Julian'sfacedarkenedominously。
"Thisconfirmsmyworstfears,"hesaid。"HaveyouhadanycommunicationwithLadyJanet?"
Mercyrepliedbyshowinghimhisaunt'snote。Hereaditcarefullythrough。
"DidInottellyou,"hesaid,"thatshewouldfindsomeexcuseforrefusingtohearyourconfession?Shebeginsbydelayingit,simplytogaintimeforsomethingelsewhichshehasitinhermindtodo。Whendidyoureceivethisnote?Soonafteryouwentupstairs?"
"Aboutaquarterofanhourafter,aswellasIcanguess。"
"Doyouknowwhathappeneddownhereafteryouleftus?"
"HoracetoldmethatLadyJanethadofferedMissRoseberrytheuseofherboudoir。"
"Anymore?"
"Hesaidthatyouhadshownherthewaytotheroom。"
"Didhetellyouwhathappenedafterthat?"
"No。"
"ThenImusttellyou。IfIcandonothingmoreinthisseriousstateofthings,Icanatleastpreventyourbeingtakenbysurprise。Inthefirstplace,itisrightyoushouldknowthatIhadamotiveforaccompanyingMissRoseberrytotheboudoir。Iwasanxiousforyoursaketomakesomeappealtoherbetterself——ifshehadanybetterselftoaddress。IownIhaddoubtsofmysuccess——judgingbywhatIhadalreadyseenofher。Mydoubtswereconfirmed。IntheordinaryintercourseoflifeIshouldmerelyhavethoughtheracommonplace,uninterestingwoman。SeeingherasIsawherwhilewewerealone——inotherwords,penetratingbelowthesurface——Ihavenever,inallmysadexperience,metwithsuchahopelesslynarrow,mean,andlownatureashers。Understanding,asshecouldnotfailtodo,whatthesuddenchangeinLadyJanet'sbehaviortowardherreallymeant,heroneideawastotakethecruelestpossibleadvantageofit。Sofarfromfeelinganyconsiderationforyou,shewasonlyadditionallyimbitteredtowardyou。Sheprotestedagainstyourbeingpermittedtoclaimthemeritofplacingherinherrightpositionherebyyourownvoluntaryavowalofthetruth。Sheinsistedonpubliclydenouncingyou,andonforcingLadyJanettodismissyou,unheard,beforethewholehousehold!'NowIcanhavemyrevenge!AtlastLadyJanetisafraidofme!'Thosewereherownwords——Iamalmostashamedtorepeatthem——those,onmyhonor,wereherownwords!Everypossiblehumiliationtobeheapedonyou;noconsiderationtobeshownforLadyJanet'sageandLadyJanet'sposition;nothing,absolutelynothing,tobeallowedtointerferewithMissRoseberry'svengeanceandMissRoseberry'striumph!Thereisthiswoman'sshamelessviewofwhatisduetoher,asstatedbyherselfintheplainestterms。Ikeptmytemper;IdidallIcouldtobringhertoabetterframeofmind。Imightaswellhavepleaded——Iwon'tsaywithasavage;savagesaresometimesaccessibletoremonstrance,ifyouknowhowtoreachthem——Imightaswellhavepleadedwithahungryanimaltoabstainfromeatingwhilefoodwaswithinitsreach。Ihadjustgivenupthehopelesseffortindisgust,whenLadyJanet'smaidappearedwithamessageforMissRoseberryfromhermistress:'Mylady'scompliments,ma'am,andshewillbegladtoseeyouatyourearliestconvenience,inherroom。'"
Anothersurprise!GraceRoseberryinvitedtoaninterviewwithLadyJanet!Itwouldhavebeenimpossibletobelieveit,ifJulianhadnotheardtheinvitationgivenwithhisownears。
"Sheinstantlyrose,"Julianproceeded。"'Iwon'tkeepherladyshipwaitingamoment,'shesaid;'showmetheway。'Shesignedtothemaidtogooutoftheroomfirst,andthenturnedroundandspoketomefromthedoor。Idespairofdescribingtheinsolentexultationofhermanner。Icanonlyrepeatherwords:'ThisisexactlywhatIwanted!IhadintendedtoinsistonseeingLadyJanet:shesavesmethetrouble。Iaminfinitelyobligedtoher。'Withthatshenoddedtome,andclosedthedoor。Ihavenotseenher,Ihavenotheardofher,since。ForallIknow,shemaybestillwithmyaunt,andHoracemayhavefoundhertherewhenheenteredtheroom。"
"WhatcanLadyJanethavetosaytoher?"Mercyasked,eagerly。
"Itisimpossibleeventoguess。Whenyoufoundmeinthedining-roomIwasconsideringthatveryquestion。IcannotimaginethatanyneutralgroundcanexistonwhichitispossibleforLadyJanetandthiswomantomeet。InherpresentframeofmindshewillinallprobabilityinsultLadyJanetbeforeshehasbeenfiveminutesintheroom。IownIamcompletelypuzzled。TheoneconclusionIcanarriveatisthatthenotewhichmyauntsenttoyou,theprivateinterviewwithMissRoseberrywhichhasfollowed,andthesummonstoHoracewhichhassucceededinitsturn,arealllinksinthesamechainofevents,andarealltendingtothatrenewedtemptationagainstwhichIhavealreadywarnedyou。"
Mercyheldupherhandforsilence。Shelookedtowardthedoorthatopenedonthehall;hadsheheardafootstepoutside?No。Allwasstill。NotasignyetofHorace'sreturn。
"Oh!"sheexclaimed,"whatwouldInotgivetoknowwhatisgoingonupstairs!"
"Youwillsoonknowitnow,"saidJulian。"Itisimpossiblethatourpresentuncertaintycanlastmuchlonger。"
Heturnedaway,intendingtogobacktotheroominwhichshehadfoundhim。Lookingathersituationfromaman'spointofview,henaturallyassumedthatthebestservicehecouldnowrendertoMercywouldbetoleavehertoprepareherselffortheinterviewwithHorace。Beforehehadtakenthreestepsawayfromhersheshowedhimthedifferencebetweenthewoman'spointofviewandtheman's。Theideaofconsideringbeforehandwhatsheshouldsayneverenteredhermind。Inherhorrorofbeingleftbyherselfatthatcriticalmoment,sheforgoteveryotherconsideration。EventhewarningremembranceofHorace'sjealousdistrustofJulianpassedawayfromher,forthemoment,ascompletelyasifitneverhadaplaceinhermemory。"Don'tleaveme!"shecried。"Ican'twaitherealone。Comeback——comeback!"
Sheroseimpulsivelywhileshespoke,asiftofollowhimintothedining-room,ifhepersistedinleavingher。
AmomentaryexpressionofdoubtcrossedJulian'sfaceasheretracedhisstepsandsignedtohertobeseatedagain。Couldshebedependedonheaskedhimselftosustainthecomingtestofherresolution,whenshehadnotcourageenoughtowaitforeventsinaroombyherself?Julianhadyettolearnthatawoman'scourageriseswiththegreatnessoftheemergency。Askhertoaccompanyyouthroughafieldinwhichsomeharmlesscattlehappentobegrazing,anditisdoubtful,inninecasesoutoften,ifshewilldoit。Askher,asoneofthepassengersinashiponfire,tohelpinsettinganexampleofcomposuretotherest,anditiscertain,inninecasesoutoften,thatshewilldoit。AssoonasJulianhadtakenachairnearher,Mercywascalmagain。
"Areyousureofyourresolution?"heasked。
"Iamcertainofit,"sheanswered,"aslongasyoudon'tleavemebymyself。"
Thetalkbetweenthemdroppedthere。Theysattogetherinsilence,withtheireyesfixedonthedoor,waitingforHoracetocomein。
Afterthelapseofafewminutestheirattentionwasattractedbyasoundoutsideinthegrounds。Acarriageofsomesortwasplainlyaudibleapproachingthehouse。
Thecarriagestopped;thebellrang;thefrontdoorwasopened。Hadavisitorarrived?Novoicecouldbeheardmakinginquiries。Nofootstepsbuttheservant'sfootstepscrossedthehall。Alongpausefollowed,thecarriageremainingatthedoor。Insteadofbringingsomeonetothehouse,ithadapparentlyarrivedtotakesomeoneaway。
Thenexteventwasthereturnoftheservanttothefrontdoor。Theylistenedagain。Againnosecondfootstepwasaudible。Thedoorwasclosed;theservantrecrossedthehall;thecarriagewasdrivenaway。Judgingbysoundsalone,noonehadarrivedatthehouse,andnoonehadleftthehouse。
JulianlookedatMercy。"Doyouunderstandthis?"heasked。
Shesilentlyshookherhead。
"Ifanypersonhasgoneawayinthecarriage,"Julianwenton,"thatpersoncanhardlyhavebeenaman,orwemusthaveheardhiminthehall。"
TheconclusionwhichhercompanionhadjustdrawnfromthenoiselessdepartureofthesupposedvisitorraisedasuddendoubtinMercy'smind。
"Goandinquire!"shesaid,eagerly。
Julianlefttheroom,andreturnedagain,afterabriefabsence,withsignsofgraveanxietyinhisfaceandmanner。
"ItoldyouIdreadedthemosttriflingeventsthatwerepassingaboutus,"hesaid。"Anevent,whichisfarfrombeingtrifling,hasjusthappened。Thecarriagewhichweheardapproachingalongthedriveturnsouttohavebeenacabsentforfromthehouse。Thepersonwhohasgoneawayinit——"
"Isawoman,asyousupposed?"
"Yes。"
Mercyroseexcitedlyfromherchair。
"Itcan'tbeGraceRoseberry?"sheexclaimed。
"ItisGraceRoseberry。"
"Hasshegoneawayalone?"
"Alone——afteraninterviewwithLadyJanet。"
"Didshegowillingly?"
"Sheherselfsenttheservantforthecab。"
"Whatdoesitmean?"
"Itisuselesstoinquire。Weshallsoonknow。"
Theyresumedtheirseats,waiting,astheyhadwaitedalready,withtheireyesonthelibrarydoor。
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[TableofContents]TheNewMagdalen,Chapter23CHAPTERXXIII。
LADYJANETATBAY。
THEnarrativeleavesJulianandMercyforawhile,and,ascendingtotheupperregionsofthehouse,followsthemarchofeventsinLadyJanet'sroom。
Themaidhaddeliveredhermistress'snotetoMercy,andhadgoneawayagainonherseconderrandtoGraceRoseberryinherboudoir。LadyJanetwasseatedatherwriting-table,waitingfortheappearanceofthewomanwhomshehadsummonedtoherpresence。Asinglelampdifuseditsmildlightoverthebooks,pictures,andbustsroundher,leavingthefurtherendoftheroom,inwhichthebedwasplaced,almostlostinobscurity。Theworksofartwereallportraits;thebookswereallpresentationcopiesfromtheauthors。ItwasLadyJanet'sfancytoassociateherbedroomwithmemorialsofthevariouspersonswhomshehadknowninthelongcourseofherlife——allofthemmoreorlessdistinguished,mostofthem,bythistime,gatheredwiththedead。
Shesatnearherwriting-table,lyingbackinhereasy-chair——thelivingrealizationofthepicturewhichJulian'sdescriptionhaddrawn。HereyeswerefixedonaphotographiclikenessofMercy,whichwassoraiseduponalittlegilteaselastoenablehertocontemplateitunderthefulllightofthelamp。Thebright,mobileoldfacewasstrangelyandsadlychanged。Thebrowwasfixed;themouthwasrigid;thewholefacewouldhavebeenlikeamask,moldedinthehardestformsofpassiveresistanceandsurpressedrage,butforthelightandlifestillthrownoveritbytheeyes。Therewassomethingunutterablytouchinginthekeenhungeringtendernessofthelookwhichtheyfixedontheportrait,intensifiedbyanunderlyingexpressionoffondandpatientreproach。ThedangerwhichJuliansowiselydreadedwasintherestoftheface;thelovewhichhehadsotrulydescribedwasintheeyesalone。Theystillspokeofthecruellyprofanedaffectionwhichhadbeentheoneimmeasurablejoy,theoneinexhaustiblehopeofLadyJanet'sclosinglife。Thebrowexpressednothingbutherobstinatedeterminationtostandbythewreckofthatjoy,torekindlethedeadashesofthathope。Thelipswereonlyeloquentofherunflinchingresolutiontoignorethehatefulpresentandtosavethesacredpast。"Mymydutytorequestaninterview,ifyouhadnotsentyourmaidtoinvitemeuphere。"
"Youwouldhavefeltityourdutytorequestaninterview?"LadyJanetrepeated,veryquietly。"Why?"
ThetoneinwhichthatonelastwordwasspokenembarrassedGraceattheoutset。ItestablishedasgreatadistancebetweenLadyJanetandherselfasifshehadbeenliftedinherchairandconveyedbodilytotheotherendoftheroom。
"Iamsurprisedthatyourladyshipshouldnotunderstandme,"shesaid,strugglingtoconcealherconfusion。"Especiallyafteryourkindofferofyourownboudoir。"
LadyJanetremainedperfectlyunmoved。"Idonotunderstandyou,"sheanswered,justasquietlyasever。
Grace'stempercametoherassistance。Sherecoveredtheassurancewhichhadmarkedherfirstappearanceonthescene。
"Inthatcase,"sheresumed,"Imustenterintoparticulars,injusticetomyself。Icanplacebutoneinterpretationontheextraordinarychangeinyourladyship'sbehaviortomedownstairs。Theconductofthatabominablewomanhasatlastopenedyoureyestothedeceptionthathasbeenpracticedonyou。Forsomereasonofyourown,however,youhavenotyetchosentorecognizemeopenly。Inthispainfulpositionsomethingisduetomyownself-respect。Icannot,andwillnot,permitMercyMerricktoclaimthemeritofrestoringmetomyproperplaceinthishouse。AfterwhatIhavesuffereditisquiteimpossibleformetoendurethat。Ishouldhaverequestedaninterviewifyouhadnotsentformefortheexpresspurposeofclaimingthisperson'simmediateexpulsionfromthehouse。IclaimitnowasaproperconcessiontoMe。WhateveryouorMr。JulianGraymaydo,Iwillnottamelypermithertoexhibitherselfasaninterestingpenitent。Itisreallyalittletoomuchtohearthisbrazenadventuressappointherowntimeforexplainingherself。Itistoodeliberatelyinsultingtoseehersailoutoftheroom——withaclergymanoftheChurchofEnglandopeningthedoorforher——asifshewaslayingmeunderanobligation!Icanforgivemuch,LadyJanet——includingthetermsinwhichyouthoughtitdecenttoordermeoutofyourhouse。Iamquitewillingtoaccepttheofferofyourboudoir,astheexpressiononyourpartofabetterframeofmind。ButevenChristianCharityhasitslimits。Thecontinuedpresenceofthatwretchunderyourroofis,youwillpermitmetoremark,notonlyamonumentofyourownweakness,butaperfectlyinsufferableinsulttoMe。"
Thereshestoppedabruptly——notforwantofwords,butforwantofalistener。
LadyJanetwasnotevenpretendingtoattendtoher。LadyJanet,withadeliberaterudenessentirelyforeigntoherusualhabits,wascomposedlybusyingherselfinarrangingthevariouspapersscatteredaboutthetable。Someshetiedtogetherwithlittlemorselsofstring;somesheplacedunderpaper-weights;someshedepositedinthefantasticpigeon-holesofalittleJapanesecabinet——workingwithaplacidenjoymentofherownorderlyoccupation,andperfectlyunaware,toalloutwardappearance,thatanysecondpersonwasintheroom。Shelookedup,withherpapersinbothhands,whenGracestopped,andsaid,quietly,"Haveyoudone?"
"Isyourladyship'spurposeinsendingformetotreatmewithstudiedrudeness?"Graceretorted,angrily。
"Mypurposeinsendingforyouistosaysomethingassoonasyouwillallowmetheopportunity。"
TheimpenetrablecomposureofthatreplytookGracecompletelybysurprise。Shehadnoretortready。Insheerastonishmentshewaitedsilentlywithhereyesrivetedonthemistressofthehouse。
LadyJanetputdownherpapers,andsettledherselfcomfortablyintheeasy-chair,preparatorytoopeningtheinterviewonherside。
"ThelittlethatIhavetosaytoyou,"shebegan,"maybesaidinaquestion。AmIrightinsupposingthatyouhavenopresentemployment,andthatalittleadvanceinmoneydelicatelyofferedwouldbeveryacceptabletoyou?"
"Doyoumeantoinsultme,LadyJanet?"
"Certainlynot。Imeantoaskyouaquestion。"
"Yourquestionisaninsult。"
"Myquestionisakindness,ifyouwillonlyunderstanditasitisintended。Idon'tcomplainofyournotunderstandingit。Idon'tevenholdyouresponsibleforanyoneofthemanybreachesofgoodmannerswhichyouhavecommittedsinceyouhavebeeninthisroom。Iwashonestlyanxioustobeofsomeservicetoyou,andyouhaverepelledmyadvances。Iamsorry。Letusdropthesubject。"
Expressingherselfinthemostperfecttemperinthoseterms,LadyJanetresumedthearrangementofherpapers,andbecameunconsciousoncemoreofthepresenceofanysecondpersonintheroom。
Graceopenedherlipstoreplywiththeutmostintemperanceofanangrywoman,andthinkingbetterofit,controlledherself。ItwasplainlyuselesstotaketheviolentwaywithLadyJanetRoy。Herageandhersocialpositionwereenoughofthemselvestorepelanyviolence。Sheevidentlyknewthat,andtrustedtoit。Graceresolvedtomeettheenemyontheneutralgroundofpoliteness,asthemostpromisinggroundthatshecouldoccupyunderpresentcircumstances。
"IfIhavesaidanythinghasty,Ibegtoapologizetoyourladyship,"shebegan。"MayIaskifyouronlyobjectinsendingformewastoinquireintomypecuniaryaffairs,withaviewtoassistingme?"
"That,"saidLadyJanet,"wasmyonlyobject。"
"YouhadnothingtosaytomeonthesubjectofMercyMerrick?"
"Nothingwhatever。IamwearyofhearingofMercyMerrick。Haveyouanymorequestionstoaskme?"
"Ihaveonemore。"
"Yes?"
"IwishtoaskyourladyshipwhetheryouproposetorecognizemeinthepresenceofyourhouseholdasthelateColonelRoseberry'sdaughter?"
"Ihavealreadyrecognizedyouasaladyinembarrassedcircumstances,whohaspeculiarclaimsonmyconsiderationandforbearance。Ifyouwishmetorepeatthosewordsinthepresenceoftheservantsabsurdasitis,Iamreadytocomplywithyourrequest。"
Grace'stemperbegantogetthebetterofherprudentresolutions。
"LadyJanet!"shesaid;"thiswon'tdo。Imustrequestyoutoexpressyourselfplainly。Youtalkofmypeculiarclaimsonyourforbearance。Whatclaimsdoyoumean?"
"Itwillbepainfultobothofusifweenterintodetails,"repliedLadyJanet。"Praydon'tletusenterintodetails。"
"Iinsistonit,madam。"
"Praydon'tinsistonit。"
Gracewasdeaftoremonstrance。
"Iaskyouinplainwords,"shewenton,"doyouacknowledgethatyouhavebeendeceivedbyanadventuresswhohaspersonatedme?Doyoumeantorestoremetomyproperplaceinthishouse?"
LadyJanetreturnedtothearrangementofherpapers。
"Doesyourladyshiprefusetolistentome?"
LadyJanetlookedupfromherpapersasblandlyasever。
"Ifyoupersistinreturningtoyourdelusion,"shesaid,"youwillobligemetopersistinreturningtomypapers。"
"Whatismydelusion,ifyouplease?"
"Yourdelusionisexpressedinthequestionsyouhavejustputtome。Yourdelusionconstitutesyourpeculiarclaimonmyforbearance。Nothingyoucansayordowillshakemyforbearance。WhenIfirstfoundyouinthedining-room,Iactedmostimproperly;Ilostmytemper。Ididworse;Iwasfoolishenoughandimprudentenoughtosendforapoliceofficer。Ioweyoueverypossibleatonementafflictedasyouarefortreatingyouinthatcruelmanner。Iofferedyoutheuseofmyboudoir,aspartofmyatonement。Isentforyou,inthehopethatyouwouldallowmetoassistyou,aspartofmyatonement。Youmaybehaverudelytome,youmayspeakinthemostabusivetermsofmyadopteddaughter;Iwillsubmittoanything,aspartofmyatonement。Solongasyouabstainfromspeakingononepainfulsubject,Iwilllistentoyouwiththegreatestpleasure。WheneveryoureturntothatsubjectIshallreturntomypapers。"
GracelookedatLadyJanetwithanevilsmile。
"Ibegintounderstandyourladyship,"shesaid。"Youareashamedtoacknowledgethatyouhavebeengrosslyimposedupon。Youronlyalternative,ofcourse,istoignoreeverythingthathashappened。Praycountonmyforbearance。Iamnotatalloffended——Iammerelyamused。Itisnoteverydaythataladyofhighrankexhibitsherselfinsuchapositionasyourstoanobscurewomanlikeme。Yourhumaneconsiderationformedates,Ipresume,fromthetimewhenyouradopteddaughtersetyoutheexample,byorderingthepoliceofficeroutoftheroom?"
LadyJanet'scomposurewasproofevenagainstthisassaultonit。ShegravelyacceptedGrace'sinquiryasaquestionaddressedtoherinperfectgoodfaith。
"Iamnotatallsurprised,"shereplied,"tofindthatmyadopteddaughter'sinterferencehasexposedhertomisrepresentation。Sheoughttohaveremonstratedwithmeprivatelybeforesheinterfered。Butshehasonefault——sheistooimpulsive。Ihavenever,inallmyexperience,metwithsuchawarm-heartedpersonassheis。Alwaystooconsiderateofothers;alwaystooforgetfulofherself!Themereappearanceofthepoliceofficerplacedyouinasituationtoappealtohercompassion,andherimpulsescarriedherawayasusual。Myfault!Allmyfault!"
Gracechangedhertoneoncemore。ShewasquickenoughtodiscernthatLadyJanetwasamatchforherwithherownweapons。
"Wehavehadenoughofthis,"shesaid。"Itistimetobeserious。YouradopteddaughterasyoucallherisMercyMerrick,andyouknowit。"
LadyJanetreturnedtoherpapers。
"IamGraceRoseberry,whosenameshehasstolen,andyouknowthat。"
LadyJanetwentonwithherpapers。
Gracegotupfromherchair。
"Iacceptyoursilence,LadyJanet,"shesaid,"asanacknowledgmentofyourdeliberateresolutiontosuppressthetruth。Youareevidentlydeterminedtoreceivetheadventuressasthetruewoman;andyoudon'tscrupletofacetheconsequencesofthatproceeding,bypretendingtomyfacetobelievethatIammad。Iwillnotallowmyselftobeimpudentlycheatedoutofmyrightsinthisway。Youwillhearfrommeagainmadam,whentheCanadianmailarrivesinEngland。"
Shewalkedtowardthedoor。ThistimeLadyJanetanswered,asreadilyandasexplicitlyasitwaspossibletodesire。
"Ishallrefusetoreceiveyourletters,"shesaid。
Gracereturnedafewsteps,threateningly。
"Mylettersshallbefollowedbymywitnesses,"sheproceeded。
"Ishallrefusetoreceiveyourwitnesses。"
"Refuseatyourperil。Iwillappealtothelaw。"
LadyJanetsmiled。
"Idon'tpretendtomuchknowledgeofthesubject,"shesaid;"butIshouldbesurprisedindeedifIdiscoveredthatyouhadanyclaimonmewhichthelawcouldenforce。However,letussupposethatyoucansetthelawinaction。YouknowaswellasIdothattheonlymotivepowerwhichcandothatis——money。Iamrich;fees,costs,andalltherestofitaremattersofnosortofconsequencetome。MayIaskifyouareinthesameposition?"
ThequestionsilencedGrace。Sofarasmoneywasconcerned,shewasliterallyattheendofherresources。HeronlyfriendswerefriendsinCanada。Afterwhatshehadsaidtohimintheboudoir,itwouldbequiteuselesstoappealtothesympathiesofJulianGray。Inthepecuniarysense,andinoneword,shewasabsolutelyincapableofgratifyingherownvindictivelongings。AndtheresatthemistressofMablethorpeHouse,perfectlywellawareofit。
LadyJanetpointedtotheemptychair。
"Supposeyousitdownagain?"shesuggested。"ThecourseofourinterviewseemstohavebroughtusbacktothequestionthatIaskedyouwhenyoucameintomyroom。Insteadofthreateningmewiththelaw,supposeyouconsidertheproprietyofpermittingmetobeofsomeusetoyou。Iaminthehabitofassistingladiesinembarrassedcircumstances,andnobodyknowsofitbutmysteward——whokeepstheaccounts——andmyself。Oncemore,letmeinquireifalittleadvanceofthepecuniarysortdelicatelyofferedwouldbeacceptabletoyou?"
Gracereturnedslowlytothechairthatshehadleft。Shestoodbyit,withonehandgraspingthetoprail,andwithhereyesfixedinmockingscrutinyonLadyJanet'sface。
"Atlastyourladyshipshowsyourhand,"shesaid。"Hush-money!"
"Youwillsendmebacktomypapers,"rejoinedLadyJanet。"Howobstinateyouare!"
Grace'shandclosedtighterandtighterroundtherailofthechair。Withoutwitnesses,withoutmeans,withoutsomuchasarefuge——thankstoherowncoarsecrueltiesoflanguageandconduct——inthesympathiesofothers,thesenseofherisolationandherhelplessnesswasalmostmaddeningatthatfinalmoment。Awomanoffinersensibilitieswouldhaveinstantlylefttheroom。Grace'simpenetrablyhardandnarrowmindimpelledhertomeettheemergencyinaverydifferentway。Alastbasevengeance,towhichLadyJanethadvoluntarilyexposedherself,wasstillwithinherreach。"Forthepresent,"shethought,"thereisbutonewayofbeingevenwithyourladyship。Icancostyouasmuchaspossible。"
"Praymakesomeallowancesforme,"shesaid。"Iamnotobstinate——Iamonlyalittleawkwardatmatchingtheaudacityofaladyofhighrank。Ishallimprovewithpractice。Myownlanguageis,asIampainfullyaware,onlyplainEnglish。Permitmetowithdrawit,andtosubstituteyours。Whatadvanceisyourladyshipdelicatelypreparedtoofferme?"
LadyJanetopenedadrawer,andtookouthercheck-book。
Themomentofreliefhadcomeatlast!Theonlyquestionnowlefttodiscusswasevidentlythequestionofamount。LadyJanetconsideredalittle。Thequestionofamountwastohermindinsomesortaquestionofconscienceaswell。HerloveforMercyandherloathingforGrace,herhorrorofseeingherdarlingdegradedandheraffectionprofanedbyapublicexposure,hadhurriedher——therewasnodisputingit——intotreatinganinjuredwomanharshly。HatefulasGraceRoseberrymightbe,herfatherhadlefther,inhislastmoments,withLadyJanet'sfullconcurrence,toLadyJanet'scare。ButforMercyshewouldhavebeenreceivedatMablethorpeHouseasLadyJanet'scompanion,withasalaryofonehundredpoundsayear。Ontheotherhand,howlongwithsuchatemperasshehadrevealedwouldGracehaveremainedintheserviceofherprotectress?Shewouldprobablyhavebeendismissedinafewweeks,withayear'ssalarytocompensateher,andwitharecommendationtosomesuitableemployment。Whatwouldbeafaircompensationnow?LadyJanetdecidedthatfiveyears'salaryimmediatelygiven,andfutureassistancerenderedifnecessary,wouldrepresentafitremembranceofthelateColonelRoseberry'sclaims,andaliberalpecuniaryacknowledgmentofanyharshnessoftreatmentwhichGracemighthavesustainedatherhands。Atthesametime,andforthefurthersatisfyingofherownconscience,shedeterminedtodiscoverthesumwhichGraceherselfwouldconsidersufficientbythesimpleprocessofmakingGraceherselfproposetheterms。
"Itisimpossibleformetomakeyouanoffer,"shesaid,"forthisreason——yourneedofmoneywilldependgreatlyonyourfutureplans。Iamquiteignorantofyourfutureplans。"
"Perhapsyourladyshipwillkindlyadviseme?"saidGrace,satirically。
"Icannotaltogetherundertaketoadviseyou,"LadyJanetreplied。"IcanonlysupposethatyouwillscarcelyremaininEngland,whereyouhavenofriends。Whetheryougotolawwithmeornot,youwillsurelyfeelthenecessityofcommunicatingpersonallywithyourfriendsinCanada。AmIright?"
Gracewasquitequickenoughtounderstandthisasitwasmeant。Properlyinterpreted,theanswersignified——"Ifyoutakeyourcompensationinmoney,itisunderstood,aspartofthebargainthatyoudon'tremaininEnglandtoannoyme。"
"Yourladyshipisquiteright,"shesaid。"IshallcertainlynotremaininEngland。Ishallconsultmyfriends——and,"sheadded,mentally,"gotolawwithyouafterward,ifIpossiblycan,withyourownmoney!"
"YouwillreturntoCanada,"LadyJanetproceeded;"andyourprospectstherewillbe,probably,alittleuncertainatfirst。Takingthisintoconsideration,atwhatamountdoyouestimate,inyourownmind,thepecuniaryassistancewhichyouwillrequire?"
"MayIcountonyourladyship's,kindnesstocorrectmeifmyownignorantcalculationsturnouttobewrong?"Graceasked,innocently。
Hereagainthewords,properlyinterpreted,hadaspecialsignificationoftheirown:"Itisstipulated,onmypart,thatIputmyselfuptoauction,andthatmyestimateshallberegulatedbyyourladyship'shighestbid。"Thoroughlyunderstandingthestipulation,LadyJanetbowed,andwaitedgravely。
Gravely,onherside,Gracebegan。
"IamafraidIshouldwantmorethanahundredpounds,"shesaid。
LadyJanetmadeherfirstbid。"Ithinksotoo。"
"More,perhaps,thantwohundred?"
LadyJanetmadehersecondbid。"Probably。"
"Morethanthreehundred?Fourhundred?Fivehundred?"
LadyJanetmadeherhighestbid。"Fivehundredpoundswilldo,"shesaid。
Inspiteofherself,Grace'srisingcolorbetrayedherungovernableexcitement。Fromherearliestchildhoodshehadbeenaccustomedtoseeshillingsandsixpencescarefullyconsideredbeforetheywerepartedwith。Shehadneverknownherfathertopossesssomuchasfivegoldensovereignsathisowndisposalunencumberedbydebtinallherexperienceofhim。Theatmosphereinwhichshehadlivedandbreathedwastheall-stiflingoneofgenteelpoverty。TherewassomethinghorribleinthegreedyeagernessofhereyesastheywatchedLadyJanet,toseeifshewasreallysufficientlyinearnesttogiveawayfivehundredpoundssterlingwithastrokeofherpen。
LadyJanetwrotethecheckinafewseconds,andpusheditacrossthetable。
Grace'shungryeyesdevouredthegoldenline,"Paytomyselforbearerfivehundredpounds,"andverifiedthesignaturebeneath,"JanetRoy。"Oncesureofthemoneywhenevershechosetotakeit,thenativemeannessofhernatureinstantlyasserteditself。Shetossedherhead,andletthechecklieonthetable,withanoveractedappearanceofcaringverylittlewhethershetookitornot。
"YourladyshipisnottosupposethatIsnapatyourcheck,"shesaid。
LadyJanetleanedbackinherchairandclosedhereyes。TheverysightofGraceRoseberrysickenedher。HermindfilledsuddenlywiththeimageofMercy。Shelongedtofeasthereyesagainonthatgrandbeauty,tofillherearsagainwiththemelodyofthatgentlevoice。
"Irequiretimetoconsider——injusticetomyownself-respect,"Gracewenton。
LadyJanetwearilymadeasign,grantingtimetoconsider。
"Yourladyship'sboudoiris,Ipresume,stillatmydisposal?"
LadyJanetsilentlygrantedtheboudoir。
"Andyourladyship'sservantsareatmyorders,ifIhaveoccasiontoemploythem?"
LadyJanetsuddenlyopenedhereyes。"Thewholehouseholdisatyourorders,"shecried,furiously。"Leaveme!"
Gracewasfarfrombeingoffended。Ifanything,shewasgratified——therewasacertaintriumphinhavingstungLadyJanetintoanopenoutbreakoftemper。Sheinsistedforthwithonanothercondition。
"Intheeventofmydecidingtoreceivethecheck,"shesaid,"Icannot,consistentlywithmyownself-respect,permitittobedeliveredtomeotherwisethaninclosed。Yourladyshipwillifnecessarybesokindastoincloseit。Good-evening。"
Shesaunteredtothedoor,lookingfromsidetoside,withanairofsupremedisparagement,atthepricelesstreasuresofartwhichadornedthewalls。HereyesdroppedsuperciliouslyonthecarpetthedesignofafamousFrenchpainter,asifherfeetcondescendedinwalkingoverit。Theaudacitywithwhichshehadenteredtheroomhadbeenmarkedenough;itshranktonothingbeforetheinfinitelysuperiorproportionsoftheinsolencewithwhichsheleftit。
TheinstantthedoorwasclosedLadyJanetrosefromherchair。Recklessofthewintrychillintheouterair,shethrewopenoneofthewindows。"Pah!"sheexclaimed,withashudderofdisgust,"theveryairoftheroomistaintedbyher!"
Shereturnedtoherchair。Hermoodchangedasshesatdownagain——herheartwaswithMercyoncemore。"Oh,mylove!"shemurmured"howlowIhavestooped,howmiserablyIhavedegradedmyself——andallforYou!"Thebitternessoftheretrospectwasunendurable。Theinbredforceofthewoman'snaturetookrefugefromitinanoutburstofdefianceanddespair。"Whatevershehasdone,thatwretchdeservesit!Notalivingcreatureinthishouseshallsayshehasdeceivedme。Shehasnotdeceivedme——shelovesme!WhatdoIcarewhethershehasgivenmehertruenameornot!Shehasgivenmehertrueheart。WhatrighthadJuliantoplayuponherfeelingsandpryintohersecrets?Mypoor,tempted,torturedchild!Iwon'thearherconfession。Notanotherwordshallshesaytoanylivingcreature。Iammistress——Iwillforbiditatonce!"Shesnatchedasheetofnotepaperfromthecase;hesitated,andthrewitfromheronthetable。"Whynotsendformydarling?"shethought。"Whywrite?"Shehesitatedoncemore,andresignedtheidea。"No!Ican'ttrustmyself!Idaren'tseeheryet!"
Shetookupthesheetofpaperagain,andwrotehersecondmessagetoMercy。Thistimethenotebeganfondlywithafamiliarformofaddress。
"MYDEARCHILD——Ihavehadtimetothinkandcomposemyselfalittle,sinceIlastwrote,requestingyoutodefertheexplanationwhichyouhadpromisedme。Ialreadyunderstandandappreciatethemotiveswhichledyoutointerfereasyoudiddownstairs,andInowaskyoutoentirelyabandontheexplanation。Itwill,Iamsure,bepainfultoyouforreasonsofyourownintowhichIhavenowishtoinquiretoproducethepersonofwhomyouspoke,andasyouknowalready,Imyselfamwearyofhearingofher。Besides,thereisreallynoneednowforyoutoexplainanything。Thestrangerwhosevisitsherehavecausedussomuchpainandanxietywilltroubleusnomore。SheleavesEnglandofherownfreewill,afteraconversationwithmewhichhasperfectlysucceededincomposingandsatisfyingher。Notawordmore,mydear,tome,ortomynephew,ortoanyotherhumancreature,ofwhathashappenedinthedining-roomto-day。Whenwenextmeet,letitbeunderstoodbetweenusthatthepastishenceforthandforeverburiedtooblivion。Thisisnotonlytheearnestrequest——itis,ifnecessary,thepositivecommand,ofyourmotherandfriend,JANETROY。
"P。S——IshallfindopportunitiesbeforeyouleaveyourroomofspeakingseparatelytomynephewandtoHoraceHolmcroft。Youneeddreadnoembarrassment,whenyounextmeetthem。Iwillnotaskyoutoanswermynoteinwriting。Sayyestothemaidwhowillbringittoyou,andIshallknowweunderstandeachother。"
Aftersealingtheenvelopewhichinclosedtheselines,LadyJanetaddressedit,asusual,to"MissGraceRoseberry。"Shewasjustrisingtoringthebell,whenthemaidappearedwithamessagefromtheboudoir。Thewoman'stonesandlooksshowedplainlythatshehadbeenmadetheobjectofGrace'sinsolentself-assertionaswellashermistress。
"Ifyouplease,mylady,thepersondownstairswishes——"
LadyJanet,frowningcontemptuously,interruptedthemessageattheoutset。"Iknowwhatthepersondownstairswishes。Shehassentyouforaletterfromme?"
"Yes,mylady。"
"Anythingmore?"
"Shehassentoneofthemen-servants,mylady,foracab。Ifyourladyshiphadonlyheardhowshespoketohim!"
LadyJanetintimatedbyasignthatshewouldrathernothear。Sheatonceinclosedthecheckinanundirectedenvelope。
"Takethattoher,"shesaid,"andthencomebacktome。"
DismissingGraceRoseberryfromallfurtherconsideration,LadyJanetsat,withherlettertoMercyinherhand,reflectingonherposition,andontheeffortswhichitmightstilldemandfromher。Pursuingthistrainofthought,itnowoccurredtoherthataccidentmightbringHoraceandMercytogetheratanymoment,andthat,inHorace'spresentframeofmind,hewouldcertainlyinsistontheveryexplanationwhichitwastheforemostinterestofherlifetosuppress。Thedreadofthisdisasterwasinfullpossessionofherwhenthemaidreturned。
"WhereisMr。Holmcroft?"sheasked,themomentthewomanenteredtheroom。
"Isawhimopenthelibrarydoor,mylady,justnow,onmywayupstairs。"
"Washealone?"
"Yes,mylady。"
"Gotohim,andsayIwanttoseehimhereimmediately。"
Themaidwithdrewonherseconderrand。LadyJanetroserestlessly,andclosedtheopenwindow。HerimpatientdesiretomakesureofHoracesocompletelymasteredherthatsheleftherroom,andmetthewomaninthecorridoronherreturn。ReceivingHorace'smessageofexcuse,sheinstantlysentbacktheperemptoryrejoinder,"Saythathewillobligemetogotohim,ifbepersistsinrefusingtocometome。And,stay!"sheadded,rememberingtheundeliveredletter。"SendMissRoseberry'smaidhere;Iwanther。"
Leftaloneagain,LadyJanetpacedonceortwiceupanddownthecorridor——thengrewsuddenlywearyofthesightofit,andwentbacktoherroom。Thetwomaidsreturnedtogether。Oneofthem,havingannouncedHorace'ssubmission,wasdismissed。TheotherwassenttoMercy'sroomwithLadyJanet'sletter。Inaminuteortwothemessengerappearedagain,withthenewsthatshehadfoundtheroomempty。
"HaveyouanyideawhereMissRoseberryis?"
"No,mylady。"
LadyJanetreflectedforamoment。IfHoracepresentedhimselfwithoutanyneedlessdelay,theplaininferencewouldhethatshehadsucceededinseparatinghimfromMercy。Ifhisappearancewassuspiciouslydeferred,shedecidedonpersonallysearchingforMercyinthereceptionroomsonthelowerfloorofthehouse。
"Whathaveyoudonewiththeletter?"sheasked。
"IleftitonMissRoseberry'stable,mylady。"
"Verywell。Keepwithinhearingofthebell,incaseIwantyouagain。"
AnotherminutebroughtLadyJanet'ssuspensetoanend。Sheheardthewelcomesoundofaknockatherdoorfromaman'shand。Horacehurriedlyenteredtheroom。
"Whatisityouwantwithme,LadyJanet?"heinquired,notverygraciously。
"Sitdown,Horace,andyoushallhear。"
Horacedidnotaccepttheinvitation。"Excuseme,"hesaid,"ifImentionthatIamratherinahurry。"
"Whyareyouinahurry?"
"IhavereasonsforwishingtoseeGraceassoonaspossible。"
"AndIhavereasons,"LadyJanetrejoined,"forwishingtospeaktoyouaboutGracebeforeyouseeher;seriousreasons。Sitdown。"
Horacestarted。"Seriousreasons?"herepeated。"Yousurpriseme。"
"IshallsurpriseyoustillmorebeforeIhavedone"
TheireyesmetasLadyJanetansweredinthoseterms。Horaceobservedsignsofagitationinher,whichhenownoticedforthefirsttime。Hisfacedarkenedwithanexpressionofsullendistrust——andhetookthechairinsilence。
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[TableofContents]TheNewMagdalen,Chapter24CHAPTERXXIV。
LADYJANET'SLETTER。
THEnarrativeleavesLadyJanetandHoraceHolmcrofttogether,andreturnstoJulianandMercyinthelibrary。
Anintervalpassed——alonginterval,measuredbytheimpatientreckoningofsuspense——afterthecabwhichhadtakenGraceRoseberryawayhadleftthehouse。Theminutesfollowedeachother;andstillthewarningsoundofHorace'sfootstepswasnotheardonthemarblepavementofthehall。Bycommonthoughunexpressedconsent,JulianandMercyavoidedtouchingupontheonesubjectonwhichtheywerenowbothinterestedalike。WiththeirthoughtsfixedsecretlyinvainspeculationonthenatureoftheinterviewwhichwasthentakingplaceinLadyJanet'sroom,theytriedtospeakontopicsindifferenttobothofthem——tried,andfailed,andtriedagain。Inalastandlongestpauseofsilencebetweenthem,thenexteventhappened。Thedoorfromthehallwassoftlyandsuddenlyopened。
WasitHorace?No——notevenyet。ThepersonwhohadopenedthedoorwasonlyMercy'smaid。
"Mylady'slove,miss;andwillyoupleasetoreadthisdirectly?"
Givinghermessageinthoseterms,thewomanproducedfromthepocketofherapronLadyJanet'ssecondlettertoMercy,withastripofpaperoddlypinnedroundtheenvelope。Mercydetachedthepaper,andfoundontheinnersidesomelinesinpencil,hurriedlywritteninLadyJanet'shand。Theyranthus。
"Don'tloseamomentinreadingmyletter。Andmindthis,whenH。returnstoyou——meethimfirmly:saynothing。"
EnlightenedbythewarningwordswhichJulianhadspokentoher,Mercywasatnolosstoplacetherightinterpretationonthosestrangelines。Insteadofimmediatelyopeningtheletter,shestoppedthemaidatthelibrarydoor。Julian'ssuspicionofthemosttriflingeventsthatweretakingplaceinthehousehadfounditswayfromhismindtohers。"Wait!"shesaid。"Idon'tunderstandwhatisgoingonupstairs;Iwanttoaskyousomething。"
Thewomancameback——notverywillingly。
"HowdidyouknowIwashere?"Mercyinquired。
"Ifyouplease,miss,herladyshiporderedmetotakethelettertoyousomelittletimesince。Youwerenotinyourroom,andIleftitonyourtable。"
"Iunderstandthat。Buthowcameyoutobringtheletterhere?"
"Myladyrangforme,miss。BeforeIcouldknockatherdoorshecameoutintothecorridorwiththatmorselofpaperinherhand——"
"Soastokeepyoufromenteringherroom?"
"Yes,miss。Herladyshipwroteonthepaperinagreathurry,andtoldmetopinitroundtheletterthatIhadleftinyourroom。Iwastotakethembothtogethertoyou,andtoletnobodyseeme。'YouwillfindMissRoseberryinthelibrary'herladyshipsays,'andrun,run,run!thereisn'tamomenttolose!'Thosewereherownwords,miss。"
"DidyouhearanythingintheroombeforeLadyJanetcameoutandmetyou?"
Thewomanhesitated,andlookedatJulian。
"IhardlyknowwhetherIoughttotellyou,miss。"
Julianturnedawaytoleavethelibrary。Mercystoppedhimbyamotionofherhand。
"YouknowthatIshallnotgetyouintoanytrouble,"shesaidtothemaid。"AndyoumayspeakquitesafelybeforeMr。JulianGray。"
Thusre-assured,themaidspoke。
"Toownthetruth,miss,IheardMr。Holmcroftinmylady'sroom。Hisvoicesoundedasifhewasangry。Imaysaytheywerebothangry——Mr。Holmcroftandmylady。"SheturnedtoJulian。"Andjustbeforeherladyshipcameout,sir,Iheardyourname,asifitwasyoutheywerehavingwordsabout。Ican'tsayexactlywhatitwas;Ihadn'ttimetohear。AndIdidn'tlisten,miss;thedoorwasajar;andthevoicesweresoloudnobodycouldhelphearingthem。"
Itwasuselesstodetainthewomananylonger。Havinggivenherleavetowithdraw,MercyturnedtoJulian。
"Whyweretheyquarrelingaboutyou?"sheasked。
Julianpointedtotheunopenedletterinherhand。
"Theanswertoyourquestionmaybethere,"hesaid。"Readtheletterwhileyouhavethechance。AndifIcanadviseyou,saysoatonce。"
Withastrangereluctancesheopenedtheenvelope。WithasinkingheartshereadthelinesinwhichLadyJanet,as"motherandfriend,"commandedherabsolutelytosuppresstheconfessionwhichshehadpledgedherselftomakeinthesacredinterestsofjusticeandtruth。Alowcryofdespairescapedher,asthecruelcomplicationinherpositionrevealeditselfinallitsunmeritedhardship。"Oh,LadyJanet,LadyJanet!"shethought,"therewasbutonetrialmoreleftinmyhardlot——anditcomestomefromyou!"
ShehandedthelettertoJulian。Hetookitfromherinsilence。Hispalecomplexionturnedpalerstillashereadit。Hiseyesrestedonhercompassionatelyashehandeditback。
"Tomymind,"hesaid,"LadyJanetherselfsetsallfurtherdoubtatrest。HerlettertellsmewhatshewantedwhenshesentforHorace,andwhymynamewasmentionedbetweenthem。"
"Tellme!"criedMercy,eagerly。
Hedidnotimmediatelyanswerher。Hesatdownagaininthechairbyherside,andpointedtotheletter。
"HasLadyJanetshakenyourresolution?"heasked。
"Shehasstrengthenedmyresolution,"Mercyanswered。"Shehasaddedanewbitternesstomyremorse。"
Shedidnotmeanitharshly,butthereplysoundedharshlyinJulian'sears。Itstirredthegenerousimpulses,whichwerethestrongestimpulsesinhisnature。HewhohadoncepleadedwithMercyforcompassionateconsiderationforherselfnowpleadedwithherforcompassionateconsiderationforLadyJanet。Withpersuasivegentlenesshedrewalittlenearer,andlaidhishandonherarm。
"Don'tjudgeherharshly,"hesaid。"Sheiswrong,miserablywrong。Shehasrecklesslydegradedherself;shehasrecklesslytemptedyou。Still,isitgenerous——isitevenjust——toholdherresponsiblefordeliberatesin?Sheisatthecloseofherdays;shecanfeelnonewaffection;shecanneverreplaceyou。Viewherpositioninthatlight,andyouwillseeasIseethatitisnobasemotivewhichhasledherastray。Thinkofherwoundedheartandherwastedlife——andsaytoyourselfforgivingly,Shelovesme!"
Mercy'seyesfilledwithtears。
"Idosayit!"sheanswered。"Notforgivingly——itisIwhohaveneedofforgiveness。IsayitgratefullywhenIthinkofher——IsayitwithshameandsorrowwhenIthinkofmyself。"
Hetookherhandforthefirsttime。Helooked,guiltlesslylooked,atherdowncastface。Hespokeashehadspokenatthememorableinterviewbetweenthemwhichhadmadeanewwomanofher。
"Icanimaginenocruelertrial,"hesaid,"thanthetrialthatisnowbeforeyou。Thebenefactresstowhomyouoweeverythingasksnothingfromyoubutyoursilence。Thepersonwhomyouhavewrongedisnolongerpresenttostimulateyourresolutiontospeak。HoracehimselfunlessIamentirelymistakenwillnotholdyoutotheexplanationthatyouhavepromised。Thetemptationtokeepyourfalsepositioninthishouseis,Idonotscrupletosay,allbutirresistible。Sisterandfriend!canyoustilljustifymyfaithinyou?Willyoustillownthetruth,withoutthebasefearofdiscoverytodriveyoutoit?"
Sheliftedherhead,withthesteadylightofresolutionshiningagaininhergrand,grayeyes。Herlow,sweetvoiceansweredhim,withoutafalteringnoteinit,"Iwill!"
"Youwilldojusticetothewomanwhomyouhavewronged——unworthyassheis;powerlessassheistoexposeyou?"
"Iwill!"
"Youwillsacrificeeverythingyouhavegainedbythefraudtothesacreddutyofatonement?Youwillsufferanything——eventhoughyouoffendthesecondmotherwhohaslovedyouandsinnedforyou——ratherthansufferthedegradationofyourself?"
Herhandclosedfirmlyonhis。Again,andforthelasttime,sheanswered,"Iwill!"
Hisvoicehadnottrembledyet。Itfailedhimnow。Hisnextwordswerespokeninfaintwhisperingtones——tohimself;nottoher。
"ThankGodforthisday!"hesaid。"IhavebeenofsomeservicetooneofthenoblestofGod'screatures!"
Somesubtleinfluence,ashespoke,passedfromhishandtohers。Ittrembledthroughhernerves;itentwineditselfmysteriouslywiththefinestsensibilitiesinhernature;itsoftlyopenedherhearttoafirstvaguesurmisingofthedevotionthatshehadinspiredinhim。Afaintglowofcolor,lovelyinitsfaintness,stoleoverherfaceandneck。Herbreathingquickenedtremblingly。Shedrewherhandawayfromhim,andsighedwhenshehadreleasedit。
Herosesuddenlytohisfeetandlefther,withoutawordoralook,walkingslowlydownthelengthoftheroom。Whenheturnedandcamebacktoher,hisfacewascomposed;hewasmasterofhimselfagain。
Mercywasthefirsttospeak。SheturnedtheconversationfromherselfbyrevertingtotheproceedingsinLadyJanet'sroom。
"YouspokeofHoracejustnow,"shesaid,"intermswhichsurprisedme。Youappearedtothinkthathewouldnotholdmetomyexplanation。IsthatoneoftheconclusionswhichyoudrawfromLadyJanet'sletter?"
"Mostassuredly,"Juliananswered。"YouwillseetheconclusionasIseeitifwereturnforamomenttoGraceRoseberry'sdeparturefromthehouse。"
Mercyinterruptedhimthere。"Canyouguess,"sheasked,"howLadyJanetprevaileduponhertogo?"
"Ihardlyliketoownit,"saidJulian。"ThereisanexpressionintheletterwhichsuggeststomethatLadyJanethasofferedhermoney,andthatshehastakenthebribe。"
"Oh,Ican'tthinkthat!"
"LetusreturntoHorace。MissRoseberryonceoutofthehouse,butoneseriousobstacleisleftinLadyJanet'sway。ThatobstacleisHoraceHolmcroft。"
"HowisHoraceanobstacle?"
"Heisanobstacleinthissense。Heisunderanengagementtomarryyouinaweek'stime;andLadyJanetisdeterminedtokeephimassheisdeterminedtokeepeveryoneelseinignoranceofthetruth。Shewilldothatwithoutscruple。Buttheinbredsenseofhonorinherisnotutterlysilencedyet。Shecannot,shedarenot,letHoracemakeyouhiswifeunderthefalseimpressionthatyouareColonelRoseberry'sdaughter。Youseethesituation?Ontheonehand,shewon'tenlightenhim。Ontheotherhand,shecannotallowhimtomarryyoublindfold。Inthisemergencywhatisshetodo?ThereisbutonealternativethatIcandiscover。ShemustpersuadeHoraceorshemustirritateHoraceintoactingforhimself,andbreakingofftheengagementonhisownresponsibility。"
Mercystoppedhim。"Impossible!"shecried,warmly。"Impossible!"
"Lookagainatherletter,"Julianrejoined。"Ittells,youplainlythatyouneedfearnoembarrassmentwhenyounextmeetHorace。Ifwordsmeananything,thosewordsmeanthathewillnotclaimfromyoutheconfidencewhichyouhavepromisedtoreposeinhim。Onwhatconditionisitpossibleforhimtoabstainfromdoingthat?Ontheoneconditionthatyouhaveceasedtorepresentthefirstandforemostinterestofhislife。"
Mercystillheldfirm。"YouarewrongingLadyJanet,"shesaid。
Juliansmiledsadly。
"Trytolookatit,"heanswered,"fromLadyJanet'spointofview。Doyousupposesheseesanythingderogatorytoherinattemptingtobreakoffthemarriage?Iwillanswerforit,shebelievessheisdoingyouakindness。Inonesenseitwouldbeakindnesstospareyoutheshameofahumiliatingconfession,andtosaveyoupossiblyfrombeingrejectedtoyourfacebythemanyoulove。Inmyopinion,thethingisdonealready。Ihavereasonsofmyownforbelievingthatmyauntwillsucceedfarmoreeasilythanshecouldanticipate。Horace'stemperwillhelpher。"
Mercy'smindbegantoyieldtohim,inspiteofherself。
"WhatdoyoumeanbyHorace'stemper?"sheinquired。
"Mustyouaskmethat?"hesaid,drawingbackalittlefromher。
"Imust。"
"ImeanbyHorace'stemper,Horace'sunworthydistrustoftheinterestthatIfeelinyou。"
Sheinstantlyunderstoodhim。Andmorethanthat,shesecretlyadmiredhimforthescrupulousdelicacywithwhichhehadexpressedhimself。Anothermanwouldnothavethoughtofsparingherinthatway。Anothermanwouldhavesaid,plainly,"Horaceisjealousofme。"
Juliandidnotwaitforhertoanswerhim。Heconsideratelywenton。
"ForthereasonthatIhavejustmentioned,"hesaid,"Horacewillbeeasilyirritatedintotakingacoursewhich,inhiscalmermoments,nothingwouldinducehimtoadopt。UntilIheardwhatyourmaidsaidtoyouIhadthoughtforyoursakeofretiringbeforehejoinedyouhere。NowIknowthatmynamehasbeenintroduced,andhasmademischiefupstairs,IfeelthenecessityforyoursakeagainofmeetingHoraceandhistemperfacetofacebeforeyouseehim。Letme,ifIcan,preparehimtohearyouwithoutanyangryfeelinginhismindtowardyou。Doyouobjecttoretiretothenextroomforafewminutesintheeventofhiscomingbacktothelibrary?"
Mercy'scourageinstantlyrosewiththeemergency。Sherefusedtoleavethetwomentogether。
"Don'tthinkmeinsensibletoyourkindness,"shesaid。"IfIleaveyouwithHoraceImayexposeyoutoinsult。Irefusetodothat。Whatmakesyoudoubthiscomingback?"
"Hisprolongedabsencemakesmedoubtit,"Julianreplied。"Inmybelief,themarriageisbrokenoff。HemaygoasGraceRoseberryhasgone。Youmayneverseehimagain。"
Theinstanttheopinionwasuttered,itwaspracticallycontradictedbythemanhimself。Horaceopenedthelibrarydoor。
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[TableofContents]TheNewMagdalen,Chapter25CHAPTERXXV。
THECONFESSION
HEstoppedjustinsidethedoor。HisfirstlookwasforMercy;hisissecondlookwasforJulian。
"Iknewit!"hesaid,withanassumptionofsardoniccomposure。"IfIcouldonlyhavepersuadedLadyJanettobet,Ishouldhavewonahundredpounds。"HeadvancedtoJulian,withasuddenchangefromironytoanger。"Wouldyouliketohearwhatthebetwas?"heasked。
"Ishouldpreferseeingyouabletocontrolyourselfinthepresenceofthislady,"Juliananswered,quietly。
"IofferedtolayLadyJanettwohundredpoundstoone,"Horaceproceeded,"thatIshouldfindyouhere,makinglovetoMissRoseberrybehindmyback。"
MercyinterferedbeforeJuliancouldreply。
"Ifyoucannotspeakwithoutinsultingoneofus,"shesaid,"permitmetorequestthatyouwillnotaddressyourselftoMr。JulianGray。"
Horacebowedtoherwithamockeryofrespect。
"Praydon'talarmyourself——Iampledgedtobescrupulouslyciviltobothofyou,"hesaid。"LadyJanetonlyallowedmetoleaveheronconditionofmypromisingtobehavewithperfectpoliteness。WhatelsecanIdo?Ihavetwoprivilegedpeopletodealwith——aparsonandawoman。Theparson'sprofessionprotectshim,andthewoman'ssexprotectsher。Youhavegotmeatadisadvantage,andyoubothofyouknowit。IbegtoapologizeifIhaveforgottentheclergyman'sprofessionandthelady'ssex。"
"Youhaveforgottenmorethanthat,"saidJulian。"Youhaveforgottenthatyouwerebornagentlemanandbredamanofhonor。SofarasIamconcerned,Idon'taskyoutorememberthatIamaclergyman——Iobtrudemyprofessiononnobody——Ionlyaskyoutorememberyourbirthandyourbreeding。Itisquitebadenoughtocruellyandunjustlysuspectanoldfriendwhohasneverforgottenwhatheowestoyouandtohimself。Butitisstillmoreunworthyofyoutoacknowledgethosesuspicionsinthehearingofawomanwhomyourownchoicehasdoublyboundyoutorespect。"
Hestopped。Thetwoeyedeachotherforamomentinsilence。
ItwasimpossibleforMercytolookatthem,asshewaslookingnow,withoutdrawingtheinevitablecomparisonbetweenthemanlyforceanddignityofJulianandthewomanishmaliceandirritabilityofHorace。Alastfaithfulimpulseofloyaltytowardthemantowhomshehadbeenbetrothedimpelledhertopartthem,beforeHoracehadhopelesslydegradedhimselfinherestimationbycontrastwithJulian。
"Youhadbetterwaittospeaktome,"shesaidtohim,"untilwearealone。"
"Certainly,"Horaceansweredwithasneer,"ifMr。JulianGraywillpermitit。"
MercyturnedtoJulian,withalookwhichsaidplainly,"Pityusboth,andleaveus!"
"Doyouwishmetogo?"heasked。
"Addtoallyourotherkindnessestome,"sheanswered。"Waitformeinthatroom。"
Shepointedtothedoorthatledintothedining-room。Julianhesitated。
"YoupromisetoletmeknowitifIcanbeofthesmallestservicetoyou?"hesaid。
"Yes,yes!"Shefollowedhimashewithdrew,andadded,rapidly,inawhisper,"Leavethedoorajar!"
Hemadenoanswer。AsshereturnedtoHoraceheenteredthedining-room。Theoneconcessionhecouldmaketoherhedidmake。Heclosedthedoorsonoiselesslythatnotevenherquickhearingcoulddetectthathehadshutit。
MercyspoketoHorace,withoutwaitingtolethimspeakfirst。
"Ihavepromisedyouanexplanationofmyconduct,"shesaid,inaccentsthattrembledalittleinspiteofherself。"Iamreadytoperformmypromise。"
"Ihaveaquestiontoaskyoubeforeyoudothat,"herejoined。"Canyouspeakthetruth?"
"Iamwaitingtospeakthetruth。"
"Iwillgiveyouanopportunity。AreyouorareyounotinlovewithJulianGray?"
"Yououghttobeashamedtoaskthequestion!"
"Isthatyouronlyanswer?"
"Ihaveneverbeenunfaithfultoyou,Horace,eveninthought。IfIhadnotbeentruetoyou,shouldIfeelmypositionasyouseeIfeelitnow?"
Hesmiledbitterly。"Ihavemyownopinionofyourfidelityandofhishonor,"hesaid。"Youcouldn'tevensendhimintothenextroomwithoutwhisperingtohimfirst。Nevermindthatnow。AtleastyouknowthatJulianGrayisinlovewithyou。"
"Mr。JulianGrayhasneverbreathedawordofittome。"
"Amancanshowawomanthathelovesher,withoutsayingitinwords。"
Mercy'spowerofendurancebegantofailher。NotevenGraceRoseberryhadspokenmoreinsultinglytoherofJulianthanHoracewasspeakingnow。"WhoeversaysthatofMr。JulianGray,lies!"sheanswered,warmly。
"ThenLadyJanetlies,"Horaceretorted。
"LadyJanetneversaidit!LadyJanetisincapableofsayingit!"
"Shemaynothavesaiditinsomanywords;butsheneverdenieditwhenIsaidit。IremindedherofthetimewhenJulianGrayfirstheardfrommethatIwasgoingtomarryyou:hewassooverwhelmedthathewasbarelycapableofbeingciviltome。LadyJanetwaspresent,andcouldnotdenyit。Iaskedherifshehadobserved,sincethen,signsofaconfidentialunderstandingbetweenyoutwo。Shecouldnotdenythesigns。Iaskedifshehadeverfoundyoutwotogether。Shecouldnotdenythatshehadfoundyoutogether,thisveryday,undercircumstanceswhichjustifiedsuspicion。Yes!yes!Lookasangryasyoulike!youdon'tknowwhathasbeengoingonupstairs。LadyJanetisbentonbreakingoffourengagement——andJulianGrayisatthebottomofit。"
AstoJulian,Horacewasutterlywrong。ButastoLadyJanet,heechoedthewarningwordswhichJulianhimselfhadspokentoMercy。Shewasstaggered,butshestillheldtoherownopinion。"Idon'tbelieveit,"shesaid,firmly。