Mercystarted,andfaintlyflushed,asthesecondvoiceansweredthefirst。Shestoodirresoluteclosetothebilliard-room,hesitatingwhattodonext。
Afteranintervalthesecondvoicemadeitselfheardagain,advancingnearertothedining-room:"Areyouthere,aunt?"itaskedcautiously。Therewasamoment'spause。Thenthevoicespokeforthethirdtime,soundinglouderandnearer。"Areyouthere?"itreiterated;"Ihavesomethingtotellyou。"Mercysummonedherresolutionandanswered:"LadyJanetisnothere。"Sheturnedasshespoketowardtheconservatorydoor,andconfrontedonthethresholdJulianGray。
Theylookedatoneanotherwithoutexchangingawordoneitherside。Thesituation——forwidelydifferentreasons——wasequallyembarrassingtobothofthem。
There——asJuliansawher——wasthewomanforbiddentohim,thewomanwhomheloved。
There——asMercysawhim——wasthemanwhomshedreaded,themanwhoseactionsassheinterpretedthemprovedthathesuspectedher。
Onthesurfaceofit,theincidentswhichhadmarkedtheirfirstmeetingwerenowexactlyrepeated,withtheonedifferencethattheimpulsetowithdrawthistimeappearedtobeontheman'ssideandnotonthewoman's。ItwasMercywhospokefirst。"DidyouexpecttofindLadyJanethere?"sheasked,constrainedly。
Heanswered,onhispart,moreconstrainedlystill。
"Itdoesn'tmatter,"hesaid。"Anothertimewilldo。"
Hedrewbackashemadethereply。Sheadvanceddesperately,withthedeliberateintentionofdetaininghimbyspeakingagain。
Theattemptwhichhehadmadetowithdraw,theconstraintinhismannerwhenhehadanswered,hadinstantlyconfirmedherinthefalseconvictionthathe,andhealone,hadguessedthetruth!Ifshewasright——ifhehadsecretlymadediscoveriesabroadwhichplacedherentirelyathismercy——theattempttoinduceGracetoconsenttoacompromisewithherwouldbemanifestlyuseless。HerfirstandforemostinterestnowwastofindouthowshereallystoodintheestimationofJulianGray。Inaterrorofsuspense,thatturnedhercoldfromheadtofoot,shestoppedhimonhiswayout,andspoketohimwiththepiteouscounterfeitofasmile。
"LadyJanetisreceivingsomevisitors,"shesaid。"Ifyouwillwaithere,shewillbebackdirectly。"
Theeffortofhidingheragitationfromhimhadbroughtapassingcolorintohercheeks。Wornandwastedasshewas,thespellofherbeautywasstrongenoughtoholdhimagainsthisownwill。AllhehadtotellLadyJanetwasthathehadmetoneofthegardenersintheconservatory,andhadcautionedhimaswellasthelodge-keeper。Itwouldhavebeeneasytowritethis,andtosendthenotetohisauntonquittingthehouse。Forthesakeofhisownpeaceofmind,forthesakeofhisdutytoHorace,hewasdoublyboundtomakethefirstpoliteexcusethatoccurredtohim,andtoleaveherashehadfoundher,aloneintheroom。Hemadetheattempt,andhesitated。Despisinghimselffordoingit,heallowedhimselftolookather。Theireyesmet。Juliansteppedintothedining-room。
"IfIamnotintheway,"hesaid,confusedly,"Iwillwait,asyoukindlypropose。"
Shenoticedhisembarrassment;shesawthathewasstronglyrestraininghimselffromlookingatheragain。Herowneyesdroppedtothegroundasshemadethediscovery。Herspeechfailedher;herheartthrobbedfasterandfaster。
"IfIlookathimagain"wasthethoughtinhermind"IshallfallathisfeetandtellhimallthatIhavedone!"
"IfIlookatheragain"wasthethoughtinhismind"IshallfallatherfeetandownthatIaminlovewithher!"
Withdowncasteyesheplacedachairforher。Withdowncasteyesshebowedtohimandtookit。Adeadsilencefollowed。Neverwasanyhumanmisunderstandingmoreintricatelycompletethanthemisunderstandingwhichhadnowestablisheditselfbetweenthosetwo。
Mercy'swork-basketwasnearher。Shetookit,andgainedtimeforcomposingherselfbypretendingtoarrangethecoloredwools。Hestoodbehindherchair,lookingatthegracefulturnofherhead,lookingattherichmassesofherhair。Hereviledhimselfastheweakestofmen,asthefalsestoffriends,forstillremainingnearher——andyetheremained。
Thesilencecontinued。Thebilliard-roomdooropenedagainnoiselessly。Thefaceofthelisteningwomanappearedstealthilybehindit。
AtthesamemomentMercyrousedherselfandspoke:"Won'tyousitdown?"shesaid,softly,stillnotlookingroundathim,stillbusywithherbasketofwools。
Heturnedtogetachair——turnedsoquicklythathesawthebilliard-roomdoormove,asGraceRoseberrycloseditagain。
"Isthereanyoneinthatroom?"heasked,addressingMercy。
"Idon'tknow,"sheanswered。"IthoughtIsawthedooropenandshutagainalittlewhileago。"
Headvancedatoncetolookintotheroom。AshedidsoMercydroppedoneofherballsofwool。Hestoppedtopickitupforher——thenthrewopenthedoorandlookedintothebilliard-room。Itwasempty。
Hadsomepersonbeenlistening,andhadthatpersonretreatedintimetoescapediscovery?Theopendoorofthesmoking-roomshowedthatroomalsotobeempty。Athirddoorwasopen——thedoorofthesidehall,leadingintothegrounds。Julianclosedandlockedit,andreturnedtothedining-room。
"Icanonlysuppose,"hesaidtoMercy,"thatthebilliard-roomdoorwasnotproperlyshut,andthatthedraughtofairfromthehallmusthavemovedit。"Sheacceptedtheexplanationinsilence。Hewas,toallappearance,notquitesatisfiedwithithimself。Foramomentortwohelookedabouthimuneasily。Thentheoldfascinationfasteneditsholdonhimagain。Oncemorehelookedatthegracefulturnofherhead,attherichmassesofherhair。Thecouragetoputthecriticalquestiontohim,nowthatshehadluredhimintoremainingintheroom,wasstillacouragethatfailedher。Sheremainedasbusyaseverwithherwork——toobusytolookathim;toobusytospeaktohim。Thesilencebecameunendurable。Hebrokeitbymakingacommonplaceinquiryafterherhealth。
"IamwellenoughtobeashamedoftheanxietyIhavecausedandthetroubleIhavegiven,"sheanswered。"To-dayIhavegotdownstairsforthefirsttime。Iamtryingtodoalittlework。"Shelookedintothebasket。Thevariousspecimensofwoolinitwerepartlyinballsandpartlyinlooseskeins。Theskeinsweremixedandtangled。"Hereissadconfusion!"sheexclaimed,timidly,withafaintsmile。"HowamItosetitrightagain?"
"Letmehelpyou,"saidJulian。
"You!"
"Whynot?"heasked,withamomentaryreturnofthequainthumorwhichsherememberedsowell。"YouforgetthatIamacurate。Curatesareprivilegedtomakethemselvesusefultoyoungladies。Letmetry。"
Hetookastoolatherfeet,andsethimselftounraveloneofthetangledskeins。Inaminutethewoolwasstretchedonhishands,andthelooseendwasreadyforMercytowind。Therewassomethinginthetrivialaction,andinthehomelyattentionthatitimplied,whichinsomedegreequietedherfearofhim。Shebegantorollthewooloffhishandsintoaball。Thusoccupied,shesaidthedaringwordswhichweretoleadhimlittlebylittleintobetrayinghissuspicions,ifhedidindeedsuspectthetruth。
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THEGUARDIANANGEL。
"YouwereherewhenIfainted,wereyounot?"Mercybegan。"Youmustthinkmeasadcoward,evenforawoman。"
Heshookhishead。"Iamfarfromthinkingthat,"hereplied。"Nocouragecouldhavesustainedtheshockwhichfellonyou。Idon'twonderthatyoufainted。Idon'twonderthatyouhavebeenill。"
Shepausedinrollinguptheballofwool。Whatdidthosewordsofunexpectedsympathymean?Washelayingatrapforher?Urgedbythatseriousdoubt,shequestionedhimmoreboldly。
"Horacetellsmeyouhavebeenabroad,"shesaid。"Didyouenjoyyourholiday?"
"Itwasnoholiday。IwentabroadbecauseIthoughtitrighttomakecertaininquiries——"Hestoppedthere,unwillingtoreturntoasubjectthatwaspainfultoher。
Hervoicesank,herfingerstrembledroundtheballofwool;butshemanagedtogoon。
"Didyouarriveatanyresults?"sheasked。
"Atnoresultsworthmentioning。"
Thecautionofthatreplyrenewedherworstsuspicionsofhim。Insheerdespair,shespokeoutplainly。
"Iwanttoknowyouropinion——"shebegan。
"Gently!"saidJulian。"Youareentanglingthewoolagain。"
"Iwanttoknowyouropinionofthepersonwhosoterriblyfrightenedme。Doyouthinkher——"
"DoIthinkher——what?"
"Doyouthinkheranadventuress?"
Asshesaidthosewordsthebranchesofashrubintheconservatorywerenoiselesslypartedbyahandinablackglove。ThefaceofGraceRoseberryappeareddimlybehindtheleaves。Undiscovered,shehadescapedfromthebilliard-room,andhadstolenherwayintotheconservatoryasthesaferhiding-placeofthetwo。Behindtheshrubshecouldseeaswellaslisten。Behindtheshrubshewaitedaspatientlyasever。
"Itakeamoremercifulview,"Juliananswered。"Ibelievesheisactingunderadelusion。Idon'tblameher:Ipityher。"
"Youpityher?"AsMercyrepeatedthewords,shetoreoffJulian'shandsthelastfewlengthsofwoolleft,andthrewtheimperfectlywoundskeinbackintothebasket。"Doesthatmean,"sheresumed,abruptly,"thatyoubelieveher?"
Julianrosefromhisseat,andlookedatMercyinastonishment。
"Goodheavens,MissRoseberry!whatputsuchanideaasthatintoyourhead?"
"Iamlittlebetterthanastrangertoyou,"sherejoined,withanefforttoassumeajestingtone。"Youmetthatpersonbeforeyoumetwithme。Itisnotsoveryfarfrompityinghertobelievingher。HowcouldIfeelsurethatyoumightnotsuspectme?"
"Suspectyou!"heexclaimed。"Youdon'tknowhowyoudistress,howyoushockme。Suspectyou!Thebareideaofitneverenteredmymind。Themandoesn'tlivewhotrustsyoumoreimplicitly,whobelievesinyoumoredevotedly,thanIdo。"
Hiseyes,hisvoice,hismanner,alltoldherthatthosewordscamefromtheheart。Shecontrastedhisgenerousconfidenceinhertheconfidenceofwhichshewasunworthywithherungraciousdistrustofhim。NotonlyhadshewrongedGraceRoseberry——shehadwrongedJulianGray。Couldshedeceivehimasshehaddeceivedtheothers?Couldshemeanlyacceptthatimplicittrust,thatdevotedbelief?Neverhadshefeltthebasesubmissionswhichherownimposturecondemnedhertoundergowithaloathingofthemsooverwhelmingastheloathingthatshefeltnow。Inhorrorofherself,sheturnedherheadasideinsilenceandshrankfrommeetinghiseye。Henoticedthemovement,placinghisowninterpretationonit。Advancingcloser,heaskedanxiouslyifhehadoffendedher。
"Youdon'tknowhowyourconfidencetouchesme,"shesaid,withoutlookingup。"YoulittlethinkhowkeenlyIfeelyourkindness。"
Shecheckedherselfabruptly。Herfinetactwarnedherthatshewasspeakingtoowarmly——thattheexpressionofhergratitudemightstrikehimasbeingstrangelyexaggerated。Shehandedhimherwork-basketbeforehecouldspeakagain。
"Willyouputitawayforme?"sheasked,inherquietertones。"Idon'tfeelabletoworkjustnow。"
Hisbackwasturnedonherforamoment,whileheplacedthebasketonaside-table。Inthatmomenthermindadvancedataboundfrompresenttofuture。AccidentmightonedayputthetrueGraceinpossessionoftheproofsthatsheneeded,andmightrevealthefalseGracetohimintheidentitythatwasherown。Whatwouldhethinkofherthen?Couldshemakehimtellherwithoutbetrayingherself?Shedeterminedtotry。
"Childrenarenotoriouslyinsatiableifyouonceanswertheirquestions,andwomenarenearlyasbad,"shesaid,whenJulianreturnedtoher。"WillyourpatienceholdoutifIgobackforthethirdtimetothepersonwhomwehavebeenspeakingof?"
"Tryme,"heanswered,withasmile。
"Supposeyouhadnottakenyourmercifulviewofher?"
"Yes?"
"Supposeyoubelievedthatshewaswickedlybentondeceivingothersforapurposeofherown——wouldyounotshrinkfromsuchawomaninhorroranddisgust?"
"GodforbidthatIshouldshrinkfromanyhumancreature!"heanswered,earnestly。"Whoamongushasarighttodothat?"
Shehardlydaredtrustherselftobelievehim。"Youwouldstillpityher?"shepersisted,"andstillfeelforher?"
"Withallmyheart。"
"Oh,howgoodyouare!"
Hehelduphishandinwarning。Thetonesofhisvoicedeepened,thelusterofhiseyesbrightened。Shehadstirredinthedepthsofthatgreatheartthefaithinwhichthemanlived——thesteadyprinciplewhichguidedhismodestandnoblelife。
"No!"hecried。"Don'tsaythat!SaythatItrytolovemyneighborasmyself。WhobutaPhariseecanbelievethatheisbetterthananother?Thebestamongusto-daymay,butforthemercyofGod,betheworstamongustomorrow。ThetrueChristianvirtueisthevirtuewhichneverdespairsofafellow-creature。ThetrueChristianfaithbelievesinManaswellasinGod。Frailandfallenasweare,wecanriseonthewingsofrepentancefromearthtoheaven。Humanityissacred。Humanityhasitsimmortaldestiny。Whoshalldaresaytomanorwoman,'Thereisnohopeinyou?'Whoshalldaresaytheworkisallvile,whenthatworkbearsonitthestampoftheCreator'shand?"
Heturnedawayforamoment,strugglingwiththeemotionwhichshehadrousedinhim。
Hereyes,astheyfollowedhim,lightedwithamomentaryenthusiasm——thensankwearilyinthevainregretwhichcomestoolate。Ah!ifhecouldhavebeenherfriendandheradviseronthefataldaywhenshefirstturnedherstepstowardMablethorpeHouse!Shesighedbitterlyasthehopelessaspirationwrungherheart。Heheardthesigh;and,turningagain,lookedatherwithanewinterestinhisface。
"MissRoseberry,"hesaid。
Shewasstillabsorbedinthebittermemoriesofthepast:shefailedtohearhim。
"MissRoseberry,"herepeated,approachingher。
Shelookedupathimwithastart。
"MayIventuretoaskyousomething?"hesaid,gently。
Sheshrankatthequestion。
"Don'tsupposeIamspeakingoutofmerecuriosity,"hewenton。"Andpraydon'tanswermeunlessyoucananswerwithoutbetrayinganyconfidencewhichmayhavebeenplacedinyou。"
"Confidence!"sherepeated。"Whatconfidencedoyoumean?"
"Ithasjuststruckmethatyoumighthavefeltmorethanacommoninterestinthequestionswhichyouputtomeamomentsince,"heanswered。"Wereyoubyanychancespeakingofsomeunhappywoman——notthepersonwhofrightenedyou,ofcourse——butofsomeotherwomanwhomyouknow?"
Herheadsankslowlyonherbosom。Hehadplainlynosuspicionthatshehadbeenspeakingofherself:histoneandmannerbothansweredforitthathisbeliefinherwasasstrongasever。Stillthoselastwordsmadehertremble;shecouldnottrustherselftoreplytothem。
Heacceptedthebendingofherheadasareply。
"Areyouinterestedinher?"heaskednext。
Shefaintlyansweredthistime。"Yes。"
"Haveyouencouragedher?"
"Ihavenotdaredtoencourageher。"
Hisfacelightedupsuddenlywithenthusiasm。"Gotoher,"hesaid,"andletmegowithyouandhelpyou!"
Theanswercamefaintlyandmournfully。"Shehassunktoolowforthat!"
Heinterruptedherwithagestureofimpatience。
"Whathasshedone?"heasked。
"Shehasdeceived——baselydeceived——innocentpeoplewhotrustedher。Shehaswronged——cruellywronged——anotherwoman。"
ForthefirsttimeJulianseatedhimselfatherside。Theinterestthatwasnowrousedinhimwasaninterestabovereproach。HecouldspeaktoMercywithoutrestraint;hecouldlookatMercywithapureheart。
"Youjudgeherveryharshly,"hesaid。"Doyouknowhowshemayhavebeentriedandtempted?"
Therewasnoanswer。
"Tellme,"hewenton,"isthepersonwhomshehasinjuredstillliving?"
"Yes。"
"Ifthepersonisstillliving,shemayatoneforthewrong。Thetimemaycomewhenthissinner,too,maywinourpardonanddeserveourrespect。"
"Couldyourespecther?"Mercyasked,sadly。"Cansuchamindasyoursunderstandwhatshehasgonethrough?"
Asmile,kindandmomentary,brightenedhisattentiveface。
"Youforgetmymelancholyexperience,"heanswered。"YoungasIam,Ihaveseenmorethanmostmenofwomenwhohavesinnedandsuffered。Evenafterthelittlethatyouhavetoldme,IthinkIcanputmyselfinherplace。Icanwellunderstand,forinstance,thatshemayhavebeentemptedbeyondhumanresistance。AmIright?"
"Youareright。"
"Shemayhavehadnobodynearatthetimetoadviseher,towarnher,tosaveher。Isthattrue?"
"Itistrue。"
"Temptedandfriendless,self-abandonedtotheevilimpulseofthemoment,thiswomanmayhavecommittedherselfheadlongtotheactwhichshenowvainlyrepents。Shemaylongtomakeatonement,andmaynotknowhowtobegin。Allherenergiesmaybecrushedunderthedespairandhorrorofherself,outofwhichthetruestrepentancegrows。Issuchawomanasthisallwicked,allvile?Idenyit!Shemayhaveanoblenature;andshemayshowitnoblyyet。Givehertheopportunitysheneeds,andourpoorfallenfellow-creaturemaytakeherplaceagainamongthebestofus——honored,blameless,happy,oncemore!"
Mercy'seyes,restingeagerlyonhimwhilehewasspeaking,droppedagaindespondinglywhenhehaddone。
"Thereisnosuchfutureasthat,"sheanswered,"forthewomanwhomIamthinkingof。Shehaslostheropportunity。Shehasdonewithhope。"
Juliangravelyconsideredwithhimselfforamoment。
"Letusunderstandeachother,"hesaid。"Shehascommittedanactofdeceptiontotheinjuryofanotherwoman。Wasthatwhatyoutoldme?"
"Yes。"
"Andshehasgainedsomethingtoherownadvantagebytheact。"
"Yes。"
"Isshethreatenedwithdiscovery?"
"Sheissafefromdiscovery——forthepresent,atleast。"
"Safeaslongassheclosesherlips?"
"Aslongassheclosesherlips。"
"Thereisheropportunity!"criedJulian。"Herfutureisbeforeher。Shehasnotdonewithhope!"
Withclaspedhands,inbreathlesssuspense,Mercylookedatthatinspiritingface,andlistenedtothosegoldenwords。
"Explainyourself,"shesaid。"Tellher,throughme,whatshemustdo。"
"Letherownthetruth,"answeredJulian,"withoutthebasefearofdiscoverytodrivehertoit。Letherdojusticetothewomanwhomshehaswronged,whilethatwomanisstillpowerlesstoexposeher。Lethersacrificeeverythingthatshehasgainedbythefraudtothesacreddutyofatonement。Ifshecandothat——forconscience'sake,andforpity'ssake——toherownprejudice,toherownshame,toherownloss——thenherrepentancehasnoblyrevealedthenoblenaturethatisinher;thensheisawomantobetrusted,respected,beloved!IfIsawthePhariseesandfanaticsofthislowerearthpassingherbyincontempt,Iwouldholdoutmyhandtoherbeforethemall。Iwouldsaytoherinhersolitudeandheraffliction,'Rise,poorwoundedheart!Beautiful,purifiedsoul,God'sangelsrejoiceoveryou!TakeyourplaceamongthenoblestofGod'screatures!'"
Inthoselastsentencesheunconsciouslyrepeatedthelanguageinwhichhehadspoken,yearssince,tohiscongregationinthechapeloftheRefuge。WithtenfoldpowerandtenfoldpersuasiontheynowfoundtheirwayagaintoMercy'sheart。Softly,suddenly,mysteriously,achangepassedoverher。Hertroubledfacegrewbeautifullystill。Theshiftinglightofterrorandsuspensevanishedfromhergrandgrayeyes,andleftinthemthesteadyinnerglowofahighandpureresolve。
Therewasamomentofsilencebetweenthem。Theybothhadneedofsilence。Julianwasthefirsttospeakagain。
"HaveIsatisfiedyouthatheropportunityisstillbeforeher?"heasked。"Doyoufeel,asIfeel,thatshehasnotdonewithhope?"
"Youhavesatisfiedmethattheworldholdsnotruerfriendtoherthanyou,"Mercyanswered,gentlyandgratefully。"Sheshallproveherselfworthyofyourgenerousconfidenceinher。Sheshallshowyouyetthatyouhavenotspokeninvain。"
Stillinevitablyfailingtounderstandher,heledthewaytothedoor。
"Don'twastetheprecioustime,"hesaid。"Don'tleavehercruellytoherself。Ifyoucan'tgotoher,letmegoasyourmessenger,inyourplace。"
Shestoppedhimbyagesture。Hetookastepbackintotheroom,andpaused,observingwithsurprisethatshemadenoattempttomovefromthechairthatsheoccupied。
"Stayhere,"shesaidtohim,insuddenlyalteredtones。
"Pardonme,"herejoined,"Idon'tunderstandyou。"
"Youwillunderstandmedirectly。Givemealittletime。"Hestilllingerednearthedoor,withhiseyesfixedinquiringlyonher。Amanofalowernaturethanhis,oramanbelievinginMercylessdevotedlythanhebelieved,wouldnowhavefelthisfirstsuspicionofher。Julianwasasfaraseverfromsuspectingher,evenyet。
"Doyouwishtobealone?"heasked,considerately。"ShallIleaveyouforawhileandreturnagain?"
Shelookedupwithastartofterror。"Leaveme?"sherepeated,andsuddenlycheckedherselfonthepointofsayingmore。Nearlyhalfthelengthoftheroomdividedthemfromeachother。Thewordswhichshewaslongingtosaywerewordsthatwouldneverpassherlipsunlessshecouldseesomeencouragementinhisface。"No!"shecriedouttohim,onasudden,inhersoreneed,"don'tleaveme!Comebacktome!"
Heobeyedherinsilence。Insilence,onherside,shepointedtothechairnearher。Hetookit。Shelookedathim,andcheckedherselfagain;resolutetomakeherterribleconfession,yetstillhesitatinghowtobegin。Herwoman'sinstinctwhisperedtoher,"Findcourageinhistouch!"Shesaidtohim,simplyandartlesslysaidtohim,"Givemeencouragement。Givemestrength。Letmetakeyourhand。"Heneitheranswerednormoved。Hismindseemedtohavebecomesuddenlypreoccupied;hiseyesrestedonhervacantly。Hewasonthebrinkofdiscoveringhersecret;inanotherinstanthewouldhavefoundhiswaytothetruth。Inthatinstant,innocentlyashissistermighthavetakenit,shetookhishand。Thesoftclaspofherfingers,clingingroundhis,rousedhissenses,firedhispassionforher,sweptoutofhismindthepureaspirationswhichhadfilleditbutthemomentbefore,paralyzedhisperceptionwhenitwasjustpenetratingthemysteryofherdisturbedmannerandherstrangewords。Allthemaninhimtrembledundertheraptureofhertouch。ButthethoughtofHoracewasstillpresenttohim:hishandlaypassiveinhers;hiseyeslookeduneasilyawayfromher。
Sheinnocentlystrengthenedherclaspofhishand。Sheinnocentlysaidtohim,"Don'tlookawayfromme。Youreyesgivemecourage。"
Hishandreturnedthepressureofhers。Hetastedtothefullthedeliciousjoyoflookingather。Shehadbrokendownhislastreservesofself-control。ThethoughtofHorace,thesenseofhonor,becameobscuredinhim。Inamomentmorehemighthavesaidthewordswhichhewouldhavedeploredfortherestofhislife,ifshehadnotstoppedhimbyspeakingfirst。"Ihavemoretosaytoyou,"sheresumedabruptly,feelingtheanimatingresolutiontolayherheartbarebeforehimatlast;"more,farmore,thanIhavesaidyet。Generous,mercifulfriend,letmesayithere!"
Sheattemptedtothrowherselfonherkneesathisfeet。Hesprungfromhisseatandcheckedher,holdingherwithbothhishands,raisingherasherosehimself。Inthewordswhichhadjustescapedher,inthestartlingactionwhichhadaccompaniedthem,thetruthburstonhim。Theguiltywomanshehadspokenofwasherself!
Whileshewasalmostinhisarms,whileherbosomwasjusttouchinghis,beforeawordmorehadpassedhislipsorhers,thelibrarydooropened。
LadyJanetRoyenteredtheroom。
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THESEARCHINTHEGROUNDS。
GRACEROSEBERRY,stilllisteningintheconservatory,sawthedooropen,andrecognizedthemistressofthehouse。Shesoftlydrewback,andplacedherselfinsaferhiding,beyondtherangeofviewfromthedining-room。
LadyJanetadvancednofurtherthanthethreshold。Shestoodthereandlookedathernephewandheradopteddaughterinsternsilence。
Mercydroppedintothechairatherside。Juliankepthisplacebyher。Hismindwasstillstunnedbythediscoverythathadburstonit;hiseyesstillrestedonherinmuteterrorofinquiry。Hewasascompletelyabsorbedintheoneactoflookingatherasiftheyhadbeenstillalonetogetherintheroom。
LadyJanetwasthefirstofthethreewhospoke。Sheaddressedherselftohernephew。
"Youwereright,Mr。JulianGray,"shesaid,withherbitterestemphasisoftoneandmanner。"Yououghttohavefoundnobodyinthisroomonyourreturnbutme。Idetainyounolonger。Youarefreetoleavemyhouse。"
Julianlookedroundathisaunt。Shewaspointingtothedoor。Intheexcitedstateofhissensibilitiesatthatmomenttheactionstunghimtothequick。Heansweredwithouthiscustomaryconsiderationforhisaunt'sageandhisaunt'spositiontowardhim。
"Youapparentlyforget,LadyJanet,thatyouarenotspeakingtooneofyourfootmen,"hesaid。"Thereareseriousreasonsofwhichyouknownothingformyremaininginyourhousealittlelonger。Youmayrelyuponmytrespassingonyourhospitalityasshortatimeaspossible。"
HeturnedagaintoMercyashesaidthosewords,andsurprisedhertimidlylookingupathim。Intheinstantwhentheireyesmet,thetumultofemotionsstrugglinginhimbecamesuddenlystilled。Sorrowforher——compassionatingsorrow——roseinthenewcalmandfilledhisheart。Now,andnowonly,hecouldreadinthewastedandnoblefacehowshehadsuffered。Thepitywhichhehadfeltfortheunnamedwomangrewtoatenfoldpityforher。Thefaithwhichheprofessed——honestlyprofessed——inthebetternatureoftheunnamedwomanstrengthenedintoatenfoldfaithinher。Headdressedhimselfagaintohisaunt,inagentlertone。"Thislady,"heresumed,"hassomethingtosaytomeinprivatewhichshehasnotsaidyet。Thatismyreasonandmyapologyfornotimmediatelyleavingthehouse。"
Stillundertheimpressionofwhatshehadseenonenteringtheroom,LadyJanetlookedathiminangryamazement。WasJulianactuallyignoringHoraceHolmcroft箂claims,inthepresenceofHoraceHolmcroft箂betrothedwife?Sheappealedtoheradopteddaughter。"Grace!"sheexclaimed,"haveyouheardhim?Haveyounothingtosay?MustIremindyou——"
Shestopped。ForthefirsttimeinLadyJanet'sexperienceofheryoungcompanion,shefoundherselfspeakingtoearsthatweredeaftoher。Mercywasincapableoflistening。Julian'seyeshadtoldherthatJulianunderstoodheratlast!
LadyJanetturnedtohernephewoncemore,andaddressedhiminthehardestwordsthatshehadeverspokentohersister'sson。
"Ifyouhaveanysenseofdecency,"shesaid——"Isaynothingofasenseofhonor——youwillleavethishouse,andyouracquaintancewiththatladywillendhere。Sparemeyourprotestsandexcuses;IcanplacebutoneinterpretationonwhatIsawwhenIopenedthatdoor。"
"Youentirelymisunderstandwhatyousawwhenyouopenedthatdoor,"Juliananswered,quietly。
"PerhapsImisunderstandtheconfessionwhichyoumadetomenotanhourago?"retortedLadyJanet。
JuliancastalookofalarmatMercy。"Don'tspeakofit!"hesaid,inawhisper。"Shemighthearyou。"
"Doyoumeantosayshedoesn'tknowyouareinlovewithher?"
"ThankGod,shehasnotthefaintestsuspicionofit!"
Therewasnomistakingtheearnestnesswithwhichhemadethatreply。Itprovedhisinnocenceasnothingelsecouldhaveprovedit。LadyJanetdrewbackastep——utterlybewildered;completelyatalosswhattosayorwhattodonext。
Thesilencethatfollowedwasbrokenbyaknockatthelibrarydoor。Theman-servant——withnews,andbadnews,legiblywritteninhisdisturbedfaceandmanner——enteredtheroom。Inthenervousirritabilityofthemoment,LadyJanetresentedtheservant'sappearanceasapositiveoffenseonthepartoftheharmlessman。"Whosentforyou?"sheasked,sharply。"Whatdoyoumeanbyinterruptingus?"
Theservantmadehisexcusesinanoddlybewilderedmanner。
"Ibegyourladyship'spardon。Iwishedtotaketheliberty——IwantedtospeaktoMr。JulianGray。"
"Whatisit?"askedJulian。
ThemanlookeduneasilyatLadyJanet,hesitated,andglancedatthedoor,asifhewishedhimselfwelloutoftheroomagain。
"IhardlyknowifIcantellyou,sir,beforeherladyship,"heanswered。
LadyJanetinstantlypenetratedthesecretofherservant'shesitation。
"Iknowwhathashappened,"shesaid;"thatabominablewomanhasfoundherwayhereagain。AmIright?"
Theman'seyeshelplesslyconsultedJulian。
"Yes,orno?"criedLadyJanet,imperatively。
"Yes,mylady。"
Julianatonceassumedthedutyofaskingthenecessaryquestions。
"Whereisshe?"hebegan。
"Somewhereinthegrounds,aswesuppose,sir。"
"Didyouseeher?"
"No,sir。"
"Whosawher?"
"Thelodge-keeper'swife。"
Thislookedserious。Thelodge-keeper'swifehadbeenpresentwhileJulianhadgivenhisinstructionstoherhusband。Shewasnotlikelytohavemistakentheidentityofthepersonwhomshehaddiscovered。
"Howlongsince?"Julianaskednext。
"Notverylong,sir。"
"Bemoreparticular。Howlong?"
"Ididn'thear,sir。"
"Didthelodge-keeper'swifespeaktothepersonwhenshesawher?"
"No,sir:shedidn'tgetthechance,asIunderstandit。Sheisastoutwoman,ifyouremember。Theotherwastooquickforher——discoveredher,sir,andasthesayingisgavehertheslip。"
"Inwhatpartofthegroundsdidthishappen?"
Theservantpointedinthedirectionofthesidehall。"Inthatpart,sir。EitherintheDutchgardenortheshrubbery。Iamnotsurewhich。"
Itwasplain,bythistime,thattheman'sinformationwastooimperfecttobepracticallyofanyuse。Julianaskedifthelodge-keeper'swifewasinthehouse。
"No,sir。Herhusbandhasgoneouttosearchthegroundsinherplace,andsheismindingthegate。Theysenttheirboywiththemessage。FromwhatIcanmakeoutfromthelad,theywouldbethankfuliftheycouldgetawordmoreofadvicefromyou,sir。"
Julianreflectedforamoment。
Sofarashecouldestimatethem,theprobabilitieswerethatthestrangerfromMannheimhadalreadymadeherwayintothehouse;thatshehadbeenlisteninginthebilliard-room;thatshehadfoundtimeenoughtoescapehimonhisapproachingtoopenthedoor;andthatshewasnowintheservant'sphrase"somewhereinthegrounds,"aftereludingthepursuitofthelodgekeeper'swife。
Thematterwasserious。Anymistakeindealingwithitmightleadtoverypainfulresults。
IfJulianhadcorrectlyanticipatedthenatureoftheconfessionwhichMercyhadbeenonthepointofaddressingtohim,thepersonwhomhehadbeenthemeansofintroducingintothehousewas——whatshehadvainlyassertedherselftobe——nootherthanthetrueGraceRoseberry。
Takingthisforgranted,itwasoftheutmostimportancethatheshouldspeaktoGraceprivately,beforeshecommittedherselftoanyrashlyrenewedassertionofherclaims,andbeforeshecouldgainaccesstoLadyJanet'sadopteddaughter。Thelandladyatherlodgingshadalreadywarnedhimthattheobjectwhichsheheldsteadilyinviewwastofindherwayto"MissRoseberry"whenLadyJanetwasnotpresenttotakeherpart,andwhennogentlemanwereathandtoprotecther。"Onlyletmemeetherfacetoface"shehadsaid,"andIwillmakeherconfessherselftheimpostorthatsheis!"Asmattersnowstood,itwasimpossibletoestimatetooseriouslythemischiefwhichmightensuefromsuchameetingasthis。EverythingnowdependedonJulian'sskillfulmanagementofanexasperatedwoman;andnobody,atthatmoment,knewwherethewomanwas。
Inthispositionofaffairs,asJulianunderstoodit,thereseemedtobenootheralternativethantomakehisinquiriesinstantlyatthelodgeandthentodirectthesearchinperson。
HelookedtowardMercy'schairashearrivedatthisresolution。ItwasatacruelsacrificeofhisownanxietiesandhisownwishesthathedeferredcontinuingtheconversationwithherfromthecriticalpointatwhichLadyJanet'sappearancehadinterruptedit。
Mercyhadrisenwhilehehadbeenquestioningtheservant。Theattentionwhichshehadfailedtoaccordtowhathadpassedbetweenhisauntandhimselfshehadgiventotheimperfectstatementwhichhehadextractedfromtheman。HerfaceplainlyshowedthatshehadlistenedaseagerlyasLadyJanethadlistened;withthisremarkabledifferencebetweenthere,thatLadyJanetlookedfrightened,andthatLadyJanet'scompanionshowednosignsofalarm。Sheappearedtobeinterested;perhapsanxious——nothingmore。
Julianspokeapartingwordtohisaunt。
"Praycomposeyourself,"hesaid"Ihavelittledoubt,whenIcanlearntheparticulars,thatweshalleasilyfindthispersoninthegrounds。Thereisnoreasontobeuneasy。Iamgoingtosuperintendthesearchmyself。Iwillreturntoyouassoonaspossible。"
LadyJanetlistenedabsently。TherewasacertainexpressioninhereyeswhichsuggestedtoJulianthathermindwasbusywithsomeprojectofitsown。HestoppedashepassedMercy,onhiswayoutbythebilliard-roomdoor。Itcosthimahardefforttocontrolthecontendingemotionswhichthemereactoflookingathernowawakenedinhim。Hisheartbeatfast,hisvoicesanklow,ashespoketoher。
"Youshallseemeagain,"hesaid。"IneverwasmoreinearnestinpromisingyoumytruesthelpandsympathythanIamnow。"
Sheunderstoodhim。Herbosomheavedpainfully;hereyesfelltotheground——shemadenoreply。ThetearsroseinJulian'seyesashelookedather。Hehurriedlylefttheroom。
Whenheturnedtoclosethebilliard-roomdoor,heheardLadyJanetsay,"Iwillbewithyouagaininamoment,Grace;don'tgoaway。"
Interpretingthesewordsasmeaningthathisaunthadsomebusinessofherowntoattendtointhelibrary,heshutthedoor。Hehadjustadvancedintothesmoking-roombeyond,whenhethoughtheheardthedooropenagain。Heturnedround。LadyJanethadfollowedhim。
"Doyouwishtospeaktome?"heasked。
"Iwantsomethingofyou,"LadyJanetanswered,"beforeyougo。"
"Whatisit?"
"Yourcard。"
"Mycard?"
"Youhavejusttoldmenottobeuneasy,"saidtheoldlady。"Iamuneasy,forallthat。Idon'tfeelassureasyoudothatthiswomanreallyisinthegrounds。Shemaybelurkingsomewhereinthehouse,andshemayappearwhenyourbackinturned。Rememberwhatyoutoldme。"
Julianunderstoodtheallusion。Hemadenoreply。
"Thepeopleatthepolicestationcloseby,"pursuedLadyJanet,"haveinstructionstosendanexperiencedman,inplainclothes,toanyaddressindicatedonyourcardthemomenttheyreceiveit。Thatiswhatyoutoldme。ForGrace'sprotection,Iwantyourcardbeforeyouleaveus。"
ItwasimpossibleforJuliantomentionthereasonswhichnowforbadehimtomakeuseofhisownprecautions——intheveryfaceoftheemergencywhichtheyhadbeenespeciallyintendedtomeet。HowcouldhedeclarethetrueGraceRoseberrytobemad?HowcouldhegivethetrueGraceRoseberryintocustody?Ontheotherhand,hehadpersonallypledgedhimselfwhenthecircumstancesappearedtorequireittoplacethemeansoflegalprotectionfrominsultandannoyanceathisaunt'sdisposal。Andnow,therestoodLadyJanet,unaccustomedtohaveherwishesdisregardedbyanybody,withherbandextended,waitingforthecard!
Whatwastobedone?Theonewayoutofthedifficultyappearedtobetosubmitforthemoment。Ifhesucceededindiscoveringthemissingwoman,hecouldeasilytakecarethatsheshouldbesubjectedtononeedlessindignity。Ifshecontrivedtoslipintothehouseinhisabsence,hecouldprovideagainstthatcontingencybysendingasecondcardprivatelytothepolicestation,forbiddingtheofficertostirintheaffairuntilhehadreceivedfurtherorders。Julianmadeonestipulationonlybeforehehandedhiscardtohisaunt。
"Youwillnotusethis,Iamsure,withoutpositiveandpressingnecessity,"hesaid。"ButImustmakeonecondition。Promisemetokeepmyplanforcommunicatingwiththepoliceastrictsecret——"
"AstrictsecretfromGrace?"interposedLadyJanet。Julianbowed。"DoyousupposeIwanttofrightenher?DoyouthinkIhavenothadanxietyenoughaboutheralready?OfcourseIshallkeepitasecretfromGrace!"
Re-assuredonthispoint,Julianhastenedoutintothegrounds。AssoonashisbackwasturnedLadyJanetliftedthegoldpencil-casewhichhungatherwatch-chain,andwroteonhernephew'scardfortheinformationoftheofficerinplainclothes,"YouarewantedatMablethorpeHouse。"Thisdone,sheputthecardintotheold-fashionedpocketofherdress,andreturnedtothedining-room。
Gracewaswaiting,inobediencetotheinstructionswhichshehadreceived。
Forthefirstmomentortwonotawordwasspokenoneitherside。Nowthatshewasalonewithheradopteddaughter,acertaincoldnessandhardnessbegantoshowitselfinLadyJanet'smanner。Thediscoverythatshehadmadeonopeningthedrawing-roomdoorstillhungonhermind。Julianhadcertainlyconvincedherthatshehadmisinterpretedwhatshehadseen;buthehadconvincedheragainstherwill。ShehadfoundMercydeeplyagitated;suspiciouslysilent。Julianmightbeinnocent,sheadmitted——therewasnoaccountingforthevagariesofmen。ButthecaseofMercywasaltogetherdifferent。Womendidnotfindthemselvesinthearmsofmenwithoutknowingwhattheywereabout。AcquittingJulian,LadyJanetdeclinedtoacquitMercy。"Thereissomesecretunderstandingbetweenthem,"thoughttheoldlady,"andshe'stoblame;thewomenalwaysare!"
Mercystillwaitedtobespokento;paleandquiet,silentandsubmissive。LadyJanet——inahighlyuncertainstateoftemper——wasobligedtobegin。
"Mydear!"shecalledout,sharply。
"Yes,LadyJanet。"
"Howmuchlongerareyougoingtosittherewithyourmouthshutupandyoureyesonthecarpet?Haveyounoopiniontoofferonthisalarmingstateofthings?YouheardwhatthemansaidtoJulian——Isawyoulistening。Areyouhorriblyfrightened?"
"No,LadyJanet。"
"Notevennervous?"
"No,LadyJanet。"
"Ha!Ishouldhardlyhavegivenyoucreditforsomuchcourageaftermyexperienceofyouaweekago。Icongratulateyouonyourrecovery。"
"Thankyou,LadyJanet。"
"Iamnotsocomposedasyouare。Wewereanexcitablesetinmyyouth——andIhaven'tgotthebetterofityet。Ifeelnervous。Doyouhear?Ifeelnervous。"
"Iamsorry,LadyJanet。"
"Youareverygood。DoyouknowwhatIamgoingtodo?"
"No,LadyJanet。"
"Iamgoingtosummonthehousehold。WhenIsaythehousehold,Imeanthemen;thewomenarenouse。IamafraidIfailtoattractyourattention?"
"Youhavemybestattention,LadyJanet。"
"Youareverygoodagain。Isaidthewomenwereofnouse。"
"Yes,LadyJanet。"
"Imeantoplaceaman-servantonguardateveryentrancetothehouse。Iamgoingtodoitatonce。Willyoucomewithme?"
"CanIbeofanyuseifIgowithyourladyship?"
"Youcan'tbeoftheslightestuse。Igivetheordersinthishouse——notyou。Ihadquiteanothermotiveinaskingyoutocomewithme。Iammoreconsiderateofyouthanyouseemtothink——Idon'tlikeleavingyouherebyyourself。Doyouunderstand?
"Iammuchobligedtoyourladyship。Idon'tmindbeingleftherebymyself。"
"Youdon'tmind?Ineverheardofsuchheroisminmylife——outofanovel!Supposethatcrazywretchshouldfindherwayinhere?"
"Shewouldnotfrightenmethistimeasshefrightenedmebefore。"
"Nottoofast,myyounglady!Suppose——Goodheavens!nowIthinkofit,thereistheconservatory。Supposesheshouldbehiddeninthere?Julianissearchingthegrounds。Whoistosearchtheconservatory?"
"Withyourladyship'spermission,Iwillsearchtheconservatory。"
"You!!!"
"Withyourladyship'spermission。"
"Icanhardlybelievemyownears!Well,'Liveandlearn'isanoldproverb。IthoughtIknewyourcharacter。Thisisachange!"
"Youforget,LadyJanetifImayventuretosayso,thatthecircumstancesarechanged。Shetookmebysurpriseonthelastoccasion;Iampreparedforhernow。"
"Doyoureallyfeelascoollyasyouspeak?"
"Yes,LadyJanet。"
"Haveyourownway,then。Ishalldoonething,however,incaseofyourhavingoverestimatedyourowncourage。Ishallplaceoneofthemeninthelibrary。Youwillonlyhavetoringforhimifanythinghappens。Hewillgivethealarm——andIshallactaccordingly。Ihavemyplan,"saidherLadyship,comfortablyconsciousofthecardinherpocket。"Don'tlooktheordealoftheconfession。Shewasnotonlyanxious——shewasimpatientforJulian'sreturn。BeforeshesleptthatnightJulian'sconfidenceinhershouldbeaconfidencethatshehaddeserved。
"Letherownthetruth,withoutthebasefearofdiscoverytodrivehertoit。Letherdojusticetothewomanwhomshehaswronged,whilethatwomanisstillpowerlesstoexposeher。Lethersacrificeeverythingthatshehasgainedbythefraudtothesacreddutyofatonement。Ifshecandothat,thenherrepentancehasnoblyrevealedthenoblenaturethatisinher;thensheisawomantobetrusted,respected,beloved。"Thosewordswereasvividlypresenttoherasifshestillheardthemfallingfromhislips。Thoseotherwordswhichhadfollowedthemrangasgrandlyaseverinherears:"Rise,poorwoundedheart!Beautiful,purifiedsoul,God'sangelsrejoiceoveryou!TakeyourplaceamongthenoblestofGod'screatures!"DidthewomanlivewhocouldhearJulianGraysaythat,andwhocouldhesitate,atanysacrifice,atanyloss,tojustifyhisbeliefinher?"Oh!"shethought,longinglywhilehereyesfollowedLadyJanettotheendofthelibrary,"ifyourworstfearscouldonlyberealized!IfIcouldonlyseeGraceRoseberryinthisroom,howfearlesslyIcouldmeethernow!"
Sheclosedthelibrarydoor,whileLadyJanetopenedtheotherdoorwhichledintothehall。
Assheturnedandlookedbackintothedining-roomacryofastonishmentescapedher。
There——asifinanswertotheaspirationwhichwasstillinhermind;there,establishedintriumphonthechairthatshehadjustleft——satGraceRoseberry,insinistersilence,waitingforher。
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THEEVILGENIUS。
RECOVERINGfromthefirstoverpoweringsensationofsurprise,Mercyrapidlyadvanced,eagertosayherfirstpenitentwords。Gracestoppedherbyawarninggestureofthehand。"Nonearertome,"shesaid,withalookofcontemptuouscommand。"Staywhereyouare。"
Mercypaused。Grace'sreceptionhadstartledher。Sheinstinctivelytookthechairnearesttohertosupportherself。Graceraisedawarninghandforthesecondtime,andissuedanothercommand:"Iforbidyoutobeseatedinmypresence。Youhavenorighttobeinthishouseatall。Remember,ifyouplease,whoyouare,andwhoIam。"
Thetoneinwhichthosewordswerespokenwasaninsultinitself。Mercysuddenlyliftedherhead;theangryanswerwasonherlips。Shecheckedit,andsubmittedinsilence。"IwillbeworthyofJulianGray'sconfidenceinme,"shethought,asshestoodpatientlybythechair。"IwillbearanythingfromthewomanwhomIhavewronged。"
Insilencethetwofacedeachother;alonetogether,forthefirsttimesincetheyhadmetintheFrenchcottage。Thecontrastbetweenthemwasstrangetosee。GraceRoseberry,seatedinherchair,littleandlean,withherdullwhitecomplexion,withherhard,threateningface,withhershrunkenfigurecladinitsplainandpoorblackgarments,lookedlikeabeingofalowersphere,comparedwithMercyMerrick,standingerectinherrichsilkendress;hertall,shapelyfiguretoweringoverthelittlecreaturebeforeher;hergrandheadbentingracefulsubmission;gentle,patient,beautiful;awomanwhomitwasaprivilegetolookatandadistinctiontoadmire。Ifastrangerhadbeentoldthatthosetwohadplayedtheirpartsinaromanceofreallife——thatoneofthemwasreallyconnectedbythetiesofrelationshipwithLadyJanetRoy,andthattheotherhadsuccessfullyattemptedtopersonateher——hewouldinevitably,ifithadbeenlefttohimtoguesswhichwaswhich,havepickedoutGraceasthecounterfeitandMercyasthetruewoman。
Gracebrokethesilence。Shehadwaitedtoopenherlipsuntilshehadeyedherconqueredvictimallover,withdisdainfullyminuteattention,fromheadtofoot"Standthere。Iliketolookatyou,"shesaid,speakingwithaspitefulrelishofherowncruelwords。"It'snousefaintingthistime。YouhavenotgotLadyJanetRoytobringyouto。Therearenogentlemenhereto-daytopityyouandpickyouup。MercyMerrick,Ihavegotyouatlast。ThankGod,myturnhascome!Youcan'tescapemenow!"
AllthelittlenessofheartandmindwhichhadfirstshownitselfinGraceatthemeetinginthecottage,whenMercytoldthesadstoryofherlife,nowrevealeditselfoncemore。Thewomanwhointhosepasttimeshadfeltnoimpulsetotakeasufferingandapenitentfellow-creaturebythehandwasthesamewomanwhocouldfeelnopity,whocouldsparenoinsolenceoftriumph,now。Mercy'ssweetvoiceansweredherpatiently,inlow,pleadingtones。
"Ihavenotavoidedyou,"shesaid。"IwouldhavegonetoyouofmyownaccordifIhadknownthatyouwerehere。ItismyheartfeltwishtoownthatIhavesinnedagainstyou,andtomakealltheatonementthatIcan。Iamtooanxioustodeserveyourforgivenesstohaveanyfearofseeingyou。"
Conciliatoryasthereplywas,itwasspokenwithasimpleandmodestdignityofmannerwhichrousedGraceRoseberrytofury。
"Howdareyouspeaktomeasifyouwereanyequal?"sheburstout。"Youstandthereandanswermeasifyouhadyourrightandyourplaceinthishouse。Youaudaciouswoman!Ihavemyrightandmyplacehere——andwhatamIobligedtodo?Iamobligedtohangaboutinthegrounds,andflyfromthesightoftheservants,andhidelikeathief,andwaitlikeabeggar,andallforwhat?Forthechanceofhavingawordwithyou。Yes!you,madam!withtheairoftheRefugeandthedirtofthestreetsonyou!"
Mercy'sheadsanklower;herhandtrembledasitheldbythebackofthechair。
Itwashardtobearthereiteratedinsultsheapedonher,butJulian'sinfluencestillmadeitselffelt。Sheansweredaspatientlyasever。
"Ifitisyourpleasuretousehardwordstome,"shesaid,"Ihavenorighttoresentthem。"
"Youhavenorighttoanything!"Graceretorted。"Youhavenorighttothegownonyourback。Lookatyourself,andlookatMe!"HereyestraveledwithatigerishstareoverMercy'scostlysilkdress。"Whogaveyouthatdress?whogaveyouthosejewels?Iknow!LadyJanetgavethemtoGraceRoseberry。AreyouGraceRoseberry?Thatdressismine。Takeoffyourbraceletsandyourbrooch。Theyweremeantforme。"
"Youmaysoonhavethem,MissRoseberry。Theywillnotbeinmypossessionmanyhourslonger。"
"Whatdoyoumean?"
"Howeverbadlyyoumayuseme,itismydutytoundotheharmthatIhavedone。Iamboundtodoyoujustice——Iamdeterminedtoconfessthetruth。"
Gracesmiledscornfully。
"Youconfess!"shesaid。"DoyouthinkIamfoolenoughtobelievethat?Youareoneshamefulbrazenliefromheadtofoot!Areyouthewomantogiveupyoursilksandyourjewels,andyourpositioninthishouse,andtogobacktotheRefugeofyourownaccord?Notyou——notyou!"
Afirstfaintflushofcolorshoweditself,stealingslowlyoverMercy'sface;butshestillheldresolutelybythegoodinfluencewhichJulianhadleftbehindhim。Shecouldstillsaytoherself,"AnythingratherthandisappointJulianGray。"Sustainedbythecouragewhichhehadcalledtolifeinher,shesubmittedtohermartyrdomasbravelyasever。Buttherewasanominouschangeinhernow:shecouldonlysubmitinsilence;shecouldnolongertrustherselftoanswer。
ThemuteenduranceinherfaceadditionallyexasperatedGraceRoseberry。
"Youwon'tconfess,"shewenton。"Youhavehadaweektoconfessin,andyouhavenotdoneityet。No,no!youareofthesortthatcheatandlietothelast。Iamgladofit;Ishallhavethejoyofexposingyoumyselfbeforethewholehouse。Ishallbetheblessedmeansofcastingyoubackonthestreets。Oh!itwillbealmostworthallIhavegonethroughtoseeyouwithapoliceman'shandonyourarm,andthemobpointingatyouandmockingyouonyourwaytojail!"
Thistimethestingstruckdeep;theoutragewasbeyondendurance。Mercygavethewomanwhohadagainandagaindeliberatelyinsultedherafirstwarning。
"MissRoseberry,"shesaid,"Ihavebornewithoutamurmurthebitterestwordsyoucouldsaytome。Sparemeanymoreinsults。Indeed,indeed,Iameagertorestoreyoutoyourjustrights。WithmywholeheartIsayittoyou——Iamresolvedtoconfesseverything!"
Shespokewithtremblingearnestnessoftone。can,andwill,beforeIrestto-night,tellthewholetruthtoMr。JulianGray。"
Graceburstoutlaughing。"Aha!"sheexclaimed,withacynicaloutburstofgayety。"Nowwehavecometoitatlast!"
"Takecare!"saidMercy。"Takecare!"
"Mr。JulianGray!Iwasbehindthebilliard-roomdoor——IsawyoucoaxMr。JulianGraytocomein!confessionlosesallitshorrors,andbecomesquitealuxury,withMr。JulianGray!"
"Nomore,MissRoseberry!nomore!ForGod'ssake,don'tputmebesidemyself!Youhavetorturedmeenoughalready。"
"Youhaven'tbeenonthestreetsfornothing。Youareawomanwithresources;youknowthevalueofhavingtwostringstoyourbow。IfMr。Holmcroftfailsyou,youhavegotMr。JulianGray。Ah!yousickenme。I'llseethatMr。Holmcroft'seyesareopened;heshallknowwhatawomanhemighthavemarriedbutforMe——"
Shecheckedherself;thenextrefinementofinsultremainedsuspendedonherlips。
Thewomanwhomshehadoutragedsuddenlyadvancedonher。Hereyes,staringhelplesslyupward,sawMercyMerrick'sface,whitewiththeterribleangerwhichdrivesthebloodbackontheheart,bendingthreateninglyoverher。
"'YouwillseethatMr。Holmcroft'seyesareopened,'"Mercyslowlyrepeated;"'heshallknowwhatawomanhemighthavemarriedbutforyou!'"
Shepaused,andfollowedthosewordsbyaquestionwhichstruckacreepingterrorthroughGraceRoseberry,fromthehairofherheadtothesolesofherfeet:
"Whoareyou?"
Thesuppressedfuryoflookandtonewhichaccompaniedthatquestiontold,asnoviolencecouldhavetoldit,thatthelimitsofMercy'sendurancehadbeenfoundatlast。Intheguardianangel'sabsencetheevilgeniushaddoneitsevilwork。ThebetternaturewhichJulianGrayhadbroughttolifesank,poisonedbythevilevenomofawomanlyspitefultongue。AneasyandaterriblemeansofavengingtheoutragesheapedonherwaswithinMercy'sreach,ifshechosetotakeit。Inthefrenzyofherindignationsheneverhesitated——shetookit。
"Whoareyou?"sheaskedforthesecondtime。
Gracerousedherselfandattemptedtospeak。Mercystoppedherwithascornfulgestureofherhand。
"Iremember!"shewenton,withthesamefiercelysuppressedrage。"YouarethemadwomanfromtheGermanhospitalwhocamehereaweekago。Iamnotafraidofyouthistime。Sitdownandrestyourself,MercyMerrick"
Deliberatelygivingherthatnametoherface,MercyturnedfromherandtookthechairwhichGracehadforbiddenhertooccupywhentheinterviewbegan。Gracestartedtoherfeet。
"Whatdoesthismean?"sheasked。
"Itmeans,"answeredMercy,contemptuously,"thatIrecalleverywordIsaidtoyoujustnow。ItmeansthatIamresolvedtokeepmyplaceinthishouse。"
"Areyououtofyoursenses?"
"Youarenotfarfromthebell。Ringit。Dowhatyouaskedmetodo。Callinthewholehousehold,andaskthemwhichofusismad——youorI。"
"MercyMerrick!youshallrepentthistothelasthourofyourlife!"
Mercyroseagain,andfixedherflashingeyesonthewomanwhostilldefiedher。
"Ihavehadenoughofyou!"shesaid。"Leavethehousewhileyoucanleaveit。Stayhere,andIwillsendforLadyJanetRoy。"
"Youcan'tsendforher!Youdaren'tsendforher!"
"IcanandIdare。Youhavenotashadowofaproofagainstme。Ihavegotthepapers;Iaminpossessionoftheplace;IhaveestablishedmyselfinLadyJanet'sconfidence。Imeantodeserveyouropinionofme——Iwillkeepmydressesandmyjewelsandmypositioninthehouse。IdenythatIhavedonewrong。Societyhasusedmecruelly;IowenothingtoSociety。IhavearighttotakeanyadvantageofitifIcan。IdenythatIhaveinjuredyou。HowwasItoknowthatyouwouldcometolifeagain?HaveIdegradedyournameandyourcharacter?Ihavedonehonortoboth。Ihavewoneverybody'slikingandeverybody'srespect。DoyouthinkLadyJanetwouldhavelovedyouasshelovesme?Notshe!ItellyoutoyourfaceIhavefilledthefalsepositionmorecreditablythanyoucouldhavefilledthetrueone,andImeantokeepit。Iwon'tgiveupyourname;Iwon'trestoreyourcharacter!Doyourworst;Idefyyou!"
Shepouredoutthoserecklesswordsinoneheadlongflowwhichdefiedinterruption。Therewasnoansweringheruntilshewastoobreathlesstosaymore。Graceseizedheropportunitythemomentitwaswithinherreach。
"Youdefyme?"shereturned,resolutely。"Youwon'tdefymelong。IhavewrittentoCanada。Myfriendswillspeakforme。"
"Whatofit,iftheydo?Yourfriendsarestrangershere。IamLadyJanet'sadopteddaughter。Doyouthinkshewillbelieveyourfriends?Shewillbelieveme。Shewillburntheirlettersiftheywrite。Shewillforbidthehousetothemiftheycome。IshallbeMrs。HoraceHolmcroftinaweek'stime。Whocanshakemyposition?WhocaninjureMe?"
"Waitalittle。YouforgetthematronattheRefuge。"
"Findher,ifyoucan。Inevertoldyouhername。InevertoldyouwheretheRefugewas。"
"Iwilladvertiseyourname,andfindthematroninthatway。"
"AdvertiseineverynewspaperinLondon。DoyouthinkIgaveastrangerlikeyouthenameIreallyboreintheRefuge?IgaveyouthenameIassumedwhenIleftEngland。NosuchpersonasMercyMerrickisknowntothematron。NosuchpersonisknowntoMr。Holmcroft。HesawmeattheFrenchcottagewhileyouweresenselessonthebed。Ihadmygraycloakon;neitherhenoranyofthemsawmeinmynurse'sdress。InquirieshavebeenmadeaboutmeontheContinent——andIhappentoknowfromthepersonwhomadethemwithnoresult。Iamsafeinyourplace;Iamknownbyyourname。IamGraceRoseberry;andyouareMercyMerrick。Disproveit,ifyoucan!"
Summinguptheunassailablesecurityofherfalsepositioninthoseclosingwords,Mercypointedsignificantlytothebilliard-roomdoor。
"Youwerehidingthere,byyourownconfession,"shesaid。"Youknowyourwayoutbythatdoor。Willyouleavetheroom?"
"Iwon'tstirastep!"
Mercywalkedtoaside-table,andstruckthebellplacedonit。
Atthesamemomentthebilliard-roomdooropened。JulianGrayappeared——returningfromhisunsuccessfulsearchinthegrounds。
Hehadbarelycrossedthethresholdbeforethelibrarydoorwasthrownopennextbytheservantpostedintheroom。Themandrewbackrespectfully,andgaveadmissiontoLadyJanetRoy。ShewasfollowedbyHoraceHolmcroftwithhismother'sweddingpresenttoMercyinhishand。
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THEPOLICEMANINPLAINCLOTHES。
JULIANlookedroundtheroom,andstoppedatthedoorwhichhehadjustopened。
HiseyesrestedfirstonMercy,nextonGrace。
Thedisturbedfacesofboththewomentoldhimbuttooplainlythatthedisasterwhichhehaddreadedhadactuallyhappened。Theyhadmetwithoutanythirdpersontointerferebetweenthem。Towhatextremitiesthehostileinterviewmighthaveleditwasimpossibleforhimtoguess。Inhisaunt'spresencehecouldonlywaithisopportunityofspeakingtoMercy,andbereadytointerposeifanythingwasignorantlydonewhichmightgivejustcauseofoffensetoGrace。
LadyJanet'scourseofactiononenteringthedining-roomwasinperfectharmonywithLadyJanet'scharacter。
Instantlydiscoveringtheintruder,shelookedsharplyatMercy。"WhatdidItellyou?"sheasked。"Areyoufrightened?No!notintheleastfrightened!Wonderful!"Sheturnedtotheservant。"Waitinthelibrary;Imaywantyouagain。"ShelookedatJulian。"Leaveitalltome;Icanmanageit。"ShemadeasigntoHorace。"Staywhereyouare,andholdyourtongue。"Havingnowsaidallthatwasnecessarytoeveryoneelse,sheadvancedtothepartoftheroominwhichGracewasstanding,withloweringbrowsandfirmlyshutlips,defiantofeverybody。