresting。"
"SometimeswhenI’mhelpinghimwithit——"
"Ah,Iknewyoumusthelphim!"
"Andhecomestoaplacewheretherehasbeenadreadfulslaughter,itseemsasifhefeltworseaboutitthanIdid。Heisn’tsurethatitwasn’tallwrong。Hethinksallwariswrongnow。"
"Ishe——hashebecomeafollowerofTolstoy?"
"He’sreadhim。Hesayshe’stheonlymanthatevergaveatrueaccountofbattles;buthehadthoughtitalloutforhimselfbeforehereadTolstoyaboutfighting。Doyouthinkitisrighttorevengeaninjury?"
"Why,surelynot!"saidBreckon,ratherstartled。
"Thatiswhatwesay,"thegirlpursued。"Butifsomeonehadinjuredyou——abusedyourconfidence,and——insultedyou,whatwouldyoudo?"
"I’mnotsurethatIunderstand,"Breckonbegan。Theinquirywassuperficiallyimpersonal,buthereflectedthatwomenareneverimpersonal,orthesonsofwomen,forthatmatter,andhesuspectedanintimateground。HissuspicionswereconfirmedwhenMissKentonsaid:
"Itseemseasyenoughtoforgiveanythingthat’sdonetoyourself;butifit’sdonetosomeoneelse,too,haveyoutheright——isn’titwrongtoletitgo?"
"Youthinkthequestionofjusticemightcomeinthen?Perhapsitought。
Butwhatisjustice?Andwheredoesyourdutybegintobedivided?"
Hesawherfollowinghimwithalarmingintensity,andheshrankfromtheresponsibilitybeforehim。Whatapplicationmightnotshemakeofhiswordsinthecase,whateveritwas,whichhechosenottoimagine?
"Totellyouthetruth,MissKenton,I’mnotveryclearonthatpoint——I’mnotsurethatI’mdisinterested。"
"Disinterested?"
"Yes;youknowthatIabusedyourconfidenceatluncheon;anduntilI
knowwhetherthewronginvolvedanyoneelse——"Helookedatherwithhoveringlaughterinhiseyeswhichtookwingatthereproachinhers。
"Butifwearetobeserious——"
"Ohno,"shesaid,"itisn’taseriousmatter。"Butinthehelplessnessofhersincerityshecouldnotcarryitofflightly,orhidefromhimthatshewasdisappointed。
Hetriedtomaketalkaboutotherthings。Sherespondedvaguely,andwhenshehadgivenherselftimeshesaidshebelievedshewouldgotoLottie;shewasquitesureshecouldgetdownthestairsalone。Hepursuedheranxiously,politely,andattheheadofhercorridortookleaveofherwithadistinctsenseofhavingmeritedhisdismissal。
"Iseewhatyoumean,Lottie,"shesaid,"aboutMr。Breckon。"
Lottiedidnotturnherheadonthepillow。"Hasittakenyouthewholedaytofinditout?"
XII。
ThefatherandthemotherhadwitnessedwithtemperedsatisfactiontheinterestwhichseemedtobegrowingupbetweenEllenandtheyoungminister。Bythistimetheyhadlearnednottoexpecttoomuchofanyturnshemighttake;sherevertedtoamoodassuddenlyassheleftit。
TheycouldnotquitemakeoutBreckonhimself;hewasatleastasgreatapuzzletothemastheirownchildwas。
"Itseems,"saidMrs。Kenton,intheirfirstreviewoftheaffair,afterBoynehaddoneabrother’sdutyintryingtobringEllenundertheirmother’scensure,"thathewasthegentlemanwhodiscussedthetheatrewithBoyneatthevaudevillelastwinter。Boynejustcasuallymentionedit。Iwassoprovoked!"
"Idon’tseewhatbearingthefacthas,"thejudgeremarked。
"Why,Boynelikedhimverymuchthatnight,butnowheseemstofeelverymuchasLottiedoesabouthim。Hethinkshelaughstoomuch。"
"Idon’tknowthatthere’smuchharminthat,"saidthejudge。"AndI
shouldn’tvalueBoyne’sopinionofcharacterveryhighly。"
"Ivalueanyone’sintuitions——especiallychildren’s。"
"Boyne’sinthatmiddlestatewhereheisn’tquiteachild。AndsoisLottie,forthatmatter。"
"Thatistrue,"theirmotherassented。"AndweoughttobegladofanythingthattakesEllen’smindoffherself。IfIcouldonlybelieveshewasforgettingthatwretch!"
"Doessheeverspeakofhim?"
"Sheneverhintsofhim,even。Buthermindmaybefullofhimallthetime。"
Thejudgelaughedimpatiently。"ItstrikesmethatthisyoungMr。
Breckonhasn’tmuchadvantageofElleninwhatLottiecallscloseness!"
"Ellenhasalwaysbeenveryreserved。Itwouldhavebeenbetterforherifshehadn’t。Oh,Iscarcelydaretohopeanything!Rufus,Ifeelthatineverythingofthiskindweareveryignorantandinexperienced。"
"Inexperienced!"Rentonretorted。"Idon’twantanymoreexperienceofthekindEllenhasgivenus。"
"Idon’tmeanthat。Imean——thisMr。Breckon。Ican’ttellwhatattractshiminthechild。Shemustappearverycrudeanduncultivatedtohim。Youneedn’tresentitso!Iknowshe’sreadagreatdeal,andyou’vemadeherthinkherselfintellectual——buttheverysimple-
heartednessofthewayshewouldshowoutherreadingwouldmakesuchayoungmanseethatshewasn’tlikethegirlshewasusedto。Theywouldhidetheirintellectuality,iftheyhadany。It’snouseyourtryingtofightitMr。Kenton。Wearecountrypeople,andheknowsit。"
"Tuskingumisn’tcountry!"thejudgedeclared。
"Itisn’tcity。Andwedon’tknowanythingabouttheworld,anyofus。
Oh,Isupposewecanreadandwrite!Butwedon’tknowthea,b,cofthethingshe,knows。He,belongstoakindofsociety——ofpeople——
inNewYorkthatIhadglimpsesofinthewinter,butthatIneverimaginedbefore。Theymademefeelverybelatedandbenighted——asifI
hadn’t,readorthoughtanything。Theydidn’tmeanto;butIcouldn’thelpit,andtheycouldn’t。"
"You——you’vebeenfrightenedoutofyourproprietybywhatyou’veseeninNewYork,"saidherhusband。
"I’vebeenfrightened,certainly。AndIwishyouhadbeen,too。Iwishyouwouldn’tbesoconceitedaboutEllen。Itscaresmetoseeyouso。
Poor,sickthing,herlooksareallgone!Youmustseethat。Andshedoesn’tdresslikethegirlshe’susedto。Iknowwe’vegotherthingsinNewYork;butshedoesn’twearthemlikeaNew-Yorker。Ihopesheisn’tgoinginforMOREunhappiness!"
Atthethoughtofthisthejudge’screstfell。"Doyoubelieveshe’sgettinginterestedinhim?"heasked,humbly。
"No,no;Idon’tsaythat。Butpromisemeyouwon’tencourageherinit。
Anddon’t,forpity’ssake,bragabouthertohim。"
"No,Iwon’t,"saidthejudge,andhetacitlyrepentedhavingdoneso。
Theweatherhadchanged,andwhenhewentupfromthisinterviewwithhiswifeintheirstateroomhefoundagoodmanypeoplestrungconvalescentlyalongthepromenadeontheirsteamer-chairs。These,sofarastheywerewomen,wereofsuchsickplainnessthatwhenhecametoEllenhisheartthrobbedwithagladresentmentofhermother’saspersionofherhealthandbeauty。Shelookednotonlyverywell,andverypretty,butinagayredcapandatrigjacketshelooked,toherfather’suncriticaleyes,verystylish。Theglowlefthisheartateightoftheemptyseatbesideher。
"WhereisLottie?"heasked,thoughitwasnotLottie’swhereaboutsthatinterestedhim。
"Oh,she’swalkingwithMr。Breckonsomewhere,"saidEllen。
"Thenshe’smadeuphermindtotoleratehim,hasshe?"thefatherasked,morelightlythanhefelt。
Ellensmiled。"Thatwasn’tanythingveryserious,Iguess。Atanyrate,she’swalkingwithhim。"
"Whatbookisthat?"heasked,ofthevolumeshewastiltingbackandforthunderherhand。
Sheshowedit。"Oneofhis。Hebroughtituptoamuseme,hesaid。"
"WhilehewasamusinghimselfwithLottie,"thoughtthejudge,inhisjealousyforher。"Itisgoingthesameoldway。Well!"Whathesaidaloudwas,"Andisitamusingyou?"
"Ihaven’tlookedatityet,"saidthegirl。"It’samusingenoughtowatchthesea。Oh,poppa!IneverthoughtIshouldcaresomuchforit。"
"Andyou’regladwecame?"
"Idon’twanttothinkaboutthat。IjustwanttoknowthatI’mhere。"
Shepressedhisarmgently,significantly,wherehesatprovisionallyinthechairbesideher,andhewasafraidtospeaklestheshouldscareawaythehopeherwordsgavehim。
Hemerelysaid,"Well,well!"andwaitedforhertospeakfurther。Butherimpulsehadexhausteditself,asifherspiritwerelikeoneofthoseweakformsoflifewhichspendtheirstrengthinaquickrunorflight,andthenresttogatherforceforanother。"Where’sBoyne?"heasked,afterwaitingforhertospeak。
"Hewashereaminuteago。He’sbeentalkingwithsomeofthedeckpassengersthataregoinghomebecausetheycouldn’tgetoninAmerica。
Doesn’tthatseempitiful,poppa?Ialwaysthoughtwehadworkenoughforthewholeworld。"
"Perhapsthesefellowsdidn’ttryveryhardtofindit,"saidthejudge。
"Perhaps,"sheassented。
"Ishouldn’twantyoutogettothinkingthatit’salllikeNewYork。
RememberhowcomfortableeverybodyisinTuskingum。"
"Yes,"shesaid,sadly。"HowfaroffTuskingumseems!"
"Well,don’tforgetaboutit;andrememberthatwhereverlifeissimplestandpurestandkindest,thatisthehighestcivilization。"
"Howmuchlikeoldtimesitseemstohearyoutalkthatway,poppa!
IshouldthinkIwasinthelibraryathome。AndImadeyouleaveit!"
shesighed。
"Yourmotherwasgladofanyexcuse。Anditwilldousallgood,ifwetakeitintherightway,"saidthejudge,withadidacticseveritythatdidnothidehispangfromher。
"Poorpoppa!"shesaid。
Hewentaway,sayingthathewasgoingtolookLottieup。HissimpledesignwastosendLottietohermother,sothatBreckonmightcomebacktoEllen;buthedidnotownthistohimself。
LottiereturnedfromanotherdirectionwithBoyne,andEllensaid,"Poppa’sgonetolookforyou。"
"Hashe?"askedLottie,droppingdecisivelyintoherchair。"Well,there’sonething;Iwon’tcallhimpoppaanymore。"
"Whatwillyoucallhim?"Boynedemanded,demurely。
"I’llcallhimfather,ityouwanttoknow;andI’mgoingtocallmomma,mother。I’mnotgoingtohavethoseEnglishlaughingatus,andIwon’tsaypapaandmamma。Everybodythatknowsanythingsaysfatherandmothernow。"
BoynekeptlookingfromonesistertoanotherduringLottie’sdeclaration,and,withhiseyesonEllen,hesaid,"It’strue,Ellen。
AllthePlumptonsdid。"Hewasveryserious。
Ellensmiled。"I’mtoooldtochange。I’dratherseemqueerinEuropethanwhenIgetbacktoTuskingum。"
"Youwouldn’tbequeerthereagreatwhile,"saidLottie。"They’llallbedoingitinaweekafterIgethome。"
UpontheencouragementgivenhimbyEllen,Boyneseizedthechanceofbeingoftheopposition。"Yes,"hetauntedLottie,"andyouthinkthey’llsaywomanandman,forladyandgentleman,Isuppose。"
"Theywillassoonastheyknowit’sthething。"
"Well,IknowIwon’t,"saidBoyne。"Iwon’tcallmommaawoman。"
"Itdoesn’tmatterwhatyoudo,Boynedear,"hissisterserenelyassuredhim。
Whilehestoodsearchinghismindforasuitableretort,ayoungman,notapparentlymanyyearshissenior,cameroundthecornerofthemusic-
room,andputhimselfconspicuouslyinviewatadistancefromtheKentons。
"Thereheis,now,"saidBoyne。"HewantstobeintroducedtoLottie。"
HereferredthequestiontoEllen,butLottieansweredforher。
"Thenwhydon’tyouintroducehim?"
"Well,IwouldifhewasanAmerican。Butyoucan’ttellabouttheseEnglish。"HeresumedthedignityhehadlostinmakingtheexplanationtoLottie,andignoredherinturningagaintoEllen。"Whatdoyouthink,Ellen?"
"Oh,don’tknowaboutsuchthings,Boyne,"shesaid,shrinkingfromtheresponsibility。
"Well;uponmyword!"criedLottie。"IfEllencantalkbythehourwiththatpreciousMr。Breckon,andstayupherealongwithhim,wheneverybodyelseisdownbelowsick,Idon’tthinkshecanhaveagreatdealtosayaboutahalf-grownboylikethatbeingintroducedtome。"
"He’sasoldasyouare,"saidBoyne,hotly。
"Oh!Isawhimassociatingwithyou,andIthoughthewasaboy,too。
Pardonme!"LottieturnedfromgivingBoynehiscoup-de-grace,toplantalittlestabinEllen’sbreast。"Tobesure,nowMr。Breckonhasfoundthosefriendsofhis,Isupposehewon’twanttoflirtwithEllenanymore。"
"Ah,ha,ha!"Boynebrokein。"Lottieismadbecausehestoppedtospeaktosomeladiesheknew。Women,Isupposeshe’dcallthem。"
"Well,Ishouldn’tcallhimagentleman,anyway,"saidLottie。
Thepretty,smooth-faced,fresh-facedyoungfellowwhomtheirvaryingdebatehadkeptinabeyance,lookedroundatthemoverhisshoulderasheleanedontherail,andseemedtodiscoverBoyneforthefirsttime。HecamepromptlytowardstheKentons。
"Now,"saidLottie,rapidly,"you’lljustHAVEto。"
Theyoungfellowtouchedhiscaptothewholegroup,butheventuredtoaddressonlyBoyne。
"Everyoneseemstobeaboutthismorning,"hesaid,withthecheeryEnglish-risinginfection。
"Yes,"answeredBoyne,withsuchsnubbingcoldnessthatEllen’sheartwastouched。
"It’ssopleasant,"shesaid,"afterthatdarkweather。"
"Isn’tit?"criedtheyoungfellow,gratefully。"Onedoesn’toftengetsuchsunshineasthisatsea,youknow。"
"Mysister,MissKenton,Mr。Pogis,"Boynesolemnlyintervened。"AndMissLottieKenton。"
Theprettyboybowedtoeachinturn,buthemadenopretenceofbeingtheretotalkwithEllen。"Haveyoubeenill,too?"heactivelyaddressedhimselftoLottie。
"No,justmad,"shesaid。"Iwasn’tverysick,andthatmadeitalltheworsebeingdowninapokystate-roomwhenIwantedtowalk。"
"AndIsupposeyou’vebeenmakingupforlosttimethismorning?"
"Nothalf,"saidLottie。
"Oh,dofinishthehalfwithme!"
Lottieinstantlyrose,andflunghersisterthewrapshehadbeenholdingreadytoshedfromthemomenttheyoungmanhadcomeup。"Keepthatforme,Nell。Areyougoodatcatching?"sheaskedhim。
"Catching?"
"Yes!People,"sheexplained,andatasuddentwistoftheshipshemadeaclutchathisshoulder。
"Oh!IthinkIcancatchyou。"
Astheymovedofftogether,Boynesaid,"Well,uponmyword!"butEllendidnotsayanythingincommentonLottie。Afterawhilesheasked,"WhoweretheladiesthatMr。Breckonmet?"
"Ididn’theartheirnames。Theyweresomebodyhehadn’tseenbeforesincetheshipstarted。Theylookedlikeayoungladyandhermother。
ItmadeLottiemadwhenhestoppedtospeakwiththem,andshewouldn’twaittillhecouldgetthrough。Ranrightaway,andmademecome,too。"
XIII。
BreckonhadnotseentheformerinterestbetweenhimselfandEllenlapsetocommonplaceacquaintancewithoutduesenseofloss。Hesufferedjustly,buthedidnotsufferpassively,orwithoutseveralattemptstoregainthehigherground。Inspiteofthesehewasawareofbeingdistinctlykepttothelevelwhichheaccusedhimselfofhavingchosen,byagentleacquiescenceinhischoicemorefatalthansnubbing。Theadvancesthathemadeacrossthetable,whilehestillmetMissKentonalonethere,didnotcarrybeyondtheracksupportingherplate。Shetalkedonwhateversubjecthestartedwiththatangelicsinceritywhichnowseemedsofarfromhim,butshestartednoneherself;shedidnotappealtohimforhisopinionuponanyquestionmorepsychologicalthanthebarometer;and,"Inatumultuousprivacyofstorm,"
hefoundhimselfasmuchestrangedfromherasifafair-weathercrowdhadsurroundedthem。Hedidnotbelievethatsheresentedthelevityhehadshown;buthehadreasontofearthatshehadfinallyaccepteditashisnormalmood,andinhereffortstomeethiminit,asifhehadnoother,hereadatolerancethatwasworsethancontempt。Whenhetriedtomakeherthinkdifferently,ifthatwaswhatshethoughtofhim,hefanciedherrisingtothenotionhewishedtogiveher,andthenshrinkingfromit,asifitmustbringherthedisappointmentofsometrivialjoke。
Itwaswhathehadtaughthertoexpectofhim,andhehadhimselftoblame。Nowthathehadthrownthatpreciouschanceaway,hemightwellhaveovervaluedit。Shehadcertainprovincialismswhichhecouldnotignore。Shedidnotknowtherightuseofwillandshall,andwouldandshould,andshepronouncedtheletter’r’withahardmid-Westerntwist。
Hervoicewasweakandthin,andshecouldnotgovernitfrombeingattimesagaspandattimesadrawl。Shedidnotdresswiththeauthorityofwomenwhoknowmoreoftheirclothesthanthepeopletheybuythemof;
shedidnotcarryherselflikeaprettygirl;shehadnotthedefinitestampofyoung-ladyism。Yetshewasundoubtedlyaladyineveryinstinct;sheworewithpensivegracetheclotheswhichshehadnotsubjectedtoherpersonaltaste;andifshedidnotcarryherselflikeaprettygirl,shehadabeautywhichtouchedandentreated。
MoreandmoreBreckonfoundhimselfstudyingherbeauty——hersoft,brownbrows,hergentle,darkeyes,alittlesunken,andwiththelidspinchedbysuffering;thecheekssomewhatthin,butnotcolorless;thelongchin,theclearforehead,andthemassedbrownhair,thatseemedtooheavyforthedroopingneck。Itwasnotthemodernathletictype;itwasratheroftheearlierperiod,whenbeautywasassociatedwiththefragilitydespisedbyatannedandgolfinggeneration。EllenKenton’swristswerethin,andherhandslongandnarrow。Ashelookedatheracrosstheracksduringthosetwodaysofstorm,hehadsometimesthewishtotakeherlong,narrowhandsinhis,andbeghertobelievethathewasworthierherseriousfriendshipthanhehadshownhimself。Whathewassureofatalltimesnowwasthathewishedtoknowthesecretofthatpatientpathosofhers。Shewasnotmerely,orprimarily,aninvalid。
Herfamilyhadtreatedherasaninvalid,but,exceptLottie,whoserigormighthavebeenmeantsanatively,theytreatedhermorewiththetendernesspeopleusewithawoundedspirit;andBreckonfanciedmomentsofsomethinglikehumilityinher,whensheseemedtocowerfromhisnotice。Thesewerenotsoimaginableafterherfamilytooktotheirberthsandleftheralonewithhim,butthetouchingmysteryremained,asortofbewilderment,asheguessedit,asurprisesuchasachildmightshowatsomeincomprehensibleharm。Itwasthisgriefwhichhehadrefusednotmerelytoknow——hestilldoubtedhisrighttoknowit——buttoshare;hehaddeniednotonlyhiscuriositybuthissympathy,andhadexiledhimselftoaregionwhere,whenherfamilycamebackwiththefairweather,hefelthimselffartherfromherthanbeforetheiracquaintancebegan。
Hehadmadeanoverturetoitsrenewalinthebookhelenther,andthenMrs。Rasmithandherdaughterhadappearedondeck,andbornedownuponhimwhenhewaswalkingwithLottieKentonandtryingtobeginhisself-
retrievalthroughher。Shehadlefthim;buttheyhadnot,andinthebondsofaprophetandhisfollowershefoundhimselfboundwiththemformuchmoreconversationthanhehadoftenheldwiththemashore。Theparochialdutiesofanethicalteacherwerenotstrenuous,andBreckonhadnotbeenmadetofeelthemsodefinitelybefore。Mrs。Rasmithheldthattheynowincludedpromisingtositathertablefortherestofthevoyage;butherdaughtersucceededinreleasinghimfromtheobligation;
anditwasshewhosmilinglydetachedtheclingingholdoftheelderlady。"Wemustn’tkeepMr。Breckonfromhisfriends,mother,"shesaid,brightly,andthenhesaidheshouldlikethepleasureofintroducingthem,andbothoftheladiesdeclaredthattheywouldbedelighted。
Hebowedhimselfoff,andhalftheship’s-lengthawayhewasaware,frommeetingLottiewithherlittleEnglishman,thatitwassheandnotEllenwhomhewasseeking。AsthecouplepausedinwhirringpastBreckonlongenoughtoletLottiemakeherhatfastagainstthewind,heheardtheEnglishmanshout:
"Isay,thatsisterofyoursisafinegirl,isn’tshe?"
"She’saprettygood——looker,"Lottieansweredback。"What’sthematterwithHERsister?"
"Oh,Isay!"hercompanionreturned,inatransportwithherslangypertness,whichBreckoncouldnotaltogetherrefusetoshare。
Hethoughtthatheoughttocondemnit,andhedidcondemnMrs。Kentonforallowingitinoneofherdaughters,whenhecameuptohersittingbesideanotherwhomhefeltinexpressiblyincapableofit。Mrs。Kentoncouldhaveansweredhiscensure,ifshehadknownit,thatdaughters,likesons,werenotwhattheirmothersbutwhattheirenvironmentsmadethem,andthatthesameenvironmentsometimesmadethemdifferent,ashesaw。ShecouldhavetoldhimthatLottie,withherslangypertness,hadthetruestandbestofthemensheknewatherfeet,andthatEllen,withhermeekness,hadbeenthepreyofthecommonestandcheapestspiritinherworld,andsolefthimtomakeaninferenceascreditabletohissexashecould。Butthisbolddefencewasasfarfromthepoorladyasanyspokenreproachwasfromhim。Herdaughterhadtocheckinheramechanicaloffertorise,asiftogiveBreckonherplace,thetheoryandpracticeofTuskingumbeingthattheireldersoughttoleaveyoungpeoplealonetogether。
"Don’tgo,momma,"Ellenwhispered。"Idon’twantyoutogo。"
Breckon,whenhearrivedbeforethem,remainedtalkingonfoot,and,unlikeLottie’scompany,hetalkedtothemother。Thishadhappenedbeforefromhim,butshehadnotgotusedtoit,andnowshedeprecatedineverythingbutwordshispolitequestionsabouthersufferingsfromtheroughweather,andhisrejoicingthattheworstwasprobablyover。
Sheventuredthehopethatitwasso,forshesaidthatMr。KentonhadaboutdecidedtokeepontoHolland,anditseemedtoherthattheyhadhadenoughofstorms。Hesaidhewasgladthattheyweregoingrighton;
andthenshemodestlyrecurredtotheearlieropinionhehadgivenherhusbandthatitwouldbebettertospendtherestofthesummerinHollandthantogotoItaly,asifshewishedtoconformherselfinthewisdomofMr。Kenton’sdecision。Herepeatedhisconviction,andhesaidthatifhewereintheirplaceheshouldgotoTheHagueassoonastheyhadseenRotterdam,andmakeittheirheadquartersfortheexplorationofthewholecountry。
"Youcan’trealizehowlittleitis;youcangetanywhereinanhour;thedifficultyistokeepinsideofHollandwhenyouleaveanygivenpoint。
Ienvyyougoingthere。"
Mrs。KentoninferredthathewasgoingtostopinFrance,butifitwerepartofhisclosenessnottotell,itwaspartofherpridenottoask。
SherelentedwhenheaskedifhemightgetamapofhisandprovethelittlenessofHollandfromit,andinhisabsenceshecouldnotwellavoidsayingtoEllen,"Heseemsverypleasant。"
"Yes;whynot?"thegirlasked。
"Idon’tknow。Lottieissoagainsthim。"
"Hewasverykindwhenyouwereallsick。"
"Well,yououghttoknowbetterthanLottie;you’veseenhimsomuchmore。"Ellenwassilent,andhermotheradvancedcautiously,"Isupposeheisverycultivated。"
"HowcanItell?I’mnot。"
"Why,Ellen,Ithinkyouare。Veryfewgirlshavereadsomuch。"
"Yes,buthewouldn’tcareifIwerecultivated,Haislikealltherest。
Hewouldliketojokeandlaugh。Well,Ithinkthatisnice,too,andI
wishIcoulddoit。ButInevercould,andnowIcan’ttry。Isupposehewonderswhatmakesmesuchadeadweightonyouall。"
"Youknowyou’renotthat,Ellen!Youmusn’tletyourselfbemorbid。Ithurtsmetohaveyousaysuchthings。"
"Well,Ishouldliketotellhimwhy,andseewhathewouldsay。"
"Ellen!"
"Whynot?Ifheisaministerhemusthavethoughtaboutallkindsofthings。DoyousupposeheeverknewofagirlbeforewhohadbeenthroughwhatIhave?Yes,Iwouldliketoknowwhathewouldreallysay。"
"Iknowwhatheoughttosay!Ifheknew,hewouldsaythatnogirlhadeverbehavedmoreangelically。"
"Doyouthinkhewould?PerhapshewouldsaythatifIhadn’tbeensoproudandsilly——Herehecomes!Shallweaskhim?"
Breckonapproachedwithhismap,andhermothergasped,thinkinghowterriblesuchathingwouldbeifitcouldbe;Ellensmiledbrightlyupathim。"Willyoutakemychair?Andthenyoucanshowmommayourmap。
Iamgoingdown,"andwhilehewasstillprotestingshewasgone。
"MissKentonseemssomuchbetterthanshedidthefirstday,"hesaid,ashespreadthemapoutonhisknees,andgaveMrs。Kentononeendtohold。
"Yes,"themotherassented,asshebentovertolookatit。
Shefollowedhisexplanationwithasurfacesense,whilehernethermindwasfulloftheworryofthequestionwhichEllenhadplantedinit。
Whatwouldsuchamanthinkofwhatshehadbeenthrough?Or,rather,howwouldhesaytohertheonlythingsthatinMrs。Kenton’sbeliefhecouldsay?Howcouldthepoorchildeverbemadetoseeitinthelightofsomemindnotcoloredwithherfamily’saffectionforher?Animmense,animpossiblelongingpossesseditselfofthemother’sheart,whichbecamethemoreinsistentthemorefranticitappeared。Sheuttered"Yes"and"No"and"Indeed"towhathewassaying,butallthetimeshewasrehearsingEllen’sstoryinherinnersense。Intheendsherememberedsolittlewhathadactuallypassedthatherdramaticreverieseemedthereality,andwhenshelefthimshegotherselfdowntoherstate-room,giddywiththeshameandfearofherimaginaryself-betrayal。
Shewishedtotesttheenormity,andyetnotfinditsomonstrous,bysubmittingthecasetoherhusband,andshecouldscarcelykeepbackherimpatienceatseeingElleninsteadofherfather。
"Momma,whathaveyoubeensayingtoMr。Breckonaboutme?"
"Nothing,"saidMrs。Kenton,aghastatfirst,andthenastonishedtorealizethatshewasspeakingthesimpletruth。"Hesaidhowmuchbetteryouwerelooking;butIdon’tbelieveIspokeasingleword。Wewerelookingatthemap。"
"Verywell,"Ellenresumed。"Ihavebeenthinkingitallover,andnowI
havemadeupmymind。"
Shepaused,andhermotherasked,tremulously,"Aboutwhat,Ellen?"
"Youknow,momma。Iseeallnow。Youneedn’tbeafraidthatIcareanythingabouthimnow,"andhermotherknewthatshemeantBittridge,"orthatIevershall。That’sgoneforever。Butit’sgone,"sheadded,andhermotherquakedinwardlytohearherreason,"becausethewrongandtheshamewasallforme——forus。That’swhyIcanforgiveit,andforget。Ifwehaddoneanything,theleastthingintheworld,torevengeourselves,ortohurthim,then——Don’tyousee,momma?"
"IthinkIsee,Ellen。"
"ThenIshouldhavetokeepthinkingaboutit,andwhatwehadmadehimsuffer,andwhetherwehadn’tgivenhimsomeclaim。Idon’twishevertothinkofhimagain。Youandpoppaweresopatientandforbearing,allthrough;andIthankgoodnessnowforeverythingyouputupwith;onlyI
wishIcouldhaveborneeverythingmyself。"
"Youhadenoughtobear,"Mrs。Kentonsaid,intenderevasion。
"I’mgladthatIhadtobearsomuch,forbearingitiswhatmakesmefreenow。"Shewentuptohermotherandkissedher,andgazedintoherfacewithjoyful,tearfullooksthatmadeherheartsink。
XIV。
Mrs。KentondidnotresttillshehadmadesurefromLottieandBoynethatneitherofthemhaddroppedanyhinttoEllenofwhathappenedtoBittridgeafterhisreturntoTuskingum。Shedidnotexplaintothemwhyshewassoveryanxioustoknow,butonlychargedthemthemoresolemnlynottoletthesecret,whichtheyhadallbeenkeepingfromEllen,escapethem。
Theypromised,butLottiesaid,"She’sgottoknowitsometime,andI
shouldthinkthesoonerthebetter。"
"Iwillbejudgeofthat,Lottie,"saidhermother,andBoyneseizedhischanceofinculpatingherwithhisfriend,Mr。Pogis。Hesaidshewascarryingonawfullywithhimalready;andanEnglishmancouldnotunderstand,andBoynehintedthathewouldpresumeuponherAmericanfreedom。
"Well,ifhedoes,I’llgetyoutocowhidehim,Boyne,"sheretorted,andlefthimfuminghelplessly,whileshewenttogivetheyoungEnglishmananopportunityofresumingtheflirtationwhichhermotherhadinterrupted。
WithherhusbandMrs。Kentonfounditpracticabletobemoreexplicit。
"Ihaven’thadsuchaloadliftedoffmyheartsinceIdon’tknowwhen。
ItshowsmewhatI’vethoughtallalong:thatEllenhasn’treallycaredanythingforthatmiserablethingsincehefirstbegangoingwithMrs。
Uphillayearago。WhenhewrotethatlettertoherinNewYorkshewantedtobesureshedidn’t,andwhenheofferedhimselfandmisbehavedsotobothofyou,shewasafraidthatsheandyouweresomehowtoblame。
Nowshe’sworkeditoutthatnooneelsewaswronged,andsheissatisfied。It’smadeherfeelfree,asshesays。But,oh,dearme!"
Mrs。Kentonbrokeoff,"Italkasiftherewasnothingtobindher;andyetthereiswhatpoorRicharddid!Whatwouldshesayifsheknewthat?
IhavebeencautioningLottieandBoyne,butIknowitwillcomeoutsomehow。Doyouthinkit’swisetokeepitfromher?Hadn’twebettertellher?Orshallwewaitandsee——"
Kentonwouldnotallowtoherortohimselfthathishopesranwithhers;
loveisnotbusinesswithamanasitiswithawoman;hefeelsitindecorousandindelicatetocountuponitopenly,whereshethinksitsimplyachanceoflife,tobeconsideredlikeanother。AllthatKentonwouldsaywas,"Iseenoreasonfortellingherjustyet。Shewillhavetoknowinduetime。Butletherenjoyherfreedomnow。"
"Yes,"Mrs。Kentondoubtfullyassented。
Thejudgewasthoughtfullysilent。Thenhesaid:"FewgirlscouldhaveworkedoutherproblemasEllenhas。ThinkhowdifferentlyLottiewouldhavedoneit!"
"Lottiehashergoodpoints,too,"saidMrs。Kenton。"And,ofcourse,I
don’tblameRichard。Thereareallkindsofgirls,andLottiemeansnomoreharmthanEllendoes。She’sthekindthatcan’thelpattracting;
butIalwaysknewthatEllenwasattractive,too,ifshewouldonlyfinditout。AndIknewthatassoonasanythingworthwhiletookuphermindshewouldnevergivethatwretchanotherthought。"
Kentonfollowedherdeviousratiocinationstoaconclusionwhichhecouldnotgrasp。"Whatdoyoumean,Sarah?"
"IfIonly,"sheexplained,intermsthatdidnotexplain,"feltassureofhimasIdoabouthim!"
Herhusbandlookeddenselyather。"Bittridge?"
"No。Mr。Breckon。Heisverynice,Rufus。Yes,heis!He’sbeenshowingmethemapofHolland,andwe’vehadalongtalk。Heisn’tthewaywethought——orIdid。Heisnotatallclerical,orworldly。AndheappreciatesEllen。Idon’tsupposehecaressomuchforherbeingcultivated;Isupposeshedoesn’tseemsotohim。Butheseeshowwisesheis——howgood。Andhecouldn’tdothatwithoutbeinggoodhimself!
Rufus!Ifwecouldonlyhopesuchathing。But,ofcourse,therearethousandsafterhim!"
"TherearenotthousandsofEllensafterhim,"saidthejudge,beforehecouldtaketimetoprotest。"AndIdon’twanthimtosupposethatsheisafterhimatall。Ifhewillonlyinterestherandhelphertokeephermindoffherself,it’sallIwillaskofhim。Iamnotanxioustopartwithher,nowthatshe’salloursagain。"
"Ofcourse,"Mrs。Kentonsoothinglyassented。"AndIdon’tsaythatshedreamsofhiminanysuchway。Shecan’thelpadmiringhismind。ButwhatImeanisthatwhenyouseehowheappreciatesher,youcan’thelpwishinghecouldknowjusthowwise,andjusthowgoodsheis。ItdidseemtomeasifIwouldgivealmostanythingtohavehimknowwhatshehadbeenthroughwiththat——rapscallion!"
"Sarah!"
"Oh,youmaySarahme!ButIcantellyouwhat,Mr。Kenton:Ibelievethatyoucouldtellhimeverywordofit,andonlymakehimappreciateherthemore。TillyouknowthataboutEllen,youdon’tknowwhatacharactersheis。Ijustachedtotellhim!"
"Idon’tunderstandyou,mydear,"saidKenton。"Butifyoumeantotellhim——"
"Why,whocouldimaginedoingsuchathing?Don’tyouseethatitisimpossible?Suchathingwouldneverhavecomeintomyheadifithadn’tbeenforsomemorbidtalkofEllen’s。"
"OfEllen’s?"
"Oh,aboutwantingtodisgusthimbytellinghimwhyshewassuchaburdentous。"
"Sheisn’taburden!"
"Iamsayingwhatshesaid。Anditmademethinkthatifsuchapersoncouldonlyknowthehigh-mindedwayshehadfoundtogetoutofhertrouble!Iwouldlikesomebodywhoiscapableofvaluinghertovalueherinallherpreciousness。Wouldn’tyoubegladifsuchamanasheiscouldknowhowandwhyshefeelsfreeatlast?"
"Idon’tthinkit’snecessary,"saidKenton,haughtily,"There’sonlyonethingthatcouldgivehimtherighttoknowit,andwe’llwaitforthatfirst。Ithoughtyousaidthathewasfrivolous。"
"Boynesaidthat,andLottie。Itookitforgranted,tillItalkedwithhimto-day。Heislight-heartedandgay;helikestolaughandjoke;buthecanbeveryseriouswhenhewantsto。"
"Accordingtoallprecedent,"saidthejudge,glumly,"suchamanoughttobehangingroundLottie。EverybodywasthatamountedtoanythinginTuskingum。"
"Oh,inTuskingum!Andwhowerethementherethatamountedtoanything?
Alotofyounglawyers,andtwostudentsofmedicine,andsomerailroadclerks。Therewasn’tonethatwouldcomparewithMr。Breckonforamoment。"
"Allthemorereasonwhyhecan’treallycareforEllen。Nowseehere,Sarah!YouknowIdon’tinterferewithyouandthechildren,butI’mafraidyou’reinacrazeaboutthisyoungfellow。He’sgotthesefriendsofhiswhohavejustturnedup,andwe’llwaitandseewhathedoeswiththem。IguessheappreciatestheyoungladyasmuchashedoesEllen。"
Mrs。Kenton’sheartwentdown。"Shedoesn’tcomparewithEllen!"shepiteouslydeclared。
"That’swhatwethink。Hemaythinkdifferently。"
Mrs。Kentonwassilenced,butallthemoreshewasdeterminedtomakesurethatMr。BreckonwasnotinterestedinMissRasmithinanymeasureormannerdetrimentaltoEllen。AsforMissRasmithherself,Mrs。KentonwouldhavehadgreaterreasontobeanxiousaboutherbehaviorwithBoynethanMr。Breckon。Fromthemomentthattheministerhadmadehistwogroupsoffriendsacquainted,theyoungladyhadfixeduponBoyneasthatmemberoftheKentongroupwhocouldbestrepayamoreintimatefriendship。Shewaspolitetothemall,buttoBoyneshewasflattering,andhewastoolittleusedtodeferencefromladiestenyearshisseniornottobeverysensibleofherworthinofferingit。Tobeunremittinglytreatedasagrown-uppersonwasanexperiencesodazzlingthathisvisionwasblindedtoanypossibilitiesinthebehaviorthatformedit;
andbeforethedayendedBoynehadpossessedMissRasmithofallthatitwasimportantforanyfellow-beingtoknowofhischaracterandhistory。
Heopenedhishearttoeyesthathadlookedintoothersbeforehis,lessforthesakeofexploitingthanofinforminghimself。IntherareintelligenceofMissRasmithhehadfoundthatseriouspatiencewithhisproblemswhichnooneelse,notEllenherself,hadshown,andaftertryinghersinceritythegreaterpartofthedayheputittothesupremetest,oneevening,withabookwhichhehadbeenreading。Boyne’sliteraturewaslargelyentomologicalandzoological,butthiswasaworkoffictiontreatingofthefortunesofayoungAmericanadventurer,whohadturnedhismilitaryeducationtoaccountintheserviceofaGermanprincess。HerHighness’sdominionswerenotinanymapofEurope,andperhapsitwasherconditionofpoliticalincognitothatrenderedherthemorefittinglythepreyofapassionfortheAmericanheadofherarmies。
Boyne’sbeliefwasthatthischaracterveiledarealidentity,andhewishedtosubmittoMissRasmiththequestionwhetherintheexclusivecirclesofNewYorksocietyanyyoungmillionairewasknowntohavetakenserviceabroadafterleavingwestPoint。Heputitintheformofascoffingincredulitywhichitwasacomforttohavehertakeasifalmosthurtbyhisdoubt。Shesaidthatsuchathingmightverywellbe,andwithrichAmericangirlsmarryingallsortsoftitlesabroad,itwasnotimpossibleforsomebrilliantyoungfellowtomakehiswaytothestepsofathrone。Boynedeclaredthatshewaslaughingathim,andsheprotestedthatitwasthelastthingsheshouldthinkofdoing;shewastoomuchafraidofhim。Thenhebegantoargueagainstthecasesupposedintheromance;heprovedfromthebookitselfthatthethingcouldnothappen;suchaprincesswouldnotbeallowedtomarrytheAmerican,nomatterhowrichhewas。Sheownedthatshehadnotheardofjustsuchaninstance,andhemightthinkherveryromantic;andperhapsshewas;butiftheprincesswasanabsoluteprincess,suchasshewasshowninthatstory,sheheldthatnopoweronearthcouldkeepherfrommarryingtheyoungAmerican。Forherselfshedidnotsee,though,howtheprincesscouldbeinlovewiththattypeofAmerican。Ifshehadbeenintheprincess’splacesheshouldhavefanciedsomethingquitedifferent。ShemadeBoyneagreewithherthatEasternAmericanswereall,moreorless,Europeanized,anditstoodtoreason,sheheld,thataEuropeanprincesswouldwantsomethingasun-Europeanaspossibleifshewasfallinginlovetopleaseherself。TheyhadsomecontentionuponthepointthattheprincesswouldwantaWesternAmerican;andthenMissRasmith,withadelicateaudacity,paintedanheroicportraitofBoynehimselfwhichhecouldnotrecognizeopenlyenoughtodisown;butheperceivedresemblancesinitwhichwenttohisheadwhenshedemurelyrose,withasoft"Good-night,Mr。Kenton。IsupposeImustn’tcallyouBoyne?"
"Ohyes,do!"heentreated。"I’m-I’mnotgrownupyet,youknow。"
"Thenitwillbesafe,"shesighed。"ButIshouldneverhavethoughtofthat。Ihadgotsoabsorbedinourargument。Youaresological,Mr。
Kenton——Boyne,Imean——thankyou。Youmustgetitfromyourfather。Howlovelyyoursisteris!"
"Ellen?"
"Well,no。Imeanttheotherone。ButMissKentonisbeautiful,too。
Youmustbesohappytogether,allofyou。"Sheadded,witharuefulsmile,"There’sonlyoneofme!Good-night。"
Boynedidnotknowwhetherheoughtnotinhumanity,ifnotgallantry,tosayhewouldbeabrothertoher,butwhilehestoodconsidering,sheputoutahandtohimsocoveredwithringsthathewasafraidshehadhurtherselfinpressinghissohard,andhadlefthimbeforehecoulddecide。
Lottie,walkingthedeck,hadnotthoughtofbiddingMr。Pogisgood-
night。Shehadaskedhimhalfadozentimeshowlateitwas,andwhenheanswered,hadsaidasoftenthatsheknewbetter,andshewasgoingbelowinanotherminute。Butshestayed,andtheflowofherconversationsuppliedhimwithoccasionfortheremarksofwhichheseldomvariedtheformula。Whenshesaidsomethingtooaudaciousforsilentemotion,hecalledout,"Oh,Isay!"Ifsheadvancedanopiniontooobviouslyacceptable,oraskedaquestionuponsomepointwhereitseemedtohimtherecouldnotbetwominds,hewasreadywiththeironicalnote,"Well,rather!"Attimesshepressedherstudiesofhischaracterandherobservationsonhismannerandappearancesofarthathewasforcedtoprotest,"Youaresopersonal!"Butthesemomentswererare;forthemostpart,"OhIsay!"and"Well,rather!"perfectlycoveredtheground。Hedidnotgenerallymindherparodyofhispovertyofphrase,butonce,aftershehadrepeated"Wellrather!"and"Oh,Isay!"
steadilyateverythinghesaidforthewholeroundofthepromenadetheyweremaking,heintimatedthattherewereoccasionswhen,inhisbelief,awoman’sabuseofthefreedomgenerouslyallowedhersexpassedthepointofwords。
"Andwhenitpassesthepointofwords"shetauntedhim,"whatdoyoudo?"
"Youwillsee,"hesaid,"ifiteverdoes,"andLottiefeltjustifiedbyherinferencethathewasthreateningtokissher,inanswering:
"AndifIeverSEE,Iwillboxyourears。"
"Oh,Isay!"heretorted。"Ishouldliketohaveyoutry。"
Hehadideasoftherightfulmasteryofamaninallthings,whichshepromptlypronouncedbrutal,andwhenhedeclaredthathisfather’sconducttowardshiswifeandchildrenwasbasedupontheseideas,sheaffirmedthesuperiorityofherownfather’sprinciplesandbehavior。
Mr。PogiswastoodeclaredanadmirerofJudgeKentontoquestionhismotivesormethodinanything,andhecouldonlygeneralize,"TheAmericansspoiltheirwomen。"
"Well,theirwomenareworthit,"saidLottie,andafterallowingtheparadoxtimetopenetratehisintelligence,hecriedout,inagladtransport:
"Oh,ISAY!"
AtthemomentBoyne’sintellectualseancewithMissRasmithwascomingtoanend。LottiehadtacitlyinvitedMr。PogistoprolongthecomparisonofEnglishandAmericanfamilylifebystoppinginfrontofacoupleofsteamer-chairs,andconfessingthatshewastiredtodeath。Theysatdown,andhetoldherabouthismother,whom,althoughhisfather’ssubordinate,heseemedtoberatherfonderof。Hehadsomeelderbrothers,mostoftheminthecolonies,andhehadhimselfbeenouttoAmericalookingatsomethinghisfatherhadfoundforhiminBuffalo。
"YououghttocometoTuskingum,"saidLottie。
"Isthatalargeplace?"Mr。Pogisasked。"AslargeasBuffalo?"
"Well,no,"Lottieadmitted。"Butit’sagrowingplace。Andwehavethebestkindoftimes。"
"Whatkind?"Theyoungmaneasilyconsentedtoturnthecommercialintoasocialinquiry。
"Oh,picnics,andriverparties,andbuggy-rides,anddances。"
"I’mkeenondancing,"saidMr。Pogis。"Ihopethey’llgiveusadanceonboard。Willyouputmedownforthefirstdance?"
"Idon’tcare。Willyousendmesomeflowers?Thestewardmusthavesomeleftintherefrigerator。"
"Well,rather!I’llsendyouaspray,ifhe’sgotenough。"
"Aspray?What’saspray?"
"Oh,Isay!Mysisteralwayswearsone。It’salongchainofflowersreachin’fromyourshoulderdiagonallydowntoyourwaist。"
Doesyoursisteralwayshavehersprayssenttoher?"
"Well,rather!Don’ttheysendflowerstogirlsfordancesintheStates?"
"Well,rather!Didn’tIjustaskyou?"
Thiswasverytrue,andafteramomentofbaffleMr。Pogissaid,ingeneralization,"Ifyougowithayoungladyinapartytothetheatreyousendheraboxofchocolates。"
"Onlywhenyougototheatre!Icouldn’tgetenough,then,unlessyouaskedmeeverynight,"saidLottie,andwhileMr。Pogiswastryingtochoosebetween"Oh,Isay!"andsomethingspecific,like,"Ishouldliketoaskyoueverynight,"sheadded,"Andwhatwouldhappenifyousentagirlasprayforthetheatreandchocolatesforadance?Wouldn’titjarher?"
Now,indeed,therewasnothingforhimbuttoanswer,"Oh,Isay!"
"Well,say,then!HerecomesBoyne,andImustgo。Well,Boyne,"shecalled,fromthedarknookwhereshesat,toherbrotherashestumblednear,withhiseyestothestars,"hastheoldladyretired?"
Hegavehimselfawayfinely。"Whatoldlady!"
"Well,maybeatyourageyoudon’tconsiderherveryold。ButIdon’tthinkaboyoughttositupmooningathisgrandmotherallnight。IknowMissRasmith’snorelation,ifthat’swhatyou’regoingtosay!"
"Oh,Isay!"Mr。Pogischuckled。"Youaresopersonal。"
"Well,rather!"saidLottie,punishinghispresumption。"ButIdon’tthinkit’sniceforakid,evenifsheisn’t。"
"Kid!"Boyneground,throughhisclenchedteeth。
BythistimeLottiewasupoutofherchairandbeyondreparteeinherflightdownthegangwaystairs。Sheleftthetwoyoungstersconfronted。
"Whatdoyousaytoalemon-squash?"askedMr。Pogis,respectinghisfriend’swoundeddignity,andignoringLottieandheroffence。
"Idon’tcareifIdo,"saidBoyneingloomyacquiescence。
XV。
FewwitnessesofthefactthatJuliaRasmithandhermotherhadfoundthemselvesonthesamesteamerwiththeRev。HughBreckonwouldhavebeenofsuchasimplemindastothinktheyweretherebyaccident,iftheyhadalsobeenwitnessesoftheirearlierhistory。TheladiescouldhaveurgedthatinreturningfromCaliforniaonlyafewdaysbeforetheAmstelsailed,andgettingastate-roomwhichhadbeenunexpectedlygivenup,theyhadsomeclaimtoacharitableinterpretationoftheirbehavior,butthispleacouldnothaveavailedthemwithanyconnoisseurofwomen。
Besides,ithadbeenamatterofnotorietyamongsuchofMr。Breckon’svariegatedcongregationasknewoneanotherthatMrs。Rasmithhadsetherheartonhim,itJuliahadnotsethercapforhim。Inthatpiedflock,whereeveryshadeanddappleofdoubt,fromheterodoxJewtoagnosticChristian,foregathered,asithasbeensaid,inthemisgivingofablessedimmortality,thedevotionofMrs。Rasmithtotheministerhadbeenalmostascandal。NothinghadsavedtheappearancefromthischaracterbutMr。Breckon’sopenacceptanceofherflatteriesandhospitalities;thiswassofrank,andthebehaviorofJuliaherselfsojudiciousunderthecircumstances,thatenvyandvirtuewere,ifnotequallysilenced,equallybaffled。Sofarfrompretendingnottoseehermother’smanoeuvres,Juliainvitedpublicrecognitionofthem;inthewayofjoking,whichshekeptwithinthelimitsoffilialfondness,shemadefunofhermother’sinfatuationtoBreckonhimself,andwarnedhimagainstthemomentwhenherwilesmightbetoomuchforhim。Beforeotherpeopleshedidnothesitatetosavehimfromhermother,sothateventhosewhobelievedherintheconspiracyownedthatnogirlcouldhavemanagedwithmoreclevernessinasituationwherenoteveryonewouldhaverefusedtobeplaced。InthissituationJuliaRasmithhadtheserviceofaveryclearhead,andaswasbelievedbysome,acoolheart;
ifsheandhermotherhadjointdesignsupontheminister,herswastheambition,andhermother’stheaffectionthatpromptedthem。Shewasalong,undulantgirl,ofamixedblondnessthatleftyouindoubt,afteryouhadlefther,whetherherhairorhercomplexionwerenotofonetint;butherfeaturesweregood,andtherecouldbenoquestionofhercaptivatinglaugh,andhercharmingmouth,whichshewasalwayspullingdownwithdemureirony。Shewaslikehermotherinherlooks,butherindolent,droningtemperamentmusthavebeenfromherfather,whosememorywaslostinthatantiquitywhichswallowsuptherecordofsomanywidows’husbands,andwhocouldnothaveleftherwhatwasleftofhermother’smoney,fornoneofithadeverbeenhis。Itwasstillhermother’s,anditwassupposedtobethedaughter’schiefattraction。
Theremust,therefore,havebeenagooddealofit,forthosewhowereharshestwiththeministerdidnotbelievethatalittlemoneywouldattracthim。Notthattheyreallythoughthimmercenary;someofhispeopleconsideredhimgaytothevergeoftriviality,buttherewerenonethataccusedhimofinsincerity。Theywouldhavelikedalittlemoreseriousnessinhim,especiallywhentheyhadnotmuchoftheirown,andwouldhavehadhimmakeupinseverityofbehaviorforwhathelacked,andwhattheywishedhimtolack,inausterityofdoctrine。
TheAmstelhadlostsomuchtimeintheroughweatherofherfirstdaysoutthatshecouldnotmakeitupwithherold-fashionedsinglescrew。
Shewasatbestaten-dayboat,countingfromSandyHooktoBoulogne,andshehadnotbeenfourdaysoutwhenshepromisedtobreakherrecordforslowness。ThreedayslaterMissRasmithsaidtoBreckon,ashetookthechairwhichhermotheragilelyabandonedtohimbesideher:"Theheadstewardsaysitwillbeatwelve-daytrip,endourbedroomstewardthinksmore。Whatistheconsensusofopinioninthesmoking-room?Whereareyougoing,mother?AreyouplanningtoleaveMr。Breckonandmealoneagain?Itisn’tnecessary。Wecouldn’tgetawayfromeachotherifwetried,andallweask——Well,Isupposeagemustheindulgedinitslittlefancies,"shecalledafterMrs。Rasmith。
Breckontookupthequestionshehadaskedhim。"Theoddsaresoheavilyinfavorofafifteen-days’runthattherearenotakers。"
"Nowyouarejokingagain,"shesaid。"Ithoughtasea-voyagemightmakeyouserious。"
"Ithasbeentriedbefore。Besides,it’syouthatIwanttobeserious。"
"Whatabout?Besides,Idoubtit。"
"AboutBoyne。"
"Oh!Ithoughtyouweregoingtosaysomeoneelse。"
"No,Ithinkthatisverywellsettled。"
"You’llneverpersuademymother,"saidMissRasmith,withalow,comfortablelaugh。
"Butifyouaresatisfied——"
"Shewillhavetoresignherself?Well,perhaps。ButwhydoyouwishmetobeseriousaboutBoyne?"
"Ihavenodoubtheamusesyou。Butthatdoesn’tseemaverygoodreasonwhyyoushouldamuseyourselfwithhim。"
"No?Whynot?"
"Well,becausethepoorboyisinearnest;andyou’renotexactly——
contemporaries。"
"Why,howoldisBoyne?"sheasked,withaffectedsurprise。
"Aboutfifteen,Ithink,"saidBreckon,gravely。
"AndI’mbutaveryfewmonthspastthirty。Idon’tseethegreatdisparity。Butheismerelyabrothertome——anelderbrother——andhegivesmethebestkindofadvice。"
"Idaresayyouneedit,butallthesame,Iamafraidyouareputtingideasintohishead。"
"Well,ifhebeganit?Ifheputtheminminefirst?"
Shewasevidentlywillingthatheshouldgofurther,andcreatethecommongroundbetweenthemthatgrowsupwhenonegivesareproofandtheotheracceptsit;butBreckon,whetherhethoughtthathehadnowdonehisduty,andneedsaynomore,orbecausehewasvexedwithher,leftthesubject。
"Mrs。RasmithsaysyouaregoingtoSwitzerlandfortherestofthesummer。"
"Yes,toMontreux。AreyougoingtospenditinParis?"
"I’mgoingtoParistosee。IhavehadsomethoughtsofEtretat;Ihavecousinsthere。"
"IwishthatIcouldgotothesea-side。Butthishappenstobeoneofthesummerswhennothingbutmountainscansavemymother’slife。ShallyougetdowntoRomebeforeyougoback?"
"Idon’tknow。IfIsailfromNaplesIshallprobablypassthroughRome。"
"Youhadbetterstopoff。WeshallbethereinNovember,andtheysayRomeisworthseeing,"shelaugheddemurely。"ThatiswhatBoyneunderstands。He’spromisedtousehisinfluencewithhisfamilytolethimrundowntoseeusthere,ifhecan’tgetthemalltocome。Youmightoffertopersonallyconductthem。"
"Yes。"saidBreckon,withtheeffectofcloture。"Haveyoumademanyacquaintancesanboard?"
"What!Twolonewomen?Youhaven’tintroducedustoanybuttheKentons。ButIdaresaytheyarethebest。Thejudgeisadear,andMrs。Kentoniseverythingthatismotherlyandmatronly。Boynesayssheisverywellinformed,andknowsallaboutthereigningfamilies。Ifhedecidestomarryintothem,shecanbeofgreatuseinsavinghimfromamesalliance。Ican’tsayverymuchforMissLottie。MissLottieseemstomedistinctlyoftheminxtype。Butthatpoor,palegirlisadorable。
Iwishshelikedme!"
"Whatmakesyouthinkshedoesn’tlikeyou?"Breckonasked。
"What?Womendon’trequireanythingtoconvincethemthatotherwomencan’tbearthem。Theysimplyknowit。Iwonderwhathashappenedtoher?"
"Whydoyouthinkanythinghashappenedtoher?"
"Why?Well,girlsdon’thavethatairofmelanholyabsencefornothing。
Sheisbroodinguponsomething,youmaybesure。ButyouhavehadsomanymoreopportunitiesthanI!Doyoumeanthatyouhaven’tsuspectedatragicalpastfarher?"
"Idon’tknow,"saidBreckon,alittlerestively,"thatIhaveallowedmyselftospeculateaboutherpast。"
"Thatis,yououghtn’ttohaveallowedyourselftodoso。Well,thereI
agreewithyou。Butawomanmaydosowithoutimpertinence,andIamsurethatMissKentonhasastory。Ihavewatchedher,andherfacehastoldmeeverythingbutthestory。"
Breckonwouldnotsaythatsomesuchrevelationhadbeenmadetohim,andintheabsenceofananswerfromhimMissRasmithasked,"Isshecultivated,too?"
"Too?"
"Likehermother。"
"Oh!Ishouldsayshehadreadagooddial。Andshe’sbookish,yes,inasimple-heartedkindofway。"
"Sheasksyouifyouhaveread’thebookoftheyear,’andwhetheryoudon’tthinktheheroineisabeautifulcharacter?"
"Notquitesobadasthat。Butifyoucaretobeseriousabouther!"
"Oh,Ido!"
"Idoubtit。Then,Ishouldsaythatsheseemstohavegrownupinaplacewheretheinterestsaresomaterialthatagirlwhowasdisposedtobethoughtfulwouldbethrownbackuponreadingforhersocietymorethaninmoreintellectualcentres——iftherearesuchthings。Shehasbeensomuchwithbooksthatshedoesnotfeeloddinspeakingofthemasiftheyweretheusualtopicsofconversation。Itgivesheracertainquaintness。"
"Andthatiswhatconstituteshercharm?"
"Ididn’tknowthatwewerespeakingofhercharm。"
"No,thatistrue。ButIwasthinkingofit。Shefascinatesme。AretheygoingtogetoffatBoulogne?"
"No,theyaregoingontoRotterdam。"
"Tobesure!Boynetoldme。Andareyougoingonwiththem?"
"IthoughtwetalkedofmygoingtoParis。"Breckonlookedroundather,andshemadeagestureofdeprecation。
"Why,ofcourse!HowcouldIforget?ButI’msomuchinterestedinMissKentonthatIcan’tthinkofanythingelse。"
"NotevenofMissRasmith?"
"NotevenofMissRasmith。Iknowthatshehasahistory,andthatit’sasadone。"Shepausedinironicalhesitation。"You’vebeensogoodastocautionmeaboutherbrother——andInevercanbegratefulenough——andthatmakesmealmostfreetosuggest——"
Shestoppedagain,andheasked,hardily,"What?"
"Oh,nothing。Itisn’tformetoremindmypastor,myghostlyadviser"——
shepulleddownhermouthandglancedathimdemurely——"andIwillonlyofferthegeneralizationthatagirlisneversomuchindangerofhavingherheartbrokenaswhenshe’shaditbroken——Oh,areyouleavingme?"
shecried,asBreckonrosefromhischair。
"Well,then,sendBoynetome。"Shebrokeintoalaughashefaltered。
"Areyougoingtositdownagain?Thatisright。AndIwon’ttalkanymoreaboutMissKenton。"
"Idon’tmindtalkingofher,"saidBreckon。"Perhapsitwillevenbewelltodosoifyouareinearnest。Thoughitstrikesmethatyouhaveratherrenouncedtherighttocriticiseme。"
"Now,isthatlogical?Itseemstomethatinputtingmyselfintheattitudeofafinalfriendatthestart,andrefusingtobeanythingmore,Ileaveestablishedmyrighttocriticiseyouonthefirmestbasis。
Ican’tpossiblybesuspectedofinterestedmotives。Besides,you’vejustbeencriticizingme,ifyouwantawoman’sreason!"
"Well,goon。"
"Why,Ihadfinished。That’stheamusingpart。IshouldhavesupposedthatIcouldgoonforeveraboutMissKenton,butIhavenothingtogoupon。Shehaskepthersecretverywell,andsohavetherestofthem。