Themoonlightglistenedupontracesofthegildingwhichhadoncecoveredbothriderandsteed;thesewerealmostgone,buttheaspectofdignitywasstillperfect,clothingthefigureasitwerewithanimperialrobeoflight。Itisthemostmajesticrepresentationofthekinglycharacterthatevertheworldhasseen。Asightoftheoldheathenemperorisenoughtocreateanevanescentsentimentofloyaltyeveninademocraticbosom,soaugustdoeshelook,sofittorule,soworthyofman'sprofoundesthomageandobedience,soinevitablyattractiveofhislove。
Hestretchesforthhishandwithanairofgrandbeneficenceandunlimitedauthority,asifutteringadecreefromwhichnoappealwaspermissible,butinwhichtheobedientsubjectwouldfindhishighestinterestsconsulted;acommandthatwasinitselfabenediction。
"Thesculptorofthisstatueknewwhatakingshouldbe,"observedKenyon,"andknew,likewise,theheartofmankind,andhowitcravesatrueruler,underwhatevertitle,asachilditsfather"
"O,iftherewerebutonesuchmanasthis?"exclaimedMiriam。"Onesuchmaninanage,andoneinalltheworld;thenhowspeedilywouldthestrife,wickedness,andsorrowofuspoorcreaturesberelieved。Wewouldcometohimwithourgriefs,whatevertheymightbe,——evenapoor,frailwomanburdenedwithherheavyheart,——andlaythemathisfeet,andneverneedtotakethemupagain。Therightfulkingwouldseetoall。"
"Whatanideaoftheregalofficeandduty!"saidKenyon,withasmile。
"Itisawoman'sideaofthewholemattertoperfection。ItisHilda's,too,nodoubt?"
"No,"answeredthequietHilda;"Ishouldneverlookforsuchassistancefromanearthlyking。"
"Hilda,myreligiousHilda,"whisperedMiriam,suddenlydrawingthegirlclosetoher,"doyouknowhowitiswithme?IwouldgiveallIhaveorhope——mylife,Ohowfreely——foroneinstantofyourtrustinGod!Youlittleguessmyneedofit。Youreallythink,then,thatHeseesandcaresforus?"
"Miriam,youfrightenme。"
"Hush,hush?donotletthemhearyet!"whisperedMiriam。"Ifrightenyou,yousay;forHeaven'ssake,how?AmIstrange?Isthereanythingwildinmybehavior?"
"Onlyforthatmoment,"repliedHilda,"becauseyouseemedtodoubtGod'sprovidence。"
"Wewilltalkofthatanothertime,"saidherfriend。"Justnowitisverydarktome。"
OntheleftofthePiazzaoftheCampidoglio,asyoufacecityward,andattheheadofthelongandstatelyflightofstepsdescendingfromtheCapitolineHilltotheleveloflowerRome,thereisanarrowlaneorpassage。Intothisthepartyofourfriendsnowturned。Thepathascendedalittle,andranalongunderthewallsofapalace,butsoonpassedthroughagateway,andterminatedinasmallpavedcourtyard。Itwasborderedbyalowparapet。
Thespot,forsomereasonorother,impressedthemasexceedinglylonely。
Ononesidewasthegreatheightofthepalace,withthemoonshinefallingoverit,andshowingallthewindowsbarredandshuttered。Notahumaneyecouldlookdownintothelittlecourtyard,eveniftheseeminglydesertedpalacehadatenant。Onallothersidesofitsnarrowcompasstherewasnothingbuttheparapet,whichasitnowappearedwasbuiltrightontheedgeofasteepprecipice。Gazingfromitsimminentbrow,thepartybeheldacrowdedconfusionofroofsspreadingoverthewholespacebetweenthemandthelineofhillsthatlaybeyondtheTiber。A
long,mistywreath,justdenseenoughtocatchalittleofthemoonshine,floatedabovethehouses,midwaytowardsthehillyline,andshowedthecourseoftheunseenriver。Farawayontheright,themoongleamedonthedomeofSt。Peter'saswellasonmanylesserandnearerdomes。
"Whatabeautifulviewofthecity!"exclaimedHilda;"andIneversawRomefromthispointbefore。"
"Itoughttoaffordagoodprospect,"saidthesculptor;"foritwasfromthispoint——atleastweareatlibertytothinkso,ifwechoose——thatmanyafamousRomancaughthislastglimpseofhisnativecity,andofallotherearthlythings。ThisisoneofthesidesoftheTarpeianRock。
Lookovertheparapet,andseewhatasheertumbletheremightstillbeforatraitor,inspiteofthethirtyfeetofsoilthathaveaccumulatedatthefootoftheprecipice。"
Theyallbentover,andsawthattheclifffellperpendicularlydownwardtoaboutthedepth,orrathermore,atwhichthetallpalaceroseinheightabovetheirheads。Notthatitwasstillthenatural,shaggyfrontoftheoriginalprecipice;foritappearedtobecasedinancientstonework,throughwhichtheprimevalrockshoweditsfacehereandtheregrimlyanddoubtfully。Mossesgrewontheslightprojections,andlittleshrubssproutedoutofthecrevices,butcouldnotmuchsoftenthesternaspectofthecliff。BrightlyastheItalianmoonlightfelladowntheheight,itscarcelyshowedwhatportionofitwasman'sworkandwhatwasnature's,butleftitallinverymuchthesamekindofambiguityandhalf-knowledgeinwhichantiquariansgenerallyleavetheidentityofRomanremains。
Theroofsofsomepoor-lookinghouses,whichhadbeenbuiltagainstthebaseandsidesofthecliff,rosenearlymidwaytothetop;butfromanangleoftheparapettherewasaprecipitousplungestraightdownwardintoastonepavedcourt。
"IpreferthistoanyothersiteashavingbeenveritablytheTraitor'sLeap,"saidKenyon,"becauseitwassoconvenienttotheCapitol。ItwasanadmirableideaofthosesternoldfellowstoflingtheirpoliticalcriminalsdownfromtheverysummitonwhichstoodtheSenateHouseandJove'sTemple,emblemsoftheinstitutionswhichtheysoughttoviolate。
Itsymbolizeshowsuddenwasthefallinthosedaysfromtheutmostheightofambitiontoitsprofoundestruin。"
"Come,come;itismidnight,"criedanotherartist,"toolatetobemoralizinghere。Weareliterallydreamingontheedgeofaprecipice。
Letusgohome。"
"Itistime,indeed,"saidHilda。
ThesculptorwasnotwithouthopesthathemightbefavoredwiththesweetchargeofescortingHildatothefootofhertower。Accordingly,whenthepartypreparedtoturnback,heofferedherhisarm。Hildaatfirstacceptedit;butwhentheyhadpartlythreadedthepassagebetweenthelittlecourtyardandthePiazzadelCampidoglio,shediscoveredthatMiriamhadremainedbehind。
"Imustgoback,"saidshe,withdrawingherarmfromKenyon's;"butpraydonotcomewithme。SeveraltimesthiseveningIhavehadafancythatMiriamhadsomethingonhermind,somesorroworperplexity,which,perhaps,itwouldrelievehertotellmeabout。No,no;donotturnback!
DonatellowillbeasufficientguardianforMiriamandme。"
Thesculptorwasagooddealmortified,andperhapsalittleangry:butheknewHilda'smoodofgentledecisionandindependencetoowellnottoobeyher。Hethereforesufferedthefearlessmaidentoreturnalone。
MeanwhileMiriamhadnotnoticedthedepartureoftherestofthecompany;
sheremainedontheedgeoftheprecipiceandDonatelloalongwithher。
"Itwouldbeafatalfall,still,"shesaidtoherself,lookingovertheparapet,andshudderingashereyemeasuredthedepth。"Yes;surelyyes!
Evenwithouttheweightofanoverburdenedheart,ahumanbodywouldfallheavilyenoughuponthosestonestoshakeallitsjointsasunder。Howsoonitwouldbeover!"
Donatello,ofwhosepresenceshewaspossiblynotaware,nowpressedclosertoherside;andhe,too,likeMiriam,bentoverthelowparapetandtrembledviolently。Yetheseemedtofeelthatperilousfascinationwhichhauntsthebrowofprecipices,temptingtheunwaryonetoflinghimselfoverfortheveryhorrorofthething;for,afterdrawinghastilyback,heagainlookeddown,thrustinghimselfoutfartherthanbefore。Hethenstoodsilentabriefspace,struggling,perhaps,tomakehimselfconsciousofthehistoricassociationsofthescene。
"Whatareyouthinkingof,Donatello?"askedMiriam。
"Whoarethey,"saidhe,lookingearnestlyinherface,"whohavebeenflungoverhereindaysgoneby?"
"Menthatcumberedtheworld,"shereplied。"Menwhoseliveswerethebaneoftheirfellowcreatures。Menwhopoisonedtheair,whichisthecommonbreathofall,fortheirownselfishpurposes。TherewasshortworkwithsuchmeninoldRomantimes。Justinthemomentoftheirtriumph,ahand,asofanavenginggiant,clutchedthem,anddashedthewretchesdownthisprecipice。"
"Wasitwelldone?"askedtheyoungman。
"Itwaswelldone,"answeredMiriam;"innocentpersonsweresavedbythedestructionofaguiltyone,whodeservedhisdoom。"
Whilethisbriefconversationpassed,Donatellohadonceortwiceglancedasidewithawatchfulair,justasahoundmayoftenbeseentotakesidelongnoteofsomesuspiciousobject,whilehegiveshismoredirectattentiontosomethingnearerat,hand。Miriamseemednowfirsttobecomeawareofthesilencethathadfolloweduponthecheerfultalkandlaughterofafewmomentsbefore。
Lookinground,sheperceivedthatallhercompanyofmerryfriendshadretired,andHilda,too,inwhosesoftandquietpresenceshehadalwaysanindescribablefeelingofsecurity。Allgone;andonlyherselfandDonatellolefthangingoverthebrowoftheominousprecipice。
Notso,however;notentirelyalone!Inthebasementwallofthepalace,shadedfromthemoon,therewasadeep,emptyniche,thathadprobablyoncecontainedastatue;notempty,either;forafigurenowcameforthfromitandapproachedMiriam。Shemusthavehadcausetodreadsomeunspeakableevilfromthisstrangepersecutor,andtoknowthatthiswastheverycrisisofhercalamity;forashedrewnear,suchacold,sickdespaircreptoverherthatitimpededherbreath,andbenumbedhernaturalpromptitudeofthought。Miriamseemeddreamilytorememberfallingonherknees;but,inherwholerecollectionofthatwildmoment,shebeheldherselfasinadimshow,andcouldnotwelldistinguishwhatwasdoneandsuffered;no,notevenwhethershewerereallyanactorandsuffererinthescene。
Hilda,meanwhile,hadseparatedherselffromthesculptor,andturnedbacktorejoinherfriend。Atadistance,shestillheardthemirthofherlatecompanions,whoweregoingdownthecitywarddescentoftheCapitolineHill;theyhadsetupanewstaveofmelody,inwhichherownsoftvoice,aswellasthepowerfulsweetnessofMiriam's,wassadlymissed。
Thedoorofthelittlecourtyardhadswunguponitshinges,andpartlycloseditself。Hildawhosenativegentlenesspervadedallhermovements
wasquietlyopeningit,whenshewasstartled,midway,bythenoiseofastrugglewithin,beginningandendingallinonebreathlessinstant。
Alongwithit,orcloselysucceedingit,wasaloud,fearfulcry,whichquiveredupwardthroughtheair,andsankquiveringdownwardtotheearth。
Then,asilence!PoorHildahadlookedintothecourt-yard,andsawthewholequickpassageofadeed,whichtookbutthatlittletimetograveitselfintheeternaladamant。
CHAPTERXIX
THEFAUN'STRANSFORMATION
Thedoorofthecourtyardswungslowly,andcloseditselfofitsownaccord。MiriamandDonatellowerenowalonethere。Sheclaspedherhands,andlookedwildlyattheyoungman,whoseformseemedtohavedilated,andwhoseeyesblazedwiththefierceenergythathadsuddenlyinspiredhim。Ithadkindledhimintoaman;ithaddevelopedwithinhimanintelligencewhichwasnonativecharacteristicoftheDonatellowhomwehaveheretoforeknown。Butthatsimpleandjoyouscreaturewasgoneforever。
"Whathaveyoudone?"saidMiriam,inahorror-strickenwhisper。
TheglowofragewasstillluridonDonatello'sface,andnowflashedoutagainfromhiseyes。
"Ididwhatoughttobedonetoatraitor!"hereplied。"Ididwhatyoureyesbademedo,whenIaskedthemwithmine,asIheldthewretchovertheprecipice!"
TheselastwordsstruckMiriamlikeabullet。Coulditbeso?Hadhereyesprovokedorassentedtothisdeed?Shehadnotknownit。But,alas!
lookingbackintothefrenzyandturmoilofthescenejustacted,shecouldnotdeny——shewasnotsurewhetheritmightbeso,orno——thatawildjoyhadflamedupinherheart,whenshebeheldherpersecutorinhismortalperil。Wasithorror?——orecstasy?orbothinone?Betheemotionwhatitmight,ithadblazedupmoremadly,whenDonatelloflunghisvictimoffthecliff,andmoreandmore,whilehisshriekwentquiveringdownward。Withthedeadthumpuponthestonesbelowhadcomeanunutterablehorror。
"Andmyeyesbadeyoudoit!"repeatedshe。
Theybothleanedovertheparapet,andgazeddownwardasearnestlyasifsomeinestimabletreasurehadfallenover,andwereyetrecoverable。Onthepavementbelowwasadarkmass,lyinginaheap,withlittleornothinghumaninitsappearance,exceptthatthehandswerestretchedout,asiftheymighthaveclutchedforamomentatthesmallsquarestones。
Buttherewasnomotioninthemnow。Miriamwatchedtheheapofmortalitywhileshecouldcountahundred,whichshetookpainstodo。Nostir;
notafingermoved!
"Youhavekilledhim,Donatello!Heisquitedead!"saidshe。"Stonedead!WouldIwereso,too!"
"Didyounotmeanthatheshoulddie?"sternlyaskedDonatello,stillintheglowofthatintelligencewhichpassionhaddevelopedinhim。"Therewasshorttimetoweighthematter;buthehadhistrialinthatbreathortwowhileIheldhimoverthecliff,andhissentenceinthatoneglance,whenyoureyesrespondedtomine!SaythatIhaveslainhimagainstyourwill,——saythathediedwithoutyourwholeconsent,——and,inanotherbreath,youshallseemelyingbesidehim。"
"O,never!"criedMiriam。"Myone,ownfriend!Never,never,never!"
Sheturnedtohim,——theguilty,bloodstained,lonelywoman,——sheturnedtoherfellowcriminal,theyouth,solatelyinnocent,whomshehaddrawnintoherdoom。Shepressedhimclose,closetoherbosom,withaclingingembracethatbroughttheirtwoheartstogether,tillthehorrorandagonyofeachwascombinedintooneemotion,andthatakindofrapture。
"Yes,Donatello,youspeakthetruth!"saidshe;"myheartconsentedtowhatyoudid。Wetwoslewyonderwretch。Thedeedknotsustogether,fortimeandeternity,likethecoilofaserpent!"
Theythrewoneotherglanceattheheapofdeathbelow,toassurethemselvesthatitwasthere;solikeadreamwasthewholething。Thentheyturnedfromthatfatalprecipice,andcameoutofthecourtyard,arminarm,heartinheart。Instinctively,theywereheedfulnottoseverthemselvessomuchasapaceortwofromoneanother,forfearoftheterroranddeadlychillthatwouldthenceforthwaitforthemmsolitude。
Theirdeed——thecrimewhichDonatellowrought,andMiriamacceptedontheinstant——hadwreatheditself,asshesaid,likeaserpent,ininextricablelinksaboutboththeirsouls,anddrewthemintoone,byitsterriblecontractilepower。Itwascloserthanamarriagebond。Sointimate,inthosefirstmoments,wastheunion,thatitseemedasiftheirnewsympathyannihilatedallotherties,andthattheywerereleasedfromthechainofhumanity;anewsphere,aspeciallaw,hadbeencreatedforthemalone。Theworldcouldnotcomenearthem;theyweresafe!
WhentheyreachedtheflightofstepsleadingdownwardfromtheCapitol,therewasafaroffnoiseofsingingandlaughter。Swift,indeed,hadbeentherushofthecrisisthatwascomeandgone!Thiswasstillthemerrimentofthepartythathadsorecentlybeentheircompanions。Theyrecognizedthevoiceswhich,alittlewhileago,hadaccordedandsungincadencewiththeirown。Buttheywerefamiliarvoicesnomore;theysoundedstrangely,and,asitwere,outofthedepthsofspace;soremotewasallthatpertainedtothepastlifeoftheseguiltyones,inthemoralseclusionthathadsuddenlyextendeditselfaroundthem。Buthowclose,andevercloser,didthebreathoftheimmeasurablewaste,thatlaybetweenthemandallbrotherhoodorsisterhood,nowpressthemonewithintheother!
"Ofriend!"criedMiriam,soputtinghersoulintothewordthatittookaheavyrichnessofmeaning,andseemednevertohavebeenspokenbefore,"Ofriend,areyouconscious,asIam,ofthiscompanionshiPthatknitsourheart-stringstogether?"
"Ifeelit,Miriam,"saidDonatello。"Wedrawonebreath;weliveonelife!"
"Onlyyesterday,"continuedMiriam;"nay,onlyashorthalf-hourago,I
shiveredinanicysolitude。Nofriendship,nosisterhood,couldcomenearenoughtokeepthewarmthwithinmyheart。Inaninstantallischanged!Therecanbenomoreloneliness!"
"None,Miriam!"saidDonatello。
"None,mybeautifulone!"respondedMiriam,gazinginhisface,whichhadtakenahigher,almostanheroicaspect,fromthestrengthofpassion。
"None,myinnocentone!Surely,itisnocrimethatwehavecommitted。
Onewretchedandworthlesslifehasbeensacrificedtocementtwootherlivesforevermore。"
"Forevermore,Miriam!"saidDonatello;"cementedwithhisblood!"
Theyoungmanstartedatthewordwhichhehadhimselfspoken;itmaybethatitbroughthome,tothesimplicityofhisimagination,whathehadnotbeforedreamedof,——theever-increasingloathsomenessofaunionthatconsistsinguilt。Cementedwithblood,whichwouldcorruptandgrowmorenoisomeforeverandforever,butbindthemnonethelessstrictlyforthat。
"Forgetit!Castitallbehindyou!"saidMiriam,detecting,byhersympathy,thepangthatwasinhisheart。"Thedeedhasdoneitsoffice,andhasnoexistenceanymore。"
Theyflungthepastbehindthem,asshecounselled,orelsedistilledfromitafiery,intoxication,whichsufficedtocarrythemtriumphantlythroughthosefirstmomentsoftheirdoom。Forguilthasitsmomentofrapturetoo。Theforemostresultofabrokenlawiseveranecstaticsenseoffreedom。Andthusthereexhaledupwardoutoftheirdarksympathy,atthebaseofwhichlayahumancorpseabliss,oraninsanity,whichtheunhappypairimaginedtobewellworththesleepyinnocencethatwasforeverlosttothem。
Astheirspiritsrosetothesolemnmadnessoftheoccasion,theywentonward,notstealthily,notfearfully,butwithastatelygaitandaspect。
Passionlentthemasitdoestomeanershapesitsbriefnobilityofcarriage。TheytrodthroughthestreetsofRome,asifthey,too,wereamongthemajesticandguiltyshadows,that,fromageslonggoneby,havehauntedtheblood-stainedcity。And,atMiriam'ssuggestion,theyturnedaside,forthesakeoftreadingloftilypasttheoldsiteofPompey'sForum。
"Fortherewasagreatdeeddonehere!"shesaid,——"adeedofbloodlikeours!Whoknowsbutwemaymeetthehighandever-sadfraternityofCaesar'smurderers,andexchangeasalutation?"
"Aretheyourbrethren,now?"askedDonatello。
"Yes;allofthem,"saidMiriam,——"andmanyanother,whomtheworldlittledreamsof,hasbeenmadeourbrotheroroursister,bywhatwehavedonewithinthishour!"
Andatthethoughtsheshivered。Wherethenwastheseclusion,theremoteness,thestrange,lonesomeParadise,intowhichsheandheronecompanionhadbeentransportedbytheircrime?Wasthere,indeed,nosuchrefuge,butonlyacrowdedthoroughfareandjostlingthrongofcriminals?
Andwasittrue,thatwhateverhandhadablood-stainonit,——orhadpouredoutpoison,——orstrangledababeatitsbirth,——orclutchedagrandsire'sthroat,hesleeping,androbbedhimofhisfewlastbreaths,——hadnowtherighttoofferitselfinfellowshipwiththeirtwohands?
Toocertainly,thatrightexisted。Itisaterriblethought,thatanindividualwrong-doingmeltsintothegreatmassofhumancrime,andmakesus,whodreamedonlyofourownlittleseparatesin,——makesusguiltyofthewhole。AndthusMiriamandherloverwerenotaninsulatedpair,butmembersofaninnumerableconfraternityofguiltyones,allshudderingateachother。
"Butnotnow;notyet,"shemurmuredtoherself。"To-night,atleast,thereshallbenoremorse!"
Wanderingwithoutapurpose,itsochancedthattheyturnedintoastreet,atoneextremityofwhichstoodHilda'stower。Therewasalightinherhighchamber;alight,too,attheVirgin'sshrine;andtheglimmerofthesetwowastheloftiestlightbeneaththestars。MiriamdrewDonatello'sarm,tomakehimstop,andwhiletheystoodatsomedistancelookingatHilda'swindow,theybeheldherapproachandthrowitopen。
Sheleanedfarforth,andextendedherclaspedhandstowardsthesky。
"Thegood,purechild!Sheispraying,Donatello,"saidMiriam,withakindofsimplejoyatwitnessingthedevoutnessofherfriend。Thenherownsinrusheduponher,andsheshouted,withtherichstrengthofhervoice,"Prayforus,Hilda;weneedit!"
WhetherHildaheardandrecognizedthevoicewecannottell。Thewindowwasimmediatelyclosed,andherformdisappearedfrombehindthesnowycurtain。Miriamfeltthistobeatokenthatthecryofhercondemnedspiritwasshutoutofheaven。
CHAPTERXX
THEBURIALCHANT
TheChurchoftheCapuchinswhere,asthereadermayremember,someofouracquaintanceshadmadeanengagementtomeetstandsalittleasidefromthePiazzaBarberini。Thither,atthehouragreedupon,onthemorningafterthesceneslastdescribed,MiriamandDonatellodirectedtheirsteps。Atnotimearepeoplesosedulouslycarefultokeeptheirtriflingappointments,attendtotheirordinaryoccupations,andthusputacommonplaceaspectonlife,aswhenconsciousofsomesecretthatifsuspectedwouldmakethemlookmonstrousinthegeneraleye。
Yethowtameandwearisomeistheimpressionofallordinarythingsinthecontrastwithsuchafact!Howsickandtremulous,thenextmorning,isthespiritthathasdaredsomuchonlythenightbefore!Howicycoldistheheart,whenthefervor,thewildecstasyofpassionhasfadedaway,andsunkdownamongthedeadashesofthefirethatblazedsofiercely,andwasfedbytheverysubstanceofitslife!Howfaintlydoesthecriminalstaggeronward,lackingtheimpulseofthatstrongmadnessthathurriedhimintoguilt,andtreacherouslydesertshiminthemidstofit!
WhenMiriamandDonatellodrewnearthechurch,theyfoundonlyKenyonawaitingthemonthesteps。Hildahadlikewisepromisedtobeoftheparty,buthadnotyetappeared。Meetingthesculptor,Miriamputaforceuponherselfandsucceededincreatinganartificialflowofspirits,which,toanybutthenicestobservation,wasquiteaseffectiveasanaturalone。ShespokesympathizinglytothesculptoronthesubjectofHilda'sabsence,andsomewhatannoyedhimbyalludinginDonatello'shearingtoanattachmentwhichhadneverbeenopenlyavowed,thoughperhapsplainlyenoughbetrayed。HefanciedthatMiriamdidnotquiterecognizethelimitsofthestrictestdelicacy;heevenwentsofarastogeneralize,andconcludewithinhimself,thatthisdeficiencyisamoregeneralfailinginwomanthaninman,thehighestrefinementbeingamasculineattribute。
Buttheideawasunjusttothesexatlarge,andespeciallysotothispoorMiriam,whowashardlyresponsibleforherfranticeffortstobegay。
Possibly,moreover,theniceactionofthemindissetajarbyanyviolentshock,asofgreatmisfortuneorgreatcrime,sothatthefinerperceptionsmaybeblurredthenceforth,andtheeffectbetraceableinalltheminutestconductoflife。
"Didyouseeanythingofthedearchildafteryouleftus?"askedMiriam,stillkeepingHildaashertopicofconversation。"Imissedhersadlyonmywayhomeward;fornothinginsuresmesuchdelightfulandinnocentdreamsIhaveexperiencedittwentytimesasatalklateintheeveningwithHilda。"
"SoIshouldimagine,"saidthesculptorgravely;"butitisanadvantagethatIhavelittleornoopportunityofenjoying。IknownotwhatbecameofHildaaftermypartingfromyou。Shewasnotespeciallymycompanioninanypartofourwalk。ThelastIsawofhershewashasteningbacktorejoinyouinthecourtyardofthePalazzoCaffarelli。"
"Impossible!"criedMiriam,starting。
"Thendidyounotseeheragain?"inquiredKenyon,insomealarm。
"Notthere,"answeredMiriamquietly;"indeed,Ifollowedprettycloselyontheheelsoftherestoftheparty。ButdonotbealarmedonHilda'saccount;theVirginisboundtowatchoverthegoodchild,forthesakeofthepietywithwhichshekeepsthelampalightathershrine。Andbesides,IhavealwaysfeltthatHildaisjustassafeintheseevilstreetsofRomeasherwhitedoveswhentheyflydownwardsfromthetowertop,andruntoandfroamongthehorses'feet。ThereiscertainlyaprovidenceonpurposeforHilda,iffornootherhumancreature。"
"Ireligiouslybelieveit,"rejoinedthesculptor;"andyetmymindwouldbetheeasier,ifIknewthatshehadreturnedsafelytohertower。"
"Thenmakeyourselfquiteeasy,"answeredMiriam。"IsawheranditisthelastsweetsightthatIrememberleaningfromherwindowmidwaybetweenearthandsky!"
KenyonnowlookedatDonatello。
"Youseemoutofspirits,mydearfriend,"heobserved。"ThislanguidRomanatmosphereisnottheairywinethatyouwereaccustomedtobreatheathome。IhavenotforgottenyourhospitableinvitationtomeetyouthissummeratyourcastleamongtheApennines。Itismyfixedpurposetocome,Iassureyou。Weshallbothbethebetterforsomedeepdraughtsofthemountainbreezes。"
"Itmayhe,"saidDonatello,withunwontedsombreness;"theoldhouseseemedjoyouswhenIwasachild。ButasIrememberitnowitwasagrimplace,too。"
Thesculptorlookedmoreattentivelyattheyoungman,andwassurprisedandalarmedtoobservehowentirelythefine,freshglowofanimalspiritshaddepartedoutofhisface。Hitherto,moreover,evenwhilehewasstandingperfectlystill,therehadbeenakindofpossiblegambolindicatedinhisaspect。Itwasquitegonenow。Allhisyouthfulgayety,andwithithissimplicityofmanner,waseclipsed,ifnotutterlyextinct。
"Youaresurelyill,mydearfellow,"exclaimedKenyon。
"AmI?Perhapsso,"saidDonatelloindifferently;"Ineverhavebeenill,andknownotwhatitmaybe。"
"Donotmakethepoorladfancy-sink,"whisperedMiriam,pullingthesculptor'ssleeve。"Heisofanaturetoliedownanddieatonce,ifhefindshimselfdrawingsuchmelancholybreathsasweordinarypeopleareenforcedtoburdenourlungswithal。Butwemustgethimawayfromthisold,dreamyanddrearyRome,wherenobodybuthimselfeverthoughtofbeinggay。Itsinfluencesaretooheavytosustainthelifeofsuchacreature。"
TheaboveconversationhadpassedchieflyonthestepsoftheCappuccini;
and,havingsaidsomuch,Miriamliftedtheleatherncurtainthathangsbeforeallchurch-doorsinitaly。
"
Hildahasforgottenherappointment,"sheobserved,"orelsehermaidenslumbersareverysoundthismorning。Wewillwaitforhernolonger。"
Theyenteredthenave。Theinteriorofthechurchwasofmoderatecompass,butofgoodarchitecture,withavaultedroofoverthenave,andarowofduskychapelsoneithersideofitinsteadofthecustomaryside-aisles。
Eachchapelhaditssaintlyshrine,hungroundwithofferings;itspictureabovethealtar,althoughcloselyveiled,ifbyanypainterofrenown;anditshallowedtapers,burningcontinually,tosetalightthedevotionoftheworshippers。Thepavementofthenavewaschieflyofmarble,andlookedoldandbroken,andwasshabbilypatchedhereandtherewithtilesofbrick;itwasinlaid,moreover,withtombstonesofthemediaevaltaste,onwhichwerequaintlysculpturedborders,figures,andportraitsinbas-relief,andLatinepitaphs,nowgrownillegiblebythetreadoffootstepsoverthem。ThechurchappertainstoaconventofCapuchinmonks;
and,asusuallyhappenswhenareverendbrotherhoodhavesuchanedificeincharge,thefloorseemednevertohavebeenscrubbedorswept,andhadaslittletheaspectofsanctityasakennel;whereas,inallchurchesofnunneries,themaidensisterhoodinvariablyshowthepurityoftheirownheartsbythevirgincleanlinessandvisibleconsecrationofthewallsandpavement。
Asourfriendsenteredthechurch,theireyesrestedatonceonaremarkableobjectinthecentreofthenave。Itwaseithertheactualbody,or,asmightratherhavebeensupposedatfirstglance,thecunninglywroughtwaxenfaceandsuitablydrapedfigureofadeadmonk。
Thisimageofwaxorclay-coldreality,whicheveritmightbe,layonaslightlyelevatedbier,withthreetallcandlesburningoneachside,anothertallcandleatthehead,andanotheratthefoot。Therewasmusic,too;inharmonywithsofunerealaspectacle。Frombeneaththepavementofthechurchcamethedeep,lugubriousstrainofaDeProfundis,whichsoundedlikeanutteranceofthetombitself;sodismallydiditrumblethroughtheburialvaults,andoozeupamongtheflatgravestonesandsadepitaphs,fillingthechurchaswithagloomymist。
"Imustlookmorecloselyatthatdeadmonkbeforeweleavethechurch,"
remarkedthesculptor。"Inthestudyofmyart,Ihavegainedmanyahintfromthedeadwhichthelivingcouldneverhavegivenme。"
"Icanwellimagineit,"answeredMiriam。"Oneclayimageisreadilycopiedfromanother。ButletusfirstseeGuido'spicture。Thelightisfavorablenow。"
Accordingly,theyturnedintothefirstchapelontherighthand,asyouenterthenave;andtheretheybeheld,——notthepicture,indeed,——butacloselydrawncurtain。ThechurchmenofItalymakenoscrupleofsacrificingtheverypurposeforwhichaworkofsacredarthasbeencreated;thatofopeningtheway;forreligioussentimentthroughthequickmediumofsight,bybringingangels,saints,andmartyrsdownvisiblyuponearth;ofsacrificingthishighpurpose,and,foraughttheyknow,thewelfareofmanysoulsalongwithit,tothehopeofapaltryfee。
Everyworkbyanartistofcelebrityishiddenbehindaveil,andseldomrevealed,excepttoProtestants,whoscornitasanobjectofdevotion,andvalueitonlyforitsartisticmerit。
Thesacristanwasquicklyfound,however,andlostnotimeindisclosingtheyouthfulArchangel,settinghisdivinefootontheheadofhisfallenadversary。Itwasanimageofthatgreatestoffutureevents,whichwehopeforsoardently,atleast,whileweareyoung,——butfindsoverylongincoming,thetriumphofgoodnessovertheevilprinciple。
"WherecanHildabe?"exclaimedKenyon。"Itisnothercustomevertofailinanengagement;andthepresentonewasmadeentirelyonheraccount。Exceptherself,youknow,wewereallagreedinourrecollectionofthepicture。"
"Butwewerewrong,andHildaright,asyouperceive,"saidMiriam,directinghisattentiontothepointonwhichtheirdisputeofthenightbeforehadarisen。"Itisnoteasytodetectherastrayasregardsanypictureonwhichthoseclear,softeyesofhershaveeverrested。"
"Andshehasstudiedandadmiredfewpicturessomuchasthis,"observedthesculptor。"Nowonder;forthereishardlyanothersobeautifulintheworld。WhatanexpressionofheavenlyseverityintheArchangel'sface!Thereisadegreeofpain,trouble,anddisgustatbeingbroughtincontactwithsin,evenforthepurposeofquellingandpunishingit;andyetacelestialtranquillitypervadeshiswholebeing。"
"Ihaveneverbeenable,"saidMiriam,"toadmirethispicturenearlysomuchasHildadoes,initsmoralandintellectualaspect。Ifitcosthermoretroubletobegood,ifhersoulwerelesswhiteandpure,shewouldbeamorecompetentcriticofthispicture,andwouldestimateitnothalfsohigh。Iseeitsdefectstodaymoreclearlythaneverbefore。"
"Whataresomeofthem?"askedKenyon。
"ThatArchangel,now,"Miriamcontinued;"howfairhelooks,withhisunruffledwings,withhisunhackedsword,andcladinhisbrightarmor,andthatexquisitelyfittingsky-bluetunic,cutinthelatestParadisiacalmode!Whatadaintyairofthefirstcelestialsociety!
Withwhathalf-scornfuldelicacyhesetshisprettilysandalledfootontheheadofhisprostratefoe!But,isitthusthatvirtuelooksthemomentafteritsdeathstrugglewithevil?No,no;IcouldhavetoldGuidobetter。AfullthirdoftheArchangel'sfeathersshouldhavebeentornfromhiswings;therestallruffled,tilltheylookedlikeSatan'sown!Hisswordshouldbestreamingwithblood,andperhapsbrokenhalfwaytothehilt;hisarmorcrushed,hisrobesrent,hisbreastgory;ableedinggashonhisbrow,cuttingrightacrossthesternscowlofbattle!
Heshouldpresshisfootharddownupontheoldserpent,asifhisverysouldependeduponit,feelinghimsquirmmightily,anddoubtingwhetherthefightwerehalfoveryet,andhowthevictorymightturn!And,withallthisfierceness,thisgrimness,thisunutterablehorror,thereshouldstillbesomethinghigh,tender,andholyinMichael'seyes,andaroundhismouth。Butthebattleneverwassuchachild'splayasGuido'sdapperArchangelseemstohavefoundit。"
"ForHeaven'ssake,Miriam,"criedKenyon,astonishedatthewildenergyofhertalk;"paintthepictureofman'sstruggleagainstsinaccordingtoyourownidea!Ithinkitwillbeamasterpiece。"
"Thepicturewouldhaveitsshareoftruth,Iassureyou,"sheanswered;
"butIamsadlyafraidthevictorywouldfailonthewrongside。Justfancyasmoke-blackened,fiery-eyeddemonbestridingthatniceyoungangel,clutchinghiswhitethroatwithoneofhishinderclaws;andgivingatriumphantwhiskofhisscalytail,withapoisonousdartattheendofit!
Thatiswhattheyrisk,poorsouls,whodobattlewithMichael'senemy。"
Itnow,perhaps,struckMiriamthathermentaldisquietudewasimpellinghertoanunduevivacity;forshepaused,andturnedawayfromthepicture,withoutsayingawordmoreaboutit。Allthiswhile,moreover,Donatellohadbeenveryillatease,castingawe-strickenandinquiringglancesatthedeadmonk;asifhecouldlooknowherebutatthatghastlyobject,merelybecauseitshockedhim。Deathhasprobablyapeculiarhorrorandugliness,whenforceduponthecontemplationofapersonsonaturallyjoyousasDonatello,wholivedwithcompletenessinthepresentmoment,andwasabletoformbutvagueimagesofthefuture。
"Whatisthematter,Donatello?"whisperedMiriamsoothingly。"Youarequiteinatremble,mypoorfriend!Whatisit?"
"Thisawfulchantfrombeneaththechurch,,"answeredDonatello;"itoppressesme;theairissoheavywithitthatIcanscarcelydrawmybreath。Andyonderdeadmonk!Ifeelasifhewerelyingrightacrossmyheart。"
"Takecourage!"whisperedsheagain"come,wewillapproachclosetothedeadmonk。Theonlyway,insuchcases,istostaretheuglyhorrorrightintheface;neverasidelongglance,norhalf-look,forthosearewhatshowafrightfillthinginitsfrightfullestaspect。Leanonme,dearestfriend!Myheartisverystrongforbothofus。Bebrave;andalliswell。"
Donatellohungbackforamoment,butthenpressedclosetoMiriam'sside,andsufferedhertoleadhimuptothebier。Thesculptorfollowed。A
numberofpersons,chieflywomen,withseveralchildrenamongthem,werestandingaboutthecorpse;andasourthreefriendsdrewnigh,amotherkneltdown,andcausedherlittleboytokneel,bothkissingthebeadsandcrucifixthathungfromthemonk'sgirdle。Possiblyhehaddiedintheodorofsanctity;or,atallevents,deathandhisbrownfrockandcowlmadeasacredimageofthisreverendfather。
CHAPTERXXI
THEDEADCAPUCHIN
Thedeadmonkwasclad,aswhenalive,inthebrownwoollenfrockoftheCapuchins,withthehooddrawnoverhishead,butsoastoleavethefeaturesandaportionofthebearduncovered。Hisrosaryandcrosshungathisside;hishandswerefoldedoverhisbreast;hisfeethewasofabarefootedorderinhislifetime,andcontinuedsoindeathprotrudedfrombeneathhishabit,stiffandstark,withamorewaxenlookthanevenhisface。Theyweretiedtogetherattheankleswithablackribbon。
Thecountenance,aswehavealreadysaid,wasfullydisplayed。Ithadapurplishhueuponit,unlikethepalenessofanordinarycorpse,butaslittleresemblingtheflushofnaturallife。Theeyelidswerebutpartiallydrawndown,andshowedtheeyeballsbeneath;asifthedeceasedfriarwerestealingaglimpseatthebystanders,towatchwhethertheyweredulyimpressedwiththesolemnityofhisobsequies。Theshaggyeyebrowsgavesternnesstothelook。Miriampassedbetweentwoofthelightedcandles,andstoodclosebesidethebier。
"MyGod!"murmuredshe。"Whatisthis?"
ShegraspedDonatello'shand,and,atthesameinstant,felthimgiveaconvulsiveshudder,whichsheknewtohavebeencausedbyasuddenandterriblethroboftheheart。Hishand,byaninstantaneouschange,becamelikeicewithinhers,whichlikewisegrewsoicythattheirinsensiblefingersmighthaverattled,oneagainsttheother。Nowonderthattheirbloodcurdled;nowonderthattheirheartsleapedandpaused!Thedeadfaceofthemonk,gazingatthembeneathitshalf-closedeyelids,wasthesamevisagethathadglaredupontheirnakedsouls,thepastmidnight,asDonatelloflunghimovertheprecipice。
Thesculptorwasstandingatthefootofthebier,andhadnotyetseenthemonk'sfeatures。
"Thosenakedfeet!"saidhe。"Iknownotwhy,buttheyaffectmestrangely。TheyhavewalkedtoandfrooverthehardpavementsofRome,andthroughahundredotherroughwaysofthislife,wherethemonkwentbeggingforhisbrotherhood;alongthecloistersanddrearycorridorsofhisconvent,too,fromhisyouthupward!Itisasuggestiveidea,totrackthosewornfeetbackwardthroughallthepathstheyhavetrodden,eversincetheywerethetenderandrosylittlefeetofababy,andcoldastheynowarewerekeptwarminhismother'shand。"
Ashiscompanions,whomthesculptorsupposedtobeclosebyhim,madenoresponsetohisfancifulmusing,helookedup,andsawthemattheheadofthebier。Headvancedthitherhimself。
"Ha!"exclaimedhe。
Hecastahorror-strickenandbewilderedglanceatMiriam,butwithdrewitimmediately。Notthathehadanydefinitesuspicion,or,itmaybe,evenaremoteidea,thatshecouldbeheldresponsibleintheleastdegreeforthisman'ssuddendeath。Intruth,itseemedtoowildathoughttoconnect,inreality,Miriam'spersecutorofmanypastmonthsandthevagabondoftheprecedingnight,withthedeadCapuchinofto-day。Itresembledoneofthoseunaccountablechangesandinterminglingsofidentity,whichsooftenoccuramongthepersonagesofadream。ButKenyon,asbefittedtheprofessorofanimaginativeart,wasendowedwithanexceedinglyquicksensibility,whichwasapttogivehimintimationsofthetruestateofmattersthatlaybeyondhisactualvision。Therewasawhisperinhisear;itsaid,"Hush!"Withoutaskinghimselfwherefore,heresolvedtobesilentasregardedthemysteriousdiscoverywhichhehadmade,andtoleaveanyremarkorexclamationtobevoluntarilyofferedbyMiriam。Ifsheneverspoke,thenlettheriddlebeunsolved。
Andnowoccurredacircumstancethatwouldseemtoofantastictobetold,ifithadnotactuallyhappened,preciselyaswesetitdown。Asthethreefriendsstoodbythebier,theysawthatalittlestreamofbloodhadbeguntooozefromthedeadmonk'snostrils;itcreptslowlytowardsthethicketofhisbeard,where,inthecourseofamomentortwo,ithiditself。
"Howstrange!"ejaculatedKenyon。"Themonkdiedofapoplexy,Isuppose,orbysomesuddenaccident,andthebloodhasnotyetcongealed。"
"Doyouconsiderthatasufficientexplanation?"askedMiriam,withasmilefromwhichthesculptorinvoluntarilyturnedawayhiseyes。"Doesitsatisfyyou?"
"Andwhynot?"heinquired。
"Ofcourse,youknowtheoldsuperstitionaboutthisphenomenonofbloodflowingfromadeadbody,"sherejoined。"Howcanwetellbutthatthemurdererofthismonkor,possibly,itmaybeonlythatprivilegedmurderer,hisphysicianmayhavejustenteredthechurch?"
"Icannotjestaboutit,"saidKenyon。"Itisanuglysight!"
"True,true;horribletosee,ordreamof!"shereplied,withoneofthoselong,tremuloussighs,whichsooftenbetrayasickheartbyescapingunexpectedly。"Wewillnotlookatitanymore。Comeaway,Donatello。
Letusescapefromthisdismalchurch。Thesunshinewilldoyougood。"
Whenhadeverawomansuchatrialtosustainasthis!BynopossiblesuppositioncouldMiriamexplaintheidentityofthedeadCapuchin,quietlyanddecorouslylaidoutinthenaveofhisconventchurch,withthatofhermurderedpersecutor,flungheedlesslyatthefootoftheprecipice。Theeffectuponherimaginationwasasifastrangeandunknowncorpsehadmiraculously,whileshewasgazingatit,assumedthelikenessofthatface,soterriblehenceforthinherremembrance。Itwasasymbol,perhaps,ofthedeadlyiterationwithwhichshewasdoomedtobeholdtheimageofhercrimereflectedbackuponherinathousandways,andconvertingthegreat,calmfaceofNature,inthewhole,andinitsinnumerabledetails,intoamanifoldreminiscenceofthatonedeadvisage。
NosoonerhadMiriamturnedawayfromthebier,andgoneafewsteps,thanshefanciedthelikenessaltogetheranillusion,whichwouldvanishatacloserandcolderview。Shemustlookatitagain,therefore,andatonce;
orelsethegravewouldcloseovertheface,andleavetheawfulfantasythathadconnecteditselftherewithfixedineffaceablyinherbrain。
"Waitforme,onemoment!"shesaidtohercompanions。"Onlyamoment!"
Soshewentback,andgazedoncemoreatthecorpse。Yes;thesewerethefeaturesthatMiriamhadknownsowell;thiswasthevisagethatsherememberedfromafarlongerdatethanthemostintimateofherfriendssuspected;thisformofclayhadheldtheevilspiritwhichblastedhersweetyouth,andcompelledher,asitwere,tostainherwomanhoodwithcrime。But,whetheritwerethemajestyofdeath,orsomethingoriginallynobleandloftyinthecharacterofthedead,whichthesoulhadstampeduponthefeatures,asitleftthem;soitwasthatMiriamnowquailedandshook,notforthevulgarhorrorofthespectacle,butforthesevere,reproachfulglancethatseemedtocomefrombetweenthosehalf-closedlids。
True,therehadbeennothing,inhislifetime,vilerthanthisman。
Sheknewit;therewasnootherfactwithinherconsciousnessthatshefelttobesocertain;andyet,becauseherpersecutorfoundhimselfsafeandirrefutableindeath,hefrowneduponhisvictim,andthrewbacktheblameonher!
"Isitthou,indeed?"shemurmured,underherbreath。"Thenthouhastnorighttoscowluponmeso!Butartthoureal,oravision?"Shebentdownoverthedeadmonk,tilloneofherrichcurlsbrushedagainsthisforehead。Shetouchedoneofhisfoldedhandswithherfinger。
"Itishe,"saidMiriam。"Thereisthescar,thatIknowsowell,onhisbrow。Anditisnovision;heispalpabletomytouch!Iwillquestionthefactnolonger,butdealwithitasIbestcan。"
ItwaswonderfultoseehowthecrisisdevelopedinMiriamitsownproperstrength,andthefacultyofsustainingthedemandswhichitmadeuponherfortitude。Sheceasedtotremble;thebeautifulwomangazedsternlyatherdeadenemy,endeavoringtomeetandquellthelookofaccusationthathethrewfrombetweenhishalf-closedeyelids。
"No;thoushaltnotscowlmedown!"saidshe。"Neithernow,norwhenwestandtogetheratthejudgment-seat。Ifearnottomeettheethere。
Farewell,tillthatnextencounter!"
Haughtilywavingherhand,Miriamrejoinedherfriends,whowereawaitingheratthedoorofthechurch。Astheywentout,thesacristanstoppedthem,andproposedtoshowthecemeteryoftheconvent,wherethedeceasedmembersofthefraternityarelaidtorestinsacredearth,broughtlongagofromJerusalem。
"Andwillyondermonkbeburiedthere?"sheasked。
"BrotherAntonio?"exclaimedthesacristan。
"Surely,ourgoodbrotherwillbeputtobedthere!Hisgraveisalreadydug,andthelastoccupanthasmaderoomforhim。Willyoulookatit,signorina?"
"Iwill!"saidMiriam。
"Thenexcuseme,"observedKenyon;"forIshallleaveyou。Onedeadmonkhasmorethansufficedme;andIamnotboldenoughtofacethewholemortalityoftheconvent。"
Itwaseasytosee,byDonatello'slooks,thathe,aswellasthesculptor,wouldgladlyhaveescapedavisittothefamouscemeteryoftheCappuccini。ButMiriam'snerveswerestrainedtosuchapitch,thatsheanticipatedacertainsolaceandabsolutereliefinpassingfromoneghastlyspectacletoanotheroflong-accumulatedugliness;andtherewas,besides,asingularsenseofdutywhichimpelledhertolookatthefinalresting-placeofthebeingwhosefatehadbeensodisastrouslyinvolvedwithherown。Shethereforefollowedthesacristan'sguidance,anddrewhercompanionalongwithher,whisperingencouragementastheywent。
Thecemeteryisbeneaththechurch,butentirelyaboveground,andlightedbyarowofiron-gratedwindowswithoutglass。Acorridorrunsalongbesidethesewindows,andgivesaccesstothreeorfourvaultedrecesses,orchapels,ofconsiderablebreadthandheight,thefloorofwhichconsistsoftheconsecratedearthofJerusalem。Itissmootheddecorouslyoverthedeceasedbrethrenoftheconvent,andiskeptquitefreefromgrassorweeds,suchaswouldgroweveninthesegloomyrecesses,ifpainswerenotbestowedtorootthemup。But,asthecemeteryissmall,anditisapreciousprivilegetosleepinholyground,thebrotherhoodareimmemoriallyaccustomed,whenoneoftheirnumberdies,totakethelongestburiedskeletonoutoftheoldestgrave,andlaythenewslumbererthereinstead。Thus,eachofthegoodfriars,inhisturn,enjoystheluxuryofaconsecratedbed,attendedwiththeslightdrawbackofbeingforcedtogetuplongbeforedaybreak,asitwere,andmakeroomforanotherlodger。
Thearrangementoftheunearthedskeletonsiswhatmakesthespecialinterestofthecemetery。Thearchedandvaultedwallsoftheburialrecessesaresupportedbymassivepillarsandpilastersmadeofthigh-bonesandskulls;thewholematerialofthestructureappearstobeofasimilarkind;andtheknobsandembossedornamentsofthisstrangearchitecturearerepresentedbythejointsofthespine,andthemoredelicatetracerybytheSmallerbonesofthehumanframe。Thesummitsofthearchesareadornedwithentireskeletons,lookingasiftheywerewroughtmostskilfullyinbas-relief。Thereisnopossibilityofdescribinghowuglyandgrotesqueistheeffect,combinedwithacertainartisticmerit,norhowmuchpervertedingenuityhasbeenshowninthisqueerway,norwhatamultitudeofdeadmonks,throughhowmanyhundredyears,musthavecontributedtheirbonyframeworktobuildup。thesegreatarchesofmortality。Onsomeoftheskullsthereareinscriptions,purportingthatsuchamonk,whoformerlymadeuseofthatparticularheadpiece,diedonsuchadayandyear;butvastlythegreaternumberarepiledupindistinguishablyintothearchitecturaldesign,likethemanydeathsthatmakeuptheonegloryofavictory。
Inthesidewallsofthevaultsarenicheswhereskeletonmonkssitorstand,cladinthebrownhabitsthattheyworeinlife,andlabelledwiththeirnamesandthedatesoftheirdecease。Theirskullssomequitebare,andothersstillcoveredwithyellowskin,andhairthathasknowntheearth-dampslookoutfrombeneaththeirhoods,grinninghideouslyrepulsive。Onereverendfatherhashismouthwideopen,asifhehaddiedinthemidstofahowlofterrorandremorse,whichperhapsisevennowscreechingthrougheternity。Asageneralthing,however,thesefrockedandhoodedskeletonsseemtotakeamorecheerfulviewoftheirposition,andtrywithghastlysmilestoturnitintoajest。ButthecemeteryoftheCapuchinsisnoplacetonourishcelestialhopes:thesoulsinksforlornandwretchedunderallthisburdenofdustydeath;theholyearthfromJerusalem,soimbuedisitwithmortality,hasgrownasbarrenoftheflowersofParadiseasitisofearthlyweedsandgrass。ThankHeavenforitsbluesky;itneedsalong,upwardgazetogiveusbackourfaith。Notherecanwefeelourselvesimmortal,wheretheveryaltarsinthesechapelsofhorribleconsecrationareheapsofhumanbones。
Yetletusgivethecemeterythepraisethatitdeserves。Thereisnodisagreeablescent,suchasmighthavebeenexpectedfromthedecayofsomanyholypersons,inwhateverodorofsanctitytheymayhavetakentheirdeparture。Thesamenumberoflivingmonkswouldnotsmellhalfsounexceptionably。
Miriamwentgloomilyalongthecorridor,fromonevaultedGolgothatoanother,untilinthefarthestrecessshebeheldanopengrave。
"Isthatforhimwholiesyonderinthenave?"sheasked。
"Yes,signorina,thisistobetheresting-placeofBrotherAntonio,whocametohisdeathlastnight,"answeredthesacristan;"andinyonderniche,yousee,sitsabrotherwhowasburiedthirtyyearsago,andhasrisentogivehimplace。"
"Itisnotasatisfactoryidea,"observedMiriam,"thatyoupoorfriarscannotcallevenyourgravespermanentlyyourown。Youmustliedowninthem,methinks,withanervousanticipationofbeingdisturbed,likewearymenwhoknowthattheyshallbesummonedoutofbedatmidnight。IsitnotpossibleifmoneyweretobepaidfortheprivilegetoleaveBrotherAntonio——ifthatbehisname——intheoccupancyofthatnarrowgravetillthelasttrumpetsounds?"
"Bynomeans,signorina;neitherisitneedfulordesirable,"answeredthesacristan。"Aquarterofacentury'ssleepinthesweetearthofJerusalemisbetterthanathousandyearsinanyothersoil。Ourbrethrenfindgoodrestthere。Noghostwaseverknowntostealoutofthisblessedcemetery。"
"Thatiswell,"respondedMiriam;"mayhewhomyounowlaytosleepprovenoexceptiontotherule!"
Astheyleftthecemeterysheputmoneyintothesacristan'shandtoanamountthatmadehiseyesopenwideandglisten,andrequestedthatitmightbeexpendedinmassesforthereposeofFatherAntonio'ssoul。
CHAPTERXXII
THEMEDICIGARDENS
Donatello,"saidMiriamanxiously,astheycamethroughthePiazzaBarberini,"whatcanIdoforyou,mybelovedfriend?YouareshakingaswiththecoldfitoftheRomanfever。""Yes,"saidDonatello;"myheartshivers。"Assoonasshecouldcollectherthoughts,MiriamledtheyoungmantothegardensoftheVillaMedici,hopingthatthequietshadeandsunshineofthatdelightfulretreatwouldalittlerevivehisspirits。
Thegroundsaretherelaidoutintheoldfashionofstraightpaths,withbordersofbox,whichformhedgesofgreatheightanddensity,andareshornandtrimmedtotheevennessofawallofstone,atthetopandsides。
Therearegreenalleys,withlongvistasovershadowedbyilex-trees;andateachintersectionofthepaths,thevisitorfindsseatsoflichen-coveredstonetoreposeupon,andmarblestatuesthatlookforlornlyathim,regretfuloftheirlostnoses。Inthemoreopenportionsofthegarden,beforethesculpturedfrontofthevilla,youseefountainsandflower-beds,andintheirseasonaprofusionofroses,fromwhichthegenialsunofItalydistilsafragrance,tobescatteredabroadbythenolessgenialbreeze。
ButDonatellodrewnodelightfromthesethings。Hewalkedonwardinsilentapathy,andlookedatMiriamwithstrangelyhalf-awakenedandbewilderedeyes,whenshesoughttobringhismindintosympathywithhers,andsorelievehisheartoftheburdenthatlaylumpishlyuponit。
Shemadehimsitdownonastonebench,wheretwoemboweredalleyscrossedeachother;sothattheycoulddiscerntheapproachofanycasualintruderalongwaydownthepath。
"Mysweetfriend,"shesaid,takingoneofhispassivehandsinbothofhers,"whatcanIsaytocomfortyou?"
"Nothing!"repliedDonatello,withsombrereserve。"Nothingwillevercomfortme。"
"Iacceptmyownmisery,"continuedMiriam,"myownguilt,ifguiltitbe;
and,whetherguiltormisery,Ishallknowhowtodealwithit。Butyou,dearestfriend,thatweretherarestcreatureinallthisworld,andseemedabeingtowhomsorrowcouldnotcling,——you,whomIhalffanciedtobelongtoaracethathadvanishedforever,youonlysurviving,toshowmankindhowgenialandhowjoyouslifeusedtobe,insomelong-goneage,——whathadyoutodowithgrieforcrime?"
"Theycametomeastoothermen,"saidDonatellobroodingly。"DoubtlessIwasborntothem。"
"No,no;theycamewithme,"repliedMiriam。"Mineistheresponsibility!
Alas!whereforewasIborn?Whydidweevermeet?WhydidInotdriveyoufromme,knowingformyheartforebodedit——thatthecloudinwhichI
walkedwouldlikewiseenvelopyou!"
Donatellostirreduneasily,withtheirritableimpatiencethatisoftencombinedWithamoodofleadendespondency。Abrownlizardwithtwotails——amonsteroftenengenderedbytheRomansunshine——ranacrosshisfoot,andmadehimstart。Thenhesatsilentawhile,andsodidMiriam,tryingtodissolveherwholeheartintosympathy,andlavishitalluponhim,wereitonlyforamoment'scordial。
Theyoungmanliftedhishandtohisbreast,and,unintentionally,asMiriam'shandwaswithinhis,heliftedthatalongwithit。"Ihaveagreatweighthere!"saidhe。ThefancystruckMiriambutshedroveitresolutelydownthatDonatelloalmostimperceptiblyshuddered,while,inpressinghisownhandagainsthisheart,hepressedherstheretoo。
"Restyourheartonme,dearestone!"sheresumed。"Letmebearallitsweight;Iamwellabletobearit;forIamawoman,andIloveyou!I
loveyou,Donatello!Istherenocomfortforyouinthisavowal?Lookatme!Heretoforeyouhavefoundmepleasanttoyoursight。Gazeintomyeyes!Gazeintomysoul!Searchasdeeplyasyoumay,youcanneverseehalfthetendernessanddevotionthatIhenceforthcherishforyou。AllthatIaskisyouracceptanceoftheutterself-sacrificebutitshallbenosacrifice,tomygreatlovewithwhichIseektoremedytheevilyouhaveincurredformysake!"
AllthisfervoronMiriam'spart;onDonatello's,aheavysilence。
"O,speaktome!"sheexclaimed。"Onlypromisemetobe,byandby,alittlehappy!"
"Happy?"murmuredDonatello。"Ah,neveragain!neveragain!"
"Never?Ah,thatisaterriblewordtosaytome!"answeredMiriam。"A
terriblewordtoletfalluponawoman'sheart,whenshelovesyou,andisconsciousofhavingcausedyourmisery!Ifyouloveme,Donatello,speakitnotagain。Andsurelyyoudidloveme?"
"Idid,"repliedDonatellogloomilyandabsently。
Miriamreleasedtheyoungman'shand,butsufferedoneofherowntolieclosetohis,andwaitedamomenttoseewhetherhewouldmakeanyefforttoretainit。Therewasmuchdependinguponthatsimpleexperiment。
Withadeepsigh——aswhen,sometimes,aslumbererturnsoverinatroubleddreamDonatellochangedhisposition,andclaspedbothhishandsoverhisforehead。ThegenialwarmthofaRomanAprilkindlingintoMaywasintheatmospherearoundthem;butwhenMiriamsawthatinvoluntarymovementandheardthatsighofreliefforsosheinterpretedit,ashiverranthroughherframe,asiftheiciestwindoftheApennineswereblowingoverher。
"HehasdonehimselfagreaterwrongthanIdreamedof,"thoughtshe,withunutterablecompassion。"Alas!itwasasadmistake!Hemighthavehadakindofblissintheconsequencesofthisdeed,hadhebeenimpelledtoitbyalovevitalenoughtosurvivethefrenzyofthatterriblemoment,mightyenoughtomakeitsownlaw,andjustifyitselfagainstthenaturalremorse。Buttohaveperpetratedadreadfulmurderandsuchwashiscrime,unlesslove,annihilatingmoraldistinctions,madeitotherwiseonnobetterwarrantthanaboy'sidlefantasy!Ipityhimfromtheverydepthsofmysoul!Asformyself,Iampastmyownorother'spity。"
Shearosefromtheyoungman'sside,andstoodbeforehimwithasad,commiseratingaspect;itwasthelookofaruinedsoul,bewailing,inhim,agrieflessthanwhatherprofoundersympathiesimposeduponherself。
"Donatello,wemustpart,"shesaid,withmelancholyfirmness。"Yes;
leaveme!Gobacktoyouroldtower,whichoverlooksthegreenvalleyyouhavetoldmeofamongtheApennines。Then,allthathaspassedwillberecognizedasbutanuglydream。Forindreamstheconsciencesleeps,andweoftenstainourselveswithguiltofwhichweshouldbeincapableinourwakingmoments。Thedeedyouseemedtodo,lastnight,wasnomorethansuchadream;therewasaslittlesubstanceinwhatyoufanciedyourselfdoing。Go;andforgetitall!"
"Ah,thatterribleface!"saidDonatello,pressinghishandsoverhiseyes。"Doyoucallthatunreal?"
"Yes;foryoubehelditwithdreamingeyes,"repliedMiriam。"Itwasunreal;and,thatyoumayfeelitso,itisrequisitethatyouseethisfaceofminenomore。Once,youmayhavethoughtitbeautiful;now,ithaslostitscharm。Yetitwouldstillretainamiserablepotency'tobringbackthepastillusion,and,initstrain,theremorseandanguishthatwoulddarkenallyourlife。Leaveme,therefore,andforgetme。"
"Forgetyou,Miriam!"saidDonatello,rousedsomewhatfromhisapathyofdespair。
"IfIcouldrememberyou,andbeholdyou,apartfromthatfrightfulvisagewhichstaresatmeoveryourshoulder,thatwereaconsolation,atleast,ifnotajoy。"
"Butsincethatvisagehauntsyoualongwithmine,"rejoinedMiriam,glancingbehindher,"weneedsmustpart。Farewell,then!Butifever——indistress,peril,shame,poverty,orwhateveranguishismostpoignant,whateverburdenheaviest——youshouldrequirealifetobegivenwholly,onlytomakeyourownalittleeasier,thensummonme!Asthecasenowstandsbetweenus,youhaveboughtmedear,andfindmeoflittleworth。Flingmeaway,therefore!Mayyouneverneedmemore!But,ifotherwise,awish——almostanunutteredwishwillbringmetoyou!"
Shestoodamoment,expectingareply。ButDonatello'seyeshadagainfallenontheground,andhehadnot,inhisbewilderedmindandoverburdenedheart,awordtorespond。
"ThathourIspeakofmaynevercome,"saidMiriam。"Sofarewell——farewellforever。"
"Farewell,"saidDonatello。
Hisvoicehardlymadeitswaythroughtheenvironmentofunaccustomedthoughtsandemotionswhichhadsettledoverhimlikeadenseanddarkcloud。Notimprobably,hebeheldMiriamthroughsodimamediumthatshelookedvisionary;heardherspeakonlyinathin,faintecho。
Sheturnedfromtheyoungman,and,muchasherheartyearnedtowardshim,shewouldnotprofanethatheavypartingbyanembrace,orevenapressureofthehand。Sosoonafterthesemblanceofsuchmightylove,andafterithadbeentheimpulsetosoterribleadeed,theyparted,inalloutwardshow,ascoldlyaspeoplepartwhosewholemutualintercoursehasbeenencircledwithinasinglehour。
AndDonatello,whenMiriamhaddeparted,stretchedhimselfatfulllengthonthestonebench,anddrewhishatoverhiseyes,astheidleandlight-heartedyouthsofdreamyItalyareaccustomedtodo,whentheyliedowninthefirstconvenientshade,andsnatchanoondayslumber。A
stuporwasuponhim,whichhemistookforsuchdrowsinessashehadknowninhisinnocentpastlife。But,byandby,heraisedhimselfslowlyandleftthegarden。SometimespoorDonatellostarted,asifheheardashriek;sometimesheshrankback,asifaface,fearfultobehold,werethrustclosetohisown。Inthisdismalmood,bewilderedwiththenoveltyofsinandgrief,hehadlittleleftofthatsingularresemblance,onaccountofwhich,andfortheirsport,histhreefriendshadfantasticallyrecognizedhimastheveritableFaunofPraxiteles。
CHAPTERXXIII
MIRIAMANDHILDA
OnleavingtheMediciGardensMiriamfeltherselfastrayintheworld;andhavingnospecialreasontoseekoneplacemorethananother,shesufferedchancetodirectherstepsasitwould。Thusithappened,that,involvingherselfinthecrookednessofRome,shesawHilda'stowerrisingbeforeher,andwasputinmindtoclimbtotheyounggirl'seyry,andaskwhyshehadbrokenherengagementatthechurchoftheCapuchins。Peopleoftendotheidlestactsoftheirlifetimeintheirheaviestandmostanxiousmoments;sothatitwouldhavebeennowonderhadMiriambeenimpelledonlybysoslightamotiveofcuriosityaswehaveindicated。
Butsheremembered,too,andwithaquakingheart,whatthesculptorhadmentionedofHilda'sretracingherstepstowardsthecourtyardofthePalazzoCaffarelliinquestofMiriamherself。Hadshebeencompelledtochoosebetweeninfamyintheeyesofthewholeworld,orinHilda'seyesalone,shewouldunhesitatinglyhaveacceptedtheformer,onconditionofremainingspotlessintheestimationofherwhite-souledfriend。Thispossibility,therefore,thatHildahadwitnessedthesceneofthepastnight,wasunquestionablythecausethatdrewMiriamtothetower,andmadeherlingerandfalterassheapproachedit。
Asshedrewnear,thereweretokenstowhichherdisturbedmindgaveasinisterinterpretation。Someofherfriend'sairyfamily,thedoves,withtheirheadsimbeddeddisconsolatelyintheirbosoms,werehuddledinacornerofthepiazza;othershadalightedontheheads,wings,shoulders,andtrumpetsofthemarbleangelswhichadornedthefacadeoftheneighboringchurch;twoorthreehadbetakenthemselvestotheVirgin'sshrine;andasmanyascouldfindroomweresittingonHilda'swindow-sill。
Butallofthem,soMiriamfancied,hadalookofwearyexpectationanddisappointment,noflights,noflutterings,nocooingmurmur;somethingthatoughttohavemadetheirdaygladandbrightwasevidentlyleftoutofthisday'shistory。And,furthermore,Hilda'swhitewindowcurtainwascloselydrawn,withonlythatonelittleapertureattheside,whichMiriamrememberednoticingthenightbefore。
"Bequiet,"saidMiriamtoherownheart,pressingherhandharduponit。
"Whyshouldstthouthrobnow?Hastthounotenduredmoreterriblethingsthanthis?"
Whateverwereherapprehensions,shewouldnotturnback。Itmightbe——andthesolacewouldbeworthaworld——thatHilda,knowingnothingofthepastnight'scalamity,wouldgreetherfriendwithasunnysmile,andsorestoreaportionofthevitalwarmth,forlackofwhichhersoulwasfrozen。ButcouldMiriam,guiltyasshewas,permitHildatokisshercheek,toclaspherhand,andthusbenolongersounspottedfromtheworldasheretofore"Iwillneverpermithersweettouchagain,"saidMiriam,toilingupthestaircase,"ifIcanfindstrengthofhearttoforbidit。But,O!itwouldbesosoothinginthiswintryfever-fitofmyheart。TherecanbenoharmtomywhiteHildainonepartingkiss。Thatshallbeall!"
But,onreachingtheupperlanding-place,Miriampaused,andstirrednotagaintillshehadbroughtherselftoanimmovableresolve。
"Mylips,myhand,shallnevermeetHilda'smore,"saidshe。
Meanwhile,Hildasatlistlesslyinherpainting-room。Hadyoulookedintothelittleadjoiningchamber,youmighthaveseentheslightimprintofherfigureonthebed,butwouldalsohavedetectedatoncethatthewhitecounterpanehadnotbeenturneddown。Thepillowwasmoredisturbed;shehadturnedherfaceuponit,thepoorchild,andbedeweditwithsomeofthosetearsamongthemostchillandforlornthatgushfromhumansorrow
whichtheinnocentheartpoursforthatitsfirstactualdiscoverythatsinisintheworld。Theyoungandpurearenotapttofindoutthatmiserabletruthuntilitisbroughthometothembytheguiltinessofsometrustedfriend。Theymayhaveheardmuchoftheeviloftheworld,andseemtoknowit,butonlyasanimpalpabletheory。Induetime,somemortal,whomtheyreverencetoohighly,iscommissionedbyProvidencetoteachthemthisdirefullesson;heperpetratesasin;andAdamfallsanew,andParadise,heretoforeinunfadedbloom,islostagain,anddosedforever,withthefieryswordsgleamingatitsgates。
ThechairinwhichHildasatwasneartheportraitofBeatriceCenci,whichhadnotyetbeentakenfromtheeasel。Itisapeculiarityofthispicture,thatitsprofoundestexpressioneludesastraightforwardglance,andcanonlybecaughtbysideglimpses,orwhentheeyefallscasuallyuponit;evenasifthepaintedfacehadalifeandconsciousnessofitsown,and,resolvingnottobetrayitssecretofgrieforguilt,permittedthetruetokenstocomeforthonlywhenitimagineditselfunseen。Noothersuchmagicaleffecthaseverbeenwroughtbypencil。
Now,oppositetheeaselhungalooking-glass,inwhichBeatrice'sfaceandHilda'swerebothreflected。Inoneofherweary,nervelesschangesofposition,Hildahappenedtothrowhereyesontheglass,andtookinboththeseimagesatoneunpremeditatedglance。Shefancied——norwasitwithouthorror——thatBeatrice'sexpression,seenasideandvanishinginamoment,hadbeendepictedinherownfacelikewise,andflittedfromitastimorously。
"AmI,too,stainedwithguilt?"thoughtthepoorgirl,hidingherfaceinherhands。
Notso,thankHeaven!But,asregardsBeatrice'spicture,theincidentsuggestsatheorywhichmayaccountforitsunutterablegriefandmysteriousshadowofguilt,withoutdetractingfromthepuritywhichwelovetoattributetothatill-fatedgirl。Who,indeed,canlookatthatmouth,——withitslipshalfapart,asinnocentasababe'sthathasbeencrying,andnotpronounceBeatricesinless?Itwastheintimateconsciousnessofherfather'ssinthatthrewitsshadowoverher,andfrightenedherintoaremoteandinaccessibleregion,wherenosympathycouldcome。ItwastheknowledgeofMiriam'sguiltthatlentthesameexpressiontoHilda'sface。
ButHildanervouslymovedherchair,sothattheimagesintheglassshouldbenolongerVisible。Shenowwatchedaspeckofsunshinethatcamethroughashutteredwindow,andcreptfromobjecttoobject,indicatingeachwithatouchofitsbrightfinger,andthenlettingthemallvanishsuccessively。Inlikemannerhermind,solikesunlightinitsnaturalcheerfulness,wentfromthoughttothought,butfoundnothingthatitcoulddwelluponforcomfort。Neverbeforehadthisyoung,energetic,activespiritknownwhatitistobedespondent。Itwastheunrealityoftheworldthatmadeherso。Herdearestfriend,whoseheartseemedthemostsolidandrichestofHilda'spossessions,hadnoexistenceforheranymore;andinthatdrearyvoid,outofwhichMiriamhaddisappeared,thesubstance,thetruth,theintegrityoflife,themotivesofeffort,thejoyofsuccess,haddepartedalongwithher。